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angelicstalker · 2 months ago
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I've been crying all morning. She has a blank stare. She reacts to nothing. She fell in her own pee trying to go to the bathroom earlier. I'm happy she ate some treats.
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notafunkiller · 2 months ago
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Literally the bar in in hell! Same with how he acts toward her. They would accept not even bare minimum and praise him. It makes me so sad!If it was real, like I said, he would be the biggest red flag ever. He already is a red flag becauae he treats her like this PR or not./ i mean she have something out of it so im not that sad for her but still, you cant look at this and scream couple goals because just no. Its not cauple goals, maybe in 2022 they were somehow ok but now its just humiliating to watch. At the beghining of their rs they already act like a dull couple i never saw this loved up stage this excitement of the first months of dating from them and mind you we have pic from may what this newspaper say was begginimg of they rs(lets all ignore february pic but ok 🤣) . And now they look like minutes before brake up, there is not amound of parties they can go or post aw can make to make it look better. They lool so fed up, like the parents who stay just for the kids but no love is left. And yes seb treat her bad, i would never allow myself to run behind my bf if we are team, if he dont care to look back at her why take her in fist place on any event?
Oh i know because of pr, because if his movie is getting bad press they can pop a pic of them, ehh its geting to predictable and to boring.
And seb is geting boring to his speach too, he took a wrong aproach on this movie, and now he is being childlish, the amound of problems are now i start to belive they will not get oscar, if even actors dont whant to talk to him about this movie, the award look far far away for him. I think seb put all of his money on trump movie and push adm aside, he thought this would be it for him but make mistake, and now with what caa push on him and his own flustrstion it just look bad
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appxssionato · 8 years ago
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gulescamisade · 8 years ago
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Alaska:  Day 9, Hot Springs and Biotech
[[ As the group moves carefully through the cave system, accompanied only by occasional sounds of dripping water, and small pattering sounds, they are also able to detect a trickling far steadier than the distinct drips in the duration of their walk. Something exceptionally weird to note: the coolness within the cave miraculously appears to dissipate the more they travel. ]]
REDGLARE: -weird but not at all to question a good thing. Their protection against the elements is hardly adequate... perhaps they've stumbled across some underground stream? The liquid from the stalactites are hardly adequate.-
[[ Better than an underground stream. As they turn a bend in the caves, an underground hot springs seems too good to be true. But there it is. In front of them. Waiting. ]]
REDGLARE: -SHE... SHE THOUGHT THEY COULDN'T POSSIBLY BE SERIOUS ABOUT HOT SPRINGS??? THEY'RE REAL AND ACTUALLY HERE????-
[[ Absolutely. Happy Wriggling Day, everyone. Except you, Dave. Happy Forced Exit from the Womb Day. ]]
REDGLARE: -shes stripping down for the water. WHO CARES WHO SEES WHAT AT THIS POINT. her wings have been aching and her leg is... her leg is NOT GREAT. it actually stings sharply as she lowers herself into one of the pools.-
[[ Good thing the water isn't searing hot since Redglare didnt check the temperature and might as well have cannonballed in. The water temperature itself is pleasant, much like a very very warm bath. There are even bubbles rising to the surface. Yall have your very own hot tub. ]]
NYALAH: -the days have been one dizzying painful black out to the next. She was barely able to crawl into consciousness now, much less make it standing up on her own. Her side was in a painful mend by this point, her body suffering from a lack of food or water.-
NYALAH: -despite her commitment to silence the whole time they were exploring and dodging biotech zombies, surviving the blizzard, Nyalah was forcing herself to stagger after Redglare. Also discovering the hot springs as they happen.-
NYALAH: -breath shallow from the effort and the hand clutching at her side, she follows suit, not even bothering to remove her own clothes. The dunking is nigh.-
NYALAH: hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh -as the warm water touches her skin. Her body is going to have a time adjusting but at the same time, she gives little next to no shits about the risk of hyperthermia. The cat troll grits her teeth and shivers, lowering into the water.- mmmmmmh
DAVE: -getting in while in his boxers is a bad idea, considering that if his boxers get wet it's gonna be a hell of a time trying to get them dry again. and with his sensitive human skin, he really has no choice but to do what he needs to to get in there- ok im getting nude heads up DAVE: if you dont want to see my frozen dick look away -with his back in bad shape, getting his boxers off is QUITE the task-
REDGLARE: You don't h4v3 to 1ntroduc3 1t to us. -guh. pets Nyalah's head. She knows a little too little about wilderness survival to consider what the next step AFTER this would be, or how bad it would be to try wandering out into the cold after getting soaking wet, but whatever. This is. pretty ok.-
NYALAH: (i love to die) -whispers at Redglare. Even in near death, she meme.-
KARKAT: =It's a 12th perigees miracle. He's going to help Dave with his undies like a good rail then help him in and also get the fuck in himself= I've never been happier to lose a fucking bet.
DAVE: -thanks karkat. he manages to get inside and FUCK ITS SO WARM IT MAKES HIS ENTIRE BODY TINGLE-
KARKAT: =it's hot as hell but guess what he's going to drink this water too becauae goddamn=
REDGLARE: -GODDAMN IS RIGHT-
NYALAH: -gargles water and ends up spitting it up. Her wide open broken horn is TOO SEARINGLY AWARE of temperature changes. Also she is probably making the water around her a kool-aid olive green.-
REDGLARE: -this is probably unsanitary what with HER open wound discoloring the water too.-
KARKAT: =to hell with sanitation tbh=
DAVE: -at least it's warm-
KARKAT: =his gills were dry and cracking and are now filtering their blood and various bacteria. YES. AT LEAST IS WARM=
NYALAH: -sighs, finally.... finally breathing easy.-
NYALAH: ....
NYALAH: this sucks
[[ Good thing that the temperature of the springs is hot enough to kill bacteria! They're getting clean, their wounds are being sanitized, and now they have plenty of water. No dehydration happening any time soon! ]]
NYALAH: -still sucks.-
REDGLARE: 1t d03s.
KARKAT: =Can the water also drown him? Plz, thnx. Hisses softly and just. Bye forever, sinks into it=
DAVE: -he's just gritting his teeth and letting himself settle-
NYALAH: -rests her head on the back of a rock.- i died like thr33 times
NYALAH: -sniffs-
NYALAH: what if steak happens right now i would eat so much
NYALAH: and have whipped cream donuts for desserts
REDGLARE: -She laughs, eyes sinking shut as she just... leans back.-
REDGLARE: th3r3's b4ts.
REDGLARE: 4lmost 4s good.
BATS: =how very dare??=
NYALAH: yeh rabies gives it flavor
DAVE: -peeks down to see where the fuck karkat went-
KARKAT: =hes just letting his gills get some use=
REDGLARE: C4n't b3 th3 worst of our probl3ms.
REDGLARE: -nudges at her weakly.-
REDGLARE: H4v3n't you h4d your shots.
NYALAH: -rrrrrs, eyes going a little glinty- could go for some shots
MINDFANG: -She is into the hot water up to her neck and it is the greatest feeling for her battered rib cage and near frozen extremities, its near god damn euphoric.-
NYALAH: ...
NYALAH: o shit
NYALAH: -reaches into her pocket and pulls out a WHOLE DRENCHED WEED.-
NYALAH: ................................ -snRRRRKS.-
NYALAH: they never took it
KARKAT: =eyeballs the wet weed and emerges slowly= What, you making tea?
REDGLARE: -She opens up her eye to look at it.-
REDGLARE: -snorts...-
DAVE: oh shit
DAVE: find a way for us to consume it effectively
MINDFANG: -Opens one eye at Nyahla and sees the one whole weed.-
MINDFANG: -Snrks.- You are quite the smuggler.
NYALAH: -she's too busy wheezing about the stupid doobie but also eyeballs everyone.- yes
NYALAH: -totally obligated to make nip tea now. Fuck.-
DAVE: you had pain relief all this time
NYALAH: no cups tho
NYALAH: ...
NYALAH: -just eats a piece of this blunt.-
REDGLARE: ...
REDGLARE: 1s th4t-
REDGLARE: c4n you do th4t?
REDGLARE: -squints...-
DAVE: thats one way to go about it
NYALAH: its nip
NYALAH: yes -Cat trolls do it all the time, just ask them.-
NYALAH: -passes redglare the bit weed-
KARKAT: Great just nibble a little of it. =sinks back in the water and sighs out his nose÷
MITUNA: -Doing a dead mans float in the water-
MINDFANG: -Is Mituna even alive-
DAVE: -ME NEXT ME NEXT-
REDGLARE: -nibbles and passes...-
MITUNA: -Unfortunately, he is very much alive-
MINDFANG: -You crazy kids and your wet weed nibbling.-
[[ The small pattering sounds return, little by little. ]]
REDGLARE: -Frowns, sitting up.-
[[ pitterpatter ]]
MINDFANG: -She rises out of the water some by sitting up straighter at the sound, and looking in the direction of where it is coming from if she can pinpoint it.- .......
KARKAT: =fins flick towards it, he will fucking eat whatever this is. He doesn't care anymore=
DAVE: -What the fuck NOW?!-
MINDFANG: -If its more wolves she is going to be pissed.-
NYALAH: -also rises, hiss faint in her throat.-
REDGLARE: -hefting that rock club and climbs out of the water ass naked to fight a wolf- >;I
DAVE: - he has no choice but to wait-
KARKAT: =redglares not going it alone. Here comes gives-none-fucks vantas=
MINDFANG: -Shes moving towards the edge and slowly lifting herself out of the water. Its difficult for her to want to leave the warmth thats soothing her body aches but danger takes priority.-
NYALAH: -low key 👀emojis tbh. I mean. If this is how it ends for Nyalah. Sure.-
[[ It's not a wolf....but a fish! An eyeless cave fish, to be precise. Isn't nature amazing? Except it's body is lying parallel to the floor, away from any water source. It flops. ]]
CAVE FISH: =flop flop flop!=
NYALAH: -mmmm oh my god. She's so hungry.-
KARKAT: =Alright, great he really will eat that. But more like eyeball it then approach... where did it come from?=
MINDFANG: -Stares at the eyeless fish. On one hand, potential food source. On the other, suspicion of any earth life form after the wolf incident.-
MINDFANG: Curious.
DAVE: does it have teeth  
NYALAH: -👁️👁️- i do
REDGLARE: To h3ll w1th 1t. -SORRY FISH. she's just gonna casually bash its head.- 1t's food.
[[ As soon as she does this, it twists around, revealing some biotech embedded into its side. Sprouting four, thin, metal limbs, it begins pattering back and forth, appearing somewhat confused. ]]
MINDFANG: -HHHHH. Of course.-
KARKAT: =LIFTS A ROCK. A BIG ROCK. TOO BIG FOR THE LITTLE BIOTECH=
MINDFANG: -She is doing the same as Karkat, only her rock is a bit smaller. Not everyone can have seadweller strength.-
KARKAT: =He's just frustrated and sick of all of every single turd. SMASHES it on the small thing=
DAVE: OH FUCK NO
KARKAT: =He'll do you this solid for not being an entire ass this whole time. Thanks for that, he appreciates it 👍=
[[ It deded. ]]
[[ Splat. ]]
[[ There is more skittering in the distance. ]]
REDGLARE: Sh1t. sh1t. -She got her hopes up, for a second. A second too long.-
SEAKRAIT: -And in the darkness of this area of cave she rolls in seemingly from nowhere, accompanied by... you know, some more friends.-
[[ Lampetra and some more angry Earth animals, specifically. ]]
MINDFANG: -Annnnnnnnd it just got worse.-
MINDFANG: -Shes not putting down her rock for you jerks.-
LAMPETRA: =Hello friends!=
NYALAH: -Endless torment. She hisses.-
KARKAT: =LIFTS HIS ROCK AGAIN.=
KARKAT: =He will bowl you hoes, wordlessly. Fuck you. All the way. 500%=
REDGLARE: Wh4t 4r3 you do1ng h3r3? -SHE'S WET AND NAKED AND THERE ARE JUST SO MANY HORRIBLE MONSTERS-
SEAKRAIT: -She's taking this chance in the larger cave space to put her back against Lampetra's and stand her ground against the scuttling creatures; there's a snowshoe hare, more wolves, a couple lynxes, oh and also A FUCKING BEAR.-
LAMPETRA: Just like old times, Huh?
SEAKRAIT: \|/e came to-- -FUCK. She's slicing at a leaping wolf.-
LAMPETRA: =He's batting aside a crazed bunny with his shield=
KARKAT: =FOR SOME REASON HE DOESN'T WANT TO BOWL THE BEAR= Oh good. The animals are doing our work for us. AND YET I CAN'T HELP BUT WANT TO ASSIST THEM. HMM. WEIRD!
REDGLARE: -Limping towards them and the fight. She's barely armed but she's still going to swing her rock down at one of the lynxes.-
KARKAT: =Redglare you missed the assholes.=
REDGLARE: Hff. N3v3rm1nd. Th4t c4n w41t. Wh4t 4r3 th3y.
KARKAT: =Growls, chucks a rock at a bear. Whatever.=
DAVE: -he's gonna need help out of this spring when everything calms down. for now, he watches-
NYALAH: -she can't possibly hope to defend herself in this state. Her side is still splitting with pain and fear is keeping her immobile for the moment. Does her best to wiggle out of the water at least.-
MINDFANG: I highly agree with that feeling. -It would be great if the animals killed those two. Although then she wouldnt get the chance to try and do it herself.... damn. Looks like shes helping.-
MINDFANG: -Time to punch another wolf in the face.-
LAMPETRA: =He raised his shield as the rabbit forcibly leapt at them, making a dull THONK against the metal.=
LAMPETRA: Long story short, Alternia dove too deep in trying to enhance biologicial technology. It became sentient.
NYALAH: -actually laughs over in her corner. Don't look at her.- nah shit bruh
[[ The lynx Redglare clonked staggered backward, only to move toward her, it's limbs contorting as it was forced forward again. ]]
SEAKRAIT: -huffs and slings her axe again, trying to batter the wolf down long enough that she can hit the exposed bioware-
REDGLARE: -As long as this club holds out, she's going to keep bashing, teeth gritted, looking for that horrible little thing keeping the corpse moving. SHES ALREADY KIND OF SHAKING.-
REDGLARE: How m4ny mor3?
[[ The bear roars an unnatural bear sound and charges at Karkat. ]]
LAMPETRA: Lots??
NYALAH: -curls in some elevated spot, possibly protecting Dave.-
KARKAT: =did it like the rock? He think that means yes. Alright. Time to sock it in its cute angry face with fish fist=
MINDFANG: And you had the pleasure of leading them all this way. -She growls and attacks one of the wolves with her strong robot fist while trying to locate the bioware to rip it out.-
[[ Eventually, Redglare's rapid, continuous bashing manages to strike precisely upon the bit of tech burrowed behind the ear of the lynx. The animal no longer moves. ]]
SEAKRAIT: -SLICE goes this biowolf, and she's spinning around to throw her axe toward the bear's back now that it's distracted. Bye axe tho...-
DAVE: -nyalah you're a babe-
DAVE: -keepin calm...-
NYALAH: -dave youre really nude rn.-
LAMPETRA: =Without having to spare a glance over his shoulder, he swung his shield around him and Seakrait, knocking back another wolf as it leapt at them.=
MITUNA: -Still floating in the water-
BIOBUNNY: =I'LL BITE YER LEGS OFF=
LAMPETRA: =kicks it!= This is just freaky, man!
BIOBUNNY: =flies off into the darkness=
SEAKRAIT: -bye bunnicula...-
DAVE: -i'm super naked yes but i am in this spring-
NYALAH: -now would be such a great selfie time tbh.-
NYALAH: -but alas...-
[[ The bear ROARS at the axe and the punch to the face. The axe hit a piece of bioware, but not the whole thing; it's sort of limping now, trying to wrestle Karkat. ]]
DAVE: -my camera was taken :(-
KARKAT: =dont worry they can kick the camera out these guys after fightingthese animals. Karkat quick to catch on at least foing to grab the bear muzzle to rip out the rest of the bioware.=
[[ The wolf does not appreciate Mindfang's groping and goes to nom her arm. But her efforts are partially successful. Her searching has uncovered biotech beneath the fur at its jawline. ]]
BEAR: -COLLAPSES HEAVY and probably a good bit onto Karkat. A blanket.-
MINDFANG: -It doesn't feel good to have it chewing on her circuits, but its better then having it chew on any other part of her. She grits her teeth and tries to hold it back like this while she claws at the biotech with her other hand.-
SEAKRAIT: -spin kicks another lynx; the animal parade is ALMOST done for now. This should be easy cleanup if they keep at it-
KARKAT: =Cozy as this is he throws the bear husk on some other animals. Dangerously close to Seakrait and Lampetra=
REDGLARE: -She is at least partially motivated by spite as she tries to rip the axe out of the bear's back, swinging down at the MONSTROSITIES.-
LAMPETRA: =at Karkat= :\ =Hey man, uncool.=
DAVE: -ARE YOU REALLY SAYING WHAT'S UNCOOL RIGHT NOW-
KARKAT: =He stares back, he doesn't fucking care=
SEAKRAIT: -ITS WHATEVER MAN. She leans out of the way with a pant-
NYALAH: -put some pants on, Dave. Nyalah is handing him her own pair of pants. She can stand around in boxers, it's fine.-
[[ Redglare's strife specibus switches from CLUBKIND to AXEKIND in a hilarious turn of events. ]]
NYALAH: -👀 -
[[ It's easy for Mindfang to feel around as the wolf is preoccupied with her other arm. Just be careful that the wiring doesnt consider you to be a better host! ]]
DAVE: -carefully uses arm strength alone to get himself OUT of the hotsprings despite thow bad it's making the pain shoot through his arms, too. his boxers are still right there, so he thankfully tries to maneuver the boxers AND nyalah's pants on-
NYALAH: -Finally. The dicks out thing was being really distracting.-
REDGLARE: -PROBABLY LOSES HER STALAGMITE AS A RESULT but whatever. ITS COOL. I mean it does kinda suck when someone takes your signature weapon though RIGHT- REDGLARE: -I MEAN GOSH THAT MUST REALLY SUCK-
[[ The stalagmite is indeed launched out of Redglare's hands, where it hits the rabbit squarely in the face as it reemerged from the shadows. ]]
MINDFANG: -IT BETTER NOT. Shes going to rip it out with her bare hand and try and crush it as fast as possible. Before her arm gets any more dented from these chomps.-
SEAKRAIT: Redglare! -decidedly tosses RG's cane her way now that the flurry of animal parts are slightly less encroaching. Glances around at the sea of faces and also ejects Dave's sword in his general direction-
REDGLARE: -WOW pettiness must really work......-
MITUNA: -Rises from the water, psionic energy skittering along his body. There's a lot of chaos happening. People fighting animals, two of those assholes that hurt them are here too. The screams hurt, makes it hard to focus, but his eyes start glowing.-
REDGLARE: -SKIDS THE AXE TOWARDS HER IN TURN as she catches it-
REDGLARE: ... th4nks.
DAVE: -YOU COULD HAVE IGNORED IT-
DAVE: -wait a second...tHATS HIS SWORD!!! AHH!!! HE GRABS IT-
KARKAT: =WHAT GOOD COP BAD COP BULLSHIT IS THIS=
NYALAH: -she wishes she was high right now. Hey cops. Where'd you put all her weed.-
MITUNA: -He's a chargin his lazor-
KARKAT: =please fry them=
REDGLARE: -WE ALL ATE IT NYALAH KEEP UP-
NYALAH: -she meant when they EMPTIED HER SYLLADEX but okay Rg. 👀-
SEAKRAIT: -we know nothing about any weed... no but really she nods at Redglare and scoops her axe back up to decidedly throw it down on this goddamn hare. STAY DOWN FOREVER.-
REDGLARE: -She stumbles under her own weigh, some of the adrenaline ebbing away as she manages to keep herself from falling by leaning on the stick. It's kind of a stumble but she's gonna try to dress herself at least slightly.-
[[ The hare as well as the biotech upon it is decidedly crushed, hopefully for the final time. It is still. ]]
NYALAH: -Lame. Oh well. It was worth it.-
SEAKRAIT: -wait fuck that's psionic energy over there. She grabs Lampetra's arm like WE SHOULD PROBS MOVE-
KARKAT: =nono, stay right there=
LAMPETRA: =Gets out of way, following after her. Maybe puts his shield to good use too.=
MITUNA: -HE'S A FIRIN HIS LAZOR BWWWWAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH-
NYALAH: B00
KARKAT: =good yes.=
[[ IT'S SUPER FUCKING LOUD. Let's also hope there's not a cave-in, folks. ]]
MITUNA: -Just gonna burninate everything in his line of sight. Yay.-
NYALAH: -Lucky she's out of RANGE.-
[[ Mituna pretty much purified the area of biotech, that's for sure! Another lynx, relatively untouched by anyone, is now burnt to a crisp. The biotech leaps off of it, on fire. It skittered across the ground toward the crew before fizzling out and falling limply at their feet ]]
REDGLARE: -huffs as she gingerly pulls on a pair of underpants and her tanktop, eyeing the line of destruction and the burned up animals in its path.-
MITUNA: -His gazeblast fizzles out and he just...floats himself to the edge of spring and sits, scowling at seacrate and lampetrol-
KARKAT: =huffs= Good. Good job Mituna. Now that that's handled. Let's take care of the other fucking parasites.
KARKAT: =HE'S GOT A HAND ON HIS ROCK=
NYALAH: -pads over to lick Mituna. Sniff his wounds.-
LAMPETRA: =brow raise= I'm Parasite.
MITUNA: -Why she lick me-
KARKAT: The first step is acceptance. The next is messier. =Baring fangs at her, gills flared=
LAMPETRA: =he held his shield across his body, shielding Seakrait too.=
LAMPETRA: You're really going to attack us now?
SEAKRAIT: STOP. \|/e didn't come here to fight.
SEAKRAIT: My name is Micexa Neshen, this is Hesony Zelleu. \|/e were-- team 87B of the legislacerators, with Terezi Pyrope.
MITUNA: and look a7 wha7 you le7 happen
LAMPETRA: LET happen?! We were trying to prevent it!
MITUNA: grea7 fucking job
KARKAT: =That makes him fume= IT SURE AS FUCK DIDN'T STOP YOU FROM-- OH. BY STANDING BY AND TAKING ORDERS? GREAT FUCKING JOB!
MICEXA: ...Sunny. It's alright.
HESONY: We could say the same for you-- =When Micexa spoke, he backed down, though his lip was still curled.=
REDGLARE: -She takes a sharp breath.- S-stop.
REDGLARE: 1 r3m3mb3r thos3 n4m3s.
REDGLARE: Sh3 told m3 4bout you.
NYALAH: -guh. This is very stressful for her. Watch her step aside to hack up the weed she ate earlier. Excuse.-
REDGLARE: -She slumps to sit. Weakly. The binding for her wound is long gone, now, and she eyes the discoloration again.-
KARKAT: =He's absolutely steamed= I REMEMBER THEM TOO, SOME FUCKING BOND.
HESONY: https://31.media.tumblr.com/b4b93178d916e9e0c52eeb0a23bf6adf/tumblr_inline_nejn5fCzWh1s4sxxd.gif
KARKAT: =eat his entire ass, son=
MICEXA: You saw that woman. If we had shown weakness or hesitance...
MICEXA: -her face twists somewhat- I was trying to warn you, to be compliant. For her sake. For all your sakes.
HESONY: And you didn't listen.
MICEXA: -rests a hand on Hesony's arm.- But it doesn't matter now. \|/e need to keep moving.
NYALAH: fuck you actually in the t33th broh -swallows dryly and stands. Hhh.-
KARKAT: SO WHAT? SHE COULD KILL HER LATER?? IT'S A FUCKING--=HOLD UP, DID SHE JUST SAY IT DIDN'T MATTER=
KARKAT: =DAVE. HOLD HIS FUCKING ROCK=
KARKAT: =BABY HOLD MY GODDAMN BOULDER=
MITUNA: you don7 ma77er
MICEXA: No. Maybe not. But blame certainly doesn't.
MICEXA: It won't make a difference to her now.
HESONY: Shut it Sparky.
NYALAH: (b33ch)
MITUNA: 347 MY 3N71R3 8ULG3 817CH 80Y
KARKAT: =Expels water so hard from his gills, yup. Sorry. He's throwing this boulder.=
MINDFANG: -Karkat you should probably throw the boulder, she endorses it.-
REDGLARE: -shitting FUCK she is going to try to push herself up and into the goddamn way as he starts to heave it.- DO NOT.
REDGLARE: -its... Not exactly the most graceful movement. She's stumbling and in pain just trying to get up that quick, but all the same.-
MINDFANG: -Redglare what are you DOING.-
KARKAT: =Stares at Redglare. Chest heaving.... he respects her. She was close to Terezi... and she shouldn't be moving. Drops it and pins his fins back, giving her a steady hand=
DAVE: -GIVE ME THE GODDAMN ROCK-
KARKAT: =bro ..... you are my rock=
NYALAH: -Gdi. Same tho. She's gay too.-
REDGLARE: look 4t us. W3 n33d. 4ny h3lp w3 c4n f1nd.
REDGLARE: W3 h4v3n't spok3n to our cr3w 1n d4ys 4nd w3 st1ll h4v3 our ord3rs to f1nd th3m.
HESONY: =he nodded at Redglare= We Have supplies for you.
HESONY: Water, food, winter clothes...
KARKAT: =They could kill and loot these two. Easy, but she's right. Clenches his jaw=
MICEXA: ...Just a few of your personal effects. The others have the rest. \|/e could only get so much before we ran.
MINDFANG: -She does indeed have a point. However, guys, once we are out of the cave then we kill them right?-
HESONY: =he nodded, confirming Micexa's words= We even managed to acquire one of your comms devices.
REDGLARE: W3—
REDGLARE: w3 n33d to cont4ct th3m.
REDGLARE: Th3r3 4r3 p3opl3 who d3s3rv3 to know.
MICEXA: -uncaptchalogues the communication device and offers it over to Redglare. She doesn't seem particularly proud about it.-
HESONY: =he took a few steps towards them, emptying his sylladex of vital supplies in question. There are a new change of clothes for everyone in various sizes, including warm jackets. Please dress yourselves.=
DAELOS: -Hunched against the wall, panting- watching the legiscerators with disdain and wariness.-
REDGLARE: -She takes it, letting a breath go. Then she turns over her shoulder and offers it to Karkat, instead.-
HESONY: =after he is finshed, he backed away again.=
MITUNA: -Still scowling at them, eyes glowing, ready. He's not above murder, right now.-
KARKAT: =Takes it. It feels heavy he just goes off to a corner to like, fuck himself with it or whatever=
NYALAH: -at least gets a jacket on, not caring that she's dripping wet.-
MICEXA: -once he checks it he should be able to tell it was Terezi's-
DAELOS: -Helps Nyalah get her clothes on before bothering with himself.-
REDGLARE: -Shaky and shivery as she goes to get the clothes on. She's a little bit feverish, right now, but it already feels a little better.-
NYALAH: -Stop it, you loaf. Now she's helping Daelos.- dumbass ass ass
KARKAT: =ok in that case hes going in the corner to cry=
DAVE: -looks at those winter clothes desperately. HE NEEDS-
DAVE: -BABE NO-
DAELOS: I canter even believe you are moving around of your own volition, let alone pausing to insult me -FUSSES, BITCHES.-
HESONY: =take them, Thinskin!=
DAELOS: -Lets her help him tho because....He's so tired.-
NYALAH: not you
REDGLARE: You r4n. 4r3 you go1ng b4ck?
MINDFANG: -She doesnt exactly feel like trusting them, but quite honestly what is the worst that clothes could do shes grabbing sizes that will fit her and pulling them on as quick as she can.-
MINDFANG: -The jacket takes a moment or two, the wolf teeth did a number on her robo arm at the elbow joint, its stiff.-
HESONY: =stares at Redglare in complete silence then LAUGHS=
MICEXA: -glances at Sunny. Same...-
MICEXA: There's no going back now.
HESONY: Are you kidding? We go back, we die.
MITUNA: -Uses his psionics to dress, because his left arm is fucking useless.-
DAVE: -crawlings a no and he's gonna need some assistance standing up- someone toss me clothes for fucks sake
MITUNA: you 5hould go back
DAELOS: It would only be the begining of your recompense
NYALAH: -Are u sure Mituna? Nyalah licked it.-
DAELOS: -DISDAINFUL-
MITUNA: -It's fucking broken but thanks kitty-
HESONY: =flips Mituna off=
NYALAH: -purr purr purr.-
MINDFANG: -Dave the human, you are so sad. She takes some pity and brings him clothes that she thinks will fit him.- Please tell me you have some way of getting dressed yourself.
MITUNA: -Flings a rock at his head-
NYALAH: h33 h33
KARKAT: =thank you Mituna=
MICEXA: -why is Terezi's new swarm so bad at listening jfc-
DAVE: no ive lost the use of all parts of my body -pretends to go limp but that hurts too- FUCK
KARKAT: =GEE=
HESONY: =the rock bounces off his noggin. There is a little bit of blood, but for the most part, he's hard-headed=
MINDFANG: ........ Incredi8le.
HESONY: =staring at mituna flatly=
KARKAT: =wipes his face then goes to help Dave get dressed. Gives him something to do= Move. I got it.
KARKAT: Not you Dave. You don't move.
DAVE: hey i was gonna get pretty then go over to you DAVE: how am i gonna play hero now
MINDFANG: -Thank you Karkat, please take care of your rail so she does not.- Alright.
MINDFANG: -Moves aside and takes a moment to herself to roll up her sleeve and inspect the damage to her robot limb.-
KARKAT: You can do that later. =helps him out=
MITUNA: -Now Sunny is the one being flipped off-
[[ It got wolf chomped pretty great. There are some small dents in it, in the very least. ]]
MICEXA: \|/henever you're ready, we'll make our way out of here. I have a plan to get us out of this state.
MICEXA: ...But.
REDGLARE: but?
HESONY: =busy flipping Mituna off again=
DAVE: -fine- so we need to go to minnesota
MICEXA: -glances at Redglare specifically- You're badly infected.
MINDFANG: -Earth sucks ass. God damn wolves.-
DAVE: yeah redglare
DAVE: holdin us all up with your stanky leg and shit
REDGLARE: 1 c4n w4lk.
MINDFANG: For now you can.
MINDFANG: What a8out l8ter.
MICEXA: It could spread to your heart.
KARKAT: =dave please= You need that taken care of. If i can't kill them them you can't have a bum leg.
HESONY: ....She's right.
KARKAT: =said while dressing Dave, not even looking at them=
REDGLARE: 1t's—
REDGLARE: just p41n. 1 c3n h4ndl3 th4t.
REDGLARE: -glances back at Karkat... And Mindfang... and then both Hesony and Micexa.-
REDGLARE: -Hisses softly, under her breath.- sh1t.
HESONY: I get it, okay? Pyropes can go a long way before keeling but this is different.
DAVE: sure
DAVE: and i was just cold the other night
DAELOS: -Does he have his tool box back?-
KARKAT: Great. Thanks.
KARKAT: =AT REDGLARE=
KARKAT: =the other two can die in a hole.=
REDGLARE: -She is not talking as she slumps back to sitting.-
MICEXA: -frowns, quiet for a long moment.-
MICEXA: ...I can make it quick.
HESONY: =been there almost done that=
REDGLARE: 4lr1ght.
DAVE: -o boy-
KARKAT: =next time try harder=
MITUNA: um
MITUNA: UM
HESONY: =waves mituna over= We're gonna need you, Sparky.
MITUNA: WH47 7H3 FUCK 4C7U4LLY
MICEXA: I need a belt, towels, and yes, you-- psionic-- I'm going to need you to cauterize the wound.
DAELOS: Hold on a moment
DAELOS: Please
HESONY: =welp, he's unbuckling his own and sliding his belt from his waist.=
MINDFANG: Cauterize the.... -Oh.-
DAELOS: -A little loudly-
MICEXA: -glances at Daelos-
DAELOS: Is my toolbo% in your possesion
DAELOS: By any chance...
MITUNA: 3XCU53 7H3 5H17 0U7 0F MY 5P1N4L CR3V1C3
DAVE: -pulls karkats face into him because he knows he can't handle this-
MICEXA: The only other thing we have is... Just give it to them, Sunny.
KARKAT: =He's seen ear Dave, but it's appreciated. He still looks tho,redglare needs things to bite down on=
KARKAT: =She can have his arm or something=
HESONY: =His sigh is hitched and he produced Terezi's cane. Just kind of...holds it.=
DAVE: -no????-
DAELOS: -He sighs- Nothing else
DAELOS: -HE HAD SOME WEEDS. HE WANTED TO GET REDGLARE NICE AND STONED FIRST BEFORE THEY LOP OFF HER LEG.-
HESONY: Sorry. =he says, kind of lamely.=
REDGLARE: -u giant blue stoner-
NYALAH: -It's okay, Daelos. Weed just can't solve every problem.-
MITUNA: -That...probably wouldn't help???-
KARKAT: =GLARES at Daelos or he would but stares at her cane=
DAELOS: -It's better than nothing.-
KARKAT: =SPACE WEED=
DAELOS: Ah well...proceed
HESONY: =Wanna nom on this, Rg?=
REDGLARE: -SHES NOT GONNA BITE HER SWORD CANE THAT'S SOME KINDA DESECRATION-
MICEXA: -she's too busy tying Redglare's thigh with a belt to offer her something softer to bite-
HESONY: =Hey, their buddy Kreyse had this made, it aint from some piece of shit steel=
KARKAT: =no buddies are here for you, sir=
NYALAH: -gotta high tail it out of this cave. She can't do this. Don't worry, she's not going far.-
DAVE: -ur buddy is dead-
MITUNA: wai7 5o you wan7 me 7o gazebla57 her leg
HESONY: =Too soon, Dave.=
MITUNA: wha7 7he fuck
KARKAT: =he would also say they weren't buddies. They're both dickwads=
HESONY: =carefully turns to Mituna= Unless you want her to bleed to death?
REDGLARE: -shes gonna stuff some coat fabric into her mouth instead, that may work.-
MICEXA: -just kind of stiff... this isn't very fun. But at least she knows what this is like. She stuffs some more extra fabric under her leg to make it comfortable and eventually catch some of the blood before picking up her axe to clean it off, turned away where Redglare doesn't have to see-
MICEXA: Do you want a warning?
MITUNA: UM W417 HOLD ON FUCK DUD3 H0LY 5H17 -He's not ready!-
HESONY: ....
HESONY: =to Mituna= Do you want a warning?
REDGLARE: -closes her eyes and shakes her head. SHE is ready, at least.-
MITUNA: Y35???????
HESONY: =Holds up his hand. 5.=
HESONY: =puts down a finger. 4.=
MICEXA: \|/e can't wait for more of them to find us.
MICEXA: -turns toward Redglare, glancing at Hesony and counting in her head as she raises the axe.-
MITUNA: -He's really jittery and sparky-
HESONY: =3.....2.....1.=
MICEXA: -JUST DONT GAZEBLAST THE REST OF HER LEG OFF.-
MICEXA: -and with the rest of the countdown, she swings the axe, quick and sure.-
REDGLARE: -It is bloody, but done. She is shaking and not looking at the damage. It's hardly a delicate surgery, but she keeps her eye open through it, clamping down hard on the cloth and muffling her scream.-
HESONY: =He just...puts a hand on Redglare's shoulder, squeezing it. There there.=
MITUNA: -He's screaming too, and that's helping him keep from vomiting at the moment. There is enough focus, to concentrate his blast on the stump of her leg, the scent of seared flesh fills the air-
MICEXA: -moves the missing leg out of the way for Mituna-
HESONY: =wow, he's so out of practice at comforting others it shows.=
NYALAH: -the explosion of blood is making her gag and hurl in the other cave chamber. There's nothing in her digestive sac to upheave but here she is.-
REDGLARE: -okay NOw She is SURE BLACKING OUT. so much for staying awake.-
KARKAT: =There to catch her=
REDGLARE: >;'I
KARKAT: =he's sorry about all this. And it shows=
MITUNA: -Once he's done he just....lurches forward and dry heaves bile-
HESONY: Good job, Sparky.
KARKAT: =yep....he frowns then glares at Hesony=
MITUNA: -Throws up in his general direction. Fuck you buddy??????-
MICEXA: -gritting her teeth as she quickly cleans off the blood on her axe. She stows it away. She's sorry, too, but it won't do much good to say.- MICEXA: She should be okay. MICEXA: Just needs rest. MICEXA: \|/e're heading for a compound. The blizzard's heavy, so we have some time before communication can reach them about Sunny and I. \|/e should be able to get transport and maybe a few supplies if we hurry.
Last Monday at 5:09 PM
HESONY: =makes a face at Mituna but...turns back to Redglare. Taking out a small first aid kit, he covered Redglare's affected area with saline before placing gauze pads over it and wrapping it up in bandage.=
NYALAH: -stumbles back into the chamber. Sweaty and ashened faced and just. Done with everything.- lets fucking do this shit
KARKAT: =he can carry redglare and he also got dressed at some point, not liking at the doucheduo= Then let's go.
DAELOS: Yes
DAELOS: -Are they actually getting out of this alive? It doesn't feel real.-
HESONY: =that's the plan=
[[ The ground had gradually begun to incline upwards over the duration of a few hours, making the climb slightly more difficult. However, it may be a good sign they are heading towards the surface once again. ]]
NYALAH: -bottom line is, she's scrambling for her life. Panting heavily. Possibly feverishly.-
DAELOS: -He's basicallly dragging himself like a large blue slug, lagging far behind the rest of the group.-
REDGLARE: -murmuring fitfully, now and then. She's out with a cold sweat. Maybe she's wandering in the dream bubbles...-
(FEFETASPRITE): -she has a dream of a certain catfish ghost waving to her as she floats through the void.- 3833
MICEXA: -waits a little and offers Daelos a hand. She managed to carry him down this hole, she can probably help him out of it.-
HESONY: =after he believed Karkat had sufficiently calmed down a bit, he fell in step beside him. Wordlessly, he handed over the cane to him.=
MITUNA: -That's Karkat's secret. He's never calm.-
DAVE: -bringing up the rear, sword in hand. significantly slow, but it works for their efforts, even if he does get hit with extreme pains from time to time-
MITUNA: -He could just...float you. You don't have to suffer my guy-
DAVE: -GIVE YOUR PSIONICS A FUCKING REST-
DAVE: -no pain no gain-
MITUNA: -No?????-
KARKAT: =Truth. He's just carrying Redglare but he takes her cane without a word. Looking over it sadly, silently and continuing to walk.=
KARKAT: =Also dave don't be dumb=
KARKAT: =Same to you Mituna=
DAVE: -I'm NOT i'm MOVING myself-
MICEXA: -gdi, she glances at Sunny and the human. Pls help this weird alien kid-
MINDFANG: -Dont worry if one of them falls she will drag them-
DAVE: -HE'S OKAY-
MINDFANG: -Are you sure Dave, she could always drag you.-
DAVE: -how is that any better?!-
MINDFANG: -Would you rather be left behind?-
DAVE: -yeah actually-
HESONY: =ugh, FINE, miss! He fell back in line and scooped Dave up in a fireman's carry=
HESONY: =carefully=
DAVE: oh hell no
KARKAT: =stares into Hesony's fucking soul=
MITUNA: i go7 him
DAVE: you gonna go for my throat again
DAVE: if you do it might make for an artistic death picture
DAVE: i dont think i had enough of a concussion before
HESONY: Shut up. I'm Helping.
MITUNA: -Floats Dave away from Sunny-
MITUNA: i go7 you bromigo
DAVE: put me down
HESONY: =HANGS ON =
DAVE: OW FUCK
MITUNA: -Do not break the dave?-
MICEXA: -stares at the ceiling like jfc- Infighting isn't going to get us to the surface any faster.
MITUNA: le7 him go bulgero7
HESONY: =At Mituna= You are being childish.
MICEXA: Sunny, just let him go. If they want to waste their energy, let them.
KARKAT: =good Mituna, FAST BUILDING HISS= DON'T TOUCH HIM. DON'T TOUCH ANYONE. DON'T TALK. FUCK OFF.
MICEXA: \|/e've done what we can.
DAVE: - DONT WANT TO BE A GAME OF TUG o WAR-
HESONY: =one by one removes his fingers=
DAVE: -the pain from the resistance is a lot MAKE UP YOUR DAMN MIND GUYS-
KARKAT: =allow him to motivate you. Grabs the wrist= Go to the only person here that can stand you.
KARKAT: =HE WILL FIGHT WITH REDGLARE ON HIS BACK but he'd rather not=
MITUNA: -Shhhh, he's got you Dave. He should feel floaty now, maybe even a little tingly. Enjoy the ride Dave, you earned it.-
MICEXA: He was trying to help. That boy won't last much longer on his feet, and we can't afford to wait.
KARKAT: He's socially inept along with being a dick. Use words not that he'd take the help. Now stop fucking around or I will literally fucking eat your hand.
HESONY: =just glaring down at all these pipsqueaks in this 7'5" glory.=
DAVE: mituna dont
DAVE: no
DAVE: stop over exerting the mind you just got back
MITUNA: i go7 him
DAVE: oh christ
KARKAT: =HE DOESN'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT HEIGHT MY GUY=
MITUNA: 5hu7 up bro7a7o you weigh fuck all
DAVE: whatever
REDGLARE: -She might be scolding people to pretend to get along if she were awake, but she's still super unconscisous
MITUNA: like a bean
MICEXA: -growls. He already let go pls-
KARKAT: =He didn't punch him at least.=
MITUNA: bean dave
HESONY: =jerks his wrist from Karkat and just stomps ahead to scout out an exit to this stupid cave.=
KARKAT: =THAT'S FUCKING RIGHT STRING BEAN. Adjusts Redglare gently and walks on=
DAVE: shut up
MITUNA: mi57er beeeeheheeeeeneh
DAVE: why
MICEXA: -watches after Sunny... they promised to do something but it sure isn't easy. Not that she expected it to be. Of course they hate them, after what happened. She hates herself, too. But she keeps giving herself reasons to keep moving, and maybe one day, she will figure out why.-
HESONY: =Fuck yeah, it was hard! It was beyond him how Terezi could get along with so much of the disagreeable sorts, but they did promise. No matter how much he wanted to leave them to their own devices, he couldn't. If he and Miss died because of these people....well...at least he could say, "Look, Rez, I tried, but your friends are real assholes."=
[[ Soon he is able to hear a very faint howling of the wind, and far up head, there is a sliver of flickering light coming from behind a thin crevice. ]]
MITUNA: -I mean. She'd agree. We are assholes. That's why she loves us.-
HESONY: =She loved us too! As least I have the common decency to use past tense!=
DAVE: -I'M THE ASSHOLE?????-
DAVE: -IN THIS SITUATION????-
MITUNA: -Honestly go fuck yourself her love continues in death-
MITUNA: -I MIGHT KNOW JUST A TAD BIT MORE ABOUT THE DEAD THAN YOU-
MICEXA: -YALL... chill...-
HESONY: =You probably know 100% more about the dead than me!=
MICEXA: -oh ok-
HESONY: =eventually he's coming back down towards them to report=
HESONY: Now try not to give yourself wedgies, but I see light back there.
HESONY: =jabs his thumb in the direction he came=
MICEXA: Everyone ready for the storm?
HESONY: Unless you wish to stay in Here of all places, of course.
NYALAH: i say it again
NYALAH: lets fucking do this thing -not stopping. She's doing the whole wheezy climb up.-
[[ When they get to the crevice, they will see that some of the bigger trolls will have to side step through it. ]]
HESONY: =he holds his hand up to Nyalah, not touching her. Everyone seemed to have a problem with that LAST time.= Wait. I will make sure it is clear.
HESONY: =he turned and shimmied through, glancing at his device before looking ahead into the storm. Not long after, he waved for the others to come out. He's even going to put his shield over the entrance so yall don't get snow in your faces. Your welcome.=
NYALAH: -she's too tired to notice these things. Her energy is at max cap.-
MICEXA: -nods and ushers everybody through. LETS GET THIS ROAD ON THE SHOW-
LATULA: -SHE'S not passed out at least... INTO THE COLD-
[[ Using a handy dandy GPS to get them to the nearest town, Tanana, the group sees their first signs of civilization as the lights of the small city appear on the horizon. It has a population of 308. ]]
NYALAH: -nice town. And just as she's thinking about it, she collapses. Blacked out again.-
HESONY: =just...looks at her then glances up at the rest of the crew= You gonna rip my arm off if I attempt to carry her?
NYALAH: -Fuck u. She still has 6 more lives left. She's GOOD. And also unmoving, faceplanted in the snow.-
MITUNA: -FLOATS HER TOO-
DAVE: mituna
DAVE: no
MITUNA: mi7una ye5
KARKAT: =he can't carry everyone but he could try, sighs= Just let him carry her for now since he learned how to use words.
KARKAT: No one wants to be around the other longer than we have to.
MICEXA: -she's not slowing down this time.- \|/e should get close, find somewhere to hide you all... I'll go in and get transport.
MICEXA: -glances at Sunny-
MICEXA: No guarantees we'll be able to make an easy stop after this. \|/e should get as many supplies as we can.
HESONY: =to Mituna= You're gonna burn yourself out keeping that up.
HESONY: =He nodded once Miss spoke and gathered Nyalah into his arms.= Good plan, say we're going on a road trip. Say The Expunger told us to hit the road or else. =He's trying to be funny. Is it working?=
MITUNA: already did i7 once and i7 wa5 doing 5ome7hing a lo7 harder 7han 7hi5
NYALAH: -if she were conscious, she would be snickering cuz Mituna said he "did it". Oh also he said hard.-
NYALAH: -ragdolls in Sunny's arms. Noodlecat.-
HESONY: =He swears that every single one of them is purposely trying to make his life difficult=
MITUNA: -Ye-
NYALAH: -stfu she only weighs like 3 potatoes. Weak.-
HESONY: There are forests bordering the town. We can remain there while you obtain transportation.
HESONY: Be careful. The Expunger may Have already delivered a warning.
MICEXA: \|/e'll see. -looks at Hesony for a few moments... and then OFF SHE GOES-
MICEXA: -Why does this feel so familiar?? Oh wait-
HESONY: =HE'S TRYING TO IGNORE THAT=
MICEXA: -turns around real quick, runs back over to Sunny... kisses him right on the mouth.- MICEXA: -RUNS OFF FOR REAL THIS TIME-
DAVE: -wow. such romance. very love. wow.-
HESONY: =He returned the kiss, watching her run off. Just like sweeps before. Wow. So familiar it burns.=
HESONY: =He led the group into the forest, to wait and kept watch upon the city for any sign of activity. It isn't until later that he realizes he's alone with all these people who probably hate him. Well, probably isn't the right word so much as definitely.=
HESONY: :(
MITUNA: -Suck it up buttercup-
DAVE: -definitely-
HESONY: =Stick it where the sun dont shine, Sparky.=
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3 years ago my cat had kittens... i could still talk to my mom kind of.... and... things were ok aside from me being upset over some dumb boy
And i was thinking how i wanna go back. I miss my mom so much i want to go back. And was like. Well that wasnt a good time, a year before was better right?
Leading me to the reason why I was so miserable as a kid.
Look. Im a miserable person - i dont want to blame it all on one person but fuck man...
Everytime i think about times where i was happy, i realize SHE was the reason I WASNT.
Middle school - i had friends. I was smart. I liked school. I had hobbies and dreams. But i never wanted to leave school because i didnt want to come home. I didnt want to come home becauae of HER
I keep saying her like im talkig about my mom. Im not. Im talking about my great grandmother
I just sat here for 10 minites telling myself im stupid and making things up and making things out to be worse than they are.... i bet that thinking comes from her in all honesty
Thinking, “did she love me?” Now. I dont care. I dont miss her. Everytime i think about her its upsetting that i had her in my life... the only good thing i can ever say about her is “i know what its like to have a strict parent” THATS NOT GOOD. like fucking thanks for screaming at me every holiday to eat correctly. Now i know table manners. Thats all you did for me - while making me dread every fucking family dinner which aside from you was wonderful because my family used to be cool.
She ruined every holiday. She didnt want decorations. Were were gonna burn down the house. We were making a mess. We were being loud. She doesnt want this or that in HER HOUSE. She constantly chased everyone out the door because she NEVER had anything nice to say. The second she entered the room everyone made excuses to leave. When shed open her fucking creaking door the laughter would stop, smiles turn to cringes and wed all look at each other with the “welp the funs over” face
She was just so mean. You cant be happy because you’re not doing something she wanted you to do. Or you fucked something up. Theres some reason that youre supposed to be upset or concerned. BUT YOU CANT WIN THAT WAY EITHER - if youre upset - how dare you. You have so many good things you entitled undeserving brat. Fucking appriciate everything. The best way was some mixture where you smile but are ready to be pissed the fuck off in a moments notice. Cause if you wete more pissed off than she was the yelling was cut in half and mostly just her telling you not to give her that attitude - instead of a whole lecture on why you’re a fucking failure.
Everytime i think of a better time in my life. Its not even that much better because of that demon in my life. Constantly teling me shes gonna kick me out of the house. Constantly telling me im a burden to my mom. Constantly telling me im the reason for all her problems and saying that my animals were going to banrupt her.
The only thing i did well in her eyes was that i got good grades in school. She beleived my report card. Thats all. Pretty amazing that she could beleive that but thought i was too damn stupid to graduate college because there was a physical paper in front of her that she recognized
If i cooked or cleaned i did it wrong - if i didnt i should have
Why am i always at my best friends house?! “Her family doesnt want you there!!”
Why dont you play with your animals?!? Stop making noise playing with your animals!!
There was no escaping her. I broke my nose in a car accident and my friends mom took me for surgery. She came running out of the house to complain to my friends mom about how she could have taken me but i didnt ask her and im so awful - right after my surgery. Cause like why dont you want someone whose constantly bitching at you and telling you how shit you are to take you to a stressful surgery?
Conditional love... i already knew that... but its like the first time ive used it myself and havent just attributed the description.
She was my step - great grandmother. Shes all i ever knew but we werent blood related.
She loved my grandfather and my aunt and even my aunts two kids - the way family loves. She was still a bitch but she didnt disown them when they bugged her
The rest of us. Including my mom. Conditional love. Its not like she never did nice things. But she did expecting something in return.
Maybe shes why i dont like dealing with people im not allowed to say no to. Like i have such a deep seeded hatred for that relationship that the second i sense it i just refuse to deal with it again. You couldnt say no to her. You couldnt. If you said no to her about ANYTHING pack your fucking bags and get the hell out of HER HOUSE. that was her favorite two words. She needed my moms and grandfathers help and asked them to move in. But. We were guests in HER HOUSE.
I had some trauma as a kid that I probably would have gotten over if the happy family i knew before we moved to my great grandmothers stayed that way. But my aunt was always miserable. My uncle ran away as fast as possible. And my mom. A people pleaser. You know those old traditions where a man marrys and then he fucks off and does whatever he wants leaving his wife to serve his parents hand and foot. That was my moms life. He cheated on her and the demon made fun of her for everything, apparently constantly telling “dumb poloc” jokes. My mom cleaned everyday and cooked and took care of everyone and took care of our farm basically alone. I tried to help... i was a kid... and she was depressed. You wouldn’t know if you didnt really listen - which no one else in my family did.
And i looked at my mom everyday. I didnt really get it. All i knew was she was a wonderful kind generous happy - all around best human. And yet. Her life sucked. And she was sad. And i wonder if my mom would have been so sad if not for the demon...
My grandfather loved his mom.... but he used to never come in the house. My whole life. He was always out. The moment she died, he was always in the house. Maybe because he missed her and was sad.... but... i dont think so.... he stopped drinking a case of beer every night too
This whole post just to say... im mad that if goven the chance... im not sure if id go back to any of those times where i had to live with the demon... even though everything else at those times were good... the amount of stress and misery she gave me... almost outweigh the good... and. There was alot of good. I miss so many things.
I wanna be with my mom again. Without the dementia. I wanna be with my animals. I wanna be with my friends. I want second chances. I wanna make changes.
I loved her dude...i used to wish good things on her... i beleived she truely cared about me...
When she was dying. She couldn’t talk. Her friend called. I offered to put the phone to her ear. The friend was dismayed when i aswered. The tone of her voice changed. And she went “oh. The granddaughter.” She asked to talk to the demon as though i was holding the phone away from her and like i just wanted to hear whatever secrets she may have and wouldnt actually put it to her ear. She hung up angerly... as though... i wasnt an upset family member... i got preoccupied by the pleading look in my greatgrandmothers eyes. She wanted me to put the phone to her ear... but the woman had already hung up. I told her she had to go but said shes thinking of her. She looked so disappointed that she couldn’t hear it herself. And i felt... still feel bad... for the dying woman in her last days...
But maybe if she hadnt constantly talked about me as though i was the worst person because i dared to live my life the same as my aunt with animals and friends. But then go off to college but take a server job when o couldnt find a better one. Talked about me like i tried to kill her myself and that i was so lazy and rude and terrible. Maybe. Her bitchy friend. Wouldnt have hung up upon even having to interact with me
And then. Even in death. She made sure that i knew my place. she wrote her obituary herself. She put my aunts kids who are 13+ years younger than me, ahead of me, when listing her great grandchildren.
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Treadmill Treats Monday message Without faith it is impossible to please God This is a question that so many people ask, what is faith? How do you get faith? The bible says: "It is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen" Faith is that total trust, that though I don't see God, I still believe God. Don't tell me that my God is not able, my God who parted the red sea, that rose people from the dead...dont tell me... he is not a miracle worker feeding thousands from one fish or turning water into wine. Over and over, you see what he can do, even  today in church when a women who had stage 4 cancer and given months to live, she had faith, she never gave up hope and when she goes back to the doctor, they tell her it's gone, they can't believe it, but she can because she had faith. Faith... you can't see it,  but you know it's there, faith the knowledge that he will take care of you. For me faith is the calm when I was going through the storm, I didn't worry, I knew he would provide becauae he has over and over and over. So how do we get this faith? Faith comes by hearing...ask yourself, what are you listening to? What are you reading? Are you watching people on Tv fighting and back stabbing? Is  the music your listening to putting down women, disrespecting others? What are you reading, horrible things about people? Who are you hanging with? Negative people always saying you can't do that, that won't happen... You need to hear the word, read the word, be around people who believe the word, it is then your faith will grow. But let me warn you, always be prepared to make a defense against those who don't believe, those who will tell you it will never happen. Come on we all know those people who said "Please prayers don't work, look at how long you've been praying and still nothing" or "Child please, that dream is way to big" Or "Who do you think you are?That will never happen, your never get there" These are the people you need to let go of, walk away, shut off that television, stop listening to that music that is not inspiring you, you need to change. This is what God says: "Let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like the wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind" All you have is do is change, change your thinking, all he is asking for is you not to doubt him, just believe that anything is possible with God. So today my friends, remember as I always say be the change you want to see, have faith, let go of stress, of worry. Turn it over to God, believe and have faith because without faith it is impossible to please God. "Be the change you want to see"   "And just when the caterpillar thought his life over...he turned into a beautiful butterfly" ***Now available*** My book "The blessing in Disguise" Selling on my website: Http://www.treadmilltreats.com And on Amazon.com http://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/0692437398/ref=mp_s_a_1_13?qid=1462358109&sr=1-13&pi=AC_SX236_SY340_FMwebp_QL65&keywords=the+blessing+in+Disguise http://www.am6azon.com/gp/aw/d/0692437398/ref=mp_s_a_1_12?qid=1434452632&sr=8-12&pi=AC_SX110_SY165_QL70&keywords=the+Blessing+in+Disguise My weekly Youtube page, please subscribe: https://youtu.be/LDSXCFJVnzM Twitter: treadmill treats Instragram: treadmilltreats Facebook :treadmill treats Meduim:treadmill treats Pintrest: treadmill treats Google+: treadmill treats
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dkarchives-blog · 8 years ago
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Engagement Party | Royals
Dimitri was relaxed. Actually, he surprised himself with how relaxed he was. But honestly, Dimitri felt good in terms of where he stood with Celeste. Their night away had certainly done them good and honestly, he felt closer to her. It certainly made things easier knowing they wouldn't have to deal with the tension that often consumed them. That didn't mean Dimitri was eager about this party, though. He always hated these functions. He might have been royalty but he always couldn't help but feel out of place. So there he was, sat at a piano he'd found as his fingers seemingly danced over the keys easily. He was well aware of where he was supposed to be, but he never really listened anyways.
The ring felt heavy on her finger, despite the fact that she had picked it herself with Dimitri's help. They had to act in love, look in love, but most of all, follow the rules society had placed on engagements. So there was Celeste, talking to some other friends, doing what she had to do, when her eyes fell on Dimitri across the room, sitting on the piano. She excused herself and smiled a little as she walked over to him. "You're gonna show off your piano skills now?" She asked playfully, leaning against the piano as she did so.
Dimitri looked up from the piano upon hearing Celeste's words, although his fingers didn't stop moving on the keys. Instead, he played softer. A chuckle left his lips at her question, nodding slowly. "What better time than now, darling?" Dimitri asked with as a smirk came across his lips.
Celeste giggled a little, taking a seat next tohim and watching his fingers move around the piano. "You're just trying to hide from fiance duty." She murmured playfully, shaking her head a little and then sighing. "There's musiplaying already though."
Dimitri laughed softly at her words, shaking his head a little. "Me? Hide? You must have me mistaken," he replied playfully. He then stopped playing, turning to look over at her. "You see, I was trying to start a Scott Pilgrim type thing. Battling it out, yanno?"
"Right. My bad, how could I ever do that?" Celeste murmured playfully, arching an eyebrow and then laughing. "What is Scott Pilgrim?" She asked curiously.
Dimitri almost giggled at her words, shaking his head a little at himself. He laced his fingers together as he rested his hands in his lap, looking at her intently. His eyes then widened at her question. "You've never seen Scott Pilgrim vs. The World?!"
Celeste shook her head slowly, not even knowing what he was talking about. "No? First time I have heard of it, actually." She admitted with a small laugh, reaching over to yake his hand as she did so. They weren't really together, but at least they were in this together.
"Oh, Celeste," Dimitri breathed out with a shake of the head, not being able to help but grin over at her. "Where have you been, hm?" He asked playfully before lacing his fingers with hers to give them a gentle squeeze.
"In Brazil and LA." Celeste said with a small laugh, grinning a little and then looking around herself to see everyone around them. "Do you think we're believable? I don't know what to do to make it feel more real, you know?"
Dimitri laughed at her words, shaking his head a little at her as she did so. Dimitri's features then softened at her questions, his dark eyes moving around to look at everyone slowly before his eyes landed on hers. "Uh, I'd like to think so, yeah." He breathed out gently. "I just...I don't wanna make you uncomfortable, yanno?"
"Yeah, me too." Celeste murmured softly, resing her head on his shoulder and looking back down at the piano and then frowning a little. "What do you mean?"
Dimitri rested his head against hers, sighing softly upon hearing her question. He closed his eyes for a moment, shaking his head a bit. "Just like, being affectionate and stuff, I guess."
"No, I get that. It's fine. I just...I don't want people to judge us and make us look terrible, you know? We are lying, but no one has to know that." Celeste murmured with a small laugh, giving his hand a gentle squeeze.
Dimitri's lifted his head to look down at her intently, his eyes scanning over her face slowly. "I think we'll be fine, Celeste. Really. I mean, my parents don't even seem like they're in love. It's not like the bar is set very high, you know?" He mused gently.
Celeste actually managed a small chuckle at his words, sighing a little. "Right. But do you want to be like every other married couple here? I don't know, maybe all the royals we know have an arranged marriage too. Which is crazy."
Dimitri shook his head a little at the thought of her words, taking a deep breath as he gave her hand a squeeze. "Look," he began softly, his eyes moving to hers, "we'll do us and they'll do them. Okay?"
"Okay." Celeste nodded easily, lifting her head up to look back at him only to be interrupted by a waiter, offering drinks for the toast. "The queen is about to make a toast, you two. She requested you to come with her to the front."
Celeste smiled softly, lacing their fingers together to begin walking to the front of the room. "This is gonna be awesome." She murmured sarcastically, sighing a little.
Dimitri smirked as he heard Celeste's words, moving to slip his arm around her lower back. "It will be awesome. We have each other," he assured her gently as he guided her to the front, his eyes never moving from her.
Celeste smiled widely at his words but didn't say anything else, honestly just wanting to get over this. Tonight had been long so she was glad that this was almost over. Once they were at the front, she stood next to Dimitri, leaning against him a little and wearing her best smile as her mother hit the cup carefully, earning their attention.
Dimitri stood alongside Celeste, keeping his arm wrapped around her as his eyes shifted over to her mother. He put on a smile, hoping it would be convincing enough for everyone in attendance. He gave Celeste's side a gentle squeeze, a reminder that he was right there with her.
"Evening, everyone. This has been a lonely night, and as it comes to a close, I wanted to make a toast for the young couple that we are celebrating tonight. I am beyond happy that Dimitri and Celeste chose each other to spend the rest of their lives with, joining our families and countries forever." The queen said eagerly, smiling widely as she looked around. "So I just want to thank you for being a part of this and that I hope you are as excited as everyone else is about this marriage." She murmured gently, turning to gesture to them so that everyone would clap and cheer for them.
Dimitri's eyes fixated on Celeste's mother as she spoke. He tried to keep the smile on his lips but honestly, it was easier said than done. This whole thing was insane. Absolutely insane no matter how you looked at it. He swallowed hard and exhaled slowly, nodding a little as everyone clapped for them. Dimitri's eyes then fixated on Celeste, arching an eyebrow at her. "Wanna dance?" He asked her gently.
Celeste managed a smile as her mother did her speech, not really knowing whatelse to do and then ultimately sighing softly. Once Dimitri talked to her though and as she saw people begin to leave, Celeste shook her head a little. "Hm? Actually, can we just get out of this room? Walk out in the gardens or something?"
Dimitri arched an eyebrow as soon as he heard her request but nonetheless nodded. "Yeah, yeah. Of course." He replied softly, setting his now empty glass down to lead her outside. Once they were there, he looked at her intently. "You okay?"
Celeste followed him out, shrugging a little at his words. "Yeah. I just didn't want to stay there, you know? Sometimes I remember everything that is happening to us and that there's no way out of it, you know? It's hard." She admitted softly as she led him around the gardens.
Dimitri let go of her now that it was just the two of them, looking at her intently as his hands moved into his pockets. He nodded his head slowly in understanding, trailing slowly behind her. "No, I get it, Celeste. Really." He assured her gently. "You don't have to explain anything to me, you know?"
Celeste sighed loudly, nodding. "And honestly, I'm really sorry that my mother got you into this. She was looking for someone to marry me and somehow she found you. I dont know whats in it for your mom or your country, but from where I stand, this is all her fault. I just...I'm about to get married and my father doesnt even know it. It's all a lie and sometimes it's hard to get past it."
Dimitri was definitely surprised by her words. Sure, they were certainly more open than they'd previously been but this was a whole new level for the both of them. Dimitri shook his head a little at it all, catching up with her and moving to stand in front of her. "Hey, don't be sorry. It's out of your hands. I'm sure your mother isn't the only one at fault. I promise you that much. We don't...This doesn't have to be forever, okay? We can find a way out, Celeste."
Celeste looked up at him as he spoke up, biting down on her bottom lip and swallowing hard. "You think so? Becauae in less than two months...I'll be the Queen of Brazil, Dimitri. I will have to remain here." She explained softly, shrugging a little as she looked up at him. Maybe the fact that she was being so honest was the two glasses of champagne she had had eaelier that night, or maybe she just wanted to talk to someone for real. She didnt know, but she knew he was right person to talk to about this.
Dimitri shook his head a little. He had tinge honest with her. Now more than ever. "Celeste, the future is uncertain. It's uncertain as ever. But once you're queen, who's going to tell you otherwise? You'll be free to make your own decisions," he told her gently, his dark eyes scanning all over her face quickly.
"Literally anyone could tell me otherwise, D." Celeste admitted with a small shrug, sighing softly and then looking around the garden, wanting to just get away for a little while. She had no idea of how she was supposd to deal with all of this. With her new title, with the wedding, with Dimitri. It was just a lot.
Dimitri frowned at her words, taking a few steps away from her until he found himself before a small pond. He shook his head a little at it all, exhaling slowly. "I'm not sure what to say, Celeste," he breathed out honestly. And he didn't. He didn't know how to make her feel better. They were in the same boat.
"You don't have to say anything. Seriously. I just...I wanted to get out. We don't have to talk either. If you want to go back inside, please do it. I just need some fresh air and to calm down." Celeste admitted softly, nodding a little as she looked ahead at nothing in particular.
Dimitri shook his head, dark irises fixated on the water before him. He exhaled slowly, then looking over his shoulder to look over at her with a small smile. "You're not supposed to figure everything out now, Celeste. Just take it day by day. It's what I do. Focus on today and let tomorrow remain a mystery." He murmured, looking ahead again.
Celeste lookd back at him as he spoke up once again, managing a small smile. "Because you are a free soul. Me? Not so much. I never stop thinking." She admitted softly, moving to sit on a swinging chair that was close to the pond and shrugging a little. "Lately, all I do is think."
"No, not because I'm a free soul. Because I live in the moment, Celeste. You gotta stop thinking about everything so much. Before you know it you'll be all old and realize that life just passed you by," Dimitri elaborated gently, moving to sit on the chair next to her and exhaling slowly as he rested his arms on the back of it.
Celeste stayed quiet for a little bit afte rhis words, nodding a little. She knew that he was absolutely right. But lately, there were so many things going on around her that she just didmt know how to handle it. "Yeah, you're right." She said gently, sighing a little. "I really get what you meant that night we went out about us not being the same in the castle now."
Dimitri nodded a little at her response, definitely content to hear that she agreed with him. It was a first, not that it was necessarily a bad thing that they disagreed from time to time. To an extent, Dimitri liked that about her. How she always stood her ground regardless. He arched an eyebrow before they furrowed at her words. "Yeah?"
"Yeah." Celeste admitted, shrugging a little. There was so much pressure on them that things just didn't flow as well as they should have. A part of her was so attracted to Dimitri, a huge one, but for some reason, she hadn't been able to be as close to him as they were that night. "I feel like...we hold back a lot."
Dimitri's features softened at her words and he nonetheless nodded. "I do too," he replied gently. How could they not? When it wasn't just them, eyes were on them at all times. They were doing their best to strive for perfection when it came to their parents, how could they possibly act the way they did when they were alone? "We're always being watched when we're in there, you know?"
"Yeah, I guess that is it. We aren't ourselves." Celeste mumbled gently, sighing a little and leaning back against the seat as much as she could. "Dont you wish that things coukd be just like how we met?"
Dimitri nodded gently in agreement. There was no denying that much. At all. He exhaled slowly and let his head fall back, looking up at the sky although he listened intently to her when she spoke up. "Of course I do. I wish for that all the time.
Celeste reached over to run a hand through his hair carefully as she looked over at him. "The one thing that makes me feel better about this is that, at least, you're with me on this."
Dimitri let his eyes fall shut as she ran a hand through his hair, humming softly in content. "I'm always with you, Celeste." He reminded her gently.
Celeste's eyes softened as she heard his words, moving closer to him. "You say things like that and I don't even know what to say." She said eith a small smile.
Dimitri grinned widely at her words, letting a soft laugh emit from his lips. He lifted his head to look down at her, brushing her hair from her face gently. "Say what you're thinking," he urged softly.
Celeste lookd back at him intently and bit down on her bottom lip. "I dont even know what I'm thinking." She admitted softly, licking her lips as she looked up at him. "What are you thinking?"
Dimitri arched an eyebrow at her response, shaking his head a little. "That sounds like a problem, Celeste," he replied playfully, shaking his head a little at her. "About you, actually."
Celeste smiled a little at his words, furrowing her eyebrows together. "I know." She wasn't really sure of what person she was when she was with Dimitri because she felt like herself but she also felt different and she didnt know how to explain that. "What about me?"
Dimitri let his head fall back against the chair once again, humming softly in content before shrugging his shoulders a little. "I'm glad it's you, is all." He replied honestly.
"Yeah, me too." Celeste said slowly, nodding a little with a small smile and letting go of him to look ahead once again. "You know, we should try to schedule a flight to India soon if you want me to meet everyone before the avtual wedding, right?"
A smile came across Dimitri's lips at her words and he let his head fall to the side to look over at her intently. "Hm, yeah. I miss home," Dimitri admitted. He missed it more than anything, actually. He appreciated everyone making him feel so welcome, but nothing compared to being home.
"Then we should really go soon." Celeste said easily, reaching up to cup the side of his face with her hand carefully as he tilted it to the side, smiling. "We could use a break from here."
Dimitri lifted his head, tilting it to lean into her touch as she cupped the side of his face. "You think your mom will really let you go?" He asked gently, raising an eyebrow at her.
Celeste shrugged a little, grinning over at him. "Maybe we just should call up our pilot and get in our jet, by the time she finds out I'm not in Brazil I'll be out." She said playfully, though she meant it. A part of her also didnt think it would be a problem anyway since it could be considered business.
Dimitri almost giggled at her words, shaking his head a little. "Hm, and have your mother think I kidnapped you? Yeah, I don't think so." He replied playfully. Honestly, running away in any sense was appealing. But he didnt want to get Celeste in any trouble. Things were difficult enough for her as it was.
Celeste laughed a little at his words, leaning over to rest her head on his shoulder once again as she did so. "I really don't think she will mind that. She eill robably think it's business, honestly."
Dimitri shook his head a little at her words, exhaling slowly. "That really irritates me, you know?" He mused gently. "Like, you're her daughter yet it's always business when it comes to her. You're not property."
Celeste didn't move away, instead wrapped her arms around him because she needed that comfort. Just someone there for her. "Yeah...I don't know, it's not always been like that. I used to have an easier life but ever since she messed up...it's been so stressful and different." She murmured softly, shrugging as much as she could.
Dimitri wrapped an arm around her shoulders to hold her close as her arms wrapped around him. He shook his head a little at her words. He could definitely see that much. "It's her fault, though. You had nothing to do with it yet you're facing the consequences. She should be kissing the ground you walk on for saving her ass, you know?" Dimitri couldn't help but be frustrated regarding this whole thing. Celeste deserved better.
"Yeah. I just...I don't think of it like that, you know? This isn't just ablut me. If my family can't have the power, someone wih bad intentions will get it. Brazil and its people are everyhing to me, Dimitri." Celeste murmured gently, nuzzling her fslace into his neck and then lifting her hand to play with his hair a little.
Dimitri listened intently to her although he couldn't help but close his eyes as she played with his hair. "It's good that you care so much about them," Dimitri began slowly, "they'll be lucky to have you as their queen, Celeste."
Celeste laughed a little at his honesty, leaning in closer and bit down on her bottom lip. "I was thinking about you when you asked me...I was just thinking that I don't know what to do about you is all."
Dimitri looked at her intently as she leaned in closer to him, his eyebrows furrowing in confusion. He shook his head lightly, not following her. "What do you mean?" He asked gently.
"Like, I don't know...we have this sort of unspoken thing between us and I've been holding back on saying anything or doing anything because I don't want to mess it up." Celeste mumbled slowly, biting down on her bottom lip.
Dimitri looked at her intently as she spoke, shaking his head slowly as he did so. "You can't mess anything up, Celeste," he assured her gently, his eyes scanning over her face slowly as he brushed some hair from it.
Dimitri rested his hand on the side of her face gently, shaking his head a little at her words as a smile graced his lips. "Well, because we're kinda stuck with each other either way," he assured her playfully, running his thumb along her cheek gently.
Celeste laughed a little, nodding. "Wow, that sounds so romantic." She teased lightly, grinning a little at him and then finally pulling him closer to her to lean her head against his.
Dimitri chuckled softly at her response, shaking his head a little as he did so. He leaned forward to rest his head against hers, humming thoughtfully. "No, but really. I think too highly of you to mess anything up, I mean it."
Celeste stared uo at him as she studied his face, knowing that he really meant it but also a little scared of what this would mean until finally she just leaned in to press her lips to his.
Dimitri would be lying if he said he wasn't surprised as Celeste leaned into him to press her lips to his for a gentle kiss. God, he was attracted to her but never would have guessed she felt the same way about him. He didn't think that highly of himself. Dimitri gave the kiss right back, though, more than eager to do so. His hand moved through her hair until it gently rested on the back of her head. And immediately, he relaxed completely.
Celeste leaned into him as soon as she felt his lips against hers, her armd wrappong around his neck as she moved her lips slowly against his. It was so clear from day one that they were attracted to each other and a part of her hadn't done anything about it because he hadn't and because of he situation that they were in but she remembered that she was going to do this her way, so from now on, she would.
Dimitri moved his lips slowly against hers, really taking his time with the kiss as if to cherish every second of it. Dimitri's other hand moved to wrap around her gently, pulling her closer to him. For once, it felt normal. Like two young adults who were acting on the fact that they had feelings for each other. And Dimitri felt as though he was on top of the world. He finally pulled back after a moment, looking over her carefully as a smile came across his lips. "Well, if that's what you've been referring to this whole time you should have done that a long time ago." He teased her gently.
Celeste was beyond happy. Since all of this had began, the one thing she was happy about was that at least it was Dimitri. Domeone that she coukd see herself with and that seemed to, at least, genuinely interested in who she was. As they pulled back, Celeste giggled at his words and then pecked his lips. "Well, not that whole time. Don't be cocky now."
Dimitri kissed her back quickly, moving his hand from the back of her head to rest on the side of her neck gently. His smile only grew upon hearing her words and he shook his head a little. "I'm not! Just saying, really," he replied through his laughter.
"You better." Celeste said gently, leaning into his touch and taking a deep breath as she rested her head on his shoulder again. "Hm. I just didn't want ot be confused."
Dimitri leaned over to kiss the top of her head gently as she rested her head against his shoulder, giving her side a gentle squeeze. "Well, did that clear some confusion up for you?"
Celeste smiled a little, not moving from her position but lifting her hand to hold her thumb and index finger close together. "Yeah, but only a little bit."
Dimitri laughed once again at her response, looking at her intently as he arched a brow. "How can I make things crystal clear for you, hm?"
Celeste closed her eyes as she shrugged, laughing a little. "I don't know. Talk to me?"
Dimitri's eyebrows furrowed at her response and he leaned back against the chair once more, closing his eyes for a moment. "Uh, let's see. I mean, I think you're really incredible, Celeste. I've been attracted to you since day one. It's just...the situation we're in is so shitty. So fucking shitty, pardon my French. I wish we could just be like this. All the time."
Celeste lifted her head to look back at him definitely wanting to know how he felt about all of this and why he hadn't acted on his own feelings before that. "Yeah...I get it. I do too. I wish it were just us. But it isn't, D. I just...at least we know that this bis real, you know? I meam, getting married in like a month isn't ideal, but at least...I do like you." She murmured gently.
Dimitri nodded his head gently at her words, taking a deep breath. He nodded gently in agreement, leaning over to kiss her temple before pulling her against him. "Day by day, remember?" He murmured gently, then resting his head against hers. "We'll figure it out."
"Yeah." Celeste nodded, smiling as he brought her closer and she slipped her arms around him carefully, sighing in content.
Dimitri kissed the top of her head, sighing softly as he did so. "Wanna head back inside? Not to the party, but like, upstairs?" He asked her gently.
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officialclementine · 8 years ago
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okay so if im aNNOYING CAN YOU JUST TELL ME LIKE OML INSTEAD OF WHEN I TRY TO HANG WITH YOU YA JUST LEAVE. AND WHEN I MESSAGE YOU YOU IGNORE THEM. JUST TELL ME FOR CHRISTS SAKE I CAN HANDLE IT. ITS NOT LIKE IM GONNA GO BALL IN A CORNER. I HIGH KEY JUST WANNA PLAY WITH YOU ANS THEN YOUR LIKE NOPE ANS LEAVE THE GAME AND IM SOTTING THERE LOOKING AROUND BUT UR NOWHERE TO BE FOUND SO I LOOK AT THE FLIPPING LEADERBOARD AND UR NAME ISNT ON THERE CUZ U LEFT RIGHT WHEN I SAW ME AND I REALLY JUST WANNA PLAY A GAME. AND YESTERDAY YOU WERE ALL LIKE "I have to leave in 20 min but I'll be back in 3 hours" TELL THAT TO MY PHONE THAT SAYS YOU SAID THAT AT 2 ANS IT IS CURRENTLY 12AM LIKE WHY DO I EVEN WAIT FOR YOU? BECAUSE I REALLY JUST WANT TO PLAY A GAME AND ITS LIKE A BLESSING QHEN YOU ARE ONLINE BECAUSE YOU ARE NEVER ONLINE AND I MAY BE A CHILD BUT I CAN TAKE WHAT YOU SAY. JUST BE LIKE "You seem kinda clingy and I just want time to myself and my other friends but I'll message you when I'm ready to play" AND IM OK BUT YOU JUST AVOID ME OVERALL AND I REALLY WANNA DELETE YOU FROM MY CONTACTS ON SKYPE BUT WHAT IF IM WRONG ABOUT THIS AND U ACTUALLY DONT THINK IM ANNOYING AND ITS JUST A COINCIDENCE THAT YOU LEFT WHEN I GOT IN THE GAME AND SO IF I DELETE YOU OUT OF MY CONTACTS AND YOU SEE THAT YOULL BE LIKE "why'd you delete me" AND THEN I GO ON A RANT LIKE I AM RIGHT NOW AND THEN YOU GET SCARED AND ANNOYED AND YOU DONT EVER WANNA PLAY WITH ME BECAUSE YOU THINK IM INSANE(WHICH I AM) AND THEN I JUST RUINED A FRIENDSHIP LIKE WHAT DO I DO? I SAT ON MY BED CONTEMPLATING WHETHER I SHOULD MESSAGE IF YOU WANTED TO PLAY SOMETHING FOR ABOUT AN HOUR AND THEN WHEN I GET THE COURAGE TO GO IN THE GAME AND ASK YOU YA JUST LEAVE AND IM SITTING THERE LIKE "imma spectator because I know nothing about Star Wars and how to roleplay about it" AND I GO BEHIND THIS WALL AND THEN I COME OUT AND UR GONE AND IM LIKE WHATTT????!!!? SO THEN I FIND OUT THAT YOU LEFT AND ALL I WANTED WAS TO WATCH YOU RP AND MAYBE YOUD BE LIKE "hey stranger wanna go rp somewhere" AND ID BE LIKE YA THATD BE NICE BUT IF U DIDNT SAY THAT THATD BE OK TO BECAUSE I COULD JUST WATCH YOU ROLEPLAY AND MAYBE ILL GET HOW TO DO IT AND THEN WHEN YOURE IN THAT GAME AGAIN I CAN ROLEPLAY EITH YOU AND BE GOOD AT IT AND YOU WOULDNT THINK THAT IM ANNOYING AND THAT I NEED MENTAL HELP BECAUSE I USED TO BE AN ATTENTION SEEKER LIKE REALLY BAD BUT NOW IM NOT REALLY BECAUSE ATTENTION ISNT GREAT SO I HATE ROLEPLAYING WITH ONLY 2 PEOPLE BECAUSE I DONT LIKE ALL THE FOCUS ON ME AND THE OTHER PERSON I NEED ANOTHER PERSON TO TAKE SOME ATTENTION AWAY FROM ME BECAUSE TO MUCH ATTENTION IS AWKWARD. LIKE IF IM TRYING TO BE MYSTERIOUS AND GO OFF INTO THE WOODS YOU WOULDNT FOLLOW ME BECAUSE THERES ANOTHER PERSON TO TALK TO. SO I HAD ASKED HER IF SHE WANTED TO BE A PART OF THE RP AND SHE WAS LIKE OK AND I WAS LIKE COOL ANS THEN SHE WAS LIKE "nevermind I'm gonna take a nap" AND IM SITTING THERE LIKE NOOO I NEED U PLEASEEE I BEG AND THEN I GOT MAD THAT YOU BAILED ON ME BECAUSE I LIKE ROMANTIC ROLEPLAYS AND SHE COULDVE BROUGHT HER BOYFRIEND WHO ALSO PLAYS THE GAME AND IT WOULDVE BEEN OKAY BECAUAE THEN WE WOULDVE HAD 4 PEOPLE BUT NOOOOO YOU LEAVE ME IN THE DARK AND DID I MENTION THIS DUDE IS NEVER ON SO ITS LIKE A BLESSING THAT HE IS AND WE CAN PLAY BUT WE CANT BECAUSE HE HATES ME. 😭😭😭😭😭
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