#iv. musings ;; i have all these thoughts

[madamemiz]

sad: falling out of a hyperfixation

tragic: watching your beloved friends and mutuals fall out of the hyperfixation while you're still in it

[skitskatdacat63]

I drew all of my historical AU Sebs!!!!

In order they are(with relevant links to lore info if you are curious!!): Napoleonic Hussar Seb(x), Renaissance Muse Seb(x) and Boy King/Emperor Seb(x)

Let me know which you like best!!!

[instantartific]

I was finally able to get past that pesky bug that wasn't allowing me to defeat Tatiana and I am now having so many emotions about her since I've seen the entire battle.

The fact that her entire argument this whole time isn't as simple as May trying to frame it as "rock is better than EDM," it's simply that EDM is the most reliable output she has personally seen and there is some grounding to what she claims that lies within the artists who produce both kinds of music themselves.

You know all those stories about young, passionate rockstars! They don't care what they do, they live in the moment and live life on the edge and do anything to chase a little bit more of that fire that keeps them going and keeps them playing. Tatiana knows this well enough because she was one herself with the Goolings and she is the remnant of one herself now.

From what I understand, the Goolings fell apart because of differences in priorities. The others were rockstars, they cared about what they felt and what mattered to them, personally, above all. Not the priorities of the people. And because of their love, their passion, their drive, they were able to output so much power for the city, but didn't know how to run it in a way that wasn't controlled by their feelings. Tatiana saw this and Tatiana knew what needed to be done and she did what she had to do to properly use the role they were given and the Goolings fell apart.

Tatiana knows rock is only so powerful because of the artists who make it but those artists are terribly unreliable and she knows this all too well. Why else would her guitar be powering that clock in her office, as Zuke puts it?

EDM is safer. It's rigid. It's far more flexible and allows a wider range of artists to help her city prosper. And, well. There may be more frequent blackouts now but at least she can rely on artists who know what's best.

On top of that, there's something about how she believes in this so strongly, so so fiercely that she'll allow herself to use bits and pieces of that same old passion that she tried long and hard to bury deep within her chest, if only to use it to snuff out the flames of another little star that's gotten a little too bright. That it starts with her using it intentionally in balls of fire to throw them off and grows more, and more, and more the angrier she grows.

And there's something about the fact that even though she has time on her side and assumingly warps the fabric of reality to be able to hold you still right where she wants you and make you crumble beneath her, that same ability is what you use to defeat her. Time is on her side, yes, but only when it's stopped. Only when she can use it to protect her and protect what she strives so hard to uphold. But once you start to take her back? Remind her of who she once was? She's the one who begins to crumble.

And there's something about the fact that all she wants is order so that she can do good by her city and bring the city what it needs, and yet.

And yet she cannot control everything.

And yet she cannot control herself, as the flames of a fire long spent lick their way along cracks in her hardened shell—she's quite literally hardened herself to step into a role she personally feels she must fulfill—and burst out in a brilliant show of light; screaming that it's still here deep within her, it's always been here the same way those memories always will be, and she uses it as it demands to be used.

And yet, at the end of it all, she still realizes she was wrong.

And maybe as she sees those embers in the eyes of a stupid, stupid child much like herself at one point in time, that that passion can be used for something more... beneficial this time around.

If the fire is cultivated just right.

[heartsbreaking-migrated]

vasilissa could admire the kind of killer that cato was. it wasn't her style. she was quiet and deadly, and that had always worked for her. it still worked for her. brute strength could be just as useful though, and he proved that. she'd been given access to his academy scores, and his scores from tribute training. and now, well, she saw further potential. she'd gone out of her way to find a time when he was alone, because she didn't intend to lie to him about her identity like she did with most people. she bided her time, not wanting to put him on edge. part of her had wanted to toy with him, to follow him for as long as she could before he realized, but even for her that was cruel, especially when she wanted someone on her side.

she'd never been in two, and she knew the longer she spent out in the open the more attention she'd draw. she didn't want just anyone's attention, she wanted his. she settled on finding him in his home, knocking sharply on the door and waiting. she stood on the stoop, the strange feeling of missing her own district washing over her. four was much different, but she hadn't been home since her games. she didn't see anything familiar and yet... she straightened, pushing away the thoughts of four and of the sea she forced herself not to miss. she had business here.

STARTER CALL | starter for @lazaruhs / cato orestes *

[gu6chan]

99% just my autism speaking here but something ive been noticing lately that im sorta kinda 😶 about is when ppl are like "I think you'll like this" but not bc they ACTUALLY think you'll like it, rather they just got into it and want you to also get into it so "I think you'll like this" is a nice personal hook. i love chill stuff as much as any other person ofc but given i don't divulge that EVER, what makes you think my berserk reading, made in abyss watching, drakengard playing ass would like YURU CAMP????

[meatriarchived]

sometimes i miss my myth-based muses. my gods, my primordials, my demons, my sweet nymphs. my mortal children of deities.

[allylikethecat]

I just posted the All the King's Horses update and I tagged it as "Happy Friday!!" and realized I missed out on the golden opportunity of having On a Friday be my Friday update fic. Oh well

[danhang]

coming home to official art of 30 year old oikawa has me !!! so !! AAAAA man still living his happy volleyball life without marriage or anything ( no wedding ring 🥺 ) this guy is forever married to volleyball and still does the white knee pad thing

[autobotmedic]

[ things im going to try to work on while on semi-hiatus since drafts are secondary for me rn anyway:

make a wishlist/suggestions for interaction page, because there are not only things I've never really gotten to do that I'd like to and don't want to just Put On ppl unplanned, but also I recognize if it is hard for me to know how to get ratch to interact with others it's also difficult for others to have an idea of how to interact with him [edit: done]

make a timeline/outline of my default backstories (one more developed-with-friend based, one more aligned compliant based) for ratch, because for a long time I've tried to be as open minded as possible for developing things with others to share individual worlds with them, but it has reached a point where I feel like if I don't solidify some of my own concepts for cases that no discussion has occurred/it's a multiverse interaction anyway, I've actually been severely limiting my own inspiration

start making biology/medical/other hc posts as like, ic small lectures or something, because I've finally accepted there is so much variety on so many topics that I absolutely should just have my own ideas written down, whether sb else wants to use them while interacting with me or not, it's still my BASIS for writing a super intelligent doctor character, and that would not take away from anything being discussed if needed, that isn't me forcing anything, it's my own blog hfKJSHJFH

[sugarandwhiskey]

tag drop two

iii. asks ;; leave a voicemail

iii. headcanon ;; the stories you heard are true

iii. crack ;; i had a special brownie

iii. dash comm ;; this is my opinion

iii. memes ;; i wanna talk about meme

iv. photos ;; such a pretty face

iv. aesthetics ;; its my vibe

iv. musings ;; i have all these thoughts

[toestalucia]

wao i love my muses

[pear1ridge-a]

i didnt plan out what to do when this blog was ready to go

[meowchela]

watching the strange aeons video on tumblr ettiquite for new users and. ok two things

she talked about using tags to organize AND having specific tags for personal posts/asks!!! i probably wasnt the only one to suggest that but i wrote like two paragraphs abt it in the the replies of the post where she asked for tips from vets so!!!!! that made me rly happy :3

im not a new user by any means and i already know all of this but god damn this is making me want to get a head start on those rp blogs i was thinking about making.......the only thing really stopping me is that i dont really have anyone that id roleplay With and i dont know tumblr rp culture that well? but idk i still think itd be fun to customize themes for characters i like

[the-ultimate-muses]

💭 Gotta hear Kazuichi's thoughts on Gundham, of course.

"It pisses me off how much I like him, but like...in a good way? He's such a fucking dork, but whenever he goes off on one of his stupid Overlord rants I just wanna kiss his dumb face off. Wonder if he'd get mad if I did..."

[sl33py-g4m3r]

personal musings of mine own

It appears I have once again stumbled back here; rather than researching the relic that I was. Glad to see this still exists.

Please forgive me once more for reading what is essentially a deeply personal diary.....

Pacifism? You best hope that the gauntlet not shine for you then, dear maiden. Perhaps that intellect of yours would be of more use to the monastery in that case, than being a samurai.

that mind of yours is astonishing! You must henceforth waste it not!

Put that intellect to use far more than mere anxieties or worry; tis henceforth easier said than done however...

Unfortunate as it is; violence might always be, my dear. We need samurai to protect the kingdom from demons.... Pacifism is simply not a possibility...

If the gauntlet were to shine, would you be up to the task? You could negotiate with demons, have them join your cause... However; not everyone will be open to communication in that manner. Fighting is required, lest you end up drowning in a pool of your own blood at the hands of the demons of naraku.

Healing magic perhaps? but then you'd still be commanding your demons to attack in your stead... status them? Just be a healing unit for others?

be you far too good natured to ever hope to be a samurai, .... I truly could see you researching in the monastery with myself...

In which begs the alignment question; if you ponder it still.... Law, solid Law it appears to me... I could henceforth be mistaken, however; reading the writings here makes me think, Law rings true.

....? Or perhaps nary.... this talk of "games and fiction"...... are you a devotee of Tokyo's "literature"? Hath thee fallen to the prey of demons in thine own time? thine own world?

I pray that you; mysterious maiden, are not sullied by Tokyo's "literature"..... Thine soul be stained with such filth, of which had turned many people from Kichijorgi into demons.... I pray that none of you in this time fall to the filth of "literature". Or if you can, destroy it and be purified by fire once more.

Learning from doing over merely being an observer. Many more benefits of doing, and failing, than merely thinking and doing nothing. Do you have a COMP? Or do no demons appear where you reside? Quite lucky in that case you are...

Face your fears head on with determination to get through! Even if you must meet Charon repeatedly. Or if you fail, failure isn't the end. Stand. Grit your teeth. "Can't let it end like this!" and continue on. As the brave Blessed Samurai you wish to be. Perhaps not physically, as you seem to be nowhere near Mikado; but in spirit you would make a magnificent Samurai.

Pacifism would be quite hard for a Samurai.... Unless perhaps being a medic as I'd stated above.

Unless you do the reverse of Mr, K. Becoming hardened and uncaring of violence and slaughter, as long as it's demons and not your fellows. I know not your resolve or strength in Pacifism, it reads that your mind is set however.

A monastery job, or being a medic should the gauntlet shine for you. Alas~! I still have not found any means of sending you a uniform as of this time... I believe you have expressed your liking for them at one point? I have one set but it's the standard and may be too large.... now onto the delivery problem.....

you have such a lovely head on your shoulders; you mustn't waste it~~! trapped in a labyrinth of a mind wrapped within anxieties and fear... I pray you find the strength to overcome this struggle~! Much like our own dear Blessed Samurai of Mikado.

I need not procrastinate further; back to the task at hand, if you fellows have some task at hand, lets complete it posthaste~!

may god be with ye! I pray you are well~! until we next meet.... Blessed samurai...

[gu6chan]

perhaps as a ploy to become the world's most dedicated drakengard 3 hater, perhaps to strengthen my spite-based narrative design, perhaps even out of sheer desperation for drakengard content..... ive finally decided to do the unthinkable and holy shit i didn't even know it was possible but how is this even worse than i thought