#knowing me and my shitty editing it probably won't but who knows

[oxymoronicdumbass]

idc that it's not 2016 anymore i listen to finesse by bruno mars and i enter a completely different plane of existence. i can feel my soul lifting from my body i need to explode.

[hiveswap]

Summary of The Cat of The Year poll atrocities of 2023/2024

I'm sure that most people on this side of tumblr have seen the Jellie vs. Nefarious Anglerfish poll going around with like 60k votes at this point, and I'd really like clear up some of what happened since I was around for the whole thing.

Url blocked out for op's privacy. They have already left but don't look for it if you haven't seen it/don't harrass them if you already have.

1. The previous round (preparation)

I discovered the poll in its previous round, needless to say she beat Jort's ass severely. This was around the 3rd of january, meaning that this round finished before jellie's passing with only about 7k votes. Op did add their own piece of propaganda from their main:

...which was FINE. (except for stuff we'll see later) Of course running a poll while biased isn't ideal but I for one didn't even know they were the op until much later. I also added my own piece in a separate thread, and they didn't interact with it at all. There was no drama.

2. The Finale

Jellie unfortunately passed away right before the starting of this poll, which was the catalyst for what happened next. Op did exactly as last time and added a slightly more mean spirited encouragement to vote for the other contestant. This is the point where I believe that i fucked up personally.

I added this thinkpiece accusing op of associating all mcyters with Dream (who we all hate for the record) despite them not alluding to him at all. This is because tumblr has a history of disimissing all mcyters as... everything that dream was been accused of. Op did allude to not caring for mcyt. but they didn't say what i accused them of. This is important to point out because this reblog of mine is still being spread. Jellie was in the lead at the time, but not by the time i woke up next morning.

I won't be including anyone else's additions because I don't want to put blame on any specific person. Just felt like clearing up mine.

3. The Fuckening

Some time later op made this post to their personal blog:

which is insanely shitty because, as other people have pointed out, the "lame ass youtube cat" didn't die to inconvinience op or ruin their fun, and people would have probably voted for her anyway because jelly is universally beloved in the mcyt community. This isn't anti democratic. This post was added to the poll with a caption saying op should not be running this poll, and it took off. Op later went on to say that this was a joke:

This apology was not taken well by people, (including me) because "you were not meant to see it" isn't an apology and they still very much made fun of someone's pet dying. Safe to say this did not make the drama stop and only added fuel to the flame. I believe this was the point where the conversation of mcyt fans being unjustly sent hate to was reignited.

We should discuss that! it's a real thing that happens often and is equal to childish bullying. However, in this case, OP was the only one getting sent hate to my knowledge. The notes were mostly saturated by mcyt fans, and even now i can only find one or two hateful stance towards us under the whole 20k notes post.

4. Conclusions

Op posted a second apology to the catoftheyear blog to try and calm people down (i believe this is comprehensive and a lot better than the previous one) The blog was deactivated shortly after, so i only have my phone screenshots of it that i also added to the poll itself at some point:

(Edit) Here's proof that op did not write the justification they got criticised for, from the notes of the original poll:

This apology didn't get seen, or get accepted by enough people, so op made this statement on their personal:

Needless to say I am deeply dissapointed (and guilty) that it's come to this. Yes, op said tasteless things that made us all angry, but telling a human being to commit suicide is worse than being insensitive about a stranger's pet dying. Even after I posted about the blog being decatived i had someone come into my notes to wish that "they never find happiness" i mean wtf. This isn't like shipping where we can do whatever without the content creator's input. this is fucking harrowing and i can't imagine how i'd feel if this was done in my/my pet's name especially after losing them as recently as a week ago.

I hope no one from hermitcraft who is on here (let alone scar holy shit) learns about this like they did with previous lighthearted tournaments. If you truly respect the creators you claim to be a fan of as people, you do not tell people to kill themselves over them. And finally, let Jellie fucking rest, guys. she had a long, good life. I hope op can come back and also avoids behaving like this if they ever wish to do so. I'm angrier at mcytblr, though.

[girls--complex]

So. Yeah. I can do this in the interest of vaguely trying to be helpful. I feel bad about brain vomiting at anon and then not editing myself when this is probably all they really wanted from me.

As you know I'm very much an intellectual who very much has a well researched and developed system of thought that I use and am not, like, just some woo ass freakazoid stoner, with holes in her brain and kind of a shitty education, who doesn't really inherently enjoy reading books. Yes reading books is extremely boring but I love to do it because I am oh so smart.

Soooo I'm limiting myself to FIVE books because five is a nice number. They are not books that require a great deal of literacy or education to read, or else I would not have read them. They are books that give what I feel is a helpful perspective on the Christian tradition. They will be listed in descending order of how much they mean to me personally to underscore the fact that I'm just some guy who is moreover just saying shit.

The Cost of Discipleship (Dietrich Bonhoeffer) Read this book if you want the text of the gospels to glow and pulsate when you read it and it doesn't already do that. Or you want it to do that more. Or you don't want to endlessly strive to be happy or healthy or a decent person anymore you just want to live. You won't like it but you can't argue with the testimony of Bonhoeffer's life. And then if you keep reading it you will like it. Sorry that it's Lutheran but no I'm not.

The Universal Christ (Richard Rohr) Read this book if you don't care about being cool or smart and you just want to be fucking happy for once.

Revelations of Divine Love (Julian of Norwich) Read this book if you want to encounter more than you want to interpret, if you enjoy freaky medieval shit that's actually awesome, if you are in the mood to scream and cry and throw up, or if you are considering a career in nursing.

The Sermons of Meister Eckhart (U know...) Read this book if you don't understand anything or if you feel like you understand anything or if you're a big fan of dharmic religions and want to read the Mandukya Upaishad as recieved by a catholic. Whats cool is they're all pretty short.

The Physics of Angels (Fox & Sheldrake) Read this book if you have some type of a heart for scary woo shit or want to develop a more balanced relationship to woo-ology, or if you want an overview of angels in the Christian tradition that steers clear of thoroughness or academic reliability in favor of wild psychedelic speculation and unchecked boomer optimism.

Thank U for asking me because I love to share. I know it's my blog so I can technically post whatever I want but I also don't want to post things no one cares about because that defeats the purpose of posting. OK bye.

[elaine19day]

Hey guys~ Sorry for my late post, I was super busy today and just came home and only now was able to take a closer look at the new merch and the post that OldXian made. So, first things first - I stand corrected, lol The leaked merch turned out to be real after all. For me personally, quite surprising because it's a LOT at once. (I mean, 58[!!] different cards/buttons/tickets/plates plus 4 special extras……. WOW!!) Also what I mentioned in my last post already - it's quite a bold move to release merch with those old motifs from early manga chapters and calling it "time mosaic" lmao.

Who knows what went on when these decisions were made at mosspaca headquarters, lol

It's safe to say the images definitely got leaked by either a hacker or a person working there. And a lot of people on xiaohongshu were able to produce replicas quickly and sell them to unsuspecting fans. Which brings me to my next point:

The quality of the merch and the quality of the drawings itself. I promised you to address this 'issue' should there ever be an official announcement about these new items and that happened today.

So. First of all - if you saw the posts on taobao or XHS yourself, where people sold fakes, or even if you saw only screenshots from it, you can tell the image quality definitely seemed off. This will most likely be attributed to two things - producing merch from a small, low quality image will make it look blurry and distorted, sometimes pixel-y. And the other reason could be upscaling. If you use shitty programs to make images bigger, it'll look blurry and unfocused. You can go back to my previous post and take a close look at the parts that I circled and highlighted to point out these issues.

Now. About the thing I initially didn't wanna address because I know some people won't like it. If you look closely at the images posted by OldXian herself today, even there some things still seem a little bit 'off' or 'rushed'. There has been speculation in the past that OX uses an AI model (probably fed/trained with her own works) to generate new images quickly and then she'd just draw over them to fix minor issues etc. Please keep in mind, this is just speculation and rumors. I am NOT saying that this is the case. But it might be a possibility. Personally, I can see quite a few artists using these methods to save time, especially when they're under high pressure. (And if they use their own models, trained with their own works only, there's nothing immoral about it, if you ask me. But that's just my personal opinion.)

So there. This might be an explanation for some of her illustrations or panels looking a bit funky sometimes. The other possibility is simply that she's rushing it when working on these things and heavy time pressure makes it a bit messy. Once again - NOT saying she definitely uses AI, just telling you about the rumors that sometimes surface on the net. That's all.

Anyway. About the merch itself. It drops in about 12h from the time I'm posting this blog. (8pm Hangzhou time)

The taobao link for the items is this for now: https://item.taobao.com/item.htm?ft=t&id=792490172782 

There are 4 different options and all of them are blind boxes, meaning you'll receive totally random motifs, unless you order a whole box, which will guarantee you 1 of each regular motif. However, all 4 lots have 1-3 limited pictures, which you might be lucky enough to receive, the chance is small though. (In case you order a complete box and there's 1 or more of the limited motifs inside, it'll lack a regular motif in its place. Example: if you order a full box of 8 buttons and one of them is a limited edition button, one of the regular 8 motifs will be missing in its place. There won't be 9 buttons in the box. It will always be 8 for a full box!)

Option 1: (18 Yuan | ca. 2,70 USD each) Button badges. There are 8 regular badges and 2 limited edition badges. If you order a total of 8 pieces you will not only receive the display box, but also an acrylic standee with Tianshan riding a scooter as a special extra.

Option 2: (10 Yuan | ca. 1,50 USD each) Laser Tickets. There are 17 regular tickets and 2 limited edition tickets. If you order a total of 17 pieces you will not only receive the display box, but also a Shishiki board with Mo from the metamorphosis series as a special extra.

Option 3: (18 Yuan | ca. 2,70 USD each) Tinplates. There are 10 regular plates and 1 limited edition plate. If you order a total of 10 pieces you will not only receive the display box, but also an acrylic standee with Zhanyi cooking/cleaning as a special extra.

Option 4: (15 Yuan | ca. 2,25 USD each) Acrylic Cards. There are 16 regular cards and 3 limited edition cards. If you order a total of 16 pieces you will not only receive the display box, but also an acrylic standee with all 4 boys as chibis as a special extra. [Note about the acrylic cards: The Mo Guanshan card will be the same that was already given as a limited extra during the last round of blind box button badges!]

If you live in the US or Asia, you will most likely be able to use taobao and order directly from the mosspaca shop via the app with the link I gave you above. If you live in a country that's not covered on taobao's shipping list, you can use an agent to order the new merch. Please refer to THIS POST here where I previously explained how to use superbuy and similar shopping agents for buying things from taobao. In case you use superbuy, please keep in mind: They don't offer paypal anymore, so you'll need a credit card or bank transfer or apple pay/google pay.

Also, think carefully if you really want ALL of the merch, even if you're a die-hard fan. You saw I have put the rough amount of US Dollar with each item, so if you buy all 4 boxes, you'll have to pay over 110 USD for the merch alone, plus domestic shipping from mosspaca to the warehouse and then international shipping, which can be as high as 40 USD, depending on where you live. (And perhaps even customs fees on top of it.)

If you have any questions, please drop them below and I'll try my best to answer them~

[otomiyaa]

PSA: Back up your blog, check your tumblr e-mail for copyright strikes

Hi everyone, after suddenly losing my account with main blog + sideblogs last week, I would like to share the following warning with y'all. Not to scare you even though it is shitty, but to raise awareness. If this somehow results in me getting kicked off the platform again, so be it lol.

If you post anything fandom* related on your tumblr blog**, whether that's gifs, screenshots, videos, cosplay pics or even fics (?), you may risk getting a copyright strike (up to 3 in 18 months) or even immediate account termination. The chance is still rather small, but just know that it can happen.

*I say fandom in the broad term, so blogs that post about movies and series, anime/manga, games, celebrities, models, sports/olympics, etc. and it goes for gif and fic creators too. Not just accounts that post music or videos for example.

**I say tumblr blog, but this goes for all of the internet ofc. People have been getting this problem on any platform, from insta to etsy, youtube and twitter.

Disclaimer: I am no legal expert, just an unlucky blogger who lost her silly multifandom fic blog after 7+ years.

This will be a bit long and detailed so I proceed under the cut!

What can you do?

...To make sure you don't suddenly lose days, months, and years of content:

CHECK THE EMAIL LINKED TO YOUR TUMBLR. I know a lot of people don't do it, myself included. Tumblr does send warnings (though not always). It wouldn't have changed anything for me because I wouldn't want to appeal - since I don't want to go into this "fair use" discussion for just a fic & editing blog. I personally don't know the chances of retrieving your blog if you protest against the claims, so can't say much about that.

Back up your Tumblr blog if you can. Also save your Tumblr chats with people dear to you if you can. Account termination seems to work differently than deactivation. I was still able to see chats with people who deactivated long ago. But my blog that got terminated has vanished from everyone's DMs and ask boxes à la Thanos snap. I mourn my years of Tumblr chat with my best friend. It was not as if we even considered exporting/copying it just for the memories of the start of our friendship. But now that it's entirely gone, hehe, well. It is sad.

Save URLs and masterposts outside Tumblr. After losing your account, for I thiiink about 24-48hrs (I didn't clock, but it was temporary) you will be able to access it at least temporarily through cachedpages, if you have the URL. It doesn't seem to work for everything, but most of my Tumblr posts I could still see shortly through this site, even after I got wiped off the platform. I did this by googling my tumblr username + certain keywords, and the posts would pop up and give me the URL.

...To prevent getting copyright strikes and losing your account?

Probably nothing - but like I said, I'm not the expert, just the fool who lost her account. The termination e-mail will give you a numbered URL so it's not easy to see which post resulted in the account loss, but for me the keywords were:

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Despite the 7+ years of posts, many followers and a lot of memories, I did not gain anything else from this blog and didn't think it was worth the (legal-) risks and effort to try and get it back. It would require filing an objection against the copyright claims with personal info from home address to name, and consenting to USA legal law stuff.

Even if I don't know the exact details, I'm sure they're not wrong, because whether it's fair or not, most fandom stuff has copyright issues in the end, so I can't protest against the claims with 100% certainty it won't get me in real trouble. Besides, I read about similar cases, lost cases, and admitted defeat right away.

They work with manual reports and most dangerously, bots, who seem to be randomly picking unlucky people to take down their posts and possibly the entire account.

So besides putting an entire halt to fic writing, gif making, video editing and other fandom indulgement, or the inconvenient act of censoring every single word and image, I don't think there is a way to entirely prevent getting targeted.

The one that treated me to the strikes leading to account termination was a certain Mr. Green who seems to have targeted mostly people on Etsy. But apparently now also on Tumblr. More about this I can share here for further information. I also share some other links that can inform you about how far the copyright problem can go. Again, no reason to panic. It's rare and I was unlucky. But it happens.

About Mr. Green, using bots all over the internet to take down fandom related material:

Tumblr post about his attack on fandom.

Long detailed doc from an Etsy user.

Insta post about also loss of Etsy account.

Also Etsy related, but same Mr. Green and his bots taking down something only because it used the NAME of an anime character.

Tweet about him and his company not being officially contracted but getting compensated.

About copyright claims on Tumblr - they are still rare, no panic, I just call it russian roulette and these are all unlucky people like me :')

Post by user @/marilynjeansiims about claims against users who post about Sims, including a petition against it.

Post by user @/happyheidi about Moomin posts facing issues.

Post by user @/hanyusan about olympic related claims.

Example by user @/koov about what a vague copyright warning looks like.

Good news, post by user @/yunghos about getting their account back after filing a counter notice. It seems to be possible.

Post by user @/iamkatehardy about getting a strike for using a gif.

Post by user @/stxrshxpxd about getting their acc terminated for no 100% clear reasons.

Post by user @/tekweela about getting terminated mercilessly because of a reblog.

Post by user @/fromanotherroom-revived about losing their account with similar advice as I write here.

Post by user @/ladyphasma about gifs and US law

Knowing this won't bring lost accounts back, or change the law, I do hope at least you can be better prepared just in case it happens... Better prepared than I was at least.

[utilitycaster]

speaking of jasmine bhullar, she and brennan had a great convo about min-maxers and i was wondering what your own thoughts on min-maxing were? i'm new-ish to actually playing dnd and i still worry about making myself a problem to the dm as opposed to an asset.

First off as someone who enjoys Adventuring Academy but never has the time to watch the full episodes, thank you for bringing this up - I watched just the debate, and it was incredible and hilarious.

This is a good question. I am 100% in agreement with Jasmine here and she said it better than I could: min-maxing simply means that you read the rules to D&D and decided to use them to your advantage. Reading the rules to D&D is great and everyone should do it (in fact, this a reliable way to be an asset to the DM: know how your character's abilities work). There are a few cases where it sucks but most of those aren't actually due to min-maxing so much as shitty player behaviors that can occur in min-maxers.

I think one reason people dislike min-maxers is that the stereotypical min-maxer builds a character who truly can't do anything except for massive damage, and that does kind of suck, but I also think that that is really hard to build in 5e. You're going to have some other abilities. I think it was much easier to truly min-max in 3.5e, and perhaps in older editions you could really break things (in fact, having listened to some pathfinder 1e actual plays, I know you could).

There is also, as Jasmine points out, a false assumption that min-maxers aren't interested in RP or won't do it. This is very clearly untrue and a few examples off the top of my head from Actual Play that are debatably min-maxed are: Deadeye Cybin (played by Brennan, natch) in NADDPod (damage dealer); Laerryn Coramar-Seelie of EXU Calamity (optimized for survival, especially against non-magical foes); Caduceus Clay and Deanna Leimert of Critical Role (both optimized to be healers, incidentally); Orym and Vex, also of Critical Role (optimized to have a stupidly high perception score), Theo Gumbar of A Crown of Candy (optimized to tank and have a stupidly high AC). These are all fantastic characters with profound RP scenes who happen to also be really, really good at a narrow band of things, but they're also not just good at that. Many of them also can serve as the brains or the face of their party; many have utility spells far beyond their area of specialization.

Another reason people dislike min-maxers is they have a reputation for being ungenerous - for swooping in and stealing the spotlight. The above characters, played by some of the most generous people in actual play, show that's clearly not the case. Also, to be honest, a spotlight hog doesn't have to be min-maxed. It's just a shitty "hey, hey look at me" player. I think attention hogs might be a bit more inclined to try to build a character who is really really good at something (again, usually damage more than say, healing) but that doesn't mean that everyone who builds a gunslinger is here to steal all the glory.

Specialization also isn't bad! The reason D&D is a game where people are in a party is because not everyone can do everything! There are a small handful of characters who are a utility knife who can basically do a little bit of almost everything (Keyleth, Fjord, Moonshine) but they are the exception rather than the rule. Barbarians, for example, are a class that usually is structured around tanking and doing damage. This is fine! You probably don't want a party that's all barbarians because it is useful to have healers and ranged attackers and people who can sink all their high stat rolls into the mental side of things because they don't live and die quite so much by their physical stats, but it sure is nice to have a barbarian in the mix to balance out the glass cannon wizard, isn't it?

If you show up to a table where there is a clear gap in party composition (eg: healing) or there's a clear story the GM wants to tell (eg: very social, requires a lot of diplomacy) and you decide not to fill it because you are too busy building Guy With Stealth Bonus of +20, then that's a problem, but that's ultimately a failure to collaborate. Min-maxing for something that doesn't really help the party is simply the way in which you happened to fail that compromise.

I'm sure there are edge-case, dark corners of D&D Reddit builds that do suck, but honestly most of them suck in that they are actually not good (eg: coffeelock). Your typical case of dumping one stat to max out on another? totally normal, totally cool.

Anyway to get to the part of your question regarding not being a problem: you probably aren't! You're thinking about how to not be a problem to your DM, which people who are problems tend not to do. However, the big takeaways of the above are 1. read the rules of your character and 2. build a character who fits into the world. In the session zero, build a character who has a reason to be doing the things the DM outlines in broad strokes, and who complements the other PCs. If you do that, then it doesn't matter if you min-max or not.

[roxtron]

Pinned post/About me thing

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you can call me whatever, i usually go by some variation of my username but i don't mind nicknames and stuff

he/they

i'm autistic so my posts will probably vary by whatever/whenever certain special interests/hyperfixations are stronger at the time

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A bit of info about what I post/reblog

i make original art sometimes but art block has been really tough so unfortunately i don't have a lot to post lately :(

besides that I'll usually make either rambling or analysis posts on whatever subject I'm posting about, usually fandom related. occasionally theories but that depends on if what I'm posting about really leaves room for theorizing.

I reblog pretty casually on here so it can range from stuff i find funny to stuff i think could use awareness, fandom-wise this blog somehow became pretty fnaf centered lol, not quite sure how that happened but i still consider it my main.

if i reblog other people's art or analysis I usually try to leave my thoughts in the tags, but sometimes I have a hard time thinking of what to say so sorry if I reblog your work and don't say anything/don't seem enthusiastic about it, if I reblog something it's because I adore it lol, I just don't always know how to put thoughts into words. <3

and as a side note, while I do try to check blogs of people I reblog in case it's a terf or whatever, sometimes you never know, so if I do reblog something from someone who's done something shitty don't hesitate to let me know with an ask or something because chances are I probably don't know lol.

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Boundaries stuff I guess.

I know DNI lists are annoying and pointless but whatever, if there's a chance it'll get people to leave me alone it's worth it. I shouldn't need to list obvious ones like terfs, transphobes, homophobes, all those assholes. But also, if you don't like one of my posts, I'd rather you block me and move on than hate reblog it. It's immature and annoying, and I won't hesitate to block people that do it.

Obviously I don't just mean "if you criticize something I post you're bad," I'm alright with criticism as long as it's respectful, but if you're gonna reblog just to say "look at this idiot" then fuck off.

Sorry about how aggressive that may have been but I don't wanna deal with stuff like that. I've dealt with it in the past and it sucks, if you don't like me, that's perfectly fine, but just block me and move on. Onto a more positive topic.. If you wanna use my art for pfps or anything that's really cool actually!! Ofc I'd ask for credit but if anyone did want a pfp of something I've drawn you can always send me an ask and I'll post a zoomed in version or something or make whatever edit you wanted so you don't need to worry about it lol Besides all that you don't have to worry about interacting with me, if you've got any questions whether that's related to me or my blog you don't have to hesitate to send an ask if you want :)

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Sideblogs

I've recently made sideblogs for other fandoms people don't follow me for here. I figured it'd be easier to separate them but mostly for spoilers' sake. Sure I try to spoiler tag but people aren't gonna block spoiler tags for fandoms they're not in if they see it and I'd hate to spoil someone for a series they could've had the chance to go into blind. That being said, please don't follow my other blogs unless you already know the spoilers for whatever fandom the blog's centered around. As much as I appreciate support I'd hate for you to get spoiled and I'd much rather wait for you to play the game yourself <3 (since as of now they're both video game fandoms..) @roxtron-kh (Kingdom Hearts)

@roxtron-gt (Ghost Trick)

----------------------------------------------------------- Woo I think that's everything! Finally I can get to the tags section of this long-ass post.. I wanna try to tag things more properly in the future, even if I'm not really big enough to warrant it, I still wanna be able to find my own stuff easier at least through the sea of reblogs, so if you're curious about any of my posts, here's a list of tags you can look through! I'm currently trying to update some of my old posts with tags so they can be added to the list.

[lizard-reads-the-world]

Disabled Artist needs housing help

Hey. I'm an enby person with several chronic illnesses. I work from home to support 3 people on my own. I usually (note: usually) barely make it to rent, but this month everything has seemed to come down at once and I'm going to be approx. $900 short. [Edit: As of 10/25 I will be $655 short] I can probably make up a 1-2 hundred of that in a few days, but it's not going to be enough.

This is especially terrifying because moving is highly traumatic to my partner. We've been evicted twice in the past 3 years (once for financial reasons, and the last was a shitty discriminatory management company) - and I don't think we'd make it through another, and I'm not even being hyperbolic. And paying late AT ALL means shitty companies won't renew our lease. I am seriously terrified. Not being able to have these few hundred will be literally life-destroying. I already live every day expecting a flare-up to put me in the hospital again, because that's what stress does to me, every time.

Can anyone help us out with mutual aid? Earlier today I donated $5 to an artist who has helped me, with the hope it can come back around. Anything is helpful. I'd even do a peer-to-peer loan if that's a thing.

Payment links:

Paypal | Venmo : Piichann | Shop: one two | Ko-fi

!! Please signal boost !!

I am just so tired of us all being forced to destroy our bodies, destroy our lives, just to live. And still not be able to pay for basic housing and food. I really want people to unite around mutual aid. Support each other. (And anyone is more than welcome to add their needs to this post) People shouldn't need to wade through paperwork and Telegram scammers to get help.

Society just doesn't need to be like this, and we should be able to change it. I think if everyone tried to, we really could. Unite together. I don't exactly know how we get there, but we should all be sick of this. I know I am. And I will, and do, give back when I can.

❤️❤️ Free Kitty Pic ❤️❤️

To the below people, not all of you follow me, but I enjoy seeing your posts every day! Thanks for keeping me a little bit sane.

@the-bookler @kyliereads @yourneighborhoodbibliophile @therefugeofbooks @thereadingchallengechallenge @just0nemorepage @disabled-dragoon @dragonbadgerbooks @lizziethereader @asexualbookbird @godzilla-reads @richincolor @good-books-to-read

Maybe these nice people could help signal boost too:

@helppeople @donations-mutualaid @goodpeopledeeds @anarchblr @boost-the-signal @lgbtdonate @mutualaidforalll @nonbinary-support

[nono-bunny]

Every once in a while I wake up enraged because I remember Persona 3 Reload won't have femc and thus has 0 appeal to me.

Like?? P3 is an incredible game, even at its baseline, but. I already watched playthroughs of FES and played P3P myself. I know the game! Updated graphics and mechanics aren't enough for me to want to buy and play through the story of the less fun protagonist, y'know? Him being canon doesn't erase the fact that femc has better social links, better music, and like? On a personal level, yes!! I sure do enjoy playing as a character with my own gender much more, thank you very much!

Reload coming out so shortly after P3P finally becomes easily PC accessible is genuinely them shooting themselves in the foot when it comes to players like me who really don't care about all the bells and whistles- the animated cutscenes are nice, and yet, I never missed them when playing through P3P. What I would undoubtedly miss though, would be the ability to go through my favorite route of the game.

Honestly? Yes, I would buy femc and The Answer DLC if they released them and THEN pick up the game, but I WOULD be pissed about it, and unless and until they do that I'm just... Not touching it. Reload isn't what it should have been and it's forever gonna be a disappointment to me, and based on what I saw online? Many other people. It's still probably gonna do well, and like? That's probably the only way we're ever gonna get DLCs later on, but. I'm also certain they really alienated fans aside from myself that would have otherwise bought this game with how they chose to just have it be it a modern remake rather than a definitive edition, and that was just. A bad call with shitty excuses

[mcfiddlestan]

Fandom Ask Game

4, 11 (Frostiron and Winteriron), 17 (Loki), 22 (Tony Stark), 25 (Bucky Barnes)

4. Is there a popular pairing you don't necessarily dislike but aren't too invested in?

Not that I can think of. There are a lot I dislike and I won't invest any time in and go so far as to block the ship name and any variants so I don't have to see art or headcanons, etc, about it. So if it's not blocked and I see it and I think the art is cool I guess that means I don't dislike it? I often share it even if it's a ship I don't necessarily involve myself in. Like I don't write for SamBucky or SamTasha, or Stony (although I've apparently blocked Stony, tho I'm not sure when that happened lol), but if I see cool art I'll share it. But yeah....there's a lot I avoid by all means.

11. What's your favorite piece of fanart?

OMG HOW CAN YOU MAKE ME CHOOSE?! I literally have more than 600 pix of fanart for FrostIron -- some made specifically for me -- and 134 of WinterFrost. Anything by @batwynn and lightonlight I love. And you'll probably laugh but this is one of my favorites for FrostIron.

As for WinterFrost...I seem to have made a lot more edits for this ship than any other LOL. But millennium-h always did the BEST edits for WF, including making those pix of Hiddles kissing someone on the rocks MUCH BETTER (sadly, they left the fandom not too long ago). And like with FI, I have a lot of faves, but this is one I really enjoyed.

and one to go along with it

17. What's a book, movie, or show you think [Loki] would like?

I think it's obvious that Loki would be all over Shakespeare and any adaptation of his works. And he'd probably critique it better than Shakespearean scholars themselves. But I think that mischievous and love of chaos side of him would probably also be really into trash reality TV. Like the Real Housewives franchise. He'd have watch parties and hours-long discussions afterwards and everyone would be shocked by how accurate his psychoanalysis is. Because if there's anything people who are used to being overlooked and ignored can do it's read other people's emotions.

22. Give us a headcanon for [Tony Stark].

Aw man. I'm terrible at headcanons! I don't even know, man. Maybe that despite all his bravado (or overconfidence to cover for his insecurity) and need to prove himself to Howard, there's still enough of Maria in him that emerges in his tendency to take "lost" souls under his wing, not even to mentor but to give them a hand? Happy (loss of his boxing career, so he gave him a job), Peter, obvs, and even Steve, who he reluctantly helped bc y'know resentment. I say that's Maria bc considering how difficult Howard as a person was, who the fuck else could see anything redeeming enough to marry and have a child with him? She had to see something under the surface, yeah?

Idk. Told you I don't do headcanons. LOL

25. What's your least favorite thing [Bucky Barnes] said or did?

Killed Tony's parents??? IDK, there isn't much I dislike about Bucky, except that they didn't let him kiss Steve! I'm honestly just glad they never included that relationship from the comic in the movies bc I despise that actress and it would've bothered me to watch her shitty flirt-acting and whatever with Sebastian. It was bad enough with Fluffalo. Ick.

Thanks for asking!!

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[lamentingocean]

MONGRANG X JAHA

- Return of The Crazy Demon-

-Dystopian Apocalyptic Wasteland Edition-

Part 2- Ending of Darken Abyssal.

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Warning: murders, call of duty ass battles, survival, and genuine tension of one's safety, and slight relationship break, clashes against one's forces, delicious angst, sacrificial devotion, just pure shitty despair.

Unfortunately, I had to make another one because of issues. I literally can't edit the first one. I apologize+

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-continuation of the last one-

pure evil, straight pure and malicious evil to be seeing your subordinates in despair all because the conflict of your brother has jeopardized the lives of others, including his units. wars are won by those, willing to sacrifice everything but the fact that our bosses. the men in authority of our very lives, hopes, dreams, unrealistic scenarios of a dream are two blood related humans with a very different undiscovered past of their hateful tension.

I prep myself up for the mission, storing food, water, and blankets in my duffel bag. I left multiple times at the sword demon's blacksmith, I started to see the idealistic approach to their conflict, two of them were stuck in a standard to be better than one another or be at conflict with everybody who deems your skills with criticism, expressing their own opinionated minds to their higher ups of this corrupted driven money worshipping society. I wonder if jaha had ever known about their truth of our companies just being a pawn to unhealed truama/ sibling rivalry by damage of something or someone, he probably doesn't care and is his main priority to live for himself along with me instead of others as our plan to decimate our companies by the greatest act of betrayal in favor of despair will put us at the pure concept of free will. But isn't this world the opposite of free will. corporations and businesses, running our lives and food by money are seen as the new god and savior.

"The gods will protect us." They say.

it sickens my heart and stomach to the core to think we're such a divided society enough to put us at the risk of self-destruction either by ego or money. And this is supposed to be the image of God? makes me even more happy to know I'll live for myself, agreeing with jaha's next life plan.

I pack a notebook for Intel just in case.

plant life is hard to grow in an apocalyptic world. especially when food is harder to ponder for, stores are barely getting by, every time we pass by a grocery store growing black mold all over its cement walls, or a insufferable stench either by moldy food or decomposed corpses laying around. they were probably still seeping in a pool of their own metallic blood during the events of doomsday, now is just skeletons and dissipating limbs. how saddening.

I ventured out, breathing in and out like darth Vader by the gas mask. northwest is usually how we go outside of the city ruins. I take one step to another, repeating it until it's a broken record, my mind kept darting back to the mysterious relationship between the boss and our main enemy boss of the company we're fought for so long, both of them use their strongest weapons as a pawn, both of them sacrifice their even most loyal of warriors and assassins die by their hands and they won't bat an eye to the damage they've done to get a winning advantage. I wonder if billionaires and any type of person holding so much cash in their cards to get anything they want consider their actions as morbidly horrible, even governmental leaders and ceos capable of harming society with one word. One single word can cost everything.

Like a god. what a coincidence.

I step to the crunchy sound of grass. a forest seen directly outside the freeway street.

I step out of the freeway to see dead birds, cows with their guts out attracting flies, and poisonous berries, flowers, and ivy surfacing in the mulky, brownish grass. each step felt like a small splash of dirty water onto my shoes. from my remaining intel is absolutely no fresh materials in the forest, same as oranges, tomatoes, and strawberries, dirty grass and dying trees, but I have to keep searching just in case.

I take some wood out of a tree and lit up a small blaze of fire.

taking a pack of ziplocked hot water, I lift up my ramen to pour it into the noodles. letting it heat while I check for my surroundings, seeing nobody but only sounds of rustling out the bushes. I squint to see jaha stabbing a fresh starved pig, sheathing his blade out of its red flesh, creating a trail of animal blood beyond the green depths of the bushy leaves.

I watched as he took slices of its meat and put it into a reused plastic bag. His resourceful skills will always be admirable, reusing the same clothes and lingering manly scent I'll never be able to whiff again. The pig's blood stained his fingers and palms disgustingly, metallic subtance of further proof that humans and animals are the same species but in a different format while humans are intelligent and has the physical development to grow, generate, and populate while animals do the same thing. is just a difference between mentality. jaha looked to the side of his eye, pig's blood splattering across his cheeks and lips to slash more meat to store as he saw him in a slight surprise but unimpressive reaction to my scavenging for intel.

"What are you doing here?"

"Sent on another mission to gain intel what are you doing?"

"Lydia's children had been eating up the food you gave her. which means she ran out. so before I go into the forest to look for some meat, she doesn't know how to cook meals at all when this society relies on nourishment of your well-being. so I plan to teach her if I have time."

"Time?"

I lift up the hot cup of noodles, pouring in the seasoning package and vegetable package before stirring it. He approached me, slamming down the large sacks of pork meat from that deceased pig, almost like he offered some of its meat to me instead of eating processed ramen in the middle of a apocalypse.

"Lydia...how she's doing right now?"

"I do daily checkups on her and her children every day at the abandoned parking lot, she's holding up well, teaching herself how to shoot and locking up the doors to the building above her so it's marked at her home, giving herself melee combat instead of relying on a gun to kill people. Impressive..she's able to hold well for a single mother of children."

"I see. But I don't want to talk about her anymore. I want to talk about you. Are there any updates on your daughter?"

a smile slowly grew on his face at her condition.

"yoran. she's in a different city led by an open orphanage. My assumption of the orphanage in this apocalypse is to bring homeless, filled with despair, alone children to a home where they can actually feel peace. but..he never told me the location of the city. but I'm glad she's alright. mentally and physically."

" I promised I would take care of her along with you, right?"

he put a slice of dripping pork meat on the blazing flames as his voice is both either toned with regret or hectic, skepticism.

Yeah. as the sex demon. I wouldn't want you watching adult TV shows and 50 shades of gray while she's walking around hanging out with you, wondering what you're watching and instead... accidentally truamatized her by sexual content."

"I'm not that type of person anymore."

"You are. unless your addiction to spicy shows before the apocalypse started dimmed down a lot. since.. technology is barely a thing to us anymore. all I want to do is protect her. if you can support and abid by those rules to never watch PORN. then yeah. I'll let you take care of her along with me. remember, one time, I broke into your house to assassinate you, and the first thing I heard was: "EVER HEARD OF JERKMATE??" I left. instantly."

my voice softened, understanding his worry for his daughter's safety and content in the internet.

"since when did you-..ok I've changed. and I wouldn't deliberately watch that type of shit around your adopted daughter. if it's boundaries and rules I have to follow to take care of her as my own then you'll have my full consent, soul, and devotion to leading her life to a much more better path than being stuck in this apocalypse for far too long. you and me. as fathers. a deal? Since our relationship will continue to grow."

"Fine. It was when you were finished with your greatest prize a mafia assassin could ever ask for, being sent to a stripper club, in a private club just so you can explore the things you desire most about woman. disgusting to me. while I had a mission in siberia I just accomplished. I had to do some more work assassinating the current country's most powerful mafia bosses and crime cartels. My last mission was to kill you."

"And you didn't."

"Shut your mouth."

he took his slices of cooked pork off the stick, letting its scorching sizzle to resonate. he looked at it before taking a bite of its soft yet hardening flesh.

" could use some seasonings. But aye. Thanks for a knowledging boundaries when it comes to taking care of her. I don't want an incontinent degenerate like you to take away her innocence as a young girl living in an apocalyptic dystopia world. it's up to us to take care of her. instead of exposing that shit to her unprovoked."

"This incontinent degenerate is in love with a insane mass murderer like yourself so I guess we're both fucked up at our own way. especially when both of us are just devils born into a world run by demonic entities, using intelligence for evil. didn't you mention your family is dead?"

"yeah."

a droplet of rain fell onto my hand, pummeling onto the surface of the greenery before it fell harder, taking the fire out in an instant. I grab jaha's hand and put him next to me in a large tree, sheltering us a bit from its frigid precipitation. small drops of rain still scattered across our skin.

"Anyways.. what happened to them..?"

"Don't exactly remember. But it was when I was an errand boy. working and getting paid 13 bucks an hour before something happened in my hometown. Apparently, a civil war broke out, and my parents didn't have enough time to evacuate the vicinity before they were set to kill everybody on the battlefield. Or ones that didn't have time to get away from danger. and then they...my grandparents didn't give enough details.. but they're gone. they can't come back. It is what it is."

the rain sprinkling across his cheeks to his eyes makes it look like he's crying.

"really..? is that what truly happened?"

"Yeah. if I was just...stronger as I am now, I could've called them and helped them evacuate, then none of that would've happened. I wasn't filled with genuine insanity as I was when I was an errand boy, multiple women trying to get my number, disgusting customers, disrespect, childish.. I don't miss it at all. when I was weaker.. when I was more vulnerable, obedient, kinder..this world hates the joy of others, so they try to fill them with despair and misery as much as others."

"I see. did they ever capture your parent's bodies? since it's a warzone?" I ask with curiousity and a hope I didn't cross boundaries with him.

"No. they never did. The only report I got from any survivors who knew my parents is: just a couple of limbs under a bunch of debris. not being able to successfully mourn their loss. I feel a bit indifferent about it. almost nothing..hallow soul."

"No, you dont." I mutter in disbelief.

"What?"

"I believe you feel something other than indifference. The individuals giving you life have lost theirs. it's impossible to feel indifferent for that."

"ahh fuck..it's been years since it happened. and during those years, it was also my grandparent's demise. was selfish enough to care more about my martial arts training than visit their funerals to mourn their losses. so hellbent on becoming stronger to disregard the tragedy and fallen heritage of the "Lee family." I don't forgive myself for that. when I used to be so angry."

"You don't have to feel these emotions all the time."

I grazed his soaked jacket.

"I'm here for you if you need me. even if you see me as just an incontinent degenerate, you know me as.~, but this degenerate cares more about you than I do about my life. remember that as you will. I may be an asshole at times, but I reassure you."

"You insult yourself a lot."

"You do it more than me."

he chuckled.

"factually accurate. But..thank you. never expected you to be so open-minded to anybody else other than the sword demon."

"I'm not stupid."

jaha reached his hand upon the rain, coating his palm with its satisfying drippings.

"It's raining pretty hard. should we seek shelter?"

"No. I'm pretty content with the relaxation of the falling rain, and also, being here with you than loneliness is better than anything I experienced in my life. the rain, your aura, your presence, all of it fills me with an emotion I can't describe."

"and yet I find your efforts to claim me more than attractive woman is supremely maddening but intriguing at best. you've changed. and I don't hate it. I'm just trying to adjust to the new change of yours. from a perverted dumb ass to a person with thoughts and feelings who knows his actions are taken accountable for."

"Are you aware that i'm unforgiving of my past self. not forgive and not forget?" I said with a sharp exhale.

"Very aware. Can respect you for that no matter how much you're an idiotic sperm spreading cunt at times. we're both equals. and nothing can change that. two ying and yangs. but two of us are enveloped in the dawn of darkness with just a small radiant light. insanity is at one with me while lust is at one with you."

"I feel lust when I want to feel lust. including you."

his face lingered against mine, like he's pampering me to test that lust. the rain leaking down the bangs of both of our hair.

"we can take off our gas masks in this weather. I don't care if we'll get sick due to the mist, but all I want is to do you."

" Isn't that unsafe?"

I looked down to jaha's mask, slipping off to his mere upper lips, his lips circling in a smirk as he spoke: "I don't care."

"Geez, calm down.."

once the last drips of rain have landed onto the grass,I set up the fire to warm us up.

"Don't pamper me with lust. pamper me out of your own antics in trickery. I love it when you're unpredictable.~"

"...have a question."

" What is it?" I light crackles onto the fire to blaze at it more.

"What was it like being in the mong family? the most powerful family in china?"

"they had their expectations as their most beautiful, intelligent, sly, and physically strong son by forcing me to take martial arts while I was seven to five years old, having me take china's most prestigious schools. that includes schools relying on intelligence to get grades, schools taking college level calculus and algebra, literature, after-school activities, and school councils.

like they didn't care for the state of their child's wellbeing. They only care about who will lead their heritage for generations. If I have children or not, if I find the one that I love, then I'm forced to have children... if it was a woman. instead of a man. after the apocalypse. my parents lost so much of their wealth, ended up homeless, and eventually got killed by a bunch of wastelanders knowing their occupation and appearance by first glance."

"i see..didn't they have strong protection? Like bodyguards?"

"No."

I scrap more of the flashing fire bits to the small inferno.

"they didn't have any. they were brainwashed to think they're invincible, thinking their organic souls were omnipotent and unscathed. but.. no. this damn apocalypse had ruined both of our lives. same goes for the dystopian corruption running this world to a path of control and self-destruction..it makes my stomach churn."

"The best option is to live for yourself instead of living in the past. It slowly destroys you if the past is still looming around your mind constantly with no end. even if the days of this world are in a painful loop. You don't have to suffer the expectations of your parents, nor suffering the way of the world is now, you became a changed man, changed from a moron to a true fighter. you...have me."

"W-what..?" I glanced right back at him, pausing my aggressive handiwork to surge the flames to warm us up.

"I said you have me. you can talk endlessly to me, you can cry to me, you can rage at me. let out emotions kept closed off, breaking you until instability claims your brain, worry to me, ponder to me, all of the above. even if we're destined to kill each other, then I'm here. people hurting usually bottle it up, sharing it with nobody but to let them feel more of the pain than expressing. It's like just.. slitting your arm open. or just fishing out bullets out the collarbone."

that.. had my heart thump intentionally, out of an action I didn't control,I hugged him down to the waist and neck. his breath hitched at this sudden comfort, but slowly hugged me back in a stern but calm embrace.

"Thank you. Jaha. thank you so much.. we're supposed to be enemies. But.. I can't help but think you're the one for me. a person I can understand.. a person I can talk to without any disregard or negligence."

"The one? That's too fast."

" I know. but still..when this is all over. when our destinies to kill each other had been revoked, tie been broken, fate had been demolished. I still want you. still want you to be by my side even as we grow older, even as society rebuilds."

"Too fast, you idiot."

he ruffled my hair, as my body relaxes slightly to his touch.

"aware. I'm being genuine here. You could at least acknowledge how much I've fallen for you."

"Sheesh.."

he looked up to the misty, blackish, greenish sky.

turning nightfall at the two of them.

"we had enough..aren't you going back to your company?"

"No. I want to stay here with you. if we have to go to sleep in the woods, then so be it."

"we'll get sick you twat."

I stood up, grabbed my weapons sprawled around the grass, and took out the fire by a handful of dirty rainwater before looking back at jaha, adjusting his sniper latching on his backpack handle.

"Hopefully, you'll be safe ok?"

"Yeah. I'll be at home. or rather your home to be exact-"

"Aye, don't say that. I give you the fullest permission to live and relax in the comforting depths of my home grounds instead of living in danger throughout these abandoned streets, roads, freeways, and ruins. you're no longer at the influence of your company. your freed."

"Figured as much since you let me use your shower. you use a towel and a small bar of leftover flower scented soap? Really?"

"Gotta use what you can get. But can i get a kiss before we separate again?" I said, slightly pleading.

"Are you serious?"

"Yes. we haven't shown much affection until the day our desires for one another burst into a rain of sparkles, my little pony ass. plus, I still need to make preparations and pre determined plans to further our paths for ourselves instead of serving to companies seeing us as disposable value than a real human being with emotions. I still latch into that determination to destroy our respective companies, find the location, orphanage, direction, and city yoran is. love her and you. that's all that matters. Doesn't it?"

"That's my child."

"officially. It's mine too.~" he sighed at my cocky tone of voice, a sigh of both resignation, trust, and irritation.

"Save it when you get back. we'll have to restock on food. any grocery stores around the city. we need no fresh foods that'll grow moldy in the spam of 4 days later. but..I trust you. more than I trust my subordinates and companions in battle, trust you more than this narcissistic god controlling every aspect of our pathetic human lives. so hopefully your head isn't at the shit depths of your anal once everything goes out of order in the midst of our plan to live for ourselves than living for others."

"I promise I won't."

We both stepped back from each other, and our steps plattering the wetness of the greenery as a sense of longing started to grow into the atmosphere. My fists clench as me and him turn back on each other in unison. every new information jaha had told me had been circling my mind once we went farther away. I almost...want to protect him, take care of him, and treat him like a true loyal man in a healthy relationship. I love him like I always did.

I am so perfectly aware he's independent and capable of taking care of his own wellbeing, but I want to be there for him. his life in general had always been extremely and eerily mysterious. so..the mere fact that he's opened up to his family history is a boost of our trust, our companionship, everything. do I need to go back to HQ or go grocery shopping? HQ first. and then grocery shopping.

each step took a mile, and the city ruins were in full visibility but slightly misty from the radioactive mist, I tried to prioritize my thought process when it comes to shit I don't understand or if I do understand then it's directly towards jaha or his daughter in a another city. I can't figure it out, I'm a grown fucking man. I am not a autistic child whose thought process is completely disproportionate. I see something in the distance. is it...the sword demon? why is he here? what does he need? and third of all: why the hell does he have his most legendary blade?

"Master?"

"mongrang. I have something to tell you." his voice full of challenge.

"You came all the way out here just to tell me something?"

"It's important. I couldn't stay at HQ just because of your next mission standards and conditions. even as your master. it..."

"seriously what's going on?"

his eyes dimmed down in an unexpected worry in those black eyes.

"You were assigned a mission to go to another city and retrieve someone from an orphanage. The reason why I'm so worried about this and about you is because of the civil war in that city. and supposedly.. some living government officials who had controlled the civil war planned to initiate a nuclear nuke. I don't know if it's an assassination mission, stealth mission, and throwing you into the bombs of a governmental civil war..but you can't go."

My blood just ran cold.

"Someone from an orphanage..? But how.. every city controlled by governmental authorities had either approved of the idea of doomsday or control by using the grim reaper as their pawn."

"Our boss said his decision is ultimately final. the city's name is "Juniper" northwest of the outskirt forest of the city ruins. I expected you to survive. I know the relationship between you and jaha. If your feelings get in the way of your mission, then it isn't going to end well for everybody. Even for you. this civil war on their side is a battleground of death. incapable and devoid of survival or even living as a human being. I won't test your abilities since I've taught you more than enough how to become formidable. But..this starts tomorrow."

"But who am I targeting in a orphanage..? you haven't explained a thing about that."

he stepped back from me before turning his back to the misty, empty, despairful horizon.

"All will be explained in due time. Until then. go home. grocery shop. do whatever while you're at it. this mission is a definite example of why a human soul is exchangeable and conductive. I don't want to come back to HQ 2 days later to see your body in a grave. go ahead and leave. consider sparring with jaha. You need it for tomorrow's unfortunate pre determined outcome of your own saddening human life."

everything swirled in my meaty brain. is it...yoran? jaha's daughter? I had my suspicions of the boss capturing a young child for either blackmail or just for unknown context. But seriously? a civil war? humanity is so fucking divided than even aliens will see us as just childish peices of entitled, inner superiority complex cunts. jaha's reaction to my involvement in a civil war is unknown, but I'm not scared. I'm just hoping he'll come with me. I seem to grow an attachment to him. hungry dog.

I walk as this information is a lot to take in.

I started to see a small convenience store the size of a Costco, appearing as withered, peppered with broken windows and pieces of...limbs on the shards of the windows. The boarded up doors were slightly broken but held good. just enough for my strength to pull them out. I lift my hands to the wood.

Easily breaking them off and entering the store, only to be met with even more dismemberment in the side of my eye huddled in a corner. It smells horrible. I'm pretty sure 2 hours after the horrific fate of humanity as called "doomsday," the men who mass murdered many of the city's civilizations had fiddled with the bodies for fun. I don't even want to talk about what shit they did to the bodies of dead woman.. God, why are we so insufferable.

I walk to each aisle, and most stocks of food are taken. but I see a lot of vegetable soup cans at the bottom of the shelf, same as a package of mixed spicy chips and muffins on the side. the expiration date of the muffins is..3/11/20. next month. I tried to pack it all in a big bag so I wouldn't have a problem carrying it back to my home. someone came into the store unannounced.

the sounds of those deep grunts, I watched his fingers close his nose to the pile of dismemberment in the entrance to the store. It's jaha. what's he doing here? I flinched back to see his eyes look directly at me. I can't face him due to the mission tomorrow as I'm conflicted about telling him or leaving him confused as to why I leave to charge through a civil war to retrieve his daughter. for whatever reason.

"I came to look for you.."

"Why?"

"...my boss came by eariler to blackmail me. he said: "come back into my company in time before our war begin and I won't share any data of yoran's personal information to human traffickers still alive in the city, better yet..to assassination companies not even giving a fuck about murdering a child. come back and your daughter is safe...for the time being."

of course, I declined to come back. I know he isn't bluffing. by the tone of his voice. he also showed me the personal documents and informative files of yoran's history. considering your plan.. I need them dead. Right now. if we have the chance to kill him and your boss while I'm currently a lone wolf."

I chuckled nervously, trying to peice together this cryptic puzzle in my mind.

"blackmail..? damn. he's really trying so hard to get you to come back since none of his forces can fight better than you. even during the past battles of our companies. you fight like a..whoo..~"

"..."

his face knows that I'm lying to him.

"I-.. both companies...are targeting yoran just as a lead for more destruction. I been...sent to a mission just to retrieve yoran out of her orphanage. right as two divided companies or forces like ours are having a civil war. exactly like what we've been trying to do. so it's either a gamble with my life or an intentional thing to just throw their most powerful in a situation they have no business in. I have no information about what my boss is trying to do with her. but it's probably never good intentions at best. please believe me. The point of the mission is all written in unintelligible scramblings."

"..."

"I had to tell you the truth. I couldn't just pack every single weapon I have and leave you behind with unanswered questions, swirling your mind as I didn't say anything as to why or what I'm doing tomorrow. but I couldn't just hide it from you. if my mission was about your daughter. after I promised my devotion to treat her like a father along with you, then it's in my debt if I ever hurt her. I'm sorry..as smart as our company bosses are. they might use an innocent child for blackmail or worse."

his fist clenched and unclenched at the thought of using his daughter for horrible stuff, including criminal activities. he said slowly in a husky voice, holding back his burst of rage:

"Did they have any intention of killing her? or..harming her?"

"I don't know.. all I need to do as long as I'm still alive is retrieve her before anything else happens in their violent civil war. I don't want to hurt her, she's yours and yours alone, she's a child, she has no need going through the shittiest of this sickening world supposedly made to be the image of "God."

No criminal/ terrorist should use the live of a child to blackmail others. if the sword demon gives me more intel about why yoran's capture is relative at all." I said with disgust.

"He probably got the information from my boss since he has the most intel onto yoran's history and life by sneaking some of his stealth unit assassins into the archives in the back of my headquarters smart son of a bitch..he's using her against me. My own daughter to be used as a pawn to these rich fucks, thinking they have the authority of the innocence of human lives who had no involvement to wars or destruction whatsoever.." he sputtered in exasperation and concern.

"jaha. I have made a new promise. if yoran's capture has something to do with torture or murder then I'll do everything in my power to make sure her safety is determined from the start of this journey. this promise remains in my heart from the time I step out in the forest outside of the city. her life is deserving of the peace this world can offer. like limited stocks of a popular food or product everybody in the world hungers to get, no matter what."

"...thanks."

jaha ruffles his hair, taking in my words forcefully as his worry continues to push it back.

"Despite my inability to change as a person due to our past in constantly loathing each other's existence. from the first time you tried castration onto me during a double date, or that time I couldn't go back to the sword demon's private mansion, so I had to bathe in the nearby river, you were there. disgusted at my nudity, you were there. all of it. when my mind was consumed with either embarrassing you, killing you, or insulting you out of every word I speak out of my mouth. we were both different then. this is now. loving each other for who we are."

"Funny how you used to be so cocky."

"...exactly."

with an action i couldn't control, I hugged jaha in a tight, warm embrace, wrapping my arms around him.

"The hell?"

"I love you. too much. it's unfathomable. the way you just.. I can't explain it, but the way you just have me smitten from just anything you do. from a thousand moons to the anarchy of heaven and hell. I'll give up god and the entire religious system of the gods for you. I'll do anything.. This is abnormal. even for me but..honesty is always key in a relationship. whether if it's a web of lies with a fly full of honesty trapped in between. That didn't make sense but I don't give a living damn."

"Oddly compassionate for a pervert but..I love you too."

his hands held my skin as we relaxed in the glory of our scent. jaha smells slightly musky with a small tang of manly perfume with a drop of human blood. ahh..the casual scent of the mad demon himself, can't admit that It got me addicted.

"Since you're basically at home while I depart for this mission. I'll stock up on food so you can feed yourself and make yourself at home the best you can. you don't have to feel like you're forced to be around me and my home. remember that I love you, and I won't set boundaries and commands for your stay. Do you want to grocery shop with me? I can get you all the things you like."

"Sure."

each of our eyes gazed at the various variety of items, going from moldy vegetables, the disgusting odor of rotten meat that haven't been taken out of the refrigerator ever since the climax of doomsday. jaha pounced around the store, pondering on his options to choose what he could get. I held multiple baskets in my arms. one for me. And one for jaha. he put a lot into the basket, including energy drinks and condiments for protein such as packets for flavored water and bars. I wonder about jaha's cycle of protein and dedication of health at times. usually, I see him order a salad while we're both off work at the same time or work out constantly in a gym as I was previously plotting to always kill him at some point.

the last can of soup landed on my basket.

his own item landed on his own.

"Are you done?"

"Yeah I got everything I need. but I have to say something."

"Hm?"

jaha took a dirty backpack off the side of the aisle and gave it to me, resting his strong fingers onto mine for a moment.

"Do you need to pack up everything for your journey? you shouldn't just go ahead and walk directly to your suicide mission without supplements of food or water. I..care about you. so grab some extra cans of soup and drinks despite our big stacks of food for the sake for me instead of your well being. Go ahead."

"Are you serious..? jaha. I don't have to pack for it. I'm only packing my weapons. humans are meant to go days without foo-"

"Just fucking do it. don't want you to starve or be dehydrated as soon as the fifth hour hits after you're gone to the city yoran resides at."

his eyes look to the aisle and back at me 3 times. no debates required. I groaned in response to his concern, grabbing an extra basket.

"Don't groan like that. just looking out for your health and safety. I'll worry about you every second of the night and day as soon as you leave to embark on a quest to get my daughter to be used as a fucking blackmail tool." He snarled in anger.

"I understand your concern. but you're basically homeless. The reason why I offered you grocery shopping with me is to give you a lot of food and water while you're residing in my home for the duration of this mission. I'll worry about you too. I know your independence and strength as the highlight of your character as a human, but what happens to you if your boss ever tried to inact violence to get you to join back into HQ?? like breaking into my home and committing arson just for fear propaganda and blackmail just to retrieve his strongest assassin back?"

I raise my voice in worry, slamming multiple cans of soup, sardines, rations, and bars of chocolate.

"The boss doesn't know about your journey to the city as well as the civil war, from what I assume. so if he knows no intel about your wearabouts then it shouldn't be a issue for me to remain unprotected since all that son of a bitch has done is try stupid trickery to pull me back to my company. I'll be ok. Trust me. all he can do is be unintelligent and incompetent at his work since I'm his pawn. My martial prowess is used for his own benefit. I'm no longer his pawn. he'll have nothing to do with me if I continue to decline going back into the company."

"I see.." I mumbled, resting my head down, mind bursting with thoughts of his wellbeing.

"Aye. I trust you just like you trust me. I trust you just because you've earned it throughout our relationship from being hateful loathsome killers to lovers. I trust you enough to come back from the journey, not expecting you to be at one piece, but I do expect you to be alive so I can take care of you. if I can. I still need to study medication by Dr. moyong back at the company, but..I'll be ok. I promise."

"Thanks for that.." I raise my head back up, mumbling in a soft voice.

"You're welcome. just try not to think too much about things that are potentially going to throw off your focus in the middle of battle. for example: thinking about me in the comfort of your home. wonder whether my boss is going to come or not. If this journey requires focus for your main objective, it is to get through the horrors of war and get my daughter, then just..don't think too much, ok?"

"...alright...alright uhm..do I need to carry all of this or?"

jaha slapped my hands off the handle of the 3 baskets in my left hand, picking it up with ease.

"...this is why I fucking love you."

"Let's go. you need time to pack and prepare yourself."

He and him stepped out of the store, running back home. I noticed he matches the pace of my speed, considering our inhuman abilities as still human to begin with, we arrived back home.

lifting ourselves up in the broken elevator.

jaha set the baskets down onto the storage room/ food pantry, grabbing my backpack just to have me stuff food, weaponry, rations, wood, clothes, soap, and a flashlight.

"What's first?"

"Soup, cans of ravioli or chicken soup, flavored sardines such as olive oil, garlic and herb, mexican tortilla flavor, and butter. same as canned tuna out of mexican packages. I looked through your pantry earlier before I came to find you in the grocery store. you have a whole bunch of different foods. so i decided to use that chance to help you pack for this mission."

"Intelligence is sexy." I meowed seductively as I took the three cans of different flavors of tuna and sardines. All of them can fit into a small bag of some sort. I shoved it in the bottom of my bag, watching as jaha scrolls through my pantry.

"Here." his hands had three cans of chef boyardee. I take each of them to pack it up.

"You already have your weaponry such as assault rifles, snipers, pump, and a whole bunch of deadly assortments. Do you need any clothes for it? Or are you going to use the same clothes for the mission?"

"...I'll stick with the same clothes."

the bag started to get heavy as jaha soon started to put a lot.

"Wait chill. I don't need this much."

"Fine. but I want you to be safe while you do this. I don't want you to frantically find some food after running out in the middle of a fucking civil war. I...want you to come back to me. It's not like I'm caring about you more than my daughter. I still want you to survive.-"

I turn his face back to me and press my soft lips against his chapped ones before pulling back seconds later with a genuine, firm smile, reassuring him before he could worry even more. I wonder why he doesn't worry much about yoran than to me? That's his daughter so why?

"I wonder why you worry much more about my safety more than yoran while she's potentially going to be a weapon or a tool for pre determined blackmail and murder. all of this, and yet you didn't say anything about her once. Why is that?" I said in curiosity.

"While my worry for yoran's safety consumes my mind as you embark onto your mission to capture her back to your company after surviving the middle of a civil war in a different city. I see you as her protecter. I see you as someone who can shield her from all possible dangers of that civil war or the dangers of the apocalypse itself. that's why I'm not so worried about her safety that much because I put my trust in your protection for her safety."

"...thank you.." I softly mumbled, flattered at the knowledge of knowing jaha trust me.

"At least. She'll be alive in your hands. I depend on it for the most part."

I fumble my hands in joy, blushing, for a maddening asshole who stabbed me and beat me down like a Olympic warrior towards a wild animal while no weapon is at hand in the middle of a darkened nightclub is surprisingly compassionate to me. to be honest. I'm happy he's slowly opening up to me.

"Thank you..thank you." I softly mumbled once again as I laid my head onto his shoulder, wrapping my trembling fingers onto his waist. as I did this. he slowly sat down onto the bed, spreading his legs to make more room for me to cuddle him, as we're both in the wall.

his hand rose up to carress the light chocolate locks of my hair, soothing me even more to the brink of ultimate relaxation.

"No need to thank me. you've gotten me enough to trust you."

"got?~ so..does that mean you admit you're also in love with me? Don't let your title as the "mad demon" prevent your admittance to say you're also in love?"

"fuck you. We're a couple. I admit that the most." His hand clamped onto my head more to push it more to his bare skin of his neck. causing me to shiver in desire.

"Fine fine.~ Once I'm back. I'll come back for you and take extra priority to yoran's safety. if all of this chaos is over.. once we get back to our normal days of survival in this post-apocalyptic dawn of hell once our companies self-destruct. yoran is my daughter while you're my husband. as an example. Not considering real marriage, but it's true."

" You have a long day tomorrow. rest."

his hand slithered across my chocolate locks, soothing me to the mysterious darkening depths of the dreamworld. I felt content within jaha's energy and presence, holding me tightly as if he were to protect me. I slumped down onto the warmth of his neck, snoring in a sleepy embrace.

-Next Day-

I woke up to see jaha also in slumber, grasping me into his arms, his head slumped into the wall.

It pains me to leave him alone despite the damage and the danger to this corrupted world.

I stand up to put on my most powerfully defense and shield purposed suit, gas mask, boots, every gun weapon, and melee weapon I could possibly stuff in my bag full of clothes and food. I sheathed my sniper to my back along with my back while checking to see if I had everything, including a map that pointed me directly back to this city.

jaha wakes up to the sounds, he stands up along with me, speaking groggy.

"Leaving right now?"

"... yeah. I won't be gone for long. I promise to come back."

he ruffled his scruffy, messy jet black hair.

"You better."

"Temporary goodbye kiss?"

in such speed, he held my cheeks and pressed his lips onto mine, deepening it further and further before pulling back, he handed me a large map circling the locations and data of every city near ours or far away from ours to my chest.

"You better be safe. And I better not see a scrap of yoran's skin being scraped off. Understand?"

"I will.." I mumbled, wiping my mouth before slowly stepping back into the hallway.

"I love you. I'll see you very soon."

"...love you too."

-TO BE CONTINUED-

HAPPY HALLOWEEN GIFT♡

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Get to Know Me ⭐ Sims Edition

I was tagged by @descendantdragfi @sim-songs @satellite-sims and @kazuaru Thank you, lovelies! ^^

What's your favourite Sims death?

I usually don't kill my sims, but long time ago I had a family of weirdos for a silly gameplay. One of them was killed by a meteor. That's something that could totally happen to me.

Alpha CC or Maxis Match?

Alpha! But MM in rare TS4 sessions.

Do you cheat your sims weight?

Nope, never did, never will.

Do you use move objects?

Of course! I use it for moving around sims for photoshoots and sparingly when decorating.

Favourite Mod?

Master Controller (and all the addons) and Pose Player.

First Expansion/Game Pack/Stuff Pack?

Word Adventures, got it shortly after the premiere.

Do you pronounce live mode or aLIVE or LiVing?

Umm, definitely aLIVE.

Whos your favourite sim that you've made?

Prakseda. She is just like I imagined her. She is the one that makes want to actually play that game.

Have you made a simself?

Twice, in TS2 and TS4, it wasn't fun xD

Which is your favourite EA hair colour?

I like the dark red one. From all the ea colors, this one looks decent to me.

Favourite EA hair?

The Sitcom Style. It's so gorg. I can't find use for it right now but I love it!

Favourite life stage?

Young Adult.

Are you a builder or are you in it for gameplay?

Neither for now :< Just sitting in CAS and taking pics. BUT I want to play and no, I'm not going to build anything. Just decorate in my shitty style.

Are you a CC creator?

Does converting counts as "cc creator"?

Do you have any Simblr friends or a Sim Squad?

I'm not very talktive but I have some poeple that I really like. I won't name them because I'm scared some of them will think something like "wtf, we don't even talk" xDDD

Do you have any sims merch?

That's what is left of it :<

How has your ''Sims Style'' changed throughout your years of playing?

Omg, let's not talk about "before simblr" era... They were just potatoes with photoskinned clothes (that was the only cc for Sims 3 back then, okay?) Anyway, I always aimed for realistic looks, as close to real people as I could get (sometimes it was getting really obsessive). After I realized I can't make a clone of a real human in Sims, I slowed down and got the today's style. Realistic style with a slightly cartoon touch. At least I think it looks like that, lol.

Whats your Origin ID?

I'm the person with Sims 3 on CDs (the old ones).

Who's your favourite CC creator?

@gruesim @satellite-sims @smallsimmer @pleaseputnamehere @sim-songs @joojconverts @sourlemonsimblr @annoyinglydarkblaze and probably many more, love you all ♥

How long have you had simblr?

September 2013. I migrated from Garden Of Shadows because they didn't like TS3 too much...

How do you edit your pictures?

I use GShade and then some delicate edit in PS.

What expansion/ stuff pack is your favourite?

Pets, Seasons and World Adventures!

Tagging: @aspensims @happy-lemon @camisulsul @pixelbots @papermint-airplane @silverspringsimmer @elvgreen @johziii

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Coitarche

I wish to issue a very sincere apology. I know that I had Elnor (ST:PIC) listed for this prompt, but I have been trying for several days, and I just can't seem to capture his voice. (Usually my fics are late because I'm rly bad at time management, but today, it's because he is Incredibly Difficult™ for me to write.) I know there are often small typos in my works despite my attempts to edit them out, but typos are one thing. Low-quality, shitty work is another beast entirely. I always go back and re-edit my works for typos/quick fixes, but I cannot in good conscience allow myself to put out work that makes me cringe as much as my attempts at writing Elnor have. I want to do right by you all, and as it stands currently, I refuse to curse your eyes with my horrendous failed attempts.

That being said: today's fic will feature my Romulan OC, Major Denak (mentioned in "Praetor's Pride" chapter 3). This fic is a side commentary to "Praetor's Pride," but you don't need to have read that first to understand this little drabble. I will, once I have had more time to find Elnor's voice in my writing, release a sort of "make-up fic" about him. I don't like not being able to deliver on something when I've given my word that I will. It probably won't come out until after the SoC challenge is over, but Elnor fans, I will learn your man's voice if I have to listen to clips of him for hours on end!

For anyone who is curious, "coitarche" is defined here. Anyway, enjoy!

Day 29: Loss Of Virginity

SoC prompt list here. SoC Masterlist here. Cross-posted to AO3 here.

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Denak (OC) x Unnamed Romulan OFC, mention of Hiren (ST:Nemesis) x Reader (from "Praetor's Pride")

[A/N: This is smut, so 18+ ONLY, MINORS DNI!!!]

Warnings: Mild angst, lost love, arranged marriages, sexual memories, sexual dreams, loss of virginity, mention of masturbation, woman on top, biting.

(Picrew used to make ^this^ can be found here.)

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"Why are you alone after all this time, Major Denak?" The calm, curious voice of Praetor Hiren called out from the balcony railing, and the man in question lifted an eyebrow.

"Sir?" Denak was far from the only guard on duty tonight, but when the Praetor took his nightly walk around the grounds, he preferred that he only have one guard with him. The palace was safe enough, he claimed, and he didn't enjoy feeling as though he was a child who required a large escort even in his own home.

"I have seen many of my guards with their partners, or I've at minimum heard them discussing their various conquests, but you..." Hiren trailed off, pausing as he turned to face the youngest member of his Rei’karansu. "Have you no romantic prospects?"

Denak knew precisely why Hiren was so curious. The pretty Federation Ambassador whom the Praetor had been chatting with tonight had put him in a good mood - a better one than he'd been in since his official appointment.

"None at present, my lord Praetor." The older man seemed disappointed, so, not wishing to sour his mood, Denak allowed a memory to tug at him. "However, there was someone several years ago."

The guard noted a small smile upon the other man's lips, and he continued.

"She was the first woman I ever truly loved. I dare not reveal her identity, though. She is a nobleman's wife, now, and I doubt she would appreciate her name being associated with that of a mere guard," he murmured taking a few steps closer to the Praetor's position and gazing out across the palace gardens. "She was sweet...just as inexperienced and nervous as I was."

Denak could recall every moment he'd spent with her in perfect detail. She'd been carved into his heart as deeply as only a first love ever could. They'd both been so overcome by their passions that despite the awkwardness that was invariably present in a first sexual encounter, both Denak and his lover had overcome their nerves and enjoyed themselves immensely.

"Ah, young love. There is nothing else quite like it in this universe," Hiren muttered as he leaned against the railing. "Were you together long?"

The Major let out a quiet, wistful sigh.

"Five years. Longer than I deserved, but...not nearly long enough," he stated, trying not to sound too much like he was pouting. "Her family arranged her betrothal, and she was forced to break off our relationship. From what I understand, her husband treats her well, but...I can't help but wonder what might have happened if...well..."

He couldn't put into words the thoughts he'd mulled over so often in the dark solitude of his empty bed over the years.

What if she'd chosen to ignore her family's wishes? What if she'd chosen him instead? What if Denak had been her husband instead of that stuffy dignitary?

He knew it was no use dwelling on hypothetical situations, but he still had moments where he couldn't control that nagging little voice in his head.

As the years passed, his feelings for her had dimmed, as was expected, but there were still lonely nights in which his dreams featured the ghost of her lips on his neck and awoke with the sensation of her fingers gripping his shoulders as she rode him. He'd take his length in hand and allow the memories to burn through him until he spilled over his stomach.

Denak still remembered the adoration in her eyes when he brought her to orgasm for the first time. She'd been his first in every respect, just as he had been hers. Elements, she was the reason he knew he enjoyed having his ears bitten!

"I have been with others since her, but none to whom I've formed a serious connection," the Major said, and Hiren nodded his head.

"I know what you mean. I've had a few encounters since my wife passed, but all of them were casual. We all need release, but...being open with someone...being truly committed after a love like that...it's difficult," the Praetor commiserated before turning to look at his guard. "I suppose we're both waiting for the one who will pick up the pieces, aren't we?"

"Yes, my lord Praetor," Denak replied dutifully, but given the sparkle in the older man's eyes, he suspected that one of them had already found what he was looking for.

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Taglist:

@akamitrani @android-boyfriends @attention-bajoranworkers @bigblissandlove1 @darkmattervibes @emilie786 @horta-in-charge @live-logs-and-proper @slutty-slutty-vulcans @starrynightgardens @toebeans-mcgee

[adelle-ein]

3ds hacking sesh updates:

-broke my gaywakening file, which i knew was likely to happen due to patching mid-save, but went ahead with it anyway. anyway cordelia forgot who she's married to, setting off a chain reaction that led to gregor thinking he's married to tiki. he is NOT i haven't even RECRUITED tiki on that file, but now when i do she'll probably think she's married already and won't be able to marry say'ri :( so i'm scrapping that file for a new one i think haha. this is how gregor has RUINED everything. lesbian ENEMY (i realize i could probably learn to save edit and fix this but, i don't really, want to do that,,,,)

-i clearly misunderstood something about installing the gay fates (gaytes....?) mod because the weapon penalty removal mod add on doesn't appear to have worked but gay fates does...redid the whole thing and it still doesn't work. i'm not 100% sure if penalty removal is supposed to patch existing files though and if it's NOT then...no idea how i'm supposed to test it! but ig if that isn't the issue then we will just have to suffer through fates's shitty weapon system

-i felt like i should hack sov somehow too for equality so i downloaded the gender lock removal mod. alas there is no hack that can make this game not shit and idk if i'll ever manage to actually replay it but still

-apparently taking out your 3d's battery completely resets its date and time. ask me how i know this (the new battery seems like a drastic improvement though, yaaay)

[tragicclownwrites]

A tragic clown's SBSP ship opinions

So I came across @shiba-deer's ship ranking post and I thought "fuck it. i'm gonna do one, too!" 😝 I tend to agree with most of their points with just a few differences including the addition of shitty Canva edits by me.

Disclaimer: As the title suggests, these are just my opinions. I know some folks may disagree and that's okay! I'm not trying to flame anyone or start any drama, so please keep it chill. We're all just clowns here. 🤡

Here's the scale I'm working with:

god tier - OMFG I LOVE them 💖🥰

top tier - I really like this ship 💜👍

mid tier - I'm neutral about this ship 😐

bottom tier - I really don't like this ship 👎😓

hell no tier - Get this shit off my dash immediately 🤢🚫

?? tier - I don't know enough about them to form an opinion 🤷

Anyways, here we go~

SQUIDBOB - god tier

Ah yes, SquidBob. The only "god tier" ranked ship on this list. Are we surprised? There are just so many great moments between these two and so much that could be said. Alas, I'll spare the long monologue and just say that their dynamic is absolute perfection. It's literally the basis of a great, slow-burn romance - you can't make this shit up. I love "opposites attract" for the exact reasons that I disliked some of the other pairings on this list. It's notable that while Spongebob is mostly cheerful and exuberant and Squidward is mostly grumpy and reserved, that isn't all they are; Squidward very much has a fun side just as Spongebob has a serious one. They keep things interesting and bring out the best in each other (whether Squiddy wants to admit that or not), in spite of their differences. And per this post, they actually do have a lot in common as well! I could wax poetic about why a fucking sponge and octopus are literal soulmates, but idk. I just think they're neat. 💖

PLABS - top tier

Now this was not a ship that was initially on my radar when I first joined the fandom. But I am happy to say that has definitely changed and it is now a favorite of mine! I love a good friends-to-enemies-to-friends-to-lovers ship, and Plabs is one of the best. I feel like they have such a "will they, won't they" thing going on that leaves me on the edge of my seat. I definitely want to look into them more. And who knows? Maybe I'll get around to writing a fic? 😉 As for canon, I could list various examples but there is just so much compelling evidence in favor of this for me not to ship.

KARENDY - top tier

This is a ship that I have grown to really enjoy. While I would like to see more of them together in the show, the few interactions we have gotten are great fodder for a budding romance. I like how they have so much in common (ex. intelligence, interest in inventing), but not to the point where they clash (which I likely will talk about later in the list) and it actually benefits them and adds to their connection. They just have so much potential! They inspire my creativity the more I look into them. I mean, c'mon. Sandy literally said Karen was "beautiful" and Karen's wiki says her relationship with Sandy is "a purely positive one."

SQUIDLIAM - top tier (as exes)

This list simply wouldn't be complete without this pairing. If you've read SquidBob fanfiction, Squilliam is the perfect villainous ex-boyfriend. 😈 It could be that I'm a sucker for villain redemptions (spoiler: i am) or perhaps @misslattesart has made me consider alternative possibilities for this character (probably both tbh), but I find myself increasingly intrigued by this dynamic - particularly Squilliam's motivation for constantly trying to outdo Squidward when he appears to have it all. While I'm part of the majority of fandom that headcanons them as exes, it's evident that they were definitely romantically involved at some point. But I do agree that they would inevitably find themselves in conflict eventually. After all, they broke up for a reason.

PLANKBOB - mid tier

Fun fact about this ship: PlankBob actually got me into the fandom (more on that here), so there's a level of fondness for me there. However, it is purely on a crack-ship basis and I've more or less stopped shipping it since joining in favor of other ships on this list. But idk man, it's just a funny dynamic.

PATWARD - mid tier

This is such a hilarious and chaotic match that literally no one would see coming. I think everyone probably knows about that one moment in Kamp Koral. I can't find the clip right now but, I mean, what the hell even was that?? Still, I'm only giving it a "mid tier" rank as, like PlankBob, it's more of a pairing that I'd ship ironically.

SQUIDVIA - mid tier

I mean, Squidward went on a practice date with Spongebob, who was significantly more interested in him than Squilvia was. She didn't get all that much screentime, despite her being the girl Squidward was presumably trying to impress. I'd argue that Squiddy wasn't all that into her either, but rather the idea of her because they are so similar and he thinks that's the kind of person he should be with. I don't really feel any sort of way about this ship, but their relationship probably wouldn't last. SquidBob FTW.

PUFFKRABS - bottom tier but would be mid tier if not for their bullshit (very confusing, I know)

Surprisingly, I do feel like this pairing has potential... if it weren't for a major Plankton-shaped obstacle holding them back. I've touched on this a bit in my fic, but apparently Mrs. Puff and Mr. Krabs have been/were secretly dating for 16 years. Now, 16 years is not a number to scoff at. However, the "secretly" part is giving me pause and sending up all the red flags. 🚩🚩Both of them are single/divorced/widowed/etc. They are not having an affair. So... why keep it a secret? As far as I'm aware, neither of them have any reason not to be open about it (assuming that I'm not off base about this whole secrecy aspect). Sure, not everyone needs to be in their business. But then it's implied that even Pearl doesn't know. I have no idea who made the call but if I was Mrs. Puff and everyone, including my boyfriend's daughter, was in the dark about our relationship and he made no moves to give me any sort of real commitment after over a decade... I'd start to wonder what the fuck was up.

PATBOB - bottom tier (sorry 😔)

I was really conflicted on this ranking because PatBob has all the makings of a great ship - they're best friends, they look cute together, and they have a lot in common. However, the reason I ranked this so low is mostly because their friendship is so much stronger than any sort of romantic connection. I feel like whenever these two are put into a remotely romantic scenario (ex. when Spongebob they raised a baby scallop), that's when the cracks start to show. As friends, they have a great dynamic and are so funny together, even when they get into arguments/spats. However, as romantic partners, it feels unnatural. As shown in the episode I mentioned as an example, Patrick gets to be his silly, lazy self whereas Spongebob has to take the more serious, rational role - which is not his natural inclination, even if he has that side. I just can't help but feel like this would become a pattern if they were actually in a relationship. I live for best friends-to-lovers... but this ship is not the one.

PLANKAREN - bottom tier

I was originally going to rank this "hell no tier" but it's not the worst thing I've ever seen - mostly just a prime example of compulsory heterosexuality (this was a great response on the topic). I still dislike the pairing quite a bit though. Like, are they even married? The two of them are so off-and-on, hot-and-cold together and there's just something so... forced about it. I just think they both would be so much happier if they weren't together, you know? I don't doubt that they support - and maybe even love - each other a bit, but to quote my own fic (not to plug lol): "you can love and care about someone without being in love with them."

SPANDY - hell no tier

I've never liked this ship, even prior to joining the fandom. Hell, even when I was a kid and didn't know what shipping was, I still felt there was something off. As I've gotten older and wiser though, I think it really comes down to Sandy and Spongebob having virtually zero romantic chemistry. Nada. Zilch. Despite SBSP being episodic in nature, their dynamic consistently gives me sibling vibes - which does not translate well into a romantic connection at all. They're just miles better as friends and I don't see that changing in the slightest.

(And this is just a personal nit-pick vs. a solid point but I find myself put off by the frequently OOC portrayal in fanworks - particularly for Sandy, who is actually one of my favorite characters. I know as writers and artists, we're going to take some creative liberties. But if you have to drastically alter a character's personality and/or physical traits to suit your ship narrative, it's probably not a good ship. 🤷)

SQUANDY - hell no tier

I do love seeing Squidward and Sandy getting along and being pals - I mean, look at this interaction (sorry, couldn't find a better gif)! However, any sort of romantic connotation gives me a serious case of the "ick" (SquidBob be damned, honestly). Hence the very low ranking. They are strangely more believable than Spandy, but that's probably the only redeeming thing about this as a ship tbh. Otherwise, it's a "hell no" from me.

(This sound effect is literally me when thinking about this lmao.)

MINDRICK - hell no tier

Not to be that person, but even if there was genuine chemistry... let's just say Mindy doesn't just look young. I even Googled it for you. You're welcome.

SQUARRY - ?? tier

Okay so I've heard lots of good things about this pairing and how they have some great, shippy interactions. However, it's not a ship I'm familiar enough with to form an opinion.

BUBBLERAY - ?? tier

Not really super familiar with these characters' dynamic in general, let alone the ship.

SLAPFERATU - ?? tier

I've seen this ship making the rounds as well, but definitely not familiar enough with them to make a judgment call. From what I've seen (including pulling this pic together), it is pretty hilarious. I will say that. 😆

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This post is partly a response, and an alternative pov, to this post by @roo-bastmoon so you might want to read it first!

I don't care if Angel Pt. 1 "flops".

1. Jimin would not give a shit. It's a soundtrack, he probably doesn't even care about how well his solo songs sell, least of all a 30 second collab.

2. The only people who would care are Armys because antis would start calling Jimin a flop and it's all about pride to them.

3. Everyone in Hollywood knows Jimin is popular and that Army will buy literally anything to support BTS, so if the song they expect to sell well actually doesn't, it will clue them in that something's wrong, and they're not dumb enough to think it's Jimin. Even if they are, I guarantee you that Hollywood will neither drop BTS if the song does badly nor rush to hire them if it does well. They already know BTS and their power. This song will never have a huge impact.

4. Nothing is pure and we buy stuff from shitty people all the time, true, but, counterargument, if that's our reply to everything nothing will change, and it's easier to actually do something about one single individual vs. an entire company or industry. You can hardly change Universal Studios by boycotting this song, but, by protesting against it and unleashing the full power of Army against it (with negative hashtags on Twitter or TikToks or something) we might be able to do something about this one man. Of course, Army would consider that an embarrassment to Jimin, so only antis would ever do that.

5. I was less bothered by Dreamers because the issues with the World Cup went beyond that particular edition, and because it seemed like Islamophobia was rampant in people's outrage. It was also the case of the issue going beyond a person and of the exposure it brought to countries in the Middle East (shunning them won't bring change to them either). I was angry at how hypocritical people were being about the World Cup in Qatar so I had a positive reaction to it comparatively. I understand this post will make me seem like a hypocrite, which I am by definition, and anyone who boycotted Dreamers was well within their right. I'm glad the song did well and it flopping definitely would not have impacted FIFA. It would have meant less money to them and Hybe however, and they do not deserve a single penny. But the case with Jimin might be different, because while soccer is loved by billions, this one dude might actually be affected by a full scale campaign against him. He's not famous enough to be above that (but Hollywood probably doesn't care). Jungkook being the first and only Asian to perform at the World Cup, which is a global event that has existed for decades, is a lot more impactful to society than Jimin in a song for The Fast and The Furious, and I mean no disrespect to Jimin. I do think the issue with Angel Pt. 1 is more clearcut than, say, buying clothes from a sweatshop (though I have plenty of alternatives to that as well, DM if you want to know). I'm not saying boycotting the song would ruin Kodak Black's career but it would be the right thing to do. Even better would be donating all the money fans want to spend on Jimin to a women's charity in his name. The press would be all over that and it would bring shame to the franchise. It would be bad press to Jimin though...

My point is, Jimin will not care either way we choose. The fans' pride and competitiveness is honestly the only thing at stake. We're not thinking of Jimin, we're thinking of ourselves. For example, Jimin would be happy if we donated money in his name instead of buying the song, given the reasons. It would be a good lesson to Hybe at least, as well.

Like, it's not that I don't understand or that I condemn everyone who buys this song, but I don't like the argument that we're supporting Jimin and doing a good thing.