#kaia loses her mind

[kkami-writes]

anyway who cares look at these pics innie dropped us

OOOOOUUUUUUUAG WHAT IF THIS WAS MY LAST STRAW???. he looks so fluffy ;; i’m gonna die

[redroomreflections]

Gentle Hands Chapter Eight

Natasha Romanoff x fem!reader

Summary: Natasha suspects Reader is in an abusive relationship and tries to convince her to leave

8/10

W/c: 

Masterlist | General Masterlist

Warning: Domestic violence

Sometimes you don’t know you’re grieving until you’re in the middle of it. Or in the middle of something. One minute you’re pushing your daughter on the baby swing and the next minute you look over and realize there’s no one there but you. It’s an empty feeling. The sensation is hollow, disconcerting, and unpleasant. It induces a desire to retreat into darkness, a pain so intense it feels deserved. Maybe you deserve it. Maybe for separating Kaia from her father, leaving Keith isolated. He depended on you, just as you relied on him. The only thing is he never left. He kept his promises. Even if he broke all of them more than once. He never left you alone. There was never enough time to think. Never enough time to stop and realize it wasn’t what you wanted. But you did right? It’s why you stayed. In an attempt to fend off the loneliness gripping you now, a profound despair coursing through your veins like venom, you stayed.

You endured all he threw at you because, deep down, it seemed preferable to the current state to the life you’re leading now. You sense it coursing through your veins, tightening until it constricts your breath. Abruptly, the knot in your stomach intensifies, and a sharp pain grips you, settling in the lower regions of your stomach.

You pause to take a breath, inhaling and exhaling for a few moments. The pain fades quicker than your thoughts can catch up. This feeling isn't new; you remember it from your early pregnancy days with Kaia. Back then, you'd turn to Google for reassurance, and talking to Keith always brought comfort. He knew what you needed, even when you didn't.

Now, uncertainty clouds your mind. You try to keep track of basic needs – food, shelter, transportation. But it goes deeper. Kaia's well-being becomes crucial; if she goes hungry or falls sick, the fear of losing her to him haunts you. The thought lingers – you might be seen as an unfit mother. The fear sometimes overwhelms you, and you can't shake the idea that your supposed freedom is a facade. Keith might show up any moment, shattering the illusion of safety you've clung to.

Life's twists aren't lost on you. In the past, his presence gave you comfort, and he was your world. Love used to drive you to do anything for him, but now, you question if that kind of love is what you truly want anymore.

You inhale deeply before extending your arms to scoop up Kaia. She's an exceptionally patient toddler, your little angel. Many parents use that term, but for you, it rings true. She's been your saving grace in more ways than one. Your will to live is intricately tied to her existence. You strongly desire to witness her growth, and the idea of experiencing that adorable gummy grin every morning is a source of genuine joy. She's not just a part of your life; she's the heartbeat that propels you forward, a tiny force that adds meaning and purpose to your journey.

Cradling Kaia in your arms, the 15-month-old beams up at you with an enchanting, toothy grin. She babbles away in her sweet, baby language, some of which you can understand, and her innocent laughter fills your heart.

"Mama, food," Kaia demands.

"Food, huh?" You ask, a smile spreading across your face in response to Kaia's adorable request.

Kaia, her eyes sparkling, responds with an enthusiastic, "Yeah, yeah!" Her joyful energy is infectious, and you can't help but share in her excitement for the upcoming meal.

“Alright, let’s get you fed,” You hoist her higher on your hip.

Amid her baby talk, a thought crosses your mind. Inspired by Kaia's playful energy, you consider reaching out to Darcy for a lunch date. With Kaia giggling and gurgling in your arms, the idea of sharing time with your best friend seems more plausible. You should call her.

*************** Surprisingly, you find yourself nervous about meeting Darcy, your best friend, of all people. She's the one you confide in, the person who knows everything about you. Yet, ever since that night at Tony's gala, you've been avoiding her, reluctant to face any potential judgment. It's not that you believe Darcy would criticize you; instead, you anticipate her anger directed at Keith. He's the source of the problem, always has been, and you're finally acknowledging it.

Sitting in a cafe, your leg bounces nervously as you wait. Trying to ease the tension, you observe Kaia happily munching on french fries. Your eyes flutter around the room, distracted by the anticipation of the upcoming conversation with Darcy.

A few moments later, the cafe door jingles, and in walks Darcy, her eyes scanning the cafe until they lock onto you. A wide grin spreads across her face, and she strides over with an enthusiastic, "Hey, you!". You respond with a wave. Her gaze then shifts to Kaia, who's blissfully engaged with her french fries.

Darcy crouches down, her excitement palpable, "And how's this little munchkin?" she asks, reaching out a hand for a high-five. Kaia looks up from her fries, momentarily taken aback, but after a moment, she responds with an adorable smile, slapping Darcy's hand in return.

Darcy chuckles, "Well, hello there, cutie! You must be Kaia. I've missed seeing you." While she may not consider herself a "kids person," the genuine warmth in Darcy's voice suggests she's genuinely pleased to finally meet the little one she's heard so much about.

“You didn’t tell me she was this cute,” Darcy grins as she slides into the booth seat across from you. “I mean look at that face.”

You laugh at Darcy's comment, feeling a wave of relief as the tension eases. "Yeah, she's got that adorable factor going on," you say with a smile, glancing at Kaia, who's now studying Darcy with wide-eyed curiosity. "And she knows it too," you add, your fondness for Kaia evident in your eyes. "How have you been, Darcy?"

“Shouldn’t I be the one to ask you that?” Darcy tilts her head. “I’ve missed you, girlie.”

You appreciate Darcy's concern and a small, grateful smile tugs at your lips. "I've missed you too," you admit, feeling a mix of emotions. "Life's been a bit of a rollercoaster, but having you here makes it better."

“Mushiness,” Darcy comments with narrowed eyes. She analyzes your face and sighs. There’s a subtle shift in her demeanor. “I’m glad you got away from him.”

With a nod, you express your gratitude, "Thanks, Darcy. It was a tough call, but I needed to do it. “

“I have a lot of questions,” Darcy frowns. “I just really want to know if you’re okay. With everything. I know a cafe isn’t the best place to do it but…”

Darcy's frown and the concern in her voice tug at your heartstrings. You appreciate her genuine worry. "I get it, Darcy. And I appreciate your concern. Honestly, a cafe is as good a place as any. Ask away, and I'll fill you in on whatever you want to know," you say, ready to share your thoughts and feelings with the friend you trust the most.

“How long had that been going on?” Darcy asked. “The problems with Keith? We’ve been friends for quite a while now. I never noticed anything. I’m sorry I didn’t notice anything. I just wish there was something I could have done to help. Like, kick his ass or something. I carry a taser you know.”

With a chuckle you respond, “I do know.” You take a moment to collect your thoughts before responding to Darcy's questions. "It's not your fault, Darcy. These things were hidden well. I wanted them to be hidden. The problems with Keith had been lingering for a while, but I guess I got good at putting on a brave face.” You lick your lips. “They started around the end of my last pregnancy. I, um, it was subtle at first. Just backhanded comments or random acts of control. Then he was fine when she was born but after she was a little older I noticed he was more distant. He hit me the first time on our anniversary. Kaia was four months old then," There's a weight lifted off your shoulders, knowing that you have Darcy's support and understanding. This is the first time you’ve ever told anybody this. “He came home late. Later than usual and I was so angry. I was so tired. I had been with Kaia all morning. I had gone out of my way to dress up and have the neighbor down the hall babysit. I just wanted a night with him. I just wanted a night for him to notice me like before. I questioned him on his whereabouts. I wasn’t angry by then. Just tired and annoyed. He didn’t even notice the dress. He just got super defensive. Said he was at work and a meeting ran late. I called bullshit on it. He backhanded me.”

“Wow, holy fuck,” Darcy says before she covers her mouth with a hand. “Sorry, I shouldn’t curse in front of her.”

“It’s fine,” You dismiss. “If she hasn’t picked up anything from all the things she’s heard before then she won’t pick it up now.”

“Seriously, dude,” Darcy shakes her head. “I’m sorry I don’t know what to say I just…that makes me so angry.”

Darcy's genuine frustration resonates in her words, and you nod in understanding. "I know, Darcy. It's infuriating, but it's okay. What matters is that I'm taking steps to move forward. Having you here means a lot, and I know you'll always have my back," you assure her.

“You’re not ever going back to him right?” She asks. “You’re done for good this time? Like I know it’s complicated but… I really want you to be safe. You and the munchkin here.”

Her concern is evident, and you appreciate her straightforwardness. Taking a deep breath, you meet her gaze and respond, "No, Darcy. I'm done for good. It's been a tough decision, but I need to prioritize our safety and well-being. I want to create a better life for both Kaia and myself, and that means moving forward without Keith. That and I think Tony and the guys threatened him a little. Natasha won’t admit it but…”

Darcy's eyes widen, and a mischievous grin plays on her lips. "Really now? The Avengers giving him a friendly talk, huh?" She chuckles, shaking her head. "I guess it's good to have some superhero backup in your corner. But seriously, I'm glad you're taking the steps to move on. You and Kaia deserve all the happiness and safety in the world."

Dipping the teabag into the steaming cup, you appreciate the warmth it brings. Kaia, ever sweet, offers you the muffin you’d been eating, and you break it apart with ease. "Speaking of superheroes in my corner," you begin, "my parents came to the tower. I'm staying in Natasha's place for now, just until I figure things out, and they want me to come home." The words hang in the air, carrying a mix of emotions as you navigate through the support and decisions unfolding in your life.

“Your parents came to the tower?” Darcy seems even more mindblown. “Did they think you would leave with them?”

“Something like that,” You nod. “I can’t at the moment. I don’t want to. I want to be as independent as I can. I just need to figure out things on my own for now. Also, I didn’t tell them about the baby for a reason. It’s just a lot right now.”

“Baby as in Kaia?” Darcy’s eyes widen.

“I’m about nine weeks pregnant,” You reveal. If there’s anyone you can tell this to it’s Darcy.

Darcy's eyes widen in both surprise and excitement. "No way! That's huge news!" she exclaims a mix of joy and surprise on her face. "Congratulations, I think! But I get it, that's a lot to handle, especially with everything else going on. You're a strong woman, though, and I know you'll figure things out. And hey, you've got me for any late-night ice cream runs or baby advice. We'll navigate this together."

“That’s kind of the thing,” You frown. “I don’t know if I should keep it. I mean, with everything going on.”

Darcy leans back, her brow furrowed as she processes the information. "Okay, woah, that's like, major life stuff. “ She looks to you. “I get it. Responsibility on top of responsibility, right? Are you thinking of not keeping it because you think people will judge or because you truly don’t want it?”

You take a deep breath, appreciating Darcy's directness. "It's a bit of both, you know? Back when I was with Keith, the idea of bringing another baby into our toxic mess felt like a trap. But now, things are different. I have Kaia, and I'm navigating this single motherhood journey. Part of it is fear, the unknown of handling two on my own, and the other part is this lingering worry about judgment. It's a lot to take in, and I'm just trying to figure out what's best for all of us."

“I just want there to be a point in my life where I’m sure about things,” You sigh. “I mean, shouldn’t this be something I’m one hundred percent sure about? A baby? I think they should be born if a percent one hundred percent wants it.”

“And do you?” Darcy begins. “Hear me out. Besides you feeling like you can’t do it, and feeling like Keith was wrong, what do you want? What feels best for you? There’s no wrong answer. Well, I guess there can be but what do you want?”

You nod, grateful for Darcy's thoughtful approach. "Honestly, I'm still figuring that out. In a way, it's like I've been conditioned to believe I can't handle it, especially after everything with Keith. But, deep down, there's a part of me that wonders what it would be like to embrace this new chapter. Fear is there, judgment is there, but I want to make a decision that feels right for me. It's just hard to filter through all the noise right now." Your response reflects the internal struggle you go through daily.

You take a deep breath, the uncertainty clouding your thoughts. "Darcy, it's like...I'm standing at this crossroads, and both paths look equally daunting and promising. I can't help but wonder, what if I can do this? What if this little one is meant to be a part of our story, a story that's different from the one I thought I'd live? But then there's this voice, this nagging doubt, questioning if I'm ready for all of it. It's a lot, you know? And I'm just in this fog of questioning, trying to see through it and figure out what feels right. Does that make any sense?" Your words carry the weight of contemplation and the internal struggle as you grapple with the myriad emotions and possibilities.

Darcy leans back, her expression thoughtful. "Totally makes sense," she says, her gaze steady. "You're navigating uncharted waters, and feeling uncertain is okay. This is a big decision, and you've got a lot on your plate already. Whatever you decide, just know I'm here for you. We'll face whatever comes our way, superhero style, right?" She offers a reassuring smile, emphasizing her support and willingness to stand by you through the uncertainties ahead.

“That’s so corny,” You snicker, feeling a bit more lighthearted.

Darcy grins, unapologetic. "Hey, I live for the corny moments. Keeps life interesting, right? But seriously, whatever you decide, I've got your back. Corny or not, we'll face it together." Her playful demeanor adds a touch of levity to the conversation, creating a moment of shared laughter amidst the weighty discussion.“So, you’re staying with Natasha Romanoff? How’s that? How did that even come about?”

"Yeah, staying with Natasha is...unexpectedly good," you respond, a small smile playing on your lips. "She was the one who helped me break free from Keith, offered me a place to stay, and even talked to Tony to get me my old job back. It's been a lifeline. Living with her is like having a silent mentor, and Kaia loves her. Natasha's got this no-nonsense vibe, but she's got a big heart too, you know?" The gratitude in your voice is evident as you reflect on the unexpected support and friendship Natasha has provided during this challenging time.

“Actually, I don’t,” Darcy shakes her head. “Natasha doesn’t usually allow people to get close.”

You nod, acknowledging Darcy's observation. "Yeah, I get that. Natasha is a tough nut to crack. But there's this understanding between us, a shared experience of sorts. She saw what was happening with Keith and didn't hesitate to help. I guess some connections just form in the most unexpected ways." You offer a thoughtful smile, appreciating the uniqueness of the bond you've developed with Natasha during this difficult chapter of your life. “How are things with you and Steve?” You ask to change the topic.

"Oh, me and Cap?" Darcy grins, her eyes dancing with mischief. "Well, let's just say, he's got those old-fashioned gentleman vibes. Always checking in, making sure I'm not causing too much trouble. But hey, we make a good team, whether it's saving the world or just picking out the best takeout for movie nights." She winks, implying a friendship with Steve that goes beyond the conventional.

“So you two are a thing now? I mean I’ve kind of been avoiding everyone so I don’t have any information on well, anything.”

Darcy chuckles, her expression slightly coy. "Well, 'a thing' might be a strong term, but yeah, we've been... testing the waters, I guess. It's all a bit new and unexpected, but Steve's a great guy, and we're enjoying each other's company. Nothing official, just figuring it out as we go." She offers a playful shrug, hinting at the evolving nature of their connection.

“Well, you have me to thank for that.” You slyly grin.

Darcy raises an eyebrow, feigning innocence. "Oh, do I now? And here I thought it was my dazzling personality," she quips, a playful smirk crossing her face. “Thank you, y/n. You’re a gem.”

You glance over at Kaia, her tiny head drooping as she dozes off in her high chair. The soft rhythmic rise and fall of her chest indicate that the cafe's atmosphere has finally taken its toll on her, and the need for a nap has become undeniable.

You share a knowing smile with Darcy, gently reaching over to collect the now-empty muffin wrapper and the scattered fries, silently acknowledging that it's time to wrap up this cafe rendezvous.

“I should probably head back to the tower,” You say.

"Yeah, it sounds like a plan," Darcy agrees, understanding the need to tend to Kaia's nap and your responsibilities. "Whenever you're ready to spill the beans on your decision-making process or just need a friend, you know where to find me. Until then, take care of yourself and the little munchkin." Darcy gives you a supportive smile as you gather your things and prepare to head back to the tower. You move around the table to hug her and kiss her cheek.

You’ve missed your best friend.

Cradling Kaia in your arms, you prepare to head home, grateful for the support and conversation that have made this outing both meaningful and comforting.

*********************

As you settle back into Natasha's suite, the temporary nature of the arrangement crosses your mind. It's strange, living in someone else's space, but you're gradually adapting to the idea. Your parents' departure means Natasha gets her suite back, and you're determined to keep the promise you made to stay in touch with them.

Planning for the future, you're already envisioning budgeting your income and making arrangements for Kaia's daycare. The prospect of someone else caring for her feels unsettling, but you recognize it as a necessary step to help you get back on your feet. These plans mark a path toward independence and stability, a future where you and Kaia can thrive on your terms.

You’re finishing up a few dishes when the subtle beep of the security sensor echoes through the quiet suite, announcing Natasha's return. The atmosphere in the kitchen seems to shift as she ambles in, her eyes casually scanning the room as if searching for someone. You, maybe.

“Hey,” You greet her.

“Hey,” She says back. She moves to sit at the island counter. “How was your day?”The question is posed with a calmness that mirrors the quiet atmosphere of the room, inviting you to share without the need for elaborate words.

You offer a small smile, replying, "It was okay, pretty standard. I met up with Darcy for lunch. Yours?"

Natasha meets your gaze with her usual composed demeanor, a hint of something softer beneath the surface. "Productive," she replies, her succinct words carrying a subtle warmth.

As you hang up a drying towel, you can't help but feel a mild curiosity about Natasha's response. "What does that mean?" you inquire, the question lingering in the air, seeking clarity on the nature of Natasha's day.

Natasha offers a brief, enigmatic smile, her eyes meeting yours. "Just tying up loose ends," she replies, her response leaving a touch of mystery in the air. “Where’s Kaia?”

"Kaia's napping," You answer, a soft smile playing on your lips as you continue with the kitchen chores. The brief exchange carries a sense of normalcy, a routine that has developed in this shared space.

You share this thought with Natasha as you continue your tasks in the kitchen. "I've been thinking about going back to school, like I mentioned before. Maybe a couple of months down the line. It's completely online, so there won't be any more time away from Kaia that's needed," you explain, the idea taking shape in your mind as you consider this potential step toward personal and professional growth.

“What will you study?”

Natasha's question prompts you to consider the specifics of your potential return to school.

"I'm thinking of pursuing a degree in business administration," You share, the words carrying a sense of determination. "It feels like a step in the right direction, you know? Something that allows me to build a more stable future for Kaia and me." The quiet kitchen conversation takes on a slightly more purposeful note as you discuss your aspirations for the future. “Then possibly HR or consulting? I only have like two years left so it wouldn’t take too long. Also, I can take breaks if needed. With the new baby coming and everything.”

Natasha's gaze subtly shifts to acknowledge the topic of the baby, a recognition that holds a weight of understanding. "Considering everything, it's a comprehensive plan. Education, career, and the new addition to the family," she remarks, her words encompassing the various facets of your evolving life. "So, you've made a decision?" she asks, her steady gaze prompting a response.

You feel a nervous energy settle in, and you respond with a self-deprecating half-smile, "More like flipped a coin, to be honest." The admission is accompanied by a nervous chuckle. "I mean, it's a lot, right? The idea of going back to school, handling a job, and now with the baby on the way, it's like juggling a dozen balls in the air, hoping they don't come crashing down."

Your explanation flows into a ramble as you share your thoughts, "But then, I figured life's always been a bit of a chaotic dance, and maybe it's time I joined in. The baby changes things, but it's also this unexpected source of motivation. A reason to push through the chaos and make a better life, not just for me but for them. It's scary, but maybe that's the nature of big decisions, right?" The vulnerability in your words lingers as an open admission of the uncertainty and hope that accompany the choices you're making.

“Right,” Natasha nods.

You share a reassuring smile with Natasha, sensing the need to address the potential concerns about staying in her suite. "And you don't have to worry; I'll be out of your hair soon enough," you assure her. "Tony's getting one of the other suites cleaned up, and he says we could stay there until I find an apartment or something. I've already been looking at a few places, so it should go well," you add, your words carrying a sense of gratitude for the support you've received.

Natasha listens to your reassurance, her expression composed as she processes the information. "It's really no problem having you and Kaia stay at my apartment," she assures you, concealing any potential reservations with a calm demeanor. "And Liho seems to like having company around," she adds, a subtle hint of a smile appearing as she mentions her cat's fondness for the both of you.

You express your gratitude to Natasha, a genuine smile crossing your face. "Well, I like Liho too," you say, acknowledging the bond with Natasha's feline companion. "Seriously, thank you, Natasha, for everything. I know this is just the beginning, but I'm looking forward to getting things together for myself. This stage of grief is hard for me. A breakup isn't easy, but I'm genuinely motivated to get it right this time,"

Natasha meets your words with a subtle nod, her eyes reflecting a depth of understanding. "You're welcome," she responds, her tone carrying a quiet reassurance. "Take the time you need, and don't hesitate to lean on the support around you. We're here for you," she adds, a hint of warmth beneath her composed exterior.

---> next part

[austinstyles]

Could’ve been

Austin x reader

Summary: Austin looks back at what life was like with the reader after she had passed away. Also they were married with a baby boy. Will mostly be form Austin pov and have flash backs form the readers pov. Also they have been in each other’s life since they were both 19 years old. ( he was not with Kaia in this fanfic.) Also this fanfic is set in the present day.

Warning: kiss, dead. Spelling mistakes. And this can get a little sad for some readers. Let me know if I missed anything.

Austin pov

I was laying down in my bed with tears running down my cheeks. Missing my lovey wife of three years y/n. Our baby boy was in his bedroom sleeping. Just two months ago I became a single dad, and I lost the love of my life. Grieving has been hard, she has been here for me since 19 years old. Now I just have me and my other family members that have been supportive during this. But it’s hard to be alone without her. Because before I could call her and text her, now I just can’t talk to her.

We started to date some time after my break up with Vanessa. And the then we got married and had our little baby Christian. Our child is a three year old, and now the family we had of three is a family of two people. My wife passed away two months after Christian birthday this year.

As I am looking at pictures of me and y/n together I feel my mind started to think back to the day I proposed to y/n.

Flashback

Austin pov

Me and y/n have been together for two years and I know she is the one for me. I can’t see myself not spending the rest of my life with her. Will grow old together and see our children grow up and our future grandchildren grow up. Today I am asking y/n to marry me. I’m hoping she will say yes.

Y/n pov

Today me and my amazing boyfriend of two years are having a nice date night. I can’t wait. I love Austin so much and would be the luckiest person in the whole entire world if we were to be together for as long as possible.

At the time Austin proposed.

Austin pov

When we get to the park where the proposal is going to happen I feel my heart beating so fast. I’m ready to Ask her this important question, and I have been ready since I knew she was the one to make her my wife.

I Get down on one knee in front of the my amazing girlfriend standing.

‘Y/n I have known you were the one for me since I first laid my eyes on you. I have fallen in love with you more and more over time. Your mental for me is what I truly believe with every bone in my entire body. Would you make me the happiest man on earth and be my wife?’

Y/n pov

I can’t believe what is happening. My boyfriend is proposing to me, my heart is beating out of my chest with excitement. I feel happy tears running down my cheeks. I know exactly what I want to say and just can’t hold it in anymore.

‘ Yes Austin I will marry you’

Me and Austin then share a magical kiss as an engaged couple. And everything feels like we have all the time in the world together.

End of flashback

Back to the present.

Austin pov

Tears are running down my eyes, I remember the happiness of that day and all the happiness we had together. But I started to remember the sadness of losing her. And how it felt so fast, everything was going good then she gets sick. Next moment she is gone.

I feel myself start to drift back to the exact moment we found out y/n is sick, exactly one year ago.

Flashback to one year ago

Austin pov

Me and y/n are in the doctors office, our son is at my sisters at this moment. We’re getting some results form test y/n have been getting since she is sick. For the past two weeks when she coughs there is blood coming out of her throat. I knew this is very serious, and my mind goes to that she could possibly die.

We get the results and she has stage four lung cancer. And was given just months to live. And was lucky if she can live a year. Y/n and me leave the doctors office and are now sitting in the car. My wife is crying so much and I feel my heart breaking. This isn’t how we thought was going to happen so early in her life. But I have to just try and enjoy the moments I have with her left is what I know. Telling our families will be hard, and knowing your baby boy will lose his mom so young just breaks my heart.

End of flashback.

Back to the present

Austin pov

I feel so lost without her. How do I keep going knowing I won’t see her again for a very long time. But also I am very aware I have to keep going, but this is hard. My heart feels like it’s being ripped apart the moment she was dead in our bedroom. Still to this day it’s hard to sleep in my bedroom with the memory of her death. So I have been sleeping in our guest bedroom for the past two months. I know it has also been hard for my baby boy with grief over losing his mother. I know what that is like, but when I this happened to me I was a 23 year old. Let’s just say that it’s been ups and downs since loosing y/n.

My grieving has been really tough, but I need to grieve. I can’t keep living like I will wake up and she is next to me. But I believe we will see each other again some day. It’s just hard to believe she’s not here. This two months have been hard, I did join a support group for widows that are single parents. It’s been good to share with others so that does help.

Y/n would want me and Christian to keep on going, also for our little boy to know his mother loves him and didn’t want to leave him. But now she is his guardian angel and will always protect her child. When she was diagnosed with cancer we told your son she was very sick and had short amount of time. In the future I will definitely explain cancer to him. But we chose not to. That when differently when telling the family, it was hardest for her family defiantly. I even remember the funeral, it was a time to remember all of her life. And we’re thankful for the time we had. Just wish we all had more time with y/n.

I decided it was time to go to bed seeing it was 11:00 pm. And tomorrow I had a busy day, in my sleep I was dreaming of y/n. It all felt so real and I wanted to stay in this dream forever. In this dream we’re the small family of three again, Christian is playing with his mother and I join in the fun there having. It was amazing and so realistic. But my mind knows this isn’t real, I want this to be reality more then anything else in the hole universe.

I have to keep going I know, I tell myself this is what y/n wants me and Little toddler Christian to do. But I will always keep her in my heart. For the rest of my life.

Thanks for reading. Sorry it was a little sad. I appreciate every feedback I get. Also please like and reblog this I appreciate it. And also please request what you want me to write. I hope everyone has a great day take care.

😊👍🏻🩷🌸🖤😃

Grace

[enden-k]

Patiently waiting for you to drop that reveal for why Abel's sis loathes him so much. What sins did the masochist commit?

i actually mentioned it roughly already 0:

abel wasnt responsible all alone for her situation. its something that happened when they were kids which led to him and their parents to blame him for kaias disappearance and later, her proclaimed death. the incident itself is nothing super dramatic like him attempting to kill her or smth; they were kids, he was a scaredy cat while she was very brave, they played, he lost his ball, she entered the forest and got lost (lured). he didnt dare going after her when she was gone for a while and only confessed later what happened, out of fear. he was blamed for her disappearance and mistreated in the next years by their parents.

abel went through abuse and sorrow. kaia was groomed and manipulated by the mentioned player of the previous game, using abel as the sole reason/culprit for her situation, framing him for purposefully leading and abandoning her in the woods out of jealousy and stuff like that. years of such lies and pain and everything led to her believing every bit of it. abel was offered to her on a plate to take out her hatred and rage at everything on. her getting lost and losing her family and normal life and childhood, her getting trapped in a cursed city and enduring years of pain- its all abels fault for being the origin of her pain, right? its terrifying how children can be manipulated into believing everything and kaia is one of them

abel also genuinely blames himself but in truth, it was just a terrible incident, two traumatized kids and the blame being shifted around by adults however it was fitting. theyre both in pain, sorrow and anger but hers is directed outwards (the world. abel) and his is directed inwards (himself alone)

(so yah im rambling but its no super dramatic grand incident itself like i said. the things happening after, the manipulation and pain and the mind games etc is the true reason. abel is just the perfect piece to put all the blame on)

[randomestfandoms-ocs]

Time For Tea: Introduction

Lavender Haze ( Violet Kingsleigh & Cian Hearts ) has now been merged with Long Live The Queen ( Queenie Hearts & Ace Hearts & Maria Frollo & Helena ) to create a clusterfuck political intrigue series, and several more Wonderland characters have been added to the mix

PS: huge thanks to @cecexwrites @ginevrastilinski-ocs @the-witching-ash for listening to me completely lose my mind and jump all over the place as I figured this out!

The OGs

Ace Hearts [ Curran Walters ] – Long Live The Queen; son of the Queen Of Hearts, Queenie's left hand man & chief enforcer

Cian Hearts [ Gavin Leatherwood ] – Lavender Haze; son of the Queen Of Hearts, invited to the isle because reports say that the child of the Queen of Hearts is running the Isle and they assume it must be her son

Helena [ Tegan Croft ] – Long Live The Queen; daughter of Hades & Persephone, Queenie's right hand man, and other chief enforcer

Maria Frollo [ Elle Fanning ] – Long Live The Queen; daughter of Judge Frollo, grew up locked in his tower and has only recently been freed and brought to Crims, manages Crims

Queenie Hearts [ Madison Davenport ] – Long Live The Queen; daughter of the Queen Of Hearts, unofficial Queen of the Isle, runs her crew with an iron fist and military precision

Violet Kingsleigh [ Meg Donnelly ] – Lavender Haze; daughter of Alice & The Hatter, heir to Wonderland, goes to Auradon because Wonderland suspects Auradon of poisoning the White Queen

The Wonderland Crew

Caoilinn Whittemore [ Florence Pugh ] – daughter of the White Knight & Violet’s personal guard; goes to Auradon with Violet

Arley Whitaker [ Tom Holland ] – son of the White Rabbit & Violet’s personal secretary / manager / wrangler; goes to Auradon with Violet

Chelsey Chester [ Rowan Blanchard ] – daughter of the Cheshire Cat

Tenney Earwick [ Jack Wolfe ] – son of the March Hare

Mallaidh Merrick [ Mary Mouser ] – daughter of the Dormouse

Deirdra Taggart [ Ella Hunt ] – daughter of Tweedle Dee

Deryn Taggart [ Joe Keery ] – son of Tweedle Dee

Duncan Taggart [ Joe Keery ] – son of Tweedle Dum

The Isle Crew

Neasa Kearney [ Kaia Gerber ] – daughter of the Red Queen, runs recruitment & orientation for the crew

Caitria Devlin [ Billie Lourd ] – daughter of the Duchess, crew manager

Keira Knave [ Alba Baptista ] – daughter of the Knave of Hearts, combat trainer

Killian Knave [ Freddy Carter ] – son of the Knave Of Hearts, combat trainer for the crew

Shiloh Reece [ Emilia Jones ] – daughter of the Cook, medic

Bonus – existing ocs who have been added to Time For Tea as part of Queenie's crew

Nettie Tremaine [ Peyton Elizabeth Lee ] – daughter of Anastasia Tremaine, medic

Raisa Rasputin [ Sophia Ann Caruso ] – daughter of Rasputin, barge day coordinator, collector

Rini Bing [ Jenna Ortega ] – daughter of Herman Bing / The Ringmaster, crew manager

Savina Stromboli [ Diana Silvers ] – daughter of Stromboli, collector

Winona Sykes [ Milly Alcock ] – daughter of Bill Sykes, head of inventory

( now need to decide if the existing ocs added to Time For Tea should keep their current titles or become part of Long Live The Queen )

[austinslounge]

I've been wrong about everything else, so I probably am wrong about my theory but here we go:

So I believe Austin broke up with her in late August. Right after the Canada trip. I think he was trying to make it through the summer and my guess was he didn't want to ruin a trip that was already planned.

But him missing her birthday wasn't that weird. For me it was all her family and friends rallying around her that seemed kinda sus. Like they were trying to make her feel better. Not to say her family wouldn't be there for her birthday but something seemed off. Like she was upset. She could've easily spent her birthday in NY with Austin if that's what she wanted. He wasn't filming yet and it's not like she isn't rich. But that ties into my suspicions that he broke up with her. So it wasn't an option.

Something was off with her at TIFF. I don't know if it was nerves or she was on something. But her need to hang onto Corey was weird. Deumoxi was at the afterparty and said Kaia was being protected that night. Like she was upset and her friends were rallying around her. Again, something that often happens when a break up occurs.

Then out of the blue comes these two L&S articles. Speculating about them having problems and Austin essentially wanting to end things. He's outgrown the relationship. Very similar to the article his team had put out there in May about them not having anything in common.

They hadn't been seen together in over a month. Kaia was in NY a few times but wasn't with Austin at any point. She was with Marcello. She was all over him. Two different occasions, she was with Marcello. She was acting like a single woman.

Then more articles come out speculating their relationship status. I'm sorry where there is smoke there is fire.

Austin had been busy working. Minding his business. Then he was needed for a pap walk to keep the break up rumors at bay. I think he'd be fine with the news coming out. but at the same time he's filming, so he doesn't need the stress of the break up coming out. Kaia did a lot of damage to her image and how people viewed her relationship with Austin the last few weeks.

Also the fact that nothing has changed in their demeanor either. If they had shown up together after a month and break up rumors soaring, looking happy and in love maybe people would buy it. But Austin is so done. He's just doing what he has to do to break away.

Just from what I've seen in past celebrity break ups. Often they've split before speculation even begins. But will go along with whatever plan their PR teams put in place. Austin and Kaia wouldn't be the first couple to be broken up and still have to act like they are together to keep up appearances.

Just a theory. Again where there is smoke there is fire. Saturday was way too much of a coincidence.

You know what girl? This is a good theory. You're not the only one who's had this theory. It does kind of make sense.

Also, the weight loss thing is very important to note as well. I don't think it's from the stress with Presley either, because he looks fine now, and I've heard that he's even been going to rehab.

We first noticed that Kaia was losing weight around July. It's now October, and she still looks frail. It's the thinnest she's ever been since dating Austin.

Idk about others, but I lost a ton of weight when going through a major relationship heartache and heartbreak.

Not to mention, they still look miserable with each other.

These things by themselves might not say much, but when you put all of these little things together, they do seem to paint a certain picture.

The fact that their teams haven't really said anything is very interesting.

Also, like you said, most celebrities have already broken up long before the official announcement comes out.

Many times, people can even just look at a couple and tell when it's on its last legs. I agree with you, where there's smoke, there's fire.

I'm just going to eat my popcorn like the rest of you all, and will see what happens btwn now and the end of this year.

All I know is, I don't think I can take another Gerber Family Holiday Trip in Cabo at the end of this year again. 😩

[monstermoviedean]

i’ve got a list in my head of moments in spn where i think it would’ve been the perfect moment to bring in a secondary character, and there’s one in particular that i think is just. so, after the rupture, cas meets up with claire. she finds out about jack, she finds out about mary. and yeah idk i just think claire would have a really interesting perspective about it all. about dean. i don’t think she’d be completely on dean’s “side” (i don’t like calling them on diff sides but i think you get what i mean) and yell at cas or guilt him or whatever, nor would i want that(!), but… after all, claire knows what it’s like to care about, to love, people who have hurt her family. 😕

oh this one hurts. this one hurts. you're absolutely right though and my god is this a good fucking take. like. okay so first off this made me realize that jack and claire never met. and while i don't think claire would be like "you stole my dad" (because of course she wouldn't) i think there could be some really really interesting feelings to work through in term of cas having another kid who is dead now, and how hard he's taking it. i think claire would have to initiate this meetup, not cas, because cas is trying to isolate himself and would not want to look at another child he believes he failed.

absolutely 100% agree that there's not really "sides" but i also don't have a better term for it. i think claire would see cas' "side" and could give cas some real comfort, if he was open to it. she knows what it's like to lose people and to feel like you failed. she believes that cas is good, and trying to be better. and she's a living, breathing symbol that not everything he touches goes wrong. i think she could represent healing to cas, and just talking to her could nudge him towards reconciliation.

(side note: i would have liked to see their relationship develop further past season 10. i feel like it was a really promising start and then just. nothing. it felt like once she had jody they were like 'okay she's being parented cas doesn't need to do it anymore!')

i also think claire could easily see and sympathize with dean's "side." her dad abandoned her and her mom was absent from her life for a long time. her mom literally died in her arms. i could see why the pain of losing a parent would resonate with her. i can also see why, if she talked to dean, she would sympathize with feeling abandoned by cas (talking about seasons 4 through 10 here). and last but certainly not least, claire is going through a widow arc of her own. she's still reeling from having lost kaia. while she didn't see dean during his widower arc, jody did, and i'm sure jody mentioned that dean really wasn't doing well. and that might be on claire's mind too - that dean is in serious pain from losing a parent, a child, and a friend who could be something more.

like you said, i don't want claire to yell at or guilt either of them. i'm not sure she would, either. but i think she could sympathize with both of them in a way not many others in their lives could. and i would also like to see her again :)

[lindszeppelin]

That video is very telling. Normally these two are always holding hands. Austin's love language is physical touch. The fact he won't make eye contact with her or hold her hand is very telling. Even in the venue there is a picture of them waiting to enter the theater area, and Austin is looking anywhere else but at Kaia. It's very drastic shift in behavior from him.

On another note because I was thinking about this. So buckle up it will be long lol:

In the L&S article, where they mentioned how different their work ethic is, I think it's more prominent now than ever.

Austin loves to have a lot of prep time before his next movie. If you give him 2 1/2 months to prep for this movie, he will take every ounce of time he can. This movie is a huge deal for Austin. It's his first staring role since Elvis. It's with a director who's had two of his main actors win Oscars (Natalie and Brendan). This movie could change Austin's career more than ever. You bet your ass he's trying to prepare as much as possible. He's already been hanging out with Darren. He is truly passionate about his work. Austin was thriving in NYC and clearly in work mode.

Then Kaia shows up and has been nothing but a distraction. Kaia doesn't care that he's trying to prep for his movie. His personal life has become a circus because she can't help herself. Obviously there has to be balance between work and love. That's normal. But Kaia can't be chill at all. They can't have quiet date nights. She has to be the center of attention all the time. She constantly needs validation. The problem with Kaia is she has no idea who she is or what she really wants. Which is actually normal for someone her age. But she's a 22 year old who tries to act older than her years. But she's not actually mature at all. She's a phony. She wanted to be a model because of her mom. She wanted to be an actress because at the time all her friends and boyfriend(s) are actors. She's a poser plain and simple.

Austin is more famous and popular than her. He can roam around NYC, work, hang out friends, etc. He will never be spotted by the paps. He may encounter fans, but I don't think he minds that. Yet as soon as Kaia arrives to town, he is papped all the time. It's insane. He's losing valuable prep time with her nonsense. Dude is in the prime of his career. He really doesn't need some clingy 22 year nepo baby clinging to him like this. She looks pathetic.

Couldn't agree more. His prep time is very important. Pretty much most of July was nothing but Kaia Gerber City based on what SHE wanted to do and how it was going to go. The movie is filming at the end of September. he only has maybe like a month and a half/2 months max to prep for this movie. And he only really got to prep for it for about what...3 weeks before she came along? That's not a lot of time, he barely scratched the surface. And if he really is diagnosed with ADHD like his IG likes suggest, then ADHDers get into hyperfocus modes. He needs that time to get back into being hyperfocused or else it's gonna be overwhelming to get back into it. He doesn't need to be dealing with her stupid clingy ass while he's trying to actually work. All the more reason for him to cut her out now while he has time to get back into working.

[pralinesims]

Seven Sins Challenge: Which of your OCs fits pride, greed, wrath, envy, lust, gluttony and sloth. Then pass it on...(or not, it's okay!) How are you btw???!! Love lots <3

(Also got this ask from @agena87, TYSM!) LANA!! I'm doing a bit better, how about you? ILY and appreciate you so much!!!

Which OC's fit to the seven deadly sins: YES The yes as a joke aside, in all honesty, the majority of aspects/sins would fit to assign to almost any OC of mine, cause most of them are some deeply flawed individuals lol

More fleshed out answers to the traits that fit the most:

Pride: Emilio - He's a very prideful person, proud of his family, proud of his upbringing, proud of his achievements, well, proud of almost everything. Which is one of the reasons why he feels so down whenever something in life doesn't work as he planned, or wished for, or also why he has high standards for other people aswell. He simply wants everyone to be at their max form, cause in his eyes it's a big advantage to have in life.

Greed: Aaron - Well if this isn't fitting idk what is lol. Greed is definitely a big aspect of his personality and of his actions. Like doing outrageous stuff online for reactions? Most of these can be linked back due to him being greedy for followers and attention. It's not only online-based though, craving for recognition and for the feeling of being better than everyone else reflects back to his regular life and interactions aswell.

Wrath: Luca - Dude is pretty fuelled by anger, it's one of the heaviest triggers for his impulses and a big reason why he's often losing control to his urges. Is very heavily attached to the things he holds dear, so whenever something/somebody hurts him, he'll quickly bury the feelings of hurt underneath negativity and that usually leads to explosive moments.

Envy: Sharon - Tbh barely a day of her's goes by without thinking of herself in the shoes of some other. Whether it's because someone else is in a relationship and she is not, or other people getting to interact with their families (because she doesn't have one), feeling happy whenever someone experiences misfortune, leads to her feeling better because at that moment she isn't the one suffering, stuff like that pretty much shapes her mood.

Lust: Vale - Gotta say it's self explaining lmao, and also it just fits all over bc despite being a pretty nihilistic person, he'd feel even less desire to live without simple enjoyments (short lived flings, alcohol or cigarettes, free time alone, etc) in life, so if he wants something, he gets/does it, no matter the measures, or if it's forbidden or frown upon, like he doesn't care about any consequences, cause the lust for his desires (even if only temporary) outweighs most things.

Gluttony: Maggie - This was the hardest one to assign tbh, but it fits to Maggie the most. She's kinda wasteful, for example as in that she buys way too much food, and thus tends to throw a lot of it out, because she just doesn't think about if she will truly use up everything. This doesn't extend to food only, she simply may buy too many things cause she simply can't get enough and loses overview of a realistic view of uses. Also it doesn't help that she gets attached to material possessions kinda quickly.

Sloth: Kaia - She's not lazy at all, it's rather that she often just doesn't... care. A very chill person, some would describe her as too chill. Like, her job as a cemetary caretaker? She does it because not many people else would do, and she doesn't mind doing it, cause well, it's just a job to her. Not many things surprise or shock her, as she herself found the explanation for most stuff in life. Which is probably a reason generally why she often seeks out more extreme stuff for excitement.

Gina gets a pass for this challenge bc neither of these sins fit her very much (and she's also the 8th one heh)

[ausssbutlershortstories]

OMG just saw some pap pics of Dua and Callum in Ibiza and...if Kaia saw those, I'm sure she'd lose her mind at how he is so relaxed and loving with his gf, meanwhile Austin hides behind towels to not even be seen with her. Also her friend, Gracie with Paul Mescal are a lot more cute...even though Kaia apparently liked thirsty videos of him last year on ig (idk how true that is though).

Bruh them towel photos had me weak lmao 😂

Austin was like “oh hell naw”!

[mgopinoon]

Anon, Austin had already broken up with Vanessa when he was supposedly fucking Olivia, there was no cheating involved but Vanessa went kinda crazy after the breakup and tried coping up really hard by dating much younger men even before her current husband. Y'all know her infamous COVID video? That happened when she was having her meltdown over her breakup.

I think losing Austin drives women crazy and causes great harm, we have 2 examples of this: Vanessa and Kaia.

Austin must be unbeatable, first waking up to that handsome man every day and the worst thing is that he is so nice and has a beautiful smile. I think I would lose my mind too.

[kkami-writes]

y'all are so cute and good to me ;; I know I haven't really been answering asks and i'm sorry about that but I promise I'm getting most of them. <3 love you guys. kaia comeback soon? (eye emoji) ((i'm on pc ok i can't do emojis))

[queenofthieves]

Kaia/Kaliyo thoughts

I think the main thing that pulls me to them, that makes me truly just lose my mind over them, for two lying liars - sometimes professionally, sometimes recreationally - there's a level of honesty because of them recognizing that in each other, seeing it, knowing it, and understanding it. I think that honesty is part of what draws them to each other. It offers this level of comfort, they don't have to explain that part of themselves, and there's no risk of that part being an issue. Kaia adapts and can integrate herself wherever needed, be whatever needed, it's something she likes about herself, that she can always fill the role required of her. With Kaliyo it's like the cover can come off. They're allowed their secrets, and they don't have to explain these 'unsavory' parts of themselves or pretend to be anything or anyone else.

[dre6ming]

The delicate beginning rush

Instagram photo dump VIII

Masterlist <chapters 1 -> 12 here>

Instagram photo dump masterlist <parts 1->7>

Pairing: Austin Butler x singer/actress fem reader

Warning: age gap(10 years)

Disclaimer: everything fake!!

𓃗𓃚𓃘𓃙𓃗𓃚𓃘𓃙𓃗

y/n4real.2002

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y/n4real.2002 huge thanks to variety for this opportunity and big thanks to the incredibly talented austinbutler for sitting down with me to talk. #actorsonactors #outnow

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austinbutler: 💜🧶 it was a pleasure so sit and talk to you

⤷y/n4real.2002: austinbutler 🫶

⤷fan39: omg I'm losing my absolute mind 😱

⤷abfan29: they look so good in the picture

bazluhrmann: what an incredible piece, congrats to the both of you

⤷y/n4real.2002: bazluhrmann my heart...skipped a beat, thank you so so much

⤷elvis2fan: did you guys see on deuxmoi that she's rumored to be in the Elvis Soundtrack? 👀👀

⤷ab.2.fan: elvis2fan I did holy, does this confirm it? Shit 😱

tchalamet: go go little star 🌟

⤷y/n4real: tchalamet 🥹

⤷tcfans: omg he's the sweetest best friend

⤷fan202: *alexa play Best-Friend by y/n*

roxanne.02_b1tch: girl you look so hot in orange

⤷y/n4real.2002: roxanne.02_b1tch thank teutamatoshi for the beautiful dress

⤷teutamatoshi: y/n4real.2002 a pleasure working with you

gossip.blog

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gossip.blog new deuxmoui story about Austin and Y/n, who knows, could be real. If we consider this dm real this might mean that the two are involved and she and Joshua are done.

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fan20: I don’t see why we need to discuss this

kaia29fans: how disappointing, both of them

⤷fan23: we don’t know that the dm is true

ab3fan: get it Austin, get it

joshua.b.fan: noooo she did our boy dirty

⤷fansofjoshua: she truly did

fan39: I don’t know what to believe, I don’t see them cheating

⤷fan65: but did you watch the variety actors on actors? My man was spellbound by her

⤷fan5: who wouldn’t be 😭

y/n4real.2002

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y/n4real.2002 snow on the BeAch

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roxanne.02_b1tch: I’m coming over next week, here’s to hoping it snows then too

⤷y/n4real.2002: roxanne.02_b1tch I’m gonna hope with you

fan299: who took the photo? 👀

⤷fansofy/n: good question 🤔

⤷fan.3: she’s telling us in the caption B.A in caps?

⤷ab.34.fan: wait you don’t think.

⤷austin.fan: oh oh hell 😱

austinbutler: weird but fucking beautiful 💜🧶

⤷y/n4real.2002: austinbutler I agree💜🧶

⤷ab.2.fan: again these emojis, what do these mean?

⤷fan2: could be a stretch, but she loves to crochet aaaand she only mentioned this once when asked about her crochet heart earrings

⤷austin.B.fan: omg imagine she taught him to crocet 🥹

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spotted.2022 austinbutler spotted north of Quebec (where a certain girl is filming a movie rn👀) alone on a walk

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austin.butt.fan: oh my man really was there, this means…

⤷fan393: he took that photo of her on the beach 🥹 I’m sure of it

⤷aus.tin.fan: oh what I’d give to peak I his camera roll

kaia.lover: so he gets a few free days and runs to his mistress?

⤷austin.29.fan: oh shut it, he was just with Kaia

⤷fan405: I don’t get the need to name call when you don’t know anything for sure

fan59: I’m actually losing it over how hot and silly he looks

⤷austin_b.: omg yes he’s so hot 🥵

y/n4real.2002

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y/n4real.2002 god I love snow so much, I think I’ll move here, forever.

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tchalamet: not forever, I don’t do cold

⤷y/n4real.2002: tchalamet that’s because you know I make better snow angels than you

⤷tchalamet: y/n4real.2002 take that back, now

⤷y/n4real.2002: tchalamet never 😈

⤷fan59: omg how I love these two

aB_fan: to think that Austin was probably there, to keep her warm🥹

⤷austin_fan: my heart

austinbutler: forever you say?

⤷y/n4real.2002: 👀

⤷fan00: nah cause I need these two to be a couple by now.

⤷austin.fans: my boy never misses a post, he’s her biggest fan

fan045: do you guys think she wrote dandelions for him 👀

⤷austi.n.B: oh I think I’d die to know she had him in mind

⤷fan55: I mean he did comment a flower on that post 🤔

y/n.fan.no1

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y/n.fan.no1: I can’t wait for this movie, apparently it’s a paranormal love story.

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fan07: where are they filming?

⤷y/n.fan.no1: fan07 in a town just north of Quebec

⤷ab-fan: Austin was just spotted there

fan305: how good does she look in the picture they picked 🥵

austin.fan: I’m starting to love her more and more, I’m so happy for her

fan4: I can’t wait to see this

fan_love: did they start filming? When is it coming out?

⤷y/n.fan.no1: fan_love they started a month ago I think, should be done soon, the movie will premiere at the Venice Film Festival in late august, early September

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[luna-nigthshade-wood]

HAPPINESS IS IN THE EYE OF THE BEHOLDER

Dean is at peace and happy with having sacrificed his sight in exchange for getting Cas out of the Empty. His family not so much Aka 5 times Dean has to explain his sacrifice to a member of his family and one person that understood all along.

6-Claire

-Mind if I sit?- Claire tells Dean, not waiting for an answer before plopping down next to him.

After Cas and him finally made up, things begun to fall into their places, bringing a sense of peace to the Bunker, so much that Sam propose to do a celebratory party for all their family, which Dean easily agreed to. Planning and preparing the party hadn’t been as easy as Dean thought but at the end all their efforts pay off and now less than a week later here they were celebrating a small barbeque outside the Bunker.

Dean was sitting a little bit on the far end of the property just taking everything in, with Miracle firmly at his feet. From where he is at, he hears Garth boisterous laugh as he speaks with Eileen of something or another, he hears Jack´s playing tag with Garth´s kids and Patience and losing badly by the sound of it, he can hear Cas conversing with Bess and Kaia and Rowena conversing with Krissy, he can almost sense Sam´s frustration as he is trying and failing to grill their dinner, with Donna nearby distracting him, while Jody actually does the cooking.

That all being said, it is not a surprise when the missing member of their family sits beside him, even if a little unexpected.

-Penny for your thoughts?- Claire asks- Isnt that what you old people say?- she mocks

-Har, har, biker Barbie- Dean snorts- For your information, I am just taking in the moment- he says before adding- And you how are you? You and Kaia doing okay?

-I am… We are good- Claire tells him- At the very least, none of us went into a suicide mission through the Empty- she sarcastically says

-C´mon, come at me then- Dean says calmly- Ask me why?

-I know why- Claire says- You did it for love- she states so matter of fact that Dean lets a small laugh at that

-You might be the only person that has not asked me for an explanation- Dean states

-Really? Garth asked you for an explanation? - Claire asks surprised

-Mr. Fizzles gave me a speech I almost wish I was deaf as well- Dean deadpans, making Claire laugh

-Yeah, I think it would have that effect- Claire says, before adding- But for real, I understand why you did it, and if you repeat what I am telling you next I will end you, but I am really grateful for it- she claims- After all, Cas is the closest thing I have to a father.

-I thought you still blame him slightly for, well, you know- Dean says, making a few gestures

-It´s complicated- Claire confesses- Jimmy, my dad, well, it was complicated. He made his own choices and those choices weren’t always the best for me. I think a part of me always resented him for choosing to say yes, so I latched out to the closest being. Anyways, I am not so sure he would agree entirely with my life choices- she finishes

-Jimmy loved you- Dean starts saying

-I know

-No, I mean, he really loved you, and don’t get me wrong, I didn’t met him enough to form a well-informed opinion- Dean states- But I think, at least the Jimmy I saw at the end would have been really happy just by you being happy- he claims, before adding- I know I am

-Thank you- Claire says, hugging him tight- I guess you are not bad, for an old man

-Hey- Dean says mockingly, before helping her stand up- Now lets go distract Sam before he burns our dinner- before they rejoined their family.

Things weren’t perfect, there were still things to clear out between all of them, but they were happy and that was enough for all of them. (Even if the burgers were slightly overcooked)    

First chapter Ao3

[chthonicgodling]

WELL here’s my stream of consciousness thoughts typed at 1 am when I had made this post about not posting anything further (ORIGINAL DATE: JANUARY 4TH) and what I’d wanted to post had been this rambly thing, please read the contents of my brain gnawing through the metaphorical walls oh my GOD— ahem:

Loki “I’ve never had a child on purpose” L*ufeyson being clung to by Tory and Maci, “both so fucking possessive” (“is that a bad thing?” “…no”), whose response to that has been okay well let’s get you pregnant on purpose then, and note that that initial statement by Loki anyway was in response to “no I do want a baby with you” which came so fast out of left field that the whiplash and rose colored hearteyes seduction of it all led to a split second decision that was. okay not entirely rationally made, (upon further reflection by a god who’s notoriously cagey and suspicious and —)

oh my god yeah jesus 14 entire kids and STILL never had a child on purpose consciously, subconsciously speaking is a different story but you didn’t hear that from me but ALSO it’s been a decade since the last baby Loki carried - that was Rane in Elysium, before that was Fjöer, but afterwards (Eisa - Einmyria - Vryk - Kaia - Sæunn - lmao Libby?) each were the other way around, AND so ten YEARS ago was a very different - Loki doesn’t cuddle Loki doesn’t do domesticity Loki’s off standing coldly and sneering in the corner while everyone else is piled in a heap making desperate grabby hands for him, at least that was the case for the previous years and years until. like. this last year and a half but ONLY with Maci and Tory. where PREVIOUSLY Rane and Fjöer had each been another standard cut and paste “bolt and hide” situation due to anxious paranoia, through all of Fjöer and briefly through Rane before returning to the palace when pregnant with her and — returning with hackles raised and guard up and starting fights with everyone around the entire time because. like I just said, he doesn’t Do DomesticiTY or— well he never DID until—

ten years later not only is this The First Baby On Purpose it’s also the first fucking bAby in which — like come the fuck on are Tory and Maci letting go of him for any amount of time ever???? absolutely fucking not?????? This is a Can You Fucking Relax We Are Taking Care of You Whether You Like It Or Not Because You’re Safe With Us And Don’t You Forget It-

and the very strange emotional tangled web disaster that has already existed this whole time - LIKE IM WRITING ALL THIS AND THEYRE NOT IN ANY WAY A FORMAL THROUPLE NOR WILL THEY BE THIS IS JUST— ?! ITS SO MUCH *MORE* INSANE THAT THEYRE NOT A THROUPLE LMAO???? - WELL that’s about to crescendo into an absolute tsunami because this!!! Is also The First Baby in which Loki’s accidentally stumbled INTO domesticity and. well that’s a very different vibe to be pregnant within f,,,For the first time oh, ever. that’s. that’s very.

in short. essentially. I am going to lose my mind.

AND THATS NOT ALL JUST WAIT

PHEW IVE HAD TO KEEP THIS IN MY BRAIN SINCE JANUARY. I’m sssSsooOoOoooOoooooOooOOOO—