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Sitting here at work listening to Wowaka's Unhappy Refrain album and just really missing him. His song Rolling Girl was the first Vocaloid song I listened to. I really relate to it and love it, even getting a Rolling Girl tattoo. I miss Wowaka so much, I know I didn't know him, but I knew his music, and that's enough for me to miss him deeply.
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✧ — 𝐓𝐀𝐆 𝐆𝐀𝐌𝐄.
-`. 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐠𝐞𝐝 𝐛𝐲 @carrionsflower and @loriane-elmuerto tytyy sm lori and airika!!!!! 🥀💌🐦⬛
✧ — 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐎𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓.
coffee or tea | early bird or night owl | chocolate or vanilla | spring or fall | silver or gold | pop or alternative | freckles or dimples | snakes or sharks | mountains or fields | thunder or lightning | egyptian mythology or greek mythology | ivory or scarlet | flute or lyre | opal or diamond | butterflies or honeybees | macarons or eclairs | typewritten or handwritten | secret garden or secret library | rooftop or balcony | spicy or mild | opera or ballet | london or paris | vincent van gogh or claude monet | denim or leather | potions or spells | ocean or desert | mermaids or sirens | masquerade ball or cocktail party
✧ — 𝐓𝐎𝐏 𝐅𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐒 𝐎𝐍 𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐓.
𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐌𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐌 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐁𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 — bel canto.
𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐎 — nostalghia.
𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐃 𝐁𝐀𝐑𝐊 — mannequin pussy.
𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐍𝐈�� — chappell roan.
𝐃𝐀𝐅𝐅𝐎𝐃𝐈𝐋 — florence + the machine.
— 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐠:
@sunsofdawn, @pavus, @happilyobsessing, @girliefailure, @alvsanne
@auricfog, @jamessunderlandgf, @weisshaupts, @grapecaseschoices, @risingsh0t
@shellibisshe, @florbelles, @full---ofstarlight, @fenharel, @unholymilf
@aelyosos, @anoramactir, @roofgeese, @cloudofbutterflies92, @griffin-wood
@southernreaches, @chainsawsangel, @leviiackrman, @tethrras, @rosykims
@tommyarashikage, @carlosoliveiraa, @courtana, @lilywatt, @kroganloveinterest
@shadowsofrose, @celticwoman, @shadowsofrose, @dialdrunk, @kissingwookiees
@neonshrike, @confidentandgood, @lavampira, @adelaidedrubman, @imogenkol
@kanos, @deadrlngers, @elluvians and you!!!!!! 🥀💌<3
#only if you want to of course !!!!!! 🥀💌☺️!#leg.txt#leg.about#my campaign that shimmering is a a*rlathan you dancing with the wolf while a diss track of him plays starts noww#(i don’t have a fic planned maybe maybe about this there isnt a scene like this that i have in mind thats sillyy)#speaking of ITS DRAGON GAME FALL BESTIES and that means that all of the songs pertain to a dragon game clown or two 🥀🤡🥰 <3!!!!#california if you altered to missing seasons in lothering + come get me out of hightown it will make you crazy 🥀😖💀😵💫 !!!!! <3#thats helaenas song now 🥀😌🤧!!#daffodil and imago are soooo irulanne coded its like they were written for her my GOD !!#like irulanne as a character and wee bits of lucanne here and there are captured so well 🥀🥰 <3#and speaking of songs that were written for clowns loud bark was written about lhysa actually (joking) djdhgcgx ITS JUST SO HER !!!!!!#loud bark just GETS lhysa to the letter i cant wait to yell about her and all of the clowns more oh my godd#rattling the bars of my enclosure i am STOKED#a wee tardy so if you have done this already please feel free to pass on this!!!!! 🥀🥰#lhysa is such a special oc to me she’s been a part of me since i want to say?? 2015/2016???? SHES THE BABY OF ALL TIME and i just adore her#and can’t wait to yell about this worldstate and the rooks and the a*rlathan prequel peace dragon game i missed youu 🥀🤧#*piece#moots and besties as always if you read this im baking you cookies ty tyy for listening to me yell 🥀😭🥺💌🥹 !!!!#okie dokie back to replaying dragon game 2 (i may not need to anymore buut we remain committed anything for fenlaena 🥀😤 <3!!)#i will catch up tag games at a reasonable hour onee day 🥀🥴💀<3
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I miss the days where existing online was a fun thing for ppl with social anxiety to make friends on instead of like Life 2.0 ya know
#sucktacular sucks#this is literally about nothing im just like#so tired. im tired all the time. being online was my lil fun escape place#but now itslike#DID YOU KNOW HORRIBLE THING HAPPENED AND IF YOU ARENT PAYING ATTENTION#YOURE AWFUL AND ALSO THIS OTHER STUFF DONT DO IT BUT YOU#HAVE TO DO THIS THING OR ILL SEND YOU DEATH THREATS#or YOU DID XYZ OR LIKE XYZ THAY MEANS YOURE EVIL AND AWFUL#and its like#i know this stuff existed still back then but also#i just miss making movie maker slide shows#and having funny fake cyber sex in gaia online towns with my friends that i dont#know anything about and will never meet#like i could probably still exist in that closed off little world if i tried harder#but like maaaaann its just rough#i log in and get bombarded with information#i have no money i dont go outside and i want to be left alone except for my friends#i dont want to be anyone and i dont want to do anything#and Yet#my anxiety is on high alert every hour of everyday#anyone else wanna just exist and enjoy stuff or be a hater but it not be A Big Thing#again literally about nothing just like#i have an anxiety disorder and i know existing is already hard#but man online gonna make it hard now too huh#ewie#anyway i do miss my death note mutuals but i cant even socialize with my besties these days#cuz im too anxious and one little trip up and im gonna explode and die frankly#working on it#HOW THE HELL DID WE WIND UP LIKE THIS#AND WHY WERENT WE ABLE... TO SEE THE SIGNS THAT WE MISSED. AND TRY AND TURN THE TABLES
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i swear to g-d im& not even the jealous type but jfc i HAAAAAAATE this feeling when im& just lowkey like. who's :)))))) this :))))) bitch 👀👀👀👀🔪🔪🔪🔪 :))))))
#arcana.vents#& its like. kinda irrational bc we're just friends & just vibing & we're not even together but like. i cant help it so fuck me ig lmao#like obvi he can have friends & shit & w/e so im not gonna like. tell him anything bc i dont wanna like push him away or push anything yk??#& he said he missed me & everything but like. damn. why arent you talking to me like that. i wish you would talk to me like that.#i miss you too & i wish you would tell me you loved me more :<#im just like bitch chill he aint even your man. but he's sweet & good to me & he's deadass one of the funniest ppl ever.#& we have literally so much in common & he said i was a miracle & resilient since birth & that sb should make a documentary about me ehehe.#& we're both autistic poc4poc & have a lotta solidarity between our communities & he makes me blush & giggle & i love his curls & his smile#& the color of his skin's so pretty & he said that it'd be neat if we just. played videogames in a pillowfort#& he makes spongebob refs & he likes anime & horror & buffy & ethel cain nicole dollanganger & lana del rey & he got a nasty ass vocabulary#& he said it'd be cool if we explored abandoned places together & go to concerts together & he has the cutest name ive deadass ever heard#when nicole said ''when i see you i cant find the words to speak my cheeks go as red as two big cherries'' & ''you're so cool''... YEAH.#im gonna start fuckin chewing on the fuckin walls dude. im GNAWING at the bars of my cage. i need him to firmly grasp it.#i wanna feed him the world's sweetest strawberry!!!!#we have lost the entire fucking plot besties lmfaoooo#& i rarely if ever feel like this for cis dudes & my mind is blaring sirens like he gonna leave me im just. getting war flashbacks to. yeah#the red sirens be blaring like HE'S GONNA ABANDON ME!!!!! its so irritating#ill be goddamned if i EVER feel replaced to that degree ever again. id actually rather get hit by a car & throw myself into the sea lmao#UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BPD SPLITTING I HATE YOU#this was from a few hours ago but i forgot to post it so lmao
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God i miss Yakuza <- could simply play Yakuza again
#smol plays yakuza#But Its Not So Simple#I think i fatigued myself lmao i miss Ichiban but i cant be bothered to load up 7 it feels like Effort#I began to replay 0 but never got that far after the one session. I want to play Ishin so i can see Izo and make Ishin versions of my OCs#But like....idk man. I miss Mirei. I miss Yasuko. I miss Haruka my precious daughter Haruka. But if i play the games im not gonna get them#For 20 minutes of my girls i have to sit through hours with that motherfucking dragon arent i. And im sick of him#I dont WANT to play 8 because I Dont Want Him There!!! I Want Ichiban!!!! And GOD I have to play Gaiden too dont i#Which people say is good but i just ughhhhh but i NEED to play these because for ONCE i dont know what happens#Im as unaware as my besties are but like jesus dude these games are A Lot
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went to the beach w kp & 4 other indian friends & 3 of us had NEVER surfed before girl WHEW it’s SO fun literally only 20quid to rent a wetsuit & board & i fucking smashed my toes on the sand so much, but also we 1) got the wrong tickets so we got off 1 stop early 2) went to find a bus & the bus that was supposed to be 15 min turned into an HOUR 3) on our way to find a bus back everyone’s phones are dying or dead bc it took us 3hrs longer to get there, cigarettes are out 4) all of the shops in town are closed & the town seems to have ONLY a tesco extra & 1 off license that sells a PACK FOR 15.65 A PACK WHICH IS FUCKING CRIMINAL ITS CHEAPER TO BUY IT FROM TESCO ARE U INSANE 5) the bus back to the other town kept skipping us bc the bus stop wasn’t the ACTUAL bus stop - i had 1 bowl since literally 11a & we got back at fucking 11p 😭😭😭
#diary#i was honestly abt to strangle EVERYBODY#‘do u have a cigarette’ ‘where’s ur vape’ ‘where are we going’ ‘which bus is it’ ‘do u have a ___’ ‘did u bring ___’ girl what am i DORA w#the magic fuckin BACKPACK ??? while ur UP MY ASS dig around & SEE IF SMTHGS IN THERE 😭😭😭😭#i literally broke sobriety again bc i was just#girl i was so agitated & there was 1 TRAIN LEFT BEFORE 11P so we needed to get the 2ND TO LAST BUS OF THE DAY#i deadass was like ‘if we miss that train i will make sure u all go blind’ ‘did u bring a knife’ ‘I DONT NEED 1’#AKSJAKSKAKKSJSKSSJAKJSKAHSKSHDLASKAKDLA#LIKE U BITCHES SMOKED ALL MY CIGARETTES MY VAPES DEAD MY PHONES DYING UR ALL DRUNK IM GOING TO KILL YALL 😭😭😭😭😭#<- me knowing i could never be a parent#tbh if i caught my kid smoking a cig id make em do the ol ‘im going to sit down in front of u w a fresh box of cigarettes & make u finish#the box or pass out’#YES IM STRICT#i think it’s so funny ok unrelated but like they’ll speak hindi & i’ve just#learned it through being around them kind of like i can’t speak it except for some word u know like matachot etc but i’ll Understand the#Context & what’s being Said#ASLKALSKALSKLAKSLAKSLAKSLA like while waiting for the train back 1 of them was talking abt me being a fool to the others - literally they’re#all indian & i had walked away so when i walked back he was still talkin but then i started giggling bc i knew he was talkin abt me & how i#pinched a bit of the kebab to throw to the seagull bc he offered it to me & i needed to bait the seagull w something & i pinched & tossed &#& he looked at me like 😦 bhenchod ! & then the seagull came over & i was like :D hi bestie <3333 but then when i started giggling after i#walked back he was like ‘what the fuck does he just know hindi now’#it makes me laugh so fucking HARD 😭😭😭😭😭 LIKE FUCK U I LIKE TO PARTICPATE IN COVERSATION IDC ABT LANGUAGE#like i’ve been surrounded by yall for the past#girl it’s been like a year i don’t even talk to british ppl or americans#ALSKALSKALSKALKSLAKSLALSLA MESS ! i love to slavsquat & kp hates it bc he’s like ‘we’re in the uk why are u sitting like this’ bc he thinks#it’s ’too indian’ ALSKALSKALSKALJSKAKDLA 😭😭😭😭😭 this hips were made for sitting#we’re definitely going to go back bc it’s SO CLOSE IF WE ACTUALLY USE THE TRANSPORT PROPERLY ITS ONLY LIKE AN HOUR OR SO COMMUTE EACH WAY#bring lunch whatever#i’m exhausted but also socially like bro i had to leave the donner place just to walk around the block for SOME QUIET#i’ve just been sososososo busy LOSING MY MIND
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fundamental need to see the mountain goats again (im going in april im literally going in april i need to go to the sf show that was maybe tonight??? i need to go to the one in the cave i need to go to the one in asheville im literally going in april already)
#screaming crying etc#cant believe c and i missed divorce papers biting by 24 hours#im literally going in april its FIIIINE#i dread the future though (knowing when they come back to my city it will probably be when im away for the summer again)#juuust like chappell roan.... my bestie chappell who hates me so much (hyperbole obv)
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Me: oh rest! My body is so tired it cannot wait to unclench
My body the second it feels anything less than a PTSD inducing stress response that will remain with me the rest of life: seize up? Clench? Shake? Panic? Make the brain completely foggy and confused except for heartwrenching agony and sadness? Make flashbacks? CPTSD symptoms? Literal seizures triggered by distress?
#pleaese. im begging.#vent#negative#do not rb#seizures#ptsd#trauma#CPTSD#actually plural#like i know i dont mention systems in the post but i am one and also i think this is system related#I've been like. whimpering and unable to cry or fully panic for like an hour. just#rolling around whining jn pain like oh here it comes. here WHAT comes bestie??? its fine. im fine#what feels bad. im so miserable. im fine. whats WRONG. im dissociated so bad. so so bad.#i cannot recover bc i am incapable of feeling good. < trauma thoughts#im wrong and i know it but it doesn't make moments like this pass any faster or make them stop#i have to let myself feel like shit rn bc my body is making it happen and i have used any thing i physically can rn#feeding time in like 2 hours im literally sick im so excited. this WILL cure me#i havent recieved grounding and nurturing fulfillment of this nature(punIntended) in months. i miss my papa#i miss Crystal and Rufus and CHUCK should be out now!! chapa will be active in mere months and sally must be bacl in her spot too#i wanna see if the quail are still there. i miss feeling Keeper look at me. i miss the turtles even tho they're hibernating rn ill sense#i miss todd and gina and alicia. i havent seen alicia in. oh my god so long it hurts genuinely#im very mentlally ill about this place. Gary (ik ur real name but i call u this bc i love u) if you ever visit here please god make it to#feeding time i swear to god you will literally earn my trust 100% forever i will be like OHHHHHH So its fine then. literally instantly#im venting bc tumblr is a void but i know anyone can see this shit forever just. future me know that im fighting for YOU#everything gonna be okay. please tell me everything going to be okay. if i die before i can respond to this in the future i promise im tryin#and i love you so so much. it doesnt matter who read this im grabbing you DO YOU EVEN realize YOU ARE loved like have you really thought#about it today. you are LITERALLY LOVED more than you will ever evet ever know. did you know our core feelings snd thoughts and understandin#gs are about love bc love is literally the meaning of life
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i miss lover boy !!! ૮₍˶Ó﹏Ò ⑅₎ა
#it's 'missing reo' hours here in the city of lovers ໒꒰ྀིっ˕ -。꒱ྀི১ (it usually always is lmaosdkf)#ive been thinkin ab him so so SO SO SOOOOO MUCH!!!! probs more than normal which is!!! SOOO MUCH!!!!#i need him pls pls pls pls!!!! i can't wait for s2 of bllk ANY LONGER!!!!!! OR THE EP NAGI MOVIE!!! ໒꒰ྀི ∩ ⸝⸝ ∩ ꒱ྀིა#anyways my bestie just left & so its just the chlo show here at wrk so im gonna read a whole bunch of fics!!! :3 weeeee!!#˚ʚ♡ɞ˚reo#ᕱ⑅ᕱ.* journals!
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I feel like a dog that's been inside too long and no one has taken it out for a walk in a while and it's running around with its leash in its teeth and whining for attention
(I haven't been out with anyone in too long bc I'm at my dad's in Germany and there's no one my age here and I miss my bestie)
#like yeah ive been out with my dad. and on my own#but its not the same#i wanna be taken out for a walk with my bestie and roam around our town aimlessly for hours!!!!!!#id say i wanna see other dogs but shes not a dog#but like. i am running around with a leash in my teeth whining for attention. i wanna see other dogs#also my dad cant even go out with me because of his work#so like i cant go out with anyone anyway#and i love my alone walks#but i miss having company#ough#i like being at my dad's but i kinda. wanna go home already#and he's taking me back to poland next week. like around tuesday i think#so theres still a lot of time before i can see my bestie and i miss heeeeeeer#bee buzz
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As she should Billy is a lucky guy (and maybe he can find another guy to admire besides jay)
ransom (pt 2) ☆ jay halstead
summary: in which y/n is rescued and jay has something to say.
warnings: language, guns, mentions of injury
a/n: I’m actually incredibly proud of this lmaooo. I love writing more light hearted pieces and am so happy so many of you loved the first part. many people requested a part two and hope you enjoy this also! - love emie <3
PART ONE
Lees verder
#of course we are the ones who call when its a life and death situation#like hi taco bell? im hungry can i get some food before i get shot#thanks deliver it closeby at some non deceript building with a very non shady car parked infront of it with very non suspicious stains#on the pavement#my guy youve been without her for what? a day or smth? dont be dramatic 😭 go save her ass#the kidnappers are either on the verge of just returning her out of annoyance or are growing fond of her and are like lets keep her#JAY SHES BEEN MISSING FOR FIVE HOURS STOP YOUR DRAMATIC ASS ACTIONS#no everyone wants to shoot her but then again thats sadly a felony#the leader is frantically going like SIR?? Why didnt you say shes horrible can we pLEASE GET RID OF HER#FIVE DAYS#Oh- i take back what i said jay#not really#theyre all like why do i have to do this#how do you remember all the ppl tho i barely remember what i had for dinner last night#kardashians shouldnt be missed thats illegal (i havent watched a single episode)#imo one of the worse things is the birth control issue like my guys unless you want me to die or kill one of you for distraction#give me the birth control#HEY if you get complimented on your ass thats a great compliment how dare he#even if humming would still be hearable just make them go insane by humming all day#mh at least they have eyes#throw in some queer guards tho spice shit up#i mean i dont blame mister 'who is he?' for listening#if you have nothing better to do at least listen (i thjnk im running out of tags)#baby face is an awesome guy tbh he probably just got dragged in#also considerate mans even offered her a cig#💀 mans only now thought up knocking her out lmao. feel sorry for babyface tho hes good and terry is a dumbass#poor billy tbh he needs some better friends and some money but hes a good guy.. i need to see them become besties ngl#TELL THEM ABOUT BILLY#BILLY BEING BESTIES YES#billy is like girl if he wasnt yours id date him
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recent jungkook fanfics that you should read for your own sanity.
(a recommendation for all the girlies who miss him like crazy!)
one rule by @/jasminefanfics on youtube
— dark romance, mean and morally ambiguous jungkook, hostage au, enemies to lovers, smut, love triangle (but it’s just a deranged schizophrenic being the ‘bone in a kebab’ for the gorgeous couple)
— this is ART. this is true unleashed YEARNING. dark ROMANCE done right, literally the perfect read for winter! this is my absolute fav read of this year 🫦
bonded by @borathae
— werewolves au, forced marriage au, childhood besties to lovers, angst, romance, smut.
— will this queen ever stop producing art after art? she’s not capable of doing that, god this was such a good read, I’m still not over this, THIS IS MY SHEYLA FR! (iyykyk) they’re everything to me gawd 🥺
mon révé by @sweetcarrotsandroses97
— archdeacon jungkook, forbidden love, age gap, romani character reader, dark romance.
— I’ve never read something so beautifully, perfectly executed, every scene she wrote is plastered into my brain, the amount of times i think about this fic is not normal, I’m desperately awaiting the new chapters 😔✋🏼
the love prognosis by @awrkive
— friends to lovers (the og), medical au, unrequited love, roommates trope.
— nobody gets them like I do fr! my precious ship! 🥺😻🤲🏼 i loved how down bad he was for her from the beginning, we love a man who worships the ground his woman walks on LIKE AHHHH the author executed the one sided pining from jungkook so well! THE ANGST IS DELICIOUS IN THIS.
christmas & chill series by @girlygguk & @lovieku
— special xmas edition, jungkook and reader.
— the way I’m about to eat this up. u guys aren’t ready for the obnoxious amount of times I’m gonna be crying ab this whole series on my blog, oh lord have mercy on me, this is so brilliant oh how i wanna kiss their hands for this, SUCH DIVAS BOTH OF THEM 🫦
infrunami by @kooktrash
— friends to lovers, mutual pinning, smut, angst.
— boom shakalaka yes gawd! after I completed reading this fic, i took a moment to myself, clapped and took a lap around my bedroom, then I also did a 7 min standing ovation, this deserves more hype ngl.
burning hour by @jungqkook
— established relationship, smut, exhibitionism.
— the amount of times i’ve re read this is embarrassing but it is that LEVEL of good, oh god when is it my turn to experience something like this?
catch twenty-two by @miraclemaven on wattpad
— forbidden romance, age gap, smut, older reader & younger jungkook, angst.
— im so hooked into this story, even though i haven’t started reading properly, this is a promising one, with really good writing.
chained up by @jikookie17
— obsessed addicted jungkook (my jam), smut, angst, fluff.
— reading this made me feel like im watching a melodramatic story of two idiots who literally can’t live without each other, its a cute lighthearted read, 100% recommend!
THE END OF TODAY’S LIST.
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⠀⠀ hope the girlies like it ⋆. 𐙚 ˚
#bangtan#bts jungkook#jungkook#jeon jungkook#jungkook x reader#jungkook jeon#jungkook fanfic#bts fic#bts jk#jungkook x oc#jungkook fluff#jungkook smut#jeon jungkook smut#jeon jungkook x reader#jungkook x you#jungkook angst#jungkook scenarios#jungkook recent#yandere jungkook#jeongguk#bts army#bts
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I want more simonjess literally so bad
#literally so so bad#i miss themmmmmmmmm#i want to see more of their bromance!!!!!!#and a romantic arc they deserve a full romantic arc#also to be BEST friends they are besties i want to see them be besties even more#started reading a diff gl book today (GL 1990 i mentioned this earlier) and im like this is GREAT. but what about THEM#like its so good but it would be even better if they were here actually#blah#im not gonna tag this bc it doesnt have anything useful to contribute#just like. missing them hours#tempted to go on another reblog spree actually
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hate how im now at a point where im legit like kicking my legs and grinning like an idiot over fictional characters SEND HELP
#take One Guess who im talking about. YES ITS KOI BOI#hes so prettyyyyy and cute and lovely and i love looking at him i wanna hear him speak and laugh and sing just AAAAAAAAAAAA#(turns to my own brain) BITCH WE ARE MEANT TO BE AROACE WHY ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH TWO FICTIONAL CRIMINALS WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?????#my brain: (that fuckin anime girl gif from evangelion (i think??))#like fuuuuuck man is it self shipping if u use a proxy? like. hes an oc but he's a stand in for me. he is me and i am him but we also arent#he is his own person and i am my own our lives are very very different but i use him to express love for Mad Dog and Koi Boy#cause they could actually love him if i were in their world i wouldnt stand a chance but my boy has one so he loves them for me#its far easier to imagine him kissing them than it is for me to imagine myself kissing them but that might be because im wired weird#idk it *feels* like it counts yknow. my dumbass out here gettin jealous when i see a Certain Ship cause like i disagree with it on#a Fundamental Level. and on TOP of that half the time the art is so CUTE and im like 'motherfucker that should be ME' or i guess my lad but#STILL am i making sense?? doesnt help that i worry im like. misreading what content i have but also fuck you i can do what i want and also#i get him more than yall kgyugkhjhk (jk jk. Unless) basically when i call them my boyfriends i fuckin mean it#look its Real Missing Nishiki Hours i love him i wanna kiss his perfect face someone shoulda shown him love i could save him and he could#make me worse <3 I Want Him#and do not get me wrong i may be focused on him but Majima is still my wifey too!!! hes mine you cant have her <3#i just have koi boy brainrot i very much desire them Both (YES THAT MIGHT BE WHY I SHIP THEM TOO LOOK I ALSO THINK THEYD WORK WELL TOGETHER#OR AT LEAST HAVE A FUN DYNAMIC TO EXPLORE I SHOULD DATE THEM AND THEY SHOULD DATE EACH OTHER WE ALL HAVE 2 HANDS)#might delete this in the mornin who knows but im feelin silly i wanna talk about them i wanna talk about my boy but idk if ppl would really#GET IT yknow i can think of maybe Two People and that INCLUDES bestie but just aaaa point is i love my koi boy so much hes so lovely <3 <3
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my mother sent me to harass the GP for naltrexone & i googled it bc i was like a pill for alcohol use ❓🤨 then i saw this is for SMACK & got SOOO EXCITED :D then i read ‘blocking the effects of heroin and other opioids’ & ‘decrease cravings for opioids’ & my face fell D: like ‘nuh UH i WANT my OPIS’ 😭😭
#diary#drugs#ALSKALSKALSKALSKALKSLAS#like ALSKLASKALSKALKSLA I WAS NEVER SOOOOO EXCITED MY HEART STARTED BEATING SOSOSO FAST LIKE FINALLY I GOT A PLUG FOR SMACK & ITS THE MF GP#YAAAASSSS but it’s not. at all. literally just ruined my high#but also that was the biggest feeling of euphoria i had since i fuckin OD’d ALSKALSKALALALSKALKSALJSLASJAL#LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO#anyway#the way it’s like ‘do u rly want to get sober’ & it’s like YEA but i want to get SOBER w CLEAN TAR#CAN I GET SOBER W MY DRUGS ? 😭😭😭 I NEED THEM THEYRE MY BESTIES WE GO EVERYWHERE TOGETHER ….#SCREAM#like i’m laughing so hard i finally took an ocd test u know those little fake ones online & i got to the bottom & was like ‘girl we don’t#even need to bother clicking we’re just closing the tab’#as if i didn’t just apply to a therapist & listed my problems in alphabetical order (bc i was going thru them by singing the abcs & listing#them out bc i don’t want to miss anything & there’s a lot) & would get a new idea write it down or then go back & adjust & move to it reads#more fluidly it took me a hour ALSKALSKALSLALKSLKALKSLASKAL#like THOROUGH#i even put my lil jokes in there like ‘possible ocd probable ptsd’ ALSKALSKALSKALSLAL like o p ocd ptsd po pro possible probable#C L E A N I TELL YALL it’s sooo satisfying i literally just copied it from the website & pasted it in my notes like girl look at u miss#wordsmith#it’s 3.24am#i also ended it w ‘whackiness’
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Work got my paycheck wrong again 🥲 it'll get fixed but rip
#they paid me. for my 8 hours at one store at my new $16.50/hr rate#and 96 hours of backpay at $2/hr for the raise they forgot to give me#but not the other like. 32 hours i did at our other location#which is like. at least $460 of my paycheck missing!!!!#so i called adam like hello bestie <3 ive been screwed again and he was like damn again!? i swear we arent doing this on purpose#so ill just. get it next week its fine#lord may everything be correct and sorted out
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