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rvbrestoration · 7 days ago

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Tired. Sad. My head hurts. Stressed??? No time to really relax at all. And my country about to be taken over by the literal devil and there is no counting on anything after that.

#cant even book a therapy appointment #i will self medicate instead 😔#all i asked for for christmas was top surgery stuff #cause i thought that might be soon #but it likely wont be until summer at least #so this is just going to suck really #i am #so goddamn sad #and on top of that its the anniversary of the biggest betrayal in my life #how do you pin down when the betrayal happened if it was a sustained lie #is it when the lie started when they shouldve told me or when i actually found out?#idk #i bought myself a really nice gift though that im really looking forward to #its a drawing tablet with a screen. no computer plugin necessary #ive wanted this for over a decade #so its nice that i finally get to have it #i hope it will get me to start drawing more again #i also still have some good bonuses for this month and the next month #its giving me a lot of hope for my surgery fund #im still so tired though #i just need to get through these next stupid weeks #and then things will start to be okay again i hope #i really really hope #sorry for posting this on my sideblog i dont want my main blog moots to see this and get worried

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slitherbop · 2 years ago

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ETCETERA (v0.00) is Here!

I made a Yume Nikki Fangame for Dream Diary Jam 7!

You are "Innard". You must return a lost pistol to "Etcetera"!

#rpg maker #dream diary jam #ynfg #yume nikki fangame #slitherdraws #oc tag #mindhaunt #etcetera game #EYHAEYAHYEHAYEAHAHHAHHHHHH IM VERY HAPYPY I MADE SOMETHING #IVE WANTTED TO MAKE A YUME NIKKI FANGAME FOR OVER A DECADE IVE FINALLY DONE IT!!!!!!!#ITS NOT COMPLETE ITS SUCH A SMALL CHUNK OF WHAT I PLANNED BUT ITS THERE ! ITS A START!!#PLZ ENJOY WHAT IS THERE there IS an indication of completion but idk if anyone gonna get it WAHA #INNARD GO TO HELL! YIPEE

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ghastigiggles · 1 month ago

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(p.2) unlearning takes time

[part 1] [...] [part 3 (not done yet)]

#my art #mine #pressure tickles #roblox pressure tickles #sebastian solace #p.ai.nter #watercolor #sebpainter #mfw i have issues after being experimented on + essentially enslaved against my will for over a decade #and i hate myself for having wants because it makes me feel weak and its been too dangerous to let myself feel weak for so long #but now i have a robot s/o who will do literally fucking anything for me because i fulfilled my only promise to them #just sebcore things #setting dynamic and language insp by second nature by breadwave on ao3 btw #as well as a few other fics with a similar setting that i quite enjoy...#but i just need everyone to read breadwave's fics bc theyre all ive thought about for weeks

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skunkes · 8 months ago

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i like them together....

#a doodley #jumpscaring everyone again #im stilll deciding talons nose shape #saw a nose shape that looked a lot like his the other day and im trying to integrate it with the old way i used to draw it too #undecided if he should have very visible nostrils or if theyre more hidden like al's #speaking of al he's existed for over a decade and im still deciding eye color!#i feel his whole scheme fits the light grey or green eyes ive always given him #but. light eyes scare me and he is my forever girl. so we're leaning brownish again rn #it all goes back to brown. like how i cant stop drawing talon with his original eye color when he's meant to have the scary purple eyes #as a vampyre #AND FINALLY im trying to find a way to add more texture to talons face #i have to do more intentional wrinkles around the eyes and sockets that add form #i give al his acne scars + bumps + pores #wanted to give talon liver spots but he is a vampire! no sun exposure!#might also just do like. bumps and blemishes #the illusion of rugged skin

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chowdergal · 2 years ago

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Guess who finally drew my favorite iplier after 84 years?

#markiplier #darkiplier #a date with markiplier #seriously have wanted to draw darkiplier for years...#but like all fanart i do...i take my sweeeeeeeeeeet time xD #cant believe it's been over a decade since ive first started watching Mark...#also #darkiplier in the white suit is cool and all #but i like black better xD #my art

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sanctus-ingenium · 1 year ago

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hi! I absolutely love your art, I was wondering if you're able to make a full-time living off of your personal work or if you do other stuff to supplement your income? I'm in my final year of art school and id love to make a living selling prints and stuff online but I know it's probably not very stable. do you have any thoughts/advice?

I never went to art school and never tried engaging with art professionally so I'm probably not the one to ask. As a side hustle it's fine it pays for some stuff like fuel and phone bills but I've intentionally not been very proactive about it (by not offering commissions or custom work for example) because I never had any desire to rely on an extremely unreliable skill, luck, & A Social Media Grindset to make a living. That's like hell to me lol. So what I make is nowhere near enough to live on, this isn't my job. When I did offer commissions it was on twitter and many years ago, because tumblr was and is a bad place to market yourself (which is why I came back.. I loathe having to be "marketable" as someone who's just a hobbyist, and having to stick to a consistent and cute furry art style for every ref sheet of someone's else character I drew turned me into the joker because furry culture discourages breaking the mold lol). So if you do go through with it, don't do it here

#ive posted art on social media for.. honestly over a decade now #i made this account with one goal: it'll be different this time. i draw only what i want to draw #... which is inherently hostile to the concept of earning a steady income for your art #especially when your style subject complexity and tone are all wildly inconsistent. tbc that's intentional. but 'keep em guessing' and #'never let them know your next move' is not how u inspire customers it's what i do for fun

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xxplastic-cubexx · 2 months ago

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what is your favorite thing about charles and your favorite thing about erik? separately, as in what you like most about their characters :]

a devious question this one is, my friend!!! it's hard enough for me to explain my thoughts cohesively, but having to pick ONE thing i particularly love is difficult. with characters like charles and erik, theres been so much done with their characters over the decades and so they have so many components to them that make them so interesting and fun to observe. BUT I TRY FOR YOU TODAY. under the cut i kinda ramble and the size of this text box makin me anxious

i think if i were to be simple and broad, what i enjoy most about charles is his determination to help others, even if he isn't really thanked and/or if people don't even like him. ofc, this isn't to say he hasn't done wrong- to be honest, the fact he does wrong/questionable things at times is another aspect of him i really enjoy, maybe because- broadly speaking- he's meant to be altruistic (intent vs outcome and all that). i don't know if that's super exciting to most people, but it is for me

as for erik, my reason for liking him is easier to explain tbh. To Be Simple And Broad, his progression from villain to antihero over the decades has been fun to observe (as much as i have so far anyhow) and analyze. i think to be a bit more specific, him using his rage and pain as justifications for his villainous actions is definitely what compels me the most: hurt people hurt and the sort, an idea i've always found interesting (something something vicious cycles and the like). yet now, he recognizes this wasn't really. A Just Thing To Do and is beginning to change that, which i enjoy

#snap chats #may you forgive me anon i always feel awkward explaining things AVELKJEAKLJ #i feel esp awkward cause i haven't read toooo much of the comics yet- like ive read. an ok amount so far krakoa wise #can you guys tell im fighting god himself to Not write a fuckin. NOVEL #im so sorry i have an over-explaining problem my mom was mean to me growing up but anyways #i definitely want to read more and more outside krakoa. the more i read the more im fascinated by these two and their history #but to continue my prattling. as if the three paragraphs above arent enough This Is Not A Thesis RELAX #i think a. 'poignant' moment i think adds to what i like about charles too is that soliloquy where he recognizes people dont like him #yet he could always be worse- like if he's bad now to others imagine if he really just said Fuck It All #it's simple but so am i whaddyagonnadoboutit. i mean that point itself could be discussed but i'm trying to keep this brief bear with me #i so bad want to know what issue that's from tho all i know is that it's from krakoa but i neeeed the whole context #i think like. an additional bullet point to charles i also like is his loneliness #and i say this cause- I Say From My Amateur-Psychology Armchair- it's a component of why he's so earnest to help #but im keeping this point in the tags until i can confidently verify that with myself after some more reading #Unfortunately a favorite pass time of mine is psychoanalyzing characters like why else you think i major in psychology smh #im going to force myself to cap the post here because i ended up typing like 20 more tags just rambling #and as i said id like to keep this simple and clean !!!!! i have sat here for like four hours answering this ngl #ignore the fact half that time was spent getting distracted by solitaire and riffling cards ok I Am Very Easily Distracted #but fr when it comes to charles and erik- charles esp imo #i feel like i need to write a whole paper just so i can mention the nuances of the characters and like. EVERYTHING #because again six decades is A Lot of time for writing decisions to be made and for their characters to change over time #im a glazer but i wanna be a nuanced glazer yk. is that glazing at that point-- w/e anyway #its a lot. so today you will have to tolerate a very Blah answer from me which i must apologize for #down the line once ive read a comfortable amount more varying from multiple eras maybe ill revisit this question more in depth #as of right now tho .... chat i wanna get legion of x so bad i skimmed it and hhhhhhhhim gonna throw UP #i need to shake charles like a ragdoll BUT ANYWAY. bye bye for now lovelies !!!!!!!#please forgive me if i didnt answer your question efficiently ..#here i am saying i wanted to keep the tag count brief and yet !!! jesus christ. shut up My God I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT

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tarteggs · 1 year ago

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trigun crossing: new horizons…..or something

#nicholas d. wolfwood #trigun #my art #animal crossing #I. GUESS. YEAH #wendy the punisher if u will….#she’s my fave villager of all time ive loved her for over a decade…#yeah idk what else to say here i just wanted to hop on the trend LMFAO

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ofmdee · 18 days ago

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gorgeous 💜

#mine #ts4 #sims 4 #the sims 4 #simblr #sims #ofmd #ed #ofmd sims #sometimes i think abt all the time ive sunk into sims over the past 2+ decades #and think man......... why #but then sometimes i look at HIM and im like ah yes i understand #it was all so he could exist 😂#all the skills and seemingly useless stuff i taught myself #in order to play this game and make it work the way i want #he is the ultimate payoff #shhhhh dont laugh hes so real to me!!!

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theladydrgn · 1 year ago

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I think Crowley and Aziraphale actually kissing on screen is so important to me because I've been shipping these 2 for over 15 years and to actually have my ship kiss??? To be canonically in love??? Bonkers. Amazing. My heart is full

#good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale #aziracrow #good omens 2 #like fr #ive been waitinf and wanting this for OVER A DECADE

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donutdrawsthings · 14 days ago

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I haven't been enjoying going on Tumblr for a good while now when it comes to casually reblogging things... I just keep finding myself closing the app and feeling so Angry about what I read for various reasons! Outrage or just regular frustration. Because of that it's also become more and more appealing to hang out on bluesky instead, since I AM seeing what I want to see over there!

I'll be spending a long time unfollowing a lot of people here to kind of get a blank slate and get back to the stuff I want to see... but until then, You'll find me being more active on bluesky!

#talkies #not art #bluesky #ive been on this site for over a decade so it's going to take.... a LONG time...#but i genuinely don't want to leave this place yet #I'm very attached to this blog and tumblr tbh #but i don't come to this site to see more drama and hate and negative posts and whatever other politics are going on in the world #it's tempting to reblog this stuff but i really need to get myself away from all of that #bc it's leaving me with such a nasty mood afterwards. every time without fail

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ikol-art · 19 days ago

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Got 3 more tattoos the other day, I'll post them when they've had touchups and have healed again but this time I got the paw print of my doggie that died recently, some soot sprites and the blue spirit mask and white lotus tile

#my arm was bleeding like mad?? both me and my tattoo artist were confused because all other tattoos were fine #but that does mean she couldn't see which parts she'd properly shaded anymore so touchups will happen #anyways now Ive got my own big 3 fandoms on me #atla merlin and loki being the things that have kept me alive for over a decade #soot sprites is more recent but still very fitting (thinking of the ghibli theme where you always leave something behind and cant go back)#now Ive got one more planned with the flowers we reveived when my dad died and I want to add pikmin to that because both me and my dad #played that (my brother too)#but drawing those flowers is still to hard so it'll have to wait #I also kinda want a yugioh tattoo and a moth and maybe some more original art #(and an arcane tattoo but forcing myself to wait a year before I put new fandoms on my body)

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skunkes · 9 months ago

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denying so hard that there's a disconnect between what im learning within art, and other skills needed but it's undeniable that like. ill draw anatomy studies and faces all day but when i try to Make Something Else, Something Real, it's like all the information leaves me....

i always joke that ill be stuck on the foundations and fundamentals of art forever but it seems like its real because mechanical skill and comprehension of Structure is very much a different thing than. being able to connect a head and body in a streamlined way. good stylization. informed stylization. creativity. knowledge of composition, color and what makes a piece work.

i keep trying to make things and realize i still need more time in the fundamentals. more and more and its never enough....and then i forget em constantly !

#talkys #ill just keep filling pages and pretending its doing anything #as if ill ever draw more than just. floating head. figure standing. floading head. figure standing #i dont understand how people gain knowledge cumulatively #just because I can draw talon's face doesnt mean i wouldnt need another 3 years to master another character enough to draw them well #ive drawn al for over a decade i already need to relearn to draw him #information leaves me and doesnt seem to transfer. every new thing needs 5 years dedicated to learning it to draw it well.#and then the knowledge leaves as soon as i have to switch subjects.#because every single subject is a different and unique challenge #i dont knowwwwww #so sad...i mean people have not gotten what they want for years and years but so sad that this isnt what i was meant to do #that ill never make work that is the work id like to make...! never beautiful illustrations...never fun sequential art...alas. alas #wrong body wrong brain #im glad other ppl enjoy my work and i recognize that but i want to like it too.....!

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kame56u · 1 year ago

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