#ive missed them alll

[letsgoooellie]

[alex-just-vibing]

i need him in a way that is concerning to feminism

[anonymoosen]

hi! I'm bored and so I was wondering to drop this in your inbox!--

who r your favorite tumblr artists, both activated and deactivated? also good job on reaching 102 followers in like what- 5 months??? congrats!!! (I wish I was like u I've I've trying so hard and I only got like 20+ and its been a whole fucking year ANYWAY-)

AHHHDHEJD YOU RLLY DESERVE MORE FOLLOWERS, YKNOW!!

ANYWAY- I HAVE SOOOO MANY FAVOURITE ARTISTS ARE CUZ THEYRE ALL SO FRIGGIN AMAZINGGG AHHHHH- IM JUST GONNA LIST DOWN LIKE 10 OR SOMETHING- (not ranked by order, I’m just listing them down hehe-)

@circusfreakk @rainybow8231 @laazytoaster @bonniecupcake @theautumnalcat @mushy-madness @merchuu @aceisew @ditzdove @porcelainfreak-zacrucian @strawowoberry @spaceboibrainrot @ghoul-ish-art @vinililacart @ematooney @reynaruina @nohemi650

THERE ARE LITERALLY SO MANY MORE BUT THE LIST WLD GO ON FOR ALMOST FOREVER IF I LIST ALLL OF THEM

AND SOME OF THEM ARENT MY MUTUALS AND IM SCARED OF RANDOMLY TAGGING THEM BUT AT THE SAME TIME I WANT MORE PPL TO KNOW ABOUT THEIR BLOGS SO IM GONNA LIST SOME NAMES-

@inimoose @moringmark @shandzii @bamsara @cosmicriff @l-ii-zz @emositecc @pichichustudios

THEIR BLOGS ARE THE ONES IVE BEEN STALKING (OTHER THAN MUSHY, REYNARUINA, BONNIE AND STRAWOWOBERRYS BLOGS) WAYYYY BEFORE I EVEN HAD AN ACCOUNT AND I LOVE THEIR ART SO FRIGGIN MUCH EVEN IF ITS NOT ART ABOUT THE FANDOMS IM IN

(THEY DONT KNOW MY EXISTENCE AND IM TOO SHY TO TALK TO THEM SINCE MOST ARE IN DIFF FANDOMS NOW AHHH)

AND LASTLY THIS VERY VERYYYY SPECIAL PERSON WHOS MY BESTEST FRIEND EVER IS DEFINITELY ONE OF THE MOST TALENTED ARTISTS IN THE MULTIVERSE AND I ADORE HER SO FRIGGIN MUCH THAT I MADE HER BDAY GIFT ART FOR ME MY PHONE WALLPAPER:

@peachiedookie-deactivated202402

SHE DEACTIVATED HER ACCOUNT BUT HER ART CAN STILL BE SEEN IF U SEARCH FOR THE TAG #PEACHIEDOOKIE ON MY BLOG

ANYWAYYY- I THINK I MISSED SOME EXTREMELY IMPORTANT NAMES WAAAHHHHHHJDJEJDEJ

(IMPORTANT MENTIONS: @ijustlikeiz @electronicribbonfashion @zims-left-antenna FOR BEING AMAZIM MUTUALSSS!! I ADORE THEM AND THEYRE MY ZIMPAIS TOO)

AGAIN THANK YOU TO THE 102 FOLLOWERS I HAVE (WHO ARENT BOTS LOL) FOR FOLLOWING ME!! AND THANK YOU TO THE ZIMPAIS IVE LISTED DOWN FOR INSPIRING ME SO FRIGGIN MUCH!!

[rayroseu]

I GOTTA LET THIS OUT OF MY FRANTIC MIND RN OR I'LL DETONATE FR

!! major spoilers for book 7 part 3 !!

i couldnt watch the entirety of the stream because it got released during my class D: ALSO BIG WARNING THAT THIS IS ALL OVER THE PLACE AKDJSK i just want to ramble💥

BUT from what i got--- ? The beginning was Idia's dream most likely and ofc, its the dream he wishes were real... where Ortho's alive-- 😭😭

I missed the following part after that but it seems Malleus was invited to the orientation AT LAST??!?!?!?!! I'm presuming that no matter what dream a person is having while asleep, Malleus is a part of it where he isn't excluded and feared???

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Its well known now that Book 7 will heavily imply familial messages and from what we seen with Shroud Family so far, is that they were very communicative and supportive of each other in the loving way possible.

I assumed they were strict and cold parents before but I'm glad its wrong, cuz this is such a nice twist 💕 their dynamic reminds me of disney Hera and Zeus affection on Hercules--- I wonder if theyre showcasing this as parallel of Diasomnia's??? So far in canon, most of them rarely talk about much they actually mean w each other or even being wholesome like the Shrouds were lol But still... its undeniable theyre family as wellll 🙏

Seems like the groovy nowadays are more 'wholesome'??? i wonder if theyre taking their whole message that "every villain isnt just purely a villain/evil" more strongly now-- 👀 idk if that will correlate w book 7 but i hope they (the devs) take time to finalize it since the impact of this overblot is so severe even I cant predict how they can mend this KAJSKAK

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I really have to watch Mickey Through the looking glass, the references are killing me--

ALSO YESSS HIGH FIVE WITH MICKEYY AAAA 🥺💕💕 IM SO glad Yuu remembers what happened!!! IVE BEEN HOPING FOR THAT, that they got to have a big role for this book!!😭😭 Thank you TWST for hearing Yuu stans collective wishes--

this is actually Mickey's Dream... The date seems to be flipped and many theorized its flipped number 15, which is Silver's Birthdate-- 👀 idk what that means and why on Mickey's place?? and beside the mirror as well💥

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you know that GIF of Charlotte (Princess and the Frog) squealing with a newspaper??? THATS MEEEE--- AAAA SILYUUU FEAST!! SILYUU FEAST!!!! SILYUU NATION SO BLESSEDDD😭💖💖💖💖

when he says hold on tight while the surroundings crumbles down and we're about to get swallowed by ink blots, it is so!!!!! *delusional mind* SO ROMANTIC OF HIMMM 😭💖💕😭💖💕omg,,,, what a shoujo moment, we are winning everyone 👍🤲💕🤌✨🙌🙌

ALSO UNIQUE MAGIC REVEAL HOOYAAAHH🙌🙌

also his magic is so complicated 😭😭 theres A LOT of conditions to be met before it can even be used--

i wonder if thats similar to how Ortho said that for Mickey to appear in the mirror (at book part 1 where the first years are at the cafeteria) , certain conditions should be met??? I mean, Silver And yuu have some parallels already... esp the fact that Lilia says during when yuu felt unwell at the party, he stated its similar to Silvers face when hes about to fall asleep--

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Afterwards is Sebek's dream..... we alll collectively sobbed at this part of the livestream HNGGGG sebek why would ur dream be like that-- IT HURTS SO MUCH 😭😭😭

Malleus accepting his graduation(?) from NRC with no qualms, Lilia graduating as well and leaving for Red Dragon Nation because of his internship and not his weakening magic...🥺💔💔

Sebek's reaction at Malleus overblotting was the most relatable one (fear and disbelief) over others and his dream was the mirror to what we(the fandom) wouldve wished what happened-- IM SOBBING WHY U DO THIS SEBEK AIDUHFJEUFN!!!😭😭😭💥💔

DONT EVEN. GET ME STARTED. ON HOW DOTING LILIA WAS TO SILVER..!!!! like wthhksjdj THATS SO EVIL TWST!!! THATS SO LETHAL MALLEUS OHMYGOD--- so evil to use everything silver wanted from lilia just for him to stay in this dream where::

-lilias healthy, lilia is staying w silver, lilia is caring to him, and how hes returning to briar valley to live with him forever??? BRO HOW MANY TEARS WERE SHEDDING TONIGHT HUH...--💔💔💔😭😭😭

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MALLEUS IS SO MAD WE WOKE UP SEBEK OHMYGOODNESS 💥💥💥😭😭😭

I always love his voice, it seems his tone is so harsh and cold now when he overblotted its so sexy--- and at the same time terrifyingggg 👍🛐 Kazuki Kato, I love his performance in this, this is so haunting in the most agonizing way 😭💚💚

... NOT TSUNOTAROU GOING FULL BOARD ON THE DELUSIONAL LAND BESTIE I KNEW YOU WERE BAD BUT THIS IS ON A WHOLE NEW TIER OF BADNESS OORAUGJ😟💥💥

HIS ATTACKS ARE SO COOL AAAAAA I WAS AMAZED AND SCARED THE WHOLE TIME I CANT WAIT TO MEET HIM ON TWST EN OMGGG😩🙏🙏

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byeee i never wrote a reaction post as long as this before KDJKAKD

theyre really dropping the obvious hints that crowley is a fae alright....⁉️⁉️👀👀

THE ALL AWAITED GENERAL VANROUGE REVEALLL!!!!!! im just.... oh... have we all PROPERLY look at him??? RIGHT NOW IM STILLLL SAVORING ALL THOSE DETAILS!!! MY GOODNESS---

i basically sped read allllll the musings twst twt and tumblr have been swooning about him and OH HE DESERVES ALL THE ADMIRATION 🙏🙏🙏ESPECIALLY HIS MAGIC AT HIS ENTRANCE!!!!!! ARE U KIDDING THAT WAS SO BEAUTIFULLL THE BATS SWAYING AND THE RED SPARKLES BEFORE HE TELEPORTED?????? SHIT I WOULDVE PASSED OUT FROM AMAZEMENT RIGHT THEN AND THERE-- BEGGING ON MY KNEES TO GET THAT ANIMATED 😩😩😩🙏🙏

AND IT ALL ENDED JUST LIKE THAT AAAIUSIAUSU!!!!! 😩😩😩 I WANT MORE BUT AAAA too much information will make me overload now akdjksd another long few more months before part 4 releases 😳😳 AND OOO I CANNOT WAITTT

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my prediction is that theyre delving more into briar valleys history in the lens of Lilia's past.

My interpretation is that Lilia's dream related to his past is bcs he kind of whispered to himself that the reason hes leaving is because of his weakening state and how he doesnt want to wish anyone to see him like that.... I guess his wish was that he could be as strong as he was before... Really reminds me of Mulan's father 😭

IM WISHING DESPERATELY FOR MORE YUU RELATION NEXT PART AND THIS TWITTER THREAD SUMS UP ALL MY SPECULATIONS AS TO WHY YUU ISNT INVOLVED IN THE DREAMS WE HAVE SO FAR

"malleyuu divorce" is my fave phrase from op from now on lol

livestream of book 7 part 3

[pumpkinsy0]

hcs for ponyboy experiencing a lot of dread and worry leading up to his birthday because he's not ready to be older and is feeling some pressure of having to start living his life? i could see this happening on his 15th after everything that happened with johnny and dally (since he kind of stopped living for a bit after that) but any birthday is good! (this is totally not related to the fact that my birthday is in a few days and im feeling a bit of pressure to make sure this year is going to be filled with all the teenage experiences ive missed so far in my life whoopsies)

understandable reaction from both u and pony honestly, but i truly do hope u have a good bday!! u deserve it, but dont rush life!!! the beauty of it is that its different for everyone, thats y we arent all a hive mind!!!!plus, theres no age limit to things u can do<333

• I TOTALLY SEE WYM HERE AND I AGREE IVE ALWAYS THOUGHT THE SAME!!! howeeevverrrrrr i must say that instead of his 15th bday, these r the emotions he would more so feel when hes in his late teens!! like 17-19ish, im leaning more towards 19 however bc johnny was 16 when he died, on ponys 17th bday, he could also feel this way

•i say 19 bc hes gonna b turning 20, the same age as darry was when all that bs happened, and he’d compare himself to darry a shit ton, he’ll kinda see himself as a failure if he cant push himself the way darry did

•while he feels like he has to start his life, he feels like he also missed out on a good portion of it BC of what happened, he feels like he missed out on his teens bc he didnt fully heal from what happened and instead grew up wayyy faster than he shouldve

•ONNNN TOPPPP OF ALL THAT, he feels like he has to live for johnny, dally???? ehhhhhhhh w all due respect, to a bit of a lesser extent

•ik hes haunted by that whole “stay gold” thing too, “how am i supposed to grow up and cope w this in a few days and stay true to myself while doing so” type deal”

•two and sodas jokes about him getting older make him sick to his god damn STOMACCCHHHH, darrys seen pony laugh and then quickly have the look of a soldier back from war and he knows that look bc he has it every damn birthday😭

•darry knows EXACTLY how ponys feeling and hes not the best w emotions so he tries helping how he can, and unfortunately for pony, this means having a talk w darry which is soooo awkward, but it makes him feel less alone

•i could definitely see pony accidentally (age????) regressing, maybe he doesnt notice it at first, but the gang sure do, he starts doing things he hasn’t done in literal years and its bc to him, its simple!!! as soon as he realizes he beats himself up for it and thinks its SO stupid and pushes ts to the farthest part of his brain

•pony doesnt want a huge celebration, so it doesnt feel AS in his face, but i dont think he would fully voice this as a WANT, more like a suggestion, which to b fair, the gang isnt going ALLL out but its still not as lowkey pony would like, however he appreciated them taking it down a few pegs

•on his birthday, funnily enough, i dont think he’d feel that emotional, hes just thinking “hm,,,”

[fentdoll]

hope you had a good new years ♡

thnk u sweetheart! i didnt rly at alll lol but i guess its a good start of th new yr :3 i lost frnds tht js werent meant 2 b in my life but th frnds tht were meant 2 b in m life are.. ૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა

life goes on nd i think stuff feels bettr whn u accept tht, lolzies!!

not 2 get 2 much into th details but those ppl were poisoninf m, makinf m worse nd talkinf bad abt m loved ones,, i think m bettr off withou5 thm anyways!! i feel happier,, im more bored but somethinf i didnt notice ws thm makinf me miserable. moreso thanbbefore lolll

it might sound lik m tryinf 2 convincd myself tht m alright,, nd tht might b th truth But! 2 things can b true at once... they were awful 4 m and i still miss them, but m happier nw :3 thts undeniable!

recently ive bn watchinf 'th godfather' nd obsessinf over al pacino!! evrythinf i learn abt him makes m love him evn more!!! i hav 3 big posters of him n m room,, theyr from 'scarface'.. 'th godfather' is m comfort movie, along w 'スハマソウ' i lov thm.... ૮𐔌っ˕ -｡꒱ྀི𑁬

m room is vry messy lollz,,, ive js bn rottinf n m room.. after findinf out i got cheatd on w a girl skinnier thn me ive been spiralinf, i was recoverinf but i cnt do tht anymore. on top of losinf m frnds. ive bn doinf rly bad, but its okie! im ok loll,, ive js put myself n a bubble 2 protect myself. m talkinf to m soulmate again, i know its bad 4 m but im vry dependant on him.. and it wasnt rlllyyy cheatinf,, he was leadinf me on whilst talkinf 2 other girls. but we're workinf on it mthinks.. ૮꒰◞ ˕ ◟ ྀི꒱ა

i lov lambs btw!! lollzies thts y m usinf those kaomojis sm :3

my mom hs been on a trip 2 m homeland... i rly miss her, i thnk shes cominf home tmrw or th day afterwards ໒꒰ྀི ◞ ‸ ◟ ꒱ྀིა

i hav a japanese frnd named 呉羽！we r exchanginf addresses so we cn give each othr candy c: m vry excited!!

goodbye angels,, i lovw uu ♡

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　 ╭◜◝ ͡ ʿʿ 𝜗𝜚 ˒　　　　　　

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　　し'し'　l ﾉ ໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა

[cuntyko]

alll righty on to the met gala looks that did the job... and did it correctly in no particular order ofc cause I don't have time to do rankings or anything... plus I would add zendayas look but I feel like everyone has seen both of them everywhere but yea she did the damn thing.

Taylor russell for Loewe

this is like renaissance art... Loewe? more like Louvre. like absolutely sickening

Erykah Badu for Comme Des Garçons

duh... ok at first I didn't like it with the theme.. but then I thought about it and like sure its not giving fairytale princess but that's not Badu so her wearing something from rei a more avant grade designer is like her way of fitting with the theme so I appreciate that... plus I really like the look

Teyana Taylor for The Blonds

YES! YES! YES!!! like her cavaliers benchwarmer ex husband had to admit she looked drop dead gorgoussss no other words. im not familiar designer but it doesn't matter in fact kudos to her that's dope.

Chloe sevigny for Dilara Findikoglu

she ate the theme down that's all I gotta say... this is what I expected to see more of like STANDARD

Sienna miller for Chloe

I love this I feel like it gives woodland fairy it totally encompasses her boho vibe its not that out there which is why I kinda struggled to where I liked it for like any red carpet atmosphere or if it actually fit the theme but again I do feel like its true to Sienna miller's style so ill give it to her.

precious lee for Bad Binch TongTong

again not familiar with this designer but come on do you see those wings the crystal details WOW just wow

Mona Patel for Iris van Herpan

gagged... fav look of the night period... idc idc and the arm pieces moved... STOP just stop

Dove Cameron for Diesel

yes... I saw how she her and her team came to putting this look together on vogue and I just loved how she described it I couldn't have said it better so im not gonna try. but this is again one of those looks where I was like yes read the invite and followed it to a T

Harris Reed for Harris Reed

again renaissance art... sculptural gorgeous both of these looks by Harris reed actually

Demi Moore for Cartier and Harris Reed

giving queen of hearts... yes I love the silhouette

Queen Latifah and Eboni Nichols for Thom Browne

I really don't have much to say about this one I just rlly like it its just soooooo Queen Latifah so yesss auntie you betta work

Eliza Gonzalez rivera for Del Core and Cartier

this dress literally looks like a flower petal and its just sooooo pretty.. I couldn't not say anything

Amelia Gray for Undercover and Messika

I really really like this look... I like how out there it is ... I think its like wicked step sister in a Tim Burton movie I think its really cute idk

Laufey for Atelier Prabal Gurung

pretty sure the theme was like sleeping beauty something something and this dress is deadass giving aurora slay....

Ivy Getty for Conner Ives

in love with this look and I don't have much to say besides that... miss girl nailed it

Jodie Turner-Smith for Burberry and Chopard

absolutely gorgeous and I love the all white with the dark eye makeup and dark blue accents absolutely stunning

Nicki Minaj for Marni

this is so onika and I love it she's like the kitchy fairy godmother like this is how I imagine her in the beginning of my beautiful dark twisted fantasy

Barry Keoghan for Burberry

ok victorian slayyyy and I love the brown velvet and the silver details yess.

Jessica Biel for Ralph and Cartier

again... aurora slay its really about the color and the hair with this look for me... do I digggg the feathers? no but idk it works for the theme

Lana Del Rey for Alexander McQueen

YESSSSSS motherrrrr y'all should know by now I loveee me some Alexander McQueen baby and the lil rose touch... yes a lot of people where just throwing flowers on their looks just to "be on theme" but you can tell this is intentional it works here and she deadass is giving woodland storybook princess

lil nas x for Luar

I really like this look and the draping and the silhouette I think it looks very posh like a wedding cake topper... honestly one of my favorite looks from him... ever

Nelly korda for Oscar del la Renta

at first I thought maybe this dress was too busy and it made it look like a grandma dress HOWEVER I do kinda like how cooky and kitchy this looks maybe I would put the hair up but other than that I kinda diggg this look

Elle Fanning for Balmain and Cartier

Gorgeous regal wow and the shoulders they look like birds pulling cinderella dress up as she was getting ready or whatever... and I love how theres no necklace cause it totally wouldve distracted from this beautiful dress.

Aurora James for Ana Khouri

I diggg the drapery like Taylor Russell and the wood bodice and the wooden jewelry such a nice touch but this definitely is giving renaissance art

[ramonathinks]

hey bae 🫶 thanks for reading my drabble, i was kinda nervy abt it omg but what kinda food does chicago have that i should try? anything that doesnt contain pork/bacon 🧍🏾‍♀️last time i left the country was in 2017 to turkey during the summer time w my friends. i miss the vibes 😭 ireland is super chill tbh, the last time ive been to the caribbeans was in 2009, maybe it has changed but its so lovely there, i recommend 100% to go 🫶

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hi hi hi bae! idk why you were so nervousss, it was really good!!! like i really enjoyed it a lot. feel free to send me anythingggg

chicago is very diverse and a lot of people say it’s has the best food everrr (it does). none of these are like sit down restaurants but harold’s chicken, sharks (another chicken place), there’s this place called jamison that sells a lot of soul food (greens, baked mac and cheese, cornbread, jerked turkey legs, etc), giordano’s (famous pizza place but i don’t really like that as much😭), i don’t think this is only a chicago place but portillossss love them. ALLL of these and probably more than im blanking on is just the best when you’re looking for a quick meal but also a GOOD quick meal that you could probably eat in the car.

i am trying to get going to other actual restaurants but for the past few years, i legit come to chicago for max 3 days (and lately not even 24 hours) and then i dip!

i wouldddd go but i am deathly afraid of highs so being on an airplane freaks me out so bad that i never been on one. any other state i’ve been to has been thru bus, train or car 😭. i’m really trying to get rid of this fear but it gets worse literally every day and idk why.

[starsomens]

MISS STAR! MAAM ! WHAT YOU MEAN EXPERIANCE ??? STAR!

AAAAAAHHHH IVE BEEN CAUGHT

ALLL I CAN SAY TO DEFEND MYSELF

One learns from experience, no that does not mean my experiences were all good but now I know what i REALLY want in them and channel it through my work

[gigsandshiggles]

i'm sick of missing out on the fic

off to read dupclity wish me luck !

doing a cheeky read after thingy bc i know i ramble and i like making fun of things

first thought: it's hella 2014 wattpad despite being written in 2020, plus i find the age thingy weird

"i don't get mad … i get evil" like calm down alpha male, i think i may die of cringe before this fic ends

maybe i just find it cringe but why they like being grim, they just alll give me the ick and the writing is lowkey boring :0

"i don't like when girls roll their eyes , unless i want them to do it for me" the cackle i cacked. i know for a fact the probaly fourteen year old who wrote it thought they were the shit for this

"welcome to modern day mafia baby" is the worst line ive ever read but i fear im too invested in this shit

nah not my name being in this shit, tell you what that was a fu king jumpscare. watch me either be dead or leader of those fuckers who are after him

"god can't help you now" i'm lit crying with laughter idk how people take things like this srs

bros singing hallelujah … what is this? y/ns fight song?

in on chapter eighty something and they got married😬 after a month of knowing each other 😬 i thought we was on month seven or something but no it's literally still the first month

[thanatos-nightshade]

Can i just say how much i love @yankasmiles so much and will always love buying from them??? Everything is so cute and gorgeous and im just so much in love. Cant wait to SLAP MORE STICKERS ON MY LAPTOP!!!! AND MORE ART ON MY WAAALLLSSS!!!!!

[vas-happenin-team]

i really miss having a ride or die best friend tbh

[cleostoohot]

OOKAYYYY

im sure u get a lot of anons asking why they dont have results, blah blah blah. as someone who recently uncovered my root problems heres some advice. imma continue to to roex3dol even if the 3d doesnt show results (which it eventually will) imma continue affirming after 3 days.

HERE IS HOW TO COMBAT THE INSECURITY:

as im sure you have all heard before, dont stress the results will show up in the 3d if you keep affirming.

THE BIGGEST INSECURITY that will get in your way is "what if...." or imagining yourself after 3 days not having your desire or really seeing your future self not with ur desires. If you fall into any of these categories or something similar, catch yourself and start affirming that it has absolutely zero choice but to work. when you imagine yourself failing you are creating that room for failure, you cant believe two polar opposite concepts at once. IT IS POSSIBLE TO BELIEVE IN THE ONE YOU WANT!

ive known abt manifesting (attraction) since aug 2020, i found solar subs and law of assumption in jan 2021, in around aug 2021 i found neville and loa tumblr, in nov 2021 i started manifesting small things. now i still have manifested small things but not my dream life it hasnt appeared in the 3d. thats my experience. ive fumbled AAAAALLOOOTT. i was gonna write this on my blog but after almost two years of experience ill quickly list my largest cause of failure.

WAVERING/NOT PERSISTINGl

one day i would try affirming for the void and after that didnt work i would do a challenge, and after that didnt work i did bkanket affirmations and after that didnt work i did sats and after that didnt work i would do meditations. i didnt think i was doing anything wrong, looking back im so frustrated with myself for wasting so much time. and if lets say i did void affirmations, blanket affirmations, meditations all in one manifesting routine if i missed one i would start over because i believed it wouldnt work despite reading otherwise. this is a new realization, im not even sure i have a total grasp on my mistakes now, but imma keep persisting.

how im going to fix this: i have 1 thing i will do daily which is affirming. i have 2 affirmations i will always use "roe i have all my desires" "roe i manifest in 3dol" even after 3 days imma keep affirming. im working towards holding the assumption that it has no choice but to appear in the 3d. even just yesterday i was abt to quit "maybe i should just be okay with what i have now and revise___" NOPE. im working towards my dream life so i wont stop. just because im getting some material items in my 3d doesnt mean i should be good with what i have now. i will wake up in my dream house and blah blah blah other dream things. my tendency to do that is most likely bc im scared i wont manifest my dream life. I WILL, YOU WILL, WE ALLL WILL!!!! stick with your decisions, dont be afraid of time passing, that will hold you back.

i said this earlier i was gonna write this on my own blog but i feel more ppl would see it here. i hope that previous example i said about switching to void, to med, to affirmations really sticks with someone because that realization was key.

if you dont have what you want in the 3d after 3 days, GENUINELY address your beliefs. when blogs suggested to address your limiting beliefs, i never would bc i thought i was doing everything perfectly. BUT IM SERRRIOUUUSSSS address them. heres cleos post abt somethings that may be holding you back that was my catalyst fr to address what i was doing wrong, even if my exact problem wasnt listed there.

TYYYY CLEOOOOOOOO ill continue affirming!!!! sorry for typing mistakes i manifested a laptop but ive only used tumblr on mobile.

tysmmm for this luv💗💗💗 you should put it on ur blog too

[vipgnf]

DO IT LIKE I WOULD | SAPNAP

warnings; cyber sex, masturbation, fem reader, slight degradation, daddy tittles, dom sapnap, sub reader, 18+ minors dni !! lmk if i missed anything :)

words; 636

discord rang on your phone, sapnap picked up almost instantly. he was in bed, hair slightly messy and face flushed all different shades of red, From blush to crimson, "listen to what I say. follow my instruction" he placed his phone against something against his night stand, moving into a position almost identical to yours.

"remove your clothing, but leave your panties on" you followed his order, eagar to get some sort pleasure. "trace up and down your thigh with your fingertips, slowly and lightly. start right at the top, next to your pussy. glide all the way down until you're just above your knee. repeat that a couple times"

you obeyed, watching him adjust the angle of his phone. his shirt had slightly ridden up his torso, his boxers pooled around his ankles and his face was now completely out of frame.

"now stop” he grunted out, “move your hand to the other side. i want you to start above your knee this time. slowly move your hand closer to your pussy. do the same thing over your panties, start at the bottom and slowly move your way up. pretend i'm there. do it like i would"

your head sunk into your pillow as you pretended sapnap was here right now. imaging his arms hooked around your thighs, his thumb moving so quickly right where it feels best, "please sap.. i need it" you closed you eyes, pressing down a little harder, speeding up a little.

"come on baby, beg for it. beg to touch yourself without the piece of fabric in the way. sluts don't get when they ask. they beg and the way i see it you're a slut. so you'll beg" he groaned, his breath hitched and became heavier. the hand around his cock sped up.

"sap.. I want to touch myself so badly, ive been so good.. thinking of you while I do it as well. wishing you were here with me. alll the sluty noises I can make, thinking of you in between my legs, your fingers instead of mine.."

he closed his eyes, throwing as head back further if even possible. "take them off, rub your clit and imagine i'm there. do it like i would" he repeated.

‘do it like i would’ you scrambled to quickly remove the pesky peace of fabric that lie between you and pleasure.

you sighed in relief, finally getting the pleasure you had been so desperate for all week.

you opened your eye to study sapnap while quickening the pace of my fingers, just like sapnap would. his hair had slightly fallen over his face, although yoy could see that his eyes were still screwed shut, his lips were slightly parted letting out the sweetest groans.

“sap.. please.. i’m so close. can i please cum? i’ve been so good !!” you begged screwing your eyes closed, beats of sweat accumulated on your forehead and your fingers sped up if even possible.

“fuck.. me too. fuck, i wish i was fucking into you right now instead of my hand.. fill you up nice and good hm..? wanna be a good girl and cum for daddy?” he mused

that sent you over the edge into pure bliss, by the time you’d recovered from your orgasm and opene your eyes sapnap let out a throaty moan and white beads of cum dotted his stomach.

he laid there for a second before grabbing his phone to look at you, “fuck.. i honestly can’t wait until i can see you again. mhm i wanna fuck you so badly, instead of this over the phone shit” he sighed

you giggled, drifting off to sleep as you watched him clean himself off. way to tired to clean yourself up.

“goodnight baby” the last thing you heard before you were completely out.

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TYSM FOR READING IF YOU GOT THIS FAR !! :] sorry my writing is a little rusty its been awhile! but request are open sooo.. request!

[vigilantaes]

name:   andy

pronouns:  she / he / they. whatever vibes i give u

preference  of  communication:  discord but i'm slow and busy to reply LOL my bad. its the adhd

name  of  most  active muse(s):   cass! im probably moving my wonder woman to a sideblog here tho cuz i miss her. also looking into another character to go w/ scoob's sandra... stay tuned.

experience/how  long  (months/years?):  like my whole ass life.... i think i literally started rping on wizard101. tumblr wise tho i belieevveee 2015ish? give or take

platforms  you’ve  used:  besdies online mmo games, i started more serious literary rp on devi.antart. got on tumblr a few years later and thats my fave to this day. not a fan of discord rp

best  experience:  man there were so many... obligatory best experience being meeting my fiance on here or whatever. imma be honest i wouldnt have mentioned this if kat didnt also almost forget and put it on her's GEHSUIEGSJKHDG but my best muses were probably when me and her were writing shin.obu and ka.nae from demon slayer. still am obsessed w/ those portrayals. probably my peak. had an insanely popular tsu.yu from b.nha blog that was also a fun time mostly

rp  pet  peeves  /  dealbreakers:  uhhh don't treat our rp stuff like we're in a dedicated 8 year long relationship or something because i do not take this website seriously whatsoever. also dupes who take out their dupe anxiety on/around me is the worst thing ever... especially bc i love dupes so so bad but ive had a long string of them starting shit w/ my friends just cuz they were jealous of something. we're alll just a bunch of nerds writing collaborative fanfiction its not that deep.

fluff,  angst,  or  smut:  i like all three! preference for fluff and angst but i'll plot out smut. never really wrote much of it myself but i'm open to that depending on the occasion. if i had to choose one i guess angst cuz im the best at writing that but i get bored of just one thing all the time.

plots  or  memes:  memes because my attention span is garbage and im sadly too busy to full on plot with people. i do loooovee plots but its also kinda difficult since it has a lot to do with if you and the other person vibe or not u_u would love to plot more tho

long  or  short  replies: i'll be honest. i love long so bad but it takes forever to write so i prefer like 70% short stuff and 30% long stuff. i don't like dialogue for more than goofing around. short for me is like 2-4 paragraphs and long is 5+, for reference.

best  time  to  write:  when my mentally ill brain allows me to focus/fixate long enough to do so AND im not being bombarded w/ ppl needing my help or job stuff. the woes of being a techy...

are  you  like  your  muse(s): in a few ways (like aesthetic) but not really, i've had other characters that i act way more like in the past. love her so bad tho she's definitely one of my fave character types to write even if i dont act much ilke her

tagged by @leopardblow ♥ ♥ ♥ tagging whoever hasn't done it! idk i haven't been on LOL

[missjackil]

My 15x18 Opinion

`*WARNING: This review is by far more critical of the show, writers, and actors than I have been before. Enter at your own risk*

Despair

Well the name definitely fits! Where do I begin? 

Okay not gonna lie, Im LIVID!! Thsi episode felt like a punch in the gut! I have said many times that the show ending, to me, will feel like someone Ive loved with all my heart for years is dying. Well in a matter of one episode, that changed to it feeling like someone Ive loved with all  my heart for years, is dumping me via text message, telling me he’s banging my sister! It still hurts, it crushes my very soul but for the wrong reasons.

Im gonna hit the big smelly elephant in the room first and ask WTF were they thinking??  Its not bad enough that Cas tells Dean he loves him, which thankfully Dean didnt return (he’s still straight guys!) but it was maybe the worst speech Ive heard on the show! Nothing he said would make anyone happy, so that was bullshit. “You’re the most selfess loving person Ive ever known” Oh yeah Cas? Did you forget Sam? It appears you did. And this is NOT me dumping on Dean at all, Im just gonna state facts. Who has been the most kind, forgiving, loving person TO Cas? Even after Mary died and Dean was blaming Cas (”You’re dead to me!”) Sam was there to say “It wasn’t just Cas” and kept texting him to make sure he was okay. And honestly is Dean MORE selfless than Sam? I dont think so. Sure Dean gave up his childhood for Sam, I’ll give him that, but Sam gave up his adulthood for Dean, and they both gave up life for each other, and the world so, fuck that noise right in the face!

Now lets just rub some rocksalt in that wound and refrain from even giving Sam a meaningful scene with Cas even if he wasnt going to be there when he got Emptied. Jack got one, not Sam though. Thats bullshit!

Also fuck this Sam and Eilleen shit. Im not even confident she’s “gone” because she got sucked away with the others and we know Bobby at least still has another scene, and according to IMDB so does Donna and Charlie. So they may alll just come back. and even if we dont SEE Eileen maybe we just get super happy Sam now that his girlfriend is alive and whats that? Next week they find a DOG???? ARE YOU KIDDING ME????? Wait, thats not all, remember Cas still has some shit with Uriel to do, so dont even count his feathered ass gone yet either! 

The bloody handprint on Dean’s jacket....😣🤢🤮

The story itself this episode was realy bad too, too much back and forth, “is he dead or alive? Is she dying or not? Are we gonna open the God book or what? Did these peope die or just “go away” like Becky? Maybe this will all be answered before we’re done but still it was annoying and messy.

Were there any good parts you ask? Yes, I did like the bro hug. Not WHY we got a bro hug but it was nice and Sam gave a heart felt “be careful” to Dean and I liked Dean’s reasuring touch. I also like that Dean apologized to Sam for last week and as Sam was being all “Dean... you dont need to...” Dean reminded him “I pulled a gun on you” and Sam was looking like “Oh yeah.... theres that” letting us know Sam still felt it. That’s all, the rest sucked balls in the worst way.

The Walker promo airing during this felt weird, like Jared is cheating on SPN... or banging my sister... oh yeah, there’s that analogy again!

Let me say this y’all and then you can agree, disagree, block me, unfollow me, send me Asks or messages if you want, I wont bite, but if this show ends bad I think I’ll be most pissed at Jared, That’s right I said it. Why? Because J2 have been very open and vocal that Jared liked the ending right away but Jensen didnt. If Jared also had problems with the ending, they could have said “nope” and yes, they could have, they’re not simply puppets on a string that have to do whatever TPTB tell them to. They’re the most important part of the entire franchize, no one benefits by pissing them off. So Jensen didnt like the ending and went to Kripke to see what he thought and Kripke said he couldn’t have written a better one, but lets remember that Kripke left with Dean with a girl and a kid, and Sam alone. Are we getting Sam with a girl and a dog, and Dean alone? 

Im supposed to go to convention in July... I dont think I can bring myself to go if the end sucks. I want to be able to tell J2 I miss them, I dont want to be pissed they allowed a shitty ending to happen. 

For the first time I am no longer convinced they’ll have the guys go out together. Either by death or driving off into the sunset. I don’t know what to do with that and Im not Okay.

So on a scale of Bloodlines to Lebanon, I give Despair a 2. Im a little horrified I have to watch it again when my friend comes over to get caught up.