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lovelynicho · 6 months ago
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Kiss Of Life reaction to - Study date
Pairing: kiof x gn!reader
Genre: fluff
Warnings: none
Notes: english is not my first language, I apologise for any mistakes; if anyone writes for kiof please FIND ME, I need to read about them🙏
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Julie
You have a rule. After one hour of studying you must cuddle for half an hour. Maybe sometimes the cuddle session lasts for a little longer. Maybe until the end of the date. And maybe it happens every single time you want to have a study date. But it's your fault for looking so attractive while studying. And it's also her fault for being so beautiful you literally can't take you eyes off of her. So yes, it's not a surprise that you always end up in each other's arms, notes all over the bed. And every five minute you tell her that you guys really should be studying right now. She answers with a "yeah, I know" and then starts talking about a completely different topic, and that shows, she couldn't care less. And if you want to be honest, you don't care about studying either when you're with her.
Natty
She definitely didn't come over to study. She swears she wanted to study too, but if it's true, it probably lasted for five seconds. Her "evil" plan is to make you only care about her. So she just happens to wear a top of your favourite colour with a pair of pants you complimented before. After ten minutes of studying she pretends she doesn't understand whatever you're studying so you'll have to explain it to her. As a thank you she will kiss your lips and then hug you, but she doesn't let go of you again. She just lays back on your bed, that you studied on until now, and tells you to just stay like that for a minute. You agree and that minute turns into an hour and the hour turns into more and more hours.
Belle
Did you say study date? Because all she heard was date. She can't stop looking at you and drowning you in kisses. She also talks a lot. Like a LOT. Even when you know you have to study because there is a big exam coming up and you tell her to calm down and actually study she just can't focus for more than five minutes when you're with her. And you wish it was bothering you but it isn't. You actually enjoy it and always invite her over to study, just to end up cuddling. And you always have to study late at night when she's gone because if she can't focus because of you, you can't focus either because she's there. And you wish it was bothering you, but it isn't.
Haneul
With her you can ACTUALLY study. For a while. She knows you take your studies really seriously and she tries her best to study herself, so she won't bother you. On the other hand, you do take your studies seriously but she just looks so cute when she's studying you can't help but press a kiss on her cheeks every now and then. Maybe sometimes on her lips too. She's just so cute, especially when she doesn't understand something, so you try to help her. And the smile on her face when she finally gets it is worth everything. After studying you always take a well deserved rest in each other's arms.
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cheola · 4 months ago
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irma2fr · 4 months ago
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jtl-fics · 1 year ago
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Fluent Freshman - Part 14
PREVIOUS
When Andrew came out of his bedroom to grab a second Allen wrench (he’s working on the frame of the dresser while Neil builds the drawers) he finds quite a few things to irritate him.
1st was the sound of his brother and his cousin arguing loudly. Andrew had been pretty clear that they needed to be quiet that morning but following Andrew’s clearly given guidelines was NEVER either of their strong suits.
2nd was the fact that there was a smell in the air that Andrew was unsure of. It wasn’t a bad smell. It didn’t smell like Nicky had left some component of the breakfast FF had bought to burn. Andrew sniffed the air again and…..lavender? It wasn’t really a smell that existed in the house of three college student boys.
3rd and most irritating was the fact that FF was not where Andrew had left him four hours ago on the couch. Again, Andrew had been pretty clear to both Nicky and Aaron that FF was to be left ALONE. FF hadn’t been able to go to sleep until Andrew had promised that nothing would happen to him while he slept.
He moves towards the kitchen table where Nicky and Aaron are eating some of the sour patch kids that FF had brought back as they argued, “He can’t be serious that Kate and I gross him out more than Andrew and Neil! I’ve seen how fast he walks away when they start getting gross.” He hears Aaron say.
“Aaron I have watched Smithy climb out a second story window because you and Katelyn started making out and he’d have to walk closer to you to go out the door.” Nicky returns. “I think you made him mad when you implied he was grossed out by Andrew and Neil. This is why I get spoon privileges and maybe, if Smithy is feeling forgiving, you can swipe your finger around the bowl.” he points at Aaron.
Andrew hangs back just out of sight.
He knows that FF does not like to be subjected to seeing PDA. A part of him feels…better at the confirmation that it really isn’t because him and Neil are both men. FF has seen them hold hands, kiss chastely, and lean on one another and been unbothered by that it was only when it started getting a little heated that  they’d realize that FF had left. FF never makes a scene about it, never scoffs in disgust or squeals in delight he just seems to see where it’s going and will leave if he doesn’t want to see it.
It’s nice.
“Well he’s probably mad at you for waking him up. Andrew said to leave him alone.” Aaron returns.
“He needs breakfast! He also has to take his ulcer meds at the same time so he had to wake up and eat something. He can go back to sleep after!” Nicky defends.
Andrew scowls. Ok. Nicky could live if that was the reason he woke FF up. Still, why the hell is FF in the kitchen and more importantly what bowl and spoon are Aaron and Nicky arguing over?
Andrew tunes his family’s argument out and heads to the kitchen to find FF putting a baking dish into their oven while incense burned on the counter (Andrew now realizes that was the thin box that had been in with the rest of the candy)
He sees the bowl and spoon that Nicky had mentioned and more importantly he can see the chocolate brownie batter on them. Andrew walks over to the bowl and picks it up. He wipes his finger along the inside and…
He closes his eyes for a moment to savor the flavor of the batter. He leans against the counter and his hand brushes against….a five hour energy bottle. Andrew knows he had thrown out the two he had found in FF’s bags before (Ulcer + exhaustion + FF = bad he didn’t need to be a math major like Neil to understand that math.)
Andrew shoves the bottle in his sweatshirt pocket as FF turns around and stares at him passively. FF’s eyebrow’s raise slightly but there’s no other reaction. Andrew considers that, perhaps, FF had wanted to lick the bowl.
He offers the spoon instead knowing it is the better prize but FF is the one who bought the ingredients and mixed together this amazing batter, so he gets first dibs.
“That wouldn’t be good for my stomach.” He declines and Andrew wonders if FF had taken his meds yet or, in his tired state, he’s forgotten to.
“When did you wake up?” Andrew asks.
“Hour ago.”
He should go back to sleep after he takes his meds but also knows that FF probably won’t go to sleep until the brownies are done.
“I’ll make the pie tomorrow.” FF says and Andrew blinks out of his thoughts.
Andrew decides to go get FF’s meds for him. He’ll make it clear to FF later that the guy doesn’t HAVE to keep making amazing desserts as a thanks for being invited to Columbia. If FF just so happens to WANT to keep making amazing desserts then Andrew isn’t going to be the person that stops him.
He shoves the spoon in his mouth and heads out to go find Smith’s bag and his meds.
Aaron and Nicky see him and both let out outraged noises as their quarry had been stolen.
Andrew ignores them and gets to the bag by the couch.
Who the fuck just has 14 bottles of five hour energy sitting in their bag??
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When Andrew handed FF his ulcer meds he could admit to feeling grateful even if Andrew had obviously gone through his bag to grab it. He swallows it dry because Andrew is standing by the sink and he knows that until Andrew eats a brownie he is not in a position to ask for favors big or small.
(He learned his lesson from that one time with Captain Neil. If he wants to do anything related to Russian he has to be in the safety of his lofted bed under the cover of night and the cover of his…covers while he reads via flashlight. He will not be caught so flat footed again! These are all necessary precautions!)
Andrew seems to very much want for FF to be in prime condition for the hunt. Part of him wonders if he’ll be released amongst other game animals and FF had never felt more jealous of the turkey who got pardoned by the president the day before. Why does that stupid bird get all the luck? Where’s his presidential pardon?
That grateful feeling evaporates into a dust cloud as Andrew lifts a plastic bag, “Stop drinking these.” Andrew hisses, “They’re going to make your ulcer worse.” He points at FF.
“I need them.” He says.
“For what?”
“Five hours of energy at a time.”
“Pull out the brownies and go back to sleep Smith.”
“They still have 10 minutes.”
“Then I’ll pull them out in 10 minutes.”
“There’s a final step that I have to do once they’re fresh out of the oven.”
“What is it.”
“Smith Family Baking secret. I don’t make the rules.” FF gestures towards where the incense continues to burn, “Great Gran’s recipe and methods cannot be shared with non-blood relatives. My mom wasn’t even let in on the secret.”
Thank god
Andrew glowers at him.
Oh God
“It’ll be just 20 more minutes.”
Andrew’s eyes narrow at him.
“They’ll be worth it.” He pleads.
Andrew rolls his eyes.
“Go to sleep when they’re done. Take Nicky’s room.” Andrew commands.
“Take Nicky’s what?” Nicky leans into the kitchen.
“Smith is going to go back to sleep on your bed.”
“Yeah you look like shit Smithy. Don’t worry, unlike Neil and Andrew’s bed mine is all safe.”
Nicky zips out of the kitchen with Andrew hot on his heels. Nicky really is a good friend.
He performs the sacred rites necessary upon the brownies when they come out of the oven and takes a small corner piece to taste test and -
He closes his eyes and clasps his hands together in prayer.
‘Thank you Great Gran.’ He prays earnestly.
‘Remember to wash behind your ears’ he thinks he hears a whisper of grandmotherly advice in return.
That was probably normal.
He extinguishes the incense.
He cuts up the brownies, finds a decently sized plate, and sets the brownies out on the counter before he starts to work on doing the dishes. Yeah Yeah he could have been cleaning while he waited for the brownies to cook! That’s what you always do right? Clean as you go?
Well have you ever been baking brownies that might be the difference between life and death? No? Well then FF is just going to have to stop you right there because he had the oven light on and his eyes GLUED to these fudgey squares.
Who knows what the cousins’ oven would do? He doesn’t know this oven. He and this oven are taking their first whirl together and it could decide to turn on him at any time. They don’t have the brotherhood that he and the oven at his Gran’s house have built over the years! This oven could be one of those ones that maintain their temperature by turning on the broiler! He felt like he could never again recklessly trust an oven after he tried to make crescent rolls in the Viking Oven at his step father’s house and had gotten them back blackened by the broiler.
That oven had been the SINGLE thing he had been excited about during the kitchen remodel which means naturally it was the thing that had betrayed him.
He lets himself think of all the ways he hates the Viking brand as he finishes the dishes and puts everything back to where they belong.
He walks out of the kitchen with the platter of brownies and sets them down on the table where Aaron and Nicky are sat. “Oh my god they smell amazing.” Nicky says and immediately his hand is shooting towards the plate and picking up a corner piece.
FF valiantly resists the urge to slap his and Aaron’s hands away. He needs these to compel Andrew into letting him live.
“Oh wow, those do smell good.” He hears Captain Neil’s voice and when FF turns around Captain Neil and Andrew are both there. It is only in that moment that he realizes that he should have bought some vanilla ice cream to go with these.
Andrew’s love of ice cream was not unknown, probably even infamous. He was the man who, during the summer training, had been so possessive over the soft serve machine in the cafeteria that anyone who wanted any had to ask Captain Neil to get them a bowl or risk being threatened.
He starts towards the door. At this point Target probably isn’t even that bad, probably just some irate people who didn’t come with the rush and are mad they missed out, maybe some officers talking to witnesses on who threw cast the first Wii remote, and workers who will hate him marginally less (unless he gets the same check out person and they remember him (unlikely))
His progress is arrested by a hand grabbing his hoodie.
“Where are you going?”
“I forgot Ice Cream.” And he could get a five hour energy to slam on the way back home.
He then finds himself being pulled down an unfamiliar hallway.
Ah, the anticipation had been killing him more than the fear of his demise. His brownies had not contained the requisite amount of grandmotherly love to save him he had been relying on extract (Great Gran’s spirit guiding his hands) instead of organic (he does not have grandchildren or children for that matter)
Maybe ice cream would have been the deciding factor? He’ll never know.
He closes his eyes and lets himself be dragged. He’s too tired to fight.
A door opens, and he finds himself sat on a bed.
Weird.
“You are falling asleep standing up. Go back to sleep. I’ll leave you at Eden’s if you fall asleep in the booth.” Andrew threatens.
What.
FF knows about Eden’s.
He has heard about it from Nicky trying to get him to agree to go but he’s pretty sure it’d be like introducing an Amazon rainforest frog to the Sahara desert in terms of survivability for him.
“We’re going to Eden’s tonight?” He manages to ask.
Andrew raises an eyebrow at him but answers, “Yes.”
“I’m not really interested in clubs. I don’t drink out in public or dance.”
“Neither does Neil. I just drink. We can stay in the booth.”
“I don’t want to interrupt your time with Captain Neil.”
“It’s fine, neither of us hate spending time with you.”
“I don’t have clothes for a place like that.”
“Nicky grabbed some for you. You’re coming tonight. Go to sleep.”
With that Andrew pulls Nicky’s curtains close, shuts off the light, and closes the door.
FF, always very much like a bird when placed into a suddenly dark environment, starts to feel some of the  exceptional sleepiness that he’d been pushing off through sheer manic desperation to earn another day of life.
He lays down in Nicky’s bed and is tired enough that he can ignore the sheer amount of body glitter on the sheets (does Nicky excrete it like sweat??) and starts to let himself drift off to sleep.
Eden’s might be something completely out of his wheelhouse but-
A conversation with Nicky from when he’d been trying to get FF to go comes into his mind and he sits straight up in bed as Nicky’s words roll around in his head like stale hotdogs at a gas station.
“Eden’s is cool, even though there’s some sick shit in the basement.”
Eden’s is a Secondary Location with a BASEMENT.
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swordymacaroni · 3 months ago
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🎀Hi, darling!
Yes, you. Come here.
Closer
Closer...
grabs you by the neck
STOP.
FUCKING.
COVERING.
YOUR MOUTH WHEN YOU LAUGH
IF YOU THOUGHT IT WAS FUNNY
FUCKING SHOW IT
STOP BEING INSECURE
OF HOW YOU SOUND
OR WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE
BECAUSE I ASSURE YOU
IF I MADE YOU LAUGH AND YOU LAUGH I'LL BE THINKING ABOUT IT 20 YEARS FROM NOW
I WANT YOU TO LAUGH WITH YOUR BELLY, YOUR TEETH SHOWING, YOUR EYES CRINKLING, OUT OF BREATH AND STRUGGLING TO STOP
BECAUSE DO THAT AND IM GONNA PIN YOU AGAINST THE NEAREST SURFACE AND KISS YOU SENSELESS BECAUSE YOU ARE THE MOST ADORABLE THING I'VE EVER SEEN
Okie!
You can go now!💋🥰
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fire-in-my-woods · 11 days ago
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Just saw the most HEINOUS tag about max ever....
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thedreamerstoryteller · 6 months ago
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YOU SHOULD TASTE IT BEFORE SAYING YOU DON'T LIKE IT
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FROM THE STORY:
<<Have you ever tried it?>> Li Xiangyi asked.
<<No>> he answered without hesitation.
<<Then how can you say that, you should taste it before saying you don't like it>> the former physician replied turning more toward his rival, a light smile on his face. He had used the same tone he usually used with Fang Xiaobao to convince him to do something or not to do something, based on the circumstances. The two were similar even for what concerned his habits of eating candy. However Fang Xiaobao, so naive and young, was easier to deceive and to convince.
A-Fei looked at him for a while before answering.
<<You're right>> he agreed <<Let me taste it>> he said before bringing a hand under his chin and guiding his mouth on his own.
Li Xiangyi was firstly taken aback and stiffened. A-Fei kissed him delicately, he felt his tongue brushing his lips and he parted them relaxing.
A-Fei deepened the kiss exploring his mouth. He kept a hand under his chin and held him against himself with the other one. He was warm and Li Xiangyi melted under his touch and kiss. A-Fei stopped kissing him just before he could lose his grip on the book that was about to slip from his hand.
IN OTHER WORDS:
Li Xiangyi likes eating candies and Di Feisheng who has never eaten a candy in his life finds an alternative way to taste it thank to him. 🍬
LINK:
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bunabi · 8 months ago
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No Promises To Keep is missing something and its tearing me apart
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mirai-desu · 4 months ago
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As a huge friends to lovers enjoyer… it makes me so sad that the message of MSATD became don’t ever fall in love with your best friend or it will ruin your friendship 🥴
Like, they had William fall in love with Eliza too deeply too fast for the pacing that what RN/TPTB wanted (their apparent opinion, not mine obviously), despite the fact they are the ones who wrote that pacing. Like the call is coming from inside the house babes--
But then William felt like he had to leave the whole ass country because he couldn’t be around her anymore (and mind you, while he was still recovering from being shot and being in a coma!!!) because he felt like she didn’t return the same feelings at the same level as him, and that fucking sucks so much ugh
Like no matter “the why” this all happened, that’s the ultimate message and it’s horrible and hurts and I hate that they have perpetuated this.
Especially when you SHOULD be friends with your significant other, no matter at what point you fall in love.
And yes, Eliza's characterization ended up being all over the place thanks to shoddy writing, but she DID love him back, RN just refused to let her voice it, because she though that would ruin the show. HA.
And if they were going for something like "well sometimes it doesn't work out" ... if the show is about their bond and everything they've said before, then why just not make it actually tragic and kill him off then??? So what, they just don't fight for each other??? make it make sense
anyway it really doesn't matter which way you slice, it this whole thing still just sucks
[and I needed to get this rant out of my drafts because they are going to start S5 promo soon and I simply want nothing to do with it at all]
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yzeltia · 1 year ago
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Ask meme - (Purple Heart) Nyx and U'rahn!
U'rahn sighed, hugging his knees on the bench as his other four Conflict members packed up their things and left. He avoided their glares, and he could not blame them for their scorn. He was easily baited by another Seeker to chase him away from pushing the crystal. Goaded on by the insistence that he was a Tia despite the scoreboard.
Too easily his buttons were pushed. Match after match letting his ego get the better of him. Another sigh escaped him as he stood to change, only to jump backward against and fall on his ass, startled by the appearance of his girlfriend.
"You were not your best today, Rahn.. I will assist you in readying yourself for your next match," she stated, watching him get up.
"I know. It must have been embarrassing to cheer me on when I was acting like a little Mi'kitten."
"I do not cheer. Your own ego and skill set is sufficient motivation for you to do well. Today, you failed and now there are things to learn. Things I can assist with."
U'rahn's ears flattened for a moment before finding Nyx's lips against his. Both ears and tail peeled high in surprise as they lingered together for a moment.
"Wh-what was that forrr?"
"I know how to be a girlfriend. Rahn."
He blushed then kissed his girlfriend back. Mood elevated, he quickly got dressed. "You think for practice we can go to level 9?"
"Level 8 needs Zoissette's consent. You will benefit more from breath exercises and meditation before we move on to combat."
U'rahn nodded, then put his bag over his shoulder before walking out of the locker room with Nyx. As they rounded the corner, he spotted the a group of people surrounding the other entryway as medics carried out a Miqo'te on a stretcher.
"Did they say what happened," someone asked.
"Yeah. Out of nowhere a figure ran into the showers and suplexed the guy and ran out. Everyone was in such a panic they have no idea who did it," another answerd
U'rahn swallowed, "Say…Nyx…did you…"
"I know how to be a girlfriend, Rahn."
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lovelynicho · 6 months ago
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ⓂⒶⓈⓉⒺⓇⓁⒾⓈⓉ
Ask rules
Fluff:💕
Suggestive:💋
Personal favourite:✨
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Lay your head back - EJ💕
Reactions
Making out 💋✨
As romantic tropes 💕
Petnames 💕
Being jealous 💕
Initiating intimacy 💕
Summer love 💕
Getting matching things 💕
Kiss Of Life
Reactions
Study date 💕
Boynextdoor
So let's go see the stars - Taesan💕💋✨
Twice
Introvert in love - Jeongyeon💕✨
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ikpwecanfly · 2 years ago
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The couch given to buck by his parents being the one ruined by his donor baby.
Family by blood v.s. family by choice
My queer little heart just wishes the showrunners had the guts to keep this energy up for all storylines
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collecting--stardust · 1 year ago
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My roman empire
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angeltism · 1 year ago
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sorry but oh my god i am CACKLING tumblr r uu serious rn
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#➳ the fool speaks#what did i nawt block hys side blog or something#why is that there /silly#also YES i've vented a whole bunch abt hymn but this is a pure lighthearted ''we have mutually blocked eachother what'' mildly confuse post#. . . i am going to go block the side blog i realized Oh Yeah I Probably Just Didn't#so i'll try that . but still tumblr hello ?? what even makes it choose what blogs to put on there#anyways i need to immediately spam everybun's dashes with gacha life 2 soraqua to make up for the excessive breakupventing and nyeow this#''ya'll literally blocked eachother ffs can uu shut up about uur fucking ex''#(which i am trying to ! prommy ! this just made me start cackling when i saw it and earned me a concerned look from aquadad)#i was just abt to say wait is there even a point to blocking the sideblog (aside from maybe making tumblr get the memo here) but i realized#since uu can't block from sideblogs it's possible that the two sideblogs could still interact unless hy also blocked this one too but bette#safe than sorry . anyways yeah ok funny wait what moment over . i am going to show uu me ++ my bff-ex-qpp's headmate kissing in g.l2 /JOKE#in reality i will finish making tisse so i can show ya'll willow and tisse bc they both r pretty . AND so far 3/5 of the cdstw group have#praised my abilities to make them in gl.2 so >:) . if they said it's good then ya'll bet ur asses i will subject ya'll 2 it too#i should also make star in it#right after i finish making tisse bc i think tox may also be waiting on me#which if so i feel bad rn i am wasting my time joking abt my ex . on that note i am going to Shut The Fuck Up nyeow :thumbsup: /lh
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aaami · 2 years ago
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I wasn’t going to post this here because it’s kinda lame, but I doodled my old old OLD Naruto self-insert turned into an oc just to make my 15 years old self happy :’’’))
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mmoodd-jobutupaki · 1 year ago
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So. Happy pride month everybody!! For pride month, here's a simple story time of my experience with the lgbtq+ culture
Introduction: My introduction to the lgbtq+ community was..not a good one. Some parents in the parents group chat of my class wanted to boycott a David Williams book for having lgbtq content. Homophobic bigots, I know (their kids are of equally poor quality as well). And that was it, first impression of the lgbtq+ community and it was terrible.
Homophobic era (is not hot): There's no way to soften this. After my first encounter with the lgbtq+ community I was homophobic. I would actively block lgbtq+ content from my for you pages. I did not ship wolfstar (and my friend has smacked me for it, multiple times). I basically hated lgbtq+ people for something they couldn't control. And being in a class surrounded by people who were also homophobic further reinforced it. Side note that this class was not a fun time. I genuinely still have trauma and grudges against this class. During my time with them my mental health was down the drain.
Allying: Eventually, things did actually get better. First off, I got allocated into a different class, away from the homophobia (yaayy). And eventually became more tolerant of lgbtq+ culture. Starting small, I stopped blocking lgbtq+ content, eventually learning to appreciate some as well. It was a slow process, more than a year, but eventually I began to accept the lgbtq+ community as people who just had different preferences, and that was fine.
Questioning: This is probably the most embarrassing part. After a while I began to question my sexuality as well. I had a friend, looking back I realize we weren't that close, that I held some slightly more than platonic feelings for. Nick Nelson said it best once: I'm having a full on gay crisis.
And yep that was me.
Yep I'm bi: After about a year (yes a year) of questioning myself, getting into an amazing girl's school I eventually figured that I was bi. As I was falling asleep one night I just thought to myself "Yep I'm bi"
Repeal: Basically, my country had this colonial law that criminalized gay sex between men that was never really upheld (cuz you don't just go around asking male identifying people if they had sex with other male identifying people). Anyway it was finally repealed in August. While it doesn't affect me, as a fem identifying person, it's a step and hopefully a sign that our government is willing to make some changes to better accommodate and represent the LGBTQ+ community at last. (Seriously, we still don't allow they/them in our media wts)
And so it goes: So it's been a year and a little more since. I only really started coming out to people this year. I've been working from the outside-in of my social circle, coming out to some close friends and allied/lgbtq+ classmates. I haven't come out to everyone yet, but I'm working on it and maybe someday I'll get there. And hopefully my country legalizes same sex marriage. Till then ig.
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