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so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.
first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.
it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.
and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.
you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.
and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.
your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.
in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.
in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.
so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.
you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.
once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.
and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"
you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?
hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!
you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.
we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?
#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck#good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen#im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3#writeblr#the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this''#and like also#''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist#i was <3 punctured <3 during mine#and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion''#so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3#she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh#ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance#i'd crash on the table#like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it#and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop!#and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just#woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes#she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room#from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing#and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying#and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap#with this terrible memory#i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like#that was too many liters#and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home#i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after#that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty#you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it#while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED#and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.
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#two health updates: one related to me one to my dad#first Iâve been having the chest pain and fainting again for a few weeks but they were spaced out so i wasnât too worried#but iâve now had the chest pain and numbness two days in a row and itâs worse than usual#itâs effecting my jaw now as well#quite literally all symptoms pointing towards an issue with my heart#which weâve known about since i was in middle school but they decided wasnât an issue at the time#just something to monitor#that uuuuuuh may be changing#have an appointment with my doctor next week but iâve been told to go to the ER if the pain gets worse#and when i finally was honest with my dad about it in the interest of communication#in case thereâs an instance where i canât communicate my medical history myself#he was honest with me too (which i appreciate)#and told me he thinks heâs been having mini strokes#and when he described his symptoms it definitely sounded like a stroke#heâs had one really bad episode before where we had to call an ambulance#and he told me heâs been having them for WEEKS now#but hasnât seen a doctor he says heâll book one for next week#is this how my parents feel?? bc fuck i donât like this#get your ass into the doctor#he hasnât even booked the appointment yet#even ~I~ called my doctorâs office today#(after putting it off for almost two months but whatever)#anyway him talking to me about him thinking heâs gonna die in the next few years#is not as helpful as if he would just GET INTO THE FUCKING DOCTOR#he doesnât even have phone anxiety! heâd just rather be drinking beer at the brewery!#anyway want to go hiking with my dad again bc life is stupid and fragile and short#and i donât want our best memories to be from over a decade ago#i donât want to lose him and only have months or years of recent resentment to look back on#personal#health
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canât study for my test because iâm having brain rot about neil accidentally getting super drunk and stumbling up to aaron like âandrew???â and aaron is like âwrong oneâ and neil is like âandrew.â and aaron is like â???? are you stupidâ and neil goes to look for andrew but he stumbles into the table, and aaron has to catch him or he will get trampled for fucks sake, and neil just collapses into him in a drunk cuddly heap. and aaron is like âneil. you need to stand upâ and neil is like âi amâ and aaron is like âthatâs because iâm holding you upâ and they get neil to stand but neil kinda just flops into aaronâs arms again. and neil is like âi donât hate you, i donât, but itâs okay if you hate meâ and aaron is like âugh, ew are you really an emotional drunk???â and neil, to aaronâs horror, looks at him with tears in his eyes because you know when youâre too drunk and you kind of just get a little scared and you need help???? ya. and aaron is like ⊠ok. and kinda holds neil until andrew comes back from the bar with more drinks. and he sees neil basically asleep on aaronâs shoulder, and aaron looking uncomfortable but accepting, so he kinda raises an eyebrow, an okay? and aaron nods and is just patting neil on his back
and tomorrow theyâll wake up and neil will toddle downstairs with his hand against his temple and aaron will have advil ready for him, and heâll say âyouâre annoying and you donât know when to shut your mouth or mind your own business, but i donât hate youâ and the thank you for helping repair my relationship with my brother and thank you for testifying and thank you for staying goes unsaid but yeah
and thatâs how aaron and neil became kind of friends
edit: vomited out a one shot for yâall (this will prob become a 5+1)
Aaron swirled his drink a few times, listening to the ice clacking against the glass.
Edenâs was packed tonight, courtesy of it being the end of the school year. College students and the regular patrons flocked to the bar, the dance floor, and all of the tables, leaving Aaron to reserve a high-top table, and his legs to dangle from the stool.
âDrew?â
Aaron ignored him in favor of the twinkling sound the ice makes in his glass. Heâd already taken shots, danced, had another drink, danced again, and now Aaronâs body was heavy with alcohol and exhaustion.
âDrew,â Neil said again.
Aaron looked around their table and didnât see Andrew. He remembered Andrew getting up and walking to the bar with their empty tray. Aaron found him a few seconds later, hands in his pockets at the bar. That and Neil, staring up at him, looking uneasy.
Before Aaron could tell Neil to get out of his face, Neil was speaking.
âAre youânt having fun?â Neil frowned, blinking sleepy, hooded eyes at him. He leaned closer to study Aaronâs face.
âWhat are you doing?â Aaron grumbled, pushing Neilâs face away.
Aaron hadnât even pushed him hard, he more removed Neil from his space rather than pushed him, but Neil wobbled like his world had tilted out of orbit. Aaron realized, quickly, that Neil was going to fall backwards. He grabbed two fistfuls of Neilâs shirt and pulled him forwards. Neilâs head lulled on his shoulders with the force, his chin hitting his chest then righting itself.
Aaronâs stomach lurched, sick with the thought that someone had put something in one of Neilâs drinks, as he would for anyone, but thankfully heâs never been put in that situation. Neilâs eyes were hooded, his face flushed. Aaron snapped once at Neilâs ear, and Neil recoiled immediately.
âDoes your head hurt or anything?â Aaron asked. Neil shook his head, frowning.
âAre you dizzy? Follow my finger.â Aaron pushes Neil back so he can see his face, keeping one hand on Neilâs shoulder to hold him up. Neil follows Aaronâs finger as it moves back and forth, albeit a little labored, but not as if heâd been roofied. Aaron declares that Neilâs reaction times and responses are fine, but he still pulls the front of his shirt up and checks his belt, the button of his pants.
âWhatâ?â Neil slapped a hand on his abdomen, stopping his shirt from being lifted any higher. Aaron didnât need to see anything but his pants, but it was reassuring that Neil still had inhibitions.
His clothes were fine. His belt was still done, zipper up. No one had tried anything. Aaron relaxed.
âSorry,â Aaron said. âSorry, I just needed toâŠâ
While racking his mind back to why Neil is this drunk, Aaron remembered Neil taking shots with Aaron, Nicky, and Kevin. Four shots. Heâd seen Neil sip on another drink like the idiot had the tolerance for alcohol that the rest of them had.
âYouâre a fucking idiot,â Aaron said and released Neil. Neil attempted to step back, his hands raised in surrender.
âNo?â Neil asked warily. Even drunk as fuck, he still respected boundaries. Andrewâs boundaries specifically, as it still hadnât registered that he wasnât talking to the right twin.
âIâm not Andrew,â Aaron said.
âWhereâs Andrew?â Neil asked, turning his head pathetically in search. Aaron only had a good view of Andrew because they were seated at a high-top. Over the throng of taller people coupled with strobing lights, Neilâs view was obstructed.
âAt the bar,â Aaron nodded in that direction.
Neil turned towards the bar. Well, he attempted to. He pivoted, lost his balance, and toppled into the table. He tried to right himself and started to fall to the other side. Aaron caught Neil before he could bust his shit and get trampled.
âJesus Christ, Josten,â Aaron spat, righting Neil with hands on his biceps. Neil slapped a hand on the table and leaned his weight on it. The table quaked under such abuse, but held.
Neil turned slowly, grappling against the table as if he was standing in one of those spinning fair rides. In his excursion to simply spin 180°, his hand slipped off the edge of the table as he faced Aaron once again. He reached for the table, missed, reached for it again, missed, said, âMotherfucker,â under his breath, and finally gripped onto the edge. His eyes locked on Aaronâs again, and Neilâs useless hand landed on Aaronâs shoulder.
âAndrew,â Neil said. Aaron didnât know if it was more a request or if it was just not registering.
âWrong,â Aaron said, tense under Neilâs hand, but he didnât push him off. Heâd rather hold Neil up than peel him off the floor. âAaron.â
ââm very drunk,â Neil said, looking up pleadingly at Aaron as if he had a magical cure to shitfacedness, and all Neil had to do for it was look a little scared. âIâm sorry.â
âWhy?â Aaron asked.
âIâm drunk.â
Aaron snorted. âThatâs kind of the point when youâre at a bar.â
âBut,â Neil said, taking a labored breath, âIâmâŠtoo drunk.â
This was beginning to feel exceedingly similar to speaking to a child. Aaron was annoyed, but not completely heartless, unlike the narrative of Aaron Neil had likely concocted. âItâs okay, Neil,â Aaron said. âYou should sit down.â
Neil promptly sat as if there was a chair under him, but there was not. Aaron, still holding Neil vertical, got pulled out of his chair with the momentum. To avoid toppling to the groundâwhich did not get mopped as often as it shouldâAaron planted his feet on the floor and hauled Neil up by his armpits.
âHelp,â Neil murmured. His arms dropped to his sides as he yielded his dead weight to Aaron.
âStand up,â Aaron grunted, readjusting to wrap an arm around Neilâs back. One of Neilâs arms flopped over Aaronâs shoulder.
âI am,â Neil complained.
âNo, you are not.â
âI am.â
âNeil,â Aaron said through clenched teeth, âI am holding you up. You need to lock your knees.â
âOh,â Neil said. He looked at his feet as if he needed to check they were on the ground.
To be fair, Neil did lock his knees, but he also leaned all of his upper body on Aaron, arms still hanging limply at his sides. He tucked his head into Aaronâs neck with, what seemed, every intention to make a home there for the night.
âNeil,â Aaron said, frozen against the hair tickling his cheek. âGod dammit.â
âAndâŠron,â Neil spoke against his shoulder.
âYes,â Aaron said sarcastically. âThatâs me.â
âCan I jâstay here?â Neil slurred.
From what Aaron had seen of Neilâs dynamic with his brother, he knew Neil would get off if he said no. He could place Neil into a stool or pull up a chair with a back so he wouldnât fall out and concuss himself. He could shove Neil off and make him fend for himself. He could pawn him off to Andrew.
At the moment, those other options seemed like far too much work.
That, or maybe it was the med student in him, the intrinsic urge to heal and help and nurture that smarted at the thought of pushing Neil off.
Aaron didnât push him off when Neil readjusted and tucked an arm into his chest, the other gripping Aaron for stability. He didnât when Neil asked again, a quiet, âAaron.â
âOkay,â Aaron conceded. He rubbed a hand up and down Neilâs back placatingly, but also because Neil seemed like he needed it. And he came to Aaron for it. Well, he came to Andrew and got Aaron. But he didnât push Aaron off, and Aaron hasnât done the same.
And they justâŠstood like that. For what seemed like a long time, but it probably was only a few minutes before Neil spoke again.
âAaron,â Neil said.
Aaron hummed in response.
âI donâ hate you.â
âWhat?â Aaron asked. âWhat the fuck are you talking about, Neil?â
âI donât hate you.â
âWhat?â Aaron said again.
âI donâwanna fight.â Neil lets out a colossal breath.
âWe havenât fought in a long time,â Aaron says, his idea of agreement. Acceptance.
Neil was quiet, because it was true. Neil seemed content to lay in Aaronâs arms, and Aaron didnât have another stool next to him. He sure as shit wasnât giving his up for Neil, but Neil was genuinely so unsteady on his feet that Aaron couldnât let him go.
He trembled a bit, and Aaron was almost amused that after everything Neil had been through, being a little too drunk is what finally did it for him.
But Aaron had felt that way before. Inebriated and scared in a crowded room of strangers. Neil, however, has people he knows. How can Aaron be upset at Neil for wanting the comfort that he also craved? How can he be upset that Neil feels safe enough with Andrew to ask for help? That his brother finally feels safe with someone too?
âAaron,â Neil said.
âWhat,â Aaron said.
âItâs okay if you hate me.â
âOh God,â Aaron groaned, âEw. Are you really an emotional drunk?â
Neil pulled back and, to Aaronâs horror, there were actual tears in his eyes. His lip trembled as he bit it, holding the tears in. Aaron hated how much of himself he was seeing in Neil tonight. The harrowing fact that maybe they are quite similar.
âOh God,â Aaron said again, mortified. He grabbed the back of Neilâs head and shoved it back into his shoulder, effectively hiding Neilâs teary face.
He cast a desperate look to Andrew, who was finally on his way back to the table. He patted Neil on the shoulder, like one would burp a baby when they have no idea how to do so.
âAndrew.â
Andrew didnât need prompting to look. His eyes were trained on Neil and Aaron from the moment he turned around. By the nonchalance of his movements and his lack of alarm, Aaron guessed he had been watching their interaction.
Andrew set the tray down on the table and cast a significant look between them, settling on Neilâs intoxicated form keeled over on Aaronâs shoulder.
Andrew raises one eyebrow, a silent question, an okay?
Aaron finds himself nodding, and unsure why. All he knows right now, a few drinks in, is that he doesnât hate this. And he doesnât hate that Neil doesnât hate him.
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The smell of coffee set Neilâs feet moving like a Pavlovian response. He was half awake already with a pounding headache, like his eyeballs were beating his closed lids to death.
Neil toddles down the stairs with his eyes closed, a hand pressed hard to his temple, stabilizing his brain.
Aaron was standing at the counter already, facing the sputtering coffee pot. His arms were crossed, hair ruffled from sleep. At the sound of footsteps behind him, he turned.
The memories from last night played past Neilâs mind like a sped-up movie. He grimaced in embarrassment, and felt a little sick at how drunk he was. How stupid he was, to drink that much. He should have known his tolerance isnât matched with the rest of them. He could have gotten hurt, could have said somethingâ
Fuck.
âFuck,â Neil said, covering his eyes. âIâm sorry.â
âItâs fine,â Aaron said. He turned back to the coffee, though his posture was rigid.
Neil grabbed a glass of water. He noticed Aaron watching from the corner of his eye, but Neil chose to ignore him, figuring thatâs best. He sat on the counter with his water, sipping it slowly while he and Aaron waited for the coffee to finish brewing.
The silence was thick, but they were both too stubborn to leave the kitchen. Usually, they preferred to wait and pretend the other wasnât there.
Thatâs what Neil thought, at least. After a painful few minutes, Aaron huffed and grabbed the bottle of Advil from the drawer next to the sink. He shook two pills out and sat them next to Neil.
Neil stared at them until Aaron cast a pointed look at the pills, then physically gestured to them with raised brows. Neil took them while Aaron watched.
The coffee pot beeped. Aaron made a split second decision, grabbing two mugs and pouring coffee into them. He slid Neilâs across the counter. It sloshed over the side, but Aaron wasnât capable of caring at the moment. His mind was busy, and he knew Neil had noticed his lack of eye contact; the analytical fuck.
âLook,â Aaron said. He did not look at Neil to say it. âYouâre annoying, and you never know when to shut your mouth or mind your business. Most of the time, Iâm convinced you have a death wish, and a lot of the time I find myself resenting you. You complicated our lives, put us all in danger, didnât give a shit.â
Neilâs chest hurt. He didnât know if it was anger or guilt. Aaron started talking again before he could figure it out.
âBut I donât hate you. I canât, really. I canât even fault you for the shitty things you did, because it all worked out.â Aaron glanced quickly at Neil, looked away. His cheeks were red.
The thank you for helping repair my relationship with my brother and thank you for testifying and thank you for being good to Andrew went unsaid, but Aaron hoped Neil wasnât obtuse enough to force him to say it out loud.
Neil must have understood, because he nodded. Aaron figured that was as close to a reconciliation they were going to have, so he leaned against the counter and pretended everything was normal.
For the first time, they drank their coffee in silence without animosity orchestrating it.
Neilâs mug was half empty when Andrew joined them. He paused in the doorway, squinty eyed and mussed, looking between the two. Neil on the counter, Aaron leaning against it. Their silence, but lack of tension.
âThis is weird,â Andrew finally said, his voice gravely from sleep.
âYeah,â Neil and Aaron said simultaneously.
Neil glanced over his mug at Aaron, the corner of his mouth twitching. Aaron regarded it, but looked away, because something like contentment had made its way onto Andrewâs face.
Aaron smiled at that instead.
#andrewâs watching from the bar like âwhat in the fuck.â#neil isnât allowed to drink vodka anymore#andrew got tired of him crying#(not actually)#(his heart just *does something* when he sees neil in tears#(he does not like it)#he gets anxious and sad if he drinks too much#and heâs such a lightweight and doesnât know his limits#so it happens a couple times before andrew is like ânopeâ#and monitors neil until they find a fun fuzzy drunk#not a sad scary one#neil doesnât even drink that often but after 4 years in college he obviously does more than a few times#aftg#tfc#the foxhole court#aftg brainrot#neil josten#aaron minyard#andrew minyard#all for the game#trk#tkm#andreil
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(178/â) the perfect nose for butterflies to land on it âĄ
#jungkook#jungkookedit#jeon jungkook#jeongguk#bts#btsedit#btsgif#gif#jnotd*#maknaelinegifs#userkelli#usersky#annietrack#userdimple#raplineuser#rjshope#tuserandi#useremmeline#creatyoon#usermaggie#underbetelgeuse#dailybts#there's something indescribably hot about the way he monitors himself#but my heart goes !!!!!!!! just looking at his perfect nose#i'm not imune and never will be#this snl behind the scenes is a gift for me
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hrt that makes you a robot
#i dont mean androids btw#i mean something like a robot with a screenface/monitor head#or even something wilder like giant sentient machines#is it too much to ask to just be able to be a funky little beep boopâ#transgender
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Ever notice how crows have iridescent feathers?
#There's something really funny about working on this picture#mainly my monitor forever displays colours as darker than they are so I can't actually see how varied shades are all the time#I didn't realise there's green tints in parts of the BG until I double checked the colours using my phone#Sorta like how crow feathers just look black at a glance#batman#jonathan crane#scarecrow#salecrow
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âSo, babysitting?â
Alberu follows after the delinquent. From the record the vice-principal gave him access to, Cale frequently drinks alcohol, he often gets himself into a lot of fights, and he barely passed his classes at the end of the grading period. The teachers never call on him in class, girls and boys avoid him alike, and he is- supposedly- completely intolerable.
Which is why Alberu Crossman, whoâs only a little older yet infinitely more mature has been assigned by the principal (his father) to get the troublemaker under thumb. Cale's father is quite wealthy, actually, and since there isn't much known about the successor to the Henituse family... it'd be bad if he had to be expelled.
Cale scowled. âYes, babysitting, your highness. Please, leave if you must,â He jeers at Alberu, but internally he thinks, 'No, really. Please leave.' Otherwise, he might get caught in the act.
Of not actually being Cale.
Roksu aims a sour expression at Alberu, who returns it with a more flowery one. Acting as his twin for the day had been easy enough, mainly because being trash is great!- until Alberu Crossman strolled into his lunch period and introduced himself.
He is even following him out of the school to his job. Well, this job is Roksuâs and not Caleâs, but because he canât ditch work nor can he get glib-tongued Alberu off his tail-
Well shit.
Thankfully, the kids call him hyung. Except Raon, who calls him human. Hopefully Alberu doesnât look into it too much. If everything goes right, Alberu Crossman will be Cale's problem to deal with tomorrow. As it should have been.
âI didnât know you liked kids, Cale,â Alberu smiles charmingly, walking side by side with Roksu. âCan you introduce me?â Roksu struggles to not put on his own disarming smile out of spite, instead plastering on a classic Cale Sneerâą. It fits on his face perfectly, like heâs playing a character in a play.
They enter the building and âCaleâ guides Alberu to a colorful playroom, decked out in toys and a fountain of running water as the centerpiece (A gift from his father, who is still upset that Roksu doesn't visit more often). Thereâs a tray of fruits and oatmeal on the small table in the corner of the room, except not a soul to be seen. Picking up a bowl of oatmeal and finding the ceramic to still be hot, Roksu almost smiles.
Alberu frowns. Where are the kids he's supposed to babysit?
Roksu tells the empty air, "Come on out."
Three children appear out of nowhere in front of them.
âHyung!â
âHuman! Youâre back!â
âHyung, nya.â On examines Alberu some more.
All of the kids had been revealed the moment that Roksu spoke, as Raon unveiled the invisibility on them.
Raon runs up and grabs Roksuâs hand, who places it on his head, rubbing the black hair comfortingly. âMm.â Raon beams at the affection.
âRaon, On, Hong,â they each look up at him at the call of their names. âThis is Alberu Crossman, he is doing a report on my trashy behavior. Donât be rude."
All three children become hostile immediately. âHe isn't trash!â
On observes Alberu with an intense glare. Raon shifts under Roksuâs hand, his deep blue eyes glinting with magic. Roksu positions him away from the older teenâs view. Raon grips onto Roksuâs pant leg with a vengeance. Hong stares openly, offensive.
Alberu smiles at them.
"I'm visiting with Cale Hyung for today, nice to meet you."
Hong gasps suddenly.
âHe-!â On gives her brother a look, and he clamps his hands over his mouth. Alberu feels a deep curiosity, as if something isnât quite as it seems.
Roksu sighs. Itâs going to be a long hour.
At the midway point, Alberu has easily disarmed the children. They look fascinated at the magic he shows them, while Roksu can only rub a palm over Raonâs shoulder as a warning to keep his dragon magic under control. He's still just a child that wants to brag. Everything is going well.
Bang!
âHey Roksu! How was-â Cale bursts through the door, bright red hair equipped with a shit-eating grin, wearing clothes far less fancy than his usual. He tenses up, frozen in place when he spots Alberu on the floor, politely sitting "crisscross applesauce" with the children. Roksu narrows a withering glare at his twin.
â⊠Roksu?â
Alberu looks at âCale,â sitting next to him, the one he's spent the entire day with, who is trying to send what must be the real Cale into the sun with his eyes.
âHa⊠ha?â Cale winces. Roksu wipes his expression from his face.
âCale-hyung, run! Thatâs the humanâs bad look!â Alberuâs eyes widen as he watches the confirmed real Cale bolt back into the hallway and out of the front door. Alberu whips his head back toward the stranger behind him, who is a perfect replica of the Cale who ran like Hell. Cale has an identical twin?? Since when? Why doesn't he go to school?
Roksu levels an emotionless gaze at Alberu. âHello, your highness. Donât mind me.â
Alberu can only watch in astonishment as this stranger walks out of the playroom, with a smooth and deadly gait as he hunts down his twin like a predator would to prey. He recalls the look 'Roksu' gave him and it sends a shiver down the principalâs sonâs spine. That gaze held secrets.
Something about this stranger is even more interesting than the sudden appearance of a twin.
On walks up to him, sitting down in his lap and looking into his eyes. âRoksu-hyung will be back soon, nya!â Hong bounds over and sits next to his sister, grinning widely. Raon huffs and looks at the door. He wants his human to come back.
#Roksu is Cale's lost twin who reunited with the Henituse family at 16. he went to a charter school and speedran his education#which is why he doesn't go to high school with Cale#Roksu didn't want attention from the public so his existence is kept secret from most everyone outside of the family and tight-lipped staff#Cale wanted to skip school that day (he heard Albert would be coming to monitor) and tricked Roksu into dealing with it for him#not that Roksu didn't receive something in return for pretending to be Cale... but now he's going to 'negotiate' a better deal with his twi#anyway that's all I remember about this#hong was going to say 'He thinks Roksu hyung is Cale hyung!' but stopped himself from revealing it in time#kim rok soo#kim roksu#cale henituse#og cale henituse#lcf#lotcf#lout of the counts family#tcf#totcf#trash of the counts family#fic#ughhh I'm not as diligent with my tags as I used to be#tcf raon miru#lcf ohn#tcf hong#yayay#posting old writing so it doesn't rot in my notes app any longer#if I was smarter I would post it on ao3 but I don't really write enough words to bother doing that#not a reblog#alberu crossman#alver crossman#alcale#I put the ship tag but not because it's a ship thing. I just think the shippers would appreciate this
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honestly the funniest gideon to me might be immediately post-show. where hes fresh out of jail on parole and trying to be a better person. my headcanon is they commuted his sentence to a mixture of therapy and community service (they uh. had no choice after the decision to both ignore weirdmageddon and also the prison got destroyed) and he accepted this in his attempt to Be Nicer
but also it means hes walking around town like this for a while
#do you think he goes back to school. with an ankle monitor. 'what did you do over summer gideon' 'jail time.' 'what'#ghost-eyes picks him up on his motorbike to go get ice cream after school or something#the funny thing is. i think his prison mates are the best thing to happen to gideon in years. because while they're all criminals#theyre also like... well adjusted adults. so when he starts acting crazy they can temper that a little bit#ghost-eyes especially just becomes his cool new uncle who is the only person not afraid to go 'gideon dont do that brother'#i just think attempted reform gideon is really funny. hes trying his best! honest! he just also keeps wanting to murder people for a while#hes very [grits teeth] I Will Not Swear Vengeance On Anyone Today. I Will Go Home And Play Video Games Like A Normal Person#gideon gleeful
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Bringing back an OLD au where Plasmius and Phantom are demons, Vlad is Plasmius' vessel via contract to not die in the hospital and Danny is Phantom's (unwilling) vessel who was bound to him by Plasmius so his son (Phantom) could get outta hell.
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Plasmius stared, very intensely. An intensity that would cause others unease and subconsciously try to escape his gaze.
Vlad however, was long since used to this and didn't even look up from his data pad. Plasmius stared down at the board between them, tapping a cla-finger, yes. Tapping a finger against the table as he stared at the many pieces decorating the surface.
It was a quaint thing, this game. Oh so very different than the ones the demon was used too and yet far more enthralling all the same.
The tiniest things that humanity came up with never ceased to amaze him.
He reached out a cla- finger (referring to it as such always seemed to give him the slip), to push a singular piece into a position that would surely give him an advantage. The demon looked, resting at his seat as he snapped his fingers, then making a gesture to the board once he drew his vessel's attention.
Vlad did a light sweep of the board with his eyes, before casually nudging a piece that somehow managed to reverse his careful planning and gave tipped the scales in the human's favor. He then returned to whatever little thing he did on that pad of his, most likely more and more work.
Despite himself, the demon couldn't help but chuckle as he stared down their little game. To think so much careful planning could be reversed so easily....
Human games truly are so fascinating.
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Unnoticed to the demon sitting across from him, Vlad's eyes narrowed just a tiny bit. He ran a command on his tablet, opening up multiple views from cameras laid out through his 'base' and nearly frowned.
Someone else was working their way through.
He swiped off the cameras to run another command.
Good. The firewalls and security systems were still up.
Then who...?
His attention was drawn away by the snap of fingers and he looked up, then looked to the board. He did another light sweep of the bored, picking out various cracks before idly nudging another piece forward to give himself a small advantage to keep the game going and looked back down to his tablet.
He switched back to his cameras, picking up the familiar sight of a boy with glowing white hair and... Danny? Odd. Usually he doesn't accompany Phantom in his little game of superhero.
His camera glitched.
It was just for a second, something that shouldn't be of concern. But his cameras never glitched, certainly not after developing them to withstand either one of the demons' tantrums and especially what these ones were used for.
He returned to his firewalls.
Someone was trying to get in.
He ran a few other commands, calling upon a few defense protocols and a few AIs to keep whoever was trying to get in out.
He went back to his cameras, flicking through multiple until-
There.
He ran a small command, slamming the door shut on the small team of intruders. He then ran another, the security system in their area turning just a tad more lethal while shutting a door before Phantom and Danny arrived to it.
Good. The boys and these intruders wouldn't meet anytime soon.
He looked up at the cough from the other side of the table, coming to face Plasmius' questioning face. "Something wrong?" The demon asked, eyes glancing at the band around his neck.
Vlad calmed his heart and shook his head, moving another piece before going back to his tablet. "No, just something unexpected came up."
It wasn't a lie.
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"Another locked door!?" Phantom growled in outrage as he stared at the door before him, claws (hands, hands his father said) held out as if he could physically threaten it to open.
"Yelling isn't going to open it, you know." Danny commented lightly, scratching the back of his neck. "I know that!" Phantom yelled out, looking at Danny as if he was the dumb one.
Danny rolled his eyes. "Let's just go another way then." He turned around and started walking before Phantom could speak. Said demon ran forward to walk in front of the Danny and had the gall to look offended. "Hey! You can't order me about! You're the sidekick!"
"You literally forced me into this." Danny pointed out.
"Details, details!" Phantom waved it off, pointing down the hall as he (tried) to strike a heroic pose. "Now off we go to defeat the dastardly Doctor!"
Danny just continued walking forward.
Phantom huffed and ran to catch up. "Don't just ignore me!"
Danny just shrugged.
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"Sooo," He began. "Is it just me or is everything like, a lot more lethal?" Pointing out the obvious.
"Yep." A member of his team chimed. "But it isn't that bad! At least there's no giant robots-"
The ground shook as a giant robot stepped through a previously sealed door.
"I can't tell if that's just coincidence or you jixed us." Another member said.
"Well it could be worse-"
Another robot stepped through another door as lazers pointed at them from the ceiling.
"You jinxed us." He deadpanned.
#dc x dp#dp x dc#dpxdc#dp x dc crossover#dcxdp#dc x dp crossover#I have no idea who the hero team is so I just kinda left it vague lol#Was this just an excuse to write about an old DCxDP au I had?#Yes#Yes it was#Right that band around Vlad's neck is supposed to be something to monitor his health#Just an insurence thingi#Anyways
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For anyone who saw that Viz tweet about some announcements coming tomorrow, I want to temper expectations a little by reminding y'all that it could just be manga liscenses
Viz and other manga publishers do this sort of thing semi-regularly on Twitter where they announce newly acquired series, omnibuses, artbooks etc etc.
So like, I'm not saying it won't have RWBY news, but please keep those hopes in check.
#I get it's probs not something a lot of people follow who aren't actively keeping up with manga releases#and honestly I just know they do this bc a shoujo youtuber I like does a bingo card each time this happens#just monitor your copium intake responsibly lol#rambling#rwby
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It honestly baffles me that some people are so casually dismissive of animals' feelings. Istg some ppl only see pets like toys and are barely able to hide it
#vent post alert#but I'm just so frustrated#my mom's dog got hit by a car yesterday and she refused to take him to the vet#she said she doesn't have any money for it and that he's fine#physically he seems fine just bruised. I think he might have something internal but she's been very dismissive of that#anyway. he spent the whole night crying bc he was alone and terrified#I went upstairs and almost begged her to take him to the vet but she still refused saying he was fine#then she put him inside her house and he calmed down after a while#the next morning when she came downstairs to talk to me she kept being dismissive#saying he was fine in the end he just wanted attention#and I'm like yeah?? obviously?? he got hit by a car???? the poor thing is traumatized and terrified#ofc he doesn't want to be alone#and she hit me with the 'dogs don't get traumatized. he's just being dramatic'#I pointed out some dogs have psychological pregnancy so ofc they have psychological problems too#and THEN she hit me with 'but those are female dogs. males are different. because hormones' like. WHAT#this just in not only do human males not have feelings but now dog males don't either. because hormones.#I thought my mom was smarter than this tbh#istg her boyfriend is just making her more ignorant. bc this is the kind of bs I expected to hear from him but not from her#anyway I don't know what to do. I don't have money for the vet either bc I just had to pay for a surgery#we talked and she said she'll monitor the dog and if he looks like he's getting worse she'll take him to the vet#ig I'll have to settle for that#I love my mom but man. this is weird#I just didn't expect it from her#what's worse is that when it's just her and me it's one thing. but when her bf is around I feel like she gets different#like with me she agrees but then around him she doesn't?? how am I supposed to trust her that way#it's all just so weird. idk what to think or what to feel rn. I just feel bad#sleep.txt
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Diabetic Zoro, is that anything?
#roronoa zoro#I saw an image and mistook something for a glucose monitor. started thinking. don't know if I know enough to do anything with this.#so I'm just holding it.#one piece#phoenix talks#diabetes headcanons#disability headcanons
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Stranded at work today so I decided to sneak a draw on the workplace's computer.
#Yes... yes I do bring a spare drawing tab to work.#I just like using it more than using a mouse.#connverse#Steven Quartz Universe#Connie Maheswaran#valentines#Yus I manage to draw something for Valentines#:]#Connie molded those chocolates herself#I swear he didn't give her another knife#I intended to continue where I left off on my current commission But with people looking at the monitor while trying to draw?#That's just going double the chances of messing up. So awkward.#Go away Benjie. smh#I have a hard time seeing what I did wrong with my freshly finished drawings but I'm pretty sure I messed something up here.#With how awkward I felt during most of the drawing process#I just hope it's not so bad.#my shiz#Steven Universe#SUF#SU fanart#EDIT: Fixed Steven's left sleeve. I forgot I changed it from full sleeve to 3/4. The rendering wasn't to much affected by the change of line#work anyway and and it's quick so figure I could do that
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going thru listings on ebay is kinda like going through profiles on a dating app to me
#like seeing a computer or a monitor or smth and seeing its quality and background n stuff like. hahagha heyy wow#it also makes me worry if i were to buy something n we just. didn't click. like what if this oscilloscope dont like me back#i fluster myself over this kinda stuff as much as i find it kinda funny haha#objectum#osor#[ YAPPING ]
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they do brunch (@. the sakura and kabuto friendship post)
they're not one of the leaf village's most ethically sound brunch duos but extremely funny to imagine regardless
#morningbyrdie#couldn't stop chuckling to myself while doodling this...#their convo is something like âwow kabuto-san.. you've really transformed into a whole new person! what's your secret?â#âohoho.. just a little trick called a parole officer and an ankle monitor đ„đ„đŻâ#sakura haruno#kabuto yakushi#my art
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RealAgeAu Drabble - Shopping
I am back at it again because I had ideas. (don't worry friend @spotaus things are being planned and I got many many ideas :3 but before those happen stuff needs to be established and put in place!)
I was debating between like four different drabble ideas but settled on this one. Something calming for a bit :)
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Dust shoots Killer another glare as he holds Nightmare clsoer "I mean it Killer. get out of my blindspot. It is getting annoying."
Nightmare looks from Dust to Killer and sees the large grin on Killer's face as he skips after Dust and Nightmare "Nah. I think it is good i am here because it is your blindspot!"
Dust grumbles as he holds Nightmare clsoer. Nightmare just pushes his skull under Dust's chin as he listens to the two bicker. Dust gives him a quick nuzzle before shooting Killer another glare "Why are you even here?" Killer still has a large grin on his face "I am backup!"
Dust groans "I am getting Nightmare clothes."
Killer nods as he follows them "backup!"
Dust huffs before looking back at Nightmare. Nightmare sees the glare disappear from his face as Dust lets out a sigh before smiling at Nightmare "makes you start to wonder who helped who out of getting stuck in a wall."
Killer gasps loudly "That only happened a few times!"
Ngihtmare grins and laughs as he leans fully against Dust again. He likes being held by Dust and Dust must like it too because he always holds him.
Nightmare figured it was because his spine is fragile and walking for too long starts to bother him but Dust still just holds him. always. Maybe he also likes being close like this?
Thoguht Nightmare isn't sure what Dust gets out of it but he must really like something abut the close contact.
They walk past another few people who look at them. Nightmare shoots a glance as Dust and Killer continue to bicker. They seem to shoot Dust and him worried looks but chuckle once they realise that Dust and Killer are just doing their way of bonding.
Nightmare always thought the flirting between those two was weird but then again he thought most things dating was weird. Maybe because he was still a child in his soul...
Not that it matters.
Nightmare shoots a glance and spots Killer grinning widely as his soul is clearly in soulshape and looks stable. Dust may have an annoyed look on his face but he has a tiny smile on his face.
Nightmare hides his face in Dust's sweater but he can't hide the purr. He wants them to be happy. They are happy even with him near.
Dust notices of course nad gives him another nuzzle "comfy? Spine okay?"
Nightmare nods "Yeah."
Dust hums to signal he heard him but still rubs his back.
They finally stop near one of the smaller houses which is the clothing shop for this town.
Dust tilts his skull as Killer snorts "oh that is adorable. ready to dress Nightmare as a tiny old man?" he grins
Dust shoots Killer a glare "It isn't that bad..." then he looks at the store "just... a bit old fashioned..." he looks at him "That okay?"
Nightmare nods before shrugging "I don't get why i need new things..."
Dust sighs. Killer leans on Dust's other shoulder and shoots him a wink "Because you are still wearing Dust's things. and quite honestly. Dusty does not have a large enough wardrobe to dress both of you."
Nightmare frowns as he pushes clsoer to Dust. He doesn't mind wearing stuff them them. It are things that are well worn and soft and smell of them and old laundry detergent.
Dust nuzzles his skull "It will be nice. You can check what you like and what feels nice and is comfortable."
Nightmare frowns "it is expensive." which is another reason why he doesn't want to get anything.
Dust frowns and Killer quickly answers "That is a worry for us. And Dusty said it is fine so it is fine." he grins.
Dust nods "made some money. more than enough to get you some things."
Nightmare wants to disagree more but Dust walks into the store.
The inside isn't like he thought it would be. there is actually quite a number of nice looking things and looks more modern than you would think from the outside.
DUst makes a pleased sound before smiling smugly "Seems like they were just showing off the knitwear because it is autumn." he shoots Killer a look "Almost as if i did my research and knew it would be okay here." and he walks further into the store.
Killer sputters before following them "I know that Dusty! You always do that! I was just joking around!" he pouts but doesn't offer anything. Really just a shadow. It reminds Nightmare a bit about how it was before. Killer beign his right hand and always by his side to help and protect him. It still feels different now and even when thinking back to those memories they feel different.
Killer spots him looking at him and grins before wriggling his phalanges in a tiny wave at him. Nightmare huffs and pushes back closer to Dust.
Dust is looking through some clothes on the hanger "Stop bothering Nightmare." he pulls something off and looks it over critically. he holds it up for him to inspect and Nightmare just shrugs.
Killer pouts as he crosses his arms "Just having fun. And tiny boss is fine with it!" he grins at him "Right nighty?"
Nightmare shrugs. he doens't mind. it is nice.
Dust rolls his eye lights and doesn't look at Killer "Even if he is fine with is safe it for later. first buying clothes. Then you can tire him out."
Nightmare huffs and grumbles. he doesn't need tiring out. he is perfectly fine. Dust holds up another sweater and he shrugs again.
"Oh hello there dears! Can you find it all?"
Killer nad Dust turn and Nightmare feels Dust freeze for a moment. Yeah not a surprise because the woman looks a lot like Toriel. But Nightmare doubts it is the her of this universe. The closer he looks the more this woman seems like a sheep monster.
Killer and Dust must see it too as Killer grins "Pretty much! but we got it!"
Dust shoots him a look "Killer knock it off." he looks at the lady "We are looking for stuff for the little guy."
The lady smiles sweetly "Oh! You two must be two of Sans- I am sorry, Crop's friends!" she looks them over and her gaze lingers on Dust for a moment before settling on Nightmare. Nightmare can't stop the instinct of holding on tighter to Dust. He doesn't like having stranger's gazes on him.
The smiles sweetly "I can see the resemblance! You must be very proud of such a young handsome little boy!"
Dust looks to the side and shrugs but his hold on him tightens. Killer snorts, which is fair as they aren't actually related. Maybe she just sees the resemblance before Nightmare now looks much more like a tiny swap sans, as that was the original form his mother used to craft their bodies. And Dust is the one of the four that still resemblance who he used to be.
At elast Nightmare assumes that is why people think they see a resemblance. That or they are just racists and think all skeletons look alike.
the woman smiles "I am sure there is something fitting for him. Do you need any help?"
Killer's laugh turns cold as he smiles widely "No thanks! We got this!"
Dust rolls his eye lights and nudges him in the side "Stop it." he looks back to the lady "I was wodnering what the... organisation was. I wanted to look at stuff his size..." and he looks at the things he had been looking at with a glare.
The sheep monster looks a bit paler after Killer's interaction but smiles sweetly at Dust. "It is a bit of a mixmatch. Of all the stuff that is handmade it only has a few of each size. you will have to guestimate those. The imported clothes are by the walls, those have more standard sizing."
Dust nods "I see." and he starts walking towards the side first to check the sizing.
Killer grins as he leans close and whispers "Holding a babybones does wonders for making you look approachable"
Dust shoots him a glare and hisses "One word and I will put you in a wall myself." and he stomps over towards the clothes.
Nightmare still doens't understand why Killer thinks that kinda flirting is efficient but what does he know.
Dust is clearly unimpressed with the clothing offered with the more standard design and fabric. but they use it to figure out which size he is before moving towards the handmade stuff.
DUst and Nightmare check what is nice and soft as Killer shadows them. Staying nearby and pretty much glaring at anyone who as much as glances in their direction.
They end up settling for two big sweaters and some sweats. They wait by the cash register as Dust has picked him up again.
The nice woman smiles at them "That will be 140!" she smiles.
Killer winces at the price and Nightmare pushes closer to Dust "I don't need two." wool sweaters are expensive...
Dust shrugs as he looks at Killer "Be usefull and hold him for a moment." and Ngihtamre feels hismelf be handed over to Killer. Dust takes out some cash from his inventory and counts quickly before putting most of the stash he had on the counter "That should be enough." he stashes whatever is left.
The lady counts it and smiles as she puts it away. She packs it in a bag and holds it out to Dust "Thank you for shopping! And Can I just say it is lovely to see such a devoted father."
Dust shrugs and mutters a thanks before shooting Killer a warning look.
Killer grins as he nuzzles Nightmare "How are you this huggable tiny boss?"
Nightmare shrugs but holds unto Killer. Killer is also nice to be held by.
They leave the store together and walk back towards the parking lot. Something about meeting up again to go back to Crop's farm. Nightmare isn't really sure. He is already getting tired again adn he mumbles unhappily.
Killer purrs and coos "It is okay tiny boss. babybones need their sleep and rest after all."
Dust nods "Shopping is always busy." he shoots Killer a glare "Why is why i didn't want you to get him tired or overwhelmed."
Killer groans "Yeah yeah you were right. you are always right. can i go back to nuzzlign the baby now?"
Dust looks considerate before nodding "You may."
Killer grins and the nuzzles resume and Nightmare wants to pout and push him off but it is so nice and he can feel himself start to relax as he starts to purr again.
He likes it when his family holds him.
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#realageau#utmv#nightmare sans#deaged nightmare#dust sans#killer sans#What is this?! An actual lore reason why Nightmare is carried all the time and everywhere?!#aside from the fact everyone wants to hold and snuggle the baby#the baby also has a really bad and fragile spine and walking and putting weight on that is a bad idea. so they minimalise it unless it is i#a safe area where they can monitor it easily. like at home or the temp base they set up!#outside though is not safe so it is time to 'Hold Baby'#Nightmare is A-okay with it!#Nightmare is also aware all these four disasters kinda flirting and being interested in one another but doesn't get the big deal#Look this baby lived together with those four while nightmare was still an empath#There is no way he WOULDN'T know#Just something a bit sweet and nice to relax after the other drabbles :3#Also don't worry about them starting to physically resemble one another! After all! I am sure soul adopting a baby doens't have consequence#especially not if said baby is a god! :D
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