#just venting here

[kaalionpahaa]

post social but pre medical transition sucks sometimes cause im just living my life and not thinking about gender and expression too much in my day-to-day life and then a coworker will call me a girlboy and i remember i will never be seen as just some guy

[drmcdreary]

I used to love Bailey so so so much but she's pissing me off this season (9) with how harsh she is with everyone who was on that plane.

Also, her brand of yell at people until they become less stupid sort of(?) worked back in the first few seasons because she knew more and had greater experience, now it's just loud.

Her colleagues, people who survived a horrific trauma, deserve basic respect. Yell until everybody shuts up is just harsh, disrespectful, and bullying.

[serial-serializednovelreader]

So I just finished The Invitation and is anyone talking about the Mina and Jonathan Harker characters?!?!?! I have very mixed thoughts!! Like on one hand, I'm glad to see a cameo of them in a vampire movie (and that they're together <3), but on the other hand, they would NEVER help a vampire like they did in this movie so I'm also upset about it.

[naisvalta]

really annoyed by all these think pieces on why birth rates are down as if the main reason isnt the fact that women actually feel like they have options now. like lets stop pretending women before our generation just wanted kids more. they didn't want them any more than we do, they just had to have them or felt like they had to, regardless of whether they liked or hated kids.

[atonalginger]

nothing quite like the feeling when you realize you’ve basically been priced out of the city you’ve lived in for 10+ years, the government in the state has gone from crap to SHIT, and you know your partner will never be able to retire at this rate but when you look for housing elsewhere in the country you come back feeling hopeless because each person has reasons for not wanting to live where we could.

We don’t even feel we can even start truly looking/planning until Fry passes because he’s got health issues now and we don’t want to try and board or move him with all that.

It’s bad enough I’ve even vocalized the feeling of wanting to move back to the state we moved away from over ten years ago. It’s affordable, his mom and brother/nephews are there. BUT it’s cold, snows a lot where they live, and we then run the risk of having to see his dad more and my parents trying to come see us....(I don’t know if they’d try at this point but its a small fear in the back of my head)

We also talked about moving to places on the east coast but I know nothing of those cities and overall the thought of starting over is terrifying. 

BUT continuing to live in this city is getting untenable. 

[kenapiece-main]

Can you believe I'm having to make this meme even after successfully finishing up taxes and applying to job

[krmljam]

more bugs more drinking

[hinamie]

sympathy for cain

[muggle-born-princess]

Reblog if you're LGBT and are against MAPS/Child Groomers

[dannyketch]

Realizing I've been stagnant because I've been avoiding the crux of either telling the truth about myself(as in being a feminine trans man) or killing myself. So... I hate being embarrassed and displaying my feelings to other people, but like is it that bad? Is it that fucking serious that I'd rather be dead than just be honest about who I am, to one person even? God, ugh. I wouldn't be this apprehensive about this if I didn't have such a hard time and reaction and be put through the most traumatizing parts that I(not my systemmates) can remember happening in my life last time i tried. But this time it's not also about the abuse from my host's parents or being a system, it's just about me being a boy. It really shouldn't be that hard. But I think my host's aunt has just taken baby steps towards accepting feminine cis men, mostly thanks to me, and taking them seriously instead of just seeing them as a joke. I don't think she can wrap her head around gnc trans people, but I should at least try instead of going straight to suicide. I'll try this weekend to tell her. At the latest on Monday. I was trying to do it on Wednesday, but it was not the right time. She's going to be mad at me, but to be fair she's mad at me a lot for nothing already.

[problemnyatic]

executive dysfunction really is a complete fucking nightmare. all the decisions you could make, but you won't. All the things you know you should do, you want to do, but you won't. Yeah yeah we all know it's a symptom but it feels and looks like just.... deciding not to be responsible.

It's easier not to, so i guess I just won't. I promise it's not laziness, I swear. It's not me just giving up on things that affect more than just me, I swear. Maybe if I say it enough I could hope to believe it myself.

[inkskinned]

the thing is there's like, a point of oversaturation for everything, and it's why so many things get dropped after a few minutes. and we act like millennials or gen z kids "have short attention spans" but... that's not quite it. it's more like - we did like it. you just ruined it.

capitalism sees product A having moderate success, and then everything has to come out with their "own version" of product A (which is often exactly the same). and they dump extreme amounts of money and environmental waste into each horrible simulacrum they trot out each season.

now it's not just tiktokkers making videos; it's that instagram and even fucking tumblr both think you want live feeds and video-first programming. and it helps them, because videos are easier to sneak native ads into. the books coming out all have to have 78 buzzwords in them for SEO, or otherwise they don't get published. they are making a live-action remake of moana. i haven't googled it, but there's probably another marvel or starwars something coming out, no matter when you're reading this post.

and we are like "hi, this clone of project A completely misses the point of the original. it is soulless and colorless and miserable." and the company nods and says "yes totally. here is a different clone, but special." and we look at clone 2 and we say "nope, this one is still flat and bad, y'all" and they're like "no, totally, we hear you," and then they make another clone but this time it's, like, a joyless prequel. and by the time they've successfully rolled out "clone 89", the market is incredibly oversaturated, and the consumer is blamed because the company isn't turning a profit.

and like - take even something digital like the tumblr "live streaming" function i just mentioned. that has to take up server space and some amount of carbon footprint; just so this brokenass blue hellsite can roll out a feature that literally none of its userbase actually wants. the thing that's the kicker here: even something that doesn't have a physical production plant still impacts the environment.

and it all just feels like it's rolling out of control because like, you watch companies pour hundreds of thousands of dollars into a remake of a remake of something nobody wants anymore and you're like, not able to afford eggs anymore. and you tell the company that really what you want is a good story about survival and they say "okay so you mean a YA white protagonist has some kind of 'spicy' love triangle" and you're like - hey man i think you're misunderstanding the point of storytelling but they've already printed 76 versions of "city of blood and magic" and "queen of diamond rule" and spent literally millions of dollars on the movie "Candy Crush Killer: Coming to Eat You".

it's like being stuck in a room with a clown that keeps telling the same joke over and over but it's worse every time. and that would be fine but he keeps fucking charging you 6.99. and you keep being like "no, i know it made me laugh the first time, but that's because it was different and new" and the clown is just aggressively sitting there saying "well! plenty of people like my jokes! the reason you're bored of this is because maybe there's something wrong with you!"

[just-a-queer-fanboy]

They commented on a speedpaint that was specifically a vent about them. Fuck now I feel like an asshole they probably think this is their fault

[bigshoeswamp]

Somewhere in my mind i deeply believe i can control my pain if i understand it and everything will be fine. This is partially truth. Knowing how and when it feels has taugh me a lot. I do my Pilates. I take walks. I don't drink coffee anymore because it makes me anxious then tense and then that brings pain. Cooking helps relieve the pain because it mobilizes my joints in all the right ways.

Sometimes though, it is simply beyond me, almost as if it's lecturing me for thinking i can control it. I had a fine day yesterday, no pain whatsoever. And then, two or three hours after falling asleep, i wake up in a flash of pain. My whole body hurts so much it brings tears to my eyes but i have no energy to even cry. I am too tired to do the exercises that alliviate the pain, but I can't rest when it's all I can feel. What have i done wrong today, i start to wonder. What have i done. What have i done. What have i done. What have i done.

And I don't know. In the end, that only thing i know is that it hurts.

[naisvalta]

really annoyed by all these think pieces on why birth rates are down as if the main reason isnt the fact that women actually feel like they have options now. like lets stop pretending women before our generation just wanted kids more. they didn't want them any more than we do, they just had to have them or felt like they had to, regardless of whether they liked or hated kids.

[tacc0yak1]

well, someone had to tell him