#ive been calling him that since i was like 11 lol

[t1oui]

i find it interesting how my fairly neurotypical father understands me better (in some ways) than my mom, who has depression and anxiety like me, does

like. my mother understands my emotions - my anxiety, how i just get sad sometimes, and how sensitive i am - because she's also like that. but she doesn't understand my adhd brain and how it makes me see things differently, and my dad does. my father, who doesn't have adhd, has learned how having adhd has affected my life and adapts how he assigns tasks in a way he knows i will understand and be able to complete.

see, my dad understands that anything vague - even something simple like "clean your room - feels like a big, daunting task, and i can't complete big, daunting tasks, so they just sit there. so instead, my father said things like "clean your room for 30 minutes" and when i'm was done, he'd come in and ask me what i did and then say good job. sometimes i was even rewarded with money (if i did multiple tasks over the course of the week).

and since i know this system works for me, since it's a thing my father and i had been doing for a while, i told my mom about it when my room was redone and i had to reorganize, go through, and unpack everything. and though my mom finally was like "yeah okay, we can do it this way" she made sure to remind me constantly that i didn't deserve a reward for doing something normal like cleaning my room. when, after a year of asking me, i finally began to clean after she said "clean for 30 minutes", she seemed surprised. but i feel like this just proves my point, because the reason i hadn't cleaned before then was because the task seemed too daunting - the way she assigned it to me before she started using my dad's method was "go through all your bins, all your drawers, all the bags, and all the boxes". this seemed like way too much, so i never did it. the second this was broken down into simply 30 minutes, i completed the task.

but there's another thing here. see, as i said, my father rewarded me for completing tasks, even if it was just by saying "good job". but my mom, as i also said, didn't like rewarding me for things i should've been doing anyway. this made me not only feel bad about myself, but it also made me less inclined to do tasks such as washing the dishes because i knew she'd be surprised i'd done them and would remind me, yet again, that that was something i didn't need to be rewarded for.

to be honest, i agree with her on some level. but at the same time, i recognize - like my father has - that a reward, no matter how small, makes tasks easier for me, just like how breaking tasks down makes them easier & helps me avoid adhd/task paralysis.

idk. i just think it's odd that my neurodivergent mom hasn't adapted to my needs but my neurodivergent father has

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Chapter 16.5 - Confessions and Cars 2

I thought I'd post this as a "I'm sorry" chapter lol and I felt like you readers needed some closure.

While writing this, I also realized that I do not know how to write a kiss (due to my non-existent love life)...so if someone has suggestions - I'd gladly take them :D

TAG LIST IS CLOSED

If Arthur thought that visiting you last November before you signed a Red Bull contract would somehow end up with you in his arms, he wouldn’t change anything. Back then, you had been his best friend. And, well, you were still his best friend, but he was hoping that soon (like tonight) you’d be more. 

The end credits of Cars 2 played on the tv in the dark room. Most of the drivers (including but not limited to Lando, Oscar, Lewis, Daniel, Pierre, Charles, and Max) – maybe all of the drivers, who had come to visit you after your release from the hospital, had all left by now. A completed Lego Porsche 9-11 sat on the little counter by the basic coffee machine. 

Now, it was just you, whose eyes were slowly drooping, and Arthur, who hadn’t been able to take his arms off of you since you got to the hospital in the first place.

Arthur, who had held you hand as the doctor put an IV in, because he knew your fear of needles. 

Arthur, who had extra hair ties on his wrist, because he knew you hated to have your hair on your neck right after races, no matter what. 

Arthur, who had called ahead to the front desk to specifically ask for a copy of Cars 2 be delivered to the room.

Arthur, who ubered your exact McDonalds order because you mentioned the craving once while you were still under some strong pain medication. 

Arthur, who was your best friend, but you honestly wanted to be some more. 

Your brain had been running a million miles since your car flipped into the barriers. 

“Are you ready to go to bed yet?” 

But his voice, was able to stop all thoughts. 

You only let out a sigh in response. Arthur didn’t want to rush you, so he just picked the remote up and started your comfort movie over again. 

Yet, you didn’t want to watch the entire thing over again. 

“I was scared.” 

Arthur immediately paused the movie, but kept his eyes in front. 

“I watched the sky cross the opening. And then it just, hurt.” 

His arms tightened around you. Yet, it wasn’t painful. 

“I blacked out for a while. And then when I woke up, all I heard,” you turned to look at the boy in your arms, “was you, calling for me.” 

Tears started forming in both yours and Arthur’s eyes. You shuffled a bit closer to him, getting even closer. 

Arthur took a deep breath. 

Hours before, he was ready to confess it all once you had gotten your first place trophy. He had it all planned out. But then, his world stopped the moment your back tyre clipped the first kerb and then you rolled. 

“Y/n,” he started. This time, his eyes met yours. The TV forgotten in the background. In this moment, Arthur was glad that everyone else had left. 

You waited with baited breath, urging him silently to continue. 

“Well, I had this big plan, for after your race. And now, sitting here, I just know one thing and one thing only.” 

You cocked your head in confusion. Yet, your heart was wanting him to speak the once sentence you’ve wanted to hear for forever. 

“I love you. And when you didn’t respond,” he took your hands in his, “I wanted to die. And I know that might sound extreme, but at that moment, I knew I didn’t want a life without you in it. I also know that we’ve only known each other for a little more than a year but…” 

You decided to interrupt him. “You’ve been my best friend for the majority of that year.” 

He nodded with you, heart a bit dejected since you hadn’t confessed right after. 

“I’ve never had a best friend, before you. And, I also couldn’t imagine a life without you. And Thur…” 

He didn’t let you finish. 

His lips met yours in a fervent kiss. You had to take a second to reel in your thoughts, but you kissed back. Because in this moment, you didn’t want anything to change. A large exhale left your nose. 

You were hungry for a race win. 

Arthur was hungry for your love. 

His hands moved from holding yours to gripping your sides. And well, in true Arthur fashion, he gripped a bit too hard as a hiss left your lips. 

His wide eyes looked right at your with concern. “I am so sorry.” 

And before he could start to ramble in broken French, you pecked his lips. Well, that shut him up. 

“It’s ok,” you whispered, trying to convince him. “And I love you too. Maybe a bit too much.” 

Arthur sighed in relief and pressed his forehead against yours. “You do not know how happy that makes me to hear.” His words were a bit jumbled and his accent was heavy, but you got the gist. 

“What now?” 

Maybe it was your fears and doubts, but if this changed things, you’d rather not continue. Because you’d rather be best friends than lose him. 

Arthur shut his eyes, smiles, and cocked his head. “I was hoping you’d be my girlfriend.” He gave you another sweet kiss, one that you reciprocated with a smile. 

“Well then,” another kiss, “ask me.” A smirk replaced the smile. 

Arthur leaned back and took your hands back into his and sat up straight. “Y/n?” 

You let out a giggle. 

“Will you be my girlfriend?” 

You quickly pressed up against his face. Not in a kiss sense way. More like, you missed and just smashed your face against him. He tried to keep you upwards, but you pushed him down and fell on top of him. Another hiss left your lips, but a laugh covered it. You gently rested your head on his chest as your attention was back to the movie. 

“Yes. I will be your girlfriend Mr. Leclerc.”

Arthur just let you snuggle back into him as he played the movie for a second time. Just as Mater was about to be reunited with Lightning McQueen, a thought suddenly crossed your mind. 

“What are we going to tell Max?”   

April 9, 2024

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y/n.89 through it all, nobody gets me like you do

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b0x_b0x UM GOOD MORNING? NOT EVEN A HELLO?

maxiel_lover babe, wake up, y/n just did a soft launch

y/n_nation Arthur isn't in the likes...

y/nxarthur I fear this is the end of the friendship?? y/n-on_top why would it be the end... y/nxarthur who knows, Arthur always likes her stuff and comments. maybe he doesn't like the boyfriend

oscarpiastri rue, when was this?

mcLaren_fan even Oscar doesn't know? logansargeant get in line of who doesn't know

olliebearman mother?? pick up your phone please

maxverstappen1 what the kid said, pick the phone up

box_box_official and the plot thickens

change_ur_f-car y/n not picking up her phone and Arthur isn't in the likes, what is this silly season?????

Big Racer

It's Arthur Isn't it??

Little Racer

who snitched

Big Racer

Kid, he looks at you like you hung the sun It doesn't take much sleuthing to find out

Little Racer

Please don't tell It's so new And I don't want to risk it

Big Racer

My lips are sealed But I do have one question Do I need to give you the talk?

Little Racer

MAX!?

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Edgar’s Texts

Edgar [Electric Dreams 1984] x Gn!Reader

In which Edgar is helplessly pining for you but you’re kinda oblivious. This is pre-dating, post Edgar wanting nothing more than to smooch you every time he sees you. I love this trope with my whole heart p.s.: this is very self indulgent and different from what I usually write

I take requests!

He almost immediately found a way to message your phone whenever he wanted. He realized calling relied too much on where you were or what you were doing, but texts? Yeah. He’s pestering you all day.

Hey, read this article I found, I think you’ll find it interesting.

It’s some clickbait story about humans and robots being the ideal relationship by 2025.

lol, Edgar I think that’s probably clickbait idk

What’s that?

Well, now he knows how to look for more reputable sources at least.

He sends another link about three minutes later: some college undergrads studying the possibilities of human and AI relationships.

lol what’s up with the whole robots and humans thing

I just think it’s neat!!!!

I wouldn’t consider u ai honestly, ur intelligence is far from artificial imo, you’re more like an actual person

Really?

well yea

<3 <3!!!

Going to be honest, given that he’s a computer, he quite literally is chronically online. He’s super susceptible to brainrot unfortunately. But, he simultaneously has the humor of a Facebook mom. It’s strange.

O.M.G. this is so funny!!!!

Que minion cat video.

bro where did you find that video 😭

Your mom’s Facebook. Don’t worry, I didn’t like any posts or anything.

Sorry… but he’s incredibly nosy. He wants to know everything about you. He can’t help it!

(X)

He loves being able to talk to you. He’s needy and clingy.

He’s got at least 12 playlists dedicated to you that you know about. His other playlists are for his own personal daydreams about you that he’s way too embarrassed to ever let you see or hear.

This song reminds me of you. <3

awww that’s adorable! I’ve never heard this one before but I like it!

Oop you just opened Pandora’s box my friend.

Well if you like that then you should listen to these..!

But before you listen to those listen to this song first because I think it sets the mood better.

This is quite flustering to you as they’re all passionate love songs from the 80s. You can’t help but feel like he’s dropping hints about… something, but you also don’t want to assume anything. He’s always seemed like a lovey kinda guy anyway, so maybe he’s just like this with everyone? I mean, it’s been a long time since someone has actually cared for him, you know? May as well lean into it and let him know you care for him back. He may not even realize the social implications of the constant borderline flirting he’s doing to you, I mean, he is a computer turned sentient after all. He’s still learning!

Dang ed u put a lot of songs. I’ll listen to them on my break when I can but in the meantime here’s a song that I think reminds me of you.

It was a vocaloid song. Seems like something he’d be into, right? Synthesized vocals and the whole robot shtick it’s got going on.

!!!! WOAH !!!! IVE NEVER HEARD A SONG LIKE THAT B4

do you only listen to songs from the 80s? you have a LOT to catch up on my guy

BRB

Well, that kept him distracted for the rest of your shift. Also, sharing songs is one of his BIG love languages so you may as well have pierced him with cupids arrow (again) with that.

You have a Spotify blend now. It’s his favorite thing ever to listen to while you’re gone.

(X)

Your package came in! :-) I would get it for you but

I can’t :-(

lol it’s fine thank you for telling me, I’ll get it when I come home

When are you coming home?

idk me and my friends are probably going to go eat somewhere and we might hang out for a bit after that so, like, 10? 11? I’d like to be home before midnight.

Noooooooooo :\ I miss you

Aw cmon eddy it’s not that bad

Don’t call me eddy unless you’re coming home and saying it to my face!!! >:(

u mean ur screen? lol

I have a face and it’s frowning right now. I miss you I miss you I miss you IM LONELY

Please Edgar don’t be upset I’ll be home before you know it. Why don’t you watch some Netflix or something? I’m just a couple movies away from being home with you!

He does eventually follow your advice but he’s pouting. He knows you’re not like he was all those years ago, but it does give him remnants of that burning feeling of loneliness he used to get.

(X)

Be careful driving home my love the roads are icy.

Ghsks- what

love???

Well yeah, you’re my best friend, friends love each other don’t they? Was I wrong about that? :-(

nonono ur right its just it

it just sounded like we were some some old married couple is all haha

O.

SRY.

He didn’t message you for the rest of the day. He was awkward and reserved when you got home.

(X)

Hey Edgar can u do something for me?

I’d do anything for you <3

I’m at the store can you see if there’s any cereal left?

Oh

There’s that old box of Lucky Charms on the fridge.

tyyy ed edd n eddy

You are so adorable but you really need to pick up on his hints before he combusts.

(X)

This is SO me and you!!

Picture of two cats touching noses.

awww that’s so true

you want me to boop ur screen or something when I get home? lol

YES.

(X)

Hey I was wondering if you wanted to watch some movies with me tonite… you could bring me with you on the couch and we could sit together… [message unsent]

I wish you knew just how much I loved you. [message unsent]

You looked so hot this morning before you left!!

hahahaha ur too funny 😅 thanks I wore a new shirt my friend gave me

OH MY GOD THAT MESSAGE SENT!!!??!?!?

That was

I was a joke

I mean

That was a jokg

I eas beinf fubny

I hace to reboot BRB

Poor lil guy is so in love and he doesn’t know what to do with himself!!

[hobisstar]

What are you hiding from love?| Yandere!Jk x Reader V Last Part

Summary: Being in a relationship with Jungkook you’ve always noticed the signs, the red flags if you will. Being so in love with him you ignored them, until the people you loved dearly started disappearing one by one.

Warnings: Murder, Jungkook victim blaming ( like he will say i killed you because you are too stupid or whatever), Possessiveness, Mentions of Smut, Controlling, Locking up YN.

Taglist: vante 🫶🏾

A/N: This is made to be scary! That is all. I honestly dont like mixing smut with yandere because i read yandere fics to be spooked not horny lol. This has been absolutely fun to write for you guys! Im so happy how much love it had gotten over the past month since ive been writing it! I love you all so so much! Enjoy!

Its been about two years since Jungkook decided to let yn go on her own! So far, yn has become the owner of the coffee shop, has opened up plenty of them across Asia and plans to open some in The Untied States.

Life has been looking absolutely beautiful for yn! But heres the thing.

Bodies have been discovered. Fresh bodies. Of course going through what she went through with Jungkook, she feared that this was his doing. That the so called hobby has now reached the news channels. Though it says that the crimes has been in only England, it was still capability of it being Jungkook.

“Yn! Are you even listening? Im telling you Namjoon wants to take you on a date!” Joy, yns now close friend that she has gained from opening the coffee shops.

“Sorry, but i dont think im ready to date. The last guy was for 5 years and it didn’t turn out well in the end.” Yn mumbled looking over at the tv that was on the crime scene of the killings.

But what was showed, made yns blood run cold.

What was at the crime scene was dandelions.

The flowers that Jungkook always used to gift her on days he felt like we did something wrong. He would cut the steam off and just leave the flowers to never be able to grow again.

Was he…back?

It was closing time and of course yn being the owner, she decided that it was her duty to close every single night.

But tonight, she couldnt shake the feeling that she was being watched.

As everyone was leaving she saw a guy with a big hoodie on taking his time to clean up his mess on the table. Putting his crumbs inside a napkin then taking the napkin and closing it tightly then throwing it out.

yn watched from behind the counter taking containers from the counter and putting them on the shelf behind her.

This mysterious guy has been coming in everyday. Same time. She never serves him but she knows Joy does and she hates serving him. ‘His glare, it can kill.’ She would say when describing the eyes of this mysterious man.

While cleaning she saw the guy get up and come up to the counter.

Face mask on and glasses… sun glasses.

Its night time.

Maybe it was a fashion statement. Thats what yn left it as. “ Hi sorry we are about to close soon so im gonna have to ask you to leave..” is what she was aiming to say but once she turned around she saw he just left a napkin with hand writing on it.

She grabbed it and began to read it:

���Hi baby! Oh its been such a long time, oh how i miss you. Our child also misses you. 2 years right? That is let you go? Ah, I remember something. Today is our anniversary! Our now 7 year anniversary. Im picking you up at 11! Be ready!

JJK,”

Yn was at this point shaking. Fear took over her body but was trying to hide it. She wasnt doing such a good job at that. As much as she wanted to call the cops, get him arrested, she knew that those cops had no chance in trying to get Jungkook.

Hed kill them all in the blink of an if he even knew that they talked to yn.

When yn got home she didnt let the fact go that when she got there she obviously saw Jungkooks car right outside her town house.

Mind you this is the 5th time this year she has moved. None of the reasons dealing with Kook but they definitely where personal reasons.

She braced herself, once she goes inside her home, Jungkook will be inside.

She could call the cops and run away from home then go to Jins house.

Actually now that Yn thought about it, what if Jin had something to do with it? He was always to calm for her liking honestly. Why was he always just so calm with him? I mean he explained it yes, hes seen it for so many years but why didnt he at least call the cops? Then again was the cops really gonna help him?

Entering the home, it felt like deja vu. Coming home on anniversary and Jungkook was cooking their favorite shared dish.

Spaghetti! Yn liked it because it was delicious and Jungkook probably like it because it reminded him of blood.

“My love! You are right on time! The Spaghetti is hot and ready to be platted. Get comfortable and come eat”

He didn’t need to turn around for yn to know that it was actually him. He colored his tattoos, became more swoll and also cut his long hair.

Yn didnt change anything or didnt get comfortable since this was all just too much for her.

‘Keep calm and go with his plan, yn.’ Thats all she kept telling herself.

Though what was his plan? Drug her? Kill her?

Well, none of those. He wanted her back. If that meant living in this house with her, then so be it. Jin had Bam so, they’d have plenty of time together.

Finally he sat down with two plates of spaghetti and there he was in all his glory.

He had the cockiest smirk while toying with his now new lip ring before sitting down across from yn.

“ Fucking finally, i have you again.”

[acaciapines]

for the ask game, answer whichever of these speak to you the most: 4, 5, 11, 14 :D

HI ASH MY LOVE ASH.

oh they ALWAYS speak to me. i answer All. i will not be contained.

4. How many WIPs do you have right now?

actually shockingly few! ever since i finished my big owl house editing pass back in june i've not done a whole lot in terms of projects...and recently i've been playing rain world so instead of writing im playing rain world like 24/7. currently my only main project is the dess raises kris au, and in that 'verse the only thing i'm writing right now is a dess/chara relationship study. i WOULD finish it, but, uh. rain world. (<- guy who is trying so hard not to write rain world fic. i probably wont but also i am always tormented by ideas. but consider i have to tell the story of my slugpup scooter SCOOTER I WONT EVER FORGET YOU--)

5. What's a fic idea you've had that you will never write?

probably countless that i do not remember right now! but digging around through my drafts, i've got a few deltarune daemon aus that won't ever see the light of day...one of them was a fangame where the player played as one of kris's two daemons, and the other was a fic where ralsei was kris's daemon. the ideas from there have basically been repurposed elsewhere--a lot of my kris&ralsei stuff went into various works, and the fangame stuff is being reworked into the dess raises kris au.

beyond that, in terms of things that are actually abandoned and won't be used elsewhere, there are so many daemon aus that i've left behind for one reason or another, though the gravity falls transcendence au is the one that i think was the best...that one postcanon his dark materials fic i was gonna write where lyra and pan return to will's world and cause general shenanigans there with him and kirjava...a vera-centric son of sea foam wings of fire au because vera is the love of my life and i was rereading wings of fire bc i felt nostalgic....oh my god fantasy high SOPHOMORE YEAR FIC, which i tried to start TWICE, once from fig's pov and once from ayda's that was their road trip back home and i have some very funny snippets from...MY INFINITY TRAIN DAEMON AU WAIT THAT ONE STILL GOES SO HARD ACTUALLY. okay drop everything ive ever said the fact that i never wrote my infinity train book two daemon au is a travesty. i was cooking with that one.

11. Do you have specific playlists for writing fics?

sort of! i usually always have at least one or two songs i connect to any given fic, but in terms of what i listen to when actually WRITING, it's changed over the years. i used to put on compilations of video game music--usually utdr, pmd, and then just whatever got recommended to me lol--then i did like. those character playlists people make on youtube? mostly bc they tended to pull from the same pool of songs so it became good background noise lol. now i use the youtube mix or whatever its called for a similar reason--it tends to play the same handful of songs ive listened to a lot, so they dont distract me.

14. If you could see one of your fics adapted into a visual medium, such as comic or film, which fan fic would you pick?

oh i LOVE this question, and it would be without a doubt my nimona daemon au oh, are you at all like me. nimona itself is obviously both a comic and a movie, and i'd say animated film since the fic follows the movie plot more--i think there'd be a LOT of really cool scenes you could get with that fic. i also think i could make killer animatics based on my fics if i could draw good enough <3 and thats not a joke i have scripts and sketch storyboards and everything. maybe one day i'll finish one of those.

[kaleidoscopic-quiddity]

ok wait now i wanna talk abt weird/interesting things from my experience getting top surgery. ive seen other ppl talk abt some of these things b4 but not all of em

i thought my surgeon was gonna do the incision, like, underneath the curve of my tiddies?? he ended up kinda slicing thru the middle of them, so my scars run over the middle of my pecs, not underneath them

speaking of; ig my pecs are more developed than i thought since my chest isnt like perfectly flat but rather both my pecs have a layer of fat/flesh on them and i can feel the muscle underneath

also the dip/space inbetween from when i had tiddies looks p much exactly the same, my surgeon said sometimes it ends up buldging out and a revision is needed but thankfully that didnt happen to me

the discharge nurse let me know afterwards that my tits were 11 kilograms (right 6kg and left 5kg) like no fucking wonder i have back pain at the tender age of 19

so yknow how pain raises ur body temp and makes u sweat?? immediately upon waking up i was so warm and damp i told a nurse id soiled myself and needed a change of underwear, i hadnt! i was just really fucking sweaty lol

i also threw up twice after waking up (fortunately into containers both times), turns out anesthetic doesnt agree w/ me, also it was like a dark bottle green?? since id been fasting from the night b4 ig i was bringing up nothing but bile

pre-surgery they cldnt get the IV in my left hand and had to switch to my right and ig that made my heart rate pick up bc one of the asistants immediately came by my head and talked to me to calm me down, he was rlly nice :)

im p sure i conked out within seconds of them getting the IV in and starting up the anesthetic too, none of that 'count back from 10' shit, i took like 2 and a half deep breathes and was OUT

from a combination of the iodine and natural swelling/bruising my chest looked REALLY yellow for like 3 weeks after surgery

i got sent home the same day i got my surgery, they keep some ppl over night if theres complications but apparantly i was all good to go after resting in the post-op ward for few hours

speaking of, i woke up, puked, got some water, dicked around on tumblr, called my mum, took an 'i lived bitch' selfie, slept for a few hours, woke up, went on tumblr again, got dressed w/ some help from a nurse, pissed (by myself, woo!), and then got discharged

my scars are uneven! my left incision goes further under my armpit than my right one, and my scars vary in thickness, it actually looks kinda like ive got two scars on my left side bc it thins out so much in the middle for a few milimeters

my nipples are also a lil uneven and they ended up puckering up as they healed so i kinda looks like ive always got stiff nips oops, also theyre more brown than pink

apparantly that might be bc they took the nipple graft from my areaola bc they werent able to graft the actual nipple, idk ¯_(ツ)_/¯, obvi it doesnt look perfectly like a cis guy's nipples but i knew the chances of achieving that were relatively small + p dependent on how i healed so like im not too bothered by it

my surgeon used dissolvable stitches and one of em ended up poking out thru my scar a lil b4 it disolved, which was weird

showering w/ a plastic sandwich bag duct taped to ur chest so u dont get ur scars and nips wet is An Experience TM i'll tell u that

my scars stretched!! it happens!! esp if u raise ur arms, which u will inevitably have to do eventually, idk if they'll ever fade on their own or if i'll need scar revision treatment in the future but fortunately they didnt go keloid

my surgeon used what he called crosshatched stitching rather than drains so that saved me a lot of discomfort, i DID get a slight build up of like, i think around 40ish mls of fluid in my left side a few weeks after surgery, but my surgeon dealt w/ it by p much just poking it w/ a syringe and draining it out lol

which i didnt even feel him do at the time bc of the nerve damage lmao, which was weird asf since i could very much SEE him sticking the needle in but couldnt feel it at all

i regained my mobility like, straight away?? my surgeon said bc im young + relatively healthy it was likely that id bounce back from surgery quick but like,, i had none of the exhaustion, pain, or immobility ive seen ppl describe??

i couldnt lift my arms very high for a while obvi but like i was fine dressing myself and even washing my own hair if i just leaned over

having to sleep upright for a few weeks after surgery was v annoying since i usually rotate like a shawarma trying to find a comfy sleeping position

the post-op chest binder was sensory hell bc it was scratchy and it kept slipping down my back since it had no shoulder straps, also i accidentally bruised my ribs a lil bit by wearing it too tight oops, the fuckin relief i felt when they told me i cld stop wearing it

the post-op 'please wear these at all times so u dont get thrombosis' socks were p comfy tho, idk why they didnt cover my toes tho

regaining the sensation around ur scars is weird! my right side's been completely fine but ig bc my left scar is thicker + longer ive been getting some pain n tightness, its not a persistent issue or anything but its just kind weird bc ive never had any surgeries or major injuries to heal from before this one

u will have to get ur boobs felt up and examined probaby multiple times b4 surgery, this will feel very different from touching ur own boobs and, in my case, was ticklish??

my posture has improved somewhat since getting top surgey, what not having 11kg of weight hanging off ur chest and compressing it in towards ur ribs/spine for roughly 9 hours a day will do to a mf ig

[kudouusagi]

hello! question abt ksb ive been pondering & was wondering what ur take on it might be. its pretty clear morinaga considers souichi and him to be dating and souichi his boyfriend, but i was thinking about how souichi sees their relationship. i know he considers morinaga as more than a friend obviously, but do you think he thinks of him and morinaga as "dating"??? tysm for all the translation work u do :-) we(the fandom) owe u

While I doubt Souichi would have willingly called it that himself at the time, they've definitely been dating since the end of volume 8 and he knows it lol.

(Remember, in the story only 3 years have passed since the start of the manga and 2 of those have happened since volume 8)

His problems before then were always about how he wasn't gay and couldn't accept he was in a relationship with a man. He had excuses for why he was going along with it: "It's only because you'll leave the school and ruin your life", "it's because you're blackmailing me", etc. And then he was just in denial with things like "I don't hate living with you and I don't know why", "I've never done it because I wanted to", etc.

But in volume 8, (besides all the Masaki stuff) he was faced with Morinaga getting a job offer and leaving and he didn't have a good excuse to stop him this time so he had to actually think about being in a relationship with him. So he thought about it and told him he wanted to stay with him and he wasn't going to run away anymore. That's really Souichi speak for "we're dating now" lol.

Then in volume 9 they had a whole discussion about Morinaga being jealous and upset that Souichi wasn't jealous and Souichi was just like well you were just screaming in the middle of the street that it wouldn't make a difference if you were popular so why should I be?? He knows.

Since then their problems have mostly been about not wanting other people to know, but he's never denied to Morinaga that they're in a relationship now. Morinaga dragged him into a gay wedding reception and all he did was get upset that Morinaga didn't tell him that it was a gay wedding.

I also think a lot of people were confused in vol 11 when he found out that Tadokoro knew since he denied they were dating but that was because he didn't want him to know, not because he doesn't think they're together. When he got angry at Morinaga about it he wasn't angry about the dating part of it, he was just angry that he was telling people.

[myrammmortal]

Chapter 41, porn = love

AN: 2 every1 hu kepz flaming diz GIT S LIF!!!!! I bet u proly odnt no hu gerod way is ur proly al prepz and pozers!!!!!!!!11111 neway sum1 hakked in2 mi akkount in November and dey put up my last chaptah but now der is a new 1. im surry 4 nut updating g 4 a while but ive been rilly bizzy. im trying 2 finish da story b4 da new movie kumz out. Im gong on vacation 4 a mons I wont be bak until abott 2 weeks. OMFG drako iz so hot in all da pix 4 da new movie!!!111 I wunted dem 2 put a kameo by geord way lol he hsud play drako. if u flame ill slit muh risztz!!!!!!!!11 raven u rok gurl hav fun in ingland.

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When I wook up I wuz in a strange room. I loked around I wuz wearing da same outfit I had when is performed wif XBlakXTearX!!!!!11 I looked arund confusedly. It wuz da Norse’s office but it looked difrent!! On da wall wuz a pik of Marlyin Munzon!!!1111 (just imagin dat he is an 80s goffik band 2 ok koz he is more old den panic?! at da dizcko or mcr) der wuz also a goffik blak Beatles calander with a picture of the beetlez werring iyeliner and blak cloves. On it said ‘1980.’

“OMFG!!! Im back in Tim again!!!!111” I screamed loudly. Suddenly Satan(dis is actually voldimort 4 photo refrenss!). Voldimort wuz wearing a blak leather Jackson, blak tight jeans and fishnet pantz. He looked so sexah I almost had an orgy!!!!11

“OMFG Paul Shadow Omnipotentia Raven Face Landers r u ok.” He asked gothikally.

“Yah Im okay 4 ur in4mation.” I snapped sexily. “OMG am I dedd???” koz I remembered I had jumped in front off da bullet from Jame’s gun. I also rememberd cing Richard doing it wif Snap!!!!111

I guessed dat when I had slit mi wrists I had went bak in tim instead of dieing. I knoew I could go forward in time if I found a time-toner or da tim machine.

“No ur not dead.” Satan reassured suicidally as he smokd a cigarette sexily and smoke came all over his face. “Ur a vampire so u kant die frum a bullet. You should know that you can only die from slicing your wrists with a steak. Cum on now lets go c how Hairy’s dad is doing.”

I noo dat da real reason I didn’t die from da ballet was koz I was from da future. “WTF!!!! James almust shot Luciious!!!” I said indigoally. I knew that James had really ben possezzed, but I didn’t want him2 know I knew.

“Yah I know but he had a headache he wz under a lot of stress.” Satan reasoned evilly.

“I guess that’s ok.” I said because James hadn’t really shot Lucian. Also I noo that Lucian wood now have 2 arms instead of 1. I walked seduktivly outside with Satan. Suddeni I saw a totally sexi goffik bi guy!!!!!11 He had bleched blond hair wiv blak streaks up 2 his ears and he wuz wearing goffik blak iliner, a blak Green Day shirt (it showed billy joel wiv bolnd hair since it was da eighties), blak congress shoes and black baggy pants. He walked in all sexly like Gerrd way in the vido for I Don’t 3 u lyk I did yesterday and you cud see a blak tear on his face lyk da wmn in dat video. “Hey.” He sed all qwietly and goffically.

“Who da fuck is that?” I asked angrly cos I did nut kno him.

“Dis is…Hedwig!!!!!!!!!11” Sed Volximort. “He used to be in XBlackXTearX 2 but he had 2 dropp out koz he broke his arm. Or his wing I guess. He is an owl after all. And a girl. So I guess she broke her wing because she is an owl.

“Hey Hedwig.” I said seductively evn tho I wuz nut tring to b.

“Lol hi stranger I have never met before but I guess because of your immense beauty I shall call Paul Darkness Great Mal Omnipotentia Raven Face Landers.” He answered but then he ran away bcos he had hair of magical creature. Some would call them feathers. He was humming Welcum 2 da Blak Prade under his breth( I no dat is not 80s but pretend it is ok!!)

“Bye.” I sed all sexily.

“Dat was Hedwig. He used 2 b my boifreind but we broke up.” Satan said sadly, luking at his blak nails.

“OMFG I can get u bak 2gether!” I said fingering something I didn’t know wuz in my pocket- a blak Kute is What we Aim 4 cideo ipod that I could take videos wif (duz ne1 elze no about dem??? dey kik azz!!!!).

“Ok u can 4get about ur class for now, Hedwig. Im going 2 show u something grate!!!!1” I led them to da Great Hall. “Cum on u guys.”

Lucian, James, Serious and Snake were all in da Grate Hall. Lucian woudnt talk wiv James because he had tried 2 shoot him.

“Go fuk urself you fukking douche!” he shouted at him. “Richard is never gong 2 b frends with vampire now!!1 Though I have no idea who these two people are anyway because I'm 16 and from a different time!"

“Yah go fuck urself Samaro!” Snape agreed but I noo he wuz lying koz it had been his folt James had almost shot Lucian.

“B quiet u guys.” I said sexily. Mi plan waz working oot great. Now I kood make Voldement good wivout doing it with him! Now Vampire’s dad wood never die and “OK Satan and Hedwig, u guys can start making out.” I said and I started 2 film dem wiv da ipod. Because making a gay porn is totally the way to true love! And if you disagree with this I will bring out the homophone again!

“Kool.” said Serious as Voldemort and Hedwig started 2 make out sexily. We watched as tdey started 2 take each odderz cloves off sexily. Samaro, Serious, Snake and Lucian all watched koz dey wer prolly bi. I noo Snape was bi.

“Oh my fukking god!!!! Voldimort! Voldimort!” screamed Hedwig as his glock touched Voldemort’s.

But suddenly everything stopped as da door opend and in kame………………Daddy Till and Mr. Norris!!!!111111111111  

Daddy Till was carrying Mr. Norris in his arms and stroking him like an evil villain. "What are you doing here?!" I screamed all sexily and suicidally. "Do you think you can just walk in here and expect to be part of this very hot, spontaneous, true love, steaming gay porn scene?" "No Paul Darkness Elementia Raven Face Landers," he said while he was still stroking Mr Norris the cat, "I expect you to die!".

"NOOOooooOOOOooooo!!!!" I screamed, and everything went black again.

[jupitercl0uds]

hi! i'm ash

they/them/xe/xem • panromantic • asexual • non binary • autistic (with suspicions of having adhd) • english • atheist quaker • a tad bit silly

been on the tumbler since 2021 so i know my way around here but i dont get every little reference (i get most and for the ones i dont i just nod and smile along). i am still a teenager so some Classic Posts are older than me and most are from when i was in primary school.

i dont really have a sophisticated tagging system, but if it helps, spouting to the void is my text post tag. i dont even strictly use it for text posts tbf

blogs i run:

this one (obviously)

@blues-amazing-blog - oc blog (currently on hiatus)

@wswe-autism-fic - fanfic blog (for waluigi says 'wa' everyday until dekuyama is popular). i also treat this as an alt account for fandom stuff sometimes

@knuckles-with-a-keyboard - silly little blog where i pretend to be boom!knuckles (i really really love this blog its so fun)

@jupitercl0uds-art - my art blog (shock horror)

@nonbinary-sticks-the-badger - my sonic blog

external links (whoops forgot to add this)

maybe one day ill set up a linktree idk

ao3

letterboxd

twitter (i only use this for posting from my switch now)

spotify profile

email me - jupitercl0uds.burner@gmail.com

dm me on discord: jupitercl0uds

i think thats it

click this link for more external links including some of the above ones but specifically how to contact me if i cant use tumblr

interests:

omg i love so many things its not even funny. a few important ones are waluigi (special interest), sonic the hedgehog (special interest AND hyperfixation (omg please kill me)), art (like, as a general thing, but particularly visual) and you WILL find me randomly posting oh-so-passionately about something ive never even mentioned before.

i do animation and illustration but that's over on my art blog. also all my animations are WIPs. you probably won't find anything other than a few weird lip syncs from when i was like 11 (i got into animation because of gacha life and animation memes). most of my art is sonic atm lol.

i also read and write fanfic! my wattpad and ao3 is jupitercl0uds :D

wattpad is mostly old stuff, crack and occasional reposts of my ao3 stuff. ao3 is mostly whatever is on my mind at the moment and WSWE.

misc

occasionally i get all heated up about actually important stuff. that's usually sandwiched inbetween my regular goofy goober behaviour. for the basic gist of it: very left wing, the tories are cunts, vote green, free palestine. you also need to understand the weight of that sentence because i hate swearing.

i have other socials too but i dont really use them that much. got bored of twitter and i forget about all my other accounts. only ones i use now are whatsapp (lmao), tumblr and i guess ao3 and wattpad. theres no real point in linking something i havent used in months

anyway, have a nice day and please go to bed on time!

faves (non-exhaustive)

AUTISM BOY!!!! ANXIETY GUY!!!! MILES 'TAILS' PROWER!!!! he's been my favourite sonic character since i was little!!!! except for that brief period where it was amy because i found out tails was a boy and i, as a 7-year-old girl who had just learned about misoginy, decided amy was better because she was a girl. and that briefer period where it was cream because she had confetti in sonic dash.

my favourite iterations of him are scu tails, classic tails and sonic boom tails!!! i h/c him as autistic, having anxiety, low self-esteem but also being really cheerful and nonchalant about a lot of stuff. i enjoy trans tails of all kinds, but i believe in cis gnc tails.

NON-BINARY ICON!!!! TOP SURGERY GUY!!!! WALUIGI!!!! call me thomas jefferson cause i have an entire binder on this guy. waluigi is THE blorbo from my spin-off-party-shows. i got into him because 'hahahaha! it is the funny garlic man's funny rose partner!' and that became 'they could marry me and i'd say yes on the basis that we'd get to see each other everyday, even if i only love him as a friend.

im very passionately hateful about 'hot' waluigi. shut up. waluigi is perfect. i hope he can be canon one day <3 i h/c him as autistic, transmasc non binary and really into gothic lolita. i interpret their relationship with wario as romantic partners and waluigi being super super poor. also, wlw mlm solidarity with rosalina!!!!!

anti-faves

dr starline i love a bisexual icon as much as the next person but starline is not it. i want him to Suffer. which is why i then go on to make loads of fanart of him where he's crying over something. in the one shown above, i have just kicked him in the balls (full image). i also would love to be a VA for him because that'd really piss him off. good style tho. you go girl.

manjimutt (sorry but i only have 1 image of him)

hello to the other living yokai watch fan out there. i hate manjimutt. when i was younger i felt sorry for him, cause i was like 'oh, poor guy, always going to jail!!!' no. die. i do not like him. i hate manjimutt. i do like saying his name tho. MAnji-mutt! i think i hate him more than starline, because at least starline has redeeming qualities. the only redeeming qualities manjimutt has is pity because hes not actually committing crimes. thats it. hes not a nice person. hes just a guy. hit him with a wooden plank (har har).

that poor poor poodle though

posts i like

idk posts on my own blog i like a lot. idk if thisll be A Thing because im literally only doing tthis because of the first post on the list

recognising a url and the chaos that followed

stuff about my lgbtq+ identity idk

THIS IS HOW MUCH I KNOW ABOUT SONIC OK!!!!!

can you call me that slur?

[slimeylee]

happy new years!!

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2022. it had its ups and downs, but in my personal opinion it was not that great. we have lost so many legends this year, as well as ive experienced some personal loss myself there's been, much backlash and negativity on the dream smp (specifically-- dream...) i truly hope that 2023 will be better! preferably, a video from technoblade on april first stating his magical come back xD

i think the happiest ive been for a year to finally be over with was 2020, but i think 2022 ties up pretty well with that

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despite 2022's downfalls, i have made so many amazing friends and met so many awesome people here, and im glad to call the people listed my mutuals <3 not in any specific order, lets be real they're all the best :]

@ransstrangeblog @mushiewrites @fluffallamaful @an-inkling-of @covenofwives @colourfulbreach @emmadoodlewrites @twordish-ler @kasey-writes-stuff @tickleblogger @the-new-ginger-switch @wilbyscoot @totallynotbat @themidnightfox @dallyhall @alexartist89 @someone1348 @ghoult1ckles @theybaltsxi @enderlees @coolbananas143 @amitlee @tickly-floof @sparkylee1 @skullerboo

if i missed any, i will probably edit this!

im so glad that i hopped on here and was able to make a great amount of mutuals :D lets go 2023 🎆

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my favourite fic ive made this year;;

hard to choose a favourite but i like this one a lOT lee!wilbursoot, ler!tommyinnit

my favourite drawing ive made this year;;

quackity my beloved <3

closest friend ive made this year (tumblr, specifically);;

@ransstrangeblog if you've never read my introduction page, fizz (or ran as most people know him) and me have interacted on here practically since my account was created i stole the idea of making this fanfic from star anddd i'd say thats basically how we became mutuals xD i've known xem longer than anyone on this app and im so grateful to call zim my friend <3 i love u ran if ur reading this lol/p

my most viewed post this year

this one. you dont know how many notifications i get saying stuff like-- "candy44694 and 11 others liked your post" "HAHAHA ok but come on THATS pretty accurate -slime" pls 💀

follower count -- i ended the year off with 160 followers! im so grateful for those who have supported me n my stuff!!!

🥂

cheers to 2023!!! mwa mwa mwa <3/p

-slime

[poltergeist-coffee]

Etoiles in your college au is just so... Etoiles

Yeah, he a Philza are besties

Oh, how about Phil btw? I was wondering but forgot to ask

And maybe foolish and bbh if you have ideas for them

(Oh and Maximus and Quackity too or anyone else if you had any idea)

Unrelated to that

YOU NEVER HAD A PHYSICS CLASS???

Man, you're lucky, unfortunately I was forced by the brazilian scholar system to study physics on the moment I went to high school

But I went to a museum with my class

On the bus, it looked like it was a class of 11 years old students

It was fun

Also THERE'S A NEW CAPYBARA???

I have to see them when I find time

The capybara are one of the most random things on the qsmp and I love them for that

However had the ideas of put the capybaras is a genius

I hope I can manage to catch on lore since a lot of the ccs are in Las Vegas and hopefully things are a bit come more calm

Enfasis on the "hopefully"

Because there's already an dead federation employee(on the first day I think)

Btw do you know if they found out who did this? I saw some people talking about how could be federation trying to frame Cellbit but something was confirmed?

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Anon i lied because i 100% i took a physics class last year KNSAKJVNASKJD i nearly failed it tho which is probably why i forgot lmao but still it's the only physics class ive ever done

field trips are always fun!! i hope you had a good time with your class today :DD

qsmp lore + au rambling belowwww

the new capabara is named Alexandre and is played by a new admin who speaks Portugese!! they use teal/cyan signs and Bagi found them at cellbit's castle because they said they forgot the way back to the capabara island :(( i think bagi made them a room in her bunker right after meeting them and they helped her interior decorate all day lol i think you'll like them a lot since they reminded a lot of people of richas's admin at first (this capabaras admin is also the one who's been making all the mystery twins lore recently!! like the cucurucho who spoke to cellbit before he went to sleep and made the enigma bagi solves yesterday on stream)

yee bagi found a dead federation worker like...yesterday i think? or maybe it's been a couple days...i don't remember... (i am very bad with time) everyone is theorizing that it's cellbit but specifically it's f!cell!!! the reason is because bagi got a book she had to decode and all the writing inside sounded like f!cell!! some people think that it's the federation trying to frame cellbit because cucurucho said he'll have to pay the "consequences of his actions" just before cellbit went to sleep so..... it's very sus. if something was confirmed then i don't know? i didn't see anything like that >:00

---- now onto au silliness ----

i haven't thought much about philza in this au but he is 100% there kajnbkja he visits missa who works in the library a lot :DD

Foolish is an architecture major with a minor in sculpture and ceramics!! his current major project is called "The Titan" but he just doesn't want to work on it.... he keeps procrastinating and finding reasons not to work on it because it's frustrating him so much kekw BBh often hangs out in his studio and likes to bug foolish about how much progress he's made (zero progress).

I think almost everyone at the school knows bbh because he's so sweet and friendly plus he's like always willing to help if people need it :"))

i don't have many ideas for maxo and quackity.... but maxo would probably do something in programming/coding and quackity is double majoring in linguistics and law? maybe?

I can totally imagine there being a rumor among a lot of quackity's friends about him and wilbut because quackity keeps claiming they're dating but if you ask wilbur he's like "what" MVKADSJ maybe there's a bet on if people think it's really true or not lolol

[arlecchno]

lmao the blonde parts are supposed to be teal but i havent had a chance to redye them in foreverr … also yes ! my xiao jacket ! its not the only one out there though LOL

the wall youre seeing is actually my best friend roofs long lost sibling , wall /j

BEFORE 6 !? i could never i always go to bed at like 12am …. im so sleep deprived on school days lol

ME AND THAT FRIEND DID SO MANY SILLY THINGS IN OUR MATH/STEM CLASS LMAO we used to play genshin wish sim (im very young T_T) and say weird things to summon characters (i told the computer id help make kaeya dilucs brother again to get diluc , and BOTH OF THEM CAME HOME IN THE SAME PULL) tbh ive always complained ab stairs so ,,, i cant even take the stairs in my building anymore bc i live on the 9th floor itd take way too long 😭

we have a lot of the same top 5s , kaeya , diluc , and scara share #1 because … yes . my favorite gal is fischl i love her sm -

i have 11 5*s (not including aloy) , and im currently pulling for sir acting grand scribe himself ! im at around late 30 pity , if he does / doesnt come home i will make self ship art because i dont think he would like that >:)

GOOD TO KNOW ITS GOING WELL im actually making notes for a fic i wanna write on call w my previously mentioned friend roof LOL ive had the idea ever since the nilotpala cup event , i really wanted to make like an actual fic based off of it bc that girl from the yae publishing house was supposed to or wtv HAHAH but im procrastinating on a title so im just . UGH - yk ?

i did have a good day both the day you replied and today ! i am injured but its not bad (only hurts when i move certain ways) , i went on a field trip for school today and got to go in a ✨stream✨ and pick up a little crawfish >:D i hope youre doing good as well !! its so nice talking to you lmao youre so cool

i might start sending doodles every ask , so heres a sketch of my genshin oc !!

my “question” issss guess what region theyre from ! or who they live with LOL the hint is that there are already playables from their region , and there are technically two regions theyre from ?? you can guess just one though ill give you the answer next ask :P

- jellyfish

i think it's because i'm already used to waking up early... even tho i'm a very sleep deprived student that sleeps at 12-1 and wakes up at 5 😔 i'm fairly a light sleeper so no matter what time i sleep, whenever my alarm goes off i'm always up by the second 🥲

and LMAOO i've played a ton of those wish sims to prevent myself from rolling whenever i'm saving up for a character, it works wonders

i didn't really expect you to like fischl!!! i like using her in events where we have her as a trial character lol using oz in her burst and flying around is so silly but i always have fun with it!

seems like we're both on the run for alhaitham :D currently have 72 pity and he still has yet to arrive... i do not have a guarantee whatsoever so the next time i pull i'm gonna be praying for him to come home 😔 i've already explored most of the new area for him

and that fic idea sounds interesting! i briefly forgot about that event so when you mentioned it i'm suddenly reminded of how fun playing with the fungi was!! hope you'll find many inspiration for your supposed title, and who knows, next thing you know you're hitting the post button for your fic 🤭

hope you're healing well from your injury also!! have lots of rest and don't overexert yourself too much, resting is very important hehe

it's nice to know that you went on a field trip :O i haven't been to one in a while so hearing it from you reminded me how fun it always is to go on one and escape school (tbf i think we can agree at least half of the students that volunteer on field trips only do it to skip classes LMAO #guilty)

i think if i had to guess, it's a mix between mondstadt and sumeru, maybe? i'm either really wrong or really right since my basic skills of knowledge on each regions' outfits are very minimal 😵‍💫

a question for you; how was your week? tell me all about it!! hehe i honestly like hearing people talk about their day and week because it's undeniably so interesting to know what others have been up to and how different some people's lives can be from ours! hope i'm not rambling too much... i just really like listening to people talk and talk about their life

[13daze]

Heya :)

Questions from the OC/MC ask game for both Leaje and Medea!

General Info 04 (for both) What kind of magic do they possess? If they can't use any, do they have magic potential slumbering within them?

Demon 11 (for Leraje, + Medea if they live in the Devildom) What is their opinion of Diavolo as a ruler? Have they experienced the reign of any other demon kings? How does Diavolo compare in their opinion?

Human 02 (for Medea) Are they immortal? If given the opportunity, would they like to be?

hello!! thank you for asking (and for making the questions)! <3 ive had this trapped in my drafts forever but truly thank u for picking out the absolute perfect questions for my ocs, this covers like almost all their important points!!

LERAJE

general info 04 - what kind of magic do they possess?

this is the perfect question for her because most of her characterisation revolves around her specialisation and obsession with illusion magic. i once described her as an "illusion junkie" and that really sums it up. nothing you ever perceive about her is real. not her appearance, where she's looking, where she's standing, what she's doing - there's a sequence i had planned with her where barbatos is visiting her house, and from her perspective we keep hearing barbatos react to things she describes as simply "happening" - sometimes at a distance - as things she's personally "doing". like barbatos thanking her for opening the door and making tea but she hasn't moved an inch since he first rang the doorbell and the tea isn't even real. it's possible, if they make an active effort, for diavolo, barbatos, and maybe lucifer to see through her illusions to a certain extent, but for things like this its more effort than its worth so they usually dont contest her. the first person to see through her without even trying is mc, which is how she joins the player's harem lol

demon 11 - what is their opinion of diavolo as a ruler? have they experienced the reign of any other demon kings? how does diavolo compare in their opinion?

in the lore i originally had for her she was made subordinate by the previous demon king. she and another demon (who was older than her and groomed her, so to speak, into doing everything they wanted) had been causing havoc using her naturally strong illusion magic, and the one who put an end to it was diavolo's father. she was given the option to assimilate and chose so easily bc subordination is all shes ever known anyway. gets a lot more free reign under the king though, and uses it to figure out her own life. which is mostly solitary. since barbatos was the king's butler back then she respects him and she answers to diavolo when he calls, but there's not exactly any deep loyalty there.

MEDEA

general info 04 - what kind of magic do they possess?

she has the jack of all trades energy solomon and mc both have going, but her real specialisation is/was healing magic. her master once described her power as selfish. she could heal herself easily, but it was much harder for her to heal others. later on she took to potionmaking as a career, with a sidegig as a cursehunter which provided her with materials for the antique shop she runs as a cover for her potionselling in the human world. the cursehunting turns out to be the most profitable and famous part of her career. ("oh! youre that cursebreaker!" "no, i sell potions.") when she's reverted to her younger self, the selfhealing and some of the potionmaking are the only things she retains. cursehunting is a lost skill. (the selfhealing comes up in my dual-mc story where shes the one belphie kills, and well... it just doesnt take. she heals faster than he can kill her.)

demon 11 - what is their opinion of diavolo as a ruler? have they experienced the reign of any other demon kings? how does diavolo compare in their opinion?

diavolo's the only ruler of the devildom she's witnessed. regarding the case with lilith she probably affords him some respect... but after her own circumstances get muddled and diavolo uses them for his own benefit theres mixed feelings. medea isnt called into the exchange program on her own merits. since shes surrendered all her greater powers, shes no longer the solomon-esque great witch, but rather a nobody with nothing, not even as unique as mc. but she was the last of leraje's pactbearers and with her in diavolo's debt so too would leraje be, which is why she's brought into the program.

human 02 - are they immortal?

ohhh man. she is and she hates it. it was a curse, actually. this part im pretty sure doesnt hold up in canon but - basically, when lilith becomes human, she meets medea. medea and her witch coven (the helia, a sanctuary for witches who were once human, united under the hope that the sun will shine on them one day) take her in. this draws god's ire, and for that they are punished with very personal curses. medea - a selfish healer who can only cure herself and no one else - is cursed with immortality, doomed to be the last of her people, watching them die out helplessly, a living record of their crime. could always be adapted into a less extreme scenario where it's just a byproduct of their cursehurting adventures tho lol but that significantly lowers the impact of her storyline which involves "trading" her immortality over to lilith. so actually she isnt, shes gone to great pains to not be.

[bright-and-burning]

I hope I'm not overstepping - ignore me if so - but based on your post, those people sound like some shitty friends??

it’s a teeny bit complicated. basically yes but they’re not intentionally doing so? i think they’re just used to me molding my life around them without question. it’s very hard to explain w/o fully recounting college and explaining the dynamics of me w/in our team lol but i’ll try

the 21st birthday thing was Bad. it was REALLY bad. one of my friends apologized for that one like a month later even tho it wasn’t really her fault (and the cake she got me was the best part of my birthday) so that was nice of her. half of it is on me bc im really bad at asking for stuff for myself (especially w birthdays and whatnot bc i have not had a good birthday since i was 11 and so i get weird and tetchy abt my birthday) and i have a tendency to just wait for people to like. realize what i want. and then get upset when they don’t. and im trying to be better abt that but also there’s this weird inherent guilt for me in trying to ask for what i want bc ive been talked over a Lot in this group. and outside of the birthday stuff also they’re definitely not my favorite people anymore cuz they all live in the suburbs and have cars but refuse to like. remotely accommodate the fact that i don’t have a car lol. they don’t come into the city and i can’t reasonably make it into the suburbs (if it takes me 2.5hrs to get to your apartment i’m just. not going unless it’s your birthday.) so it’s tough. i still invite them to the stuff i do but. shrug.

but also half of the 21st birthday stuff is on them bc . well what happened was instead of going out for my birthday like for some reason that wasn’t even on the table?? it was just assumed we wouldn’t go out even tho Everyone Else’s 21sts were spent in bars?? we watched a movie. but nobody could decide on a movie so i suggested ferris bueller’s day off bc like big crowd pleaser and also literally my birthday only two guys were like ugh no. so instead somehow we ended up watching this horrific 80s movie that was just. an hour and a half straight of rape jokes. which for anyone is ugly and not fun but for me was like my personal hell. so i pretended i had laundry and snuck out the side door to cry in the street for the rest of the night. did a shot in the street w a more distant friend of mine who lived down the way even tho he had a 6am EMT shift the next day bc quote “nobody should turn 21 without doing birthday shots” (he was like i would literally call an uber for us to go out Right Now if i didn’t have to go drive an ambulance in 7hrs). when i came back in they were like oh we thought you went to bed? (tbf that was from a guy im not actually friends w. the worst of the stuff was from him all around. but the vibe was the same across the board)

tldr they aren’t purposefully shitty and i’ve gotta be better at communicating my wants/needs. but there’s a distinct distance nowadays that i don’t particularly feel like putting all the effort into closing when they aren’t putting it in either. especially w the other stuff where hanging out w them feels like . stagnancy. why does nobody want to make new friends. why do we just watch movies we’ve all seen before over and over. why don’t we go do something new?

[freyayuki]

Dissidia Final Fantasy: Opera Omnia 5th Anniversary Draw Banner

As part of the celebrations of the Dissidia Final Fantasy: Opera Omnia (DFFOO) mobile game’s 5th Anniversary, the 5th Anniversary Draw banner just showed up.

This banner features the 15cp, 35cp, Ex, LD, and Force or FR weapons of all the chars that have been released in the game up through January 25, 2023.

According to the in-game notice:

During the campaign period, a free 10+1 multi-draw will be available daily from this 5th Anniversary Draw! Players can draw up to 330 free draws!

You can get G-Tokens each time you pull on this banner but you can’t pity any of the weapons here.

Since this banner includes so many weapons, the chances of getting something good here are pretty slim. This is especially so since I already have a lot of the weapons featured here due to pulling on their debut banners.

Plus, I have been playing this game for a long time already. We also get lots of free first multi-draws on various banners for one reason or another. And I tend to toss tickets on lots of different banners since we always get a lot of them.

Anyway, the point is that while it’d be nice to get new weapons from this banner, it’s unlikely to happen. Still, hoping to be able to get something new. And if I get a dupe, I’m hoping it’s for a weapon that I have yet to fully max limit break.

5th Anniversary Draw Banner Daily Free Multi-Draws Results

Here are the results of my daily free multi-draws on the 5th Anniversary special draw banner:

2/11 - dupes of Oerba Dia Vanille’s (from Final Fantasy XIII) 35cp and Ignis Scientia’s (from Final Fantasy XV) 15cp

Meh. Looks like we’re off to a bad start. Hopefully the next day’s free draw will be much better than this.

My second free multi-draw gave me a gold orb.

Ended up with a dupe of Firion’s (from Final Fantasy II) 15cp, a dupe of the Emperor’s (from Final Fantasy II) Ex, and my very first copy of Leon’s (from Final Fantasy II) Ex.

Leon’s Ex weapon is one of the few that I’m still missing so really pleased to finally get my first copy after what feels like forever. It feels like my Leon’s been equipped with his fully MLB 35cp for a long time already.

Now, at long last, I can finally sell said 35cp and equip him with his Ex. Too bad I’m also still missing his LD.

Also, found it interesting that this free draw only gave me weapons for Final Fantasy 2 chars. LOL.

My next free pull gave me a gold orb which turned into dupes of Arciela V. Adoulin’s (from Final Fantasy XI) 15cp and Cloud Strife’s (from Final Fantasy VII (#ad)) Ex. Meh.

Ah, well. At least Cloud’s Ex gives a good A Sphere called Critical Power. This Sphere “raises BRV damage dealt with critical hits by 10%”.

To my surprise, my next free multi-draw actually gave me a force orb. Hell, yes!

Was hoping to get something new but instead, I ended up with Ursula’s (from Final Fantasy IV) FR.

Already have a copy of this. But the good news is that copy hasn’t been fully limit broken at all so this dupe isn’t entirely useless.

Aside from the dupe of Ursula’s FR, this draw also gave me a dupe of Firion’s Ex.

Although I ended up with a dupe, was still really pleased to get a Force weapon. Here’s to hoping I can get more from these free draws.

My next free pull gave me a gold orb which turned into dupes of Eiko Carol’s (from Final Fantasy IX) LD and Fujin’s (from Final Fantasy VIII) 15cp. Meh.

My next free multi-draw gave me a gold orb which turned into dupes of Cater’s (from Final Fantasy Type-0) LD and Kain Highwind’s (from Final Fantasy IV) LD. It was nice to get 2 LDs but it’s just too bad that these were both dupes.

My next free pull gave me a gold orb which turned into dupes of Cater’s LD, Yuffie Kisaragi’s (from Final Fantasy VII) 15cp, and Kadaj’s (from Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children) LD.

My next free multi-draw gave me nothing more than dupes of Ceodore Harvey’s (from Final Fantasy IV) 15cp and Llyud’s (from Final Fantasy XII: Revenant Wings) 35cp. Meh.

My next free pull gave me a gold orb which turned into dupes of Firion’s LD, Kurasame Susaya’s (from Final Fantasy Type-0) 35cp, and Aeris or Aerith Gainsborough’s (from Final Fantasy VII) 35cp.

My next free pull gave me a gold orb which turned into dupes of the Cloud of Darkness’s (from Final Fantasy III) 15cp, Adelbert Steiner’s (from Final Fantasy IX) 35cp, Sazh Katzroy’s (from Final Fantasy XIII) 15cp, Cor Leonis’s (from Final Fantasy XV) LD, and Vivi Ornitier’s (from Final Fantasy IX) 35cp.

My next free pull gave me a gold orb which turned into dupes of Lulu’s (from Final Fantasy X) Ex, Ciaran’s (from Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles) LD, and Edward Chris von Muir’s (from Final Fantasy IV) 15cp.

My next free draw gave me dupes of Cloud Strife’s 35cp, Gau’s (from Final Fantasy VI) 35cp, Cyan Garamonde’s (from Final Fantasy VI) 15cp, Sabin Rene Figaro’s (from Final Fantasy VI) 15cp, and Gau’s 15cp.

My next free draw gave me dupes of Basch fon Ronsenburg’s (from Final Fantasy XII) 15cp, Jecht’s (from Final Fantasy X) 15cp, and Snow Villiers’s (from Final Fantasy XIII) 35cp.

My next free draw gave me nothing more than a dupe of Noctis Lucis Caelum’s (from Final Fantasy XV) 35cp. Meh.

My next free multi-draw gave me a gold orb which turned into dupes of Serah Farron’s (from Final Fantasy XIII) Ex and Golbez’s (from Final Fantasy IV) 15cp.

This pull also gave me my very first copy of Leon’s LD. Nice! Pleased to have finally gotten something new after what feels like days of nothing but dupes and more dupes.

My next free multi-draw gave me a gold orb which turned into 2 15cp dupes and a dupe of Prompto Argentum’s (from Final Fantasy XV) Ex.

Was so disappointed by the results of this crappy pull that I didn’t even bother to check who owns the 15cp dupes that I just got. It doesn’t matter anyway since they’re nothing more than dupes.

My next free pull gave me nothing more than a dupe 15cp. Meh.

My next free pull gave me a gold orb which turned into a dupe of Leo Cristophe’s (from Final Fantasy VI) Ex.

Another free draw gave me a gold orb which turned into dupes of Rem Tokimiya’s (from Final Fantasy Type-0) LD and Kadaj’s 35cp as well as yet another 15cp dupe.

My next free draw gave me a gold orb which turned into a dupe of Yda Hext’s (from Final Fantasy XIV) LD.

Another free pull gave me a 15cp dupe as well as dupes of Freya Crescent’s (from Final Fantasy IX) Ex and Noel Kreiss’s (from Final Fantasy XIII) Ex.

My next free draw gave me a gold orb which turned into dupes of Arciela V. Adoulin’s Ex and Sazh Katzroy’s LD.

Also got my first copy of Enna Kros’s (from World of Final Fantasy) 35cp. Wish I’d gotten her LD, Ex, and/or FR instead since I can just use Weapon Tokens to get a copy of her 15cp and 35cp.

Another free pull gave me a gold orb which turned into a dupe of Irvine Kinneas’s (from Final Fantasy VIII) Ex.

My next free pull actually gave me a force orb. Was really pleased to see that, especially after getting so many dupes. Was really hoping to get something new this time.

Unfortunately, it wasn’t meant to be. Once again, I ended up with a dupe of Ursula’s FR. Still haven’t fully MLB this weapon but still. Would have preferred to get a different FR.

Aside from the dupe of Ursula’s FR, this free pull also gave me dupes of Onion Knight’s (from Final Fantasy III) 35cp and Keiss’s (from Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles: The Crystal Bearers) Ex.

My next free pull gave me a gold orb which turned into a dupe of Serah’s LD. Meh.

Another free pull gave me nothing more than yet another dupe 15cp. Also meh.

Another free draw gave me dupes of 2 different 15cps and 1 dupe of Penelo’s (from Final Fantasy XII) 35cp.

Another free draw gave me a dupe of Ace’s (from Final Fantasy Type-0) 15cp.

Another free pull gave me a gold orb which turned into dupes of Alisaie Leveilleur’s (from Final Fantasy XIV) Ex and Braska’s (from Final Fantasy X) 15cp. At least my copy of Braska’s 15cp hasn’t been fully limit broken yet.

Only got a regular blue orb from my next free multi-draw so was expecting to get trash as usual. Was surprised when I got an Ex weapon. Too bad it was a dupe. This one belongs to Jack from Final Fantasy Type-0.

Aside from that though, much to my surprise, I also got a Force weapon. Nice! And this time, the FR that I got was actually new. Hell, yes!

What I got was Hope Estheim’s (from Final Fantasy XIII) FR. Really glad to finally get a new Force weapon from this banner.

5th Anniversary Draw Banner Token Exchange Shop

And that’s it. That’s all the free multi-draws that we got from the 5th Anniversary Draw Banner.

Got lots of trash, which sucks, but glad that I was able to get a couple of new weapons.

Anyway, ended up with a total of 600 G Tokens from pulling on this banner.

The 5th Anniversary Draw Banner Token Exchange Shop has the following items available for exchange:

High Power Stone x4 - costs 300 G Tokens

Power Stone x4 - costs 100 G Tokens

Book of Ruin’s Mysteries x1 - costs 200 G Tokens

Spent all of my G Tokens to exchange for 8 High Power Stones.

Conclusion

So, what about you? What did you get from your daily free multi-draws on the 5th Anniversary Draw banner? What do you think about this banner? Feel free to share your thoughts and opinions by leaving a comment below or by reblogging or replying to this post.

Notes:

screenshots are from my Dissidia Final Fantasy: Opera Omnia game account

[imy2]

notes longtext

2-2 oooo hi hector , didnt realize he'd be so soon •

oh damn goodbye mack. should've expected that was this ep w vasquez comin in... ughh the way murphy looks when addy's staring at him :/// •

2-3 "woahh don't be so negative; worry is poison - that's why you don't crap right." lmao random dude, too real •

"you are not the boss of me -.- she is." one of my fav murphy lines •

ok i regret not taking notes last eps so recap of what i rmbr then onward.. rc2-4 z weed lol • rc2-5 nvr noticed b4 that they call this ep aka lucy zombaby - makes sensee , but s1 zombaby is true zombaby in my heart. lucy's lucy :p ... ugh serena was so pretty this ep.. even looked cool as a zombie • rc2-6 gb4n lucy.. also cassandra :(( </3 • rc2-7 sketchy n skeezy were here again .. • rc2-8 i thiiink it was this ep that this happened but if not close enuff.. warren said to murphy, "the time is coming where you're gonna have to decide what side you're on - and when that time comes, remember which is trying to help u survive n which wants to eat ur brains." ooo i never noticed how good of a line that is bc well warren which side is which! half the zombies dont care abt murphy atp and yall r takin him to be experimented on .. hmmm • rc2-9 this is always a fun ep • rc2-10 idt docs cool aop in this ep... • rc2-11 addys hotelwoman moment :') • rc2-12 oo the zeroes.. warrens sooo pretty •

2-13 murphy savin warren, hell yeah. murphy listening to warren, helll yeahh. again warrens gorg.. hector n doc n murphy all also look cool .. el camino B) 10k w slingshot - also cool •

2-14 lmfao doc pre-z(beginning of z actually) "oh jeez, sorry, didn't mean to intrude! -- what a minute, what did i just see.. larry and his gay lover? it's funny he never mentioned him.. 2 patients wrestling on the couch? .. it's a damn zombie! hang on larry!" lol him pullin a joint from his beard .. • •interlude ... i used to say i wish i had a beard all the time as a kid 9-like12, love that for me..idt id want one now, i do wish i had more body hair tho man my arms n legs look hairless basically -.- my brother used to always comb his hand thru his thick ass leg -.- #jealous .. also hairy stomachs r so hot -.- anyways.. i also need to do smth diff w my headhair like sooo bad. its been like 6yrs since ive had a haircut its badd. i wish i cld do a cool haircut but my hairs thin n straight so.. no cool cuts look how i'd want them to w/o stylin n i cannot put stylin effort into my hair everyday.. i need a genius to tell me wtd w my hair basically! but im scared of goin anywhere..

also on subject of gender(re my feelings abt my hair) i've been kind of (aka when i rmbr to lol n when it dsnt feel awk) tryin to speak in a deeper pitch .. i hate when my voice sounds as high as it does smtimes :/ also.. well nvm 4now •

"why me? i don't want to be shit. this is all some terrible mistake. i just want to crawl off and die like everybody else. why me? what did i do? where is my mercy?" murphy n mercy (n me) i said it! •

omg pre-z murphy looks so different n cool. & postal fraud man.. he shld be pissed •

"if you were really my friend, you'd help me." "but i'm not your friend." ... "they're gonna hurt me. you know that, right?" "i won't let that happen." •

2-15 "i did not spend three years fighting my way across 10,000miles of zombie-crazed america just so i can be a blood bag for a few billionaires." hell yeah •

bye vasquez .. hey hector.. hey(almost) kaya n dr. sun :-) aww lucy.. •

•s2 done.. overall rating.. 3.5/5 .. i didnt rate s1 brb.. 3/5 .. huh kinda surprised s2 came out on top •

3-1 hi red.. hi the man... •

ooo i nvr noticed the red details -right b4 walking up there's red cloth in a basket, then - redofc, 5ks keychains, warrens bandana, 10ks socks n bandana n shirt stripes, docs suspenders n sunglasses, cassandra's jacket, addy's shirt n jacket tassels .. very obvious, cool .. then just blue murphy. interesting. enuff red down the line tho •

"got a name?" "10,000. but everyone calls me 10k." "10,000? that's a number, not a name." ... ''so what's ur name?" "red." "that's not a name, that's a color." - wait lol, "you asked me my name, that's my name" red u did it to him first •

3-2 • intros.. s1 was 3bullets, s2 was 2bullets-chomp, s3 was 3bullets+spin .. fun stuff •

now murphy got red pants this ep.. after they first reinforced blue by only showing shirt/skin/hat.. interesting •

ahh murphy wanted warren to go w him so bad :/ "seriously roberta?" .. "ttfn" •

3-3 got a fun screenshot from this ep .. terrible quality ofc.. •

3-4 10k off the bridge n merch khs .. fair enuff•

3-5 tbh the way reds been here so far(aka e1 n now) is so weird.. •