#ive cried like 10 times today thinking about it

[catz4ever]

IM SO SCARED IM GOING TO LOSE HIM BY THE END OF THIS SEASON.

They hyped up his character so much with adds and multiple interviews with Sam. Sam has been non stop promoting the show and Adar and I can't but hope that maybe there's a reason for this? Does he have a bigger part to play? He even said "next year" in one of his interviews when they were discussing black speech and I've been holding onto that for dear life. Please someone comfort me 😭

I've legit had some real anxiety about this whole thing. Probably some PTSD from the recast last season but I can't lose another Adar. We just got Sam 🥺

[girlthativealwaysbeen]

im so tough when im alone and i make you feel so guilty and i fantasize about the time you're a little fucking sorry do you think i deserved it all your flowers filled with vitriol you have everything but you still want more and

[sparkdoesart]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

CRYING SOBBING CRYING LOSING IT

IMA PUT EVERYTHING UNDER HERE VVV

i beat the game

In stars and time. Uhm. I think this is fhe most emotional day ive had in. So long. This is the most ive ever related to a character. Ever. I. Have cried so much today. Both at this game and other personal things and i just...

I love siffrin so much... the fear of losing everyone.. the fear that eventually they will all leave you is just. So real. The way they act in this game. It genuinely just feels like im playing myself. And every time a character would look at me and tell me why i was going to be fine or when they would get so concerned... Isabeau specifically. Its just

Ive learned more about myself today. I relate to sif so so much in a way i havent with a character since marcy. I am so glad i tried this game and i think sif will always be my favorite character from anything now.

Hhhhhh

Might not be veryyy active aside from looking at isat stuff because ive been on one hell of an emotional roller-coaster today and i miss them all already.

10/10 game,, most immersed ive ever been in anything and the best game ive ever played.

Theres so much more but im just. So out of it rn. Wonderful experience.

[hueningsloverr]

౨ৎ playing roblox w/ txt !

pairing : ot5 x reader  summary : how i think roblox with tubatu would go!! word count : 0.4k

choi soobin -

he's a natural disasters kind of guy

like an og, 2015 roblox player

i think he probably played a LOT with kai during their trainee days

he doesn't really branch out and try new things

controversial, but most likely to get his account banned

he'd rage, once in a while

just let it all out

kai and gyu wouldn't listen during practice today? tyun wasn't feeling good? jjunnie was out doing something else?

bottled up emotions would come just flying out

very quick to apologise + very embarrassed

choi yeonjun -

flee the facility type of guy

“its not that serious”

screams, cries, and throws his computer across the room

tyun at some point has had to restrain him

but he always spares you whenever you're on diff teams <3

until he doesn't

so quick to switch up

but at the end of the day, to him it is actually just a game

he'll use it to make destroy gyu or kai sometimes

but he doesn't care that much

he just likes getting to spend time with you

choi beomgyu -

he would BEG to play adopt me

lowkey would just want to scam kids

but you would do it together <3

would also adore those silly roleplay games (where he gets to grill 7 year olds taking their online relationship too seriously)

whenever you two play you have to make sure he doesn't say anything that would get his account banned

def has like 10 burner accounts

he rotates hating on kids and getting suspended

most likely to have moa find his account tbh

he like barely hides it

kang taehyun - 

he would be so contempt playing some sort of chill vibe game

you guys would sit for hours just chatting away listening to the music

then he'd ask to play toh

would beat ur ass

and would laugh abt it.

gyu is definitely his mentor

you will catch this man 'studying' each map

learning how to beat the levels as fast as possible

just wants to prove he's the best in some way🤧

huening kai -

the type to play royal high and love it

he'd have a cute little avatar and everything

the type to buy female sets

100% an og player

and 100% hates the new updates

“its so expensive~”

has over 2M diamonds

literally has every gamepass under the sun

probably started playing with hiyyih while he was a trainee

so they could still bond and have their ‘special’ thing

but of course you're allowed to play

authors note: im in such a slump right now that all ive been doing is homework and playing roblox, so take a 3 AM draft all about txt and roblox 😻

©2023 — all rights reserved to hueningsloverr , please do not plagiarise or translate any of my work

[chans5oive]

Once more.

chan x gn reader

Genre: childhood friends to lovers au x idol au

warning: slight angst towards the end but ends with fluff!

Word count: 971

a/n: Hey!! This is my first ever fic please be nice and let me know if i made any mistakes and likes and re-blogs are appreciated but please give credit!!

You and chan have known each other since you were born your mothers were in a pre-natal group together and really hit it off and became best-friends. You knew Chan all through primary school in Seoul. Later when it was time to move to high-school you found out chan was moving to Australia and you were moving to (insert country.) After saying you hurtful goodbyes you guys promised to stay in touch.

Occasionally you would visiting each other and act like you have never left each other. However, the mutual friend feeling suddenly changed for Chan. It was summer in Australia you were 15 and Chan was the same, you went visit - not seeing Chan in a while so neither of you really had a recent image of one another- you wore short clothing from the obvious heat and when you saw Chan for the first time in what felt like ages he was blown away.

“were they always this cute” he thought.

“Wow Ive never never noticed the dimples when they smile before” he thought as you smiled at his sister.

You and Chan headed up to his room to do some mindless catching up when Chan could feel his heart racing and his palms getting sweaty. Yes, it could be from the sweltering heat…but what if it wasn’t? You dived onto Chans bed already making yourself comfortable as he put on a movie. You were engulfed in the movie but Chan couldn’t take his eyes of you. The movie ended and you turned to Chan. “hey i need to tell you something” you sputtered.

Recently, you decided to audition for JYP just for fun to see if you would get in and as it turns out you did.

“i auditioned for JYP and i got in so im moving back to Korea i guess” you spat.

“oh my god y/n that is probably the best thing i have ever heard” he spoken in an eger tone.

“i did too!! And im moving there in spring!” He jumped

so it was settled you and Chan would move together and train side by side. Which of course you did but not without making a few friends on the way.

-10 years later-

“Y/n!” A girl with long black hair called out to you.

“Yeji!” You cried

You and Yeji have been friends right from the start of your training process. She joined around the same time as you and since then you two became inseparable. “i thought you didn’t need to come in today?” She quizzed

“yeah but my comeback is soon and i wanted to see Chan in the studio!” You explained

“oh ok!” You hugged and make your way over to Chans studio.

You knock on the door and hear a familiar aussie voice coming from inside

“come in!!” He yelled.

You walk in and smell the familiar smell (you would often visit) of coffee and the old wood smell from the walls. Your wrap your arms around him and hug him tight. Chans heart raced once again and his palms once again becoming sweaty just like he did when he was 15. You sat on the couch and asked if he needed any help as you were an idol and a music producer too.

Finally, Chan had finished his work and found you asleep on his studio couch. He smiled and draped his jacket over your body.

ok hes in love

Chan with this new realisation he would distance himself. Your his best-friend and has been since your guys were born! He can’t confess can he? What if you break up? How could he live without you? He decided to consult in his closest friends. “just date her idk why your so stressed” a muffled reply came from Minho snacking on a bun.

“Yeah date her” came from 6 other boys in an overly loud manner.

With all this too think about Chan does the one thing he does when he needs to disassociate from reality. Make music.

You were worried. Chan hadn’t been answering you messages or calls. He always said he was too busy or when he saw your walking he would run the other way. You were getting sick of it because you couldn’t think of anything that you did wrong!

You came up with a plan. To trap chan and get him to say what is wrong.

You had the perfect plan, you would show up to his dorm unannounced and the boys would make sure he was home. You show up just as you planned there he was sitting on the couch.

“God hes gorgeous- wait did you just call chan gorgeous” you thought.

Putting that thought aside. You called out to Chan and made sure he couldn’t run.

“YA!! Why are you ignoring me!!!” You splutter already feeling a lump in you throat.

“Y/n-“

“No NO i did nothing why are you ignoring me i don’t understand!!” Oh great! Your crying. Perfect.

“I LIKE YOU OK..i like you” he spits out slightly crying too.

“what-“ you were shocked. In fairness you were actually quite happy you had always had a slight crush on Chan but i guess you never really noticed it apart from when you saw him on the couch mere moments ago.

“listen y/n i’ve liked no no loved you since we were 15 and when you visited me in Australia and you were just so..cute! And funny and sweet! Your just so perfect and-“

before he could say another word you pressed your lips against his. Slowly but tenderly kissing. Passionate like you were both waiting for this for 10 years you both have .

You pull away “in case you couldn’t tell Christopher chan i like you too” and pressed you lips together once more.

Tag list: @mazeinthemiroh @jisungsdaydreamer @fantasy2wonderland @anyamaris @chocotonez

if you want to be un/added to the list let me know and lemme know if i missed anything or didnt tag anyone :)

[causenessus]

HI NESS!! its like 3 pm rn so good afternoon 😋 i hope you're having/had(? idk when ur school day ends so like..) a good school dayyayay :)) HOPEFULLY YOUVE BEEN DRINKING WATER and ofc eating enough + taking ur meds 🙂‍↕️

when u mentioned some npc named cream cheese i started laughing like an idiot omg 💔 like picture me sitting in the living room next to my roommate bc we're watching a tv show and then i look down at my phone and start giggling out of nowhere.. cream cheese sounded like a real opp 😕🙏 i was the same but with mariokart bc rose gold peach was always hitting me w red shells fr LIKE I CRIED OVER THAT A LOT ACTUALLY (i was 7). and omg mario party!! i still play that whenever i have game nights bc i was able to buy a nintendo switch HAHAHAH and dude just dance hyperfixation goes crazy bc i got insanely good at rasputin solely because i thought i looked cool (i did not.) 😞

ALSO THE VOLLEYBALL GIRLS BEING MEAN IS SO REAL OMG.. lots of the vb girls at my middle school didn't like me for no reason it was crazy actually and that was partially why i didnt start until now LMAO theyre scary af sometimes akwkwnssj

IM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL TOMORROW and me and my friends were trying to figure out where to meet and its now coming to me that i have nothing planned whatsoever 😋 LIKE I DIDNT EVEN PLAN WHEN TO WAKE UP AND I ONLY REALIZED NOW PLS so today i have to lock in and plan an outfit hairstyle and lunch for tomorrow morning and uhhhhhh i wanted to write and post an akaashi oneshot before i went back to school bc i would probably lose the time to write frequently so... how do u balance out your time omg (DONT ACTUALLY ANSWER THIS ITS OK ITS RHETORICAL IM JUST YAPPING)

also i had no idea but like theres a district rule here that phones CANNOT be used at all in the school day unless u were explicitly allowed to.. like ive been getting intro emails from my teachers and their talking about A CELL PHONE VAULT⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ guys i just want my phone so that i can listen to music while i work on assignments please i swear im an ok kid 💔 i may just keep it in my backpack and always wear my hair down because im desperate.. i think i may have an aneurysm if i have to go the entirety of a day without music so desperate times call for desperate measures i suppose 😕

ANYWAY IM NOT GONNA REREAD THAT AND ATTEMPT TO CORRECT ANY ATROCIOUS LOOKING RUN ON SENTENCES SO I HOPE YOU CAN UNDERSTAND ME,, HOPEFULLY YOURE DOING WELL AND ARE HAVING A GOOD DAY!!

HELLO SAV!!! GOOD EVENING <3 (it's 10 pm rn oopsies) THANK U!! AND I HOPE YOU HAD A GOOD DAY <3 today was okay besides the embarrassment of hearing my own playlist being played in public...yk what i'm referring to..BUT also aa yes i will take my meds thank you for the reminder!! since 10 is when i'm supposed to take them 😭 i'll take them next time i get up!! bc i'm kind of comfy rn </3

PLEASE i never actually played mario kart </33 like then the switch came out and my friend had it and i played at her house but then she'd always get mad bc i'd beat her LMAO so i've actually never owned mario kart!! like i ended up get a hand me down switch from my sister's bf's sister who didn't want it anymore but it dies like within an hour of being used so i never play it </33 and DW i didn't look cool dancing to promiscuous even if i got 5 stars on it LMAOAO

but YES idk i think middle school volleyball is definitely the worst bc that's when the toxicity started for my friend in volleyball and i think it makes sense just because of what our minds are like at the state (trying to find ur place and form groups and everything yk </3 not to be a psych nerd or anything but ykwim </3)

AND AA BEST OF LUCK TOMORROW AT SCHOOL!! I'LL PROBABLY MESSAGE U AT MIDNIGHT TO WISH U LUCK AGAIN <3 I HOPE YOU GOT YOUR OUTFIT AND EVERYTHING PLANNED OUT!! i've also been just taking it day by day 😭 like my schedule depends on the day yk so like i've just been setting alarms the night before everytime my schedule changes (IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN IT BUT I GET U SAV I GET U) and aa!! i know your question was rhetorical but definitely don't stress about too much please <3 take your time and just do what you can manage!!

AND THAT'S CRAZY?? A PHONE VAULT??? MAN YOUR SCHOOL IS HARDCORE I'M SO SORRY 😭😭 i definitely just keep my hair down and use earbuds most of the time bc i CANNOT go without music and like it's fine!!! i have great grades tbh so no one has anything on me 😌 i remember one time i had this math final and we had to put our phones in like a shoe hanger everyday (idk what it's called) but thank goodness wireless headphones exist!! so like my phone would still be connected to my earbuds <3 and my teacher made me lift up a beanie i was wearing to cover my ears LMAO AND I HAD AN EARBUD IN BUT SHE DIDN'T SEE IT BC THEY'RE BLACK like i am not rich enough to afford airpods and i don't want them anyway 😭 they look uncomfortable and ugly and they draw so much attention bc they're bright!! offbrand earbuds all the way <3

YOU ARE BETTER THAN I AM FOR PROOFREADING YOUR MESSAGE 😭😭 I'M GOING TO SEND THIS AS IT IS AND I'M SORRY FOR ANY RUN ON SENTENCES!! I HOPE YOU HAD A LOVELY DAY SAV <33

[words-by-elliott]

oh my gosh there are like 17 of y'all now. Wowsers. I've been busy finding housing and trying to scrape together enough coin to make that happen. My phone broke too so I just downloaded Tumblr on the new one.

I've been doing witch activities recently. and I think this blog is a safe space to share my experiences and seekins.

as far as experience goes, I'm quite the novice. In magic I mean. but I'm exploring this part of me and trying to figure out what this is, and what it can be. to put it shortly, I am patient. I am open. I believe.

I bring this up because today I had much progress in this pursuit.

In the morning I communed with the sea. I grew up on the Raritan Bay, in my home and my love, New Jersey. It was a 10 minute walk to a quiet local beach. Despite this it had been years since I had fully communed with her. I regret taking her for granted. Especially because now I live a 45 minute drive from the ocean.

But I made it today, while it's still hot as fuck out. There was a lovely picnic, basking in the suns embrace, and of course, the bay.

I swam among the jellyfish with the friend who drove me. I helt held by the cool waves. I felt myself healing. I took my heart and mind stones in for a attunement before I left.

When we got back to the city I met my girlfriend.

I told her,

"Sorry I smell brackish."

She replied,

"you kinda have a brackish vibe all the time, it's really attractive."

It one of the best compliments I've ever received. I love that woman.

The day was not without stress. I struggled. I cried. There's a lot going on right now, I'm up in the air again.

But like, and this is gonna sound like a weird turn, Ive had this pumpkin from october of last year. She made it 11 months before she started growing mold.

This pumpkin has given me so much love and support these past few months. Everytime I saw it I would smile and laugh because it seemingly refused to decay.

It remained. Until now. A month from a year, and a month before my lease is up.

I said goodbye. Took a moment to thank her for the joy she's provided. Lit some insense and blew some smoke at her to send her off.

I kept the stem. Cut the flesh off, (which I'll make into paints later), and scrubbed away what was left of the pumpkin bits.

I love that pumpkin. I truly believe there's a joyful spirit inside of it, that I've fed and nurtured with my own joy and love. And it in turn has fed and nurtured me.

I made a necklace out of the stem. I believe that her sprit resides in it, and that that spirit is my friend. I get to take her with me wherever I want now, but I'm thinking about letting her cure so she doesn't get fucked up by moisture or something.

[the charms she wears are my heart and mind stones]

So yea, feeling very witchy rn. It's September so tis the season I suppose. But I remain excited for future lessons, experiences, and friends.

[iwillneverforgiveyousunghanbin]

oh my god. Did u just say that Taerae's chapter is gonna be DEVASTATINC?????? Help me. r u rly gonna do this to kkultaerae #1... but take ur time w the chapter make sure to take lots of breakfs & take care of urself 😊

i used to stream and vote every day. bur only for zb1 and p1h. i talk abt kpop all the time to my non kpop irls and just force them to listen. LOL its fun that they know who taerae is now. do u have a lot of online friends that u can talk to abt kpop? what other grps do u like?

i atarted watching bc i think the lineup is rly interesting and im not attached to any of them. except i rly like this guy named inhwan now bc his performance moved me to tears 😭 (ive NEVER cried purely bc of a vocal performance before!) but its sooo reaosnable that ur not watching it. keep ur peace!!

hope ur doing well! sleep for at least 8 hours, have 3 meals every day, & drink lots of aater ��

xoxo, 🎻

i’m currently trying to tone down the devastation of taerae’s part!! i’m gonna save some of the emotion for his alternate ending now, i think it belongs there instead 😭 but it will still be kind of devastating i think.

for my birthday, i asked my best friend to listen to me give an hour long powerpoint about my favorite groups and she did. and she recently started tutoring one of stray kids’ lawyers!!! how insane is that. she only knew who they were after i taught her about them so i think i deserve a lot of credit

honestly, i don’t really have any online friends. for some reason, i don’t think i was really good at making friends that way?? especially in a setting that’s like a big group message… it was really socially daunting for me even though i liked all the people! i’ve had some individual online friends throughout the years that were so lovely but ya know, things just naturally fade.

my other ult groups are skz and bts, and behind them are nct (specifically 127) and ateez. i also love mont and bnd.

but my new favorite group, who have taken over my brain functioning temporarily, is riize.

i don’t know what happened but i took one look at sohee and i was done for. i’ve now ordered merch, started watching their variety show, made a new blog for multistan writing which i’ll eventually post on… i’m such a sucker 😭😭

i’m gonna watch some of the build up performances today!! i’ve heard they’re all pretty amazing so it can’t hurt to just watch the performances lol (10 hours later, is making a comprehensive spreadsheet for build up like i did with boys planet)

🩷💕 i’m doing well 🎻!! i hope you are taking care of yourself as well. sorry for the crazy long reply. 🩷💕

[candiedapplez]

I ask you all of the questions from that one reblog. Good luck/nf/j

Omg ok this will be a while then tehehehehehehhe im not complaining though!!!! Heres the questions so u can look at the questions and the answers!

1.this one is OBVIOUS!!! A-90 and Opheebop!!! DUUUUUUUH!

2.lighter. Ive never used a match before

3.ew no!!! I don't want buggies crawling in my room while im sleeping!!!! However i have before!

4. Aaaaaa ive never really gotten into that stuff so i cant really give an answer-

5. A really dark brown!!

6. Oops i did that again???

7. Well idk ive used both and they are both work really well! however i do think scrunchies are safer for your hair, i use normal hair ties more often because scrunchies are more bulky and yeah i dont prefer that, but both are great!

8. Six. I have six.

9.NONE! COFFE IS GROSS BLEEEEEEGH!!

10. Ofc!!

11. Does drawing count?

12. Good day!!!!! I havent cried yet so-

13. Not too long ago, like an hour ago actually. I had pizza! (Incase u were wondering)

14. HELL YEAH!!!

15. Nope and i never want to be 😗

16. NoooooOoOoO-

17. Nope i have perfect vision muah

18. I DONT WANNA SAY TEHE! (Sry)

19. Yea ofc!!! But they probably wont turn out good…

20. Soda…. Ive never seen or heard anyone say pop before….

21. Plushies!!!! I have a unicorn plush my old friend (we dont talk anymore since she moved) gave me for my 7th bday!!!! Yes i remember when, yes i still have it! And its in perferct condition!!! Also there was this one kid who ig had a crush on my and he gave me a basket full of stuff for valentines day and i still have said basket-

22. I have no clue what this means? I guess sensitive?

23. Love it!!!!!

24. Eating :] (and joking abt pushing each other off probably/JOKE/JOKE/JOKE/JOKE)

25. Aaaa i use all of them but i use lotion most so ig lotion?

26. Idk what to say for this one aaaaaagh

27. Like 5 i think? Ive been getting better with my sleep time!!!!

28. Not anymore, our school last year said we could take them off, however i was SO insecure about my face (still am, but not as much as before) so i would wear it every single day. If i showed up to school without one people got surprised. I stopped wearing them this year, however.

29. Hot????

30. THE FUCKING WATER BOTTLES!!!!

31. Theres a lot, i dont wanna get into it 😵‍💫

32…… is that a thing? People have favorite towels??

33. Hm my school took us on a field trip to a high school so we can see animals if that counts… (i have pictures btw if u wanna see them! We saw pigs, sheep, cows and bunny! I didnt take pic of bunny tho 😢)

34. LITERALLY EVERY SIX THE MUSICAL SONG HOLY SHIT IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS (the only ones i might mess up on are aywd and idnyl bc aywd is long and i dont listen to idnyl often)

35. Pst!!

36. Only once! My username used to have a 0 between the words (Candied0applez) but i changed it bc it made it sound like i candied no apples… but i was originally going to be called caramelapplez but i thought candied sounded better heheh)

37. The friend i mentioned earlier i met first day of kindergarden, her name is Alana, and this other girl Maya i met before kinder! We met eachother at a park and when we walked home we found out we were neighbors so we instantly became besties! (We still are to this day but she lives 30 mins away so i dont see her often-(

38. All…?

39. Sometimes!

40. Ice cream!!!

41. Empty. Coffee is gross

42. Hahahah yt, roblox and occasionally twitter!

43. HAND IT OVER BITCH!

44. Myself/j fucking donald trump 🤮👈🖕

45. NO ☺️

46. Oh god i dont watch any 🫢

47. | v

this actually was to the other girl i mentioned earlier! Maya! I found baby pictures of us when we were in 2nd-3rd grade and i showed her today!!!

48. Never and i dont plan on ever!

49. Never tried

50. GO AHEAD I GET SO EXCITED WHEN IM TAGGED IN SOMETHING AAAAA!

omg that took forever!!! Gosh i dont mind though!!! These were fun questions! Aaaaaaaa i enjoyed that tyty!

[nebulousfishgills]

15 Questions Tag Game

Rules: answer the questions below as yourself and/or your OC.

Tagged by: @practically-an-x-man

See, tag games are different than asks bc tags can get lost in the sauce, so I prefer to do those asap. I'll answer as Emily because of course I will, and I'll stick with her Stranger Things canon as much as possible (the fact that this is something I have to say lmao).

1) Are you named after anyone?

Fuck if I know. It's not like my mother left me a note saying "oh by the way, you're named Emily because of this" when she abandoned me. I still think Papa pulled "Ripley" out of a hat.

2) When was the last time you cried?

I haven't cried in years. Anyone who says otherwise is lying. I don't cry, I'm not weak.

(The moderator of this questionaire would like to bring up that time she cried over Henry's unconscious body)

Liar.

3) Do you have kids?

Not by choice. I didn't consent to it. You'll have to take it up with Papa.

4) Do you use sarcasm?

*sarcastically* No.

5) What's the first thing you notice about people?

How disgusting they are. Have you ever seen people? Selfish pigs, all of them. At least throw away your goddamn Snickers wrapper.

6) What's your eye color?

Naturally brown. One was grey for a few years. Right now they're red. It's kinda cool. Henry loves my eyes like this.

7) Scary Movies or Happy Endings?

Happy endings are never my idea of a happy ending. Why should I celebrate a bunch of morons riding off into the sunset together? Scary movies.

8) Any special talents?

I move things with my mind and can kill you with a stare, how's that for a "special talent?" What do you want me to say, I'm really good at double dutch jump rope?

Runner up goes to dealing with Eddie all the time.

9) Where were you born?

Hawkins.

10) What are your hobbies?

Spending time with Henry, playing with my bats, drawing, Dungeons and Dragons, homicide.

(The moderator whispers something to Emily)

For "legal reasons" I'm required to say that last part was a joke.

11) Do you have any pets?

My bats. It's Theresa's birthday today.

12) What sports do you play/have played?

I hit Eddie with a baseball bat once if that counts.

13) How tall are you?

Five eight. Are you a cop or something?

14) Favorite subject in school?

I'm thirty eight and operating on a warped sixth grade education... but I'll say history.

15) Dream Job?

What part of "wake up, eat, work, sleep, reproduce, and die" do you not understand? The entire idea is that I don't want to work. Idiot.

(The moderator quietly leads Emily out of the room)

Tagging: @the-bat-ive-become

[natjennie]

your ghostsposting has convinced me to finally watch it thank you so much. speedran it all today because i'm extremely sick and bored loved it 10/10 i cried 2 times also i can't stop thinking that thomas looks like caldwell naddpod

thomas DOES look like caldwell he's like if caldwell and viago had a baby omg. but yes ive been seeing some posting about it for a while and decided to try it and literally crushed in in what two? three days? it's incredible. it's really good, I'm glad you liked it. damn your eyes.

[cephalomon]

my thing has always been and will always be pokemon. if you ever need to grab me a gift and you dont know what to get, get me something related to pokemon. a poster, a keychain, a mug, a shirt, a plushie, by god ill even take the cards. nothing will ever make me as emotional or excited or joyful as pokemon. no media i like will ever be liked More than pokemon. if you took me to a pokemon center id be willing to marry you.

i remember being a weird little eight year old girl. im not a girl, but i was a weird little girl at one point in my life. big black eyes and long black hair, and i cried when people talked to loud. i remember moving in with our next door neighbors at our apartment building. we didnt know each other that well, but we were all poor and they welcomed us into their tiny one bedroom apartment. it was already too small for them, too small to house 3 more people, but they insisted on it anyway.

they were both queer people, likely some of the first id ever met in my life. they were also really involved in video game and furry culture. they were integral to the person i am today. my first introduction to so many things that would end up becoming major parts of my life.

i had a little DS that me and my sister played mario on, but nothing else. one of our neighbors, now roommates, let me play her games, and i played pokemon soul silver for the first time.

ever since then, for 10 years, i have loved pokemon. it has never faltered, it has never gone out of style for me, i have never gotten tired of it. almost every interest ive had has come in waves. i rarely Stop liking anything, but it goes quiet and i occupy myself with something else. but not pokemon

pokemon has always been a consant thing, something i am always so excited to see and hear about, something im always trying to interact with, something thats always on my mind. even during the years where my ds was broken, and i couldnt play pokemon anymore, i spent my time watching videos and learning more and eagerly anticipating the day id get to play again.

i remember living with another weird little girl very briefly, i mustve been in 3rd or 4th grade. she asked me to teach her about pokemon, and i spent a lot of time showing her everything i could. i felt like i was a pokemon professor. it was really silly, but i was just little, and i was so proud of myself for knowing all these things and finally having the chance to show someone else. show someone else something i loved so much.

theres no point to this other than, i just really wanted to talk about how much i love pokemon. i feel like ive neglected it a lot lately. even though i still love it, ive been so preoccupied with so many things in my life that ive had few opportunities to just sit down and enjoy pokemon.

i think thats why playing pokemon violet this passed week has been so important to me. its been a really long time since ive let myself get enraptured in pokemon like that. i loved the characters, i loved the region. i have my critiques, sure, but i really liked these games. and i really love pokemon

[narwhalpanda]

15 questions/15 people

thank you @angry-velociraptor for tagging me! im usually horrible at filling these (i tell myself aw thats sweet, ill do it later and then ill NEVER get back to it) but today im determined to answer some questions >:3c

1. are you named after anyone?

nope, my mom had to change plans for my name last minute so that my birthday and name day didn't fall on the same day. but even the planned name still wasn't an homage to anyone

2. when was the last time you cried?

about two days ago watching the end of Search for Bob (CR1 oneshot) when Liev'tel asks the Raven Queen whether Vex and Keyleth will be happy. that got me good, dammit Liam and Matthew

but overall i am so easily moved to tears its ridiculous

3. do you have kids?

nu-uh

4. do you use sarcasm a lot?

lately i've noticed that it's not always obvious to some of my friends when im joking/sarcastic without malice, so im trying not to unless im sure there cannot be a misunderstanding

5. what’s the first thing you notice about people?

their neutral facial expression (or how the look at me) and height i think?

6. what’s your eye color?

grey-blue, got that from dad's side

7. scary movie or happy endings?

im not much into movies but ive definitely watched more horrors than romantic comedies, so ill go with scary (ive got Mouth of Madness on my list rn)

8. any special talents?

not exactly a talent but id say im weirdly lucky when it counts

9. where were you born?

in czech republic, normal hospital baby

10. what are your hobbies?

drawing is my life long hobby, something i keep coming back to. lately ive become the filthiest of casuals of ttrpgs and im having a blast. also i have been housebound for past three months (icky leg injury) and in that time i got to come back to reading which has also always been my beloved activity, as well as pick up new things like painting minis (ive got little ranger/fighter/wizard mice miniatures and the are tiny and adorable af) and in past few days i got into neocities so im learning html and css to make my own little website and im having so much fun. id like to formally apologize to all my for the time abandoned hobbies, including but not limited to writing, embroidery, linocut and sewing, i swear ill get back to yall some time but now is just not that time.

11. do you have any pets?

currently not :c

12. what sports do you play/have you played?

ive played volleyball for ten years, i stopped playing when i went to college. after that ive done tai-chi for a year, then nothing for a loong time, then i finally decided to hit the gym and get some shoulders, which went great before i felt fit enough to try volleyball again and that is where my 3 month long icky leg injury comes from lmao. but when im healed id love to get fit again (not sure about the volleyball, im super scared but asasdgf it made me so happy to play again), it was brief but awesome, it really is so good for my body and brain to exercise regularly

13. how tall are you?

169 cm, which i think is about 5'6"

14. favorite subject in school?

geography and literature. i wish i remembered more from both high school and uni, man, it was cool to know things about these

15. dream job?

my dream job used to be book editor or librarian. now... ive worked as a librarian for two years now, on two different posts, and i really like the job, tho i eventually wish to do something that is paid a bit better and/or more creative. id like some fun job sometime in my life. but who wouldnt :D

tagging: @lawful-goof @mu-mumie @zraloci-cpr @picachews @zelvuska (feel no obligation you know how it goes :3)

[flovverworks]

disjointed (akira) pt2 ch1-8 thoughts. srry ch9&10 but....i cant stay away from alchstar main story update any longer....

the fact akira tears up like 3 times in 8 chs vs djgr who tears up like once (in the manga!!!!!! not even ingame!!!!!) after leaving zinkenstill cuz the sky is pretty makes me. explode. in my head akira cried that first night too cuz lord thats a lot happening for one tiny heart. anyway the fact most? of the main story times akira cries are because of the relief once somethings stressfuls over & the like makes me....@_@ akira........

akira is SO normal.....SO SO normal..........i love that about them.....struggling to find the words to respond to vincent......their feelings towards living in society.....this lonely room.......(but also the concept of akira only finding the room lonely After theyve gotten sacri because they will now always know what its like to have a companion in there at all times......pet owners do u get me). anyway ive called akira normal plenty of times (and its important to me<3 the more normie i can make akira the happier i am) but everytime they add to it i get sooOOoOOoOoo i rly do love it. akiras just a little dude. who doesnt always know what to say. who wishes they knew what to say. who likes people. who doesnt like people. who wants to be together. who wants to be alone. (billionth speech about akira and the feeling of belonging & being depended on). akira whos just an average person who suddenly got pushed into a leader role, ‘my wizards’ 1.5 my beloved, and working more and more on becoming more leaderlike i................

im so sad they dont draw official art of the akiras like All The Time cuz akira is SO much of a character (which makes it hellish for me cuz the more a character speaks the more i struggle with writing them), but akira is everything and STILL. WHERES MY OFFICIAL ART. I AM ON MY KNEES. MY AKIRAS....

but really i feel akira learns so much from the wizards. bradleys speech? about leadership? give us worth..... i think that along with the feelings about trust..... i dont know how to put it into words but its an entire feeling of “believe in ur friends”. theres just something with akira growing as a person by meeting the wizards.

child wizards.........please....that entire thing is still so funny to me LOLT_T i wanna write that. figaro realizing akira&co r outside the door. akira being SO proud of the eastern wizards. nero. faust. akira checking the western wizards first before letting vincent in,,,,,,good job akira. akiras feelings on chloe summarizes mine too, thats exactly how i talk about chloe. ‘i like him:]’. akira doing their UTMOST to praise the northern wizards lord, the fact all of them PAUSED before going >:] im...... (bradley always using ppl as arm chairs is so funny too i rly love that). akira trying to avoid power matters n northern wizards just going its ok lets make a ranking and then starting betting..u guys....i def think theres something funny how the top of the rankings didnt even get addressed (snow&white...). but also mithra cheering on lennox so much vs ‘yeah figaros losing power:/’ instead of trying to hype up figaro regardless cuz he also is with rutile&mitile a lot means so much to me. theres something about it. but also mithras whole ‘rutile n mitile should be right below me in the rankings’ u r SO much. mitiles prophecy in relation to mithras promise makes me dizzy still.

thinking about the end of that night like. arthur going to the castle like ‘:] today went well:] oz even scolded me:]’ while chloe & oz are both miserable is funny (coping). but honestly i love oz so much.............hes so cool..........central wizard oz...........waiting for arthur to return to the castle first...T_T guhhhh

but also thats why in the scenarios in my head akira cries cuz that entire vincent exchange. along w everything during the rankings (owens talk about arthur....mithras wording about figaro.......), getting to know about arthur........its ssooooooooooooo much

the amount of times the wizards called akira by name alrdy made me dizzy by this part (seeing akira as a friend..........ppl using names instead of titles alrdy Gets Me in fancontent with things like this, so it being used INGAME.....IN THIS KIND OF WAY......), and then tying it into akira not wanting to name the sacri cuz ‘its a substitute for me. i dont want to get attached to something thatll disappear’ into murr @_@............................... the mithra the part after is so unreal theyre so funny. anyway are ALL of them gonna call akira by name before pt2 is over........i kinda wanna take notes at what part which ppl uses it but......thats energy. (thinks about bradleys speech again). haugh. (BUT ALSO with vincent? ‘if we become friends, let me call u by name’. lays on the floor

both shylock & murr having provoked oz is SO funny tho. especially considering how shylock acts when murr does it. i lov shylock. u go shylock. im on ur side

all of them being so ‘yes lets do this’ about protecting arthur...T_T (especially figaro since..MITILE.) oz is so cool (pt2)

sakunantokachan,,,,,,,i didnt think it was gonna have more than 1 pose LOOLT_T my surprise when i went to check what akira calls it in jp. its so cute. so funny. i want the entire ‘protect akira’ plan to backfire and turn into ‘akira protects sacrichan’ and then has to be scolded. thats all i want. i am begging

akiras kawawawa............URE the cute one...

[the-snowdrop-system]

Fuck it, ALL my answers below the cut :3

1) Better than most, but not the greatest tbh...

2) My cousin (STRICTLY PLATONIC she has been helping me thru transition ever since i came out to her)

3) yes, i regret going to southern michigan in january

4) very insecure

5) single

6) i dont care how i die honestly, i just hope its relatively painless.

7) homemade pizza my aunt sent home with my dad today

8) if competing in martial arts as a kid counts, than yes, if not, then no.

9) constantly... i should stop that...

10) 1st day of 4th grade (he was bullying me for years, so i punched him square in the nose. He never bullied me again)

11) no, BUT im a hopeless romantic, so by the time you are reading this, my answer might have changed.

12) constantly... my sleep schedule sucks :)

13) only 2 people. My most recent ex, and the male responsable for half of my existance >:(

14) 5 people. My 3 besties from college, dude i talk to on occasion, and my cousin (see number 2, she lives over 1000 miles away from me)

15) no, i neither physically nor financially could take care of a pet, i wish i did tho, would make life slightly more bearable

16) rn, im upset. I might go over that more in another post, if i do ill link it here.

17) no

18) YES i realize they serve a good perpous to our ecosystem, i just wish they would do it somewhere else 😭

19) yes, to stop myself from going to southern michigan in january. Nothing good has come from that decision.

20) i dont remember where it was... it was a while ago anyways.

21) the same as they have been since i had surgery. Get up and walk around every little bit. Other than that, nothing. Maybe watch some lets plays of the new FNAF game since i cant afford a copy of my own :(

22) no, i wouldnt make a good parent honestly, im not responsible enough...

23) i got my ears pierced in december, but they healed up waaay sooner than they where supposed to so now i have 0. what a waste of money >:(

24) math and technology. Dont get me wrong, i am bad at both, but they are still what im best at 😭

25) wait, you already asked this question :(

26) food wise: nothing. In general: a hug.

27) probably yes, but they did worse to me.

28) yep, my most recent ex. (They are also the one mentioned in 27)

29) she did something to me, i stormed off, and she cried because i was upset, does that count?

30) i have a list :) see number 16.

31) no

32) pink or blue 🏳️‍⚧️

33) sometimes? It really depends honestly. Some people i trust to much, and other people i dont trust enough smh...

34) i drempt something about stawberrys last night i dont remember any specifics...

35) one of my parents. I dont remember which one tho.

36) i give everyone a second chance, but if you fuck up again im done. (If i can give the 2 people i hate a second chance, than i can give other people second chances as well.)

37) forget, only cus i got memory issues. But in all seriousness, i have a hard time with both...

38) FUCK NO this shit the worst!

39) 16 i think...?

40) NO????

Where the hell are questions 41-50? I feel like im getting ripped off! /j

51) Quesadillas

52) no, cus what "reason" is there for cancer? What "reason" is there for biggotry? What "reason" is there for plagues and pandemics? If someone can answer those, then i might reconsider.

53) turn on a quiet youtube video to listen too to help me sleep and turn on a fan to keep me cool.

54) cheating, no. Open relationships are one thing, but when two people are together in a closed relationship and one of them cheats, thats just wrong.

55) i try to be nice, but some people make that reeeeally hard. I can be a massive bitch if i need to be.

56) 1. My bully in elementary school.

57) yes, but i also believe it is very hard to find.

58) light snow

59) ... yes.

60) eventually, but only if im allowed to wear a cute wedding dress. (Ive had multiple exes say "if we get married you still have to wear a suit" [for reference im a trans woman])

61) depends on the context, but yea, it can be.

62) get back to me on that one. Im not sure anymore. The things that used to make me happy now only just get me by. I dont know how to feel happy rn.

63) fuck yea, i hate my dead name and want to legally change it, but there is that whole "im broke af" issue i gotta fix 1st.

64) yea, cus i would rather punch them than kiss them tbh.

65) i am gonna change the word from sex to gender in this question just because it will be easier to answer. I have 1 male friend, and idk what i would do if he said he likes me tbh...

66) yee. Same dude as 65

67) last man i talked to was my dad, other than him, the friend i mentioned in the last 2 answers.

68) prolly same dude as before, we where discussing FNAF lore

69) 2 people destined for eachother from birth? No. 2 people who form a bond stronger than just love, yes.

70) each of the 5 people i miss (see question 14)

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

[20jadw05]

I’ve always been the kind of person who doesn’t want to make others feel bad just because I feel bad. This is why why when i always try to stay positive, no matter what or at least be very funny about it. I don’t want my friends to feel sad because I’m sad, they already have so many issues and they should have at least one person in there life who is always going to be super understanding, and caring, happy. I’ve always yearned to be that person.

I’ve been so stressed lately. I’m working doing hard wood floors, a job I hate, and I had to work 60 hours last week, one of those days being from 8 am to 1 am, a 16 hour day. Ive been so stressed lately. Thursday was my birthday, had to work in it too, didn’t even get off early. And this is the first year I’ve had to work in my birthday, Wei did the party on the weekend like normal though. It’s Saturday, the day of the party, I usually want a small party with just the old people down the road and my immediate family coming.

I felt tired the entire time leading up to the part, everything was so quiet the whole time. I don’t mean to sound greedy but I only got $20 during the party, every other year it had been much more. I feel like it was the worst party I’ve had.

I was still excited though, I was going to hangout with friends that evening in an unrelated party. These are my younger friends, just a couple years younger than me. I try to be like a fun supporting older sibling to them. Anyways, I was very excited and I made cookies, and absurd amount, at least 6 dozen and I was going to bring 5 dozen of them. The party started at 5 pm. I drive around visiting store while waiting when I noticed a message. They asked me if I would be fine not coming since the parents put a limit on how many people could come due to weather. I said I was fine with not coming.

I wasn’t fine.

I let them know that if anything changes to let me know and I waited. I waited, hoping that they would message back saying how they changed their mind, waited for them to say that they know it’s late but if I still want to come over I can.

that hasnt happened.

I started thinkinh about how I wished i wouldve let them know earlier I spent so long making cookies dozens of cookies for them. I wish I wouldve told them how excited I was to go. I cant now though. It would bw wrong of me to tell them now, I dont want to guilt them jnto letting me go, I dont want them to feel forced.

I realized I felt sad all day. All the stress from the weeks before, how unimportant my birthday felt and the gloominess of today hit me all at once.

for the first tjme in years I cried, i had supressed it for so long but now it was just too much. It was more than just crying. I could hardly breathe, I think I was hyperventilating. I was in my car in a dark parking lot crying for the first time in years, cryjng so hard I was hyperventilating for a solid 10 minutes. I dont even know if I can go home right now, I dont want anyone to know i was crying.

I really had to put this somewhere because i want everyone and no one to know. I wont tell my friends about this unless the find my tumblr.