#knob rambles

[strawbebe-dk]

Typing GIFfany in thisisnotawebsite.com multiple times gives you these!

I think a few on these are new but I’m not sure. No harm in posting them tho!

[strawbebe-dk]

Laios would say cat girls are not monster enough and thus your not a real monster fucker

Beastkin Lore and Trans-Coded Werewolf compilation cause I am too impatient to wait for the anime.

Also, Laios being Laios called out for it.

[gammija]

i don't like this tweet I've seen going around because it's precisely the other way around

sound is waves in the air, an analog signal, and vinyl records have a groove of varying widths engraved in them, another wave - you went from a wave to a wave, this makes sense

digital though? how did you take an entire songs worth of sounds and lyrics and instruments and express them only in the binary language ones and zeros - and -back again- with essentially a lot of really tiny wiring and resistors and capacitors and whatnot. and out comes music

the only reason the vinyl seems more mysterious than the digital is because you're so used to computers that their wondrous magic feels ordinary

[strawbebe-dk]

TRIGGER ART-STYLE I LOVE YOUUU

[drunkenclown555]

HUGE AND HONESTLY PROBABLY REALLY TRIGGERING RANT/VENT UNDER READ MORE

Person(s) this is about are blocked so if they see it then that's their own fault for bypassing the block to stalk me.

Also tagging @greasy-ugly-nasty because he's my boyfriend and he defended me through the entire ordeal.

TW/CW: Harsh language, addressing "you" but not targeted at anyone who is supposed to be reading this, ableism and sanism, SA, CSA, grooming and conditioning, rape, incest, abuse, mentioned drugging, misusing feminism to silence male abuse victims, mentioned transphobia and general queerphobia, mentioned triggering (CPTSD, OCD) and flashbacks (CPTSD, DID), dismissal of (trans) men (feelings, experiences, trauma, opinions, identity, ect), guilt tripping (and emotional abuse), ableism/sanism against systems, sanism targeting mania, gender essentialism, mistreatment of male abuse victims, victims being talked over, villainization of grooming and conditioning victims, villainization of "bad" victims, villainization of disabled/mentally ill people, villainization of "bad" trauma responses, probably more so read at your own risk and take care of yourself, thank you.

^ Woman who called a male grooming, rape, abuse and incest survivor an enabler* and misogynist** while he was actively having a mental breakdown about people being absolutely disgusting*** to male abuse victims

* Also called my bf (grooming, abuse and rape survivor) an enabler (because shes convinced you should just be able to snap out of it and man up or whatever the fuck)

** She tried to make it out like I was "talking about misandry when I specifically said " people who call themselves misandrists" (two very different things, which is why I specified)

*** See: victim blaming, justifying/celebrating abuse, shaming, vilifying, minimizing, ignoring, silencing, sexualizing and romanticizing, ect ect, so on so forth.

Insane superiority complex on this lady I dont even fucking care anymore, stop acting like your shit doesn't stink, you aren't a feminist you're just repackaging misogyny and using it against people you deem evil or lesser (cough cough, men, especially vulnerable men and queer men, cough cough). Gross as all hell. Rich people piss me off sooo bad, get off your inebriated equine (high horse).

Bringing this beautiful poem back too because it really fucking fits this whole "I know more than you about the very thing you've experienced because I am smarter than you and if you disagree then you're aggressive/stupid/childish/bigoted" mindset she has going on.

Imagine trying to faux-intellectual therapy-speak "I know more than you"-argue with a mentally disabled person with dyslexia and dysphasia. Thinly veiled ableism at its "finest", truly. Also telling someone with moral OCD they're a bigot for finally standing up for themselves? Dude just slap proud sanist in your bio and gtfo you're disgusting.

I'm so happy I dont have to tiptoe when talking about literally anything and walk on fucking eggshells anymore, I'm so happy I'm not waiting for you to yell at me for being dumb or selfish or whatever, I'm so fucking relieved this stupid "friend"ship is over. You didn't give a fuck abt me at any point, I was just an obedient doormat and attack dog. Using me like your fucking token transsexual, the fucking audacity to pretend I didn't respect you when you could literally blame me for shit that wasn't my fault and I'd apologize because of how much I respected your judgement.

"This friendship isn't built on respect", yeah no shit, it sure as hell isn't me disrespeting you tho. Writing off me having a mental breakdown as me being sensitive/unreasonable/aggressive and acting like the only thing you did wrong was "Mix two different friend groups". I didn't (and honestly probably still don't) have a problem with your friends (except Rhaa for the thinly veiled transphobia). Acting like I was being aggressive when I asked them not to react to me venting with question marks when I specifically went out of my way to not be mean Oh you fucking hate my guts lmao.

Continuing to push me to "talk" (argue with you) after I told you like four times that I was actively manic and having a mental health episode that made me unable to express what I was thinking and that I didn't want to talk (argue with you) because I was manic and then saying I should have "thought about that before I said inflammatory shit/vented at all"??? Like idk if you know this miss "I'm better than everyone" but when you are actively having a manic episode and a mental breakdown you dont really fucking think too much!!! Considering the fact YOU'RE MANIC AND HAVING A MENTAL BREAKDOWN. Not even mentioning the fact I WAS trying to be calm and collected and articulate myself despite how hard it fucking was. Like way to out yourself as not knowing shit (or giving a shit!) about severe mental illnesses. You dont fucking know shit so stop pretending you do, its embarrassing and quite honestly ableist and sanist. Fucking get a grip.

Also dont even get me started on the "well he should have thought about it before talking" when my BF told you I was especially sensitive about the topic you were arguing at me about at the moment due to the fact I very recently formed an alter who literally only exists to make me relive being sexually and physically abused and most likely fucking drugged. How fucking dare you honestly! You don't know what DID is like! You don't know what C-PTSD flashbacks so vivid you cry and scream and puke are like! I fucking hate singlets so much!!! How dare you, as a singlet, try to claim that a system needs to "calm down" after YOU triggered them! I'd be impressed by how confident in yourself you are if you weren't being such a fucking dick! The nerve, honestly!

Your comfort when talking about things you haven't experienced and TALKING OVER people who HAVE experienced it is fucking concerning. The fact you, as a cis woman, felt so incredibly comfortable talking to a male rape, grooming and incest survivor like you knew more than him on the topic is actually fucking nauseating. You aren't a man, you aren't a male rape survivor, you aren't a male incest survivor, you aren't a male grooming survivor.

I know damn well this whole fucking mindset you have is because you dont think men can be victims, you wouldn't have said shit if I was a woman or if the topic was about women. Pretending you're a feminist when you're actually contributing to the exact rape culture your swear up and down that you hate is fucking disgusting. This mindset is the exact reason boys and men who are raped dont speak out, because people like you think they're "lesser" victims. You are contributing to the culture that made ME refuse to open up about being groomed and raped. That is the culture YOU have chosen. The one you are so proud of that you're willing to berate a grooming, rape and incest survivor because he DARED to disagree with you. You are a horrible person and I want you to realize that before you go full fucking gender essentialist "men and boys deserve it."

TLDR: The person claiming I'm an enabler because I got groomed is an actual enabler.

[obstinaterixatrix]

[goes downstairs] hey guys does it smell like gas leak in here

[gemharvest]

Shower still having issues uhhhh ohh.

[strawbebe-dk]

I just have the urge to want to see Aelius, Primus, and Primula's masks off, please (And yes, this is the same person who wanted to see adult wailing star without their mask)

A fun opportunity to see how many eyes I could draw without going insane.

[dewedup]

just spent the last few hours of my life procrastinating and finishing these before my ritual tomorrow, if anyone’s at the clarkston ritual and wants one message me!!

[strawbebe-dk]

WORTH IT

[ghostickle]

Not having a good day

[eyepatchpetewentz]

nothing is more important to me than that show istfg

[volfoss]

Thoughts on what color would look good w these knobs...

[one4theoverlypassionate]

I always get jumpscared when english subtitles of a film that isn't in english are written by british people

[davy-zeppeli]

ohhhhh the thrill of typing "please refrain from using my team's personal emails for queries - these inboxes are not monitored, and our team email should be used" at some BLOKE who doesn't understand not being a TWAT at work

[transmandayoung]

the end of s2e16 of twin peaks...........