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I keep thinking I still have 60 followers but it's been subtly increasing this past month so everytime I check its like a jumpscare
#90??!#i do NOT remember getting 30 new follower notifications#my post#to be fair to me. most follower notifications are all alone. w/o any likes or rbs to the blog#kinda freaks me out a little bit tbh bdsbdks. do yall know anything abt my fnaf au or my designs. will i get the scary anons now#to be fair tho. i know I definitely have a problem w practicality looking though an entire blog im abt to follow without touching any posts#bdjsbdks. no matter what i love yall though. glad youre here! i hope to be posting and rbing more soon! hopefully!#im like sisyphus. except the rolling the rock up is me posting rbs from my drafts. and it rolls back down when i save more. (being silly)#ive got posts in there from JULY and they only get buried more and more#bc tumblr gets mad at me if i try to rb things from the bottom of the drafts first
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I posted 77 times in 2022
That's 66 more posts than 2021!
26 posts created (34%)
51 posts reblogged (66%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@goodbyetommyyy
@dreamversee
@chicken-mc-nuggets
@haxxydraws
@canaryomenharbinger
I tagged 75 of my posts in 2022
Only 3% of my posts had no tags
#my art - 49 posts
#reblogging stuff ive posted on my main so i dont repost them - 26 posts
#art - 25 posts
#artists on tumblr - 17 posts
#sketches - 16 posts
#digital art - 14 posts
#rb - 9 posts
#joywave - 9 posts
#art resources - 8 posts
#redbubble - 6 posts
Longest Tag: 137 characters
#also i am back home and i left all my art supplies back in my dorm so all i had now was moms pencil and brush pen and one 0.3mm fineliner
My Top Posts in 2022:
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your interlocking hands left a photograph on my shoulders
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torchwood got me in a chokehold
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i am taking fiverr commissions!
FIVERR GIG (more details there)
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more examples of my art are under the cut
$30 tier examples:
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only the real ones know abt the hit song volcano (shake em up!) by mcr that they performed in a secret vault of a bank in western nevada in 2010 and buried the cd w the only known recording of the performance at an unknown location
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My #1 post of 2022
some practice with random refs from pinterest <3
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I have finally thrown in the towel and gone back on Welbutrin.
If you're considering the need to go back on your meds, take this as a sign from the universe that yes, you do indeed need to and you have nothing to prove to anybody.
This turned into mental health word vomit nobody is going to care about so I'm putting it under a cut to save your dashes.
After having the health crisis in 2009 that left me with the permanent nerve damage I'm still dealing with followed by one of my best friends throwing me under a bus and gaslighting me about it, I started struggling with my mental health. When my middle sister passed away from breast cancer in January 2010 I destroyed myself trying to be The Strong One for my parents, letting my cup run so dry it cracked and broke.
I spent the next 7 years at the bottom of a hole, the last four or so on Welbutrin that helped quite a bit but not completely. My personal art output was absolute zero. I lost my 20's to it, basically.
I finally pulled myself out of it when I renovated the room across from my bedroom into my studio and got into Yuri on Ice in late 2016 because I had something to focus on, get excited about, and be inspired by. I pumped out 40 new pieces of art in 2017 because of it, I was getting regular interaction with people, my blog was growing again, and it was fantastic. I was an art machine. I came off of the Welbutrin in Spring 2016. I was happy for the first time in years.
Anybody still in the YoI fandom knows that well has been bone dry for a few years now; most of our crops withered if not died completely, and fandom policing bullshit made creating fanart for it far less desirable for me. I started slipping.
Then 2018 happened. My oldest sister passed away in February from liver failure. The day after we buried her ashes next to my middle sister in the family plot, we found out our dog, Sushi, had late stage lymphoma at only 9 years old. Her face had barely even begun to get a dusting of white. We lost her that July. I slipped some more. I came out of that year holding on to the edge of that hole by the tips of my fingers, but I was proud that I hadn't fallen back in completely.
Then 2020 happened. On March 13 my life upended and my sole focus became keeping my high risk parents safe from Covid, becoming their caregiver and doing absolutely everything for them that involved interacting with people or going out in public. In the last 14 months I've only gone to the pharmacy and chiropractor. That's it. We've been having our groceries delivered via a wonderful woman named Katelyn through Dumpling. Quarantine has aged me by at least five years at this point if the lines on my face are any indication.
Then my uncle was diagnosed with stage IV esophageal cancer over the summer and the traumatizing hell of trying to care for him here at our house -- on top of the added stress of having a CONSTANT parade of nurses, hospice people, and chaplains coming through the house because of it in the middle of a pandemic I was working so hard to protect my parents from -- was a body blow that included a dissociative episode. He passed away in October 2020.
I was finally able to get myself and my parents vaccinated through the county health department at the end of March 2021, which was a Thing all unto itself because of their system fucking things up.We got our second dose toward the end of April and a huge weight lifted off my shoulders, but the damage was already done.
My personal art output has been zero for almost two years at this point. The last piece of fan work I actually finished that wasn't for a client, zine, or gift was in October 2019, it didn't even get 200 notes, nobody seemed to care or even notice that I had been basically MIA online in the last two years (save for maybe three people), so I lost the sliver of motivation I still had left. Let me repeat that:
I haven't finished any personal artwork that wasn't for a client, zine, or gift since October 2019. It's now May 2021.
At the beginning of April I finally said fuck it, I give up, and emailed my doctor asking for a new script for Welbutrin. While I'm not as godawful miserable emotionally as I was back when I started taking it originally (although it's on its way down that road), I am back to being completely unmotivated to do much of anything let alone produce new art. I have ideas. I just don't have the motivation to sit down and execute them.
As I've said several times before, I have to create in order to feel worthwhile. Interaction with people online when I post my work helps me stay in a good place mentally because I'm human and humans need positive interaction and just a sense that we're seen and matter. It's a nasty spiral because once it started seeming that hardly anybody cared about my work anymore or even noticed when I disappeared, that finished the job of killing my motivation. I know art should be made for yourself but like I said, I'm human and I'm just being honest here instead of trying to bullshit anybody. What's the point of posting if it's seemingly just going into the void?
I'm tired of being in that rut of a mindset and languishing in that bad headspace, so I'm trying to help myself out of it before I hit the bottom of that hole again. I never want to go back there, but I'm damn close at this point.
At least the Welbutrin is making me lose weight because it's killed my appetite.
#sorry for the word vomit#personal shit#mental health#shut up kris#i can't even sleep like a normal depressed person because my nerves won't stay quiet long enough to get any restful sleep#which has also been murder on my mental health#the nerve problems have gotten much much worse in the last year or so
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Death and funerals/Halål és temetés
Death was also a very important part of the life of Ottoman Empire, especially because violent death was extremely common among male members of the dynasty. We are all familiar with the law of fratricide, which has led to the death of hundreds of princes (in many cases infants, children) by being strangled with a silk string. In my post today, however, I would rather talk about those for whom the cause and time of death are not so clear. I brought you some interesting, possibly suspicious deaths, and tried to gather everything about the causes of death of each sultan, prince, and sultana; and I also brought a brief history of the funerals: who was buried where, when there were unusual changes in funeral habitsâŠ
In general, very little is known about the deaths of the sultans of the early period. In many cases, we are left with guesses about the cause of death. However, the death of Murad I. (r. 1362-1389) is, for example, a refreshing exception, as several descriptions of his death have been made. He was killed by a Serbian nobleman during or before the Battle of RigĂłmezĆ (1389). â⊠Absolutely unexpectedly, Milos Obilic who, out of cunning and intrigue, said he had adopted Islam, asked us to (âŠ) kiss the shining lordâs foot, but instead of doing so, he inevitably stabbed a poisoned knife hidden in his dress into the glorious body of the lord, and seriously wounded him, and drank him with the serbet of the martyrs.â Of course, it is not certain that everything happened as described, but it is certain that he was victim of murder by the hands of Milos Obilic.
The death of Bayezid I (r. 1389-1402) himself is also interesting. Some believe that he committed suicide in the captivity of Timur Lenk (r. 1370-1405) after Timur humiliated his wife, Maria before his eyes. Others say he was poisoned during captivity.
Either way, the deaths of the sultans always marked the beginning of something new. If the sultan died, there was no time to mourn. For their wives, concorts, and chief pashas had a different matter after death: to immediately notify the crown prince, or the prince whom they themselves wanted to see on the throne. The sultan became the one who reach the capital first and ascended the throne. In the early days, sultans often died during a campaign away from their home - the imperial capital - so it was their pashas who informed the princes about the situation. The princes did everything they could to get to the capital first. In many cases, they also received help from the pashas who supported them. For example, Bayezid II (r. 1481-1512), who had previously married his daughters to influential pashas. His sons-in-laws did everything they could to slow down Bayezidâs biggest rival, one of his brothers, on the road to Istanbul. They succeeded and Bayezid ascended the throne, so the pashas received their reward for it.
Unlike Bayezid II, at the death of Sultan SĂŒleyman I (r. 1520-1566), there was no longer a competitor to his son, Selim II (r. 1566-1574). Yet SĂŒleyman still died at a very bad moment - right in the middle of a battle - caused by the health problems by his gout. To avoid rebellion and loss of soldier's motivation, the grand vezir, Sokollu Mehmed Pasha concealed the sultan's death. He clothed servants in the sultan's robes, he dictated commands written by similarly handwritten scribes on behalf of the sultan until Selim II finally arrived to the camp and became a sultan.
In later periods, after his death the sultan's consorts played the main role, not his pashas, as the sultans died more and more often in the capital. One particularly interesting example of this is Selim II's death, which he suffered after slipping in the bath and which his wife, Nurbanu Sutan (â1525-1583), shared only with the Grand Vizier, and secretly sent a message to Nurbanu's son Murad (r. 1574-1595) to come to the capital. This was necessary because Murad's younger brothers were in the capital at the time of Selim's death.
The sultans were always buried in the current imperial capital. Bursa, as a former capital, played an important role even after the conquest of Constantinapole, as the princes who had been executed or died by natural causes were buried there. Of course, there were exceptions, during the reign of SĂŒleyman I (r. 1520-1566) there was two. His favorite son, Mehmed (1521-1543), died of illness in Manisa, but breaking with customs, SĂŒleyman not only buried him in the capital instead of Bursa, but had made a mosque to him, which vied with the mosques of the sultans. His other son, the rebellious Bayezid (1525-1562) was less fortunate. Because he was executed near the Iranian border, SĂŒleyman even refused him the Bursa funeral so he was buried with his sons near to the Iranian border. His youngest son, who was an infant and could not flee to Iran with his him, was buried in Bursa among other princes of similar destiny.
Before we scrutinize the sultanas, here is a brief summary of the period of the âSultanate of womenâ and the period immediately preceding it, about the causes of death of the sultans and princes, without claiming completeness*:
Bayezid II (b. 1447): 24 April 1512, most probably poisoning or natural causes
Selim I (d. 1470): 22 September 1520, most probably tumor or anthrax but plague is also an option
SĂŒleyman I (b. 1494): 7 September 1566, gout but some sources suggest stroke also beside the gout
Ćehzade Mahmud (b. 1512): 29 October 1521, smallpox or plague
Ćehzade Musztafa (b. 1515): 6 october 1553, strangled
Ćehzade Mehmed (b. 1546): 10 october1553, strangled
Ćehzade Ahmed (b. ?): 1552, illness
Ćehzade Murad (b. 1519): 12 October 1521, smallpox or plague
Ćehzade Mehmed (b. 1521): 6 November 1543, smallpox or plague
Ćehzade Abdullah (b. â1525): c. 1527, maybe smallpox or plague
Ćehzade Bayezid (b. â1525 ): 23 July 1562, strangled
Ćehzade Orhan (b. â1543): 23 July 1562, strangled
Ćehzade Osman (b. â1545): 23 July 1562, strangled
Ćehzade Abdullah (b. â1548): 23 July 1562, strangled
Ćehzade Mehmed (b. â1544): 23 July 1562, strangled
Ćehzade Murad (b. â1556): 23 July 1562, strangled
Ćehzade ? (b. â1560/1): July 1562, strangled
Ćehzade Cihangir (b. 1531): 27 November 1553, chronical illness and some kind of acut desease
Selim II: 12/15 December 1574, head injury after slipping
Ćehzade Mehmed (b. â1570): 1573/74, illness
Ćehzade SzulejmĂĄn (b. â1570): 22 December 1574, strangled
Ćehzade Abdullah (b. â1570): 22 December 1574, strangled
Ćehzade Ali  (b. â1572): 1572, soon after his death
Ćehzade OszmĂĄn (b. â1573/4): 22 December 1574, strangled
Ćehzade Cihangir (b. â1573/4): 22 December 1574, strangled
Murad III (b. 1546): 16 January 1595, natural causes
Ćehzade Selim (b. 1567): 1595. januĂĄr 28, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Mahmud (b. 1568): c. 1581, illness
Ćehzade SĂŒleyman, Cihangir, Ahmed died after their birth
Ćehzade Abdullah (b. 1585): 28 January 1595, strangled
Ćehzade Mustafa (b. 1585): 28 January 1595, strangled
Ćehzade Bayezid (b. 1586): 28 January 1595, strangled
Ćehzade Cihangir (b. 1587): 28 January 1595, strangled
Ćehzade Abdurrahman (b. ?): 28 January 1595, strangled
Ćehzade AlemĆah (b. ?): 28 January 1595, strangled
Ćehzade Aleaddin Davud (b. ?): 28 January 1595, strangled
Ćehzade Ali (b. ?): 28 January 1595, strangled
Ćehzade Hasan (b. ?): 28 January 1595, strangled
Ćehzade HĂŒseyin (b. ?): 28 January 1595, strangled
Ćehzade Ishak (b. ?): 28 January 1595, strangled
Ćehzade Murad (b. ?): 28 January 1595, strangled
Ćehzade OszmĂĄn (b. ?): 28 January 1595, strangled
Ćehzade Ămer (b. ?): 28 January 1595, strangled
Ćehzade Yusuf (b. ?): 28 January 1595, strangled
Mehmed III (b. 1566): 21 December 1603, natural causes but some suggest he died because of health problems caused by his overweight
Ćehzade Selim (b. 1585): 1597, illness
Ćehzade Mahmud (b. 1587): summer of 1603, strangled
Ćehzade SĂŒleyman (b. ?): 1597, illness
Ćehzade Cihangir (b. ?): 1602, illness
Ahmed I (b. 1590): 22 November 1617, typhus or gastric bleeding
Ćehzade Mehmed (b. 1605): 12 January 1621, strangled
Ćehzade Bayezid (b. 1612): 27 July 1635, strangled
Ćehzade Kasim (b. 1614): 17 February 1638, strangled
Ćehzade SĂŒleyman (b. 1615): 27 July 1635, strangled
Ćehzade Hasan, Orhan, Selim, HĂŒseyin, Cihangir and possibly others also died an infants or young children
Mustafa I (b. â1600): 1639, natural causes most probably, but epilepsy os also an option
Osman II (b. 1604): murder
Ćehzade Ămer (b. 1621): 1622, there are more than one options: accident, shock, murder, illness
Murad IV (b. 1612): 8 February 1640, cirrhosis and other chronical illnesses
He had lot of sons, but all of them died as infants. Evliya Celebi suggest that all of them were born with a bad health and they died soon. This suggests an extreme situation, poisoning or genetical desease are also options. Â
Ibrahim I (b. 1615): 18 August 1648, strangled
Ćehzade Murad, Osman, Bayezid, Cihangir died as infants caused by illness
Ćehzade Selim (b. 1644): 1669, most probably by illness
Mehmed IV (b. 1642): / November 1693, natural causes
SĂŒleyman II (b. 1642): 22 June, 1691, his body got swollen then he fall into coma and later died.
Ahmed II (b. 1643): 6 February 1695, natural causes or stress-caused stroke/heart-attack
It is especially rare when the exact cause and date are both available for the sultanas. We know their lives primarily from registers that list their possessions and salaries. Thus, in many cases, we can only conclude that when they disappeared from the registers, they may have died. However, these registers are often incomplete, sometimes missing for several years, decades, and they can even be fragmentary. In addition, the cause of death was recorded even less frequently. To this we can usually deduce from if there was a child born, or there was a fresh marriage immediately before the time of death, or  possibly was there a huge epidemic at the time of death? About the influential sultanas, the historians and ambassadors have occasionally recorded the supposed cause of death. However, this is quite rare, as will become clear from reading the list at the bottom of the chapter.
The burial of sultans has always evoked double feelings in the people, because on the day of the funeral, the ascension of the new sultan was celebrated and meanwhile the new sultan's brothers were executed by the new sultan so the people moruned them. In contrast, the mourning and funeral customs of the sultanas were much calmer, receiving more attention in this sense. At the time of their death, the needy were often given alms and food for the sake of the sultana's soul. For example, the burial of Handan Valide Sultan (â1570-1605) after her death on November 9, 1605, the Venetian ambassador recorded the vast amount of alms distributed among the people. In addition, the death and burial of a valide sultan was always associated with a public mourning, as the people could express their sympathy for the sultan, who had lost his mother at that time. After the death of AyĆe Hafsa (â1475-1534), the mother of SĂŒleyman I, for example, the city mourned for several days. SĂŒleymanâs mother Hafsa Sultan had been an honored member of the royal family. In describing her funeral, the royal chancellor and historian Celalzade Mustafa honored her with a long series of formulas of praise, among which are the most exalted that can be applied to a Muslim woman, likening her to the Prophet Muhammadâs first wife Khadija, his daughter Fatima, and his third and favorite wife âAâisha: â[S]he was a woman of great ascetism and a lady of righteous thought, queen of the realm of chastity and the Khadija of the capital of purity, builder of charitable foundations and doer of pious deeds, the Fatima of the era and the âAâisha of the age.â
In the case of sultanas, instead of violent death, childbirth was the leading death-cause. Many died in labour and childbirth... Although the palaceâs doctors and midwives were the bests in the world, childbirth was a dangerous activity in those days. The fact is, however, that far fewer women from the dynasty of the Ottoman Empire died of childbirth compared to the western empires. The most famous birth-related death belongs to Esmehan Kaya. Kaya Sultan (1633-1658) was the daughter of Murad IV (r. 1623-1640), and she inherited the nature of her father, this is why she was considered by many to be Muradâs most worthy child. Legend has it that Esmehan Kaya was predicted that she would die in childbirth, which is why she did not allowed her husband close to her for years. However, over time true love developed between her and her husband, which of course was fulfilled physically. Esmehan Kaya gave birth to two children, so perhaps he had already forgotten the prophecy and breathed a sigh of relief. However, there were complications at the birth of her third child. The placenta did not detached, even though the midwives tried various tortures, so a few days after giving birth, she died by sepsis after horrible sufferings. Her little daughter didn't live too long either. One of Kayaâs sisters, Safiye (â1540-1580), also died during childbirth.
However, not Kaya and her sister were the only ones who died during childbirth, Two daughters of Selim II (r. 1566-1574) died in a similar way: Fatma Sultan (1558-1580), who died along her daughter after giving birth, at a fairly young age; and Esmehan Sultan (â1545-1585) who died of complications after the birth of his fourth child. Her son survived her just with a month. In her case, the complications may also have been related to the fact that she gave birth in a relatively old age compared to the customs of the period, at about forty years of age. It is interesting, by the way, that Selim's other daughter, Ćah (1544-1580), also died at a relatively young age due to illness, so of Selim's daughters, only Gevherhan (â1545-1622?) was the one who died in old age and presumably by natural causes.
According to legends, Murad III's (r. 1574-1595) favourite consort, Safiye Sultan(â1550-1620?), also almost died in one of her miscarriages, but as we know she eventually survived and was able to rule for many, many more years. The less fortunate Mahfiruze Hatun (â1590-1608 / 12?), concubine of Ahmed I, and the mother of his eldest son, presumably also died in childbirth, although in her case several alternatives arose as to the cause of death, including epidemic also.
Interestingly, among the sultanâs favorites, we know even fewer cases where a concubine died during childbirth. However, the reason for this is presumably not that this has not happened ever⊠The reason is that when the concubine died in childbirth she was simply forgotten. After all, the average concubine did not give birth to a large number of children, especially as long as the one-concubine-one-son rule was followed. Thus, in all likelihood, when they died during childbirth, they either had no other children or only daughters, so they were less important persons, their names were recorded less, and then they disappeared from the public consciousness.
From the period of the âSultanate of womenâ I also collected the causes and dates of the death of the most famous sultanas, without claiming completeness, as many sultanas were left out of the list because neither the year nor the reason of their death is known and in many cases not even their names *:
AyĆe Hafsa Sultan (b. â1475): 19 March 1534, illness, most probably stroke or cancer since she suffered for months
Beyhan Sultan (b. â1492): c. 1559, most probably natural causes
Hatice Sultan (b. â1491): ?
Fatma Sultan (b. â1493): 1557, most probably natural causes or illness
daughters of Selim I
Hafsa Sultan (b. â1495/1500): 10 July 1538, most probably illness
Ćah-i Huban Sultan (sz. â1500): 1572, natural causes
HĂŒrrem Sultan (b. â1503): 15 April 1558, most probably cancer and maybe malaria also
Mihrimah Sultan (b. 1522): 25 January 1578, most probably natural causes or illness
AyĆe HĂŒmaĆah Sultan (b. 1541): 1594, natural causes or illness
Ćehzade Mehmedâs daughter
HĂŒmaĆah Sultan (b. 1543): 1582, natural causes or illness
Fatma Hanimsultan (b. 1567): 29 July 1588, illness or complications during childbirth
Raziye Sultan (b. â1515): October 1521, smallpox or plague
Mahidevran Hatun (b. â1500): 3 February 1581, natural causes
Mahidevran Hatunâs granddaughters:
Fatma Sultan (b. â1545): 1577, illness or childbirth
Nergiz-Ćah Sultan (b. â1536): c. 1592, natural causes or illness
GĂŒlfem Hatun (b. â1495): 1562, natiral causes or execution
Nurbanu Sultan (b. â1525): 7 December 1583, most probably a sudden illness, or stroke/heart-attack, but poisoning is also an options
Esmehan Sultan (b. â1545): 8 August 1585, complications after childbirth
Ćah Sultan (b. 1544): September 1580, illness
Gevherhan Sultan (b. â1545): after 1604, maybe in 1622, natural causes
Selim IIâs daughter, Fatma Sultan (b. 1558): September 1580, after childbirth (maybe complications after a still-birth)
Safiye Sultan (b. â1550): c. 1520, natural causes
AyĆe Sultan (b. â1565): 15 May 1605, most probably illness
HĂŒmaĆah Sultan (b. â1565): after 1580, illness or childbirth
Fatma Sultan (b. â1565): c. 1620, natural causes
Murad IIIâs daughters:
Fahriye Sultan (b. â1588): after 1641, natural causes
Rukiye Sultan (b. â1593): c. 1623, most probably illness or childbirth
Handan Sultan (b. â1570): 9 November 1605, gastric problems
Halime Sultan (b. â1570): after 1623, ?
Kösem Sultan (b. â1590): 2 September 1651, strangled
Hanzade Sultan (b. â1609): 23 September 1650, illness or natural causes
AyĆe Sultan (b. â1605/7): c. 1657, most probably natural causes
Fatma Sultan (b. â1606): c. 1670, most probably natural causes
I. Ahmedâs daughters
Gevherhan Sultan (b. â1605): 1660, natural causes
Abide Sultan (b. 1618): c. 1648, most probably illness (or she lived longer just retired and became forgotten)
Atike Sultan (b. â1614): c. 1670, most probably natural causes
AyĆe Sultan (b. â1610): c. 1680, natural causes
Esmehan Kaya Sultan (b. 1633): 1658, complications after giving birth
IV. Muradâs daughters:
Safiye Sultan (b. 1635):1680, complications after giving birth
Rukiye Sultan (b. â1640): 1696, most probably natural causes
Hanzade Sultan (b. 1631): 1675, most probably natural causes
Turhan Hatice Sultan (b. â1627): 1683, natural causes by some chronical illness.
Fatma Sultan (b. 1642): 1657, illness
Ibrahim Iâs daughters:
Gevherhan Sultan (b. 1642): 21 September 1694, long illness
Beyhan Sultan (b. 1645): 5 March 1701, natural causes
Hatice Muazzez Sultan (b. â1627): 12 September 1687, heart attack or stroke
Saliha DilaĆub Sultan (b. â1627): 4 December 1689, long illness maybe cancer
Telli HĂŒmaĆah Sultan (b. â1630): c. 1672, most probably illness
Emetullah Rabia GĂŒlnĂŒs Sultan (b. â1642): 6 November 1715, illness
 A short discussion about the history and customs of funerals
For a long time, the sultans were the only "inhabitants" of their tomb. In this Murad III made a change, burying his executed siblings next to his father, Selim II. But over time, Murad broke another tradition when he buried his mother, Nurbanu, next to his father in his tomb. For in the past centuries the wifes and consorts of the sultans had not been placed in a tomb with their master, and for a long time not even in their mosque. An early exception to this was SĂŒleyman I's mother AyĆe Hafsa, who was buried in SĂŒleyman I's father's mosque. Over time, SĂŒleyman buried his only wife, HĂŒrrem, in his own mosque in a separate tomb. And later Nurbanu was the first woman to rest right next to her husband in the same tomb. Importantly, however, Murad had already done a similar thing before Nurbanu. When Mihrimah Sultan passed away, knowing how close she was to his father, Murad buried her in SĂŒleymanâs tomb, right next to her father. This is particularly interesting because Mihrimahâs husband RĂŒstem also had a mosque where Mihrimah could have been buried, but the mosque of Mihrimahâs brothers, the Ćehzade Mosque, would also have been suitable for her. All indicate that Murad buried Mihrimah next to his father with a reason, as he later did with his mother and father. Â
Back to Nurbanu, in her case, another tradition was broken. It was not only in life but in death as well that Nurbanu Sultan enjoyed extraordinary honors. Contrary to the custom whereby the sultan remained in the palace during a funeral, Murad accompanied his motherâs coffin on foot, weeping as he walked, to the mosque of Mehmed the Conqueror, where funeral prayers were said. The choice of the Conquerorâs mosque, the most distant of the sultanic mosques from the imperial palace, ensured both a maximum number of bystandersâ prayers for Nurbanuâs soul and maximum appreciation by the capitalâs residents of this display of royal piety and respect for the valide sultan. According to the historian Selaniki, the âwhole worldâ crowded into the mosque for the funeral prayers. For forty days high-ranking statesmen and religious officials were required to pay their respects at the valide sultanâs tomb, while the Qurâan was read continuously. The extraordinary nature of this funeral is suggested by the fact that in the extensive collection of the Topkapı Palace Library, the only miniature that depicts an event in the life of a female member of the dynasty is one illustrating the emergence of Nurbanu Sultanâs funeral cortĂšge from the imperial palace.
 *PS: The dates in the lists are not always widely accepted. There are dates of birth and death that historians are still debating to this day. In these cases, I have mentioned the dates I consider most plausible.
 Used sources: Leslie Peirce â The imperial harem, Women and Sovereignty in the Ottoman Empire; Leslie Peirce â Empress of the east; Colin Imber â The Ottoman Empire, 1300-1650; GĂŒnhan Börekçi â Factions and Favorites at the courts of Sultan Ahmed (r. 1603-17) and his immediate predecessors; Douglas A. Howard â A History of the Ottoman Empire.
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A halĂĄl is nagyon komoly rĂ©szĂ©t kĂ©pezte az OszmĂĄn Birodalomnak, kĂŒlönösen mert rendkĂvĂŒl gyakori volt az erĆszakos halĂĄl a dinasztia fĂ©rfitagjai között. Mindannyian ismerjĂŒk a testvĂ©rgyilkossĂĄg törvĂ©nyĂ©t, mely okĂĄn több szĂĄz herceget (sok esetben csecsemĆket, gyermekeket) fojtottak meg a selyemzsineggel. Mai posztomban azonban inkĂĄbb azokrĂłl szeretnĂ©k szĂłlni, akik esetĂ©ben nem ennyire egyĂ©rtelmƱ a halĂĄl oka, ideje. NĂ©hĂĄny Ă©rdekes, esetleg gyanĂșs halĂĄlesetet hoztam el szĂĄmotokra, illetve megprĂłbĂĄltam összeszedni mindent az egyes szultĂĄnok, hercegek Ă©s szultĂĄnĂĄk halĂĄlĂĄnak okairĂłl; valamint a temetkezĂ©s rövid törtĂ©netĂ©t is elhoztam: kiket hovĂĄ temettek, mikor ĂĄlltak be rendhagyĂł vĂĄltozĂĄsok a temetkezĂ©si szokĂĄsokbanâŠ
Az ĂĄltalĂĄnossĂĄgban elmondhatĂł, hogy a korai periĂłdus szultĂĄnjainak halĂĄlĂĄrĂłl igen keveset tudunk. Nagyon sok esetben csak talĂĄlgatĂĄsok maradtak rĂĄnk a halĂĄl okĂĄrĂłl. I. Murad (u. 1362-1389) halĂĄla azonban pĂ©ldĂĄul egy ĂŒdĂtĆ kivĂ©tel, esetĂ©ben ugyanis több leĂrĂĄs is kĂ©szĂŒlt halĂĄlĂĄrĂłl. Egy szerb nemes gyilkolta meg tĆrrel a RigĂłmezei csata (1389) alatt vagy elĆtt. â⊠teljesen vĂĄratlanul egy bizonyos Milos Obilic, aki ravaszsĂĄgbĂłl Ă©s cselszövĂ©sbĆl azt mondta, hogy felvette az iszlĂĄmot, arra kĂ©rt bennĂŒnket, hogy (âŠ)megcsĂłkolja a fĂ©nylĆ nagyĂșr lĂĄbĂĄt, ahelyett, hogy ezt tette volna, elhĂĄrĂthatatlanul ruhĂĄjĂĄba elrejtett mĂ©rgezett kĂ©st szĂșrt a fĂ©nylĆ nagyĂșr dicsĆ testĂ©be, s sĂșlyosan megsebezvĂ©n megitatta Ćt a mĂĄrtĂrok serbetjĂ©vel.â TermĂ©szetesen nem bizonyos, hogy minden a leĂrtak szerint törtĂ©nt, az azonban biztos, hogy gyilkossĂĄg ĂĄldozata lett Milos Obilic keze ĂĄltal.
I. Bayezid (u. 1389-1402) halĂĄla maga szintĂ©n Ă©rdekes, egyesek Ășgy vĂ©lik, hogy öngyilkos lett Timur Lenk (u. 1370-1405) fogsĂĄgĂĄban, miutĂĄn az, szeme lĂĄttĂĄra alĂĄzta meg felesĂ©gĂ©t MariĂĄt. MĂĄsok szerint megmĂ©rgeztĂ©k a fogsĂĄg idejĂ©n. AkĂĄrhogyan is, a szultĂĄnok halĂĄla mindig valami Ășj kezdetĂ©t jelentette. Ha a szultĂĄn meghalt, nem volt idĆ gyĂĄszolni. Asszonyaiknak, felesĂ©geiknek Ă©s a fĆbb vezĂreinek ugyanis mĂĄs dolga volt a halĂĄl beĂĄllta utĂĄn: azonnal Ă©rtesĂteni a koronaherceget, vagy azt a herceget, akit Ćk maguk a trĂłnon akartak lĂĄtni. A szultĂĄn ugyanis az lett, aki elĆször Ă©rt a fĆvĂĄrosba Ă©s foglalta el a trĂłnt. A korai idĆszakban a szultĂĄnok gyakran az otthonuktĂłl â a birodalmi fĆvĂĄrostĂłl â tĂĄvol, hadjĂĄrat sorĂĄn hunytak el, Ăgy vezĂreik voltak azok, akik Ă©rtesĂtettĂ©k a hercegeket a helyzetrĆl. A hercegek pedig mindent megtettek, hogy egymĂĄs elĆbb Ă©rhessenek a fĆvĂĄrosba. Ebben pedig sok esetben segĂtsĂ©get is kaptak az Ćket tĂĄmogatĂł pasĂĄktĂłl. Ăgy kerĂŒlhetett pĂ©ldĂĄul trĂłnra II. Bayezid (u. 1481-1512) is. LĂĄnyait korĂĄbban befolyĂĄsos pasĂĄkhoz adta nĆĂŒl, vejei pedig mindent megtettek, hogy Bayezid legnagyobb vetĂ©lytĂĄrsĂĄt, egyik testvĂ©rĂ©t lelassĂthassĂĄk az Isztambulba vezetĆ Ășton. Sikerrel jĂĄrtak Ă©s Bayezid elfoglalta a trĂłnt, Ćk pedig megkaptĂĄk Ă©rte jutalmukat.
II. Bayeziddel ellentĂ©tben, I. SzulejmĂĄn szultĂĄn (u. 1520-1566) halĂĄlakor nem volt mĂĄr vetĂ©lytĂĄrsa fiĂĄnak, II. Szelimnek (u. 1566-1574). Azonban SzulejmĂĄn mĂ©gis nagyon rossz pillanatban â Ă©pp egy csata kellĆs közepĂ©n â hunyt el a köszvĂ©nye okozta egĂ©szsĂ©gĂŒgyi problĂ©mĂĄkban. Hogy elkerĂŒlje a lĂĄzadĂĄst Ă©s a katonĂĄk motivĂĄciĂłjĂĄnak elvesztĂ©sĂ©t, a fĆvezĂr a szultĂĄn halĂĄlĂĄt eltitkolta. SzolgĂĄlĂłkat öltöztetett be a szultĂĄn ruhĂĄiba, hasonlĂł kĂ©zĂrĂĄsĂș Ărnokokkal Ăratott parancsokat a szultĂĄn nevĂ©ben, amĂg II. Szelim megĂ©rkezett vĂ©gre a tĂĄborba Ă©s szultĂĄnnĂĄ lett.
A kĂ©sĆbbi periĂłdusokban mĂĄr a szultĂĄn asszonyaiĂ© volt a fĆszerep, hiszen a szultĂĄnok egyre gyakrabban hunytak el a fĆvĂĄrosban. Erre egyik kĂŒlönösen Ă©rdekes pĂ©lda II. Szelim halĂĄla, mely egy fĂŒrdĆben törtĂ©nĆ elcsĂșszĂĄs utĂĄn Ă©rte, Ă©s amit felesĂ©ge Nurbanu szultĂĄna (â1525-1583) csak a nagyvezĂrrel osztott meg, Ă©s titokban ĂŒzentek Nurbanu fiĂĄnak Muradnak (u. 1574-1595), hogy igyekezzen a fĆvĂĄrosba. Erre azĂ©rt volt szĂŒksĂ©g, mert Murad gyermeköccsei a fĆvĂĄrosban tartĂłzkodtak II. Szelim halĂĄlakor.
A szultĂĄnokat mindig az Ă©ppen aktuĂĄlis birodalmi fĆvĂĄrosban helyeztĂ©k örök nyugalomra. Bursa, mint korĂĄbbi fĆvĂĄros egyĂ©bkĂ©nt Isztambul elfoglalĂĄsa utĂĄn is fontos szerepet Ćrzött, ugyanis a kivĂ©gzett vagy termĂ©szetes mĂłdon elhunyt hercegeket itt helyeztĂ©k örök nyugalomra. TermĂ©szetesen ebben is akadt kivĂ©tel, I. SzulejmĂĄn (u. 1520-1566) uralkodĂĄsa alatt rögtön kettĆ is. Kedvenc fia, Mehmed (1521-1543) betegsĂ©gben halt meg ManisĂĄban, ĂĄm a szokĂĄsokkal szakĂtva SzulejmĂĄn nem csak, hogy a fĆvĂĄrosban temette el Bursa helyett, de egyenesen szultĂĄnokĂ©val vetekedĆ mecsetet Ă©pĂttetett fia szĂĄmĂĄra. MĂĄsik fia, a lĂĄzadĂł Bayezid (1525-1562) kevĂ©ssĂ© volt szerencsĂ©s. Mivel az irĂĄni hatĂĄr mellett vĂ©geztĂ©k ki, SzulejmĂĄn mĂ©g a Bursai temetĂ©st is megtagadta tĆle, Ă©s az irĂĄni hatĂĄr mellett lelt örök nyugalomra fiai mellett. Legkisebb fia, aki csecsemĆ volt Ă©s nem tudott apjĂĄval egyĂŒtt IrĂĄnba menekĂŒlni, kivĂ©gzĂ©se utĂĄn BursĂĄba lett eltemetve a többi hasonlĂł sorsĂș herceg között.
MielĆtt tovasuhannĂĄnk Ă©s a szultĂĄnĂĄkat vennĂ©nk gĂłrcsĆ alĂĄ, itt egy kis összefoglalĂł a âNĆk szultĂĄnĂĄtusĂĄnakâ idĆszakĂĄbĂłl Ă©s az azt közvetlenĂŒl megelĆzĆ idĆszakbĂłl, a szultĂĄnok Ă©s hercegek halĂĄlĂĄnak okairĂłl, a teljessĂ©g igĂ©nye nĂ©lkĂŒl*:
II. Bayezid (sz. 1447): 1512. ĂĄprilis 24, feltehetĆleg mĂ©rgezĂ©s, de a termĂ©szetes halĂĄl is felmerĂŒl
I. Szelim (sz. 1470): 1520. szeptember 22, feltehetĆleg daganatos betegsĂ©g vagy lĂ©pfene, de a mĂ©rgezĂ©s Ă©s pestis is opciĂł
I. SzulejmĂĄn (sz. 1494): 1566. szeptember 7, köszvĂ©ny, de rĂĄadĂĄsnak az agyvĂ©rzĂ©s is felmerĂŒlt
Ćehzade Mahmud (sz. 1512): 1521. oktĂłber 29, himlĆ vagy pestis
Ćehzade Musztafa (sz. 1515): 1553. oktĂłber 6, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Mehmed (sz. 1546): 1553. oktĂłber 10, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Ahmed (sz. ?): 1552, betegsĂ©g
Ćehzade Murad (sz. 1519): 1521. oktĂłber 12, himlĆ vagy pestis
Ćehzade Mehmed (sz. 1521): 1543. november 6, feltehetĆleg himlĆ
Ćehzade Abdullah (sz. â1525): c. 1527, talĂĄn himlĆ vagy pestis
Ćehzade Bayezid (sz. â1525 ): 1562. jĂșlius 23, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Orhan (sz. â1543): 1562. jĂșlius 23, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Osman (sz. â1545): 1562. jĂșlius 23, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Abdullah (sz. â1548): 1562. jĂșlius 23, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Mehmed (sz. â1544): 1562. jĂșlius 23, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Murad (sz. â1556): 1562. jĂșlius 23, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade ? (sz. â1560/1), 1562. jĂșlius ?, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Cihangir (sz. 1531): 1553. november 27, krĂłnikus betegsĂ©gek Ă©s valamilyen fertĆzĂ©s
II. Szelim: 1574. december 12/15, elesĂ©st követĆ fejsĂ©rĂŒlĂ©s
Ćehzade Mehmed (sz. â1570): 1573/74, betegsĂ©g
Ćehzade SzulejmĂĄn (sz. â1570): 1574. december 22, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Abdullah (sz. â1570): 1574. december 22, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Ali  (sz. â1572): 1572, szĂŒletĂ©se utĂĄn
Ćehzade OszmĂĄn (sz. â1573/4): 1574. december 22, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Cihangir (sz. â1573/4): 1574. december 22, megfojtĂĄs
III. Murad (sz. 1546): 1595. januår 16, természetes okok
Ćehzade Szelim (sz. 1567): 1595. januĂĄr 28, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Mahmud (sz. 1568): c. 1581, betegsĂ©g
Ćehzade SzulejmĂĄn, Cihangir, Ahmed Ă©s feltehetĆleg mĂĄs hercegek is: szĂŒletĂ©sĂŒk utĂĄn egybĆl
Ćehzade Abdullah (sz. 1585): 1595. januĂĄr 28, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Musztafa (sz. 1585): 1595. januĂĄr 28, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Bayezid (sz. 1586): 1595. januĂĄr 28, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Cihangir (sz. 1587): 1595. januĂĄr 28, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Abdurrahman (sz. ?): 1595. januĂĄr 28, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade AlemĆah (sz. ?): 1595. januĂĄr 28, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Aleaddin Davud (sz. ?): 1595. januĂĄr 28, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Ali (sz. ?): 1595. januĂĄr 28, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Hasan (sz. ?): 1595. januĂĄr 28, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade HĂŒseyin (sz. ?): 1595. januĂĄr 28, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Ishak (sz. ?): 1595. januĂĄr 28, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Murad (sz. ?): 1595. januĂĄr 28, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade OszmĂĄn (sz. ?): 1595. januĂĄr 28, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Ămer (sz. ?): 1595. januĂĄr 28, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Yusuf (sz. ?): 1595. januĂĄr 28, megfojtĂĄs
III. Mehmed (sz. 1566): 1603. december 21, termĂ©szetes okok (egyesek szerint tĂșlsĂșlyhoz köthetĆ egĂ©szsĂ©gĂŒgyi problĂ©mĂĄk)
Ćehzade Szelim (sz. 1585): 1597, betegsĂ©g
Ćehzade Mahmud (sz. 1587): 1603, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade SzulejmĂĄn (sz. ?): 1597, betegsĂ©g
Ćehzade Cihangir (sz. ?): 1602, betegsĂ©g
I. Ahmed (sz. 1590): 1617. november 22, feltehetĆleg tĂfusz vagy gyomorvĂ©rzĂ©s
Ćehzade Mehmed (sz. 1605): 1621. januĂĄr 12, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Bayezid (sz. 1612): 1635. jĂșlius 27, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Kasim (sz. 1614): 1638. februĂĄr 17, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade SzulejmĂĄn (sz. 1615): 1635. jĂșlius 27, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Hasan, Orhan, Selim, HĂŒseyin, Cihangir Ă©s feltehetĆleg mĂĄs hercegek is csecsemĆkĂ©nt agy gyermekkĂ©nt
I. Musztafa (sz. â1600): 1639, termĂ©szetes okok (de az epilepszia is felmerĂŒl)
II. OszmĂĄn (sz. 1604): brutĂĄlis gyilkossĂĄg
Ćehzade Ămer (sz. 1621): 1622, több opciĂł is lĂ©tezik: baleset, gyilkossĂĄg, betegsĂ©g, sokk
IV. Murad (sz. 1612): 1640. februĂĄr 8, mĂĄjzsugor Ă©s feltehetĆleg egyĂ©b krĂłnikus betegsĂ©gek
Rengeteg fia szĂŒletett, ĂĄm Evliya Celebi szerint mindannyian gyenge egĂ©szsĂ©ggel szĂŒlettek, majd haltak meg nem sokkal kĂ©sĆbb. A hĂĄttĂ©rben egyesek mĂ©rgezĂ©st sejtenek, de lehetett genetikai betegsĂ©g is, amely a fiĂșkat Ă©rintette.
I. Ibrahim (sz. 1615): 1648. augusztus 18, megfojtĂĄs
Ćehzade Murad, Osman, Bayezid, Cihangir gyermekkĂ©nt elhunytak betegsĂ©g következtĂ©ben
Ćehzade Selim (sz. 1644): 1669, feltehetĆleg betegsĂ©g
IV. Mehmed (sz. 1642): 1693. november 6, természetes okok
II. SzulejmĂĄn (sz. 1642): 1691. jĂșnius 22, teste felduzzadt, kĂłmĂĄba esett majd meghalt valamilyen betegsĂ©gtĆl
II. Ahmed (sz. 1643): 1695. februĂĄr 6, termĂ©szetes okok, de a stressz okozta szĂvroham/agyvĂ©rzĂ©s is opciĂł
KĂŒlönösen ritka, mikor a pontos ok Ă©s idĆpont is rendelkezĂ©sĂŒnkre ĂĄll a szultĂĄnĂĄk esetĂ©ben. Az Ć Ă©letĂŒket elsĆsorban feljegyzĂ©sekbĆl ismerjĂŒk, melyek a tulajdonaikat Ă©s fizetĂ©seiket listĂĄzzĂĄk. Ăgy sok esetben csak következtetni tudunk rĂĄ, hogy amikor eltƱntek a feljegyzĂ©sekbĆl, akkor hunyhattak el. Azonban ezek a feljegyzĂ©sek gyakran hiĂĄnyosak, elĆfordul, hogy több Ă©vre, Ă©vtizedre sincsenek meg, esetleg töredĂ©kesek. Emellett a halĂĄl okĂĄt mĂ©g ritkĂĄbban jegyeztĂ©k fel. Erre ĂĄltalĂĄban onnan tudunk következtetni, hogy szĂŒletett e gyermek, volt e friss hĂĄzassĂĄg a halĂĄl idejĂ©t közvetlenĂŒl megelĆzĆen, volt e esetleg hatalmas jĂĄrvĂĄny a halĂĄl ideje alatt? Valamint a befolyĂĄsosabb szultĂĄnĂĄk esetĂ©ben a törtĂ©netĂrĂłk, követek elĆfordult, hogy feljegyeztĂ©k a halĂĄl feltĂ©telezett okĂĄt. Ez azonban meglehetĆsen ritka, ahogy a fejezet aljĂĄn talĂĄlhatĂł listĂĄt olvasva is egyĂ©rtelmƱvĂ© vĂĄlik.
A szultĂĄnok temetĂ©se mindig kettĆs Ă©rzĂ©seket vĂĄltott ki az emberekbĆl. EgyrĂ©szt a temetĂ©s napjĂĄn Ășj szultĂĄn trĂłnra lĂ©pĂ©sĂ©t ĂŒnnepeltĂ©k, Ă©s az Ășj szultĂĄn kivĂ©gzett testvĂ©röccseit gyĂĄszoltĂĄk. Ezzel szemben a szultĂĄnĂĄk gyĂĄszszertartĂĄsai Ă©s temetĂ©si szokĂĄsai sokkal nyugodtabbak voltak, nagyobb figyelmet kaptak ilyen Ă©rtelemben. HalĂĄlukkor a nincsteleneknek gyakran osztottak lelki ĂŒdvĂŒkĂ©rt alamizsnĂĄt, Ă©telt. Erre pĂ©ldĂĄul Handan valide szutĂĄna (â1570-1605) 1605. november 9-i halĂĄlĂĄt követĆen temetĂ©se remek pĂ©lda. A velencei követ feljegyezte, hogy milyen hatalmas mennyisĂ©gƱ alamizsnĂĄt osztottak szĂ©t az emberek között. Emellett egy valide szultĂĄna halĂĄla Ă©s temetĂ©se mindig nyilvĂĄnos gyĂĄszszertartĂĄshoz volt köthetĆ, hiszen a nĂ©p Ăgy ki tudta fejezni egyĂŒttĂ©rzĂ©sĂ©t a szultĂĄnnal, aki Ă©desanyjĂĄt veszĂtette el ekkor. AyĆe Hafsa (â1475-1534), I. SzulejmĂĄn Ă©desanyjĂĄnak halĂĄla utĂĄn pĂ©ldĂĄul a vĂĄros több napra gyĂĄszba borult. Mindemellett a temetĂ©sĂ©t leĂrĂł Celalzade Mustafa serint nagyon hosszĂș imĂĄkkal bĂșcsĂșztattĂĄk, amelyben a legtiszteltebb muszlim asszonyokhoz tettĂ©k Ćt hasonlatossĂĄ, mint pĂ©ldĂĄul Mohamed prĂłfĂ©ta elsĆ felesĂ©ge Hatice, leĂĄnya Fatma Ă©s harmadik, egyben kedvenc felesĂ©ge AyĆe: âNagyon vallĂĄsos asszony volt, az igazlelkƱ cselekedetek asszonya, a tisztasĂĄg kirĂĄlynĆje, korĂĄnak HaticĂ©je; jĂłtĂ©kony intĂ©zetek alapĂtĂłja, korĂĄnak FatmĂĄja Ă©s AyĆĂ©je.â
A szultĂĄnĂĄk esetĂ©ben az erĆszakos halĂĄl helyett a gyermekszĂŒlĂ©s volt vezetĆ halĂĄlok. Sokan a szĂŒlĂ©sbe haltak bele, mert bĂĄr a palota orvosai Ă©s bĂĄbĂĄi a vilĂĄg legjobbjai voltak, a szĂŒlĂ©s veszĂ©lyes tevĂ©kenysĂ©g volt azokban az idĆkben. TĂ©ny azonban, hogy a nyugati birodalmakhoz kĂ©pest jĂłval kevesebb asszony halt bele a szĂŒlĂ©sbe vagy gyermekĂĄgyi lĂĄzba az OszmĂĄn Birodalom dinasztiĂĄjĂĄbĂłl. A leghĂresebb szĂŒlĂ©shez kapcsolĂłdĂł halĂĄl Esmehan KayĂĄĂ©. Kaya szultĂĄna (1633-1658) IV. Murad (u. 1623-1640) leĂĄnya volt, aki örökölte apja termĂ©szetĂ©t, sokan Ćt tartottĂĄk Murad legmĂ©ltĂłbb gyermekĂ©nek. LegendĂĄk szerint Esmehan KayĂĄnak megjövendöltĂ©k mĂ©g fiatal korĂĄban, hogy a szĂŒlĂ©sbe fog belehalni, emiatt Ă©vekig nem engedte közel magĂĄhoz a fĂ©rjĂ©t. FĂ©rjĂ©vel azonban idĆvel igazi szerelem alakult ki, mely termĂ©szetesen testileg is beteljesĂŒlt. Esmehan Kaya kĂ©t gyermeknek is Ă©letet adott, Ăgy talĂĄn mĂĄr el is felejtette a jövendölĂ©st Ă©s fellĂ©legzett. Harmadik gyermeke szĂŒletĂ©sekor azonban komplikĂĄciĂłk lĂ©ptek fel. A placenta nem akart levĂĄlni, hiĂĄba prĂłbĂĄlkoztak kĂŒlönfĂ©le tortĂșrĂĄkkal a bĂĄbĂĄk, Ăgy a szĂŒlĂ©st követĆen nĂ©hĂĄny nappal vĂ©rmĂ©rgezĂ©sben elhunyt, borzalmas szenvedĂ©sek utĂĄn. KislĂĄnya sem Ă©lte tĂșl sokkal. Kaya egyik testvĂ©re, Safiye (â1540-1580) szintĂ©n gyermekszĂŒlĂ©sbe halt bele.
Azonban nem Kaya Ă©s hĂșga volt az egyetlen, hasonlĂł mĂłdon halt meg II. Szelim (u. 1566-1574) kĂ©t leĂĄnya is: Fatma szultĂĄna (1558-1580), aki kislĂĄnya szĂŒletĂ©sĂ©be halt bele a gyermekkel egyĂŒtt, meglehetĆsen fiatalon; Esmehan szultĂĄna (â1545-1585) pedig negyedik gyermeke szĂŒlĂ©se utĂĄn fellĂ©pĆ komplikĂĄciĂłkba halt bele, fia alig egy hĂłnappal Ă©lte tĂșl csupĂĄn. EsetĂ©ben a komplikĂĄciĂłknak köze lehetett ahhoz is, hogy a kor szokĂĄsaihoz kĂ©pest viszonylag kĂ©sĆn, nagyjĂĄbĂłl negyven Ă©vesen szĂŒlt. Ărdekes egyĂ©bkĂ©nt, hogy Szelim mĂĄsik leĂĄnya, Ćah (1544-1580) is viszonylag fiatalon hunyt el betegsĂ©g következtĂ©ben, Ăgy Szelim leĂĄnyai közĂŒl egyedĂŒl Gevherhan (â1545-1622?) volt az, aki megĂ©rte az idĆskort Ă©s feltehetĆleg termĂ©szetes okoktĂłl hunyt el.
LegendĂĄk szerint egyĂ©bkĂ©nt III. Murad (u. 1574-1595) kedvese, Safiye szultĂĄna (â1550-1620?) is majdnem belehalt egyik vetĂ©lĂ©sĂ©be, ĂĄm mint tudjuk Ć vĂ©gĂŒl tĂșlĂ©lte Ă©s mĂ©g sok-sok Ă©vig uralkodhatott. KevĂ©sbĂ© volt szerencsĂ©s Mahfiruze Hatun (â1590-1608/12?), I. Ahmed ĂĄgyasa, Ă©s legidĆsebb fiĂĄnak anyja, aki feltehetĆleg szintĂ©n a szĂŒlĂ©sbe halt bele, igaz esetĂ©ben több alternatĂva is felmerĂŒlt halĂĄlĂĄnak okĂĄval kapcsolatban, Ăgy többek között a jĂĄrvĂĄny is egy opciĂł esetĂ©ben.
Ărdekes, hogy a szultĂĄn kedvencei között mĂ©g ennĂ©l is kevesebb esetet ismerĂŒnk, amikor egy ĂĄgyas halt bele a szĂŒlĂ©sbe. Ennek oka azonban feltehetĆleg nem az, hogy ilyen nem törtĂ©nt⊠Hanem az, hogy ha az ĂĄgyas belehalt a szĂŒlĂ©sĂ©be egyszerƱen feledĂ©sbe merĂŒlt. Hiszen az ĂĄtlag ĂĄgyasok nem adtak Ă©letet nagyszĂĄmĂș gyermeknek, kĂŒlönösen, amĂg az egy ĂĄgyas â egy herceg szabĂĄlyt betartottĂĄk. Ăgy nagy esĂ©llyel, ha belehaltak a szĂŒlĂ©sbe, akkor vagy nem volt mĂĄs gyermekĂŒk vagy csak leĂĄnyuk, Ăgy kevĂ©sbĂ© voltak fontos szemĂ©lyek, kevesebb feljegyzĂ©sbe kerĂŒlt bele a nevĂŒk, majd eltƱntek a köztudatbĂłl.
âNĆk szultĂĄnĂĄtusĂĄnakâ idĆszakĂĄbĂłl szintĂ©n összegyƱjtöttem a legismertebb szultĂĄnĂĄk halĂĄlĂĄnak okait Ă©s idejĂ©t, a teljessĂ©g igĂ©nye nĂ©lkĂŒl, hiszen sok szultĂĄna kimaradt a listĂĄbĂłl, mert esetĂŒkben sem az Ă©vszĂĄm, sem az ok nem ismert, sĆt sok esetben mĂ©g neveik sem*:
AyĆe Hafsa szultĂĄna (sz. â1475): 1534. mĂĄrcius 19, betegsĂ©g, feltehetĆleg agyvĂ©rzĂ©s vagy daganatos betegsĂ©g
Beyhan szultĂĄna (sz. â1492): c. 1559, valĂłszĂnƱleg termĂ©szetes okok
Hatice szultĂĄna (sz. â1491): ?
Fatma szultĂĄna (sz. â1493): 1557, termĂ©szetes okok vagy betegsĂ©g
I. Szelim leĂĄnyai
Hafsa szultĂĄna (sz. â1495/1500): 1538. jĂșlius 10, feltehetĆleg betegsĂ©g
Ćah-i Huban szultĂĄna (sz. â1500): 1572, termĂ©szetes okok
HĂŒrrem szultĂĄna (sz. â1503): 1558. ĂĄprilis 15, feltehetĆleg daganatos betegsĂ©g, malĂĄriĂĄval nehezĂtve
Mihrimah szultåna (sz. 1522): 1578. januår 25, természetes okok vagy hasonló betegség, mint édesanyjånål
AyĆe HĂŒmaĆah (sz. 1541): 1594, termĂ©szetes okok
Ćehzade Mehmed leĂĄnya
HĂŒmaĆah szultĂĄna (sz. 1543): 1582, termĂ©szetes okok vagy betegsĂ©g
Fatma Hanimsultan (sz. 1567): 1588. jĂșlius 29, betegsĂ©g vagy szĂŒlĂ©s sorĂĄn fellĂ©pĆ komplikĂĄciĂłk
I. SzulejmĂĄn kislĂĄnya, Raziye szultĂĄna (sz. â1515): 1521 oktĂłbere, himlĆ vagy pestis
Mahidevran Hatun  (sz. â1500): 1581. februĂĄr 3, termĂ©szetes okok
Mahidevran Hatun unokĂĄi:
Fatma szultĂĄna (sz. â1545): 1577, szĂŒlĂ©s vagy betegsĂ©g következtĂ©ben
Nergiz-Ćah szultĂĄna (sz. â1536): c. 1592, termĂ©szetes okok vagy betegsĂ©g
GĂŒlfem Hatun (sz. â1495): 1562, termĂ©szetes okok vagy gyilkossĂĄg
Nurbanu szultĂĄna (sz. â1525): 1583. december 7, mĂ©rgezĂ©s vagy valamilyen hirtelen termĂ©szetes ok (talĂĄn agyvĂ©rzĂ©s, szĂvroham)
Esmehan szultĂĄna (sz. â1545): 1585. augusztus 8, gyermekszĂŒlĂ©st követĆ komplikĂĄciĂłk
Ćah szultĂĄna (sz. 1544): 1580. szeptember, betegsĂ©g
Gevherhan szultĂĄna (sz. â1545): 1604 utĂĄn, lehetsĂ©ges, hogy 1622, termĂ©szetes okok
II. Szelim leĂĄnya:
Fatma szultĂĄna (sz. 1558): 1580. szeptember, gyermekszĂŒlĂ©s (valĂłszĂnƱleg komplikĂĄciĂłs koraszĂŒlĂ©s)
Safiye szultĂĄna  (sz. â1550): c. 1520, termĂ©szetes okok
AyĆe szultĂĄna (sz. â1565): 1605. mĂĄjus 15, feltehetĆleg betegsĂ©g
HĂŒmaĆah szultĂĄna (sz. â1565): 1580 utĂĄn, feltehetĆleg betegsĂ©g vagy szĂŒlĂ©s
Fatma szultĂĄna (sz. â1565): c. 1620, termĂ©szetes okok
III. Murad leĂĄnya:
Fahriye szultĂĄna (sz. â1588): 1641 utĂĄn, termĂ©szetes okok
Rukiye szultĂĄna  (sz. â1593): c. 1623, feltehetĆleg betegsĂ©g vagy gyermekszĂŒlĂ©s
Handan szultĂĄna (sz. â1570): 1605. november 9, emĂ©sztĆrendszeri problĂ©mĂĄk
Halime szultĂĄna (sz. â1570): 1623 utĂĄn, ?
Kösem szultĂĄna (sz. â1590): 1651. szeptember 2, megfojtĂĄs
Hanzade szultĂĄna (sz. â1609): 1650. szeptember 23., betegsĂ©g vagy termĂ©szetes okok
AyĆe szultĂĄna (sz. â1605/7): c. 1657, feltehetĆleg termĂ©szetes okok
Fatma szultĂĄna (sz. â1606): c. 1670, feltehetĆleg termĂ©szetes okok
I. Ahmed leĂĄnyai
Gevherhan szultĂĄna (sz. â1605): 1660, termĂ©szetes okok
Abide szultĂĄna (sz. 1618): c. 1648, feltehetĆleg betegsĂ©g
Atike szultĂĄna (sz. â1614): c. 1670, feltehetĆleg termĂ©szetes okok
AyĆe szultĂĄna (sz. â1610): c. 1680, termĂ©szetes okok
Esmehan Kaya szultĂĄna (sz. 1633): 1658, szĂŒlĂ©s utĂĄn fellĂ©pĆ komplikĂĄciĂłk
IV. Murad leĂĄnyai
Safiye szultĂĄna (sz. 1635):1680, szĂŒlĂ©s utĂĄn fellĂ©pĆ komplikĂĄciĂłk
Rukiye szultĂĄna (sz. â1640): 1696, valĂłszĂnƱleg termĂ©szetes okok
Hanzade (sz. 1631): 1675, valĂłszĂnƱleg termĂ©szetes okok
Turhan Hatice szultĂĄna (sz. â1627): 1683, termĂ©szetes okok, feltehetĆleg betegsĂ©g következtĂ©ben
Fatma szultåna (sz. 1642): 1657, betegség következtében
Ibrahim leĂĄnyai:
Gevherhan szultåna (sz. 1642): 1694. szeptember 21, hosszas betegség
Beyhan szultåna (sz. 1645): 1701. mårcius 5, természetes okok
Hatice Muazzez szultĂĄna (sz. â1627): 1687. szeptember 12, feltehetĆleg szĂvroham
Saliha DilaĆub szultĂĄna (sz. â1627): 1689. december 4, betegsĂ©g
Telli HĂŒmaĆah szultĂĄna (sz. â1630): c. 1672, feltehetĆleg betegsĂ©g
Emetullah Rabia GĂŒlnĂŒs szultĂĄna (sz. â1642): 1715. november 6, hosszas betegsĂ©g utĂĄn
A temetĂ©sekrĆl nĂ©hĂĄny szĂł vĂ©gezetĂŒl
A szultĂĄnok hosszĂș ideig tĂŒrbĂ©jĂŒk egyedĂŒli lakĂł voltak. Ebben III. Murad hozott vĂĄltozĂĄst, aki kivĂ©geztetett testvĂ©reit is apja mellĂ© temette. De idĆvel Ășjabb tradĂciĂłt szegett meg Murad, amikor Ă©desanyjĂĄt, Nurbanut apja mellĂ© temette annak tĂŒrbĂ©jĂ©be. KorĂĄbban ugyanis a szultĂĄnok asszonyai nem kerĂŒltek a szultĂĄnjukkal közös tĂŒrbĂ©be, sĆt sokĂĄig mĂ©g annak mecsetjĂ©ben sem temethettĂ©k el Ćket. Erre egy korai kivĂ©tel I. SzulejmĂĄn Ă©desanyja AyĆe Hafsa volt, akit SzulejmĂĄn apja mecsetjĂ©be temetett el. IdĆvel SzulejmĂĄn egyetlen felesĂ©gĂ©t, HĂŒrremet is a sajĂĄt mecsetjĂ©ben helyezte örök nyugalomra egy kĂŒlönĂĄllĂł tĂŒrbĂ©be. EzekutĂĄn Nurbanu volt az elsĆ asszony, aki közvetlenĂŒl fĂ©rje mellett nyugodhatott. Fontos azonban, hogy Murad mĂĄr Nurbanu elĆtt is tett hasonlĂłt. Amikor Mihrimah szultĂĄna elhunyt, tudva, hogy a szultĂĄna mennyire közel ĂĄllt Ă©desapjĂĄhoz, SzulejmĂĄn tĂŒrbĂ©jĂ©be temette el, közvetlenĂŒl Ă©desapja mellĂ©. Ez kĂŒlönösen Ă©rdekes, mert Mihrimah fĂ©rjĂ©nek RĂŒsztemnek is volt mecsetje, ahovĂĄ Mihrimaht temethettĂ©k volna, de Mihrimah testvĂ©reinek mecsetje a Ćehzade mecset is alkalmas lett volna a szultĂĄna szĂĄmĂĄra. Minden jel arra mutat, hogy Murad okkal temette apja mellĂ© Mihrimaht.
Nurbanuhoz visszatĂ©rve, esetĂ©ben mĂ©g egy tradĂciĂł megszakadt. Nurbanu ugyanis nem csak Ă©letĂ©ben viselhetett kĂŒlönleges jogokat, de halĂĄlakor is kĂŒlönleges tiszteletben rĂ©szesĂŒlt. FiĂĄval valĂł szoros kapcsolata jĂłl ismert mindenki szĂĄmĂĄra, ennek pedig tökĂ©letes megnyilvĂĄnulĂĄsa volt, amikor holtteste elhagyta a Topkapi PalotĂĄt. A hagyomĂĄnyok szerint a koporsĂłt befolyĂĄsos pasĂĄk vittĂ©k Ă©s kĂsĂ©rtĂ©k az imahelyre, a szultĂĄn pedig ez alatt a palotĂĄban maradt gyĂĄszolni. Murad azonban nem akarta Ă©desanyjĂĄt egyedĂŒl elengedni, ezĂ©rt maga ment a koporsĂł elĆtt Ă©s zokogott. Nurbanu gyĂĄszszertartĂĄsĂĄnak helye is Ă©rdekes volt, ugyanis HĂłdĂtĂł Mehmed mecsetjĂ©t vĂĄlasztottĂĄk e cĂ©lra, ami a legtĂĄvolabb fekĂŒdt a birodalmi palotĂĄtĂłl. Ennek cĂ©lja az volt, hogy a legtöbb ember lĂĄthassa a temetĂ©st Ă©s imĂĄdkozhasson a valide szultĂĄna lelkiĂŒdvĂ©Ă©rt. A törtĂ©nĂ©sz Selaniki szerint az âegĂ©sz vilĂĄgâ odacsoportosult a mecsetbe a temetĂ©si imĂĄra. Negyven napig olvastak Ă©rte fel a KorĂĄnbĂłl Ă©s negyven napig jĂĄrtak magas rangĂș pasĂĄk a tĂŒrbĂ©jĂ©hez. ĂrdekessĂ©g â Ă©s ez is jelzi Nurbanu befolyĂĄsĂĄt â, hogy a Topkapi Palota könyvtĂĄrĂĄban megtalĂĄlhatĂł az egyelten olyan miniatĂșra, ami a dinasztia egy nĆtagjĂĄt ĂĄbrĂĄzolja, ez a miniatĂșra pedig Nurbanu temetĂ©sĂ©rĆl szĂłl.
*UI: A listĂĄkban szereplĆ dĂĄtumok nem minden esetben egyezmĂ©nyesek. Vannak olyan szĂŒletĂ©si Ă©s halĂĄlozĂĄsi dĂĄtumok, melyek esetĂ©n a törtĂ©nĂ©szek is vitatkoznak mind a mai napig. Ezekben az esetekben az ĂĄltalam leghihetĆbbnek vĂ©lt dĂĄtumot tĂŒntettem fel.
FelhasznĂĄlt forrĂĄsok: Leslie Peirce â The imperial harem, Women and Sovereignty in the Ottoman Empire; Leslie Peirce â Empress of the east; Colin Imber â The Ottoman Empire, 1300-1650; GĂŒnhan Börekçi â Factions and Favorites at the courts of Sultan Ahmed (r. 1603-17) and his immediate predecessors; Douglas A. Howard â A History of the Ottoman Empire.
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Continuing Travels of Cophine, Part 2, Chapt. 10
Disclaimer reminder: I haven't been to the Middle East, so if I've gotten some details wrong, please let me know in a respectful manner. This chapter and the upcoming ones involved some interesting research, and I've tried talking to people who've been there, but of course things slip through sometimes. Let me know!
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The night after the party, after a small dinner at Sarah's house, Cosima and Delphine rode with Sarah to the airport as cold evening rain peppered the city. Most of the trip was silent, with Cosima in the front seat and Delphine in the back with their carry-on bags. Delphine had spent most of the day recovering and doing a great unintentional impression of a cartoon sloth, but the after-effects of last night's brownies had worn off by late afternoon, and she was more or less back to her usual self.
As the airport infrastructure came into view, Sarah sniffed loudly and rubbed her nose.
âYou gonna be a'right, then?â she asked.
Cosima peeled her face from the passenger side window and blinked at her sister. âYeah. Yeah, we're gonna be fine. Why?â
âNo reason.â
Sarah steered the car towards International Departures and sucked on her teeth.
âWe will have personal security from the moment we arrive in Baghdad,â Delphine assured her. âIt's a highly reviewed company, personally recommended by our contacts both here and abroad.â
âYeah, I know.â Sarah rubbed her nose some more and the airport itself came into view. âI would feel a bit better if Helena went along with you, though, to be honest.â
Cosima laughed and imagined Helena following them around the Middle East. Hell, just getting her through airport security would be a trick to write home about. Putting a hand on Sarah's shoulder, Cosima said, âDo not worry about us. We're okay with what we have, and Helena needs to stay here with her boys. And don't go reading too many news stories about the places we're going to, either.â
Sarah laughed. âNot often someone accuses me of reading too much. Anyway, it's not me. It's the kids, reading up on every place you two go off to. I've got Alison on my case, too, telling me every little horror story she sees online ââ
âYes, we've heard,â Delphine cut in. âShe's been on our cases, too.â
âShe's calmed down recently, though,â Cosima added.
âAnd Art,â Sarah went on, like the words were being pushed from her body against her will. âHe's coming to me every week with some other story he heard from one of the translators about someone's brother getting his head cut off, or somebody's sister being sold off to IS for God knows what. It's not like I just can't listen, Cos.â
The car wound its way into the departures lane and down the alphabet of airlines as everyone thought about what Sarah had said. Aer Lingus, Air Canada, Air France...
âWell,â Cosima said, âjust remember, and tell everybody else this, too, that the stuff that makes the news, and the stories people tell, are the exceptions. I mean, yeah, obviously it happens, but not every day. Aid workers go in and out of Iraq and Syria every day without getting any more than a paper cut or a couple of nasty pimples.â
âWe're being careful,â Delphine added. âWe're being very careful.â
Sarah made a face. âRight.â
Five minutes later, Sarah pulled up to the curb near the Turkish Airlines sign. There were hugs and promises to call once they'd arrived in Baghdad, and as Cosima and Delphine went inside with their suitcases and bags, Sarah leaned against her car and watched them go.
Inside, the check-in process was smooth and the security checks predictable, and when they settled into the airport-standard restaurant close to their terminal, they still had thirty minutes before boarding their plane. They sat sipping water and nibbling on what passed for a âharvest salad,â and Cosima watched the other late-night fliers going by while Delphine did her daily social media Leda check, twelve hours later than she usually did.
âYou did yours, then?â she asked Cosima.
âYeah, at lunch time. You were kinda busy trying to remember that pool noodles aren't sentient, though, so you get a pass.â Cosima kissed Delphine's cheek, then her lips. It would be weeks, or possibly months, before she could that in public again. âYou were super cute the whole time, though, fyi.â
Delphine grunted and resumed flipping through status updates of new bikinis, inspirational quotes, and cute babies.
âBy the way, didn't Gabriela call you last night?â
âYou mean while you were baked out of your mind and climbing all over my sister?â
Delphine looked like she had a retort coming, but just rolled her eyes. âYes.â
Cosima giggled and squeezed her fiancĂ©e's arm to show no ill will. âYeah, apparently her husband's divorcing her. Guess he was only in it as a monitor, and he was kind of convinced they could have kids, but when that obviously didn't happen, he peaced out.â
âHm.â If Delphine had any thoughts or comments about being a monitor herself, she kept them to herself. Her thumb hovered over her Facebook feed. âLook at this.â
âWhat's up?â
The post Delphine pointed to was in Hebrew, and the picture beneath it showed a hand with an IV going into it.
âOh, shit,â Cosima whispered.
âIt's Avigail Chernev,â Delphine said. âOne of the Israelis. It's the first time she's posted anything in almost a year.â
Cosima scooted her chair over to get a better view. âIs that her hand? For sure?â
âI assume so. It looks like yours.â
Cosima held her own hand up next to the picture on the phone and squinted. âI'll take your word for that. You are, like, the Leda expert at this point.â
Delphine's eyebrows twitched. âYes, I suppose I am. You're still my favorite, though.â
âThank fuck for that.â
Delphine took a screenshot of the Facebook post and emailed it to David Margolis, their Hebrew translator and Israeli cultural guide based back in Toronto. They would translate it themselves, too, with Google, but David's translations were more accurate and nuanced, and he could more easily match up the texts with others he had on file for both Israeli Ledas.
âThere's WiFi on the plane, at least,â Delphine went on, âwe'll need to monitor this pretty closely.â
Despite the severity of the situation, Cosima smirked. âDid you seriously just say monitor? Even after what I said about Gabriela's husband?â
Delphine stuck her tongue out and copy/ pasted Avigail's status into Google translate. In a second, the English side read Third treatment of the week, here we hope we can cure it soon!
âThird of the week, shit,â Cosima murmured. She pulled up a map of the Middle East on her phone and measured the distance between Baghdad and Tel Aviv. It was a hell of a lot closer than Toronto, but they weren't exactly next door neighbors. And then there was the whole messy political situation.
Meanwhile, Delphine pulled the Europe and the Middle East notebook from her carry-on bag. She flipped through it and tapped her finger on the first Israeli entry.
Avigail Chernev, born 11 June, 1984, in Bet Shemesh, current residence Tel Aviv Monitor as of 2016 â Daniel Fridman Primary care physician as of 2016 â Dr. Joseph Blachar [two msg sent by D.Cormier via D.Margolis, no replies] Social media contacts attempted 21 July, 3 September, and 4 December â no response
Delphine added a line about today's Facebook post on the otherwise empty page that stood in sharp contrast to the information-crowded pages on either side. The page before detailed the medical history and social media habits of Lonah Gerbi, the clone in Haifa they had already made an appointment to treat. Delphine tapped Lonah's page.
âWe're not scheduled to be in Israel until the end of May,â she said. âEight weeks from now.â
âRight, and we scheduled Lonah's treatment after all these other countries for a reason.â
She checked the time. They had fifteen minutes until boarding their plane to Istanbul, where they had a five hour lay-over before flying on to Baghdad. Baghdad, of course, being in one of the many countries with restrictions on travelers who'd had their passports stamped in Israel. Then she looked at Avigail's hand again. Third treatment in one week. Failed treatments, almost certainly, probably radiation or some kind of chemotherapy. The side effects alone probably kept her from working or taking care of her family or whatever else she would have been doing otherwise, and it was quite likely that the treatments had actually hastened the disease's progression, as it had in Jennifer Fitzsimmons.
âShe can't wait until May,â Cosima said. âNone of the other clones in the Middle East have shown these kinds of symptoms.â
âThat we know of.â
She nodded. âThat we know of.â Of course. More than once before had a Leda stayed quiet and private right up until she was dying, and only then did Delphine and Cosima hear anything about it. Desperation brought people out of hiding. Or, in the case of Nooran in Djibouti, brought the attention of enough people to point Cosima and Delphine in the right direction.
Delphine was watching her with those big doe eyes, waiting for her to say something, but the decision was obvious.
âI'll email the airline from the plane,â Cosima said. âChange the flight from Istanbul to Tel Aviv instead of Baghdad.â
Delphine's face didn't change, though. She licked her lips. âWe still have to cure the others, though. Even if they don't have symptoms, we still have to â â
âOh, for sure, we're curing them, too. But we have to get to Avigail first.â
âYes, but â â
The airport announcement gong sounded, announcing preboarding to Turkish Airlines Flight XXX bound for Istanbul. They packed up their things, threw away their trash, and went to loiter near the gate with everyone else. At this hour, the crowd of passengers was quiet, mostly businessmen buried in their phones or newspapers.
âWhat if,â Cosima offered, âwe just ask them not to stamp our passports in Tel Aviv?â
Delphine snorted. âYes, certainly. Have you ever tried telling a passport controller what to do?â
âNot yet, no.â
âWell, I don't think it's a very good idea.â
Some of the businessmen looked up from their devices to listen to the only conversation happening, but the announcer called for first class boarding, so Cosima and Delphine hoisted their bags back onto their shoulders and got on the plane.
Once they were in their seats, enjoying the perks of the frequent flyer program, Cosima said, âMaybe someone else can go to Israel. Cure the Israelis, and we finish up the rest of the Middle East.â
âIt's an idea,â Delphine agreed.
Cosima pulled out her phone and texted Scott while the coach passengers filed past.
A minute later, though, that idea was shot. I'd love to, he replied, but I can't take that kind of time off work. We have a big project right now.
She swore under her breath but typed, Okay, thx anyway
The faces of Clone Club flashed before her eyes, and she imagined all of them in lab coats in an Israeli clinic, syringe in hand. Art, Sarah, Alison, Helena, ... None of them fit that image. None of them had experience putting needles in people. Well, Helena might, but she probably wasn't used to aiming the needles with the intention of helping, and she had none of the other necessary skills for this endeavor.
She tapped on her phone until the crew directed them to turn off their devices, and held Delphine's hand as Toronto faded away below them. When the city was entirely gone behind clouds, she turned to Delphine and said, âRachel would do it. She gave me my treatment, and she knows clone stuff.â
âAnd she is completely inaccessible to anyone who wants to contact her.â
âAnd there's that. Fuck.â
Once the fasten seatbelt sign was off, they both had their laptops out, emailing everyone on the Clone Club listserv for ideas and support. David Margolis confirmed their translation of Avigail's status and offered to reach out to her in Hebrew for them, which Delphine replied would be very helpful. Delphine posted a notification on the Foundation's website, just in case Rachel happened to be checking in from wherever she was. Cosima's Google searches confirmed that, indeed, for most of the countries they would be traveling to in the next two months, entrance was denied to anyone who'd been to Israel.
After thirty minutes, though, Cosima found herself staring into space at the shadowy clouds moving below them, forgetting what the hell she'd been typing, or starting one sentence and finishing it with another thought entirely. Beside her, Delphine kept trying to hide her yawns.
âIt's after midnight,â Cosima said, dropping her head on Delphine's shoulder. âMaybe one of us should get some rest.â
Delphine kissed her forehead. âYou go ahead. I'm used to working late.â
âAnd I'm not, is that what you're saying?â
âMmm, yes. You work late, of course, but not like this.â
âNot on an airplane.â
âCorrect.â
*
Delphine was right. Something about traveling had this way of knocking Cosima right out. Maybe the sound of a motor, steady total-body vibration, and occasional rocking back and forth made her feel safe, like she was six years old again and her parents were taking care of everything.
When she woke up, the window shade was closed and Delphine's light travel blanket was tucked around her shoulders. To her right, Delphine dozed with her arms across her chest and her head tipped to one side, laptop still open on her tray. The rest of the cabin was bathed in daylight and a flight attendant went down the aisle announcing the last call for beverages or snacks. According to her phone, it was 7:20 in the morning, but when she raised the shade the sun was well above the horizon.
Right. If it was 7:20 am in Toronto, it was 2:20 pm in Istanbul, and they were scheduled to land at 3:15.
She opened her laptop, trying not to jostle Delphine as she checked the clone business email. Five new messages.
Art said he would look into it but made no promises, which could really apply to most of the emails they'd exchanged with him over the past year.
David Margolis forwarded both Cosima and Delphine the email chain with Avigail Chernev, her medical team, and himself. Avigail's primary doctor right now, it said, was a Dr. Ada Bronstein, and both she and Avigail were excited about the possibility of a new treatment option.
There was an email from her mother, linking to an article about a suicide bombing in Basra and begging Cosima to be careful while she was over there.
Her advisor at U Minn sent her a list of epigentics conferences that Cosima âreally should consider presenting at.â
And to her surprise, Rebecca Twell replied to Cosima's mass email, saying she was so sorry to hear that another of their identicals was ill, but Rebecca could not take off that kind of time, either, and regardless she did not feel comfortable administering any kind of medical treatment to anyone. She ended her email with a reminder that if and when Cosima and Delphine made it to Scotland, they should absolutely drop by for a pint.
Cosima went back up to the email chain and tapped Dr. Bronstein's number into her phone. That five-hour lay-over coming up in Istanbul was starting to feel awfully short.
*
At Istanbul AtatĂŒrk Airport, they got microwaved sandwiches and juice from Starbucks and found a terminal waiting area with no one else sitting in it, so they could spread out over several seats and the floor, charging everything that needed electricity. Delphine exchanged more emails with David Margolis and Avigail's medical team, and compared her symptoms with notes in the MEDICAL notebook that listed all observed symptoms and treatments with side effects.
Cosima called everyone, starting with Adele. Alphabetical order seemed as good as any order right now.
Adele answered with a dynamic yawn. âOh, hey, Puddin' Pie, how are you doin'? How's Delphine, more to the point? She back from her brownie trip yet?â
âYeah, yeah, she's good,â Cosima said. âDid you get our email?â
âHuh? No, I haven't checked yet. Why, what's up?â
While Cosima explained the situation, Adele responded with various âuh huh,â âyeah,â or âwell shit.â When Cosima finished, Adele laughed. âOh, honey, I wish I could help you. I really do. But heroin is the one drug I will never, ever touch. Needles skeeve the hell outta me. I stick to drugs that go into holes my body already has.â
Cosima had not said anything about heroin, but she laughed for Adele's sake and said, âOkay, that's cool. That's, uh, probably for the best, actually.â
âYeah. Hey, have you tried Colin, though? He's gotta have some skills there, right?â
âUh, not yet. I don't have his contact info, actually. Do you?â
âNo, but you know who does.â
Felix picked up on the third ring. âYou want Colin's phone number? What for?â
âFor the stuff I emailed you about. Did you get our email?â
âI mean, I skimmed it. I've only been up for about 30 minutes. Why? You still haven't found anybody?â
âNo. Colin's, like, potentially our last hope.â
Felix muttered something unintelligible, but a moment later produced the number for her, and listened as she read it back to him. âHe won't go, though,â Felix added. âI'm certain of that.â
âWhy's that?â
âWell, first of all, he's hates flying. He's only flown once, and that was to Calgary ten years ago. He doesn't even have a passport.â
âHe doesn't...?â She had forgotten that people could even exist in the world without a passport. âWow.â
âSo, feel free to call him. Tell him that I'm not pining away in his absence, and that he's much more attractive when his head's not shoved up his own arse.â
âYou know, I think I'll let you tell him all of those things, and I'll just stick to clone business, okay?â
She called Colin and left a message, and checked the message that had dinged while she was talking to Felix. A picture greeted her at the tap of her thumb: the main room of Nooran's apartment in Djibouti, with the girls and Mohammed, the younger boy, sitting around a folding table that had not been there when Cosima last visited. On the table were the art supplies Cosima and Delphine had given them, and each of the younger children held up a piece of artwork to show off. Fatima sat the farthest from the camera, and she held a book close to her chest, a smile tugging at her lips. The table wasn't the only new item in the photo â a calendar and a flag decorated the wall, and a drying rack laden with laundry snuck into view in the lower right corner. The cell phone used to take the picture must have been new, too, since the family had not had one before.
While Cosima studied the picture, distracted for a moment from Avigail's troubles in Israel, another message popped up, this time showing Nabil taking a selfie with his siblings in the background. Tapping Delphine to get her attention, Cosima took a picture of them together, Delphine smiling and Cosima making a face, and sent it to the kids.
âThey are such good kids,â Cosima remarked. âWe gotta see if we can keep helping them out, somehow.â
âMmhm.â Delphine's attention was already back on the task at hand. âJulian can't go. Neither can any of my other medical contacts, including the doctors we know are aware of the cloning situation. All of them are busy, uninterested, or no longer reachable at their former email addresses. I texted Ali, even, from Tripoli, but he's tied up for the rest of the month, apparently.â
âWhy Ali? He doesn't have medical training.â
âNo, but I thought maybe he could at least transport the cure to Avigail's doctors for us. They could administer it, I expect, on their own, although I haven't confirmed that with them.â
âOh, yeah. That is a good idea.â She texted Clone Club back with that idea â not to treat, but to transport. Anyone could do that. Anyone that didn't need to go to any of the Muslim-majority Middle Eastern countries that Cosima and Delphine needed to go to, that is.
Colin called back at 4:23 pm Istanbul time. âI'm sorry, you want me to do what, now?â he asked.
She gave the spiel again. âAnd you're really our last hope.â
âWhy can't you do it?â
âBecause once we get an Israeli stamp, all these other countries won't let us in. It's geopolitical bullshit.â
Colin exhaled into the receiver. âI don't think you understood my question. Why can't just one of you go, and the other one go to all the other countries? I mean, there are two of you, right?â
Cosima bit her tongue and pushed her hand into the top of her head. âWell, for starters, all the people we're curing look exactly like me. Haven't you noticed? We're clones. It's gonna be pretty weird for me to look all of them in the eye before treating them.â
There was another heavy sigh on the other end of the phone. âAnd you can't futz your way around that for one dying woman? Wear colored contacts or something? Seems like it'd be pretty easy. I thought you were supposed to be the smart one.â
Felix's last comment about the location of Colin's head came to mind, but Cosima said, âJust trust me. It's not the best idea.â
âWell, I haven't got any other ideas for you. I am not flying to Israel for you. I am not sticking a syringe into a woman I've never met for you. I am not going to deliver biological material that I have not personally inspected to a doctor I've never met for you. I don't even work with the living, remember? I sure as hell don't speak Hebrew.â
âThat part really doesn't matter. Think about it, at least?â
âYeah, maybe. But I'm not changing my mind.â
Just go yourself. She could change her appearance somehow and treat both Israeli Ledas while Delphine was in Iraq, but then Delphine would be in Iraq all by herself. And several weeks after that, Delphine would have to go to Syria all by herself, because Cosima would not be allowed in either of those countries.
Cosima made her way down her contacts lists and called everyone she hadn't already talked to, to see if they or anyone else they knew would be willing to pick up the job. Some people she called again, just in case.
âWe'll sort something out,â Sarah assured her after coming up with no new ideas. âI already gave Art a call.â
Cosima even called her mother.
âOh, Sweetie, I'd love to help,â her mother said, her voice heavy with sleep, âbut I am completely unqualified for that kind of work. Even though you know your grandma's been trying to send me to Israel for decades, like with that Birthright program, you know, but for older adults instead of teenagers? Anyway, Israel would be great, but I really just can't go treating someone's illness. I'd probably do it wrong and make everything worse. I'd stick the needle in the wrong organ or something. I work with fish, not people.â
âWell, maybe you could just bring the cure into the country, then? Drop it off and take a week to see the sights.â
âOh I can't. I'm having bunion surgery tomorrow. Did I tell you that?â
Bunyan surgery. Great. âUh, no,â Cosima said. âYou didn't. How 'bout you send me an email all about it, huh? I have to make some other calls. Unless you think your podiatrist might want to go to Israel for us?â
Sally laughed. âNo, but she is Jewish, and I think she's been before. Hey, why don't you just mail it? The treatment, I mean? It's all sealed up, isn't it? You'd have to pay extra, but I don't think that's a big issue.â
Cosima could have kicked herself for not thinking of that earlier, but still, the idea didn't sit well with her. She and Delphine made a point to personally carry the treatment whenever they travelled specifically because they didn't trust anyone else with it. When she floated the idea to Delphine, Delphine's face mimicked her own.
âI mean, it's possible,â Delphine conceded. âBut certainly not ideal.â
âI don't know how many other options we have, though.â
She shook her head. âNot very many. None that I like very much. We have a phone conference with Dr. Bronstein in about ten minutes, though, so we can always run it by her, see what she thinks.â Delphine checked her watch and muttered âputainâ under her breath before winding the little knob to get in sync with local time. âIt's very last minute, of course. I was afraid we might have to wait until tomorrow to talk to her, and, like we've been saying, Avigail doesn't have much time left. Dr. Bronstein seems willing to do whatever it takes, though.â
In the time before their phone conference, Alison called, and after a moment of checking in, repeated Colin's suggestion. âI don't know why you don't just go over there yourself, Cosima. You and Delphine are the only ones who have any experience with this. Put a surgical mask on and no one will notice you look the same.â
Cosima bit her tongue. âSo you don't know anyone who could step in and help us out? No one at all?â
âNo one who I'm willing to out myself to by sending them to Israel to treat one of my clones, no. Just go! You can rejoin Delphine when she's finished treating all our sisters in those... other countries. Or, you know, like I've been saying all along, you can just split the work and get it all done in half the time.â
âAlison,â Cosima began, âPeople recognize me. They recognize that I look like other people. Don't you remember how you felt way back when Beth first contacted you, first said you were a clone...â
Delphine nudged her before she could continue. âDr. Bronstein's calling.â
âGotta go, Alison. We'll talk soon, yeah?â She hung up before Alison could say anything else, and popped in Delphine's left earbud so she could participate in the conversation without annoying the few other passengers now camping out in the waiting area with them. Cosima took a deep breath to center herself and switch her brain from Sestra mode to professional mode as Delphine gave Dr. Bronstein a warm greeting.
âYes, hello to both of you,â Dr. Bronstein said with a voice that reminded Cosima of character from Downton Abbey. âIt's so felicitous that you've found us. I'm afraid Ms. Chernev's prognosis is quite poor at this point.â
âYes, that's my understanding, as well,â Delphine said. âShe knows that you're in contact with us, yes?â
âOh yes, I've just spoken with her and her family, and Ms. Chernev has signed the agreement allowing me to discuss her condition with you and your translator, Mr. Margolis. I believe a PDF of the agreement has been emailed to you, as well.â
Cosima didn't see it right away, but considering everything else they were doing to save the Ledas, she wasn't too worried about a single release of information form.
âSo, Dr. Bronstein, can you give us another quick run-down of Avigail's symptoms and prognosis so far?â she said.
âWell, she's been in my care for almost two years,â Dr. Bronstein told them, âstarting with lung polyps that remain and have no clear cause.â She went on to give every symptom of the disease, and all the attempted treatments. Avigail had had numerous seizures that resisted the effects of anti-convulsant medications, and she'd been on oxygen full-time for the past year. Her doctors had tried every treatment that Cosima would expect them to and then some. Avigail had lost her hair and now weighed only forty-one kilograms. Her vision was spotty, She had difficulty swallowing. She was jaundiced. Her kidneys failed almost a year ago, and she was on dialysis, but the rest of her health conditions kept her off the kidney transplant list.
âAnyway,â Dr. Bronstein concluded, âI don't know exactly how you've found us, but any help you can offer is incredibly welcome. We don't know how much time she has left, since we've never seen something like this before, but, well, to be honest, it might not be very much time at all. Her family's been advised to help her get her things in order.â
Cosima hung on every word Dr. Bronstein said, picturing the cells and tissues and organs, and the woman lying on the hospital bed. âThird treatment this week,â she'd said, just that morning, on her Facebook page. The understatement of the century, it seemed. If nothing else, Avigail's attitude seemed positive.
âI'm glad she has her family with her,â Cosima said.
While Dr. Bronstein gave a standard sort of agreement, Delphine put her arm around Cosima's waist and held her tight, until an airport employee walked by and gave them a double take, and Cosima scooted away. On her own cell phone she typed We're in Turkey again, babe and showed it to Delphine. There could be no public displays of affection here.
âSo, Dr. Bronstein,â Cosima said, âwe've actually seen this condition a few times before, and we're very interested in treating Avigail if she'll let us, but, um ââ
âYes, that's what your colleague said in her email. How soon can you get here?â She laughed, and Cosima had a mental image of large front teeth.
âWell, that's just the thing,â Cosima began. âWe'd love to get there as soon as possible, but ââ
ââbut we're also going to a lot of other countries in the region,â Delphine finished when Cosima's hand flapping indicated she needed help.
âI see,â Dr. Bronstein said.
âFor the same purpose,â Delphine went on, âand our understanding is that we're not allowed into those countries after we've been to Israel.â
There was silence on the other end of the phone, and Cosima and Delphine exchanged a long look. In her research, Cosima had run across another interesting fact â people who visited Palestine were occasionally not allowed to enter Israel, unless they were Israeli citizens. She'd made a mental note of that and moved on, since they didn't plan to visit Palestine, but now she dredged it back out.
âFor what it's worth, Dr. Bronstein, we're traveling exclusively for medical purposes. We really have no interest in anyone's political positions. We just want to cure these women. And, again, for whatever it's worth, we are not planning to go to Palestine. We haven't heard of any patients there with this condition.â
âOh! Hahaha...â Dr. Bronstein chuckled. âNo, no, I was thinking more of our patient here. You see, I've reached out to other doctors, and no one has any idea, either, so I'm simply surprised, ehm, surprised that you've had so much experience. That's all. And, worried, quite frankly. I am quite worried about what will happen if she is not treated soon.â
âWell, we have the treatment with us,â Delphine said. âWe could send it to you.â
âWith you? As in...?â
âAs in, we're sitting next to it right now,â Cosima said. âBut we're worried that if we bring it over, we won't be allowed into some of the other countries that we really need to get into.â
âI see. Well, one of you could come and the other could go to the other countries. Or not?â
That idea again. The worst part was that it was right. It would be the easiest solution. It would also be the absolute worst one.
âYes,â Delphine acknowledged, âthat is one of our possibilities, but we'd prefer not to travel alone if at all possible. I'm sure you understand.â
âWell, where else are you going, exactly?â
Delphine pulled up the itinerary she had save on her laptop. âIraq, later today. Iran, Kuwait, Turkey, Lebanon, Syria...â Below Syria on the list were Jordan and Israel, followed by the European countries, but the noises Dr. Bronstein was making on the other end of the phone interrupted that flow.
âYou're going to Syria?â Dr. Bronstein exclaimed. âHave you really found a patient there in such dire straights that you must absolutely go into that blazing inferno to treat them?â
Dire straights was putting it rather dramatically for most of the Ledas at the moment, since less than twenty percent had developed visible symptoms, but that was beside the point. âYes,â Delphine said. âWe have. She may have more time than Avigail, but we don't know how much.â
âWell, you certainly are dedicated,â Dr. Bronstein said. âYou're not going to Jordan, then? It's a bit more peaceful.
âWe are,â Cosima said. âAfter Syria.â
âI see. I was going to tell you that entering Jordan and Egypt is often easier after a trip to Israel than some of the other countries are, so you may consider going there instead.â
Cosima leaned her head back against the wall. That was not the point. âWe'll keep that in mind, thank you.â
âAbout our other suggestion, though,â Delphine said, âabout us mailing you the treatments. There would be five vials, all properly secured, with extensive instructions --â
âErm, I don't know about that. You've administered this treatment to other women, you say?â
âYes, more than a hundred of them.â
âOh! Well, I can't think of anyone better qualified, then, to administer than yourself. I wouldn't feel completely comfortable no matter how extensive your instructions are, if I knew that there was someone better qualified to do it. And I assure you, Tel Aviv is quite safe. You don't need to worry about traveling alone here.â
Dr. Bronstein probably had a reassuring smile on her face, but Cosima's stomach continued the drop it had started twelve hours earlier. If Avigail's main doctor did not want to give her the cure herself, there wasn't much chance anyone else over there would, either.
âAnd if you're worried about the stamp,â the doctor went on, âI'm told that many tourists don't get their passports stamped at all. They have this little piece of paper they stamp for you instead. You can throw that away once you've left the country, if you like.â
Cosima and Delphine looked at each other. That changed everything. âReally?â Cosima asked.
âThat's what I've been told. I'm a citizen, myself, so of course I've never been in that position.â
âIt's worth a try,â Delphine said.
âCan we expect a visit, then?â Dr. Bronstein asked.
âWe, euh, we need a few minutes to discuss it, privately,â Delphine told her. âMay we call you back?â
âOf course. This is my mobile, so it shouldn't be any trouble.â
They got off the phone, and Cosima started pacing around. âIf they just don't stamp it for anyone, we've been pulling our hair out for nothing. Not that I'm complaining, but, it would be suspiciously convenient.â
Delphine tapped away at her keyboard, then her eyes darted back and forth. âOther travelers back it up, actually.â
âShit, we should've just put that in our Google search first. Here I was trying to see if I could tear the page out of my passport without anyone getting suspicious.â
Delphine leaned back against the wall, fingers resting on her keyboard. âYou want to be the one to go, then?â
âI think it makes the most sense.â
Delphine nodded. âI agree. Just in case, you know.â
âIn case they don't let me in anywhere else, after all. Which is still a possibility, I think.â
âI think so, too, but I don't know how much of one.â
Cosima thought of everything Dr. Bronstein had said about Avigail, about how she seemed to be staying alive out of sheet pluck while her body fell apart all around her. In the end, there really had been only one solution â this one. âGo ahead and call her back,â she told Delphine. âI can be there by tomorrow morning.â
*
A few hours later, after a visit to the ticketing agent, a phone call with Alison, two more phone calls and an email with Dr. Bronstein, and repacking of their carry-on bags, they stood together just outside the terminal for Delphine's departing flight to Baghdad, which she would take alone. Cosima's flight to Tel Aviv left in two more hours. Outside the terminal windows, the sun had set almost an hour ago, and each of them had several more waking hours ahead of them.
âTry to get some rest where you can,â Delphine told her. âYou won't do Avigail any good if you're exhausted.â
âYeah, I could say the same for you.â
âI have a little more time. The appointment isn't for another twenty-five hours.â
âYeah, but you have to get to it.â
Outside on the tarmac, Delphine's Turkish Airlines plane pulled up to the extendable passenger bridge. Before it began discharging passengers, Cosima nudged Delphine and gestured towards the women's bathroom.
âCome on. Last chance for a little while.â
Delphine followed her into the largest stall and giggled as Cosima locked the door behind them. âYou want to have sex in the bathroom? In ten minutes?â
Cosima made a face. âNot sex, no. Not smelling like this. Just...â She draped her arms around Delphine's neck and pulled her down for a long kiss. They stood together holding each other and kissing until passengers flooded the bathroom with their chatter, their laughter, their complaints, and a couple instances of explosive releases.
âI just wanted to kiss you again,â Cosima said. âIt's gonna be a couple days till I can do it again.â
Delphine cupped Cosima's face in her left hand, stroking her earlobe with her pinky finger. âIt's just a couple of days. I'll text you when I land, yeah?â
âYeah. Same. I'll... I'll keep you abreast of all affairs.â Her terrible attempt at imitating Dr. Bronstein's accent made Delphine break into giggles again, but their moment was cut short by knocks on the stall door.
âWe have to go,â Delphine whispered. She peppered Cosima's face with kisses and told her how much she loved her.
âI love you, too,â Cosima said, just before the knocking resumed with a bit more force. âBe safe, okay?â
âI will, I promise. You, as well.â
When they opened the door, they were greeted by a stout cleaning lady and a couple of curious travelers, all of whom expressed some version of âoh!â Delphine gave them her best smile and a cheery âBonsoir!â as she and Cosima maneuvered their way through the people and back out into the main terminal.
And like every other flight they'd taken in this part of the world, Cosima did not hold Delphine's hand in the boarding line, or rest her head on Delphine's shoulder. For those other flights, though, Cosima had still been beside her, and now she wasn't. She stood by the departures board and watched her fiancée move through the line of almost exclusively Middle Eastern travelers and get her ticket checked. Just before rounding the corner onto the passenger bridge, Delphine turned and paused. She smiled and gave Cosima a tiny air kiss, then made her way down the hall and out of sight.
* * *
Four hours later, standing in line at Ben Gurion International Airport in Tel Aviv, Cosima flicked through her messages. Delphine had arrived safely in Baghdad an hour before and was suitably exhausted. She said the security escort was working out fine. Cosima texted her love and sent another message to Dr. Bronstein saying that she was waiting for passport control.
Wonderful! Dr. Bronstein replied. I will retrieve you personally and deliver you to our guest house. I am the tall thin woman in the burgundy jacket, but I also have your name on a sign, so we should have no trouble at all finding each other.
In the next message, Alison assured her that âthe Jewish family who lives down the streetâ had been to Israel and never gotten their passports stamped in Tel Aviv, and they'd never had an issue visiting any other countries. She did not, however, specify which other countries they had tried to visit. See? Alison went on, I told you this would work out just fine.
Scott texted her that one of his Muslim coworkers had tried visiting Israel a few years ago, but got turned away at the border with Jordan. But that shouldn't be a problem for you, Scott said.
The line inched forward. A baby cried. A man bragged to a woman about the ultra marathon he'd run in Israel last year. A little boy whined about being hungry. And Cosima swayed on her feet with no one to lean against.
It was after one in the morning when Cosima finally reached the passport control window. She gave the uniformed man behind the glass her best smile and handed over her passport, open to the picture page.
âMiss Niehaus?â he clarified, winning top marks as one of very few people who got the pronunciation right on the first try. He spent longer than any other passport official ever had comparing her face to her picture, confirmed her date of birth and residence, and asked how long she planned to stay in Israel.
âTwo weeks,â she said. They'd made the mistake way back in Ecuador of being vague but honest about how long they would stay, so now they gave a nice firm, if wrong, time frame right up front. He nodded and began flipping through the passport, slowing down after a few fully-stamped pages.
âUm, actually,â she said, âI was wondering if I could get one of those stamps pieces of paper instead?â
He glanced up at her and resumed his exploration of her travel history. âYou go a lot of places, Miss Niehaus.â
âYes. Yes I do.â
He clucked his tongue. âVery many places. Mexico. Argentina. Oman. Libya. Saudi Arabia.â He looked up at her with a frown. âAnd you have visas for Iran, Syria, and Iraq. You plan to visit them later?â
ïżœïżœïżœYes, well, you see, that's why I'm kind of hoping you might stamp a different paper instead, because they might not let me in if I have your stamp, and well, you know.â She smiled and held up her hands in a âwhat're you gonna doâ gesture, to show that it wasn't his fault politics were all fucked up.
He did not smile. He leaned over, picked up the phone receiver, and mumbled into it. When he hung up, he gestured for Cosima to step to the left. âStand aside, please, Miss Niehaus.â
âOh. Okay, sure. Um, can I have my ââ
The officer handed her passport to a tall man in a gray uniform who approached and looked her up and down, one hand on the strap of his rifle.
âOh, shit,â she whispered.
*
The room they took her to was tiny, with a long table on one side and two metal chairs on the other. A uniformed woman directed her to remove her boots, jacket, belt, and all of her jewelry. She then gave Cosima the most thorough pat down Cosima had gotten from anyone other than Delphine. While that went on, an middle aged woman (Soldier? Guard? Border officer?) sat in one of the metal chairs. The man who'd taken Cosima's passport placed her bags on the long table, and he handed the passport to the second woman, who set a recorder with a blinking red light on the table.
âSit,â the woman told Cosima. âTake your hair down.â
Cosima did so, and the younger woman worked her fingers down the length of every one of Cosima's dreadlocks.
âIt's okay, I left the explosive hair pins at home,â Cosima snarked when the hair inspection was about halfway done.
The younger woman paused for a moment. âNo jokes, please.â
So Cosima sat quietly while the man opened up her bags, setting the electronics to one side, and the older woman looked through her passport. Maybe it was her exhaustion seeping through, but the more she watched them working, the more they reminded her of General Leia Organa and Kylo Ren from the new Star Wars movies.
The officer Cosima now mentally called General Organa began the conversation. âSo Miss Niehaus, what brings you to Israel?â
She had practiced professional answer for that. âIt's a medical trip. There's a patient here who's arranged for us, I mean, for me to come and treat her.â
âWhat's the patient's name?â
âUh, that's confidential. Patient confidentially's very important to us.â
âWho's us?â
âThe Sadler and Daughter's Foundation. Their information is on a card in my purse.â
The Kylo Ren guard emptied her purse onto the table and fished around in her things until he got the little stack of business cards, which he handed to the General.
General Organa arched an eyebrow. âSo you're based in Toronto, but hold a US passport. Where will you be treating this patient?â
âAt the Tel Aviv Medical Center.â When the General put the cards back on the table, Cosima added, âI have an appointment there first thing in the morning, and our patient's life really depends on me being there.â
As if on cue, Cosima's phone rang, vibrating its way in a little circle on the metal table next to her laptop.
âThat's probably my contact at the hospital,â Cosima said. âShe was supposed to pick me up here.â
No one moved to hand her the phone, but they waited until it stopped ringing to speak again. âAnd who is this contact?â the General asked.
That part was not exactly confidential. âDr. Ada Bronstein. I can give you her contact information.â
âPlease do. We also need to search your email addresses and your mobile phone.â
âExcuse me?â
âFailure to comply will jeopardize your chances of entering the country.â The General gestured to the male guard, who handed the laptop and the cell phone over to Cosima.
âUnlock these,â he said.
Unlocking her phone, she saw that, indeed, Dr. Bronstein had called her, and sent a text message inquiring about her whereabouts. âCan I just respond to these real quick?â Cosima asked.
General Organa frowned up at her, but did not say no, so Cosima sent a quick text. They're asking me a lot of questions. Then the young female guard took her cell phone and the General took her laptop. While they poked and prodded, Kylo Ren continued his search of Cosima's carry-on bag.
âI hope you like all the pictures of my fiancĂ©e,â Cosima muttered to the guard scrolling through her cell phone.
There was no reaction from the guards to her statement. Kylo Ren, though, held up the case containing the Avigail's cure, and Cosima sat bolt upright.
âWhat's this?â he asked.
âThat's the medicine we use to treat people.â
âWhat is the chemical composition?â
At this point, it must have been close to two o'clock in the morning local time. Cosima's hands and legs were trembling, and biting her tongue got harder with every question they asked. Still, miraculously, she did not give the chemical composition as âthe cum I scraped off your mom's face last night, bitchâ but rather gave the actual breakdown of materials in each vial. The guard's face glazed over after five words or so, but the little recorder on the desk blinked away, and someone listening certainly knew what she was talking about.
âWhere was it manufactured?â Kylo Ren asked.
âToronto, Canada.â
âWhere exactly?â
âThe basement of a comic book shop. The Rabbit Hole.â She waved at her laptop. âLook it up. There's a picture of it on our Foundation's website.â
General Organa leaned forward on her chair. âYou have been asked a serious question, Ms. Niehaus. If you wish to enter the country, I strongly suggest that you take this process seriously.â
Cosima's voice trembled and she dug her fingers into her palms. âDude, I am as a serious as a fucking heart attack. There is a woman here in Tel Aviv who needs that medicine to survive. You can call her doctor if you don't believe me. Her number is in my phone.â
âThat won't be necessary.â
Cosima bit her lip and struggled not to cry. She was in the habit of not drinking much in the last hour of any plane ride, in case she couldn't use a bathroom anytime soon after landing. The habit came in handy now, but her throat was dry and the blood vessels in her head throbbed, and crying wouldn't make any of that better. She took off her glasses and rubbed the bridge of her nose. âCan I at least know why you're holding me? Or, like, your names or anything? Badge numbers?â
In college, when she participated in far more political protests, she'd had the whole spiel of what to say to cops memorized. But that was years ago, and she hadn't been exhausted or desperate to save someone else's life.
The young female guard came around in front of her and held Cosima's phone up so the screen was a foot away from Cosima's nose. âWho are they?â she demanded.
Cosima put her glasses back on to see the picture of Nabil and his siblings around their new kitchen table. âFriends. Their aunt is a friend of mine.â
The guard handed the phone to her superior and looked down at Cosima with a face that had switched from professional indifference to outright contempt. âWhere are they?â
âDjibouti. Why, you wanna call them, too? Wake them up in the middle of the night?â
The General's body language also changed when she saw the picture. âHow do you know these children?â
âI just told you, they're my friend's nieces and nephews.â
âWhat friend?â
âA friend in Djibouti. She was also a patient of mine, and the kids are in her custody.â
The General shoved the image closer to Cosima's face. âThose children are not Djiboutian. They are Arab.â
If she had been less tired, Cosima would have rolled her eyes. âYeah, you got me, they're from Yemen. They're refugees. You might be aware that there's a bit of a refugee situation, like, fucking, globally right now, right?â
âWell, that's a bit closer to the truth, finally.â The General pointed to Nabil's selfie, not to his smiling face but to the wall of their apartment, where a green flag with white swords decorated the drab brown and gray. âWhat symbol is that, Ms. Niehaus?â
âI...â She looked again, with the feeling of being dropped into the most important geography pop quiz of her life. The flag looked Saudi Arabian, but the swords pointed up more, and there was a book between the sword tips that wasn't present on the Saudi flag. The flag wasn't Djiboutian, Egyptian, Algerian, or any other country she recognized, either. âI have no fucking clue. I'm sure you have a specialist somewhere in Tel Aviv who can answer that question for you, though.â
âSmart ass,â Kylo Ren muttered, shaking out her underwear once piece at a time.
âMs. Niehaus,â the General said, âI suggest you give us a very good explanation for this photo, right away, or I shall have to deny your entry into our country, not only for today, but for the next ten years at the very least.â
Tears fell from Cosima's eyes before she could speak. So much for not crying. âWhat the fucking hell,â she whispered into her hands. âPlease,â she said, looking at the General and opening crying now, âthey're just kids. They're good kids. Their parents are dead. I don't know what the flag means. They probably don't know, either. For fuck's sake half of them can barely read! This has nothing to do with Israel, or, or with anything else! Just let me cure my patient and leave! Then I swear to God I'll stay away for the next ten years or forever if you want me to!â
General Organa might have said more, but the door opened and a trim young officer stepped in and addressed her in Hebrew.
They stepped out together, leaving Cosima with her guards, staring at her belongings scattered across the table and quietly sobbing. Delphine would have been out of here by now. She would have said just the right things, had just the right whatever-the-fuck, and they would have let her in the country with no problems. But now, hopefully, Delphine was sleeping peacefully in a hotel bed, in a country that everyone had told them not to go into, and Cosima was this close to being denied entry into what Alison called âthe only civilized country in the Middle East.â
Cosima had almost dozed off on the little metal chair when the door opened again and the General came in with Cosima's passport in her hand and a scowl on her face. âYou're very lucky, Ms. Niehaus. We've been instructed to let you into the country without further delay. Get your things together, please.â
Keenly aware of the guns still pointed not exactly at her but certainly not away from her, Cosima stuffed everything back into her bags, only taking any care with her cell phone, her laptop, and the cure. She asked no questions and made no comments. Once she was finished, she turned and held out her hand for her passport, but instead, the guards led her back around to the passport control desk.
âDr. Bronstein will meet you through those doors,â the General said, her voice dripping with disdain. Then she cut in front of the other people waiting to get into the country, went into the passport control booth, and stamped Cosima's passport with the Israeli travel visa.
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Myths & Facts about TOPâs legal issues, Part I
(Part II, Part III, Part IV)
HI! So, Iâve noticed that international kpop fans believe a lot of myths about South Korea's criminal justice system and about TOPâs case specifically. The post below debunks just a few of them. There are more which I may get to in another post.
Myth: YGE uses "corruption" gets their artists out of legal trouble, and this is the only reason that TOP is not in jail right now.
Fact:
YGE doesnât have the pull it was once alleged to have had.Â
The first thing we should note is that "corruption" is not a magic wand, and neither is money. We need to be specific about what we actually mean by âcorruptionâ: In YGE's case it has been alleged that the company had connections with the previous administration headed by Park Geun-Hye. There are two main allegations, both of which YGE has denied:
Park Geun-Hye's friend Choi Soon-Sil used her connection to the government to get her niece a job with YGE and to associate with YGE celebrities. (source)
YGE would leak gossip about its artists during times when the Park administration was getting bad press in order to distract the public. In exchange, the administration put political pressure on police and media to bury other negative stories or criminal charges for YGE artists. (source pending)
But they're not in power anymore. Park is currently in prison, serving a 3 year sentence on corruption-related charges (source). There are no allegations that YGE has similar pull with the new administration, headed by Moon Jae-In. Rather than assist TOP, the current government has actually taken advantage of the outrage over his case to advance their own policy goal of dismantling the conscripted police service altogether (source).
The "corruption" thing also just doesn't pass the sniff test: If YGE was that powerful, how the hell did TOP get charged in the first place, let alone convicted? Which leads us to...
Myth: Regular South Koreans are normally given non-suspended prison sentences for using cannabis, and TOP's celebrity is the only reason he's not behind bars right now. He got a lighter sentence because he's famous.
Fact:
Punishments for cannabis use in South Korea have actually been getting less harsh over time, and a suspended sentence is typical (source).
TOP's sentence is a 10-month prison term, suspended two years. The important points to make here:
This is on the harsher end of what is precedent in South Korea for cannabis use with no prior history. (source - chart on p. 9)
The prosecution got literally every single thing they asked for. This is not typical. Neither plea bargaining nor joint sentencing are used in South Koreaâs justice system, so a judge usually negotiates a sentence between what the defence and prosecution recommend (in TOP's case, the defence lawyer recommended a fine). This is especially the case with a guilty plea, which TOP gave. (source pending)
The judge specifically mentioned TOP's celebrity as an aggravating factor (reason the sentence should be harsher) in his sentencing (source)
Myth: TOP was sentenced to probation
Fact:Â
TOP has absolutely received a prison sentence, though it is unlikely he will ever have to serve it. A suspended sentence works like this: the judge basically says, "I sentence you to [time] in prison. Usually, people are expected to begin serving their sentence right away, but I will pause the start of your sentence for two years. If you do not break the law again within those two years, I will dismiss your prison sentence. If you do break the law, I will un-pause the start time and you will have to begin serving it immediately." The key thing to remember with a suspended sentence is that the probation is not the punishment. The prison sentence is. The probation period is the opportunity for the offender to prove they don't need to serve the prison sentence to be reformed.
So: as of right now TOP is scheduled to begin a 10-month prison sentence on July 20th, 2019. His criminal record will reflect that fact until his probation ends and a judge dismisses the sentence.
Myth: South Korean culture has always been anti-cannabis and kpop fans need to respect this.
Fact:
What is considered âculturally tabooâ shifts and changes all the time. Cannabis use was common and accepted in South Korea before the 1970s. South Koreaâs modern drug laws and atittudes exist because of a deliberate campaign by a dictator who was working under American influence (source).Â
Lastly: do folks really believe that "culture" should be above criticism? Like actually? After TOP was hospitalized, I don't think anyone got smug about "respecting Korea's culture" re: mental illness. The opposite happened. There is always lots of talk from international kpop fans about the urgency with which South Koreaâs "culture" must change on homophobia, mental illness, racism, etc. What makes South Korean culture and law regarding drug use different to these fans? Especially given the extent that drug use intersects with the above social factors and how drug laws are used to criminalize folks for being poor/mentally ill/queer/black. International kpop fans should reflect on why they are against South Koreaâs social conservatism overall yet think it's intolerant to criticize their drug laws.
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hello?
Is blogging still a thing? I wouldn't know.....it's been a while, hasn't it? This corner of the Internet has been dark for so long I may have forgotten what I'm doing, and I often wonder, why write? Who is reading--and who cares what I have to say? Why have I been putting myself out there for so long?
My second semester of nursing school brought with it paper after paper--millions of words written late at night on mostly-boring subjects, all of which had to be carefully formatted and cited--two things that will eventually suck the soul right out of a girl. Every corrected paper came back the same--top marks for research, presentation, flow, grammar, a bunch of other boring technical stuff (except my in-text citations--I've decided I really hate APA format), and always a comment scribbled large in red, "but I can still hear your voice". So I tried my hardest to write like a robot, presenting only facts stripped of all creative thought. And finally, after enough papers, I feel like they finally stifled my voice.
The last few months I've had ideas fill my brain--it's always overflowing--usually late at night or when I'm out on the trail. I'll jot down a note on my phone or in a little journal I have, but I can't seem to turn them into anything more than just a thought. They sit there like seeds that haven't been watered. I've slowly started sorting through some of those seeds, seeing if I could make sense of them--taking time to water and find a warm spot in the sun so they can grow.
So I've been writing a little here and there--in the quiet hours of the morning, and slowly piecing together thoughts to share again. This space is so outdated and dusty--links are old and broken, there are many questions unanswered, I know. Sometimes I feel like torching the place and starting fresh.....but for now, here's a very brief update from the last 6 months. If you follow along on my instagram (@_sheenarae) then nothing is probably new to you, but for the rest of you, I present to you:Â
January-June 2016 (abridged version)
January.Â
Started the year in Montana, atop a frosty butte. A new semester. Hospital clinicals--placed some IVs, pulled some staples, changed bandages on an amputated leg. Watched people come out of anesthesia which is super entertaining! Gave an enema on my birthday. Yeah--I turned 33, it wasn't my favorite birthday this year--the winter was long and dark and I was like, "HOW DID I GET SO OLD?!" We climbed a lot at the gym, went south for a weekend to get on some real rock, and took advantage of all the snow--the kids are skiing like champs!Â
February.Â
uhhhhh......haha I can't remember much. Â I think there was.....snow? My head was buried in those aforementioned papers. I played weekly pond hockey with some awesome mamas in the valley. Traded my running shoes for cross country skis. We headed south again for an icy cold campout (like frost on my sleeping bag in the morning, icy cold). Jonah got glasses. Climbed some more....
March.
Clinicals at the State Mental Hospital--I learned aLOT.....but I'm glad that's over with--phew! Robby and I took a weekend date down to St. George (more on that later). I teamed up with my friend Mike Butler and he got me lifting weights and eating waaaaayyyyyy more protein. I have been a pretty scrawny runt my whole life and I've been working hard these last few months to get stronger so I could improve my climbing--it's working! (Mike is awesome by the way if you want to reach out to him for your own weight loss/weight gain program, check out his website!) So yeah, lots of weights, more paper writing, tests. Easter was in March so I got dressed and did my hair--go me!
April.Â
I took an online Statistics class that I kind of forgot to pay attention to (I need deadlines), so April was all about learning what Statistics is (still don't know), so I could ace my final and be done with it forever (did it!) Jonah turned 11 (how?!) We got some more baby chicks. I stressed out over finals. We ran away to the desert again and ate at my very favorite restaurant in the whole wide world.
May.Â
I finished my first year of nursing school and didn't die! I've been out of school since early May--and it's been the BEST! I started my pre-requisites for nursing school in January 2014 and have not had a lot of time off since. The first summer I had a few classes, and then last summer I had to take my TEAS test to try and get into my program, and then I had to apply, interview, stress stress stress. Then I got IN, and had exactly one million things to do over the summer to get ready for school to start--it never felt like a true vacation with all the deadlines weighing me down. So these last few summer weeks have been nothing short of the best days ever. I've been running, biking, climbing, camping, trying to keep the weeds from taking over my garden (it's impossible), and just hanging out with my family. Robby and I see each other again--our school/work schedules were so conflicting I felt like we would sometimes just wave in passing, but now we even go on real live dates.
June.
Kids out of school! We've been to the desert, I took the kids to Montana, and we are loving summer evenings outside. Lucy got her cast off from her broken arm in May--she also turned NINE!
Biking is fun, and so are strangers who forgot to say "look here" when they take the photo. I forgot how much I love zipping through the trees on my bike.
Backyard jam sessions....
Early morning climbs with my girls....
  ....and now, we are ready for July! Consider yourself officially updated, and maybe next time I'll dive into those seeds I have growing.
Thanks to the one person (mom) who read through this! Talk soon
*I have so many unanswered comments on here--sorry about that! I really have not been around. I also have over 3000 unread emails.....whoops. While most of them are ads and what not, some of them are from YOU GUYS, and I'm sorry, I've just had to really prioritize my life this past little while and all things internet-involved are pretty far down my list. Thanks for always being here though!
*I get lots of questions about why I'm not posting recipes anymore. We really keep our meals pretty simple and most of what we eat is already on my blog. I just haven't had any extra time to develop anything new, let alone take pictures of it. When in doubt, make eggs!
*I always get such a great response when I post the gear we love and use--I will continue to do that, and I apologize for old links that may not be taking you where you want to go. I will try to get an updated gear list for you soon!
*If I get enough questions on this post, I can do another Q&A post like I've done in the past.Â
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This is the last of a 4-part series of the analysis of articles relating to Private Frederick Hodson, who served with the 18th Battalion. Special thanks to Annette Fulford (@avidgenie) Lizbet Tobin, and Sharon Munro for assistance with this article.
Private Frederick Hodson, M.M. of the 18th Battalion.
Hodson is well established in England, as his visits during his leaves attest. His wife and daughter are resident at the family home in Rushden and was now getting to experience his second at total of four leaves he was granted during his tour of duty with the CEF. He has earned the Military Medal for actions leading from the attack by the 18th Battalion as part of the 2nd Division CEF attempt to take Flers-Courcelette. The outcome of that action of September 15 and 16, 1916 resulted in his actions as a stretcher-bearer to be recognized and officially sanctioned for the valour those actions represented which had been faithfully reported on by the newspaper.
But it wanted more. Hodson was modest about his martial endeavourâs and the paper was going to correct that gap in the story and they wanted more information for their valiant Rushden son. The war had carried on, and Hodson had participated in the attack on Vimy on April 9, and yet, the Rushden Echo appears to be more interested in the battle at the Somme. Perhaps this reflects the English-centric perspective of the people of Rushden. The Somme was a singular battle for its mass of casualties and the involvement of the BEF with approximately 1.5 million men engaged representing 50 divisions, a massive undertaking resulting and almost a half-million casualties. The more recent Battle of Arras, by contrast, was of shorter duration (a month compared to 5-months) and involved half the divisions utilizing 23 divisions during the battle. Its impact, compared to that of the Somme, to the English public was less, not only because of the relative length and size of the conflict, but after 3-years of war the public was getting weary of war and the story relating to earning a medal would be of more interest to the readers of Rushden, than the exploits of a foot soldier engaged in routine service at the front-line with a Canadian unit in an successful engagement largely recognized as being Canadian. Or, perhaps, the colonial make-up of the Canadian troops with their reputation of being a little rough around the edges compared to their English brethren was of little interest to the people of this industrial town. Vimy was not of interest from the authorâs perspective as far as this article relates. It wants to know more about Hodsonâs service at the Somme.
The articleâs title lends to its intent â the creation of interest in the subject. It highlights the story about to be related. As has been related in the first article, the 18th Battalionâs War Diary for the events of September 15 and 16 is bereft of detail about the action on those dates â âNot much help to a historianâ. Hodsonâs reflection of his involvement illuminates some of the activities of the Battalion from his perspective. What is of note is the fact that Lieutenant-Colonel Milligan had given permission to men who where stretcher-bearers to retire from the battle before the main body of surviving soldiers returned from the engagement to be relieved. If Milligan had offered this early relief to these men, it indicated the extreme level of shell-fire and the general intensity of combat. Milligan was no stranger to combat having been a senior officer of the Battalion from its inception. He had experienced all the combat, including the confused and ineffective action at St. Eloi Craters, that led to his eventual command of the Battalion[i]. He would have been aware of the casualties suffered that day and he felt that these men who retrieved the wounded and the dead deserved a chance to live after all they had experienced during those two days.
Yet, despite the risks, Hodson and Worsfold[ii] stay and it is this action that directly contributes to their Military Medals.
As the Battalion is relieved Hodson relates quiet accurately the activities, but not the duration of these activities, of the Battalion during September 16 to 30. The Battalion appears to be shunted from Tara Valley, to resting at Brickfields to a series of marches, a âsoldierâs holidayâ, to Vandencourt, Lavicogne[iii], St. Leger Les Dormarts[iv], back to Lavicogne, then Vandencourt, to Albert until it relieved the 21st Battalion in the line on September 30.[v]
The approximate route of the 18th Battalion during its âsoldierâs holidayâ after the engagement at Flers-Courcelette, September 15/16, 1916.
Hodson moves into the line and relates how he had, ââŠa pretty near squeakâŠâ when a German shell lands near the German ammunition storage dugout they are repurposing as an aid station. A shell lands nearby and he and his comrades beat it down the stairs 30 to 40 feet under-ground when another shell makes a direct hit and they are temporarily buried. All this occurs before the main attack and the work of the stretcher-bearers and medical staff carry on. They have established an aid post, advanced, not because of its technology, but because it is as close to the front-lines as they dare. It is partially destroyed, and these men carry on with their important and essential duties. The line is now 500 yards away and Hodson and seven other men head to the front when he is hit by shrapnel and wounded. He returns to the rear by âhanging onto the stringsâ a possible reference to rope strung up along the unfamiliar enemy trenches so recently taken used by soldiers to navigate back and forth to their aid, command, and ammunition stations and depots.
Hodson got off lucky. Two days later, on October 3, 1916, the Battalion suffered 24 soldierâs deaths. This day accounted for 69% of that monthâs dead for the Battalion. Another example of the awful toll the Somme excised from the Battalion in dead and wounded.
The âblightyâ, a wound that had the potential to get him sent to England for treatment, results in his evacuation from the line, along with a comrade. His comradeâs wound is terminal, and he later dies in a base hospital, while Hodson is transferred to the 4th Canadian Field Ambulance, hence to No. 3 Canadian Stationary Hospital at Doullens. His path to recovery is relatively short, indicating the nature of the wound, as he is out of service from October 1, 1916 to January 6, 1917. As he relates:
âHow the remainder of us escaped the Lord only knows. I was disappointed in regard to the âBlightyâ trip, as they only took me as far as Boulogne, and from the high ground where the hospital is built I could see âBlightyâ in the distance, so near yet so far. However, better luck next time. I was in the hospital two weeks, and when i found that I was not marked for âBlightyâ I wanted to try my luck again, and so I asked that I might be sent back to my battalion. On discharge from hospital I was sent to the base and there I did two weeksâ fatigue, after which I was sent up the line again to an entrenching battalion. I remained with them as a bugler for about two months; on returning to my old battalion, I joined the band and am now playing the cornet.â
He is so close to England he can see it. He recovers and he is assigned to the Battalion band. It is not clear why, as he was an effective stretcher-bearer, but his sentiments, as expressed in the article, may indicate that he was placed there in recognition for his efforts as a stretcher-bearer. He is obviously pleased as to this near âbombproofâ assignment as:
âYou can believe me it is better to play a tune behind the lines than to go up the lines and play another sort of to make Fritzy âdance.â I have played all the tunes I want to play up there for over a year, and am quite prepared to give somebody else the chance now.â
Hodson has âdone his bitâ and he has earned his new assignment. With his prior experience of being a member of Rushdenâs Temperance Band before he immigrated to Canada, he can readily accept this assignment and does not mind to state publicly that being in the band is almost âbombproofâ â less likely to be exposed to combat â than being a stretcher-bearer. He may have also recognized that the stress of combat was wearing on him and his unit acknowledged his honourable service with an assignment in which he could serve his Battalion faithfully and have a reasonable chance of surviving the war.
The connection with Rushden is further evidenced as he relates that he has met other men from Rushden, particularly Private Roger Walter Helsdowne[vi], another resident from Rushden and now with the 18th Battalion as a replacement having come to the Battalion on July 14, 1916.
As to the way the war ended Hodson was not far wrong. The war would last into the latter part of 1918 and both sides would come to an agreement under the terms of an armistice. The war would not end by the bitter defeat of the enemy in the field, but âby all belligerents coming to terms.â
Having served in Europe and having four leaves where he was able to meet his family in the comfort of a home and town that he was familiar with the Hodsons decided that Canada was still in their future. Hodson, with a clean service record returned to Canada via Liverpool boarding the S.S. Caronia May 14, 1919. He was discharged with other men of the 18th Battalion on May 24, 1919 at London, Ontario with a notation on his discharge papers the he had âscar back of head right sideâ, a souvenir of the Somme. His proposed residence was Hespeler, Ontario.
Above: Private Ernest Hodson, D.C.M. and, possibly, the factory he worked at when he lived in Brantford, Ontario.
He was not to stay in Hespeler though as we find him and his family of wife Elizabeth, daughter Minnie, and himself moved to Branford, Ontario. There was good reason. His brother, Ernest Hodson[vii], had worked in Brantford before the war. Private Ernest Hodson D.C.M., had worked at the erecting department of Massey Ferguson at Brantford, Ontario. Though a reservist with the Dufferin Rifles of Canada, he felt that his calling was to return to England to enlist with the 2nd Battalion, The Bedforshire Regiment.
It appears that Ernestâs experiences in Brantford motivated his brother Frederick to move to Brantford to continue his life in Canada. The 1921 Census finds him, his wife, and daughter being enumerated in that city. Interestingly, his brother Ernest does not appear in this census at all. He may have stayed in England after the war.
Census sheet showing Hodson in Brantford. Courtesy of Sharon Munro via the 18th Battalion Facebook Group.
The articles in the Rushden Echo give a range of details about Private Frederick Hodsonâs service. It helps detail the experience from a personal perspective from a man that was most certainly in the thick of it. From these articles we get some idea of the intensity of combat the Battalion suffered through. It gives sense and tenor to the terror that was that day of September 15/16. It may explain why the War Diary is bereft of any detail. It was to horrible to relate and there were not many men left to relate this action, or would want to. Hodsonâs near âblightyâ wounding on October 1 was, perhaps, a miraculous intervention creating the circumstances of his removal from the front line two-days prior to a large number of men in the Battalion being killed on October 3. This wound leads to his re-assignment with the Battalion band. He maintains his connection to the Battalion and is able to survive the war and be discharged due to demobilization as part of the last group of men who were released from service with the Battalion at London, Ontario
We see that the Battalion commander, Milligan, was empathetic and concerned for his men during September 15/16. But his actions, if interpreted correctly, also indicate the horror of that day. Milligan was going to let men, including Hodson, a stretcher-bearer, retire from a battle still raging. Thus, the role of retrieving the wounded was going to be denied the men still in the line in active combat. The support of these men was an important element of their motivation to fight. To be wounded and have a reasonable expectation of someone searching out and recovering the wounded was a reasonable expectation of a soldier. The environment of the realities of combat during the Great War made this a challenging task. As a leader Milligan would know this and his order to allow men to retire, some of them stretcher-bearers, indicates that the risks of retrieving the wounded were unacceptable in his mind. He was not willing to order men to step into the front-line to do their duty as the risk was to great. He may have felt he was sending men to certain death. Hodson and others volunteered for this hazardous duty and, as volunteers, was overtly accepting the increased risk, if not an impossible task, of getting the wounded back safely. This interpretation brings the selflessness of Hodson and the other stretcher-bearersâ actions and we will never know how many men owe their lives to the men who, in effect, refused an order from a superior officer to save these men. They had a chance to retire to the rear. They went forward anyways.
The articles also express the idea of being English. The interest in the Rushden Echo to expand on Hodsonâs experiences at the Somme so soon after Vimy, in which Hodson took part, coupled with his brother who returned to Canada to serve with an English unit. Though he was also living in Canada before the war and with the Dufferin Rifles in Brantford and would have had an opportunity to enlist with a CEF unit he returned to his native land to enlist. There also is a natural inclination for Hodson to search out and find other former citizens of Rushden and this cityâs industrial heritage with shoe and boot-making is expressed in the trades these men have â they are shoe and boot makers.
Private Frederick Hodson, of Rushden, England, late of Galt, Ontario, was a Battalion Original. He served virtually everyday the 18th Battalion existed, save for the time he as on leave or wounded. He was an Englishmen, yet the draw of Canada brought his English born wife and child back to Canada. He was a brave and modest man and one hopes that the life he led reflected the efforts and risks he took on the behalf of others so others may live â That he live a happy and prosperous life and became part of the Canadian mosaic and a definite expression of Canadaâs military heritage.
[i] There is some controversy regarding the assignment of some of the battalion commanding officers of the 4th Brigade after April 1916. Lieut.-Col. Wigle was, ostensibly, allowed to return to Canada as his wife was ill but that may have been cover as there was other personnel assignments that appear related to the 4th Canadian Infantry Brigadeâs performance at St. Eloi.
[ii] Worsfold, Howard:Â Service no. 53178 (Military Medal).
[iii] La Vicogne.
[iv] Saint-LĂ©ger-lĂšs-Domart.
[v] If this information is correct this route would have required approximately 450 km of travel during these days. It would be interesting to know the reasons for so many billets.
[vi] Helsdowne, Roger Walter:Â Service 158113.
[vii] Ernest Hodson | Great War Centenary Association, www.doingourbit.ca/profile/ernest-hodson.
Original News Article
Military Medallist at Rushden â How Will the War End? Local Man Enjoys a âSoldierâs Restâ â Hot Time in âDeath Valleyâ â Nearly a âBlightyâ
Bandsman Fred Hodson, M.M., of the âCanadian Infantry, son of Mr and Mrs C Hodson, of 14 Crabb-street, Rushden, has been spending ten daysâ leave at home with his wife, daughter and parents, this being his first visit to England since he won the medal. Interviewed by a representative of the âRushden Echoâ he gave some interesting particulars as to how he won his distinction.
âIt was on September 15th and 16th last year,â he said, âduring the fighting on the Somme that I and a comrade of mine, (Drummer Worsfold) obtained a Military Medal apiece for good work as stretcher bearers, and for remaining in the trenches until all the battalion was out. The Colonel told us we could go out if we chose, as the battalion was being relieved that night, but we elected to remain, and stayed there until our battalion had moved back. At that time the Germans were giving us hell, their artillery dropping shells into us thick and fast. By a miracle I got through without a wound, although I did receive a thump in the back from a piece of spent shrapnel, which inflicted no injury except one or two bruises.
We then moved about 15 miles to the rear of the line for ten days to enjoy a âsoldierâs holiday,â which means being on the march all the time. We moved up again in reserve about September 25th, and had a fairly quiet time so long as we remained in the reserve line. It was on September 30th that we were sent up to the front line and I had to report at the dressing station. Whilst moving up, I had a pretty lively time, as the Germans were making a special mark of the place where the dressing station was situated. I spent the night in the dressing station, and the next morning four of us were ordered to proceed to an old German Dug-out just behind the front line, and this old Boche dug-out we were instructed to turn into an advanced dressing station. It had previously been a bomb store for the Germans, and was about 30 or 40 feet deep. The enemy had abandoned these stores in their rush to get out before our chaps reached them, and we found the old dug-out absolutely full of grenades and bombs.
âWe had a pretty near squeak here. We were standing at the top, and a shell burst about six yards in front of us, but fortunately the force of the explosion was away from us. We beat it down the steps as fast as we could hop it, and had only been under cover two or three minutes when another shell fell right on the top of the entrance, and blew in the woodwork which covered it. However, we experienced little difficulty in getting out.
âAt this point , which was known as âDeath Valleyâ we had many trips up to the front line to bring in the wounded, and as the Germans were on the high ground surrounding, they had good observation, and consequently we had a hot time. It was about 3p.m. on Sunday, October 1st, when my battalion had the orders to go âover the top.â They went forward for about 500 yeards and dug themselves in, but did not see any Germans, although the German snipers were responsible for quite a few casualties on our side. It was about 7p.m. the same day that I got a wound that was nearly a âBlighty.â There were about eight of us in a stretcher-aprty, and we were about 200 yards from the dressing station on our way to the front line. A shell came over and fell right amongst us, and I and another chap were wounded. A piece of the shell struck me on the back of the head, and knocked me silly for a minute or so, but as soon as I came round I clapped the field dressing on my head and hanging on to the strings I beat it as hard as I could pelt for the dressing station, with visions of âBlighty.â The other poor chap, I am sorry to say, died later in the base hospital, from his wounds, whick were in the back.
âHow the remainder of us escaped the Lord only knows. I was disappointed in regard to the âBlightyâ trip, as they only took me as far as Boulogne, and from the high ground where the hospital is built I could see âBlightyâ in the distance, so near yet so far. However, better luck next time. I was in the hospital two weeks, and when i found that I was not marked for âBlightyâ I wanted to try my luck again, and so I asked that I might be sent back to my battalion. On discharge from hospital I was sent to the base and there I did two weeksâ fatigue, after which I was sent up the line again to an entrenching battalion. I remained with them as a bugler for about two months; on returning to my old battalion, I joined the band and am now playing the cornet. This is a good job, not quite bombproof but next door to it. You can believe me it is better to play a tune behind the lines than to go up the lines and play another sort of to make Fritzy âdance.â I have played all the tunes I want to play up there for over a year, and am quite prepared to give somebody else the chance now.
âWhilst I have been out there I have met many Rushden chaps, including Roger Helsdown, who formerly lived in Rushden. We often had a good talk about Rushden, and I used to lend him my âRushden Echoâ whenever I received it.â
Asked for his opinion as to how long the war would last, Bandsman Hodson said that he could not see the end in sight. He did not think fighting would finish and the only manner in which the fighting might be brought to an end would be in his opinion, by all the belligerents coming to terms.
Source: https://www.rushdenheritage.co.uk/war/hodsonF1917.html
 Rushden Echo & Argus, 3rd August 1917, transcribed by Kay Collins
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Face/Off (1997)
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Madman bomber Nicolas Cage stole John Travoltas dead sons life. So gloomy FBI agent Travolta steals Cages face. When Cage steals his face and his wife and freedom John Woos Face/Off becomes the biggest, wackiest and most operatic summer blockbuster in history, a gonzo combustion that flings everything from pigeons to peaches at the screen.
Hong Kong cineastes might applaud a script with roots in the ancient Sichuan opera genre Bian Lian, where performers swap masks like magic. Popcorn-munchers, of which I am front row center, are here to watch whack job Cage and soulful Travolta, two actors who love to go full-ham, play each other and go deep inside their iconographies. Call it hamception. Or just call it a crazy swing that hits a home run as Cavolta and Trage battling it out in a warehouse, a speedboat and, of course, a church. As Cage-as-Travolta gloats to Travolta-as-Cage, Isnt this religious? The eternal battle between good and evil, saint and sinners but youre still not having any fun! Maybe hes not, but we sure are. Bravo, bravo. AN
Edge of Tomorrow (2014)
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Theres been an increasing sense of desperation clinging to the majority of roles picked by Tom Cruise in recent years. Outside of the still shockingly entertaining Mission: Impossible series, he was miscast in the barely serviceable Jack Reacher and its maddeningly unnecessary sequel, his awards-aiming American Made was throwaway and his franchise-starting The Mummy was a franchise-killer. But four summers ago, he picked the right horse just maybe at the wrong time.
Because despite how deliriously fun Edge of Tomorrow was in the summer of 2014, audiences didnt show the requisite enthusiasm. It was a moderate success (enough to warrant a long-gestating sequel) but it should have packed them in, its combination of charm, invention and sheer thrills making it one of the most objectively successful blockbuster experiences in memory. The nifty plot device (Cruise must relive a day of dying while battling aliens over and over again) allowed for some dark gallows humor and a frenetic pace that kept us all giddily on edge while it also contained a dazzling action star turn from Emily Blunt whose fearless Full Metal Bitch wrestled the film away from Cruise. Blame its relative failure on the bland title? Cruise fatigue? Blockbuster over-saturation? Then find a digital copy to watch and rewatch and repeat. BL
Back to the Future (1985)
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Back to the Future very nearly wasnt a summer blockbuster. The reshoots required after Eric Stoltz was booted off, then the fact Michael J Foxs Family Ties commitments meant he could only shoot at night all meant filming didnt wrap until late April. Robert Zemeckis and Steven Spielberg duly pencilled in an August / September release.
But then people started seeing it. Test scores were off the scale. Said producer Frank Marshall: Id never seen a preview like that. The audience went up to the ceiling. So they bagsied the best spot the year had to offer 3 July hired a squad of sound editors to work round the clock and two print editors with instructions to get properly choppy. They did, and those big trims tightened yet further one of the tautest screenplays (by Bob Gale) cinema has ever seen. The only bit of fat they left was the Johnny B Goode scene: sure, it didnt advance the story, but the kids at those test screenings knew we were gonna love it. Back to the Future is a pure shot of summer cinema: grand, ambitious, insanely entertaining. Deadpool, Avengers, take note: a blockbuster can be smart as hell so long as it wears it lightly. In the end, by the way, the film spent 11 weeks at number 1 at the US box office. Thats essentially the whole summer. CS
Teminator 2: Judgment Day (1991)
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The first film I ever saw at the cinema was The Rocketeer. We drove into Bradford city centre, bought our tickets at the Odeon and sat through the 1991 tale which followed the fortunes of a stunt pilot, a rocket pack and a Nazi agent played by Timothy Dalton who sounded like he was from Bury rather than Berlin. The way into the multiplex there was a huge poster for Terminator 2: Judgment Day. Arnie sat on a Harley with a shotgun cocked and ready. My dad was a huge fan of the original but he still couldnt swing taking a seven-year-old to see it. It wasnt until I borrowed a VHS copy that I finally got to see what was behind that image. Skynet, dipshits, T-1000s, a nuclear holocaust and a motorbike chases on the LA river.
Blockbusters dont usually have that edge: theres a more brazen mainstream appeal. But Judgment Day was and still is an exception. It did huge numbers at the box office (more than $500m), was a rare sequel that was arguably better than the original and introduced really odd bits of Spanish idiom into the Bradford schoolyard lexicon. I probably would have been scarred for life watching it as a seven-year-old, but as a teenager it gave me a story I doubt Ill ever get tired of revisiting. LB
The Dark Knight (2008)
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The summer of 2008 was a busy one: Barack Obama emerged from a contentious democratic primary to become the first ever black presidential nominee of a major party. The dam fortifying the entire global financial system was about to burst. China hosted its first ever Summer Olympics. But somehow, and not exactly to my credit, what I remember most from that summer is the uncanny, ridiculously over-the-top publicity blitzkrieg that preceded the release of The Dark Knight, which has since emerged as not just an all-time great summer blockbuster, but an all-time great American film, period.
There were faux-political billboards that read I believe in Harvey Dent; a weirdly nondescript website of the same name; Joker playing cards dispersed throughout comic book stores, which led fans to another website where the DA was defaced with clown makeup. Dentmobiles, Gotham City voter registration cards, a pop-up local news channel: the marketing campaign might have seemed excessive had the movie not so convincingly topped it. Ten years later, as films like Deadpool and Avengers: Infinity War try to reach those same heights of virality, The Dark Knight remains the measuring stick by which every superhero movie, and superhero villain, is measured. JN
Mad Max: Fury Road (2015)
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In many ways, Fury Road is summer: arid, scorching, bright enough to be squinted at. The driving force behind all the high-impact driving is scarcity of water, the essence of life in a desert where death practically rises up from the burning sand. Even in the air-conditioned comfort of a multiplex auditorium in Washington DCs Chinatown, watching George Millers psychotic motor opera left this critic sweaty and parched. My world is fire and blood, warns the weary Max Rockatansky (Tom Hardy) in the scripts opening lines. Staggering out of a theater into the oppressive rays of the sun, it sure can feel that way.
Millers masterpiece fits into the summer blockbuster canon in a less literal capacity as well, striking its ideal balance of dazzling technical spectacle and massively-scaled emotional catharsis. There was plenty of breathless praise to go around upon this films 2015 release, much of it for the feats of practical-effects daring, but the hysterical extremes of feeling cemented its status as a modern classic. I cant deny that Ive watched the polecat sequence upwards of a dozen times, but Millers film truly comes alive in Furiosas howl of desperation, and in Maxs noble disappearance into the throng. CB
Raiders of the Lost Ark (1981)
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Its the music, its the giant boulder, its the Old Testament mysticism, its the whip, its the Cairo Swordsman, its Harrison Fords crooked smile, its the bad dates, its Karen Allen drinking a sherpa under the table, its the melted faces and exploding heads. Its all these things plus having the good fortune of seeing this at the cinema at a very young age, therefore watching most of it through my terrified fingers. (Indy tells Marion to keep her eyes shut during the cosmic spooky ending; way ahead of you there!)
The modern blockbuster as we know it was created by Steven Spielberg with Jaws and George Lucas with Star Wars, so the hype was unmatched when the two collaborated in 1981 with Raiders of the Lost Ark. As a kid I had no idea this was a loving homage to cliffhanger serials from the 30s and 40s, I took it as pure adventure. The seven-and-a-half minute desert truck chase (I dont know, Im making thus up as I go) is probably the best action sequence in all of cinema (John Woos Hard Boiled does not have a horse, sorry), but watching as an adult one notices a lot of sophisticated humor, too. (Indy being too exhausted to make love to Marion, for example, is something that didnt connect when I was six.)
Its strange to think I watched these cartoon Nazis on VHS with my grandparents who had escaped the Holocaust, and no one benefits when you do the math to figure out how young Marion was when, as Indy puts it, you knew what you were doing. But for thrills, laughs and propulsive camerawork (though a little mild Orientalism), nothing tops this one. JH
Independence Day (1996)
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Short of actually calling their film Summer Blockbuster, rarely can a films height-of-summer release date been so central to a films raison detre. This being the mid-90s, when po-mo and self-referentiality was all the rage, brazenly hooking your tentpole film to 4 July was seen as a pretty smart idea.
Fortunately, all the ducks did line up in a row for ID4: a game-changing performance from Will Smith, Jeff Goldblum at (arguably) his funniest, a rousingly Clintoneque president in Bill Pullman and most importantly in that run-up to the millennium physical destruction on a gigantic scale. Much comment at the time was expended on the laser obliteration of the White House (an early shot from the Tea Party/Maga crowd?), but I personally cherish director Roland Emmerichs signature move of detonating cars in somersault formation. Like many other huge-budget films then and since, Independence Day was basically a tooled-up retread of cheap-as-chips format of earlier decades though who these days would roll such expensive dice on what is essentially an original script, with no comic book or toy branding as a forerunner? We shall never see its like again. AP
Aliens (1986)
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An Aliens summer is one for moviegoers who prefer to sit in in darkened rooms when the sun is shining; the brutal confines of the fiery power plant make an excellent subliminal ad for air conditioning. In 1986, James Cameron took Ridley Scotts elegant, iconic horror template and turned it into an all-out action blockbuster, forcing Ripley once again to face down her nemeses in a breathless fug of claustrophobia, sweat and fear. Its relentlessly stressful and unbelievably thrilling.
I first saw Aliens many years after its initial release. Owing to its sizeable and long-lasting legacy, it was at once immediately familiar, yet also brisk and brutally fresh. I understood that it was a classic, but I wasnt prepared for just how good it is, for the pitch-perfect management of tension, the pace that never really lets up, the emotional pull. The maternal undertow of Ripleys protection of Newt, and the alien mirror of that, adds a level of heart unusual in most blockbusters, and her frustration at being a woman whose authority must be earned again and again, and then proven again and again, remains grimly relevant, 30 years on. Its also a total blast. Now get away from her, you bitch. RN
Jaws (1975)
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It is the great summer blockbuster ancestor the film that in 1975 more or less invented the concept of the event movie. And unlike all those other summer blockbusters, Steven Spielbergs Jaws is actually about the summer; it is explicitly about the institution of the summer vacation, into which the movie was being sold as part of the seasonal entertainment. It is about the sun, the sand, the beach, the ocean and the entirely justified fear of being eaten alive by an enormous shark with the appetite of a serial killer and the cunning of a U-boat commander. And more than that: it is about that most contemporary of political phenomena: the coverup, the town authorities at a seaside resort putting vacationers at risk by not warning them about the shark. The Jaws mayor has become comic shorthand for the craven and pusillanimous politician.
A blockbuster nowadays means spectacular digital effects, but this film is from an analogue world. It bust the block through brilliant film-making and an inspired score from John Williams, summoning up the shark with a simple two-note theme which became the most famous musical expression of evil since Bernard Herrmanns shrieking violin stabs in Psycho took the place of actual knife-slashing. I still remember the excitement of the summer of 1975, and the queues around the block at the Empire, in Watford, round the corner from the football ground. The inspired brevity of the title meant the word was repeated over and over again to fill the marquee display: JAWS JAWS JAWS as if they were screaming it! PB
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hello?
Is blogging still a thing? I wouldn't know.....it's been a while, hasn't it? This corner of the Internet has been dark for so long I may have forgotten what I'm doing, and I often wonder, why write? Who is reading--and who cares what I have to say? Why have I been putting myself out there for so long?
My second semester of nursing school brought with it paper after paper--millions of words written late at night on mostly-boring subjects, all of which had to be carefully formatted and cited--two things that will eventually suck the soul right out of a girl. Every corrected paper came back the same--top marks for research, presentation, flow, grammar, a bunch of other boring technical stuff (except my in-text citations--I've decided I really hate APA format), and always a comment scribbled large in red, "but I can still hear your voice". So I tried my hardest to write like a robot, presenting only facts stripped of all creative thought. And finally, after enough papers, I feel like they finally stifled my voice.
The last few months I've had ideas fill my brain--it's always overflowing--usually late at night or when I'm out on the trail. I'll jot down a note on my phone or in a little journal I have, but I can't seem to turn them into anything more than just a thought. They sit there like seeds that haven't been watered. I've slowly started sorting through some of those seeds, seeing if I could make sense of them--taking time to water and find a warm spot in the sun so they can grow.
So I've been writing a little here and there--in the quiet hours of the morning, and slowly piecing together thoughts to share again. This space is so outdated and dusty--links are old and broken, there are many questions unanswered, I know. Sometimes I feel like torching the place and starting fresh.....but for now, here's a very brief update from the last 6 months. If you follow along on my instagram (@_sheenarae) then nothing is probably new to you, but for the rest of you, I present to you:Â
January-June 2016 (abridged version)
January.Â
Started the year in Montana, atop a frosty butte. A new semester. Hospital clinicals--placed some IVs, pulled some staples, changed bandages on an amputated leg. Watched people come out of anesthesia which is super entertaining! Gave an enema on my birthday. Yeah--I turned 33, it wasn't my favorite birthday this year--the winter was long and dark and I was like, "HOW DID I GET SO OLD?!" We climbed a lot at the gym, went south for a weekend to get on some real rock, and took advantage of all the snow--the kids are skiing like champs!Â
February.Â
uhhhhh......haha I can't remember much. Â I think there was.....snow? My head was buried in those aforementioned papers. I played weekly pond hockey with some awesome mamas in the valley. Traded my running shoes for cross country skis. We headed south again for an icy cold campout (like frost on my sleeping bag in the morning, icy cold). Jonah got glasses. Climbed some more....
March.
Clinicals at the State Mental Hospital--I learned aLOT.....but I'm glad that's over with--phew! Robby and I took a weekend date down to St. George (more on that later). I teamed up with my friend Mike Butler and he got me lifting weights and eating waaaaayyyyyy more protein. I have been a pretty scrawny runt my whole life and I've been working hard these last few months to get stronger so I could improve my climbing--it's working! (Mike is awesome by the way if you want to reach out to him for your own weight loss/weight gain program, check out his website!) So yeah, lots of weights, more paper writing, tests. Easter was in March so I got dressed and did my hair--go me!
April.Â
I took an online Statistics class that I kind of forgot to pay attention to (I need deadlines), so April was all about learning what Statistics is (still don't know), so I could ace my final and be done with it forever (did it!) Jonah turned 11 (how?!) We got some more baby chicks. I stressed out over finals. We ran away to the desert again and ate at my very favorite restaurant in the whole wide world.
May.Â
I finished my first year of nursing school and didn't die! I've been out of school since early May--and it's been the BEST! I started my pre-requisites for nursing school in January 2014 and have not had a lot of time off since. The first summer I had a few classes, and then last summer I had to take my TEAS test to try and get into my program, and then I had to apply, interview, stress stress stress. Then I got IN, and had exactly one million things to do over the summer to get ready for school to start--it never felt like a true vacation with all the deadlines weighing me down. So these last few summer weeks have been nothing short of the best days ever. I've been running, biking, climbing, camping, trying to keep the weeds from taking over my garden (it's impossible), and just hanging out with my family. Robby and I see each other again--our school/work schedules were so conflicting I felt like we would sometimes just wave in passing, but now we even go on real live dates.
June.
Kids out of school! We've been to the desert, I took the kids to Montana, and we are loving summer evenings outside. Lucy got her cast off from her broken arm in May--she also turned NINE!
Biking is fun, and so are strangers who forgot to say "look here" when they take the photo. I forgot how much I love zipping through the trees on my bike.
Backyard jam sessions....
Early morning climbs with my girls....
  ....and now, we are ready for July! Consider yourself officially updated, and maybe next time I'll dive into those seeds I have growing.
Thanks to the one person (mom) who read through this! Talk soon
*I have so many unanswered comments on here--sorry about that! I really have not been around. I also have over 3000 unread emails.....whoops. While most of them are ads and what not, some of them are from YOU GUYS, and I'm sorry, I've just had to really prioritize my life this past little while and all things internet-involved are pretty far down my list. Thanks for always being here though!
*I get lots of questions about why I'm not posting recipes anymore. We really keep our meals pretty simple and most of what we eat is already on my blog. I just haven't had any extra time to develop anything new, let alone take pictures of it. When in doubt, make eggs!
*I always get such a great response when I post the gear we love and use--I will continue to do that, and I apologize for old links that may not be taking you where you want to go. I will try to get an updated gear list for you soon!
*If I get enough questions on this post, I can do another Q&A post like I've done in the past.Â
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the one time i actually think something thru before making a decision and all my past mistakes immediately come and fuck it up.
long ass post after the cut. if you read it that would be great.Â
on 2013, when i was about to get out of highschool, i knew i wanted to study graphic design on this one institute.
my mom during my entire life always told me she wanted me to go into a ~traditional university~ (if youre chilean youâll understand) and that institutes or private universities were out of discussion. so i gave up about the institute.
also my mom didnt want me to end up like her (a secretary who has earned pretty much the same her entire life and is perpetually in debt) so she wanted me to study something that would give me $$$money$$$. design? yeah RIGHT, she laughed at my fucking face and said i wont pay shit for that.
so i got into international business, into a university that literally sucks dick but is supposedly âgoodâ because its a traditional fucking university. but everybody knows it sucks dick lol. i got a scholarship that covered pretty much the entire cost of it (i was paying $40.000 clp monthly, about $64 usd) . but i hated it. i wasted two entire years on it. till one day i was trying to write a fucking essay or something and i finally snapped and said i dont wanna be here. i hate this. fuck this. im not doing this anymore. i was fucking miserable.
then i realized it was too late to register to take the testâą (a standardized test everyone who wants to get into a traditional university has to take, itâs once a year and you gotta register and even pay for it if youre taking it a second time) and my previous score wouldnt get me anywhere (spoiler: it was shit) so i thought. but hey they do design here. i can just transfer to that career internally so i dont have to take the test. im a fuckin genius. like literally i didnt really think about it for more than like. half an hour lmao
so i called my mom. ya know what she said? âI KNEW YOU WOULDNT LASTâ. she knew i wasnt made for that career. she knew i fucking hated it. and she just watched me collapse without saying shit. without saying hey if you wanna change your career i wont be mad. she just waited to see how long i would take it. at the moment i was like oh thank god you aint mad. but now i look back and. just how fucking sadistic can my mom be lmfao. anyway.
same university different career. i went into design into that university without knowing how good or bad it actually was. because i didnt really have a choice (though i did. if only i wasnt scared to death about getting into an institute. actually no: about ASKING MY MOM if i could get into an institute) and i got an even better benefit: i was studying for completely fucking FREE. and hey how could you know. the career was SHIT. it made me HATE what i did. i was even more miserable than before because all my life i knew i was gonna end up on design. and i was terrible at it. i hated myself because i was studying for free and i couldnt stop fucking it up. my mental health was shit. i collapsed. i failed everything and i dropped out first year. my mom never knew. she still doesnt know i dropped out.
but hey that was because im fucking lazy and depressed right. that happened because i didnt have my meds for like a month. of course i was going to fail. so i tried again. same career same university, different year. THIS year.
same story.Â
except this time i was like no you know what? iâm not even that depressed anymore, i did my best, and i still cant fucking make it, i still hate what im doing but i still love design. so i asked around, i asked if the career was really that bad. turns out everyone knows its shit lmao
so i wanted to drop out- except they had already kicked me out bc i had failed too many times LMAO
this was on july this year. and i started investigating and asking around. for the first time in my entire life i started thinking about my education without thinking âwhat will my mom sayâ. because FUCK what she thinks. trying to make her happy has given me nothing but pain. ive wasted FOUR YEARS of my life trying to make her happy, going to a piece of SHIT university JUST BECAUSE ITS A ~TRADITIONAL~ ONE.
so FUCK THAT.
and guess what
im currently enrolled in graphic design. on the institute i first wanted to go. because guess what. ITS ONE OF THE BEST PLACES TO STUDY GRAPHIC DESIGN. AND I KNEW IT FROM THE BEGINNING.
so this semester ive been doing a whole bunch of nothing and classes start on march. im currently bored to death. but anyway
thing being, no one has told me yet if iâll be able to renew my benefits. ive asked around and still, not a single social worker has been able to tell me. my previous universityâs social worker first told me she would âemail meâ the info. never happened. i kept sending emails and going there trying to get some answers, nothing. i was told by another social worker that i should apply again just in case, though i should be renewing, so i did. today the âresultsâ came out: i still have no fucking clue.
i dont know if ill have to bury myself in debt. i dont know if ill have to pay for it. i dont know if ill be able to renew my benefits and keep studying for free or at least for less. and its fucking me up. im stressed, im anxious, i just.
i just wanna study in peace and im so angry that ive wasted so many years learning nothing and wasting benefits on careers i didnt even want to be in just to make my mom happy. im so fucking angry at myself, and at her. the other day i told her all of this and she has the NERVE of saying âOH SO ITS ALL MY FAULT THEN?!â LIKE BITCH YES! ITS ALL, EVERYTHING, YOUR FUCKING FAULT. THESE FOUR FUCKING YEARS THESE HAVE ALL BEEN YOUR. FUCKING. FAULT.
so yeah i want to kill myself lmfao if you read till here sorry but i got nothing to give you but it means a lot. if you read this pls like this post lolÂ
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