#its ok guys the mixed feelings are mutual

[zestyderg]

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[suffarustuffaru]

hi i made a tier list of how homophobic rezero characters are

hello in the spirit of valentine's day and the very welcoming community here on rezero tumblr i decided to make this with the help of my lovely mutuals.

[seokgyuu]

There is nothing worse than wanting what isn't yours. Sunghoon is your roommates boyfriend. He is also the one thing occupying your mind ever since you first laid eyes on him. And never would you have guessed that the feeling is mutual.

Pairing: Sunghoon x Fem!Reader (minor Jake x Fem!Reader)

Contents: Cheating!! I don't condone cheating in real life, but decided to have this be the main theme of this story, work of fiction!! be warned!, jake plays a big part, calls reader pretty girl, roommate is named yeri but pls don't picture rv yeri thats my baby ok? SMUT! MDNI

Smut Warnings: making out, dirty talk, usage of the words "sweetheart, "baby", "princess", "good girl", fingering, unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it friends), creampie

wc: 3.7k

a/n: i know i said my first ever enha fic would be the heejayhoon fic but... here we are now. sunghoon has been on my mind too much and he needed to be let out, ok!! pls don't cheat on your partner ok, sunghoon is not doing things correctly here but oh well, what can we do. thanks for reading <3

It’s not fair, you think. How she gets to sit on his lap, how she gets to run her fingers through his hair. How right now his hands are on her hips and how he holds her so close to his body, his eyes following her every word. You wish you could tell him. How she has been seeing this other guy behind his back. Nothing physical, you think, but still. You wish you could go up and tell him she’s not being entirely faithful. But you can��t. It’s not fair. 

She says something and he laughs and you finally turn away to grab the drink Jungwon has poured you ages ago. He is too busy talking to a girl you don’t know to notice you haven’t even taken the cup. You bring it to your lips, letting all of its contents run down your throat in one go. Maybe getting drunk is the only way you’ll survive this stupid ass party you didn’t even want to host in the first place. 

“Slow down, pretty girl,” you suddenly hear a voice next to you and you almost choke. It’s Jake Sim, his best friend. 

“What?” You put the cup back down and look at him with one brow raised. Jake chuckles, pushing a hand through his soft looking black hair.

“There is enough alcohol for everyone, no need to drown it all in one go.”

“Maybe I want to.” You challenge him with your eyes and he takes the hint, smirking as he grabs the bottle of vodka that's standing on the counter. 

“I got you, pretty girl.”

Talking to Jake is fun. He is fun. He is also handsy. After five minutes of talking, he has his hand on your thigh, looking at you attentively as you tell him some story about you in middle school. You’re feeling hot all over, but it’s not because of Jake or his hand or the way he looks at you. It’s because of how he is looking over.

Park Sunghoon. Still with your horrible roommate on his lap, with his hands still on her waist, with her mouth so close to his ear you’re sure she’s saying the dirtiest things to him right now. But he is looking at you. 

“How do you know Yeri?” Jake asks then, bringing you back. 

“She’s my roommate,” you explain and take a sip from the drink Jake mixed for you earlier. His eyebrows shoot up.

“Oh! You are her roommate!” He grins, “I knew you looked familiar.”

“I did?” You wouldn’t have bet on Jake knowing who you are as much as you wouldn’t have bet on Sunghoon visibly being bothered by you talking to his best friend. 

“Yeah. Sunghoon mentioned you before. Showed me your insta.” You can’t hide the surprise on your face.

“He did?” Jake chuckles again, leaning forward, his mouth almost as close to your ear as Yeri’s to Sunghoon’s. 

“He mentioned you’re not that talkative. He also mentioned you like to look at him. And you know what I think? He enjoys it when you do.” 

You hate your treacherous heart for beginning to beat quicker. Why would Jake say that? Wasn’t he hitting on you? Mentioning what Sunghoon liked or didn’t like - wasn’t this… counterproductive? 

“Why- why would you tell me this?” You finally ask back, looking at Jake with wide eyes. 

“Because,” he begins to explain, his hand wandering further up your thigh, making you gasp, “because I know that he likes looking at you, too. And I never liked Yeri. You seem much nicer than her.”

His breath is still hitting your neck. His touch is soft and while it should probably feel more sensual, it doesn’t. You realize his plan, realize that he is doing this because he knows Sunghoon is watching and you feel your cheeks heat up. 

“If you let me kiss you now, he will for sure come find you later.”

In retrospect - maybe it was a bit naive of you to just let him kiss you. Or well, for you to kiss him as a response. He could have played with you, could have used the knowledge that you wanted Sunghoon to his benefit. Something about him, though, made you feel like you could trust him.

Jake is a good kisser. He knows where to put his hands and how to suck on your tongue in a way that doesn't feel like too much. He knows how to turn his head and how to make you crave more, knows exactly how to make it look believable - so believable, Sunghoon can’t concentrate on Yeri on his lap anymore, on how she kisses his neck and whispers things into his ear he’d normally eat up, things he would normally be excited to hear. 

It’s not fair, he thinks. He’s not being fair. This has been going on for way too long. At this point he should just break up with Yeri as he had planned months ago. But he’s just a weak man and Yeri knows him too well. She’s not a good girlfriend and he’s not a good boyfriend, but never would he ever cheat on her. Or so he would like to think. Because right now? Looking at you on the other side of the room, your hands buried in Jake’s hair and his hand on your thigh, so far up it’s almost underneath your god forsaken skirt - he wants nothing more than to drag you into your bedroom and show you he’s better than Jake. 

The thought scares him enough to stop Yeri in her motion and excuse himself to go to the bathroom. 

“Wanna meet me in my room in five?” Yeri giggles in his ear when she’s off his lap and Sunghoon tightens his jaw. 

“I think you should entertain your guests a little more before you leave to your bedroom.”

Yeri pouts up at him when he gets up.

“But Hoonie…,” he knows her antics, he knows them well enough, probably better than anyone. What normally would have worked right away, doesn’t this time. He shakes his head and just walks off, making a pit-stop in the kitchen to get some more alcohol in his system to survive the night. 

-

Sunghoon knew it was bad, he was bad, when he walked into you in nothing but a short towel wrapped around your body two months ago. It had been totally out of his control - the way his body reacted to see you in your almost naked form, water dripping from your hair onto your shoulder, over your collarbone and down your chest. You suddenly became so much more than before. He had found you cute before. Cute and funny and nice. Never had he seen you as anything but his girlfriend’s roommate. You and Yeri weren’t even really friends, more like in need of each other. Yeri’s old roommate had moved in with her girlfriend and so the room became vacant. You were the first one to apply and stayed. This had been six months ago.

And now? Now Sunghoon feels more drawn to you than he had ever felt to Yeri and it drives him crazy. That is why he is drowning two shots of tequila in the kitchen with Jay and Jungwon and that is why he practically hides behind the door frame to watch you and Jake make out. He knows it’s not fair to be jealous. He also knows he probably shouldn’t watch the way Jake is kissing you, the way you are kissing Jake, because all it does is make his body burn. 

He finds himself wondering what you taste like. If you like the way Jake tastes. He’s pathetic. Pathetic and a horrible boyfriend. Sighing, he finally moves to the bathroom, glad to see there is only a small line he has to wait in. Crossing his arms, he leans against the wall, trying to forget the visual of you and Jake but failing miserably. Maybe he should have told Yeri to meet him in her bedroom after all. He could have taken his pathetic jealousy out on her. Just fuck her until he forgot. Imagine it was you instead. 

“Jesus, look at those two,” a voice rips Sunghoon out of his thoughts and he turns his head - immediately regretting his decision. 

It’s Jake and you and he has you pushed against the wall right next to the kitchen, kissing you hard and you kiss him back, hands on his nape and Sunghoon feels like the universe is out to get him tonight. Why the fuck would you follow him outside? Why couldn’t you have stayed in the living room, why-

He stands up straight again. 

You followed him outside. You are making sure he sees you. 

Sunghoon doesn’t have a coherent thought left in his brain. His legs carry him to you and Jake, squeezing through people he doesn’t know and then he is right there, his hand landing on Jake’s shoulder, squeezing hard.

“Heeseung is looking for you.” He says with a blank face and Jake parts from you, needing a few seconds to realize what’s going on. The moment he recognizes Sunghoon, he has to try really hard to suppress a smug smile.

“And that can’t wait? Kinda busy here, mate,” Jake raises his brows. Sunghoon’s jaw tightens once more.

“No. Said it was urgent. Better look for him.”

The apartment isn’t that big. There is a kitchen that’s separate from the living room that does house a good number of people. Jake has just seen Heeseung there. Talking to some red-head and most definitely not looking for him. Grinning after all, Jake nods and turns his head to wink at you quickly before finally taking off. 

“So,” Sunghoon starts, eyes traveling from the back of Jake’s head to you, “Jake, huh?” 

There is no chance in hell you can respond to him. In all honesty, you hadn’t really believed Jake’s plan would work out. Sunghoon getting jealous and stopping you from making out? When Yeri is right there? It seemed absurd. Apparently, though, it wasn’t. 

The surprise on your face is clear as day and Sunghoon scoffs, shaking his head.

“Is this how you want to get my attention, sweetheart? By making out with my best friend?”

Sweetheart. 

“I- I didn’t-,” it’s no use. Both of you know exactly why you had kissed Jake, why you had followed him into the hallway. 

“You didn’t, hm? Didn’t mean to kiss Jake? Didn’t kiss him just to make me jealous? Or what?” 

He’s so close to you now. Too close, if you think about it. What if someone sees you? Sees your roommate's boyfriend this close to you at her own party? 

“Sunghoon, I really don’t-,” you try again, but this time Sunghoon’s hands grab your waist as he pushes himself closer to you, your breath hatching in your throat.

“Don’t lie to me, princess. I can see it in your eyes. Fuck, I can see it in your eyes everytime I’m around. You want me, just admit it.”

Your skin is burning where he is touching you. His eyes are staring into yours and you wish with all of your being he wasn’t who he was. 

“I can’t. I- I don’t want you, Sunghoon, you’re not mine to want.”

Your words reach his ears but they don’t make sense even though they should. Looking around, Sunghoon grabs your wrist and drags you to your bedroom, holding out his hand.

“Keys, I know you locked it.”

You stare up at him, lips trembling, knowing better than to give in. 

“Sunghoon-,”

“Give me the keys, Y/N.”

The way he says your name has your knees growing weak. Swallowing, you let your hand slip into the pocket of your sweater, handing the waiting man what he had asked for. 

Without a word Sunghoon unlocks and opens the door, pulling you inside behind him, hoping to god no one paid you any mind. Once the door behind you shuts, you feel your back hit it, feel Sunghoon’s breath on your face, his hands back on your hips, the look in his eyes wild and angry and so full of want it almost causes you to whimper. 

“Do you want me to be yours to want?” He asks with a raspy voice and his fingers dig into your flesh. 

“Does it matter?” You reply quietly. 

“If it didn’t I wouldn’t ask you, sweetheart.”

“Stop calling me that.” You immediately say, your thighs pressing together traitorously. Sunghoon catches your movement and he lets out a breath.

“Why? You like it?” 

He is so close to you. So fucking close. You could count every single mole and freckle on his face if only you had the strength to look at him for longer than two seconds.

“Sunghoon, please. Y-You’re Yeri’s boyfriend.”

“That doesn’t stop you from staring at me whenever I’m here, does it?” It’s wrong. He knows it and so do you, but it just feels too good. His hand moves from your waist down, sliding in between your thighs to part them. You gasp, eyes widening when you feel his fingers trailing up your thigh.

“I- I am not- I would never, Sunghoon!” 

It’s a light touch, but it’s right there on that one sensitive spot on your inner thigh. Sunghoon bathes in the way you look, the way your breath hitches when he touches you.

“Yeah? What was that, baby?”

“‘Am not staring at you!” You try to shoot daggers at him through your eyes, but all that reaches him are silent pleas to touch you more. 

“Is that right?” Sunghoon leans forward, his free hand now cupping your cheek, thumb softly caressing your face.

“Not staring at me, hm? Not wishing it was you on my lap instead of Yeri, no?”

“No! Of course not, I-,” you gasp again when he moves his hand further up.

“Stop lying to me, baby. Please, I need you to be honest, need you to tell me how much you want me.”

His voice is deep and his begging almost brings you to your knees. While the rational part of you tells you to push him away, the irrational part tells you to stay right where you are.

“I- what about Yeri, Sunghoon?” Your hands find place on his chest and he bites down on his lip, softly shaking his head.

“I’ll break up with her. I promise, princess. I just need you to tell me exactly what’s on your mind, please?”

I’ll break up with her, the words echo in your head over and over. You should think about this more, you know you should. And yet… 

“You- You are, Hoon, you are always on my mind.”

“Fuck, princess, tell me more. What am I doing in your mind?” His nose touches yours and the hand that was on your cheek moves down to your neck, a shiver running down your spine.

“Doing everything you do to her… to me.”

“Keep going.” His instructions are clear, but with the way his hand has now reached your throbbing core, with how his fingers glide over your soaked panties, feeling just how fucking wet you are for him, you don’t even know how to say your own name. 

“You kiss me, not her. You… touch me, not her.” The words stumble out of your mouth and Sunghoon breathes them in, his cock hard against his jeans as he lets his fingers push your panties to the side, feeling your warm and soft folds right then against his skin. He groans, head falling onto your shoulder.

“Shit, you’re so wet, baby, fuck.”

You whimper when he finds your clit with his thumb and you would have landed on the floor, if his arm hadn’t wrapped around you just then.

“Sunghoon…,” you breathe out, but he just shakes his head, kissing the side of your neck.

“Am I touching you like this in your mind, baby? Am I making you this wet?”

As if to accompany his words, he pushes one finger into you and you cry out, hands fisting the material of his shirt. 

“G-god, yes, just- just like this, Hoon.”

He’s dizzy, you are making him dizzy. Your smell and the way you feel around his finger, your voice dripping in pure lust, it’s about to drive him fucking insane.

“Fuck, you’re gonna be the death of me,” he mumbles before finally kissing you, his lips devouring you like starved man, a moan escaping and landing in your mouth. Every bit of composure that might have been there a second ago is now gone. Your arms wrap around his neck as he continues pushing his finger in and out of you, your small whimpers getting caught by his busy lips. 

Sunghoon thinks you’re like a drug. Now that he’s got a taste, he can’t stop, he can’t get enough. He licks into your mouth to taste more of you, pushes another finger into your sopping pussy to prep you for his cock that is aching behind his pants. There isn’t much time, he knows someone will notice if he’s gone too long. 

“Been dreaming of this, Hoon, need you so, so bad.”

Your whispered words are like a prayer to Sunghoon. He moans against your lips and wraps both of his arms around you now, your cunt feeling so empty without him all of a sudden. You cry out when he puts you down on your bed and kisses you again, his hands busy getting your panties off your body, leaving your pussy bare for him to dive back into with his fingers. 

He kisses you again, his tongue circling around yours, his lips hot and red and perfect against your own. Nimble fingers slip underneath his shirt, caressing his soft skin as your hips move against him, his fingers even deeper inside of you at this angle. You whine into his mouth and Sunghoon bites down on your bottom lip.

“Gotta have you, baby, gotta fuck you, yeah?”

“Yes, please.” 

He rids himself of his jeans and boxers, pushing them down enough for his cock to spring free, his eyes taking in your body, your face, the way you look wanting him. How many nights had he wished it was you underneath him? Cursing under his breath, he pushes you further up the bed, your head landing on the pillow behind you, gaze wide as you watch him lean forward, his soft brown hair falling into his face. He doesn’t waste any time, pumping his cock a few times before lining himself up with you, easily slipping into your wet heat. 

“Kiss me.” You whisper and Sunghoon’s eyes fly open, sinking into your further as he leans forward, his lips catching yours in a sensual kiss. Your legs almost automatically wrap around his waist, helping him to completely sink into you. Moans are exchanged between the two of you and your fingers grab Sunghoon’s hair, pulling his head back so you can kiss his neck. He hisses, hips beginning to thrust into you, your tongue lapping at his skin. 

“Fuck, you’re so perfect around me, sweetheart. Never had a pussy better than this.”

He grabs your hand and pins it over your head, eyes wild as he stares down at you, his hips beginning to move mercilessly, cock hitting you right where you need him to. It takes everything in you not to scream for him, your eyes rolling back and your back arching, wanting more of him, wanting all of him. 

“Hoon, am already close,” you admit with your face hot and Sunghoon moans once again, letting his head fall down, back between your shoulder and neck, kissing your skin.

“Yes, baby, want you to cum on my cock.”

It’s true. He doesn’t think he has ever wanted something as much as this. His words are like a spell, your pussy clenching over and over again as your orgasm erupts you, making you cry out in pleasure, your hands flying to the his back, hips moving rapidly against him, basically fucking yourself on his cock through your orgasm and Sunghoon feels like he is about to pass out. 

“Good girl, such a good girl for me, fuck.”

He kisses you again, lust and want mixed with desperation as he continues to chase his high, twitching inside of you, your walls tight and warm around his hard cock. If he could, he would fuck you for another six hours, but he knows tonight is not the night for that. Fuck, he’s gonna need to get you a new apartment, he needs to get you as far away from Yeri as he possibly can. 

“Want you to cum in me, Sunghoon, please, make me yours, fill me up, please.”

Black and white dots appear in front of his eyes when you whisper these words in his ear and he can’t do anything but have your wish be his command. He curses your name once, twice - then he cums, thick stripes of white filling your awaiting pussy, the feeling of being filled by him getting you over the edge a second time. You can’t help the loud moan this time, can’t help clawing your fingers into his skin underneath his shirt. He rides out his orgasm and your legs fall off his waist, overstimulation hitting you and making you whine, Hoon kissing your neck and your cheek and finally your lips as he pulls out, quick to part from you again to look at how pretty your pussy looks filled with his release. 

“Fuck, sweetheart, I could look at this forever,” he mumbles, sinking down to push two fingers inside you, stuffing his cum back in. You gasp in surprise.

“Park Sunghoon!” 

He laughs, looking up at you with his bangs hanging in his face.

“Need to make sure it stays where it belongs, princess.”

Sunghoon breaks up with Yeri the next day. He takes you apartment hunting an hour later. Safe to say Jake’s plan worked out. And he won’t ever let you hear the end of it. 

[jessmaybank]

Friends - JJ Maybank & Rafe Cameron

Based on the song Friends by Chase Atlantic

Outer banks x Chase Atlantic masterlist

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Pairing(s): JJ Maybank x fem! Pogue reader & Rafe Cameron x fem! Pogue reader.

Word count: 3.5k

Summary: ever wondered what happens when you fall in love with two people at once? Well, the answer is pure chaos.

Warnings: swearing, drug use, alcohol use, lots of angst!!, SMUT, thigh riding, nipple play,

AN: mutual pining, angst, jealousy & everything in between. in the words of Katherine Pierce, it’s ok to love them both.

Girl, tell me what you're doing on the other side

And tell, just tell me what you're doing with that other guy

'Cause I ain't got patience to slow down the pace

“That’s it, just like that” Rafe says, his voice hoarse as his nails dig into her bare hips, helping her ride his thigh. Turns out, Rafe Cameron isn’t as selfish in the bedroom as he is in any other situation, and it made her dizzy.

She had just started seeing the oldest Cameron, and although she was a pogue through and through, he didn’t care. When it came to her, he was willing to bend all of his rules. She just had that effect on him.

Her moans spiral out of control as she bucks her hips onto his bare thigh, her clit rubbing against his skin harshly. Her arousal was coating his thigh, and he swore it was the hottest thing he had ever seen.

Her manicured nails dug into his arms, her head coming up from its place on his shoulder to look at him. His blue orbs glistened with lust, a sight she never thought she would see from the one and only Rafe Cameron.

“Good girl” he whispers, her pussy clenching around nothing at his seductive words. Rafe was rock hard, his desire for her overwhelming him as she got off on him, his self control crumbling a little more every time she moaned his name.

It took everything in him not to spin her around, pin her against the mattress and fuck her deep, but he knew better. He wanted to see her come undone just from the feeling of his skin.

He turned his attention to the bikini top she was wearing, reaching around to untie it from the back of her neck.

She came over to swim in his pool, the summer heat unbearable, but evidently they never made it that far.

He pulled her bikini top down, her breasts now on display for him. She wasn’t exactly the most experienced girl, and usually she would be self conscious, but for some reason it felt normal with Rafe. She could see the need for her in his eyes whenever they would see each other, and so she always felt comfortable and wanted around him.

He ran his thumb over her hardened nipple, his other hand still guiding her hips as she rode him. He then leant forward, his tongue latching on to her Nipple, swirling it around the sensitive bud. She whimpered above him, her blissful state apparent as he then observed her unfocused and lidded eyes.

“Rafe, i-“ she starts, cut off by her own moans as she reached her climax, her legs starting to spasm as she came undone. He helped her ride through her high, grinding her hips against his now drenched thigh, a groan leaving his lips as he took in the sight before him.

He planted warm kisses along her shoulder blade, her heavy breathing the only sound which occupied the room.

Hours later, she walked up the wooden steps on the chateau porch, a satisfied smile spread across her features at the memories of earlier.

The evening light was dim as she dug into her pocket for her keys, retrieving the small piece of metal, before unlocking the front door and walking inside.

“Where have you been” JJ says, her head turning to face him as he sits on the couch, the faint sound of the tv playing in the background.

A mix of emotions wash over her as his eyes meet his. If she was telling the truth, she would have to admit that she had been in love with JJ ever since they were little. He had always taken care of her, even when he was at his lowest, and for that reason her heart had always been his, hell maybe it still was. But she never had the guts to tell him how she felt, too scared of loosing the most important person in her life.

“Out” she says bluntly.

“All day?”

“Are you ganna keep grilling me for much longer J? Im exhausted” she says, walking over to dump her belongings on the chair next to the couch. She was being moodier than usual, and that’s when JJ knew something was up.

“Who were you with?” He asks, his protective nature apparent as he peers up at her from the couch, taking a swig of his beer.

“Just some friends” she says, a pang of guilt hitting her chest as soon as she said it. She hated lying to the person she loved the most, but she knew JJ wouldn’t approve of her and Rafe. Rafe had a reputation for being a spoilt kook that played with girls hearts, and no way would JJ let him mess with her.

JJ knew she was lying. He always managed to see straight through her, even when she put on her best poker face like she was right now.

“Bullshit” he said, standing up from the couch, his jaw clenched.

Although JJ was her whole world, she got seriously sick of waiting for him. She spent countless nights crying over her seemingly unrequited love, and she vowed that from now on, she would do whatever she could to be happy, even if that meant being with someone that wasn’t him.

She scoffed at him, running her hands through her hair, a reflection of her stressed out state.

“Goodnight, JJ” she says, annoyance laced in her voice as she stormed off to the spare room.

He observed her walking away from him, paying close attention to how her hips swayed so elegantly as her figure disappeared into the hallway. His features softened once she was out of sight, instantly regretting how harsh he was with her, before sitting back down on the worn-out couch, alone with his thoughts once again.

All your girlfriends are wasted

They need it, they chase it

Face it, you want it, you crave it

Believe when I say that you'll know once you taste it

The sun had just started to set as they pulled up to the kegger, a light breeze flowing through the air. The beach was swarmed with young adults, most of which were already drunk.

She sat around the fire with Sarah and Kiara, alcohol cursing through her veins. The boys had left to play beer pong, a perfect excuse for some girly chat. Once she was drunk enough, she finally plucked up the courage to tell her girlfriends the secret she had been hiding.

“I’ve kind of been seeing Rafe” she says to her friends, and Sarah’s eyes practically pop out of her head, Kiara’s wide eyes following shortly after.

“Oh my god” Sarah says, her face full of shock.

“please don’t be mad” she says, a quizzical look gracing her features as she internally cringes.

“I’m not mad” Sarah starts, a small chuckle leaving her lips. “I just always thought you would end up with JJ”

This time, it was her eyes widening. Kie gave Sarah a small glare, one that suggested she said something she shouldn’t have. She had never told anyone about her crush on JJ, surely it wasn’t that obvious?

“What makes you say that?” She asks, causing a crooked smile to form on Sarah’s face.

“Sarah, don’t” Kie says, but her attempts were halfhearted, their drunk states an inviting cause for gossip.

“Oh shush kie, the girl has a right to know” Sarah says, her amusement obvious as kie rolls her eyes.

“Oh my god, Sarah spill!” She says, her patience wearing thin.

“Okay, okay. JJ…likes you. He has for ages. I’m surprised you haven’t noticed.” Sarah says.

Her heart skipped a beat at Sarah’s confession, the words ringing in her head over and over again. JJ likes you.

“For real?”

“For real” Kie confirms, and suddenly, it was hard to breathe.

“Oh my god. I have to talk to him” she says, leaping up from her seat and making a beeline for the beer pong table, ignoring the shouts from the girls.

“JJ” she shouts, catching the blondes attention. He turns his head towards her, and time starts to slow.

“I- um can I talk to you? In private” she says, fidgeting with her fingers as she mentally begs her heart to stop beating so fast.

“Sure” he says, a confused look on his face. She grabbed his hand and dragged him all the way down to the shore, the music from the party acting as background music to their conversation. The sun had set by now, and the night sky cast a dim glow over them as they perched on the sand.

“What’s wrong?” He says, concern laced in his voice as they sat side by side, their heads turned to face one another.

“I- um” she starts, clearly not drunk enough for this conversation as her nerves got the best of her. JJ’s eyes were tinged with worry, scared something bad had happened.

He reached his hand out, resting it on her thigh, rubbing his thumb on her soft skin. Although it was a small and simple gesture, it was enough to set her skin on fire.

“Do…do you like me?”

JJ’s eyes widened, that was the last thing he was expecting her to say. The one thing he hated most in the world was his vulnerability, and here she was, asking him to pour his heart out to her.

The blonde retracted his hand from her thigh and shot up, eyebrows furrowed and lips pursed as he stands, preparing himself to lie through his teeth to the girl he has loved ever since they met.

“What- of course not, why would you think that?” He says, his tone harsh as he breaks her heart into two for what felt like the thousandth time. He knew he shouldn’t lie, that he should just grow some balls and tell her, but he was too scared of loosing her. So instead, his defences came up, and his exterior became cold.

She stood up to face him. “I don’t know, Sarah said-“ her words were cut off as he scoffed.

“That girl can’t keep her mouth shut, always bullshitting about something” he says, and her eyes began to water.

Her whole body felt like it was about to give way at any moment, her legs week as she faced the man that just broke her heart. Although she had genuine feelings for Rafe, JJ was always in the back of her head.

“Wow, my bad. I didn’t realise how disgusted you were by the idea of liking me” she said, vision blurry as her eyes started to sting. She needed to get out of there before JJ saw how distraught she was. She turned on her heel, practically sprinting away from him, heading back up to to the party.

He tried to put his arm out to stop her, but she shrugged him off instantly.

“Wait, no, that’s not what I- fuck” he says, throwing his cap onto the floor as he kicks the sand, his frustration evident as he once again watches her walking away from him.

She stormed back up to the crowds of drunk people, walking past the fire where her friends sat, ignoring them as they called her name. JJ returned to the party shortly after, slumping himself down next to kie, his head in hands as he lets out a sigh.

“What the hell did you do?” Kiara says, and not even JJ knew how to answer that question.

Just give me some time and space to realize

That you, were busy lying, sleeping 'round with other guys

After about twenty minutes of contemplation, it seemed she had ran out of options. She couldn’t go back to the chateau, not ready to face JJ yet. So, she turned to the only other person she knew that could make her feel better.

She gave the door a halfhearted knock, the tension in her shoulders somewhat subsiding as the front door opened.

“Hey” Rafe said, a mix of concern and confusion laced within his features as he peered down at her.

Without thinking, she practically leaped through the door, hooking her arms around his neck. He hugged her back immediately, his warm body making her melt into his arms as his hands snaked around her waist.

“I’m sorry, i didn’t know where else to go”

“Are you ok? What happened?” He said pulling back from the hug slightly so they were face to face. The way he was so concerned was warming her heart, already beginning to pick up the pieces that JJ broke.

“I don’t wanna talk” she said, meaning every word. Her need for Rafe had never been so strong, and she wanted nothing more than for him to take her pain away. Her eyes darted to his lips, then back up to his eyes, before she kissed him.

He was hesitant at first, but after a few seconds he kissed her back, lost in the feeling of her soft lips. He grabbed her thighs, hoisting her up so her legs were wrapped around his waist, kicking the front door shut before carrying her up the stairs.

When they reached his room, he threw her on the bed, her breasts bouncing through her top as she hit the mattress, and that was the moment Rafe realised he was completely and utterly infatuated with her. He took off his shirt, discarding it on the floor before climbing onto the bed, hovering over her petite frame.

“Have you been crying?” He says, the exposure to his bedroom light clearly showing the way her mascara was smudged under her eyes, her cheeks holding a faint redness. Rafes heart felt like it had sank to his feet as he looked at her, his blackened orbs once again filled with concern.

“Kinda. I had a fight with my friends” she said, partially telling the truth. She was expecting him to make a snarky pogue comment, but he never did. Instead, he ran his finger under her eyes, wiping away the evidence of her pain.

“Next time you cry, you call me straight away, okay?” He says, and her face lit up at his sweet words. “I will, I promise”

And then, he kissed her.

And what the hell were we?

Tell me we weren't just friends

This doesn't make much sense, no

But I'm not hurt, I'm tense

'Cause I'll be fine without you, babe

The next morning, Rafe dropped her off at the chateau, a cheesy grin painted on both their faces as he kissed her goodbye.

The warm fuzzy feeling that sat in the pit of her stomach was replaced with nervousness as soon as she got out of the car, walking round the corner to the front of the house. She froze as she saw JJ sitting on the wooden bench on the porch, the remains of a joint dangling from his mouth as he inhaled, letting the smoke engulf his probably damaged lungs. How was he always there whenever she came home?

“Who was that?” He says, his tone stern as he heard someone pull out of the driveway.

“No one” she said, making her way up to the front door. Her dainty hands reached for the doorknob, but JJ’s reflexes were quick. He chucked his joint, stood up and grabbed her arm, stopping her movements.

“You didn’t come home last night. I was worried sick. And now your hiding who you were with? What’s the matter with you?”

She scoffed, an obvious annoyance gracing her features as she rolled her eyes at the boy which once had her heart, the boy who used to be her everything. Now, her heart shattered just a little bit more every time she stared into those blue eyes.

“Fine. I was with Rafe. Is that what you wanna hear?” She said, and it was like a dagger sliced straight through JJ’s heart.

“Rafe? Is that a fucking joke, after everything he did to me and pope?” He shouts, referring to the multiple fights that the boys had with Rafe. Other than his father, JJ had never felt so betrayed by someone he loved, and if looks could kill, she would be dead in an instant.

“He’s changed. He’s not like that anymore”

JJ let out a sarcastic laugh. “Your so naive”

“Why do you even care who I’m with?” She said with sass, crossing her arms over her chest as she sent him a glare.

“I don’t-“

“Clearly you do. You always ask questions, your always too protective-“

“Your my friend, of course im-“

“look me in eyes, and tell me we’re just friends JJ” she says, her eyes practically burning holes into his blue orbs. His lips parted as she finished her sentence, his skin starting to grow hot.

It didn’t make sense to her. All those nights they spent together, cuddling up to watch a movie, or going for a late night swim after everyone else had gone to bed. Whenever she got too drunk at parties, he would take her home, take off her makeup for her and tuck her into bed. He had never done any of those things with anyone else, and she couldn’t fathom the possibility that he didn’t feel the same things she did.

What she didn’t know, was that JJ had always struggled with his feelings. He was never very good with words, and it was hard for him to express himself, even around the people he was most comfortable with. One thing he was good at though, was making impulsive descisions.

So, without putting too much thought into it, he leached forward, pinning her against the front door, their warm bodies pressed together. She gasped at the contact, her mouth agape as she studied his face. His face was littered with tiny cuts, his bruised features a perfect picture to her.

And without saying a word, he kissed her.

Heart on your sleeve like you've never been loved

Running in circles, now look what you've done

Give you my word as you take it and run

Wish you'd let me stay, I'm ready now

At first, she let herself sink into the kiss, her soft lips a stark contrast to his rough ones. His hands came up to cup her flushed cheeks, and she melted under his touch. Her insides practically caught alight as JJ’s tongue dove into her mouth, dominating hers instantly.

JJ groaned into her mouth at the taste of her, and that’s when she snapped back into reality.

“What the fuck” she shouts, pushing her best friend away from her small frame, her eyes wide as she tries to calm her beating heart.

“Shit. I’m sorry-“

“That’s not Fair, JJ. You can’t just kiss me” she says, eyes glossy as she peers up at him. JJ, however, couldn’t even look her in the eye.

“I just, I thought-“

“No. I’ve spent most of my life waiting for you to make a move. Waiting for you to admit that you feel the same things I do” she starts, and JJs gaze met hers then, his face softening at the realisation that she actually has feelings for him too.

“But instead, you denied it when I asked you, making me feel like a complete and utter idiot. Then, as soon as you find out I have feelings for someone else, you kiss me? What is wrong with you?” She says, her words shaky as she pours her heart out to him.

“You have feelings for him?” He asks, his jaw clenching as he asks the question.

After a few seconds, she nods her head, and the pain swimming around within JJ’s eyes did not go unnoticed by her, his stare falling to his shoes as he takes in the information.

JJ had never been so angry at himself. If he just grew some balls and told her how he felt a long time ago, none of this would have happened, and she would of been his. Now, she was someone else’s, and his sadness was completely suffocating.

“Huh” he says, nodding his head, a cold look on his face. “Do you have feelings for me?”

“I’ve had feelings for you since the day we met JJ” she replies, a single tear rolling down her cheek.

The blondes heart felt like it had split into a million pieces, spilling out of his chest at a rapid rate. He had never felt this type of heartache, and it was eating him alive.

“Then you have to choose” he says, bringing a finger up to wipe her tears away, her eyes fluttering shut at the contact.

“I can’t” she says, his efforts to stop her tears failing as they now pour out of her like a waterfall.

JJ shakes his head at her reply, face screwed up as he takes a few steps back from her, the disappointment laced within his features making her heart hurt.

“Then I’ll make it simple for you” he says, turning on his feet and walking away from the girl he once thought was his everything.

I'm not ready, eyes heavy now

Wish you'd let me stay, I'm ready now

I'm not ready, eyes heavy now

Wish you'd let me stay, I'm ready now

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I love this concept sm, If you guys want a part 2 with a happy ending let me know, but I’m kinda loving this angst era rn.

[oreomcflurrie]

heyheyhey

want

a kinda sad hc ab my cupbros’ mum & kd ??

TOO BAD UR GETTIN’ IT ANYWAY!

okay so like. yk how dice knows card magic ‘n’ all that? WELL THAT AINT MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE TO HIM; my ‘bros’s mum knew how to use the card magic aswell :DD (for/due to Lore Reasons i ain’t willing to reveallll)

she even taught mugs a few tricks back when they were a kid! - and then well. she got murdered died, & mugs swore off ever using ANY deck of cards EVER because it reminded them 2 much of her (well, ‘til kd caught mugman staring at him preforming his card tricks for the casino patrons one too many times and finally gave in and offered to teach ‘em how to use the damn things, ehehehehee. :3)

but YEAAAAAA,,, yk that’s actually y cuphead hates/keeps his distance (emotionally) from kd sm: the constant card symbolism reminds him WAYYYY too much of mintflavour (my ‘bros’s mum), just like it did mugman, but UNLIKE mugman, he’s never managed (so far) to push past that initial combo of fear-hate-reminder that kd initially made BOTH of the cupbros feel, sooo frenemies they shall unfortunately stay 😔 (UNLESS cuphead ever manages to, like i said, do what mugman did & get past that weird emotion mix)

guys its another one of x's hc drops

ok wait this is my fav one tho LIKE WAIT

also whats up with got murdered ⁉️⁉️⁉️ (i like angst btw)

[herejusttosufferalong]

Listen, new theory #1250 😄 Its almost like a fan fiction now 🤣🤣🤣

I think L is pressured from two sides. He is a people pleaser golden retriever, who would like to be cool guy for once.

-his friends want him to be the cool guy. Living it up. Serial dating is dangerous, they can be busted if a girl goes public and badmouthes them (happens a lot with celebrities, think B. Aff before Jlo, he had an almost scandal w a 28 yo). He almost got in trouble bc he flirted w a young girl on IG. But they do not want really serious thing either, hence young girls are picked up. First S, then A. They are more reliable than random girls on apps. The girls got exposure as return. I am not sure this communicated to them though. They are young, no family plans to worry about. Just Soho h and fun. Convenient, casual.

R is feeding him with the narrative the being N sidekick is not cool, it would be cooler to roll out the young hot gf.

- He has N and Bton. He is nice guy there, as Colin, as everybody expects him to be. He can comply with that, bc at home he is mama's good boy. He really likes Nick from the get go, during shooting has a crush on her. Its mutual. The whole cast and crew, including Shondaland and Netflix wants them together. When he is in this bubble, he has feelings.

He moves back and forth within these two words and two personalities. She sees it, let him go to figure out what he wants.

Sometimes his two personas it gets mixed up. I am pretty sure he can be a nice bf to A, and he stares at N like a f*ckboy sometimes.

A is getting nervous, wants her exposure, pressures him, wants compensation sg for being around.

He agrees bc he is remorseful for not being a good bf and unhingedly flirting w N (not for PR, he looks really horny w her many times)

He agrees to make the pap walk. His Pr team tells him not too, but he is pressured by A and influenced by R. He is nervous, tells Nick, they have a bit of a fall out in Ireland.

In London N is bit colder to him, although friendly, but more distant. He is trying to make up with her, he is touching her all the time. She of course does not like the idea, but what can she do.

She leaves afterparty early.

Pap walk happens, hell broke loose.

He is really troubled Milan) . But he is not working now, back with his toxic friends, who are telling him that its ok.

Nic is trying to help him, but she is also hurt..

When today she posts the appreciation post, she does not mention him. She is fed up.

I think she had feelings along the way, surfaced at shooting, then in the press tour.

But seeing him undecisive turns her down

Boy needs to get his sh*t together.

Tbc......

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[query-quadrant]

D✿ N✿T GIVE ME G✿✿D ADVICE PLEASE! I D✿N'T WANT IT!!!!!! BAD TERRIBLE H✿RRIBLE ADVICE ✿NLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

H✿W CAN I BREAK UP WITH S✿ME✿NE?! AND D✿N'T TELL ME T✿ JUST CULL THEM ✿R CULL THEM AND THEIR LUSUS THAT'S CLICHE AND N✿T EVEN BAD ADVICE! I WANT TERRIBLE IDEAS PLEASE!

I AM N✿T DATING ANY✿NE (YET!!!!!) BUT I WANT T✿ BE FULLY PREPARED!

ok thats kind of hilarious its definitely a bad idea to enable this but sure heres a variety pack of dubious advice

bad advice:

1: fake your death but badly like really badly shit tier faking im talking rubber knife really bad fake blood and a dramatic death speech that goes on forever dont even wait a full minute before you open one eye to check if theyre still there then fully ghost them later get all your hatefriends in on it too have them act really upset and offended whenever they ask about you all "how fucking dare you they died last week"

2: fake your death but really really good and convincing make sure they fully believe it and then run into them at the store in either a comically short amount of time like a couple nights or a really long amount of time idk feel it out this is your moment for artistic expression but anyway then you gotta act like you have no idea what theyre talking about when they question you about it

3: literally mid date ask them for advice on asking someone else out in the quadrant youre supposed to be in bonus points if its a mutual friend

4: cull someone elses lusus and leave an insanely dramatic breakup note in their hive and pretend like you got them mixed up especially if they dont look like your guy and theyre not even the same caste as your datemate moirail kismesis matesprite whatever quadrant

there you go dont do any of these things or do im not your moirail

[gakupo7]

hi finnian!!!! this is eric, i remade! how have u been?! i've been having a ball personally. love U buddy 🫶

HI ERIC!!! ^_^ Wow new blog that's pretty crazy, haven't you had the same one in all our years of mutualing? Unless IM crazy and misremembering... Crazy...? I was crazy once. They locked me in a room. A rubber room. A rubber room with rats. Rats make me crazy! Anyways nice new blog! Love the Solaris canon url ^_^ Now anytime you like my posts it'll be like, Solaris approved 👍 And... is Muller his last name? 🧐 That would feel fitting because Muller in writing sounds a little like Mullet and Solaris seems like the type of guy that would have a mullet except he doesn't but maybe he does in his heart?

Its wonderful to hear you're having fun!! I'm doing quite alright also, well you know, work's pretty good, but I also have to set a normal study schedule because I'm going insane, I decided to take the Panellhnies again this year, you understand... BUT you know something beautiful?!? It was a grand discovery... Since I went to an EPAL high school instead of a general one, the subjects for health are different and... Guess what...

NO CHEMISTRY OR PHYSICS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For now... But instead of those two, FOR NOW, it'll be anatomy-physiology and, uh, how would you say it in English... hygiene-microbiology... :) Well of course it can't all be sunshine and rainbows, so, to my understanding there is a two chapters of algebra to study as well, but that's still SO MUHC BETTER than physics... Well of course there is also the problem of I don't really understand all those academic systems, and my specific situation complicates the whole thing a bit more for me, but I'm sure it'll all work out as it should, so there's no need to worry really, just do what needs to be done... Figure out along the way... Alright...

Oh and I've been writing more frequently... And I finished Great Expectations... Very mixed feelings... Honestly, on the day that I finished it, right before picking it up one last time to finish it, I was like OK, I have just a little bit left, and this is literally one of THE BEST BOOKS I have ever read, it was such a crazy experience, and I don't often cry when reading, but with this incredible book... Both lots of tears of sadness, and many tears of joy... It's crazy... Crazy... Wonderful... Incredible... I'm so happy it exists as a book and a story... But, just a couple chapters before ending, that... Charles Dickens oh he pulled out the weirdest, dumbest twist on Earth WITH one of my favorite characters EVER. I DID NOT LIKE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And the impact was so bad, my mood was ruined for the rest of the afternoon.

What-ever... I still think it's a precious book, and cherish the time spent with... I'll have to reread it sometime to fully digest that stupid sucking Oh thanks autocorrect That stupid sucking twist. I can't believe it it was just so bad. But anyways as I said not the entirety of the book was ruined OK...

Anyways, apologies, my rambling... ^_^ Thank you for your listening. Eric you have a beautiful night OK!!!!!!!!!!!!

[persy-r-bozo]

Ok ima yap about my shit. and its wither gonna BE THE SHIT or just be shit. You decide‼️

But I often wonder what will happen if all the trio saw Roy again.

Roy is broken(either done by lesley or his own actions.)

but dispite being broken husk is so many ways. he is the most grounded most intact thing of thier pasts. of what they used to be. (Weather you think they used to be humans or more mentaly stable puppets, it doesn't matter, both work)

And I get curious and silly I think of what might happen if he was seen again.

• We already saw Yellow. He loves him, but that feeling issnt very mutual. He flinched before roy even touched him. And when he leaves the house he just quietly says goodbye. Perhaps this world is casueing him to forget why he even loved him in the first place, maybe that's a good thing. But maybe that's just what lesley wants.

It's just another mental journey yellow was to take alone.

• Duck is more intresting . As I don't know much about him. I find him harder to read. (So any big duck fans feel free to add if you wish :] )

I like to think duck and Roy used to be friends. And this relationship was more mutual feeling than yellows for sure. I could go on about this interpretation of duck and Roy forever.

But maybe some other time.

If duck were to see Roy I feel he'd remeber the feeling of safety he felt. But he'd be disgusted his the broken spindley crature in front of him.

He wouldn't understand why the Best guy, feels so small next to something so ugly.

• But red guy!!!

I can read red guy well I like to think.

Guilt and anxiety ruined guy he is. Repressed feeling mf.

But if red saw roy. This is more of a I wish thing. beacuse I think it be neat. But I'd like to think red would get Angry. Like savagely angry.

He doesn't remember or even know why He Hates this random man living in his walls. He doesn't know why he's chasing him down so relentlessly. Why he bares his jagged mixed teeth. Why he feels so strongly and why he just Needs to get him. He doesn't remeber why. All he'd remember is the betrayal he felt. The hate he feels now.

That this guy needs to be broken more.

(Plus i really like it when characters get so angry everything else is thrown out the window but violence. It's so scary and hard to pull of creatively and I just think red would be perfect for it :3

But this is just me yapping. If you disagree that's chill. I love to yap about everyone's views.

☆Certified yapper honey☆

But yea. :]

[checkoutmybookshelf]

10 Characters 10 Fandoms 10 5 Tags

Rules: choose 10 favorite characters from 10 different fandoms -- no double dipping! Then tag friends or mutuals to complete the game as well.

Tagged by @apocalypticavolition (who I extremely blame for making me pick favorites. I am now the Miette meme sending this mutual to jail for 1,000 years)

Top 10

Jaina Solo of the Star Wars Expanded Universe (technically its now the Legends Continuity, but fuck Disney for that) - The unhinged drama that the extended Skywalker and Solo clans has a special place in my heart, but Jaina's A+ mix of badassery, trauma, angst, communication issues, and severe allergy to feelings makes every stage of her life an absolute treat to watch. That and the fact that she is the last Solo kid standing as of Disney's murder of the EU makes her the best in my book. Teenage me DESPERATELY wanted to be Jaina Solo. Adult me wants to give her a hug and take her out for a synthale.

Lady Sybil Ramkin Vimes of Discworld - This might be a low-key surprise pick, since I have previously cited Granny Weatherwax and Sam Vimes as Discworld favorites, but Lady Sybil also holds a special place in my heart, because she is literally an amazing partner to Sam without losing any of her own interests and personality. She is also a complete badass in a quiet, competent way that adult, married me would give literal years of her life to have. And then there was the time she absolutely let Serafine HAVE IT because she was pregnant, being held hostage, and Sam's life was in danger, but the goddamn tipping point was that Serafine DIDNT RESPOND TO THE ANNUAL LETTERS. Perfection.

Iskierka from the Temeraire series - She breathes fire, she is a holy terror, and she is basically a pirate masquerading as a soldier. Iskierka is a queen without equal.

Briar Moss from the Circle Universe - I just desperately want to give this poor traumatized boy a hug, but he already has three sisters and two mothers to do that for him. I genuinely think Briar's three books are the best written and executed in the Circle Universe, and his journey feels deeply grounded in a way that the girls' don't, because within their origins and cultures, the girls all came from some level of privilege. Briar is a grounding force that I deeply appreciate.

Dau from the Warrior Bards trilogy - Dau, much like Briar, is in desperate need of a hug. Another traumatized boy, but his one literally has to go on a three-book arc to learn how to feel his feelings and how to people. Basically, we have to socialize him, and watching Liobhan try to do that is by turns hilarious, heartbreaking, and rage-inducing. Dau tries so hard that he makes everything about five times harder than it has to be.

Lan Chitward from the Valdemar Universe - OK, I might prefer guys who need hugs, because Lan is a beautifully executed tragic hero. This kid ends up half trained and sans mentor and support system on the front lines of a war with his lifebonded partner and the phyrric victory claims both their lives. Before that though, Lan gets to speed run found family, and it's just delicious because it twists the knife even deeper. I have my issues with Mercedes Lackey, but in Lan she nailed a tragic, doomed hero.

Penelope Featherington from Bridgerton - The Netflix series is objectively better than the book series, but even in the books Pen is my favorite. Our girl is a WRITER, and she isn't afraid to use that skill. There also aren't enough writer protagonists out there, so shoutout to this lovely one.

Fire from the Graceling Universe - Fire is a fascinating protagonist because she is quite literally a monster, and just existing in the world for her is an exercise in understanding what humanity is...even in those humans who lack it.

Ikenna from the Blood Gift universe - Our beautiful murder barbie is inimitable and frankly I want there to be MORE books with her. And murder barbie speaks to my heart in some extremely specific ways.

Nyneave Al'Meara from the Wheel of Time - *yanks braid, smooths skirts* Literally if I didn't pick her, Nyneave would walk out of those books and come for my head, and I would have no choice but to agree with her because she is very much the best.

@giaelesramblings

@iliiuan

@tatithetinybooktuber

@lillywhitefield

@reddy-reads

[pokegalla]

Small note: Here’s a small mini series of short stories for the game Obey Me! I just recently got into the game so I thought of making a fun little project of chaos of my sona and mutual’s sona deal with the demon bro’s shenanigans✨ enjoy✨ (Let me know if I should write more!)

Rebel belongs to @veiled-rebel

Lisa belongs to me

Lesson 1

I yawn as me and my friend Rebel were traveling universes again and ended up crashing at the current universe we’re in. It was common for us to get lost every now and then as universe hopping can be pretty difficult sometimes. But this time….I think I really messed up. Because now….we’re going to be stuck living with 7 demon brothers for a year.

A few hours earlier……

“GAH-“

“SHIT WAIT-“

We fell right into the middle of a random conference room where several guys were having a discussion and they look at us confused. But one helped us up.

“Apologies for the rough travel my friends! Are you two alright….?” The red haired man said.

“We’re good sir…uh….” Rebel blinked a few times before realizing where we were. They quickly nudged me, “Lisa. We need to go….NOW. Cmoooooon-“

I looked a little confused by their sudden nervousness, “Ok ok calm down. The portals just probably got mixed up….I’ll fix it.”

But when I tried to resummon it. Nothing….happened? This….this never happened before. Sure I mess up spells before but never to this extent! I try again and again and AGAIN until….

”AHHHH! MY MAGIC!!! ITS COMPLETELY GOOOONE!” I sulk in the corner, “I’ve failed you my friend. If we must die, please all that I ask is that may it please be swift?”

Rebel sweatdropped, “Dude seriously….?”

A pink haired man laughed, “What a dramatic way to go out I’ll say. Almost noble….”

A blonde guy sweatdropped, “Jeez she was quick to accept death that quickly…?”

“Lord Diavolo. I do not mean to question your leadership in anyway….but what in the world is this…?” The raven haired man asked the guy who helped us up.

Diavolo laughed, “For my exchange program of my school of course! I’d like for these two to be apart of this learning experience!”

“Wait….what? You summoned us here for that?” Rebel tilted their head, curious but wary. They knew they were demons so they had to be careful around them….especially since I was just human.

“Why of course! The purpose of this program is to bring peace to humans, angels, and demons of this world. And you and your human friend seem like the ideal candidates for this program!” Diavolo said proudly, “If that’s alright with you of course.”

“Sure. Sounds like a nice ideal. Unity is my kinda thing too,” The guys turn to see me, now looking more motivated.

“……were you not just crying in the corner begging for a swift death?” The raven haired man asked with a brow raised.

“Well now I’m here and interested. So shush. Stop complaining,” I put a finger up to shush him much to everyone’s fear. “I’ll be delighted to take part of the program.”

“…..eh fuck it. If she’s going, I’ll join as well. As long as we remain together at least….” Rebel said with a shrug.

Diavolo nods, “Of course. I’ll allow it. As long as you don’t mind living with my student council of course. As your friend has seemed to post her powers, she’ll need protection. As well as you if necessary. They are the 7 brothers as well as the avatars of sin. That over there is Lucifer, the avatar of pride. He’ll be the one taking you in.”

……me and Rebel slowly look up at Lucifer in horror. Who looked livid as I still had my finger up still.

I move my hand away, “……s-sorry sir.”

Surprisingly, he just laughed it off, “I’ll let you off the hook just this once. After all you didn’t know who I was. But I can ensure it won’t happen again….correct? Besides let us get you aquatinted with my brothers and where you two will be sleeping…” I feel like he just low key threatened me there….I flip him off when he turned around but Rebel stopped me. This was already gonna be a pain…..Lucifer could see it. But if that’s what Lord Diavolo wants, he’ll just have to deal with us.

And now here me and Rebel are, after getting settled in and introduced to all the brothers, I sit in my new bed thinking about everything that happened. What the fuck am I doing? Agreeing to this shit?! I’m officially insane!

“Lisa…..It’s late. Don’t just be sitting there in the dark. You look scary as fuck-“ Rebel mumbled.

“First of all fuck you. Second of all that’s just rude- …..and I’m just uh thinking and stuff. I mean I’m not worried about staying here. But was this a good idea…? I mean I don’t fully know much about this universe,” I admit.

Rebel turned to me, “Well to be frank? Just be careful Lisa. In this world you’re just a regular human so all you gotta do is be careful because demons here will probably target you. So as much as you wanna get along with everyone, you have to be more wary around others, K? That also means tone down on the sass….”

“……man fuck Lucifer-“ I huff already knowing what they were indicating.

“If you have time to flap that mouth of yours, you have enough time to close your eyes and SLEEP,” Lucifer said from our doorway making us jump. “You have classes tomorrow. Do NOT be late…”

With that he left. Ugh what was his problem? He already annoys me. But me and Rebel ended up dozing off together. Hopefully tomorrow is a better day. But I really need to get stronger now that I have no magic…..I can’t rely on some demons we just met. Hm Maybe I can find a gym or training area tomorrow. Yeah that could provide something! I’ll make sure to go there right after classes!

…..if I can even find it.

[bladeoftruths]

ok so while im at it i guess i'll just share my thoughts on ff16's story overall since i have a fair share of yays, nays and other abt it. SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT!

the yays:

- the prologue is still a banger no matter how many times u watch it. it was such a solid opening.

- cid's arc is a banger, even tho im sad that he died halfway thru the story but this is final fantasy. your cid can either live or die so that mid could run, or vice versa.

- jill's arc is my favourite. killing your abuser is ok but again, i have a bias with her.

- i like that they give each of the main cast a time to spend with clive in respective arcs.

- kaiju battles. yes i am a sucker for that. i grew up watching tokusatsu so this is nothing new to me. titan fight is my favourite among all, bahamut second.

- clive and jill's slowburn romance is just AUGHENSKSKDKS I FRICKIN LOVE IT. the mutual pining, the slowburn and the payoff just feels... AUGHHHHHH GRAAAAHHHHH SO EFFING GOOD I CANT DESCRIBE IT IN WORDS *eats a brick everytime i see them hold hands, hug or kiss*

- the worldbuilding is also good especially in the sidequests.

- i like how they portrayed dion and terence's relationship. its not everyday u get to see a well written gay relationship that didnt feel fetishized. we need more of this. also they are both childhood pals to lovers so it hits a soft spot on me.

- the side characters are also loveable in their own right!! enough to be in the top 10 even.

- i think im lowkey glad that they decided to go for an all white/white passing cast for the game bcos god some parts of the game is super fucked up esp wrt the bearers and how the ppl of valisthea treated them. i cannot imagine the sheer backlash yoshiP and his team will get if they have a brown/black/asian character in especially if they are bearers/dominants :')

nays:

- i didnt like how benedikta just comes and goes at the same arc. like i really wish we get to know her more or at least, after she went berserk she could at least be saved so that cid could take her in and we get to know her more. GIVE US A DLC, CBU3!!!

- waloed arc to me is my biggest downer. i want to know more abt waloed. i want to know more about barnabas and how did he get influenced by ultima. the part after jill gives away shiva's power to clive at the shadow coast just... drops and until they arrived at drake's spine it just feels... eh to me. kinda like the idyllshire/hinterlands arc in HW (given that ff16 story is written by the same guy who wrote HW in FFXIV, i am not even surprised).

- i understand that they want to make waloed and origin arc the time where clive and joshua finally gets to bond together but damn i wish they didnt just leave out jill like that in the last two arcs. poor girl, let her fight even tho she can no longer use her eikon power anymore.

- i know i have beef with waloed arc but god, odin fight is so underwhelming. no kaiju battle??? i sleep.

- i want to know more abt the rest of the dominants apart from the rosfield bros!! jill's life before she was sent to rosaria, dion in general, kupka's backstory and his relationship with benedikta, cid in general, benedikta again and again, barnabas. hell, i also wanna know more abt leviathan. GIVE US THE DLC OR FIT IN THEIR LORE IN THE ULTIMANIA!!!

- i think most of us agree that the sidequests were better at telling the worldbuilding and character insight more than the msq itself. the msq focused a little too much on clive over how he and the comrades react to the world around them.

- i think we also agree that we need more characters bantering over each other especially the dominants. im sad that dion didnt get to interact with clive and jill more, nor even we get to see the rosaria trio bantering and reminiscing the good times together at the hideaway.

other thoughts:

- i'm very mixed abt the ending tbh. i like the ambiguity and open endedness a la FF tactics but at the same time WTF??? i was high on copium when i first see thru the ending but now that i looked back my brain is just on hopium. im just gonna cling to the subtle hints that were mentioned in the game where they point out clive, dion and joshua SOMEHOW survived.

- i dont get people saying that ff16 didnt feel like final fantasy... like all FFs are different in its own right?? ff15 is like contemporary modern meets fantasy, ff6 is steampunk fantasy, ff4 is fantasy with airship... the settings are different sure but as long as you have crystals being the core part of the story, as well as anime fights with giant monsters and summons plus its own unique FF-schtick its still a final fantasy.

- i also dont get the hate on 16 for being more game of thrones-ish... like this is not the first FF to have gone this route. you have effing FF tactics being the first one to do that. the only difference is how they present it. i personally feel that 16 deserves the M-rating so much bcos of how technological advances gives you more creative freedom on how u want to tell the story. back in the day you could only work with what u have so yasumi matsuno really had to restrict with how he want to write the story for tactics. also his writing inspired the ff16 writing team a lot if u notice. and while this is not the first final fantasy game to get an M-rating (FFO did it first) it is the first mainline to get one.

overall i think the game isnt bad nor is it perfect. it manages to hit the right spot but at the same time i have my fair share of nitpicks. i just hope that it makes enough sales on ps5 and wait for the announcement of a pc release bcos god i would still love to play this game even if i probably suck at action rpg games.

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omake: my favourites among the cast overall:

boys (top 5):

- dion, clive, cid, joshua, gav (bonus: byron)

girls (top 5):

- jill, mid, tarja, martha, isabelle 'the dame' (im so sorry benedikta u deserved better :'))

all (top 5)

- jill, dion, clive, cid, joshua

i have a soft spot for jill bcos she is very much reminded me of ysayle and im weak to ice coded ladies, and dion is just aymeric but a dragoon and bahamut fucker. i know what u did there CBU3

and this comes to no surprise but i fucking love clive/jill. i am weak to childhood pals to lovers with a mix of mutual pining and angsty slowburn romance, and they just hit the right spot for me. im so glad they managed to pull off an adult slowburn romance for them so well auuughhhhhh

[runthepockets]

The craziest thing about transitioning and primarily dating / fucking a lot of trans women is watching them do shit to me that my traumatized high school ex girlfriend did to both boys her age and older men a lot of the time; using me and my sexuality as an easy source of validation. I can count on two hands the amount of times a trans woman has put the moves on me and seen me as an easy lay, only to chicken out or fly off the handle when I reciprocate or try to do anything irl, much like my ex girlfriend did with her male friends. Sex is a power thing in these situations, a source of social capital and control rather than a genuine means of bonding or connecting with another human being, which is why they see it as ok to approach me with shallow intent, but not the inverse. Somewhat like when your mom has a bad day at work and yells at you over trivial shit like having socks on the floor in your room, it's a way to regain that autonomy and time that's stolen and beaten out of you.

And I mean, I get it. Look at how our society treats women and girls and their sexualities. There are several derogatory words and phrases in the English language alone that condemn women for wanting anything, women in tv and film for decades now have had nothing to offer except their breasts hips and asses, femme fatale tropes were pretty much everywhere from the 80s to the mid 2010s, the MeToo movement of the last decade, conflicting ideas in feminist spaces that give little to no consideration of intersectionality, throw being a trans woman in a patriarchal society in the mix and of course you're going to walk away with some screwed up ideas about sexuality. Hell, even as a guy who wasn't the primary target of a lot of that shit, I have some pretty screwed up ideas of it myself. Tbh after years of being a social nobody, it's kinda nice to be that sort of beacon of male authority for somebody that clearly wants approval in a way I can provide by just, existing. I'm a horny, straight, masculine guy, and I like female attention. We're both getting validation of some sort out of it. It's definitely a mutual thing, and it's kinda cool. It's one of those things that's gender affirming, even if it's in a very roundabout and vaguely disrespectful way.

But still, I'm a human being. All institutional and political connotations aside. I have feelings and needs, I very rarely harbor resentment or malice, so while I absolutely sympathize with these women and their traumas and try to be patient, I wish they would grant me the same graces. I really fucking hate that our society has screwed women over so much and continues to do so so often that even in trans spaces this kind of stuff is unavoidable. "Men only want one thing" taken to its logical extreme is kinda the overarching theme in all this. It feels like shit being seen as disposable or an easy quick lay / itch you need to scratch that you never have to think about again when I actually, genuinely am attracted to and care about trans women as friends and lovers, and actually want to build relationships with a lot of them instead of being seen as a walking dildo. Like I said, this mindset isn't entirely new and it's not the fault of any singular woman, nor is it unique to trans people, this has been a recurring pattern in spaces where marginalized men and women date each other since the fucking dawn of time. But damn is it frustrating. I wanna write a case study on shit like this when I'm older and significantly more secure.

[melodythebunny]

hi can ask stuff about the beta au?

If so

How come mr.charming and carrie are together instead of carrie and two brains???

What happend to the next gen kids? Do they not exist?

(Sorry if this sounds rude. ^^;)

(Its ok :3)

Before i answrr your first question let me do a quick recap/explaination

So basically the facility still experimented on her like in og verse. However the circumstances are different. They brainwashed carrie N told her that they saved her from dying. According to them all her family and friends died due to a villian attack.

She accepted that bc well she didn't have anyone else say otherwise and couldn't remember anything. So no breakout or anything happens which means she doesn't meet dr. Two brains. (Yet)

Whilst in training she did run into (quiet literally the first time XD) mr. Charming. In this au he is an agent that works there.

And the people in charge decided to set them up together. Reasons well that be found out later

As for her feelings for mr. Charming i will say they are genuine. (And its mutual) Unlike og carrie after experimentation, she is very Opened as opposed to being closed with sharing her thoughts and concerns with her partner. She doesn't remember her truama or past issues.

She thinks they're helping the world by geting rid of the bad guys. Really ironic considering said bad guys arent the ones corrupt and killing people off. Not that she knows that.

HOWEVER-

Once she starts doing missions in fair city and interacting with some villians she realizes 'hey this isn't how they said villians are like' she sees a different side to them. And because she still trust the people she work she assumes there's been a mistake or mix up. She goes and voices her concerns . and they don't like that . so they take her back to the labs and scramble up her brain again.

Rinse and repeat

Will carrie be able to break free AND stay free from the brainwash? Who knows.

Either way..her brain is going to give out eventually.

And for your second question

Chase would still exist. And so would the rest of the next gen kiddos. Well except for janus Apollo and blu

Mr. Charming - @ninjastormhawkkat

[nihiltism]

since ive been too College to have enough art for any sort of summary im just gonna put a general year end rundown of what i feel i did best on this year!!

i think every year since i figured out that i dont need to use pens to line has just gotten better art wise for me. FUCK lining. pencils are my best friends forever and ever and can do your job better than you ever could. anyway apologies for some of these drawings being crunchier than others, i only recently got a scanner and Cannot be assed to scan my old art for this post rn.

also the first art here is a hatoful boyfriend spoiler. i mean i guess the last one is too but its vaguer i think. anyway. none of these are actually analyses of what i learned with each art im just braining

april 5th-

you guys know this one i REALLY like it. why in the goddamn were my best pieces this year hatoful boyfriend. anyway i uh. hey did you know that i didnt do the notgeki with graphite because i like mixed media. i did it because i have not owned a grey pencil for my some-teen years of drawing ever. i only JUST got a grey pencil like. a couple months ago. i mean im good with graphite i would have done it like that anyway but. yeah. anyway this was abt the height of my beginning hatoful fix and Also indirectly what got me to meet like a bunch of my mutuals here!! i did. not know there was a hatoful community. and because That i actually started using tumblr so!! hey thanks hitori. i need to do more birdform art.

april 15th -

this motherfucker! ill be. completely honest i dont have a lot of feedback for a lot of my graphite art bc ive Been doing this. ok actually yknow what i will say. there is a limit for how dark something can be with graphite and i Very much remember going over the inside of the cloak So Much. this was my pet project during my weekly 3 hour long lecture so god bless it. also i do still like how i did the eye. can i draw eye guys exclusively please.

july 3rd -

not really Art im proud of but!! holy shit i dont design often and i dont hate this!! this is at least in part thanks to my gf. my gf knows how to clothes better than i do so i did ask them for help. also i really need to scan this one. or maybe draw her a new ref. anyway (holds up celine) look at her. look at the silly.

september 6th -

this one was a trade for my friend raicatty and. also something i probably should have scanned. but its fine. anyway this one did teach me something and its To Line Your Damn Pieces Darker. lining with the color that youre going to be coloring in is kind of Asking For Disaster if it overlaps with others and u can. see that. this is a bit imparseable. but its also pretty. and thats all that really matters. a fun fact for when i ever do commissions is that being allowed to use this purpley pink pencil i have will make me really happy. its so pretty.

OERSHRIMP INTERLUDE

OERSHRIMP INTERLUDE

november 13 -

forgive me for including a sketch in this but YOU DONT UNDERSTAND IVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO DRAW HUMANS. like. NEVER. much less in an actual decent pose. (god bless adorkastock) im So very delighted by this oboromaru and hes!! like!! one of my least favorite characters!! (not to say i dislike him hes just lower). i dont know what happened here!! if this wasnt at the very back of my Sketchbook I Just Put Away Because It Was Falling Apart id say id finish this one later. rip. he and that dark daroach sketch i had there can just vibe i guess.

aaand the big one. december 8th -

things i learned from this one! 1. the scanner did not pick up the red lines very well! 2. scanners are good! 3: NEVER do a full page project again! buuut i do want to say i am like. insanely proud of this one. its the first art ive done i can really say has any sort of Composition and im so delighted that it turned out just as cool as it looked in my head. also this took forever and i could have easily messed it up Multiple times in the process. so god bless.

[nixii-sabre]

ykw fuck it im tagging people for this bc im silly

@chaoticgoober mix of H and D

@bongocongocaveman F, D and B. dont ask why.

@xenomorphicdna A and G for no fukcing reason

@jaguarfrankie E, B and H. Love u pooks <3

@kakyogay G and E

@freemonngo D and B

@atomarium B, E, and G

@sapphicdib if its ok to ping u… D and G

I havent heard most of your guys’ voices but i feel like u would sound like these., /pos

Also. Already reblogged them but still tagging bc ily /p

@much-significant-harassment D and A

im actually afraid to tag druid idk how tf we’re mutuals (edit)