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lays down. magenta and redalso whatever the color is for "cool australian mutual"
It's Uh. Fuck what are australian colours
Green and Gold?? Yeah that works
#our flag should be green and gold#or literally anything without the union jack please for the love of god#N E WAY#id also commit arson w u hell yeahh#its like 1 am can u tell#ask#answer#friend tag#gillbuoy
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you can always tell when someone doesn't have maga men in their life and god it makes me angry.. "if you're nice and compassionate you can be the one woman that makes them realize women aren't mean!" my mom bent over backwards for my dad for 25 fucking years he has plenty of other women kissing his ass and it never changed anything. do you really think that before being radicalized they never knew a single kind woman? they were never friends with a nice girl? alt-right men's problem with women isn't just that they've experienced too many mean women and they need to be shown that women can be nice, it's that they think women are inferior and don't deserve rights and don't understand anything so you can do what you want with them. and it takes a lot more than being nice to show someone that you aren't inferior. this isn't a case of being nice even when it's hard for the sake of deradicalization, it's about spending every fucking interaction with someone trying to get them to see you as a human being with value and a functioning intellect while they just laugh and show you that's never going to happen.
i cannot stress this enough: random women are not just going out and Being Mean to men. ur average guy interacts with plenty of women throughout his life- close women amongst their friends and family, casual interactions etc. most people don't start out being shunned by women, they start out being treated as NORMAL. & when they show their disrespect in normal society, it isn't tolerated, but when they go to alt-right spaces (which they're pushed towards online) they're told they're allowed to be as horrible as they want with no consequences because they're entitled to everything. it isn't "women aren't welcoming and the alt-right is so friendly so i'll become alt-right," it's "women don't let me disrespect them and the alt-right tells me fuck them, do whatever you want, you're entitled to it all" and why would you choose the group where you have to be a normal accountable person when there's a group that will reward you for being a shithead who gives no fucks?
the alt-right can afford to be more friendly and welcoming because they can allow bigotry. this can't work the same way for progressive spaces because we can be as kind & welcoming as possible but at the end of the day we have lines where we have to say "this behavior/speech isn't allowed in this space," and for certain people, that just can't win against a space where you can be as nasty as you want. these posts always end with a disclaimer saying "of course being kind doesnt mean you need to tolerate their bigotries" but what they don't realize and what drives me crazy is that women not tolerating bigotry IS the "women are mean" that radicalized them in the first place. they perceive you pushing back on any bigotry or bullshit as you being a meanie and treating them like they're ontologically evil. the 'kindness' they need to be deradicalized is you letting them walk all over you.
idk what the answer is to deradicalizing them and im sure relationships are part of it but you can be as kind as you want and all it will do is destroy you ime. i cant stand to see people (who have never even successfully deradicalized any man by being nice btw they always speak in hypotheticals and not from experience) double down on telling women to do things that will see no results and only hurt them, especially when any woman who has tried can tell you exactly how it went
#being as nasty as possible & shitting on everyone while giving no fucks makes you popular in certain spaces. that's tempting no matter what#to immature ppl. part of growing up is learning that you cant do that and real relationships need you to not do that#but that sucks. you could just ignore it and join the alt-right to be a manchild forever#if ur an asshole who wld u wanna hang out with: ur wife who says please dont be an asshole to me or ur bros who say she's a hysterical bitc#& u did nothing wrong?#if u had a maga dad/brother/uncle & u heard the way they talk about women its never abt being mean lol#it's abt how women are hysterical & sensitive & get upset at everything they do#im so sorry but a normal guy (i know & am friends with many) doesnt simply become an MRA because his girl friends made 1 men suck joke#if a guy truly has no fulfilling friendships with women or girls to the point where some feminist group 'being too mean' can radicalize him#bc he doesnt have any kind women in his life to prove that wrong. he already had issues.#you reach a certain point in your friendship with these guys where youve been SO kind and so supportive and welcoming and played therapist#for ages and then they turn around and say 'im voting trump cuz i like his personality better lol i dont care about rights and that bs'#even if you can deradicalize someone by being kind thats years of insane unreciprocated energy for ONE guy#who will end up being the person who never posts abt feminism except to say i became alt right because women were mean so be nice girls!#nobody tells anyone else to accept full blown bigots in their spaces either much less BEFRIEND them#bc nobody is expected to do this kind of service except women. <3#eat ass.
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this is basically my kyle playlist
california girls is rlly carrying the angst so sad((she eants me(2 b loved) is not the sadest song ots just the 1st))
#most if the songs r about alex ngl i love her sm#goodmirbing!! my headaches gone yiipppee!!!!#tgus doodles from yesterday tho lol#i was gonna post it on my kyle doodle acc but like?? not anymore#i drew him kinda leaky srry man#actually no not srry CRY MORE#this guy needs therapy idc what u say#i mean most of them do byt like i will ralk about his silly lil issues hes got sm of those#i feel so bad 4 the ppl i talk 2 omfg#i just talk talk talk & never shut up & THEY DONT TELL ME 2 SHUT UP?? makes me frel bad like oh shit i just yapped @ u im so srry#not even talking about dc all the time#its worse when its dc omg#‘no i like hearing u talk’ like uhm DO U? i can make u regreat that here let me talk about kyle rayner#all the ppl irl having 2 deal w/me shuffling trough comics & me making them see smth on my phone 4 context#i swear i dont talk over ppl ot @ least i rlly try not 2#srry im like sleepy @ am remembering going over 2 1 of my parents friends house &i just talked talked talked#i was ddoung basically a horrible stand up routine#skjfkfkvkkgg#anyaysd kyleee omgg kyle raynerr??!!!#im so srry kyle nation#my kyle tag lmao#kyle rayner#<- is scared#2 put that#dc#puppee art#i think instead of talk talk talk i should say ramble ramble ramble
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ITS THAT TIME YES IT IS
soooo what will my next watch be?? YOU PICK
(so my indecisive ass doesn't have to)
#IKIK#VERY DIFFERENT OPTIONS BIT I JUST NEED TO WATCH SOMETHING LESS THAN 30 EPSIODES AFTER HXH#SOMETHING QUICK AND CUTE AND DRAMA AND CAN KEEP MY ATTENTION#LIKE I AM REALLY liking hxh but its taking me soooo longgggggg#i've watched all of fairy tail and rewatched that in days SO DONT TELL ME I DONT HAVE AN ATTENTION SPAN#60 EPISODES OF ONE (1) ARC HAPPENS IN BASICALLY A FEW HOURS#but i swear on my grave imma lock in and get it done yessir 🫡#i can do it#send hope and willpower#fairy tail#black butler#fruits basket#new writers on tumblr#jjk spoilers#thanks for reading#kuroshitsuji#jjk jujutsu kaisen#jjk#anime#anime recs#anime reccs#anime recommendation#frieren#frieren anime#hxh#hunter x hunter#kiss him not me#THANK YOU IF U VOTE 🙏🙏🤍🤍🙌🙌🫶🫶🫶😘😘
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doing things outside of your usual is such a humbling experience...
#lizzy speaks#to those who are curious what prompted this: my friend and i are collaborating on a video essay together#we picked it back up a week and a half ago after it laid in limbo for a month or two#and we're currently in the phase of editing it together (scripting + recording the VO is done)#and MAN. my respect for people who work on scripted/informative content just shot up through the ROOF#most of my experience with editing comes from footage first and then edit down approach (rather than creating/gathering visuals to uplift-#a written script) and it's. well. they engage with very different skillsets i think#my friend who i am collaborating with is very amused at me because this is not her first rodeo. meanwhile me as a first-timer.#i am telling her about how i am losing my mind over my editing timeline having gaps of footage because i couldn't think of anything to put#for certain portions (or i just didnt feel like looking through preexisting footage on the internet and dl-ing it)#and she compared it to 'telling a kid whos going thru puberty that its normal' EKLHFGLHH#im ngl the way i have spent like maybe 10 hours today off and on looking up footage and fact checking the splat artbook is so. explodes#it makes sifting through an 11 hour batch of footage of me playing big run sound like a cakewalk in comparison LMAOO#anyway if you read this far thank you :D i hope that in 2024 i can continue to be humbled in trying new things#and i highly encourage others 2 do so too! try a new method of approaching something or do smthn slightly adjacent to what you do!#tis a good learning experience and also makes u very appreciative of the things that are out there methinks#im literally only editing an 11 minute segment or so idfk how people make those 1+ hr video essays LIKE HELLO??? ESP IF ITS LICENSED MEDIA#HOW DO U GET ALL THE FOOTAGE FOR THAT. U MUST BE REALLY HYPERFIXATED AND DEDICATED TO THAT. DAMN. anyway. have a good 2023 everyone!
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watched tbosas today. needless to say i am obsessed with the red uniform skirt and they should have been wearing those the whole movie. thank you.
#tbosas#much more to say about this movie but thats it for now#actually no lets TALK#they literally changed how the games end which is fine but like how is no one noticing#also um clemensia dropped in got bit and thats it?? bye bye? have fun?#also this annoying bitch in my grade said she hates sejanus in the movie but loves him in the book um please get his name out of your mouth#if you're gonna be speaking filth about my son#ugh#anyways um rachel ate#love how the movie can tell the whole story tho i *am* conflicted about my feelings on how fast paced it was#and then again not seeing his inner monologue is a problem but like it's a movie so idk#also ofc the vibe is different between parts 1 and 2 and part 3 idk why people dont like it i think its cool and like thats the point to se#his evolution#sejanus' death was horrible like i'm sorry the mockingjays reproducing his last cries for help are just.#anyhoo#i will not shut up ok let's keep going#ik that like ppl are simping for tom blyth and as u should tbh same but you COULD NOT CHANGE HIM OR FIX HIM IK ITS A JOKE BUT IT BOTHERS ME#SO MUCH#like ik it's being silly and goofy but it just rubs me the wrong way cause like its not true#also Tigris and Snow's story is so fucking sad kms#also TF WAS THAT MOMENT IN THE ARENA WHERE SEJANUS ALMOST KISSED CORYO WE ALL SAW IT OK#sejanus is not straight at all lmao he spent the whole movie batting eyelashes at coryo but ALSO i love the angst of the marcus x sejanus i#idea i made up#also coriolanus is so fucking goofy like bitch pls “mY oLd SeLf. I kIlLeD hIm To Be WiTh YoU” bestie sit down#ok rant over#yelenaposts#sejanus plinth
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you know how sometimes theres some popular character and most of the fanstuff is mostly accurate on the surface but you personally have some lived experience shared w this character that enables you to have a deeper understanding of little nuances under the hood that inform things like their decision making and stuff. its on a sliding scale of accuracy of course. personally i mostly get this with my mental disorders with characters such as ogata but sometimes theres LITTLE TINY THINGS that bother me about specifically the various violence related fetishes. and the fact that it bothers me itself bothers me cuz i feel like. "oh Clearly you havent received or inflicted wounds for sexual pleasure". yes obviously they havent done that. nobody else does that. i am abnormal in nature and insane in the head
#obviously not Rlly nobody else im well aware. but it is uncommon. and it doesnt Rlly bother me but i can often tell#yes ienaga vore jokes are funny but i dont think shes into vore based on what we see of her character and attitudes towards cannibalism#however. usami and tsurumi 100% are. tsurumis gay little speech in that scene would not be out of place on a vore sideblog thats EXACTLY#how certain ppl talk about it. thats literally It. tsurumi tokushirou invented vore in 1907#thats just the most clear cut and easily explainable example i think but there are so many little bits of tiny nuance idek#there are different attitudes of course but i feel like ienaga doesnt rlly feel any Connection to eating ppl and sure there are ocs and#little stories or scenarios about the pred just being like 'yea its just food' cuz some preys find that rlly hot but. irl there arent rlly#any of that kind of pred cuz if they dont care then. they dont care lol. like they dont Care about vore. so theyre not into vore. u know#so i think shes not into vore sexually and such shes literally just here for medicinal purposes or w/e. but that is just my opinion idk#sorry for vore essay in the tags i am autistic 👍 those deviantart stamps are not ironic they are a Warning#if anybody like. cares about being 1/5th of a mm off in their depiction of masochism or smthng i will answer questions. but be prepared for#me to get at least this ^^^ autistic about it. i dont have a phd in masochism but i can at least say with certainty that i have never#said 'it hurts so good' in real life. the full sentence like that is just a little cheesy in my opinion. 'it hurts' usually speaks 4 itself#og post
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#head instructor to the TAs in the lab section i TA for: how r u guys feeling abt the workload?#me who hasnt graded anything since week 1 and spent an hr that morning filling out a patient safety plan: 🙃#listen. we r experiencing symptoms that make us shitty at our job. which is not helpful for a positive outlook#i was also experiencing horrible cramps at the time bc i lost my ibuprofen and 2 days ago i stopped the birth control in a desperate effort#to stop feeling terrible. but in this moment i feel alright. its wild to go from drastically unhappy to like lol wtf was that? anyway stop#being a bby loser. for no obvious reason. im gonna start the birth control again to see if i get depressed again or if that was just me lol#i dont think my therapist understands the depth of my executive functioning issues tho. bc im a grad student and can meet deadlines. like#let me tell u im a fucking disaster abt starting things. i will go back and forth and get nothing done forever. or i do things halfway and#make everything 30 times more difficult later bc no one else understands how my brain works#ah well. itll b fine. sometimes i just get freaked out that i wanna b better and i dont kno how to do that. so i spiral in despair a lil#ill b fine. im good at catching myself before i get too out of control. annoyingly tho i am not currently beating the bip0lar allagations#bc whatever tf is wrong with me i do probably fit the diagnostic criteria for bip0lar 2. i dont kno y that freaks me out so much. i guess#its bc it feels like something i cant just make better thru force of will and i grew up in a home that was very obsessively#health conscious to the point my dad gets anxious abt taking a single ibuprofen. so like ive been conditioned to get freaked out by#medication. literally my grandma will call me and tell me to b suspicious of doctors and to not take medicine unless absolutely necessary.#like lady u r the genetic reason i have 0cd shut the fuck up. also it feels like something that would more negatively affect how ppl think#of u than saying oh yea i get depressed or i have anxiety. like the connotation feels worse im used to just telling ppl whatever tf#my problem is. so the idea of holding something back feels weird. which annoys me bc i dont think there should b so much of a stigma. its#bullshit. anyway idk. im tired. i was trying to think of a comfort tv show with my therapist and all i could think was the terror#when im depressed i wanna watch those English mother fuckers suffer and die. i just lov that show so much. harry g00dsir my beloved. the#most me coded character to ever exist#unrelated
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what if instead of messaging me in the middle of the night about your stupid fucking girlfriend and your stupid fucking problems with her you actually act like my fucking friend and message me like how you message everyone else in our group
#bye ignore my venting bigger problems what fucking ever#im sick of her ass she only messages us for us to help her with her fucking girlfriend problems like we arent even friends atthis fckn point#and i love her shes so funny whatever but god shes literally the worst because i just want to be friends i dont fucking care ab her goddamn#selfish ass gf thats shes obsessed with. be obsessed tell me about it but cant we be friends ab other stuff too#we used to be her 'favorite friend' cause we shared so many interests and we hung around what fucking ever but fuck that right#get a gf and just use us to help better yalls relationship without even telling her you're sharing her private msgs w us huh yeah sure#what fucking ever im so done with this bitch and i cant even get my contacts out cause i have long nails and im js poking my eye#AND SHE WOULD NEVER BE SORRY if our friendship fell apart she would tell everyone i was jealous of her gf or what ever i literally dont care#she was like an older sister before i dont get why getting a gf would have to change shit like ok good for u but what ab us#what about me its not even fucking fair like is it that hard to keep up w ur friends?? NO its fucking not#taking me so long to write a post bc im still fucking helping her with her stupid dumb selfish idiotic gf omfg#just BREAK UP i literally dont fucking care just leave her if she makes u unhappy its literally online tf is she gonna do to u nothing omfg#why am i the one being punished when shes the one with the stupid dumb gf that hates her and herself i dont fucking care i js want m friend#and i cant tell any of our mutual friends cause she dont do that to them its js me so itd be like im being dramatic#and like shit i guess i am but i dont care atp thats all she ever talks to me ab like ok i get it i helped u but stop jfc#but if i said that we'd never talk again bc what fucking ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cause im just dramatic whatever#if u cant resolve these simple problems of communication on ur own then maybe u shouldnt be in a relationship idk js my thoughts! die#sry the 1 person who knows what xactly i mean is asleep and im so tired of getting late night msgs being like hii can u help me SHUT UP#id love to help if we were actually still fucking friends but we arent so js leave me alone bruh#post#nickpost#will delete in morning my mom keeps telling me to put my phone down bt i need 2 say smfh 2 some1#i hate change i hate slight differences in my normal day to day i hate everything i hate not having smth to rely on i hate change i hate it#sry im alg now im js sick of her ass js leave bruh#nimbhe my moms yelling im tired anyway i need to js isolate myself forever no problems if im on an island alone#living my best life in the shade drinking idk water or whatever and just talking to myself bc who even needs friends right!!!!!!!!#its 11:11 make a wjsh#adding more cz whatever im deleting this ltr anyway#its so clear where i stand with everyone cause its always close but not close enough friendly but not friends and i guess its the same w her#bye im out of tags etc whatever nobody matching my freak ever never comfortable in any friendships
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i have two, no three fancomics in me rn and it's rotten work it's such rotten work
#ill fucking do it but christ alive#do you know how frustrating it is that nowhere on the internet. NOWHERE ON THE INTERNET CAN I FIND A COMPREHENSIVE GUIDE TO--#--.......any folk clothing really#like listen. everytime i look up that shit its either#1) photos of folk dancers wearing STAGE COSTUMES. its a start but it aint it#(though i did give in eventually cos eeeehhhhh it fits narratively kinda?? you'll see before i am dead i hope)#2) old and grainy photos where you cant make out the fucking details#and that's not even scratching the surface like#EXPLAIN ALL THE LAYERS TO ME. DON'T JUST LIST WHAT CLOTHIGN ARTICLES ARE WORN TELL ME WHICH IS WHICH. SHJOW ME THE ORDER#HOW IS THAT SHIT TIED WHAT CLASS/MARITAL STATUS/RELIGIOUS GROUP DOES THAT INDICATE WHAT OCCASION#IS THERE LIKE A NONO? IS THERE A NONO FOR CERTAIN PATTERNS AND COLORS? BITCH TELL ME#TELL ME ALL THE DETAILS I NEED THEM I DONT WANNA DIG AROUND THE INTERNET FOR BOOKS#ALSO WHY. WHY ARE THERE FASHION HISTORY BOOKS WITH BARELY ANY PICTURES#YOU ARE DISCUSSING A VISUAL MEDIUM! V I S U A L!!!!!!!#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#also did you know izmir turkey has a long and messy and fascinating history. like 4000 years. Goddamn#fate.txt#off topic
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chapter 4 is done! again! now all i have to do is finish chapter 5 and then inevitably become unsatisfied with a previous chapter and spend my time adding on to that instead of doing anything else. maybe well be finished by june /hj
#styx says#comfort of yesterday#i do like chapter 4 a Lot more now tho so it was definitely worth it !! it felt like it was missing smth before yknow#anyhow im only half joking abt the becomind unsatisfied w a previous chspter cuz i was rereading chapter 1 past night and its not Bad per se#but with added context from later chapters its definitely a tad. off?? also u can kinda tell it was originally just gonna be a oneshot lmao#gonna wait til im Done tho. i want content completion before i start dicking around again#am i writing this instead of working on the fic. um. i plead the fifth mind yr business etc etc /silly
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sorry to like dump this on you you can delete this if it bothers you absolutely not obligated to answer it i just wanted to know and apologies in advance if i cross a line somehow-
so you know how when you get like. really fixated on a character. you know how that is. and its no coherent thoughts. its just 'THEM. THEM THEM THEM LOOK IT'S THEM LOOK AT THEM LOOKLOOKLOOK-' right? that's okay right? because everyone kinda churns out all these ideas and headcanons n stuff and my brain is just. yknow. that. that's okay right? i am literally incapable of anything else i am head empty i will stare at them blankly no thoughts.
...that is like, okay? right? kinda bothers me a bit that i can't really think of anything to characterize/add a little more depth to characters i get interested in because my scrambled thoughts literally do not do them justice-
hey nah ur fine, this is a common experience w/ppl, myself included. there's nothin wrong w/yu. its how ive experienced all of my blorbos and also all the things ive liked in general. i can speak abt a general idea abt who they are and stuff like that but going in deeper i just cant do it skdfjkdslfj
its why i cant leave good feedback on fics and i always feel bad that i cant pick em apart like others do but i mean!!! i just have a different brain!!!! yu have a different brain!!! the consumers are just as important ta the fandom ecosystem as the theorizers and/or hcers!!! its okay my friend :)
#spacie splains#there is a reason that 1 post i made resonated w/so many ppl#head empty just Guys in dere#i wanna put em in Situations but also i have no good grasp on how they might act in those Situations#i think its part of the 'i cant tell what ppl are thinking at any given time and am clueless 2 ppls thought patterns n feelings'#thing ive got goin on#for as often as i think abt spoinger i like. feel like i have a really barebones understanding of him.#hes like the only character ive been able ta think critically abt and yet.....! head empty!!! only him!!!!#i think it helps that the fnaf puts him in Situations that i dont hafta manifest i can just think abt what im already given#anyway u can just unabashedly enjoy ur Guys!! nothin wrong wit dat!! :]#maybe some1 in ur fandom space will put your exact thoughts inta words and you can be like: yes!!!!!!!!!!! yes!!!!!!!!!!! and go geek mode
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so how did u guys find the lineart pack
#bakuspeech#feel free to show me what u did with the them. if u want & are able ❤️#this is mostly to lead into asking if guys want like#a 20 pack whenever I get to that number#but also I am just curious lol#also heads up I have a 18p comic sketched so#I may disappear off the face of the earth for the next week or so lol. as I finish this one up#what I can tell u rn is 1/its not swsh 2/it has a monster in it 3/its sad as shit#so. hallmark of my original stuff really#gonna try to uhhh. figure out an 'early access' thing. or something. for it#or do the same as the bigger swsh comics and put the typesetted&formatted version on itch.... that sounds better#thats the game plan for now. but otherwise Im still holdin like five yarns in my fists lmao#anyways. chinhand. have u done anything fun with the lineart stuff
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hello friends. do any of you who possess encyclopedic knowledge of actual play podcast the adventure zone know if it is ever established what actually happens to the people the IPRE crew attempts to take with them in the starblaster when the cycle resets? I know it's established that it isn't possible and that they do not make it to the next world after the reset, but does anyone know if that means they just like dematerialize, if they die, if they're put back on their home plane where they left it (to presumably also die during the hunger attack but the final outcome is relatively unimportant compared to the specifics for my purposes)? I feel like I've been trawling through the transcripts for ages and not only can I not find anything about this specifically, I keep losing track of which episode even addresses that bringing people with them is impossible in the first place (but I know it must exist because I know by the episode they get Fisher that it had been established bc griffin comments that they're aren't sure if Fisher will cross the reality border with them. so its somewhere but it is hiding from me specifically ig)
#good idea generator#i thought it was ep 1 or 2 in tsc but i CANNOT find it and i dont remember it well enough to ctrl f#if anybody either Just Knows this OR can tell me the episode and/or cycle number i would love u forever. thank u#or actually even if you just kind of remember the surrounding events#like if u dont know what number ep or cycle but think its like. idk the animal one i can work with that#i have the cycles and a quick summary of them written down for personal reference#and you would think this would help me out but it really hasnt lmaooo#its bc i always am searching for the most specific information ever that i would not have thought to write down
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watching a youtuber talking abt a horror movie and itis so obvious when somebody has only talked to mental health professionals for like. depression or anxiety* . bc shes sitting here like Woah i dont understand this guys like engaged to a therapist why doesnt he understand that someone being mentally ill doesnt mean theyre an evil scary person... I am sorry to say this but even being a mental health professional doesnt mean you dont think mentally ill ppl r evil and scary and gross
*this is an assumption on my part bc this yter has never talked about having anything other than those afaik Obv its her right not to just in my experience and the experience of other ppl ive spoken to . it seems like if you have pretty much anything other than those and talk to a therapist you would not have this idea that mental health professionals are like. inherently understanding and whathaveyou
#idk if im wording this right. what i mean is i was having a conversation with my most recent therapist and i planned to talk abt some of my#thangs and then she started talking abt how psychopaths r sooooo fucking scary and shes glad none of her parents r psychopaths and i was#like ohhh this is not a safe space suddenly . <- idt i personally am a psychopath but i think its 1. just disgusting to say something like#that ever 2. esp as a mental health professional 3. why r u telling me at all abt yr other patients its . unprofessional to me. but idk.#that combined with some stuff she said abt bpd and etc. rly made me like Oh i can not talk to this woman abt any of my actual serious stuff#and that wasnt the first kind of experience ive had with a person like that like. ive talked to therapists abt my dissociating in the past#and like. ive never felt safe to discuss my hallucinations even when they were rly rly rly bad last year bc i like. some of these therapist#were surprised when i said i struggled with hygiene bc of the depression like. guys cmon ... idk. thisis not a particularly thoughout post#i just thought abt it while watching the video#idk so many youtubers i watch talk up therapy sm and im like Happy it helps them and im happy like. etc. and obv idk what all goes on in#their lives but im kind of sick of ppl talking abt talk therapy like itll fix everything for everyone ever. like im not talking abt just#being like Oh therapy helped me etc but a lot of ppl r like I dont get why ppl dont go to therapy like 1 money 2 like. idk man. the psych#industry is so evil it like. makes me so mad. IDK all of this is halfthoughts im just talking recreationally#oh another disclaimer bc i worry i came off weird by specifying i only mentioned idt im a psychopath bc the sentence b4 that seemed like i#was implying i was. i wasnt trying to be like IM not one of THOSE GUYS i just didnt want anybody to get confused. ok sry
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almost explored the entirety of the nationals discography.. I've come so far from spending a whole year only listening to sleep well beast <3
#when im confident im familiar w everything im gonna listen 1 by 1 and make a tier list of every track theyve ever released#which is like a good 12 hours of music i think. enrichment for me#its rly hard to rank whole albums bc they have very different vibes to me n hit at different times#but ranking individual tracks should be doable. theres usually a flop or two per album for me anyway#FINALLY been listening to alligator and everyone was right to say this is the blueprint. its unpolished in places but really strong#i wish theyd stuck more w that style than mellowing out so much bc every now and then u get a glimpse of that and its SOOOO#like i love most of laugh track its really cohesive n coherent as a whole they def thought abt how the tracks fit together#n im glad they split it from first two pages altho i probably wouldve put crumble on f2p and eucalyptus on lt...but thats just me#BUT smoke detector is smth else its got smth a little more raw n immediate to it. very heavily reminiscent of alligator#its just an 8 minute long haze u can tell they got rly into it jamming in the studio i hope it packs as much punch live!!!!#i caught snippets of their glasto set online n fuuuuuckkkk theyre still at their peak!! just wish i could tweak the setlist a little#n wish there was more lt over f2p argh. get rid of the overly tight production let them just fucking Go at it !!!!!#if it was up to me they wouldnt be allowed to play any of i am easy to find either cuz thats the only album i rly dont like#ARGH SO EXCITED THO!!!!!!!#.diaries
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