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it’s my birthday month, which means I’m gonna spend an insane amount of money on little treats all month. because it’s my birthday!
I just dropped $35 on a cute Totoro dress from hot topic. but it’s on sale from $50 so it’s a steal. plus I’m gonna pick it up in store, so no shipping fees
#but I’m also like ouch I probably shouldn’t have bought that#it has shorts attached and I’ve never worn a dress like that#I guess it would protect from flashing lol#I’m just afraid it might be hot#plus if I’m wearing a dress that means I don’t want anything between my legs#kinda hate wearing shorts
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i love haircuts. i cant stop petting the back of my skull
#ITS SO FUZZY!!!!#ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE IVE BUZZED THE BACK!!!#im so smooth and streamlined... like a Seal...#Yes my head is cold. oh but i feel so so free#and! AND! it will make wearing hairnets so much easier & more comfortable#it was very funny tho#the stylist gave me the rundown on what she did#and added that she kept it kinda soft looking to give it a more Feminine feel while still being a masc haircut#as i stood there. in my pin-covered vest. Not Giving A Shit lmaooo#like thank you??? i am going to make it look masc as fuck anyway#i Do appreciate her attention to detail tho! she was very thorough!#it should grow out nicely until i trim it again#absolutely unprompted#tho i miss my lil' sideburns... i let her buzz the sides/back a bit too short...#when will they return from the war...#man i love getting my hair cut tho#i usually Hate it when anyone is in my space bubble but... sigh. its nice#i can just sit and space out while my hair gets cleaned up <3#its odd. i dont like being touched Except for when its my hair - which i am extremely particular about. i contain multitudes#SIDE NOTE TONIGHT I HAVE HEARD MY FIRST FROG SYMPHONY#opened the back door and!!! Frogs!!! whoa! there's Creatures out there!
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so in the past I have made themed gifts for people who have helped me* and it's been a little weird but like. Understandable to the person I am gifting the thing to weird? My current problem is that I want to make something for my endocrinologist because he has improved my quality of life hugely** but endocrinology doesn't have an easily themed gift and my endocrinologist reminds me very very strongly of like a sad greyhound or a whippet but I cannot explain to this very nice, very normal man that "hey I made you a plushie of a dog because I wanted to thank you for the steroids and you remind me of a dog. In a good way!" *like teeth plushies for the dentist who helped me figure out I have to have dental anesthetic without epinephrine in it, or a chicken plushie for the people at the chicken restaurant that went the extra mile to get their ingredients list that were the reason I figured out I'm allergic to coconut **I had what would have been a severe allergic reaction and it wasn't pleasant but I didn't end up in the hospital and I didn't take like a week minimum to recover and
#the person behind the yarn#I realize this is a problem of my own making#and that I very much do not need to make my endocrinologist anything#but it's such a HUGE difference in my life#he really does have like sad dog energy idk how to describe it#he wears very nice flannel shirts that I am slightly envious of because I'd never seen a blue and orange flannel before#and is like somehow even more obviously unthreatening than I am#like. I have PTSD. Had PTSD? Have? Not sure how to word that#I have worked through most of my major PTSD triggers but one thing that still gets me is people touching my neck#to the point where I have like flinched off the medical bed darted across the room kinda avoidance in previous medical appointments#I can mostly manage to sit still and let doctors touch my neck if I see it coming but I always flinch and I always hate it#and this guy is so incredibly unthreatening I didn't flinch at all and didn't even notice it was weird I didn't react negatively#until after I'd left his office#I am also (usually) seen as very unthreatening but mine is something I worked on deliberately for a while#(when I was working with toddlers) and also is made easier by the fact that I am very short and look younger than I am#idk how to describe how much this dude reminds me of a greyhound. WAIT NO he reminds me of a borzoi!#the wizard version of a greyhound
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phils wearing tiny little shorts i repeat phils wearing tiny little shorts
#this is the best day of my life#gonna pretend i didn’t see dans outfit <3#dnp#edit#ok wait i don’t hate the shirt it’s camp#the jean shorts leggings pants situation however is so ugly#buttttt it’s kinda endearing like ok silly wear ur terrible outfit and look all cute#ugh i hate himmm
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Tfw when the teacher’s get to know you questions are getting a littleeeee too personal, is this a mental health screening or getting to know me pick one.
#how do I not be concerning#“What difficult things have you or your friends gone through in your life”#Oh yk#depression#Eds#blah blah blah mental hospitals#Blah blah blah severe bullying#Yk#the usual#like girl who asks that#We’re queer and neurodivergent it’s not gonna be good#What am I supposed to say “oh I used to starve myself”???#“Get nervous when I wear short sleeves even if you can’t see them anymore” LIKE WHAT KINDA ANSWER IS THAT#how do I respond to this#hi yeah I’ve been suicidal my whole life how are you#It’s always the ela teachers too#Can I just say I kin dazai osamu and xie lian and move on#Oh yeah I hate myself but in other news-#Ela teachers suck balls bro#They love me tho#So I deal with it#school#gay and sad#sorry for being depressing#dazai kinnie#mental illness#school system#school is shit#school is starting#brb sobbing
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trying not to go crazy and start killing people every time i see another mane 6 redesign post
#I MEANNNNNN. i think its fun sometimes but bruhhhhh when they change their designs completely.. U HATE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#ive said this 1000 times sorry im a hater and proud#im also a hater bc i dont like the rat style tails ppl give the unicorns. i just dont sorry LOLL#i think it can be fun to give them accessories and stufff but also they do... have stuff like that in the show.#like its redundant to be like 'i gave rarity clothes to show her as a designer' when she very often wears clothes anyways#its just its her base design.#to me it feels like when ppl go 'ermmm how come this cartoon character always wear the one outfit' completely ignoring animation and#character design principles.#also this is a personal nitpick but when ppl give rd short hair and stuff likeee. part of what i like abt her deisgn is shes still 'girly'#even tho she has more traditionally masc interests etc. same w aj#like its very basic ideas abt gender but idk for the type of show it is i think its cool to show u can be both#also nitpick again. they never include spike or starlight . WHERE ARE MY POOKIESSSS.#the only good redesign concepts ive seen r when they turn the mane 6 into bg pony designs. thats funnn#otherwise its not rlly... redesign. its just ur hcs#which is fine but dont phrase it like that just for the Algorithmmmmmmm. u can just say 'i like to imagine twily wears glasses'#u dont have to be like 'ermmm well to show shes a nerd i gave her glasses unlike the original design'#which is just kinda funny#ironically moon dancer is literally how 90% of twily 'redesigns' look#also yes. dark purple twilight looks cool. BUT ITS NOT AS READABLE OR MARKETABLEEEEEEE#they r pastels bc it is little kids show. they r simple designs so kids can draw them easy#also when ppl make rd dark like a storm cloud even tho she is not even. associated with storms RAARAGHHHHHH[KILLING PPL]#SHE IS A BRIGHT SUNNY SKY AND A RAINBOWWWWWWWWWW BC OF THE MAGICCCC. NOT BC OF ACTUAL RAIN/STORMS#might also be a huge hater bc im not so much of a fan of xeno designs in general buttttt. whatever#whatever. one dauy i will end up making my own mane 6 interpretations and u all can throw rocks at me
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Usually i dont have long hair so i guess its just hitting like a truck lately how femininely long hair is viewed, how much its used to identify women, how shallowly many people expect women To have long hair
And wowza does it make me realize 1 why my mom must've internally felt such a great need to make me grow my hair 2 makes me immediately wanna chop it the fuck off, because the people most pleased with long hair are the people id like to stay away from me 3 kind of irksome cause im growing my hair out, for the first time by choice in like 2 fucking decades, because i wanted cool long hair like guys in shows i admire
#rant#my hair woes#i mean 1 feel free to ignore#but also 2 just heard a dude yesterday APPAULED his girlfriend cut their hair#and like. as a bisexual nonbinary who for 90% of my life has had shorter hair than my chin#i hope a person like that NEVER dates me. so far im life my hairs been so short it naturally kept such ppl away from dating me#and cool ppl who also liked me with short hair were rhe ones liking me#and one video essayist on youtube recently did a deep dive into why society in general tends to turn on women who cut their hair off#which. makes me want zero fucking hair all the more. i do not wanna be read as woman in the first place#but my face just kinda prevents that. i used to wear a binder and dress ways i liked less and had 1 inch of hair#and was still constantly misgendered so i figured fuck it ill just wear lolita dresses and big tshirts with no bra and do whatever#since strangers would treat me the same anyway.#but like. goddamn. last time my hair was longer than this i was in college but i was so like sporty butch bisexual ripped off sleeve tshirts#i think no weirdo like. liked me for my hair or perceived femininity thank goodness#just kinda yikes yikes yikes on all the valuing of people perceived as women based on their hair like...#as transphobia ramps up also General intolerance of gender nonconformity ramps up#as in attacks toward non makeup wearer women non shaver women short haired women long haired men makeup wearing men#an obvious thing but. god i hate the general trends of fucking society in their fucking conservative swing into#conservative moral panic and sexism and racism and transphobia and like its always there but theres really a pendulun swing into like#decades backward lately#for the past 10 years tbh...
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ok thats it im asking. where the fuck is my derek hale ????
#im a hyperactive teenager#who is kinda strange#and obsessive#i have short brown hair#im a loser and wear tshirts that say eat sleep anime repeat as a joke#im a research fiend#im bisexual#so where the fuck is my derek hale ?#to throw me against surfaces and hate my guts#bruh
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i wish i was a man tbh
#i dont HATE being a woman i just dont. feel like one.#mannnn the stupidest thing fuckin triggered me abt this too#idk if u guys ever heard of everymanhybrid but its this old online horror series/arg from back in the day#i was just studying listening to a video abt it in the background and THE GUY THAT PLAYS EVAN???? im so so so jealous of him#esp later on in the series when he gets kinda jacked and starts wearing baseball caps WHY CANT THAT BE MEE???#like wym i cant be a short skinny early 20s man in new jersey in the early 2010s????#him and that frank iero dude. dont show me dudes from new jersey i cant take it.#idk im probably never gonna do anything abt it bc its not THAT strong 90% of the time#i mean honestly i can try looking more masc i just dont think id look good at all
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starting to get me bad that im graduating in a month. why didnt it hit me sooner!!
#no more flirting with my ceramics prof...no more commiserating abt not being able to wear shorts in the metals studio w my favorite aide...#no more 3hr meetings with my writing prof where were screaming and leaping abt material culture and inherited memory and race politics...#no more quiet rainy afternoons in the empty critique room....#no more scramble wheeling giant shit into the main gallery....#hate sooooo fucking much about this evil shithole of a school but im also so fucking sad to be done already.#text#im not ready to go back to my 'career' god. nor am i ready to go to grad school really dont know where id wanna go actually#i can kinda still do all those things with my profs actually bc were all staying in touch but its Not the same.
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i know part of what was holding me back was ocd but man i want LOTS of tats so bad i feel like the only reason i ever thought i didnt was bc i fucking hate the way sleeves look
#i hate hate hate traditional shading on tattoos#i hate random shading filler#i especially hate it when people get sleeves and then cut them off neatly at the wrist#even when it doesnt make sense w the design#like ok. stop being a baby and let the design naturally conclude on the hand dude#or above the wrst#that shits so corny what the hell#like i was just looking at an ofmd gif#and the snake going down ed's arm onto his hand has me going crazy#also i want shit all over my legs so when im wearing shorts theres more stuff going on#waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#even after doing the first one im still kinda feeling weird about booking tats#theres just so many weird social dynamics i dont wanna fuck up#and social media posting is just making it worse#but then i see like a billion people w tats and im like surely they cant be THAT hard to book#idk i need to like get my christmas shopping in order and then see what my budget is
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Little guy! :D
Picrew by @realrollsweat
#Tried to make it look like me as much as possible so ill explain some stuff-#The bunny is there because I used to have a pet bunny! But thats kinda obvious ig-#Sweatpants- i refuse to wear anything other than sweatpants I hate jeans#Man I want short hair again#AJSJSJNDNDBDJ BUT THIS PICREW IS SO CUTEEEE#picrew art#picrew
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i've been using sock garters for a couple months now and 👀
#honestly theyre super useful! i HATE when my socks slide down into my shoe#and now that doesnt happen#and theyre kinda hot?#tbh i like things with lots of straps so stuff like garters are things i appreciate#and i love little outfit details. like no one saw them under my pants#but they were still there#anyway i swapped my pants for shorts but am still wearing my shoes so i could take out the trash#and i just kinda noticed the garters in tge mirror and was like yeah thats a good look#lol#tree talks
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fellas can a soft butch have bangs and a messy rolled-out-of-bed bob because their face shape and hair type don't really suit shorter more "butch" hair?
#i see butches with shoulder length or long kinda one length hair all the time#and im like hell yeah#i see all the variations of short hair butch#but i've just had bangs my whole life and i feel so naked without them#and ive tried to have the mullets and the grown out pixies#but i just feel ugly with those cuts#i hate that bangs and bobs are seen as “feminine” or at least the feminine version of having short hair#and look i obviously logically agree that any gay person and any straight person and anyone in between can have whatever hair and style the#want and call themselves whatever they want#but sometimes i hate that im perceived as more feminine solely because of my hairstyle#but my clothes are are masculine androgynous#and i don't really wear makeup.
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I dress masculine but my face so baby doll -o-;
#rant#this is a mini rant about just like. sometimes i just wished i looked masc or butch but i really just. dont to strangers ever#i wear all mens clothes from the mens section but still look 'cutesy' because my face is my face#if i wear makeup i like eyeliner so i never look super femme since#i cant do contouring and lipstick normally so i dont unless lurposely going hyper femme like with a lolita fashion coord#or a barbie malibu photoshoot or something. even when i dress in pastels most of my pastel rainbow stuff is#from the mens section. but my face is just. baby. i have a flat chest but it doesnt make difference#iwear baggy clothes to hide my hourglass curve but even thay doesnt seem to matter#ive cut my hair 1 inch long and that never mattered. i like my hair short so its like chin length now but lol#while i love guys with my length hair i just. do not read as guy to ppl. and i dont want to masculine contour my face#cause 1. i fail quite bad at xontours 2. i hate coverup and most makeup im just not the kinda perskn that wears much makeup if any#wearing more makeup makes me feel more femme especially coverup and contour#idk just. i been thinking how i dress in 95% masc clothes (unless im wearing a purposeful dress up lolita coord or goth dress i like)#and to my family and strangers i just read Usual Babydoll Face girly mejo???#i... i have no solution to it not that i necessarily like need one. then also like sometimes u wanna look androgynous#but i already xombine masc and feminine presentation choices with makeup and masc clothes#or masc clothes with some bright colors like pink since i love pastels#jt just. doesnt end up working much. i mean it makes me happy but to a stranger i just dont read as androynous
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Felling really good
#I started cleaning my room at took a big step today by actually going to donate the clothes I don’t or can’t wear#I really really really hate getting rid of anything and I don’t know why#a majority doesn’t fit me yet I couldn’t let go and I did today#my room looks kinda the same but now when look at a spot in my closet it will actually have the clothes I wear! clothes I can wear!#I feel like the corner of my room full of stuff looks smaller too#cleared my bed and fixed my sheets#I only had to throw away like 2 things I forgot what the other thing was but one of them was some really ragged pair of shorts#they were ripped halfway down the side it was being held together by the waistband elastic
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