#its so disorienting

[sydstems]

i think we've switched 5 thousand times today lol

[thatonesketchyaxolotl]

oh god the update that makes tumblr look like twitter finally hit my pc

it looks SO BAD i dont WANT IT TO LOOK LIKE THE BULLSHIT THAT IS TWITTER

[thefoulbeast]

brain feels like scrambled egg

[thesixearedjax]

You ever feel dis??

Sometimes when I lay on the ground I feel like I'm on the ceiling no matter where I lay.

on my bed?: Da ceiling feeling

School gym floor?: Da ceiling feeling

Floor at mother's place: Da ceiling feeling

Floor at father's place: Da ceiling feeling

Grandparents floor: Da ceiling feeling

[holysea]

it's so bizarre how ill-equipped i am to be with people, i don't know how to respond to love : there's this horrible discomfort in the pit of my stomach when you begin to see your reflection onto someone that perceives you in some strange and intimate capacity, when you can wholly see bits and pieces of yourself they took from you, like... eww.

[dayurno]

it’s fucked up that some of kevin’s descriptors in-book by aftg narrators include words like unparalleled, brilliant, beautiful, disorienting and that riko thought kevin was smart and sharp-tongued and could see potential from a mile away and that every conversation at the winter banquet stopped as soon as kevin day walked into them. my brother you are a force of nature

[mamawasatesttube]

kon is especially fun to me because while obvs ymmv where it comes to figuring out a preferred amalgamation of his backstories, i think of him as a kryptonian with a metagene. as in, to fully depower him, you'd need both kryptonite/red sun and a metagene suppressant of some sort. he is a fucked up and op little freak of nature science.

[attyrocious]

happy birthday (to me and) Penguin! 4/25

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Lights out! Barnaby: [wakes up]

Lights out! Howdy:

Incredibly Accurate!

[rivkae-winters]

Last Line Tag

Thanks for the tag @late-to-the-fandom <3 (Sorry this took me so long to get to!)

Genesis may not be long dead- Maybe even- No. Genesis was not a child fleeing to caves when his parents ignored him anymore- ShinRa wanted them both dead and gone. They sought to eradicate the problem of rabid dogs shaking off the leash in perpetuity.

Tagging: @time-official; @birdblacksocialclub; @foreststarflaime;

@errantnight; @dendrite-blues; @ilminnestrone (No pressure!)

[ganondoodle]

okay more elden ring DLC spoilers below the read more

what fucks me up the most is ....... that we never actually get to meet the real actual Radahn, hes either a rotting zombie or some constructed meat puppet with a manipulated soul of his

the most we know is from the base game stuff, his men and everything, but we never get to meet him- and now ... it undermines the whole festival, i felt like it was sorrowful goodbye and attempt to grant him an honorable death- that made me fall for him in the end, the lore around that and the whole build up and vibe of it, it felt so genuine but now you cant feel that, bc you know .... either way he will be suffering, let him rot for all eternity being a threat to friend and foe alike, as this mindless monster chowing away at corpses like a beast when he used to be a powerful respected general

or kill him but instead of giving him the death he wanted his soul is instead grafted into a meat puppet by his half brother so he can be controlled and made to agree to marry him despite rejecting it in life (as far as i understood it, he definitely did reject it though bc otherwise malenia wouldnt have tried to assassinate him to get him delivered over)-

so theres no good answer and im left wondering, did his men know of that? im gonna guess no, bc the whole point of the festival was to bring him HONOR when there was nothing of his honor left, of him left, and theres no honor in being turned into a literal marionette for your half brothers sick play

you could call it tragic, and it is, but it feels so much more ..... like just wanting to violate him even in death, just because he hasnt suffered enough, lets make it even more horrible just for sufferings sake (like i get it, i like when my favs also get to suffer, what happened to him in the base game was a part of why i love him so much- but theres a limit to that imo) it takes away from so much of the festival and everything, you are not taking part in one last final battle so Radahn can die fighting, you are handing his soul over to his half brother that wants to use him like a puppet, LITERALLY, to make a mockery of his memory, make him do things he would never have if he was himself, i cant think of anything more horrible to do to him

and his people are utterly convinced they are doing right by him, when the rot was probably better than what miquella would do to him, as horrible as that was.. and if they WERE aware then wow ....... i guess miquella really had everyone on his side huh uwu, like that sucks even more, so none of them ever felt and cared about him or were all also brainwashed YIPPIIIE

(not to mention how much interesting miquella lore gets twisted into actually he was just a scheming little creep and everyone that followed him was quite literlally brainwashed- i know the whole bewitching thing is like, his thing, but MAN- it feels like whoops it was all a dream and it never actually happened when its done bad)

(and i know Radahn is a fictional character but people are gonna pin it on him i just know it, like espeically those that dont care about lore and are just there for the fights .... like its not his fault!!! and i felt like he was already hated enough, first by his too hard boss battle in base game and now in the DLC its a repeat of that even harder (though i find the complaints a lil >_> bc i have seen people just walk right over story bosses so just ... overlevel yourself if you want to do that too, you dont have to fight a boss for three days, explore and level up?) and it was already annoying how malenia defenders AND radahn defenders kept trying to make the other into some horrible asshat, when they are both not great and thats valid, but now its??? )

[amphibianaday]

day 1235

[gingermintpepper]

Absolutely the funniest thing about my current corner of tumblr is that pretty much everyone I've recently followed for Apollo-Appreciating Purposes are either genuinely Hellenist or just rather very into Rick Riordan's Trials of Apollo series which is wild because I know a net zero about both of those things.

[shock]

today one of my caseload students was meeting with the social worker so i went and took my break in my favorite room (the in-school suspension room, run by one of my favorite colleagues who has a language arts and restorative practices background with 20+ years of experience) and there was a kid who I've NEVER seen in there with an unusual situation, and apparently all day she and this student couldn't figure out the math work she was supposed to do for one of her classes...

So I said okay, let's look up this type of work, I taught myself how to do it, then I tried to figure out a way to show her the steps, and we did this problem together:

and then with each problem I started having her do more and more of the steps, and by the time we got to the 5th one she was going up to the board and doing them herself, and I was getting so excited, and when I sat back down my colleague came up to me jumping up and down and stage whispering "you are a TEACHER!!" and she's one of the first people at the start of my educational career who told me that I had "it" three years ago and it really just made my day today.

I can't even begin to describe the special, unique sense of deep pride I feel when I get to model learning for a student and see it click for us both in real time to the point that they can replicate it without my help. Not knowing the answer isn't shameful, it's a part of the process, and I just love it more than anything else. 😭😭

[maginnmauvaise]

i just moved in to my uni dorm a few days ago n ive been kinda lonely ngl so i scribbled dia

[hideyseek]

ok not to say i am necessarily ... writing again. (bc i do seem to still be surprising myself with how badly i dont want to write -- or more accurately, how absolutely meh i feel about it) but! i did pick up my docs for the sex intermediary fic to read through again and it was surprisingly enjoyable to sift through the down draft and go "oh wow okay, after guardian bingo i can do this a lot more effectively now" and scribble down a bunch more worldbuilding thoughts