#kill me!!!!

[g0sts]

godd and the first chance to sit down with guillermo at work nandor's full of "you're going places here and i'm proud of you" he misses him!!!!! he's holding on for dear life!!!! and guillermo fires him i'd lose my mind too i get it!!!

[crippled-peeper]

I did work today for the first time in 4 years and it was only 3 hours but I feel like my spine is disintegrating into shards

[familyabolisher]

> two consecutive twelve-hour shifts the first of which started at 10am after having finished at 00:30 the night before

> spend entirety of second shift complaining about being exhausted and ready to fall asleep

> get home

> can't sleep

[thefemcelthatdeservesbetter]

"No reason"

Lately (past months/weeks) there is a dude (one of those that started frequenting bitches from my class more often) who has been colder towards me. He kept telling me to shut up and that he didn't care what I had to say. That would happen daily but I wouldn't mind, I kind of got used to it. However, every time I would buy snacks/food he'd ask me to share it with him and say "yeah, yeah you can tell me this or that" so I was happy that he'd listen to me since he's the only friend I have at school (sort of).

Recently, I texted him. He told me to shut up. The conversation went like that: "shut up I literally hate you" "why" "I just dislike you very much" "but why what did I do" "for no reason I just hate you, never text me again" "fine sorry" "leave me on read you whore" "sorry"

I didn't quite like the way he treated me but it felt like it was my fault. I feel very guilty, I think I hate myself even more than before. I keep thinking about it and I can't seem to like anything about me. I keep thinking about what really made him hate me and I can't seem to put my hand on it. I don't understand what's so detestable about me. There has to be something wrong about me, no? Everyone I become friend with ends up leaving me. And I'm so dumb because I never learn, I keep getting attached to people and ending up alone. It's so stupid because now I'm expecting everyone else I know to abandon me. Yet I still hope to meet someone that truly likes me for whatever reason.

Lately I just keep thinking about our conversation and cry. I wish I could change whatever is wrong with me. My best friend (whom I told about what happened) met that boy in the street and told him that what he did wasn't cool and that he should apologise. She then asked him why does he hate me so much and he calmly answered that he simply despises me. I wish she didn't talk to him. Because I somehow had a little hope that we'll talk again. But indeed he really just hates me deeply. I don't even need apologies I just want him to be my friend again. I don't understand what about me repulses everyone.

I don't wanna make friends anymore. I don't wanna talk to anyone anymore. I want to delete Instagram and just live my life on my own. I've been playing more otome games and talked to AI bots. I think it's a better life but no matter what I do, I keep thinking about having real human interactions. I try to accept that I'm very much an ugly loser that no one will ever want because my flaws are clearly unchangeable. It's very hard. I am very jealous of other people. There's absolutely nothing to envy about me. There's no one that really likes me.

I wish I could get male attention. Really it just keeps wandering in my head how that boy hangs out with a fat rude bitch, a short swiftie pick me and a chubby curvy slut. They're not even funny they're nothing they suck ass. I'm starting to hate males just as much as I hate females.

When last exam week ended, I didn't even feel relieved. I just hoped to have a peaceful summer or perhaps fun one. I'm not having fun at all. I stay in my room all day. My throat is dry by how little I talk. My parents got into a fight last night. Just like last summer, I think holidays won't be peaceful at all. Luckily my dad will soon go to France so it won't be as bad as I thought.

Maybe I should work very hard so I can become rich and get a boy to love me for my money, since clearly no one will ever love me. I hate my life. I wish I could buy a gun so I could shoot my school. I wish I could kill everyone so they'll cry beneath me and beg for me to spare them.

I want to murder everyone so they'll look at me for once. So at least I will matter for once as I'd be the one to decide their fate. I'll obviously never do that by how weak I am, in addition I'll probably never buy a gun. I think I just want to be happy.

I'd like to have the courage to kill myself one day just so everyone could feel guilty about it. I feel like death would be the only way for me to get noticed. Even in that case, they'd only feel concerned one day and quickly go back to living their stupid lives. They'd think "oh she would've wanted us to to move on" probably.

I don't understand how fast it is for people to change faces. They become so different within the bat of an eye it's crazy. As if my life was nice enough for me to handle any more misery. My best friend told me to "not expect that guy to come back" or to beg him to. She said that it would ruin my image and dignity and that it would make me look like a cuck and dog to other people's eyes so they will take advantage of me. As if I even care. What people anyways? No one even wants to manipulate me. I don't care about being used or manipulated I just want attention and to be loved. At least to feel like I am.

It's so easy for her to say that because everyone likes her. If she loses someone she doesn't care because it's just a fish among billions of others. While I can barely have one fish without it slipping away. I envy her a lot. I wish I was as pretty as her and as popular as her. I feel like a nasty mutt next to her.

Life is very unfair! I wonder what's wrong with me and what about me people dislike so much! I guess I'll never know. I am probably not bound to be liked. I fail at absolutely everything!!!! It's difficult to accept it.

How do I become redpilled? I think it's the only way I can make it but I'm failing at that too.

[schadentekkers]

[solb4dman]

hjnndhhh my brain is rotting with far too many musicals from this year.. hellp

[astrid-goes-for-a-spin]

So Triple Goddess canonized the short story where Covid is mentioned (but don’t worry, demigods are immune!) which is presumably why Percy Jackson knows what N95s are.

But no one who worked on this project knows that N95s do not filter oil particles therefore scents therefore perfumes, huh

[natjennie]

tummy ache :(

[eyeballjellomold]

all the photos of smiling and optimistic costume designers in their yale commencement gowns is reminding me that today marks the anniversary my soul being officially crushed and my heart ripped out of my chest.

dramatics aside, in spite of my efforts, I have still not recovered from the psychological damage of my final year at grad school and have had very little success in fighting the belief that I am a colossal failure doomed to obscurity.

[hella1975]

on aux for pres. i am playing mary on a cross. i am not thinking about tragic fictional characters

[purpllehazel]

Ah great my first customer back from lunch was drunk, letting her dog wander around, starred directly at my crotch, and then asked me if I was a man or a woman after the transaction was done

[cavalierappreciator]

The way I had recovered from my yunmeng shuangjie brain worms— I mean I still cared about them but wasn’t thinking abt them literally every day anymore— but then my friend visited and we watched 30+ episodes of the untamed in a week and now i have contracted them again

[weeping-gospels]

tw: possible near death

fucking some dude cut us off and my bf put up the middle finger

so the dude pulls up and is going you got a fucking problem? you put up the middle finger? and we go no we didn’t and he goes yeah that’s what I thought pussy

of course my bf goes fuck you and the guy stops again and waits for us and we speed off and he literally follows us for two minutes

I haven’t stopped trembling lol this is how people get shot

[idk-i-just-really-like-tsc]

shadowhunters tv i despise u. clary drinking the stupid lake lyn hallucinogenic water and then jace and isabelle come up to her and she goes “who are you i don’t know you” um that’s so NOT FUCKING FUNNY considering she DOESNT FUCKING KNOW THEM ANYMORE!!! BC HER MEMORIES GOT ERASED SO SHE COULD SAVE THE WORLD

[codecicle]

Guys I'm so glad everyone loves hit JRWI campaign: The Suckening so much. 12 thousand notes on just a thumbnail that's so cool. Anyone think about emizel pussy-out post revival