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[kindnotestoself]

Important information!!! It could save the world!!!!!

You're amazing and fantastic and so cool and I hope you have a wonderful day

Love u <3

This makes me soo happy! Thank you~

[gho2ty]

@yifftwiceplz replied to your post “yeah. kn2 can make that face.”:

oh ok so its not just me that gets that face

​iim not the target, but iive 2een iit many tiime2.

[kindnotestoself]

I’ve been obsessing over something I may have said that wasn’t an okay thing to say (that I wouldn’t even know that it wasn’t regardless) and I just feel like the worst person to ever exist.

You aren't the worst! Do you think someone who is truly a bad person would feel bad about something they said? You can educate yourself better on the subject so you know more, apologize to whoever it may have hurt, and resolve to do better in the future! And remember you're human. You aren't going to be perfect all the time. That's not bad, it's more opportunities to grow

[kindnotestoself]

Thing is I am unable to apologize to said people bc I don’t know how to contact them and realistically they likely forgot (that is if it did happen and I’m not just overthinking) since it’s from over a decade ago but I still can’t stop feeling guilty about it 😵‍💫

Hey. You clearly feel bad about it, especially if it's bothered you for so long. You need to forgive yourself. I know it's going to be hard. anxiety is tough like that. But you can't change the past. What happened happened. You've grown since then. You know more, you know better. You're not going to make those same mistakes. The guilt and the shame aren't going to go away overnight. But beating yourself up isn't going to help either. Talking about it can make it seem smaller in your mind. Talking out loud can be hard though. If it helps you can write a letter. Say all the things you'd like to say to them. Apologize for whatever hurtful thing you might have said, tell them you regret your words how you've changed since then. After writing letters like these, I like to tear them into little pieces, as a way to signify I'm letting go of those memories. I find it cathartic. Are you currently managing your anxiety in any way? When something affects you for that long, and your mind keeps coming back to it, it might be a sign that you need some help managing your mental health. Therapy or counseling can be great at giving you some of the tips you might need, especially about self compassion and self forgiveness.

[kindnotestoself]

How I deal with bad in my day.

First, take a step back. take a few deep breaths, focus on your body, what does it need? Have you eaten recently? How about drinking water? Did you get enough sleep? Are you getting enough sunlight?

Making sure your body is well taken care of is vital. Like a car, if you want a smooth trip on the road, you need to do regular maintenance and take preventive measures. It’s not going to fix everything, but it’s a small step that can help make you feel better

Our body is good. Let’s grab a pen and do some writing.

OK. Now make a list. Write all the ‘Good Things’ that happened to you that day.

Some one complimented your new shoes? put it on the list. Did you get the last of your favorite snack from the vending machine? Did you get an A on a test or come up with an answer to a question first? Add it to the List.

Make a new list. a ‘Kind Things’ What are some kind things that YOU did that day. Good things aren’t just for other people. 

Now let’s focus on the ‘Bad Things. What is making it bad? Write out your feelings in a journal. Make a list. break it down into smaller, easier to mange chunks.

is it Negativity?

is it bullying?

is it stress?

Are you mad at yourself because you forgot your homework on the couch and your sister sat on it?

Write down every bad thought that’s on your mind, no matter how small.

Now we’ve got our lists. Lets look at the three of them. For the bad list, go through each ‘bad thing’. Write down ideas on how to manage each one or things you can avoid to prevent it from happening again.

Now, will any of these things matter in a week, a month, or a year from now? Are any of these things something you need to involve another person in to fix? Is it something you can do on your own?

You’ve got your ‘bad’ more manageable. You’ve got your whole day written out. Is the Bad still overwhelming? If so, Go back to the Self Care. Your mind and body need it. Some problems take time to deal with, and when you come at it again with a fresh view, you might come up with new solutions you might have missed before.

Be gentle with yourself. Healing and Recovery are a process. Relapses happen. Depression is a beast. Not every problem has a cookie cutter solution. But it can help you not feel so overwhelmed. Above all, recognize that a bad day is Just a Bad Day. It’s not a Bad Life. You are going to get through this.

[kindnotestoself]

my dad was being especially awful last night and it was the first time i’ve ever drawn blood cutting but i hardly felt it and that scares me a lot

Hey, nonnie. That can be so rough, having family troubles. I’m so sorry that you’re going through that. And cutting too. Would you like some resources about other things to do instead? Distractions are a good way to keep your mind off of things, and cutting is both an addictive and dangerous habit to start. I still have scars from over a decade ago. Do you have people you can reach out and talk to in real life that can help you?

[kindnotestoself]

I send so, so, so much love. You’re an amazing person and you deserve the world. Thank you for making this blog❤️

thank you so much! I really needed this today~

[kindnotestoself]

mfqueen-ctsv reblogged your post:

My efforts aren’t enough..

your efforts are. You are trying so hard.

[kindnotestoself]

Just wanted to say, thank you SUPPORTIVE sister for your content and the love you give us!!

🤗🤗🤗Thank you! I’m going through a pretty depressive episode right now, and I’m trying to stay positive. These kind messages are really touching my hear. Thank you! I really do care about all of you and I’m glad that this blog I started for my own mental health has touched so many people. A lot of people have reached out to me since starting this blog, and I cannot express how grateful I am for every single one of you! 💖💖💖

[kindnotestoself]

I’m not posting the ask, cause I don’t want to trigger anyone, but I still want to respond. It’s not just hair loss. You’re right to be upset. Your hair is a badge for what you’ve been through, it’s also an indicator of health. I’m so sorry you’re so stressed out and I hope things get easier on you. When my hair started falling out after I got sick, it was utterly terrifying. And if you suspect something medical is wrong with you, please, please go see a doctor if you can. There are topical treatments for hair loss that don’t mean you have to swallow pills, but they are prescription, and your health is so important, please don’t suffer in silence. I’m so glad you reached out to me. Know you are so loved and cared about. Please value yourself enough to get the answers and treatment you need.

[kindnotestoself]

I know your blog is amazing cause it's really hard not to reblog everything you post. Thank you so much for all that you do!

you go ahead and reblog whatever your soul needs to look at. That’s why I started this blog, so I’d be able to look at uplifting stuff whenever I was feeling down. And I’m so glad it helps others too

[kindnotestoself]

good luck with your surgery my love

thanks! My surgery is most of the day Thursday,

so hopefully by friday I’m awake/aware enough to update you guys! <3

[kindnotestoself]

i’ve been suffering from an eating disorder from a really long time and i just wanted to say that every time i see a post from your blog reminding me to eat or be kind to myself, it makes me smile. so... thank you.

*hugs* We all deserve recovery and to be kind to ourselves. You’ve suffered for so long, and I hope you finally get to a point where it doesn’t control your life.

[kindnotestoself]

lately, it's been difficult for me to manage eye contact with someone else (either it's someone I know or don't). Whenever I speak, or ask, I always stutter or avert my gaze. When I walk down the hall, or eat my lunch, I usually eat alone and think that everyone's staring at me or secretly judging me. It's tiring me out, and it makes me just want to be alone. Avoid any human contact. But in my everyday life, it's inevitable as I work in an office. Can you please give me an advise?

I have heard about looking at a persons eyebrows or nose when they talk, so it seems like you’re looking at their faces, but it sounds like you’re dealing with some bad anxiety, and it would improve if that got some treatment, especially the Hypervigilance which is know to cause exhaustion. My advice is to please see someone about this. Whether you do talk therapy or medications to manage anxiety, or a combination of both, seeking professional help would be a huge benefit to you. I have severe anxiety, to the point where I would get sick after a phone call. I was also an assistant manager at a restaurant. Anxiety is something that can be managed with proper treatments, you’re not alone, and there is a lot you can do to help manage symptoms. I’m always here if you want to talk

[kindnotestoself]

What breed is your ginger dog?

Ginger is a mutt! She’s a Red nose pitbull/boxer mix, and she’s learned a lot of hearing service dog stuff. She even knows to press a blue light when the microwave goes off and a red light when someone knocks on the door. She’s also a really great walker and an absolute sweetheart. Adopting her from the shelter was one of the best things I did. I love her so much Here’s her in her  “service dog in training” vest

[kindnotestoself]

Can I ask why you’re having brain surgery? I’m new to your blog and I’m interested!! I love your blog btw and ur gorgeous!! 💕 good luck :)

Hi! I have a pretty rareish genetic disorder called neurofibromatosis type 2, that causes tumors to grow on my nerves. I’ve had 11 surgeries now over the last few years, and most of them have been on my head/brain. I’m having a brain tumor removed tomorrow (My 3rd tumor surgery) and having an auditory brain stem implant put in. So if this works, I’ll have sort of robotic ear, which sounds nifty.