#just thought id put it out there bc it seems like there are a lot of people who are unsure!

[puhpandas]

as someone who isnt super excited for sotm for certain reasons I am really glad that like. it's clear that since ruin theyve been setting up for carnival and sotm IS carnival. so now that carnival is finally coming out, afterwards theyll be moving on to other plotlines since the main villain stuff is sorted out

I'm just rlly happy to finally see a clear direction for how the story is gonna be playing out with like "okay these games were leading up to this so after this will be open possibilites" instead of like. absolutely no info about each upcoming game and being left guessing before it releases and just having to wait and see what's in it and if anything you're looking forward to will be in it

it feels like they have a plan and a solid direction for what they're trying to do and after carnival releases thatll be all that buildup coming to fruition. & we already know from the Scott interview that theres another release 'beyond sotm' that's 'super exciting' so maybe thatll be focusing on another big currently untouched (which is basically all of them) plotline, or even the big campaign game that dawko has been calling security breach 2

[marsixm]

ive actually put myself in so many situations and seem to come out doing socially well, youd think at some point i could get it in my head im not irredeemably bad

[milfygerard]

does taylor have a single debut song on any of the playlists?

[waywardsalt]

ok since tears of the kingdom is coming out like. insanely soon i figured i’ll just dump how i’ve been feeling abt it here. i wont tag for them and i dont intend to share any but because i have been actively seeking out spoilers i will vaguely reference them here so… idk really long musings on this game and my feelings abt it

(im just writing this out mostly for myself since i really kind of just. want to really figure out how i feel about this)

i… am not excited for totk?

i’ve figured out a bit ago that my severely waning interest in botw and general anxiety and discontent surrounding totk is just that… these games arent for me. i dont enjoy open world games with half a million things for you to do like it’s basically a sandbox. i struggle to really enjoy singleplayer minecraft. the space stage in spore gives me genuine anxiety, both when i played it as a kid and again when i reached it as an adult.

botw and totk are not games for me, and that’s cool. i’ve figured that out.

so why am i getting so damn anxious about this new game?

i am getting totk- not entirely of my own volition, i live with someone who is very genuinely excited for it, so it’s pre-ordered digitally on our switch. i am going to play it and complete it at least once.

the gameplay and world of botw never really got to me, and even what snippets of gameplay i see for totk dont really entice me. it just makes me anxious to think about the sheer amount of new stuff i’ll be dropped in the middle of and how i really dont care about this version of link or zelda or anyone else in botw’s hyrule

and some of the story spoiler stuff and general direction this game is going in has me just worried that the zelda series is moving away from what it used to be into an entirely new direction, that being a direction that it seems like i wont enjoy as much as everyone else seems to

so then i guess my main worry outside of totk is that i just end up struggling to really feel connected to the rest of the community about this? being a contrarian is fun until everyone is enjoying something you for some reason can’t get yourself to

i dont have a lot of hope in the story of totk to harken back to… ANYTHING of worth that past games have built up and made to be so important and interesting. hype is a dangerous thing for a not-yet-released game, and while i think the insane amount of speculation and theories and hype around totk will cause a lot of people to be disappointed with the final story, i dunno if i really wouldve liked it even if the story actually piqued my interest

maybe totk’s gameplay will really hook me. maybe i’ll enjoy the massive open world and gmod-ass gimmicks. but what ive seen of the story makes me less interested and the snippets of gameplay i see just make me remember how bored i now am with botw

at the end of the day this is just a video game with tags on this site i can blacklist and videos i can ignore and lore i can brush aside because at this point loz canon is a suggestion more than anything

i just cant shake the discomfort of once again being an outlier as everyone i see loses their mind about this new game while i just feel overwhelmed by it. i have played botw for a long time and have long since worn it out. i played age of calamity to completion and have not touched it or cared for it beyond the music since. i am not excited about totk and i feel like i am in the wrong due to my opinion

[shhhimnothereiswear]

I think I'd be an avatar of the Eye (I LOVE learning new stuff) or the Spiral (im just funky like that)

I think I'd probably give a statement on the Corruption (I'm currently writing a fan statement on it B] )

ok wait im curious-

which tma entity do you think youd be an avatar of and which do you think youd give a statement on

[mrfoox]

I wish i knew how I was perceived... (at least the nice things 😭)

[lenny-link]

In regards to the SU x TF2 AU:

I have been racking my brain over here trying to understand the decision to make RED Spy a ruby and BLU Spy a sapphire. Nothing about his portrayal seemed to line up with canon depictions of rubies or sapphires, and RED Spy's gem isn't even faceted like a ruby. Also the obvious joke of making him a Bixbite, like the corrupted gem who was a giant crab, seemed obvious. Then it dawned on me.

He's a color-change sapphire, isn't he? That's why his RED version has a sapphire cut despite supposedly being a ruby? And also potentially why he's the only one we've seen RED and BLU variations of (though I get the impression that's also so one can be paired with Scout's Ma and the other with Engie) when all the others have been RED(-ish) isn't it? Or am I completely off base with this theory?

i LOVE your theory i wish you shared your thoughts before i elaborated the ‘lore’ of the au

but since ive had lots of questions about details id like to mention that:

1. i originally had not planned to make any story behind the su au, so if there’s things that dont make sense, don’t align with canon and stuff, it was not planned soo im working with what i have :p

2. i was hoping no one notices the mistake i made of swapping the gems ruby/sapphire lol its because at first i had drawn Blu(sapphire) Spy in that page, but i thought it was confusing since there was RedSpy x Scout’sMa and Scout next to him, so i just changed the colors and i didnt change the gem bc i was lazy :P

3. the main reason i put both Blu/Red Spy was to create fusion, i thought to add an extra merc with a blu color would be cool for the fusions that isnt from ClassicTeam, and idk i couldn’t think of a better merc to have as a pair than Spy and i thought there is more potential with 2 Spies to work on a story than any other merc idk

(yes i didnt put garnet as the fusion so as not to make confusion with Demoman being a Garnet, and we don’t have an Amethyst anyways so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ )

4. it is IMPOSSIBLE to align each TF2 character with a SU character, there’s nothing in common between the two medias whatsoever, so the dynamics that im gonna be making for the TF2 au are gonna be a bit mixed, for example: RedSpy and BluSpy having Ruby/Sapphire’s dynamic (kinda), but also they have the same dynamic as Rose/Pearl, for the part where Red would go with a human (Scout’s Ma) and Blu would be jealous (just like pearl), HeavyMedic also would be having Ruby/Sapphire dynamic (the part where they fuse for the first time just like Ruby/Sapphire in the show, im still working on comic about this btw)

5. also im mixing with well TF2 canon story + trying really to make an original story too, soo its a whole mess ik :p im trying just bear with me ^^"

but thank you for pointing that out, it makes me happy knowing people actually pay attention to details thats super fun! ill make sure to not miss any details next time! :D

[deathdetermineslife]

how do you manage to get any followers or friends in the selfshipping community? is it just luck?

for months i’ve been trying to interact with others and follow people, engaging with stuff like ask games and hosting reblog games, but when i try to share any artwork or i reblog an ask game myself, its radio silence. like even in small discords i get ignored so bad

i don’t say this at all to be guilt tripping /gen, it’s genuine curiosity at how this stuff even works. like am i doing something wrong or is the community just like this?

here is my comprehensive and lame guide on How To Get Selfship Followers

step 1 - posting

so a lot of my posts are either kinda general or fun. folks I will not lie to you. these are all stupid shit that come to my mind on a day to day basis. for example, today, I thought, "man I'm such a loser I'm not in college like all my friends r" and then I was like "omg wait. i could make a post out of this" so I did that.

you also kinda gotta be conistent. so i try to post at least *something* everyday. even if its a reblog, tho, I don't reblog a lot of things other than ask games.

another thing with posting is that i do try to make a lot of community based content. so idk if yall remember but in the beginning of my account, I did the "things you can do if you have xyz f/o". i did like,,, I think almost 100 of those ?????? it was a lot. then I started making templates and I made some ask games and ofc I post a lot of general like,,, imagine stuff. oh also polls. people seem to enjoy polls.

step 2 - be positive

this is the big thing. as most of yall (hopefully) know, I do not fw proshippers !! but I don't talk about discourse unless its directly brought up. not only this, I put a big focus on just,,, being nice idk. like id like to think I'm a pretty down to earth person.

if you make a template and people tag you in it, say something nice! reply to peoples art, send in asks, things like that. i try to do my part in being nice. i also just like hearing about peoples selfships.

when people post promos and have the little "rb to be moots", reblog! when you come across someone having a bad day, maybe they made a vent or something, reply with a simple "I hope you feel better <3" or "your f/o loves you <3". things like that, ya know?

step 3 - have fun

genuinely. i post as much as i do because I like it. i didn't go into this thinking "oh... yea... I'm gonna get selfship famous..." like no I just wanna ramble somewhere bc none of my close irls r selfshippers.

you wont get popular or get followers because you grind out posts. literally one of my biggest posts on this account I wrote while I was half asleep one night and wanted to test out queuing on my account.

and in that regard, it is partially luck. i don't control what posts people do and don't like. sometimes I write up imagines and no one sees them. sometimes I write up a post saying "lol go kiss your fake boyfriend ooo smoochie smoochie" and that does numbers

step 4 - interaction

im only in two servers. one server (which was the first public server I think I ever joined ???? i could be wrong tho,,, bad memory blehg) that I don't own and then my own 18+ server. i don't think being in servers does anything,,, considering I'm only in one that isn't mine. i think its more like ,,, sticking to one or two places ?? like just being consistently in an area you're comfortable in.

i guess you gotta just find the right people ??? and like I mentioned, be friendly, but ya know. also I guess tags too? idk if you look at any of my regular posts I have 8 million tags on them. idk if that actually does anything or not because its kinda hit or miss sometimes.

i was gonna say something else but i forgot. see look listen I dunno how I got here but this is what I do ,,,, effectively nothing. also with the being kind thing, maybe this is how I am bc I'm pagan but I think that if you expect kindness back you wont get anything. sometimes its just nice to be nice. eventually you gain a reputation for being a nice person. you kinda have to not want that tho? like I don't see myself as particularly like ,,, super kind ,,,??? i just do what feels right.

step 5 - uhhhh idk im just rambling now

i guess i also went into this kinda like. damn sometimes this community is a cesspool of absolute meanie pants. i don't wanna be a Meanie Pants and just post my thoughts and the things I think about. i guess how I see it too is, I kinda like ? idk I think all these things anyways why not post them? kinda feels like a waste not to.

also ive been told my posts are pretty recognizable bc of how I format them ? my dividers and such. also tagging all of my imagines and stuff with my 🥀📜 emojis. i guess that helps too? because that's how I recognize certain accounts. "like oh there's them I recognize their dividers and their tags".

also you kinda gotta like,,, not let hate get to you. like have fun with it? i know that's hard, but, that's what you gotta do. when I get printer ink (bc. a hoe does NOT like buying printer ink) im printing out that fucking 8 mile long hate message I got sent. but also that's just the kinda person I am. like people being a dick and stealing my posts and telling me to swallow a glock 9mm doesn't upset me, im more like,, confused more than anything because never in my life have I ever sent hate to anyone. also I have had this "I do not care because you're some loser on the internet and you being an ass wipe is no where near as bad as the shit people have done to me irl" attitude.

TLDR; i dont think youre doing anything wrong because I don't exactly know what I'm doing right. i just... do... and sometimes, "just doing" is enough. maybe its luck, maybe I've been blessed by the tumblr algorithm and I've somehow figured it out, or maybe the community is just genuinely that bad and they pick favorites. maybe its all of the above! who knows. i try not to worry about it. i think at the end of the day, as long as you're having fun posting about your f/os and selfshipping, that's what matters.

alright thats all see ya. if you have any more questions feel free to ask however I fear I cannot answer them </3

[clownmoontoon]

WAAUAUGHHGH HELLO FRIENDS ITS UPDATE TIME!!!!!

if you have or havent kept up w my talky posts lately heres a general rundown of all the things + an update! A LOT'S BEEN GOIN ON ALDKJASD

this is the promised more detailed break down of events, so feel free to scroll down to the end to get the TLDR!! <3

i realized thru therapy n talkin to friends/my sisters that my mother is an Abusive Gaslighting Narcissist (thank u therapist i love this title sm) and a whole lotta things in my life started making sense (like why i felt worthless/like a burden! my mom was actively trying to make me feel this way lol!!)

SO i reconnected w my sisters who i hadnt spoken to in ages bc i thought they hated me (guess why lol) and started keeping them updated win all the happenings that were happening! we agreed to keep our reconnection a secret from our mom for now, as it became clear she had tried to keep the three of us apart so she could guilt us separately for money and we wouldnt ask any questions if stories told to one didnt make sense with the other (none of them made sense LOL)

tho i tried to keep it on the dl it was hard to hide the fact that i was now aware abuse was happening, even if i didnt say anything i had p much decided to stop grovelling/begging for love/begging for respect bc i realized my mom was never gonna give me any of that no matter how much money i gave her ( in retrospect it sounds obvious when i put it like that but when youve been living it your whole life its quite a shock! :,o) ) so the lack of grovelling/paying for love started to make my mom quite angry and she started to escalate her abuse bc at this point none of us were giving her any money and she was aware i had money and was refusing to give it (i told her i had to save for one of my kitten's spay surgery, which was true, and the idea that i would use my money for anything other than giving to her made her veeerry angry) suddenly there wasnt enough money for food, not enough money for gas to drive me to work ( a less than 5 min drive vs a nearly 45 minute walk with no sidewalk along a busy road aa), etc u get the idea all the while my mom kept trying to guilt me for more money while always seeming to suddenly have the money when i kindly held my ground and refused to give anything (she kept buying her blonde hair dye, kept getting her car washed, buying JUST enough food for when she was in the house etc) in the end walking all that way was good bc the 5 min car ride was a lot more stressful and i was able to stop and get food on the way during this time i had talked w friends and my sisters about moving out, I REALLY WANTED TO, but no one could house me and my four cats and honestly i dont fault any of them for that, taking on a whole other person is a lot, much less someone w four cats no matter how well behaved they are ^^;

as my mom got angrier she made it clear how much of a burden i was now that i was saving my money, telling me the sooner i move out the better, threatening to call police if i dont leave etc (all very clear bluffs in hopes that id pay up out of fear, she refuses to admit she relies on me to take care of the house and her dogs) until one day i was taking notes on a class on my laptop and she walked in front of me and slammed my laptop shut and started ranting about why should i get to use the water or electricity etc essentially telling me i wouldnt be allowed to shower, take classes or do work until i started giving her all my money

also for those who dont know i wasnt living with her bc im a huge bum that loves mooching off my mom lmao we had an agreement, and she emphatically told me that i didnt need to pay to live there so long as i was working on my career and took care of my cats -> all things i continued to do despite it all lmao shes just very good at making me feel worthless enough that i give her all my money, i have no savings bc of this and didnt even realize why asdkl;jasd

ANYWAY one night she got angry enough that i genuinely felt scared, i had mentioned before that in my teens and early 20s i thought my mom was going to kill me and hadnt felt that way in some years til that night the look in her eyes was so ... dark? like immediately i felt "oh shes going to hurt me" she didnt, she just walked past me and didnt say anything but the look was there. i called both of my sisters the next day and told them that if anything happened to me to not believe our mom if she said it was an accident or that i did smth to myself etc and that 100% she did it and did it on purpose that was enough for my oldest sister who said suddenly during the call "what if i just come get you??" my oldest sister lives in virginia and i lived in ga which is a roughly 8 hour drive so i didnt think she'd really do that, and i reminded her i have 4 cats to which she responded "FUCK MY LANDLORD" LMAO she has a big house and told me theres plenty of room and tho the landlord said no more cats (she already has two and theyre registered as therapy animals) they hardly ever visit and always call first so we can do a quick hide or take the kitties for a ride or smth when they come

SOOOO SHE DROVE DOWN ON SUNDAY, STAYED IN A HOTEL, CAME MONDAY MORNING WHILE OUR MOM WAS AT WORK, HELPED PACK UP ALL MY STUFF INCLUDING MY KITTIES AND WE MADE OUR GREAT ESCAPE!!! \QUQ/

im mostly settled in my sister's house now and things are going great!! everyday im realizing just How Bad my mom's house was and it boggles my mind!!! ive never Not lived in an abusive home and finally being out is like!!! WHAT!!! it may sound small but just being able to wash my clothes and have food whenever im hungry is such a BIG DEAL to me and its just a given here and im rolling around like WHAT IS THIS LMAO ALSO MY CATS HAVE MADE THEMSELVES AT HOME AND ARE SO HAPPY AND COMFY AND THEY PLAY EVERYDAY AND ARE REALLY ENJOYING THE STAIRS BC THEYVE NEVER EXPERIENCED STAIRS BEFORE LMAO AND EVERYONE HERE LOVES TO PET AND CUDDLE THEM!!! \QUQ/ IM SO HAPPY!!! <3<3

TLDR: MY SISTER MOVED ME INTO HER BIG HOUSE IN VA W ALL 4 OF MY CATS AND THINGS ARE GOING GREAT \QUQ/

[struwberrii]

HIII I BEEN WAITING SO LONG FOR UR MATCHUPS TO OPEN UP AND NOW THEYRE OPEN!!

1. Romantic match up please!

2. I go by she/they and id prefer to be matched with a male

3.please dont pair me with terushima 😅

4. I look for acts for service, the eay they playfully tease and joke around, and how thoughtful/caring they are either the little things

5. Id say im a pretty laid back person who enjoys being in the moment, a person whos not in a habit!, and i guess you could say creative because i also like to write and draw a lot

6. My hobbies: (kinda listed writing and drawing already lol), binge watching shows, listening and creating playlists, overall being around friends and family

7. My love language is gift giving and acts of service (give)! Acts of service and quality time (receive <33)

8. My dream date would be to just stroll around the beach or in the city at night, car or walking i choose both where u can feel the cool air

9. Im a 5’1…. Asian, i like dressing pretty simple where I look put together. I like taller men.. and beefy arms that have similar featured as a cat (like Haerin from newjeans!)

10. I believe im an entp !!

Thank youuuu 🙏🙏🙏

matchup: kuroo tetsuro ୨ৎ

hope u like the matchup!! i didn’t wanna pick him bc it seemed like the easy choice w ur pfp but he just makes too much sense, even the cat part is soo kuroo (ᵕ—ᴗ—)

think kuroo is a very observant and intelligent man, this is something that is seen through his relationship with kenma. kuroo is really good at reading people and it probably wouldn't take much for him to figure out what kind of things cheer you up or get you down.

also you and kuroo have a lot of similarities, like youre both laid back, also kuroo is def the type of guy to playfully tease people, he always has silly sarcastic comments.

both of you are entp personality types which means you can be compatible with one another, but it may take some time to connect on an emotional level with a guy like kuroo. also you cant tell me one of kuroos love languages wouldnt be acts of service.

kuroo just overall seems like a compatible match for you, he would def be a good match with your personality traits and ticks a lot of your boxes :P

[starfxkrinc]

ooo i vaguely remember you talking about it b4 you got sniped but maybe you retconned it! id love for you to elaborate bc if jj wasnt alr tweaked out over her before, he definitely went ballistic when he took her virginity. kittens flirting def had him in a frenzy during the entire school day, just for her to be seen with a guy he hates #lol he got suspended that day… jjkitten gets so primally psychosexual in very animalistic ways…

— 🦢

well first jj had sex with that older woman cause he thought kitten was doing the same. subconsciously he wanted to one-up her (she didnt have sex with the guy it was just other stuff) and it like. really pissed her off actually she just never told him. so from then on she upped the mind games cause shes #crazy

first time they had sex there was nothing special or "romantic" about it and like why would it be. he lost it very unceremoniously after a yard job, she seemed to want to get it over with as quickly as possible but there was still a lot of anger and tension, he'd seen her hanging around some guy he just beat up over her and that was part of the issue. every guy who liked her, he would beat up, now most guys wouldn't touch her because jj has effectively marked his territory (resource guarding and all that...) so after the fight instead of visiting jj in the nursing office like she normally does she visited the other guy. she didn't care about him, just needed to prove a point.

so. they're at her house after school, she's changing and he's fucking around at her vanity pretty much interrogating her in that cruel way he likes to.

so how long has that been going on.

he's a dick you know that right.

says crazy shit about you all the time. always goin on about you bein a slut. talking about your tits n shit and i know he's lyin cause ive seen em and they're nothing like what he says.

he just wants to fuck you. half the fucking grade just wants to fuck you and you like that shit.

you wanna fuck him? have you?

and like she's cagey, always is and its pissing him off but he realizes that oh. shit she's a virgin. and he's like thrilled because of he gets to her first it doesnt matter who she sleeps with after. he had her first, she'll compare everyone to him after.

so they have sex. both are feeling a lot emotionally but obviously don't say anything, it's not like they can because by the time they're putting clothes back on her mom's coming home.

jj stays for dinner. sleeps on the couch that night cause her mom says he looks exhausted and she'll drop them off at school the next morning and in the middle of the night she comes out to kiss him and for once she doesn't look mean or agitated.

he somehow ends up not sleeping with anyone for two months after only for her to fuck the guy anyways.

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA if i contact my friend when he seems to be avoiding me?

i’ll try not to include extraneous details bc this could b a very long story. essentially, in december last year there was a situation where my friend (m 22) didnt do anything wrong, but i (x 21) had a lot of anxiety abt my life circumstances and unfairly snapped at him over text n accused him of not caring abt me. id talked to him a lot abt my stress and thought he was disregarding it and not caring abt my feelings, but more likely he just didnt remember or understand what i was going thru. after i snapped at him, i ignored his messages for a month bc i didnt want to face his potential anger, and then i finally got the guts up to send him a long apology. i explained my actions but said it wasnt an excuse for being rude. he seemed to accept my apology and said we could move on.

after that, we didnt rly talk. he didnt send me a message on my bday, which hes never forgotten before. hes always been great at remembering dates and hes told me he puts them in his calendar, so i thought it was on purpose, but anything couldve happened. i sent him a happy bday message on his bday, and a bit after that our friend group tried to organise to meet up for lunch. but everyone cancelled except for me n my friend. it was very awkward bc i didnt know if he was still upset at me. when we hung out it seemed like he was. he seemed to make some subtle digs abt the situation and left immediately after we’d finished eating. but i couldve just been misreading him due to being anxious, maybe he just picked up on my awkwardness n thought i was upset at him idk.

since then, our only contact has been when i left him a compliment on one of his social media posts, and he liked it and then liked one of my posts for the first time in ages. idk if thats a sign he wants to keep patching things up, or if it was an act of politeness but he doesnt want anything to do w me. we havent spoken in several months, i was leaving it for him to choose to approach me bc i didnt want to push anything if he wanted to b done w me. ive accepted that we’re not friends anymore, but if he wanted to be friends then i would.

WIBTA if i continue to do things like interact w his social media, or if i message to ask him where we stand, when it seems like hes sending clear messages that he doesnt want to continue the friendship? i know this is prob a “just communicate” issue, but i dont want to approach him if theres obvious signals im not fully picking up on, and he’d just be annoyed and awkward to have to formally end things

What are these acronyms?

[emlovslennon]

(HELP HES SO FINE)

Era: 1969

Plot: After being friends with John for 3 years, you finally confess your feelings for him, also basically AU bc yoko is non existent LMAO you’re welcome.

Warnings: None! Just fluff :)

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“Alright, boys! I think that’s all” Paul says cheerfully, everyone else seemed to feel the same, as everyone looked wore out and tired, except Paul of course. Paul was the hardest worker you knew, you became close with all of them once you met John when they were about to work on Sgt. Peppers, and they let you sit with Linda while they record. You could never seem to keep your eyes off John, though. The entire almost 10 hours of him working. His hair, his voice, his eyes, his hands, his body, everything. Everything about him just seemed…. Perfect.

“Hey, love.” John whispered as he tapped your shoulder from behind, you jumped slightly and immediately got kicked out of your thoughts. John giggled lightly at your reaction. Your face was bright red and your heart started to beat fast.

“I’m sorry, didn’t mean to scare you, I just wanted to ask if you would want me to drive you home?” He asked, looking deep into your eyes. You nodded as you played with your fingers and biting your lip, you’d have to tell him sometime, I mean, no, of course not, why would you do that? That’s silly! Right?…

“H-hey, John… I have something to tell you when we get into the car.” You managed to stutter out, John nodded and placed his hand on your back as he walked you out of the studio and into the car, you felt nauseous from the nervousness, scared of his reaction, scared that you might lose the one man you felt true feelings for. But you knew that you couldn’t hide it any longer.

“So, what were you going to tell me, birdie?” He asked, putting his keys into the ignition and starting the car. You stuttered for a second, until you finally decided to swallow your pride and let it out:

“John, Ive been feeling this way for awhile now and it’s become so unbearable I can’t hold it any longer. I… I think I have feelings for you, and strong feelings, ever sense I met you, I’ve connected with you in ways I never have with another person, if you don’t wanna talk anymore, I’ll um… Understand, I just had to say it, it’s completely fine if you don’t fe-“

“Yn, do you have any idea how long I’ve been wanting to tell you that? You have been the woman I’ve been looking for me whole life, I was fucking miserable until I met you, you make me wanna keep going with this silly boy band if that means I get to see your pretty face watching me, I’m absolutely in love with you, in every sense of the word.” He confessed, cupping your face as he pulled you into a soft kiss, only breaking apart once you realized you guys were the only ones in the parking lot and it was almost three in the morning.

“Say, how about instead of just me taking you home, how about you just live with me? I have plenty of room, just me and occasionally Julian, he usually spends time with his mother” he said, gripped your hand tightly, you were shocked by the gesture, but your heart completely melted, you truly never knew what love meant until you met him.

“Id love to, John” you said, he smiled, giving you one last kiss before driving off into the night.

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A/N: WOOOOO FIRST FIC!!! This was just a lil’ sample of what my writing is like, I wanna try writing a smut but I’m so rusty rn when it comes to that so I just did something simple, hope it was enjoyable!!!

[starsnores]

hellooooo im so curious of how ei reminded you of vriska 👀 could you elaborate, id love some new thoughts to ping-pong ball around in my brain?

It's really more about. the kind of frustration i have with them? like when you go on that little date with ei after the main arc and the food vendor with the weird food is like "please don't kill me!" and she's like "that's dumb why would you think i would do that" like she's completely unaware of her own conservative dictatorship that ruined people's lives. I think that's supposed to make her seem more reasonable but it just makes her look, frankly, pretty dumb. Her pink haired fox girlfriend is constantly saying how she's just immature and throwing a tantrum and grieving and she's just a girl and i believe all of that but in the least flattering way possible that i KNOW was not the intention behind it. Like it's supposed to humanize her but now i just see her as selfish and frustrating and by the end of it i don't believe she's changed at all but that doesn't matter bc she's a collectable waifu so she has to be portrayed positively.

in a similar way vriska is selfish, nothing she does really has any negative weight either in the personal relationships she cares about or in the story and a lot of the time the terrible thing she did ends up being good and necessary (ie the god tier thing), and it feels like the narrative is trying to put a more positive spin on her character then I, as i am right now, can read into her. Like losing someone is hard and vriska did have a shitty life but when they lash out bc of this it doesn't really Mean anything and that's. idk. annoying and frustrating.

[girlhorse]

Wait im having sad complicatrd thoughrs again and i dont have a therapistm tumblr post.imminent

cancer cw

i grw up with family dying from cancer left and right. my family was older and so a lot of it was age related

but it was just my reality for a long time

thru adulthood really

and i always thought the scariest was brain cancer! fucking brain cancer. no one in my family ever had it and it seemed like it was rare nd id never find out what itd be like to go through seeing a loved one suffer from it. and of course its my fucking mom. my mom who i love to the moon and back. my mom who I've had a lot of disputes with and a lot of trauma around bc of her freaking boyfriend.

my mom who has always been the capable and strong and smart person of the family. she was supposed to stay around to help me buy my first house and help me with a serious relationship and see kids if i ever got any (adopt probably) and go to a wedding and shit. ajd now its all so uncertain if she'll even make it past another year.

another fear i had growing ip beyond just death of my parents (i alwyas knrw my parents were old compared to peers, they didnt have my brother and i until their 40s) was related to cognitive decline like Alzheimer's/dementia/etc. And im now facing it head on with a fucking terminal brain cancer. what the fuck is my fucking life man. Im trying to he so strong. but my smart and strong mom cant even type without making fucking gibberish nonsense and her hand falls in her food and she pisses herself and cant fucking walk anymore and i hate my fucking life

despite everything she still finds the stremght to joke around and laugh and eat and care for everyone that is impacted by this and i hate it so much. i can only sit here and make her comfortable in the moment and hope she can make it a little longer..or if im daring for more, hope theres a fucking miracle cure out in the next few months or something . Lol

lmfao

through all this fucking bullshit i have to fucking put up with my fucking step dad i hate his guts hes.not helping her in the way he could be becauseue feels like he has to control everything ajd hes too afraid to let her try OT and PT andhe thinks shes end stage for some fucking reason amd he keeps reminding me of that and i want him to explode for real!

[dexter-erotoph]

hey i have no idea how dex works n you seem to be a huge enthusiast of their character so can u like.. yap about dexters personality a bit (/nf!!). im trying to work out their personality but im really confused on how to characterize them. so far, ive got some little bullet points. for a little headcanon or whatever ? i think they'd have huge interests that would be seen as a little odd, like, taxidermy or something. theyre like, a freak. (/pos)

also, i think itd have to do more research on with aspd since dex does have thatttt. uuuhm. oh yeah, a good note is that theyre not like. "Evil!! grah!! i kill people because im EVIL" cuz thats not them. they struggle with their emotions, morals, and needs. which i think also goes into the possibility of really bad intrusive thoughts perhaps.

like. they seem to have some of their morality intact (as they dont attack skid n pump immediately) before slowly spiraling and trying to hurt anyone they come across. dex also focuses on animals specifically because they dont believe that they dont feel emotion. they try to justify their behavior through beliefs and desperation to satisfy their persistent thoughts. they also run off the thrill of others pain. and i dont think theyre exactlyyy.. oblivious to the fact that this is a really bad problem, but more that they use being an exterminator to filter their needs into a.. "safer" (and in all honesty, an easier) way.

sorry for the whole ramble, but thats really all i can get so far with their character. also so sorry if this question is weird, but id just like a little input or ur idea of their character lol. no pressure tho ^_^

dont apologise i LOVE talking about dexter it Is really tricky to completely understand him kinda because of how all over the place all the things we have about him are . i was actually thinking earlier about how if sm got like adapted to a show like what happened with dhmis/ maybe we could see more of dexter and understand him better . i think ive talked about this before but i absolutely think theres kind of a thing where people see dexter as WAY more outwardly chaotic than he really is just bc well that’s like 95% of his screentime . how i really think he is is he Can get really easily excited and restless and with a lot of people it’ll drive them away (one of the characters i like to think has this dynamic with him is radford i dont know why i like the thought so much but i do) but he really is just like. hes a sweetheart he loves to draw and make stuff and hes just very smiley and laughs a lot . he isnt afraid to put himself out but he can also get like grumpy and snappy when hes paranoid Thats another thing. ive noticed in pelo’s doodles that sometimes hes portrayed complaining or just like with an irritated expression . i think while he Is a very happy go lucky type character it’s not difficult at all for him to get like . hostile for lack of better word? just annoyed at other people for something that could be really little or unintentional. i have no real point to this this probably will not help you much at all i apologise but the thing is i kinda think there’s No wrong way you can go with dexter in any way. he is such a good character that every aspect of him never feels tired or boring or really wrong to me

But uhh tldr kinda . maybe try to like nail it in that he’s just trying his best. for me thats a really big part of his character just the fact that despite everything that could potentially hold him back he always keeps his head up and just tries to do whatever he can and thats what the focus of his character would be if he wasn’t in a story that had his role revolve around his death. i hope this helps in Some way thank u very much for asking