#jk.. were divorced now..
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evil-swedenish · 1 year ago
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Xmen 97 girlies bc I love the art style sm
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huginsmemory · 4 months ago
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Where's that one Ford art post thats like I'm in the best years of my life clutching a hot pink thermos thingy with hot gurl juice when he's clearly not. cause damn . Yeah
#ive got it actually downloaded on my phone. so dont actually need it forwarded to me. but also#christ man what day. what a life. what am i doing man. im so exhausted. trying to figure out my masters. which like. UGH first pushed to#do things and then im like oh okay yeah makes sense ill do it and then suddenly people are like a YEAR LATER wait what do u actually want.#like. idk man i do enjoy what im doing and enjoying myself. but also fuck im tired. but also i would be excited to do further work on what#im doing. like. i get my aunt dying recently has suddenly all my other aunts reassesing their lives but its just like. yeah and now suddenly#youre reluctant about the shit youve pushed on me huh#and CHRIST the stress of figuring how the dynamics work since everythings changed up here and ive gotta move AGAIN#and the oma needing to be medivac'd out today like fuck man. and then i fucking went to craft night and started weavibg a basket#like. what the fuck man. and then finished two typesets.#ughhhhhh. and was like damn i needed to make those hours for work today but whatever i guess. tomorrow it is#me w my sad little micky of liquor and my laptop for typesetting and antique roadshow on in the background trying to relax#omas probably fine but CHRIST last i was in they were like shes fucking dying. okay wait shes a little better no one else is in can u#look after her. horribly stressful#yeah. sure. prime of my life. to stress out about everything.#hugin personal#had a breif moment sitting on my bed where everything dropped away and i was like damn what the fuck am i doing. what is going on.#how am i still moving. anyways. i think i need a vacation#its fine its just been a long few months and things keep piling up and im supposed to be making importnat life decisions and i feel like an#impaled beastie on a fork writhing around. AND im not home so i dont got my snuggly boy to cuddle. i just need some sleep i think#the prof i was thinking of supervising me seemed super nice... and talking to stydent this week also where nice and only had nice things#to say. idk man also been thinking this week about growing up and never having your work being acknowledged. its just why havent you not#done that. like. damn. dont think i can recall my dad every saying im proud of you. ughhh some ways good to be out of the house since dads#stressful af to be around and the parents still arent sure about maybe getting a divorce but its also awkward af dynamics here#the rents seem fine for the most part but yeesh. the fall was not good. also i miss my boyyyyyy#anyways. yeah classic NDN thing of your life being fucking run by your aunties somehow work wise#also being asked point blank what i want was like fuck man. what do i want. can u just leave me alone to do hobbies actually...#jk i do enjoy my job. i love research tbh. coordinating stuff less so but it do be a part of it#ok well. whoops rambles on here wayyy more then was expecting
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ghostbustermelanieking · 6 months ago
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my eleventh year (2012) was a wild one, reading wise. by my estimations, that year (for the first time) i read percy jackson, diary of a wimpy kid, the hunger games, twilight, divergent, the uglies series, beautiful creatures, the mortal instruments, thirteen reasons why, and i'm pretty sure i read h*rry p*tter that summer. of course, i've since realized i have a tendency to soooorta skim when i read things for the first time, especially when i was younger, so who knows how much of that i actually absorbed, but like -- what in the pop culture catastrophe assfghjkllghjkllll
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mrblazeflappybird · 1 year ago
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Told a friend of mine that I broke up with my girlfriend and she was so shocked and unsure of what to say that she just gave me a fucking high five and that made me laugh so much lmao
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quartztwst · 20 days ago
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LARGE Quartzul Divorce AU Lore Dump HELP ME (cringe warning)
(More info) (Also "Quartz" and "Quartzsona" are used interchangeably)
"How did they start their relationship?"
LMAOOO NEVERRRR jk
I think we all know that Quartzsona has a THING or at least a LIKING to Azul. That's literally the whole reason why she loves to ragebait him but she'll never admit it to protect herself 💔💔 ("omg tsundere-" GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!!!!)
I think Azul knows this fact too despite being beat up and having his spine broken into 5 pieces that you need find around the NRC campus to get a golden goose but thats okay
They don't really get together during NRC but after Azul graduates, they end up together somehow (Azul using sweet words).
Also take a note that Quartzsona is NOT a regular human or being in TWST, she does not have paperwork and no documents that is listed she is born or exists here. She is in the same situation as Yuu but her story is hella different.
TWST Quartzsona is just a vessel for the Actual Quartz to explore through different worlds so she could easily come and go aka DISAPPEAR AND REAPPEAR. She basically has no other purpose but that. (I'll elaborate it in a separate post.)
The Actual Quartz is only interested if the exploration is fun. If the fun is over, TWST Quartzsona HAS to go. If clinging onto Azul and creating a sudden romantical plot intrigues her maker, then she can stay in the world as long as she wants. Plus, she gets to date the guy she really adored.
Azul, on the other hand, doesn't really have romantic feelings for Quartzsona. He finds her confusing and weird but he knows she like him, which fuels his ego a lot and finds useful. He easily takes advantage of it to boost his image.
He thought the journey would be hard because of Quartzsona's stubbornness but he was surprised to see how much she easily gives in to his empty promises of love and attention.
"How were they in the relationship?"
Being the only one in love, Quartzsona was actually trying her best to be more comfortable and more open with Azul, acting a little childish and affectionate which weirded Azul the fuck out 😭😭😭
Yeah, he didn’t really like it that much. He found it so weird that the Quartzsona he met at NRC was so different to the one he's dating now. He expected her to act more mature and maybe aloof so he could easily just do work but she ended up being "so gross and clingy."
He obviously appreciated the love and affection but it felt scary for him to know that someone really believed he should be loved romantically.
Azul didn't really view Quartz much as a person but rather an accessory or a task on a to-do list. He didn't really want a wife but he had to so he could look at least desirable or for his image.
Because of that view, Quartzsona's actual feelings was usually ignored by him just showering her with materialistic things he thought showed his "love."
Azul sometimes criticizes Quartzsona for being "too affectionate and annoying" which would piss her off and lead to an argument. But Quartz still tried to be a good wife and listened to Azul's criticisms sometimes because she definitely felt like the dumb one in their arguments.
They still have a lot of petty arguments and they still fight over stupid things too. The arguments occurred more frequently at the end of their marriage.
"How did they part?"
I made a comic about that lol -> here
The comic actually has the "fusion" kid rather than Safira because this was before Safira and it has Quartzsona giving birth to her which I changed because of her lack of reproductive organs 😭
Safira's actual birth or how she came to be is ambiguous and who carried the baby is either Azul (🤯) or Quartz but no one really knows.
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It might be Quartz because she took the baby first but we have no idea if she was pregnant 😭😭😭
But the baby was born and Quartz believed that the toxic environment she and Azul made would not be good for the baby, so she offered the divorce and Azul accepted.
Yes, it was a huge decision but Quartzsona had already given up the relationship for her kid and Azul was never in love with Quartz during the relationship until that day on Christmas eve.
It was a short and passing feeling when he saw Quartz walk away from the relationship but he felt a small longing for her. It wasn't anything crazy but he somehow described it as love since you don't miss people you don't love.
But he'll never say that out loud. It's too embarrassing even if it was just a small feeling.
On Quartz's side, she was only doing what she believed was best for them and the baby. Of course she'll miss him but she's willing to get over that. She'll struggle a little but she's willing to get through that.
During the conversation in the comic, you can see that Quartz is being understanding and still wants Azul to be part of the baby's life because he also loves that kid more than anything like her.
Quartzsona still wants her baby to have both parents in her life and is willing to work with Azul to raise her.
"After the divorce?"
As Quartz raised Safira, she started to process how much of an asshole Azul was and grew a strong resentment towards him. She sometimes gets carried away with her feelings and slips up infront of her kid
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(THESE ARE REALLY OLD SO THIS IS THE FUSION KID but the same applies)
Azul doesn't really think about Quartz until he sees her dropping Safira off to him or when he's drunk. He's often really busy but he loves spoiling his kid and saying what his kid likes.
Azul's and Quartz's way of loving and teaching her is quite different. While Azul wants Safira to know that life is safe if Papa is there, Quartz wants to teach her that sometimes life is hard and we don't always get what we want.
They also both still argue and fight but they tone it down around Safira to not worry her.
Safira knows that her parents don't like eachother because why would two parents live in different households? As she grew older, she always tried to be the voice of reason when they fought but it really annoys her and WISHES for them to GET OVER IT IT'S BEEN YEARS
Yeah thats all I got
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torpublishinggroup · 2 years ago
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JK this cat doesn’t work for Tor. At least, we’re pretty sure, with remote work it’s hard to tell who is and isn’t a cat. The person posting this could be a cat. You’d literally never know.
But we do know you should check out Starter Villain by John Scalzi, because it does have hyper intelligent cats working for a villainous organization.
WHAT THE BOOK IS ABOUT
When divorced substitute teacher Charlie’s long-lost uncle Jake dies, he’s not expecting much. Certainly not to inherit a supervillain business, complete with an island volcano lair, giant laser death rays, lava pits, and hyper-intelligent talking spy cats.
But it gets worse.
Because his uncle wasn’t just a supervillain. He was a supervillain who was in the middle of trying to take down the other supervillains. Somewhere along the way he decided that the rich, soulless predators back by multinational corporations and venture capital were a bad idea. And they needed to be stopped.
And now they’re after Charlie.
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chevelleneech · 4 months ago
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I also gotta say, regardless of what people think JM and JK’s relationship is, you gotta admit, them liking and seemingly preferring to be around one another as much as they do is crazy!
Best friends nor even family members want to be around each other as much as Jimin and Jungkook are. They work together 24/7, used to be commute partners almost consistently, Jimin stopped a vacation to fly home to JK, JK crashed out online begging Jimin to come through, they chose to travel together even during group hiatus, then they enlisted together. And even whilst enlisted and obligated to live and work together again, they are seemingly perfectly fine being up under each other. Which is just… wow.
The reason I say regardless of their relationshio as well, is because even married couples need space. Even married couples be like, “I love you, but if we were coworkers we’d be divorced by now.” Of course some spouses do work well together, but it feels like Jimin and Jungkook, even with me thinking they’d had some rough spots, seem almost always in the Honeymoon Phase. Like they communicate better than anyone can really imagine, thus they figure their shit out and persevere. I love that for them. They can’t get enough of one another, even a decade+ into being shoved into proximity, they’re like, “Thank you, more please.”
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bbtsficrecs · 2 years ago
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BTS FIC RECS PART 4.1
Part 4.1 of some of my favourite BTS fanfics. Please do consider liking, reblogging and/or commenting on the fics you like. There are so many wonderful and amazing authors out there who do not get the recognition they deserve. So please send them lots of love to keep them going. If you're on here, then know I enjoyed every second of reading your story ♡
There will be two parts 4 as it's (sadly?) too long to be saved under one post. Stay tuned for part 5, joon recs will be added!
Please let me know if some of the links aren’t working. Happy reading!
⊹ Navi ‣ Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 4.1 | Part 5 |
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⊹ Merry Kinkmas - part 02 Enemies to lovers au au | s | @bebejungkook ‣ You find out who your secret Santa was but his gift was a little too personal.
⊹ In Your Arms Tonight College au | s, f | @angelguk ‣ “I’m Team I Would Like To Be Fucked Tonight.” You stated, blatantly ignoring the stink eye he shot your way. “But clearly that’s not on our agenda. Have you ever seen Vampires Suck?”
⊹ Baecation Richboy!jk au | s, f | @1kook ‣ “Lose the top, or lose the right to present yourself in any low back gown for the next three months.” He truly knew the way to your heart.
⊹ Act Of Falling Fuckboy!jk au | s, f , a | @kooktrash ‣ What was supposed to be a meaningless fling has turned into much more before you both realized you were falling. Now all you can do is hope that all the challenges you’ve faced are worth something.
⊹ Candles & Flames Royal AU | s, f, a | @taegularities ‣  He wasn’t supposed to be yours. His foolery wasn’t supposed to target you. This wasn’t supposed to happen.
⊹ Distractions Practice couple au | s, f | @chryblossomjjk ‣ Jungkook agreed to let you do his makeup, but he can't stop getting distracted.
⊹ Naughty Boy Step siblings au | s | @scribblemetae ‣ Reader is older step sister that knows he has a crush on her/yandere tendencies & she teases him until one day he gives in. 
⊹ When It Feels Right (read part 1 first) Divorce au | a, f | @7deadlysinsfics ‣ Although Jungkook is struggling with the decision he made months ago, he still thinks it was the best thing he could’ve done for your safety. But he isn’t doing well, and his friends are worried about him and how he’s choosing to deal with his feelings. Meanwhile, you’re now living with your brother, his wife, and their ten-month-old daughter, who has helped bring some light into your life. Just as you decide to tell Jungkook the truth about your pregnancy, he appears at your brother’s house with a truth of his own.
⊹ When She Loved Me Terminally Ill au | s, f, a | @jungkookstatts ‣ How does one live when life is bound to end? 
⊹ your step brother fucking you in front of your parents Step siblings au | s | @aris-ink
⊹ Don't Blame Me (on-going) Single Dad au | s, f, a | @thvhoe ‣ Jungkook is known for his good looks and is often described by your friends as "daddy material." Funny enough, he actually was a daddy. The daddy of the baby girl you babysit every Saturday. Working as a nanny for the world's grumpiest single dad should have been easy, but you can't keep your eyes off him. He's handsome, a little arrogant, with broad shoulders and strong tattooed arms. And when he decides he can't keep his hands off of you. Who are you to resist?
⊹ Rolling Stone Idol au | s, f , a | @kooktrash ‣ He was a rolling stone with no ties to anyone or any place and that’s how he and his fans liked it. Now he’s found you and it’s never been this hard to convince someone that he’ll stay. The problem is neither of you know what it means to express yourselves without reverting to sex as a form to end discussion. It causes all hell to break loose when Jungkook realized if he wants you to stay for him [with him] then he needs to show it to you too. Can Jungkook and Y/n get past their own growing doubts on if what they feel is real and work out a way to be together—especially considering Y/n wants nothing to do with the limelight?
⊹ The Ability To Fantom - part 02 (on-going) Brother’s best friend au | a, f | @hanniwrites ‣ You are shocked when your friends reveal their theory: Jungkook, your brother’s annoying best friend, has a crush on you. A bad one.
⊹ Torn Apart Infidelity au | s, a | @bethschamberoftales ‣ That one time when you caught your boyfriend cheating on you.
⊹ My Love Is Here (series) Unrequited love to requited | s, f, a | @solemnreads ‣ You didn’t mean for it to happen. It’s not like you purposely woke up one day and thought “Hey I’m going to fall in love with my best friend!” No, that is not at all what happened.
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⊹ I'll Stop Tomorrow Friends with benefits AU | s, a | @dreamyjoons ‣ You know it has to end.
⊹ Just A Taste Spring break AU | s, f | @cutechim ‣ “Your lips make me wonder what the rest of you would taste like.”
⊹ Flat Tire Established relationship AU | s, f | @ppersonna ‣ How do you pass the time when you’re stuck on the side of the road with your boyfriend, with a flat tire?
⊹ One Mistake (on-going) Idol!Tae & Cheating AU | a | @vamours ‣ it’s been three years since you and Taehyung had started dating. recently, you’ve started to notice changes in taehyung’s behavior towards you. with your four years anniversary only a few weeks away, you’ve come to discover the truth.
⊹ Akrasia Strangers to? | s | @nitaescence ‣ Basically two strangers fucking in a crowded bus.
⊹ Stepdad Taehyung Step!father au | s | @aris-ink ‣ "He was not touching himself right beside you. No, that was not possible"
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⊹ Rock Bottom Idol Jimin AU | s, f, a | @jkbabiey ‣ When, in a four-year marriage, you get to the point where you question its worth, you know that’s your rock bottom. How many I’m sorry’s will you handle? How many times are too many times?
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⊹ What's Poppin Established relationship AU, | f, s | @joonberriess ‣ Yoongi being the type to buy you a chain cause if he’s pimped out, his girl gotta be too.
⊹ Foundation - Part 01, 02, 03 feat Yoongi Non-idol doctors AU | f , s, a | @hamsterclaw ‣ You know Jungkook is a fuckboy. So why are you letting him fuck with you? Featuring Yoongi.
⊹ Looks so refreshed Idol AU | s | @kimnjss ‣ Friends with benefits is hard, but when he’s an international superstar… It’s much harder. So while you love his friends to death, spending the night holed up in his hotel room just sounds a lot more fun than a dinner party.
⊹ Friends (3TAN) Brother's best friend AU | f, s, a | @kithtaehyung ‣ The week you get with Yoongi has a few surprises. and one of them presents itself in the form of a phone call.
⊹ So it goes Friends with benefits (ish) AU | f , s | @prodagustd ‣  You and Yoongi have been hooking up, having dates and spending most of the week together for almost seven months. He was comfortable without a title, until the last two weeks, when you couldn't see him because of your busy schedule, Yoongi can't understand why he misses you so bad if your relationship is just sex to him. Or maybe he does, but he's too much of a coward to admit it..
⊹ Marry me, Yoongi Established relationship AU | f, s | @spideyjimin ‣ When Yoongi decides to get married in vegas after all the fan’s comments on the vlives.  
⊹ Amour Propre Established relationship AU | a | @randombtsprincessa ‣ Crumbling Relationship with one Min Yoongi
⊹ Blind Spot Established relationship AU | f, a | @randombtsprincessa ‣ Yoongi tries to win you back.
⊹Your Universe Rejection AU | f, a, s | @muniimyg ‣ Regretting rejecting oc, Min Yoongi goes through a circus load of gestures and tasks in attempt to be loved again
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celestialgallaghers · 2 months ago
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White Mustang: Wednesday [18+]
this one cost me a new laptop so I hope it was worth it...jk jk this part is my favorite so far and it's part of what sparked this whole idea so i wanted to get it right which is why it took me longer im #sorry.
also thank you for 200 followers!!!!💖
Prelude | Saturday | Sunday | Monday | Tuesday | Wednesday | Thursday | Friday
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Summary: You were younger then, and it was only a crush. Something harmless born in the long hours of a studio summer. But now Noel’s here, newly divorced and quieter then you remember, sharing a house on your family’s holiday. He’s more distant, harder to read, and somehow even more gorgeous with age. Suddenly the feelings you thought had faded are back in full force. But he’s still off limits… isn’t he?
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Wednesday
The next morning, Noel was different. 
Not in a way anyone else would have noticed, but you saw it instantly. He was lighter somehow. Like an invisible weight had slipped from his shoulders. It tugged at something deep and warm in your chest.
You didn’t know how he was going to act today. You barely knew how to act yourself. Now that you’d touched him. Tasted him. Knew what sounds he made when he was falling apart. It made whatever it was between you feel heavier. Potent and impossible to ignore now that you’d stepped over that line.
Your skin itched for him. The ache had settled into you so deeply you didn’t know how you were supposed to sit still and have breakfast across from him like none of it happened.
You wanted to push him more. Test him. See what other kinds of reactions you could pull from him.
But would he let you? 
Would he look at you differently and let those heavy stares linger instead of disguising them? Or would he slip back behind the wall? 
The uncertainty was making you feel entirely out of your depth.
“Sleep well?” you asked casually, keeping your tone light, your eyes fixed down as you nudged a fork through your eggs.
Across the table, Noel’s lips tugged into a crooked smirk that barely surfaced before it slipped away.
“Better than I have in a long time,” he said, voice low and almost private, like it wasn’t meant to be heard by anyone but you.
The words curled warm and tight in your stomach. You could feel yourself softening instantly, helpless against it.
“Oh? And why’s that?” you asked, risking a glance at him from under your lashes. “Sun wear you out, old man?”
He huffed a quiet laugh under his breath, the crinkles around his eyes deepening with amusement. 
“Something like that,” he murmured, lifting his tea to his mouth.
You dropped your head quickly, a smile breaking loose before you could stop it. You smothered it against your coffee cup. You prayed it looked casual. 
Across from you, your dad flipped the page of his newspaper, blissfully unaware.
But you were not unaware. You kept your gaze steady and tried hard not to remember the sounds Noel had made last night. The way he’d come hot down your throat. The way his body had shuddered under your touch, surrendering for the first time. The way he’d finally let himself show his need…you wanted more. God, you wanted more. 
And he’d promised it. Promised to make it up to you. Whatever that meant, it was already burning a hole through you just waiting for it.
You set your utensils down a touch too neatly and rose from your chair. “Thinking of heading back down to the beach today. Anyone have plans?”
Your dad folded up the newspaper, setting it aside with a shrug. “Not really. Might go for a walk later on.”
Noel leaned back, his chair creaking as he pushed away from the table. “Dunno yet.”
You shrugged one shoulder, aiming for nonchalance. "Join me if you want."
His lips curled. The barest flicker of a smile sparked in his eyes more than on his mouth. “Sure.”
He stood, stretching his arms above his head with a slow yawn. Your gaze flickered before you could stop it, drawn to the thin strip of skin revealed just above his waistband. The faint line of hair disappearing lower…
Heat flared across your cheeks and your mind betrayed you, feeding vivid, uninvited memories of exactly what followed that trail. You could almost feel the weight of him on your tongue again, your throat tightening at the phantom sensation. You turned away quickly, before your blush gave you away.
Noel stepped beside you to help clear the dishes. You moved together in an easy rhythm, elbows brushing as you reached past each other. To anyone else, it would’ve seemed casual. But every graze made your skin tingle.
You wanted to touch him properly. To hook your ankles behind his back and feel him sink deep inside you. To bury your face in the warm curve of his neck and breathe him in. 
But not here. Not with your dad still at the table.
You swallowed it down hard, masking it under a neutral expression. Still, you let your fingertips linger just a fraction longer every time they brushed his.
And the quiet thrill that bloomed in your chest when he didn’t flinch, didn’t pull away, made you giddy.
You really had gotten through to him last night. He was letting himself touch you. Wasn’t pulling back. Wasn’t hiding it anymore. No hesitation. No second guessing. It was everything you’d hoped for and more.
Neither of you worked quickly. You dragged out the motions under the thin excuse of being thorough, prolonging the chance to stay near him.
His knuckles grazed the small of your back as he set a glass aside and your stomach dropped sharply. It was ridiculous how something so small could affect you so much.
You heard the scrape of your dad’s chair, his muttered words about getting ready, and then his footsteps faded down the hall.
The second he was gone, Noel leaned in. Close enough that his breath stirred the hair at your temple, warm against your skin.
“You have no idea what I want to do to you right now,” he murmured, voice barely audible.
The words landed like a punch low in your gut. Heat was unfurling in a hot, spiraling rush deep inside you.
You hadn’t expected him to say it aloud. Not like that. Not so blunt and raw. Quiet confessions like that…it sent your mind reeling.
Fuck he really wanted you then. And not in the distant, guarded way he had before. The realization was you making you lightheaded.
You didn’t even get the chance to answer. Footsteps echoed from the hall again and you forced yourself into motion, hurriedly rinsing the last dish with trembling hands. 
When you risked a glance at Noel, his eyes were locked on yours. The corner of his mouth was tipped up. Like he could see straight through you and knew exactly how hard you were trying to hide the want in your eyes. 
Emily’s voice broke the charged quiet as she bounded into the kitchen, bright and unaware. 
You cleared your throat fast, snapping the mask back into place.
“Morning,” you greeted, voice mercifully steady. “You up for the beach later?”
She grinned. “Yeah, sounds good.”
You exhaled slowly, steadying yourself. “Alright, I’m just about to get ready to head down. Noel, you coming?”
His gaze didn’t leave yours. Slowly, that private smile spread across his lips.
“Yeah,” he said softly.
You changed quickly, slipping into a soft blue bikini and pulling a light cover-up on. When you returned to the kitchen, Noel was leaning against the counter, reading something from his phone. 
You watched him for a minute. Everything between you felt sharper now. More electric. The air seemed to hum with it. 
There was no more pretending. No more wondering. The ground had shifted under your feet and now neither of you could ignore it. You both knew exactly how far this had gone. Exactly what you wanted.
Even though his sunglasses were already perched low on his face, you felt the flick of his gaze skimming over you. “Ready?”
“Yup, let’s go,” Emily chimed, coming up behind you and looping her arm through yours. You let her pull you outside, but you could feel it. Noel’s stare was burning heavy on your back as you walked ahead.
The beach was quiet this morning. You laid out a towel, smoothing it over the sand. Emily dropped onto your left. Noel settled on your right.
Slowly, you slipped the cover-up over your head and tossed it aside. The instant the fabric left your skin, you felt the full weight of Noel’s gaze dragging over you. Your skin burned everywhere his eyes touched.
This time, you didn’t shy away. You met it head on. Let him look. Let him know you felt it.
You bent to rummage through your bag, feeling around for a bottle of sunscreen. As you did, your chest shifted forward, breasts spilling over the curve of your bikini top. You kept your eyes steady on him, right over the top of your sunglasses. 
You caught the way his throat bobbed. His breath drew in shallow, nostrils flaring for the smallest second.
Heat licked up your spine. You had him now. You could be bolder. Ruthless.
You squeezed a slow line of sunscreen into your palm and smoothed it over your skin with more care than necessary. Your hands glided over the slope of your collarbones, the tops of your arms, moving deliberately slow.
You turned to Emily, handing her the bottle. "Would you mind getting my back?"
“Sure!” she chirped, still oblivious.
As she worked the lotion over your shoulder blades, you faced Noel fully and tilted your chest slightly toward him. The smirk tugging at your lips was devious. Meant for him alone.
Finally, you eased back onto your towel, stretching out languidly before settling back, book in hand.
You didn’t even pretend to read at first. You just soaked in the thrill of his full attention, watching him out of the corner of your eye.
Each glance he cast was heavier than the last. Like he was trying to speak all the things he couldn't say aloud with just his eyes.
A small, knowing smile tugged at the corner of your mouth when you caught the subtle shift of his hips. The way he had to roll onto his stomach for his own self preservation. 
A fresh wave of heat bloomed low in your belly. A dull throb pulsed between your thighs, sharp and insistent. You shifted slightly on the towel, already slick with arousal. Your bikini was light enough to betray you it if you weren’t careful. Somehow, that only made you burn hotter.
You sat up under the guise of rummaging through your bag again, parting your knees just enough to catch his eye. And catch it you did. His inhale was quiet, but sharp. Unmistakable.
The way his eyes dragged between your thighs set your skin aflame all over again. You swallowed and eased back down, crossing your ankles, squeezing your thighs together with a small roll of your hips.
Noel cleared his throat roughly. You smiled into your book. Triumphant even as you trembled slightly underneath it.
Eventually, the heat of the sun grew too much and you and Emily headed down to the water. The cool waves were a relief against your flushed skin. You tried to let them wash away the film of filth clinging to your brain, but it was no use. 
Even far away on the shore, you were acutely aware of Noel in your peripheral vision. 
On your way back to your towel, you passed him. As you did, you let a trail of cold water drip from your fingertips onto his back and shoulders.
A sharp gasp escaped him as the drops hit his bare skin.
You watched, biting your lip, as he shivered slightly, muscles tensing under the sudden chill. But it wasn’t just the water that rattled him. It was you. His stare was equal parts murderous and ravenous. Like he’d just about had enough of your teasing.
You loved it. 
You stretched back out under the sun, letting your skin dry slowly. Conversation drifted lazily between the three of you. Dinner plans. Possible restaurants. Menial bullshit. It helped keep your mind off of your dirty thoughts about the man sitting beside you.
Almost.
By late afternoon, you and Emily packed up and wandered back to the house. Your skin was tight from the sun, but it wasn’t just that. Your entire body still hummed from the unspoken exchange Noel had laced through every glance.
As soon as you reached the house, you slipped away toward the outdoor shower tucked behind it, eager to rinse the salt and sand from your body. The space was small and private, wrapped in sun bleached wooden slats, the flagstone floor warm beneath your bare feet.
You were just finishing up when the door rattled. Before you could react, Noel slipped inside, shutting it quietly behind him, sealing you both inside.
“Noel, what are you—”
He didn’t let you finish. His finger pressed to his lips, eyes dark. The look alone silenced you. Made your stomach flip.
Wordlessly, he stepped behind you and tugged you flush against his chest. His body was searing hot. You could feel the hard line of him through his swim shorts, nestled against the curve of your ass. Your breath faltered helplessly.
One hand slid low, fingertips ghosting over the front of your bikini bottoms. The other splayed wide across your stomach, pinning you tight against him. His lips brushed the shell of your ear, and you felt him exhale hard as his fingers pulled the scrap of fabric aside and found you. Still wet and needy for him.
A groan reverberated low in his chest, vibrating into your back. His fingers dragged through you slowly, maddeningly, and a strangled sound tore from your throat.
Noel’s palm clamped over your mouth instantly, smothering it.
“Shhh,” he breathed against your ear. “Told you I’d make it up to you, didn’t I?”
You barely managed a nod before he pushed a finger inside, curling it so perfectly you nearly collapsed. Your back arched against him, thighs already trembling. His breathing faltered, hot and unsteady as his nose dragged along the slope of your neck.
He slid another finger in beside the first, stretching you just right, stroking deep and unhurried as you clamped around him. The slick sound of it was swallowed by the patter of the water, but it echoed loud in your ears.
You whimpered behind his hand, your entire body trembling. You’d been so on edge the whole trip that your orgasm was already hurtling toward you. 
His cock pulsed hard behind you as his fingers pressed into that devastating spot over and over again.
Your hips bucked. His grip around you tightened, pulling you back. You could feel him grinding subtly against you, desperate for relief but holding back, the control making you ache even more. 
His thumb brushed over your clit and your knees buckled. You couldn’t stop the breathy moans that spilled from you. He clamped his hand tighter over your mouth. His fingers inside you worked relentlessly now, the pad of his thumb circling until you were shaking. You could feel yourself tightening around his fingers, right on the edge.
Noel’s breath was ragged against your shoulder. He increased the pressure of his thumb and you pressed back hard against him. You could feel his teeth scraping lightly before he bit down hard to stifle his own moan.
It shattered you.
Your orgasm crashed into you fast and brutal, ripping through you. Your body spasmed against him, muscles locking down around his fingers as his arm cinched you tighter. You gasped raggedly into his palm, trembling as he coaxed you through every last wave.
He didn’t stop until the last tremor subsided, until you went limp in his arms. Only then did he slowly ease his fingers out. His free hand steadied you as your legs nearly gave way beneath you. Carefully, he turned you to face him. Your chest heaved, lips parted, still dazed as you watched him bring his slick fingers to his mouth and suck them clean, his eyes never leaving yours. He smirked around his fingers, clearly pleased with himself at how he’d absolutely wrecked you.
You sagged against the cool wooden slats, shivering from the comedown. It took a few moments before you registered the ache blooming in your shoulder. Your fingers rose to brush over the faint indent of his teeth.
“Noel,” you hissed under your breath, somewhere between scandalized and breathless. “I’m gonna have to hide that for the rest of the trip.”
“Whoops.” His voice was unapologetic.
You swatted at his chest, a reluctant smile tugging at your lips. You were leaning in, about to kiss him, when—
Your father’s voice rang sharp from outside the shower, footsteps drawing closer.
Your blood ran cold.
“Have you seen Noel? We’re leaving for dinner soon and I can’t find him.”
Panic shot through you. Your eyes snapped wide, meeting Noel’s gaze.
“No!” you called out quickly, forcing your voice to sound even. “Maybe he’s still down at the beach.”
You were both frozen until his footsteps passed and slowly faded away.
Noel exhaled hard, dragging a hand down his face. “Jesus. That was too fucking close. We’ve gotta be smarter.”
“You mean you have to be smarter,” you hissed, though your voice came out more breathless than stern. “You’re the one who came in here in the first place.”
That’s when your eyes dropped down and caught the unmistakable bulge straining hard against his swim shorts. The outline was obscene. Clear enough so that you could distinctly make out the head of his cock.
You clenched again and your hand moved toward him, desperate to give him the same relief he'd just given you. 
But he caught your wrist in his grip, gently swatting it away with a shake of his head. His jaw was tight. “Not now. You should go before he starts wondering.”
His tone left no room for argument, even as his cock twitched visibly against the thin fabric. You bit your lip, flicking your gaze down, up, down again. You didn’t want to leave. 
“Go,” Noel said with a soft, warning laugh, though his voice was strained. “I’ll take care of it.”
Reluctantly, you turned to slip out but couldn’t help glancing back. Noel stood under the spray, flipping the water handle to cold with a grimace.
You wanted to stay so badly, feel him heavy in your grip again, but knew that he was right. You had to be more careful.
You forced your legs to carry you back into the house, into your room, though they trembled with every step. You could feel him on you. Still. The ghost of his touch sinking deep into you.
Jesus christ his fingers. He was good. Way too good. You already ached for more.
You exhaled a shaky breath and tried to focus on getting ready, though your hands wouldn’t stop trembling.
You managed to pull yourself together just in time. By the time you emerged from your room, the sun had sunk low on the horizon. Your skin still thrummed faintly, hypersensitive from the release you’d so badly needed.
Every shift of your dress over your shoulder grazed the spot where Noel had sunk his teeth into you. You’d checked it earlier. It was unmistakably a bite mark. With luck, it’d fade by tomorrow. You prayed it would.
Everyone was gathered in the front hall, relaxed and tinged pink from the sun. Noel appeared last. Freshly showered, hair damp at the ends. He was calm. Effortless as always. 
But you saw through it. The way his expression was just slightly tighter than usual. He was still on edge, his body angry at him for the release he hadn’t taken.
His gaze flicked to you once. Barely a glance. 
It landed like a gut punch. Your core clenched hard at the memory of his fingers buried deep inside you. Goosebumps prickled over your skin. You had to swallow thickly and tear your eyes away.
You all piled into a car and headed into town, winding through narrow roads. You forced your eyes on the landscape outside the window, trying to take a moment to steady yourself.
The restaurant your father had chosen sat at the edge of a cove, tucked beneath a canopy of string lights and fig trees. The air was balmy, waves rolling gently beyond the terrace. It was almost beautiful enough to pull you out of the lust clouding your mind.
This time fate, or something crueler, landed Noel beside you. Both a blessing and a curse. You were hyper aware of him. Every quiet shift. Every slight brush of his arm against yours. Each contact sent sparks through you.
Throughout the meal, the conversation meandered easily—music, the day’s beach antics, plans for the rest of the week—but beneath the table, a second conversation unfolded in silence. 
He was mid-story, voice smooth and low. The others listened, but you didn’t hear a word. You were too focused on the curve of his neck. The clean, intoxicating scent of him. Faint soap layered with something sharper. It was like an aphrodisiac.
His knee knocked into yours. Barely there. He backed off instinctively, but stayed close. Just centimeters away. Like he was daring you to bridge the gap.
You caved instantly, pressing your leg into his. 
Noel’s fingers tapped idly on the stem of his wine glass as he continued talking, but his knee pressed just a touch harder into yours.
It was like the shower had never ended. You could still feel his hand clamped over your mouth, his fingers stroking deep inside you. You shifted in your seat, thighs angling together beneath the table.
His lips twitched. He’d noticed. Of course he had.
And then, so subtly you might’ve imagined it, his tongue flicked out, dragging slowly across his bottom lip. Like he was still savoring the taste of you.
The wine was making your head fuzzy. You had to remind yourself to look away. Not to let your gaze linger too long on the sharp arch of his nose or the open collar of his shirt. Don’t make it obvious. Don’t get caught.
Toward the end of the meal, your father flagged down the waitress for a photo. Noel’s arm slipped easily around the back of your chair. You leaned in without thinking. His body radiated heat. 
After the camera flashed, his fingers ghosted along the nape of your neck. It was barely a touch, but it shot straight down your spine and pooled between your legs
By the time you all climbed back into the car for the ride home, you felt wrung out. Overheated.
The car was quiet with that sleepy, satisfied kind of silence that followed a heavy meal and a long day in the sun. Emily sat beside you, scrolling idly through her phone. Up front, your father and Noel talked lowly. The windows were cracked open, letting the salty breeze curl through the car.
It was one of those rare moments you knew you’d think about long after it passed. 
By the time you arrived back at the house, the sky had deepened into navy, stars starting to emerge. Your father stifled a yawn as he unlocked the door.
“Think I’m calling it a night,” he said through a stretch. “Long day.”
Emily agreed, her words slightly slurred from the wine she’d sipped all evening. “Me too, I’m knackered.”
You nodded, murmuring something about needing sleep as well. But the second their footsteps faded up the stairs, your eyes snapped to Noel’s.
It hit you like a physical thing. All the restrained desire simmering under the surface at dinner was now uncontained. His expression darkened, the facade of calm dropping completely now that you were alone.
Neither of you said a word. You just moved.
Your steps were silent on the cool tile as you crossed through the kitchen and slipped outside onto the patio.
It was still. Warm. The faint sound of the sea drifted up from below.
Noel backed you into a hidden corner and finally, finally, he spoke.
“You’re such a fucking tease, you know that?” he said. “Didn’t expect that from you.”
You swallowed hard, mouth dry. But you held your ground.
“Yeah? What did you expect me to be? Well behaved? Shy?” you whispered back, leaning into his space.
“Maybe.” His gaze flicked over your face. “That’s how I remember you.”
A slow smirk curled at your lips. Your stomach flipped hard at the admission. That part of you lived in his memory.
“Well, I’m not that girl anymore,” you whispered. “But I can be. If you want me to.”
His hand snapped up, fingers curling tight at the back of your neck as he dragged you in, mouth crashing to yours. It was messy, consuming, exactly what you’d craved all damn day. You met him with equal force, nails curling into the front of his shirt as you pressed close.
“Fuck, you’d do anything if I asked, wouldn’t you?” His breath skated hot over your lips, ragged like he already knew the answer.
“In a heartbeat,” you whispered, lips brushing his as you spoke.
A half-laughed breath punched out of him before his mouth slammed back to yours. The heat of it made you shiver. His hand slid to your hip, fingers digging through the thin fabric of your dress as he pinned you to the cool wall of the house. You gasped softly against his lips, the contrast sparking sharp through your nerves.
The kiss broke long enough for him to mutter against your lips, “Can’t stop thinking about earlier…the way you fell apart just from my fingers…god—”
Your teeth sank into his bottom lip, dragging a groan deep from his chest. You fisted his shirt tighter and pulled him closer. He tasted like expensive wine and something singularly his—rich and addictive. You licked into his mouth, chasing every last bit of it.
He finally tore back, resting his forehead to yours, breath unsteady.
“Hasn’t been like this for me in years,” he murmured against your skin. “Feels like I’m twenty-five again.”
You smiled against his lips, fingers threading into his hair. “But you’re not,” you whispered. “Men my age couldn’t make me come that fast. No one could.”
The words tumbled out before you could catch them. Maybe you shouldn’t have said it but it was true. He was twice your age, with twice as much experience. You bet there were things he could do to you you hadn’t even dreamed of. You shivered at the thought.
“You’re still wet, aren’t you?” he asked, reverent, like he couldn’t believe it.
“Why don’t you find out for yourself?” you whispered, breath catching.
Noel cursed under his breath, hand sliding down to gather the hem of your dress, skimming maddeningly slow up your thigh. You twitched beneath his touch, aching—
And then a door creaked open inside the house. Footsteps padded softly over tile. Voices carried faintly.
Your body locked up, rigid in an instant. Noel froze too, chest heaving against yours. His head snapped up, hand dropping from your leg, your dress falling swiftly back into place. He exhaled hard through his nose, jaw clenched, visibly reeling himself back in.
You both stood perfectly still, straining to listen.
After a long, tense moment, the footsteps retreated. A door clicked shut.
Noel let out a breath slow and shaky, his forehead dropping back to yours. 
“Fuckin’ hell…” he muttered under his breath. His thumb swept a slow, soothing stroke along your jaw. “Wish we had this place to ourselves.”
You let out a breathless laugh, pulse still hammering. The fact that he wanted you all to himself made your stomach twist.
“Tomorrow,” he rasped, lips brushing yours. His teeth caught your bottom lip gently before letting go. “I’ll make time. I swear it.”
You nodded, thighs clenching involuntarily at the promise laced in his voice.
Reluctantly, he eased back. His eyes dragged down your body with a long, hungry sweep before he exhaled sharply and raked a hand through his hair.
“Get some sleep, yeah?” he murmured. “You’ll need it.” His smirk made your stomach bottom out.
And with that, he slipped quietly back inside, leaving you trembling against the house, body buzzing and mind spinning with everything tomorrow might bring.
2:38 am
It was useless. Sleep wasn’t coming.
You’d tossed and turned for hours, sheets tangled around your legs. Your skin was too warm despite the ocean breeze that slipped through the cracked window. Every time you closed your eyes, all you could see was Noel’s face inches from yours. The trail of his hand up your thigh. The shower…
You stared up at the ceiling, trying to force your mind to think of something, anything, else.
And then—
A soft knock.
Your heart leapt into your throat. You bolted upright as it came again, barely audible, as if whoever stood there was praying not to wake anyone else.
You didn’t need to wonder who it was.
Your feet hit the floor before you could think. You cracked the door open and yanked him inside, your mouth colliding with his, frantic and hungry. Noel kissed you like he’d been starving for it. His hands gripped your waist, hauling you flush against him. His tongue slid deep into your mouth as he walked you backwards toward the bed.
Your legs hit the edge and you tumbled down together, his weight blanketing you. You barely caught your breath before his mouth claimed yours again, urgent and bruising.
“Tried to sleep. Couldn't,” he muttered between kisses.
You let out a shaky breath. “Me either.”
Then his mouth crashed into yours again, so deep you forgot how to breathe at all.
He ground his hips against you and you gasped sharply, the thick press of him against your thigh making your pulse stutter wildly. Your head tipped back and his lips instantly dragged down your throat, biting and mouthing at your skin. His hands roamed hungrily, sliding beneath your shirt to trace over the soft curves of your stomach and ribs.
There was something different in him tonight. His touch was bolder. Last night had been about breaking down his walls. Getting used to your touch. But now that he’d allowed himself to feel, he wasn’t holding back.
He shoved your shirt higher, mouth dragging lower until his lips closed around your nipple. You gasped, arching into the wet, hot pull of his tongue. His other hand pinched at your opposite nipple, sending sharp sparks racing across your skin until you were a panting mess beneath him.
He pushed one of your knees up toward your chest and ground into you, breath ghosting against your ear.
“Can I?”
Your body shivered, too worked up to speak. You just nodded frantically.
He kissed you once more before pulling back to drag his shirt off, and you hastily kicked off your bottoms. Your breath caught in your throat, hardly able to believe this was about to happen.
He returned to your mouth, slower this time, as his hand slid lower. His fingers slipped easily through your slick folds and he hissed under his breath.
“Jesus christ…”
You reached for his sweats, but he gently batted your hand aside, shoving them down just enough to free himself. The thick, velvety heat of him dragged across you and you whimpered, arms winding tight around his neck.
“I know,” he whispered, calming and coaxing all at once. “Just a second, love.”
He slicked himself up, both with you and his own arousal, then lined himself up and nudged at your entrance. Slowly, he pressed into you, stretching you open inch by inch.
You shivered violently, mouth falling open in a silent moan. God, he was thick. Even as wet as you were, there was a faint burn as he stretched you to take him.
“Fuck… so tight…” His voice cracked, wrecked.
He bottomed out and stilled, chest heaving above you. You felt every inch of him buried deep, the fullness almost overwhelming. You clenched helplessly around him and he choked out a broken noise.
Your arms clung tighter around his neck, breath ragged as you tried to adjust. After a few shaky breaths, you shifted your hips in silent permission.
“Noel,” you gasped, pleading.
He let out a shuddering breath and finally began to move in long, slow strokes that knocked the breath right out of you.
Slowly, the ache blurred into pleasure. And then he angled his hips just right and hit something so perfect inside you that your whole body jolted, a shocked gasp ripping from your throat.
“Yeah?” he ground out.
Instead of answering, you dragged him down into a kiss, need spiking sharp and fast. His grip on your hips tightened and he found his rhythm, thrusts snapping harder. The new angle had you crying out against his mouth, the pleasure deep and shattering.
 “Shh,” Noel breathed. “Gotta be quiet, love.”
You nodded frantically, burying your face against his throat as he drove into you faster. Your orgasm was coiling hot, barreling toward the edge.
He gripped your thigh and pushed it higher against your chest, opening you wider to him. Christ, you could feel him so deep. 
You shuddered, breathy little sounds punching out of you with each thrust as you tried to muffle them against his shoulder.
A choked whine slipped from him when you clenched tighter around him. His hand slid between you and found your clit, circling it tight and fast. Your orgasm hit hard, your entire body arching, muscles locking tight.
Pleasure detonated through you. You shattered around him with a muffled sob, clenching hard and trembling violently as waves of heat rolled through every inch of you.
Noel let out a strangled groan, dropping his head into the pillow beside yours. His hips snapped into you with shallow, frantic thrusts as he buried himself to the hilt and came hard, pulsing deep inside you. You wrapped your arms around him, holding him close as he muffled his throaty moans into the pillow.
Your bodies clung together, slick with sweat, clothes still half on like neither of you had been able to wait. You felt the thick throb of him still pulsing inside you, aftershocks rippling through your own spent body. Neither of you moved. The air between you was heavy and damp, the room thick with the smell of sex.
Finally, he slid out of you and you shivered at the sudden absence of heat. His hand slipped from your thigh, your leg falling lazily to the bed. Your eyes fluttered shut, chest rising and falling hard as you tried to steady your breath.
You were wrecked. Completely undone. You couldn’t remember the last time anyone had fucked you like that. With that kind of intent, that kind of certainty. Noel knew a woman’s body and he wielded that knowledge with devastating precision. Your thighs still trembled faintly as you felt the mattress shift beside you.
You blinked your eyes open to find him sitting on the edge of the bed.
“Here,” he said quietly, holding out a damp towel.
When you didn’t move, too dazed, he simply leaned in and wiped between your thighs himself. Careful and gentle. The tenderness of it made something sharp twist in your chest. It felt too intimate.
You didn’t know why it got to you like this. You’d done the same for him the night before. But somehow, this felt heavier. Like it meant something you weren’t ready to name.
The mattress dipped again as he lay down beside you, his breathing still rough and unsteady.
You turned to face him, catching his face in the silver wash of moonlight. It made him look younger somehow. Or maybe that was just the softness that came after sex. 
His lips curled in a small, easy smile as he reached out and brushed your hair gently back from your face.
You couldn’t help the shy smile that tugged at your lips in return.
“What was it you said this morning about me being an old man?” he teased, voice hushed and warm.
You let out a breathless laugh. “That they really know how to wear a girl out.”
He broke into a laugh that echoed too loud in the stillness of the house. Quickly, you clamped a hand over his mouth.
When his laughter faded, you pulled your hand back.
“Do you think we were too loud?” you whispered, suddenly anxious.
He smirked lazily. “I think you might’ve been.”
You swatted at his chest, but the grin broke through anyway.
“I’m serious,” you murmured, your heart thudding harder now.
His expression softened, grin easing into something calmer. “Nah. It's late. They’re dead asleep.”
You let out a shaky breath as silence settled between you again, heavier this time. When you glanced back over, you noticed his eyes had drifted shut.
“Oh no you don’t,” you whispered, nudging his shoulder. “You cannot fall asleep in here.”
His lashes fluttered as he cracked one eye open, voice thick and drowsy. “Don’t make me go back to that couch. It’s miserable.”
You huffed a soft laugh, your chest tugging at the sight of him—disheveled, flushed, and reluctant to leave. But you both knew he had to. If Emily or your dad came downstairs and saw him missing from the couch, it’d be over.
With a quiet sigh, Noel finally sat up, tugging his clothes back into place. You almost told him to forget it, to stay, but it was too risky. You stayed quiet, just watching him as he dressed.
Once he’d pulled his shirt over his head, he turned and let his eyes drag slowly down the length of your body one last time. Then he leaned in and kissed you softly. Too soft.
“Night,” he murmured against your lips, a ghost of a smirk playing there, before slipping out into the dark.
You were left sprawled across the bed, skin bare and still faintly trembling. You stared up at the ceiling, breath short and head spinning, completely unable to wrap your mind around the fact that he had just been inside you.
You knew then that no one would ever come close to him. But what the fuck were you supposed to do with that?
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—spotify playlist | series masterlist
—summary: assistant professor in bioengineering, incredibly attractive, lonely and divorced; that’s how most people describe san. but despite the events that have happened in his life, san has a lot going for himself. he’s a successful, sought out professor due to his brilliant contributions to science at just an early age of 32. he worked hard to get where he was now; head deep into his research, his publications, building his lab and creating a name for himself. everything was good and smooth sailing— until it wasn’t. because when he meets you, a bioengineering grad student interested in rotating in his lab, he finds himself ready to risk all the blood, sweat and tears he put in throughout the years just to keep you close— his need for you spiraling out of control like a wildfire.
—pairing: asst. professor!choi san x grad student!f. reader
—genre: (18+ - minors dni) strangers to lovers, grad school au | fluff, angst, smut
—word count: 10.1k
—chapter content/warnings: cussing, mature language/sexually implied content, sorry if i missed anything i had to quickly edit in order to get this out lol, san x oc finally talk a little more abt each other - family - friends, small affectionate gestures and kisses, yes we have finally made it my friends… the sleepover where we discuss neuroscience papers!!!! lmao jk 😭 was not lying abt the true crime aspect tho (i fear i know nothing else), san also opens up a bit more about iseul, making out, neck kisses, breast play, unprotected sex, multiple orgasms, some clit play i guess!!, aftercare, cuddles
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You decide to go to dinner with San, but the decision comes incredibly last minute. You've paced around your studio, sat on your bed for hours, going back and forth between a simple yes or no. Until, you finally realized you truly didn't wanna miss out. You felt like you'd regret it if you didn't just go to see what it'd be like.
Harmless.
Eunchae and Jurin are gone for the weekend for other family commitments, but you still find yourself having to make up some sort of scenario for the boys in case they come barging in while you're getting ready. You tell them that you're spending the afternoon with your mom and that you'll be back later tonight in case they wanna come over and hang out. Boys being boys— they don't pry much and leave it at that.
You let out a breath just after you end the call with Jiung and set your phone aside, dabbing a bit more blush onto the apples of your cheeks. 
San told you to meet him at a restaurant that's very Nobu-esque, and you damn near dropped your phone when you pulled up the directions and saw pictures of the fancy interior. Even if you protested, he wouldn't let up— promising you that he'd take care of everything and that he just wanted you to have a good time with him. He asked once more if you were sure about driving, and you insist; just for the one time, to play things safe, to relieve yourself of the pressure of having to be with San in a car in case dinner doesn't pan out well [for whatever reason].
You are equally excited, nervous and terrified. Might feel a little queasy from the combo.
You run the lip gloss across your lips before pressing them together, spreading it across the surface. You check the time and pack your things into your purse, giving yourself a little bit of wiggle room for the 30-minute drive east to meet San. You check yourself in the mirror and dust yourself off, smoothing down the simple, black cami-strap dress you have on. Good thing you checked the restaurant's dress code on their website last night, or else, you might have walked into the place in something a little more casual.
Not classy. Elegant. Black and white attire only.
You run off to your car without being spotted by anybody you know. You did run into a few classmates and other familiar faces, but ones that won't even bat an eye as to why you're running across the lot in heels and a black dress. You get into your car and warm it up before turning up the heat, pulling up one of your playlists and sending San a text to let him know you're leaving campus. The drive isn't so bad when your playlist is hyping you up, along with the clear highways. You've gotta cross a bridge and pay the toll on your way back, but you don't mind; you feel a sense of relief wash over you being that you've gotten yourself this far from campus.
You knew people from campus weren't fond of coming to the east side. It tailored way too much to the wealthy, hence, San's choice for tonight's dinner.
The side streets are a little too busy in the downtown area, but you finally catch sight of the restaurant on the corner of an intersection; nestled underneath a modern, upscale 5-star hotel. When you pull into the lot, San is chatting it up with the valet. He laughs and you catch that smile of his, his dimples. He's in a black button up, and black slacks. The first two buttons of his shirt are undone, the silver chain hanging around his neck— sitting prettily across his collarbones. He points at your car and signals your arrival to the valet, the staff member immediately meeting you at the driver's side when you park in front of the booth.
"Your lady has arrived." The valet says, taking your hand in his before passing you along to San and getting into your car to park it in the lot.
"Hey beautiful." San takes your hand in his and smiles down at you adoringly. "How was the drive?"
"Good." You're barely able to maintain contact because of how shy and nervous you've become being around him. He can tell, though. He chuckles and gives your hand a gentle squeeze before reassuring you with a:
"Promise I'll take care of you tonight, okay? Don't get shy on me."
"Who said I was?"
"You can barely look me in the eye, Y/N." You look up at him and try to hold eye contact, but you shrink; subtly biting onto your lip and hiding behind him when the host greets him like he's known him forever. He walks through the restaurant, heading towards the private back patio. This section is closed off and by reservation only— your guess is that San bought out the patio for your enjoyment, to ease your nerves. And you're proven right when the host slides the back door open, and there's only one table draped in white linen in the middle of the garden. There's a candle in the middle of the table and a singular red rose on your plate, San deciding to forego the additional decorations and rose petals because he didn't wanna do too much for a first dinner. He just didn't wanna overwhelm you knowing you might already be, but he hopes you know he'd take care of you in all ways if you'd let him— the roses and candles being a glimpse into that.
"The waiter will be with you both shortly." The host does a curt bow before leaving you and San in the patio.
"Choi San." You look at and he cocks a brow, trying to prevent himself from smirking too big.
"Mhm?" He looks at you.
"Why did you buy out the whole patio?!"
"To keep you comfortable." He smiles, eyes roaming your figure and the way your dress hugs you so, so beautifully.
"San." You frown a bit. "You didn't have to spend all that just for me."
"Um, yeah. I did, sweetheart." He laughs. "I wanted to. The last thing I wanted was for you to worry tonight." You slowly sit in the high chair in front of him, taking the singular rose to your nose before smiling shyly at him.
"Thank you."
"You're welcome." His hands are clasped together, elbows resting on the table— his piercing eyes bore into you. "How was your day?"
"It was good. I didn't do much besides get ready for the evening. Had to tell the boys I was running off for the evening like Eunchae and Jurin." San nods and sips his water.
"Sorry love."
"For what?"
"For having you lie to your friends."
"They don't care much." You wave it off with a giggle. "How was your day?"
"Well, I was gonna hang out at Jongho's but someone told me they wanted to go to dinner last minute."
"Wonder who that could be?" You tease and he laughs a bit.
"Yeah, right? She's lucky she's cute." He teases back and the heat rises to your cheeks.
"Didn't mean to impose on your plans with the other Professor Choi."
"Never. I see him all the time, he won't mind if I leave him behind for an evening." You laugh.
"Touché." At this point, the waiter comes and sets down some complimentary edamame before taking orders. You decline any alcohol solely because of your drive home, and San follows suit. He proceeds to order the food for tonight after remembering you didn't have any specific allergies, giving him free range to order things he enjoys, but also knows you'd love. 
Wagyu.
Chef's choice omakase.
Other choices of nigiri, like toro. 
Uni tempura.
Squid pasta with garlic sauce.
Chilean seabass with dry miso.
It all comes out of San's mouth like the price tag is nonexistent, and you're internally screaming. How could he be so damn charming and suave? Let alone, this is how he spoils you for the first dinner?
"That's all." San smiles toothlessly before handing over the menus to the waiter. He licks his lips and shifts in his position as if he didn't just order a line of the most expensive items on the menu.
"San, this is gonna be so expensive. I can't accept this. Please let me at least pay for half."
"Uh, no. What did I tell you, Y/N? I'd take care of you tonight. I meant it. Just enjoy yourself for me." You sigh and tilt your head before playfully rolling your eyes.
"I can't with you."
"Yes, you can." He chuckles. "So, tell me."
"Hm?" You hum.
"About you."
"What about me?"
"I wanna know everything and anything about you." He gives you that look. "I wanna know what Miss Y/N is about outside of her CV." You snort at the comment, the reality of you being San's rotation student almost hitting you dead in the face until you decide to brush it off completely.
"Well, I'm the only child?" You say in a questioning tone, unsure of where to start. But, the conversation eventually flows on its own. You tell San about your mom being a single mom and how it's always been you two from the very beginning. You don't know much about your dad, but you don't mind talking about it if asked. It's not necessarily a sensitive or heavy topic for you; it's just unfortunate that you don't have anything to add simply because you don't know him. You have family nearby, but your family is small. You don't have cousins you're close to, your relatives are mostly middle-aged, older.  Your grandparents were around up until you were in high school, then they both died from illnesses that got to the best of them.
Then, that was that.
You and your mom— mostly you, doing things for your own and on your own while your mom continued to work tirelessly at the hospital to keep food on the table. Rent. Necessities. You worked a few jobs throughout school to help as much as possible, but your mom always told you to put your studies first and to never force yourself if your body was too tired, too overwhelmed. It felt hard for awhile because your mom was barely around. When she was, she was tired. You felt distant, almost like you couldn't be close to your mom regardless of how hard you tried. You didn't think you'd be able to build a better relationship with her until you moved away for college. When you finally had your own space and the distance in between, your relationship blossomed and she became your bestfriend. Then, you tell San how you feel the utmost pressure to make her proud because you're the only child, the only person she can rely on in the future. The only person who can also truly disappoint her, which you don't want. 
Though, you feel like you've already started wandering down that path.
You're slightly interrupted when the waiter comes to bring in half of the order, starting with the nigiri and chef's choice, setting it down in the middle of the table. You both thank him before he says he'll be right back with the rest, San giving you the priority and freedom to choose whichever you want to eat. When you start to dig in, you continue to tell San about your friends and how Jiung's been your longest friend since high school. Otherwise, there haven't been too many people you could call your close friends. You knew people, you socialized, but you weren't one to toss the 'close/good friend' term around unless you felt a genuine, real connection with someone. You do feel like you could say that for Felix, Eunchae and Jurin even though it hasn't been long since you've known them; you've clicked with them easily and well. You're grateful for it. 
The conversation switches to San's point of view now, and he begins with his family dynamics. He relates to the pressure of making his parents happy as the only child, but he likes to think he's done well for himself so far. He talks about school and how brutal it was for him and his friends— San had a great mentor, but it was hours and hours of clocking in with no endpoint. Days and days of just hustling to finish and make sure he was producing amazing work. You reassure him by telling him you think it's all paid off, adding a little dash of seasoning with your 'or else we wouldn't be here, right?' playful teasing. He touches up on Jongho and their longtime friendship, followed by Mingi, Yeosang, Christopher, and now, Namjoon. He does talk about how him and Yunho used to be bestfriends, inseparable even, but he doesn't go into the details of what went down between him and Iseul. 
You won't press him. You'll let him come to you when he's ready to open up about it. Even though San acts like he's fine and he's moved on [he has], you can only imagine how it feels to replay the entire situation in your head, with the two people you trusted and adored more than anything.
"So, yeah. Namjoon and I got close because he was really there for me throughout a lot of the stuff that's happened. Even just down to minuscule things for the lab, my classes— anything. He's always been there for us no matter how busy he is."
"That's good. I can tell Namjoon really cares about you guys and the students."
"He's a good guy. His wife is lucky." You laugh.
"Do you see your parents often?" You watch as San puts another helping of the pasta and fish on your plate.
"From time to time, yeah, when they're around. My dad still travels a lot for business. Even though he stopped teaching, he's on a few boards as a consultant and agrees to talk for conferences or symposiums all the time. Mom's retired so she joins along. What about you?"
"I try to see her when I can. She's worked as a nurse at this hospital all her life, basically." He nods. "So, do you and the guys all live near each other?"
"Uh, sorta? Namjoon lives a bit further down south, but Mingi, Yeosang, Chris and Jongho live in close proximity."
"When you're not at work, do you just hang out with each other?" 
"For the most part. We're not always together, though. We like having our own space." He laughs. "Mingi used to pop up randomly and I had to tell him to stop doing it so often."
"Aw, he just wants your company. Don't be mean."
"I'm not mean! I just like to have my peace. Mingi is everything but peace." You laugh.
"Your home must be nice for him to be barging in like that."
"It is. I take pride in it now, not gonna lie." He sips his water, eyes gazing at you from over the rim of his glass. "You know, you're always welcome at my place." You look at him and slowly nod, trying to let the statement sink in. None of it feels weird to you; in fact, it makes you more curious to know about San's personal life. His home. What it'd be like to be in his space, alone.
"I'll keep that in mind. Might have to take you up on that one day." He smirks a bit.
"Yeah? That's kinda nice to hear. Lets me know I didn't entirely blow this." You giggle.
"Not at all." He sits back in his chair, content and satisfied from tonight's meal. He sees that you've finished everything on your plate, your attention now on the garden to your left while you sip on your water. He can't even deny how attracted he is to you, and how he has this indescribable pull to you. You're beautiful, and from your interactions, the way you speak and carry yourself, the passion behind your work, the way you care about your friends and mom— you've got a good, comforting soul that could balance his own. Almost like Yin and Yang, Tui and La. "What?" You ask him all innocently and he's struggling. He can't even help the huge smile that grows on his face when he looks at you.
"Nothing." He runs his finger across his bottom lip. "You're just.. so beautiful."
"Thank you, San." You respond softly and he feels his heart melt. The waiter comes back with the check, in which San is quick to hand over his card before you can even get your hands on it. You give him a look and he laughs, shaking his head after playfully reminding you that he'd take care of you. 
"Any plans for the rest of the weekend, or next week?"
"Not really. I'll probably hang out with the boys while the girls are gone. Next week, I've got a lot of behavior to run for Sunwoo, things to prep for the class I'm TAing for." He nods.
"Always working so hard."
"Uh, yeah. Especially for you." You poke fun at him and laugh. "What about you?"
"Mm, I have to actually start prepping for the symposium because it's coming up."
"Do you have your talk ready to go?"
"Nah." He shrugs. "But, I will."
"Do you still get nervous for talks?"
"Oh yeah, absolutely."
"You look so natural when you're doing it, though. I wouldn't have expected it."
"I do. I get pretty nervous. Not as bad as before, I'm able to shake it off better now." He lets out a breath, the both of you popping the little coffee candy that came with the check.
"How bad was it before?"
"Hm." He hums and thinks about it for a second. "Right before my first lecture for the big neuroscience association conference, I almost threw up. I was so nauseated, was dry-heaving for a good minute before I could get myself together."
"What? I would have never guessed." 
"Took a lot to get used to it. Still getting used to it." He smiles brightly. "But, I'm glad you think so. At least I'm doing something right." He looks at the date on his phone. "Speaking of the neuroscience association conference, the next one is coming up. Did you and your friends register to go?"
"Me, Jiung and a few others, yeah. Felix, Eunchae, Jurin and everyone else is just going to go on the trip cause they know that's where everyone will be at."
"Can't disagree, it'll be party central for the neuroscience community." You laugh.
"Can't wait to experience it." You look at him. "Will you be busy during the entire duration of the conference?"
"Mm, yeah. I've got a few other commitments and meetings. Lots of colleagues I haven't seen in awhile will be there, so I'll be catching up with them. There's also another smaller conference nearby that I'll be speaking at upstate before I head back down for the main one." 
"Busy you."
"Maybe. I'll always have time for you, though." He winks and you laugh it off. At this point, San stands and stretches before reaching out his hand for you to grab. "Ready to go?"
"I am." You take his hand and stand in front, letting San pull you flush against his body; hands resting on the small of your back.
"Is it okay if I kiss you?" His hand comes up to cup your cheek, thumb caressing the surface. Eyes examining your features closely. "Kinda wanna re-do the first kiss. Wanna do it right this time." You bite your lip and nod, eyes locked onto his lips as he leans forward. His lips meet you in a soft, tender kiss— one that isn't rushed, one that releases all your feelings into the universe, the galaxies. One that feels so natural, so meant to be.
One that gives you butterflies,
One that also unravels Pandora's box.
He holds the kiss for longer than expected, letting his lips mold into yours delicately. When he pulls away, he quickly reattaches his lips to yours; indulging in small sweet, repeated kisses before he kisses your forehead. He pulls back completely to look at you again, and he's admiring every inch of you from underneath the moon. You watch his jaw slightly tick, Adam's apple bob up and down; eyes full of desire. Need. Encompassing you, all of you.
"Hope you enjoyed dinner."
"I did, San. Thank you, again."
"No, thank you for joining me." He flashes you a cute, toothless smile before lacing his hand with yours. "Shall we? Do you want dessert or something?"
"I'm good, I'm stuffed. The food was so good." You pat your tummy as the both of you walk out of the restaurant and head towards valet, thanking the staff on your way out.
"Yeah, it was. Glad you're satisfied and happy." He presses a kiss to the surface of your hand just before greeting the valet. He runs to bring over your car first, parking it off to the side by the entrance to the lot to give you and San some time to say goodbye. San pops the driver's door open, allowing you to slide in while he hangs by the door. 
"Thank you again for tonight." You buckle your seat belt and look at him.
"Course. Drive safely, okay? Text me when you get home please."
"I will." 
"Good." He smirks before dipping down to give you another kiss on the lips. He shuts the door and gives you one last wave before walking towards his own car and letting you drive off. 
The butterflies that man gives you is insane. 
You can't even help but smile widely during the drive home, recounting each moment of the night and how you've quickly grown comfortable with San as a person. He's easy to talk to, easy to get along with.
Easy to be attracted to. Easy to be charmed by.
Easy to love.
You see it. You see why people love him and adore him, you see the bright aura he has. You see why people respect him.
You see yourself and him.
And the thought never leaves your mind once after that. You want San, just as he with you.
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You head home alone that night, and the idea about being alone with San more— off campus, anywhere but there— becomes more and more enticing. It doesn't leave you for a few days, even while San is trying to give you the space to take things slowly. He's never pressured you into moving at a pace you didn't like, always gently touching you but never doing anything that would make you overwhelmed. Not only does he know you two have to be careful, but most importantly, he knows all of this is a lot. In general.
So, he sticks to the cute texts and phone calls.
Quick mini-meetings in his office in between commitments, especially during the rare moment of an empty basement. Quick hello's in said office that result in chaste kisses and you darting out before anyone can think twice about why you've been in Professor Choi's office twice [or thrice] in one day.
You do want to be alone with him more, though. You want to see what possibilities lie behind closed doors, the ways you both could show each other your feelings. You want to see where else this could take you two, how it could continue to grow. Where things could head once you two are alone in a space together, with no background noise. No outsiders.
you: are you in your office?
san: sure am!
"San?" You poke your head into his office before sliding in and locking the door. The basement was incredibly [and unusually] empty for a weekday, San's office door and the walls the only thing separating you two from each other.
"Hey." He smiles from his desk, immediately pushing his chair back so he can stand and pull you close. "Wasn't expecting a visit from you right now."
"Sorry." You pout a bit and he shakes his head before placing a soft kiss on your forehead. "I should've asked if you were free first."
"Mm, well." He hums. "I've always got time for you, remember?" You giggle. "Is everything okay?"
"Kinda?"
"Kinda? What's going on in that pretty little head of yours?" He sits back on the edge of his desk, hand pulling you towards him and slotting you in between his legs.
"I wanted to ask you something."
"Mhm?" He says in a sing-song tone, curious about what you surprisingly popped in for.
"Can I come over?" His eyes widen a bit; not because he doesn't want you to, no. But because he's been dying to have you over. He's just been waiting until you seemed more ready to take that step.
"Tonight?" You nod, playing with his hands. "Of course you can." He pulls his hands away just to rest them behind your back. "Sure you wanna?"
"I do." He chuckles.
"I'll pick you up this time? Down the street from your building."
"Okay."
"Is that all that's been bothering you?"
"I just wasn't sure how to ask without seeming too eager, or desperate, or—"
"Hey." He laughs a bit, brushing your hair away from your face. "Never that. I've been wanting you over, but I wanted to wait until you seemed more comfortable." You relax in his hold and sink into his touch more, fingers threading through the ends of his hair.
"I wanna stay." You boldly let out, causing San to smile.
"You can stay. Whatever you want. Have more than enough room for you, sweetheart." He leans forward to meet you in a sweet, simple peck. "What time do you want me to come get you?"
"I should finish a few things before leaving."
"Just text me then, hm? I'll come whenever you're ready."
"Okay." You look at him before smirking. "That's all I wanted to talk about, Professor Choi." He chuckles, giving your side a good squeeze while biting his bottom lip.
"You're gonna be the death of me."
"Likewise." You playfully tap his nose before planting a kiss on his lips. "I'll text you later."
"Leaving already?" He pouts as you slowly pry yourself off of him because you're in his office. On campus grounds. You have to, even if you don't want to.
"I gotta get back to work, just like you do." You give him a look before waving by the door. "See you later."
"Mhm." He responds in a sing-song tone, crossing his arms tightly against his chest while he watches you walk out.
The butterflies you give him are insane.
After another long ass day of work and classes, you quickly grab dinner with your friends before rushing off to finish the rest of your assignments. You hop in a long, hot steamy shower— exfoliating and moisturizing like crazy. You strut around in your towel, throwing your toiletries into a huge bag, along with some clothes just in case. 
You can never go wrong with an emergency set of clothes and toiletries, right?
You send San a text to let him know you're about to be ready and throw on a lazy fit, feeling comfortable enough to not have to dress up for him during an occasion like this. It's a set of black wide-legged sweats and a cropped half-zip sweater, slipping into your platform Uggs for extra comfort. You step through your little cloud of perfume before grabbing your bag and heading out.
Ring, ring.
"Hey." You pick up the call, your eyes quickly scanning your surroundings. There isn't anyone in close proximity, but you still feel like someone might've caught onto the phone call coming through. Like someone could be listening, could be nearby, could be onto you.
"Where are you? I'm right outside the lot, leading into the residential street."
"I'm on my way. Someone might see you!"
"Y/N, I promise. No one's out here. This part of the street is pretty dead."
"Okay, but people coming in and out of the buildings?"
"I promise you it's fine and out of view. Hurry. I miss you." You roll your eyes when you hear the slight whine in his tone.
"Choi San, I swear." You mutter his name so lowly, paranoid of someone accidentally hearing you call your professor's name on the phone in passing.
"Mm, when you say my name like that, though." He wears a shit-eating smirk underneath the black mask he's wearing. Truthfully, he does look a little suspect hanging out in his car off to the side of the lot in a hat and black mask. He uses his second car, a Porsche Taycan, that he doesn't really take to campus— usually drives it when he wants to go for a drive down the highway by himself late at night, or when it's time to kick it with the boys. He's certain none of them are lingering around campus since they're always so quick to book it after their last meetings or classes. It's the best way he could conceal himself right now, he thinks.
It's all good.
"I'm coming out the side door. I'll be there in a second." You hastily hang up and tuck your phone in, feeling some kind of relief that you're almost at the stairs that'll lead you to the side—
"Yo!" Felix calls out with Jiung next to him. "Where are you going? We were just coming to bother you." He furrows his brows, eyes shifting to the huge tote bag you're carrying.
"I.. need to go to the lab."
"The lab? Now?" Jiung tilts his head. They're a little confused, but they're also not entirely surprised— people were in and out of the labs doing work at all times of the day. Some were night owls and preferred doing work late nights to avoid fighting over equipment and space during the day. It wasn't uncommon.
What is confusing is your large ass bag, though. For what?
"Yeah, I gotta check on one of the mice. The vet said they looked sick." Jiung and Felix nod as they take the lie. Again.
"Why are you bringing a big ass bag, though? Are you hauling the mice away or something?" Felix snorts.
"No, I have some supplies in here that I'm bringing over. We're building new behavior arenas now that the foundation of the rig is done." Felix shrugs.
"Oh, okay. Do you need us to walk you?"
"No!" You respond a bit too quickly that they're back to giving you weird, confused looks. "No— Sorry." You smile. "I'll be fine. I think Sunwoo has been there anyway. Thank you, though."
"Mm, okay then." Jiung shrugs. "Just let us know if you need us to come get you?" He pops another apple slice in his mouth.
"I will." You wave as you walk through the door and head down the steps in a hurry. 
"Was Y/N being a little weird or..?" Felix asks, but Jiung shrugs.
"Eh, she's probably a little overwhelmed or something." He turns down the hall. "Let's just go see what Eunchae is doing." 
You finally dart out the side door, doing a light jog over the grassy area and taking a shortcut towards the street that leads into the residential area from your building. You see San parked behind another car near the first house on the street, and San can see you making your way over through the rearview mirror. He smiles to himself when you near the car, pulling on the door handle to slide into the passenger's seat. His car smells like a mix of his air freshener, along with a hint of his cologne that you've slowly become obsessed with.
"Hey beautiful." He leans over the middle console and pulls down his mask. He puckers up his lips and it makes you giggle just as you lean in to give him what he wants. He doesn't pull back right away, no. Instead, he deepens the kiss and slips some tongue in, a shaky exhale released in between as his hand comes up to caress your cheek.
"Maybe we should leave." 
"Mhm." San teases as he continues to kiss you, smirking into the kiss. 
"San."
"Just one more." He chuckles before dipping forward and kissing you passionately again. You bite onto your bottom lip when he finally sits back in the driver's seat and rests his head against the headrest, admiring how cute you look in your leggings and hoodie. "You're cute."
"Stop." You giggle and shake your head. "Drive before someone sees us."
"Yes ma'am." He starts up the car and begins to drive to his destination. You're not really sure what to expect since it's your first time going to his place. You knew San was well off, but you didn't know what you were walking into— did he live in a modern, expensive ass apartment? Was it a penthouse? A regular single family home? You'll finally see why Mingi likes to barge in from time to time. "How was your day?" You're pulled out of your thoughts when he chimes in with the question.
"It was okay. I ran into Jiung and Felix as I was leaving." He leans against his window with one hand on the wheel, letting out a breathy laugh.
"Oh? How was that?"
"I don't know? I think they believed me. I said I was heading into lab." San shrugs.
"That's a good reason since it isn't uncommon. I'm sure it's fine, angel." He looks at you before returning his attention to the road in front of him. "It's pretty hot seeing you work so hard in my lab."
"Shut up, Professor Choi." He bites on his bottom lip before slipping his hand on your thigh. He gives it a good squeeze as he continues to drive in silence, the music softly filling the void in the car.
"Did you eat?" You nod.
"Mhm. Just grabbed something from the dining hall."
"Good."
"Did you?" He nods.
"Mhm. Just wanted to make sure you were okay, though."
"I am. Thank you." You watch as the surroundings pass you by while San takes you down towards another neighborhood near campus. A lot of other professors live closeby since the university has housing assistance for them as well. You just hope San's home is one of the select few that's isolated and isn't heavily populated with said group of professors.
When San pulls into his garage, you're a little surprised at the house. You're in awe because you wonder how San makes use of all this space living alone. It's a beautiful single family home, and you're sure the decision to buy this had come from Professor Lee when they had been married. You wonder if he still holds onto those memories, or why he didn't end up moving to another place. Perhaps—
"Y/N?" You snap out of it and turn to San, who has already parked the car and is unbuckling his seatbelt. "You okay?"
"Oh, yeah. Sorry. I was spacing out."
"You sure you're okay?" He chuckles. The both of you step out of the car and head into the hallway that leads straight into his bar and kitchen area first. "I can practically hear you thinking, sweetheart." He kicks off his shoes and you follow suit, San waiting for you before walking deeper into his house. You look up at him and he gives you a small smile, holding out his hand for you to take. "Relax. You can ask me anything." He pulls you flush against him, hands gently rubbing up and down your sides. "Okay?" He tilts your chin up and presses a kiss against your lips, which surely does put you at ease.
"I'm just curious about some stuff."
"Like?" You step into the living room and set your bag down on the couch temporarily. Your eyes roam around, scanning the sleek and simple decorations. It gives off a classy, modern look; room full of brown, white and black themes, wood hints.
"I'm not sure I know how to ask." You rub at your arms while San grabs two wine glasses from the cabinets and sets them down on the island counter.
"Ask away. I won't mind. I think I already know where you're going with it, anyway." You walk towards the island and rest your elbows against the marble countertop. "Is wine good, or do you want something else?"
"Wine is good." You pause, fully taking in what San is wearing as he continues to move around the kitchen. He's casually dressed in black Essentials sweats with a matching black tee. He sets his hat off to the side, running a hand through his soft, black hair. You think San is attractive during the day with his usual button-up top and slacks, but this— this was even more attractive to you and had you buckling at the knees the more you ogled at him. "Don't you get lonely being in this big house? I-I mean, you used to live here with her, right?" You chime in, hoping not to seem too spaced out and in your thoughts again.
"Mhm. I've gotten used to it, though." He says with a soft smile. "By the way, white or red?"
"White, if you have any please." He nods.
"I got you." He digs into his wine cooler beneath the island.
"Why didn't you wanna sell this and buy another house?" He shrugs.
"To be honest, I've thought about it. Every corner of this house used to remind me of her and I'd hate it." He pours wine into your glasses. "But, I really do love the house and the space it gives me. I just flipped it into something I'd be happy and comfortable with, and I've moved past all of that. It just feels like my space now."
"That's good. As long as you're okay. You decorated your home beautifully too, San."
"I am, yeah. Thank you, pretty girl." He smiles and comes around the corner to wrap his arms around you from behind. He kisses the back of your head as you relax in his hold, letting out a small exhale. "Is there anything else you're curious about?"
"Not right now." San chuckles a bit.
"Okay, well. I'll be ready for the next time." He kisses your temple. "Why don't you get comfy so we can relax and watch a movie? Sip on some wine, eat some cheese and crackers." You giggle and turn to face him in his hold.
"You're gonna prep some cheese and crackers, too?"
"Why not?" He chuckles. "Let me take you upstairs so you can get comfortable." You grab your things and take his hand, silently following San up to the second level of his home. There's a little loft that he's converted into a small gaming area— another smaller L-shaped sectional couch nestled against the walls with his gaming consoles on the shelf beneath the TV, board games neatly stacked away. There's a guest room to your right, his office to the left. You peek and find a large bookshelf covering the back wall behind his large desk and computer set up. "Here's my room." He takes you into his large master bedroom; sheets neatly made, large master bathroom off to the right corner of the room. "Bathroom's through there if you need anything." He looks at you. "Or, you can use the guest room if you feel more comfortable doing so."
"Thank you."
"Course. I'll be downstairs, okay?" He kisses you on the lips. You watch as he heads back downstairs to give you some privacy, returning your attention to the interior of his room. It's a little weird when you think that this used to be a space shared by Iseul— she'd be in here all the time, closet partially hers, bed shared with her. You brush off the thoughts and set your things aside before walking into his spotless bathroom to freshen up even though you just took a shower. San's got his own skincare, cologne and other hair products neatly organized off to the side. You complete your nightly routine for your skincare and slip into more appropriate pajamas in an effort to wind down and get cozy for bedtime. When you step out of the bathroom, you hear the tv echoing from downstairs, along with what sounds like San humming to a song. You head down the steps to see San setting up the last bits of his cute cheese and crackers display, wiping off the crumbs on his island counter. "Hey. You all good?"
"Mhm." You giggle, following him to the couch. You plop onto the open space just as San jogs back to bring over the wine he poured earlier. "What're we watching?"
"Good question." He says, flipping through the channels while sitting next to you and sipping on his wine. "Should we put on something cute or..?"
"Have you ever watched Worst Ex Ever?"
"Oh— ah, okay. So we're going the true crime route." You laugh and shake your head.
"I watched that, but I wanted to watch the other installment, Worst Roommate Ever." He nods and throws it on.
"Yeah, I'm all for it!" He kicks off the first episode and leans back against the couch, one arm draped over you from behind, giving you the opportunity to scoot closer to him.
As the episode continues, you find that San is actually really interested in these things— engaging in conversation about your thoughts, why certain events happened in the episode, motives, thought processes— you love how he carries the conversation with you. You enjoy watching the show a little too much with him that time seems to fly right on by despite the hour-long episodes. You'd laugh and giggle when San pouts and whines when he's guessed wrong, resulting in you two sharing cute, little intimate kisses in between. After you both finish your wine and go through most of his charcuterie board, you snuggle up closer to San. You've got your legs folded up on the couch, with San's hand grazing your thigh every time he dips forward for a kiss. You've gone through 2 and a half episodes before you're yawning and giving San tired eyes, so he pauses the show; hand gently rubbing at your thigh.
"Tired?" You nod.
"Kinda tired, yeah." He chuckles and shuts off the TV.
"Let's get upstairs then." You help him clean up the wine glasses and the board even though he insisted he had everything under control. But, as he steps back and takes a moment to watch you rinse out the dishes and load them into the dishwasher, he finds his heart skipping a few beats. He likes seeing this; he likes seeing you, in his kitchen, as if you were always meant to be in this home. With him. It just felt so.. natural and domestic. It's been so long since he's genuinely felt that way. You give him a small smile when you've finished, beginning to climb up the steps as San shuts off his lights and makes sure all the doors are locked. You head into his room and start to brush your teeth, San following suit next to you. You don't even think twice about the whole thing, even as you walk towards his bed with him. He pulls back the covers and you slide in, staring at the ceiling above while he cozies up to you.
"San."
"Yeah?"
"I think I'm ready to ask the next question. But, you don't have to answer if you don't want to." You turn towards him and lay on your stomach. He chuckles a bit and brushes your hair back, reassuring you to continue on. You said you'd wait for him to open up, but you couldn't help it— you were curious, and you felt like you were getting deeper into this thing with San. Maybe it was time.
"I'll answer, but I might not go into detail. How about that?" He already knows where this is going. And with you, he wants to be as transparent as possible without having to relive that part of his life again. Despite his feelings for you, he still needs to hold space for himself especially with that aspect. He doesn't wanna undo the work he's done on himself.
"Okay."
"Go for it, angel."
"What was your relationship like with her?" He lets out a breath as he rests his cheek on the palm of his hand, elbow propped up on the pillow. 
"Mm, well. I'd say it was good until she realized it wasn't me she wanted this entire time. We were one of those couples who moved quickly and unfortunately, it just didn't work out well for us at all. We ended just as quickly as we blossomed." You look at him.
"So, when did you meet and when did everything happen?"
"We met in grad school. We started going out maybe a year after we had met and been good friends. Me, her and Yunho were always together. Another year after that, we're married. Things were good even though things were moving fast. Parents liked each other, we bought this house. It felt like things were falling into place. We were doing a lot of 'future' talks, even thought about kids at one point." You continue to listen intently while San goes on, his hand tracing faint shapes on your clothed back. "But then, the postdoc years happened. We were both busy, but me especially. I hadn't realized it then, but I was putting work and the lab before anything and anyone else. I kinda can't even blame her for acting the way she did because I should've paid more attention to her as her husband."
"You can't blame yourself, San." 
"I don't." He smiles a bit. "Not anymore, at least. In general, I should've just paid more attention." He lets out a small sigh. "I knew her and Yunho had gotten close so I didn't think much of it when I started to see them hanging out more without me, or starting things without me. The busier I got, the more she leaned on Yunho. He was there for her when I wasn't. That's what she wanted and needed the most, and he was there to provide that for her. He was able to." 
"Did she ever talk to you about it?"
"She was the type who couldn't communicate well. She'd harbor everything until that one thing triggers her and makes her blow up." You nod. "Whenever I felt tension or whenever I felt her being off, I'd ask, and her response was always 'i'm just tired' or 'too many things going on with my project, it's overwhelming.' There were only a few occasions when she told me she felt like I wasn't there for her enough. I wanted to fix it, but she brushed it off and said it was fine, that this was just our life together." San shakes his head. "Not once did I ever wanna give up on her. I wanted to fix it. I tried everything to be better for her, but I was too late, I guess. I found out about her and Yunho seeing each other behind my back, I called the divorce. She tried running back a few times but we'd always end up worse than the last time. We'd yell, we'd argue. I'd be hurt all over again, re-opening that same wound over and over again. Had me thinking I had a chance to actually fix us, only to be shot down. Then later, her and Yunho eloped and got married."
"Fuck." You mutter. "Sorry— I just, I don't even know what to say."
"The worst part is that she blamed me and painted me to be the bad guy. It got so toxic, it really messed me up. She would tell people this false narrative that I always fought with her and that I was unfair. My priorities were everywhere. She told people she properly broke it off before seeing Yunho when that wasn't the case. I dunno why she said and did all those things. Maybe she was angry at me for not trying the way Yunho did? Maybe she just hated me?"
"You and Yunho are two very different people, and you did try to fix it. She just wanted to be a brat about it. She wanted to have her cake and eat it, too." You frown. "I'm sorry, San."
"For what, baby?" He laughs a bit. "It is what it is, it happened and I'm past it."
"Yeah, but still." You play with his hair. "What was Yunho doing in all of this?"
"Denying the affair even though I caught them. He kept trying to apologize but there was always a 'but.' I mean, what else can he do? That's his girl so he's going with it."
"Sick." You sigh. "Can't believe them. They don't deserve you anyway."
"You're right. They don't. I have my people by my side." He taps the tip of your nose. "Now, you."
"You do have me." You lay your head down on the pillow while looking at him.
"I do?" He teasingly leans forward, inches away from your lips.
"Mhm."
"Good. That's all I need." His eyes shift down to your lips briefly before shifting back up to you. "Is there anything else you wanna ask?"
"Hm. Do you really mean that?"
"What? That you're all I need?" You nod. "I don't lie. Ever." He chuckles, caressing your cheek sweetly.
"Just kinda hard to believe hearing it from you."
"That's okay. I mean—" He whispers, pressing light, feathery kisses to your cheeks, corner of your lips. "I can show you instead, if you'd let me?"
"Show me." You whisper back, tilting your head back to give San more access to your neck, to you. One second, he's kissing up on your neck with your hands tangled in the ends of his hair; the next, your tongues are fighting for dominance in a heated kiss. Everything feels so calculated, so full of genuine emotion and desire. San's hands travel up your shirt, massaging your breasts before letting his thumb play around with your nipples. You let out a breathy moan in between kisses, back arching in response to his touch. He carefully removes your shirt and tosses it aside, mouth now latching onto one hardened bud. His tongue flicks around, working in circular motions before pulling back with a pop— earning a louder moan to slip from your lips, goosebumps rising on your skin. He repeats the motions on the other, taking his time to lick and suck around your nipple before pulling back. 
San is quick to reattach his lips to yours; this kiss holding more fervor, more intensity, as his hand slides down to completely slide your bottoms off. You work to remove his shirt, the both of you bare in a matter of seconds.
Clothes littering his bedside.
He tries not to break the kiss, even as he crawls on top of you, fingers dipping into your heat and in between your folds to get a sense of how wet you already are. 
"Oh my god." You cry. San's cock is painfully hard, hitting your thigh while he continues to pepper your jaw, neck, with kisses.
"Can I have you, baby?" He whispers in your ear. 
"Y-yes." You can barely make out from the overwhelming desire, excitement. Thrill.
This was actually happening.
San hovers slightly to slide his nightstand drawer out, but you stop him before he can grab a condom. 
"I'm on the IUD." You shake your head. "Don't need it."
"You sure?" He asks once more for final confirmation, and you give it to him with a nod. He pauses, eyes skimming through your features again before pecking you on the lips, hand coming down to stroke his length. You drool at the sight, admiring how perfectly long and thick he is. He smirks, tapping his heavy cock against your pussy a few times. 
Just to be a fucking tease.
He starts slow— pressing his cock in between your folds, gliding up and down. 
"Mm— god." He huffs. "You feel perfect already." San watches the way your eyes roll back, mouth open as you let out small whines and whimpers at the feeling. He nudges your clit with his tip as he continues to slide up and down, earning a loud mewl to release from your lips. His other hand is now gripping your jaw to force you to maintain eye contact with him— it's not a harsh grip, but it's enough to keep you clenching around nothing. Enough to keep you writhing for more underneath him. He rubs the tip against your sensitive nub directly, another shaky moan releasing from your lips. 
"Fuck, San." You hiss, feeling the pleasure build right at your core with the way he's rubbing against you; legs cocked all the way open for him.
"So beautiful. Think I can make you cum like this, angel?" You take your hand and wrap it around his base, letting him thrust into your hand as he continues his movements between your folds. "Feels so fucking good. Can't even imagine how you'd feel wrapped around me. Hm?" He hums, head kicking back in pleasure while trying to maintain his composure. Because fuck, he can feel himself dangerously close to the edge, but he's hanging on so he can feel you— all of you.
"San, San— oh god, San." You cry repeatedly, feeling your clit ready to explode. His tip is hitting it at the right pace, hitting you in all the right spots at the right pace. You move your hips upward, grinding into his length as he continues; mouth slacked open from the overwhelming pleasure. "You're gonna make me cum." 
"Yeah? Use me. Wanna see how pretty you look when you cum." He stills and watches as you use his cock to reach your first orgasm of the night, pressing him down with the right pressure onto your heat as you grind at a quicker pace— finally toppling over the edge. His eyes glow when he watches your mouth slack open from the silent moan you release, hands coming down to ease your twitching body. "God, you're perfect." He presses feathery kisses across your jaw, chin.
Neck.
Coming right below to your sweet spot below the ear.
"Ready for me?" He asks near your ear, gently nibbling your earlobe and giving you chaste kisses on said sweet spot. You nod, giving him the green light to move further. He lines himself at your entrance before gently pushing himself in, loud moans escaping the more he buries himself to the hilt. "Baaaby." San's moan drags out as he eases himself into you. "Shit, you're so tight." He slowly pumps in and out, eyes glued to his cock as you coat it with your slickness. "Feeling okay?"
"Mhm. Feels so full." You almost whine. His hands are now pressed onto your inner thighs to make sure you keep yourself open for him. He rolls his hips into you as he hovers over your body and locks you into another kiss. He doesn't waste any time picking up his pace, the way you whine and beg, beg and whine— it drives him crazy. 
"Take me. You can do it, sweetheart." His thumb presses down on your bottom lip, tongue licking into your mouth just as he devours you in a sloppy, wet kiss. You let out a strangled, lewd moan when he starts pounding into you harder, deeper; sounds of skin slapping against skin bouncing off the walls. Pussy squelching. San's name being repeated like a song, a mantra.
The noise is nothing short of pornographic.
"Please. More. Give it to me." You plead. "Feels too good."
"Shit— Y/N, jesus fucking christ." San groans when he slowly pulls out just to the tip, creamy mess lathering the top of his dick like icing. "Gonna make me cum." He pounds back into you at an angle where he can reach all your spots. He lowers himself back down to kiss you, fucking into you while expertly rubbing away at your aching clit.
San is so, so good.
"Want you to cum in me, San."
"Yeah? You did so well for me, baby. I'll fill you up real good. Just how you want it."' After two, three more hard thrusts, you find yourself unraveling for the second time. And this time, it comes crashing down harder, your walls squeezing and constricting around him. You're digging your nails deep into San's back, moaning into his mouth as he continues to chase his high. "I'm cumming— fuck." He lets out a loud, breathy moan as he stills; milking every last bit of himself into you. He buries himself in the crook of your neck, pressing kisses to the surface before coming up to kiss you softly on the lips. "You okay, baby?" He smiles.
"Mhm." He presses a few more repeated, tender kisses to your lips before running off to the bathroom to help clean you up. You lay back on your tummy as San slips himself back under the sheets, sitting back against the headboard. He sighs, black glasses perched on his nose while the sheets are pulled up to his hips. You watch as he pulls his laptop and sits it on his lap before typing away, letting out a small giggle at the way he's working.
"Do you always work naked like that? Especially after what just happened?" You tease. San smirks before giving your head a playful but gentle rub.
"Only if you're around."
"You're sick." He laughs.
"Why, is it distracting?" You giggle and shake your head, shoving your face further down into the pillow to avoid eye contact.
"No." You mumble into the pillow. 
"Then, why can't you look at me?" You peek from the pillow, catching San looking straight down at you with a small smile on his face. "Gotta beg for a kiss, too?" You roll your eyes and shift upwards to give him a peck on the lips before sinking back down into the sheets. "Good girl."
"In all seriousness though, do you always have a ton of work to catch up on at night?"
"Mm, I just prefer to catch up on things at night. Sometimes, it's easier to get through it when I'm winding down." He lets out a small sigh as he continues to scroll through his inbox and reply to a few emails. He also needs to work on some more grant-related things that he's been kinda putting off. "No biggie, though." He looks at you. "Getting sleepy now?"
"A bit. Good thing I caught up on everything before leaving."
"How'd you know you'd be busy?" He laughs a bit.
"You're so annoying. Plus, I'd rather not do my homework around you."
"Why? I can be of help."
"No, Professor Choi. Leave me to my own work." You mutter as you turn the other way and shut your eyes for a little longer. San lets out a small laugh before typing away on his laptop. It isn't long before you've stopped moving and he hears your soft breathing against the pillow, causing him to smile to himself. He leans over to press a kiss against your head, whispering a quick 'goodnight beautiful' before resuming his work. He works for another 15 minutes before he feels exhaustion taking over his body. He shuts off his laptop and sets it aside, snuggling under the covers and pulling you close as he quickly drifts off to sleep with you in his arms.
When the next morning comes, you wake up from the best sleep you've had in awhile. The sheets are keeping you warm and cozy, the mattress feels perfect against your body— everything feels perfect, except there's no San and you're yearning for him already.
You've barely been awake and all you want is San.
Luckily for you, you hear his footsteps as he comes up the steps right at that moment. When he turns into the room, he's already dressed in today's attire: a cream-colored long-sleeve henley top and jeans.
"Hey." San sits on the edge of the bed and runs his soft hand up and down your bare back. You look at him lazily, threatening to fall back asleep with the way his fingers lightly run across the surface.
"Hi." You look at him sweetly and he feels his heart melt. He could get used to this.
"Going back to sleep?"
"Mm." You stretch a bit and sit up, grabbing the covers to shield your naked body. "I should probably get up and get ready to head back."
"Do you have to?" He whines.
"Yes." You giggle. "My friends are probably gonna try and bother me before class. And in case you've forgotten, sir, I have to help Sunwoo fix the 2P for our work in your lab."
"Sexy."
"You're too much." You tease, making San chuckle. "Do you have meetings in between class today?"
"Mm, yeah. A few. I have to meet with Chris and Jongho about this ongoing collaboration discussion and some last minute symposium things, then I have to meet with some donors."
"Goodluck."
"Thank you, baby." He caresses your chin before kissing your forehead. "Come downstairs when you're done getting ready."
"Okay." You stretch as San heads to his office really quickly before heading back down to the kitchen. You strut to bathroom to wash up and get ready for your day, throwing on the same outfit you had on when San picked you up. After gathering your things and fixing San's bed, you head downstairs and find that San's got a cup of coffee and a breakfast plate fixed for you. He's standing near the counter, sipping his coffee while scrolling through his phone.
"Breakfast?" He smiles at you before wrapping an arm around you, pulling you in for kiss.
"Thank you."
Even though things feel too good to be true, you could definitely get used to this.
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bitterkarella · 5 months ago
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Midnight Pals: Sandwiches
JK Rowling: hello children Rowling: exciting newsss out of America these daysss! Rowling: we're banning transs women from ssport because of their innate biological advantage Rowling: we're also banning ciss women from ssport because really we should all be back in the kitchen Rowling: everyone wins!
Angela Carter: i'm kinda worried about the attacks on womens rights and reproductive health JK Rowling: wow angela alwaysss focussing on the negative! Rowling: what about all the good that fasscism is doing for women? Carter: Rowling: for example, you won't have to worry about getting divorcced anymore
Rowling: look i'm just ssaying Rowling: women had all thesse rightss just ssitting around Rowling: i mean, were we really ussing any of them? Rowling: they were just kind of getting in the way
Rowling: i know a lot of you probably think it'ss bad that women are lossing rightss Angela Carter: in fact, i do Rowling: oh look this feminazi thinksss itss bad that women are lossing rights
Rowling: finally! uss women are back where we belong! Rowling: in the kitchen! Rowling: really, we were all getting way too uppity Rowling: we should have been making ssandwichess
Carter: this seems bad to me Rowling: maybe YOU should get back in the kitchen Carter: i am not going back in the kitchen Rowling: and make me a sandwich Carter: make you a--!?! Carter: you don't get to say that! Rowling: once again liberal strikes again
Carter: why are you cheering this on?? You're a woman too! Rowling: if you ask me, this is all a sssmall price to pay to get to do a little genocide
Rowling: the tyranny of liberal feminissm is over! Rowling: now you can get any woman to make you a sssandwich Lovecraft: really? Rowling: go ahead! try it! Lovecraft: i will!
Lovecraft: Sonia, can you make me a sandwich? Rowling: what the hell Rowling: not like that! Rowling: you have to put some manly forccce into it! Lovecraft: i mean Lovecraft: Sonia, can you please make me a sandwich? Rowling: goddamn it no
Rowling: you have to sssay 'WOMAN, GET IN THE KITCHEN, WOMAN, AND MAKE ME A SSSANDWICH' Lovecraft: ok ok Lovecraft: this time i think i got it Lovecraft: WOMAN GET IN THE KICTHEN AND MAKE ME A SANDWICH Lovecraft: you know how i like it Lovecraft: lots of bread Lovecraft: at least two slices Lovecraft: both white
Sonia Greene: there's no need to talk like that howard Greene: you know that i'm always happy to make you a sandwich Greene: i love to feed my little Howie Greene: hmmm Lovecraft: oh yeah i guess you do Lovecraft: [sweats] it's little weird, actually Greene: why won't you let me use the funnel howie
Sonia Greene: what do you want between the bread Lovecraft: what?
HP Lovecraft: alright! now i think i got the hang of this! Lovecraft: i can get any woman to make me a sandwich! Barker: you sure about that howard? Lovecraft: i mean i'm pretty sure Barker: why don't you ask mary Lovecraft: alright i will! Poe: howard no Poe: clive don't encourage this
Lovecraft: hey woman why don't you go back in the kitchen and make me a sandwich Mary Shelley: the fuck Lovecraft: you heard me woman Shelley: Shelley: the fuck
Mary Shelley: damn howard i've never seen this side of you Shelley: so forceful! so rugged! Lovecraft: really? Shelley: [shivs lovecraft] too bad your manly charms have no effect on me Shelley: that ain't the kind of man i like! Shelley: right percy? Percy Shelley: yes dear
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trivia-yandere · 2 years ago
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request for yandere!ex-husband jk trying to prevent oc from divorcing him 💀😭 (only because they got a child together and he loves her more than anything but she just can’t take him anymore)
hello! yes we can :) this one might take a little turn but this is a yandere account so
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You knew who Jungkook was prior to having his children and marrying him, so you serving him with divorce papers wasn't going to do anything but anger him.
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warning: yandere themes/tendancies, non-consenual touching/rape, smut, cursing, dark theme, spitting, degradation, possessiveness, fingering, dirty talking, emotional/mental manipulation, biting, restraining, crying, slapping,
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“Get it out of my sight.” Jungkook tosses the paper away aggressively with a roll of his eyes. One of his men - Sung-ho, stands straighter to appear obedient. “That bitch thinks she’s going to divorce me after I made her?” Jungkook leans back into his chair with a huff. He shakes his head. “After I got her out of the slums she was living in?”
Jungkook’s eyes glance at the picture onto his desk - one of you and him on your wedding day. He grasps it and hurls it at Sung-ho who barely manages to dodge the attack. “You find that bitch and bring her back to me!” he screeches, eyes wide with rage. Sung-ho truly had no reason to be a part of Jungkook’s rage and he would make sure to apologize about it another time.
It’s been three months.
Three months since Jungkook has allowed you your little vacation away from him. And now you dare serve him with divorce papers that claimed that you wanted full custody of his daughters - you were insane. You had no job and had not worked in the last five years you and he had been married. You swiped his card without a care in the world and wasted close to millions since then - as a man and your husband, he never bat an eye.
But to think that you were willing to divorce him because - by your words - Jungkook was not the man he claimed to be was preposterous. You knew the type of man he was - the same man who you kept returning to every night to wet his cock and warm his bed. The same man who gave you lavish gifts every week and the same man who managed to not only marry you, but grace you with two of his offspring.
So what if he orchestrated a few murders every now and then? Or stole money and expensive pieces during heists? Sold a few (thousands) pounds of unthinkable drugs? You lived in a mansion, his daughters and you wanted for nothing - isn't that what a man was supposed to do? Ensure his family was alright? Why the fuck did it matter what he did as long as you and his girls were safe?
Jungkook knew you had no problem with what he did for work. Your problem was that you clearly missed him - he had to be gone the majority of the time and that left you in such a large mansion to care for the children alone. But a divorce? Wasn’t that a little excessive? No, this was nothing but a little stunt to get his attention and clearly, now you had it.
Sure Jungkook and you didn’t meet on simpler terms - normal people met at coffee shops. Maybe out grocery shopping. Hell, social media and dating sites were normal now. 
No, Jungkook and you met during one of many (unbeknownst to you) bank heists he had gone on. You recall the day had been fairly slow, only a few people coming in every hour. You had been assisting an older man when the doors slammed open and a group of men entered. 
The men wore all black and wore masks that covered their entire head. They pointed guns at everyone, telling them to get down. You - of course it had to be you - were escorted to the back. To think that this wasn’t even your shift initially and you picked it up from a fellow co-worker. 
But again, you weren’t as normal either. Jungkook noticed how you appeared to not take anything serious. He pointed his gun at you and though he would never use it - hurting women and children was not his forte - you didn’t know this.
Jungkook knew you were different when you flirted with him as you opened the safe. If this was your way to assure your safety, then it was a weird way to go.
“Do you do this often?” you speak as Jungkook fills the bags with stacks upon stacks of cash. “I always wondered what robbing a bank would be like.”
You. You were a weird one. But Jungkook liked it.
“I saw something like this in a porno once.”
Jungkook halts in his tracks, unable to control his thoughts. He turns towards you, eye sockets - dark and nearly invisible to you, stare at your grinning figure.
“The robbers break in and find a defenseless woman…” you lean back onto the wall, tilting your head. “...take advantage of her. But deep down, we both know she wanted it.”
Jungkook was ashamed of himself for allowing himself to be consumed by you. You had all the control that day and you knew it. You enticed him so much that he was able to forget about the heist all together and that’s when he found himself inside of you - ravishing you against the very wall you leaned against.
What could Jungkook say? He was a man and you were a willing participant. You begged him for more, edged him on as he fucks you. You liked the way he was treating you - hands clenching your neck, the manhandling. You started this, all Jungkook did was follow your lead.
“I could say you raped me.”
There it was - the kicker.
You could say that indeed. You had managed to not only get Jungkook off of his game to fuck you - but to do so without a condom. Jungkook had been so excited by you that he came the hardest he has in months - right inside of you. His cum drips out of your pussy and down your thighs, you not even bothering to wipe it up.
“Say that you took advantage of me and when they do a rape kit…” you shrug.
Jungkook points his gun at your head, but both of you knew that he wasn’t going to pull any triggers. You sensed no threat when it came from this man - Jungkook is who he would soon introduce himself as.
“What do you want?” This is the first time you have heard Jungkook’s voice. He was young, you note, his cock and stamina confirming it. Possibly around the same age as you.
“Money.” you shrug your shoulders. “But I can’t take it now.” you laugh. “I guess that means I’ll have to see you again, huh?”
Jungkook swallows. He’s thankful the mask remained on his face and you didn’t see his red cheeks and shocked expression.
“How about I give you my number and you can call me later?” you offer.
“I could kill you later.” Jungkook retorts. 
“You can kill me now.” you fire back. “Your friends can kill the entire bank and get away with it. Burn it down and get rid of any evidence you have left inside of me.”
Jungkook swallows.
“But you know that. You’re a smart boy.” There you were flirting with him again. “If you wanted to hurt me, you would have. Truth is, I could care less about this job and my life is quite boring. All I want is a little company. Who better than a random thief with obviously nothing else better to do?”
Jungkook found that from right there he was fucked and you were truly a vixen - an agent of chaos sent from Hell (Heaven would never allow something like you) to torment him. But he was rather intrigued for the first time in who knows how long.
“What’s your name?” Jungkook asked.  
“Y/N.”
 Jungkook lowers his gun. “Jungkook.”
You chugged the champagne down in nearly one gulp and slammed the glass onto your vanity. Your eyes dart to your reflection in the mirror and you scoff. You should have known Jungkook wasn’t going to let you go without a fight.
You recall the way all hell had broke loose when Jungkook had found you. Your daughters were at school luckily and didn’t have to see their father’s demeanor change. He told you it wasn’t hard finding your hotel room and slamming the door open. You had been dozing off when he entered and Jungkook was anything but content. 
“I allowed this little break to go on long enough, Y/N.” Jungkook was aggressively grabbing your belongings, hauling them onto the bed. “Pack your shit.”
“No.” you hissed.
“No?” Jungkook scoffs. “You think you’re going to divorce me and take my daughters?” Jungkook wants to laugh at how stupid you sounded. “With no job?”
“I’ve been saving money.” you retort, eyes glaring at him.
“Oh,” Jungkook snickers with a clap of his hands. “So you’ve been planning on leaving me for a while. What’s changed?”
Jungkook came closer to you. He looked manic, eyes wide and glaring into your soul. 
“You even threatened to expose me if I didn’t give you a divorce.” Jungkook is livid. “Take down all of my legitimate businesses just to divorce me? You think you’ll get away with that, baby?”
Jungkook was never one to be rough with you, but he’s pissed. He pushes you onto the bed and hovers about you. “You don’t think you’ll go down with me? You tell them what I do on the side, I’ll tell them you were alongside me the entire way. We’ll both go to jail and our daughters…” Jungkook shrugs. “They’ll go to my brother.”
Your eyes widen at Jungkook’s words. “You wouldn’t.”
“I would. Take me down, Y/N. You’re going with me.” Jungkook pushed himself away from you. “Pack your shit and let's go home.” he hissed, not waiting for a response from you.
And now here you sat in said home. You were fresh from a long shower, having ignored Jungkook the following days and only tended to your daughter's needs.
You were feeling bitchy today, however, and decided that if Jungkook didn’t want to give you a divorce - that you were going to force him to. That, or annoy him until you felt as though you were done.
You continued to lotion your skin until it glowed, then you grabbed the perfume bottle - one of the many expensive gifts from Jungkook - and sprayed it until you knew it would linger. You take one last look in the mirror before smiling to yourself.
“We haven’t done a bank heist in years.” Jimin says with furrowed brows, bored and a little offended with the conversation. “We aren’t children anymore. Are we going broke?”
Jungkook snorts, but leans back into his chair. He pours himself the whiskey - courtesy of Yoongi - and lifts his eyes to the surrounding men that he considers brothers.
“I agree.” Taehyung nods. “Bank heists are for the lower ranks. Who’s idea was this?”
“Mine.” Jungkook slams the shot glass down onto the table and shakes his head at the powerful taste. “Don’t you guys remember the adrenaline rush?”
Namjoon snorts with a roll of his eyes. “Leave it to the baby of the group to say this.” he murmurs, a smirk forming onto his lips.
The doors of the meeting room open and heads turn towards the noise. Jungkook’s eyes land on you - and your lack of clothes all together. You adorn lingerie, black and lacy that fits you perfectly. His eyes darken when he meets your gaze.
Jimin is interested now. He leans forward and waves at you. “Y/N, hello.” he says. You were always Jimin’s favorite out of the girls Jungkook had brought around - one of the main reasons being that you actually became a wife. You didn’t remain someone he left in the shadows of his bedroom and actually gave him two adorable nieces.
And of course, you and Jungkook were one of the same. You were stubborn and took no shit and Jungkook got a taste of his own medicine. One of the countless reasons why you two bumped heads often - but it made for great make-up sex.
“Jimin.” you wave back. “I missed you. You don’t come around as much.”
Jungkook watches you with glaring eyes as you make your way closer.
“Y/N.” Jungkook’s tone is low - a warning. Not now, he wants to say. He had no time for your petty bullshit.
“You know me, I always keep busy.” Jimin continues the conversation as if you aren’t wearing the bare minimum - but Jimin didn’t see you in that way. Plus, he loved annoying Jungkook just like you did.
“That you do.” You reach the edge of the table, grasping a glass and a half empty bottle of brandy. “I see you all been drinking without me.”
“Y/N.” Jungkook continues, leaning forward. His firsts were clenching as he awaits for you to answer him. 
Taehyung fights back the cackle. It was always something when it came to Jungkook and you. The fights were never to be taken seriously - it always ended the same way. You and he entangled together declaring how much you pissed the other off.
“You’ve been ignoring us lately.” Taehyung pipes in. “What did we do to deserve the cold shoulder?”
Jungkook could feel the atmosphere shift. You were mocking him - he was once told by Yoongi that he allowed you to walk all over him and he was beginning to agree. You had no respect for him - and even his brothers were going along with your foolishness.
“I’m sorry.” you sigh, pouring yourself the brandy and glancing at Jungkook. “Maybe when the divorce is finalized-”
There it was - the cherry on top. Jungkook’s chair screeches as he pushes himself away from the table and lifts himself up. He’s fast as he rounds it and lunges at you. However, you’re just as fast at hauling your drink into his face.
Jimin watches in amusement as Jungkook pulls you over his shoulder as if you were a toddler throwing a tantrum. He rushes out of the room - slamming the door open with a loud bang while you’re punching at his back.
“Well then.” Namjoon claps his hands, shaking his head. He allows a few laughs to be released from his lips.
“I think this little get together is over.” Hoseok continues.
Jungkook is livid when he slams the bedroom door open just to slam it shut behind him. He shoves you off of him and onto the king sized bed. You fall on your back with a grunt, bouncing off until you catch yourself. 
“You think you’re cute, huh?” Jungkook grumbles, towering over you. He would admit that he wanted to be furious with you - but your attire didn’t help him. You knew what you were doing to piss him off but you wearing his favorite perfume was doing nothing but distracting him.
“Had to do something to get your attention.” you retort, swallowing when your eyes meet the bulge in his pants.
“Ah, so that’s what it is?” Jungkook tsks. He isn't hesitant to push you back, hand wrapping around your neck. “You missed me, baby. I haven’t been as attentive to you as a husband.”
It’s his knee you feel so close to your heat, the friction causing you to groan. Jungkook was always the one to take control, never fully allowing you to unless it's what he desired.
“Why must you always take things too far?” Jungkook loosens his grip onto your neck, palm gliding down to your breast. “Am I not good to you?”
“You see me as nothing but a whore!” you hiss, turning away from him. Jungkook does notice the way your thighs quiver and your hips jut towards his knee for friction. 
“A whore, no.” Jungkook shakes his head with a laugh. “My whore? Yes.” His eyes are burning into yours, offering the same venom you were giving him. “My whore to fuck, to please, to care for. You’re mine, Y/N.”
Jungkook moves his knee from your heat to replace it. His palm slaps it roughly, wet spot not going unnoticed. You shiver at the impact, ashamed that your body was giving away just what he was doing to you. You felt weak when it came to Jungkook - married for five years and together for nearly 7, he knew your body like the back of his hand. 
Jungkook slaps your clothed clit more - over and over again until your juices are soaked through the lingerie, and even then he doesn’t want to stop his torment.
Jungkook’s fingers dig through the lacy fabric of your lingerie to toy with your clit. So wet - so inviting. He could never get enough of your pussy.
“You ignore me days just to show up in lingerie you knew was going to drive me crazy.” Jungkook rubs along your throbbing clit, bulge twitching at just how sopping wet you are. “Then you say it again. Threaten me with divorce.” Jungkook’s scoffing now. He doesn’t want to waste anymore time.
Jungkook enters two fingers inside of you, not bothering to give you any warning - nor be gentle in the slightest. 
“You make it seem like life with me is bad.” Jungkook begins pumping his fingers inside of you. Your body gives him the reaction he always expects - clenching walls, juices flowing down his wrist and flinching form. 
You want to push Jungkook away, to say that you aren’t his anything. You wanted out of this marriage from him - you were nothing but someone he had control over and you allowed it for far too long. It didn’t feel like a marriage between two lovers, instead you felt trapped in a home and made to be nothing but a body to warm his bed every night. The only gift you could truly appreciate from Jungkook was your daughters.
However, it was your body. Your body could never agree on what your mind was telling it to - you find yourself moaning lowly at his thrusting fingers. Jungkook is pissed, and when he is it tends to show in the way he pleases you. Dominant and in control.
Jungkook’s tongue licks upon your cheek. Hot, wet and slimy - all before he spits onto you. In his eyes, the ultimate sign that you were truly his.
“I fucked over enough people in my lifetime that they have given up trying to take it out on me.” Jungkook’s pumping only increases. “You and our daughters are the true targets that they know could truly get to me. I’ve done nothing but kept you and them safe.”
Your eyes roll when you feel the familiar bubbling churning in your stomach. The wet slapping of Jungkook’s fingers inside of you are echoing filthy throughout the bedroom.
“Leave.” Jungkook removes his fingers from inside of you just when you were seconds away from releasing. “If you want the divorce so bad, then I’ll give it to you. Our daughters are staying with me.”
You’re panting, high coming back down to Earth. Your eyes flutter open to see Jungkook pushing himself away from you.
“I’m not leaving without them.”
“Too bad.” Jungkook shrugs. “You want the divorce. You leave and you’ll see them whenever you come here. Take whatever money you saved and find yourself somewhere to go.”
“You’re bluffing.” you find the courage to say, but your voice is so low and meek.
Jungkook hums, lips twitching as he watches you. Poor you, eyes wide and chest heaving. You never truly thought he would give you what you asked for - no matter how brattish and petty you’ve been towards him. 
Jungkook was going to show you just how much you needed him and not the other way around. You were his woman regardless and no divorce was ever going to change that - not even in death would he allow you to part ways with him. He just had to show you how truly vile the world was without him.
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Jungkook strokes your hair as you continue to cry in his arms, visibly shaking and trembling. Your fingers are clenching onto his shirt tight as if never wanting to let him go.
How the tables have truly turned - but all Jungkook could think was “I told you so”.
You were only gone a week and it was all it took for you to find yourself in trouble. Jungkook wasn’t lying when he said that revenge toward him was sought out by harming those he loved.
You sat in your hotel room when the knock sounded onto the door. You had ordered food not long ago, so when the knock sounded you wasted no time in going to open it.
Your first mistake.
Your door crashes open when you unlock it and you’re shoved onto the ground. You don’t manage to scream when you feel your screams being muffled. There's two of them, you note, both men. Their clothing was dark and loose fitted and their face had been hidden completely, you can see from a facial mask to cover their mouth and scarf on top of their heads. You couldn’t make out the eyes, yet you weren’t intended to. You were flipped onto your front quickly when one man had yanked you onto your feet, face burying into the hotel bed.
Your legs and arms thrashed around in an attempt to free yourself from the men, but you quickly realized that it was pointless - and that you were doing nothing but exhausting yourself. 
Your eyes swell with tears, anxiety peaking when you realize that this might be what Jungkook was talking about - your mind telling you that there was no way you were leaving here alive. 
Your arms are restrained by one man while the other pulls at your clothing. Your legs shiver when your pajama pants are ripped and you’re exposed to the cool air of the room
You feel nauseous and your head is pounding at the thought of you being defiled by these men - that you were in this situation at all.
You managed to lift your head to breathe, a choked sob releasing from your throat. Your tears blinded your vision, but you could see in the corner of your eye flesh - the man behind you ripping your clothing off. Without thinking, you sink your teeth into his skin in hopes of buying you time for an escape.
A hiss sounds through your ears and you feel a sting across your cheek. Your arms are being restrained tighter until you feel them cramp and sob.
You pleaded and begged for them to leave you alone - that you’d give them whatever money you had saved. Your pleas fell on deaf ears and you realized what they truly wanted was you.
You clenched your eyes shut when you felt yourself being stuffed by the man behind you. He wastes no time in pumping inside of you, not caring just how uncomfortable it felt for the both of you. You feel something wet, warm and slimy drip onto your folds, you conclude he had spit onto you to get any form of lubricant.
The thrusts are brutal and his hands upon you are tight and unmoving. Your sobs do not subside and you feel as though your body is betraying you. It didn’t feel good to you - you felt disgusting and utterly embarrassed; especially with the grunting sounds from the man defiling you. But your body is allowing this to happen, naturally lubricating your walls for more - your stomach churning and bubbling to reach a high you didn’t desire.
Skin slapping echoes off the wall and you had no tears left in you to cry. You wanted this torture to end, to be freed from the nightmare -  but the man was cruel. You feel his hand tuck themselves beneath you and fingers twirl at your clit. You cry upon impact, shaking your head. 
“She likes it.” you hear faintly - it had to be the man restraining you. His voice felt so far away even if he was right across from you. 
The man behind you grunts, hips snapping into you roughly, fingers toying your clit harshly. Your pussy clenches around him unwillingly and you remain shaking your head - you didn’t want this. Your body doesn’t understand the difference between this and what it's use to.
“She’s about to cum.” the muffled voice from the man restraining you says. He holds onto your arms tighter as his partner flips you around. You come face to face with the masked person and your heart drops. You close your eyes, not wanting the man to see your reaction.
“It’s okay to like it. Whore’s like you love this, don’t you?”
The man doesn’t stop his thrusts - no, he appears to be thrusting into you even harder. Your moans of protest fill the room, but to these men, they were moans nonetheless.
Hands clamp around your neck and another around your lips. It silences you completely and you no longer have any strength in trying to protest. You felt your walls clench around the masked man until you were finally letting go around him unwillingly, but by then you were losing consciousness.
“I told you the outside world isn’t the place for you, Y/N.” Jungkook murmurs into your hair. “You’re lucky I came just in time. Who knows what they were planning on doing to you.”
Your tears are now soaking Jungkook’s shirt, but he didn’t care. He didn’t want to let you go - and now he would never have to. 
“Come on. Let’s get you in the shower, yeah?” Jungkook says, pushing you away to look at your tear-stained face. ���I love you, Y/N. Always.”
You sniffled, feeling yourself fall apart all over again. Your head crashes into his chest and your hold on him becomes tighter. “I-I’m sorry.” you apologize. You should have heed his warning - that you were safe with him. He kept you in this mansion for this long because the outside world was indeed not safe - you and your daughters could never be safe if it wasn’t with Jungkook. You’re grateful that you had not taken them with you. Who knows what the masked men would’ve done to them.
Once Jungkook manages to get you into the shower, he closes the bathroom door behind him with a sigh. He gets your pajamas ready for you when you’re out and some sleeping pills - you’d need it if you were going to get a good night's sleep. 
Jungkook proceeds to lift his sleeve up and sigh at the mark on his wrist. It was beginning to sting. You managed to draw blood when you bit him - but he was grateful that the wound wasn’t too severe. 
After all, Yoongi’s plan had worked. Jungkook regained his control over you - even if he had to take desperate measures and insert fear. But, he had you nonetheless - his wife.
part two (prequel) a look back into your and jungkook's fatal attraction - before the marriage, kids and the detachment coming soon...
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aajjks · 1 year ago
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Silent Cries (m)
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synopsis. Not everything could go his way and he had to learn this the hard way
Disclaimer: this is pretty dark. Read at your own risk. Please keep in mind that this is purely fictional and I don’t think that Jungkook or any Bts member would ever act like this! Read with caution.
warning: ünhëälthy thèmès, fèrtïlïty ïssǔès, prègnâncy, öbsëssïön, mèntïöns ôf âbörtïön, dïvörcè, sèxüǎl thêmês, cryïng, yn rèálly wánts á báby, dêprèssïön, dárk thêmês.
note. Let’s welcome this new JK to my Multiverse. I hope you will ask him fun questions as well, and I hope you will love him even though he’s a little ☠️ ENJOY! 
Header credit: @callingholly ❤️
***NOT EDITED***
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You were told that you were not capable of having children, but… jungkook accepted that part of you. you know why.. it is because he loves you, and he never wanted children.
The day is gloomy, more than usual. You stand on the bathroom floor, your gaze is blurry. unshed tears in your eyes as you stare at the pregnancy test. The stick trembles in your hands. It is all over now.
You close your eyes in order to erase the image out your eyes. The image of two straight lines on the stick. You are supposed to feel really happy.
But why Fate is never really on your side?
Does God really hate you that much? All of your life, there was nothing but suffering, your parents never cared about you.
You and your husband, Jungkook- you love him, you really do but he’s just sometimes too much to bear. you’ve been having some problems in your marriage and you almost were considering divorce but now?
now, you are carrying another innocent life inside of you. That could be ruined because of you. Because of Jeon Jungkook, who ruins everything.
The thing is that he doesn’t want a child. He freaks out over the idea of having a child.
You sob at how pathetic you are. How could you let this happen? You are pregnant, with his child. You want to die. But now, you can’t do that.
If there’s anything you and him are not compatible with? It’s your family plan. You’ve always wanted children. Unlike your husband.
And no matter what his reaction is going to be, you can’t help but grab your belly, wiping your tears that fall.
You are going to have this baby. You can’t kill it- your husband will suggest it, you know him so well.
Because you are not a killer. You can’t kill the little life inside of you. That you so desperately wanted all your life. You’ve prayed for this moment.
And even though you have made your decision,
Panic rises in your chest as you come out of the bathroom and look at Jungkook’s and yous wedding photos that litter the creamy beige walls. Thankfully, he’s not home right now so you will have some time to relax and plan how to tell him.
But- it’s almost time.
He could be home any minute now! The ticking of the clock almost warns you. Time is going.
You throw the stick in the dumpster. He’s going to find it anyways. you have no idea why you feel so nervous… You feel like you are being suffocated. And you can’t be saved.
As your hand rests on your yet to be swollen stomach, something switches in you. You have to be strong now. You need to survive for your child. You have to make him understand. This child will be a blessing for the both of you. You are going to become strong.
You are going to change everything just for the sake of your child. Because this little bean is now the reason for your existence. Maybe this could fix your marriage-because you really don’t want to leave your husband-you’re not sure about what you want..
You quickly wipe the tears as a small smile paints your lips. Your grandma raised you to be strong and you can just give into Jungkooks stupid demand. You are going to be like your grandma, who raised you, took care of you. Became your mum, that you never had.
This baby is just as jungkook as yours too, and it is going to become your strength. This baby is a gift from God, your saving grace.
Your husband was really happy on the particular day, when you had been told about your fertility issues, he made it really clear that he never wanted children, he always wanted it, to be him and you.
Your thoughts are cut off short when the doorbell rings. And the main door unlocking. talk of the devil? And He shall appear.
You inhale a deep breath.
Time to do this.
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“I’m pregnant, Jungkook.” The words come out of your mouth so easily. Jungkook who is cuddling, your body, a habit he has. Looks up at you.
He is currently laid in your lap, and he starts to laugh at you.
You want to roll your eyes, but this reaction is not really that surprising from him and you just have to be calm and collected right now.
“I-I’m so sorry? But you’re pregnant?” He stops laughing, as he wipes his tears. he looks so bad you with his brown eyes and you can tell he’s waiting for you to say that you’re kidding but you’re not.
You just smile at him in pity. Your nod of confirmation was all it took for Jungkook to start panicking.
“W-What are you saying!? Y-You can’t be! You can’t be pregnant!!” He gets up from your shared bed as he runs his hand frantically through his hair. His dark damp, long locks hiding his eyes.
What the fuck is he talking about? His words hit a nerve in you. He knows damn well how you got pregnant.
“What the fuck Jungkook! How can you ask me how I’m pregnant?! It’s because of you! You did this!” You scream at the panicking man.
“because I thought you weren’t supposed to get pregnant?!” He’s right about that but it’s not like you planned on this to happen. You also thought that you couldn’t have children.
So what was the point in using protection birth control, like he always said to you. You just both have to deal with the consequences of your actions.
“B-But yn! I don’t want a child.” There we go.
“There is not supposed to be someone else between us! Not a-a baby!” Jungkook cries desperately as he grabs you by the shoulders and shakes you as if you’ll understand his point. You get up from the bed.
If it’s an argument he wants, you’ll give him that.
You cannot believe that he’s crying right now.
You glare at the doe eyed man who is looking at you as if you have grown two heads. “Jungkook! You disgust me.” You spit at him. You can’t believe him, he is such a selfish person. Jungkook flinches at the coldness of your tone as his grip loosens on your shoulders.
His voice comes out rough and broken but he keeps on apologising to you. “Y-Yn P-Please! Y-You don’t mean that r-right? You can’t! Y-You love me! Just me! And no one else! We need to get rid of this baby!” He rambles on like a madman and as your brain register his words his last sentence hits you and your eyes widen in disbelief.
Why are you even surprised? Even though you knew he was going to say that? it just hurts a little bit more hearing it coming from his own mouth without any hesitation.
“W-What?! A-Are you hearing yourself Jungkook? You-You’re suggesting that I-I kill my unborn child?” Tears well up in your eyes, and they immediately start to fall down your cheeks at Jungkook’s suggestion. You avert your gaze away from Jungkook’s crazed eyes.
“You’re a sick bastard! Fucking monster!” You sob at him. Your curses don’t seem to affect him, it is like he has gone numb, the irony. He stands still.
“No. one. can. come. between. us.” Jungkook’s silent whispers could be heard by you. You massaged your temples, now there was only one option left.
“If this baby dies then I’ll die with it. And if you don’t want this baby..” you take in a breath. He always gets your blood pressure so high.
“If you don’t want this baby that means you don’t want me either, so I will just divorce you because I have been thinking about it. you are becoming too much for me to deal with it’s time you fucking grow Up!”
“I will have this baby because this is the only ray of hope in my life. Now, it’s your choice, Jungkook.” Your words come out of your mouth carefully. You wait for his response. 
But all you get is silence.
When he doesn’t respond you decid to leave the room, but a loud sob holds you back. Did you mention that your husband is actually pathetic and good for nothing?
Yes, he’s rich but, so what? Yes, he handsome in the first man you loved but now you’re beginning to regret it.
His rough screams for you please you, oddly his suffering pleases you to the core.
It was about time he suffered.
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“B-Be careful Y/N!” Jungkook instructs you while you laid down on the bed, your hands coming to caress your 6 months pregnant belly. His eyes are fixated on your movements, never left your belly as he smiled softly.
“Y/N just one month is left until our baby is here!” Soft giggles left his mouth as he laid beside you and caresses your stomach. “You look so beautiful like this! You’re pregnant with my child. You’ll be the mother of my child. We’re going to be parents! Now, everyone would know that you’re mine! This baby will make us inseparable, y-you won’t be able to leave me now!” Another chuckle vibrates from his chest.
You’re not sure what has happened to him these past few months but you’re glad that there’s improvement.
Maybe it was your threat to divorce and that got his head straight.
But meanwhile…
He could look at you forever and not get bored. You look so ethereal with your belly swollen because of him. He made you like this. The thought of that really pleases him.
Now you couldn’t ever think of leaving him! This child has bounded you to Jungkook forever.
Your tired voice brings him back to reality, “Jungkook he’s going to be so beautiful and cute! I love the little shoes that your parents bought for him oh! And his little clothes?? And the baby bathtub? His nursery is by far my most favourite! My lovely son! I can’t wait to meet you! Mommy loves you so much!” You talked to the baby. An exciting smile gracing your features.
Yeah, it’s a little boy. And his parents are so excited for their first grandchild.
Everyone is excited about him, even his friends are excited to become uncles.
He doesn’t understand what is the breed about having a little child, because all they do is cry and fuss. And poop.
Jungkook scoffs at you cooing at the child who wasn’t even born yet. You used to coo at him like this. Jungkook was supposed to be your baby! Jealousy slowly starts to creep up again.
He needs to stay calm. But how can when his brain is just refusing to give him any peace.
A thousand scenarios run through his mind. What if you don’t love him anymore? Or what if you will give the baby more attention than Jungkook? Or worse, what if the baby will completely take his place in your heart? And worst of all, what if you completely forget about him?
“Kook! Jungkook! Your phones buzzing! It’s Eunwoo!” You shake his shoulders to get his attention, your husband has a tendency to zone out.
You couldn’t help but wonder about what he’s thinking about so focused?
“Jungkook!” your tone got louder this time. Jungkook finally blinked as he smile at you.
“O-Oh I’m so sorry Y/N! Please pass me my phone, princess?” You decide to let go the urge of asking what was he thinking so deeply about and pass him the phone.
Jungkook kisses your lips quickly as he excuses himself out. You nod, and he smiles brightly while picking up the phone. You then focus on the book.
It makes sure that he’s away from you. The large house has a lot of benefits to it, whenever he wants to complain? he can just come in one of the rooms and scream.
As soon as he leaves the room a cry left him. “Eunwoo! I-I need your help! I-I don’t want this baby! He will steal Y/N away from me! N-No that can’t happen! Help me please! Y-Y/N is already slipping away from my grip! Help me get rid of this baby! Please!” Jungkook rambles on like a maniac through the phone while on the other line, Eunwoo sighs heavily.
“calm down first.” He spoke timidly. Jungkook took a deep breath. He’s right, Jungkook needs to get a grip on himself first.
“Now listen, we talked about this.” Eunwoo’s tone changed. “W-What!?” The long haired male rolls his eyes, because he knows he’s about to get lectured But a lecture is not what he needs. Jungkook needs a solution to his problem.
“I don’t think you should do something so immoral like that…” Jungkook got confused. What is he talking about?
“W-We can’t kill him! Y-Y/N wouldn’t want that! N-No!” Jungkook clearified. Jungkook couldn’t displease you.
“What are you implying?” Eunwoo took in a deep breath.. “having a child with her is a good thing, kook. That’s what I’ve been trying to make you understand… she will be with you forever.”
Of course you will be with him forever because it’s not like he will let you divorce him but why does everyone keep saying that a child will make your relationship only stronger?
You don’t even touch him.. anymore. Maybe it’s the sexual frustration catching up to him. Maybe everyone is right.
Jungkook’s eyes widen at eunwoo’s voice. He’s not exactly wrong though. Jungkook take some moment to think about this all over again.
He did read on the Internet that sex will help induce labor-and if he will tell you that you will definitely give in to him. He cannot believe that he’s thinking about that right now, but he can’t help it.
There’s still three months left in your delivery. He can wait for three months, right? Or maybe he could just seduce you into bed tonight.
Why are you not horny. Women tend to get really hormonal with your hormonal issues. Don’t have anything to do with your sex drive.
He will fix that.
A dirty smile is now on Jungkook’s face. He holds the phone tighter as he speaks the final words to eunwoo.
“Thanks man! For always helping me! I owe you.” He smiles and sighes.
You have always given him what he wanted, jungkook he always managed to get his way with you, so maybe this time it should be you in his place.
“No problem man! It’s just like how you helped me get my girl… Seeing you like this with yn makes me remember when I was at your place... but I am glad that you have understood because she deserves to be happy..”
Jungkook chuckles loudly. “Of course! What are brothers for?” Jungkook’s eyes darken, because he knows that as much as eunwoo would like to think that he’s different from jungkook, he’s not.
He’s also right about the fact that you deserve to be happy. That’s why he’s been so hopeful supportive during your pregnancy.
“Let’s see when the baby comes..”and after saying goodbye to his friend? Jungkook walks back to your shared bedroom.
There you are, hand on your belly and your eyes scrunched together at the book you’re reading. He smiles at the sight.
No one could ever come between you and him. Not even his own blood. He belonged to you and you belonged to him. And the baby can never come between you and Jungkook.
You will have to decide the baby’s fate.
It all depends on you now.
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roseeeii · 27 days ago
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‘My good looking boy’
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Pairing: Mafia!jk w/ brat!yn
!Warnings!: Angst, Smut (MDNI!), brat calling, oral m & f receiving, blood, gore (MDNI!), sir calling, ‘brat taming’, Y/n is used, curly hair!y/n, divorce mentioned(kinda??), possessive jk, slut calling, spanking, and I think that’s it?? I’m not sure tell me if I missed any!!
Snippet: ‘I’ve always been yours Y/N nothing will change that, even if we divorce you will always have my heart’ y/n twirled the ring on her finger looking at the ring then back at him. Her eyes like daggers into his she didn’t have any words to explain how she was feeling. He beat up a random dude for flirting with her.
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Banners made by me plz tell me if you want me to make you one and I’ll do it!!
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Blood still clung to his knuckles.
The silence in the kitchen was thick, broken only by the sound of her shaky breath and the gentle clink of her ring spinning around her finger. Outside, the city kept moving. Inside, time had stopped.
He hadn’t said sorry. He never did.
Y/N didn’t look away from him. Not this time.
“I’ve always been your’s Y/N. Nothing will change that, even if we divorce—you will always have my heart,” He said. His voice was steady, but y/n eyes… her eyes were daggers. Sharp, searching, cold.
She looked down at the ring. The symbol of everything that used to be love and now felt like a chain.
He had killed someone tonight. A stranger. For looking at her.
Wait a second, let’s backtrack a bit..
‘Jungkook! Cmon hurry up! I can’t wait any longer I swear if I do I’m gonna shove my stilettos up your ass!’ Y/n screamed from the bathroom why was he taking so long to just tie a tie?! ‘I’m coming I’m coming pretty..’ He came into the bathroom while y/n applied her lipliner and dark red lipstick with lipgloss on top ‘do my curls look good?’ ‘You always look good my dear..’
Y/n smirked grabbing her mini red leather purse adjusting ‘Thank you pretty boy..’ he smiled like a dummy, god he was so lovestruck over this bossy bratty woman, she had him wrapped around her finger. ‘Now come on let’s go I don’t want to be late to our dinner reservations..that’s embarrassing.’
Y/n left the bathroom Jungkook following behind her like a dog on a leash his hands gripped her waist head on her shoulder and he smelled her ‘god, you smell so fucking good.’ She went downstairs as he opened the passenger seat for her ‘Why thank you my dear!’ She scratched under his chin and he smiled widely his lip piercing following his lip as they turned upwards.
He got into the drivers seat and drove to the restaurant the lights of the city becoming a blue as she looked out the window. One hand on the wheel the other holding a vape and on her thigh. ‘I love your tattoos pretty boy..’ he blushed and smiled ‘thank you my beauty..’
They reached the restaurant and got seated rather quickly! The waiter walked by holding a notepad in hand and smiled widely at both of you ‘Good evening ma’am and sir! What will you both have?’ The waiter said enthusiastically. But Jungkook noticed something y/n didn’t..the waiter looked down her dress a bit to look at her chest. Jungkook clenched the menu forcing a smile ‘I’ll have the steak medium rare.’ He said teeth clenched. The waiter nodded writing it down and glanced at y/n ‘And for the lady?’ ‘I think I’ll just have..mmm..I’m not sure Jungkook you pick for me!’ Jungkook looked up and smiled ‘she’ll have the lobster but make sure there’s some melted butter on the side please and we’ll both have wine.’
The waiter smiled and nodded leaving the couple together while she went on her phone jungkooks smile dropped and crossed his arms rather annoyed ‘whats got you all upset?’ Y/n teased Jungkook smirking, ‘the waiter’ Jungkook said through gritted teeth. ‘He was looking down your dress’ ‘oh really?’ You replied teasing Jungkook and smirking the waiter came back with the food and winked at y/n Jungkook snapped and got up instantly grabbing the waiter by his collar ‘Jungkook Put him fucking down!—‘ Jungkook screamed in the waiter face dropping him on the ground and punching him repeatedly ‘LEAVE MY FUCKING WIFE ALONE! YOU NASTY PERV IF I CATCH YOU LOOKING DOWN HER DRESS AGAIN YOUR DONE FOR!’
The waiters face looked terrible, his nose bleeding, lip busted, and glasses broken ‘JUNGKOOK STOP!’ Y/n pulled him off barely, she panted her chest heaving and he looked at Jungkook shocked. Anger started building up in her as the manger came quickly kicking both of them out banned for life. Great just great.
‘JUNGKOOK WHAT IN THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING?! DID YOU EVEN THINK STRAIGHT BEFORE DOING THAT?!’
Jungkook stayed silent looking down at the ground clenching his fist in a ball tight he panted heavily his chest heaving. ‘Baby please..dont scream at me..please..’ he fell to his knees gripping at y/n’s dress tears rolling down his face he looked up at y/n eyes red yearning for her comfort. ‘Jungkook. You are crazy. Getting mad because a waiter looked at me?! You even got us banned! Ugh I can’t believe you!’
His tears continued to flow and flow and he hiccuped ‘I’m sorry baby I really am I just couldn’t handle seeing that waiter staring at you like that—Hic! It hurts my heart to see anyone else eyefuck you like that he-he even winked at you my beloved..’ y/n’s eyes like daggers looking into his, ‘I. Don’t. Care. You had no right to act like that.’ Jungkook cried harder shoving his face into my dress hugging you and shaking ‘I’m sorry dear it won’t happen again..please..’ his lips quivered as y/n stared at her ring then him she took it off and put it on his head and walked away. He sat on the ground shocked grabbing it from his head and cried harder seeing her turn her back on him he got up almost falling. Hands trembling as he ran after her ‘Y/N PLEASE PUT THE RING BACK ON!’
He weeped harder grabbing her hand and put the ring back on her finger ‘I’ll make it up to you I swear!—just please don’t leave me..’ she looked at him shocked..god he was so handsome when crying..he was hers..Her good looking boy.
She sighed looking at him who was on his knees crying again ‘Get off your knees.’ He got up instantly sniffing and wiping tears with his shaking hands she walked to the car and he followed like a kicked puppy. ‘I—I’m sorry my beloved..’ he said once more still wiping tears, but y/n stayed silent.
The car ride home was dead silent. The only sound that was heard was the car humming and busy streets. Once they reached the house neither of them dared to speak until Jungkook started crying again at his knees rubbing his hands together begging and crying ‘please don’t leave me! Stay! Stay I say! I’ll give you anythinf and everything! I—I wound buy you the moon if I could!—‘ y/n stood there in silence grabbing him by his tie and kissed him ‘Jungkook just stop alright..? I don’t completely forgive you but you know I can’t handle seeing you cry..’ you kissed Jungkook again harder and rougher shoving her tongue between his lips as she pulled away a string of saliva connected them. ‘I love you so my heart..my beautiful y/n..’ ‘yeah? How about you show me that instead..’ y/n smirked leading him to the bedroom.
She was a bit cruel..so she thinks that he deserves to feel better. ‘Sit on the bed my dear.’ He sat eagerly as she got on her knees unzipping his pants with her teeth smirking..’Sweet girl don’t tease me please.’ y/n pulled his boxers down his hard length hit his abdomen as he whimpered feeling her spread the precum on his tip. He felt her kitten lips..she was teasing him..his hips jerked grabbing her hair and shoving his length down her throat moaning loudly as she gagged. ‘Princess!—mmf!’ She sucked his length harshly as her head bobbed up and down feeling his hips starting to jerk, she could tell her was close. She decided to tease him just a bit..she pulled away as he whimpered eyes brows furrowed ‘don’t you dare..you better start licking my cock right now you brat. You had me on my knees crying for you. Suck me.’
She giggled the slightest bit and sucked him again feeling hot spurs of white hot liquid go down her throat he trembled and whimpered as she pulled away. ‘I think you deserve a punishment yeah?’ Jungkook said laying her on his lap splayed over his knee he lifted her dress moving her panties slightly upward rubbing her ass before slapping it roughly she bit down on her thumb roughly yelping ‘this is what you get for being a brat. Count slut.’
Smack!
‘o—one!’
Smack!
‘Mfm!’
Jungkook slapping harder as soon as y/n stopped counting ‘I said count didnt I?’ ‘I—I’m sorry sir!’ He smirked delivering the final smack then rubbing her ass he moved he panties to the side feeling how wet she was ‘your soaked..on your back baby..’ y/n climbed on the mattress on her back legs open feeling exposed..Jungkook kissed her inner thigh smiling. He spread her folds open moaning at the sight of her wet cunt. His tongue went straight for her clit as he inserted his finger in slowly feeling her gummy walls tightly holding his fingers in place his lips rubbed around her sensitive numb pulling away with a pop sound. He added another finger as she moaned loudly whimpering as she tried closing her legs on him. His tongue went back on her wet cunt slurping and kissing it. Y/n’s body started shaking due to pleasure and that’s when he knew she was close ‘yeah you close pretty girl? Huh? Cum for me. Cum in my mouth.’ That was her final straw as she screamed his name while she released ‘Jungkook! Oh fuck!’ He liked all the liquid on his fingers and the liquid on his chin. He pulled away kissing y/n slowly.‘I love you so much..please don’t ever do that again..’ ‘I won’t baby I promise.’
Jungkook grabbed a towel rubbing the liquid off her thighs and the tears that were rolling down her face from the overstimulation. ‘I promise I won’t go crazy again.’ Jungkook whispered kissing her one last time before pulling away and hugging her.
(Still working on how to end fics bc I’m kinda bad at it..)
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Hope you guys enjoyed the fic ik it’s only my second one but i definitely have more improvement than the Jason Todd one!!
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kanmom51 · 11 months ago
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Jikook car drive to CT
I think that before I dive into the actual car ride I have to set a few things straight.
Did you guys notice they chose to ride together? Shock and awe...
Lmao.
Just a little stab for all those who were nitpicking at them back in 2021-23. Yeah, you's that were all about "but they don't ride in the same car anymore", or "they aren't addressing each other or reacting to each other on SM", or whatever other kind of insecurity for some or just outright malice from others.
JM and JK are the same JM and JK they were before the hiatus and solo paths. Same same. With adjustments having to be made to a new reality of not spending close to 24/7 together. Adjusting to their crazy busy solo work and schedules. Adjusting to learning how to be alone when you are used to not being, because your significant other is submerged in his work while you are not. With adjustments to not having ot7 as their protecting glass closet. When you are used to being together close to 24/7 and circumstances change and you can't anymore, as a couple you need to adjust to that new reality and sometimes it's harder on one of you than the other. Not because you don't love each other or need each other equally, but because you are different people and adjust differently to this new reality.
And in the reality of these 2 young men, well it has been apparent since the beginning of 2023 that JK was the one that was struggling most with these changes. I'd say that this is can be a huge clue to his neurodivergence.
When we look at these two young men, whom I believe to be 2 queer young men in a long term loving relationship, not only do we need to look at them within the context of them being in one of the biggest if not THE biggest band in the world right now, living in a still mostly homophobic society and at the time were looking at enlisting for their 18 month military service, a military that still outlaws sexual relations between men.
This has to be understood while looking at Jikook throughout the years and in 2021-2023, things changing after creation of Hybe, going public, trying to buy out SM and the whole saga with MHJ (which was going on since Oct 2022 behind the scenes).
That's a good starting point understanding them in 2023 and going into watching Are you sure?
But that's not all.
There's more.
Seeing some of the reactions, comments, posts I feel the need to say this as well:
JM and JK are human beings.
They aren't characters in a drama.
This isn't The Bold and the Beautiful, JK not Ridge and JM not Brooke or vise versa (seriously, just picked the parallels because of the current hair colours). They weren't married and divorced ending up with others and then married again and divorced and with others and just going on and on and on. Ups and downs, ins and outs, together and parted. This is real life, not a TV show. Not only would their love not last that (and they clearly love each other), their interactions, their dynamics wouldn't just stay the same same. Not to mention what it would have done to the band and their own relationships with the others. They wouldn't survive it nor would the band. So don't create drama where there isn't is what I say.
What I see is a pretty much levelled long term couple. With relationship bumps in the road, adjustments, frustrations, moods.
I also see 2 queer young men who due to the reality of 2023 have close to zero camera time in one frame. And it shows.
But mainly I see LOTS AND LOTS OF LOVE FOR EACH OTHER.
On top of that I see both of them feeling physically unwell. Poor JM with his stomach issues and bursting pipe (yes I just said that, lol), and JK who has been ill for days, had to go to the hospital for treatment before his solo debut performance, for that performance to be fucked up by the weather. Man was definitley still unwell the whole time constantly sniffling and coughing. And JM worrying about JK's health is another indicator as to it not being nothing.
Bottom line: these are real life people with their own different characteristics, feelings, stress, anxiety, illnesses and the runs.
Not that they didn't know there will be cameras, they were well aware of it, but looks like JM was initially a little shocked to see just how many of them.
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Even with the cameras and initial apparent awkwardness, not with each other, but with the whole "it's just the two of us on camera together, no other members to buffer", they are at ease with each other, smiling and giggling.
And even with the cameras and that on one hand need to say things but on the other need to still be wary of what you say and not to say too much - something they are expert at, even if it's been a while and takes them a bit to get back on the wagon with. Even with that they go back to that very jikooky type of formal - informal interaction with each other, JK 'forgetting' JM is the hyung out of the two (like I said, same same).
We have JM's cheeky comment about spooning JK if he's cold, one he insisted on implementing that same night. Mics on, cameras obviously on, but us not allowed to see a thing (and I will talk about this in another post - the whole "if there's nothing to hide how come we didn't get to see one of the apparently funniest moments of the trip, one that the the two and those around them couldn't shut up about?" (phew, that was a long question).
We also get a cute JM looking out for JK's health turning on the heat in the car, turning on his seat heater (without JK knowing about it, lol).
As a whole, those two in the car sounded like an old married couple. I was watching laughing the whole time, the whole thing feeling too familiar, lol.
But I know what you are all waiting for.
More so those that love to question their relationship.
Let's get on and discuss the car convo some are stressing over.
This:
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But wait.
Before I talk about it, there's one more word I want to mention.
CONTEXT.
Context is EVERYTHING.
We all know that, right?
And what is the important context here?
Well, first of, this is all in front of the cameras.
Secondly, we ALL KNOW that even with their crazy schedules JM and JK DID GET TO SEE EACH OTHER in those months counting up to this trip, in private, just the two of them.
We know from them that they were together drinking the night before Hobi's enlistment, for example. We know JM was at JK's before JM left for London end of May, JK 'complaining' about having to change the way JM adjusted the mood lamp. We know they are the closest duo in the group, but beyond that, those two are just super close. We know that JK went live basically every time JM left for overseas and was overjoyed when JM showed up in his comments (including his comments during the mukbang live and perhaps coming over after he finished his schedule). This is before this trip. Let's not mention (or maybe let's) the flirt-fest we got in the JK in bed live that came shortly after this trip.
One other huge thing we seem to forget is that:
This is an edited product we are seeing.
Not a live discussion.
And even if it looks like the conversation is somewhat flowing, when you look really closely you see that there are cuts cuts cuts. Some might just be change of camera angle, others are real cuts where you can see that whatever was said was not said at the same time as a flowing conversation.
So, if you look carefully you will see that the first part of the discussion and the part where JM brings up V are not exactly in one flow. That there is a cut between what JK says, and we will get to that, don't fret, and when JM brings up him facetiming with V and what follows.
The start of it is also not clear. If what JM says about not going somewhere together in a while is the start of the flow of conversation, then the clip they are showing us of them in the car driving in the streets of NY is not connected to that, because the conversation continues when they are already out of town. 2 possibilities here. Either that was the start of the convo and for some reason they decided to show the car driving in NY even though the convo happened with them out of the city already. Or, once again, my point that maybe the convo isn't in one flow - even that first part of it. That JM did say what he said when they were still in the city and then their conversation following was edited in a way that we didn't get much of it until they were already out of the city and JK says what he says.
Reason I bring this up is again to emphasize the fact that as much as we are let in, we are still getting an edited product.
You know, same edited product that cuts out their flirty playful bedtime toothbrushing session.
I also want to bring this up, because I basically agree with much of what @shellbells-things the importance of them needing that getaway together (in this post):
This was written with the official translations in mind.
But you see, this is not what JK said.
The actual translation is basically JK calling out JM for not seeking him out enough!!!
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And we also have this from @haedalkoo (thanks you for this post💜):
And why does it matter? Why do these different translations matter? Because they tell us a totally different story.
In the first you have JK saying that when one of them is busy, even though the other is not, he does not tend to call/reach out to the one that is busy. Basically this could be read as them not making an effort to contact the other even when they had time on their hands to do so. And perhaps that is why there are people up in arms about this, although my take of it is that even if this was the correct translation, which it is not, that understanding, that conclusion, would have been a very superficial one, disregarding the context of those two, who they are, where they are and what they are doing, as mentioned above.
In the other, what seems to be the more accurate translation, we have a salty boyfriend complaining about his partner not reaching out to him when he's busy, but also not reaching out to him when JK is busy, even if JM is not as busy.
"Your busy you don't seek me out, your not busy you don't seek me out"...
Now let's look at what JK said within the context of it all.
This isn't about them not seeing each other, not being in touch at all. Being estranged. Losing contact. Like so many want it to be about, given that would be so much more dramatic and 'interesting'.
This is about it not being enough for JK.
Enough being the key word.
JM and JK are different. They are both highly driven, and when JK has a JM by his side, said JM is a catalyst and has JK as driven as him. But you see, they weren't together. JM, being the workaholic that he is, highly driven with his work, having to give not 100% but 1000%, could easily lose himself in that work. And as much as he loves JK, or perhaps even more so because he's crazy about him, he can't have him around as a distraction. So, in a sense, when he works he can get lost in that work and that leaves little "free" time to spend with the person he loves, the person that loves him, the person that needs him. Same person that was REALLY struggling at the start of 2023 while JM was too absent. Again, that does not mean that JM was not spending time with JK. It was just not enough. Especially while JK was sort of lost at that point in a sense that he had no clear path set for himself. JK is different in the sense that JM is kind of his blankie, his anchor, his safe place. He needs JM around even when he is up to nothing (see JM's "he comes to my room to lie on my bed and do nothing" from the LA live 2021). And having him around is a need. Do we remember crying JK at the end of his lives on White day 2023. Heart wrenching. And again, it's not that JM doesn't need JK, he does, but a. his need is different to JK's, and b. JM was super busy at the time while JK was doing basically nothing.
And when JK was busy, well I'm guessing that JM was giving him the space he thought JK needed to work. But obviously this wasn't what JK wanted.
This saltiness is all coming from the same person that says he doesn't answer his phone calls or reply to texts. The person that JM complained when he doesn't answer his calls. With all that he still needed JM to reach out. He needed to know that JM is thinking about him.
This conversation isn't about them not seeing each other. It's about not seeing each other enough. It's about JM not seeking JK out as much as JK needed him to. And it's about them not being able, for whichever reasons (exterior or self inflicted) to do exactly this. Be out and about together. The two of them. This is exactly what you do in a healthy long term relationship. You talk. You are open. You tell your partner how you feel and what you need.
And you know what JK sounded like to me?
He reminded me of this JK:
The JK that even though he had already scolded JM he couldn't just let it go. That even though JM apologized several times and explained himself, he just couldn't let it go because it was weighing on him, that choice that he felt JM made.
And I know, I just know, that this conversation we got in the car was not a one of. That "Your here. Finally" we got from him at the end...
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He needed this to happen, for JM to make this happen.
I will also add, even though I cannot go into too much detail at this point, that I feel that the : "You're here. Finally", has so much more sub context to it within the way they had both handled 2022-23 and that adjustment to the new reality. Not about it being easier for one over the other, but more so about how they handled this "apartness" that was kind of forced on them.
Anyway, that "finally", that was it for me. Seeing. No. Feeling how this was weighing on JK. Feeling just how important this was for him. JM making that effort and showing up for him like he did.
I hope that I have managed to get the message through. I will drill it in with my three keywords to this post:
COUPLE
CONTEXT
ENOUGH
I will end this by saying this:
Read that convo as you will, see those two as you will. At the end of the day not only did they CHOOSE to do this again and again (even with the little time they still had with their crazy schedules and upcoming enlistment). Not only did JK say he wanted to keep going with this until they are 50 years old. But they also CHOSE to enlist together. To be TOGETHER for those 18 months of military service. CHOOSING to do so knowing that meant a harder service and placement.
At the end of the day they CHOSE EACH OTHER.
And they will keep on doing so!!!
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bangytell · 1 year ago
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A cheating way jk| m
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Don't believe in fairytales, but we got our fantasies And it's me and you, no she. Doja Cat— You right
Summary: Marriage isn't always a good fortune, or perhaps its only the person you married.
Genre: Strangers to lovers, smut
Rated: mature
Pairing: Jungkook x f!reader
Word Count: 3.9k
Warnings: Non idol au! Infidelity, mentions of domestic violence, mentions of the use of alcohol, pet names, mentions of Namjoon, oral(f! receveing), unprotected sex, praise kink and I think that's all
a/n: I know some of you might have already seen this, im re-uploading, please be nice with your comments. Enjoy
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The music pounding waves through your now drunk body as you dance along to the beat, and you feel a warm body approaching from behind you, too drunk to care that you sway your hips along his warm body, he chuckles into your skin and you feel a tickle. 
“Didn't know you're that fun to be around” his voice was deep and hypnotic
You didn't reply, but you looked as his curious look traveled up and down your body, the music was still so loud, and the dizziness of your thoughts made you believe that the best decision you could make is to kiss him.
You don't. You sit with your friends and try not to be wasted any longer. Your friends are laughing at some joke, and you focus your attention on the dance floor. He's not around anymore. You begin to feel that he was just some fantasy of your imagination. 
“Are you [Name] Kim?” The question comes from the man next to you. It's none other than him 
“Why would I give you that information?” he smiles wide, and your heart skips a beat 
“Well, gorgeous, you don't really have to, I know that is you” you arch an eyebrow
“How can a kid know me” his smile never leaves his mouth as he answers back
“How about I show you?” You shake your head in denial
“Look, honey, just get yourself home and forget about me”
“That's impossible” you chuckle “Even if I leave, you'll be in my mind” You show him the ring adorning your ring finger. He chuckles as you look confused 
“I'm not jealous” he leans in, and you get a soft sniff to his cologne. It's sweet and intoxicating 
As the night continues, he doesn't leave your side he tells you more about himself and he listens as you answer to his question, he looks and focus on your eyes, your friends are on the dancefloor and after another five drinks and the smell of his cologne closer and closer to your body lets him leave a hand on your thigh, you're laughing and his face is next to yours, his hot breath on your temple and you smile as you ask him: “And what's your name?” he chuckles and leads a hand to cup your face 
“Jungkook, and don't worry, you'll be saying it a lot tonight” You chuckle again, and he kisses you softly and hungrily his lips are soft, and so are his hands all over you.
The ride holding his back as he drives off on his bike to the nearest yet decent motel makes your stomach bubble up in excitement, you're married yes, but at this point there's no turning point.You arrive, he pays and leads you inside the room. He kisses you, and tries as hard as you can, to forget all your life's problems, and he notices how stiff your movements are and how difficult it is for you to live in this moment. 
“Is everything okay, doll?” You sit on the bed and cover your face with your hands
“I'm sorry, you're probably thinking I'm pathetic” he shakes his head in denial and kneels in front of you 
“Talk to me” you lock gaze with him, and he seems to have forgotten about the horniness in his body 
“I don't think this is a good idea” he nods and you talk again “You're amazing, and you make me feel wanted, desired, like a woman and not like someone's trash” 
“Why would you have such confidence in you?” You huff
“My husband, he's been unfaithful since the fourth month of our marriage, and we've been married for ten years now” you sigh, reminiscing how happy you were the first months 
“And why haven't you divorced?” You huff 
“It's a long story” his hands are on one of your thighs, caressing it as you sigh exasperated “Our families practically set our marriage from our cribs, he's been a heartthrob and I just play my part” 
“Is there any reason why you couldn't leave now? You must have some money of your own, and I know you have a career, so maybe you, you can…” you hold his hands 
“Don't feel so frustrated for me, we can forget about each other the next morning” he sighs 
“And if I don't want to?” You look at him in surprise. He cups your face and leans for a peck 
“Jungkook… I don't think this is good for you nor me” 
“Then just give me this night, give me just one chance to make you think of me” You sigh. His sweet touches and kisses make you agree as he hovers your body on the bed.
His kisses are wet and sloppy as your hands travel around his back, discharging his shirt, you take a moment to look at his wingspan and just at the sight your cunt yearns for him. He helps you take your dress from your head and notices the lack off bra, he cups your breasts with his hands and your body quivers at the cold breeze of the winter, soon his mouth has your nipple around his teeth, licking and sucking on one another making you moan his name and he hums into your skin, as a meal he enjoys. One of his hands is caressing your stomach, traveling down to discharge your panties and your hands are pulling his hair, the sound of his mouth making a wet mess all around your breasts makes you shiver. And he adores the taste of you, the smell of your perfume as he leaves a trail of kisses making his way to your pussy. 
He might be young but he knows exactly where and how to get you started, his tongue presses against your clit and loud pants leaves your mouth, soon, his licks become precise and slowly. He's taking his time eating you out, making your toes curling, and a moaning mess. Your hands are once again on his hair, swirling the strands of hair as you moan and mewl his name. 
He adores the way you say his name, the saccharine moans that leave your mouth and the way one of your hands is gripping the sheets in a attempt so stop the way your body keeps meeting his mouth, the way you close your thighs and try to swirl around him, his hands hold you in place as you shout “ ‘m cumin!” He continues the pace he has as you close your eyes, gripping the sheets stronger and letting your juices go through Jungkook's tongue. You're panting as he pulls his pants down, he gets you comfortable as his tip slides against your clit and he moans at the sloppiness of your cunt. He gets inside of you with a guttural sound from his mouth, he grips from your arms as he pounds into you, harder yet slow. 
“You take me in so well… almost like ngh… almost like your pussy made for me” he moans your name and looks in your eyes, he enjoys the way you're not able to maintain the contact, the way you're saying his name and the way your skin sounds every time he crashes into you.
he's pounding, bullying your walls as you scream at the overstimulation, his hands are now around your neck and you know he's done this before, by the way you're feeling the lack of blood through your head, his pace fastens, his movements are less precise and he cums into you with a guttural moan. The weight of his body on you and the heavy panting makes you feel in bliss. He chuckles as he pulls away from you and the sticky feeling has him giving you a worried look. 
“Don't worry ‘bout it” you chuckle, he gives you your clothes and as you dress you feel his gaze upon you “you're going to wear me out” 
“You're so beautiful” you chuckle and pat the empty space in bed, he lays with you and cuddles as you doze off to sleep. 
In the morning the bed was empty, only a small trace of his cologne makes you remember the night before. There's a small note on the nightstand, he has pretty handwriting. 
If you still want to give me moments to remember, call me
His phone number with a small heart drawing. 
The ride home was automatic, nobody was waiting for your arrival and that made your heart clench.  
You call the number on the note, wondering if it was the right decision, you're getting yourself full of bad decisions. 
“Hey, doll” you smile 
“How did you know it was me” he chuckles 
“I've been answering every call from my work hoping that it was finally you” your heart skip a beat 
“Are you free tonight?” you bite your under lip anxiously 
“For you, I'm free now” you chuckle 
“No Jungkook, I have some meetings today, so at night maybe…” he might believe I'm pathetic
“Alright, but I'll take you to dinner before, don't worry I'll text you the address, bye doll” he hangs up and you hear your front door opening, is your husband. 
“Hey [name] I'm just looking for something don't wait for me tonight” you huff 
“Your mom called, she wanted to know if-...” he cuts you mid sentence 
“I know, she called me earlier, since you can't leave even a text” you scoff 
“Go to hell Namjoon” he smiles and grabs his coat on the door 
“Already there babe” a loud thud leaves you alone in that big house again. 
Your day is filled with the reminiscence of the memories from the amazing night he gave you. You have a smile like no other, and as the night arrives, you're back at your house. He texted the address of a nice restaurant, you hear the front door, and your husband appears at your dorm.
“going somewhere?” he grins, and you find that… odd
“not like you care” you answer bitterly, and he chuckles 
“you wouldn't like to be messing with your perfect reputation, are you?” You chuckle this time 
“stop acting like you even care about me, ‘m out” you leave, and his words are a muffled sound as you walk away, you won't allow him to walk you like that ever again. 
The restaurant is further away than what you had in mind, but everything looks perfect as you arrive, there is a host welcoming you and you realize as the host walks you to his reservation that every table is inside a room, you couldn't hear nothing more than the sounds of your heels hitting the floor. 
A slide door opens, and Jungkook has a rose in his hands as he welcomes you inside. He gives you a peck on your cheek, and you feel the heat coming through them. 
“You look beautiful, angel” you smile and sit down. The host has long been gone, and as you too chat about your day, a waitress comes in 
Jungkook orders, asks you if that's okay with you and you nod in agreement, the fact that he's so considerate about you, he cares about your opinion, and overall he just seems so good to be true. 
The night goes smoothly, you laugh and be touchy with him all the time, around his chest, his back, his hands, and he does the same with you. It is an impossible task to try and keep your hands to yourselves.  
“Is there a way I can have you tonight?” you giggle as he caresses your back, the wine in your system has you dizzy enough
“ ‘m here” he chuckles, you're sitting besides each other and yet, he pulls you to his lap, his hot breath on your neck and his hands are on your waist.
“You know what I meant gorgeous” you shake your head in denial and he kisses the gap between your neck and your shoulder, your body shivers. 
“I do know, nevertheless, ‘m not positive this is a great idea” he nods, kissing your neck and stealing a sigh from you 
“Don't think about it, do you like me?” you lock gaze with him and nod “Then just do it” you cover your face for a second, unsure of how this will impact in your future, his warm hands take yours out of your temple “ can't force you into wanting this but” his hands pull you to him, his hot breath now on your breasts as he leans for a kiss on your skin “I think that you shouldn't think about good or bad, but what actually makes you feel something” you nod and pull him into a needy kiss, his lips are always soft and his breath smells to wine, his cologne is intoxicating every reasonable thought in your brain. 
After that night, many more had come, for a week you've been seeing him in motels and the restaurant, he texts you how much he misses you during the day, and he fucks you dumb at night just so you won't miss him that much the next morning–which you actually do–Two long weeks now and for this one night you can't see him, your husband hosts a party at you house and you have to attend.
You wear a beautiful champagne dress with your hair up and every guest gives you compliments as you walk through the room. Your husband has you from the waist as you try to smile to the guests he's going on and on about how gorgeous you are, and how he feels he won the lottery–all lies of course– the night goes smoothly, at midnight almost everyone is out, your husband is holding hands with a pretty young woman, he's too drunk to even care about being watched, you say goodbye to your guests as you see them walk off, to your bed. You follow them, the girl giggles at some stupid joke he just made, you hear the door opening and you rush yourself to not let them use the bed you're sleeping in tonight. 
“Namjoon, you better not be planning on fucking her on my bed” he scoffs
“It's also my bed, so I do what I'm pleased” you sigh, grabbing the girl from her arm and pulling her beside you 
“Leave, both of you” she looks scared and you try to look calm to her, she nods and walks away as your husband stands and push you “You didn't just do that to me” 
“You always ruin my fun” you scoff
“Namjoon, just take the guests room, and get away from me” 
“I thought that by giving you someone to fuck you'll be more accessible” your breath stucks on your throat, you look at him perplexed at his words
“What do you mean?” he looks at you 
“You actually believed that a young handsome man would wanna fuck you for free?” he spits and you shake your head in denial 
he wouldn't, would he?
“You're too old for that” he chuckles and your blood boils in anger. 
“Leave” he scoffs “you can't hear me? leave!” he stands  and walks towards you
“you'll regret this” he walks past you and leaves your house.
you cry your eyes out all night until the sun travels to your eyes making you wake up, your phone is buzzing, the name of your mother on the screen and after a long sigh you answer.
“can you explain to me why Namjoon’s mother just called me all hysterical?”
“well mother hello to you too, good morning” you huff
“This is a serious matter [name] they’ve been our friends since high school”
“So, you're telling me that she’ll stop being your friend just because I don't wanna continue being married to his stupid son?” You scoff
“no! is not that, but… we have a business they are our biggest investor, we could…”
“if this is ‘bout money, I have money” she sighs, and your doorbell announces a guest “gotta go mom”
when you open the door, you wouldn't expect it to be Jungkook, messy hair and heavy breaths, and that desperate look on his eyes… It is also filled with guilt 
“Am I welcome in?” You lift an eyebrow in response 
“Why should I let you in?” You scoff, and his soft features soften at your harsh tone 
“listen, I know that idiot made me look…”  
“just as an idiot, such as him” he nods at your interruption 
“ ‘m aware, but please listen and understand me” 
“I shouldn't” he nods in response and gazes at you with his big doe eyes
“but please…” you sigh and let him in. You close the door behind him, and as soon as your hands are free, he holds them. “he did offered me money, we had a deal… and ‘m a stupid college student with two part time jobs he sweetened his deal” you don't talk, you only gaze upon him in disbelief “he told me to get you to bed and then he'll give me the money” 
“how much?” he shake his head in deny 
“I didn't got a penny from him” you look surprise 
“but you…” 
“I wanted you to feel the same way I felt by meeting you, you changed me, changed my view of the world, my life wouldn't be the same without you” his words sound sincere and his desperate look makes you believe in him
“he said…” your voice gets muffled by his lips, he holds and cups your face and waist closer to him
“Angel… please believe me” he kisses you once more, gently and caressing your blushed cheek 
“I dunno Jungkook, I'm older than you and…” he scoffs
“You're only like eight years older than me and I really don’ care ‘bout that” you chuckle 
“ ‘m only twenty eight Koo” he chuckles
“see? even better, and yes, keep calling me that” you chuckle as you give in to his embrace 
“I was thinking maybe calling you… love” he hugs you closer, the strands of hair touches your face and his hot breath lights something within you 
“You believe me?” you nod, even if Namjoon has told you something he's always looking for a way to hurt you, Jungkook kisses you once more and you feel like melted ice cream into his arms, your hands try to grip from his shoulders as the kiss deepens his hands wander around your back till one of his arms helps you from the knee for him to carry you to the bedroom–by your directions– You're quite unsure of the moment, you've only decided to believe in him, this is still being in an affair, he's still that young man and anxiety kicks in. his lips and hands undressed you as he kissed every inch of skin he found. 
“Is everything okay doll?” you nod and he stops his movements “you don't seem good” you sigh 
“I don’ wanna think ‘bout that now” you kiss him and pull his shirt and notice a playful grin on his lips, he’s so husky and big for a man his age, you caress his soft and warm body as the rest of the clothes that remain on each of you leaves your body. 
You don’t care, it has only been two or three weeks. You know your feelings are true and even if he doesn’t feel it in the same intensity you can enjoy it while it lasts.
Soon his mouth found the way to your dripping cunt he licks and sucks in the way he knows you'll see stars sooner than later. your hands grip to the sheets while saccharine moans escape your breath as his tongue rides you along your orgasm. He licks off the rest of the juices that left your pussy and he hums in content at the sight of it, you're drunk of his features, of his husky body embracing you closer to slide his cock along your folds, with a pant and a moan from him as he slides inside your walls his thrust are slow and his gaze is
fixated on you, the way you are hugging him closer and your hot breath is on his ear as his movements become faster and harder. 
“You feel so good doll…” he moans as your nails grip his back youre leaving mark for sure and he doesnt care at this point, he loves how desperate you sound as he fuck you dumb. his hands are between your ears and the silver chain moves along him, he’s so dreamy you wanna make sure you're awake to be feeling this way, to be so filled with him. 
Jungkook pulls away from your body but his pace doesn't change, now his thumb caresses the nub of nerves to pull you into another orgasm, only the sound of your skin crashing each other's body fills the room. He praises at your moans, at the way you call his name in a desperate mewl. You need him deeper if that's even possible. You need him to fill you up and as he continues you soon reach another orgasm as he, with a guttural moan fills your cunt with his cum. You're dripping while he enjoys seeing the way your hole clenches in search of his cock once more, as if its never enough, cause its not. He gets up to dress again, you cover yourself with your favorite silk robe as the door opens and your husband gasps in surprise.
“You… whore…” he attempts to reach you, but Jungkook quickly steps up in front of you, he’s only in pants and you notice the way he’s almost bursting in anger.
“Don’t call her that” he���s voice is harsh and almost too deep
“And who do you think you are kid?” he tries to push him, but Jungkook doesn’t move 
“C’mon Namjoon, don’ do this” he gasps and step away
“You fucked in my bed and you have the audacity to ask me not to do things” you scoff
“You've done it too, many, many times, and I just got tired of your cheating ass” he huffs
“I’ll ruin you” you scoff and step up from behind Jungkook “And your family too” you scoff at his intent to try to intimidate you
“Leave my house” you say in response, he gasps and tries to grab your arm “Aint saying things twice Namjoon”
“You'll never see the end of this” you huff as he turns and close the door while he leaves
He can’t scare you anymore, you made sure to have things your way, to have most things under your name and his attempts of threat would go unnoticed. Jungkook hugs you when he notices the way your body trembles, he kisses your forehead as he sits on the bed with you on his lap.
You sigh, feeling relief and warmth within you from the man holding you dearly. He hums in your ear as you calm down, you know you want to be with him, for real and as long as he lets you.
“Jungkook?” he gaze you and nods 
“Yes princess?” you sigh fidgeting your fingers
“Can we… date?” he huffs
“No, I'm supposed to ask you that!” he holds you by your waist, closer to his body “Date me [name]” you nod and giggle at his question 
“You're not… unsure, given how everything went between us?” he shakes his head in deny
“No princess, I wanna be with you, doesn't matter how things were” your heart beats with joy “Sometimes you gotta cheat your way through”
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