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cursedskull-666 · 4 months ago

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Was reminded today that its been 10 years since I first started trying to get referred to the Gender Clinic. 10 Years of GPs not doing their fucking job.

#trans #nhs #granted i havent been trying continuously for 10 years #but i have made the request multiple times and still not even been put on the waiting list #bizarrely tho one GP practice DID list me down for some reason as having HAD The Surgeries after I asked them to update my pronouns #and i only found this out when I had to register with a new GP practice bc i moved away for uni #and my registration was delayed for like a month bc of discrepancies with my form and what my former practice said #which they didnt resolve until *i* had to be the one to call *them* to ask what was taking so long #bc theyd just put it onto a pile of Confusing Forms instead of like idk...calling me about it??#so anyway i had to explain that no i havent yet had The Surgeries i dunno why they said i did #but yes 10 years and multiple GPs and GP practices #and YET #vent #personal #ive got a new practice now #so ill be trying again

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deoidesign · 4 months ago

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Doing master studies the only way I know how: Stealing them and making them my guys.

(Barberini Faun)

(The Fallen Angel - Alexandre Cabanel)

(Covent Garden - William Bruce Ellis Rankin)

#obviously. not actually theft...#i was gonna say these are public domain but covent garden actually isnt yet #it will be. in two years.#thats the most different one though like i added a whole new guy..#maybe not the most different. barberini faun is pretty different i just took the post #pose #its barely even a study. thats not true #but. what was i saying.#oh its not theft it's study... the purpose is to learn!!! but also. if im gonna spend like 2 days on something...#its GONNA be my guys #otherwise. idk. i only want to spend 30 or so minutes per study #just to get the notes down and the practice for the skill im working on #i dont get all that much more out of completely rendering a master study. PERSONALLY.#at least definitely not enough to be worth taking 100x longer #but making them my characters makes it worth going all the way!!!#plus it's good practice w like. not just going 1:1 but actually genuinely interpreting whats there so i can manipulate it...#again. personally. this is just how i worm #WORK #youd better worm bitch #uhm... anyways yeah. ive done lots of study but why TF share it LMAO i dont even save it #its just to learn. ive got 1 million other drawings to save and look at later.#once the learning is done it's done its job and i have no need anymore #this is why the only studies i have are from school. i had to save and upload them #well. ok also i dont study as much now BUT in my defense im a full time artist #an hour or so a week is different ok im learning while working too.. i learned how to learn and i do it all the time now #master studies #digital art #my art #illustration #my ocs

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year ago

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waking up means starting the day's long battle of fighting to stay conscious

#ough im so sleepy.... eepy even....#i already slept so much but the couch is calling to me #'maybe a lil nap wouldnt hurt' < thats the demons talking #but honestly. what WOULD it hurt? its not like i have literally Anything going on in my life!#there is nothing i need to be awake for!#why shouldn't i doze. why shouldn't i....#IM LOSING THE BATTLE #absolutely unprompted #i would like to scribble but im so tired... so sleepy... my eyelids are so heavy #just... just one little nap. an hour! or two. or five. lets go for a coma actually that sounds festive #a month long sleep should fix me (lie)#ill scribble some laughingstock later i prommy....#awww wait tangent #my cat letti has started up a new game #where she shoves a toy under a shelf and then runs to the other side to try and fish it out from underneath #and then she shoves it back under rinse and repeat #she's so enthusiastic about it... practically throwing herself around as she bats the toy back and forth #oh nope she got it out and now she's tossing it around & playing cat soccer with it <3 #and i am going to go Nap. ive lost the battle <3 im waving a white flag <3 i surrender to diet death

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ciderjacks · 11 months ago

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hey if u guys r sad about ofmd and want another show with gay people to watch you should consider watching Deadloch. It’s really good it’s really really good uh it might get a second season if the creators decide to do that.

if you watch good omens you’ll be able to watch Deadloch they’re on the same service. Uhhhh One of the actors from ofmd is there shes one half of the main duo (the other half is played by Kate Box who’s an amazing actor and Dulcie is now one of my fav characters ever) gets to wear an open Hawaiian shirt for like 3 of the 8 episodes which is a bonus. It’s extremely gay and it’s fun and beautifully written and no queer characters die and it’s satisfying and funny and Please watch it I’m begging you please watch itPLEASE

#ofmd #deadloch #PLEASEEEEEE please Im begging Im on my hands and my knees PLEASE WATCH THIS SHOW #It’s not shy about being gay it practically opens with gay sex ok please pleaseee watch it #It’s got so many amazing characters every character is so well written it’s a detective satire that ends on a pretty openly anti cop note #The main characters work so well together and the actors have such good chemistry and the storytelling is so good and well done #Literally my only my singular criticism of the entire show is that I think the lighting in some scenes could be brighter so you can #Actually tell what’s going on bc it’s sort of hard to at certain points #THATS MY ONLY CRITICISM AT ALL ITS THAT GOOD #Ive watched it 10 times now I’m still finding new stuff and connecting things it hasn’t gotten old yet #It’s seriously like unironically a masterpiece of a show. I would like it just as much if everything else was the same but the characters #Were straight #Though given how much of it is tied to gay and specifically lesbian culture it would be sort of hard to do that LOL #but still. like hypothetically. If it was straight I would not like it any less I would still be just as crazy about it

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diddlesnap · 28 days ago

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I think there were some serious growing pains when katniss and peeta were starting to "grow close" again.

#NOT TAGGING THIS but yeah this would be maybe a few months post?#when katniss and peeta are just starting to be friends again #while peeta is still kind of adjusting to the new person he is and coming to terms with what he's done in that process #which ends up making him come across as a little bitter? but i dont think he means to be. weird situation obviously.#and i think it's particularly hard for katniss considering she's someone who gets so much comfort from physical contact #and for the person from whom she got so much comfort to have snuck up on her and tried to kill her. twice.#because theres no denying that THAT person is closer to who peeta is now than who he was before being tortured in the capitol #so it takes a long time for her to not fear his touch. i think. and i think although he knows better #peeta's still kind of burned by it. like he understands it but it still hurts kind of thing #... IDK sorry i have a lot of thoughts about how their dynamic would have to fundamentally change post-mj #and its kind of weird how that's glossed over i mean its not plot relevant i guess but if theyre....#WHATEVER anyway yeah.#id like to do smth more with this idea of them adjusting to their new relationship so this is rly just a draft :)#sorry can you tell i could talk about peeniss for hours??? can you tell????????#ive really gotta practice drawing burn scars also because at this point theyd both have pretty angry burn scars on their faces and hands #i also think im rambling a lot here bc i dont want ppl to get the wrong idea or anything bc i hold both of them so close to my heart #same kind of thing as mommy katniss i guess i udnerstand it doesnt portray them in the best light but at the same time i really do think.#realistically they just wouldnt.... be well adjusted? sorry. anwyay. diddle out.

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 1 year ago

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i am,,,once again,,,,,opening a girlie up hang on is this why i get shadowbanned and my blog deleted? I Am Once Again Opening A IMAGINARY Girlie WHO DOESNT EXIST Up in FAKE FICTION

anyway not even using a knife this time its more of a scurvy scars reopening kind of a situation

#you fuck up a regeneration and now your body wont close #dont worry im not posting this ones for the private collection #anyway miss 'death=love' y literally dying: yasmin. yasmin. stick your fingers in me. dont care which hole any of them ive got many rn #its not even technically missy any more i think at this point in her timeline its like missy number 6 #she keeps killing herself!!#also keeps giving herself new names but im just putting missy until ivefigured out what they are #first time it was like a Healing sort of suicide she was inspired by yaz so she was like #I Wanna Be More #and then there was an accident and she turned into koschei #which nobody was very happy with #yaz bc she was like we were having sex yesterday and today youre a child so thats complicated #and missy bc she was like the doctor is acting like im the ghost of their childhood back to haunt them :(#and the doctor bc she was like the ghost of my childhood is back to haunt me #so that was not ideal #then there was an actual suicide-suicide sort of a suicide situation #very committed one too but the doctor uh brought her back #with a lot of effort #then there was a practicality one #like you run i'll explode myself kinda thing #i think im forggeting one #anyway so we're a couple bodies in and she has Once Again fucked up a regeneration #one might suspect shes doing it on purpose #yaz definitely is #but shes also not gonna say no so

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g33ktragedy · 3 months ago

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do you ever throw up a little bit in your moutbh but. in your nose

ive thrown up through my nose before, and ive thrown up a little bit in my mouth, but ive never successfully subsumed a puke into a burp and then gotten stomach acid in my nose :)

i think it’s the combination of liter of tequila in the morning + spicy laksa soup + my chronic diaphragmatic breathing problems

#txt #i went to a GE specialist for those issues a few years ago btw #and got a fucking ENDOSCOPY #the end result of which was. Hey you seem fine but i think you might be Breathing Wrong #so now i carry around a piece of paper that reminds me to practice breathing so i dont “swallow air from anxiety” and cause chronic nausea #nd acid reflux #but i dont practice and i also didnt think i rly had very severe anxiety for a long time so this seemed whatyever to me #i will admit that my anxiety has been legiterally crippling recently but #i was also recemntly diagnosed with a Different Chronic Illness that causes anxiety spikes so ive chosen to #a) not practice breathing. continue not practicing breathing right #and b) wait and see if my new medication (started yesterday) does anything for me

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arielluva · 3 months ago

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if 15 year old me could survive going back to school in person after quarantine SURELY i can handle it now right. surely.

#ive learned that when theres a year long gap between things it makes me anxious to go back #junior year of hs. going on vacation with my parents earlier this year. now starting college #IM GONNA DO IT SCARED!!!!!!! IT WILL BECOME NORMAL FOR ME AGAIN!!!!#ILL BE ABLE TO SLEEP NORMALLY AGAIN AND GOING TO SCHOOL WONT BE A WHOLE ORDEAL!!!!#i already made progress this week anyways. even though ive followed my mom TO the school (just cause im more anxious before school)#ive driven back home on my own twice already. which i never couldve imagined doing months ago #i dont really get anxious driving on my own now. its mostly just school freaking me out #but i think thats bc its still so new #i got used to driving by myself by practicing so school should be the same #must resist the urge to run away whenever somethings scary. i gotta face it and not give in

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vampiremourning · 1 year ago

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finally learning to use the sewing machine i was given almost 15 years ago,,, feeling powerful

#noticed a bunch of holes/wear in some things im just frankly not really able to justify the purchases of rn and yeah.#going less nightmarish than i remember. probably bc im an Adult now and more patient w this stuff #anyway! bit confusing but im enjoying the process + i have enough stuff to practice on #that i will Eventually become proficient #ngl im surprised the machine even works anymore but gfhghj its literally like new #ive got a bunch of clothes i would love to alter to fit me better too #idk if ill ever be Super Great at this but i think i can definitely get to a point where i can make basic garments for myself

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phagodyke · 5 months ago

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omg.... my new nearest audiology department actually has an EMAIL TO CONTACT!!!!!!! we're so fucking back baby

#looking to register bc i havent had a hearing checkup in like. 4-5 years lol #im supposed to have repeats every 2-3 years but my old audio dept is on the other side of the country....#and my hearing loss has been stable since i was 2 yrs old so its not super urgent to keep track of..#but ive had my current hearing aids for over 6 years now i think which is the average lifespan. and they still work fine #but i really should be taking them in to adjust every six months n get new moulds fitted regularly....... oops #i do replace the tubing but yeah im way behind on maintenance #and considering i wear them like 50 hours a week n im kinda dependent on them at work i need to keep on top of it more #ALSO what i reaaaaally want is ones that have bluetooth connectivity bc when i last got mine that tech wasnt widely available #but now i think theyre nhs standard. so fingers crossed i can upgrade plsss i wanna be able to use them for phone calls n music!!!#i can make a good case for it if needed cuz i need to use headphones at work sometimes #actually might be able to get an access to work grant for bonus hearing aid equipment..... i should look into that #i was skeptical for ages bc i had a VERY old roger mic as a kid which was effectively a box on a lanyard i had to give to ppl #it was clunky as shit and had awful sound quality i gave up using it after a year or two #but now they have very sleek n subtle ones n the tech has improved so much like it filters bg noise n can connect to tvs n shit #so would be really useful in meetings or when im like. at a restaurant or somewhere w a lot of bg noise....#ahhhh itll take time to get everything sorted tho. need to start w just getting this audiology referral in place #ill swing by the gp practice after work tmr and ask for an appointment for that #need to get dressed and leave the flat.... but i dont want to 😔#in a bit....#.diaries

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bmpmp3 · 1 year ago

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listen to my tuning attempts boy (svp by ryu)

#vocal synth wip #synthv #asterian #i always struggle with volume mixing but i think this is the best ive got for now orz #hopefully i will get better with practice #and lemme tell you this lite version is incredibily generous like i have played with some WACK sounding lite voicebanks in my time #but he already sounds fantastic for the lite limitations #and man you know i think asterian is far more versatile than people give him credit for.#i know everyone knows his range goes down to e2 but people seem scared to figure out how to use him it seems?#not enough covers out there with him i think. but if anything i found him easier to work with than other lite voicebanks LOL #and really the whole eclipsed sounds roster. the celestial polycule. are all absolutely absurdly versatile voicebanks #like everyone knows solaria and we all love asterian BUT the new one saros #they also sound fantastic through the demos weve heard which is exciting #i cant wait to see even more covers. i hope someone who has all three will make the celestial polycule all sing together #i want to hear that duet. three-et? trio.....

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year ago

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reopening the ask box is like... just finishing vacuuming shed cat hair, and then immediately going and petting said cat vigorously & watching with delight as So Much Fur sheds right back onto the floor