#kats a fucking mess rn

[sharp-silver4795]

The Creepypasta’s Worst Injuries

I get some inspo from ��HC Prompt” posts and that’s what I got going on rn!

⚠️DISCLAIMERS⚠️

BLOOD: Mentions of injuries (ofc), graphic details in some of them, and just blood. Weapons will be mentioned, including guns.

INJURY: the situation is explained and can be a lil uncomfortable- but idk. Severe injury or explicit imagery.

SOURCE: Some of these are product of self harm, betrayal, attempted murder, abuse, general assault, or common causes of death.

ALL SENSITIVE TOPICS WILL BE MARKED AHEAD OF IT!!!

Mild Mention > Detailed > Extreme Details > Sensitive Content

Proxy Behavior miscellaneous

Details of how the injury happened. Jumping, defenselessness, detail of scars and the origin of them. Extreme detail of how the injuries occurred, attempted murder, Marble Hornets Spoilers, ig? Car accidents/injuries

Wilson, Zechariah, Neon Spike, and Rogue will not be included. They’re too sheltered smh 🤦

Kat Hunter: he once got shot 7 times by a few police officers. The other proxies came to his rescue.

Kate the Chaser: once got cornered by Bloody Angel and Scarecrow. She ended up bloodied due to being scratched, hacked at, stabbed, and all sorts of things. The most prominent ones were on her face and thigh. Bloody Angel had kept grabbing her legs to keep her from getting away. Bloody Angel has claws. Scarecrow has gloves very similar to that of Rouge and clawed down Kate’s face. Kate’s face was exposed in the first place because she got hot and couldn’t breathe, so she was jumped basically.

Brian/Hoodie: Fell from a two story building… duh

Tim/Masky: got into a tussle with Alex…

Ticci Toby: Car accident. Even though he didn’t feel the physical pain.

Depression

graphic/horrific death, freak accidents, Self harm, attempted suicide, Religious stuff/demons, mourning

Nathan the Nobody: Masky rocked his shit.

BEN Drowned: accidentally electrocuted himself and couldn’t stop glitching and getting bent and twisted

Eyeless Jack: he does by biting his own tail and literally exploding his organs-

Clockwork: she got skewered, but somehow survived.

Jeff, Jane, and Nina the Killer: burned alive ofc

Puppeteer: Liu wears a rosary to remember his mother…

Liu Woods: when he was alive, he used scissors to cut at his shoulders and chest. He cut at his arms, legs, and abdomen as well. He nearly bled out in his bathroom.

Zero: she stabbed herself with glass shards cuz she had a mental breakdown

Kagekao: purposely ran into oncoming traffic.

This is what happens when you mess with kids

severe injury/free amputation

Jason the Toymaker: kid ripped out a ton of his hair and made his head bleed

Laughing Jack: got his arms cut off somehow- they grew back tho

Laughing Jill: a parent hit her upside the head and her own chainsaw went through her chest and abdomen

Clumsy Bitches

Mutilation, stupidity , how the fuck did they survive this shit? segments of body being removed and explicit injury mention(?), Experiments, self inflicted injury

Ani the Wight: existing in summer heat

Chess Master: boinked his head, tripped, and landed on the grass… off of a 10m tall tree

Candy Pop: fell off a building. He’s clumsy.

Bloody Painter: he jumped off a building and landed safely, then stepped on a bear trap. How does that even happen?!

Bloody Angel: her whole thing is that she got mutelated into a monseter by a crazy circus… do the math.

X-Virus: while working on a project and it exploded in his face. So, he now has giant burn scars on his face, neck, and chest.

Judge Angels: Rouge kicked her ass and she has claw-like gloves. She ended up with scars on her face for a long while.

Scarecrow: Hoodie once cut her in half with a tree branch.

Doll Maker: Stabbed himself in the eye

Divider Creds: Sister Lucifer; adorneswithlight

Header Creds: ME!!!

[teradul]

I fully agree the league timeline and lore is kind of a fucking mess rn and I don’t like that they made arcane canon, personally, just to let you know where I’m standing. But in Bite Marks, it doesn’t look at Kat has her MAGIC yet (she didn’t teleport to the knife, she just moved to it), and Darius has no grey hair and no scar, so I’m thinking (hoping) that this is just prequel to the invasion of Ionia and Swain’s coup. …but I have no faith in Riot to not literally retcon literally everything anymore, after they murdered Viktor.

I am speaking out of just about 2 watches of the video, but while Kat's move is kinda obscured, I do think it was meant to be read as her teleporting.

Like, she notices her target is moving freely, plants her dagger, move to the other side of Elise, only to go back to her dagger and kill her target, in a way that if it was just moving fast, Elise would have stopped her, given she stops the dagger mid-air.

But I get where you're coming from. There is still a way to make all of this a less awkward fit and we do have very little to go off fo, but we wouldn't be having this conversation if the stories told in this medium had their own continuity, understood to be, in parts, incomplete in regards to whole of the IP.

[necrotic-nephilim]

thank you for the tag, @sasheneskywalker!!!

rules: answer and tag nine people you want to get to know better and catch up with.

favorite color: it changes regularly, but currently, a dusty/greyish purple

last song: Maps by The Front Bottoms

currently reading:

Butcher & Blackbird by Brynne Weaver is my current fiction read and i *hate* it with my entire being. don't read it.

Postcolonial Astrology: Reading the Planets through Capital, Labor, & Power by Alice Sparkly Kat is my current non-fiction read and so far, it's very good

i'm reading a lot of comics at the moment, but my main read is Manhunter (2004) which so far, is very good, i highly recommend. i'm also planning to read Midnighter (2007) and Black Widow (2014).

currently watching:

The Acolyte has been my most recent fixation so that's just on loop rewatching over and over in the background. a lot

i've been watching Pennyworth which is far better than i expected it to be, i'm really enjoying it

i also started Invincible, which i've been enjoying

idk if it counts but i've rewatched Madame Web a concerning number of times in the past few days.

currently craving: i'd kill for an Italian Cream Soda from tea2go rn

coffee or tea: tea. i used to be a big coffee person in my teens but my chronic illness doesn't like caffeine and it *really* doesn't like coffee so i just drink tea now, but i do love tea

hobby to try: the unrealistic hobby i'd like to get into a fanfiction binding, but that takes materials and resources i do *not* currently have. i think a more realistic answer is i've been meaning to get into marvel comics more.

current au: tbh the main AU i'm working on is a Lance Brunner-centric Post-Crisis fic where i'm completely rewriting his origins to make his death as Robin more significant but still something no one talks about, leading to the ressurection of Jason also reviving Lance and Jason going on his little spree, having no idea he's not the only dead Robin. i've figured out all of the backstory and how i want to characterize Lance, but the actual plot of the fic i'm still working out. i'm leaning toward Lance/Dick as a ship, but i haven't decided. i have so many notes and ideas though and i think it's funny to take a random one-off character from a random 60s comic and actually turn him into something substantial and how he'd shape the Batfamily. trust me i'm so close to infodumping about it here everyday.

i'm also working on a *really* messed up unhealthy Damian/Tim fic, where Damian purposefully breaks the timeline so Tim was never Robin and Damian was the third Robin instead. but when Bruce "dies" Damian realizes he has no idea where to start with finding Bruce so he has to go to a civilian!Tim for help, who has no idea the timeline was changed or that he was ever Robin in a different world. it's gonna be fun and fucked up and full of Damian's jealousy complex over Tim.

i don't know if i can come up with nine whole people to tag for this since i'm still new here but i can try: @searchforahero @divine-dominion @kevin-day-is-bi @kerakeriza @deepwithintheabyss

@maryshellyswife @alicemaem @justmyshittyspace @sandmanwhore and yeah that's all i got.just tagging some mutuals/ppl i see on my posts a lot!!!

[gothcsz]

Okay Kat um that latest…. I-…… no words…… where is the content warning for you will be a massive puddle upon completion?????😈☠️ this is how I felt after your Secret Service bodyguard Javi one shot where you somehow manage to get me horned up for our sexy man of interest being kinda mean and degrading to reader….. usually my soft ass wants these stupid men being fluffy AF for reader, and you def do have them worshipping her to no end 🤤 but damn when he just takes what he wants WOOOWWWWWWWWWW. Also the fact that one shot (that I am lowkey hoping turns into a lot more) is just titled 𝐈𝐈𝐈………. The mic drop……. RIP me I’m gonna go lie down now 🪦

look, as much as we love to be treated like queens and have the men yearning—some degradation is good for the soul 🙂‍↕️ i didn’t write that one shot, my pussy did, straight up, i was viciously staring at pictures of paul and pedro for the entirety of the weekend and my clit did all the work 🤭

BUTTTTT SERIOUSLYYYYYY THANK YOUUUUUU im glad to have made you a puddled mess, it’s what i was put in this fandom to do, i think 😝 i was being a little cheeky with the name, ngl, glad to see it’s resonating JFJWJDHSKDJD

and dontttttt even you know me and my bad fucking habit of turning one shots into full fledged fics… i already have too much on my plate rn i simply CANNOT

(maybe in the future i���ll circle back if there’s more interest for it)

[alitgblog]

s9 vol 6: oh fuck I was joking last time but am i.. is this gonna be a Hamish route for me??? 😳

i guess first of all, the kelly/kat drama. I know it's yet again Finn and Kat but I'm happy they're dealing with it in a different way (although if S5 is Suresh's island, I can't help but think S9 is Kat's island 🙄). The thing that annoyed me the most is MC not being able to say anything? Like Kelly brought up the note, I feel like MC and Finn should've said something.

however we do get this, which, as someone with a friend whose name starts with K going through relationship troubles with a Korean man, actually I'm offended they took my joke and made it less funny,

but snog marry pie! Most of the girls (my MC included) choosing to kiss Hamish? It's like we all forget how bad a kisser he was in S6 like what happened. however, uhhh kinda worth it like I was initially intrigued about a Finn or Stefan route but Hamish is really coming in as a dark horse with chat like this (especially considering how sassy MC can be this season)

and the thing too is even though hes clearly changed bc they're making him a serious LI this season, there are several moments where I'm like yeah that's the same guy that had the audacity to ask S6 MC to run away with him at the end of S6

Then I played by rules like Chen, and chose a different person to snog, a different person to marry, a different person to pie. And then Hamish gets his little moment kissing and marrying MC, which kind of undermines the big moment which is his speech where he pies himself? like the talk on the terrace later this volume is great and I love the flirty banter between him and MC but he's so wishy washy about Natasha and it just doesn't really get addressed?

Kat's partner (in my game, Jude) is a whole mess. Like it'd be one thing if he's gonna be like "hey I'm sorry I was just defending Chen because I misinterpreted some stuff I thought you did" but it's another to do all that meanwhile he was also being shady about flirting with Melissa???

Then they call the incident Melgate bc... fusebox struck gold with Cherrygate and has been trying to recreate it ever since and has always failed. I never clicked the gem scene that would prompt Kat to tell you this story, and so I was so confused until they explained it in the next episode and that was so annoying. Then they do the thing (again!) where they like shame you for not being a friend (Kat's like "I tried to tell you"). this is worse than when you had an ugly dress and the girls were like God you look awful.

Jude being vague during the game was annoying bc i know theyre just stretching it out but also absolutely I could see that happening on the show where he's like "you know what you did. we'lltalk about it later" and it cuts to MC in the beach hut being like "judes being a real bitch. of course I know what I did but which time are you referring to"

Chen being constantly voted the sweetest during the challenge and then awards night is great but also just reminds me that his character is gonna be so vague from now on bc he's sharing a personality with three other guys. like its gonna hurt to break him but also he's not getting the care from the writing team that they've been giving the other routes so unfortunately he's boring rn 😬. doesn't even have the audacity to be mad just has to go away and think. And Chen just keeps taking L's too with MC (at least in my game) flirting with everyone and Jude in his ear saying MC can't be trusted. like if he twists in casa I'm not even sure if the audience would blame him (they would bc they love MC but ya knowww)

God don't remind me I'm missing not only missing actual litg season 2 but also what I have instead is Kat and Finn season 2

anyway MC being able to say never have I ever had a steamy shower with someone? she's so messy

also with Natasha explaining more of what she did in casa on her original season has me making things up in my head bc you gotta be a pretty memorable casa girl for the game to pretend you're an all star but she didn't even make it to the actual villa so that's even harder to imagine, but I'm going to pretend she flirted with one of the guys while also sneaking behind his back with Roxy and people ate that up. then he tells her he wants to bring her to the villa and she rides off into the sunset with Roxy instead (or Roxy breaks her heart goes in the villa with a guy idk)

I'm starting to think Kat's gonna end up either with Finn or if MC is with Finn, then single but then we get a reunion episode and she reveals she's dating Finn's brother bc she has a TYPE (also wouldn't be out of the ordinary for fusebox bc of the grace/ozzy/marshall thing but it's still icky to me lol)

then lastly for brunch we got the first of TWO prompts this volume to lay to learn about your own backstory?? I mean no question I'm upset about paying for information but your OWN character??

I had no problem saying no though like I feel like there's enough context about Sarah Ann for me to guess (side note, if anyone from Casa comes back with Sarah Ann I'm throwing hands)

OK but awards now. I feel like awards night is usually an end of season thing when the producers of the show have not much drama left bc the couples are solid and they want to throw in drama for the last week, but seeing as this is a game and they can just write in the finale whenever, I guess here is alright. (I wonder if that means no movie night then though?)

the clip they showed of Natasha? honestly, I respect her more for it. like idk she just seems more real than this perfect character flirting with MC all the time if she's venting to Hamish about also being sick of Kat and Finn or small things like Kelly taking long to get ready.

Here's where I did wish there was more branching like I think if you didn't do anything with Finn you should get a nice award, like about being loyal, while the clip still showed Finn being sneaky. like I don't doubt that if this were real, the producers of the show WOULD show the note and then getting cut off before MC realizing it's Finn and not her partner, but it's irritating to get blamed for that and even worse, MC does not get a real chance to defend herself, we just listen to everyone else's reactions.

anyway in my game MC should've been shown pieing off Finn at the pool and then Jude apologizing realizing he didn't understand what he saw. and then subsequently after show the clip of MC trying to kiss Finn at the shower and him rejecting her bc I personally loved that moment and I actually gasped when I thought they were gonna show it instead of cutting it off (bc again, not enough branching)

I did spend the gems on the second MC lore thing bc I was like ehh why not it's the end of the volume and like wow I get why I like s9 mc now, she's so Bobby coded 🤣

once again, I do appreciate the effort going into Hamish's route rn bc he has actual consequences and regrets for hooking up with Melissa and it getting exposed. OK maybe not actual consequences bc I think the game will just continue to pair up him and Natasha but the fact that there are some repercussions at all AND he gets to talk out his feelings and regrets about it with MC on the terrace after? And then he continues to show interest in MC and explain his reasons for not being with her and also the whole hi trying to look for validation from his dad? sorry Finn and Chen, the writers are playing favorites

I did not think we were getting casa lmao. there's no casa in the actual love island all stars and love island games so I was surprised but I'm curious about who the other boys are, if they're all gonna be international or are we gonna see at least one more UK islander? if Cassius is coming in during casa it feels like he's gonna be overshadowed and his route is probably merged with some international guys, which I guess makes enough sense like we didn't know him during season 7 anyway but I'm just curious.

oh yeah and this guy

late to the party like I know the game keeps reminding me of him, but the more they did the interested I was, but I could be brought back

OK fingers crossed they don't dump single islanders post casa

[star-girl69]

to that one anon who can’t see emojis, if it’s an anon talking abt music there’s a 99% chance it’s me lmao (wave anon)

anyways I had a thought related to a song so ofc I have to talk to you abt it

there’s this one lyric in I think I’m in love by kat dahlia that’s like “I say ‘fuck you’ while I’m thinking of you as my husband” which yk Clarisse is a mean little shit (she’s me fr) besides the whole song is abt not really wanting to admit you’re in love with someone which is so Clarisse coded bc as I’ve said (and you’ve written) a billion times she is out of touch with and terrified of her emotions

oh also fireside by the arctic monkeys bc I’m convinced clarisse would love them. There’s not like any specific lyrics or anything but the song is abt wanting to get back with someone you broke up with which is very let me love you like a women coded yk?

I’m so sorry if this is a hot mess it’s like 1am and I honestly might be going insane rn😭

anyways as always ty for putting up w my shit

-🌊

(side note my phone keeps correcting clarisse to Clarissa and if it does it one more time I’m going to take a page out of her book and beat someone up)

clarisse is a delulu girl she daydreams and fantasizes about you fr

clarisse and her emotions should be their own ship atp

I LOVEEEEEE FIRESIDE WND I AGRÉE LMLYLAW CODED FRR

it’s ok it’s 6am i just woke up don’t wanna get up

you are so welcome 🙏🙏 always share w me i love it

(HEY AT LEAST YOU ARENT DOING IT ON PURPOSE)

[golbrocklovely]

Nobody cares about Sam the way they do Colby, they can pretend to but they don’t. Thats the answer to Colby getting shitted on for any little thing while Sam sometimes does stuff to get people talking and they don’t . Sam subtweets,throws shade at times towards Colby,Kat and other influencers and no one bats an eye.They pretend they don’t see his comments and all the man has to do is delete and not answer anyone that comes at him. He talks about the most disconnected, privileged stuff, some reply and it lands on deaf ears because he doesn’t react and keeps going like no one said anything. He’s blocked people on twitter recently because they brought up his hairline and his flakiness and although those people spoke out, no one cared. Colby has proven time and time again that what people say gets to him, and the bad thing is he responds to it so that feeds the haters and fuels the fire. Its like they get a rise out of getting a reaction from him. As long he keeps feeding into it, they will use anything against him to get a reaction out if him. Its a sick game.

i have a bit of a controversial opinion about sam's fans that i'm gonna save for a later date bc highkey i don't feel like getting into it rn lol

but as for what you said, i think to some degree there are a lot of fans that see sam as this sage, older brother so they listen to him but don't actually take in what he's saying. i think a lot of that has to do with fans being younger and or less experienced in life. so they hear what he's got to say and agree with him outright bc to them he's lived more life. he's more successful and has done more than them so why not listen to him?

but then some of us older/more experienced fans look at what he says and just kinda… blink at it. like, yeah i guess what you said can be true, but that's also not how most ppl's lives work.

i also believe that sam comes across as calm, cool, and collected emotionally and generally. so fans that don't feel that way about themselves think "oh i have to listen to him bc i want to be like that myself." when in reality, sam is a workaholic, emotional mess who's scared of losing his youth but pretends to know what he's doing and constantly works to the bone bc he can't be stagnant long enough to be left alone with his emotions/thoughts.

he's good at hiding all that, for the most part. but if you read between the lines, even for a second, you see the seams falling apart.

i also think you are right about why ppl hate on colby more; colby tries his best to apologize. he interacts with those that hate him, and that in itself garners more haters. they want a reaction and they know they can get one from colby. sam, bc either a) he doesn't care enough to interact or b) doesn't think he did anything wrong, ignores those that send hate his way. he doesn't apologize, he doesn't hash it out. he just says what he wants, and if ppl hate it, he deletes it and never brings it up again. now, idk if that's any better than what colby does, but it definitely works in sam's favor. bc half of the shit colby has been called out for, sam has ALSO done. but bc he doesn't try to fix it or be apologetic, no one remembers it.

as for sam blocking fans, i wish snc would block more of them tbh. some fans go too far, regardless of if they were just trying to be playful or silly or whatever. some say mean shit, so they deserve a block. you don't get to go on a public platform, @ your favorite creators and say mean shit to them and think you can get off scot-free. you ain't besties with them. they don't KNOW YOU. so what you think is a joke just comes across as hate.

and for all the things to yell at sam for, making fun of his hairline (which is something he has made apparent is a sore spot for him) is fucked. to said fans that did that, you deserve the block.

[compassionatereminders]

hi kat. i know you're going through a lot rn so don't worry if it takes a while to reply to me. but lately i've been wondering if i'm a bad person. my own ex kinda fucked me up, yknow? they always made me feel like i was their sole reason for living and "the only thing that [made them] happy," even threatening to kill themself if i broke up with them. they just... it was so hard with them, they basically forced all the responsibility of their mental health on just me and then would get pissed if i spoke out against doing that or encouraged them to get help. they were always breaking my boundaries and then would start yelling and crying if i reinforced said boundary, and then convince me their mental breakdown was my fault. i acted erratically because all the stress was killing me and it felt like they were messing with my memories and i couldn't breathe and i was so scared of them and i ended up breaking up with them through text late at night really harshly. its been a year or two since and they blocked me but. god everytime i think of them my heart starts racing and i get so scared that they've hurt themself because of me and. I've been checking their account even though they blocked me, I check it when I'm not logged in so I can see them and it calms me down and i know I shouldn't be looking at their acc when they've blocked me. am i a bad person because of this? i think they broke my brain. i need to stop doing this

Nope. This is not a scenario of you leaving dramatically for no reason, this is a scenario where your partner is manipulating and abusing you and there is no degree of mental health issues that justify that. You did the right thing by leaving and it is not on you that you had to leave in that manner.

[soulfullionbunny]

My twitter was unblocked

so apparently my ex unblock my twitter… idk when but probably around after april bcs that last i tried seeing her account. i was considering deleting my twitter so had to have a last look lmaoo. made me to reconsider but then I saw shes currently talking with other people haha. menyesal stalk i was at peaceee haish. well whatever float your boat babe. if someone random can replace me then im never THAT guy to you. honestly this is a great life lesson. mmng lagi galak la aku delete (maybe not hahah). adoiii kalau nak unblock left la some good tweet for me. ckp la "ooo i missed my ex :((" or "wish he ws here with me :(((" or "i have talked with sooo many guys but only he and i have that connection </3" or something like that lmao. actualy why dia nak unblock now of all the times. theres nothing much to see in my twitter now. my 2 autistic braincells already getting used to not yap and share my random thoughts dah. klau ada pun its probably sekentut dua instead of ketulan tahi. should i post something to make her happy? idk whats the play now... maybe i will act mcm biasa kot. she blocked me since september last year, so i dont think she is even considering seeing my tweets lmao (but what if shes trying to see my tweets now after all this time? jengjengjenggg).

also... this is a both way access bcs now i can see her tweets... BUT even if aku stalk dia ni mesti buat aku sakit hati. mcm just now i saw her latest tweet implying new guy hahaha. plus her retweet semua bitter about man and relationship. pretty sure that was caused by me. i already know she dont fw me like that lagi but damn girl. yeahh imma keep my distance. gotta protect the pieces of my peace. that's all I have after all this time. im a grown adult, Im smart enough to not go where it hurt (victimized yourself again i see lol dsr x sedar diri). hati aku yearn for a sliver of info about her but akal aku sihat. akal aku akan lindungi hati ini. her twitter is The Alnwick Garden, so much to learn and see, but hati... with the expectation you have the garden is bound to get you hurt… all of those no contact is to prepare you for this ok… her door is opened but you are not invited :) kau x faham but the head knows. ignorance is a bliss orng ckp kan. if you saw her tweet pasal jantan (or tino idk) lagi, xkan nak nangis lagi hahaha. the only reason i made it this far is bcs 0 info on her. gosh reminded me bila dia unblock tiktok dia hahahah the way i explore her acc is soo creepyyy. i even noticed the guy yg try talking to her hahaha. god this gonna be another rant sbb psycho sangat hahah

damn...maybe uninstalling twitter was the best idea after all hahaha... not like i cant live w/o it pun. twitter was great to let out some steam but its too toxic to stay. there are always a war there, shit is not good for my mental health. aku ni dah la recovering pendekar papan kunci.

ANYWAY... SHE got Laufey concert ticket…. what. the. frick. frack? she dont even like Laufey (or do idk she went mainstream past year). dah kenapa dia beli ticket tu??? I was upset crying menonggeng ass up face down bcs I missed it and she got it?? kena refund idk why but she still possessed it once. wow. kalau kena refund sbb x nak sumpah tu messed up. she KNEW I like laufey, the least she can do is ask if I want the ticket. i would even pay her extra for it (fuck scalper, but if shes my scalper i would fuck her in a different way heh). my god cable x leh pakai, thought of me sket ah (boldly assume im still in her mind lel). my friend say aku boleh tanya kat group FB but high chance kena scam so I cant risk that. bengong laa aku nakk. i was planning to have my first concert with Laufey :'((. she was my fav wayyyyy before dia went mainstream plss im shitting and crying rn. fun fact shes the same age as me, kinda weird supporting an artist who is not older than me hahahah.

[nickismyspiritanimal]

I was really hoping for maybe possibly Maddy x Cassie this season but instead we got N*te x Cassie and lots of N*te focus in general and I hate it here.

[buzzycohen]

Okay I’m gonna go on a little rant lmao so just ignore me for a little bit

Pre-Script: I haven’t taken my Lexapro in a long time which is why I’m probably so down and frustrated and irritable but it’ll be okay, I’ll take 4 or so tomorrow morning and I’ll be drugged up for awhile but what’re you gonna do?

I’ve been thinking about my future and it’s just so fucking frustrating! There are so many options. Lawyer? Director? Novelist? I dont know what i want to do! I’ve been told time and time again that i should do what makes me happy but that’s such bullshit, I get tired and bored all the time and can’t stick with just one thing, nonetheless all of them. All I want is a group of friends. That’s all I want. I’d feel so much better and happier if I had, you know, more than 1 person (thanks Elora) who cared about me to the extent that I would care about them? I’m a bitch or annoying or too much to handle or whatever ppl call me behind my back but nsnsjsooashe I want more fucking friends!! I want to go to school in Columbus where I can study things that interest me and I want to be in a school where people just don’t talk to me out of convenience. I think I’m pretty obvious when I’m constantly talking to people and giving them compliments and asking them to hang out and then being rejected all the fucking time!! It hurts to be rejected over and over again when you want to be someone’s friend and I try over and over again but I’m just not good enough or something. The only thing that keeps me at my school is quiz team and I cannot stand quiz team as of late because do you know why?? I’m too loud and annoying and am told that every single practice by seniors who are friends with everyone and they control the quiz team. I don’t even know what I’m doing! Next year I’d be captain, yeah, but I’d be second rate compared to everyone else because they think I’m loud and annoying Yeah, I’m a dick to one guy (which is rude of me) but he: constantly talks back to our coaches, uses guilt and charm to get out of trouble, and hurts other people’s feelings and has admitted to bullying this girl because he misses the attention he used to get from her when they were friends. I think that’s, idk, a pretty good reason for sticking up for myself and other girls and telling him to fuck off?? He’s a fuckboy and the poster boy of white privilege and he is ruining my quiz team experience. He’s friends with everyone except for me and people probably wonder why im like that to him but i feel hardcore threatened by him and I’m defensive but I’m not gonna apologize for being a dick to a guy that hates me. It’s hard, because quiz team is the only reason I’m at my school and I’ve been wanting to quit because of these guys. It’s just not fun anymore, not when I’m better than them but get no respect from them. Speaking of quiz team and no respect, there’s a senior guy that is giving me mixed signals!! I don’t want to date him (so it shouldn't matter…) but he likes me some days and some days (most days) he’s telling me that I’m annoying as hell and that he doesn’t like me. I’ve been nothing but nice to him and I don’t deserve that. Last weekend, I was waiting for a ride and asked to stay in his car for a little bit. He said yes and then he was like, trying to hold my hand and I was lying across the front seats and he was like, awkwardly holding me? I didn’t know what was going on but he was obviously interested in me and I was just talking to make it more of a ~friend~ enviroment. And then next time I see him, he’s telling me to shut up and im loud and I just?? He can’t pull shit like that with me and then expect me to like it when he makes me mad. I’ve been giving him the cold shoulder and I love that I can actually hold a cold shoulder and not give in, because he’s going to be pissed off and he didn’t realize that he can’t play me anymore. Ughhh i hate that I’m going to be going to DC with him and other kids that are mean to me. I sound pathetic but I’m just so freaking tired and hurt by all of this. Anyways, I’m also sick and I’ve also been off of social media for awhile and I just, ugh. I stg I’m going to change schools after this year. I’m sick of this.

[atmyhiraeth]

semi-hiatus notice ( ??? ) 

[harley-style]

Reading the Homestuck Epilogues 2 (parts 11-20)

Ayo this time its parts 11-20 lets go!!

⬇️Click here to read part 1 ⬇️

Dave needs john to be way more specific than “you and karkat look cute together”, what a dumbass.

“You make cute friends” nevermind we have TWO (2) dumbasses.

Okay i will admit my bias for davekat is obvious here im sorry ill stop

Well if it makes you feel better dave im also very fucking in a mess about my own identity so

“Because jade” is such an apt fucking description.

JOHN YOU DO NOT FLIP A FUCKING COIN TO CHOOSE WHO YOU DATE W H A T

So this is off to a great start.

I cant even comment on part 12.

Oh no, what?

OH. OH NO. MOTHERFUCKER DONT DO IT.

THE HOE FUCKING DID IT. FUCK.

I’m sorry, they let Dave carry W h a t.

This is unsettling. Props to Dave and Roxy for heartfelt eulogies, but FUCK whatever gamzee’s up to.

Okay i caNNOT read his quirk, im sorry.

JOHN IM GONNA FUCKING STRANGLE YOU

Okay but as someone who 100% knows why dirk did what he did I fully endorse and support John slapping some pointy-shade-bastard’s ass into the fucking concrete. Dgmw i love dirk but. He has made several decisions that i happen to find “not-poggers”.

Oh, fuck. He lost them.

Getting hitched seems a bit too forward but ok

Catch the boquet or else is a red flag, folks.

John you’re right on the nose. I want jade to be happy with dave and kat but the way she’s doing it is. Forceful?

Oh. John and roxy did the. Oh.

Yeah uhm. I also. Really dont adore how davejadekat is going rn.

TEREZI IS THE LITERAL FUCKING BEST SHE’S SO SMART

John is losing it and honestly i dont blame him i would too

Jane. Baby. Sweetheart. N O.

Jane you are literally being so fucking xenophobic right now.

Jesus fucking christ gamzee. And jane. What the fuck.

I really do feel bad for jake. He’s like the butt of the meta joke all the time.

Okay but it concerns me that these kids arent even 30 and theyre thinking about kids? GUYS. YOU’RE YOUNG. CHILL OUT WITH THE CHILD REARING, GOOD LORD ABOVE.

Okay there is a corpse. Oh my god.

Also guys i know im davekat biased but it really is clear to me that out if everyone here they have the healthiest dynamic in that their only flaw is being in denial about there being a relationship. Like. Somethinf that can be fixed if theyre left alone by literally eveyrone else and their issues.

Oh we’re getting political

Yknow, part of why i like reading rn is because its escapism from really heavy issues? Yeah i uhm. Am struggling with part 20. But i love karkat and he is always right so.

Oh is this why davekat fell apart in candy

Why, Jane, don’t you know like calls to like? If you find yourself surrounded by clowns, that’s your own goddamn fault.

And that’s another reading sesh done folks! I’ll be honest I’m losing my goddamn mind. I’m genuinely worried about the fictional politics between these dumbasses and how theyre tearing this family apart. Where the fuck is Mr. Crocker and why is he not policing these kids??? Theyre CLEARLY in over their heads? God….

Okay i know i call them kids when theyre like three years older than i am but still.

Anyway thank you guys for joining me again i hope you had a laugh watching me rage over the homestuck caste being fucking idiots. I’ll see y’all next time in part 3! (Lmk if i should put any tags for y’all to be warned about i am a simple dumbass and cant catch everything)

[straykats]

kat omg tell me more about your gay panic experience (if you want of course!) i want to hear more about them!! and glitter blush oh my god that’s so CUTE

CLOVE I CANTTTT THIS SHITS SO EMBARASSINGGGGGGG so ill put it utc so i can feel less embarassed

and then in tiny too.

im ljke. screaming into pillow type of mood rn like this is so disgudtingly embarassing (i will use embarassing and disgusting a lot) and like if this was a show or a book or smth i would be oointing at the screen/page and yelling (endearingly) 'DISGUSTINGGGG' bc thats how ive been reacting to any romance these days

im just gonna go w using she/her 😭

like. i remember thinking that her outfit was fricken AMAZING like it was giving maniac type vibes w the black/green scheme (not even going to let myself think about the whatifs rn) but like ider what she was wearing man i 😭😭 her hair was green !! this is so much unnecessary info okay but BUT

yes glitter blush !! she was so. ray of sunshine excited puppy type of NJVILSDBKJVILFBHVHFS i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here im gonna scream again DEEP RBEATHS most endearingly cute person i've ever served in my entire life (which isn't saying a lot given that most of the customers/patients are older people) BUT also the most endearingly cute person i've 'met' besides maybe like. kids who i worked with on prac BUT THATS A COMPLETELY DIFFERNT TYPE OF ENDEARINGLY CUTE obviously

UM UMMMM um :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( may never ever see her again though im so sad. not that seeing her again will do anything.

BUT LIKE this is so embarrassing like just thinking/remembering about the way she nods (im not even gonna try to explain. like. round eyed small smile determined nod with like this really bright FUCK THIS IS SO EMBARAASING SHUT UP KAT SHUTUPPPPPPPPP) makes me all NFJDISVDSVKSV and i know nodding is such a weird thing to kind of pick up on but 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

but yeah after i tried to compliment her hair and make an absolute fool of myself (SEE!!!! THIS IS DISGUTING!!! THIS IS WHAT THEY SAY IN ROMANCE BOOKS!!!!) i was just like. internal war. do i make eye contact do i not make eyecontact (wearing masks so smiling was not a problem) BUT COULD SHE TELL I WAS LIKE. trying not to smile too much FRICK i hope my ears werent red god i hate it here i hate it i hate it i hate it

anyways 10/10 experience i hope to never be subjected to this again because thats just sad man like im never gonna see her again and if i do it's not like we're gonna become friends or anything 😭😭

and this doesnt even matter but i looked so tired and probably a mess bc i'd worked like. 7hrs where i had to run/walk really fast back and forth and my hair was probably loopy (idk if you wear glasses but i do and my hair on the sides/where the glasses go over ur ear ??? uh. yeah that. they kinda get all loopy idk why) and i was probably definteily speaking way too fast GOD first and last time this is happening i want to quit and hide in a hole

anyways lmk if u need a vomit bag or smth bc this was so disgusting and embarrassing

[signurture]

IM HERE FOR ADENA LEANING ON KATS SHOULDER FOR COMFORT SHES LOOKED SO SMOL

[codewordpumpkin]

tbl 8x02 thoughts

- love how red went off on ressler (but I wonder how much of that was to distract him while putting a bug on him...) 

- dembe’s expression when liz was telling red how her mother was framed and selling a sob story and blah blah blah? pure comedy 

- liz telling red they’re done if he kills kat? bitch pls, that’s the 912048219th time you’ve said that 

- liz telling dembe to have some decency + saying he’s no better than red + punching dembe + trying to get dembe to be disloyal to red while saying she’s not trying to get him to be disloyal to red + all the other bs she spewed (such as saying red killed her husband??? um he got himself killed remember???? that 10 month coma def messed with her) = idk whether to laugh or cry

- love when red told kat she knows nothing about elizabeth, but heart hurt when kat pointed out liz chose her over red aka the man who actually loves her and protects her and forgives her time and again bc he’s powerless against her

- red killing kat in front of liz.... i mean it’s not like i don’t have an ounce of sympathy for liz (maybe half an ounce...maybe a quarter?) but..... ugh i can’t go into this rn 

- glad the katarina arc is over (fucking finally)

- those who are still entertaining the redarina theory are giving me more entertainment than the show at this point. y’all are hilarious, truly

- i’m not mad we have to wait till jan. in the meantime, i will be reading ff to cleanse my soul (thank you ff writers <3)