#kouske

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Ok so apparently Nol is the one who likes puns and uses them often, he also calls Shin-Ae as Yoo now

So I think

He'll be the one to say..

I LOVE YOO

Thanks for your attention

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For some reason I had a dream where Mafuyu and Uenoyama went to a concert, and Mafuyu got drunk or at least slightly buzzed and then got into a fight defending his boyfriend, and like his inner monologue was cussing and then he got sick. Like bro, that’s the exact opposite of Mafuyu - I can see Uenoyama doing that and after Mafuyu gets over being mad, tells Uenoyama he was sweet, but idk maybe because in the first chapter of the new one, Mafuyu comes home smelling like alcohol, maybe that’s why I thought of it? Or I was thinking of Hitorijim my hero? Idk. It was weird.

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Tokyo ghoul week 2023

Day 5 - Day off

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Time for the backstory boys @fe-oc-week and no drawings sry also it’s edgy

Twins’s personal skill

Kosuke- Sunshine support- Allies will get all stats raised depending on their support

Kaguya- Moon mist- Hp is healed amount varies depending on supports

Twin minds- everything is increasing by 2 each turn on and off field.

Crest

Kosuke- Crest of Yang- If anywhere near the crest of Yin all stats are raised but hp is being drained and gambits is boosted

Kaguya- Crest of Yin- Anywhere near the Crest of Yang all stats are lowered but hp is getting healed and gambits are boosted

Basically before the twins were born, it was a abusive and toxic environment as the House of Kamiyama were those snobby nobles that only care abt crests. Because of that the twin’s parents had planned to run away once the twins were born. So on the 1160 31st of the Eternal moon and the 1st of the Guardian moon, the parents quickly left after the birth leaving the twins with their grandparents, the worst mistake ever made. The Hous of Kamiyama were a famous court family and they were very involved in the political side of things. Because of the the twins spent majority of their childhood with the other nobles of Black eagles.

And than on the 1170, when they were just 10, Kaguya von Kamiyama was unwillingly taken away to be “trained” be her grandparents, far away from her brother. The truth was that Kaguya was sent to those who slither in the dark, to be experimented on, to become a war machine, their experiments changed her physically and mentally. Her crest was once identical to Kouske’s both having the crest of Yang but than veryhting was flipped her crest, her moles everything. Her eyes turned from the violet to a bright jarring yellow and slowly her hair was turning white. Because of the experiments her new crest had downsides, it often gave her more disadvantages than advantages. Though Crowbar’s magic was incredible she mastered it all quickly, as she was taught how to cast reason and faith magic before, but dark was new. But Crowbar had difficulty adapting to the new magic, to her new body, to the new everything, Kaguya was scrapped and was replaced with a new von Kamiyama, Crowbar though this was nothing Kaguya wanted. The mages never called her by her real name, they always call her Crowbar, because of this she only thought important people for her would get to know her real name. Her mental state was a mess too, as she was quite only doing what people, told her too and overall had a fucked up mental state. All of the experiments made her hate her grandparents, Nobels, crests and those who slither in the dark.

While in Kosuke’s side, he was crushed when she was taken away. Because of that incident he vowed to rescue his sister and destroy everyone who tried to take his sister away, who tired to use her and their crest, maybe that’s why he hates Hubert. His grandparents would train him nonstop with the sword giving him too many wounds to mend, too many tears shed. He trained himself to master black magic as Kaguya would often teach him spells and such. Though when everyone would ask where his sister was, he would often cast a gleaming smile that outshone the lies and say things like “She doesn’t like going outside” or “She’s sick so she has to stay home” though his most believable lie was always “As the eldest I have to take care of the political responsibilities like meetings and such while Kaguya takes care of the paper work” is what he told the worried nobles when he was just 10. His smile and lie became his “personality” as he also invented a new Kosuke von Kamiyama, though this was his fault as he didn’t want to bother anyone, if he did house of Kamiyama would be in shambles. Each lie and smile was believed and his personality slowly became louder, happier and more charming, charming many ladies who didn’t know the truth. None of the other Nobel children of the empire knew except Edelgard and Hubert. Somewhere after 1174 as that was when Edelgard was experimented on, Kosuke had met the Princess and her retainer as a meeting. Upon seeing the two, Kosuke had a terrible feeling to them, mainly Hubert. Of course Kosuke couldn’t say anything so he did he usual act which failed to get through them, Edelgard didn’t think too much about it, Hubert on the other hand was irritated by his fake personality. The trio spent more time together, of course it would often just be Edelgard and Ksouke talking and Hubert listening, this was where the hatred for Hubert started as Kosuke thought he was some weird stuck up edgy prick, but he thought of Edelgard as a respectable friend and even had a small crush. Though Edelgard had been told by Kosuke about his sister, while Hubert was somehow gone. Kosuke had told her about how his sister had been taken away since they were 10 to train and he hadn’t seen or heard from her. Edelgard sympathised as this was similar to here though she never told him that.

Also there’s only a relic for Kosuke’s, as Crowbar’s crest is a man made crest so the crest of Yang has a relic called Celestia Twin blades (I can’t name shit okay) also we be sticking with the twin theme *Edit I made it now Called the swords of Apollo and Artemis

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(kouske’s a hibari)

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Do you think Seijūrō would ask for Kōki's family's blessings before he officially proposes to Kōki?

Oh god I hope so 😭

I hope his older brother is there and is giving him shit agdjsjsk I imagine his brother (I can't remember what we've collectively called him, it begins with a K... Kouske??? I know fake akafuri stan, have I even read a spark of light) being all 'protective older brother' when he first meets Seijuurou because he isn't being swayed by the 'polite nice young man manners' that have their parents swooning and then he realizes how whipped Seijuurou is for Kouki and now only continues to be the 'protective older brother' as a bit.

I imagine Seijuurou asking for their blessing at their kitchen table and Kouki's parents just smile softly - they've seen how doting and respectful Seijuurou is of Kouki, that he truly loves him and wants to spend the rest of their lives together - and then the brother speaks, folds his arms over his chest, glares down at Seijuurou. "No. It has always been my belief that Kouki could do much better than you. I cannot give my approval."

A second of silence as Seijuurou debate between arguing or nodding his refusal, his brow stitching together, before the brother laughs and slaps Seijuurou on the back. "I'm joking, Akashi. We all knew this day was coming, I'm just surprised it's taken this long."

Seijuurou huffs, a smile lifting his lips. "Well, I once asked Kouki what his thoughts on marriage were; and at the time, he choked on his burger. Hence, the wait."

Kouki's brother laughs. "When did that happen?"

A knowing look entered Seijuurou's eyes. "Our third year of high school."

Cue Kouki’s brother squaking with laughter and nearly falling from his seat.

Also cue their mom and dad having the heartfelt conversation of "Of course you have our blessing Seijuurou. We know you will both treat each other with the care and love you both deserve. Seeing the both of you grow and mature over the past years, we have seen firsthand how you, mutually, encourage and foster this character development, always pushing each other to grow and being one another's support. You have been partners for years. You have been a part of this family for years. Now, you are only making it official. We love both you and Kouki with all of our hearts. We are very happy for you."

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I just want to apologize to Kouske and the trauma I gave him. I promise not to act like a shameless promiscuous woman. And I will not harass him again.

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Nol and Kousuke; their continued parallels

I know I never shut up about parallels and mirroring and foiling but that’s something that I find so fascinating about ILY - the intentional set up of characters who can illuminate something else in another character, and how the way they respond similarly or differently to their similar scenarios makes or breaks them. For instance, we see in Nol and Shinae typically positive mirroring - where she has learned from him how to be a better friend and turned around and gave it right back to him. But we also see between Nol and Kouske’s parallels a tendency to fracture and create chaos. 

The more we learn about Nol and Kousuke, and their relationship, the more intrigued I grow about how they parallel each other, because I think they are more alike than they - and some readers - realize. Or, rather, I think Nol is at least aware of it to some degree, but Kousuke remains locked up inside his comfortable bubble. 

I don’t have a clear cut thought-process for this post lol so please bear with me - I’m just tossing around some thoughts I’ve been having. It’s a LOT of long-winded rambling lol I’m sorry in advance 

To some degree, Nol and Kousuke’s parentage is paralleled. Neither of them had much of a relationship with Rand - for Nol, he didn’t even know his father for years, and Kousuke may as well not have as busy as Rand always was. They also had a mother who loved them. I’m using this word loosely here because frankly I think Yui sees Kousuke as an extension of herself, rather than a person of his own, and thus I feel like her love is more of a means for what she wants but, that’s part of what I’m getting at, too. Kousuke interprets it as love, Kousuke believes that their family is unlike others and that they don’t show affection the same way, that nurturing isn’t the same, and that Yui wants what is best for him and guides him to that goal. On the flipside, we have Nol who, as far as we can tell thus far, had a mother who loved him and doted on him, was affectionate and warm and made him feel like he was special, gifting him with a special nickname. 

The foil goes further, too - Kousuke grew up wealthy and privileged, wanting for nothing, with the security afforded to the family heir who would go on to one day inherit the company and the fortune. Nol, on the other hand, we can tell didn’t have the same fortune as Kousuke, and we get the sense that the only abundance they had was of warmth and love. Or maybe that’s just my projection, haha. At any rate, we see the set up clearly: one is cold, lonely, but with all wants fulfilled*; the other warm and affectionate though they may not have had everything they wanted. 

It’s easy to see that Nol was nurtured. That he may not have had all materialistic wants met, but his basic needs were. When he first meets Kousuke, he exudes confidence and charm, he seems like a friendly child. We also can see in him, even if he buries it deep down, that Nol is deeply empathetic and understanding of people, and even if he did it for penance, he took it upon himself to help others - but more than that, he seems to intuitively understand what people need, because he understands the wants and needs of people. 

Kousuke, on the other hand, doesn’t have that same ability, because he lacks the experiences Nol has. When you’ve had to want for nothing* your whole life, when you are intelligent and successful, when you have every opportunity afforded to you, you grow to accept what you’ve been told your whole life: that you are the best, that you will go on to do great things, that you are above these other baser needs. It was through the internalized belief that becoming better will make his father love him, that he could earn his father’s love by being just like him, that he would impress him and receive the love and attention he craved. So Kousuke never developed that understanding of the importance of friendship and peers, never learned the strife and trials others endure. He knows he’s privileged, but he also knew that empathy was beneath him, because he had no need to engage with others, because he knows his place and it’s above others. 

We haven’t seen young Nol interactions with kids his age outside of the teasing about his name, but it’s safe to guess that he probably had a pretty decent childhood before he and his mother moved closer to Rand. Kousuke on the other hand admits that he knows no one likes him, that he lacks the personality and charisma Nol possesses, that he fears he acquired none of Rand’s good traits and only the ones that made him the most like him in the worst way. 

Idk this is something I like to talk and think about, because it’s not clearly not simply a story of have vs have nots, or, well it isn’t so cut and dry. Because to some degree I guess it is. Nol had something that Kousuke didn’t - that affectionate nurturing, someone who gave him reassurance and warmth, someone who made him feel love. Does Kousuke feel love towards his mother? Does he even feel love towards his father? At a very young age he internalized that love is different for them, and he also internalized a transactional sense of love. That he must be worthy of love, that he must earn it. He forsook the activities a normal child his age should have engaged in and instead set himself on a one-track quest to chase after the one thing he ever wanted but couldn’t obtain: his father’s love. 

Though it can be argued Yui loves Kousuke, it doesn’t negate that he grew up in the face of neglect, and that he so deeply internalized this neglect until it poisoned him and grew from him an ugly, thorny bush that has him deeply caught within it. I think that’s the thing that’s saddest to me about Kousuke - he had everything he could want but for the one thing he truly desperately wanted, and it clouded him so strongly that he couldn’t see beyond it. It turned him into someone jealous and unhappy, someone who couldn’t bear to live with the idea that someone else might have had what he wanted, that someone else had experienced it, someone who wasn’t (in his mind) good enough. 

Kousuke believes that in order to win his father’s affection, he has to be good enough. And how could this illegitimate child possibly be good enough to win it? This illegitimate child who was nearly a spitting image of Rand, who had a bright smile and laughed. This child who emanated every positive trait used to describe Rand - every positive trait Kousuke had never born witness to. 

And because Nol wasn’t good enough because he was insatiably jealous the fear took root. Fear that nothing he did would ever matter, fear that Nol who already had beat him when it came to genetics, could possibly best him again. 

That neglect played so heavily into Kousuke’s identity that he has yet to separate himself from it, has acknowledged the way he is driven by fear and jealousy, that he couldn’t bear the idea of Nol ever besting him and did all he could to tear him down, to ensure he never could. And that’s the thing - Kousuke wasn’t wrong, although he wasn’t correct, either. Nol could have bested him, just not the way he feared. And, until now, he had chosen not to.

That’s the biggest difference in where Nol and Kousuke foil each other. Kousuke was raised with cold, lacked the kind of warm nurturing Nol had, learned love to be transactional, and that neglect turned into want and grew into jealousy and fear so intense that he had to tear someone down. But where Kousuke was raised in a corporate family, by business minded people who had no room for empathy and certainly not for those beneath him, by people who needed to be cunning and make calculated choices, Nol was raised by someone who seemed to exude warmth and instill in him the kinds of morals that were beneath Kousuke. Nol came to this new home equipped with empathy, and also with a gaping hole of want. 

Over and over Nol reached out to Kousuke, wanting to help him fill that hole of his own, hoping for a companion, for a buddy, to be part of a team. That even if they felt small - and though Kousuke may have felt otherwise, Rand certainly made him feel small and not good enough - they could have been together, they could have lifted each other up. Nol learned at an early age what it was like to have an ally, to have someone on your side, to have someone you were able to show your weakness to. Kousuke never did; he had to be perfect at all times. He could never make a misstep, lest he disappoint father, lest he set himself back on his quest for his father’s love.

And this further came to manifest as they grew older. Where Kousuke’s neglect turned him jealous and fearful, Nol’s didn’t really externalize the way Kousuke’s did. Even though he was punched down by Kousuke and attacked, even though we know his experiences with Yui still cause him fear, even though he, too, suffers from disappointing Rand, Nol never really took it out on Kousuke, the way Kousuke did to him. I think there’s another reason to it, but I do think his sense of empathy played a strong role, here. As someone going through it, and worse, Nol understood what it was like to feel like you weren’t good enough, that no matter what you did you would never make a difference. Over and over again he appealed to Kousuke knowing he wasn’t good enough in his eyes, but hoping one day he would be. He understood! 

That’s not to say that he hasn’t fought back because we’ve certainly seen that throughout ILY Nol has started to push back more, that more and more his veneer has changed and he’s gone from obedient for the sake of keeping peace to going toe to toe with Kousuke and finally voicing his feelings. But I think even up until the night before his court date, Nol hoped one day  he would reach Kousuke, that maybe there was something left in him that was salvageable. 

But that’s not all! I think that’s the most obvious way that Nol and Kousuke foil each other, because it constitutes for so much of who they are, of their core identities. Nol made a point to distance himself from people out of both a fear that he would bring harm to others and a deeply held belief that he didn’t even deserve that kindness. And yet he still reached out to people who needed that help. Even though his motivation stemmed from a selfish place (his penance), it still was an act of kindness, it was still him empathizing with people and playing his part to benefit them. Kousuke, though, came from an environment that encouraged every man for himself, that there’s no good in softness, that you had to be hard to be strong you had to be above your feelings, that you had to be the best, that people were beneath you and you had to ensure they knew it. 

And yet, Nol and Kousuke both are SO SIMILAR in ways that they don’t seem to realize, I think, because they are so blinded by the very thing that makes them so similar. 

Especially at this current stage of the story, we see that both Nol and Kousuke are at war with themselves. Or rather, there’s a battle raging on within each of them, both of them contending what they believe to be true and actual reality. 

Kousuke has spent a long time projecting on Nol. We’ve been seeing it for many episodes, all the way back to the night he got drunk at the club with Kousuke and Yujing and all the voices he “heard”, people talking about him and saying things that were, frankly, true. Things that deep down he knows to be true of himself. We’ve seen him lie to himself on MANY occasions, usually to placate himself. We’ve also seen times he’s stated things with eyes closed, impying some kind of mask or lie. One that I remember off the top of my head really clearly was when Nol and Shinae were bickering about his jacket at dinner, and Kousuke told them they’re ridiculous, they’re acting like children. But looking back on it, doesn’t it feel more like a moment of Kousuke’s jealousy he spoke of? That Nol is someone so good natured and easy to get along with, that people just naturally get along with him. He doesn’t have these kinds of frivolous relationships with people, doesn’t even allow himself them because there’s no time he has better things to be doing. 

But by stuffing down these little truths, by squashing down his insecurities and fears, by lying to himself at each opportunity, Kousuke plays heavily into the world he believes in, and it’s clear to us readers that the world he believes in is not, in fact, true. 

Quimchee has talked before about how memory plays a role in this story - and that there isn’t one true memory, because everyone’s memory is biased by their own views, their own feelings. Memories are malleable - over and over you remember things and details change and you can’t quite recall what was or wasn’t true. 

Kousuke speaks with such conviction of things that aren’t entirely true. Even recently, he said to Nol “Do you know how much trouble I’m in with father because of you?” even though he’d just had a phone call with Rand reassuring him he was not, in fact, in trouble, and that all Rand wanted was to know they are safe. But it doesn’t compute with what Kousuke knows to be true - that Rand will be disappointed in him, that he is Nol’s keeper, that it’s his job to keep an eye on Nol, so he dismisses the truth and reverts back to his own version of things. 

Not only that, but even the aftermath of that call roughed him up and worked him up so much it set him off on a spiral. Kousuke was dealing with a lot that night, especially with what he believes is expected of him. He was already high tension long before Nol jumped into the pool, and long before that call with Rand, but by the time he shows up at the Parks’ house, he’s full on spiraling, ruder than usual, meaner than he tends to allow himself to look in front of others (he prides himself on being a gentleman and understanding the importance of decorum and a good public image). 

When reality tests his false reality, it sets him off. He can’t handle the dissonance between the two, is incapable of facing that what he deeply believes to be true may not be. Because if that isn’t true, what else isn’t it? And from what we saw after he punched Nol and he took that fall, there’s something buried deep in Kousuke’s subconscious that he cannot face, that he refuses to. Something that he is protecting himself from. 

“Sometimes those that experience trauma create falsified memories to cope.” 

Kousuke is speaking of Nol, but I’m pretty sure he’s projecting. He’s the one, I think, with the falsified memory (though I’ll get to Nol in a moment). He is the one who has come away from that night Nol was taken away the inherent belief that Nol is unstable and violent, that Nol attacked him, that he is constantly laying an attack on him. He’s paranoid of Nol at every turn and takes every success Nol has as a slight against him. Maybe Nol was planning all along to use Oxford as an opportunity to best Kousuke and threaten him. But Kousuke never even considered an alternative. I think there’s even a likelihood that he got in the way of Nol and Shinae’s growing friendship not only to isolate Nol again, but because that jealousy still eats him up: that Nol is so personable and likable, that he just has a way with people who end up genuinely liking him, whereas no one likes Kousuke; he lacks what Nol has that makes him so likeable. But anything Nol does that looks like success is a slight against Kousuke. He can’t bear to see him rise up, lest he ever rise high enough to eclipse Kousuke. 

And while it’s very believable Nol is the violent one - because we’ve seen him lash out already and we know about his punching bag and what angers does to him and how he relieves it - we also have to wonder. If Nol was the one who attacked, why was Kousuke the one huff huff huffing in his memory, just like after punching Nol? It doesn’t match up with Nol’s memory - asking what he did wrong insisting he didn’t do anything. We’ve already established memories can be falsified - so whose is? What is it that is so traumatic about this experience that Kousuke couldn’t clearly recall it? There’s a whole post to be said about that memory and why we should be wary of its accuracy based on the coloring but that’s not for me to write (someone else on reddit has said they are working on it and I look forward to it!) but the point is: Kousuke is probably the one coping with falsified memories, with a false reality. 

But he’s also not quite wrong, I think. Like I said, this is where Nol and Kousuke overlap in similarities. 

It’s harder to state for certainty regarding Nol, since it’s just conjecture at this point, but I think it’s safe to say that Nol’s inherent belief that he is a monster, that he is a villain, is part of a falsified reality, and I think his was born out of the time he spent in that mental facility. In fact, a lot of Nol’s other trauma reactions seem to be born of that time. He’s vehemently against medicine, he doesn’t like to be in hospitals, his entire reaction when he woke up thinking he was back at Hirahara Memorial alone is enough to deduce that the time Nol was there was awful and irrevocably changed him. Is that where the belief that he’s a monster was born? Was it through Kousuke’s emotional abuse and the time he spent in the mental facility that Nol came to regard himself so lowly, that he came to believe everyone is better off without him, that he can only bring danger and badness to people he cares about? 

We’re obviously missing a few puzzle pieces here, but I think it’s a safe guess. Did something happen to his mom as a result of her pregnancy or his birth, or is it more than something happened to her and he feels like it wouldn’t have if he’d never been born? It feels like something happened and he was made to internalize it. Not all “mental facilities” are good, and not all have the good of the kids in mind. And worse, with Yui’s connections to the hospital, it’s likely that what was “meant to be” help was the complete opposite. I feel like that’s why Nol has internalized it so deeply; it’s something that was pressed upon him at a vulnerable time and it completely changed the way he views himself and how he thinks he’s reflected to the world. 

Kousuke clings to his falsified reality for comfort, Nol hides in his because he has nowhere else to go. Kousuke is afraid of reality and the truth, Nol is incapable of even seeing it! And even here, where they are so alike, they still react differently. When faced with dissonance between his reality and actual reality, Kousuke externalizes it, starts spiraling and grows angry. (Or, we could say.... he becomes.... unstable?) Nol, though, internalizes his and delves deeper into that dark. 

Now, I’m not saying there’s no case for Nol having ever attacked Kousuke. But I also wonder if we aren’t supposed to think deeper on this. Nol looks like he’s violent based on this altercation with Kousuke and what we saw with Sangchul, and how hard it is for him to bite back his anger. But we also know Kousuke to be an unstable person - he struggles with reconciling truth with what he believes and when he gets overwhelmed and stressed, he becomes irascible and paranoid - and some of that paranoia seems to leak the truth he’s fighting. But that’s not what this post is about lol. 

The point is, both Nol and Kousuke are struggling to reconcile what they believe and what is really true. So much of Kousuke’s peace seems to hinge on what he believes - it’s so easy to tip the scale and lead him into a spiral as he fights off the truth. Control is what makes him feel powerful - not in just the lording over people way, but over his own mental state. He needs everything to adhere to what he believes, lest he have to face something he isn’t ready for, something that will change everything he believes. He needs to believe that what he knows to be true, because who is he, what is he, if it isn’t? What of the years he spent grinding and trying his best to meet someone’s approval if it was all in vain? 

But Nol struggles with his falsified reality because he believes himself to be dangerous and undeserving. Who is he, to think he deserves friendship, to think he deserves kindness? Who is he to think he deserves comfort. For what he believes he’s done, he must suffer and any form of peace is undeserved - even dying. But we see that he is starting to struggle with that - he has formed friends he thinks he doesn’t deserve and they care about him. He is allowing himself moments of relying on others, of accepting their comfort. How does he reconcile his internalized beliefs with what he is finding himself wanting?

If we are to take their drunken states to be indicative of some truths they cannot face - like Kousuke’s paranoia that people are talking about him, that they are saying horrible (but true) things about him as a reflection of how he sees himself and what he believes of himself, then Nol fighting with Alyssa and stating that he doesn’t even want to be there, that there’s somewhere else he’d rather be is indicative of the truth he is denying, seeing in a group of strangers the people he’s yearning for. Just because he doesn’t believe he deserves it doesn’t mean he doesn’t want it. As much as Nol believes he’s a monster meant to be vilified, he still craves the comfort that comes from his friends. He still wants to be around people who DO love him, around people who see the good in him. 

They both struggle to reconcile this with reality. Kousuke can’t face who he really is, that he spent his whole life trying to earn affection that should have been given. He left no room in his life for anything he enjoyed because there was one desire that trumped it all, one reward that would justify the means. Who is he if what he believes isn’t true. What has he lived for, if he will never obtain his strongest desire? How do you live with yourself, when you realize that? So he runs from it, he takes shelter in something that makes sense, that makes him feel better, that grants him the control he needs. And Nol runs from his truth, because what he believes - that he is a monster - is something he can’t let go of, lest he bring more harm to people he cares about. He has to evade it, lest the truth catch him - that maybe he isn’t the monster he believes, that maybe he does deserve the love he craves. How can he continue to evade it, though, unless he continues to believe in his truth? 

I really look forward to seeing what Nol and Kousuke make of these scenarios, of whether or not they ever choose to accept/embrace reality (or if it has to be pushed on them). In a sense, they both reside in these falsified realities for a sense of control and security. Maybe Nol knows deep down that he can’t control what happens to the people he loves, so he just hopes by distancing himself he can control that much. They both face very difficult choices and have a lot of demons to confront, and I want to see they’ll ever find where they overlap again or if they will choose forked paths. 

It all boils down to this: Nol and Kousuke are both prisoner of their own minds, in some way. Neither of them can move forward until they tackle that, but it’s such an intrinsically woven part of them, how are they to shed that? That’s what I’m dying to see. 

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Listen/purchase: Kousk - Morning Mushroom (Original Mix) by Garasadah Records

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Geats cast react to... [just after the Jyamatos are beaten, a sequel to the geats cast reacting to Yuzuru and Kotaro and turning giant/their hand giant]

Kadoya: How did you two end up here?

Kadoya: You're not supposed to be here.

Kotaro: I don't know, I was eating in Spada's restaurant one moment, and I'm here with Yuzuru-kun fighting these inves-like monsters.

Yuzuru: Kotaro-kun is right, I was with Kouske -niichan one moment and I'm fighting the next.

Yuzuru: What did you call them, Kotaro-kun?

Kotaro: Inves, wait, that means...

Kadoya: Okay, time for the both of you to return to your timeline.

Kadoya: Hopefully before Wizard and Beast blow a gasket.

Kadoya: And we won't have another Taisen in our hands.

Yuzuru: From what Kousuke-niichan told me, that was totally your doing.

Kadoya: Hai, hai, in you go, the both of you.

It's Keiwa's face that really sells this shot lmao

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P5R: Rebel Girl (A FeMC Story/P5R Rework) Chapter 240: Recoup and Regroup

Ren started waking up. She was in a haze after dueling with Akechi. Staring over her were Morgana and Sumire. “You’re awake!” Sumire exclaimed

Ren sat up and blinked. “Where am I?” she asked.

“You’re in your room,” Morgana explained.

Ren looked around, recognizing her room in Sojiro’s house. “Oh yeah.”

Sumire giggled. “I’ll go tell the others.” She left the room.

Ren looked at Morgana. “What happened?”

“You and Akechi knocked each other out,” Morgana explained.

“Hm,” Ren smirked. “I’m just glad I didn’t lose.”

“We had to carry you out,” Morgana said. “You seemed fine, if a bit exhausted, so we figured we should get you home as soon as possible.”

“How did you manage to get me here?” Ren asked.

“Sumire called a cab,” Morgana explained. "She stayed with you the entire time, while everyone else took the train.”

“So, where are they now?” Ren asked.

“Right here!” Futaba replied.

Ren looked at the door to see not only Futaba, but everyone gathering to see her wake up. “Oh. You’re all still here.”

“Of course we are!” Ann exclaimed. “We wanted to make sure you’re alright!”

Yusuke nodded. “If something bad had happened, and you needed to go to the hospital, we wanted to be there for you.”

“Although I don’t know how a hospital would help entirely,” Ryuji admitted. “But it would be better than nothing.”

“How are you feeling?” Makoto asked.

“Do you want me to cook you something?” Haru wondered.

“I can help!” Jose offered.

Ren smiled. “I’m fine. For now at least. I might want to eat something later, but I did just get up, so it might take a second.”

“Noted,” Haru said.

“I’m sorry…” Lena bursted out.

Ren turned towards her. “What for?”

Lena sighed. “...I feel like I should have stopped the duel between you and Goro. I think he might have listened to me.”

“Don’t beat yourself up about that,” Ren told her. “I mean, I also wanted to fight him. It takes two to tango, after all.”

“Still…” Lena said.

“I understand what you mean,” Ryuji said, “but Akechi isn’t himself right now.”

“Yeah,” Ann said. “I mean, when Shiho was Kamoshida’s Crusader, she wanted to lock all the teachers in the school and set it on fire. Any logic you might have gets thrown out the window.”

“Yeah,” Makoto said. “And I know it’s really hard with someone who you know and trust a lot. It’s not entirely the same, but when Naoko was crusading against Kaneshiro, it was incredibly tough for me because, well, he’s like a second father to me.”

“But…he was planning on going after Shido from the start, right?” Lena asked.

“That may be true,” Yusuke said. “But Eris always amplifies the worst instincts of people. I mean, Kouske had every right to be angry with Madarame, but seeing him as a Crusader was a different experience entirely.”

“But the Akechi you know is still in there somewhere,” Haru added. “Like with Hiroki. He’s always wanted to do something about my father, but then Eris gave him power, and he went mad with it. It was upsetting, but it also assured me that the Hiroki I knew wasn’t lost. And I fought to make sure I didn’t lose him.”

“I dunno,” Lena said. “Maybe I could have…”

“No, you couldn’t!” Futaba interjected. “I know what it’s like to be controlled by Eris! Once you accept, you get this extreme tunnel vision that needs to be knocked out of you. I know it’s hard to accept, but once he decided to take a bite of that apple, there’s nothing you can do besides shake him from it.”

“Yeah!” Jose added. “Look at Sae. She was so committed to her crusade that she nearly fell apart! Between us and Riko, we were the only things that kept her together in the end.”

“Jose’s right,” Morgana said. “There’s no point in blaming ourselves. What’s done is done. Right now, we just need to focus on what we’re going to do from here.”

Sumire took Lena’s hand. “I know it’s hard. But with all of us working together, we can make it right.”

Lena smiled, shedding a single tear. She wiped it. “Thanks everyone.”

Ren nodded. “Well, as much as I want to, I think it’s best that I, well, everyone really, but me especially, take a bit of a break before going back into the palace.”

Sumire chuckled. “I agree on that.”

“I know why you’re saying you want to take a break,” Ryuji said, “but everyone else?”

“Well,” Ren explained, “everything about the palace thus far was harrowing to say the least. I think giving us some space between now and finishing it out would be good for our mental health.”

“Gotcha,” Ryuji said.

“But don’t we need to steal his heart before the election?” Haru asked.

“And I don’t imagine we’re going to go in, fight three more people, and steal the treasure,” Yusuke added.

Ren smirked. “Don’t worry. We’ll manage. It’s just a matter of finding a balance.”

Ann got an idea. “You know what might toughen us up?” she asked. “A trip to Mementos! I heard from one of my colleagues about this show-biz manager named Shiro Asakura who’s basically a mini-Kamoshida.”

“Yikes!” Ryuji said. “Well I’m down!”

“I agree,” Haru said. “He sounds awful!”

“Well, now that you mention it,” Lena said. “I heard from Goro, you know, before all of this, about a rumor at his school where it appears some guy is dating a bunch of girls and turning them on each other; some of them life-long friends. I don’t think it’s as bad as being like Kamoshida, but it has gotten so bad that some of them asked Goro to investigate.”

Makoto nodded. “I heard similar stories at our school too. I’ve done a little digging, and it turns out his name is Hikaru Arihara. And I agree, I think it’s worth taking him down a peg. Having multiple girlfriends is…nebulous at best, but turning friends against each other is despicable.”

Sumire nodded. “I also heard something.”

“Oh?” Jose wondered.

“One of the stories my dad proposed to report on was about this guy who would go to random elderly people and talk with them,” Sumire explained. “He’d get to know them to the point where he’d con them out of their money.”

“That’s terrible!” Haru exclaimed

“I agree,” Sumire said. “But my dad said his boss didn’t think it would be good for a news report. And well, now we know why. But I don’t know the guy’s name.”

“I can look into it,” Futaba said. “If it’s been happening to the point where it’s even being considered for the news, it’s going to be talked about.”

“Thanks Futaba,” Sumire said.

“I’ve actually got one myself,” Ren said.

“Do you now?” Yusuke said.

Ren nodded. “Her name is Hanae Oda.”

“Wait, like the King?” Futaba wondered.

“The very same,” Ren explained. “It’s his mother.”

“What did she do?” Futaba asked.

“Well,” Ren began, “it’s not entirely insidious, but it’s not great. See, her husband left her.”

“Oh my!” Makoto said.

“And since then, she’s been acting all…aggressive,” Ren went on. “She’s pretending that everything is OK when it’s not. She’s blaming other people for things they didn’t do. She makes such a scene wherever she goes that Shinya gets bullied for it. And she instructs him to bully kids back.”

“That…sounds awful…” Ann said.

“I agree!” Ryuji said. “I mean, I can’t say I don’t get it, but she’s going over the line!”

“Yeah!” Morgana agreed. “It sounds like she doesn’t want to move on.”

“I get that too,” Ren admitted. “But ever since coming here, I’ve learned to move on. And it’s all thanks to you.” She sighed. “Truth is, I don’t think I’d even be able to stomach Shido’s palace without all of you.” She looked at Ann. “I mean, remember when we first met. Kamoshida almost assaulted me, and yet you were the one crying. Back then, I was so used to suppressing my tears and just grin and bear it. But if I had to do that here, I think I’d die. So thank you. Thank you, everyone.”

Ann walked over and sat next to Ren. She stroked her hair. “Hey. You taught us important things too. So thanks as well.”

Ren giggled. “What are friends for?” Both of them giggled.

“Oh yeah!” Jose remembered. “Should we tell Ren what we found while she was sleeping?”

Ren was curious, and looked over. “What did you find?”

“Well, it’s just stuff about Shido’s trusted individuals,” Futaba explained. “First off, maybe someone should go to my room to get the treasures.”

“I’ll go!” Yusuke volunteered.

“I’ll go too,” Makoto said. “Make sure he doesn’t mess with anything.”

“Thanks,” Futaba said.

“I learned my lesson!” Yusuke protested. The two of them left, and then came back a little later.

“Thanks,” Futaba said.

“My pleasure,” Yusuke said. “Which do you want first?”

“Let’s just go in order,” Futaba answered. Yusuke nodded, and handed her a certificate. “So, this is what Ooe’s treasure was.”

Ren looked it over. “What is it exactly?”

“It’s a proof of ownership,” Futaba said. “After looking into him, I found that Ooe is both petty and scatterbrained. He’s made a lot of mistakes, but instead of learning from them, he wants revenge.”

“Apparently, he got into a fight with an electronics company over something he’d bought,” Lena explained. “Ooe said that the product was faulty, but the company insisted that Ooe had broken it himself. So a few years later, he used his business acumen to buy out the company.”

“And there are several more stories like that,” Futaba said.

“Like the train thing,” Ren reasoned.

“Like the train thing,” Futaba repeated. “That seems to be his ultimate goal.”

Makoto jumped in. “He basically wants to make it so that the customer is always in the right. And making sure the consumer is being treated fairly is valiant, but he is always convinced that he should get what he wants when he wants it.”

“I can see why he’d be on the ship,” Ren noted.

“Next up, the noble,” Futaba went on. Yusuke handed her a manilla envelope.

“That’s peculiar,” Ren said.

“Wel, the contents are pretty straight forward,” Futaba said. “Someone tried to sue him, but it was brushed under the rug because of his status. And these are the documents for it.”

“And guess what that pool pervert tried?” Ann said.

“I see,” Ren replied, realizing the gist of the offense.

“Well, he wasn’t actually forcing anything entirely,” Ann said. “However, he used his status to continually ask a woman out, even when she refused multiple times.”

“She took it to court, where they did side with her,” Yusuke said, “but since he is a former noble, it didn’t get a lot of attention. He hasn’t contacted her since.”

“But the incident seemed to have left a mark,” Futaba continued. “Before all that happened, he used to be very outgoing, and would act as one of the public faces of the Imperial Family. But since then, he’s hardly been seen in public.”

“I think he realized that his status couldn’t get him everywhere,” Ann mused. “And it looks like he’s teaming up with Shido in order to change that.”

Futaba nodded. “And our final one for now.” Yusuke handed her a picture frame with a woman and three children; two girls, one boy. “This is the treasure of our executive friend!”

Ren was bemused. “That seems a little too quaint.”

“I agree,” Futaba replied.

“It’s kind of a sad story really,” Haru explained. “On the day he graduated college, his parents were involved in a car accident. They didn’t make it. He got so paranoid that he’d have a system for making sure the people in his life were safe at all times.”

“Even though no one else had gotten hurt, he would push his weird safety measures, thinking they were the reason,” Jose went on. “But he had a normal life otherwise. Got married, had kids, rose through the ranks of his company.”

“But one day,” Haru continued, “he was leaving work, ready to be picked up by his wife, when he noticed that these guys were trying to mug her. He rushed over and saved her, but also arguably went too hard against the would-be muggers.”

“One of them needed physical therapy to be able to walk again,” Futaba pointed out.

“Yeesh!” Ren reacted.

“After that, his wife got frightened of him, and divorced him,” Haru told her. “He tried to explain his rationale, but she was too terrified.”

“I see,” Ren said.

“He’s a control freak with abandonment issues,” Futaba said. “And while I kind of feel sorry for him, he’s gone too far with his philosophy.”

“I agree,” Ren said. “So what’s the plan for all of this then?”

“Well, I imagine that they might want to confess their sins,” Sumire posited. “But since Shido’s still up and about, I’m worried he might try to kill them.”

“One step ahead of you,” Makoto said. “I called Naoko and explained the situation to him. He’s on the case. He and some of his buddies in the Tokyo PD are making sure they’re safe.”

Sumire smiled. “Great!”

“You weren’t in there with them to hear all that?” Ren asked.

“Nah,” Morgana answered. “She and I were busy watching you to make sure you were OK.”

“You look so peaceful when you’re asleep,” Sumire explained.

“Oh, uh, thanks,” Ren said, blushing. Sumire giggled.

“As for what to do with all of this,” Jose said, “we came to the conclusion we should just get rid of it.”

“How come?” Morgana asked.

“Well, the certificate of ownership would be useful,” Ryuji said, “if it wasn’t going to be outed as a fake from the word ‘go’.”

“And we can’t use those documents against the noble,” Makoto pointed out. “Because again they’d be seen as fake, and the prosecution would be accused for forging evidence.”

“And, well, as sad as it is,” Haru said, “I don’t know if we can find a use for a picture full of strangers.”

“I see,” Ren said.

“We’re not getting rid of them right away,” Futaba said. “But I think it’s the best course of action.”

“I think so too,” Ren said. She stretched. “Well, this has been very informative, but it’s getting late. I need to rest up, and I think everyone else does too.”

“Roger that!” Futaba said. The Phantom Thieves left Ren’s room.

Sumire was the last to leave. She turned back to Ren, and said “Goodnight.” She flicked the switch off, and left.

Ren smiled. “Goodnight.” She stretched some more, and then headed back to sleep.

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Chapter 1 (Kosuke Kira x Female!OC)

OC POV

I saw what Kosuke did to those people but I don’t blame him. I didn’t like them very much either. He is in jail now but I hear his dad got him a good lawyer, so he will be out soon… at least I hope so.

Now I’m playing BTOOOM! Setting my traps on people when I can. It’s fun to see them get so frustrated when they don’t see it coming. I love it so much!!

Kosuke is getting out of jail today and I’m waiting outside by myself. My family doesn’t like me hanging out with Kosuke, so I had to walk here while they were out. I don’t care for them much, besides I’m just happy that he’s ok. I’m sitting on a bench outside of the police station. I’m listening to music with my purple headphones while I wait. These headphones are special because Kosuke got them for me on my 13th birthday. As the song I'm listening to ends, I hear doors open and I turn to see Kosuke walk out of the police station with a short man beside him.

“Kosuke!” I yell out loud in excitement. I've missed him since he's been in jail. I didn't think he heard me at first but he did because he looked over at me.

“Mikomaru.” He said in a quiet voice with a small smile. As he said this the short man looked over at me as well. The short man looked astonished that Kosuke knew me or something I guess.

“Kosuke,” the short man said as he looked from me to him “you know that girl?” he asked him.

“Yes I do,” Kosuke quietly responded as he walked over and stood next to me, “Mikomaru is my best friend.” He finally said in his regular voice.

“Yeah Kosuke and I are friends!” I said matter-of-factly. I heard Kosuke laugh a little from beside me, putting his hand on my arm, although as soon as he started laughing he stopped.

“Oh so you and him are friends?” I heard a voice say from behind us.

I recognized that voice straight away. That voice belomgs to Kosuke’s dad, and he didn’t sound happy. Then again, when does he ever sound happy? “Yes sir, Kosuke and I are friends.” I said uneasily. This man scared me, I really hate how he acts, especially towards Kosuke.

“Hmm, well me and kosuke are going home now aren’t we?” Mr. Kira asked Kosuke.

Kosuke didn’t respond

“Kosuke!” Mr. Kira said loudly.

Kosuke still didn’t respond, his grip tighten on my arm a little, and he started shaking.

“Kosuke!!” Mr. Kira said even louder.

I could tell Mr. Kira was getting upset, but I didn’t know what to do. As Mr. Kira was taking a step towards us, I heard someone with a deep voice say “excuse me.” We all looked over to see who it was. It was a man in a black suit in front of four other men dressed the same.

“What do-” before Mr. Kira could even finish, many men in onyx sunglasses surrounded us.

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Then, before I knew it, I was surrounded by darkness.