#jesus fuck i'm so proud of this
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me, a responsible being, working on the coding project as I should vs. me, a dysfunctional shithead, getting distracted by reading about brains (once aGAIN damnit (it's my favorite "I need to study my field but bc I should do that it's an impossible unthinkable feat now, so I'm reading about something else to fool my brain I'm still being productive"-topic))
#but after my thesis me & brains have been on a break bc got tired reading abt them during that (bc I had a topic that sorta allowed me to#sidetrack to brain stuff also) but seems I'm over the brain overload now#yay? i guess#also no one who actually studies medicine/brains/etc. yell at me abt wikipedia and like ''why are u studying that like that''#I'm just going through the wikipedia & reading article abstracts path; nothing serious#also my procrastination has reached inhuman levels like it's a full-time job now#bc I have like a chill week's worth of work to do and then I've done the courses for my bachelor's degree#but sending in that ''heyy i'm done with the courses let me graduate''-thing fills me up with sO MUCH anxiety & dread I'm working so slow#now (even tho couldn't send that in for like a month bc gotta first wait the courses to be graded and stuff so in actuality I should#not be slowing down even a bit bc I need to finally be done with this damn degree asap; gotta move on and should've ages ago (it's actually#super bad how late I'm with it (1.5 mf years jesus christ; I'm not even like a little bit proud abt getting a degree anymore like I'm sorta#just embarrassed if I have to tell ppl like ''yea I graduated'' bc dude ?? only now?? u were supposed to be done with that 1.5year#ago what have u been doing (fuck if I know) so I'm keeping it like ''if anyone asks'' basis)))#(the tags and parantheses started a life of their own lol sorry abt that)#studyblr#studyspo#bookblr#booklr#study#november 2024#2024
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happy birthday shidou cheers to a unchanging tomorrow blah blah blah i hope you fall face flat into your cake
#milgram#milgram fanart#shit how do i tag this. uhhh#shidou's wife#shidou's family#hana kirisaki#shidou kirisaki#shidou is such a loser that he isn't in his own birthday art#so i didn't actually want to make anything cuz i probably need to put my time and energy on more important matters#but this idea popped in my head and i was like fuck i need to do that#sorry if his children look buttugly i kinda rushed it towards the end#just don't zoom in too much#I'M SO PROUD OF THE CAKE THO I'D EAT THAT SHIT#and the lighting#go me ig#tumblr fucked up the colors tho i think so boo#n jesus i can't believe i haven't drawn his wife seriously before#cuz she's so gorjis sigh#i'll probably make something small tomorrow as a treat. aka 0507 sigh 0507 augh 0507 OUHGJJJJ 0507#chibi's art/rkgk
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Zelda
She/her, 65 moons, cis molly
#Zelda (cat)#<- so it doesn't go in the fandom tags of the game lmao#Loner#honeyclan#<- the save file she's from. I'm gonna say she lives nearest to them#warrior cats oc#warriors oc#kiri’s clangen#clangen#She also doesn't have the chest spot on her sprite but I thought she looked better with it so. Y'know#I made her fur so massive but I need it to be known that the rest of her is massive as well. She's jut very large#also I HAVE RETURNED TO THIS BLOG!!! Can't say how regular activity here will be but I'm queueing this on thursday to go up on friday#and I've got three more finished cats to go up the three days after that. We'll see how many more I draw before the queue runs out#I'm doing hermit-a-day-may over on my main blog and I'm coming up on the end of the schoolyear so I may be mostly swamped until summerish#but I'd like to pick back up with posting these during the summer. I have some ideas for a comic that I'd like to do but I haven't written-#-it out yet becuase I want to get these designs done first and I think I'm about halfway through all the cats I have? across 5 different-#-clans two of which are very large so. Mass extinction events will be on once I start playing moons again!!#anyways sorry for rambling but I'm very proud of my next few designs. I think I've found a good method for doing them quickly. It involves-#-using actual reference images for the poses lmao#EDIT I lied I'm not even close to halfway#I've got 66 out of 181 done meaning I have 115 left#jesus fucking christ ITS FINE it's fine it's just a lot. not a problem though#I can pick up the pace after this next month or two#it's chill
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@dinneratgrannys OUAT Appreciation Week Day 4 - Lyric/Song: OUAT Characters + Fabrizio De André Lyrics
(As requested by @mossmx, fuck you 💕)
#ouat appreciation week 2023#userstorybrooke#ouat#once upon a time#once upon a time appreciation week#august booth#emma swan#regina mills#robe italiane#italian#fabrizio de andré#ouat jefferson#ouat maleficent#NO ONE HAS ANY IDEA HOW MANY SWEAR WORDS I'VE SAID ABOUT THIS GIFSET#I'm proud of it. BUT AT WHAT COST#I have so many emotions regarding august and la canzone del padre#and all the jesus storyline songs ngl#sorry op I fucking forgot to tag the tracked tag in the other gifset I made lmao rip me
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"I love obi wan"
"Ok listen here you obsessed sh*t!
Everybody knows that ok? Your family knows it, your friends know it, this whole country knows it, the entire Star wars fandom knows it, the entire damn human Population knows it, the FBI knows it, the aliens in area 51 know it, the aliens spying on earth know it, jesus and god know it and by this point obi wan must have heard about it aswell."
Them aggrresively clutching my face in their hands " WE GET IT!!!"
Me: "....no i don't think you understa'
#i will never shut up about him#you would have to k*ll me to get me to shut up#and then i'm coming back as a ghost whispering my love speeches for him against the wind#and write i love obi wan kenobi in pink glitter colors on walls#i love him so much#you don't understand#proud obi wan girlie#he is babygirl#he is pookie#he is goddamn fucking obi wan kenobi!#yes i'm obsessed#and proud#star wars#star wars prequels#obi wan kenobi#star wars fandom#revenge of the sith#attack of the clones#the phantom menace#space jesus
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i hope a comically large piano falls from my ceiling and flattens me into a pancake and that a particularly strong breeze picks up my pancake body and carries me away and no one ever hears from me again
#JESUS FUCK THE NEW VBS SET#ANCHAN!!!!!!! I LVOE YOUSSIGSNDB;GEWAOILNKEGSDVMXNDFKBDFBGFB;LF#I'M SO PROUD OF HER... SHE'S MAKING HERSELF HEARD SHE'S LETTING HERSELF BE MAD#AND NOW SHE CAN FIND PEACE THESE EMOTIONS WON'T PLAGUE HER SO BADLY ANYMORE
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the whiplash of listening to a beautiful podcast interviewing an HIV-positive member of ACT UP followed by 'i want to give a quick shoutout to hello fresh' really took me out of it i sure love existing in late capitalism
#look i'm not naming any names this person does a really good job and i know they have to pay their bills#but jesus christ on a bicycle really#also quite recently a creator who is a child of an union rep and is super prpud of their dad and their dad is super proud of them#did a hellofresh sponsorship and i had to walk away from my phone for a minute#also one production company sent me a very cutesy email asking me to resubscribe to their patreon#my subscription actually ended because i didn't update my credit card info#but that email rubbed me the wrong way#so i sent a reply asking them why they have a betterhelp sponsorship#i was really polite my point was essentially look i'd feel much more comfortable rejoining your patreon#if i knew they also weren't giving you money#fucking cowards haven't replied yet#and their recent work is pretty mid so i find that extra funny#late capitalism#fuck capitalism#hello fresh#betterhelp
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me trying to stroll thru the ted nivison tag on tumblr for some sick art X READER, IMAGINE, OTHER THINGS I CAN'T REMEMBER THE NAME OF EVEN THO IT'S QUITE LITERATLY RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME XDD
#No shade btw I get it#look. I was on mcyt wattpad as a small small SMALL child and I mean FUCKING TINY#and I get it!#Where are the fanartist tho I want art grrrrr#do I have to do everything myself#anyways guys can u tell that maybe i've found myself in a new yt fixation.... erm#like 4 chuckle sandwich podcasts and a barbie movie review and i'm in the trenches#seriously though i do think that most of it is stemming from my video creation fixation#i blame school coming up#SCHLATTS MONKEY VIDEOW???? Beautiful editing i want to edit like that#don't know the editor off the top of my head sorry#i'm going crazy over video creation honestly and they're my vessels (This is very hyperbole)#snazum talks#I have an idea cooking btw.... maybe I'll share it here when i'm done but otherwise i'm gonna be tight lipped about it :)#if ur a mootie/friend tho feel free to ask me in dms :D I can't help but want to ramble bout it#I may be a little shy though since it's not embarrasing per say but i also don't like talking bout it that much#It's nothing serious it's actually the most not serious thing ever but i feel like a bragging bitch when i talk about it so i don't#but also i want to talk about it. cause the subject matter isn't even what i'm proud about it's the idea of how to present it that is#this is so vague i'm so sorry i started fucking rambling in these tags jesus christ#why am i like this ANYWAYS YEAH BYE#EDIT: okay but tbf back to the original point i didn't think this shit would be main tagged?#I find it usually isn't when it comes to rpf stuff but what do i know#all i know is 2012/2014....#the trenches dude.#u don't want to see my old art it contains so many terrible terrible youtubers#I sure know how to pick em#i think the amount i ramble in tags really really represents my adhdness#i got fucking diagnosed and i'm scared to say that i'm just gonna say my quirkyness
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Oh by the way don't go on twitter rn
#genuinely get closer every day to deleting my account because what the fuck guys#okay just gonna rant in the tags for a minute ignore me#because what the actual FUCK#I made a twitter account so I could see what Michael Sheen posted#because it makes me happy and that has value for me#and I've checked back every couple days then every couple weeks since october to see if he'd posted anything#and people are sTILL fucking going on about it#guys#guys I'm begging y'all to realize that bullying someone off a website is not the activism slay you think it is#there are celebrities that are PROUD zionists can we PLEASSE focus on them?? if we're gonna talk about celebs at all????#your time could be doing so many more valuable things than posting over and over about your opinions#about some other random uninvolved guys opinions#about a complex conflict in which it is not a wrong desire for innocents to not be killed!!!#in which a ceasefire is what we've been demanding from our reps for months!!!!!#and some fucking statements he made MONTHS ago#statements which by the way were not wrong or incorrect#y'all forget that being anti-zionist in the modern imperial hellscape of america and the uk has very serious consequences that I have seen#in my own actual goddamn life#calling for a ceasefire is exactly what we were asked to do by organizers jesus fuck are y'all that dense????#have you done so little actual activism that you don't know that??? what is happening?????#and now georgia tennant deactivated her fucking account because she got dogpiled too#for not providing a full PR defense against claims she was a zionist#like guys come on we all know how that goes#it doesn't matter what you say someone is gonna get angry and pick it apart she doesn't owe us proof she's not a zionist#I'm not here to say she responded correctly but there's nothing she could have said that would have made twitter happy#because that's how celebrity drama works and you know it#so now of course everyone's buzzing again about michael and georgia and neil and fuck him fuck her whatever#people are blocking each other for supporting or not supporting and shit it's a bloodbath#and for what#for. fucking. what.
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I want their fuckin freedom they have no chores no responsibility they can go out with their friends when ever they want for however long they want they can sleep in there bed all day they eat drink drive vehicles use the phone have a home with no bills no expenses they can spend their money on stupid things that bring them joy with no worry of the gas they burned in someone else's vehicle or if there's dinner at home they have no worries about laundry no worries about dishes no worries about the messes they make because they know I'll clean it up always I want to be viewed by my family and by my friends as someone who is an actual person with limits and boundaries and who has goals and dreams they'd like to accomplish in the day besides laundry for 16 people and not a tireless cleaning machine. I want to be able to rest and have hobbies I want to be able to do things with my partner and my friends again I want to be able to fuckin daydream and make up stories again for Christ sake I want to feel like a person and not a corpse forced into playing "tradwife" I want the freedom they all have while I'm in the background doin they're dishes.
#i don't mind helping with chores but it's the fact I'm the only one qnd i can get my four youngest to help me with bribes of sweets#but there's several adults living here who don't care that they make. more mess then a four year old#and could definitely start doin their own laundry#or take the trash out if it's full instead of cramming more into it so that the bag splits and is to heavy for me to lift#and I'm actually kinda strong like I've def lost a lot of energy n strength this year tbh but this bitch can lift pretty heavy boxes at work#and i split logs pretty regularly so im not the strongest gal by no means like of lord i had to carry my mother around everywhere#because she was a stubborn asshole who refused to use any mobility aids and then wanted to go shopping or go out and i had to just carry her#like i can carry an adult women but fuck if it didn't hurt me bad doin it and i had to stop several times to catch my breath#like I'm not super Strong but I'm not weak the trashbag cant weigh more then an adult#it takesn nothing to rinse a bowl out so your food don't turn into cement#or throw away the wrappers of your bandaids instead of tossing them on the floor#or wipe your shoes before you come in and track big chunks of dried mud and grass all over the home#my parents wanted 12 kids wnd our house to look like a magazine and they beat that mentality of the house must be clean as a whistle#because what if Jesus was to stop by we must have our home look so clean that we would be unashamed if jesus stopped#so clean we encourage him to look in cupboards and under the bed clean#i dont think that's a Bible verse but there was a biblical book that was all about having a home that was so clean constantly#just so you wouldn't be ashamed when Christ cand because cleanliness is closer to godliness#i really hate my mother like so much I'm glad i can finally say it I'm glad i don't have to work to earn her love or buy it#you shouldn't have to have to earn love especially from your parents I'm glad she can't constantly condemn me#i have nightmares about my mom condemning me or being smug n proud and ruining my life in the name of her cult#like throwing away all of my belongings and only having a bed a Bible some christan fiction four floor length Jean dresses baggy tshirts#also her giving my sister she favored a bunch of my organs since I'm broken anyhow and slowly dieing because i don't have a liver anymore#or her ruining my relationship and friendships because she didn't think they were godly enough so i have no one in my life except church#she tried to have an arranged marriage for me not a dream that happened#i know she loved me i hate that i think so low of her but her love felt like hate most of the time#i know she loved me though andni love her to I'm just glad i don't have to constantly hve to perform for her#i have so much garbage in my brain
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i want you guys to know i read every letter every syllable every word in my promo tags and it makes me smile until my face hurts. seriously. thank you for everything, i could use the warm fuzzies.
#ooc. mikkelsen vc: this week on kat valentine's hannibal.#[i'm so.... i love yall so much. you make me so happy!!! im frankly proud ive been here forever. like. jesus christ im unkillable. thats the#only explanation at this point.#--oh and new followers! im about to get REALLY pissed about gender probably just know my FUCKING RAGE is... me expressing an opinion#and therefore not intended to upset anyone. im stupid passionate about a lot and bishop got me thinking about a lot i haven't thought of in#long time.]
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oh god....
#tbh?? i'm so proud of miura/kihara for pulling this off and skating till the end oh god#THE SPEED AND ALL THE LIFTS#no wonder he had no strenght by the end i was so nervous during last two elements god god god his muscles were giving up#jesus. THE LOOP BY THE END???!!!?!?#INSANITY#i'm literally in awe that they still managed to do the lift holy shit#like. this program is very challenging in general and in THESE conditions!??#👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻#they really are something else#also? isu what the fuck stop hosting it in colorado springs#and get your shit together#bc there were so many errors and things that shouldn't have happened during this competition it's insane and not funny#chan/howe did amazing too btw!!#and they struggled by the end too i'm scared to even look up how other pairs did#i'm happy for the winners but i'm mostly just glad they're okay bc jesus#figure skating#agnes talking
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happy birthday to me 🥲
#i'm 20 people#jesus christ#5 year old me would be so confused but so happy for me#10 year old me would be so proud of me and relieved#15 year old me might be angry but so fucking proud of me#20 year old me is just happy i stuck around and am still trying my hardest#anyways have a good 26th people#i will be in the office until almost sundown but i plan on having a bit of fun on my two decade birthday#this is also scheduled because i will be asleep#remmierambles#haharemmieshh
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I read this quote, vibing with it completely the entire time, and then it turns out it was written by one of my favorite podcasters!!
Check out her show) Maintenance Phase for funny and informative explorations of the "wellness" industry and fatphobia!
[“Ultimately, anti-fatness isn’t based in science or health, concern or choice. Anti-fatness is a way for thinner people to remind themselves of their perceived virtue. Seeing a fatter person allows them to remind themselves that at least I’m not that fat. They believe that they have chosen their body, so seeing a fat person eat something they deem unhealthy reminds them of their stronger willpower, greater tenacity, and superior character. We don’t just look different, the thinking goes; we are different. Thinner people outwit their bodies. Fatter people succumb to them. Encounters with fatter people offer a welcome opportunity to retell that narrative and remind themselves of their superiority.
Over time, I have come to learn that these moments—the threats, the concern, the constant well-intentioned bullying—run even deeper than a simple assumption of superiority. It is a reminder so many thin people seem to desperately need. They don’t seem to be talking to me at all. They seem to be talking to themselves.
Thin people don’t need me to know about a diet or a surgeon. They don’t need me to hear them expound on the evils of the obesity epidemic or the war on obesity. They need to remind themselves to stay vigilant and virtuous. The ways that thin people talk to fat people are, in a heartless kind of way, self-soothing. They are warnings to themselves from themselves. I am the future they are terrified of becoming, so they speak to me as the ghost of fatness future. They remove food from my cart as if it is their own. They offer diet advice forcefully, insisting that I take it. If I say that I have, they insist I must have done it wrong, must not have been vigilant enough, must not have had enough willpower. They beat me up the way most of us only talk to ourselves. As if in a trance, they plead with me, some terrifying future self.
Sometimes, the trance breaks. Maybe it breaks because they realize, with great discomfort, that they have made extraordinary judgments, issued intrusive mandates like some petulant prince. Maybe it breaks because a fat person asks them to stop. But whatever breaks the trance, the thinner person seems to return to themself, recognizing that they may have overstepped. And without fail, they will offer the same rote caveat, a hasty waiver, unsigned, disclaiming any injury caused: I’m just concerned for your health. And just like that, all that judgment, all those assumptions, all that cruelty suddenly becomes a humanitarian mission.”]
aubrey gordon, what we don’t talk about when we talk about fat
#AUBREY GORDON YOU GODDESS YOU#aubrey gordon#fav#I've never had someone take food out of my cart. I would probably be too shocked to say anything. but now I'm thinking#about how i could RUIN THAT PERSON'S WEEK in a legal way without leaving the store. because JESUS what a monster#I don't want to hit them I just want to make them feel so bad about themselves that they never do it again#but some people are too far gone to reach#ref#fatphobia#SO true. everything she said is spot-on. especially bc i remember being a thin child and looking at fat people in this way#ofc i also thought i was fat but i drew comfort in not being AS FAT as some other people. it was how i was raised and it was gross.#I slowly got better as I learned about fat liberation and saw examples in media of confident fat characters#and then I got fat which was fortunate because I look great and I had done a lot of the groundwork mentally lol#when i was in high school i decided i would be proud of my fatness - which caused the body dysmorphia to weaken enough for me to realize#i wasn't fucking fat XD - but again when i DID become fat i was like 'okay I've trained for this.'#it's not self love and no body image issues all the time over here but I'm pretty good at loving my fat body#and people like Aubrey Gordon make that a lot easier because they live confidently and pick apart all of the horrible#often-subtle fatphobic influences that surround us at all times#about me
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talked (read: had an argument) with my mother again. i'm going to start killing <3
#now she's saying that i have to store all the shit from my old room in the room i'm staying in now until she can go through it#which will never happen. because she hates going through shit#and it's like oh! okay! so you preach abt the house being clean but don't actually give a fuck! i see how it is!#also got some more banger quotes from her where she went off on a tangent abt how i never help around the house (i do so frequently)#and said stuff like “you never care about helping me unless it helps you”! <3#of course i don't bitch!! your fucking job was to care about me unconditionally and you fucking didn't!! why would i return the favor?!#she should be glad that i learned to take my anger out in healthy ways. unlike her#i don't have to hit anyone! aren't you proud mother?! already learning so much from your mistakes!#she set aside some stuff she didn't want me to throw out but i'm debating throwing it out anyways. just to be spiteful#why should she get to have these things when she inhibits ny ability to have anything CONSTANTLY?#they're in my room anyways. if they mattered so much to her she should have put them in her fucking room huh#i'm not a scared little kid anymore. i won't just take this shit#i won't just let her fucking throw me around like this#she stepped close to me like she always does when she's about to grab me but i didn't shrink#i won't run anymore. if she hits me she's in for a nasty surprise! because i can hit back now since i'm not a defenseless kid anymore!#anyways i don't usually get mad like this but jesus fucking christ i can't stand this woman#marin complains
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how are there so many people buying easels just to use them as decoration??? like what are you trying to achieve? are you trying to fool people into thinking you're artsy????? PUT YOUR ACTUAL HOBBIES ON DISPLAY?
#I'm looking for used easels and I found two listings so far that mention the easel is unused because it was just decoration#THAT'S NOT WHAT ARTISTS ARE LOOKING FOR#your off-brand easel that was never used is not worth 50€ wtf I want to see paint stains on it?#like how the fuck am I supposed to know it's built to last and not a wobbly mess if it's never been used hello?#I found a really great listing for an atelier easel for 45€ that looks like it's been through years of use#charcoal and acrylic stains everywhere#THAT'S what I'm looking for!#buying an easel for decoration smh my head. be proud of the hobbies you actually have jesus christ#SAME AS#OH MY GOD I JUST#REMEMBERED AHH#SAME AS THOSE PEOPLE WHO BUY GRAND PIANOS TO PUT THEM IN THEIR LIVING ROOM AS DECORATION WTF IS WRONG WITH THOSE PEOPLE#AND THEN THEY LET THE PIANO GO TO SHIT#NEVER SERVICING IT OH I COULD MURDER THEM DON'T DO THAT#IT'S NOT OKAY THAT YOU GET TO AFFORD A GRAND PIANO AND THEN LET IT DETERIORATE TO A POINT IT'S UNSALVAGEABLE#YES I AM JEALOUS NO I'M NOT TOO PROUD TO ADMIT THAT#AT LEAST SERVICE IT! AT LEAST HAVE SOMEONE COME IN YEARLY TO TUNE IT SINCE YOU CAN OBVIOUSLY AFFORD IT#i'm sorry i. got very emotional there.#anyway the point is I don't get it. just put your actual hobbies on display. cringe culture is dead.#like just put your steelbooks and figurines up if you're a gamer or weeaboo or whatever it's fine#if someone thinks lesser of you for it kill them
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