#jean moreau hc

[stick-ball]

In this essay I will

[ahomeganeyatsu]

Thinking about Jean having conversations with a random cat on campus. Like one of those times where he's sitting on a bench and waiting for the next person to accompany him to his class. And a cat comes up to him, maybe it's one that's claimed that particular bench as their napping spot. It stares Jean down but Jean will not be moved, until he finds how ridiculous this must look, so he scoots over and the cat reluctantly accepts him as a bench buddy.

At first, he simply ignores the cat. Standing up when he spots Jeremy or whoever's been assigned to him that day. A whispered, "À plus."

He thought it would be the last, but he ends up seeing the cat around. More often than not, they end up keeping each other company.

Jean starts talking to the cat. Maybe expressing his thoughts on a reading material, bouncing ideas to it about his classes or how unbearable his team/classmates are. (He rants to them about Jeremy sometimes, even Neil or Kevin.)

Then, he starts bringing it treats. A trade for bearing his company and lending its feline ears to his woes. The first time it bumps its head against his hand, Jean reminds himself to breathe. The first time it sits on his laps, it reminds him to breathe.

He's not trying to hide this. (He totally is.) But he keeps the cat a secret. Something about having something to himself. Even though he knows he can't keep it.

Eventually, he gets found out. He doesn't know whether it's good luck that Jeremy's the one who does or bad luck that Jeremy had to hear him having a conversation with the cat.

He's glad enough that Jeremy doesn't say a word about it. Just gives him that smile that feels like sunshine and tastes like the sea. He denies the warmth spreading across his face, the lightness in his heart, the urge to reach over and wipe that damnable smile off with his own lips.

[starrycassi]

The raven surely had all personal tutors and hella forgiving professors, right? There is absolutely no way these bitches were getting through midterms in 16 hour days I will NOT believe it

[satanic-foxhole-court]

Back on my placate/people please/fawn response Jean bullshit strap in

Jean’s learned response is to shut down his preferences, boundaries, and wants to reduce the amount of harm that he receives. In his words, he endures. This only serves him in actively abusive and traumatic situations, it’s a trauma response. Unlike freeze, fight, and flight it means the person is perceived and compliant and willing, that everything that occurs is okay else.

Jean out of a traumatic and abusive environment does so much worse because his brain is not longer in survival mode. Being so used to harm and being constantly vigilant has ruined his nervous system. Picking up patterns, behaviours, cues that aren’t present or do not mean harm anymore is a detriment to him now, they no longer serve him.

How Jeremy, Cat and Lalia approaches this is genuinely helpful. They don’t take Jeans fawn/placating as if they were being lied to or betrayed. It has nothing to do with them and they know that consciously. They point out when things aren’t okay to pull Jean into alignment, Jeremy going to far as to say ‘do not let us hurt you unknowingly’.

Something that I wish those that experience fawn/people please/placate more where told: people do not want to hurt you, they do not want to unknowingly do you harm, they do not like or enjoy seeing you suffer because you didn’t do something within your boundaries. If they do that’s not okay and that’s not how someone should ever be treated.

And for Jean this rings true so hard, he’s had so so few people in his life that do not want to hurt him. Renee helping him is a spark of hope and something that is so foreign to him, because harm and hurt is all he’s known for so long.

With fawn response for some their own boundaries have been ignored for so long they no longer know what they are. In regard to Exy I see this as true for Jean. He sees it as survival, because it is, but at the cost of his body and health.

Would love to see Jean realise the harm fawn does when it’s not in an abusive/traumatic situation<3

[Lot of my own experiences here. There is no good trauma response, they are useful but ultimately all equally difficult to unlearn and manage]

[chronically-peach]

Headcanon that Kevin loves I Can Do Better by Avril Lavigne. It’s the perfect post Riko song and I can see him working out to it. It’s upbeat but angsty enough that it would relate to the queen of being broody and it’s just a big fuck you song. The timeline works out pretty well for it too.

Sorry I don’t make the rules, Kevin is an Avril Lavigne fan and would absolutely have The Best Damn Thing on CD.

Bonus: Jean would listen to When You’re Gone and think about Kevin.

Bonus 2: Hot is 100% an Andreil song. I can see Andrew listening to it in the car when he’s alone.

Bonus 3: Keep Holding On is for all of the foxes and also Jean with the Trojans.

tldr: The Best Damn Thing by Avril Lavigne is All for the Game core.

[tara-the-star]

*non-binary teammate*

jean: okay cool sounds right

*boba tea*

jean: ⁉️😡🤬❌✋‼️🛑

[photosynthesislover]

When Neil goes pro he ends up in Jean's team and they're roommates. The first day Jean text Andrew "package received" with a picture of Neil in their apartment and Andrew answers "take care of him". Neil still misses Andrew, his last year of college was hell but now Jean's with him and he's feeling a bit better.

[kev-day]

after they throw away jean’s old notebooks, his friends help him glue his little beret bear back together and put it up in the fridge and when kevin comes to town for their joint interview he’s sees it from the corner of his eye and stumbles on his words and oh—

[johnsinclairlover]

neil can definitely speak french in a canadian accent and he uses it exclusively to piss jean off

[feelingthedisaster]

random aftg headcanons

dan gets a video camara and starts filming the foxes. years later, she founds all the tapes and makes a compilation

matt gives the freshman a brooklyn 99 style introduction of everyone

kevin chews gum, like, a lot. gum 24/7. its either mint or watermelon flavoured

the foxes give wymack a "n1 coach" mug for father's day one year. he pretends he is annoyed but he uses it everyday

jean likes to draw

kevin starts getting grey hairs at like 28 (wymack's genes)

renee knows how to tatto and she is actually pretty good, but doesnt do them often.

+she gave allison a butterfly tattoo on her shoulder

later in life, aaron gets a lot of people asking him for autographs thinking he is andrew. he just says "sorry, wrong twin" except when it's a little kid asking, only then he pretends he is andrew, he even learnt his signature

cat goes full gay panic when laila calls her catalina or cata, laila knows it so she does it on purpose

even though kevin prefers and mostly plays left-handed, sometimes he will just switch hands mid-games. like, "you thought you could mark me? sorry pal" and changes hands. it drives his opponements insane. they get used to him playing right-handed, he just switches back to his left. every defense player and coach hates him for that.

king mirrors andrew and sir mirrors neil

andrew and king have staring contents. king sits in the kitchen counter and andrew has to cook but doesnt want to move her so they stare at each other for entire minutes in complete silence. (king loses and leaves on her own to the couch). this happens more often than one would think

the cats LOVE neil's lap, specially sir. neil cant sit without getting a cat on his lap almost inmediately

pt2

[jeanmoroses]

tsc social media au part three :)

tweets/messages between andrew, laila, and neil are inspired by @4phr0d17e’s banger post!

as a socal (and astronomy) girlie griffith observatory is one of my favorite la landmarks EVER i love it so much (getty museum and san clemente are contenders too)

also if it’s unclear in the first gc the upperclassmen and travis are getting lunch at a usc café it’s like a tradition for them

[stick-ball]

This is some mythical shit for real.

[mo-online]

i keep wanting to project my music taste onto my favorite characters but i think if jean moreau heard a single ethel cain song he'd throw up and try to kill himself again

[little2nerdy]

we know abby has seen some really terrible injuries during her time with the foxes/aftermath of spending time with the ravens so she saw jean and was somewhat prepared, but i can imagine the nurses/doctors/trainers for the trojans being absolutely appalled, driven to drink levels of disturbed by seeing jean’s medical records/x-rays/scars. like i can just imagine the coaches and team staff getting together to compare notes on jean and realizing how far into the deep end they were thrown (they’re all cursing kevin day and wymack, and jeremy a little)

[satanic-foxhole-court]

CW talks of self harm and suicide related to Sunshine Court, spoilers of The Sunshine Court under the cut.

(Headcanon and my own interpretation/experience heavy, I’m not the word of god here)

My interpretation of Jean’s mindset in TSC in relation to his self injury and self harm behaviours is seeking a sense of control when his trauma is triggered. He seeks to hurt because at least that is something that he is doing to himself, the pain grounds and the pain makes the thoughts stop. If it’s him doing it then he knows it’s him, or in moments he’s in a solid trigger his body moves to make it stop but makes it worse. Suicidal ideation, thoughts, plans and attempts are a product of mental health issues + trauma and not something he consciously wants even when he believes he does. It’s easier to escape that way. With the deal made with Ichiro Jean has a strong reason to have to keep living, that works as a crutch to endure.

Specifically the hand around his throat and nails digging into his skin could be seen as a grounding technique for him for his Complex-PTSD. It’s the only tried and true method he knows he can use to cope, the nest wasn’t a space for him to develop regulation and grounding techniques because that was an actively harmful space he needed to survive instead of heal.

Jean does start to engage with better habits in TSC, going on a run with Jeremy. Running with him means 1) He’s with someone safe and 2) physical activity helps peak constant anxiety felt with trauma triggers.

Jean setting boundaries when things get too much so he doesn’t touch trauma boxes he’s not ready to is great too. Avoiding triggers isn’t helpful long term, but having a time and place to have the capacity to deal with them is important.

Anyway this is to say, grounding techniques like

exercise,

breathing (I know, but it works),

comfort activities,

having a safe space to return to,

distraction activities,

having someone co-regulate with him,

tight hugs or deep pressure

sour candy,

talking about it/writing it down

Could be safer alternatives for Jean to engage with. Note that I am approaching this from a trigger management perspective and less from a self harm perspective, can only speak from my own perspective and experience<3

[broken-heart-raven-queen]

So... imagine in TSC2 Jean calling Kevin/Neil and asking to speak to Andrew about how he could be in a relationship with someone like Neil despite all that happened to him and how he deals with feelings and stuff.

I imagine Neil/Kevin being like "Wtf, he wants to talk to Andrew." And Andrew picking up the phone with the most bored face he could have (he's very curious) and picking up like "Jean, Jean Valjean" and Jean regretting all his life choices right then and there.

But it ends up being THE conversation he needed (and maybe Andrew too).