#just rambling dont mind me

[give-bucky-his-boyfriend-back]

I just want a girlfriend to cosplay a genderbent wolfstar with, is that really too much to ask?

[ghost-in-the-hall]

Personal rambling under the cut, no TW necessary just trying to not leave a paragraph without a cut lol

I've been putting a lot of thought into this recently, both during my unintended break because of a bunch of life things and just in general. I see all of these insanely passionate, dedicated, talented people making a living off of their art and I have to wonder if I'll ever reach that point. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm still very early on in the process of even deciding what I would want to pursue as a full time career. There's a lot of things that I would love to dedicate my time to: my writing, crochet, costume making, yoga, I have a dream of opening my own metaphysical shop someday, I have so many options that I could pursue, but even trying to start just gets so overwhelming I don't know what to do. I'm afraid of failing, of course, who isn't, but part of me is also scared of the success that might come with it if I'm lucky enough to have this work out. Part of me wonders if I'm good enough, maybe I'm not, but I still want to try, because this ain't it. I don't want to spend the rest of my life working for someone else at some shit job being miserable. You know, I understand that trying to make something like this a career is a lot of really hard work, and it's never going to stop being hard work. But, I would rather put my limited energy that I have into something I love. The fact of the matter is I have chronic pain and fatigue, I've had it for most of my life, and those of you that also suffer from these conditions know just how much it can take out of you. Trust me, for those of you that have been here for a while you might remember I was putting out a chapter every day at one point, I'd love to be doing that again, but I simply just don't have the energy on top of work, cooking, cleaning, working out, taking time for self care. All of these, even if some of them are things that I inherently enjoy (this bitch loves to make a good soup) they all take a piece of the pie and then my writing, or any other projects for that matter, is left with crumbs for fuel. I don't know, I just needed a place to dump the thoughts in my head because I feel ridiculous every time I talk about this with my husband lol (even though he's very supportive and understanding this is a my brain problem) but if you've made it this far, first of all thank you for reading! But I guess also any thoughts would be appreciated? I'm probably just spiraling, it's just hard making a decision that could potentially alter the entire course of your life 😂😂😂

[cyberneticrick]

I don't know how I feel about these new eyes I installed, they're a lot more organic than my last ones but are annoying because I can't quite get the saline mix to coat them correctly and they keep feeling itchy... and the material isn't as conductive as I want.... Back to the drawing board i guess, lame

[troolyart]

Planting my face in Simon's belly and giving him a big ol raspberry rn. He can't stop me.

[credulouscanidae]

*me and coworker at doggy daycare talking abt the barrel of an english bulldog we have in*

her: have you seen her on her back? its so funny she looks so stiff and her stocky arms go into the air like--

me: omg like a wombat?

her: haha idk...is that what wombats look like?

me: *proceeds to feel homesick as fuck :"( *

little things like this make me sad that i cant # relate to others about animal stuff as easily anymore. like if u said this to a fellow aussie they would immediately ~get it~. ive had a few times like this when referencing kangaroos or cockatoos. it's so trivial and it sounds so silly, but i genuinely miss the aussie animals and ive never really appreciated how unique and amazing they are until im not surrounded by them (or gum trees) in my day to day life

doesnt help that ive barely seen wildlife here beyond pest grey squirrels and wood pigeons lmao. i love the birds here tho, the magpies and pheasants? the little songbirds? top tier animals.

ive yet to see a fox, a hedgehog, a badger, or any other stereotypical animal really (at least, one that isnt roadkill ^^; i DID see a roadkill badger months ago though and that was really cool to see one actually exist even tho it was tragically dead). ive seen some different looking bugs, even boxes of feeder ones at pet stores which has been really cool to see (like, ive never seen a locust before?!)

this probably sounds a lot more dramatic than what it is but it's just that homesickness really coming out right now lmao. i definitely know im gonna appreciate aus a lot more when i inevitably visit. i went to edinburgh zoo the other month and got a bit Emotional at seeing the kangaroos, wallabies, and koalas

[trustywusty]

Sometimes I think about how sanitized a lot of Nintendo IPs feel nowadays. And then I look at like... Pikmin, for example, which just got a new game. And that still feels gruesome to play and actively makes me upset when I let my little guys down and get them killed. Or even Splatoon which is not afraid to slide some messed up shit into its extra/side content, or even it's main campaign. And I just wonder *why* they still get to be like that but other series like Animal Crossing, Zelda, or Pokemon (which isn't technically Nintendo but you get my point) have seemingly lost or are losing that part of their identities as time goes on.

I'm not asking for Animal Crossing to have fucked up elements to it. It never did. But if you're gonna look me in the eyes and tell me that series hasn't lost some of its spunk, it's charm. You're lying to me and yourself.

Or Zelda, which I have a LOT of feelings on lately (mainly botw and totk). There's just something... Not right about those games to me? They're great games, I'm not saying they aren't. Fantastic, even. But that Zelda magic just isn't there for me anymore. Even games I don't particularly care for in the series like Skyward Sword or Twilight Princess (they're good games just not my cup of tea) still have that feeling to them, and I appreciate that about them.

Am I going crazy? Is there something happening here or is it really just a simple "they're changing their methods to appeal to a wider audience" thing. And if that is the case do you think they care about the old fans they're losing along the way, because I'm certainly not the only one who feels this way.

[kstarlitchaotics]

Sometimes I do think about deleting the DC app because what's the point of paying pretty much fully when you only get half of the originals and almost none of the updated things only if you sign up for another $100 to get everything even if it's a yearly thing but also it's a bit tedious to find a good comic source online without too many ads so yeah kind of limbo here with what to do

[amazingbananabread]

I cant wait to turn 18 jsut so i can finally interact with the stuffs that is not for minor but somehow i stumbled across to (a lot)

Besides that to um.....commit le pew pew :3

[gold-medal-ribbon]

Tw Weight (it's positive but still)

After years of trying to gain weight, I'm finally almost at 110 and I feel so good. Like I love how my body has changed in all of this too. I have a tummy :) my thighs are even fuller. I geniunely can't express how happy I am and I know it's probably just hormones, but I'm so comfortable at my job and I do a lot physical effort so maybe it's that.

Either way I'm just really happy with how I look

[jeetlebeetle]

Sorry for the lack of little doodles these past few days! Its been busy with holidays and ill be Out of Town soon, so No Tablet Access,, but in the meantime i’ll be working on the overall plot of Sweet Dreams Au :-)

Hope everyone’s having a nice holiday season

:-Dc

[abnormalisotope]

como assim o aumentativo de lobo eh lobaz

[yanderespamton78]

Edit since a lot of people seem confused - your "real" name is the name that you want to be referred to in real life. It doesn't have to be your legal name. So if you're trans and you have a different name to whats on your birth certificate, even if not many people call you by the name, it still counts as your real name.

Edit 2 : Holy shit guys please stop reblogging this post my poor inbox im getting like 20 notifs an hour asjfhkajshdkh /lh /srs

[finnickodaiir]

Friendship breakups are like "I hate you. Drop dead. I hate that I still think about you everyday and that I still have good memories of you. I miss you"

[xxplastic-cubexx]

Hi!! Your Cherik is so good and gorgeous 🤩🤩 If you don't mind wanna try to draw some Fall of X Cherik please?

thank you so much !!

i have a couple of ideas relating to the fall of x period specifically since theres. A Lot i wanna play with, so i hope this lil thing may be a satisfactory start :]]

and the obligatory bonus:

[becauseplot]

qPhilza perching on people because bird

qFit: Mans is built like a brick shithouse—he can totally balance Phil’s additional weight. The first attempt is a bit shaky, sure, but nowadays Phil swoops down or hops up onto Fit’s shoulder and all Fit really has to do is jut out his elbow to give his friend a little more space for his talons to work with. Bam, he’s perched. Works out about 9.9 times out of 10, though Phil delights in trying to catch him off guard.

qEtoiles: He doesn’t have Fit’s bulk on his side, so he’s not as sturdy, but he is strong. The landing is usually a little rough since Etoiles has to work a bit harder to counterbalance the additional weight, but he always finds that center of gravity in no time flat. Phil usually perches with one talon on each of Etoiles’ shoulders since he’s not as w i d e, just so Phil can have a little extra grip. At some point, Etoiles tries fighting a mob while Phil is perched on him, and that goes exactly as well as you would expect.

qForever: Honestly, with all of the hard labor Forever does for his big builds, Phil was expecting him to do better, but the first (several) attempts end up with Forever stumbling over and knocking Phil off of him from his wild arm-pinwheeling. They eventually figure out it’s more doable if Forever himself has something to lean on (a wall, a chair, the butt of his pickaxe) and Phil puts one talon evenly spaced on each shoulder. Phil learns some new swears in Portuguese in the process.

qMissa: Flattened. Full-on face in the floor, mouth full of grass, wind knocked out of his lungs at Mach 5 the first time Phil tries. Phil apologizes profusely, but Missa—once he can breathe again—just rolls over onto his back and asks Phil if they can give it another try. It takes a long, LONG time, but they figure out that if Phil plants his talons on Missa’s shoulder pads and leans forward while Missa leans back, they have a small little window of time where they achieve balance. The best part? Phil gets a perfect view of Missa’s goofy little grin every single time.

[wasyago]

the brainrot won