#kt trash

[lothcatthree]

“Your thoughts. I can feel them. Force, Din, you don’t even know,” Luke huffs a humorless laugh, “Our bond, it’s… it’s weaker than it’d be with another Force user, but I can still see your thoughts when they’re that strong. I can… feel what you’re feeling,” Luke explains, unsure if he’s making any sense. Din’s hands freeze on his face and Luke feels a wave of both slight embarrassment and undeniable arousal through the Force. “You could… you mean you could see what I was thinking? Just then?” Din asks, his words slow as he puts the pieces together. Luke reaches his gloved hand to wrap around one of Din’s wrists and he holds his gaze. “Yes. All of it,” Luke breathes.

-

Din gets bored during a meeting and doesn't realize that Luke can feel his thoughts.

Yes, all of them.

[yackers]

FAVE ANUBIS KIDS as voted by my followers 8. KT Rush - 18.5%

[ang3l-d1nn3r]

I can hear the rain patting loudly against my windows it's like someone's there just like hiiii

[garaviel]

Being a legends mando fan and a legends mando critic at the same time feels like holding my hand in the garbage disposal for funsies

[titsthedamnseason]

omg i’m so excited i’ve been wanting to reread amour amour so badly (still refusing to call it by its new government name and i close my eyes every time i see the cover) and it turns out the audiobook is free with kindle unlimited so i can listen to it while im at work. life is good sometimes

[kujakumai]

the thing with Yami Marik is that you have the task of "Here is what I think is going on inside the text, based on what the text indicates, and KT's intent" but KT obviously knows fuck all about DID and wrote something actively ableist. so attempting to reconstruct the logic of the text often requires you to outright ignore how the thing depicted works in real life and instead accept, for the temporary purpose of analysis and interpretation, "how this works inside this story" as given truth. and that is fine for meta I think, but when you get into fanworks you are faced with the issue of either needing to throw canon in the trash entirely/refusing to engage with it or somehow amending it as to not be completely disgusting.

and I readily understand the desire to make that amendment for the purpose of fanwork but I do not think we should make the mistake of conflating that with what happened in canon, which was extremely unambiguously a horror movie "mentally ill evil serial killer split personality" plotline. and I think attempts to somehow deeplore-magic that into not being true are giving KT more credit than he deserved or earned on that point

[scrumptiousstuffs]

i’ve never watched any of p’au works so i don’t know the kind of atmosphere he put in his shows, but since OL is a funny comedy maybe CFC will have a lot of comedy too and i know people will get mad at bcs ppl hate funny things

I was delighted when I found out FirstKhaotung will be working with P’Au. If you have only watched OL, then I implore you to watch the others shows he has directed - this includes the massively successful My School President that pretty much put Gem4th on the map of Thai BL and My School Mix Up (also Gem4th)

Plus, he is the protege of P’Aof and has worked closely with him (being his assistant director) of these projects: Last Twilight, Moonlight Chicken, Bad Buddy, A Tale of 1000 Stars, Still 2gether

And also the screenwriter for classic Thai BL (pre-2020 era): including Theory of Love (OffGun) and Dark Blue Kiss (TayNew and PoddGawin)

Now, I haven’t watched Theory of Love and Dark Blue Kiss, but I’ve watched all the rest. And while I may not vibe with some of them (Last Twilight, I’m looking at you 😅), these shows are still excellent in their own right.

Suffice to say, P’Au track record is pretty good. His flare is slightly different from P’Aof who tends to be more angsty-vibe/melodramatic/lakorn-like while I find P’Au to be softer, more romantic still with some angst/hurt-comfort vibe. And as you can tell with OL, I think he is doing a good job with balancing comedy as well.

As for your last sentence about “people will get mad because they hate funny things” - I’m interpreting it as you alluding to some FK fans (or casual watchers of FK-related things) wanting them to play only in serious, dramatic/angsty roles. I suspect this is partly because their introduction to FK is from The Eclipse, MLC or OF (or even THK), where let’s be honest - their roles are more “heavier” and serious in nature.

See, this is where I will like people to go watch First/Khaotung earlier roles because the boys have great comedic timing.

First in The Shipper (and as a supporting character in Wake up Ladies) was amazing. Seeing First (in The Shipper) embodying a fangirl while also trying to navigate his (her?) feeling for the best friend and brother - was funny but doozy lol

You can tell he was still honing his skills then but without these roles, we won’t get his subtle but effective comedic take of this scene in the THK (for example):

Similarly, Songpol/Paul in 55:15 Never Too Late. This show remains the most under-rated gem of a show ever. Seeing Khaotung acting like a 55 yrs old man in a 15 yrs old body while simultaneously fangirling over his idol - EPIC (plus his chemistry with Piploy (she plays Jeya) - the idol he worshipped (who with Paul suddenly finding themselves in their 15 yrs old bodies), his now same aged niece as the latter tries to teach him how to be 15 yrs old effectively - 🫡🫡🫡). I still cried buckets for him (by the end of the show) because what is a KT show without tears 😭 but it was worth it.

(Here, have a fun reel of Paul/Jaya being chaotic lol):

And let’s not forget Tonhon Chonlatee - I know people trashed this show a lot. Yes, it’s not the greatest series. But again, Khaotung nailed it with the comedic scenes. And the way he can say all the cringiest lines with an earnest, cute face just made me snort with laughter, ok? This show also has the best queer friendship group ever. Not to mention - Khaotung and Ciize chemistry as besties. It also has people (who did watch it) worshipping Khaotung/Neo as a ghostship.

I guess what I’m trying to say is - I have the upmost faith in FirstKhaotung and P’Au. FK have never failed us and they always shined in whatever they were given (even when it’s just a cameo/side roles - I’m looking at you Zero!! Home School Season 2 when?) and just looked at them with their cameo in OL recently (as Alone/Kaitong).

I’m not sure why people want doom and gloom so much for them (the real world is already terrible as it is). So, give me all the good vibes, fluffy cats and sweetest romance (with a touch of comedy or more 😉) - I, for one, cannot wait for this! (Ads and blatant sponsors of pet food/toys included 🤣)

[feralfraggle]

Fraggle Rock characters and whether or not they can say Faggot

Gobo - Can say it, does say it, we all know he and Red call each other it all the time

Wembley - Can say it, doesn’t think he can, and therefore doesn’t say it

Red - Can say it, does say it, greets Gobo by calling him it

Mokey - You thought she couldn’t say it? Obviously not! She can say it and you will be proud when she calls you it

Boober - Can say it, doesn’t say it

Sidebottom - look he can say it. I don’t care if he’s queer or not, with that level of flamboyance he can say it

Uncle Travelling Matt - cant say it, does say it, but like. In a well meaning but misinformed old man way

Doc - cant say it, does say it, but means a bundle of sticks when he says it

Sprocket - can say it, does say it, we all know he’s constantly calling Doc it to get through the day

Marjory - She’s not only an oracle but the cuntiest trash heap to ever exist, this absolute queen can say it

Philo and Gunge - they don’t know the word and god have mercy on us all when they learn it

Ma Gorg - can say it, does say it, calls her husband kt

Pa Gorg - can’t say it, probably says it

Junior - can say it but he doesn’t know the word, and even if he did he wouldn’t say it

Cotterpin - I know a butch lesbian when I see one. She can say it

Pogey - what do you take me for? Some kind of fool? They can say it

Cantus -he can say it. Does say it. It’s a 50/50 whether he means gay, a bundle of sticks, or a cigarette when he says it though

Convincing John - that man is the faggiest Fraggle I’ve even seen, he can say it

Marlon - He can’t say it but he absolutely thinks he can

Lanford - of course Audrey II’s gay cousin can say it(Audrey II isn’t straight what am I saying)

[incorrectsibunaquotes]

me versus using my fake social media maker app to make a social media au fic where piper is a famous music star of some kind, and patricia is a law student who keeps accidentally going viral on stan twitter for a bunch of wacky reasons since she's piper's twin. joy is piper's pr manager, and amber is her stylist.

meanwhile, fabian, eddie, jerome, alfie, and mick are part of a very popular boyband, and mara is their publicist, with willow as their stylist. kt writes all their songs, and also doubles as their PR manager.

shenanigans ensue when patricia gets caught on camera putting the boyband on blast for having bad music, and the internet thinks it's a video of piper trashing on her industry peers. joy and mara have to somehow piece together a collab of some kind.

[snapthistiger]

exercise 06102024

bike ride to the gym

worked lifeguard job 445a - 1015a

8 x 10 incline sit ups

3 x 10 pec machine

3 x 10 lat raise

3 x 10 low row

30 minutes on the step mill

3 x 10 cable press

3 x 10 cable row

bike ride to my Mom's, then home

i forgot to bring treats for the gym workers

checked on my Mom but no visit because she was sleeping. visited with my sister and niece

ok day at work. watched swimmers the entire time.

top right = beautiful clouds

bottom = Level black label vitamin patch on a ladies arm at the gym. i noticed the patch and asked her about it and i asked if i could take a picture. she said her husband sells these. when i first saw the patch i thought it was some KT tape but in an unusual location.

received a $9.95 settlement check in mail from GoodBelly yogurt

sold a fishing reel on ebay. a neighbor put it out by the road so i picked it up and sold it. only made a few dollars but at least it didn't go in the trash

hope you have a peaceful afternoon and evening..

[grossillygirl]

It was more so about if you’re prepared for that possibility. Last time you had a breakup, you were an absolute mess for a while, and kept joking about killing yourself lol. Obviously, we’re trying to determine if you’re going to (possibly) go through that again, or if you’re steeling yourself a bit so you’re not blindsided if it happens.

You’re the one who keeps making posts about how you think it might be a mistake, and how you can’t tell if he’s serious or trying to use you. I don’t think it’s unreasonable to prepare yourself if things don’t go the way you’re hoping but I wish things do work out the way you want

I joke about killing myself when things go wrong in my life to be honest like its barelt about the guy😭 thats why most of the time when u guys trash someone i post about i constantly repeat the "you dont have full context" thing cus i just use things as an excuse to project my insecurities. Especially when i know they have no access to my blog and it cant hurt their feelings

Like if hes at work and not replying i might post that he hates me and nothings real and im gonna melt into the groumd but i just do that cuz its a way to express my most like extreme insecurities, which are unrelated to whatever the scenario isss.

Like u guys might not have realised hut right around the time my ex broke up with me, i was doing (and failing) my exams, along with no friends and no one to talk to. It was honestly barely about the guy i cried for like 20 minutes about that in total tbh. But i guess i kinda see ur point? I still think that kts a bit weird to make me try and imagine breaking up with someone when everything is fine?? Like what💀

I think in ur owm way ur looking out for me so i do appreciate that butttttt yeah pls dont be pessimistic :)

[aryisacapricat]

perhaps........yuour babygirl

Ooooooh boy here we go

First impression I don't actually remember my exact first impression of Iggy, but I think I knew he was meant to be one of those gruff dudes with hidden depth after the first Lib. I had liberated Jodi kinda early in my first playthru so I didn't get much of their scenes together (plus I think their little meet up scene after a rite got taken over by the one with Jodi and Pam). Later I would find out on TV Tropes that they can get together and was incredibly intrigued how that even happens with the few scenes they had. That's when my brain went wild filling in the blanks and the rest is history.

Impression now This grown ass man is my pathetic, hot trash babygirl and I love him so much. Out of all the blorbos I've had that have infested my brain, he somehow became the most resilient. All due to the fact there was barely any fan content of him so it was all up to me to fill the void.

Favorite moment Oh DEFINITELY the scene after with him and Jodi after the second time you face him. Especially this line,

And he keeps waiting. For there is little else for him, there, in the Downside. He keeps waiting... but, not for very long. ... not for very long.

Idea for a story Oh ho HOOOO boy. Y'all already know about Killing Time and Iggy in the Downside. I have soooo many more ideas than what is physically possible for me to do. Some are oneshots I have planned for after KT. Also a few AU ideas that I probably won't seriously pursue but they're fun to run in my brain anyway.

Unpopular opinion Yea Iggy got WAY too much hate, even with the bad first impression. Back then, pretty much every mention of him from the fandom was just shitting on him and about wanting him to stay far away from Jodi as possible. Thankfully that hate has toned down a lot since then (likely due to my propaganda, hehe).

Favorite relationship Do I even need to say it? Like, I know it's all just my headcanon, but Jodi and Iggy really are a great dynamic to write. And who doesn't love when two strong characters are vulnerable with each other?

Favorite headcanon Does it count if I say Moira? She's just been a huge delight designing a writing. Otherwise, it's Iggy being a goofy, sweet guy who deep down, just wants someone to love.

[non-cannon]

*the Sibuna cleaning up* KT: Pick up the nearest piece of trash and throw it away. Patricia, to Eddie: Aight, which bin do you wanna go in—

[randomnameless]

I seriously doubt KT's statement that Fódlan has 10000 years of lore, or at least in the way that piece of information was portrayed in the interview; they might have 10000 years' worth of worldbuilding that was cut from the game because it was either irrelevant to the story and characters or unfinished and contradictory to the lore in the final product, maybe even both, but the idea that they actually had an unimaginable amount of good and deep worldbuilding for the entirety of Fódlan but chose to only portray a fraction of that worldview for the game, especially when what lore is portrayed in Three Houses is very often an inconsistent and illogical mess, sounds utterly ridiculous to me and more like a hype tactic to try and capitalize off 3H's reputation as the “deep and serious war game with unparalled worldbuilding, story and characters”.

because it was either irrelevant to the story and characters or unfinished and contradictory to the lore in the final product

That's part of the issue, anon lol

I've been joking about it with friends, but if the 10k years of lore reveal, somehow, that humans have always vyed for power and created society where some people are treated like trash, regardless of lizard blood and Sothis's intervention - a certain someone's spiel will suddenly become completely meaningless, just like someone's route and ending.

The lore that is portrayed in the Fodlan games is purposedly obtuse and illogical, as you noticed!, because of CF and Supreme Leader - we cannot know the ins and outs of the Insurrection of the Seven, we cannot realistically know what happens to Anselma/Patricia, the WoH will never be portrayed from the Empire's POV, etc etc.

It definitely is a "hype" or rather, some sort of aftersale service boast tactic to pretend the world is large and has a lot of lore and is Very Deep (tm) - because if the games didn't have to dance around Hresvelg Grey, we could get the final word on the Insurrection, whatever happened in Ordelia, why Loog broke up with Adrestia, why Adrestia tried to conquer Dagda'n'Brigid, why people who sided with Nemesis ultimately sided with Willy'n'Rhea, etc etc.

I know the devs were lazy and one of them even forgot the plot of Houses when playing Nopes, but imo the 10k years of lore, bar being a giant joke, reeks of the "we didn't want to invalidate one particular route and one specific character by revealing too much about the world works" argument, even if by combing the script here and there, we can still guess that Supreme Leader's utopia is a mix between what Willy first wanted for Adrestia (and it fell apart the second he left) and what Nemesis/the Agarthans planned for Fodlan (ruling by strength) which isn't supposed to be seen in a positive light.

[m-rod-unofficial]

and here is a second ask consisting just of frank's big wet eyes in case you want to put everything i sent in the last one in the reply behind a cut, lol. i feel like all that text would be annoying to scroll past

He's so sad and rain-soaked. I can't TAKE IT!!

what do you think is the endgame for frank, gender-wise? i really want to write more post-canon fic for him, but i'm still trying to figure out what that actually looks like. like, /would/ he want to get the implants taken out? does it change things that he was able to clumsily seduce becker? would he keep the tits just so he can use them like that, or would it not be worth all the sexual harassment or whatever?

Disclaimer that I do funnel my own gender dysphoria into Frank <3 I'm hitting him with a beam full of its concentrated form always <3

At first, he describes himself as a guy stuck in a chick's body. Later, I think it's more of "I'm a guy with parts I don't want." And now that I've typed that out, it sounds like the same thing worded differently.

I think while he initially hates his whole body post-op, he can later accept aspects of it.

For Frank, it's like having fake glasses and a mustache superglued to his face. Sure, they can be useful. Only when you're outta options, though. I mean, you feel stupid and awkward trying to play this other role with them. You don't like looking in the mirror and seeing that shit. That's not you.

Well... it is. You're under there, under the parts you don't like, but it feels like nobody can look past them. You can barely do it yourself.

I think Frank wants the implants out. He seems like the type of person to keep binding for so long that it starts seriously hurting. He'd take the tape off even less if it didn't irritate his skin. And make it hard to breathe. And hurt his back. And ribs.

...But the idea of going into surgery makes him uneasy and when it feels close to happening, he ends up backing out. And if they made him go to therapy or some shit, he wouldn't do it. No way.

He'd probably feel more content with just binding instead of having top surgery if his binding method wasn't so dogshit. He saw the duct tape is his briefcase, thought "that'll work", and never bothered looking into anything else when he had the time. A normal binder would feel too much like a bra for his taste, which also eliminates the sports bra method. A compression tank top would be a lot better for him. Or even just KT tape.

I do headcanon that he never liked how his old face looked clean-shaven and that was why he kept a beard. The new one is fine to him. Johnnie likes it. It doesn't help the problem he had where his voice and long hair would get him called slurs. Maybe he'll finally cut it short if he has a particularly shit day.

The empty spot in his boxers where his penis was bothers him more than anything else, I feel. I'd say he should shove some rolled-up socks in there, but he didn't go for that despite it being as easy for him to do as the tape. I dunno, do you think he'd use some sort of packer (if he knew what those are)?

...I'm not sure if he can handle the harassment... I feel like his tolerance levels would still be pretty low... I mean, he went in wearing his prostitute disguise knowing he'd have to put up with Albert. He was also fueled by a burning desire to get close enough to Jane to get his revenge. Be a true revenger. Whateverthefuck. Whatever it takes type of deal. I feel like the only reason Frank trying to seduce Albert wasn't played more awkwardly/uncomfortably than it was is that nobody realized his character doesn't come across as a "cool loner", but rather the awkward type.

Not even thirty minutes after he wakes up in his altered body, the motel owner shows up. Frank doesn't tell him to get out until he says that he likes his look. When he tries to reach between Frank's legs not long after that, he slams his knee into his junk, beats the shit out of him, and trashes the place more. I'd imagine that's all he thinks of whenever he receives unwanted advances, which then elicits immediate aggression.

When the guy he goes to for guns calls him beautiful, he instantly snaps at him.

semi-digression: why the FUCK is he taking the hormones? yeah, i assume dr. jane gave him an orchiectomy and he's gonna have some issues if he doesn't do some kind of hrt. but she didn't explain that to him and when frank goes to the "surgery doctor" it's clear he's done no research at all! if he's constantly binding and skulking around in the shadows trying to pass as a dude i don't know why the hell he would (1) trust that the psychopath who tortured him as revenge would be telling the truth about what the pills even were or (2) immediately start taking them and then just continue to do so of his own volition. he doesn't even put on the clothes dr. jane leaves for him because they're chick clothes! he runs out of there in a filthy robe with no shoes on but before he does he just fucking takes the estradiol! why??

There's certain things in this movie that make me wanna, like, pick up a pillow with my teeth and shake it around violently the way a dog would. You'd think Frank would maybe try asking Johnnie if she's heard of the medication before, bring it up to the "surgery doctah" instead of accepting defeat and leaving after asking two questions, look it up on a library computer, or literally anything but dry swallow those things with little to no hesitation. I'd call it a case of stupidity to keep the plot going, but it can definitely still work without Frank refusing to look into anything other than who's on Honest John's payroll. Who knows why any of the story decisions were made, really.

anyway. in the stupid black-and-white tapes it sure as hell seems like he's still binding and maybe still wearing mens' clothing? but he's ditched the dumb snapback and he doesn't have his hair in his face and i can't tell if we're meant to conclude from that that he's accepted himself or something. i know he says he's still gonna be a guy in his head, but…is he resigned to looking like a chick or not?

I can't imagine that much thought was put into his tapes tbh. Black and white filters typically indicate something is in the past, but they're made after the events of the film. He talks a bunch of nonsense about what they're for and what he's gonna do now that just leaves you sitting there like ???

He does wear his hair like that pre-op. It's slicked back when he kills Honest John's cousin (...and maybe when he offs Dr. Jane's brother? Can't remember), but he has bangs the rest of the time. The ballcap was him hiding his new face because he didn't like it, but it/the hood was also his lazy attempt to obscure it while riddling dudes with bullets, right? I dunno. Maybe he's resigned to the fact that his body will never go back to exactly what it was before, not necessarily that he has to look like a woman.

the other unhelpful thing about the movie is that we don't even know what the hell he's actually doing with his life. in the final pages of the comic, frank seems to have basically devoted himself to busting into hotel rooms and shooting johns dead. the implication is, i guess, that now he's had a taste of the female experience and wants to get justice for all those girls? i don't hate that for him. i kind of wonder how he can afford to eat, though. but if that's what he's doing, maybe that alters the calculus because those girls aren't going to trust him unless he looks like a woman? he's definitely dressing like a woman by then in the comic, but he also starts that a lot earlier. his outfits both post- and pre-op in the comic are much cooler so i don't know why mrod's wardrobe in the movie just looks like they told her to bring in the ten most drab pieces of clothing she already owned. that's another tangent, though

anyway, in the comic, frank also uses "we" when he's talking to one of those girls and you /could/ interpret it as him grouping himself in with women, but, like, it's not that clear-cut.

I don't hate that for him, either. I guess he still has to be doing some sort of hired killer stuff on the side? I'll have to reserve any real thoughts on Comic Frank until whenever I read it.

I do have a soft spot for Frank's wardrobe haha. It feeds into his "weird lil' guy who lives out of an old-ass briefcase" vibe. His single pair of footwear is biker boots. He doesn't own a bike. Or any vehicle. Who knows if he's ever been on a motorcycle at all, but they have heels that make him at least an inch taller, give him just enough space to tape his silly little extra bullet under there, and have no laces to bother with.

The leather jacket has gotta be his most expensive piece of clothing. Of course he always wears it. That's his nice thing. He owns approximately two bulky-ish coats, a lil' hoodie to wear underneath in case it's extra chilly, his dad cap he's had forever, two pairs of jeans he won't replace until there's a hole in the ass or crotch, three shirts he got off a clearance rack, and what I assume to be less than five pairs of boxers and socks. Sure, Frank could spend his big assassin bucks on nicer clothes, but he doesn't care to because... he's just an odd lil' dude, I suppose. He doesn't see any issue with what he's got on if it's not falling apart.

I bet he left the orphanage at 18 with that same fucking briefcase.

i think johnnie complicates things, too. my sense is that she likes him better as a woman. i doubt he's perceptive enough to realize that, though, and based on how he feels like he has to warn her before they have sex post-op, i wonder if he feels like he has to still be a man for her. but do you think he would want johnnie to treat him like a guy (whatever that means), or would that make him all insecure and angry because he'd feel like she was mocking him?

i have a LOT of thoughts about what kind of sex he would be able to have (if he were on the receiving end), but i'll spare you. i'll just say i have an idea for a scene in a post-canon fic where he comes to see johnnie and he's wearing some kind of very jury-rigged homemade chastity belt or dentata. and she's like, frank, what the fuck. but that's somehow his solution to having a cunt. i feel like he'd probably be paranoid as fuck about getting raped, especially if all the women he knows and interacts with are, like, the staff at run-down motels and prostitutes.

side note: in the comic, frank does think johnnie's a prostitute when he meets her, but his characterization is much more "sexy, mysterious lone wolf who occasionally likes to take a chick for a ride" than what mrod manages to convey ("loneliest, most pathetic man alive"). thank god for her big brown eyes. one hundred percent of the appeal of this movie to me is that frank is such a little loser guy. if he was remotely cool i just could not care

I bet Frank has minimal understanding of what relationships are like outside of the "fuck buddy" or "most stereotypical dynamic you've ever seen between a man and woman", but if he didn't send her off to Reno, that'd change. Slowly. No doubt penetration is the only type of sex he's ever tried pre-op. It's hard for him to comprehend the possibility that she could like him without a dick. Everything reassuring probably feels as though he's being mocked or pitied at first.

As long as she doesn't refer to him as she/her, I think he'd be fine or come to the realization that he is with a lot of things.

Eventually, he could learn that instead of sobbing alone with a bottle of liquor because "real men don't cry", it's a lot nicer to break down with his head on her lap while she pets his hair or something.

I did already agree with you about his fear of being assaulted.

If anybody else had played Frank, I wouldn't like him. I also probably wouldn't have watched the movie or be aware it exists, but y'know. My immediate impression was that he only speaks to people for transactions ...like his first hookup with Johnnie, I suppose. We don't see their conversation before he's leading her up the stairs, so maybe he does think she's a prostitute. They just skipped that like most of the interesting stuff. Regardless, I still like the idea of her approaching him more. I'm getting off track. I think he only has the "mandatory interactions" and avoids the rest because any attempts he made to bond as a child were ignored/shut down.

i do want to read about terrible things happening to him so he can sniffle wetly about it but i'm still so pissed about how the movie handles johnnie! what the fuck is the moral supposed to be: you can't trust anybody so you better spend your whole life alone? are we supposed to think it shows character development just because he's not hunting her down and shooting her or something? i would honestly rather have johnnie be killed by the doctor for lying to her. at least that would be closure.

why could she have not just been there in the background of one of his dumb videos? i think my headcanon is that he's just lying about leaving her in reno because those vids are supposed to be distributed to the public after his death and he doesn't want to get her in trouble. she's in the bathroom or out on the balcony or something. i would love to know more about his fucking "lawyer in miami," hahaha. too bad i already registered for courses for next semester. i didn't even check if they were offering sad little hitman law

i'm still trying to figure out how to scan the comics. for some reason i cannot find a scanner that doesn't display each scanned page on a huge screen in a public place and that is very awkward when you are scanning lesbian porn!! i gotta go to the library at midnight or something. i'll keep you posted <3

Another thing that makes me crazy :)) I will always be driven up the wall that they let him go back for his dog but not Johnnie. It would have been better if Dr. Jane killed her. It's one thing for him to be super pissed in the moment, but he couldn't kill her even then. Why not have him go back for her after he cools off? What was the point of it all? I hate the ending. It makes it feel like there wasn't one to anything. I share that headcanon.

I've felt awkward scanning stuff that's not porn in public. You're far braver than I am haha

[ellsieee]

Thai QL Favorites!

Tagged by: @benkaaoi (I miss our watch parties bb! 😢)

Credits to: @thatgirl4815 for the Thai BL Favorites Tag Game!

Favorite QL: 

My Tee. It's hard to quantify what exactly equals favorite, so I'm going with the Thai ql series I've rewatched the most. My Tee is my comfort series. It has its issues, but it's not boring or as confusing as the people on mdl would have you believe. I enjoyed the low key, humorous, slice of life, coming of age story. The ending admittedly leaves much to be desired, but the Mork/Tee parts of Our Skyy make up for it.

Favorite Pairing: 

As in acting pair or CP from a series? For established acting pair it's a toss up between EarthMix and KhaotungFirst. Both acting pairs seem to genuinely be good friends which is probably why they have great chemistry. I might have to give the edge to KT and First because I think they're both better actors individually. For a couple from a series it's gotta be Fighter/Tutor. Why R U was one of my early forays into "spicy" Thai bl so Fighter and Tutor have a special place in my heart. Many spicy Thai bls later, I still think their UST/physical chemistry is one of the best. Honorable mention goes to my favorite fluff couple RamKing who was just barely edged out by Tutor's obsession with Fighter's adam's apple.

Most underrated actor: 

I don't follow Thai ql closely enough to know who is underrated or overrated. I'm just going to say Drake Laedeke because I wish GMMTV would stop doing him dirty and give him some lead roles. He was decent in My Tee and has been great in his supporting roles, so I think it's about time he got another shot at ml.

Favorite Character:

This one is really hard. I'm going to cheat and say it's a tie between Noey from I Will Knock You and King from My Engineer. Does King count as a main character? I adore Noey for his quirkiness, loyalty, and (over) confidence. The way he bossed Thi into falling in love with him. 😅 I love King's curiosity, persistence and patience with Ram. I also find his spacey, plant loving, dog fearing self very cute.

Favorite Side Character:

My poor long suffering Gap from Triage. 💙 I loved his friendship with Tin and with the rest of the hospital staff and while I am still salty about being robbed of seeing SingGap become bfs, I still love my sweet, exasperated Gap.

Favorite Scene in a BL:

This scene healed my soul. I Told Sunset About You was such a heavy series that I needed this scene so much. It felt like all was right with the world and I believed in true love again.

Favorite Line in a BL:

My mind is totally blank and I cannot think of any profound lines. Instead, the only thing that comes to mind is Praram's "Brother that isn't a brother. Just like how daddy doesn't really mean father" from This Is Love Story. 😅

Most Anticipated BL (and why): 

I waited too long to do this, all of my anticipated bls came out already (Laws of Attraction & I Feel You Linger In the Air). I guess now I'll pick Sunset Vibes because I am ready to watch MosBank play assholes that deserve only each other again. I am anticipating a most wonderful trash watch. 🧡

Healthiest Relationship in BL:

Saen and Aii from You're My Sky. Saen took it slow with Aii and respected his boundaries. They talked about their problems and tried to meet each other halfway. And they were just all kinds of adorable.

Most Toxic Relationship in BL:

Pok and Tong from Gen Y/Gen Y 2. Threats? ✅ SA? ✅ Manipulation? ✅ I remember thinking damn these bitches are so toxic when I was watching Gen Y, but I was also a bit mesmerized by their toxicity. 😅

Guilty Pleasure Series: 

Guilty pleasure implies that the series needs to be bad, but what's bad? One's trash is another's treasure. A lot of people rag on My Tee, but I like it, so does that make it a guilty pleasure? It doesn't feel like it. I guess I will go with Big Dragon. I can understand why people think it's awful, but I loved it.

Most Underrated Series: 

I really want to pick You're My Sky because it was a pretty well done uni/sports bl that got very little attention, but I'm picking He's Coming To Me because it's a very good series that doesn't get enough love. The ghost story part of it was both touching and funny and the investigation/non-bl plot was interesting. Ohm's acting was great too.

If this wasn't restricted to Thai QL, this would have been a lot harder and a lot of my answers would be different I think. I never know who to tag for these things. If you see this, consider yourself tagged. Edit: I tag YOU @victooooorious