#ive had these done for so long that this is actually a redraw because i left the first set unposted for so long . oops lol

[g1ngerbeer]

clearing out my to-post list heres some qpp content

[skyland2703]

So what are we reading today? oh yes.

They're broadcasting the trial live to the ends of the galaxy. Gotta love that. This entire... concept where the entire galaxy is inter-connected and <333 and the fact that astronema has committed crimes agaisnt everyone dfhgbnfbds

One of my favorite panels EVER, i think. Should I do a redraw of this?? yes or yes?? also how is it that ive gotten an exact same haircut as her....

THEY!!!! YOUR HONOR!!!!!

i kinda wanna know who the prosecutor is and who the judges are. Are all monsters tried by this court? Would dark spectre? Or is this much like our own real legal systems where only the people like astronema, who reformed, and confessed because of conscience, are taken up for trial while the real actual murderers walk free because their crimes were either never uncovered or they have friends in high places.... :)

Another side theory, but what if, like Dekaranger, the SPD judgement scanners are a link into this court that are created later to cover the flaws of the system that I mentioned, so the criminals could be tried without having to wait for so long and/or have the risk of escape?

AND THEY DIDN'T NOTIFY ANDROS AND THE OTHERS THAT THEY WERE TAKING ASTRONEMA FOR TRIAL. i am very suspicious of this entire judicial system, yes.

Yes so now I’m reaaally curious about who the prosecutor is...

Also Leo's actor is a lawyer, i refuse to believe there is a profession more suited for this guy because OMG. CAN YOU SEE DEFENCE LAWYER!LEO???? i love him your honor~

Even commander Cruger's here wtf

This is the biggest touché I've ever seen. Legal dramas beloved

I THINK this was the smartest way to go with it. WE know that Astronema was guilty, we also know that Karone is reformed. But the Court isn't willing to believe that. It is ACTUALLY a bunch of aliens who have convinced themselves and everyone else that yes astronema is guilty. They did not inform her family/friends that they were taking her, they did NOT give her a defence lawyer, and in everyone's mind, she already IS guilty. So this trial is actually just a formality. If Andros hadn't played this little game, Karone was never walking away free. NOTHING Leo/Maya/Andros would've said in their testimony would've convinced them otherwise because they were vieing this through their own twisted kaleidoscope.

So yeah, this was really smart on Andros's part, because 1) he doesn't want to lose his sister, and 2) astronema and karone being "different people" was a point that was so hard to prove against an already biased judge and jury! SO making a physical replica of Astronema, so to prove that she was indeed different from Karone, as they had been pleading in court all this while was the only way to go about it!

Anyway SIBLING ANGSTTTTT

And i love how karone still feels guilty, because she knows she's done it all. She knows what all was going on inside her head and she HERSELF believes herself guilty. *PEAK ANGST*

Also i really like this panel <3

So yeah, basically my take is that Karone felt guilty, and I think this is what drives her to go for that self-redemption arc that Psycho-path had for her. I THINK this can be the trigger. Also i love ALLL THE ANDROS-KARONE ANGSTTTTTT like these two siblings (only in the comics) are the ones who are constantly at each other's throats, EVEN THOUGH THEY'RE JUST LOOKING OUT FOR EACH OTHER. They're handled really well and I can actually SEE the emotions they have for each other. It's better than in the show, tbh. I LOVE THEM YOUR HONOR.

And in closing, have a collection of 1) KARONE ANGSTY BBGIRL

Babygirl in guilt <3 (she was going to plead guilty. i know. you know. shhh)

And 2) MAYA/KARONE MOMENTS BELOVED

*hug her hug her plzzz hug herrrr*

[thebirdarts]

My 2023 Year in Art

Because of my sporadic drawing, I just picked 12 pieces of mine, spread out across this year, that i felt had an impact or shows an one on my overall artistic style, from the first time I've experimented with something, and when i solidified it.

i nerd out over my own drawing under the cut!

In chronological order, starting with my portrait of my first WOTR commander, Alaun.

Original Post!

Not only is this is representation of me getting into WOTR, its one of the first times i did smoother and softer shading, something i haven't really done since. Additional, i can easily see the line between the metals i rendered here and Cecio & Celia's more stylized metallic elements. I miss Alaun, he was ahead of his time as a good kc of mine. its a fairly big full piece, and one I'm still proud and fond of today!

Original Post!

Estinian! god i miss ffxiv... Here is the root of my bright idea to use pencil brushes for colored shading, to get a textured gradient, and i used it in the metallic golds. its also my biggest art post on this blog! it is a big & detailed piece, and seemed daunting at the time, but i just put in the time, and was rewarded for trying to make sense of the armor [i used my own dragoon as a model for how thing actually interacted & what was what] Im still stupidly proud of it. it was my second piece of FFXIV fanart, and the beginning of many more!

MURA! original post

Given this is about drawings that have impacted me, i think this one is an easy contender for the one that's done so the most. Drawing Mura reminded me how much i loved fashion & clothing, and drawing it! I've always has a tremendous amount of fun with her drawings, and it all started here!! Mura also was the first time i repeatedly used a colour pallet for a character, with her pinks and purples now ingrained into my mind!

Original Post

Out of all my drawings, Estinian and Mura are tied for how much ive drawn them, which Estinian has an advantage due to my large bank of FFXIV screenshots & my redraws thereof. This was great fun, not only for understanding the armor better, but having fun experimenting in colour pallets! something i can see has carried on into my non-literaly coloured Celia & Cecio drawings!

Mura<33 original post [has link to its original art]

My first head only drawing in a long time, and somewhere where i experimented with coloring, as well as the introduction of Muras netted and braided hairstyle! in fact, you can see the visible brush strokes as what would eventually be the stylized shading used in my more recent portraits! The shattered stained glass. looks cool as hell. and was my first time majorly experimenting with layer options, something that would become very common for me.

Mura again<3 original post

Look narrowing it down to three was hard, i drew her so much, she really re-inspired me to draw. Lighting<33 you can really see here the style i would use on Cecio, just using a pencil brush rather than a roller one. its a piece Im very proud of, and one day i will light everything as consistently as this

Miss Star-Sailer<33 original

Expanding the working with a limited color pallet from Mura, and once again rendering metals, this piece of my wol has a special place in my heart. just... her<33 She<33 her muted and dark colour pallet, her expression... i love this one<33

GEORGIE!!! original

my baby boy<33 Im finally drawing curls... and the brightly coloured iris & tiny white pupil may have become a thing of mine.

Celia<33 original

the limited colour pallet, the non literal colours, the sketch peeking through, the shading on both clothing and skin, the hair? this is like the payoff to all theses previous drawings. i used a different pencil brush, and goodbye 6b and hellooo procto pencil!!!!

Cecio<3 original

If the previous drawing was the payoff, this is one of the stages of refinement, taking the new stylized skin shading and applying it to a portrait where the face is the focus, and damn!! Cecio<3

original

A compositional outlier, this piece earned its place for me revising what has to be one of the most drawn compositions of mine - the eye. In many ways its the closing loop of a full circle, the brushstrokes exactly how i would shade with my pencil on paper, the lines and movements coming naturally to me, in an entirely different medium. the main difference is colour, while my pencil drawings were firmly grayscale and i resisted all attempts to get me to use colour, this is practically a sunset, using my knowledge of not just colour but layer filters to create bright and overly saturated variations. full circle, just add colour.

Original

And the final piece! a portrait of Cecio, showing off all i have developed, from the metallics, to the stylized shading, colour pallets, the use of filters for alternate versions, the hair, the face, the new brush!!! its not my last drawing of 2023, but its a fitting end.

- end note.

if you will permit me to get sappy, 2023 has been hell of a year, but damn if it hasn't been pointing upwards. in 2023 i came to understand i was disabled, and my whole life changed course. My art became not just a hobby or skill of mine, but will be my main source of income once i graduate. my existing friendships have strengthened, and so have my online ones, ive met so many new and awesome people. seeing everyone's tags, comments and reactions to my art has been amazing, and thank you all for that. i have seen so many amazing artists and writers who inspired me to better myself, and also to focus on what makes me unique.

2023 has been a hell of a year, but thanks in no small part to some of the most amazing people i've had the privilege of knowing, it been a damn good one.

its been tough, coming to realize your physically disabled and having to rewrite your life plan was hard. its been overall up, but there have been some spikes down. im aware, that every year i say i cant get happier, and then i do, i break though another barrier, reach another high.

im not saying that this year, because i know next year will be better, and the year after that, as i have the opportunity to steer my own life, it will improve in ways i cant even think of now.

Thank you, all.

[clutchpowers]

Sooooo... i wanted to stick this little rambly thing at the bottom of the redraw but it would have made it look UGLY so im doing this separately... just wanna talk about the whole thing and What Not.

TLDR: its been a slash positive ride thats been worth it to try "something new" every year and my favorite piece out of all of them is the 9th. also for the curious heres the comparison of the 5th anni piece to the recent one (2018 -> 2023)

anyway. personal post time.

oh where to begin *rocks on my rocking chair* i guess it would be with the 5th anniversary piece...at the time it had been a long while since i did lineless art and i thought it would be cool to try it again for that one so i did by redrawing an old piece from 2014... that was the first "finished piece" i made of Them. i think i even made it into a wallpaper for myself lmao. anyway after i posted it i was like "aw man i should draw something every year until the 10th" but i thought yeah right. im going to forget next year like the idiot i am. but i Some How managed to do one every year... th worms got me... i honestly didnt think id make it all the way to the 10th but i did!! AND WITHOUT MISSING A DAY EXCEPT FOR THE 7TH WHERE I WAS A WEEK LATE???? UNREAL especially when fun fact! every year i had no idea what i wanted to do! all i knew for sure is that i wanted each piece to be out of my comfot zone to push me to do something a little different. unfortunately the subjects tm where always the same so it feels a little. samey. but these are my celebratory posts I GET TO ONLY POST ABOUT THE OTP SUPER BLORBOS OF ALL TIME

the 6th anniversary was a redraw of that one scene. you know the one. the helicopter one. fucking hate that scene btw it actually causes me psychic damage i cant watch with the audio or ill scream. but it is my favorite scene of mine despite all the horrors it causes <3 and i wanted to redraw it as if it was a cartoon... like i had taken screencaps from the lcu cartoon in my head. i still remember the backgrounds being such a pain in the ass. honestly id like to go back and redo this one one day too or do something similar to the concept because its a fun one that i always saw done growing up and i wanted to try it myself.

for the 7th anniversary you can see the turn.. no more humans... return to lego... i was getting a little more confident in drawing them in the lego form so i did another redraw this time with the ending!! honestly i still like this one and how it looks even with how late it was but i wanted to test my confidence and do a real True and Finished piece with COLORED LINES and EVERYTHING!!!!! im glad i ended up taking the turn because for the LONGEST TIME i wanted to try and draw them as lego so bad because all i did was draw them as humans and its funny because now its the exact opposite. glad this piece was kinda the solidification in my head that yeah okay im a bit better at drawing the stylized lego toy now i can keep drawing them like this without feeling like im going to want to delete this in 2 weeks.

the 8th anniversary one is so weird. somewhere toward the beginning of the year it got into my head that i wanted to do a comic of them but time/school would have gotten in the way so i ended up opting for a page. another redraw of the ending scene which honestly out of all of them this is my least favorite one and its solely because its all so off. i def could have formated it better so the background shot doesnt take up the entire fucking page but then again im not a comic guy and this was my first time so the layout was bound to look HORRID but this is something id like to come back to ive had the idea of making like a genuine short comic about them since FOREVER and now that im a bit more experienced (lying) i would like to make one day!!!! just gotta stop getting caught up in my scripts!! and going in circles!! Because im obviously not a writer and i keep getting first-hand embarrassment from these!! but ill get over it one day lol.

OH THE 9TH ANNIVERSARY PIECE MY BELOVED. ONE OF MY FAVORITE PIECES ACTUALLY i love this stupid thing so much you have no idea.i know its re-using lineless but i just loved the idea of what it would look like lineless AND IT CAME OUT SO PERFECT I LOVE IT SO MUCH obv it needs a few touch-ups so the main issues dont stand out to me but god. i love this piece so much. idk what came out of me to make this but its so good ill never get over it. and the little lego them as a cake topper ITS JUST SO CUTE I DONT HAVE MUCH TO SAY OTHER THAN I LOVE THIS SO MUCH SORRY

finally. the 10th anniversary piece. oh my god. okay. i need everyone to understand this. i had woken up with this fucking Unbearable pounding headache that was trying to kill me. my body the entire day wanted me to stop and lie down, but last night i was already done with a good chunk of it and all i had to do that day was finish some lines and the coloring?? i literally don't remember all i remember is my body actively trying to shut down and force me to stop and sleep which i took a nap? didnt help. so i said fuck it im finishing this. i was. an entire goddamn corpse arched over my laptop. i was so delirious the entire time its a fucking miracle it even came out as good as it did but honestly. i still hate how it fucking looks. like you can TELL when i gave up (the shading) and it sticks out like a sore fucking thumb to me and it pisses me off because i knew i could have done so much better if i wasnt being stricken down by gods hand and his every attempt to get me to rest. idk like im generally proud ot it, with this one i wanted to go out with a bang tm so i tried to draw every important and relevant character instead of ALL of them like I was originally planning LMAO but ah well. maybe one day when im faster at drawing. this one i defiantly wanna go back and touch up but i everytime i open the file i can see 40 more things wrong with it and it drives me nuts. so ill just have to wait for when im ready. i guess.

can i just say though. the improvement is crazy. it always catches me off guard because tbh i uh. dont like my own art. im getting better at not fucking hating it because i can pinpoint everything wrong with it but whenever i see the side by sides it always surprises me. i always dont think im improving but then i see it and its like wow i really am getting better! i still suck at 3000 things but im getting better! and its overall just a nice thing to see after having drawn them for as long as i have... the power of the worms is strong and has ruined my brain...... speaking of i know ive said a few times that i fucking hate certain pieces, not just LCU related ones but almost anything i post, but if you love them and are able to look at them with a twinkle in your eye then thank you. genuinely. i honestly love looking over the tags of people exploding and saying nice things. it warms my cold little heart and im glad there are people out there that genuinely love some of the things what i do! even if its just fanart and its just their blorbo. thank you for sticking around even tho all i do is draw my otp super blorbos :'^) this game means the world to me and im glad like more than 2 people wanna spread it around.

to wrap back around to the anniversary stuff and speaking of big love to the people out there THE FREAKING EPIC ZINE i was just a small thing but it came out amazing even for how small it was thank you to the contributors and thank you to everyone whos downloaded it!! its still getting the occasional and i love getting the notif in my email about it. i love that there are still people out there who wanna see it and all the hard work everyone put into it to celebrate the games 10th just thank you again i really does mean alot to me ALSO IF YOU HAVENT CHECKED IT OUT PLEASE DO IT IS 100% WORK YOUR TIME AND ITS DIGITAL WITH PRINT AT HOME STICKERS AND YOU CAN KEEP IT AND LOOK AT IT FOREVER

uh to end this off....would I like to do this again..... I mean I kinda am? by that i mean ill do the big numbers (15, 20, 25, 30, 40, etc) till the day i freaking die!!!! but yeah no countdown stuff ever again!!!!! sorry :^( it was super fun to do though!!!! and im glad i did it that piece is the conclusion to the whole thing but that doesnt mean ill stop drawing them. duh. theyre my characters now! but heres to many more anniversaries and to hopefully another game! or to just see them again in any other lego media! or even better... a mischaracterized cameo in ninjago!

[goatlingsvent]

tl;dr goatlings bad, me sad :(

kris has had many years now to turn goatlings into a site more people would gladly pay for and spend time on, because they'd be able to see actual time and effort is being put into giving players a fun experience. instead she just sat on her ass for a decade just passively making money off of the creativity and hard work of her underpaid staff and her unpaid playerbase

what the fuck does she actually do on this site to justify calling this a full time job. what can we see in game that proves shes done anything but the absolute bare minimum? all of the "games" are rng snoozefests you click through a few times and are done with. battle grinding is barebones and horrendously boring for being the only real moneymaker on site. she is consistently late to practically every single deadline set for site updates. her forever anonymous coder seems to only be capable of writing a single line of code every 3 weeks because the site has largely not changed since the early 2010s + it sometimes takes YEARS to fix broken features like the training center. the majority of goats + items on site are not designed by her, nor does she do many redraws. so genuinely what the HELL does she bring to the table when she has let the site stagnate for nearly 10 years now, and other artists do all the heavy lifting with the creative work?

and oh my god i gasped irl seeing her say that since she doesnt make a living wage, she cant offer the same to others. hmm i dunno, then maybe DONT OPEN APPLICATIONS FOR POSITIONS YOU CLEARLY STATE YOU WONT FAIRLY COMPENSATE OTHERS FOR? if the financial state of the site really is that dire, then stop trying to push for as many new sets as frequently possible to give you and the artists a break. start setting aside money for coding updates people have been begging for, like actual arcade games to give them something to do on site. at this point though, it feels like she'd rather die than admit shes messed up and actually put effort into fixing things

my acc's over 10 years old and i stopped playing a little under 2 years ago, but i still check in to see if theres even a sliver of hope that things can change for the better. i really did love goatlings because the art/community aspect of it has always been my favorite part of it, but it feels like kris has largely coasted off of the goodwill of others forgiving the lack of updates for so long because its a small team. i dont even know what could kick goatlings back into gear at this point because you'd have to climb the mountain of 10+ years of doing almost nothing to make the site interesting and fun. i really dont know if you Can do anything at this point. ive made myself emo with this rant. anyway props to everyone grilling kris for those insulting artist rates. dont let your hard work and creativity be exploited for so little on a site that barely deserves it

🧱

[mintyvoid]

so i'm trying to do cringetober and am already butting against barriers on day fucking one.

i did find a solution- but i first want to ramble because i can't help myself and this is my blog so fuck it.

the first prompt is 'screenshot redrawn'. Picking something like that proved to be basically impossible. I have never really felt compelled to redraw a scene of a show/movie. I see artists do it all the time and i feel jealous that they get creative sparks like that. I think i've done it..twice? and ive been drawing for a long time lol.

And being told to 'choose a scene' of course introduces the constant anxiety i have. What is the 'right' scene? Do I go with one of the classics that a bunch of people have done before? Specially since I don't feel drawn or can think of any off the top of my head.

So my solution was this; I picked that last show/movie i watched. And chose the scene by random. By random I mean I let a random number generation pick the season, episode, and time stamp(since it was a show). Gave myself a bit of leeway with the timestamp to pick a more simple composition. The timestamp i got had like 3 characters and a full background and i can barely draw like one character these days so.

whether or not i will actually draw and somewhat finish the sketch/drawing is a whole nother story. And the solution might seem a bit overkill, but sometimes you need to do shit like this just to get started. I could see myself sitting being indecisive all month and longer lol.

[clockworkslick]

oh. its 10/16. so short summary before i talk about nothing for a bit too long: a year ago i came up with the idea to actually go through with taking one of my silly ideas and turning it into something that other people could read, so i started drafting the concept of providence, a webcomic i make and thats updating everyday. more talking under the whatever.

so ive always made little stories that i would run through in my head for like two or three months when i had mental downtime, and then move on to some other goofy idea. this is either a totally normal thing or im a freak, honestly i have no frame of reference for how other people act. anyways i was home from college last year and i had this idea for an rpg fantasy story, initially an idea for playing modded minecraft with some friends (god i wish that was a joke), but i started writing shit down in a google doc. i wrote out a handful generic slots for various fantasy classes: witch, dryad, ranger, knight, vampire(not a class but i dont give a fuck), blacksmith, etc. and then i named some of them. i finished naming and writing out plot nonsense in november and changed the name of the comic from "Drive-By" to "Liberty" to "Providence."

honestly i think that was the easy part because its totally non-commital. unfortunately after that i had to actually start making the pages. the original plan was to finish act one before may, which was an optimistic goal to say the least, but also maybe if i didnt have to do anything else it would have been totally possible. or if i was just faster in general. anyways i started drawing everything at the end of december and then didnt stop for 6 months. actually thats a lie, i started drawing pages and havent stopped since then, but what i meant is that i started uploading the comic in may. i had a backlog of about 75 pages and the art change just in that time was nuts. comparing act 2 art to act 1 is more nuts but im not about to redraw the 170 pages of a1 just so that its APPEALING and PALLETEABLE. i learned way more about web design from doing this comic than from my actual web design class. like insanely more. you have no idea how little that class helped me with anything aside from making friends through mutual hatred of being poorly taught.

sixo de mayo (may 6th) came and i started doing this thing for real, and its been so surreal having people actually talk to me about these guys that have been in my head for months. my sister recently asked if deacon was my self-insert, which is sort of true but only in the sense that we both have social issues and like to be dumb on sort-of-purpose, and then she told me that her favorite character was reagan. theres not really any deep meaning behind her telling me or that reagan is my favorite too, but its just so surreal to me that people can have a favorite, or any opinion, on these characters i obsess over.

alright i think im done for now, i just wanted to talk about the comic on its sort of birthday, and also the day that the gang got pulled into the story. i mentioned that vaguely in the story once already, but im cool with being more direct about it. ill probably go on another rant again about this sometime, maybe on sixo de mayo, but probably sooner because im obsessive and like to type. happy birthday comic, heres to a million more. or however many years it takes to make a 5 act story at a rate of like 200 pages in 10 months. hopefully that number will go up.

[dollofdeath]

art summaries for this year >w<

template by @/Taxkha

(I / II / III is a comm i haven't posted anywhere / IV / V / VI / VII/ VIII / IX / X / XI / XII)

template by @/sabattons

more stuff under the read more, because there's quite a few stuff i actually liked this year!

january

this was a comm for kiz, but i think it came out pretty bomb. any hypsters who are into projmoon/projmoon fans into hypmic pspspsps --

actually i think this was my first ever piece this year, so it's interesting to see how much i've improved in over the past couple of months!

also i did some comms between feb and may to help raise some money for my relatives in the philippines, but i don't think i should post the ones i really like since the project isn't complete yet. but i think they came out bomb too, trust me -- (the volo art in my art summary is one of these comms lol)

april

i just wanted to post these two together since they're a set LOL thank u arb for giving me flowers that aren't roses to associate with hifugen....

also here are the unblurred versions of this set lol

may

this is just one of my fave hifugen headcanons KJFSDJKJKF

gentaro about hifumi: 🙄😒😑 gentaro about hifumi, when hifumi's fangirls are around: *draping himself over hifumi* excuse me ladies, do you have any business with My man?

KJFSJKDFSJKJH

august

i think i went rly hard in august. august was really a turning point for me this year too i think, so maybe my art reflected that haha, but anyhow. i really love these

everyone and their mom has done a religious jakurai art, but i wanted to do one too... the detail i rly like is the blood on his hands. because i like to headcanon that jakurai has vitiligo on his hands. i like how i incorporated that hc in this without making it too busy lol

THIS ONE. HELL YEAH. this is a redraw of an older art i made for thanatos' anniversary, and i thought the first one was cool but i was like "i think i have the skills to make this even better now" and I DID!!! idk, i'm glad i could capture the horror vibes more poignantly

september

this one is?? i don't think i made her a full reference sheet, i realized lol but i started streaming for friends because i have a bunch of game recs and no attention span to play them WKJGJKD so i decided streaming them so i could be held accountable for them would be the best way to do it LMFAO

anyways this is my pngtuber. they have no name, but she's a shopkeeper of a mysterious antique store. originally that doll on the bookshelf was gonna my pngtuber and i came up with a bunch of lore for her, but then i realized i had another oc design i really dig and was also simpler, so i revamped that for streaming FJKSDJKF but i would like to put that doll to use somehow or another. anyways if u can pinpoint all the references on the shopkeeper and their bookshelf and even her store's very existence, i love u --

catch me on twitch on sundays and mondays for mhyk and ace attorney respectively --

october

as much as possible, i try to do a vanistar anniversary art because noël is my baby boy... i'm so happy with how this year's came out!! ofc there's areas that could use work, but i like the colors and lighting c:

I'VE BEEN MEANING TO DO AN IBERIA AU FOR JAKUDO FOR SO LONG... probably as long as the koibito AU for hifugen, but i just haven't been able to put it into words... i'm glad i could at least do a bit of this year, and i hope one day i can manage the whole concept!! also this idea's been in my head for so long that arb managed to reveal demon designs for both jakurai and doppo, sparing me the effort of designing them myself FSJKJKKJH

this one is also a set, so i wanted to post them together hehe again this is based off a horror rpg concept me and gianna came up together back in high school that will probably never see the light of day lol this probably doesn't surprise anyone who knows us, but these characters are based on us FKJSKJH

wah... i think my artist wrapped really covers what i have to say! quantity-wise, i'm not too happy with how much i made... it can't really be helped considering how busy and tiresome it's been this year, and i really wish i could say i can do more next year, but it's likely i'll be posting less and less in the future TwT but as much as possible, i'd still like to share my work! i think this might be my time to start focusing on original stuff, but i still wanna do fandom related stuff because there's still a lot of ideas and concepts i wanna see realized!! also i just love my fandom blorbos a lot lol, so i'll find ways to do things for them >w<

quality-wise though, i think i'm pretty pleased! last year i got csp, so i was still figuring it out, but now i think i got a better hang of it! and that means my art looks more confident i think haha. of course, there's still a lot of room for improvement, but it's nice that i can look at my stuff and go "yeah i like this!" i'm excited to see where my artistic journey goes from here!!

but yeah, maybe it wasn't a plentiful year for me re: art, but i made some pretty nice stuff despite that! thank you all for the support, and here's to next year!!

[introdemodev]

demo update demo update

or, update about the demo.

about the game

total length of the demo is about an hour, maybe an hour and a half if you read and play through everything. 2 hours if you read as slow as possible. it was supposed to be 4 hours but then I thought....."hey. the player won't be able to transfer their save to the full game". that means diya and darcys mini game won't be in the demo anymore. awwwww. you'll still get to play clyde’s minigames though (he has two in the demo).

ive mentioned this before, but there are two endings for this game but there’s many many many ways to get there. aside from choices, theres three paths you can take: you can take the darcy path, diya path, or the ??? path. the third one is not in the demo but will be in the final game.

(ok breaking my no more sharing screenshot rule but after today there will be no more unless I've shared them before lol)

so....if there is a diya and darcy minigame, does that mean there’s a ??? minigame too? yes, and it’s very cute.

art

the art and animation is done!!! for real this time, it's done. woooo!!!! thats...if you don't count sprites. hehe. :^) there are three sprites i want to edit and be done with for good: wren, diya and darcy. I finalized wren’s design a while ago so their old design is still in the game. as for diya and darcy, i just want to make small lil changes. so nothing to redraw, except for wren’s head.

look at them. that’s not wren. where are their horns?????? why is their hair brown??? no.

there's also some other things I want to do too, like change the layout for clydes pop quiz minigame. but thats only if I have time because 1) it’s extra art to make. 2) it’s not that necessary. I really want this demo out before June, or, preferably, before the end of April, and then have the full game release in fall/winter. if God wills it.

not to spoil anything (im spoiling something) but clyde gives you another pop quiz later in the full game, so it’s something i want to add eventually.

writing

after working on this game for a very long time now, ill say that writing took the most amount of my time, and also learning how to write script. the latter has gotten a lot easier esp because renpy is easy to learn and there’s a ton of guides online for it too. 

im proofreading the script a thousand times + making sure i didnt leave any plot holes. like, i’ll think i corrected all grammar errors then i’ll find something like this ten mins ago.

oh and ig this shouldve went under the game section but im writing this as i go. anyways. i also gotta play the game a million times to make sure everything works and is functional. so far, so good, i havent run into any bugs. but, i also havent played through EVERY possible choice yet.

sound and other stuff

okay. so. my original plan was to have id’s soundtrack composed of music in the public domain or free to use. for the demo, i’m still debating on doing this, or, just having the game be silent aside from ambience and sound effects. for the full game, i do plan on commissioning an original soundtrack when i’m nearing completion.

and uhhhhhhhhhh what else what else....idk, i had more to say here but i dont remember lol. i just been playing around with more renpy tutorials, especially for imagemaps and functions and stuff like that.

aaaaand that’s about it! this is just stuff off the top of my head. if i remember anything else ill bring it up later. i wanted to talk more about the actual story and characters but then i risk spoiling everything. there’s only so much you can say about a visual game ya know.

and again, thanks for being patient!! im really excited to get this game out. :D

[faggottonystark]

top 5 drawings youve done?

i dont remember when or why i got this ask but now im gonna answer it if you have any complaints please keep them to YOURSELF !

idk if these are any particular order. who cares

5.

I LOVE THIS DRAWING... it took me so long to do that lava. i made this directly after the lore i think i finished at midnight but it was very fun... i love da colors and i got to use a bunch of funky brushes

4.

THIS WAS LIKE MY 3RD OR 4TH EVER DSMP DRAWING WHEN I JOINED THE FANDOM... ive been debating redrawing it now to see the style differences but tbh i just love how this looks. ik theres improvements that could be made but i think its just sooo cool. i dont draw like that now but tommys face is so cool 2 me i remember freaking out liek WHO DREW THIS AND WHYS IT SO GOOD when i finished it

3.

this drawing took me 6 fucking months ^_^ god. i could only watch case 39 to draw this and i couldnt work on it outside of watching that movie so any and all progress was made in 1 and half hour to 2 hour increments. that door took me 4 hours and i redid it twice. tommy i redid 2 times because my style had completely changed by the time i wanted to actually color it and i was unhappy with it. im still a little meh about it but i think the vibes r sooo cool and the textures and just UGH. MUAH.

2.

love this drawing! she means everything 2 me. a pain in the ass to draw but very fun to look at the end result. i like chommys face.

1.

MUAH MUAH MUAH COLORS. DETAIL. ALL OF IT ! thats all

[ambyandony]

not done yet but heres some notes

i use tizianos hair to cover things i do not want to draw (awesome shortcut)

squalo had a towel over his shoulder but it was actually more inconvenient to draw the towel than it was to just draw his collarbone so i made it fall off his shoulder (awesome shortcut)

tiziano doesnt wear eye makeup i think his eyes just look like that . because he is beautiful

i didnt get to draw squalos stupid anchor tattoo because its on the side of his other shoulder and the side of his right shoulder was hidden the entire fucking comic

(i draw him from the front and the back on page 2 but his shoulders are covered by tizianos arms the whole time)

i could give him another, larger, much stupider tattoo on his back, if im stupid

i fucking hate tizianos shades i should have never given him those. fuck

i actually drew them on a separate layer look . ive disappeared him

you can also see that ive started colouring squalo.

i didnt overline the background characters cuz fuckem

CROSSED. ARMS. THE WORST FUCKING THING TO DRAW

i never actually know how to draw squalos hair. i draw it pretty much the same with and without with headband even though i know that is not correct

i hate headbands too but thats not why i didnt draw them here (i assume theyre cloth and would get waterlogged and whatnot)

tiziano finally lost it (been too nice to people for too long)

the last minute inclusion of the portuguese man o war was in fact a stupid fucking idea

see the thing is that squalo actually does know exactly what he was grabbing and did in fact know in no uncertain terms that it was venomous and he grabbed it anyways so he could show tiziano the VENOMOUS CNIDARIAN HE WAS GRABBING OUT OF THE FUCKING OCEAN thats how you know hes stupid but not unintelligent. he Knows but fails to Apply the Knowledge

same man who puts metal in the toaster despite actively knowing exactly what is going to fucking happen when he does because the self preservation instincts keep kicking in late

but you know that if tiziano was about to do some shit like that he would lose his fucking mind because THATS A HORRIBLE IDEA WHY WOULD YOU DO SOMETHING LIKE THAT THAT IS SO DANGEROUS

apparently the dangerous things are only dangerous if they put his beautiful beloved Tiziano's well-being at risk

i think squalo could do with some GETTING MEDICATED FOR HIS SEVERE ADHD

for some reason his anxiety seems to be specifically about what other people think of him

thats trauma babeyyyyyyy

these men cant keep their hands off each other. but AT LEAST they are not sorbet and gelato

apparently i dont actually know what nipples look like. or chests.

i tried to load up google earth to take a look around naples for some bg ref images but it made me wait too long so im just gonna fuck around and find out!!!!!!!

lots of trouble trying to draw squalos stupid broken nose (he refuses to acknowledge that its broken and will regret that later)

since i was drawing squalo shirtless i actually looked up 'swimmers build' and just based his figure on that

i have to overline the second page twice because I had to redraw this panel a million fucking times because i couldn't get their heads the same size

you know the off-with-their-head thumb-across-neck threatening gesture thing? had to model that for myself and its really embarrassing to be making im-gonna-kill-you motions in the mirror as art reference. no nobody was around to see it but its still fucking embarrassing

AND I THINK I DREW IT WRONG ANYWAYS

do you ever accidentally switch to the fill tool instead of the pen tool

[mrfutureboy]

I would like to know when you started drawing and where your passion for fanart started 😊

Oh FUCK dude i did not see this i’m so fucking sorry this is so late 😭 damn you, tumblr, for not fucking notifying me!! Anyway buckle up this is gonna be much longer than you asked for <3

Honestly ive kinda been drawing all my life! I hope that doesnt sound dumb cuz obviously almost everyone drew pictures when they were kids, but i know that it’s been a consistent hobby for me since i was little. By the time i was in 3rd grade I was hoarding notebooks to draw in. Cuz that’s something fun about me: i had a real huge habit of drawing in things that werent sketchbooks. Through middle school and beyond I did buy/receive sketchbooks, but I started out with various kinds of notebooks. One I had from like 2nd grade was like a hardcover, stationary-type notebook that I drew cats in lol, and I have 2 velvet lisa frank notebooks from 3rd grade. In high school and college I had a really bad habit of drawing in the margins on my notes and on handouts the teacher/professor would give. Those classes where the prof just prints out all the notes beforehand and gives them to you to follow along? Oh man, I spent so many classes barely listening while I drew on them! I also used to draw on my physics homework and tests and sometimes I even got extra credit for them (thank you jeff :D). I actually have a folder of various drawings I’ve kept from that 8yr time period and a lot of them are on classwork 😂

Obviously, I’ve been doing a lot of digital art lately, which I’m sure is what u were more curious about rather than the shit about drawing on my homework. I got a surface pro as a graduation gift in 2016 bc prior to that i had a wacom tablet and a janky ass laptop, so the gift was kinda a 2-in-1: i can do schoolwork AND art easily! i like digital art a lot and honestly im still learning new things abt it every time i draw. I use Leonardo currently (i’ll skip that story) but I started out doing digital art on sketchfu WITHOUT the wacom tablet in maaaaybe 2012??? 2011??? does anyone on this site remember sketchfu? Honestly couldnt even tell u how i found that site hahah the internet was just full of wonders back in the day. RIP sketchfu. Once i got the tablet tho some time later i used sketchfu still (i think) but also gimp and krita i believe.

Oh i suppose I should mention that i took art all four years of highschool and also minored in it in college! So it’s something i did academically as well as for fun. I keep thinking about going to art school for realsies but idk. I’m already $$$ in debt from my first degree i dont feel like adding to that 😅😓

Ok now for the second part of your question: I’ve also pretty much always done fan art! Ive never really been one for OC’s, EXCEPT for the self-insert superhero double life “comics” i wrote about a poodle named Sassy when i was in third grade. And then the knock off “comics” i wrote at a later time which honestly it was weird that i did a knock off of my own thing rather than just adding them to the original or making it a spin off with at least one of the og characters. Cuz it wasnt a spin off!! But anyway there wasnt really much to any of these characters; i just needed vessels to get my weird ideas out.

So anyway yeah most of what ive ever drawn has been fan art or self portraits, because its just easier for me to take characters that already exist and bend them to my will (artistically). Well excluding art assignments in school i guess because i would usually have to draw something specific and therefore not something self indulgent. But yeah ive drawn for lots of fandoms like the earliest i remember is warrior cats. Then theres things like pokemon and warriors and random other books i read thru middle school (i used to read a LOT but now im practically illiterate); spn, sherlock, and marvel through high school; and then marvel and bttf thru the end of hs and beyond. Idk i also have always loved looking at other peoples fan art and so im like “shit i wanna do that too!”. Tho i will say marvel was my biggest fandom and the one i had the longest interest in, so that was probably where the passion REALLY came from cuz I was drawing marvel stuff for such a long time (tho not posting shdjsk u have to trust me), but ive been doing fan art forever :)

(Of course, a lot of the fan art i was making prior to recently was drawn in lined notebooks or on homework sheets or what have you, and I wasn’t posting really any of it, but i was still making it and a good chunk of it still exists. Oh i should also mention most of it was with pencils or ballpoint pens like i wasnt doing anything too fancy. There was some digital art in the highschool-college time frame but it also really wasnt…much. Honestly i barely posted any of it here but I know some of it’s on deviantart)

I cant pinpoint the exact time I started getting more “serious” about my art in general, but i know the first pandemic lockdown gave me more free time and i was less stressed about schoolwork so i just kinda had a good outlet. (Tho i will say that prior, I had been in a life drawing club for a short while, and i had also been working on a personal sketchbook project that had me pretty ~inspired~ to do art. Also i watched twin peaks around this time and it inspired a lot of Feelings and i was making funky collages and other art pieced that were sometimes related to that. Some of those are on deviantart)

Honestly I think the Big thing with my digital art was coincidentally getting back into BTTF the summer of the 35th anniversary bc the fandom here was THRIVING and i was like “oh shit wait i want to contribute!” But as i kept drawing i kept wanting to improve and that leads us to right now where im constantly trying new things (whether subtle or obvious) and challenging myself to do full body drawings with different poses, and doing screencap redraws and what have you for various reasons (backgrounds, proportions, pose, etc)

So yeah :) Basically I’ve been doing fan art forever (I didnt even get into all the mediums ive tried but that’s another conversation bc this is already so long and convoluted) and it’s kinda coincidental that ive suddenly really gotten back into it and have improved dramatically in such a short time. Thank you so much @rovermcfly for the ask and again im really sorry you had to wait so long for a response! Stupid tumblr

[minnesotadruids]

Why All This Talk of the Valley of Silence?

Two words: Sacred Pilgrimage.

Here I am now, at 18 and I’ve learned to feel the seasons. Take my hand and come away with me to a place we’ll understand. ...much to see in such a short time... —from the song Bound to Happen by The Empire Hideous

This woodland was my spiritual haven for four years of my life. It’s an enigmatic place, like Parth Galen or Amon Hen from The Fellowship of the Ring, replete with mysterious ruins, structures, and statues. All these years I’ve assumed it’s about 100 acres, but I don’t ever remember asking anyone or measuring it until now. According to Google Earth, the area outlined in blue in the satellite image is exactly 200 acres, and the perimeter is four miles. 

I don’t think the college owns the whole parcel of land, because an old plat map I found that dates to sometime before the 1940s indicates some of the land is owned by the City of Duluth, some by the State of Minnesota, and some by the College of Saint Scholastica. The housing development on the left hand side of the satellite image above was built around 2005. Before then the woods were about 240 acres.

In 2003 or 2004 after lamenting the lack of a trail map I ventured out with a compass and notebook and counted my paces while tracking my heading. I drew a crude map that was woefully not to scale; I could have made a surveyor cry. Then for fun I wrote everything on the map in ancient Gothic, a long dead Germanic language.

After another year or so I bought a handheld GPS tracker and made a better map with it. The tracker had its drawbacks, most notably that the line it drew had no map of its own or any points of reference. It sometimes had a tendency to wildly redraw lines into different polygonal shapes long after they had been mapped just fine, hampering the accuracy significantly. The Mark II map was closer to scale, more detailed and complete, and I opted for plain English. By the time I was done, the then-new housing development had cut down dozens of acres of trees and obliterated a length of the trail that looped around the westernmost parts of the Valley of Silence.

My Mark III map was all digital, and was a hybridization based on aerial photography I found, and from my hand-drawn maps where the trails couldn’t be seen through the tree canopy. It was an improvement but still plenty inaccurate, especially the encroaching Private Land; the dimensions were wrong and it severed much more of the trail. Lots of my measurements were also still off because I didn’t account for changes in elevation, forcing me to figure out how to make some of the trails fit together by stretching, shortening, or changing angles.

From the latest satellite imagery, it seems a lot has changed since my college days, and I was motivated to redraw all the trails over the course of an hour or so. It even looks like a new trail emerged along the edge of the housing development, but I’m in the mood to use a mapping app on my phone and hike the miles of trails again. I do need to indicate more of the hazards on the Mark IV map I want to make, such as some of the spots where the trail is actually mud that is at least knee deep, or trails that are murky boggy water except in winter.

Plus I’ll take any excuse to play in my old back yard again.

[cmr2018socialaccountsposts-blog]

So you decided to buy a house. Out of all life’s decisions that you may take, buying a house would be one of the most complex and unnerving ones. While buying a property, the one thing that you cannot overdo is research. So before jumping right in, why don’t you go through our comprehensive guide to buying a property?

Valuate your decision

Since buying a house is probably the largest investment that you’ll make, it will not hurt to think twice. What will your lifestyle be after a few years? Do you have job security of more than 12 months? High job security will present you as a low-risk candidate to the lender. Are you planning to have kids? You should be aware that each dependent will reduce your borrowing amount by $50,000 to $ 60,000. Will you stick around in the new place for at least the next 5-6 years to build up sufficient equity? If not, then it’s better to wait or rethink.

What is your budget?

This amount will vary according to the lender you choose and many of them offer online calculators to evaluate your borrowing limit. You can also hire a mortgage broker who will advise you on the amount that you can expect from lenders based on your income, assets, debts, expenses, dependants etc. You could apply for a copy of your credit file to review your financial status. Try to minimize your debts and reduce the limit on your credit cards. This will help you to secure a higher amount. If you have bad credit then you may have to contact lenders who specialize in bad credit loans.

It is advisable to come up with a 20% deposit to avoid paying lender’s mortgage insured. Though there are low deposit mortgages available, the mortgage insurance will be much higher.

Costs Involved

An accountant or lender will let you know of the actual costs that you will incur. Here is a list of expected costs:

i) Stamp duty – Amount will vary depending on the state you want to live in and the purchase value of the property

ii) Legal charges – Depending upon the legal work involved often amounting $2000-$3000.

iii) Loan application fees – Depends upon the lender. For foreign applicants, this may be up to 4% of the loan amount.

iv) FIRB approval fees – for temporary residents or foreign investors with no Australian visa ( Not applicable to residents)

v) Building and pest inspection fees

vi) Lender’s Mortgage insurance

vii) Building insurance

viii) Other costs such as utilities, moving costs, council rates, mortgage protection insurance, repairs, and maintenance – approximately 0.5% of the total property value.

Location research

Buying a home is an emotional process. However, it is important to stay focused till the final settlement. Listing down your priorities will help you focus on them. Following are some of the questions that you should ask to determine your must-haves:

What is your priority in choosing a location? The location should be a balance between your requirements and lifestyle choices. Would you like to live in some business area or regional area? Would you like to live close to your workplace? Are there good schools around your home? Is public transport easily available?

You may feel staggered by the huge amount of information that you’ll have to digest before making a location-specific choice. But due perseverance will help you make the right choice. It is always better to make a conscious and well-informed choice rather than a hasty one and then regretting it later.

Property Type

You should have a rough idea of the size of the house that you are going to purchase. How many bedrooms and extra rooms like- nursery, study room, guest room will you need?

Do you want a house or unit?

Probing Mortgages and Interest Rates

What kind of interest rates would you prefer? Fixed or variable? A fixed interest rate will enable you to know exactly the amount of repayments. If there are chances of interest rates falling in the near future, then it’s better to go for a variable interest rate. Ideally, you will want a home loan with a lower interest rate. This will help to maximize savings. There are many competitive loan features in the market that help to save money. Does your lender offer free redraw facilities?

An all-in-one loan or 100% offset account will help if you have surplus disposable income.

Getting Approved

i) Pre-approval – This means that the lender will approve your loan when you find the property you want to purchase.

ii) Conditional approval – The lender will verify your documents and perform checks on your income and documents.

iii) Full approval – Once the deposit is paid, you will sign a binding contract with the lender

Inspections

Since you have so many expenses to handle while buying a house it is likely that you will be tempted to skip building inspections. Believe us, this would be a grave mistake. There are many defective structures out there and you don’t want to end up with one of those. Following are some inspections that you will have to carry out.

Building inspections(for houses), Strata inspection (for units)

Pest inspection

Electrical inspection

Checks on whether the fittings and structures that come with the house (carpets, furniture) are in good working condition.

These inspections are likely to cost you about $200-$600 each. So it’s better to get them done only if you are going to buy a particular house. Else, you can check for damages or repair works yourself.

Check the walls and ceiling for cracks or moulds

Test the doors and windows for any repairs

Check under the sinks for any defects in the plumbing system

Have a quick look at the neighborhood, whether it suits you well.

These checks will help you to make a final decision whether you can adjust the repair costs in the purchase price or drop the deal and look for something better.

How are you planning to buy your property?

In Australia, you can buy your property through private treaty or auction. When the property owner fixes a price and the real estate agent negotiates the price with potential buyers – it is a private treaty. When the buyers come together at a fixed location and time and bid for the property – it is an auction. The highest bidder gets the house provided he has 10% of the property price available for a deposit.

You have to be cautious while making an offer. Don’t lowball to less 10% of the asking price else you may miss out on the deal altogether. It’s always advisable to verbally inform the real estate agent about your offer.

Settlement

It is now time to exchange contracts. It is better to have a solicitor or conveyancer to have a look at the contract documents before exchange of contracts. Once you are satisfied with the contract details, you can pay the deposit. Then you’ll have a cooling off period of 6 weeks before settlement day (not applicable if the sale is made by auction). During this time you can arrange finances and get the building insured. Finally, settlement day had arrived!! You will now have to pay the balance purchase price and stamp duty and get the property transferred to your name.

Now, you have a place to call your own- your home !! Cherish this moment because you’ve earned it !! The house is now ready for occupation. You may have made some grave mistakes along the way. But that’s fine. You have come a long way and learned a lot about the property market. After all, life is about making mistakes and learning from them.

[possumcorpse]

Bitch

so around the time-ish when i was getting into skateboarding more i drew a girl that was a "witch" that rode a broom like a longboard/surfboard and yeah and she has a brother that can shapeshift into a cat

so in the shower i came up with some more stuff

for now i'll refer to everyone with placeholder names that may change later

Ana (protagonist: Freshman year of high school. That's...pretty much it. They're pretty foul-mouthed and tough. Likes cruising around. Really likes bomber jackets and cool hats.)

Bryan (older brother: out of college, works at family job. can shapeshift into a cat. he likes his cat form much more since he can go almost anywhere like that. not really into longboarding and prefers riding bikes or driving his car)

Colton (Father: Owns a barbershop. His family get a family discount; 65% off normal price. Other people may get 50% sometimes or on certain days like...Six Dollar Saturdays or somethin. does not apply to custom cuts. Tries to avoid his past. Don't talk about it.)

Diana (Mother: Lived a life of secrecy. Things were fine up until Ana was born, where she then left for some reason. i havent fully worked this out tbh. but anyways she was a bank teller and also had powers??? like psychic powers kinda)

i call it "Bitch" for now because in middle school my PE teacher (ripperoni), when someone wanted to play an explicit song, would say stuff like "witches with a B" instead of "Bitch" and thats the title for now. (but i'll refer to it as "Bitches" in the tags tho)

i didnt come up with much after that except for like... a not so tragic backstory. the mom left for unknown reasons (idk yet tbh) but it wasnt because of something bad like "oh i need to keep the child a secret" cuz come on Ana's brother can fuckin shapeshift what makes her so special? she can levitate. my oh my we gotta put her down Ana's a ufo

the barbershop was originally gonna be a psychic place (fortune tellers and all. There's a lot in my city actually. its kinda nice to see small stores imo, but ive never been to them tho) and the dad could put people to sleep, allowing them to go to some spirit world for a brief moment. kinda like Black Panther? except instead of wisdom the people can be reunited with loved ones and stuff.

alright think of it like this. theres plenty of other people doing this in the nation/world. so then two people do it (doesnt matter if its at the same time or not), for example a long distance couple, and they are able to see each other "physically". this also applies to the deceased, except of course the process doesn't apply to them. they exist more as a ball of light (unlike physical spirits on Earth) and float around the spirit world/realm, which is basically Earth but in darker colors kinda. like as if the earth were in a constant eclipse and the sky was dark purple.

while that idea of the father doing that may not happen, the spirit realm thing is a definite real thing in something i call the Doodleverse (i am shit at coming up with names lol) and just yeah. basically limbo. purgatory. then spirits can come to earth if summoned by an angel or devil

~

why tbe FUCK am i awake its 12:46 am

i guess imma sleep lol

maybe thatll be my new writing tag? "Doodleverse"??? no it sounds lame. i'll come up with one eventually to go along with "#doodles".

oh yeah also im hella gonna draw lotsa new stuff now! once im done with the fanart thing, i got another request to finish (although just a sketch...?), two ocs (one of them being Ana! basically a redraw) and then a lil comic thing then monsters and othdr shit

i should sleep yeah

[bitter-bismuth]

actually, on that note, consider me done with this blog. in case you hadnt noticed, i havent really made any original posts on this blog in months (save for redraws), and its because ive gotten tired of being a su crit. theres nothing fun about this anymore.

theres not a free exchange of ideas like there used to be, because everything that could be said has already been said, and theres too much hostility. now its just stragglers like me, trolls making critics look like idiots, and fans annoyed with the nitpicking weve been reduced to.

i dont like the person i became because of this blog. initially i liked having an outlet for the grievances ive had for su, but as time went on, i didnt like how it felt keeping up with it, how i felt like i had to be mad at the show, even when an episode turned out okay. i dont even like redraws anymore. every time i was done with one i felt like shit, like i was wasting time on something that didnt matter in the long run. and honestly, this blog didnt matter in the long run. it doesnt matter at all. no one on the crew is taking most of our complaints to heart, if theyre looking at them at all. and even if they are, theres nothing that could be done now to fix all the screw-ups that have plagued the show since season one.

plus tumblr just kinda fucking sucks? im tired of using this site.

so im done. ive gotta find better uses of my time. gotta figure out how to start living again, how to have a life. without this sinkhole of negativity.

i wish you all the best.

the lily orchard video lays all my complaints about su out in the open

just watch that instead of looking at this blog, shes said everything i ever wanted to in 2 hours, im done here.