#its not ride or die its *live* its live with eachother even if world is pulling apart even if not supposed to even if it could be better

[tittysuckersworld]

what if, hear me out, well never have sex soukoku animatic? eh eh?

[do-you-ship-this-comic-ship]

propaganda:

THE canon comic book couple OF ALL TIME. They are SUPERVILLAINS. they are FRENCH. They are QUEER. They are a SUPER INTELLIGENT GORILLA and A LIVING BRAIN IN A JAR. They have both died multiple times, yet have inexplicably come back with zero explanation, thereby making them canonically immune to the burry your gays trope. They have historic beef with a group of ACTUAL TEENAGERS. Oh yeah, and did I mention they are A GORILLA AND A BRAIN. They are the embodiment of how batshit insane superhero comic book lore can get in the best way possible. 

Basically, their backstory is Brain was once a human scientist who took a wild silverback gorilla and raised his IQ to 178 with the power of mad science experiments, originally planning on implanting his own brain into Mallah’s body. But seeing how intelligent Mallah became and becoming attached to him, the scientist couldn’t bring himself to go through with the experiment, instead making Mallah his lab assistant. Then the scientist gets his body burnt to a crisp in a lab “accident”, which may or may not have been orchestrated by his rival, Niles Caulder (and tbh thats probably the case considering the other shady shit The Chief’s done but that’s another can of worms entirely), and Mallah saved him by transferring his brain to a jar-like life support vessel. Thus starting the scientist now known simply as The Brain’s mission to get revenge on Caulder and take over the world, becoming an arch villain to the Chief’s team the Doom Patrol and later the Teen Titans. Mallah and Brain would pretty much be your basic henchman and villain duo for most of thier existence… UNTIL Grant Morrison’s Doom Patrol run in the early 90s, where after stealing one of Doom Patrol member’s Robotman’s spare robot bodies, Brain and Mallah confesss thier love for eachother, sharing a kiss… before the robot body housing Brain explodes and kills them both.  

Don’t worry though, they got better.  

What I find most insane about Mallah and Brain, you know, apart from the fact one of them is a whole ass gorilla and the other is just a brain in a jar. And the fact Grant Morrison and other writers not only had the sheer audacity to make such a bonkers and strangely disturbing couple canon, but stick with it being so, is that fact that their relationship is… genuinely compelling??  

Like, there are so many stories where their motivation is just getting brain necessities like a new body. Because he longs to feel simple sensations again like being able to smell flowers or drink tea (and also fuck nasty with Mallah, as he deserves). And Mallah is 100% ride or die for Brain and does everything in his power to help him. From trying to break him out of a prison ship while fighting superheroes Apollo and Midnighter, to the aforementioned finding him a new body, to kidnapping an orchestra to play for Brain because the tickets to thier show were sold out and felt bad about not getting brain tickets. More often than not, especially with the body stuff, its foiled or tragically backfires, but Mallah never stops trying to give his partner a better life and make him happy. Even if it means them both being doomed in some way. It’s both bizarre yet compellingly tragic and oddly beautiful.  

Plus there are a ton of smaller moments between them, like their old married couple energy bickering, Brain venting to Mallah about how no-one in the hero or villain community takes them seriously, to them chillin’ in bed together having a philosophical debate over what kind of dancer god would be. 

 In spite of how bat shit insane their relationship is, and all the evil things they’ve done as villains, you can’t help but be endeared by them and low key kinda root for them. 

Even though in the main line comics, brain and Mallah are broken up as of the latest Unstoppable Doom Patrol run, with brain dead (thanks to Mallah betraying and murdering him) and Mallah going off to do his own thing by taking over a city with the other villainous DC apes in the Ape-ril Special one shot (which I mean tbh good for him), someone at DC seems to have as much of a soft spot for these two as much as I do. Since they’ve appeared as a couple in other recent DC continuities/adaptations, such as the Peacemaker Tires Hard miniseries and, of course, My Adventures With Superman. Which I am more than happy about.  

Don’t get me wrong, I completely understand why most people wouldn’t be a fan of Brain and Mallah and their ship for… several reasons. But come on man! It’s a French Gorilla and a Brain in a jar who are supervillains and madly in love! How can you stay mad at a canon queer ship that delightfully bonkers!? 

[ferdihound]

Alton OC lore/facts thing :3

at alton towers (fictional one in my head), there are human versions of the rollercoasters that are AI android things. they are all sentient.

from the thrills to the family attractions, there are androids for the rides. (i have yet to design them, trust)

their bodies were built during their construction

every android is sentient AI, some know that they're ai and accept it, some dont know. they get in relationships with eachother, they have friendships, siblings, and enemies, rivalries, ect.

they also get phones... but have restrictions on what they're allowed to say sometimes

more is under the cut incase anyone wants to read. tw for mentions of death

the androids CANNOT leave the park.

why? because they'll either die, or get shut down until retrieved... and there have been many cases of the androids trying to be free.

the known cases of escaped androids are: (these are the coasters i know abt)

oblivion - the old body was never found, just rebuilt into the oblivion we know now. (this is reference to the the queue line video where a ride-car thing went missing) this was before smiler was built.

enterprise - ran away because she heard she was gonna be taken down... but she didnt know that she'd die anyway if she tried to escape. this happened to the old rides at the x-sector too.

nemesis - ran away, was found, and rebuilt into nemesis reborn. her old memories of nemesis is hidden somewhere.

air - the second he left the alton grounds, he died. body was found when galactica was being made.

thats all i have for the deaths for now :3

anyway time for me to yap about my main characters Oblivion and Smiler and how being trapped at Alton effects their mental ai health... and facts about them. time for absolute nonesence because i wanna talk about them

tw for alcoholism

Smiler handles being trapped at Alton since birth kind of well. he has everything he needs. he has the Ministry, his secret lab that not even Alton knows about (because they'll take it away), only Oblivion and the Ministry know about it. in the lab he does actual marmalisation, medical malpractice, ect... yeah he's evil sorry guys. so since he has everything he needs, he's pretty content... at first.

he started getting tired of being treated as an attraction (which he is) and wants some fucking respect (he gets respect from the Ministry, thankfully.), so he started being a bit rude after a year of living. as the years went on, he acts like how he does now.

Smiler snaps often when ordered around by anyone because he has a big ass ego and thinks he deserves respect and thinks hes better than everyone becasue he's THE Smiler.

his AI mind has been around before the rollercoaster was built, so he's alot older because it was kept somewhere by the Ministry for years. (im working on it)

he barely gets a break, he has to work everyday and literally gets paid nothing because he lives at Alton (in the x-sector).

now onto how Oblivion handles shit.

Oblivion... he's been around for 26 years. everything gets boring for him, guests feel the same, everything feels the same. he wants to be outside of Alton because he has places he wants to go. he wants to be able to go to pubs, concerts, raves, ect.

after being at Alton for like years, he picks up drinking because he wants to feel something... the same thing everyday really dulled his emotions. ever since the others at the x-sector died, his drinking has gotten WORSE. and smiler does NOT help with his constant bitching. (smiler did actually kind of help but still, oblivion is too addicted)

oblivion, after the park closes for the day, often sits ontop of his rollercoaster, sitting on the edge of the drop just to see over the treeline, wanting to see the world outside of Alton. he just sits in silence, drinking and smoking until he gets tired/bored and goes to bed.

after him and smiler started dating, oblivion eventually decided to bring smiler up ontop of his ride for their date. its to show he sees smiler as someone important to him.

their usual dates would be walks around the park, feeding the ducks and wildlife there, going in the rollercoaster restaurant, going on other rollercoasters (they arent allowed to do it, but they do it anyway. they get the androids of the rollercoasters to operate the rides for them safely.)

they're only allowed to do this when the park closes for the day, of course.

if you want a silly bits of their life, check out my ask blog

they're keep eachother from going actually insane and attempting to run away because they love eachother <3

anyway, oblivion is an alcoholic and a heavy smoker, there you have it. smiler doesnt drink alcohol, he dislikes it. tried it once and never again... though he does smoke sometimes, only with oblivion on their dates <3

THATS... i think thats all i have for now. its just waffling i wanted to yap about, now yous can go back to your doing your thing

the end

[gotmyass2marz]

FINALLY DUMPING SOME OF RIDE THE WAVES SHITFUCKED WORLDBUILDING/LORE

before i say anyhting i need to say that this whole story is entirely based on some obscureish rhythm game slash platformer i like (soundshapes) .and also that this post is Really Fucking Long . so strap in everyone

the main species in the story (queazians)

i named them after one of the studios that worked on the game this storys based on .queasy games . i think im clever

all queazians have a weird blobby head with a single eye , humanoid body , sticky pads on their hands + feet , and some kind of tail

the head + sticky pads + sometimes tail are all made of the same goopy stuff . its also the main substance in their bloodstream

queazians start out as Just their head and over time their actual body sprouts out of it

fully developed queazians can actually retract their body back into their head if they wanna get around faster but they dont look similar to newly born queazians at all so they cant like . disguise themselves as babies or anyhring

they can Only be physically hurt by things colored bright red or pink . like if you shot one in the head theyd get up and be fine but if the bullet happened to be bright red/pink theyd be dead as a doornail . theres no explanation for this other than thats how it works in the game

all queazians come from the mother which is just . a really big nonsentient queazian at the center of the multiverse that they all just break off of and float away from

the mother USED to have this cool magical substance in it that gave queazians swagful powers but then VEX went and STOLE IT ALL when he was born (ill talk more about him l8r hes i,mportant)

drawing slash diagram of a queazian so this makes at least a little bit of sense

where does this even take place ???

short answer: everywhere !

long answer: diff sections of the story take place in diff universes , some sections of the story take place in the same universe - every character ends up finding eachother through . just kismet i guess

only exception here is vex because he doesnt necessarily live in Any universe . he actually lives in this citadel at the center of the multiverse (appropriately named the C.M. Citadel) where the mother is

the wave . aka the one thing that fucks everything up

sent out across the multiverse by vex (because Of Course) and its whole purpose is to . like i said . fuck up everyhting it touches in some way

physically just looks like a mess of blinding sparks and also makes a horrible screeching sound when it passes

affects every character in a different way , some more dramatically than others

has a few different ways of fucking shit up , including doing physical damage to things creating living beings and affecting peoples minds . overall everything it does has a negative effect

ohhhhhh shit here comes an entire section dedicated to character descriptions + stories

sprout (they/it)

theyre just a happy little guy . joyous beast

lives on this little cute whimsical planet named Helowurld (like . hello world . because thats the section of the game its based on)

grew up surrounded by all these weird little creatures and no one could actually speak Words so they ended up learning the creatures’ languages instead . which is just like bleep bloops and beatbox noises

most creatures on its planet are friendly , some ARE semi dangerous but sprout always manages to befriend them all . how do they do it

have not decided how the wave is gonna affect it . actually . original plan was that they were gonna be created by the wave but it didnt make sense . they dont wanna hurt nobody ………

eventually ends up befriending mars !!!!! besties !!!!!!!!

thomas (he/him)

average office worker . so so tired and confused all the time but just has to live with it

i think hes also a huge loser i need to incorporate at LEAST one failass character into my stories or i will die

lives in a world pretty similar to earth and the company he works for is just called GENERIC CO . they do Things and make Stuff and are definitely not corrupt at all

when the wave hit him it made him realize how much his job sucks ass and inspired him to try and escape the building . sounds like a good thing at first !!!! but he almost goes Completely Insane trying to get out !!!!!!

they put a chip in his brain that actively tries to stop him from leaving the building .this is entirely inspired by my controller drifting really badly when i was replaying his section of the game LMAO also he ends up ripping it out of his own head at one point

need to stress that this building is fucking Huge . he gets lost in there very easily . and theres also this scrapyard hellscape filled with torn up machinery under the building he gets stuck in for a while

the one little bit of enrichment in his personal torment nexus is this cute little office cat named benny who . can clone himself for whatever reason

alexis (she/they)

part of a team of astronauts embarking on a mission called project beyond . not sure what the objective is but its probably along the lines of flying to farther off planets theyve been observing from a distance and find out more about them firsthand

pretty kind and levelheaded most of the time but can crack under enough pressure ….. solid role model ……. also unrelated to the last 2 parts but TGIRL SWAG‼️‼️‼️

took her little sibling mars with her on the mission but the wave ended up wrecking their ship midflight and leaving them literal worlds apart from eachother !!!!! Whoopsies !!!!!!!!

bad news is she is now possibly permanently separated from her sibling good news is that she landed on one of the planets theyd already been studying ! convenient

she just refers to the planet she landed on as The Beyond (cus like . project beyond yeah very original of me) and its like . basic scifi shtick on there . funky aliens extreme conditions technology that seems to have been made by the funky aliens etc

so she just spends her time on there studying everything and trying to keep herself alive while also trying to find a way to find mars again

OH AND ALSO initially alexis and mars arent suuuperr fond of eachother but the moment theyre separated by the wave they want eachotjer back so bad it hurts ………..Heh i love putting guys in situations

mars (any)

theyre like . 12 . youngest of the group next to sprout (its ageless but whatever) . he probably has skibidi toilet humor imsorry

they USED to be goofy and whimsical like sprout but then the Events happened !!!!!!

unlike alexis instead of landing on a different planet mars was sent to a wholeass different universe . how tha hell

the place they land in is called Arcadia because ! well ! everything looks like an arcade game ! all the creatures there are like space invaderish alien things and everything is like . blindingly neon . please do not go there without some kinda eye protection

mars is fucking Terrified . btw . of everything there . lil bro just wants to be with her sister again :o((((

the whole reason why arcadia is so hostile is just because the section of the game its based on is So So Hard compared to the rest . i have had so many mental breakdowns while replaying that shit it is a miserable experience

like i said earlier , sprout and mars end up finding eachother and becoming besties but the way they actually found eachother was after mars found a rift between the universe that holds arcadia and the universe that holds helowurld .so ! mars gets a little bit of a happy ending ! i guess

vex . the real important one (prefs he/him but honestly does nooottt care)

hes my favorite but i based him on my fav part of the game soooo i May be biased

remember when i said he stole all the magical stuff inside the mother when he was born ? yeah that was a thing that happened

because of him having all that magic shit inside him he has a lot of qualities that queazians normally dont have . like floating limbs and wings and bright red body parts to Hit And Claw You with

hes just a huge freak naturally . he doesnt have any tragic backstory or anyhring hes just like that

when he came down to the cm citadel almost everyone there started worshipping him as a god (cus . i mean . he pretty much is)

but then he sends out the wave and destroys the citadel + almost all its residents !!!!! cus hes silly like that !!!!!!!

he now lives inside this fucked up pocket dimension that .has no name currently where he watches all the waves chaos go down from afar . also he created a bunch of weird little servant creatures that he just refers to as The People

he looooves singing funny little songs . specifically songs about how badly hes fucked up peoples lives (inspired by his section of the game being the only section to have lyrics in the soundtrack .also by that logic he would sound like beck which ?????? yeah ok sure i guess)

ok character section over

timeline (that i mostly just pulled out of my ass as i wrote)

vex is born

vex goes to the citadel where hes worshipped by everyone there

thomas is born

alexis is born

mars is born

thomas starts working at generic co (bad idea)

alexis embarks on her mission with mars (equally bad idea)

vex sends out the wave

vex creates his Unnamed Pocket Dimension + the people

sprout is born

thomas has his Realization after getting hit by the wave and starts looking for a way out of the building

alexis’ ship gets wrecked by the wave and separates her from mars

alexis lands in the beyond

mars lands in arcadia

alexis starts studying the beyond (and the wave too .because she figured out what that was) while also trying to find a way off the planet and track down mars

mars finds the rift between arcadia and helowurld

sprout and mars have funnnnn :o)) yayyyyy :o)))

alexis leaves the beyond and finds out that helowurld and the beyond are in somewhat close proximity ! convenient

alexis lands on helowurld and has her cute happy reunion with mars and tells him and sprout about the wave . and that they need to leave before the wave reaches helowurld

and im not sure where to go after this !!!!! i am very open to suggestions btw

was gonna make add more sketches of the cast and how their worlds look but i dont hwve my art shit currently so ill reblog this with that stuff when i can

[badnew2005]

mac + the record by boygenius becos i love doing big posts like this :D

without you without them. found family of All Time. charmacden and the gang as a whole. the thousand billion different forms the gang has taken. it’s always them. mac growing up so neglected and lonely, desperately craving any mimicry of family and love he could find. and here comes this messy smelly kid who’s actually a couple months older than him but looks years younger. cat <3 mac 4eva . spending christmas throwing rocks at trains. it’s us against the world as long as we’ve got eachother we’ll be fine. and then come these rich bratty twins who act like they’re so much better than you but you know you and charlie are the closest thing they’ve ever seen to god. i want to hear your story and be apart of it. the gang unpicking their pasts unpicking what makes them Them. learning what you don’t Have to talk about, how to make life bearable. “a love letter to the mortifying ordeal of being known, written in a pandemic world that violently reminded us how much we need each other”…… that’s them baby!!!

20$. i’m stuck how longs the chevy been on cinderblocks as macden mac gaining/taking back independence and mac driving vs dennis’ sense of control being seen within the range rover. but just. oh this is So mac. it’s a bad idea and i’m all about it. long live project badass. whatever the idiots he loves suggests he’s there !!! i want to know more macden road trips. driving charlie around philly. driving to visit den in college. i cant summarise it well yet further than. ITS SO MAC !!!!! song about the “wanting to poke the bear impulse” hello mac. nice to see you here. having so much passion being ride or die for whatever ur friends want picking a side and dying on it no questioning. the subtle breakdown of that devotion. bickering. i Know you have twenty dollars. macden living together for Twenty Years. ran out of gas out of time out of money. the loves still there but they’re twenty years older and it can’t sustain itself running on nothing for this long. wanting a bit more. wanting to run back in time

emily i’m sorry. the cars !!!! can be both mac pov ab den or den pov ab mac. waking up inside a dream full of screeching tires and fire. the storm. the apartment burning down. all the wars mac and dennis are each fighting inside their heads that are keeping them from eachother. (again macden road trips i know you exist i want to hear more about you) suburbs maybe. and i feel myself becoming someone only you could want. that’s them. macden and the gang. someone only you could love. i’m sorry i just make it up as i go along. again both mac pov ab den and den pov ab mac. it’s their first time being this person coming out and everything that comes with being Them. sure they’re forty they should know better but. it’s their first time. i’m not ready! we could run away be other people. macden most comfortable acting as other people hiding behind fake identities. i’m sorry.

true blue. similarly could be both mac pov ab den or den pov ab mac but i’m sticking with mac pov. knowing dennis so well behind his lies and walls. loving him so passionately despite everything. the first two verses are just So let me tell you about dennis. den running away to college to north dakota fucking around to find out who he is calling mac confessing everything and nothing. and i wasn’t surprised! AND IT FEELS GOOD TO BE KNOWN SO WELL !!!!! I CANT HIDE FROM YOU LIKE I HIDE FROM MYSELF. they know eachother. too much. it feels Good from macs perspective. terrifying from dens. they’re on opposite ends of journey of coming out. even before mac started weathering the storm, dennis Knew him. ofc macden moving in together. straight after college or dennis slinking home from north dakota back to mac. it’s scary. he can’t live without him. YOU ALREADY HURT MY FEELINGS THREE TIMES IN THE WAY ONLY YOU COULD. again loving dennis so passionately, despite everything. i remember who i am when i’m with you !!!! your love is TOUGH your love is TRIED AND TRUE BLUE !!!!! it hurts ! and it’s ugly ! but i love you !! i do !!! i cant stop. i don’t want to stop. dependable and alarming and loyal never ending. YOUVE NEVER DONE ME WRONG EXPECT FOR THAT ONE TIME THAT WE DONT TALK ABOUT BECAUSE IT DOESNT MATTER ANYMORE WHO WON THE FIGHT I DONT KNOW WERE NOT KEEPING SCORE !!!!!!!!!!!! there’s nothing to say. it’s him.

cool about it. the dive bar. paddys <3. i’m trying to be cool about it !!!!! i love you !!!!! feeling like an absolute fool about it !!!! i love you too much !!!!!!! wishing you were kind enough to be cruel about it. times up. it’s never gonna happen. it is. talking himself into i can live without dennis without this love. i cant. wanting dennis to apologise. to be Real for once. to not run away. to shout and scream at him and everything he’s ever done. loving him Despite it. to validate macs feelings and experiences. absolution and all it’s religious connotations. religion woven into this love you can’t escape it. dennis as the golden god. dennis as a thousand sins, the ultimate temptation. wanting so badly to just forget about him to be able to walk away like dennis seemed to be able to do so. once i took your medication to know what it’s like and now i have to act like i cant read your mind i ask you how you’re doing and i let you lie but we don’t have to talk about it i can walk you home and practice method acting ILL PRETEND BEING WITH YOU DOESNT FEEL LIKE DROWNING tellin you it’s nice to see how good you’re doing even though we know it isn’t true. again. nothing else to say. that’s them. all tied up.

not strong enough !!!!!!!!!!! i know i have done a thousand not strong enough posts but surprise surprise the search function isn’t working. another jumping around perspective jumping around timeline. IM NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO BE YOUR MAN. mac and the storm. mac getting so so so strong while dennis was in north dakota getting so so so strong to come out physically and emotionally. to find his pride. black hole opened in the kitchen their midnight teas inflate peeking into the kitchen. theyre drowning stuck in that apartment. but it’s also a lifeboat! the double i’m not strong enough to be your man i lied i am / i lied i am just lowering your expectations. i Am strong enough to come out, but you’re not. don’t expect much from me i don’t know if i can deliver it. I DONT KNOW WHY I AM THE WAY I AM !!!!! i don’t know why i’m like this. i cant stop it. the bossiness the obsession. ALWAYS AN ANGEL NEVER A GOD ALWAYS AN ANGEL NEVER A GOD !!!!!!!! the storm !!!! the storm !!!!!!!! no matter how hard he tires that war is never ever ending!!! gods never gonna come say ur alright mac it’s okay.

revolution 0. macs crippling lonely upbringing. whatever the fuck macdennis is. it’s not real. none of it is. whatever he thinks the love between him and dennis is. if it isn’t love then what the fuck is it. just let me pretend !!!!!! angry and violent child screaming for love and attention never quite learning how to stop, because love never found him! the storm. dennis vs god. maybe they’re the same. he would like that. being stuck forever the only people who have stayed Hate you and they won’t shut up about it. if you’re raised with an angry man in your house …. go and invite him in etc. i wish he was angrier. mom too. i wish they cared enough to shout at me. give me Something other than indifference. even if the gang hate me at least they tell me they’ll scream and shout and laugh and punch me. at least they see me.

leonard cohen. macden driving forever !!!!!! listening to dennis’ stupid music forever. trying to read into it to see part of him between the chorus and the verse. if you love me you will listen to this song. of course i love you dennis. i’ve been listening to rick astley since i met you. i promise i will never give you up. or let you down. or run around and desert you. even if you do it to me a thousand times (you will). you said i might like you less now that you know me so well. I MIGHT LIKE YOU LESS NOW THAT YOU KNOW ME SO WELL. cause i know you man. right after mac came out. I Know You. that’s terrifying. so he ran (around and deserted mac)! i think that’s true. telling stories we wouldn’t tell anyone else. the comfort of driving. den’s flimsy sense of control. not having to look eachother in the eye. music playing on the radio you can pretend you didn’t hear. “there’s a crack in everything, that’s how the light gets in” sunny is a love story. and i am (not) an old man having an existential crisis at a buddhist monastery writing horny poetry. turning their apartment into a church. macs room a place of worship. i never thought love would happen to me i never thought You would happen to me

satanist. a satanist an anarchist a nihilist with me. let’s run away and hide and be someone else. they can’t catch us. i’ll go against god i’ll be a Satanist as long as You’re with me as long as i have you. please can we run away. do you want to be in my life a long time? i want you there. macden and hiding behind these fake personas. everyone else has talked ab this phenomenon a thousand times better than i am today. at least until you find out what a fake i am. i’m sorry i don’t think i can actually leave god behind. he’s the only person who loves me. we both know you can’t let yourself love me. honey and vinegar. you wonder if you can ever be seen from so far away a slow pull a seismic drift leaning over the edge of the continent. it’s so hard to come back!! you hang on until it drags you under.

we’re in love. they’re in love !!!!!! you could Absolutely break my heart. that’s how i know. loving dennis Despite everything. and i told you of your past lives, every man you’ve ever been, it wasn’t flattering boy you listened like it mattered. he’s trying at least. again a thousand times mac and dennis Having to hide behind aliases and masks. if you rewrite your life may i still play a part. dennis trying to run away to Be someone else but always having to come crawling home to mac. in the next one will you find me i’ll be the boy with the pink carnations pinned to my lapel who looks like hell and asks for help. that’s them. that’s always been them. there’s something about you that i will always recognise. we’re in love. it’s stupid and ugly and wrong in all the right ways and right in all the wrong ways. it’s us and it’s love!

anti curse. OUGHHHHH. i have already done a line by line mac analysis of this song ITS SO. it’s the storm! he’s drowning !!!! everybody else knew mac was gay but he’s Still drowning. making peace with my inevitable death drowning on the boat, mac coming out and abandoning god - the gang begging him to ask god for help, and when the heavens open and god answers they all climb and kick and push mac down to the bottom. and he drags them back down. he was ready to die with the gang. to go to hell. the gates opened god listened to him God Heard Him Say He’s Gay. being ready to die to be swallowed by this storm. i guess i did. alright considering !! macs relationship w his parents. with the gang. tried to be a halfway decent friend wound up a bad comedian. they all hate me. he’s spent his whole life begging for his parents to love him this moved onto the gang. but they all hate him. he’s a joke. was anyone ever so young? all they are is children begging for love and attention. unpacking god in the suburbs. meeting dennis. never being able to go back. i’m swimming back !!!! learning to weather the storm !!!!! dad. i’m gay. he’s not drowning!!! controlling the war holding your own little peace summit at the eye of the storm. you don’t have to make it bad just cause you know how. dennis begging and screaming for him to just go back in the closet. no! writing the words to the worst love song you’ve ever heard. loving them all despite everything. sunny is a love story. love in its foreign characters an incantation like an anticurse (or even a blessing!!!!) mac being the only member of the gang Not cursed in the gang gets cursed. he’s finally on a string of luck ! but fucks it up anyways

letter to an old poet. OH MY GOD. oh my god. i cant stop i just cant. you all know my s16 theme was macs anger!!! wanting to confront dennis but not wanting him to run again. it’s all bubbling. it’s coming. i said i think that you’re special you told me once that i’m selfish AND I KISSED YOU HARD IN THE DARK AND IN THE CLOSET you said my music is mellow maybe i’m just exhausted YOU THINK THAT YOURE A GOOD PERSON JUST CAUSE YOU WONT PUNCH ME IN THE STOMACH . AND I LOVE YOU !!! I DONT KNOW WHY I JUST DO. but !!! you’re not special you’re Evil ! you don’t get to tell me to calm down. you made me feel like an equal BUT IM BETTER THAN YOU ! and you should know that by now. when you fell down the stairs it looked like it hurt and i wasn’t sorry !!! i should have left you right there. with your hostages my heart and my cat keys. YOU DONT KNOW ME !!!!!!!!!! i wanna be happy I’m Ready To Walk Into My Room Without LOOKING FOR YOU i’ll go up to the top of our building and remember my dog when i see the full moon. I CANT FEEL IT YET. BUT I AM WAITING. there’s nothing else to say. explaining it would just be patronising. he’s there!!!! he’s weathered the storm and he’s had enough of dennis fucking around. had enough of everything ever being about dennis. i’ve actually been through shit i deserve it dennis. i should beat you up. leave you out to try. i shouldn’t have let you back in. but i did! because of course i did! you stole my parachute blindfolded me span me around and pushed me out of a moving aircraft. but i survived. built my own campsite all alone. you made me cry you said goodbye you told countless lies and hurt me. that’s all you ever do. i don’t think you deserve to live blameless anymore. i want to hold you accountable. but you’ll just run away again won’t you. make everyone hate me for no reason other than you’re scared how much i know you. come on. you fucking coward. celebrity booze mac is calm and collected confident ab his outfit while dennis is almost falling apart. the argument on the plane. everyone else is scared. mac was taking notes. he’s not stupid he knows dennis was johnny. but he can’t Say it he Can’t scream and shout and beat dennis.

[utapri-hcs]

What if Utapri was in a3

So this is a little gift to those in both the A3 fandom and the Utapri one since engA3 servers are unfortunately being shut down. To those who don't know, A3 is a mobage game where you are now Izumi and have been appointed the director of Mankai company, you attempt to rebuild the company after its fall from grace and you basically learn about a bunch of funky people who you recruit

STARISH

Otoya:Spring

Tokiya:Winter

Ren:Autumn

Masato:Winter

Syo:Summer

Natsuki:Summer

Cecil:Spring

QUARTET NIGHT

Reiji:Summer

Ranmaru:Autumn

Ai:Winter

Camus:Winter

-Natsuki is instantly kamekichi’s favourite

-Kamekichi Just perches on Natsuki as there is a fire in the kitchen after Kazunari and Taichi tried a tik tok recipe

-Camus eats Kamekichi buns with Juza

-Banri and Ranmaru just shit talk their respective buddy and how they get diabetes

-Misumi finding out that Ai, Syo and Natsuki sing triangle beat oh god

-Ranmaru and Juza are the one that vibes together though

-Tasuku has now found two new members for his soccer club in the form of Otoya and Syo

-Masato and Omi just vibe

-Ren learns the amazingness of Instablam

-Tokiya and Azuma watch as things go down very wine aunt style

-Yuki and Syo compare styles and clothes with Banri sometimes joining

-Syo kinda hates Banri at first though (who didn’t though, have you seen Banri?)

-Itaru and Banri have found two new toxic gamers

-They can do like co-op vs now with Ai and Ren vs Banri and Itaru

-Reiji, Ranmaru and Ren like going drinking with the rest of the adults

-Reiji and Ren are also now designated drivers as well

-Now the school kids have some extra rides other then the early Sakyo mobile, the normal bus and who the fuck knows when Itaru is even going to leave his room mobile

-Masato and Homare just recite poetry with each other

-Masato and Tenma love their bonsai trees, they would die for that

-Reiji and Masato have joined the Mahjong club

-When something is broken they can also go to Ranmaru as well now

-Yuki and Ai get along since Ai likes helping out with the sewing, they like roasting their members though

-Citron and Cecil, just Citron and Cecil

-Guy and Camus, but Camus is kinda an asshole

-Chikage, Camus and hisoka have met eachother once during their organisation life

-Chikage probably tries killing Camus when he saw him

-Camus and Chikage just talk about casual murder and their preferred methods

-Sakuya and Otoya living their best life and being good boys

-“Oh god, we got another Currian”

-Otoya and Izumi can just eat curry for the next few years

-Natsuki and Yuki wouldn’t really get along since Natsuki probably tried hugging Yuki

-If they do get along, imagine Yuki making stuffed toys for him

-Muku probably asks Tokiya on how to be princely and what not

-Ai and Muku would read shoujo manga together and that’s adorable

-Natsuki calls everyone cute, everyone.

-The first time he called Sakyo cute, Sakyo almost had a heart attack

-12am you’ll still hear the toxic gamers yelling at eachother

-Ranmaru and Azami bond over eyeliner

-Natsuki, Misumi, Hisoka And Ranmaru just bond over the neighbourhood cats

-Ranmaru and Hisoka just nap with each other

-They also tell Reiji and Homare to be quiet

-Chikage and Satsuki definitely need to talk before they try murdering each other

-They would probably vibe with each other after that

-You dont mess with their family and they won’t mess with you

-Satsuki or Syo and Misumi doing parkour around the dorms

-Misumi takes Syo for triangle hunting

-Syo swears he didn’t steal that traffic cone just then

-He also swears he saw god

-Tokiya and Homare talking about poetry

-Masato unhelpfully tutorring Taichi as the bus starts to roll in

-He won’t give Taichi the answer because he wants him to learn, the fact is that Taichi is now just trying to rush through trigonometry without crying

-Azuma, Yuki and Azami complimenting Ai’s skin

-Ranmaru would probably have some tension with Sakyo considering the Yakuza

-Itaru is tensed with Ren and Masato originally

-Itaru has memorised all the rich people he has to suck up to during work

-Turns out Ren is a gamer and Masato is an old man

-Omi, Reiji, Tsuzuru, Masato, Ren and Ranmaru have formed a cooking squad

-Only quality foods served in Mankai now

-I’m sorry Matsukawa

-Masumi and Ranmaru vibe over the same music tastes

-Tsuzuru and Reiji are essentially the big brothers of mankai

-Juza and Camus talk over sweet sometimes inviting Natsuki and Hisoka

-Tsumugi and Masato sit around, watering their plants old man style

-Reiji’s lingo gets worse when he meets Kazunari oh god

-Separate them please

-Ai likes going out to the garden and watching all the mankai members do their daily routines as Hisoka naps on his lap

-Tokiya and Kumon are the healthy boys and try to change Itaru, Taichi and Ren’s diets

-Taichi swears that if he has one more energy drink, he’ll be able to reach peak performance

-Syo admires Tasuka for being really strong

-Sakyo’s job is a lot harder since the electricity bills and sweets have gone up

-Misumi, Azuma, Reiji and Tenma have connections with all the elderly women in the area

-Taichi and Syo get along pretty well

-Taichi also would ask Ren for advice with the women

-It doesn’t go well

-Matsukawa and Reiji are living their best life, being bullied

-Otoya and Sakuya having deep talks of their non-existent parents

-All the nappers have designated caretakers, Masumi has Sakuya and Tsuzuru, Hisoka has Homare and Ranmaru has Reiji

-Ai and Misumi can understand Triangles, they are pretty neat

-Ai and Tenma kinda don’t know how the world works but it’s okay

-Reiji becomes the big brother of the kids in Summer troupe

-Tenma gets lost? Time for Reiji to find him idk have Yuki make Tenma a baby leash or something

-Yuki has problems with how he didn’t fit in? Reiji is there to tell him how he felt

-Muku’s anxiety is getting up again? Reiji had to deal with it a lot due to being a child actor, he has some tips and tricks

-Misumi starts missing home? Reiji is there to tell them that it’s okay

-Kazunari doesn’t know what he should do? Reiji is there to help weigh his options

-Kumon starts panicking? It’s okay Reiji has got this

-Reiji is amazing as a big brother

-Youngest In winter being Ai would be so strange to them

-Ai would have to help Tsumugi with technology

-Ai is interested in Homare’s depictions of certain events

[gay-salt-amber]

Twisted Wonderland x Warrior cats HCS

This is very much a Ruggie centered au cuz I love this boi any why not, human au btw but I think thats obv enough

Ruggie is a Windclan daylight warrior, I debated making him ShadowClan but hes better built for WindClans territory and style

He trains in the dark forest with the other trainees and its very much inspired by Halo the Dreamers Dark Forest Shenanigans au

Windclan has met every one of Ruggies partners except Jack for obvious reasons

Ruggies mentor in the DF is Darkstripe surprisingly enough

His mentor in the normal world was originally going to be Antpelt but as we all know, he died so he got apprenticed to the medicine cat instead

Thunderclan thinks hes just the coolest thing and multiple cats tried to get him to join Thunderclan but he declines

He tells the kits all these stories of NRC and they love them more then the elders tales

He goes inbetween places because hes debating on where he belongs

He took a two year break from the clans to focus on school and he showed up at a gathering, Graystripe style and everyone freaked out

Breezepelt and him are somehow besties and no-one understands how

He kinda thinks of Frecklewish as a mom figure in a way.. not much but sort of

Jay feather and him gossip to eachother at gatherings all the time

Leona is so confused abt his medical knowledge and even more confused when his mentor comes to talk to the school abt clan life and medicine cat things and stuff like that

This also follows the canon of the 9 8 7 (Im feeling blue) fic on ao3 so medicine cats can have mates now... I just really like that fic so-

Whenever hes in star-clan, which isn't often, Tallstar gives him advice. From one old gay to a young one lol

This au has a playlist I'll post separately later

Y'know how ghosts sorta just... Appear around NRC? Yeah Antpelt did that to tell Ruggie something abt the DF or something and scared the shit out of the others

Snowtuft: "Hello, this is my favorite child named Ruggie, you wrong him you die :D"

His favorite leader was Heatherstar, he never served under her but he just thinks shes really cool

He gives the kits badger rides

His least favorite cat in the clans is Dovewing and hes def on Ivypools side of their whole sibling rivalry/hatred thing. He has nothing personally against Dovewing, he just knows Ivy better

His weapons are throwing knives and a longish sword

Kestrelflight tells him all abt his crushes on Flametail and Jayfeather and Ruggie is just there for the tea

On the playlist, there's a song called 'Maybe' by Sick Puppies and I put it on there cuz it makes me think of Ruggie debating his spot in the clans and if he should leave and live life with the Epel 5 forever, sort of like Tallstar with Jake in a way

I think a lot of medicine cats (esp Flametail and Willowshine) like lil knicknack things from different places so whenever the meds meet at the moonpool, Ruggie gives them gifts... that he may or may not have stolen

Epel is everyones favorite out of Ruggies partners

Once, all the medicine cats came to talk to Ruggies class abt what clan life was like and Kestrel looked at Ruggie and said, "What in the name of Star'clan are you doing sitting there?? You're a medicine cat too, get down here!"

Nobody knows how hes such a good cook since Jayfeather taught him a good amount of it since they're the best cook out of the medicine cats and it makes no sense to the others since Jay is very much blind

He ships Ivypool, Breezepelt and Antpelt HARD

Everyone is so confused why Darkstripe is Ruggies mentor and Ruggies like, "Actually he just walked up to me and started training me, said I had potential or something like that."

[goji-pilled]

The MG AU as incorrect quotes Part 3

10yo Futaba: What's an extreme sport?

Hamuko: Have you ever done your homework while the teacher is collecting it?

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Hamuko: Sasa Lele!

Sae: IT'S SALE SALE-

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Goro: I believe water can solve all our problems.

Makoto: Absolutely.

Goro: You want to lose weight? Drink water.

Ann: Yeah!

Goro: You want to have clear skin? Drink water.

Futaba: Totally!

Goro: Are you really tired of someone? Drown them.

Sae: Goro no-

Hamuko: YES.

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*After the Interrogationroom*

Hamuko: *gets a paper cut*

Sae, clenching her fists and gritting her teeth: Hasn't she been through fucking enough...?

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*PQ2 in the MG AU*

Hamuko: Yeah I'm smart.

Hamuko: Sad, mad and really tired.

SEES:

The Investigation Team:

The Phantomthieves:

The Velvet Room attandents:

Younger Hamuko: Are...are you okay-

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Futaba: Are you a big spoon or a little spoon?

Hamuko: I'm a knife.

Sae, from across the room: She's a little spoon!

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Goro: Here's a fun Christmas idea! We hang up mistletoes but instead of kissing you have to fight whoever else is under it!

Sae: Goro no-

Hamuko: Mistlefoe.

Sae: DONT ENCOURAGE HIM!

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Sae: God it's hot in here, I gotta take something off...

Hamuko: Is it your shirt?

Hamuko: Please say its your shirt-

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Futaba: Inari and I don't use pet names.

Hamuko: I see.... Hey, what do bees make?

Futaba: Honey?

Yusuke, from the other side of the room: Yes, dear?

Hamuko:

Futaba:

Hamuko: Don't you ever lie to my face again.

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Goro: You're a pussy

Hamuko: I am what I eat

Goro: *chokes*

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Sae: Who spilled orange juice in the kitchen?

Makoto: Not me.

Goro: Not me.

Futaba: Not me.

Sae: So the orange juice spilled itself?

Hamuko, with a big stain on her shirt: I never did trust that orange juice.

Sae:

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Thanatos: Aren't you tired of being nice? Don't you want to go apeshit crazy?

Hamuko:

Hamuko: Yes-

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*After defeating Yaldy*

Hamuko: Lesbians are stronger than god cannot die

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Hamuko: Did Sae just tell me she loved me for the first time?

Goro, drinking his coffee: Yes.

Hamuko: And did I do finger guns back?

Goro: Yeah, you did.

Hamuko:

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Sae, coming home: Hi Makoto.

Makoto: Hi.

Sae: And hello people who do not live here.

Hamuko: Hi!

Sumire: Hello there!

Goro: Good evening.

Futaba: 'Sup!

Sae: I gave you the keys to the apartment in case there was an emergency, y'know.

Hamuko: Sojiro was out of Oreos.

Sae:

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*At Disney World on the teacup ride*

Yusuke and Futaba: *spin slowly and enjoy the ride while doing some bickering*

Sumire, Ryuji and Ren: *spin past Yusuke and Futaba at max speed, screaming*

Makoto and Ann: * also spin past them at full speed while screaming*

Hamuko and Goro: *spun so fast they dislocated the teacup from the ride*

Sae: *waits for them to see who is gonna throw up first*

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Makoto: Why are your tongues purple?

Sae: We had slushies, I had a blue one

Hamuko: I had a red one.

Makoto: Ohhhh...

Goro:

Goro: OH.

Makoto: So you drank eachother's slushies?

Futaba: Wait you had slushies without us?!

Goro:

Hamuko:

Sae:

[qwertyfingers]

we know that bobby only watched ds9 and dean watched the tos movies for sure which implies he's seen tos as well (plus he calls jack spock). so what do you think everyone's favorite trek is? sam is without a doubt a tng fan first and foremost. i think out of all tos movies cas prefers the wrath of khan because he Feels Things when kirk and spock do the ta'al through the glass. charlie has definitely seen some trek (we've seen her llap), do you think she's into tos first and foremost? anyway let's talk about star trek nights in the bunker.

OKAY SO I HAVE. MANY MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT THIS. SORRY THIS IS SO LONG.

like. like of COURSE bobby only likes ds9 of course he does i could have told you this without the show becuase like. bobby is That Bitch. i think rufus will have watched TOS at least because leonard nimoy worked hard on linking jewish faith and practices into the vulcan lore and i think that would mean something to him. bobby will catch rufus smiling at him sometimes while they’re watching ds9 and ask him what all gruffly and rufus will smirk at him and say something about sisko with jake and bobby with dean and bobby will just cough and take a swig of whiskey and rufus will raise his eyebrows but let it slide. rufus definitely makes a comment once about dean&cas being like jake&nog that totally flies over dean’s head but bobby is all knowing eyebrow raise about.

i think cas and jack would really like discovery. while it has some issues with inconsistency, pacing, being a little dark, it also does better than the other TV treks at utilising the nature of film as a medium to instill a sense of wonder, at space and the world, and that’s something they’d really appreciate. i have my own issues with disco, but an obol for charon is as close to the central core of trek that disco ever gets. cas and jack also like that one in particular because they like listening to all the different languages being spoken. they all love michael (everyone loves michael). cas’ faves are stamets and reno because they’re mean and gay, jack’s fave is tilly because she’s excitable and bright and he latches onto that. dean likes reno because she’s got spunk. sam’s fave is airiam and he will never forgive them for killing her off. sam, cas and dean all feel an uncomfortable kinship with both ash and culber - they’ve both been the one with monster teeming under the surface, controleld by something not themself, but they’ve also all spent that time in hell/purgatory, separated from everyone they love.

thinking about episodes that would really get to them all, darmok is. THE ONE. i have a whole unfinished essay about darmok as the platonic ideal of star trek; the perfect distillation of everything trek is SUPPOSED to be about. it doens’t always get there but by god it tries! that speech michael gives in the disco s2 finale - “There's a whole galaxy of people out there who will reach for you. You have to let them. Find that person who seems farthest from you and reach for them.” - that’s what darmok is about!!! it’s all about a situation where real communication seems impossible, where everything we know about talking and learning has broken down. and picard says, okay, i will find another way. i can’t relate to you, you can’t relate to me, but by god i’m going to try. we all meet people we have trouble communicating with in our lives, and often, those people will not care about changing their own ways to accommodate us. for people with autism, adhd, psychosis, the list goes on, this is a very common occurrence. it’s exhausting and frustrating and alienating. darmok is all about crossing that barrier. about reaching for someone through a world of difficulty and learning how to talk. learning how to share something with someone who seems out of our reach. it’s beautiful, it’s heartwrenching, it means more to me than i can easily put into words! 

anyway i think the bunker fam would experience a lot of emotions watching it together. there’s defintiely a lot of hugging eachother, sam cries a lot and won’t look at anyone until after the episode ends. jack just asks a lot of questions and talks about his progress learning sign language with cas. dean snakes his hand into cas’ halfway through and doesn’t let go. doesn’t show the emotion on his face, but he clutches harder at the emotional beats. cas runs his fingers through jack’s hair and thinks a lot, and decides not to say anything unless dean talks first. its just a Lot for everyone. 

dean def makes them marathon all the TOS and TNG movies. it’s an experience everyone needs at least once. i think you’re right about cas and TWOK with the ta’al through the glass, but also ‘this simple feeling’ and the hand hold would make him feel crazy. bones being the one that spock entrusts with his katra DEF makes dean feel some type of way because as much as destiel is kirkspock-coded, dean IS bones, and seeing spock trust bones so completely despite how at odds they were when they first knew eachother would dig deep into dean’s psyche and make him more than a little bit nutso. the movies are way too long for jack so he mostly sits and plays animal crossing while they watch and looks at the screen when everyone else gasps or when something exciting is happening that holds his attention for a while. sam’s fave is nemesis precisely because it’s terrible and he loves how camp it is.

dean has definitely seen all of trek. i refuse to believe someone who watches as much tv and films as dean wouldn’t sit and watch the whole shebang. i think he’s probably seen TOS and the TOS movies more than the others because its easier than sitting through 7 seasons, but i think rather than that being his favourite he’d just have really strong opinions about the best episodes of each one? like if you asked him what his favourite is he’d say you can’t answer that because they’re all so different from eachother

VOY - bride of chaotica, non seqitur, macrocosm for the favourite episodes. seven, janeway and tuvok would be his favourite characters. he think toms a bit of a knob but also feels a kinship with him for the similar brand of bab dad-ism but he wouldn’t be able to put that into words. he’s also a fierce defender of threshold being a good episode (he’s right for that)

DS9 - our man bashir it’s our man bashir. he doesn’t dislike ds9 but its very plot heavy and he didn’t care for it when he was younger. rewatching it after living through multiple supernatural wars he’d probably appreciate it more. i know for a fact he cries every time there’s an episode about sisko being a good dad. jadzia and garak are his faves

TNG - he LOVES q. he also absolutely will not be caught dead referencing how much loves q after cas comes into his life because sam will do the little brotherly knowing eyebrow raise at him and he will die of embarrassment. he regularly references ‘there are four lights’ because he’s a fucking nerd. he has made cas watch elementary my dear data and fistful of datas a half dozen times each at LEAST. cas KNEW how dean was going to be about the cowboy hat he’s defintiely got into full cowboy getup at home just for watching movies and in cas’ head star trek is fully to blame.

TOS - oh there are so many good TOS eps to choose from. obv he loves most of the series becuase TOS has MANY banger eps, his favourites are probably like. mirror mirror, amok time (baby dean defintiely had some kind of crisis watching it for the first time; i know the rituals are intricate). i know deep in my bones that dean watched the conscience of the king (introduction of the tarsus iv massacre) once and then spent his entire teenage years writing fic about that in his head, whether he posted it or not. dean related too much to those experiences of shared hunger. city on the edge of forever is one of everyone’s faves for a reason (and i’m STILL mad we never got a closer take on that episode in spn it could have been so fun). 

ENT - he definitely thinks enterprise is stupid and he’s not wrong but he has also definitely watched it and been very repressed about the whole thing. mans was like oh i feel a kinship with malcolm reed the obviously repressed queer man. i will never examine this feeling ever again thank you <3 he also makes fun of archer for being obsessed with, of all sports, water polo. shran is his favourite character because he’s a little shit and makes him laugh, and t’pol, because t’pol is a badass and he’d appreciate that. i can’t remember the title of a single episode off the top of my head though lol.

i can see what you’re saying about sam being a TNG stan. i’m conflicted though, I feel like TNG’s generally the favourite of 1) obnoxious nerds who think knowing trivia facts makes them smart, 2) men desperately trying to seem masculine and 3) people who’ve watched it three times and have extremely complex thoughts on the personhood and rights of robots. i could see sam fitting into the third group, but people who are in it for the robot feelings are a coin flip between voyager and tng being the fave, and i just have a feeling that voyager would be his favourite. i know kid sam is getting gender envy watching voyager in shitty motels while dad and dean are out, trying to find the words for it. his first semester at stanford he talks a friend into giving him the janeway haircut and rides that high for months. sam’s favourite characters are seven and EMH. 

sam and dean have definitely had dozens of long drawn out debates about philosophical topics in star trek. do the holograms deserve rights and if so which ones. are the romulans and vulcans still meaningfully the same people. was spock right for trying to foment reunification by going undercover on romulus. can the borg be redeemed. etc etc.

i haven’t seen any of picard at all so i can’t comment. i also think sam and dean probably read a lot of the trek books? they’re pretty common to find in secondhand bookstores and cheap, would have been even cheaper back in the day. sam probably doesn’t care for them much, dean has a few solid faves though. i’ve only read the disco books so i can’t comment anything specifically (besides the fact that i think dean read dead endless and cried like a baby), but some of the TOS and DS9 books are gay as hell and i know dean was eyes emoji-ing that shit. 

[syubub]

Hoseok soulmate reading

Let's get the disclaimer out of the way: This is for entertainment purposes only and shouldn't be taken as fact! This is my interpretation of the cards.

Oki. Before we begin I must say... I put this off as long as possible. For those of you who have followed me for a while, you know that hobi is THE HARDEST to connect with and tbh this was no different. I'll probably revisit this reading again at a different time (you'll see why)

So. To start things off... Hope has some.. strange(?) energy. His energy was really vague and weak. The color too is intresting because its 100% not a color I've ever seen and I'm not sure if something is afflicting the color of his energy? Its ruby red but also deep grey blue? Its really strange and honestly pretty but it doesn't feel like the normal color? The color is usually a nice red with some deeper hints but...Its usually a bit more... lively? It just feels dull right now.

It looks like this right now but with a little more red? Its really peculiar.

Now. Idk maybe some shit is going on with him right now? Or maybe bc there was a fuckin lunar eclipse in Gemini last night? Idk but the energy was a little.. hostile. That's not a bad thing but it kinda felt like he was being broody? Its all really strange but he was not very into the reading (more so than usual) blah blah he didn't want to talk and I asked some questions I probably shouldn't have and some stuff happened. Long story short his soulmate(?) Showed up and pushed our foreheads together so we'd have to connect.

I asked his soulmate if they could tell me what the fuck was going on and they said that they don't know him well. Idk if that means that they don't know him well on a soul level? I'll get into this more later but this feels like something that's already been concluded or comes back up from time to time.

"He's pretty closed off huh?" Yes soulmate. He is.

I asked for more info about them and they said May. I was like cool, is that your name or? "Nah" sick is that like you're birthday? "Not really" cool cool cool.

They did say that he deserves better than what he has. I'm gonna leave it at that but hobi is possibly going through some shit.

Now we can get onto the reading part. I do want to say though, this reading felt very disconnected and weird? Just like somethings off and I have a feeling that this soulmate is more of the "life lesson" type soulmate?

Oki. We have temperance, chariot, two of cups, queen of coins. This is a person who is definitely motivated and driven and 100% a business savy human. They are also very likely loyal and know how to balance work and play time very very well. Is well-off (or materialistic) lol. There's a very ride or die energy that tells me this person is the type of friend that will do anything for you but when you do stupid shit then you get a stern talking to. Idk why but it also feels lonely? Like they're on their own journey to find themselves and their path/happiness/self and if it doesn't fit in the wagon then it gets left behind. This person might move too fast and miss out on important things because they're always chasing after something. They take "its not the destination that matters but the journey that does" to a whole new level and they just never stop to enjoy the scenery bc they'd rather get the rush of newness.

As for their relationship. As I said before I think this soulmate specifically is the "life lesson" type and could definitelybe a platonicsoulmate too. The kind that provides you with an opportunity for growth. With the 5 of swords rev. I kinda think that this could be someone from either a past life or back in a less favorable time. The fool card to me makes me thin that this relationship provides a sense of being born again? Its that newness of having a new perspective and a whole new understanding of self. With the magician rev. Its about issues with communication i.e not being able to get across your needs and desires for both of them and a lack of energy to figure it out. I also feel like this was just something that they didn't fix and didn't want to fix. (I'm talking in past tense bc this reading feels like its someone from the past) This card also talks about deception. I'm not gonna go into this much. With the 3 of wands though!! Yay! This talks about progress and I feel like this points to them learning more and more about who they are and what they truly want. They're kinda like lines that were moving towards eachother, intersected and then continued going in their own direction. Its like this time together was formative in who they are as people and what they dream of! And with the father of cups it does seem that over all the relationship was/is (I don't know how to talk about this) relatively balanced and they had/have respect for eachother. This card specifically is about balanced emotions and emotional intelligence and I think that this is what they gain from this relationship.

Moving right along we have the oracle cards! Stand by you commitment, financial healing, unconventionality, socialize or join in and sensitive emotions. The flower cards are from hobi to soulmate and the others are from soulmate to hope. Now. Maybe his soulmate went through a failed business venture that they're recovering from or just general money trouble bc the whole world is being fucked over by a virus. Either way hobi is very strong in the message of commitment (that makes me think that its specifically about business or something they started but never finished) onto cards for Hope. He might kinda be going through the shitty times and his soulmates advice is to not isolate and celebrate himself more. He might be having some issues related to self image or a soul-identity crisis? Idk but hobi needs that good good self care and love.

Now the two unicorn cards. Those are also from his soulmate to hope about some personal shit and I will be leaving that out because its not my fucking business. (Hobi is fine don't worry)

Woo wee lets get on to traits! First for zodiac sign. Earth, fire, air. Possible Libra and Taurus placements.

Tiny cards. Light hair, dark hair, sweet, extrovert, hard working, tall, business oriented, loud, fate, sorry, open, faith, happy, wait.

First off I get brown hair vibes (maybe medium brown?)

The word cards sound like his soulmate trying to give him a pep talk so I pulled an affirmation card that says in stillness I receive. I think hobi is going through some soul stuff and I'm not sure if this specificly translates into his life right now (though I think it does and he's repressing it or hopefully he's sorting it out on his own privately)

Oki oki oki. Idk why but it also might be that hobi is doing work to heal his inner child? I honestly don't know whats going on or if its affecting him in his day to day life at this time but I want to come back and do this reading at a time that he might be in a better energy space?

Hobi is ALWAYS hard to read and its even harder when he's less open than usual.

I'll get another soulmate read from hobi at some point and see if I can catch a "future/current romantic soulmate"

I am confused 😕

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[drkcnry67]

is it really you?

title: is it really you?

pairing: Jared x reader

rating: pg-14

fluff: soulmate au

H&H: free space (reincarnation)

tags: finding your soulmate, meeting for the first time, memories of past lives, finding eachother and never letting your S.O die, ending the cycle of reincarnation through some massive self exploration.

summery: there is none

mentioning @sweetness47​

created for @spnfluffbingo​ @heavenandhellbingo​

the beginning of your problems (what you know now as your first life) started with someone you love, someone who was yours as well as your lovers doom. the person who loved you was called “Cathal”, you were called “Caitir”. 

you were not betrothed to this man, but somehow you and he still found comfort in each other’s arms. the man who would soon take you both from this world was called “Seoc”. 

Cathal: to my love i present thee with this dagger, this is my gift for your hand in marriage. sweet Caitir forever is all we need, forever is all we shall have.

Caitir: brave Cathal, i shall accept your proposal for marriage. 

whilst “entertaining” Cathal in your chambers, you both were too preoccupied to notice someone sneaking in behind you. Seoc waited till both you and Cathal were asleep and then stabbed you both killing you both instantly. 

a curse placed on you both would reincarnate you both till such a time as the curse could be broken, but would the cycle end easily or have to be done the hard way. 

“this curse placed on 2 murdered sleeping helpless. lovers written in stars for time cometh. these 2 coming together again and again as they are reborn, till the viscious cycle breaks, shall they live out normal and die for the last time. forever shall this incribed be to this dagger!”

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today, one mild summer day in what we call Vancouver British Columbia in what is known as Canada. you are called YN, your job is wardrobe for actors of a hit tv show. this would be where you would soon re-learn the truth. 

the dagger you had received as a proposal present, was sitting as a long time artifact in a museum. you on the other hand were laying out the wardrobe for the 2 gentlemen you were working with that day. the same 2 guys that you worked with well every single day. 

you were picking some stuff off the floor completely not paying any attention to your surroundings, Jared (Cathal-present day) had no idea of your past lives either till this moment.

Jared wasnt paying attention to where he was going, he didnt see you. he tripped over your crouched form, instead of falling on his face he grabbed you, pinning you to the ground keeping both of your heads off the ground. 

he looks down at you, then the memories came to both you and Jared in flashes slow and fast. but in each memory was the both of you in this exact position. after 10 minutes of just layign there lost in eachothers eyes.

Jared: are you alright? Am I hurting you?

Yn: I'm alright and no your not hurting me. Did you happen to see..

Jared: visions of sorts after we fell ya I did. What does it all mean?

YN: it means I guess we know each other. It seems like we know each other very well. Cathal.

You say as if it was normal for you to call him that.

Jared: it would indeed seem as such Caitir. The question is what the hell happened to us to make us like this.

YN: obviously we have alot to figure out. let’s start with whatever happened to that dagger that i saw...

Jared shrugged helping you off the ground. 

Jared: we could check where it all began. up for a trip to cairo?

YN: i guess we don’t have much of a choice if we want to figure out what happened to us... figure us out... 

Jared ushers for you to sit beside him as he pulls out his laptop and begins looking for flights. found one on expedia the details were as follows for what was being booked:

one way flight from Vancouver to Cairo expected to take 21hr 41min to arrive

leaving vancouver at 1:20pm fly for 4hr 33min to montreal for a 2hr 12min layover

leaving montreal at 11:05pm (stupid time change) fly for 9hr 30min (over night flight meaning cuddles yay!) to instanbul for a 3hr 5min layover

leaving instanbul at 6:40pm fly for 2hr 20min to arrive finally in cairo for 8:00pm

you look at jared who also adds a hotel near the pyramids for you guys to stay in figuring you wouldn’t want to ruff it. 

Jared: before I finish purchasing, I want you to know that whatever we find out in Cairo, it might as well be the biggest discovery of our lives.

Yn: I know but aren't you the least bit scared of what we might find out... I mean it isn't like we can just...

Before you can finish speaking Jensen busts through the door.

Jensen: umm Jared what are you doing and with our wardrobe artist.

Jared: about that ya come sit down buddy there is something we need to well show you.

Jensen sits between you and Jared as he eyes you both very suspiciously.

Jensen: alright what's going on buddy your acting very strangely.

Jared and you both place a hand on either side of Jensen's head willing for the memories you both had just experienced to flow into his mind to see what you both did.

Jensen falls off the couch a few moments later, looking between you and Jared.

Jensen: so what the hell are you...

Jared: we are going to Cairo to figure this out. Cairo is where it all began for us, Cairo is where we will find answers. 

Jensen: when does your flight leave?

Jared: tomorrow afternoon. we have to be at the airport for 11am i think... 2 hours before flight leaves for international flights. we still have to pack and talk to Rob and the others to make sure I'm covered to go. That we can figure this out. For the entirety of our lives we have died and come back to find eachother for years now and we just want to figure this out. 

Jensen got up and began towards the door. 

Jensen: well lets go present this to Rob and the crew. and get set for your time away... it will not help to be unprepared for any of this. if what you showed me is true then you both have alot to discover and im gonna do whatever i can to support you both. 

Jared: thanks dude, now YN are you ready for whatever lies ahead of us?

YN: im ready to find out why we have only just remembered all of this now, how many times it has happened and the story behind it of course. 

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that was how the journey started, after a very long conversation with Rob and the crew, you and Jared were cleared to go on your trip. going to your hotel first checking out and taking your backpack with you. 

you and Jared decide that you both should stay at the airport hotel considering it would just be easier. settling into the room, you sit down to make a journal entry. you did this every single day, but today felt like you definitely should document this. 

Jared came out of the bathroom to see you sitting on a pillow on the ground with a pen and a notebook. you were writing out your journal, you didn’t see Jared approaching. 

Jared came up to you placing a hand on your shoulder. 

Jared: what are you doing?

YN: writing in my journal. making sure that whatever happens we can document what the hell we go through on this journey. maybe just maybe one day we can look back on this and realize that this was destined to happen as it has so many other times before. 

Jared: look i know its alot to process and believe me i too am having issues processing this but i might have a way to take our minds off it. 

you finished the entry, and then closed the book. turning to face Jared smiling.

YN: what did you have in mind? 

Jared picks you up and kisses you, fierce are his lips against your own. his arms supporting you as your legs curl round his waist. he tears your shirt from the back as he falls while holding you onto the bed. 

the rest of that evening well the next few hours were spent in the bed. Jared now petting your hair speaks. 

Jared: that was amazing. definitely took my mind off things. 

YN: that was an amazing way to loose my virginity. and i couldn’t have lost it to a better man. 

Jared: do you think this happens every time we reincarnate?

You shrugged but stayed right where you were knowing you were comfortable and safe. 

YN: no idea but im not ready to move can we just lay like this for the rest of the evening. we can eat in the morning. 

Jared: that’s why we got the continental breakfast. plus i think i owe you a new outfit. 

You looked to where Jared was pointing. 

YN: that’s okay i think i owe you new boxers

jared looks to where you are pointing. 

Jared: well we can do some shopping when we get to the airport. gift shops exist for a reason and money is no stranger. 

YN: that’s true. 

now that you both were settled into bed you both decided to get some rest. it was a long day the next would be, and being on a plane you both would probably sleep anyway. 

you both woke up the next morning to a phone call from the front desk, telling you there was breakfast and that we had to be at the airport within the hour for the 2 hour head check in.

you hung up the phone and watched as jared slunk to the shower. you followed cause he looked like he could use a pick me up. after some shower fun and getting dressed into something comfortable for the plane ride. 

you both head with your bags to breakfast. eating lots to avoid being too hungry later on, you decide that its time to check out and find the airport shuttle. getting to the airport you both get through check in and security and now its time to kill 2 hours. well that was easy, shopping and playing cards and crib and tic tac toe and buying some jewelry just for fun. 

then it was time to board the plane. doing so and the plane took off. you and jared holding hands you resting your head on Jared shoulder. you both cuddle for the flight to montreal planing to take a couples photo and pick up some souveniers along the way. 

same thing with instanbul except that flight was an over night so you both mostly took the opportunity to sleep. upon arrival in instanbul you both stretched and looked around and grabbed souveniers boarding the final flight to cairo. 

cairo in the evening damn it was gorgeous. just the way things were supposed to be. Upon this their arrival to Cairo, they took a shuttle to their hotel. The entire way there Jared held your hand, walking into the hotel you both go to the desk to check in. 

Clerk: checking in? 

Jared: yes under Padalecki. 

The Clerk types into the computer for a moment and then speaks once more. 

Clerk: ah here you are, ah your in one of our exclusive suites. Give me one second to grab your package that goes with it. 

You still holding onto the hand of the man you apparently have known for centuries, & just lost your virginity to night before last, made you all the more happier. The clerk a while later places a packet on the counter in front of you both. 

Clerk: this has all the information one could possibly need as well as a list of shops near by and when tours leave and some information on local legends. 

That caught both yours and Jared's attentions. 

Jared: local legends???

Clerk: oh yes, our most popular one is of a High priestess who fell in love with the prince of this region, but they were cursed and murdered for it by his father's advisor who grew jealous of the young lovers. The advisor used the Dagger the young prince had given to the priestess as a token of his affection to murder them in their sleep. He then lied to the prince's father about the whole thing. He was never brought to justice for murdering that young couple. Legend also tells of their curse. In short form, Destiny will reincarnate them for all time till they can somehow break the vicious cycle of reincarnation so they can finally live and die like normal people. 

you looked at the clerk, Jared knew you were struck, he was too but you knew what this clerk was saying had to be true. 

Jared: is our room key in here?

clerk: yes it is your suite includes a jacuzzi and fabulous egyptian royal inspired decor. as well as complementary royal silk robes. these keys will also get you access to the pool area and the buffet. welcome to the pyramid valley hotel, please enjoy your stay and don’t hesitate to ask questions if you have any. 

Jared holding the package walks with you to the elevator, he then turns to you while he continues to hold the bags and the packet.

Jared: are you ok?

YN: no, did you hear that story...

Jared: i know, don’t worry we will explore this more when we get into the room. amongst other things. tonight is all distractions, tomorrow we are gonna start checking this out. starting with this legend, then checking out where me and you back then would have been. 

you nod as Jared and you final approach to your room. once there you and Jared walk in and are instantly amazed by the sight of this room. 

jared closes the door behind you locking it before putting down the packet and the bags he was holding as he came up behind you. 

YN: is it distraction time?

Jared: its distraction time as long as we need... 

thats when he started kissing your neck and that was the night. that began the trip of your life. 

- after a very very passionate time in bed you both woke at noon the next day. it was time to make the start to your day.

-you didnt want to move, Jared grabbed his laptop to do some research, he had put the packet with his laptop so it was all in one swoop. as he kinda sat against the head board and you were still kinda curled but kinda propped. 

Jared and you make note of several locations to check out during your trip. this included the sphynx, the giza necropolis and a few more places. 

Jared: what do we want to check out first?

YN: the museum. maybe we can find some clues there first. 

~thats exactly what you did, you both got dressed and hit the museum. you both walked in and found out that the museum director who was kind enough to speak with you both was a firm believer in what you both had told him. he decided to show you some of the stuff that had been taken from both of your areas. this was to include the dagger. yes you had found the dagger. now the last thing that he told you both was that the dagger had to be taken to the spot where it all first started and you had to plea to the triple goddess, she would grant the curse to be lifted and reveal who Soec is to you in modern day. you both got the location of the original incident from him and decided to go into the halloween costume shop and grab the egyptian outfits. making sure to bring them with you both when you would go the next day to this place that will hopefully end your curse once and for all. Waking up bright and early the next day you both rent an atv to get you both to the sight. A little cavern within one of the pyramids there was no way in there except for this one entrance. It was sealed when you both arrived. But unlocked when both your hands touched the door. Must have been sealed with some pretty powerful stuff. Going inside you both saw what seemed to be a cavern which had been untouched by dust or anything for centuries or eons if you will. It would soon be your greatest feat. But Jared held the torch in one hand, your hand in his other and you carried the bag on your shoulder. Looking at the surrounding architecture, you both made sure you were safe but this seemed very very familiar to both of you, it was like a secret passage or something. We head back to the story now with a conversation between you and Jared.~

Jared: I know there is something bothering you. Is it the feeling of being in here. 

YN: yes it is… Something isn't quite right about any of this. That dude at the museum seemed a little too excited about all of this. But you know what, as long as we figure this out and stop this curse normal is what we shall be eternally, or ya know as long as normal lasts. 

Jared: whatever happens in here know that this will not change how I feel about you. 

Yn: nor I about… Holy shit… Jared look! 

You point ahead and Jared looks where you are pointing seeing the gold architecture turn into columns and statues of anubis and then blood on an alter shaped bed, with a canopy draped over. 

YN: this has to be the place. The blood, the hole in the canopy. Don't touch anything yet we need to change into our outfits. 

You and Jared careful not to touch anything get changed. Then you pull out the book and place it where it looks like it went. Suddenly the room shook. 

Jared: what's happening? 

YN: I think it's time for us to call on the triple goddess. 

Jared: well whatever we do we should do it quickly… 

you went over to the book, and opened it to a marked page, you brought it to the bed and sat beside Jared, both of you now finding it easy to read the arabic pages. 

YN:  نحن نلتزم بدعوة الإلهة الثلاثية ، فلطالما تجولنا في هذه الأرض ، ولفترة طويلة انتظرنا في دهشة. حان الوقت الآن ، نتمنى الآن أن تتعفى هذه اللعنة التي وُضعت علينا في اليوم الذي قُتلنا فيه ، وأن نتحرر من حياة التناسخ هذه. يا إلهة ثلاثية ، أرسل لنا لخدامك المخلصين علامة متواضعة للتأكد من أنك قد سمعت دعوتنا (we adhere to the call of the triple goddess, for too long we have wandered this earth, for too long we have waited in wonder. now it is our time, now we wish that this curse placed on us the day we were murdered be appeased, that we be freed from this life of reincarnation. oh triple goddess send us your faithful servants a humble sign to be sure you have heard our call)

that was of course when this light radiated from both you and jared, then a figure appeared before both of you.

Anubis: i am anubis, i am your guardian High priestess Caitir, in this time i would like to say the curse shall be lifted once the one who killed you both originally is dead. you will find him back where you both have come from, he has been living among you both, pretending to be your friend. but really was unfazed when you showed him your little secret. Seoc goes by...

a flurry of rage and anger filled both you and jared. that cut your trip short. you got reimbursed for the days you didn’t stay, as you both flew back to vancouver. you waited till it was night fall then approached this person at the studio...

the announcement of yours and Jared’s arrival seemed not to phase this person, after he had been a dear friend to Jared for many many years, and a loyal person to you. neither of you could understand why he would ever do such a thing. 

Jared: Jensen, why did you do it?

Jensen turns to face you both, he once more didn’t seem surprised by the fact that you both were back early. 

Jensen: what exactly do you think i did?

Jared: why did you kill us?

the cast and crew backed away from you Jared and Jensen as you three began to glow, the final showdown had begun.

Jensen: because i had to raise my status with your father Cathal, this bitch here was just a side piece that got in the way...

[skiesofthesketchy]

Space + Time

4:05 am.

I can’t sleep. How can I when my mind is spinning like a carnival ride. Only this ride isn’t fun. It feels like I’m holding on for dear life.

I blame him. Why did he have to kiss me? Everything was fine before. No- everything was perfect.

He was my best friend. The person I hit up to get food with me in the middle of the night. The person I share all my new music obsessions with. The person I go to when my life gets too overwhelming.

But no. One drunken night and everything has changed.

“Come here,” he said. So I wobbled over to him on the swingset outside. The noise from the party inside ceasing with the door slamming shut. “How’s my favorite girl?” he asked.

“Drunk as fuck,” I laughed, plopping onto the swing next to him and almost spilling my drink. “What are you doing out here by yourself?”

“Just thinking.”

“About what?” I offered him my red solo cup and he took a sip.

“Look up Y/N. Look at all the stars.”

“Yeah. They’re beautiful aren’t they?”

“There are millions out there. No, billions! We can only see a tiny, tiny, stupidly tiny fraction of a fraction of what’s out there. The universe is infinite and constantly expanding at the same time. Like bitch, what?? How can something that’s infinite be expanding? That’s wack as fuck. It’s just insane.”

“Wow. You’re really high, huh?”

“And drunk but shhhh... listen. We are literally out here on a fucking rock floating in the middle of space and ya know, it’s a huge fucking rock but compared to everything, it’s not even a speck of dust.”

“I hope this epiphany you’re having leads to aliens.”

“Oh, there is no way in hell we are the only planet with life but that’s a conversation for a different time.”

“Then where are you going with this one, bud?”

“What I’m saying is nothing matters.”

“Nothing matters?”

“Nothing matters. But that’s what makes everything matter a hundred times more.”

“What do you mean?”

“What I’m saying is that everything we do, everything that we are, is all gonna disappear one day. Like yeah, we’re gonna die one day but it’s more than that. Thousands of years after we die, Earth is gonna be wiped out by the sun exploding or some shit, and it will be like this planet never existed. Its history, every soul that ever lived here over the millions of years Earth has been able to sustain life, everything. It will all just... be gone.”

“I guess so.”

“It’s just a matter of time. And time... time is all we have. It’s the only thing that is certain in this fucked up little world we live in.”

“We live and we die. That’s all we know.”

“Exactly. And we don’t know when we’re gonna die. It could be tomorrow. It could be 50 years from now. There is no way of possibly knowing. So why don’t we live like that?”

“Live like what?”

“Like we could die at any moment. Why are we so caught up in shit that doesn’t matter? Caught up in working for a better future for ourselves when you might not even live long enough to see it. We need to be living in the moment, because right now is all we have. That’s what matters.”

“Well, fuck. You’re right.” Silence washed over us, the light squeak of the swings the only thing you could hear. “Ya know, I wasn’t expecting to be this enlightened when I walked out here,” I laughed.

“Life is short, Y/N.”

“That it is.”

“That’s why I have to tell you something.”

“Okay. What is it?” I turned to him.

“I’m in love with you.”

And suddenly, he was kissing me.

4:39 am.

I’m so angry at him.

I love him so much, but as a friend. I have never seen him as anything more. I never let myself think of him differently because things were perfect as they were and I didn’t want to fuck any of it up by catching feelings.

But look. He went and fucked it all up.

“We’re friends,” I said.

“Best friends. But I’m not gonna waste my life away hiding how I feel. I’m in love with you, Y/N.”

“No, you’re not. You’re drunk. And high. You’re fucked up.”

“I am. But, it’s true. I love you. I have for a long time now.”

“Stop saying that. Please, stop saying that.”

“What else do you want me to say?”

“I’m sorry. I can’t do this right now.”

“Y/N, wait!”

That was just last night. No texts or calls all day. We were both so fucked up but this is not something you can just forget the next morning as you deal with your hangover. Everything has changed.

I got up annoyed at my inability to fall asleep and trudged to my closet, grabbing an oversized sweater. I slid on my sandals and reached for my favorite hat. My favorite band’s album cover was stitched into it and memories of that concert flooded back to me. I went with the very person I’m struggling to get off my mind. He bought that hat for me because I didn’t have the money for it.

“I can’t let you buy me a hat,” I said.

“Nonsense.” Ignoring my whines, I watched him pay for it without a second thought, smiling when he placed it upon my messy hair. “It looks good on you.”

I huffed at the memory, putting the hat on anyway. Can things ever go back to the way they were? I swung my small backpack over my shoulder and headed out my front door. Maybe a walk would help clear my thoughts.

It was chilly on this early morning. The soft breeze had me walking with my arms tucked into my sweater. Birds chirped happily, the atmosphere holding a certain peace to it. Maybe everything will work out. Maybe it will all be okay.

5:21 am.

I finally made it to my favorite park. The familiar trees and the way their leaves fluttered in the wind reminded me of home. I didn’t necessarily have this destination in mind, I sort of just wound up here. My mind was off in space.

Maybe instead of being angry at him, I should be thinking about whether I love him the way he loves me. I know I can’t pretend he never kissed me, or said all that he said. We can’t go back to how things were. Maybe I do love him... or maybe I don’t. All I know is that I’m terrified of losing him. The only thing that scares me more is breaking his heart.

Let’s say we start dating. It’s amazing. Until one day it isn’t. He deserves the world. More than that, even. All the stars in the sky, from here to the outskirts of the galaxy. What if I’m not enough? I want to be enough.

“I think I’m thinking too much,” I mumble. I climbed the playground to sit upon the monkey bars, the cold metal burning my skin. Watching the early morning joggers and the start of people’s morning commute, I felt my stupid head begin to clear.

Life is simple. We humans like to get caught up in stupid things that don’t matter, just like he said. But it really is just... simple.

Do what makes you happy. Be with people who make you happy.

Being with him makes me happy.

5:46 am.

“Y/N? What are you doing here?” My head jerked to the direction I heard the familiar voice from. Of course, it’s him.

“Nothing.” I looked away not being able to hold eye contact with him. “Just hangin.” He climbed up to sit next to me on the monkey bars. “What are you doing here?”

“Well, I came here to think but it looks like you already took my thinking spot.”

“We can sit and think together.” Silence bloomed between us and I felt his breathing match my own.

“I was thinking about thinking about you.”

I finally grasped the courage to look at him. “Me too.”

“Y/N... I’m sorry. Part of me wishes that the other night never happened.” He looked down, sadness written across his face. All I wanted to do was hug him tight and never let go.

“You don’t need to be sorry.”

“The reason I had never told you how I felt is because I was scared of losing you.”

“You’re not going to lose me.” His eyes met mine gleaming with hope. The sparkle in them only resembling beauty. “I love you more than anything and you know that. I’m just... confused,” I sighed.

“I understand.” A long silence pursued once again. “If you never want to talk to me again, I understand that too.”

“Hey, you know I don’t want that.”

“But I screwed everything up. Threw our whole friendship out the window just because I caught feelings. Feelings I’ve tried so hard to shake because I knew that you wouldn’t like me the same way and that everything would just explode in my face and we’d never see eachother again. I’ve ruined the best thing I’ve ever had,” he rambled. “I’m sorry Y/N. I’m sorry that I love you. And I’m sorry that I can’t take it back.”

And suddenly, I was kissing him.

Every emotion I’ve felt over the last thirty-something hours took over me. I kissed him with all my anger, confusion, and... love.

Who am I kidding? I love this boy in front of me. Everything about him. I love his stupid jokes and the way he hums and taps his fingers when he’s happy. I love the way he thinks and observes the world around him. I love the way he listens to me and smiles making me feel like everything is going to be okay. I love who I am when I’m with him. How nothing else matters. I love him and he loves me. What am I so afraid of?

“Hey,” I said, breaking the kiss. “I think I love you too.”

The biggest smile I’ve ever seen took over his face. “Really?” he asked.

I laughed. “Yes,” I replied. “I’m in love with you.” Our lips met once more. All of my past emotions were replaced by pure happiness. I was so confused before, but now it feels like this was meant to be. Like the stars have aligned and are smiling down on us. Like the universe stopped for one second to recognize this moment and remember it forever, even when we all turn to dust and flutter away into nothingness.

6:04 am.

“Do you want to go grab breakfast?” he asked. “I want to take my girlfriend out for some waffles.”

“Girlfriend? You never asked me to be your girlfriend,” I teased.

“Oh, fuck,” he mumbled. “Um. Y/N, will you be my girlfriend?” He looked genuinely afraid that I would say no.

“Of course.”

“Whew. I got nervous for a second.” We laughed as he helped me down from the playground.

“And yes. Waffles sound perfect.” He grabbed my hand, kissing my knuckles.

“Can we take a nap afterwards? I didn’t sleep much last night,” he spoke with a sheepish laugh.

“Oh, you’re telling me.”

*** Who did you imagine when reading this? 

*** Let me know what you think! :)

[kuroandtheguys]

QUOTES (as in things i’ve said, not necessarily original things but things ive said.) FROM MUN HIKARY,HER DAD AND CLASSMATES AS RP STARTERS:

"get your fuck boy out of my house"

"Listen here you fuck nugget"

"don't touch me you bafoon"

"leave the soul alone"

"WHERE IS SPACE DAD"

"i got some shoes from my drug dealer, i dont know what he laced them with but i've been tripping all day...."

"Sure thing Chew-Brocka"

"the beatings will continue until morale improves."

"looking to protect yourself or deal some damage?"

"The egg-salts?"

"much cheese cake"

"FIGHT ME"

"DO YOU FOLKS LIKE COFFEE!"

"baby,princess, dear,dearest. Do me a favorite and get your head out of my ass"

"Whats up gays!"

"Its 1 get the fuck up you lil shit"

"its a porch...not a deck....."

"when one plays the earth game twister one finds out more about the other's than they wanted"

"pain is your reward for being near me."

"oh it's the nasty crime boi"

"follow the yellow-dick road"

"these jokes arent the only thing that suck"

"stupid controls! I said walk to the side not jump off the cliff"

"_GET YOUR DICK OUT OF MY GODDESS!"

"Zarkon unhand my space father"

"sadness is merely a part of life."

"BON BON YOU WANT SUM FUC"

"they're gonna play Mario cart"

"that's how friendship dies"

"ID BE THE TINY ANGRY GUY, I CANT REMEMBER HIS NAME"

"Space Dad jokes are out of this world"

"space dad part of a balanced breakfast"

" i wonder whats over here, oh its plot"

"not all wood resists magic damage"

"destroy us all!"

"i could pee in a bucket and tell him it's beer."

"i would fuck lance because who wouldn't"

"ITS BECAUSE IM A DEMON ISINT IT? THATS RACIST!"

" IF YOU LOVED ME YOUD KILL THE SPIDERS"

"Fite me!"

"fuck Shiro because, just look at him. Who wouldn’t?"

"I am tumblr senpai"

"Why is he grinding?!"

"They bonded by beating the shit out of eachother."

"ah ah put those grabby hands away." (wow without context that sounds really dirty)

"if I have social anxiety and YOU have social anxiety then who's going to order the food?"

"now if they made space dad shaped mac and cheese i wouldnt mind so much"

"it could be 1 of 2 things metal leg or morning wood"

"i like chicks not dicks"

"why cant you just say vagina?"

"Ok so if you ever need a break from your mech with a watersport kink let me know."

"I love you" "dude thats gay..." "we are litterly having sex"

"watch your mouth you little shit"

"yes daddy dearest"

"COME HERE MY SPACE CHILD"

"Let me hug you space child"

"i must adopt this lost space child"

"soft and warm space dad"

"omg your so extra"

"hgn those claws he could just rip me apart"

"we can go inside"

"i wouldn't want to expose you"

"he's see more of your girlfriend than you have"

"we had a bonding moment i punched you in the face!"

"I ate my school"

"this limp noodle"

"PRAISE MUNWAY"

"You wanna ride my huge dragon"

"and i don't know....somethin' bout friendship..."

"Tid be a pitty if i killed him off"

"you've been shanked" "..with a ruler..."

"did you just giggle your boobs at me?"

"It was an earth shattering shit"

"I am the pumpkin gardian"

"Hold my beer and watch this mother fucker

"Careful nuts make you swell, just ask your sister"

"My dad the crack dealer"

"balls deep in an au"

"Don't fuck on my expensive leather couch you cunts"

"He's a perceptive hoe"

"blubbering balls of teenage awkwardness"

"What can I say except~ FUCK OFF"

"I am the alpha dad"

"thats a kick in the danger clam"

"your gonna get your weiner stuck in the baby gate"

"I'm taking you back to the pound"

"I'm so sorry the princess had his feelings hurt"

“Hey demons, it’s ya boi, Satan. Give me the homie back”

"my name is stan, im satan"

"I Came Here For A Good Time And All I Got Was Porn"

"it went from warm to freezing because snow miser is shitting on us"

"Near death can be fixed with ducktap"

"I don't remember what I did with my pants"

"It smells" "You smell" "Your face smells" "You almost got punched I'm the face"

"Bueno bear"

"MAKE THAT ANGST YOUR BITCH"

“Gently bullied him into submission”

*Holds up fishing pole and bubbles* hookers and blow.

"To hard, to thick. I'd get hair stuck in my teeth" "...don't ever say that in public."

"Even lesbians like babies"

"My dad is like a fun vampire"

You are a steampunk blood warrior with a plan"

"You are a steampunk blood warrior with a flan"

"You've been hit by you've been struck by a smooth lesbian"

"You just made the inquisitior gay" "Yes" 5 minutes later "So what else us on the table" "The inquisitior"

"Did...did you just call the Cat a butt plug?"

"not like that you kinky fuck"

"kinky princess Matthew holt and his fluffy sidekick Mr whiskers."

"DONT MAKE ME KINKSHAME YOU AGAIN" "MAYBE YOU'LL KINKSHAME ME HARD THIS TIME"

"I'm gay and I'm ready to party"

"You founded a country on cocaine and prostitution?"

"You know what looks delicious" "What" "Your tight ass" "Your a hoe, like ben" "_ lemme smash"

"Human Sacrifice is always an option if you aren't a weak little bitch."

"Last time you had an imaginary friend I'm pretty sure it was a demon"

" I don't want to be propositioned by you in private!"

"Don't vore the dogs"

"Surely not everyone was kung-fu fighting" "They were" "..we're they fast as lightning?" "No they were slow, Tai Chi mother fucker"

"There’s a train of thought but it’s been de railed and Billy the kid robbed it."

"Shes just where burgers go to die"

"Im a priest to our lady of sin and this is my seeing eye dragon"

"Hello nightmares my old freind"

"they took some scaly lizard dick"

"I would go to Satan jazz club"

"Gandalf the off white"

"Stop kicking my puppy"

"You sleep darted that man in the dick"

"i didn't hit puberty...i just kinda shook it's hand"

"Tall, dark, warm and edgy. The perfect dad"

"Cerberus thinks he's a lap dog"

"thank god for incredible upper body strength"

"No ship wars. I multi ship like an adult" "Am I an adult I poly ship?" "Yes"

" my flaccid dagger"

"He's running around like a squirrel on crack"

"Could you please acidenly flex somewhere else your distracting me"

"It is the first day of Christmas fucker"

"Don't make me beat ypu with egg nog"

"Why did it suddenly become British?"

"You've been BLUNDERSTRUCK"

"Slav tellaported from another dimension to punch you in the arm"

"Floating kingdom of dabalon"

"I like my nightshade pomegranate flavored"

"dont dab on my boobs"

"The first vampire ran into the sun"

"I need a pocket sendak"

"Four score and 7 years ago our founding pirates"

"Been fueling up on....."

"Life is a highway?"

"the lyrics are coke and whiskey dumb ass"

"all i want for Christmas is the dreamiest daddy."

"HAIL KURO"

"patience yields fucking"

"Gray haired man on a house coming through" "I tottally thought you said gay haired man"

"Oh... mood"

"You wrap presents like a blind t rex"

"i take a look at me enormous-"

"white privilege."

"I swear to all of the gods I'm going to climb you like a fucking vine"

"The pellar, he uh.... loves his goat"

"whispers goat fuckerrrr"

"sleeping with slytherins" "dont you mean sirens?" "same fucking thing"

"No one told you life was gonna be this-" "Gay?"

"I am truly the hobo on top of the polar express" "No your the homo ontop of the polar express" "Can't she be a homo hobo?"

"Kinkshame me harder"

“Kinkshame me harder spicy papa”

"Male griffin returns and is like what the fuck did you do to my wife"

"WITH YOUR SHAG CARPET ID BE GETTING HAIR BALLS"

"Drug cloud please disperse"

"Just cause I'm gay dosent mean the cake needs to be"

"BITCH I OUTRANK YOU"

"Just cause I'm gay dosent mean the cake needs to be"

"Right in the paw patroler"

"Stuffed em up Mr patato head's butt"

"feed me"

"i swear if you start singing-"

"must be blood"

"here she gose again"

"must be fresh"

"i dont wanna hear this"

"FEED ME, FEED ME SEYMORE~"

"Get on the fucking dragon or I will leave you in this tower"

"Vivia le roi" "LONG LIVE THE REVALUATION" "No.... long live the king"

"I'm a senior my vote counts more"

"I am gentle snek"

"The boner wizzard is a girl" "That's a dragon" "Girl dragon"

"my father the actual 5 year old" "thats right 5 times a whole bunch"

"why..... is your icon a crotch buldge?"

"Layers" "Like an oinion" "Yes and their all gonna make you cry"

"You blushing" "I'm pasty and I burn in the sun anytime I go out." "So your burned..?" "Yes fucker"

 "You should be careful dancing around with those daggers when I'm throwing fire" "It won't hurt me. It's friendly fire"

[nightowlfandom]

Requested #7 -Yoongi

Thank you so much anon!! Girl, I am about to either ruin lives with feels/angst or get completely ripped to shreds by pro smut writers. If the numbers on my blog seem out or order, its because the titles are in the order of which they were requested, I'll try to be more organized, but anyways, here you are.

And whoever unfollowed me, 👊💥👼. I'm kidding of course!

7- "No, you cannot stay here! I don't care that it's raining!!!"

17-"We're only sharing a bed, it isn't the end of the word"

24- "I aim to please.

41-"Just this once, don't worry about what will happen, just focus on us, right here."

I might do a part 2! With actually well written smut lol, tell need what you think. ... (edit from 2021 Nightowl-Not gonna happen)

...

You weren't planning on staying up tonight, but shit happens. You were busy eating cereal at 10PM because you had no social life outside talking about your favorite things on the internet. It was raining quite vigorously outside too. Honestly, it was kind of calming to hear the patter against your windows. The weather report said a storm was rolling in. Not dangerous, but a lot of rain and thunder. You suddenly heard a knock on your door. No one should really need anything at this time of night. You trudged over the door, unaware of your attire.

You yanked open the door, coming face to face with Yoongi, who was currently shaking in his soaking wet clothes. What the fu-

"What are you doing here?" You stifled a yawn. "Don't tell me I'm needed over there." you withheld a bothered groan. "Haven't you ever heard of an umbrella."

"No, I really didn't want to take a taxi or ride the train." he replied. "Weatherman said to stay indoors or get somewhere as quick as possible." he mumbled.

"Soo-...Your point?" you raised an eyebrow. Wait a minute..."No! No no no!"

"Come on, just for tonight!" he groaned. "I'll leave as soon as the rain stops!"

"No you cannot stay here! I don't care that it's raining!!" you frantically shook your head.

"Y/N." Yoongi and you had a stare down. There was no way in HELL THAT YOU WERE GOING TO- ....

...

"Here." you grumbled, throwing a clean towel at him. "Bathroom is down the hall." You yelled, walking back into the kitchen to clean up. You weren't sure why he asked where it was in the first place. In the amount of time he's known you, this place should be etched in his mind...then again you never let anyone into your humble abode. Great, just great.

You wandered into your room, walking over to the couch on the other side of your room. Yoongi walked out, yanking off his wet shirt. "What are you doing?" he asked.

"You can sleep on the bed." you simply said, arranging the pillows.

" It's your house, what's wrong with sharing?" he raised an eyebrow.

"Don't ask me!" You said awkwardly. "You're only wearing pants!..." you motioned to his bare torso. "Plus it's good manners."

"You're wearing pajamas" he motioned to your black tank top and gray shorts with orange stars.

"Your point being?" you crossed your arms. "It's weird, okay?!"

"We're only sharing a bed, it isn't the end of the world...and I'm definitely not sleeping on the couch." he laughed, hopping into bed. "Do what you want."

Groaning, you crossed your arms as he made himself comfy...on YOUR bed. Curse him.

"Just keep your hands to yourself." you mumbled, crawling onto the opposite side, as far from him as possible. You both turned your backs from eachother.

"Sure sure." he hid a laugh as you went to turn off the light. "Whatever you say." You sighed, not even making an effort to hide your very evident annoyance. You laid in the darkness, sleep refusing to find you. Maybe it was insomnia creeping up your back, or maybe it was the warm body next to you.

You shivered a bit, that asshole had the majority of the blankets. You didn't want to make an effort to pull over to get some. You felt Yoongi stir next to you. You instantly shut your eyes and pretended to be asleep. Despite the hard patter of the rain against your window pane.

You pretended to stir, moving a little, but still facing away.

"Yeah, no I'm not stuck at the studio." Yoongi began speaking. He must've been on the phone. "I'm at Y/N's. No, it's not like that...Why do you care how I feel about her?" he spoke with assertiveness. "I'm just staying over because of the storm...No-. Oh please, better me be here than you. You'd probably scare her to death." You turned your head and saw him still facing away, his phone to his ear. You turned your head back. You heard a slight beep, signaling he hung up.

"Did I wake you?" he whispered.

"Yeah." you simply answered, faking a yawn. "Were you on the phone?" you pretended to just wake up.

"Yeah, the boys are on my nerves." he mumbled, turning around to face you.

"What about?" you asked, hiding a yawn.

"Deadlines. Why I'm not back at the dorms, bothering you." he rolled his eyes. "The train station was packed, I didn't want to drive."

"And my apartment just so happens to be right next to the building. So you figured..." you trailed off.

"I knew you wouldn't leave me out there." he hid a smile. "That's just the type of person you are."

"Yeah." you mumbled, getting uneasy.

"You've always been like that." he continued. "Even when-"

"Yoongi...don't." you shook your head, knowing where he was going with this. "You don't have to-"

"Why did things end the way they did?" he suddenly asked, although he knew damn well.

"Just go to sleep." You mumbled quickly, standing up off the bed.

"Y/N-" he called behind you. You walked to your kitchen, suddenly craving more cereal. You should have known someone like Yoongi would carry a baggage. It was hell enough working with him.

"Why do you keep running away everytime I bring something like this up?" he stormed in. As soon as he spoke, the lights cut out as a result of a crash of thunder. Just. Fucking. Wonderful.

"Yoongi. The reason it didn't work between us is because you're somebody, I'm nobody. You're a rapper, I file papers. There was no way-"

"Because you didn't give us enough time for there to BE a way. You were worried about everything and everyone!" he raised his voice slightly. You grabbed a flashlight from one of your cabinets and flicked it on.

"I was thinking about you and hardships." You excused his comment.

"Bullshit, Y/N...what we had was really something important. I know you still feel something. You're scared because it was me who fucked up." he sighed.

"I don't think I'd call putting makeup on your face, 4 walks in the park, 3 "Netflix and Chill" sessions and 2 dates a relationship." you mumbled.

"...The boys wouldn't talk to me for two days...when they found out that we..."

"Called it quits due to your lack of-" you began. No, even if you were hurt in the past. Yoongi still had a heart. He was nice and caring. That fake bad boy attitude was always blinded by that silly smile. "Will we ever learn...or do we really have to have people teach us." you laughed harshly.

"Maybe that's the problem. We were listening to others, but never to ourselves, or to each other.". Even in the dark, despite the flashlight that had decided to die, you could make out his serious face. You both stood for a while, basking in the rain.

"So what do we do." you asked, knowing where this was headed.

"Just this once," he began talking a step towards you. "Don't worry about what will happen. Just focus on us...right here." he whispered. "Maybe we'll get it right this time."

"Maybe..." you whispered.

"...Guess your not scared of the dark anymore." you could see the faint smile on his face. You noticed it too, you weren't freaking out or waving a pan around.

"Remember what you said. 'When you're here, there's no such thing as darkness'" you quoted that very stupid cheesy line that he learned from a stupid movie you both watched before. Quickly he walked up to you. His arms slipped around your frame, yanking you closer. You weren't sure if you were prepared...for this again.

Yoongi kissed you, his lips burning. The unfamiliar sensation of what used to be came raining back down on you. Wrapping your arms around his neck, you slightly leaned on him for support. Floods of late nights and "other" things suddenly came back. His hand trailed down your side, down your leg and hiked up your shorts. His hand was very cold. Being the cocky bastard he was, he squeezed your ass, causing you to gasp. Yoongi used his opportunity to slip his tongue through the gap created.

You both stood in the darkness of the kitchen, hands on bodies, slowly grinding together, stroking tongues. Your back hit the wall gently, yet Yoongi still never let you out of his grasp.

"Don't make me regret this." You whispered, trying to catch what little breath you had left. "Now take me back to my room." you pouted. "It's really beginning to scare me now."

"Well, I aim to please." he replied playfully, his arms hooked around your legs, hoisting you up. You wrapped your legs around his torso as he walked through your stairless apartment.

"But don't expect us to do much sleeping." he laughed after a while.

[cannolicas]

VMin! American teen au!

We are running so fast and we never look back

Jimin

☆ hates the suburbs with a passion

☆even though he lives in the most boring town ever

☆ always riding around on that damn bike with that damn boy on the handlebars

☆ ‘such a sweet boy’

☆ ‘Straight a student’

☆’innocent’

☆lmao he’s a fukboi

☆ meanwhile he’s smoking kush on the porch swing, sending hot guys from other schools his dick.

☆ annual family trips to California, Paris and London.

☆super well dressed but everyone thinks he’s straight

☆ mommy and daddy made too much money

☆so they buy his affection

☆and he leads 2 lives because of this.

☆ plays baseball in the spring,

☆ bums out at football games in the fall

☆catchfases include:

☆ “I hate white picket fences with a passion”

☆ “I’m.so.lit.right.now-I’m.so.lit”

☆ “this is so fucking cliche”

☆ “Gucci gang”

☆ “how American of you”

☆ national honor society president

☆ a ello hablan espanol, muy bueno, y sacar buenos notas.

☆ Spanish club

☆ business club

☆ youth and government

☆art club

☆special needs buddies club

☆ every club

☆ except GSA

☆ He dosent want to blow his cover.

☆bc he’s still in the closet.

Taehyung

☆ football team

☆poor dairy(milk) farmers only son.

☆’a true American wholesome boy’

☆ but his dad isn’t exactly around

☆lives with his ‘momma’, ‘big sissy’s’, his niece, his ‘nana’ and ‘pop pop’

☆ low key envies Jimin

☆’but nana always said money don’t buy love’

☆he kinda has that preachers daughter thing

☆v innocent by its sexy on him???

☆and is obviously a virgin

☆all the girls in his church/school/planet want to fuck him silly

☆ dosent do much other than toss that pig skin and skate sometimes

☆ kinda a skater boi but dosent dress like it.

☆but is actually a giant softie.

☆v cuddly

☆v clingy

☆verbally affectionate always to everyone

☆His small lil farm house bedroom is covered in ceiling stuck on glow stars bc there pretty and he has big dreams

☆ v religious mom

☆she teaches sunday school

☆ he works at the local grocery store to support his family.

☆ loves little kids

☆ doesn’t pay attention in escuela

☆but pays the bills

☆ church every sunday

☆ Catchfazes include

☆ “put that down, [nephews name]!”

☆”can’t gotta be at work after practice”

☆ “no thanks I don’t smoke”

☆ ‘ma! Little baby Jesus ain’t gonna save my slut of a sisters ass from getting pregnant again!’

These two

☆ jimins parents made him get a summer job

☆teach him humility

☆the real world

☆ worked the register next to taehyung

☆’omg that boy is so cute-

☆-omg hes do nice to the little kids’

☆ they just stared at each other for 3 months

☆too scared to say hi.

☆these two dorks are so shook and soft for each other I can’t even

☆suddenly the Suburbs are a lot more fun.

☆ then September came around.

☆ honor society sells concessions at football games.

☆so Minnie as TaeHyung called him in their minimal conversations was there ofc.

☆ ‘woah Jimin goes to my school’

☆ “lookin sharp taehyung” jimin yelled, almost out of body

☆and was like fuck that was gay

☆and the quarterback smiled and winked, waving.

☆ but jimins like ?? Was that-the gay??

☆and tae wants to die of embarrassment like wtf I’m scared what if my momma saw?¿?¿

☆ but then there okay

☆bc now there talking-just in the hall.

☆’nice hair, jimin’

☆’nice face’

☆’nice but’

☆but it’s okay.

☆ bc after a few awkward weeks they start going out.

☆kinda secretive but very commited to eachother

☆ Like Idc that nobody knows about us but don’t you dare look at that boy I’ll kill him and fuck you so hard you know your ass belongs to me

☆ him and jimin lie in his bed looking at the stars and talk about their dreams and it’s v intimate.

☆just so cute

[giovannasxo]

⌈ bruna marquezine ⋄ twenty two  ⋄  cis female ⋄ witch ⋄ she/her ⌋  ╱  dear GIOVANNA CASTRO,  congratulations on being accepted to pennbrook university, a school devoted to excellence. are those RAVEN footprints on your steps? looks like you’re being invited to join RAGSDILL which is probably because you have proven yourself to be BEGUILLING & UNFORGIVING. we welcome you through our doors with open arms & hope that you show us that we have made the right decision in accepting you. ╳ THE FLICK OF HER HAIR TO CATCH YOUR ATTENTION THAT EMITS THE SCENT OF GREEN APPLES , THE QUICK FLASH OF A CRIMSON CLOAK SWEEPING THE HALLWAYS , HER SHARP AND PERFECTLY SHAPED EYEBROW THAT PEAKS UP OVER HER GLASSES WHEN SHE HAS A POINT TO PROVE , THE RED ACCENTS THAT SHE TRIES TO ADD TO EVERYTHING & THE FRUSTRTAED RANTS IN SPANISH WHEN SHE IS ANNOYED , ANGRY OR STRESSED .

                                               STATISTICS.

☾ ― NAME: giovanna antionette castro ☾ ―  AGE twenty two ☾ ― BIRTHDAY / STAR SIGN: may 16th / taurus ☾ ― OCCUPATION: heiress ☾ ― PARENTS:  giovani  & sofia castro ( deceased ) , marianna castro nee wilkinson ( step mother ) ☾ ―  SIBLINGS:  harley wilkinson ( step sister ), guiellermo castro ( younger half brother. ) ☾ ― HOBBIES: alchemy , partying , dancing , drawing , divination & astrology ☾ ― LIKES:  drugs , getting drunk ,  doing things she shouldn't , eating , travelling , perfume & expensive things ☾ ― DISLIKES:  her step mother , her younger half sister , authority , being told what to do , being bored.  ☾ ― FEARS: losing her father, being forgotten , snakes , being heartbroken , being known for being her fathers daughter the whole of her life.

                                      BACKGROUND.

☾ ―  she was born in brazil , to a family that was well known in the world of magic - they were two of the most powerful and influential witches of their age - coming from a very long line of important witches.  ☾ ― when she was 2 , her mother was killed by someone from a rival coven, with no explanation. her father had sworn to never be a part of that world again, they moved to the states & he made a whole new life for himself as the owner of a very well known and successful investment firm and succeeded in raising her alone. ( or so he thought ) ☾ ―  her father tried his best to keep her away from magic but her grandparents did not want a normal life for her, they wanted her to carry on in their footsteps and carry on their name and their legacy - so they took over her lessons , in the hopes that she would be the most powerful witch of her age. ☾ ―  when she was 3 , her father met a human woman & fell in love with her - she had a daughter of her own and they were both like the step mother and sisters from cinderella. they did whatever they could to make gi's life a living hell. ☾ ―  her father did not want his new family to know that he, gi and their side of the family where witches, so she was forced to hide that part of herself and only use it around her grandparents - she hated it, being a witch was all that she knew & made her hate her new family more ☾ ―  after they got married, she began to see less and less of her father & that killed her. she was so desperate for his attention , that she would do anything to get it - which got her into trouble. ☾ ―  soon after they married, they had a son together - guillermo, who was born half witch - gi fell in love with him & sworn to herself that she would always protect him -- & poison his mind against his mother and sister.    ☾ ― when she was 15 , she overheard a conversation with her step sister and step mother about how they were wanting to sponge as much of her fathers money as they could, as well as doing whatever they could to keep gi and him away from eachother. ☾ ― she tried her best to warn her father of this, but he was so besotted with marianna that he didn't believe her & it was then that she decided that her lifes aim was to not only make her step mother and step sisters lives a living hell - but to split them up too. ☾ ― she made voodoo dolls of them, curses them & basically just does whatever she can to ruin their day -- making sure to only cast spells in spanish so that that they have no idea what she is saying   ☾ ― with how rich her father had became, always making the top 5 in forbes - her family became a lot like celebrities & she used that to her advantage to get whatever the hell she wanted & her fathers money was used to bail her out of whatever trouble she got herself into. ☾ ― she most definitely made a name for herself not only in the brazilian tabloids but in the american ones too - but never for good reasons, always for scandals.

                                         PERSONALITY.

☾ ―  she is firm, but fair - shes a nice girl if she receives the same treatment back. ☾ ―  she tried her best to seem tough in front of everyone , especially since everyone knowns who she is & who her family is.  ☾ ―  but she can be very emotional , like she will cry over anything ( only in private ) - having a father who doesn't believe a word that you say really takes its toll on you ☾ ―  but can be really spoiled at times - she doesn’t mean it, shes just really used to having things go her way   ☾ ― very materialistic, always has to have the best and newest things ☾ ―  she can be very charming, knows what to do to get her own way - those who know her claim that shes enchanting. ☾ ―   she can never tell her real friends from the ones who are using her for her money and status ☾ ― for her, her social life is EVERYTHING - she is invited to EVERY PARTY and always attends. ☾ ― shes a very affectionate person , almost to the point of falling in love with a new person every day ☾ ―  she hasn’t had many relationships - as since she got older she began to believe that you didn’t really need to label things & things didn’t need to be so --- official. ☾ ―   shes a little bit  dependant on drugs ( with the potential to get worse ) always looking for her next high ☾ ― makes so many mistakes but never learns from them 

                                       CONNECTIONS.

☾ ― best friend: female / NB  connection - a girl who she connected with as soon as they met. they became close very quickly and have been inseparable ever since.

☾ ― unlikely friend: any gender - someone who she’s the polar opposite too, she would usually hate girls like this - but something just clicks between them and they can’t help but get along and like one another.

☾ ― lady love: female connection - a girl that she hooks up with from time to time, they keep it a secret but are not ashamed of it. they just wanna keep it between them.

☾ ― bad influence: any gender connection  - they’re both a bad influence on each other. encouraging one another to do bad things party, cheat, drugs ect.

☾ ― good influence: any gender connection -  they’re always in each others corner and always stroke each others ego - encourage each other to fight for what they want and do well.

☾ ― enemy: female connection - this girl will hate her for sleeping with her boyfriend, but obviously she would have never done that on purpose. she wouldn’t have known that the two were dating. but the girl would not believe her.

☾ ― unrequited love: male  / NB   connection - the guy who she keeps telling herself to stop feeling things for, but can’t. he turned her advances down and now he angers her whenever she sees him — but deep down she still likes him.

☾ ― best guy friend: male connection a guy who she’s kinda bro’s with. they would both kill for one another.

☾ ― casual hook up: male  / NB   connection - they basically just keep each other around for sex. they could possibly even not like eachother but we can talk about that.

☾ ― ride or die -  male  / NB   connection. someone who will always be there for her and vice verse. they can always count on each other, no matter what the situation is. many people even think that they’re dating, they never clear the air though, they sometimes even play on it. but they don’t see each other in that way. they’re basically like phoebe and joey from friends.

☾ ― annoying temptation male  / NB   connection -  they but heads and clash all of the time, but they find it hot. they’ve hooked up a couple times after a heated argument and keep going round in the same circle.

☾ ― summer fling male  / NB   connection - they started dating over the holidays, but agreed that it was just something that lasted for the summer and that it couldn’t carry on when they got back to school. either one of them ( it doesn’t really matter who ) want things to carry on where they left off but the other just wants it to stay a secret thing.

☾ ― rival: any gender - they will both have alot of talent and passion for a certain thing - so they butt heads over it.

☾ ― cat and mouse: any gender - the keep chasing eachother, flirting back and forth giving empty promises but nothing has ever happened. yet.

☾ ― sexual tension: any gender- whenever they are around eachother, something just sparks up. they can’t deny it and they both feel it. they just cant explain it.