#ive been listening to that song way too much the past few days

[mediasploshion]

ma boy rocking out

[trappolia]

DEUCE SPADE ── hot things he does for you

i. runs a hand through his hair and curses like a sailor when an algebra problem has been bothering him for too long. it messes up all his hard work in maintaining his appearance from this morning, but he’s far too upset to care. this goes for any moment of frustration for him too. sometimes his hair is so messy, you can catch the few strands of faded blond that he had failed to cover up when he dyed his hair before nrc, like the hints of his delinquent past are peeking through in more ways than one. there’s a frustrated look in his eyes that you’re a little guilty to admit you’re attracted to, and the way he spits out words definitely unexpected from an honour student makes your heart race in the strangest way … though, if you try catch his attention, he’s back to the deuce you know ─ wide doe eyes and a little lost. it makes your head spin, in the best way.

ii. takes your bags or anything that looks like it weighs more than necessary and carries them from you without even asking. most of the time this happens mid-conversation, like when he catches up with you at the hallway on your way to your next class. you’d engage in casual conversation, and suddenly he’s gently taking the straps of your bag and tugging it out of your hands, holding it in your stead while never breaking eye contact as he listens to you ramble about crewel's last lecture. and if you hold out your hand for him to give back your bag, he might just flush a little bit red and move your bag to his other side hastily, intertwining your fingers with his as he tugs you along gently to continue your journey, like he'd rather "embarrass himself" by pulling such a bold move rather than letting you carry your own stuff.

iii. always asks if it’s okay to kiss you. you’re sure than a decade could pass by, and he’d still be just as shy when it comes to kissing you. even when you give him your permission, he starts off with a shy brush of his lips against your own, a little peck or two, before diving back for more. he’ll ask every single time too. "are you sure? is it okay? can i really kiss you?" you’re not sure if your heart is pounding because of his lovely consideration of you or the fact that he can never find it in himself to stop asking for more once you let him have it the first time.

iv. starts bringing along his old leather jacket for you when you visit his hometown in the early spring or autumn. he says he brings it just in case you get cold, but you’re not oblivious enough that you don’t notice how the street punks keep their distance after doing a double take when they see you clad in the deuce spade’s leather jacket– some of them even offer their help with your groceries without being asked. it’s sort of funny and actually rather helpful in keeping out of trouble, but at the end of the day, you realise that deuce doesn’t see draping his old leather jacket over your shoulders as an act of possessiveness, but rather a way to keep you safe and protected in a subtle way. somehow, that sends your heart racing even more than the thought of him being possessive over you.

v. has an entire section of notes in his phone dedicated to you; like his regular school notes, messy and disorganised, but they’re filled with everything you could imagine. general things you like, little details of his day that reminded him of you, songs to put in playlists for you, and even pictures of stuff that you looked at while you were grocery shopping together. it’s complete with little observations and notes like they like to have the window seat but don’t want to bother people by asking, so let them board first so they can take it for themselves or they seem to like this type of snacks. maybe ask mom to send some of that one brand from the store back home in her next package. it’s the little but dedicated actions that show how much he really cares for you.

© trappolia 2024

[silvercap]

drooping eyelids and lullaby for the Whump prompts? :3

hope your day is going well! ^-^

It is, thank you! Hope yours is too :)

(Prompts)

✂: Drooping eyelids + ⌫: lullaby

Leon's breaths rasp roughly into the oxygen mask over his mouth and nose in time with the endless, irritating beeps that count the beats of his heart, the plastic fogging with every slow, laboured exhale. It's late, Piers thinks tiredly, swiping the blur from his eyes so he can see the time on his watch. Very late, though at this point it might just be early. Leon's limp hand is warm in his own, shiny with the medical tape that holds his newest IV in place---a small consolation when Piers can see the other tubes leading to the much more permanent central line they'd needed to put in his opposite upper arm after the first week. This one has mostly just been used for blood draws, so far, the doctors still stymied by what could possibly be keeping him so sick for this long. Piers doesn't bother listening to them hem and haw anymore.

On the bed, Leon looks exhausted. His hair's a mess, though Piers knows the nurses had cleaned it for him yesterday, falling in disarray around his pale face. Dark circles line his under eyes like smudged patches of edgy eyeshadow, but his glassy pupils are still visible under drooping eyelids, gaze just barely focusing on Piers the way it has been for the past hour. He has trouble sleeping in the best of conditions---it's even harder when he's in constant discomfort, the loudness of the monitor not offering any sort of sensory reprieve. Frustrated tears burn Piers' eyelids when he thinks about it for too long, probably brought on by his own lack of sleep.

"Sleep, baby," he says sadly. "Just close your eyes, okay?"

Leon chokes on a breath. Piers squeezes his hand in anticipation, waiting, waiting for something to go wrong the way he always does, but Leon is strong. His next inhale is steadier, softer, and Piers bows his head in relief.

He isn't sure where it comes from. It's the faint notion of a song, at first, the barest trace of air brushing over Piers' vocal chords as he tries to remember the hazy memory of a melody; then stronger when he can hear his mother's voice echoing in his ears. She used to sing it for him when he'd go to sleep, all tucked in a cozy bed with his footie pajamas and favorite stuffed rabbit held in his hands. Maybe he should get Leon one of the stuffed animals from the gift shop, he thinks wryly in the back of his mind. He'd think it was funny.

Leon's eyelids slowly flutter closed as Piers hums the gentle song, throwing in a few words when he can remember what they are. His singing voice is nothing to praise, all husky and breaking with stress and emotion, but it drowns out the monitors well enough that Piers can almost pretend they're in bed together at home. He's crying by the time he gets to the final lines, silent, damp tears dripping down his cheeks as his voice quivers on a finishing note. Leon's head rests peacefully on the pillow, his chest rising and falling in a relaxed rhythm that tells Piers he's finally somewhere he can rest. Piers squeezes Leon's hand again---gently, so as not to wake him.

"It's going to be okay," he promises hoarsely, sniffling. "It has to be."

[likeadevils]

what songs from TTPD and TA are now yours? Which ones have spoken to you the most?

songs that are genuinely MINE

chloe or sam or sophia or marcus: i cried myself to sleep listening to this song on repeat on release night and for the life of me i cant tell you why. i think it’s a great example of her being older really deepening her writing— just that old scarred over longing of a possible life, a possible love, too far away to reach but close enough to brush past. also, the double edged sword of “if you want to break my cold, cold heart, just say’ i loved you the way that you were’”— you loved me before i’d twisted myself into the shape i am now in order to keep my current partner, but also, you loved me the way i was, not the way i am now

i look in peoples windows: i wrote a poem with the line “im afflicted by the not knowing” in it!! inspired by the outside!! and by spending so much of my childhood reading by moonlight and spying on my neighbors through their windows!!! it was called where midnight lives!!! what the fuck!!!

robin: another song i sobbed hysterically to. i was a strange little violent child obsessed with dinosaurs it feels like a lullaby someone made specifically about 3 year old me.

songs that i’m obsessed with:

but daddy i love him: the bridge is just so fun to scream along to. everytime ive been in a car since the album came out ive played this at least two times just cause

fresh out the slammer: it’s just. the first verse??? the way the song stutters apart for the last verse??? this song takes the blurry muse conceit of the album and uses it to its fullest. also just the diminishing returns from “but its gonna be alright, i did my time”

i can do it with a broken heart: my first listen favorite

the smallest man who ever lived: the bridge????? the bridge???? the bridge???? a few of the negative reviews specifically mentioned this song as boring and for a millisecond i was so angry i could’ve exploded

the black dog: this is like, the platonic ideal of a taylor swift song to me. just that old quiet tragedy she can build out of little moments of hoping your ex will remember you when they hear your favorite song or not having known your last kiss was your last kiss or your ex still sharing their location with you. like, it’s just her at her best, but with the maturity to sing “and you jump up, but she’s too young to know this song”

i hate it here: people have talked about seeing reputation in the anthology but i think you can also see so much debut and it makes me feel so tender. also i genuinely don’t understand why people don’t like “if chose the 1830s but without all the racists” like?? it’s supposed to be a bit clunky?? the songs about the limits of escapism?? the line enhances both of those themes?? also “i’m there most of the year” is such a funny devastating relatable lyric to say about a daydream

thank you aimee: it’s not every day a song inspires you to send this message about something a child did to you (fuck you madeline!!! fuck you jessie!!!)

the bolter: avoidant attachment representation!!! i love that it takes the stuff she hated about herself in the archer and just accepts and loves them and appreciates what they’ve given her. i especially love it because bolt can mean like, crossbow bolts, so it’s a flip on the archer. also “bolt” is one of my favorite words i love all the different meanings

“the only thing that’s left is the manuscript, one less souvenir from my trip to your shores, now and then i re-read the manuscript, but the story isnt mine anymore” also just had me sobbing. there’s just. wtf!!!!!!

[antiv3nom]

asuka ask game? pick your favorite one

ok so i do enjoy asuka guiltygear but i have been thinking REALLY hard about asuka tekken as of late so we're talking about her today

also this took me WAY too long to post i apologize but it Is out here so yaaaay

favorite thing about them:

ok so legally i have to mention asuka's tekken 8 design because motherfucker WHAT were they thinking with that one. what the fuck was the inspiration. but i love it so much i cannot lie

other than that, i really enjoy her rivalry with lili and how moderately insane that bit has gotten, and i like how they've kept her a character who is a) defensively focused in her gameplay even among the generally aggressive play of t8, and b) has a generally down-to-earth feel to her despite. Everything. happening in tekken

least favorite thing about them:

so i was actually talking to a friend about this recently and she explained my feelings really well, its like. asuka feels like the protagonist of another story that isnt being told.

it feels like she has so much stuff that COULD be a really interesting plot focus for her but it just. hasnt been? like everything between her and feng COULD be so neat but its just been sort of...by the wayside for the past few games in favor of keeping up with the mishimas (new sitcom there btw)

favorite line:

asuka's quotes are fun but most arent super noteworthy unfortunately? its mostly pretty standard fare for fighting game open and win quotes unforch :( i will say though, i do really enjoy this win line in t8 from her:

It's not good to fight all the time. Well, see ya!

bc like. girl. what do you think youre out here doing rn. girl please

(note: i dont speak japanese so i couldnt say anything towards this, but i wonder if asuka speaks with a kansai accent/dialect in game? her being from osaka and all, itd be a cool little addition)

brOTP:

omg actually ive seen stuff between leo and asuka that's been fun before i really enjoy that, iirc theyre not super close in the main canon but i wanna say in the non-canon webcomic theyre friends? i think thats right? either way its a fun concept

OTP:

asulili...uwoagh........

fellas is it gay to buy your rival's dojo and fill it entirely with roses to get their attention? certainly not. certainly.

i do wish we saw some amount more narrative tension between them since most of it has sort of dissolved by t8 but i do think theyre really cute and as mentioned before i really do enjoy their whole bit its awesome

SHOUTOUT ASULILI WEEK BTW I DONT HAVE THE TIME TO PARTICIPATE BUT I AM HYPED ABOUT ITS EXISTENCE

nOTP:

i do not think i have been around long enough to see another pairing for asuka, let alone one i dislike, so i cannot answer this question LMAO

random headcanon:

spun my mental wheel of headcanon topics and it wouldnt stop spinning for like half an hour unfortunately so im just telling you that i think asuka would play baiken or may in strive

unpopular opinion:

i still havent been here long enough to know whats unpopular regarding her :,) although i think in terms of gameplay i think she's cooler than most people believe, though i do agree that her current iteraiton in t8 isnt very strong within the meta unforch :(

song i associate with them:

i can nigh on guarantee that it's because ive been listening to this song while thinking about her really hard recently but absolute zero by natori (banger btw go watch the music video it goes unbelievably hard), i think the lyrics arent entirely unfitting though!!!

favorite picture of them:

i really like this profile art option for her, the posing is fun and the textures on the clothing are really impressive

and then also i have to mention her preset 3 outfit which i LOVE SO SO MUCH

(apologies as i cant find a better example pic and do not feel like opening t8 at 2 in the morning on this day)

[ros3ybabe]

Daily Check-in - July 27, 2023 🎀

Today was easier than yesterday, but I am still so sleepy and tired. I have to work a full shift tomorrow AND Saturday on top of my weekend chores so I'm hoping to take Sunday as a full self care day! Fingers crossed!!

🩷 What I Ate Today:

Breakfast - One slice of toast with mashed avocado, paprika, a fried egg, and a side of watermelon, and one cup of coffee.

Lunch - ground beef burrito bowl with black beans, shredded cheese, chopped iceberg lettuce, sour cream, salsa, and a low carb tortilla.

Dinner - One plate of spaghetti with meat marinara sauce, grated parmesean cheese, and two pieces of buttered bread

Other - One cup of coffee with French vanilla creamer

Water ~ 30oz I just forgot to drink water today, but using my water bottle has gotten easier and helped me drink more during the work day.

I didn't feel like snacking much today, and I couldn't finish my lunch, but I am very satisfied with my intake today! I love eating healthier and listening to my body. I do track what I eat, but I make sure it's food I like! Given my past, I can't do restrictions, so I choose to honor my wants in a way that works towards my goals and nourishes both my mind and body.

🩷 Workout - Upper Body Pilates (ish)

This one was really good! It was my first time trying it and it had my arms burning in a good way. I really enjoyed it, and I totally recommend. This is definitely going to be a regular of mine! 10/10

This one has been a favorite for a few years, I absolutely love the way it makes my arms feel. The movements are easy and effective, and leave me sore in a good way. Absolutely my favorite lean arms workout, hands down! 11/10

🩷 Habits I Completed Today:

Made my bed

Morning & Night Skincare

Morning & Night Guided Journal

Read 1 Chapter of a book

Workout

I forgot to do my mediation and stretching, and I didn't meet my hydration goal, but I'm taking every day in stride and doing what my energy allows me to accomplish. I believe in self compassion and flexibility in routine, especially given how my energy fluctuates on a daily basis. However, I am definitely doing the full habits list tomorrow, I'm going to challenge myself to accomplish every daily goal I have for myself!

🩷 Song of The Day: Eleven - IVE

This song makes me feel like a badass princess who deserves only the highest level of princess treatment. It's hard to describe how feminine and girly this song makes me feel, even on my most tomboyish, sweaty work days. An absolute bop!!

🩷 Current Read: Atomic Habits by James Clear

Tomorrow, I can do this. I can meet my goals, all of them. It'll take some effort, but I have faith in myself. Once I get the ball rolling, it's just a matter of forward motion with accomplishing each of my goals. I can't wait!!

I also need to budget for next Saturday, as I'm going shopping for some new clothes before my university opens back up for the fall semester. If I'm gonna feel my best, I'm going to look my best too! I'm really hoping to get a few new dresses, accessories (like hair stuff, pantyhose, jelwery, purses, etc), shoes, and maybe some tops and skirts too depending on what the store has. I love shopping, so I'm super excited!!!

Til tomorrow, my lovelies!! <3

[everynya]

when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers or moots (positivity is cool) 💖

HELLO NAT!!!! WAVES MY ARMS AROUND

SALUTATIONS ARSENE!! i’m so sorry i took forever to get to this i was in a very bad headspace, but ty for the ask! no one expect too much from me post wise these days i just felt bad i hadn’t answered this yet (imagine u are my 10 favorite followers and i send this to u 10 times cause ngl…i’m just gonna let whoever wants to do it do it, so oomfies if u see this u get my pass to do this cause i cannot have faves!)

hello and welcome to nat’s current top 5 radio hits. i shall share and explain each one like a maniac (i yoinked my top songs i heard these past weeks from my airbuds app)

⭐️ CamGirl >.<!!! - Villiano Antillano

⭐️ Oh Qué Sera? - Willie Colon

⭐️ In The End - Drake Bell

⭐️ Mr. Bass - A.C.E.

⭐️ Run Away To Mars - Khoi Dao, Geoff Bisentte

5. to start off, even if you dont know spanish i recommend her so much…Villiano is a puertorrican trans woman who has been revolutionizing rap for women and does so especially in her album this song is from called Miss Misogyny, let me say THE SONG IS GOODDDD its about sex work and the control and empowerment and the lack of shame and taboo around these things, its one of her many songs in the album that in an interview she says was made for female rappers to claim rap as their own by writing her own songs that dont put women down and are about the control they should have in their music…ive been listening to Villiano since one of the collab songs she did with a popular dj that blew her up years ago and ive enjoyed what shes done. its a trap song so maybe not everyones cup of tea but yeah

4. this song is really good, spanish song of the week i loop. thank fuck it wasnt a reggaeton song. but this song is by a puertorrican (though the song was originally by a brazilian artist, willie reinterpreted the song after a trip to brazil he had) thats generally about believing in things and finding in a sense a love for the unknown, its a really good song that uses a lot of metaphors

3. I can’t share why for this one, sorry, but anyway it’s a good song!

2. this one isnt in my airbuds top songs this week at all. but. anyway. ace. MR BASS NE MAMEUL ULLINEUN RIDEUM MR BASS DALKOMHAN NAUI SOKSAGIME JUNGDOKDOEGO MAL GEOL MR BAS CANNN YOUUU FEEEEL NE IPSURUI TTEOLLIM MR BASS AAAHH MR BASS AHHH

1. OKAY. OKAY. run away to mars but covered by khoi dao (voice actor) makes me all kinds of levels of crazy and every few days i loop it. first of all, this specific va is the voice claim for my oc f/o actually! khoi is such a great guy and ive always adored his voice and i cannot ever unhear the idea of the stupid idiot i made in my head sounding like him. its a very classic ‘liking a song cause you imagine your f/o singing it’ AND ITS SO ON BRAND FOR HIM ANNNDDD MY SHIP. the song fits him and my insert stupidly well

the song underneath has very sad undertones, i feel i can rlly relate to it rn but ill talk abt it more on my ship. its really befitting of these two (esp emi aka the f/o) given the fact that the song not only has the kind of energy where if you dont listen deep enough you can miss its meaning and just enjoy its energy which is very on brand for him but also its so heavily focused on escapism and insecurity in a way where it KILLS ME. the part of ‘three two one i miss you, im sorry i got issues’ makes me sick cause he would truly apologize over the mere fact of having emotions because he tucks them so far away he doesnt believe theyre even real or his (in a way, hes the one who ‘runs away to mars’)…his escapism in a sense is nayla, in the idea that he becomes focused on her faded colors or more so her issues and so he loses what is home and ‘how long till im discovered’ by not just anyone else but himself, he doesnt find on his own that hes having a hard time with himself.

none of this made sense and theres way more to it, but the amount of times ive been unable to not associate these two w this song…. like sorry that my current obsession rn is a ship of two characters i made and makes no sense to anyone but me

[smileymoth]

@pikslasrce tagged me to post my top albums from this year :))

senses fail - still searching // armor for sleep - what to do when you are dead // senses fail -let it enfold you hollywood undead - hotel kalifornia // boysnightout - make yourself sick // wilbur soot - your city gave me asthma alesana - the emptiness // bedwetters - meet the f@cking bedwetters // bring me the horizon - sempiternal

do not ask me how many times i've listened to these 9 albums idon't even know myself. it's way too much though. i couldn't put all 4 boysnightout albums here so i just stayed at 1 and put it in the very middle because they altered my brain chemistry <33

senses fail gets 2 albums because i didnt spend weeks only listening to those 2 albums for no reason... their lyrics mean sm to me i want to illustrate the albums or songs one day. this goes for both senses fail and boysnightout btw. AND armor for sleep. there's something about that specific album. i realised i really enjoy albums that tell a story. and the fact that i like themes of angst love blood betrayal etc etc is no surprise either. car underwater got played way too many times

i discovered bedwetters thanks to eurovision, they were one of the options for estonia and i ofc found their old and only album (they released a new one a few weeks ago tho) (i dont know why they have 2 spotify accounts. im not asking). i even got to see them live bc they gave a free concert during summer <33333333 i got a picture with the band too !!!!! so cool

the new hollywood undead album got me back into them so im back to being obsessed. i love my silly california guys :3 i've been keeping up with them since and i desperately need to draw them again, this time without their masks!!!! im very glad that i found alesana to be sooo palatable this year because ive tried to listen to them before when i was a teenager and it just... didn't click, even if i tired. so yeah i get to fix that mistake now.

in spring i had a moment where i listened to sempiternal on repeat on the cd player for multiple days straight and in the past month i've, again, been listening to bmth and specifically sempiternal again so it gets a special place, too.

wilbur is just there because i had jubilee line stuck in my head so so so so much and also it's the best study music ever. also wilbur why is i'm sorry boris so silent. i can barely hear it it makes me angry so i always skip it. and then bc its the end of the album it gives me some lmanburg flag cover-art song that i don't like

anyway here's a special mention to these 3 albums because 1) greeley estates - caveat emptor, i just discovered it this week and i am in love. also greeley estates has been in my radar for quite some time now and i find the singers voice to be very pleasant and interesting? the tone does sth for me 2) brand new - deja entendu, for being stuck in my head for a good week because the tommy gun song wouldn't leave my head since it came on shuffle from my saved mp3 list when net was down 3) just surrender - if these streets could talk, because again i was obsessing over this for like a good week before i forgot about it. good album. not available in serbia tho for some reason

can you tell i love talking about music that i like. i know nothing about music it just makes me happy. :)

anyway i am tagging uhhhh @varteeny1234 and @complicatedsurgery and uhhh @cactusringed and uhhhh anyone else who wants + i'm not gona tag you, sly, because you only listen to alex g anyway <3

[rotw-aarchive]

x2 Recommendations :)) [MON 19th Aug "24]

First recommendation for this week is a beautifully haunting doom//ambient album called "Weighing Sounds With Sand" by The Angelic Process, a project which as mentioned in their Spotify description formed in 1999 and were around until about 2008 (you can look up the details If you feel so inclined be warned however as it involves the topic of mental health + death). Ive been meaning to listen to this album for months now after finding "Million Year Summer" in December. This past week i've been listening to it on and off and am in complete awe of it, the textures and layers that live within every track on this album has inspired me soooo much.

in sharing it I hope It can inspire you too <3

For Fans of: Ethel Cain, Swans, Uboa

Favourite Track(s): How To Build a Time Machine (WSWS Ver.) + Dying In A-Minor 

Second recommendation is the icon that was SOPHIE and her album "OIL OF EVERY PEARL'S UN-INSIDES" . This album and her production talent quite literally paved the way for your modern day faves within the electro pop scene. I was introduced to her music via a close friend a couple of years ago now and I will admit at first I didn't understand what was so great about her music because I had only heard a few seconds of a song + hadn't sat down with her stuff however when I did a while back I fell in love. as of writing this im listening to this album again and I forget sometimes how emotional it makes me now. This one is another recommendation where you should listen to it at least once regardless of if you like the genre or not. Anyways with "brat summer" coming to a close it only feels right to honour Sophie in some way :)

RIP queen, we miss you everyday <3

For Fans Of: Charli xcx, Arca + The Dare

Favourite Track(s): Faceshopping, Immaterial + Is It Cold In The Water? 

[pjsk-writin]

AMIAAAA!! HII<33 its A and ive finally decided to reveal myself since ive seen other anons do it !!

im sorry for not sliding into ur asks for the past few days im just been lazy 😞😞 so.. ive decided to come back with a request!!

i dont know if you write only angst but im still gonna ask anyway 😈

this, of course, came into my mind about two days ago,, i dont know if youve ever looked up the english lyrics of the disappearance of hatsune miku, or listened to the cover version by splendiferachie, but my request is if you can write about akito and rui with a vocaloid s/o, like miku, they’re sisters in a way since they were both created around the same time, and reader left them a song that’s about five minutes long which is entirely about how much they mean to them, and how they loved them with their whole heart even if they’re not actually a proper human 🙁 i just reallyyyy wanna know how the two would react to listening to their s/o listing everything, and i mean everything that they love about them, even if it was fast as hell, and then finally hear them shut down due to a critical error 😞😞 oh my fod amia im outtinf myself through pain

oh but anyways, despite the angst i just mercilessly dumped by accident, i hope your days have been incredibly wonderhoyful!!<33

WAA omg HELLO!! its ok dw, its been very hectic for me recently anyway GDKSJF- but yall and the angst smh..../lh JK OFC this req destroyed me emotionally but I hope your days have been incredibly wonderhoyful too, and I hope you like this!! <3

♡ THE LOVE OF YOU... - Akito Shinonome and Rui Kamishiro x Reader

Akito:

Akito had always been confused and in awe of the Sekai. I mean, it was a dimension born of feelings, he couldn't even comprehend how that worked-

Still, he was thankful to the Sekai. He was able to meet the Vocaloids, and he was able to meet you

You, wonderful you. The two of you hit it off immediately, and Miku would always tease you on the very obvious crush you had on Akito. Neither of you knew he felt the same way though

In fact, he was planning on telling you that very day, but was greeted by your absence. Confused, he looked around the Sekai until he bumped into Miku. Once he asked her where you went, the sad smile on her face was enough for him to worry

"It's...Hard to explain. Here," She held out a phone, and he took it with a raised brow, "They left this for you."

He thanked her before walking off, plugging in his earbuds to the phone before pressing play on the only track on it

He was greeted by your voice. You took a deep breath before singing, and with wide eyes he realized that you were describing him. You sang about how you adored him, the sparkle of determination in his eyes, the sly grin you'd give him after a successful practice

You were a vocaloid, but you loved him with all of your heart. The song made his own heart swell, but he didn't realize its purpose until you sang a final, "I love you-" before you were cut off, apparently shutting down

He sat in silence for a while, absolutely shocked. So you...You were shut down? He would never be able to talk to you again? He would never be able to see you again?

He didn't even realize that he was crying until the first of many tears landed on his hand. He tried to wipe them away, but they kept coming, never stopping

A choked sob left him as he cradled the phone close, hoping that nobody could hear him. You were gone. And he could never tell you that he loved you back.

Rui:

Rui found the Sekai to be one of the most fascinating things in the world. A place born purely from Tsukasa's feelings was certainly an interesting place to be!

He loved visiting the Sekai whenever he could. The atmosphere was loud yet homey, and he was able to be with you

You were absolutely lovely company, and he always felt comfortable with you. Miku would cheer the two of you on, and you would always laugh her off. You both had fallen for each other though

He was going to the Sekai to ask you out on a date, only to not find you. This was a normal occurrence with how big the Sekai was, so he found Miku and asked where you were

"Oh..." An uncharacteristic frown was on her face, and Rui was immediately filled with worry. "Um...They wanted you to have this." She handed him a music box and ran off

He tilted his head at her but took it, expressing his thanks before walking to a quieter part of the Sekai

Upon winding it up, he was able to hear your voice. You were singing, and it didn't take him long to realize that you were singing about him. You sang about your love for him, how you adored listening to his rambles, how he would give you hugs before he left

Neither of you thought it was possible for a vocaloid to love, but you did. He was warm, until you sang a final "I love you-" and was cut off. 

It didn't take him too long to realize what had happened. For whatever reason, you had been shut down. He...Couldn't really process it properly

A bitter laugh escaped him, and he hugged himself, tears slipping down his face. He couldn't- You couldn't- Surely you-

He sniffled, rubbing his eyes before standing up, a determined look in his eyes. He doesn't even know if it's possible to bring you back, but he would rather die trying.

[icyfox17]

WAIT now I’m curious :0

How would you rank all the Lovejoy songs, from best to worst? I’m incredibly interested to see what you think of them :00

Ooh man this is tough . Look I love asking these questions to OTHER ppl but when I get asked them I panic /lh /j

1. It's Golden Hour Somewhere

2. Model Buses

3. Cause for Concern

4. Consequences

5. Everything else /hj

I'm ngl king I am STRUGGLING I REALLY WANTED TO TRY, I EVEN PUT ON MY LOVEJOY PLAYLISR BUT EVERYTIME I WENT TO COMPARE I LOVED THEM BOTH EQUALLY 😭😭😭

so uh o7

5. Scum, Poabs, Sex Sells, One Day, Taunt, Perfume, Knee Deep at Atp, Call Me What You Like

6. You'll Understand When You're Older, Oh Yeah You Gonna Cry, Concrete, Warsaw, The Fall, Posg

7. Perfect Pair (IM SORRYFUFJF ITS REALLY NICE I JUST DIDNR VIBE WITH IY)

8. It's All Futile It's All Pointless

Okay after listening to all of them I actually ranked quite a few higher than I used to. I used to really not like Posg or The Fall bc of the shouting (I am a sensitive soul and don't really like shouting in my music dhfkfk) but I've gotten a lot more used to that type of music so I actually vibed with them super hard

And uh yeah iafiap is still my lowest 😭 which is ironic bc the og is one of my fav songs ever. I just... it has way too much going on, it's so overwhelming for me shfjgkfkfk

But yeahhh jazz hands, ik it's not a super proper ranking but I am physically incapable of ranking them 😭😭

Besides those top 4 ☝️ (honestly idk if consequences is above all of 5... sex sells is sooooo goooddd but yeah for now it's there bc it makes me the happiest when it comes on)

Model Buses used to be MY Lovejoy song (it just... really resonated with me I dunno, I feel like it's my Vibe) but then It's Golden Hour Somewhere came out and it knocked it out of the park LMAODJFJGKG

I still adoree model buses eueueue but golden hour is I think more of my Vibe nowww, y'know? Ive grown. Model Buses was younger me, Golden Hour is present me (wild how much one can change in a couple of years). Model buses is still my baby tho ❤️

Also my ranking for Aya has always been all over the place but cfc being that high up compared to all of the other Lovejoy songs is definitely a newer thing. I just.. I love the trumpets in cfc so much. It makes me feel an emotion none of the other Lovejoy songs do. It honestly might one day get above Model Buses. It makes me so happy. It feels truly the epitome of an Indie Movie and that's my fav vibe ever.

OGOGIGOHIGIGUHOH I PUT ON GOLDEN HOUR AND YEPYEPEYEEPYEPU IT STILL REIGNS SUPREMEEEE THAT BASS JUSR DOES SOMETHIGN TO ME ALSO THE HARMONIESSSS I LOVE THE HARMONIES SO MUCHHH AND THE WAY THE CHORUS BUILDS OHMUGOSSHDJDJFKFKDJGKDKDJFJJFJDJDJFJDJDHFJGKFKDJFKGKGKFKFKSHFJFKDKFKFJDJDKJGKGKDK THE OOOOOOOOSSSS I CANTTT I CANTTT!!!!! GOLDEN HOUR IS MY SONG!!!! I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!! IT IS JUST PERFECT FOR ME!!!!!! AND THE TITLE TOO??? LIKEEEEE THATS SO MY VIBEEEDHFJKG

The funniest part is like. I tried SO HARD to go into wu&io blind. I avoided every concert video like the plague. I scrolled past all those clips on twt. I even debated not listening to cmwyl but . I didn't want to be that left out so I did listen to it (which predictably made me feel sick of it by the time the album came out 😭) but seeing the titles of all the wu&io songs I got attached to golden hour 😭😭😭 and was already being like "I bet u that's gonna be my fav" but I was like no. I will not be biased. And the first time I listened to wu&io I actually liked poabs the best but I think that's just bc of how fucking shook I was by it being the first song I listened to and when I told my friends that it was my fav they all were like "damn I thought golden hour was gonna be ur fav" but then . I relistened to it again (bc for me it honestly takes at least like 3 or 4 listens for me to properly rank bc I am often someone who will just like the song I hear first, same thing goes with covers. It's rare for me to like a cover more than the og song if I heard the og song first. But if I heard the cover first?? I will most likely prefer that one) and then I was like Oh. Oh it's Golden hour is good. Oh. And then I literally looped it like 5 times in a row 😭😭 leaving poabs in the dust LMFAOFJJFKGF and then as I started to listen to it more Consequences just started vibing w me more than Poabs

But yeah lmaoooo, apparently it's not just me who thinks golden hour is my song but I had like 3 or 4 diff ppl instantly clock it as my fav before I even told them/listened to the album 😭😭😭

Ough,,, I love golden hour sm,,,

Anyways thanks for the ask, I had an existential crisis over it LMFOAJFJGKGK tho it's only fair since I made April do it lolll

I'm so bad at ranking stuff 😭 but feel free to ask me more bc this was fun!! U just might have to deal with a lot of ties ^-^

[satiricaily]

four albums I've been listening to recently :) thank u for the tag @b1uetrees mwuah

Driving Just To Drive - Matt Maltese

This one's the most recently released album among all the 4 and I listened to it while waiting for my flight back home two days ago (back to my home country actually but not necessarily home) and it rlly was the balm to my aching body and mind. Smth about the songs widow and museum that just struck me down to the earth (funny bc i was already on the flight and in the air by then) and reminded me to just. take a moment to breathe.

So Tonight I Might See - Mazzy Star

have i said i love mazzy star? no i dont think so. but i do. i love this album. i was already saving sellers on carousell that sold this album. i cant believe i never properly listened to it until few days ago while we were on that road trip. five string serenade is now one of my all time fav songs.

Little Fish (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack) - Keegan Dewitt

gosh. the soundtrack has a life on its own completely separate from the film. i think i could die happy listening to this. or die miserably in the best way. i love how desperate it feels i love how beautifully it speaks and portrays the love that trascends past present future and a love so strong not even memories have a grip to it. all the little pieces and see you in the dark are some of the most wonderful things ive ever heard i listen to them whenever i need comfort and the reminder that somewhere out there there are people who love me and will always be happy to see me.

Miracle Mile - Derek Pope

a fun album! totally something to vibe to. not much backstory but my sister was sending me off to my dorm and her bf connected his phone to the aux and put on this album and i loved it so ofc i had to shazam it (because i was too exhausted from flight travelling to talk to any of them and ask what song was playing) and here we are. yesterday is on my 2023 playlist already because why not.

tagging @endofacenturyy @parfumtheremine

[checkers-dance]

hi tumblr user checkers-dances. i write to you from my death bed. i fear i may not make it past this winter.

JOKES ASIDE. ive been sick the past few days. its really not that bad but im dramatic and also havent been genuinely sick in years so i have mostly stayed on my bed and done nothing but watch hour long video essays. if im not doing that, im watching mx videos. in any case, because ive been using kpop to Cope, i remembered this one youtube trend where people came up with like a whole idea for a kpop group. in a lot of ways its kind of like making your own superm, but im less interested in that aspect and more on trying to think about the more technical side of it. so because im dying and in need of fun, and also it was just a lot of fun coming up with my idea for an nct alternative, i've been thinking about what i would do if i had to manifest a kpop group out of thin air. here at incest entertainment, what type of music can we offer to the market?

i'm still not super sure of what route i would go but i've established a couple of ideas and once again, im smarter and cooler than any real kpop company.

-we're going with 7 members. i think that's kind of a perfect number, not too much and not too little.

-one thing i know for sure is that i need at least one member with creative inclinations. preferably we would have multiple guys because i think it'd be cheaper than having to always rely on outside producers probably? but also because here at incest entertainment we want our artists to have as much artistic freedom as possible <3 and because i do have a bit of a vision for what i want this group to be, i need to have strong communication with the idols who will be performing the songs, and i think a good way to go about that is having at least one of them who is also involved in the music.

-so i want the group to have a really strong concept. i think we are in desperate need of more kpop music videos with larger storylines (and those storylines would be even connected to the lyrics of the songs themselves). i'm still not entirely sure what the concept would be but it'd be very story driven and it'd have kind of mystery to it.

-so here's the most important part that i've come up with so far. it's by far the most unrealistic one, but if a group ever did this i think it'd be really fun. so i was thinking about how fun it was to overthink the mx music videos and try to come up with a coherent theory, and because i'm going to be pushing for a narrative i obviously want to give fans stuff to chew on and speculate on. and i was thinking about what would be a good way to do this. and then i fucking realized. let's make a fucking arg. let's throw weird code into the videos that leads to like a secret website where the fans can solve puzzles and figure shit out. i think making that aspect more interactive could be really interesting.

-to connect with the last point, i think a great way to push this would be with the physical albums. part of the appeal of physical albums in kpop is that they come with a lot of other neat things. so the albums can include items that are connected to the story, like idk. documents with info on them that they can decipher for themselves.

ANYWAY, im tired and i don't think im going to elaborate more on this, but i like this basic idea. sadly, incest entertainment isn't real and neither is my imaginary boy band.

HELP, NOT INCEST ENTERTAINMENT....INC-ENT for short. Is 7 rlly the magic number or is it just the number most frequently found in groups u like 🧐🧐🧐? THE OVERTHINKING MX ERA...listen I think this group should at least have a coherent storyline they're going for to avoid another watch/blue flower event 😭😭. Maybe it could be a scifi arg since there already are scifi concepts in kpop, or maybe it's a more historical thing. Personally I think if the company is called incest entertainment there should be incest gimmicks in the group, like them pretending they're all related despite looking nothing alike. Maybe there's even a time travel gimmick in the story so they're all each other's ancestors at diff points in the timeline. Much to think abt (help I said no more watch/blue flower stuff and then immediately went on to spawn this concept 😭)

[nottheweirdest]

Ooohhh boy do i have some recommendations for you that I really hope you like and can help with inspiration. You've already gotten so many good ones, what an awesome fan following you have haha.

First Day Of My Life - Bright Eyes

Kinda just a happy lovey fluff song that i can picture those 2 fitting with.

I apologize ahead of time cause the rest are all angsty xD i listen to a lot more angst for drabble inspiration lol.

Jacked Up - Weezer

Chapter 6 Many Mistakes - Jax Anderson (I like to picture this one with shadow hurting sonic in some way, then sitting alone being depressed with regret)

Francis Forever - Mitski (The idea of them being apart or one dying, probably sonic, and the other having to live on without is just too strong of angst for me. I love it)

Lonely - Nathan Wanger (Pure shadow angst focused on him being alone and unable to break it)

Eet - Regina Spektor (More of them being seperated/apart. Similar to francis forever)

Saturn - Sleeping At Last (This one is a big oof for me. Im sure youll understand if you listen)

Anyways thats all! Sorry for the song dump, ive just been sitting on a few for awhile and this is a perfect opportunity to share. Hope you enjoy, and hope your hectic busy life becomes more manageable soon!

Yay!! I can't wait to give these a listen!! And I know, so many good recs and I seriously couldn't ask for a more amazing following 🥰🙏. Y'all are coming through for me!! 💖

So funny, I've heard First Day of My Life before (I listen to lots of folk and folk related music, especially the mopey stuff lol can't help myself) but I'd never looked up the lyrics. This is so good and sweet. It immediately made me smile. Honestly... I'm adding this to my Coming Home playlist And so I thought I'd let you know Yeah, these things take forever, I especially am slow But I realized that I need you And I wondered if I could come home It's perfect.

On the rest, like I said lol I do a lot of mopey folk type music and I already recognize some of these 💖 Jacked Up I'd not heard and I like it a lot! I can see this fitting with them easily. Chapter 6 and Francis Forever are both def angsty but I especially like the tone of Chapter 6 🥺 Lonely.... oof. That one hits waaaaay to close to home. It's so good. Instant add to my liked songs and my Shadow playlist. 🥺 Eet by Regina Spektor is so good. She's got lots of good stuff. Sleeping at Last I've listened to a lot over the past few years. In fast, this song was already on my liked list and yeah. I get why you'd list it here so don't mind me while my heart breaks over here and I die a little inside. 😭 It's a beautiful song. I love that you shared these, thank you SO much!! And thank you for the note about crazy life. Tomorrow is my last training that I have to give for at least the next three months. I'll still have to create training and do presentations and what not but I can at least take this off my plate for a bit so really hoping to rest up a bit over the summer!

[key-lime-soda]

sorry @hinako-supremacy it got really long and i realized it needed to be its own post so here's my existential crisis ramble about jazz and pokemon

im listening to Carlos Eiene, aka insaneintherainmusic on yt, and his music makes me so nostalgic. he became popular for doing pokemon jazz covers (and a few other games like undertale) when he was in highschool and college. meanwhile i was in 6th grade when i found his channel and it changed my taste in music and me love swing and jazz to this day. in new years of 2022 he announced that he was gonna quit doing covers (after like 8 years of doing them) since copyright is a pain and he wanted to do his own original music and become a professional game composer too. i was really sad but also soooo proud cuz like??? his stuff is amazing??? and its like watching ur childhood friend fulfill their dreams and its so heartwarming. he released his first full original album and its called '' insane in the rain'', named after his channel asjhkhkdjfhsdakfh. i listened to one of the songs (same name as the album) and its a very uplifting song that really feels kinda like a "we did it. we finally made it and i couldn't be more proud" and when i heard it i wanted to cry dkjshfksdjhfk??? it captured exactly how it felt seeing him move on and realizing how much time had past. i finished middle school and high school and his music helped take me to where i am today. i was proud of him, but i was also proud of myself too!! we've both grown to reach the place we've always wanted to be. pokemon music inspired him to improve his skills and become a professional composer in the exact same way that pokemon inspired me to become both a graphic designer and videogame analyst!! and we couldn't have done it without pokemon!!

anyway i remembered this song this morning. and a few days ago, there was a commemorative video that showcased that we've hit 1000 pokemon!!! i think the two together really made me realize how much pokemon has been in my life. my birthday is in 2 weeks, which will roughly mark around 15 years since i first discovered pokemon. admittedly i was really young but i still remember watching the diamond/pearl anime on tv and being both amazed and confused since i didn't watch the episodes in order. so much has changed since then: ive grown attached to other games, got new hobbies and greatly improved in old ones, ive become a dad (/joking lol), and ive gotten rid of my gender. but nothing really changed at all. playing legends arceus on the switch felt the same as playing leafgreen on my GBA SP (aside from the obvious difference of actually being able to read). the desire to explore the world and catch them all is still there.

sometimes i wish i could meet my past self. i do occasionally wonder what they'd think of me. in highschool i used to think they'd be disappointed, but now? i think they'd like college Sumi. im studying art and videogames!! plus i never let go of who i used to be. i think kindergarten me would be proud, and i think im proud of them too. life is good and, for once, i think everything will be ok :)

[theswarmanthology]

Morgue, 19, Portland

"the tumblr fandom has helped me so much in terms of media analysis lol, i absolutely love those posts where people dissect every single lyric for allegories. every time i share my art people are so kind and loving and i feel very safe expressing my identity and ideas :-)"

Fast Facts: How long have you been a fan?: 1-3 years Did you get to see MCR live before this tour?: No, this tour was my first time seeing MCR How many shows on this tour did you attend in total?: 2-4 Favorite album: I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love Show experience out of 10: 10 Did you cry at your show?: I'm still crying right now

Which date of the tour did you attend? 10/02/22, Moda Center, Portland

When did you get your tickets for your show? Was it a struggle, or were they easy to grab? i bought mine in april 2022 with my first paycheck! i got really lucky and we got good seats for a GOOD price and i got to surprise my brother

Did you attend with anyone else? my brother

What did you wear? i wore a joan of arc tank top that i made myself!!

Where were your seats? center a couple rows back into the first section

What was your favorite song(s) from the setlist they played at your show? desert song

What song were you most hoping to hear? Did you get to hear it? not that kind of girl and drowning lessons, so no lol. i got to go again the next day with my best friend and we got our lady of sorrows which was incredible

What was your favorite moment from the show? the joy of screaming words i had been too scared to say louder than a whisper, hundreds of people listening to words that cut my to my core when i felt the lowest. knowing these lyrics truly spoke to so many more people was incredible

What was the most unexpected moment from the show? an instagram mutual i had never really spoken to before offered to let my brother and i meet up with then in the line! which was so awesome because they were literally first up so we basically got to skip the whole thing. i am very grateful for that :-)

Did you snag any merch? What pieces? got the tour shirt!

Many fans describe seeing MCR live as feeling like coming home. Did you experience anything like that at your show? yes. these people ive been borderline obsessing over for the past few years were finally real. it gave me a weird sense of peace that still hasnt left

If you could change one thing about your show experience, what would it be? i wish more people were wearing masks

Has your perspective or opinion about the band changed since seeing them on this tour? If so, in what way? nope. i love them

What advice would you give to people seeing My Chemical Romance in the future? wear a mask, bring tissues, wear something weird

Thanks, Morgue! Their Tumblr handle is @lipglossbloodstream.