#izzymandi4s

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what no one tells u about growing up with an 3d is that you’ll be in your late twenties living ALONE with a JOB and pets who solely depend on YOU and so you need to figure out how lose weight while also actually being a functioning member of society because it’s not as easy as skipping classes like you have to go to WORK now

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@everyone in this side of tumblr, pls put ur age on the description or pinned post i am begging u

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everyday i think about my hands at my lw

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my cat truly said ‘no weighing yourself today’ huh

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reminders for myself if i ever feel " hungry " when it's not mealtime:

have you taken your meds today ?

eat some salt

eat some seasoning

drink some water

smoke a cigarette

have some coffee

brush your teeth

fill your water bottles

clean the kitchen

make a meal plan

make a grocery list

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i live in fear of my blog being termed like every time i open it and it takes a second too long to load i’m like ‘oh shit its happened’ and it gives me so much unnecessary stress lmfao how do i make it stop maybe i should go back to mp4

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gentle reminder that the time will pass regardless goes both ways. you don’t have to be at your gw to wear cute clothes, put on outfits and make up, maintain hygiene and skincare, learn a language, watch that tv show, read that book, travel, have experiences. the time will pass regardless. you can spend that time being miserable or you can spend that time taking care of yourself, enjoying things, becoming the person you want to be in all aspects of your life. you are allowed to feel joy. you have permission to try to be happy.

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squeezing into a pair of shorts that are now too small for u so ur thighs look positively vulgar <<<

trying those same shorts again in a few months and realising they now look cute and grunge and goals >>>

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me logging my lunch: hmm i wonder how many grams of butter i put in that

google:

me: i’m gonna log 150 grams just to be safe

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my latest obsession is literally just eating salt. having a craving for salty snacks? you don’t need the snacks, you can get just the salt!! who even cares about water retention when you’ve avoided eating altogether!!

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me making myself a meal: ok so we can have this oneeeee small spoon of butter and four- no, maybe just three eggs and i can eat only after a specific time and a specific ritual and then later if i’m very good i can have an instant cappuccino for sweetness but if i can not do that it would be best because we need to get smaller and–

me making a meal for my cats: AWWW ARE MY BABIES HUNGWY 😻 mummy is gonna make a SPECIAL something for u to eat ❤️❤️ i usually put a third of a package but since u have been so good 🎖️ i’m gonna put EXTRA 🙀❕ and u just let me know if u still want more because you are the BESTEST 🌟 boys that have EVER existed ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 and u are still GROWING⬆️ so mummy is gonna give u all the nutrients u could need so u can be 🔆BIG BOYS mummy loves you so much

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i made a running playlist and went all happy to burn some c41s except i forgot that i am physically unable to run because i have been a smoker for well over a decade so i was just walking and planned to walk for hours which was all good because i had all my songs except then it started raining so fuck me i guess

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literally a horror story over seven years

(ps. there were other periods of wl but i’d mostly been using another app in the meantime)

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b1ng3d yesterday so we’re doing a liquid fast until saturday 🙏🏻 this is my first time doing this for so long so i’m really excited

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me: i acknowledge that i am a normal weight and when i look in the mirror i recognise that i have womanly curves and look like a normal, even attractive, adult woman my therapist: so that's good, right? you like that, right? me: ABSOLUTELY FUCKING NOT I WANT TO DISAPPEAR I WOULD RATHER DIE

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✨☕️🌻 sharing my productive morning routine

🌞 slowly wake up with the alarm and realise that my intention of waking up hours early to catch up with work failed and so this is just another day

🐈 pet my cats as they climb onto my bed to remind me to get up and remind myself how grateful i am for everything that i have

pee and get frustrated that i can’t poop then weigh myself and get frustrated because the scale doesn’t move or isn’t accurate

take my meds 💊 and supplements and turn on the kettle to make coffee ☕️

feed my cats and use the opportunity of them getting distracted to smoke the first cigarette of the day on the balcony 🚬 even though i don’t actually feel the cravings yet and know that it would be better for me to wait until i do physically crave it

finally poop and weigh myself but now i know there’s the water weight from washing away the meds and supplements so it doesn’t count

brush my teeth 🪥 and wash my face 🧖‍♀️

try to find an outfit that doesn’t make me want to cry 👩‍💼💖

🦾 put the coffee in a takeaway tumbler to take to work to keep myself semi-functional

check the fridge to see what i have to work with and read every nutrition label and check every expiration date and obsess over what am i gonna have as my omad while knowing full well that i will just end up eating the same thing as i have for a few weeks now

get off to work for another great day 🎖️👏💞