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kyofsonder · 13 days ago

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Me: My ex-bff wasn't that bad. I know my therapist has said it counts as abuse, but we met when we were 11. She didn't know what she was doing. There was no malicious intent. She was a largely neglected kid with a messed up sense of boundaries, it just sucked that I was both really compatible and really incompatible with that. She even got a little better over the 13 years we knew each other, she wasn't a bad person. She saw the world differently than I do, that's all.

Me, talking about what it was like to use Tumblr in middle school: It was fun, but I had some restrictions. I couldn't follow things -- tags, people, etc -- that my best friend didn't like. I couldn't join fandoms she had claimed; if she liked it first, or liked it "more" than me then it was hers and I'd mess it up by liking it. I had to join fandoms she'd decided I would like, or we'd like together, even if they weren't fun for me. I wasn't allowed to be online at night without telling her, because if she caught me she'd say that was time I could have spent chatting with her if I wasn't going to sleep. She'd feel betrayed. If I made an original post, she'd immediately comment on it as a way of "claiming" me as her best friend and warning others that the position of best friend was taken. Also to interact with me and be my friend, but mostly to keep me focused on her. She did not comment on or like any of my writing, though. She never read it. She said it was boring, then demanded I read everything she ever wrote and quizzed me at school about whether I'd seen her posts or emails about her writing yet. So Tumblr had a bit of a shadow looming over it, but I still liked the fandoms and memes!

The Memory of My Therapist (she's not dead, I just haven't seen her in 2 weeks): You know it doesn't have to have malicious intent to have harmful results, right? You know that whether she knew what she was doing or not, she still did messed up things you didn't deserve?

Me: Well, when I lay it out like that it does sound kind of bad, yeah... 😬

#sonder speaks #no real punchline #just me reflecting #sonder rambles #abuse mention #I guess #manipulative behavior #that's mentioned at least #I mean #I do try not to make her into some destructive monster in my head #because no matter what she did it's still true that she did a lot of it as a kid #and she has the potential to become better now than she was at 11 or 14 or 18 or 21 #in fact I really hope she has and she does and her life is good #but also I'm still nervous to go back to my hometown because I might see her #she only ever knew me pre-transition and I look largely different now #I have a beard #but still #I don't want to hear anything she has to say to me #especially since this is just the day-to-day stuff she did #I also think about the “you owe me money for gifts I've given you” thing and the turning me down for dating but still being possessive thing #... she wasn't great back then #I hope she's better #and yeah I guess all of it counted as a type of abuse #technically

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bookwyrminspiration · 2 months ago

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sometimes a theme recurs in your work without your permission. and sometimes it reaches a threshold where you're like. well now i think this is saying something about me against my will. don't know what though

#creative writing #shitpost #sorry just wrote a third piece with the same underlying idea/premise #which i didn't do on purpose #and now i'm like. well fuck. what's this mean about me?#now i gotta do some self reflection about that

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chloesimaginationthings · 4 months ago

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FNAF nightmare foxy is a huge fan of Roxanne Wolf,,

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a-a-lost-munchkin · 14 days ago

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I Can’t Help But Wonder

Odysseus, who just violently and mercilessly murdered 108 or so men, who claims in the next song that he’s no longer a kind or gentle man, actively listens to Telemachus and kindly and gently responds to everything his son’s expressed.

Telemachus asks, “Am I like you? Am I strong like you? Will you embrace me? Will you love and accept me as yours?” He says, “I’ve felt so alone.”

And Odysseus claims him in a heartbeat, answering, “My son. My boy. My sweetest joy I’ve ever known. I embraced you twenty years ago. I’d do the impossible for you. I’d die for you.” He says, “Seeing the men here today, I can only wonder what you’ve been through for twenty years. My son, you’re already strong. You’re my own. You’re not alone. I’m home.”

And then they fucking embrace.

#don’t mind me I’m just over here sobbing #something something Odysseus being an attentive loving father drenched in blood #the way he literally responds to everything #he says ‘you are MY SON I’ve never stopped embracing you’#‘I may be deranged and unhinged after years of torment but I’ll be damned before I let you think you’ve ever been unloved by me’#the instrumentals reflect it too #Tele’s piano is hesitant and very faint during his part overwhelmed by Ody’s guitar #the moment ody starts singing the piano blends immediately #Ody’s got open arms for his son #epic the musical #epic #odysseus #epic odysseus #epic telemachus #telemachus #epic the Ithaca saga #the ithaca saga #ithaca saga

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hinamie · 2 months ago

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make it vicious, take a stab

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #gojo satoru #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jujutsu gojo #jjk gojo #jjk satoru #blood/#jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #just in case idk #i believe in night moves fv supremacy #i feel like i say this every time but im dead deceased on the floor in the ground etc etc #maximum effort fr gojo as usual sighhhhhhhhhhhh #3 days on this mf who let me draw another mirror who didnt talk me down #i got so frustrated after i finished his reflection only to realize i had a whole other half gojo to draw #do not look too closely ik its not perfectly mirrored ik ik ik i wanted to die the whole time pls b kind #especially the hair gjhdfkdgk the last mirrored char i drew was megumi and at least with him his hair is dark #with which i can Conceal my mistakes #none of tht here sighs . this freak and his florescent hair #anyway even tho i died and perished and expired etc i am . SO happy w this u have no idea #blood sweat and tears went into this one #and easter eggs! so many easter eggs #pls take it and enjoy im tired of staring at him and his god awful lipstick job . make yourself decent smh

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soulmvtes · 2 months ago

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sunday nights are for reflecting on your entire life and the fragile state of your present moment and what the future may look like

#feel like the past few months have been so busy and overwhelming so ive been too busy to fully reflect and process them #and it all just hit me in the space of an hour like relationships and situations and everything #had a little cry but i'm okay i'm hopeful and embracing whatever things will look like #holding onto myself and my passions and my love and my light #diary #tiyas thoughts

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pokimoko · 2 years ago

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I can't keep being fundamentally changed as a person by animated movies, it's just not sustainable.

#animation #animated film #animated movies #across the spiderverse #across the spider-verse #spiderverse #puss in boots #puss in boots the last wish #puss in boots 2 #nimona #nimona film #yes i'm posting this specifically because i just watched nimona and am feeling all kinds of things but really these are all PEAK TIER #the fact they have ALL been released within 7 months of each other...like...woah we are thriving right now #stylised animation with its own unique style reflecting the movie i love you forever kissing you on the mouth #films that make me ferally rip up any and all art blocks to shreds #and that's just the animation side of things #i won't get started on the plots. they also make me want to bounce off of walls #hugging all these close to my chest #as well as all the other great animated movies that exist because animation wins all catergories for me always #(let's not forget anime movies either; y'all are beautiful too! keeping 2d animation alive and i'm so here for it)

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justarandombrit · 7 months ago

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I don't know

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mobius-m-mobius · 8 months ago

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#there are two types of actors 😂💖

#and both are wonderfully right btw 🥰#owen wilson #tom hiddleston #lokiedit #marveledit #mcuedit #impossible to resist giffing one of the best things to come from the loki series yet 😂😂#their friendship and dynamic is just. the MOST delightful thing in the world it never stops amazing me how well they click #and how tom will go on the most beautifully elegant reflection of all things loki while owen's view is so grounded in the everyday #which makes what he has to say even more insightful somehow because it just stops you in your tracks like everything else about him #how lucky are we to have gotten stories told by such a compliment of talent!#owenwilsonedit #dianagifs

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papanowo · 3 months ago

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i think dan should get to be a little weird too. as a treat

#my art #re animator #herbert west #daniel cain #dan cain #danbert #no but srsly guys i get that hes the normal guy but you forget ... HES ALSO WEIRD !!! HES SO STRANGE !!!#if he was normal he would have called the cops on herbert ages ago #but guess what babey he ... well technically he did call the cops but he waited like 20 years to do it so .. !!#bro was an enabler dont forget that #sorry im like rlly crazy about dan...#which is unfortuante bc i feel kind of alone in that like YES herberts a baddie YES hes litterally me #but dan....... DAAAAAAAAAAAN (eagle screeching)#what the fuck am i saying!#edit hey guys its actually lucid dog that rant you see above you was written at likes 6am after an all nighter #we all know dan is weird i mainly meant i think he should get to be PORTRAYED as weird more #really im just weird about him (<3) and i need him to reflect that

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astearisms · 1 year ago

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fionna and cake drawings before and after watching the episodes so far. it’s nostalgic and somehow cathartic and poignant and relatable and—it just started

#i’m part of the demographic where i was a kid when adventure time started and now watching fionna and cake as an adult makes me emotional #because did they keep us in mind when writing fionna and her attitude towards life #the dissatisfaction #the hoping for something more #something more magical than this dreary life filled with working to live and living to work #it’s so reflective of how life feels for me and perhaps many of us #and also Simon’s episode was so sad but so well thought out #exploring his feelings after the events of the adventure time finale is something I’m glad we get to see #there were already so many layers to his character in AT but now it feels like we get to dive deeper #I also felt emotional hearing Rebecca Sugar singing and writing a song that encapsulates his feelings so well #😭 it’s been awhile seeing her work exist alongside these characters #and all of these emotions get stronger because I remember AT being the one to inspire me to be a storyboard artist #when I was younger I used to follow many of the board artists here in tumblr and would get so inspired by them #to create simple but powerful boards that can capture the feelings of characters so well #Rebecca Sugar’s songs for the AT characters inspired me so much too #I’m sorry this is long I’m just feeling so many things experiencing all of this again as an adult #my art #fanart #adventure time #fionna and cake #fionna the human #cake the cat #simon petrikov

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mellific · 1 year ago

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FASCINATE, a new minicomic that i will have at SF ZINE FEST this sunday (9/3)! come to table 38 and pick it up along with uhh slkfjsd books that will hopefully have arrived at my house before friday! i guess!!

#USPS PLEASE SAVE ME..... i ordered these in july T_T #also while i was reflecting on comic naming crimes i realized i've lost all grounds to judge austin walker's hallows/hollows choices #comics #sdfdslk CW BODY HORROR MAYBE??? i feel like i'm really. tame. but just in case

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chloesimaginationthings · 14 days ago

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