I'm passionate about what I believe in
I believe that I am
whole
complete
And a saved soul
I believe I have the rights to my human rights and my basic human rights that god gave me....
It motivates me what I stand for ....
Man if I didn't stand for nothing at all wow... What a Shame it would be.
M...f....sss ers.... be trying to tell me what to do, what to say ya... Noo honey, like my fashion brand
To ya bitches and hoes I stand for what I believe in and that's what wins and that's life.
Wow how powerful I stand for life and what I believe in and I don't let others tell me what to do or say ... Or feel or that I should not feel how I feel ...
What?
No
This a joke right?
Oh hell nooo yes what I believe in I do ( M. FuckErs) and I keep it to myself for this I win all the glory.... And I win at life ...
What I believe in I stand for and nobody can stop me.... And tell me what to do... This is life and I choose life
Y'all korny asses yes korny with a K choose death tell y'all people what to say or do that's death
No
I choose life
Nobody gonna tell loulou Anderson what do
For now all hale loulou Anderson
All hale the Queen as Loulou Anderson
I am loulou Anderson and I choose life ....
Like no
No honey
Y'all full of shit with that death story ...
It's not a secret to choose life
I choose life and I celebrate it
Korny m.. foss
Y'all better back the f.... Up out my life and biz.....
Amen
In the name of Jesus Christ Amen ....
Peace
To god
Jesus
Holy spirit ...
This is what I came here to do tell my story of the resurrection of Jesus Christ from y'all ungrateful asses... No honey ... I choose life
In the name of Jesus Christ Amen ..
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Three Minutes to Eternity: My ESC 250 (#200-191)
#200: Alice Babs -- Lilla stjärna (Sweden 1958)
“Lilla stjärna i det höga, svara mig, svara mig,
Kommer han som jag ska få så kär?”
“Little star up above, answer me, answer me,
Is he coming, the man that I will love?”
And so we begin the top 200 with an innocent and sweet number, and which resembles the best of 1950s Eurovision. I'm not a fan of the decade, because most of the songs are a bit too old-fashioned for my taste (especially since we have the beginnings of rock-n-roll outside the contest), but Lilla stjarna is one of the better soundtrack-like songs.
Before Sweden became the superpower in Eurovision we all know and love (or love to hate), they debuted with this dainty, beautiful song that was selected internally. There's a sense of longing in the lyrics, with the narrator hoping that their loved one would return. It’s definitely a fairytale, with that classical instrumentation and Alice’s innocent voice.
Personal ranking: 2nd/10
Actual ranking: 4th/10 in Hilversum
#199: Domenico Modugno -- Nel Blu Dipinto di Blu (Italy 1958)
“Penso che un sogno così non ritorni mai più
Mi dipingevo le mani e la faccia di blu
Poi d’improvviso venivo dal vento rapito
E incominciavo a volare nel cielo infinito”
“I think such a dream will never come back
I painted my hands and my face blue
Then suddenly I was ravished by the wind
And I started flying in the infinite sky”
The original classic from Eurovision, and the biggest hit of them all. It topped the Billboard charts in 1959, won two Grammys in the first-ever ceremony in 1959 (and still the only Italian-language song to do so), and is covered and over again to this day.
Considering the lack of attention most of the songs got in the first two contests, it's possible without Nel blu dipinto di blu's commercial success, we wouldn't have a Eurovision Song Contest to speak of. Or it would've been done for by 1960, haha.
Sometimes, I forget about this song when thinking about favorites, but when I listen to the intro, it starts bringing you into its little world, where I’m actually flying! The lyrics are quite cool and imaginative, adding to that feeling.
And of course, that "Volare..." is enough to keep people singing along!
Personal ranking: 1st/10
Actual ranking: 3rd/10 in Hilversum #Italywasrobbed
#198: Korni -- Moja Generacjia (Yugoslavia 1974)
“Mene majka moja rodi da sanjam o slobodi,
U prvoj noći da čujem zveket,
Da plačem sa rukom na usnama,”
“My mother gave me life to dream of freedom,
The first night to hear gun sounds
To cry with my hand on my lips”
World War II in Yugoslavia is not something I've learned about in depth. What I do know is that the Axis powers were able to take the whole country, and two major groups arose to collaborate with them. The Ustashas (Croatian nationalists) and Chetniks (Serbian nationalists) also both sought to destroy the other ethnic group and there was a bit of a mess all around.
(If you have any more information on this topic, let me know as I do want to learn)
Moja Generacija is a harrowing but powerful progressive rock song about those born during the Second World War, and their lives as a whole. I like the dark soundscape along with the instruments that accompanied it too. The orchestration at the chorus is especially noteworthy, because of the sweeping strings and the brass which highlight the times as a whole.
(And apparently, there's a seven-minute English-language cut, which makes it even more of a progressive rock song.)
Personal ranking: 3rd/17
Actual ranking: 12th/17 in Brighton
#197: Shiri Maimon -- HaSheket Shenishar (Israel 2005)
המבט אחר והקור חודר
אתה מסתתר, את גופי שובר
“The glance is different and the cold is piercing
You’re hiding, breaking my body”
Israel in the 2000s wasn't the best song-wise. I can only think of two songs that were really good in that period--of which this was one of them, which held Israel's best placing this century until Toy won three years ago. And it couldn't be anymore different from the song Israel would eventually win with.
Initially, I didn't get it, as it felt a bit derivative. Even now, it has offgrown me a bit because of pop ballad structure. But what I really liked was the smooth transition between Hebrew and English, along with how well Shiri sings it. She has a really sweet tone to her voice, which really helps in conveying the sorrow of being in love with a cheating partner and having to let go of it for her own happiness.
And that dress--it has to be one of my favorite performance outfits of all time!
Personal ranking: 4th/39
Actual ranking: 4th/24 GF in Kyiv
#196: Inga and Anush -- Jan Jan (Armenia 2009)
“Can't ya see, we aren't free?,
Fixed like a tree to the holy ground,
With my sound, gotta be always around,
I wanna dance, don't ya stand, sister give your hand,”
"Sister, here we go!"
For a dance song, it's actually quite sedate--there isn't many moments of true boppiness, but there was something more "psychadelic" about the production and how it was put together. Either way, it works well all the same.
The sisters do a good job singing together, and I like the mix of ethno and dance music. Plus, their costumes are absolutely expensive and glamourous--I would like to wear them if I ever got the chance.
Also, for some reason, Azeris like to spam the comments on this song and claim that the Armenians "stole" their traditional clothing and music. Considering the two countries' proximity, I'm not so shocked about their similarities, but if Azeris would like to share a bit more of their ethnic music, it's always welcome!
Personal ranking: 8th/42
Actual ranking: 10th/25 GF in Moscow
#195: Sabina Babayeva -- When the Music Dies (Azerbaijan 2012)
“You, you are the best of me
The reason that I believe, so don't leave me now...”
(Yes, Azerbaijan can send ethnic-influenced music. Hehe.)
Azerbaijan’s host entry when they brought the contest to Baku is a bit of a standard ballad, but with an ethnic twist. The use of balaban really highlights the melancholy of the song, and the mughum vocals pierces one's soul when performed.
I could feel how Sabina sings every word, pleading with her lover to stay with her despite it all. And that doesn’t begin to add with the beautiful LED dress, adding to the drama of the song as we see it in white, but it gets overlaid with sparks, shades of turquoise, and its final form with reds and oranges. That was a particularly beautiful moment.
A lot of fans believe this was the song that should've won it for Azerbaijan, and I can't disagree! This is a gem indeed.
Personal ranking: 6th/42 (a bit awkward here because I left out my runner-up of 2012 in this ranking, so amongst the songs here it's 5th/42)
Actual ranking: 4th/26 GF in Baku
#194: Milestones -- Falter im Wind (Austria 1972)
“Tanz um die Lichter, Schmetterling,
Deine Farben flammen auf,
Tot ist die Nacht, in deinem Tanz,
Ist das Leben hell wie Tag”,
“Dance around the lights, butterfly
Your colours flame up
The night is dead, in your dance
Life is bright like the day”
My first forays on pre-1990s Eurovision was with the British blog, Lovelovepeacepeace. She would recap every year between 1968 and 2000, and 1972 was one of the years I went through the songs because of her. Coincidentally, I got to like Falter im Wind as much as she does.
It definitely fits with the hippy era, in terms of folk music and the general aesthetic. There's even a prominent (weird little) flute motif throughout. The lyrics talk about the life or a butterfly and how it shouldn't go to far into the sun. A bit strange, considering what most other songs are about, but it's a nice and gentle sentiment (with a message not unlike that of "Waterfalls", how strange).
Austria is not usually known for their highlights, but this is definitely one of their best (and a personal favorite of mine). Feel free to go an a road-trip playing this (though not with the studio cut--that's a bit slower)!
Personal ranking: 1st/18
Actual ranking: 5th/18 in Edinburgh
#193: Roger Bens -- Femme dans ses rêves aussi (France 1985)
“Mélodie, mélodrame, sourire et puis larmes
Amoureuse ou sans âme, elle est d’abord femme...”
“Melody, melodrama, smile and then tears
In love or without soul, first of all she’s woman”
ESC 1985 is notable not only because of a certain ripped-skirt incident, but also because they have a live album with the first eleven songs of the contest. Among these is the French entry, which has one of the best orchestrations of all-time, thanks to Michel Bernholc's arrangemnt.
(And because of that, it is my most-listened to song on Spotify)
The violins primarily make this song what it is—there are synths in the studio track, but don’t pack the same punch. The bass really provides some depth, and the brass at the bridge really sells the whole thing home.
The sense of drama in the song also includes the lyrics about being a woman and embracing her in all the ways. Despite the occasional eyebrow-raising and lip licking, Roger sings this with gusto.
To add to this, where is Roger Bens? This was the last known sighting of him and he is presumed to be dead.
Personal ranking: 3rd/19
Actual ranking: 10th/19 in Gothenburg
#192: Nina Zilli -- L'Amore È Femmina (Out Of Love) (Italy 2012)
“If you were my king, would I be your queen?,
Stop breaking up my heart, you kill me – boom boom boom”
No, she's not Amy Winehouse resurrected for one night, but Nina Zilli! She also competed in Sanremo that year, and Emma (see #223) won it with the harsh but determined "Non è l'inferno".
Beyond the retro music and Nina's bouffant on the night, I didn't notice any similarities to Amy Winehouse. This doesn't mean "L'amore e femmina" have its own charms--it falls into the jazz theme that "Madness of Love" (#232) continues, but is the opposite in more than one way.
The English-Italian mix is a but clunky at times, especially in the choruses but it doesn’t take away from the attitude this song brings. I love the jazzy vibes and how Nina sings it with a sense of sassiness and charm. Her backing vocalists really help with conveying the mood, and don't do a bad job when the song goes back to Italian!
(As for the two Sanremo songs in question, I prefer Non è l'inferno to Per Sempre--the former is quite determined, and I really like the lyrics. Though I think the latter would have more appeal in terms of themes, even it's a bit more derivative musically)
Personal ranking: 5th/42
Actual ranking: 9th/26 GF in Baku
#191: Hovi Star -- Made of Stars (Israel 2016)
“Dance with me like we are made of stars...”
This is one of the first songs which got me into Eurovision. I would put this on repeat over and over again, because it's just so beautiful. (Or it was because it's Israeli, haha. Another country bias of mine will appear later.)
The first version of Made of Stars was a trashy and dull dance song, but the rework into a ballad makes it more magical. It’s serene yet touching, with a calming piano motif and a dramatic crescendo at the end.
The staging of Made of Stars also helps; while I'm still put off by the LED face when the backing vocalists sing "you hypontize me", everything else just works. The otherwise starry LEDs, the hoop dancers, and Hovi's glowing presence make this into a sweet, albeit overlooked package.
Personal ranking: 6th/42
Actual ranking: 14th/26 GF in Stockholm
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How much i love him..
Do you know that i’m writing this while listening to our song?
Yes, I am that in love with you. Tipong susulat ako ng letter while playing our theme song hahaha. Hindi ko alam kung effect to ng chemistry or special connection or maybe dahil i accepted and decided that I will really love you. Because remember when i said that for me, love is a decision? I really believe that. So that day when i decided to love you, i accepted everything, lahat ng bagay na alam ako at malalaman ko palang. Sinabi ko sa sarili ko na kahit anong mangyayari tatanggapin kita.
And who knew (only time lol) that this love would grow to something more beautiful. Nararamdaman ko na it is growing into a lifetime, a life, to be spent with you.
The last time we saw each other, we barely talk personal or intimately, kasi tayo pa yung Si Yaneh lang at si Bernard lang. Yung relasyon natin sobrang complicated kasi nagstart tayong malayo. But sinabi mo nga, you believe that it will be more intense. Sinabi mo pa nga na “when the time comes that I finally kiss you… I know my fear of losing you will be much greater.” And i’m saying now, i feel the same..
I know we have a lot of differences, and marami rin naman tayong pagkakatulad na minsan sobrang weird talaga. Parang nakita ko na ba yung guy version ko? Parang I found someone I can be comfortable with, parang it’s life finding myself or maybe finding that other half of myself. Pero, ikaw kasi yung someone na andyan na ever since, so marerealize mo bakit ngayon lang?
Minsan, may mga panahong nawiwirduhan ako sa sarili ko, kagaya ngayon, kasi naiisip ko “bakit mo ginagawa to? bakit sobra yung emotion mo dyan sa lalaki na yan? sigurado ka ba na mahal ka nyan e ang layo layo nyan. Pinanghahawakan mo lang yung mga sinasabi nya sayo tapos fall na fall ka..” Pero kasi, nangingibabaw yung paniniwala na “eh mahal ko sya e”
So bakit nga ba kita mahal? Tutulala lang ako ng matagal, Kasi bakit ba yun iniisip? Bakit kailangan may sagot? Mahal ba kita dahil wirdo ka and nagegets mo yung kawirduhan ko? Mahal ba kita kasi ang korni ng mga jokes mo pero tawang tawa ako, tapos gusting gusto mo rin yung mga jokes ko? Miski yung pagiging sarcastic ko natatanggap mo. Yung mga bagay na hindi ko nasasabi sa kanino man, ang dali dali kong sabihin sayo. Kapag nalulungkot ako, kapag naiinis ako, kapag galit, o masaya.. Mahal ba kita kasi kahit anong sabihin ko natatanggap mo? Mahal ba kita kasi yung mga gusto kong gawin at pangarap ko sa buhay pareho ng iyo? Na gusto ko ng tahimik at simpleng buhay, pero aminado tayo na dapat mayaman tayo kasi marami tayong gusto gawin at bilhin. Mahal ba kita kasi di tayo nagpapanggap sa kung ano yung gusto natin? Sinasabi mo kung bastos ka, sinasabi ko kung bastos ako. We share our angers, jealousy, insecurities, even mga sobrang babaw na bagay kagawa ng paksiw at munggo, at kahit pang jjudge ng tao we share. Pero we accept it? I opened myself to you and you accepted me. Maybe that is why I love you. You see the real me and accept me. And you show the real you, and I love you.
And then you asked, you want to now how much I love you. I said I don’t think I can put it into words because I all know is I can make you feel it. But I will try.
I love you.
I love you so much I plan travels with you na. Which is mga bagay na I don’t normally do or think kasi sa isip ko “eh after 3 mos magsasawa ka rin dyan”. Kasi it happened several times already. Pero ngayon, as much as possible gusto kong kasama kita pumunta sa mga lugar na gusto kong marating.
I love you so much that na first time ko ginusto sabihin sa magulang ko na may boyfriend na ako. Just because, I want them to know I’m happy, finally.
I love you so much that gusto kong ipagsigawan ngayon sa lahat ng tao na ikaw yung nagpapangiti sakin. Na ang korni korning ko ng tao ngayon dahil sayo. Na sa lahat ng stress ng 3 buwan na to, wala akong pakialam kasi may isang taong nagpapaligaya ng puso ko.
I love you so much that I share my feelings with you, that I want you to share everything with me. Masaya, malungkot, nakakainis, kahit ano. I love you so much I want to know everything.
I love you so much na sobrang nasasaktan ako sa mga taong minahal mo dati na ayokong nakakakita ng bagay na nagpapakitang masaya ka kasama sila noon. You haven’t seen how jealous I can be, pero wala naman na kasing point so di na kailangang gawing issue.
I love you so much that I care for your opinion in everything I do. Makikinig ako, tatanggapin ko yung mga bagay kung ayaw mo, or kung gusto mo. Oo pwedeng pag aawayan natin to, pero I love you so much that I will just accept and decide kung ano yung mas makakabuti sa relasyon natin dalawa. I love you so much that I am willing not just to compromise, but to surrender.
I love you so much that you became such a big factor sa buhay ko na kailangan kong alagaan. Someone na irerespeto ko, someone na ibibigay ko yung lahat ng kaya ko. Someone na gagawin ko yung lahat, mapasaya ko lang.
I love you so much that I don’t think of myself as an independent woman. Mula nung tanggapin ko ikaw na talaga, we became a partner. Now, It’s not only me anymore, now I have you.
I love you so much that I’m scared as hell kung paano kung sasaktan mo lang ako. But I love you enough to believe that you won’t. Kasi alam kong takot kang masumpa.
I love you so much that I am willing and promising to one above that I will love you hanggang nabubuhay ako. I know this is such a weird thing to say, and kung maririnig ako ng “ako noon” sasabihin ko “bullshit”. Pero wala, in love ako e. I picture my future na successful, masaya, simpleng buhay at kasama ka. Being in love with you is so weird but I want to feel like this for life.
Hanggang sa dulo, hindi ako makapaniwalang ginagawa ko to hahaha. I love you, sabi mo nga feel mo naman. I don’t know if maniniwala ka, or magiging enough itong mga to para ma satisfy kang mahal kita talaga Bernard.
Pero I feel na hindi pa ito sapat. I love you so much Bernard, I don’t know who can say how much, maybe only time.
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