#its ok to bully her and make her life miserable but i dont think she could cross that line into actually trying to kill her

[novembermorgon]

If Myrielle had Aerea killed after Aerion took her to KL, would he care? Or just be like: "lol i really got under your skin with this one"

thing about myrielle is that she talks a lot of shit but she is very much an ideal westerosi lady in the sense that she would never take an active stance against her husband. she might wish she would but in the end her life revolves around him . she has grown up with the idea that she should be a wife and a mother and a polite lady hammered into her brain and in turn she doesn't end up having the guts to ever really openly defy that role. so when aerion gets back and he thinks he's really funny bringing a bastard back home ........ she's obviously pissed the fuck off but she wouldn't actually make any attempt to have her removed from court (beyond just asking aerion to send her away) because in the end it was his choice to bring her back and she has no real say in what he chooses to do.

with that said if she did have a moment of letting her let's-kill-this-baby instinct win i don't think he would be very hurt . he doesn't seem like the type of person who would care much even if she's his kid - especially because in this case the only real reason he ever spent more than 5 seconds with her is so he could humiliate his wife 😖 i feel like yeah if he knew myrielle did something it'd mostly just be a case of lol you really cared that much about my stupid joke. someone needs to tell him he is not very funny .

[re-ikrmso]

i think the reason i can hc/like certain just. horrible characters (not narratively they are good. in fact thier roles+impact were what caught my interest)

but like . two of my fav characters are Cobalt and the Mew of Reality (Reality) from this pmd-webcomic called “Hope in Friends”.

cobalt is a bully who has no qualms beating up a BLIND kid. Reality is malnipulative and is implied to have purposefully guided her basically demigod servants into darker paths. one onscreen confirmed. they are fucking aftiad of her because shes known for just. killing you with a thought. erasing people possibly with a blink. and by god her actual oncomic appearance is tone different than her older reference art. she just looks. malicious. you know shes up to nothing good but when you see that flashback with oxide hoping for advice. im just going “OHHH NOOOO DUDE “.

ok uhh i forgor where i was going with this but like. I sometimes like to hc them i to being more. “sympathetic “? mostly out of ideas i really like or sometimes projection but like. i dont think theyre right in thier actions. they’re assholes. but i really like trying to apply pov from the characters themselves and it turns out they have the capacity to be as miserable and depressed as anyone else. because no matter what, they are people too. they feel things. they also happen to be pretty urepentant and thier actions are just. urgh. like i like this idea of them being somewhat sympathetic because i like the idea of “urghhh youre an asshole but you had shit going on but it ultimately was still on you for your actions “ like. is this comin across enough.??? ^^’

i also like the two for just. rampant comedic sociopathy.

but also applying my own made up motifs of cobalt and reality somewhat defying social norms. reality rising in status to join the people who never helped her tk bully the majority instead. cobalt’s own possible stess+paranoia for probably being close to Reality. Reality’s possible “eldritch” tendencies—or just this dissonance because she either refuses to fit in or doesn’t want to. she smiles almost all the damn time you’d think she cant make any other expression.

i wonder, when she frowned. did her servant see that? Or was that panel of her turning to face then with a smile showing that it’s always been some kind of facade? dammit! Mew of Reality and Cobalt! Cobalt’s blatant disregard of respect even to Reality! His mother/father is a devout servant! a dogmatic one, probably! was he kicked out of his private school really for behavior problems or was it him refusing religion! do you think cobalt was told almost his whole

life he was worth the entire world until his parents started telling him he was inherently worthless?? in the face of this creepy, Cheshire smile god?! do you think he holds no respect for almost anyone because he thinks theyve thrown thier own away?! reality, an outcast from society before being god. cobalt, the outlier in his family! do you think cobalt shared a glance at reality expecting contempt but instead saw empathy and shame on her face past a drooped smile and a shamed turn away from his face? that the person you’re “worthless” to in comparison haplens to be the most real one to you???

I HAVE A SHIT TON OF HCS that i build hcs off if and like hoky shit. mew of reality. cobalt. in terms of them both its prob true they’re just assholes (cobalt especially) but like. the ideas..

[maxellminidisc]

I really fucking hate my life

I hate it so much, this is literally my living fucking nightmare this is exactly what I didnt want. I think even back then I knew I KNEW that if I didn't get out soon enough I was gonna end up like this and then bad shit had to happen to stop me. And now I'm fucking miserable and I cant leave my fucking house even. I want to fucking die all the time and the only reason I dont is because I think about how bad it would hurt my mom. If I finally got this shit going on with my body checked out and it was something awful that kills I'd be so happy even.

I have to pretend I'm ok most of the time and I have to smile and be ok with constantly being my sisters keeper even though I'm tired. Imagine growing up and your sister can do whatever she wants cause "Its ok, Z is there to watch over her", "Z is there to be the bad guy and say no". I could never be bad, I could never misbehave, I couldn't rebel openly, I couldn't even let my parents know I was bullied for so long (and when I do it's always "that happened so long ago why do you let it control you?"), I couldn't even let them know when I was failing, I couldn't do what I wanted with my life because they already had so much on their plate with her and trying to make something of a shakey high stakes career is a burden and boy did they let me know.

I cant get angry about trying to treat my sister like an adult when everyone around her refuses to stop infantilizing her or letting her be a person because then I'm a bitch, I'm mean. My mom accuse of me of being impatient or wanting to be mean to her when all I'm saying is that nobody ever does anything to help her so she can stop taking her anger out on others through violence, through breaking things, through throwing things; especially when it's me or my already delicate mom she's after . I can't even be her keeper in a good mood because then my emotionally absent father is here accusing me of not being a good enough sister; "You don't spend enough time with her." I've spent every waking day of my life watching over her since I was 8 because I saw my mom was basically a single parent with you in the house. How can I be a sister when I had to be her second parent my whole life? How can you even say shit like that too me when I've been doing your fucking job this whole time. Now that you have time to be at home, now you can play pretend and be the big man of the house.

God I hate it I hate my fucking life.

[ayellowcurtain]

I hope you will share this and your opinion on it because i don’t see this opinion amongst the community... it scares me that everyone is rooting for Yasmina and how she is handeling things. I know its a show, but i dont believe it healthy to show that if someone bullies you, you can bully them back (and yes i do consider it bullying, britt is indeed a bitch but thats not the point, you are making someone miserable just as they made you miserable, hence you are bullying them, maybe with other motives but the outcome is the same). And also she is exposing mean information about her friends to everyone. Personally i would be really pissed my friend wouldnt just talk to me or share these messages in person. Then she would have the right to be pissed at them for not standing by her side. But now she is being mean and taking everyone down with her. Anyway can we conclude that the youth among us thinks its ok that if someone hurts you, that someone gives you the immediate right to hurt them back in return? Because it doesnt and im concerned by it...

I don’t think what Yasmina is doing is wrong, I don’t see it as “bullying”. I’m completely against bullying in any way, shape, form, platform, doesn’t matter who’s doing.

Yasmina is posting texts messages that other people wrote, about their own friends, and about Yasmina’s friends too. And she’s doing publicly but it’s also a fake account that only the people involved seem to be aware of. So it’s not like she’s sharing with the whole world or even the whole school. The only people aware of the messages are the ones that send the messages or that are involved in them.

If Britt or her friends are feeling miserable they should learn to act like humans with each other. The way they talk about each other behind their backs is horrible. And to make it even worse, they talk about other people, and make racist, rude, stupid comments with no shame.

I don’t think the outcome is the same when you’re doing that level of comments and the other people is just exposing your comments to the ones that are affected by them.

Again, it’s not everyone, but the group of people her “““““friends””””” trust and would never imagine would make nasty comments about them. And even with all of that proof her friends are still finding ways to justify the comments as long as it’s not about them, which is bad too. If you see a racist, mean, rude, unasked comment you call them out.

I don’t think Yasmina should consider the girlsquad her group of friends after everything she has seen them look the other way to not defend her. Just drop them, let them be and Yasmina will find her group or her person soon enough. Doesn’t matter if it’s one friend or a bunch, they’ll be better than the girlsquad is to her.

She called them out a million times, she told Luca a bunch of times when she was feeling hurt not just this season but during previous seasons and nobody gave two fucks so yeah. It sucks but everyone just needs to step away from each other and they’ll be better off. She’s exposing people and that’s that. Teenage drama that nobody will remember in a month or two. They’ll probably be friends at a party during the end of this season anyway hahahaha

If everyone is falling is not because of one single leak Yasmina is putting out there. They’re all falling apart because they never had a solid foundation for this friend group, apparently. And the BA should be better humans, and more careful with their dumb thoughts, at least now they’ll learn a lesson or half of one.

What the young people watching this season should get from this whole, very extremely messy plot is that: walk away from people that won’t stand next to you when you need them. Don’t be afraid to let go, life goes on and I promise you, there are better moments (and shittier ones too) ahead. You’re young and you have no idea of how messy life is about to get so enjoy the ride because nothing lasts forever, not the good, not the bad. That’s life.

[the-dimensionmaker]

Oh boy.... where... WHERE... do i begin with this... i had to think about this for a LONG time... cause i know if i talk about this and try and give Aidan more attention... then my friend and great artist, Raisha gs will be upset with me... and.... will probably block me.... leaving me here to grieve again for the mistakes i did...... so if Raisha some how knows that i have a twitter acc... first off... hi dude... second off dont block me... yhe worst you can do is block someone for trying to get something out of they're situation so they can feel better... im not saying that your a bad person... im not saying that that your trying to control my life... all im saying is that.. please... understand that i need to do this... if people are doing this against people like Lui or Mini Ladd or even Shane Dawson... then i should do the same for a guy who has did this... dont worry... i blocked him on twitter.... so dont worry about him trying to find out about what im talking about... ok...? I hope you understand...

so for starters if you dont know who i am, i am the Dimensionmaker. Someone who wants to make animations for yt, who wants to make his own games, want do lets plays, and even talk to you viewers... i have a rough life... filled with nothing but people lying to me, people cheating on me without a reason (the numbers of people who did that is now 61 in total...), people lying ABOUT me, nothing but fear, and many more... Jaiden or Kitty Courtnie And Linka, is... the first gf i ever had. She was... the worst as well. She never listened, didnt care, and then cheated... then we have... Aidan2003, who is the main topic of this...

We start from what caused all of this to happen... when i was in middle school still i was on roblox... i had great friends... one of them named herself Jaidenanimations (not the real one...) also known as Courtnie... she was the nicest.. at the time she had a bf named Dud.. (btw Dud is Older then both me AND courtnie.. he acted like a complete creep around her..) but fsr.. Dud broke up with her.... someone named Ethan dated her too... but then broke up with her... and who knows if he is older then courtnie at the time... she was now sad... so i decided to become her bf... and when i did... we were... THE BEST... we loved each other more then anything... she would without me asking, want to do a drp with me... she wanted to come to my house... she wanted to meet me irl... she was better then anyone...things got a bit worst... Jaiden was now enemies with everyone... (Ethan, Dud, Jonathan, etc...) she doesnt want them to follow her... so i decied to be a bit strict.. and tell her to NOT go to any of the roblox games till she blocks them... and she lies to me... saying that... "She wasnt able to block them as a crack was CONVENIENTLY on the block and unfriend button..." and when ever we have a plan or another idea on what can actually work... she lied her way saying thaings like oh.. "My Phone Is Dead" and such.. so much in fake that it was... PREDICTABLE... she then started to hang out with them... i became a bit more stricter... then my mental health became bad... she didnt listen... it made me feel like nobody listens to me... leading me into a depression... i felt like nobody liked me... nobody listens to me... nobody even cared about me... i wanted to die... a... bunch of times... most of the time... she never cared... then... on yt......... she cheated on me... with 2 people who were OLDER THEN ME AND HER COMBINED (being both Jonathan and Dud... keep that in mind...)... i noticed this.... i was FURIOUS..... i yelled at the thing i thought was a girl i Loved... a girl i could trust... a Girl that i thought was LOYAL..... then her parents got involved calling me rude words like European Boy (i think it was something else) "just because my skin was black".. keep that in mind as well... "her parents deleted her discord acc For Good..." (keep thaf in mind...)... then... i sobbed... again... and again... i tried to go and find people who cares about me or loved me... but then they cheated... one by one... my mental health became WORST.... i tried many methods... me having more then one girlfriend... having them make promises due to what has happen to me... being nice... being strict..... nothing worked.......... my life was miserable...... i didnt finally be able to talk to courtnie and get her to break up with Jonathan... she was happy that she did... but then she didnt come back to roblox... but then betrayed me yet again........

I asked one of my friends on if they are able to talk to Courtnie...they couldn't... all except for one person one of them know... Aidan... i talked to Aidan and he actually was nice... but then... he started to act like im a pedo... wanna know why...? Get this... JAIDEN LIED ABOUT HER AGE THE WHOLE TIME. when i was 13 she was 10 ALL ALONG. She lied to me for YEARS... saying she was my age.... i blocked Aidan and never talked to him ever again... and jaiden finally talks to me and we were in good terms... but then... Aidan came in.... saying jaiden has caused alot of crap to him... i believed him and became his friend only to be forced into a group where this friends (ETHAN AND IVAN BEING ONE OF THEM) could harass me... then... we go to his videos... his videos are false... they barely show proof... he says points that are completely incorrect.... hell here is some (not all cause i dont want to be texting all night) he said in them...

- "I Know Where You Live And I Know Everything About You"

He says this yet he assumed i was a 25 year old man. Even tho im now 15. At the time i was 14 now im 15. Plus he doxxedy house. And stole my IP ADDRESS... that right there makes him seem more like a creep. Courtnie without me asking told me where she lived. This guy STOLE MY IP ADDRESS AND FUCKING DOXXED MY HOUSE. That right there will show that he is a bad person who is just lying to ruin my life... speaking of lying

- "Schroederluvr Is A Minor"

This proves that he didnt even talk to her... she isnt a minor... hell looking at her compared to me... she is OLDER THEN ME.. SHE IS 20 SOMETHING YEARS OLD. I Didnt Harass Her Anyways so why is he saying that i did.

- "Lillie is innocent"

Lillie on Instagram literally said in her own words that she is bullying me because of me being depressed. Thats jot justified AT ALL.

"Klara's post is about me"

No its not. Its about lillie and her friends. Who BTW IS DMING ME SENDING A PICTURE OF SOME STUPID PICTURE OF A INCINEROAR. sure yes it doesnt seem to bad but its EXTREMELY ANNOYING.

- "Telling the police that Aidan doxxed my house and Stole my IP Address wont do anything"

It will, Aidan. It literally says that no matter how you got it or why you got it, you will be send to jail.

- "TALKING to minors is bad"

Wrong. If thats the case then someone like WILDCAT, VANOSS, H2ODELIRIOUS, MARKIPLIER, CORYXKENSHIN, AND MANY MANY MORE would be swatted and in jail. Its not Illegal to talk to them.

- "that Katie is innocent"

Katie has done a MOUNTAIN of stuff to me. So much so that even the nicest people of all time wont be nice to her. She isnt in the right. AT. ALL.

- "that telling people to leave me alone is harassing them"

Its not harassment. Seriously. A NORMAL HUMAN BEING WOULD KNOW THAT IST NOR HARASSMENT TO TELL SOMEONE TO GO AWAY OR LEAVE THEM ALONE

- "That im a predator yet youw ont go after Jonathan and Dud"

He literally spares them but not me. Jonathan was 17 i think. And Dud was i think 19. Now he's probably 20 OR 21 YEARS OLD. And you STILL come at me for just DATING someone who LIED ABOUT HER AGE.

- "that i was... Harassing? xxlitle_dummyxx"

Even tho she literally wants to be rude while im trying to help... wow... just fucking WOW

- "that not telling people your name, nor putting your name on your acc is a bad thing"

No.. no its not... hell we look at a bunch of youtubers doing that. Hell there are a bunch of people i KNOW that doesnt say they're real name. It's THEY'RE CHOICE. Not yours Aidan.

Anyways.... then to make things worst he called me the N word a bunch of times then say that he "didnt" because i didnt have proof... wanna know why? BECAUSE HE BLOCKED ME AFTER THAT SO I WASNT ABLE TO TAKE A VIDEO OF THIS. Then he made a fake conversation between me and jaiden. I can tell its fake by just looking at the pfps and names...

I decided to delete all the posts about him on Instagram... not because he beated me... but because i wanted Raisha gs to be happy... to not hate me...... to not block me... thats something that Effects me when it comes to someone like Raisha or Brsstar... i worry that if i make one mistake for what ever reason... ill be blocked... so im hoping that Raisha understands that i cant hold all of this in anymore... if Aidan are exposing me for shit i didn't do... if PEOPLE are coming out to finally say the truth about someone... then i should as well.... i hope you understand if you made it this far...

So... here's what i have to say for the conclusion of this... if you all see the name... "Aidan2003"... block him... REPORT HIM... do what ever you like to him.... he wants to hurt me for shit i didnt do... so why should i say to not do the same to him... he is not a good person... he never was....

This is The Creator Of Multiverses... and i will soon make other posts, dont worry ^^.

Till then my fell Universers..

[bladekindeyewear]

Boots Reads Homestuck Epilogue(s) Part 12 - Candy Page 18

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Time to see what all the fuss was about Page 18.  We’re with Jane... that might not be good.  Especially given Lollipop proximity.

Jane scoffing at troll genocide again.  :(

Gamzee seems more woke than Jane here.

GAMZEE: sO yOu SaYiN yOu NeEd DiFfErEnT sHoEs FoR yOuR hUmAn DiCkS aNd WhAt NoT?

Pfffff

Jane narrows her eyes at the disingenuous buffoon.

I dunno, he sounds like he’s being pretty goddamn ingenuous right now.

It’s not the first time they’ve had this conversation?  Are they black with each other or something??

What’s more likely is he’s attempting to get a rise from her. To get her a little hotter under the collar. To put her in a certain mood.

Oh my gosh she’s genuinely black for him, hahahahah

GAMZEE: AnD AlL I EvEr bEeN TrYiN To dO Is gEt yOu rIgHt tOo, WiTh mOrAlS AnD GoOdNeSs, AlL fIlLeD uP iNsIdE yOu As TiGhT aS yOuR tAsTy HoE bAlLoOnS aRe WiTh HuMaN mOo JuIcE.

Jesus christ that’s not the kind of metaphor i want to be hearing from canon

or anyone for that matter

JANE: No! I’d rather die than touch your disgusting clown baton ever again.

....yyyeah, context is showing she’s PROBABLY super Black into this.  Still, pretty jarring to see a clear consensual “NO” right in the middle of things.

Quit calling her a dairy queen!!! D: D: D:

Oh god they named the baby Tavros.

Alright, there’s some grade A discomfort in this scene, which I’m enjoying, really.  I can see why they singled out page 18.  I could traumatize some people with some of these paragraphs out of context.

HOO HOO HOO, THIS LITTLE PIGGY WENT TO THE DARK CARNIVAL!!!

Eeeeuugh

JAKE: Anyway whats up with you? Hows life with davekat going? JADE: oh its great! im really glad i just went for it JADE: all of us together... it really is the best of every world

God damnit Jade why are you obliviously torturing them????????

You could’ve been REALLY GOOD for them both if you just FUCKING LISTENED TO THEM AND RESPECTED THEM INSTEAD OF SITTING ON THEM.

JADE: theres no way me and dave could have a regular baby together because im... JAKE: Whats wrong? JADE: well lets just say that after all the sburb stuff its done some things to my body JADE: like merging with bec mostly

Oh my FUCKING GOD please don’t canonize this.  This didn’t need to be spelled out so-- D:

jesus

D: D: D:

This... is actually making my stomach roil again????

like

not because id object to-- i mean, it’s one thing to deal with

FAN SCENARIOS

ISOLATED divergences from canon where she has to deal with that and its kind of hilarious, but can be safely ignored when it comes to her character arc as a whole

but once its CANON????????   D: D: D:

suddenly you can’t IGNORE the full import when you’re done with, like, an RP or something, of the psychological struggle she would be forced to deal with given an abnormal biological situation.  Instead of thinking “Oh, that could be pretty painful to deal with! Let’s explore it temporarily for fun” it becomes “Oh, that would be painful to deal with and you have to think about her having to deal with all the complications of that whenever you hear about her LITERALLY FOREVER.”  D:

andrew i know you couldnt resist because of how funny and practically-xenoprogressive it was but whyyyyyyyyy did you have to canonize that WHYYYY

Now instead of a fun joke thought it also has to be SAD FOREVER

AAAAAAAA  D’:

i dont know why this would be the line thats crossed to upset me

Rose surrogate?

JADE: no jake, dave wouldnt be the father in this scenario!

Pffffff.  Andrew’s just diving RIGHT into the, er, doggy fanfics here.  I should... TRY to lighten up about this.  Try.  D:

(...wait, shit.  Knowing my friend, THIS whole bit is why they alluded to this page.  God damnit.)

[[ EDIT:  askshenhibiki said:

Now that you read Candy 18, flash back to Meat when Roxy is talking about gender... and look at Jade's reaction looking at "where her hands rest on her lap". Yes, Meat hinted at that "mix" too.

Ah, let’s see...

ROXY: and so i got to thinking ROXY: what even is gender ROXY: amirite lol? JADE: oh yeah JADE: that makes sense i guess........

Jade looks at where her hands are folded in her lap. Bites her lip. She has her own concerns about this, her own thoughts. Reasonable thoughts, I’d say. But I’ll refrain from any further comment. I’m staying away from this subject, from now on.

...yeah, guess Dirk at least had the decency not to spring all that on us before Jade got the opportunity to do it honestly. ]]

Guh, back to Jake suffering in his sad, trapped scenario.  I hope THAT gets at least resolved by the end of this.  Someone save Jake from this, because it looks like he’s not really that capable of saving himself?

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Dammit, Jade, I’m cringing at these descriptions of your intrusion.

Oh wow, John went for the mustache.  Guess we knew that from, like, his stuffed statue oldself?

Jade doesn’t pick up on the obvious subtext in the conversation, however, because she’s been willfully undermining the subtext in her own personal life for nearly a year now.

D:  D:  D:

Seriously, Jade, how is what YOU’RE doing any better than what you were frustrated at seeing THEM doing, avoiding the real feelings and truth of anything even if it was conspicuously on body-language display?

KARKAT: THE NEW ADMINISTRATION IS CRACKING DOWN ON CERTAIN KINDS OF INTERSPECIES ADOPTION LAWS.

It’s like Andrew wants us deprived of even a happy imagined future for Earth C on top of everything else!!!  What the hell! >:(

Is this about politics?  Is Andrew just venting his anger that the Orange Guy is going to get away with ruining everything forever??  Because as understandable as that is, he could at least give us some imaginary happyfutures to look forward to.

Reading on... Hm, yet another intentionally-misused fridging reference.

KARKAT: HIS RELATIONSHIP IS A FLAMING WRECK OF AN INTERSTELLAR WARSHIP HURTLING TOWARDS THE PLANET AT TERMINAL VELOCITY WITH THE ENTIRE CREW BRUTALLY SLAUGHTERED UPON REENTRY, SHOVED STRAIGHT DOWN THE CHAGRIN TUNNEL AND THEN IMMEDIATELY SHAT OUT THE OTHER SIDE, THUS FLOODING THE ENTIRE FUCKING NEIGHBORHOOD WHEN IT CLOGS UP THE LOAD GAPER.

Yep, that triangle’s fucked.  Wonder if the conversation’s going to transition to the CURRENT triangle’s problems...

...yeah, John using the R word there isn’t far from the fucking truth from the looks of things.

JADE: maybe that would work for a few days, but one thing i learned from dating around a lot in my youth is that no ones going to leave a bad relationship until its THEIR idea to leave

She takes in a shaky breath and shuts her eyes. Her hair spills around her face when she leans forward to put her chin on her knees. Dave and Karkat exchange a look that is equal parts confused, miserable, and desperate.

Oh SHIT.  Is JADE going to be the one to finally vocalize about the problems here???

Something else comes hurtling out of the hole in the sky, too fast for Jade to catch. It hits the ground with a clap of green lightning. The collision sends a geyser of dirt, rock, and vapor into the air. Dave flash-steps to shield Karkat. Jade doesn’t move, taking the brunt of the explosion face on, using her abilities to warp the energy around her so that she’s a mote at the center of the storm. When the dust clears, she’s the first to jump in the crater, trailing smoke behind her.

There’s a body at the center of it. The torso is bloody, tangled, and curled into a fetal position. Its shoes are missing, but otherwise the outfit is quite familiar to her: it’s a dead ringer for her old Witch of Space uniform. Jade touches the body with the toe of her shoe, and then gasps when it rolls over to reveal its face.

JADE: its... JADE: ME???

Okay what the FUCK.  It sounds like there’s going to be some context for that postscript after all.  Something to bridge the gap between when that 16-yo Jade falls into the singularity and when Aradia goes off with her through a wormhole

I’m going to guess up front that this happens BEFORE the postscript... this younger version of Jade fell into the black hole and came out in THIS alternate timeline, possibly rather changed by the experience.  But then again, the way the sky opened up... actually, couldn’t that be just a “natural” manifestation of the black hole abilities encouraged by Calliope or done by the singularity alone, followed by later in the Postscript this Jade actually getting control of it??

And... reading on, from the sound of it, her eyes aren’t black yet, either.  Sounds like that’s to come, before the postscript.  Question being, is it alt!Callie black eyes, or some black-hole-powers visual manifestation?  Wait, never mind, I misread; this teenage Jade-corpse has NOT opened their eyes yet, so they couldn’t possibly tell, and the stuff about them “shaking” was about the adult Jade standing over her.  Never mind.  Let’s see which timeframe this Jade came from.

Also STOP TRAUMATIZING ADULT JADE ON SCREEN ITS NOT OKAY IM SICK OF IT ANDREW

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Page 20...

Stop letting babby not!Vriska bully babby not!Tavros.

Hm... same stupid tooth poison?  No, Jade didn’t get hit with a tooth... so it’s more getting hit with shards of spacetime and spiraling down a black hole.  Also whatever alt!Callie did to just barely keep her alive.

Hm, so the Heart stuff falls apart if you’re too separated from the mass-whole at Light’s center?  That’s certainly a hypothesis at least.

ROXY: sounds like its time for another funeral lmao

ROXY WAKE THE FUCK UP AND STOP BEING A VAGUELY ROXY-LOOKING LMAO-ZOMBIE.  WHERE THE FUCK DID REAL ROXY GO.

And where the fuck is Calliope anyway, she’s just being left in the dust and nobody’s even talked to her from the looks of it.

Hm, cut apart by political differences, this group...?

ROXY: woah ok karkat i get ur all fired up about politics and stuff but lay off gamz ok

ROXY WHO REPLACED YOUR FUCKING BRAIN WITH A BLOCK OF CHEESE

ROXY YOU’RE MY FAVORITE CHARACTER PLEASE GIVE US AN EXPLANATION FOR WHY YOU’RE ACTING NOTHING LIKE THE COOL SMART PERSON WE READ ABOUT.

JADE: dave what the FUCK did you say to him downstairs?

Oh my god you asshole don’t blame DAVE for this >:(

ROXY: this time next week well corpse party like its the end of the world!

I don’t want to think this has anything to do with Aradia, but we DID see her in that postscript bit...  And, I mean, what the hell could she even do??  It’s not like this Roxy is just Aradia in really convincing cosplay or something.

==>

She leads John and Jake into the building and down the center of the nave, humming happily to herself the entire time. An equally effusive Calliope trails behind her, carrying a bouquet of purple flowers.

Well there’s Callie. What is WITH these hypnotized motherfuckers.  I need a revelation on these shenanigans STAT.

What is with people being bathed in light here?

each time we witness death, we fall in love in with the important people in oUr lives all over again.

Calliope is gazing at Roxy with glassy eyes. She sniffs as she plucks the last petal from her rose. A breeze washes through the cathedral from the crack in the door at the end of the room, brushing the petal off-course and causing it to get stuck in Roxy’s over-sprayed hair. Calliope reaches out with a visibly shaking hand to remove the plant offal, but she does not draw back. Instead, she lets her hand graze down the side of Roxy’s face and cup her cheek. Roxy puts her own hand over Callie’s and holds it.

Uhhh.... huh.

So.

If Roxy was just lying to herself, then............ WHY??????

John tilts his head and squints at the image in front of him. Hmm.

Is John realizing he’s in some sort of fanfic drawn by another character, hence all the people in serene lightbeams at tender but unjustified moments?

Everyone whips their heads around to see, of all people, Aradia hovering in the foyer

Pff

(...I hope Aradia didn’t come here, like, from the postscript.  Where the “action” she talked about might have just been this corpse party.  Because that would be pretty fucking lame.)

KARKAT: MAYBE FUCKING NEPETA IS ABOUT TO POUNCE FROM BEHIND THAT GROTESQUE STATUE OF THE HUMAN SUFFERER T-POSING OVER THERE.

Pfffffffffff

The description of Human Jesus we all had in our hearts, but were too afraid to voice.

Alright, now we see the body we took our eyes off of.  Is it going to get back up, or did it escape earlier?

since nobody was willing to dislodge the huge, otherworldly shard from her chest

My damn god, people.

...alright finally, everyone’s talking.

JANE: Agreed. I’ve always felt that Kanaya has done an exemplary job of providing a model for compassionate, empathetic behavior, which others of her kind would do well to follow.

JANE STOP BEING A XENOPHOBIC BASTARD

CALLIOPE: please. roxy gathered yoU all here for a reason. CALLIOPE: at least listen Until the end. CALLIOPE: after that yoU can argUe all you want.

...Huh.  Huuuuhh.  What the fuck is all this for.  Are you saying ROXY caused this? Or...?

Okay I like this reinforcement she’s making in her speech about how different changes can influence how all of this unfolds, gives me hope that maybe these two cliffhangers aren’t all we’re going to be left with and we’ll be able to at least think of an IMPLIED future different from them if we wanted to like we thought about the seemingly-infinite-possibility original ending of Homestuck that I’d rather have been stuck with than this oh god breathe boots

okay there’s the labor going into good distraction

alright corpse get back up

JADE: i am not jade.

Right, so like the black eyes in the postscript suggested this is more just a... vessel for alt!Calliope now?  To give HER a future beyond the one she sacrificed for that black hole business?  And between alt!Callie’s became-the-black-hole nature and Jade’s Spacey Green Sun connection that’s been singularified, she has access to cool Black Hole powers?  And is gonna do cool shit with them in implied future adventures we won’t see while Aradia gleefully watches the carnage?  Huh.

The congregation watches her go, but no one moves to help her, or even looks in her direction. In her wake, she leaves a primal, echoing wail.

Oh my god why wouldn’t they have just a brief discussion or something IT’S NOT THAT BAD  D:

JADE: and while i cannot say the same thing for the rest of you, JADE: i, at least, am exactly where i am meant to be.

Well fuck.  So she just disconfirmed this timeline as... something.  Relevant, possible, I dunno.

JADE: and i have entered this body to protect your world.

Okay that’s good.  So thanks to alt!Calliope these side timelines where things unfolded differently MAY be preserved.  Pretty fitting given alt!Callie’s origins.

.......unless there’s some other stupid interspecies civil war threat that she’s going to be fighting too, here, when the political situation falls apart.  Dammit.

==>

Terezi talk Terezi talk

-- JOHN EGBERT sent TEREZI PYROPE the photo “ghostrain.jpg” --

TEREZI: WH4T TH3 4CTU4L FUCK JOHN: it started a few days ago. the sky above the capital of the troll kingdom just cracked open and ghosts began raining down everywhere.

Oh my GOD.  So alt!Callie kind of “saved” all the doomed ghosts that got swallowed up in the black hole by redirecting them all to THIS UNIVERSE and timeline???????

That’s pretty interesting!  Heck my stomach’s even calming down!

they can’t even be judges! TEREZI: G4SP

Yeah that’s pretty terrible!

...yep, the resistance WOULD put him in charge.  I had a feeling it may have ended up in that direction in Candy since it wasn’t in Meat.

--oh FUCK YOU Jade for splitting up what he had with Karkat before they could sort it out!!! You did the OPPOSITE OF HELP and neither of them are going to end up happy thanks to you! D:<

PFFF wow, John’s so concerned about babby not!Tavros’s living situation that he’s considering legit kidnapping.  That means things must be pretty fucking bad.

--okay Calliope’s still out and about with Roxy instead of being cooped up in her room like in the other timeline, that’s good.

Pff, trying to redeem Ghost Eridan in front of Ghost Feferi.  Yep, that’s Gamzee.

GAMZEE: fIrSt, A LiTtLe RiGhTeOuS sPlAsH oF tHe NaNnA nEcTaR tO cLeAnSe ThAt DaNkNeSs FrOm YoUr SoUlS...

Gamzee takes out a baby bottle and flicks it, covering them both with little drops of milk, as clergy does with holy water. He then takes a swig from the bottle himself before returning it to his codpiece.

Jesus.  Fucking.  Christ.

I don’t want to believe that what’s in that bottle is what he’s making it sound like it is, but OF COURSE it is.  Why would it be anything else.  I bet there’s not even any Lifey hypnosis going on, it’s just the literal stuff.

The crowd falls silent as they raise their heads to watch a drone ship pass by overhead.

Jegus fuck stop going whole hog condesce janey

ROXY: lmao you worry too much ROXY: janeys got her head on straight shell show you yet

ROXY.  WHERE DID YOUR BRAIN GO.  I MISS IT.  YOUR BRAIN WAS THE BEST FUCKING PART OF YOU.

Touching photo.

Alright lemme post split.  I haven’t gotten as far as the last post plowed through since I’ve been typing so much... ah well.

[kuroandtheguys]

QUOTES (as in things i’ve said, not necessarily original things but things ive said.) FROM MUN HIKARY,HER DAD AND CLASSMATES AS RP STARTERS:

"get your fuck boy out of my house"

"Listen here you fuck nugget"

"don't touch me you bafoon"

"leave the soul alone"

"WHERE IS SPACE DAD"

"i got some shoes from my drug dealer, i dont know what he laced them with but i've been tripping all day...."

"Sure thing Chew-Brocka"

"the beatings will continue until morale improves."

"looking to protect yourself or deal some damage?"

"The egg-salts?"

"much cheese cake"

"FIGHT ME"

"DO YOU FOLKS LIKE COFFEE!"

"baby,princess, dear,dearest. Do me a favorite and get your head out of my ass"

"Whats up gays!"

"Its 1 get the fuck up you lil shit"

"its a porch...not a deck....."

"when one plays the earth game twister one finds out more about the other's than they wanted"

"pain is your reward for being near me."

"oh it's the nasty crime boi"

"follow the yellow-dick road"

"these jokes arent the only thing that suck"

"stupid controls! I said walk to the side not jump off the cliff"

"_GET YOUR DICK OUT OF MY GODDESS!"

"Zarkon unhand my space father"

"sadness is merely a part of life."

"BON BON YOU WANT SUM FUC"

"they're gonna play Mario cart"

"that's how friendship dies"

"ID BE THE TINY ANGRY GUY, I CANT REMEMBER HIS NAME"

"Space Dad jokes are out of this world"

"space dad part of a balanced breakfast"

" i wonder whats over here, oh its plot"

"not all wood resists magic damage"

"destroy us all!"

"i could pee in a bucket and tell him it's beer."

"i would fuck lance because who wouldn't"

"ITS BECAUSE IM A DEMON ISINT IT? THATS RACIST!"

" IF YOU LOVED ME YOUD KILL THE SPIDERS"

"Fite me!"

"fuck Shiro because, just look at him. Who wouldn’t?"

"I am tumblr senpai"

"Why is he grinding?!"

"They bonded by beating the shit out of eachother."

"ah ah put those grabby hands away." (wow without context that sounds really dirty)

"if I have social anxiety and YOU have social anxiety then who's going to order the food?"

"now if they made space dad shaped mac and cheese i wouldnt mind so much"

"it could be 1 of 2 things metal leg or morning wood"

"i like chicks not dicks"

"why cant you just say vagina?"

"Ok so if you ever need a break from your mech with a watersport kink let me know."

"I love you" "dude thats gay..." "we are litterly having sex"

"watch your mouth you little shit"

"yes daddy dearest"

"COME HERE MY SPACE CHILD"

"Let me hug you space child"

"i must adopt this lost space child"

"soft and warm space dad"

"omg your so extra"

"hgn those claws he could just rip me apart"

"we can go inside"

"i wouldn't want to expose you"

"he's see more of your girlfriend than you have"

"we had a bonding moment i punched you in the face!"

"I ate my school"

"this limp noodle"

"PRAISE MUNWAY"

"You wanna ride my huge dragon"

"and i don't know....somethin' bout friendship..."

"Tid be a pitty if i killed him off"

"you've been shanked" "..with a ruler..."

"did you just giggle your boobs at me?"

"It was an earth shattering shit"

"I am the pumpkin gardian"

"Hold my beer and watch this mother fucker

"Careful nuts make you swell, just ask your sister"

"My dad the crack dealer"

"balls deep in an au"

"Don't fuck on my expensive leather couch you cunts"

"He's a perceptive hoe"

"blubbering balls of teenage awkwardness"

"What can I say except~ FUCK OFF"

"I am the alpha dad"

"thats a kick in the danger clam"

"your gonna get your weiner stuck in the baby gate"

"I'm taking you back to the pound"

"I'm so sorry the princess had his feelings hurt"

“Hey demons, it’s ya boi, Satan. Give me the homie back”

"my name is stan, im satan"

"I Came Here For A Good Time And All I Got Was Porn"

"it went from warm to freezing because snow miser is shitting on us"

"Near death can be fixed with ducktap"

"I don't remember what I did with my pants"

"It smells" "You smell" "Your face smells" "You almost got punched I'm the face"

"Bueno bear"

"MAKE THAT ANGST YOUR BITCH"

“Gently bullied him into submission”

*Holds up fishing pole and bubbles* hookers and blow.

"To hard, to thick. I'd get hair stuck in my teeth" "...don't ever say that in public."

"Even lesbians like babies"

"My dad is like a fun vampire"

You are a steampunk blood warrior with a plan"

"You are a steampunk blood warrior with a flan"

"You've been hit by you've been struck by a smooth lesbian"

"You just made the inquisitior gay" "Yes" 5 minutes later "So what else us on the table" "The inquisitior"

"Did...did you just call the Cat a butt plug?"

"not like that you kinky fuck"

"kinky princess Matthew holt and his fluffy sidekick Mr whiskers."

"DONT MAKE ME KINKSHAME YOU AGAIN" "MAYBE YOU'LL KINKSHAME ME HARD THIS TIME"

"I'm gay and I'm ready to party"

"You founded a country on cocaine and prostitution?"

"You know what looks delicious" "What" "Your tight ass" "Your a hoe, like ben" "_ lemme smash"

"Human Sacrifice is always an option if you aren't a weak little bitch."

"Last time you had an imaginary friend I'm pretty sure it was a demon"

" I don't want to be propositioned by you in private!"

"Don't vore the dogs"

"Surely not everyone was kung-fu fighting" "They were" "..we're they fast as lightning?" "No they were slow, Tai Chi mother fucker"

"There’s a train of thought but it’s been de railed and Billy the kid robbed it."

"Shes just where burgers go to die"

"Im a priest to our lady of sin and this is my seeing eye dragon"

"Hello nightmares my old freind"

"they took some scaly lizard dick"

"I would go to Satan jazz club"

"Gandalf the off white"

"Stop kicking my puppy"

"You sleep darted that man in the dick"

"i didn't hit puberty...i just kinda shook it's hand"

"Tall, dark, warm and edgy. The perfect dad"

"Cerberus thinks he's a lap dog"

"thank god for incredible upper body strength"

"No ship wars. I multi ship like an adult" "Am I an adult I poly ship?" "Yes"

" my flaccid dagger"

"He's running around like a squirrel on crack"

"Could you please acidenly flex somewhere else your distracting me"

"It is the first day of Christmas fucker"

"Don't make me beat ypu with egg nog"

"Why did it suddenly become British?"

"You've been BLUNDERSTRUCK"

"Slav tellaported from another dimension to punch you in the arm"

"Floating kingdom of dabalon"

"I like my nightshade pomegranate flavored"

"dont dab on my boobs"

"The first vampire ran into the sun"

"I need a pocket sendak"

"Four score and 7 years ago our founding pirates"

"Been fueling up on....."

"Life is a highway?"

"the lyrics are coke and whiskey dumb ass"

"all i want for Christmas is the dreamiest daddy."

"HAIL KURO"

"patience yields fucking"

"Gray haired man on a house coming through" "I tottally thought you said gay haired man"

"Oh... mood"

"You wrap presents like a blind t rex"

"i take a look at me enormous-"

"white privilege."

"I swear to all of the gods I'm going to climb you like a fucking vine"

"The pellar, he uh.... loves his goat"

"whispers goat fuckerrrr"

"sleeping with slytherins" "dont you mean sirens?" "same fucking thing"

"No one told you life was gonna be this-" "Gay?"

"I am truly the hobo on top of the polar express" "No your the homo ontop of the polar express" "Can't she be a homo hobo?"

"Kinkshame me harder"

“Kinkshame me harder spicy papa”

"Male griffin returns and is like what the fuck did you do to my wife"

"WITH YOUR SHAG CARPET ID BE GETTING HAIR BALLS"

"Drug cloud please disperse"

"Just cause I'm gay dosent mean the cake needs to be"

"BITCH I OUTRANK YOU"

"Just cause I'm gay dosent mean the cake needs to be"

"Right in the paw patroler"

"Stuffed em up Mr patato head's butt"

"feed me"

"i swear if you start singing-"

"must be blood"

"here she gose again"

"must be fresh"

"i dont wanna hear this"

"FEED ME, FEED ME SEYMORE~"

"Get on the fucking dragon or I will leave you in this tower"

"Vivia le roi" "LONG LIVE THE REVALUATION" "No.... long live the king"

"I'm a senior my vote counts more"

"I am gentle snek"

"The boner wizzard is a girl" "That's a dragon" "Girl dragon"

"my father the actual 5 year old" "thats right 5 times a whole bunch"

"why..... is your icon a crotch buldge?"

"Layers" "Like an oinion" "Yes and their all gonna make you cry"

"You blushing" "I'm pasty and I burn in the sun anytime I go out." "So your burned..?" "Yes fucker"

 "You should be careful dancing around with those daggers when I'm throwing fire" "It won't hurt me. It's friendly fire"

[goldfistgirl]

adderall really helps me stay functioning and not depressed and not having these invasive constant thoughts. i’m actually impressed. sad thoughts still occur to me, but they feel manageable every time and sometimes, when i’m lucky, they’re even fleeting. that hasn’t been the case in probably a year and a half. i’m so thankful, and i need to sort out medical care for that.

i also need to meditate on parts of my life that i can’t change. i need to work on accepting them. i have historically been brilliant at this (low income, father not in my life, etc). i have even been understanding of things like my dad not raising me or not being able to be driven places during high school (like tennis matches). gg’s loss even felt inevitable and ok to me. somehow i managed to accept and handle her loss with relative ease because i knew it was inevitable. the hardest parts of that were dealing with suzanne’s cruel wish for gg to “just die already” and the way my family absorbed her finances for their selfish gain, rather than allowing me to become her caretaker and use that money to actually take care of her. we could have stayed in the apartment she likes, i could have bought a car, and i could have driven her to the places she needed to go. i really wish that is how it would have gone. i learned i need to take initiative rather than allow others to take control and patronize me. i still remember crying so much when we drove gg to mt rainier and she got sick in the car and threw up. what a miserable several hours for her to suffer. i just hated it. it makes me so so so so sad. her end was so painful, and i just... i think there’s so little dignity in the way she passed, and it hurts my heart, because she truly deserved better. a woman so fucking strong, so fucking stubborn, so self-assured, and so invested in the lives of the people around her... it’s cruel that she ended up alone. she liked being alone, but it was wrong that she was condemned to that, because even people who love being alone that much shouldn’t constantly be isolated. it’s bad for our mental health. sigh. tragic. 

 i really only recently lost the ability to cope with certain things. i couldn’t handle last february when those girls bullied me online. that fucked me up. i spent my entire mexico vacation depressed. i couldn’t cope with how ugly i felt in my clothes and body. i am glad i am investing more in my appearance because it makes me feel like i’m taking initiative over how i look. i want to continue to take care of my body and appearance. i want to tan my legs, lose weight, wear fitted and stylish clothing, and practice makeup. i want to get my gouache-like tattoos (rather than watercolor, i should say, since i dont want drippy looking stuff, just faded/blended colors that are kind of “wet” but not like it was painted on a wet canvas). sometimes i get scared that these desires are because i want a man’s approval, but actually a lot of these feelings existed prior to any interest in a man. interest in a man simply exasperated this issue.

other things i couldn’t handle were my shitty job changes, failing at interviews, feeling unloved by josh (which always comes in waves, it’s so bizarre, and now i feel more confident in his love for me, but why? i never used to feel like it before... more just like he won’t leave because he has settled on me), and then of course all the drama with KJosh. That was so toxic from the beginning. I cannot BELIEVE I allowed my self to be involved with him like that in a way that dissatisfied me. And then now again sigh. 

i am also glad i took initiative to talk to a doctor about depression. i am glad i tried medication. i need to continue that path because it will help me cope, i think. adderall or prozac or something. i need to continue to use the gym to relax and watch tv and move my body. i need to gain the courage to try weights. i need to eat good food in the day, hydrate all day, and limit late day eating.

i need to take initiative to make things the way i want them. i feel bad about. if i want to see josh, i need to say, “do you want to hang out?” you know? i mean, i did try to take initiative like that in january, and it flopped. he turned me down so many times, mostly so he could be with girls (or alone because he was exhausted from those girls). he even made copl jokes then, so it’s important to remind myself that his inside jokes and callbacks to stuff are just how he interacts with women. he likes to be close to women on a girlfriend/boyfriend level without actually dating them because for him, dating = path to marriage, and that looms over him. he doesn’t understand that what he wants from a female friendship is literally a girlfriend lol. that creates a strange sort of demand of intimacy from women in his life without him actually caring about that kind of intimacy on an equal level. like for sure he’s weird. he doesn’t even acknowledge that we are currently casually dating. but i am not gonna push it because it will just depress me to hear him say shitty things about whatever.

what i do need to do is, again, meditate on the fact that i can’t control his feelings toward me. i need to constantly remind myself that he does not love me nor does he ever, ever want a long term relationship. his personality cannot work with LTR because he quickly becomes bored and needs new people in his life. he is not familiar with how to maintain long term friendships, even. i am happy to try to show him what that looks like, but it is possible that his personality is not compatable with ltr. personalities change, but i am not in control of that, and if he does not change, it is not a reflection on me. it does not mean that i am not “good enough” to motivate him to want to be around a person for a long time. i can potentially avoid “burning him out” by giving him space, and i like space too, and since i feel more secure in his at least friendly interest in me, i do not feel threatened by staying away. i dont feel like i need to be near him to show off my awesomeness. it is somewhat healthier now, and hopefully i can be down to earth and accept it if it becomes unhealthy and i need to leave. i need to remind myself that it is ok to become fed up with waiting and toxic mentalities. it is sad to leave, but i need to be realistic. meditate on this shit, jenn! daily reminders so i don’t fall into some emotional please-love-me trap!

see, even when he was using me last year, there were still opportunities for me to have a good time with him, like go to some destination with him in jenny’s car. i just needed to actually literally ask. he would have potentially said yes back then. january was a bad time because he was so Over me. damn, he got over me before he even dumped me. hell, he was never under/into me! 

i’m still worried i’ll take it personally if he doesn’t see me on the weekends, so i need to like... brainwash myself into being ok with it. i mean, ffs, i have my own fucking life and interests. i should do my own god damn shit. i literally WANT to do my own stuff again, too, which is a nice refreshing feeling. last year i had lost interest and motivation for my own things, like a fucking shit depressing cycle. 

i need to take initiative to enjoy the time i do have with him because it’s temporary. i had that mentality before--that i needed to enjoy what i could before it came to its inevitable end--but i need to for sure be more active now. ask him to do things, go places. i dont want the whole “go to mt rainier” thing to be just talk. i wanna DO that with him. and i also wanna do chill things like have him over to my house. i wanna learn to cook with him. just all that shit. 

when i think about being his girlfriend, i actually don’t like it. but i do know i like what we are doing now. and that i selfishly want him to want to be with me for the ego boost smh.