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My annual N7 Day illustrations for the new Mass Effect game so far. Got them as wallpapers right here!
#twitter made me fit these to phone screens so may as well share it here too#last two work especially well!#mass effect#n7 day#my art#legionofpotatoes
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also I think itās time for a little Elly Lore Update because I feel like I mention so many people on here and yāall need to understand who Iām taking about when you attend the virtual sleepovers š
#SO. other main characters in this story:#ā¦ļø my bestie (a.k.a. Best Friend Number One) ā Iāve known her for basically ever and NO ONE annoys me like her but also weāre#too close and too important in each otherās lives to ever break up (Alexa play āStuck With Youā by Huey Lewis)#ā¦ļø bestie number two ā my Secret Keeper and probable future maid of honor. the only one of us with a boyfriend#ā¦ļø my (honorary) little sister (a.k.a. the 13-year-old) ā a girl wise beyond her years but also. yk. thirteen. I always have a blast with h#ā¦ļø my mom and dad ā self explanatory#supporting cast members:#ā¦ļø bestie number twoās older sister ā a dear friend of mine as well who is engaged to be married but is doing so in Colombia#meaning I canāt go and Iāve been inconsolable about it for weeks#ā¦ļø bestie number twoās boyfriend ā literally one of the chillest guys I know. heās also the younger brother of her big sisterās fiancĆ©#ā¦ļø twinkling watermelon bestie: my other Secret Keeper and my kdrama buddy. we especially bonded over TWM#ā¦ļø Coworker Elizabeth ā the lady I work with who I used to think disliked me but now always feeds me when Iām there :)))#mmmm I think thatās it for recurring characters. then thereās the Love Interests:#ā¦ļø The Ex Crush (a.k.a. donut boy) ā my first crush who I didnāt see for years after first meeting him and then met again last year#and had dinner with his family but he didnāt really talk to me and then I saw him again earlier this week and he ignored me completely#ā¦ļø Big Dramatic Crush ā my last Big crush who I liked for two years and suffered over tremendously. heās not really important anymore#but I do use him as a reference point often enough. thereās Before Him and thereās After Him#ā¦ļø Three-Day Crush ā what it says on the tin. a guy I liked for three days just a bit after moving on from Big Crush#and then it ended horrifically and gave me a deep fear of ever developing another crush EVER#ā¦ļø flan boy ā the boy who thawed my heart over a year after the saga of Three-Day Crush by showing kindness and a smidge of interest#but then apparently didnāt have That kind of interest in me so I decided to move on#and lucky I did because now my bestie (who knew him first and used to ship me with him) has fallen for him herself#and yep! thatās the main cast here on whenthegoldrays.com#hope you enjoyed this lore update that no one asked for š©·#elly's posts
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The passage of time was sooo normal and kind to me this year guys qwq
#happy 2025#art summary#artists on tumblr#two of these are commisions and two are from artfight#I could not manage drawing alongside work and everything else that went awry this year qwq#yeah I made the scylla part three months ago and only manage to post anything about it now I#am so bad at this#I usually don't do new years resolutions but for this one I genuinely want to get better at promoting myself#especially since I'm out of work again#laid off like a true animator/gamer....#oh and that october mizi one is just an unfinished sketch I guess january akane having a bad time is also unfinished#never could manage to get it anywhere despite wanting to on account of the hair coming out reeeeally nice#I'm extremely proud of all my bigger pieces this year though#june and july ones hehe juri june and july#I never answered anyone on artfight and I feel so bad about it :'( participating on that was like#one of the last things I remember doing before time started passing normally again this year or well feeling better at least#and well as bad as it ended my time working was really great only routine that stuck around the whole year#and going out with my then coworkers felt really fancy and fun#I was able to save up a lot and want to use that to focus on personal projects this next year#......which is partly the reason I Need to study and practice getting better at promoing
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Windy at my house + power flickering = no comm work = quick laptop doodle
#my characters#i genuinely hoped the wind would die down but like ??? nah?#and the last time we lost power without an actual storm it WAS bc of wind#and so i just get so panicked over please dont fry my tablet with a power surge#if it calms down by tonight i really wanna work on art since i spent almost all day yesterday struggling with a pose and i finally#think i thought of something that could work and then (gestures to the wind) fuck me#also in regards to these two you have seen me drawing deacon a lot recently and i only drew armya once so far#she is a devoted follower to fulj which is really rare since fulj no longer has a large following nor a temple#so when fulj finds her its comforting and reassuring and she adores armya a lot#however the fact that fulj relentlessly teases deacon and calls him names is like..... ok wait would you really be mean to me if it wasnt#for her ? like would you still pick on me? :c and shes like lol yeah dude absolutely#deacon is just constantly dunked on by the lightning group and hes so sad because he wanted to be friends :c#but also the guy wouldnt really recognize the followers if it wasnt for the traces of lady fulj#so if they would wander into the city without having been possessed recently he probably wouldnt even cast a glance their way#nothing personal he just straight up doesnt decipher looks fast at all#he could think they look familiar but then not know why ESPECIALLY if they wear something he's not used to them in#like if armya showed up in something other than her loose white jacket he would not be able to go AH YES ARMYA immediately#he identifies people by hair or clothing details so it kinda messes him up if people remove whatever identifying trait they have#long hair getting a hair cut? suddenly a whole new person#and armya knows this very well since he never looked her way unless fulj was possessing her or trailing her#so she does like to tease him as just. we are both in servitude to a deity and same rank but like. bro youre too easy to mock#(fulj agrees)
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using the tags to vent my current emotional state into the void bc ig story feels like a bad plan for this, read at your own risk.
#but jesus christ coming back home while already knee deep in a suicidal episode was an awful idea#like i was maybe on the verge of improving and then i came back to all of this family bullshit#and the place as well like itās so. i donāt want to say isolated necessarily. but so much itās own little bubble#and i spent the last eight or nine years i lived here depressed and the last six suicidal#and being back here feels like the actual place is telling me to die#and i donāt think it helps that every place i go i know or know of someone who successfully committed suicide#like. oh this person drowned themself here. or that person hung themself in these woods. or several people jumped off the side of this clif#like. it all feels like reminders of my failures. and itās like. cmon. wouldnāt it be easy. all you need to do is jump. is slit your throat#is find a decent piece of rope. idk. but everything is so much and i just want it to stop and it feels like the ground itself#is giving me a way to do it.#i genuinely feel like iām like 16 or 17 again. and everything that isnāt within these hills#feels like a haze and not actually real. like the concept of buxton doesnāt actually exist and my friends do not actually exist and nothing#actually exists except the place iām in and my family and the pub#i think going back to work at the pub was a mistake; i think itās making this worse. especially because itās henryās dadās local#and where henryās wake was. and nothing there has changed at all. itās like the whole last year never happened.#and i only need to get through two more days but it feels like an impossible task and i keep thinking being back in york will fix me but id#if that even true like. i was suicidal before i left. and itās going to be intense and stressful and then i have to leave again.#come back here and do three full weeks of this all over again. i havenāt even managed two yet this time around. and i feel like#such a failure and such a drain on my friends (and on one in particular) because it just#is so much and has been so long and everything is complicated and awful and i think if i hadnāt come back iād be in a normal mental state#by now. thatās the worst fucking part. and also the whole thing of i know how to be suicidal here. i know how to not give a shit about#living here. i know how to do that. but ive never had to try before. like im trying to improve and im trying to hold on and hold off the#urges to kill myself or self harm or whatever because i said i would and because i KNOW it can be better than this and bc i love my friends#and they love me and i donāt want to upset them or make them anxious or anything like that and kat made me promise to try and im trying so#fucking hard and it feels like itās not even worth the effort because itās so much effort and everything is so overwhelming and awful and i#hate the way my family interacts and i just want everything to stop and idc if suicide is the cowards way out or selfish or whatever#bullshit people say it feels like the only option i can actually withstand because everything is so much pain and so much effort and so muc#everything and i canāt deal with it anymore. and also i forgot just how much i have to fucking mask in front of my parents and especially m#father and itās so exhausting and i canāt sleep and thereās so much yelling and i just need it all to stop#iāve had major breakdowns the last 3 nights about wanting to die so much & trying so hard to not let myself & idk how much longer i can tak
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itās just sorta hitting me that we know like almost nothing about what the fuck majima was doing in 5 when he was supposed to be dead??? like???? he was in on katsuya/mireiās plan and caught onto what was going on really early and whatnot but. what the hell was he DOING for all that time. he just shows up at kurosawaās at some point with zero explanation how or under what pretext or anything. how did he fake his death in the first place? how did he get it announced on the radio and put in the news despite there being no body or anything to prove that he died?? I have so many questions about his side of the story itās insane how much was brushed off bdhffdjdjdjsjdnd
#I could go on#especially about his and saejimaās last fight/argument(?) because Iām still REALLY unsure how much of that was true and how much majima#(and saejima but mostly majima) was lying/acting for kurosawa and his men to buy time. because majimaās way smarter than people give him#credit for and quickwitted as hell- I seriously doubt he didnāt have a plan and some of the shit he said was too absurd to be true imo (him#having written the expulsion letter. calling saejima weak based on the batting cage fight. etc)#and I think he was trusting that saejima knows him well enough to know how absurd some of that was and pick up on the act heās going for and#play along. I mean it worked out didnāt it? bought them enough time for shinada and co. to fight baba and keep haruka safe and all that#anywho thatās the only thing that makes sense to me but. wouldāve been nice for them to have made that clear and given majima and saejima#a more genuine heartfelt reunion#and donāt even get me started on kazumaji not getting a damn reunion. thatās a topic for another post#majima was just sorta neglected at least considering his importance in the plot and all. he shouldāve talked to haruka too imo. and katsuya#and. you get it.#yet again he was left to clean up the tojo clanās mess and just expected to deal with it while his two closest companions go to prison#(AGAIN) and daigoās recovering from a bad wound (AGAIN) and so on. this guy does not get enough goddamn credit#rambling#y5#yakuza 5 spoilers
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So Iāve kind of been MIAā¦ā¦.so I thought Iād give some updates on my life
#honestly I didnāt realise itās been so long since Iāve done a post#especially a personal post#itās been about a month#anyway Iāve been super busy#since Iāve mainly been working#which is good but also bad because Iām tired all the time ššš#for example I started work today at 7am so I got up at 5:30 which was a lot so during my shift I got kind of drained#but Iāve been well#if Iām not working Iām relaxing and crocheting because I really want to finish this project#but apart from that letās talk about some exciting stuff#I start uni in about 3 weeks which is really exciting#so hopefully closer to the date I can talk about that if I donāt forget š
#Iām also going on holiday in like two weeks which is nice#it will be the last hurrah I guess before uni#thereās still some stuff that Iāve got to sort out before uni#but Iāve got like all the stuff I need I think#Iām just really excited#and I guess a bit sad my gap years over#like that definitely flew by haha#gatherrambles#g/gapyeardiaries
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help me out tolkien fam
For months now I've been itching to read fics about child/young/kid Feanor. Maybe it's just me but they're so horrifically hard to find! Maybe i'm just bad at filtering them out or there's a tag I'm not aware of, but if you guys know of these fics would you be kind and point them out? Rec away! Don't care what it's about, don't care who's in it, I just want to reeeeaaaad
#i will be reblogging this at least two times#feanor#last i searched was for child feanor and finwe and the lack of them shocked me#especially for being such hot topic characters as they are#no shipping though please#that's my line#thanks in advance? no idea how well this will work out
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#my favorite on first listen#i need to go back through the whole thing again but 95% of the time the album does exactly what it should#in terms of sounding like a txt album and doing the kind of experimental stuff a minisode should do#as a whole i like it and the aesthetic better than the last album#however i think the killa shouldn't have made it to the album idc#literally two days ago people were saying a zionist was involved in producing it and now it's all yayyy ~sex~ song#like it sounds generic and it doesn't go with the plot of the album and soobin has literally talked before about being oversexualized...#...making him uncomfortable and everyone just ignores stuff like that bc everyone acts like the second you don't make a idol sexy the...#...second they 'turn legal' that they're 'grown ass men' you're infantilizing#like. idk how to explain to you how annoying it is just to define being an adult by having sex like it's not universal š#i don't even mean to say this in some kind of puritan censorship kind of way it's just annoying to view adulthood just as sex time?#especially in this situation this is his job š he's at work š#and everyone being like but this song sounds gay š„ŗ well a zionist produced it i'm so glad you have moral standards#it isn't inherently infantilizing to not talk about sex or to not have sex either that's such an annoying marker of adulthood#and this little prince concept is so unique and interesting just to toss in a generic ass song#like stick to what makes txt unique and stop trying to make broad appeal music#they took me out with all of the bad collaborations last year like just stooooppp#especially when you hear members say they only get to make music that's their own personal taste sometimes like let them have more voice!!!!#anyway š#music
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remember when i thought i would have lykmc chapter 16 done by mid-may? lol. lmao even
at this point iād count us lucky if itās up before the end of june. but if you want to save yourself the disappointment i wouldnāt expect it before july
#i wish i could write faster but realistically thatās probably the best i can do#im almost done with the last scene#and i finished the opening scene a long time ago#and those are the two longest scenes#but i still have three scenes in the middle to write#and there are some new dynamics i have to establish in those scenes#so even though theyāre shorter theyāre a bit more challenging#especially more so than the final scene between laurent and damen because those two are such a breeze to write together#they just work together so well even when theyāre at odds their personalities just spark something in each other#im never blocked for ideas when it comes to them i just throw them together and the scene comes to life on its own yknow#and usually ends up much longer than iād planned lmao#but i canāt wait to share this chapter with you guys bc i think the opening scene in its entirety is some of my best work yet#and the last scene is just so. laurent and damen#agh i wish it was finished#lykmc updates
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#last month i wrote some tags about how i needed to leave my nails alone because i was getting extensions#in the hopes that i would finally stop biting my nails after doing it almost my whole life#well it FUCKING WORKED#i got gel x tips and i loved them sooooo much#but they kept coming off because i have to do so much with my hands especially in water lol#and i have tiny fingers too so the sizes she had weren't quite right#she redid the ones that came off for free for the whole three weeks i wore them!#so i bought her some new tips in tiny person sizes as a thank you lol#for her to use on other clients tho because she recommended this gel overlay system she likes#I've been wearing it for like a week and a half and they are still FLAWLESS#so I'm never going back to anything else lol i'm going to keep getting these pretty much forevwr#but anyway the important part is. that i no longer put my fingers in my mouth to destroy my nails and cuticles#i have real grownup hands now and it's AMAZING#my nail plate is reattaching to my nail bed!!!! like the bed is getting longer#they'll eventually reach the actual tips of my fingers the way theyre supposed to š#and the gel keeps the nails hard and almost fucking unbreakable#i had to replace my compulsion to bite/chew with the compulsion to apply cuticle oil lol but it's SO WORTH IT#i look at pictures of how my hands used to look just two months ago and i cant fucking believe i lived that way for DECADES#and i guess this is especially significant for me because my hands have always been a source of shame#not just because my nails were fucking gross and fucked up. but because i have TINY HANDS#like really small hands. not proportionate to my body. AT ALL#especially when i put my hands near my head because i have a slightly larger than average head lmaooo#and my fingers are very thin and just. i have small hands. very weak.#i cant even snap my fingers and make a sound#(do NOT instruct me. i know how to do it. i have been trying my whole life. its not physically possible for my fingers to make that sound)#so having nice nails really fucking helps me š„¹#like i can be proud of my hands even if theyre small#and i dont feel the need to hide them anymore
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The thing about hermnautica is I may stop posting about it but it never leaves my brain. And this time because itās 4 am Iām thinking about kharaa. Did you know it canonically physically mutates your body? We only ever see it as the green pustules but it fucks with your organs and tangles with your literal dna. Can you imagine if it wakes up latent genes. Youāre going to die. How do you measure it? By the day you wake up paranoid (too late) and the day green spots appear on your skin (too late) and the day some of those green spots arenāt just the things that showed up on your insane friend, but sightless eyes (so far beyond too late itās not worth thinking about.) Or instead: the day your head starts itching and your hair falls out to make room for a massive crown of quickly-sprouting antlers. Or instead: the days of agony where your ribs change shape, to something more like a fishās.
#body horror#ask to tag#hermnautica#never mind this isnāt exactly how dna works at all. itās aliens babey#well not the last one thatās xB and heās human. but still. fish!#the other two are Grian and gem btw#to clarify this is not just bc itās 4 am. I also just read a dozen of#*odaigahara fics#I am once again saying subnautica could have and should have leaned harder into the horrors of kharaa!#ESPECIALLY in the sequel. the frozen leviathan should have been fucked up!! AL-AN should have seen his coworkers mutate!#give the HORROR of it. the uncanny valley the realization that āoh this person is challenging [species-appropriate term for humanity] hereā#āop do you have a lot of thoughts about rabiesā yes I do thanks for asking
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I'm honestly not sure why Kishimoto Masashi hasn't done any other stories that isn't Naruto (well, there's Samurai 8, but that ended up cancelled, and Boruto is...well. It's Boruto But Let's Disassemble Boruto's Dad's Canon Until Not Even The Atoms Are Left).
Compared to the high fantasy ninja-cum-borderline-modern-day-cyberpunk aesthetic, Mario was such a breath of fresh air. Maybe not as lived in as Naruto (because it's a forty-four page one-shot, and you can't really afford to waste time on making New York feel "lived in" in that many pages), but it's so grounded in reality that the environment and the foundations of the story are already set in place. It doesn't have to worry about playing with the Magic System or keeping its chronology from getting tangled up in retcons and deus ex machina. It's short, it's simple, and gets right to the point while leaving many of its other elements inferred and in the background.
#as i understand it. or at least it's speculated. that elements of samurai 8 are being carried over to boruto#hence why it's moved away so quickly from naruto's 90s tech to an almost postmodern cyberpunk era#as well as teenage punk and grunge aesthetic that can almost be called dystopian#it's why - for me - boruto has felt less 'ninja fantasy' and more 'urban fantasy but throw in space-faring alien leeches into the mix'#especially with the arrival of two blue vortex#but the problem with the otsutsuki is how utterly last minute they are in canon#w/ no buildup whatsoever#and its timeline is such a mess that a plate of spaghetti looks more coherent#mario doesn't have that problem#it's set in 2003 new york about a guy in the mafia who takes on jobs to earn money for the sake of money#who eventually teams up with a female hitman in order to earn his own territory#there's mention of his late yakuza mother and how the hitman he's working w/ looks like her#as well as his necklace in the shape of the libra's scales that play into his ties between his mother & his partner#BOOM it doesn't waste ANY time faffing around. the plot just gets right to it#it's an interesting little oneshot that unfortunately doesn't really leave room for continuation#due to the way the ending doles out his fate#like. kishimoto has the POTENTIAL for constructing tight storycrafting#we saw this in the minato one-shot recently#he just needs to do what HE wants to do and not try to aim high#a'la try to make it another naruto/boruto#armi reads manga#manga
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I've had a strange dream tonight..
There was a small round pound and a lot of fish were roaming in it in circles! Fish, and one squid-like creature that also had some eldrich glow emitted from itself. I kept trying to catch a fish all the time, with something like a bug net for some reason and not a fishing road, but they ALWAYS slipped away from me! And at last I've caught one fish but someone near me pointed out that it was dead, in a very grumpy "told you so" manner.. So I looked at that fish, and true, it didn't move. And also strangely had two heads, second head instead of tail, even though in the water it looked normal..
It made me despair and I let it slip back into the pond, and finally decided to abandon the fish and give that eldrich squid a chance. Not only it was way easier to catch than fish, but it even seemed to like me, wrapping tentacles around my arms, then I woke up. Strangely, before alarm clock, too
#dreams#personal#I wonder about the meaning of this but I have a guess......#it is about my fandom life before summer isn't it.#trying to catch fish and constantly failing = my futile attempts to make friends back then#finally catching a fish but it's dead a literally two faced = making a bond but then-#-finding out people were two-faced (figurally of course) and would not be there for me#especially I think a certain someone that made me feel the safest and warmest Ive felt in a long time#only to block me without a single word and then work against me for not taking it well#and the squid... well... of course it was him#he definitely was an eldrich creature.#the last time I checked he finally became happy and stable (and promptly ditched me as-#-he didn't need me anymore in a happier and fixed life. it happens.)#but yes feels like it. I figured I could not find friends in 'mere ordinary fish'. it was all futile.#because of my negative charisma and apparently social cues I don't get#I also think relevant considering what I posted before going to bed...#damn my brain has interesting ways to illustrate my past or present.
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I started by telling myself I shouldn't feel bad that I didn't get all my planned chores done: Saturday is a rest day, and we've just finished three weeks of crunch at work. (Next week might also be crunch but probably not; the product ships at the end of the week but we should be in good enough shape already.)
But then I realized: I ran three errands in the morning, and did three chores in the evening--even if one of the chores was just "cook a healthy dinner" and two of the chores were banking-related on a website. (But one involved sending text messages, and one involved an actual phone call to customer service, so I can't even really say they were just on a website.) That's six things I got done on a rest day. I may have overscheduled by saying I'd do at least eight things, but still, six things is very good.
#the things I did NOT do all involve a hand drill so#I have about average upper body strength for a woman which means I do struggle somewhat with hand drills#although these chores all involve walls not metal so it's not THAT bad--except it's sideways rather than down so I can't lean into it#so yeah that's a level of chores I was not up to on my rest day#tomorrow is too booked up for chores--I told my friend I wanted to hang out with them this weekend#since I said no two weeks ago (I was fully booked) and they had to cancel on me last weekend#and normally we meet in the middle for hiking (we live 1.5 hours apart) but this time they suggested I drive all the way out#and I said yes before I realized that's what they were suggesting#so that's fine--but I can't do anything else beyond that tomorrow even just basic chores#which is a little bit getting to me because a house guest is coming to visit in four days#and I really need the shower curtain to be properly secured to the wall by then?#anything else is gravy--I already have clean sheets for her and everything--but THAT needs to be done#I've been living here almost two months and have only knocked the shower curtain down about three times so it's really not that bad#I even hang my towels on it and it's fine BUT I know how to do it? and I'm like professionally good at manipulating physical objects lol#like being a mechanic of sorts is literally a significant chunk of my job#whereas she doesn't pick up object-manipulation tasks easily--especially not involving gross motor skills#in fact when I mentioned it to her she was like yeah that was something she was not going to be able to handle#if I didn't have it properly installed by the time she arrived#so uh... well not today or tomorrow#and Monday and Tuesday I have work... and she's arriving Wednesday#ok realistically tomorrow night I'm just going to have to suck it up and get to drilling no matter how tired I am from driving and hiking
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yesterday was the worst day of this year, but weāre about to get a runner up
#Iāve been having the worst period cramps of my life since yesterday#I cannot walk bc my legs are shaking so hard#I have covid probably#I mean Iām sick and my roommate is tested positivr#I told my work yesterday that I couldnāt come but none of my coworkers even had the decency ti say they couldnāt#two of my friends broke up yesterday and Iām rly sad and scared for them#and oh yeah#I also have to go to uni today bc Iām scared to miss something and I canāt get a doctors note for covid bc Iām still testing negative#they take attendance and I donāt wanna deal with this#edit#the wifi in my apartment also sucks especially in the last well or so
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