#its probably an insane idea that im the only audience for

[master-gatherer]

I have reread what I wrote

It's not terrible

I'm still not happy with it 😐

I may still be too close to it

Does anyone want to volunteer to beta 😬 (mutuals only)

[blossoms-phan]

✨philm club✨ rewatch - october 19th, 2015

liveshow - notes/thought yaps under the cut!

i love how they’re explaining how they do their individual liveshows to each other like im not saying they were just sat in the other room twice a week watching the other persons liveshow but like surely you have some idea of how it usually goes lmao

“im quite mellow today we’ve been in a car for a while” phil does seem like he has more mellow/chill energy in this one i imagine they were tired but also so go go go at this point resting for a second would only slow them down more

6 year friendiversary and dinof anniversary! It's so insane to me that it was only 6 years atp like this dnp was not too long after i became obsessed with them and i blinked and now its 15 years

dan “reassess your lives” and phil “i think you should be thanking them”- i think this is fascinating and ties into how today dan still automatically goes “im so sorry” when people say i've been watching you for x years and it makes us all want to shake him by the shoulders and say don't apologize silly man!!!!!!!!! take the compliment we mean it with love!!!!!!

dan exposing his ass to audience in leeds and years later during wad great stuff 

phil smacking his head on stage wow some things really don't change 

“calm down” in a silly voice from dan always reminds me of the cLaM dOWN airplane northern voice live clip 

i haven’t rewatched a liveshow in so long so much hair adjusting 

they sound so british sometimes 

“dan do you know what yaoi is” this is so funny to me you are asking the poster boy for yaoi day in 2024

looking at pics of p!atd on tumblr COME BACK TO ME TUMBLRINAA they r right btw i love pretty odd 

“dan choke me with your legs” why r u reading that. whore. see in 2015 knowing that a literal child probably said this its kinda cringe but also me with sister daniel and like all the Thigh in general these days so who am i to speak

“i like being remembered because that doesnt happen often with the celebrity folks”  :( this is sweet i know this time was A Lot and in general the radio stuff wasn't for them in the end and they appreciate that it was cool and fun but dan also mentioned how it was annoying to just be brushed off or being in a position where you're just forced to chase after all these big named people that dgaf about you but its just nice to see they noticed when they were remembered and the 1975 mention i could write an essay about 2018 dan and the album abiior

phil stopped the bus for fish and chips hehe i literally had fish and chips today this is cray. i hope they actually had them for dinner this day i would love to have a parasocial fish and chip night with them

you are pal creators :’) 

editing tips mention they are so unserious 

i am so emotionally attached to the london apartment but referring to it as “the house” when they have an actual House now is really getting to me 

aww talking about tabinof :’( i cant remember if i've talked about this before but there was hugee “drama” back in the day when it was first announced of people accusing them of selling out or some dumb shit when this wasn't another copycat youtuber ghostwritten book they poured their hearts into it as silly and fun as it was and the way dan talks about it really shows that i hope they were proud of it and still are

dan you don't really have the same hair but ok 

talking about the australian today show and they were just on it last month!! why does that make me so emo 

bitten right on the florida

bakeee offfff mention this is why i loved liveshows like just yapping about the shows they watch and cry over together

dan self aware get over it crashing out “so what he enjoys a themed drink” he is so silly dfjfkdfksfkj i love this part

can i live in that autumn moment?

rare what phil has been listening to! movie soundtracks ok king

dan being a little pretentious talking about their differing tv show opinions and phil just mocking his hand movements and giving a 2 word review their dynamic is so dear to me

Is this an unpopular opinion idk i can’t stand 3d movies  

black and blue as always

phil’s laugh and look and dan going “you cheeky little bugger” at him putting “phil and dan” on the chair page<3

hearing them talk about tour in the tatinof days when it was their first go and things like how its amazing hearing people sing to the preshow playlist in the context of like right now is soooooo as a longtime fan who yearned to attend tatinof while it was happening but couldn’t and finally actually experienced them and the magic of a dan and phil show and things like singing hot to go with phannies just a few months ago god im going to miss this era sm

the apocalypse/ai/technology tangent is scarily relevant right now and from nearly 10 years ago wow hashtag we’re all doomed

susan boyle after the amazingdan reaction video lmaoo

they were really doing the most during this era like omg so many promises of things coming soon among the tour and spooky week and book and they were literally just home for one day after being in a car for hours earlier that day like they seem in good spirits in this one and i know its just chill chatting for an hour but boys! take a breather! 

overall i enjoyed this one! i don't rewatch old liveshows a lot but this is a fun way for us all to commit to rewatching and discussing one a week bc there's always so many fun little forgotten details and i think it would be fun to continue even post break! i was very tired while watching this and somehow still wrote out this very long yappy list of notes which are really just a stream of consciousness which no one will read probably but i humbly present them anyways <3

[atiianeishaunted]

some canon stfuf about the sonder cast bwaa :33 you can have ur own hcs btw id love to see them <3 but!! yeah,, i feel liek infodumping a teensy bit hrgfrhfh mainly cuz im not in an art mood 2day sigh doesnt include everyone bc this is only stuff i can think of off the top of my head atm but :3

lance: canonically bisexual, might be a trans man (havent decided? its honestly up 2 the audience, could go either way), was a huge moviestarplanet player when he was a kid, would probably play dress to impress methinks, for the LONGEST time was convinced something was going on between allura and keith and was insanely jealous and bitter, has the worst gaydar ever TRUST, figured out he was bisexual while playing msp but it only got worse when he met keith and hes really pissed about it

keith: gay as hell but hasnt exactly processed or accepted it (just knows hes scared of women) (for many reasons), transgender (will respond to anything besides feminine pronouns n such), most likely did his own piercings dont ask how or why, allura is the only woman thus far hes comfortable with because she reminds him of a certain someone, allura and him r huge gossips, jack of all trades but really does not know what hes good at like he doesnt know a thing about himself (one time lance challenged him to try out his sniper bc they got into an argument and keith was surprisingly good at it, he was evidently more confused than lance somehow?) (think that one family guy audio where s liek "how r u doing that" "i dunno ;;; O_O"), if you ask him ANYTHING about himself he will most likely just say "yeah i dont rememebr" or "I dont know", often talks very old school and "retro" (in lance's words), surprisingly a decent cook/baker, not as good as hunk of course but can keep up, despite this it was revealed in a conversation with hunk that keith was eating glass among other inedible things while going crazy in the desert (his feral era <3), can diy explosives among other things and no one acknowledges it because it scares them, this boy is very autistic, audhd in fact, im right and you all know it allura: lesbian but doesnt realize it just yet, would probably love the idea of neo/xenopronouns she'd find them whimsical, surprisingly prefers moths over butterflies (mainly after a talk she and keith had one night), huge gossip and loves romance but not in a "i need to date a man" way but "i want to play cupid" (think mabel from gravity falls) (she did have a phase of being boy crazy but that quickly went away when she was brought out of stasis), she loves dressing up but mainly dresses down and more casually because she doesnt go out as much thanks to altea going kaput and all that, she adores gardening and likes to make dyes and such from her flowers, huge diy queen (TRUSTT) she can sew and all that, probably real crafty, keith and allura are close friends and both extremely out of touch with normal human people, she frequently asks him for advice due to their closeness and they just make eachother worse /aff, unironically used wicked in a sentence and was very proud of it (lance almost threw keith out of an airlock for this one), not the best cook but tries her best and is fairly confident with her skills (vicecore if you play alchemy stars) (keith almost banned her from the kitchen) (they agreed on supervised kitchen hours)

pidge: aroace and agender, literally a chronically online cosplayer tech nerd, probably has been cancelled multiple times to the point where matthew had to take every piece of tech they had in the house, has doxxed people before, obsessed with vocaloid and anime, wants to get piercings really bad but their parents wont let them, uses any pronouns and if you ask for their gender they will change their answer everytime or answer with something silly like "the void", their favorite person is Hunk but beyond that prefers robots and tech as their companions, keith is their favorite victim of pranks (save him), the only one who isnt scared of keith even a little bit, evil scientist coded, too smart for their own good, not very socially smart and misses social cues but doesnt really care, very picky about the food they consume, iconic 13-14 year old who is a bit too excited at the prospect of having an excuse to build weapons

[lunarleonardo]

I was gonna put something here but decided to check ao3 first and THABK GOD I DID cuz that was hands down the best chapter ever. Im gonna say the other thing i wanted to say in a different ask because I need to talk this out soo uhh here comes another yap session from me :3

Just the first sentence made me actually scream (my poor friend was a witness of this as i sent her dozens of voice messages qwq) because oh my GOD ORPHAN KOKICHI!!! AAAA!! This is making me super duper happy because JCJDJFJDJD KOKICHI ive read alot of kokichi pov fics and I can assure you you are NOT mischaracterizing him and anyone who thinks so missed the whole point. He is being PSYCHOLOGICLLY TORTURED!!@@?! HE IS NOT OKAY GUYS!!@@%!! I did notice how the mastermind acted a bit differently each time but I thought it was just dependinf on tsumugis mood i was NOT EXPECTING THIS!! HELLOOO?!?#$&!?!? the tho8ght of there being more of them ooohj you are so SO clever your ideas just feed into mine and UDHDHJDJS i dont think theres a time i wqs ever even slightly dissapointed with ypur writing because it ALWAYS HITS THE RIGHT SPOTS and ooohh it just keeps getting crazier and I finally found something where I am the target audience and it is making me gen so happy JXJDJDJE oh and don't even get me started on the END?!?!? HEELLOOO?!?! Shuichi my poor little baby oh my god I am going insane AAA I am so not prepared for what shes about to do to him i have a teensy weensy feeling they are gonna get tortured together and that is.perfec.iom AND LITERALLY ONE OF THE THINGS I WROTE. I like roleplayinf my silly ideas and then if its good enough i write it out and there was this one wehre likee im not gonna rsmbke about thst now but basically THAT. Like they have ti make choices and watch eschother suffer and OOOHHH THE DESPAIR!!! And also. The last sentence. ??. I REMMEMBER THAT PIC YPU POSTED. STRAITJACJRTB KOKICHI. THAT WAS THERE. I feel like this is important since it was mentioned in the official art AND OH i am SO excited AAAAAAA

Well....thats that....i really hope i dont annoy youbwith my long ass asks i just like showing how much I LOVE your storys and ideas by writing out my thoughts LOL i do wanna draw something about thus but it is late and I do wanna write another ask about the thing I was originally gonna say SOOOO that can wait till tomorrow TwT BYEE!!

(*^▽^)/★*☆♪ I love these long asks!!! Don't worry!!

It was probably cus I finished the chapter at like 3am when i was insecure and anxietyridden that I felt so nervous about it but it sounds like it came out okay! :P I realized that the only time I've ever rlly gone into my Long Standing Kokichi Backstory(Fanon) was in m5 with that girl, so I figured now might as well be the time to explore it more in depth ゜゜(´O｀)°゜

:O That . Roleplay writing story thing. Sounds SUPER INTERESTING omg I love roleplaying!! ♪ヽ(´▽｀)/ i rp with my girlfriend and currently im on my #316th streak of reminding her to respond. its success rate is stagnatingly low

Tsumugi's Mood seems to have been a big part of everyones assumptions so,, I'll tell u this. There are very specific "styles" of torture each person will do. The violent one prefers to be physical, the cruel one (also known as "doll whumper" in my notes ;3) prefers things on a more psychological standpoint, but will definitely lash out if they lose enough patience (hence them dislocating kokichis shoulder QwQ)

i cant say much more than that cus i fear i have a story to write and i cant give out "spoilers" or whateverrr but . time will tell!

Thank you so so much though!! Im super glad ur enjoying it lol (*＞∇＜)ﾉ

[okaystoptellingmetomakeanaccount]

Man you know what i would really want. Kind of like a site that could compare all duck media (or hell, all disney media would be cool too) and how much people like them. Like put the ducktales finale against a barks 10 pager and see which one people prefer, which one has a higher score. If the entire top 100 would be dominated by comics or if a few animated things would slip in too.

And you cant like compare imdb scores to inducks scores because 1 inducks has a weird rating system, and 2 the people voting are completely different audiences. It’s never gonna be a fair logical comparison. But imagine if there was like a site where they had both and where everyone was equally fan of everything and then they would fairly vote i just want to knowww.

Ratings are cool, but cross media ratings are even cooler. How does episode 3 of the this duckburg life podcast/audioplay compare to Paperino skipper from Giorgio Pezzin. I need to know. Has chapter 5 of totem decapitato a higher rating than the first ever episode of dt87? Do people like the ducktales lost lamp movie more than the solving mysteries and rewriting history book? Has the first story of PKNA more historical significance to the fans than Donalds first ever appearance in general? Will they go as far as rate Evroniani higher than The wise little hen?

These ridiculous questions about things that are impossible to compare but I just want to because it’s fun i need that. Because Duck Avenger: Shadow of venus is completely different from: Mickey Mouse Clubhouse: mickey gets sick (or whatever i dont actually remember any episode titles) or Mickey Donald and Goofy go on a roadtrip (whatever that cartoon was with the trailer its a fun one) but they’re somehow also all the same ‘mickey and friends’ franchise. I just think it’s interesting and i will probably now not rest until these questions are answered oh help

How does the Scrooge McDuck and money cartoon compare to the kingdom hearts manga? Is Donald Duck going quackers better than episode 7 season 1 of darkwing duck? Is Donalds appearance in who framed roger rabbit better than his orange juice? Is the Toontown in Disneyland Epcot a better experience than The Dark Side from MMMM? Would you rather be stuck in a room for an hour with only a donald duck colouring book from the zeeman or disney crossy road? Do the fans like the donald duck clock more than an extremely goofy movie? Is the Scrooge McDuck boardgame a better experience than that Donald Duck’s birthday childrens book? Did people get more enjoyment out of Sora’s super smash bros ultimate trailer or the Daisy Duck lego brickhead?? IS THAT BOOTLEG DONALD DUCK UMBRELLA FROM CHINA I GOT AS A KID BETTER OR THIS YOUTUBE VIDEO I WATCHED YESTERDAY ABOUT MICKEY MOUSE COPYRIGHT??? (both those last two things did not happen to me im sorry)

going a bit far there but thats because the general idea without all of the insanity just seems so incredibly fun to me. Even the brickhead and trailer comparison. Yknow what who cares about unfair voting. Just compile all the normal unweighted inducks scores, all imdb and letterboxd and rotten tomatoes and whatever more exists ratings, amazon reviews, to videogame ratings that you always see on wikipedia and just put them all together and see what the result is and also implement the inducks ratings because its a very easy and handy rating system and let people rate on the site on too of that.

Okay no dont do that that would be stupid but like all the cartoons and comics and audio things and games and boardgames and books and maybe not boardgames but everything that is a story and see which stories people like the most i just think that would be so cool.

I dont think im making sense i think Im going to bed now lmfao.

[lorillee]

ok time for lorillee to talk about yakuza 5. Instead of studying for her finals. Forewarning this got a lot longer than i was anticipating

first and foremost. even with my beef with what they did w majima ive gotta be so honest i think this is prob my 2nd favorite yakuza game.

^insane statement from girl who literally will not shut up about that man but i had suuuuuuuch an insanely fun time with the majority of this game like its honestly crazy.

that being said we're going to go ahead and get the elephant in the room out of the way first.

its actually like bonkers crazy insane how little they elaborated on majima and parks relationship especially given the fact that we got the bomb dropped on us that majima was literally MARRIED for some period of time?????????????????????

^like theres a lot i could say on this and actually you know what theres a lot i AM going to say on this. because the entire thing is just actively ridiculous

the really interesting thing about majimas role in this game is hes on screen for approximately like 8 minutes total probably. well maybe 10 if we're being generous. but hes like integral to pulling 75% of the plot together because of all the nonsense hes been pulling in the background/his relationships with a bunch of the major players. hes kind of like everybodys dead wife simultaneously

and like his lack of screentime isnt really hurting much of the suspension of disbelief wrt kiryu and saejima because for the former we've only had 4 other games of them interacting and Well saejima is literally majimas sworn brother like neither of these are relationships we really need to be sold on in the first place, and additionally for saejima we get those like 6-7 minutes at the beginning of his story to set the scene for their relationship in this game. so its fine we're chilling.

but with park & katsuya & majima its like. Well frankly they give us jack all to work with. our entire understanding of any of the dynamics going on here is like a handful of lines giving only a bit of information what was going on between park and majima at the very end of their relationship from park herself, and then a brief recap of the trio's general relationship third hand from that random guy. the lack of effort going into developing anything here is almost laughable

like park and katsuyas relationship even though its not terribly elaborated on 1) still gets something from katsuya himself and 2) is easier to digest because these characters are being introduced at the same time. like theyre both new so saying omg they were totally besties is like Ok sure got it.

but we have known majima for approximately four games now and neither of these people have been brought up in any capacity and youre telling me theyve been involved in his life for a minimum of twenty years???????? Give me a break. like obviously majima is insanely cagey so its not really much of a surprise that we the audience dont know this but because of the complete lack of elaboration it feels insanely shoehorned and frankly borderline unbelievable

we dont get like a single on-screen word from majima on either of them. we have literally no idea how he and park even met in the first place, god forbid started dating. the relationship is barely even justified within the text.

^and again we circle back to one of my biggest gripes with this series ever: COMPLETELY UNNECESSARY ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im gonna be so insanely honest with you there was literally no reason to make majima park's husband and given the astounding lack of effort on the text's part to justify anything going on here i really dont feel bad saying this. like her husband literally coudlve been any random shmuck off the street and her relationship with majima could have been the same as katsuya's.

like because its not like the letter was even real. it was literally a decoy so theres actually no reason for them to have been estranged for like 20 years they literally couldve had a normal platonic relationship and absolutely nothing wouldve changed. But because this is yakuza the writers will actually shoot themselves before not having one of their main characters be in a romantic relationship of some sort we dont get those sorts of luxuries

additionally lowkey besides the fact that theyre allergic to letting majima be on screen for more than 15 minutes per game i honestly feel like if they had actually spent any more time dealing with all the insane implications of this relationship and what we know about it they wouldnt have been able to justify it being majima so they just chose to force him into the role they needed him be in for the story to work the way they wanted it to and then decided not to elaborate legitimately any further. Because his ass would not be doing any of this.But whatever

Unrelated but given that park is kind of a no nonsense woman i literally do not know how she stood his ass to begin with because hes literally one of the most annoying people on planet earth. But this is neither here nor there

anyways in the end because this entire thing just pisses me off im glad we got legitimately absolutely nothing in terms of meat to this relationship so i can join everybody else apparently in mostly kind of just pretending it doesnt exist. But as something of a storytelling enthusiast the laziness is truly appalling.

EDIT: ok actually sorry its been a handful of days and i saw a reddit screenshot that pissed me off so bad im actually 10000% willing to acknowledge this relationship because Like sorry but get real majima is not the victim in this relationship he had literally not a single bit of business marrying a barely legal teenage idol. if i ever see a reddit man talk about park i think im going to attack him theough the screen

whatever lets talk about something i actually enjoyed instead. namely; THE REST OF THE GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok i was hating on her at the beginning of the game but highkey i actually quite like park i think shes a really fun and interesting character - like ok her relationship with haruka is soooooooooo so interesting because. lets be so honest she kind of sucks. she's actively manipulative and has a strong tendency to steamroll over everybody else to get what she wants and has honestly kind of very little concern of how everybody else feels if she thinks shes doing the right thing.

she blatantly projects her own dreams onto haruka and like no ok because its actually reaaaaaally intereesting because at the end when haruka gives her little speech its revealed that she hoped to make it big as an idol specifically to support morning glory. Like she straight up does not even give the implication that she became an idol for the love of it she became an idol to relieve the financial burden of the orphanage.

which is kind of insane because at the beginning park's justification for driving kiryu out of running morning glory was that he was preventing everybody else from being able to follow their dreams because theyre all too concerned about the money situation and are willing to sacrifice what they want to do in the future to keep what they have.

like park's whole reason for recruiting haruka and kicking kiryu out of her life was so that haruka could follow her dream...... But its not even haruka's dream because haruka's underlying goal in all of this was literally just to keep morning glory from closing its doors. its literally just park's dream and she literally knows it because when she's trying to motivate haruka at the beginning of the haruka story she literally threatens to shut down the orphanage if haruka doesnt sweep this whole competition.

and like this isnt to say that park does not care about haruka - its pretty well established i think that she does and seriously sees haruka as the daughter she could never have. But also because she was actively abused as a child and whatever was going on with her relationship with majima (which frankly from the little we heard and if nothing else implication of the ages they met at. Does not sound good at all) she actively does not know how to have a normal functioning relationship.

so even though she loves haruka as her daughter she's also actively manipulative and projects literally all of her baggage and dreams and problems into her. and because haruka is desperate for any sort of connection after having been isolated from her family and her father and community and has really wanted an older sister/mother figure she views park as a mom in turn. which is based as hell i love found family that sucks

anyways so tldr park is an insanely fun character and if anybody other than me says anything bad about her ill kill them I LOVE MENTALLY ILL WOMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry we're literally not even talking in order anymore whatever its fine. anwyays i actually super adore harukas entire story in this game and it makes me sick that theres people out there that dont. But theyre also like reddit men so its really not even worth commentating on

anwyays it actually kind of makes me want to start attacking people how haruka and kiryu's stories parallel each other in the sense that like. i dont really know how to explain it but in short it goes that obviously kiryu's profession of choice would be Well being in the yakuza. as we have established multiple times previously and continue to re-establish over the course of the game. hes dragged back into it time and time again to the point where its almost actively contrary to common sense that he keeps leaving after whatever event he came back for concludes. But even though he'll always be yakuza at heart he still chooses to turn away from the tojo because theres something else more important to him and its haruka and the rest of the kids at morning glory.

and similarly, regardless of the fact that her underlying motivation was the financial support of the orphanage, its pretty clear that haruka really enjoys her work and life as an idol and very likely would have continued down that path as a career, but in the end gives it up because it would require her to permanently cut off kiryu and he'll always be more important to her than anything this career would have to offer. anyways it literally makes me sick i love u guys so much

ok lets actually take a step back for a second here to talk about the more overarching stuff

overall id say this is definitely following the trend of increasing writing quality in these games just like in terms of pulling together a largely coherent storyline. i talked a lot more about this in my y4 review so i wont bother repeating the details of it here but in short by introducing multiple concurrent storylines theyre able to cut down on a bunch of the bloat, but again obviously there are pretty notable downsides to this like having to tie everybodys plot together in a way that makes sense and having more threads than you have time to elaborate on or wrap up. so we kind of winsome and lose some but overall i think we're winning a lot more

im gonna be honest im kind of baffled tanimura did not show up like even at all. crazy because we literally gave him the final boss battle last game and youre telling me we're bringing back everybody else from y4 in terms of main characters except for him? Not super complaining bc i wasnt terribly attached but its still a bit weird i think

in terms of his replacement . honestly i feel like shinada was the weakest link in the narrative cohesiveness because his entire shtick lowkey feels incredibly removed from everybody else's. like his story is really important narratively in terms of like the discussion on dreams But functionally he's kind of holed up in his own little world

^additionally on this point i think the lack of connection to majima is not helping here because like i said at the beginning of this post his nonsense is the glue holding 75% of this plot together in terms of kiryu/saejima/haruka&akiyama's plotlines and getting them to all come back to kamurocho, but its just kind of weird that shinada has absolutely 0 connection at all to him or anybody else other than daigo

like to be clear i didnt dislike his story but it just feels so insanely removed and frankly kind of self contained in comparison to everybody else's melodrama that im not really sure what to do with it. like his final antagonist was some guy he had never even met before this incident and had absolutely 0 personal connection to in any meaningful way. so it just feels kind of strange.

like everybody else has their own distinct little mini adventure but it all ties together in a way that makes sense partially just because they already know each other and are connected by the common thread of tojo clan melodrama and majima nonsense. but whatever

honestly i dont have all that much to say on kiryus plot im just so insanely happy that random lady did not show up again because i seriously did not have it in me to deal with ANOTHER nonsense kiryu romance. overall liked it, enjoyed, kind of a small note but i really liked the visual progression of the final boss battle in terms of fighting aizawa out of the heart of the tojo -> to the main floor -> to the outside. very epic

also its kind of funny that when you put the money into the atm to send to morning glory it really is just flushing cash down the drain. i sent them a bunch of money because i felt bad but there was a part of me that was wondering if youd be able to pick it back up as haruka or something and literally no like that cash is gone

saejimas story i also really liked honestly im always perpetually distracted by how much cuter he is with the buzzcut im so glad he keeps it. i also really highkey love his perspective on the concept of avenging majima because its like well really not what youd expect from somebody in the yakuza and its just a really interesting character trait.

im gonna be thinking about absolutely snatched baba for the rest of my life

saejimas fight with majima on the rooftop highkey kind of makes me sick and its also crazy that majima said all that stuff re: their conversation in the batting center because like girl get real We all know you are lying. Badly. MAJIMA I LOVE YOU FOREVERRRRRRRRRRRR

it also actually makes me sick that majima was the one who kicked saejima out of the tojo like hes actually terrified of losing anybody else to the point where he actively tries to drive them away from him you have PROBLEMSSSSS

also unrelated but its insanely funny that he faked his whole death and somehow managed to get away with it and we got absolutely not a SINGLE detail on how any of this happened. me personally im still rooting for fake open casket funeral. WE LITERALLY HAD A WITNESS WHO PERSONALLY SAW HIM DIE? And like come on you cant pull the bulletproof vest because that man does not wear a shirt.

adding onto that point though more seriously majimas role in this story is just kind of weird because even though hes the glue responsible for holding half of it together the vast majority of what he's been running around doing is entirely background and 95% unexplained. which again blessing and a curse and also lowkey kind of bad writing

anyways i also really liked that daigo got to be more relevant this game but hes still kind of a perpetual running disaster. lowkey he kind of needs to get fired because hes always fighting a war with his own stupid clan but also i would feel bad because like i said earlier hes trying so hard. and also theres not really another other options at hand since the tojo hierarchy turnover is so egregiously high and like Well nobodys making majima patriarch.

^but considering my vague knowledge of 3jimas existence hes getting out of here at least temporarily for a bit? So we'll see..... we'll see....!!!!

actually devastating to me that we did not get to see hana this game.... talked to her on the phone for like 3 minutes but it was objectively one of the best parts of the game. hana and akiyama you will ALWAYS be famous to me.

akiyama and haruka are also an insanely cute duo theyre so special... LITERALLY LOVEEEEEE

akiyama honestly is sooooo good i literally love him so much forever. He still highkey needs to get his ears pierced

theres honestly not too much to say on his plot since its more haurkas than it is his but this is just a win for feminism. that beign said ti was kind of weird at the end where everybody was like omg akiyama we love u so much forever Because i feel like he didnt really do all that much. but ok

also completely unrelated but i feel like theyre becoming less trigger happy in terms of killing off 75% of the supporting cast. which is just kind of weird to witness and also just strange because they certainly pulled that move in y0 which comes out after this game. so who knows.

OH ALSO i cant believe i literally forgot to talk about it but the major plot twist this game actually were like. GOOD? like the whole reveal with the omi chairman i was like "HELLO????? Im actually stupid for not seeing this coming." that being said i think aizawa being his son shouldve gotten some foreshadowing too so that one was kind of a classic yakuza cheap twist but whatever. lowkey i was just shocked i didnt see the thing with the omi chairman coming sooner

i think thats rpobabblyy it. i might have more thoughts but overall REALLY FUN GAME. i had such a crazy good time as long as it was not in the period of time in which i was going through the 5 stages of grief over the majima is parks ex husband reveal LOL

[fullmoondagger]

hi i read ur megatron and starscream wireplay fic and am SUPER JAZZED about the techy stuff i would like to ask. for a full layout of ur thoughts on cybertronian sexuality (like anatomically, physically, culturally) in as many words as u can muster 👁️ im new to the fandom and am deep in thought about this myself and would love to hear what u got 👁️ 👁️ 🙏 im fascinated by people’s thoughts on this and ur fic was so rad i ran straight here LOL

Holy fuck hi hello !!!!!!! First of all I'm super glad you enjoyed my insanity-fueled work ! I'm also a rather new fan and TF is consuming my every thought LMAO. Um also preface I may be a semi decent writer but I have the incoherent blabberer curse so be warned it might be slop down there. Waffle time

Second preface I'm mostly a G1 head and I havent read all the comics n stuff and idk what fun tidbits would be in there but I think they fight eachother rather than have sweet tender loving sex w their wifes so. Honk

Soooooo. Cybertronian sexuality. So I'm of the opinion that since they reproduce asexually, they dont have any genitals and sex isn't really A Thing, their bodies aren't built for that sort of fun n intimacy at least in the human take on things. How ever. ! Where theres a will theres a way and Cybertronias' main thing is to be always changing right. Im a rabid horndog but also the idea of two sexless creatures trying to fuck with whatever they have is sooo... Meow :3

To me overloads are well. As you may have read n picked up from my fic. A game where you try to overheat your system so much it fries your circuits and you get a bit stupid until your body forcefully shuts down to save itself from further damage. It's 1- stupid 2- unpleasant to most (some are into it because it sucks. masochism wins) 3- probably not good to do too much too often 4- super fucking fun with a buddy.

I'm exploring plug n play but im soooo. They would not have a sex cable. I think they just open up eachother n see what they can do cause I think its funnier and it points back to my trying to make do with an activity thats not really built into them... I had read a post on here about sticky interfacing appearing after pnp from mingling with specias with sex organs and I think its a rockin hc but yea idk where im going w this.

I might explore more gentle alternatives but my stupid problem is I have toxic yaoi shitbrain disease and if the two guys dont want to kill eachother when they fuck. YAWNNN. But I try to get better. But I like the idea of gentler overloads that maybe don't go as far maybe just cuddling but with a giant robot twist on it. MAYBE orgasms are overrated. To be fully honest. Been putting off writing things were at least a character doesnt cum cause I dont knowwee how itd be received but also I think its whatever. I need to work up to it :) I hinted at circuit munching in my fic cause aoughhhh I think itd be so fun. I gotta write some for real the idea of somebot just being all up in your components slobbering all over them maybe putting some teeth into it hasssss to feel good. Has anyone seen a pcb and didnt feel the urge to lick it. Feel how the little solder bumps feel on the tongue, the slight texture of the chips, the little resistors... Its like little kitty cats grooming each other<3 *holds up sign saying "awwww" to guide the live audience's reaction* Like licking on exposed joints like pelvic-thigh connexion or armpit or inner wrists. Neck. Their feet are like the opposite of something delicate and sensitive but i SEE those panels on the side of G1 Megatron's legs and im sure theres something to fuck in there. Opening up panels for a little treat like the advent calendar. I think tformer saliva is lubricant anyway so its a win win situation. Ohh noo im so rusty and i can hardly move nooo please you gotta help me I cant lick myself there im not flexible enough ahhh please . You get the idea.

Runnin out of steam but I hope it was not only readable but interesting. Do NOT be afraid of shooting me a dm on here or discord if you wanna live chat. Remember: the maybe intimidating blogger is just as scared as you are. Or you can send more asks I love asks that was such a lovely thing to find as I woke up <3 Have a lovely day my decepticon warrior

[existentialterror]

hi this is probably SUCH a weird ask to receive but im scrolling your light tag in a fit of autism and saw you refer to lament (thats lament right? ihavent missed some critical light lore where she has a fiance who isn't troy lament?) as butch and its been sending me into a conniption. is lament a butch. is it real. me and my friend have had our own butch lesbian troy lament mindscape for months now.were we right all along. i feel like im going insane.

omg no you are so good, I am incredibly flattered. (Listen, PSA to anyone who's worried about being weird about Light to me: it's no problem, it's really hard to be weirder about Light than I am and I'll be impressed rather than freaked out if you are. It's chill.) That tag actually wasn't about Lament! This is about her late (or, if she was in fact swallowed up by an antimeme and is still kicking, "late") fianceee. I could have sworn that there was a detail about her late fianceee on my author page, but looking now, there definitely isn't and has never been one. What was I thinking of? Maybe an old rp character sheet? ... You know what, I'm putting that on there right now, because fuck it.

LOVE WINS!

Anyway, this is part of the vast amount of Light lore that mostly only exists in my head and draft files.* The late fiancee's name is Mars. Her other appearance on the site is in Soulless's tale all I ever wanted; all I ever deserved, which is where the Mars-As-Nobody concept came from, and which is quite lovely writing.

Here are some Mars facts for interested audiences:

Very butch

Also a scientist; worked with Light in the regular world. Neither of them had any conception of the anomalous before The Incident.

Light loved and misses her very much.

Dedicated transhumanist

Light attributes her strong moral compass to Mars having one. Unclear if this is actually true given that the other Lights (O5-2, etc) also seem to have a strong utilitarian moral compass and don't have their own Mars - but this would be surprising news to Light herself.

She and Light lived in a ricketty little one-bedroom apartment together and kept pet finches.

So that's who that's about. But none of this contradicts with butch Lament, certainly. Get him in here. Good for him! I love that.

I feel like there's some space you could explore here about new Foundation recruits who have their whole memory erased, and the new identity they put together... could be wildly different from the old one. The Foundation might encourage that as a way of separating them from their past. Like, you don't have to go there with Lament specifically, but you could.

I also think the idea of Light having a type is cute. Lament and Mars have never met each other. But if they were to meet they'd see the other and maybe size each other up a little and be like "...yeah, okay, that checks out."

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*... I may be working on something. Watch this space.

[legy]

random game roundup

Wand Wars - $11

Included in Bundle for Ukraine

this is pretty neat. wand wars is a party game about being wizards shooting a magic orb at each other and the last one standing wins. this has to have far more staying power as a multiplayer game but, alas, i am by my lonesome. i didnt love the control scheme (does really feel like it wants to be a twin stick shooter and not something played on keyboard). also it really bugged me that the projectile wasnt pixellated when everything else was. wand wars kinda fits the niche of a good boutique board game IMO, fun to break out with nerd friends at some nerd gathering

Baldi's Basics Plus - $10

Included in Bundle for Ukraine

my commitment to the premise of this project being vastly outweighed by how much i dont actually want to play baldi's basics. i could have hit random again and nobody would be the wiser

so i guess my take is roughly that im in the exact nostalgia bait audience for baldi's basics (i played tons of these edutainment games in elementary school) but its specifically aping so much of its aesthetic and presentation from sonic's schoolhouse which i cant imagine had a widespread school computer lab adoption. if someone made a off-color video game inspired by Disney's Adventures in Typing with Timon & Pumbaa or smth that would probably actually get somewhere. for me. also i hate jumpscares and YOU DONT EVEN SOLVE MATH PROBLEMS IN THIS ONE???? WHATS THE POINT

this is not a good review for baldi's basics sorry. i like that the camera controls are vertically locked even tho the game makes a lot of other concessions for a modern audience. and there really is nothing else in its genre that looks like this

Valfaris - $24.99

i cannot for the life of me figure out why i own this game.

ok first things first the art direction in this fucks insanely. it feels like a ps1 game in a way many other ps1 throwbacks don't. i really enjoyed looking at valfaris.

however this controls like SHIT and not in a way that i think would be fixed by a controller. i spent a couple minutes rebinding my controls so it isnt arrow keys to move and q/w for main attacks (this randomly reset to default at some point so that was cool) and i was still fighting for my life to actually accomplish what the game wants me to. there's a segment only a few seconds into the first level where you need to climb on ropes over some evil dogs to cross a ledge but 1. the dogs can jump up and attack you and 2. you can only aim your gun straight down. and the dogs respawn infinitely so you cant jump into the dog pit, slaughter them all and continue on your way. i legitimately could not get past this section because the controls were so ass. really unfortunate.

also the game has "wishlist the sequel" as one of its three menu options which: lmao

Thou Shalt Be Brave - $1

Included in Bundle for Racial Justice and Equality

this is a micro-rpg that is imo unfortunately hamstrung by its gimmick (the really small resolution). theres some really bad readability issues happening in this game. there is a manual on the itch page which helps a lot in combat but its really hard to excuse the "you sease lok s" message you see constantly.

this is pretty light on gameplay also but its generally a pretty fun timewaster. you explore the woods and fight guys and the ultimate goal appears to be maxing all your stats. i just wish i wasnt examining every button like it was a cryptic glyph to decipher

Planets Under Attack - $11.99

you know its bad when ive had this game on steam for over 10 years and have no idea what it is

i'm not sure how to describe planets under attack. it's a very minimalistic strategy game about spending resources to take over planets in each map. it seemed pretty chill but i did kinda feel like i was wasting my time playing it. the presentation is really competent and overall i think this is the strongest of the five games i played today

[hermywolf]

¡Hola!

Can I ask for your opinion?

According to you as Argentinian, with a stadium like this (has a Running track that separates the pitch to the audience seat by a farrr margin), do you think the ticket prices to watch La Scaloneta vs Indonesia (aka: mi pais) worth it?? (Not to mention the squad will be without Dybala,El Toro,Licha)

Even the VIP tix (the Purple ones) can't shake hands with players because of the distance from the audience seat to the Players Entrance (vestibule) and Bench is quite far.. I feel bad if Argentina scores, they have to run that far if they want to celebrate the goal with my people 😭😭

(tmi: if I go, I only can afford to buy ticket Category 2 (the Blue ones, only have view behind the net) or Category 3 (the Orange, the above/highest tribune ones)

About the squad prediction, imo Scalo most probably will go all out against Australia (June 15th), and probably Messi will play full time for that match. Against Indonesia I predict it will be like the game with Curacao, with Scalo let other (different starters) players to play and I don't think Messi will play full time in my country (half of me don't want Messi to end up tired but it's understandable the public's demand for him to play full time will be high).

Also, a warning. My country with its people can be sooo deadly embarassing. I hope Argentina's visit to my country will be nothing but a pleasant trip for the squad (and us as the host too).

hola!!

okay so first off im sorry but i have no idea about the prices and stuff. thats entirely up to you. i think the prices are worth it bc its a once in a lifetime experience especially with a team thats almost exactly the world cup winners team and so soon after the wc, with such quality players and chemistry, but then again nobody should ever trust an argentinian when it comes to how much money should be spent on futbol bc we're the people who sold cars and houses and saved money for years to attend important matches so we're a little too insane about the subject to be trusted to be reasonable when it comes to this so um. maybe don't listen to me. its up to you.

messi really doesn't like playing part time in games, even when its about leaving five minutes before the end to get a standing ovation he always likes to play the full game if he can instead. plus its not like he's got a bunch of club games surrounding the international dates during the transfer window either as far as i know. so unless he's hurt or really tired i think its unlikely that he'll play part time, i think he'll probably play full time both games. but yeah i agree i think especially if a lot of players come for the friendlies scaloni'll do like the curacao game and switch players a lot so as many as possible get to play which would also be nice to see!

im sure the scaloneta will have a fantastic time in indonesia, personally im really looking forward to the friendlies, i can't wait to see them play together again. sorry, this wasn't really helpful, but i hope you'll have a great time too and manage to get good spots if you decide to!!

[askaniritual]

You are very brave for the kpop opinion and it's always great to see someone contain multitudes in the things they enjoy. And that comment about SM groups was funny. Do you have any opinions on LOONA?

lol thanks anon

i am primarily an SM enjoyer, like sorry but i know quality when i see it and in my experience stanning groups from new companies with only one group tends to result in heartbreak (RIP to the fiftyfifty stans in the audience). that being said loona is one of the groups ive followed for a while so. my opinions on loona r as follows:

everything about loona from their very inception has absolutely radiated the vibes of a management company that has more money than business sense. kind of a reverse BigHit situation lmfao. like truly just everything about their concept and debut spoke to the worst excesses of kpop: too many members (not your bias though, shes an essential member)*, an absolutely bananas number of releases, and insanely complicated lore that they were never gonna be able to follow through on (my thoughts on kpop lore r like. a whole separate post lol). like lets be real if EXO couldn't make it work idk why anybody thought that the weapons manufacturer turned entertainment company (i know its a subsidiary don't come at me) was gonna be able to pull it off.

i feel like this sounds like i am critical of them, but i think their concept fucking slayed i just also think its pretty clear that jaden jeong is like. good at coming up with cool ideas and really bad at following through on them. like i am wishing for the best for the tripleS girlies but. not holding out a lot of hope that thats gonna go any better. in general he just seems to be bad at managing scope for his creative endeavors so the fact that blockberry was apparently just sending him wheelbarrows of cash and telling him to go crazy was like. probably never going to pan out.

all that being said i loooved their concepts, i thought their videos were really cool and the lore stuff was mostly well executed and it would have been cool to see if they had stuck literally any kind of landing on that. butterfly is a banger, star is genuinely one of my favorite english-language kpop releases and tbh like SUPER slept on (deserved to be a hit over dynamite thats for fuckin sure), odd eye circle is a hell of a subgroup (chaotic is my fav song of theirs), annnnnddd they slayed that cherry bomb dance cover. even tho i think what happened w them was kind of inevitable (and chuu especially didnt deserve that) im glad it seems to sort of halfway mostly worked out for them because the girls are talented!

*yes yes i know nct fan saying a group has too many members lol

[i-like-eyes]

thnank yoyut aw man. i think i get what you mean by the first half.

part of why this drives insane is that for the longest time i felt like the biggest difference between wh and the likes of sesame street and the muppets is that the latter are treated as though they are real and a part of *our* world. sesame street is real its just located somewhere in new york. the puppets are treated like any other celebrity on talk shows just with more fur. kermit and piggy's relationship used to be a huge talking point when the muppets were more popular (knowing wh the interviewer asking wally about his love life was probably those good ol Queer Themes TM popping up but also that was very much a thing the muppets dealt with!!)

point is kermit will casually mention meeting up with actor man whose name i cant remember from the last season because that is their world. its their "canon". wh in universe is much more contained though, the rules of the universe are that everyone is a puppet thing and there are no real world elements. they could have an interview in the Real World but wally and/or barnaby don't remember it simply because it never happened in their storyline. even if the puppets have a concept of our world but it looks different to them (the concept of other settings is very much a thing already) there is just too much about the interview that conflicts with the rules. barnaby can remember a book about his mom and that is real to him because it fits the rules of the universe. human person man and audience does not.

side note, you mention where does the puppet and puppeteer fit into this and listening to it at first barnaby's dialogue did throw me off? it felt as those he had prepared those jokes beforehand, which is a barny thing, but it contrasted how wally seemingly had to improvise his responses. heres the joke guy with the jokes. thats his gimmick. or im just really looking too hard into it. point is wally felt more natural to me whereas barny literally felt like someone doing a cliche impression of him. the puppeteer starting to show? eh could be looking to into that or looking at it from the wrong angle.

or that theory that it was never a show to begin with/never left production is at play because im really liking that one now. the idea that a character is only as real if we care, that canon only exists because of copyright and the characters in public domain live different lives than their law abiding counterparts. and even then the fan works of an ip are still an art saying smth, wally is saying many many things in fanworks but cannot hear what we are saying due to the nature of being a fictional character. getting off topic uhhhh the voice clips were never real its just the characters manifesting. or smth.

the second half is just yeah. yeah

submission from i-like-eyes

Wally has been in front of a live audience. Barnaby has been in front of a live audience. Barnaby is not only the only character to be given a segment talking with home in the update (unless I’m misremembering oop) but also the only one to notice that Wally does literally nothing during segments of the show. I’m going to explode.

That wasn’t really well put together I’m still reeling from everything; Barnaby knows there is an outside world. Unless he somehow forgets or is in a fuck ton of denial, he has been in front of a live audience outside of Home. It is heavily theorized regarding a specific incident that Julie DOES NOT. We are probably safe in assuming the rest of Home is the same. Cool. Great. I fear a potential conflict arising between not just Barny and Wally but Barny and the rest of the cast. Explodes again. Side note; what does Home itself feel about Wally going so far away???????

[context for that specific incident mentioned in the second paragraph]

hmm. i think to determine whether or not barnaby still remembers the ~outside world~, we would need to ask ourselves if he was really at that interview at all. after all, wally knows that he’s a puppet, and puppets are made to be, well, puppeteered. the fact that this doesn’t change in front of a live audience probably wouldn’t faze him all too much. but a puppet who Isn’t aware of their status as one to begin with? who knows how they exist out there, if they exist at all. maybe in our world, they’re just their parts regardless of context - the puppet and the puppeteer. (this is, of course, assuming that the interview even really happened at all.) i’m not sure if i’m getting my point across very well here, it feels very hard to put into words. it could also be that it’s less that the neighbors are unaware of the outside world and more that they’re unaware that their world and ours are any different. we’ll probably have to wait and see.

something that struck me about the video files is that the first time i watched them i remember thinking something like “man, it’s kinda weird that for how Genuine the neighbors’ camaraderie feels even with split-second moments of tension, they always act like they have to be reminded that wally even exists.” the second time, though, i thought, “oh, wait, it’s not that they forget he’s there. it’s that he just straight up Never Initiates and we never see his response when he’s actually approached by another character in the video files. which is weird considering he’s the protag.” and of course, the only character who actually notices this (or at least, the only character who Verbalizes it) is barnaby. barnaby doesn’t seem like the oblivious type, or prone to blind devotion in the same way wally seems to be, but you can’t say that his attachment to wally isn’t real, at least not at this point in time. but can you say it won’t screw him over later down the line, especially if other characters become more suspicious of wally at the same time? who’s to say? dude’s probably being set up for some major internal conflict, at the very least.

[shinraapologist]

light novel reread, vol. 1 ch. 9

this is a HUGE chapter, not necessarily length wise, but in plot and relevance and personal interest. i have a lot to say about it.

this is the first instance in the series of narita playing with nonlinear storytelling. i have my gripes about narita, but his writing is incredible. the way he weaves narratives together to form one cohesive story is absolutely masterful. the complexity he works with amazes me. i love the amount of absurdity and fun he allows into his prose and his plots while still not being afraid to go dark with his subject matter, without ever going so dark that it ever feels too voyeuristic (altho that could be the target audience of teen/young adults) (ya disease even). narita is a huge influence to my own writing style.

neither namie or seiji are done any justice in the anime. i love the anime dearly, but on my second more in depth read of the novels (so far) i cant help but notice how much was lost in the animation. something i think frequently, and will likely bring up again later in the series, is that i think the anime deserves a reboot. my proposed drrr reboot would be four seasons (24 or so eps each) following the 3 light novels to a season format of the 2010 release. (for anyone who hasnt read the novels, season one covers the events of volumes one to three while x2 follows volumes four to thirteen; it does break the season into three with the shou/ten/ketsu format, but theres just way too much to cover well in 36 episodes.) i absolutely love the pacing and charm of the 2010 release, to be honest.

i love this passage about shooter and celty. its something else that doesnt quite translate to the anime. in one of the later authors notes of the series, when the 2010 release was announced, narita mentioned that either he or a fan expressed concern over the novels translating well to an animated format. while i do love the anime and think it's a decent (and even at times incredible) adaption of the source, i think drrr truly shines in its original format.

theyre best friends, your honor.

shizaya shippers.... you guys know they got forced to go on sushi dates right? like i dont tend to see many shizaya posts or actively seek them out so i have no idea if this is common knowledge but its driving me insane. they canonically got forced to go on sushi dates. and get threatened by simon.

theres just so much to say. theres so little to say because it says itself. if anyone could truly understand celty besides shinra, its shizuo. two monsters, both struggling with their own desire to fit in with others. i absolutely adore shizuo, nearly as much as i love celty and shinra, and now that he's added to the story you're gonna have to hear me say a lot about him.

(mikas in pajamas because she broke out of the yagiri lab earlier, shes barely recovered from surgery probably) this is how celtys face is described in the novel.

seiji stabbed shizuo in the ass by the way

theyre best friends, your honor. every time you see shizuo slap his face in the anime, hes drunk as fuck.

shinra, about to lie blatantly to celty: im not honest, sincere, or wise. but you are! love you babe <3 celty: wait you like me?

the only thing really stopping celty from wanting to be with shinra right now is her insecurities. something i love about their relationship is that celty knows shinras full of shit, and she doesnt tolerate it, while at the same time never genuinely seeming particularly bothered by it. the times we see her most agitated with him, its because he's either pushing a subject he knows he shouldnt or because she's overwhelmed or flustered by his abysmal flirting. she knows hes a lying morally bankrupt little asshole and shes like. but wait. i dont have a head how could you even like me

celty, while being plagued by the deeply human emotions of anxiety and self doubt, still isn't sure whether she truly feels emotions. she's so horribly self unaware. i love her.

celty has such a pleasing character arc coming to accept herself and her emotions. theres a scene in sh where celty has a very celty-esque little anxiety meltdown and startles a few characters, but mizuchi, the protagonist, is described as "long since having to come to terms with how truly human celty was".

i guess i had a lot to say about this chapter because i have a lot to say about shinra and celty (and shizuo) at any given moment. so far, this has been my favorite chapter of volume one.

[nialltlynch]

five favorite fics that I've written (for writer appreciation day)

tagged by kat @sleepy-skittles thank u thank u 😘😘

5. in the garden sleeps a messenger — one of two non birdverse fics ive posted!! the target audience for this fic was me, twenty some odd years ago. ((love u bitch 🥰🥰)) anyway. edea and seifer have Thee Most Interesting Dynamic. it is insane to me how little there is about them. theres mommy issues. theres a highly problematic age gap. theres a concerning power dynamic. theres a hot evil milf with a banger aesthetic. theres the time loop or whatever the fuck was going on there. succession of witches defined my life for over a decade. seifer is into petplay i know this i know this. theres SO MUCH to explore here and it's all so underutilized in the game. this fic honestly does not even begin to get into but i consider it a decent first exploration and hopefully when i have time and energy i can do it a bit more justice. as it is though i really enjoy it!!

4. without a me there is no you —

She has the same blush rounding her cheeks and the same quiet, nervous laughter as the young Mór many years ago who muffled her kisses on Niall's mouth.

this bit was floating around in my head with perfectly clarity when i woke up one day and i immediately wrote out about six hundred words surrounding it on my phone before getting out of bed. im really interested in the implications of niall dreaming a docile sweet mannered replacement wife and i thought it would be interesting to explore it a bit from mór's perspective because she would be so impossibly biased. also thought it would be interesting if she fucked above mentioned replacement. this was my first time really trying to inhabit mór which, let me tell you, is really hard when the only canon information is scraps.

3. ambilevous — oh handcat fic, my weird little brain worm. all my fics are elaborate, long overstayed jokes in one way or another but this one i wrote specifically because the concept was just sooooo silly to me. absolutely absurd. certified kk comedy hour. it is, in usual fashion, a thinly veiled exploration of the more fucked up lynch family dynamics and how the barns arent quite what they seem but of course it is.

2. smoke alarms, smoke — my first exploration of the lynch family 🥰 it means a lot to me. i love this fic. the idea of the barns as a beautiful fairy tale ending had always rubbed me the wrong way and of course i love the slow desolation of locations through those that inhabit it which, really, what is the barns if not a haunted house waiting to happen. thats the part thats lacking (unfortunate!!) but i did get to write declan as a sad sad little kiddy which is one of my few life joys. i loved it when i wrote it and i love it now (which is saying a lot). while it isnt everything i want it to be i do very much love what it is!

1. it's a gift to be simple, it's a gift to be free — my aurora character study and probably the best thing ive written thus far...maybe ever. i honestly have no idea what the fuck i was on when i wrote this but god i wish i could get it back. some of my personal favorite prose comes from this fic. its a very personal fic in that i centered the emotional core on some of my own life bullshit. stylistically i owe so much of this fic to catherine valente's comfort me with apples which i had read around then (as if it wasnt obvious). i had already been thinking about aurora and her role in the lynch family but reading that helped solidify the tone i really wanted. this is another fic i sat down, wrote, and edited all in one night. i think if i hadn't posted it then it would've languished in editing hell so im very happy with what i put out.

oh and the recurring knife thing was because i was having feelings about knife maintenance, as one does. (if anyone wants me to come over and sharpen their kitchen knives and make you dinner lmk)

ive seen this passed around and lost track of who's already done it so if you would like participate then i am tagging you now. enjoy ((:

[sleepyyghostt]

i might be insane for saying this but i am actually very glad i watched morbius instead of batman today. 

like it wasnt “good”, probably. well im assuming at least, its not like i thought abt the plot a single time while watching, but i DID have the time of my life. i guess leading up to this i had made the foolish mistake of forgettring the fact that i am the one only single person on this planet within the target audience for this movie. hholy shit. i lovw this little guy thgis guyyyy omg hes My Guy. 2019 me hyperfixating on comics morbius for one week and being changed as  aperson ever since forever had the right idea. i nneeeeedddd to throw rocks at him, lovingly. llliterally this guy was built to my stupid tastes so damn perffectly whadda hell. hhoooh. wow,. spent the whole movie giggling like a schoolgirl kickinglegs twirls hair hiiiiiiiiiiiomg. but not in a attracted to him way. like in a i want to hit him with a rock (positive) way. wait i already saidf that. u know what i mean.the morbius madness returms 

[kyu-bri]

PMMM Medieval AU

Ok I've been Checked Out of the Meduka Meguca fandom recently but last night during a 11hr post-work week sleep I dreamed up a balls to the wall insanely intricate AU, because my subconcious is ever more creative than my waking self.

A TLDR role list and under the cut I will ramble and speculate in detail:

SAYAKA: An ex squire Knight trainee whose new mission is to overthrow the fucking monarchy after its corrupt rule led to the deaths of her friends. Now seducing an established Knight woman to help her on the inside while she recruits peasants for her rebellion.

MAMI: A rich snobbish merchant, rolling in wealth from inheriting both her dead parents businesses. She too is looking to overthrow the monarchy but is at odds with Sayakas faction because her plan is to become ruler herself.

KYOKO: a thief with brooding backstory. Mami recruits her to do her dirty work behind the scenes to keep her social standing clean.

MADOKA: A young training Goddess of Hope who fell from the moon. She has come to enthusiastically stop all the warring drama and devious plotting. She is in way over her head.

HOMURA: when Madoka fell she brought with her only a magical talisman that would bring one corpse to life to be her right hand. While looking for a noble muscular soldier Madoka tripped and dropped it into an open grave resurrecting a sickly peasant girl. Homura now worships Madoka and they are best friends who are in way over their heads.

Now me screaming trying to decipher my own subconscious:

GOD this AU is so ME. Sayaka going feral and living her best life kicking ass and a catty mean girl Mami countering her specifically. Kyoko poised to compliment, counter and even them out. Oh and MadoHomu are Cute and In Love. If that isnt the core of all of my AUs-

Sayaka was absolutely nuts in this though. My brain didn't spare Kyosuke or Hitomi so much as a cameo but so they're free to be the only reasonable cause for this. Im thinking Kyosuke was ailing as per usual and all that canon drama was the Same but Medieval.

So I'm thinking Sayakas all set to cope with Hitomi financing some lifesaving Medieval leech centric surgery or something before the Evil King whose color scheme is White And Maroon decides to execute Hitomis family for something petty. Hitomi is tragically killed right before Sayaka. Leaving Kyosuke to go shortly after and Sayaka to swear off the monarchy and all traditional law. Withdrawing from her training to be a knight to Be Gay And Do Crime.

Mamis role is both hilarious and perfect. In the dream she didn't do much besides bribe Kyoko and Anime Princess Laugh, but then Madoka was lore dumping (because yes, I DREAMED Madoka explaining LORE to Homura for the audiences (my) benefit.) And she said that Mami was possessed by a Demon of Greed. I'm thinking we could also say a desperate grieving Mami made some sort of deal with it asking for the ability to manage her parents legacy and it's resulted in her becoming the Onceler instead.

Madoka also mentions Kyoko has been scared away from her God bc of humans' actions. Ie she was the holy dutiful priests daughter and then Shit Hit The Fan but Medieval Flavored. The dream legit shows her God was Jesus so I'm declaring the dude God of Redemption, which is a very Kyoko Thing to boot.

While my brain didn't give me any KyoSaya Content tm they're in the perfect position for their epic Rivalry Turned Eternal Companions. Kyoko would be who Mami sends to fuck w Sayaka. Sayaka having probably trying to recruit Mami to her cause before realizing Mamis The Fucking Onceler and inspiring her to create a Rival Gang Of King Hating Rebels.

I'm picturing Sayakas plan fucking up in just the way Kyoko once mocked her that it would and all of Sayakas fight leaving her. As epic as her role is seducing the enemy to benefit her is very Unlike Her, so while the dream poised her as a power couple with the random blond knight lady I'm saying nnnno. And that the arrangement is fitfully miserable and dangerous. Sayaka used to be a loyal hopeless romantic and the Evil that's been committed against her and and those she loves has forced her to harden herself into someone else to be able to fight it.

But while Sayakas in Inevitable Peril and lamenting all of her mistakes and tragedy Kyokos there, fully able to escape but instead of course is like "no fuck that fuck this take my hand dreams come true lets give this nightmare a happily ever after." And its gay.

This would probably pit them both against Mami now but knowing me it would absolutely solve it with gay. And probably a bit of exorcism from Madoka. I theorized briefly if Mami would be a singular tragic death bc she cant be freed bc i liked the idea of tiny baby trumpet blower Nagisa slitting the Evil rich ladies throat and that being the only way to free her from the demon was cool but unless I can give Madoka a second resurrection clause then i would just exorcise her with Homosexuality and Friendship and a bit of Fairy Dust.

Meanwhile with Madoka and Homura they were just off still being cute and oblivious in the dream. I think the dream wanted her to be The One True God but she then shows all the personality traits of Naïve Angel In Training, so bc of the mythology already surrounding her I'm saying thinks a society where Literal Concepts Are Still Being Born and Madoka is the first inkling of Hope that Homosexuality and Friendship can fight Medieval Capitalism on its own.

She's just this bright white and pink pastel glowing entity skipping through a dark dreary forest graveyard looking for soldiers graves to ressurect somebody noble and powerful, gathering twigs in her long Repuntzel hair, when she trips and drops her talisman on a homeless orphan who died of the plague or some shit.

Bonus points to the idea that Madokas supposed to be able to reuse it but bc Homura died of sickness she just dies again right away and Madoka doesn't wanna be mean.

So Homura worships this glowing self positioned manic pixie dream girl bc shes definitely never felt hopeful in her life and so this glowing pastel goddess and drab zombie girl begin a road trip to where the actual plot of the story is happening. Because the moon dropped Madoka like inconveniently far away ig.

And so is the skeleton of a fabulous AU that I will probably not develop further but might make art for because my subconscious brain Also has AMAZING cinematography like when Madoka comes out of her moon all her hair flows out first so from earth it looks like a long pink gunshot through the moon which I suppose all the other characters would see and thus foreshadow their inevitable downfall to the powers of Homosexuality and Friendship and HOPE.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa