#just not digitally sksksk

[mad-hunts]

so, i'm sorry in advance for the cursed images again, y'all. BUT i was thinking about it, and honestly... this is the most accurate description that i could give y'all as to what barton is like around people who he's in love with versus almost everyone else (besides those in his family and his friends + POSSIBLY others... though, even then, he might just act this way towards them 💀)

barton around his love interests:

barton around almost everyone else (at least about 50% of the time):

[notinmysoup]

Ti(e)ght moment

[spirityy]

It's also an oc part of the same AU crossover as my other night fury oc.

[shefunhuh]

Day 14 of learning how to do digital art:

A little wip of violentine!

I just re-played season 4 of twdg, and i miss them so much... i know this fandom is probably dead, but god i miss them... 😭😭

I have a job now and I'm starting it soon. So I've just been drawing a lot to help me calm down about the job. Because i know once i started the job, i might not have the will to draw at all, and that's depressing sksksk

[picnokinesis]

Man, Grace’s postcript chapter really lured me into a false sense of security after the lore explosion that was the Doctor’s last chapter. Imagine my surprise to see that Ruth’s postscript continues to make ripples in the story’s world-building and features major parallels to the Doctor’s life?? Taka, if we didn’t have one more chapter in Part 6 I’d give you a bouquet of digital flowers for how impressed I’ve been w/ this part. The fact that Doctor has now appeared in two dreams is interesting and foreboding ngl, and Osgood considering the Doctor irritating surprised me w/ how big a fan she is of them in the show’s universe.

That said, originally I thought the last chapter would be Aaron or Jack, but now that Ruth dropped Koschei’s full name, I wonder… 🤔

Oh my days dude ahhh 😭💕 I read this last night but it was like 1am so I didn't reply but ahh!! Hahahaha I thought that people might be fooled by the chillness of Grace's chapter - I don't think anybody guess that Ruth would be the next pov! But man I'd been so excited to post that chapter for ages and ages, because it was the FIRST proper insight into Ruth's past and also the way she looks at the world (and also what she KNOWS...even though there was a lot that she didn't say hahah) but then yessss the parallels!! One of my favourite things to do with Ruth in this AU is parallel her with the Doctor - because in canon, ofc, they're the same person technically. But very, very different at the same time, and it's just fascinating to see the same character traits explored in a different way.

Regarding Osgood - she refers to the Doctor as 'irritating' more because it's Ruth who finds her excessively annoying, and will tell anyone who will listen about it kssksks. Osgood hasn't had the pleasure of meeting the Doctor in this au yet, but does definitely think she's kinda awesome. However, in this scene, she was trying to get through to Ruth after pulling her out of what was clearly a distressing enough nightmare that Osgood risked a bad reaction when Ruth woke up abruptly......so yeah, she was more appealing to Ruth there than anything else. But she has mostly heard about the Doctor second-hand. Ruth's descriptions has probably endeared Osgood to the Doctor more than put her off tbh SKSKSKSK bc she probably finds it hilarious how much Ruth is annoyed by her (Ruth does not often show that she is ruffled by someone so it's a unique experience sksksk. The irritation that Ruth feels/expresses is very much genuine - but also, as she said in the chapter, she often uses a bit of genuine feeling to mask over other feelings that she doesn't want anyone to know about....)

As for the last chapter....all I will say is that currently the fic is clocking in at 193,289 words. The total count for the au on my word document is....213,847 words. So there are....quite a lot of words in the next chapter HAHAHA

But ahhhhhhhhh DUDE literally this was so, SO lovely to find in my inbox, so thank you so much you are far too kind augh💕💕💕 I am just so delighted that everyone has enjoyed this part so much!!!

[poohwhin]

TY @fruit-of-infidelity AND @darker-overlord FOR TAGGING ME ILY 🫂

tagging: any digital artist ever that sees this you are obligated!!

November 2021 (first ever sketch i did of gwen, my og dl oc <3 )

didn’t know what i was doing ever. i have a love/hate relationship with my old art SKSKSKSKS also had no clue what i wanted for their design

June 2023 (just now BAHAHSHS. did a ~5-10 minute sketch on my phone.)

did a test run on drawing myself (i’ve been making a lot of s/is recently in my free time, and need to practice catching my ‘essence’ ig without nailing down each exact detail of my appearance sksksk) — which i think i did okay on considering this was 5-10 minutes, AND i’m on my phone, which im unfamiliar with <3

I THINK THIS IS FUN. i always love seeing my improvements, and my confidence in my lines. i love knowing that i could make smth 10x better with 1/3 of the time SKSKSKS. i wanna do this again with works that’re actually done, but y’know.

[brighteststar707]

Ohhh, are we sharing things now? I actually have plenty of great (mostly) childhood memories I tend to think about often.

In my grandma's neighborhood, there's a big line of only road and I remember how me, my sister and everyone else who had bikes there would often get out at the evening to just do circles, the wind always felt amazing and since it was summer, doing it at evening to around night was always great.

But this one night, EVERYONE had taken their bikes out. I still remember how happy I felt when I did circles with them. If I remember correctly, i wasn't able to use the bike without those protection lil wheels but that night, our neighbor next door helped me and encouraged me to keep going even though I fell down a lot. In the end? I leaned to do it without any help from those lil wheels!

I really wish I could experience that again but I know it will never happen. Some of our neighbors grandkids doesn't really visit anymore now that they are grown. And It's actually been years since I've been to my grandma's but this time, I made the decision to go there this upcoming summer! (if I pass my final exams doe sksksajdbw)

I used to go there every summer so I'm hella excited and looking forward to it. I'm also planning on working on my digital art skills and take advantage of these three months to get better with this artist friend of mine I have at school.

But even though those other kids don't visit there anymore. I'm happy that at least I have these memories of us playing plenty of games and just using our bikes.

I have so many nice memories but I'll stop here sksksk

Anna, I'm happy to see you again, it feels like it's been ages! I hope you're doing well!

That memory sounds absolutely magical, so many of you all together on your bicycles having fun. Thank you for sharing it with me! Your neighbour encouraging you to learn to ride without training wheels is so lovely, what a fun way to learn! It took me forever to learn to ride a bike without training wheels, and i still remember the feeling of riding without them for the first time. It's wonderful.

There is something so nostalgic and bittersweet about childhood memories like this, isn't there? These warm happy memories that we love dearly but cannot return to because things change.

I went though a similar feeling of nostalgia recently. I visited home for the first time in years, and was hit with a lot of emotions at once. It's always comforting to be back in places I spent a lot of time in as a small child, but at the same time it's impossible to ignore how much changes when you're not there to see it. I'm not someone who likes to stay in one place for a long time, so returning back to old memories is particularly strange for me.

Sharing in hobbies and learning skills from one another sounds really wonderful! It's one of the things I've enjoyed most about posting my writing here and making writer friends! It's also nice to be able to fully dedicate your time to developing your skills instead of having to share the time between other responsibilities.

I wish you the best of luck on your exams, hang in there! Exam season is tough, but I'm rooting for you! I hope you get to go back to your grandmother's this summer and relive at least some of those happy childhood memories.

[shhthesecretdiary]

uhm

Random thought dump during this past weekend!

I had a burst of creativity and having ideas of life videos recently!

Also bought a kindle and trying to read more na and lesser screen time. Is this me becoming a tita na? huhu.

Work has been a bit hectic though ang dami ko pa ring 'di nagegets talaga and uhm, although I am a beginner I kinda want to be involved rin. More of that later.

Friday, we were all working from the office. Then, I was not in the mood to work. Char. Umuwi na kami around lunch time, so I was craving for ramen or hotpot. And I did go to h4id1la0 alone with a bear in front of me. Nakakainis kasi late kong nakita na may set meal for one person. So I paid 2x sa food na pinilit ko lang ubusin.

Para madigest ang food, naglakad ako inside dubai mall and saw arte mus3um. it's really nice to go on museums alone. AND I LIKE THE LIVE CANVAS HAHAHHAAHA my poor purple-blue dolphin and neon green colored feet na camel.

pero other than that mostly it is digital art din. it's nice. like art in island. wished it was more interactive though.

I went home after that. Then I was just into editing Taiwan travel vid Like really into it na need ko sya matapos right then. I slept at almost 4am.

Saturday and sabog ako. Initial plan was to have brunch somewhere pero natulog si itan so naka 3 rounds ako ng tulog. We went to Dubai hills mall after then stayed there until past 12am. We went to w4g4mama for ramen, hay b0t3jyu pa rin talaga. ako na nagbayad. then ikot langs tapos ayon staba. puyat uli.

Sunday and I need to rush my clp grad speech. I was not into it that much. Liike, am i being an oversharer? inooverthink ko pero i need to tell a story. then late na ako nakarating, di rin nakapagpractice for performance.

normal talk8 na saglit lang tapos nagprep na for lords day. may pabread and juice pa like bread and wine tas a lot of songs and prayers, tas speeches, DGL perf. etc etc

then buffet dinner.

tas perf na uli and share

TAPOS DI AKO AWARE NA NEED PALA NG WHITE SHIRT KASI TATANGGALIN YUNG BLAZER NA BLACK, SHEESH. so nasa likod ako nakasando tas di pa alam pineperform ko. umay.

I've been thinking about the embarassing moments like these too much ahahay.

Isa pa, yung speech ko omg ang dramatic ata. omg omg tas ang panget ko pa don sa pic. tas yung iba nakakatawa speech nila. tas ako may script sila wala

anyway

ang taba ko na :(

tapos bale 1:30pm -10:30pm yon teh grabe. daig pa full time job. pero masaya naman.

tas ayon pa inapproach ako ni kuya mark um4y4m after sksksk nakakahiya kamaganak ko tas napaovershare ako. anyway, inapproach ko rin si kyla. yung nagsend ng number ko kay ate che ann to join clp. tas HAY. kasi nagpapic ako sa kanila using instax. nyeta nadouble print ko yung kay kuya mark so di ko nabigyan si kyla ng copy SHET WALA PA AKONG SPARE FILM BUSET

ayon. tas naiwan ko pa yung comfort cross na souvenir sa clp grad hahahay

so officially sfc membs na me

mONDAY CAME.

inaantok lang ako the whole day.

then nagkaroon meeting sila n4s, a1s at 4nni3. so uhm, paano ako? tas naiinis ako kasi itong si n4s, tinanong ako regarding sa mktg. like di ba ako iinvolve sa meeting? kahit l3c0tra yon at di ko entity, di ba nila gustong malaman ko rin? wala nahurt lang ako tbh kasi it means they dont see me as a reliable member pa. though understandable naman na beginner ako pero i still want that inclusivity ba.

pero ayon, buti nalang din at least nakauwi ako ng maaga. pero kasi wala na nga akong nagegets sa mga nangyayari don and i want to get it.

pero sguro rin it's on me and i may not be making enough effort to understand or i am not proactive enough.

i will try not to accomodate these feelings and i will just take it as something for me to use as a motivation na i need to catch up. magleave rin si ann13 from nov 11 til end of the month tas papasok uli ng 2 weeks then leave uli.

gusto ko magkazakhstan

anyway

HAHHAHHAHAA

i may not really convey this in a very sequential way pero ayon i just want to let this out. life update. i would want to go deep pa. nakatulog kasi ako after work for 1hr 15 min SO AYON, sabog na naman sleeping sched ko.

I need to reflect thin and absorb what is happening to my life recently kasi if i did not write this, i would probably forget it and photos will be stuck on my gallery left unseen.

minsan iniisip ko rin probably disappointed sila na hinire nila ako ahahahahahhaah hay

i need to collect my thoughts and just focus on what i can control. i need to work on this mindset kasi ako lang rin mahihirapan if i will dwell on it and entertain it.

osya.

nakwento ko rin ba yung last weekend? oct 25-27 friday night is telebabad with shs friends back to back with college friends. saturday we went to ate's inaanaks bday party na boring eme. di ko lang kasi kilala, tsaka mukhang bored celebrant. iwent to lino and bangchan cupsleeve event. ala pa akong sahod non so di ako nabudol sa merch ahahah then met people din ang saya.

these days i am glad that i make an effort to go out and meet new people na.

work week after that was drama. nagaway sa harap ko si 4isw4ry4 at 3v3 kasi don pa ako nakaupo sa office ni 3v3.

now don na ako sa tabi nila ac5(now ac2) at ni ac3. so ramdam ko na yung pagka-OP ko.

alam mo yung nakikita kong dependent sila kay 4nni3 now and at some point i want to be reliable and magask din sakin pero can i deal with the pressure.

wala lang ang gulo lang ng setup na napasukan ko.

hoping for better days and better company soon.

and if i could just do what i love and have a lot of money.

next week is p1cpa g4la dinn3r.

i am grateful and blessed.

thanks Lord,

[enchanted-lightning-aes]

hohiho! what kinds books do you like to read?

uhhh, heya there. ty for this difficult, if interesting, ask.

tbh, i don't have teh $$$ to buy books and avoid pirating them. so, i just resort to fics instead. but i am rather picky on what story to read, i guess. if the synopsis has something capturing my interest, it'd be a reason to read it.

and damn, i got tons of things i wanna read. but until i have a stable wallet, i'll read fic. i want to use a digital library but idk how.

P.S: i have way too many anons and i feel like it's high time to differentiate y'all, sksksk.

[nevalizona]

Okay so I finished the original trilogy. I liked them a lot!!!! I gotta say, and I'm sure this is obvious, JP1 is my favorite. There's something so magical about it to me. I love the how the morality is delivered. It doesn't feel *too* heavy handed. It's great. Could definitely see myself rewatching it a bunch. Now I don't know if this is a controversial opinion because I am not up-to-date when it comes to the opinion the Jur*ssic P*rk films sksksks but JP2 was my least favorite. I still enjoyed it a lot but it kinda missed the mark for me personally. I would probably rewatch it when I wanted to revisit the franchise again, but I don't think I'd ever find myself just turning it on. JP3 is my second favorite! I remembered this one a lot from when I was a kid sksksksk I remembered a lot of all the films actually which is super shocking to me because I was in the single digits when I watched them all the time with my grandparents but sksksksk. I would probably revisit JP3 again. It was a fun quick watch. I think it still was missing some of that charm the first one had, but it felt closer to what I wanted out of a JP film. I will be watching the next three films eventually because I love dinosaurs sksksksk and these movies have a fond place in my heart from when I was a kid and I've never seen the new ones. If you have seen them, are they any good? I know literally nothing about them sksksksks anyways, it has been so great seeing these all again!!!! Super glad I finally rewatched them all!

In case you were curious as to what I would rate these films:

JP1: 4 stars.

JP2: 3 stars.

JP3: 3½ stars.

Genuinely considering bumping the first movie up to 5 stars sksksk but we'll see.

[dudlesdoodles]

artartartartart

*Kicks down door* gUYS IM NOT DEAD YET HAHA

so anyways this is a drawing of me with rainbow hair and a p cool hoodie niether of which i actually have but anyways

i also posted a magnificent speedpaint for this drawing that took me like. 2 days to edit bc the file frkN DELETED ITSELF

so like enjoy this bc im excited abt it :D

[m-oondai-archives]

SPINNING IN MY CHAIR U MAJOR IN CRIMINOLOGY !?!?? if i ever die will u investigate my case ...

ANAJSKSMDM YES I DO and yes ma’am I will make sure you will get your justice 🫡✊🏾

[shefunhuh]

Day 13 of learning how to do digital art:

Anyone else got completed enamored by that andrew garfield chicken shop date video? No? Just me? Alright then, here's the caitvi version of it.

Full version:

Take this as caitvi actresses au? Lol idk i just wanted a reason to draw them flirting and smiling 🥴❤️

I'm still learning so much hoe to color on pc with my drawing tablet... ugh also idk how to change lineart color in here sksksk so that's something for another day i guess 😭

Reference photos:

[crumbsnailz]

Monster Kid! :D

[dead-golden]

A demon boi

[interstellaaaar]

I wish you could just colour pick with actual paint bc making a specific colour again is so hard