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Hi Legacy, thank you for your comment and for your compliment about my writing. Unfortunately, Tumblr wouldn’t let me leave this response to your comment under the fic, so I am having to add it onto your reblog. Something I really, genuinely, did not want to have to do.
I hear what you are saying, and am in full agreement with you - tags play a vital role in reader protection, and there’s nothing more frustrating (and in some cases dangerous) than people misusing them.
However, a few words now in my own defence.
I am not new here. I have been writing and posting Silco fics since Arcane first aired back in 2021. It seems more likely in this case that you are new if not to the Arcane fandom then to my blog/writing specifically - so allow me to provide a bit of context which may help, because I don’t believe this case is as cut-and-dry as you believe it to be. I began posting my multi-chapter Silco x Reader fic Drink With Me in January 2022, and updated regularly until its completion in July of that same year. I was extremely lucky in that my story gained a lot of traction and interaction within the fandom throughout that time. People became extremely invested in the Reader character, and would ask me all sorts of questions about her. That’s how Astrid was born. She became a point of reference outside the fic for those who wanted someone to visualise, whilst the fic itself remained strictly a Reader Insert. In the few years since this story wrapped up, my followers have remained invested in the ‘Drink With Me’ universe (again, I’m incredibly lucky and thankful for this), and to this day I receive tons of requests for bonus content set within this universe that I try to fulfil whenever I can. Despite these ficlets being connected to a main multi-chapter fic, most of them can easily be read as a standalone and do not require the context or any prior knowledge of the main fic to make sense. Additionally, as I did with the main fic, they are always written in 2nd person, the character is never referred to by name, and I never use any physical descriptors beyond anatomical ones during smut. If you were to take away any and all tags and look purely at the text alone, it reads as a traditional reader insert, which is why I tag it as such. I include the ‘Astrid’ and ‘OC’ tags for those people who are familiar with the DWM fic and universe and who specifically follow me for this reason, so that they know in their minds that the ficlet relates to the world/timeline of Drink With Me in some way shape or form. I think the point I’m trying to make is that those who are familiar with me and my work will see the ‘Astrid/OC’ tag and go “Ah cool it’s this universe”. Whereas for everyone else I add the ‘can be read as gen!reader insert’ note at the top so that they can go “Ah cool, let me just ignore that character tag then” and happily read it as a general reader insert fic perfectly fine. I hope that makes a bit more sense as to why I tag this way, why I’ve always tagged this way, and why I will continue to tag this way for my Drink With Me adjacent works. If I ever were to write something in 1st or 3rd person or that described the MC in a very specific way, then I would of course not tag that as a reader fic.
Now, so long as we’re here discussing fandom etiquette, I’d like to politely point out that adding your grievance onto the reblog of a specific fic is not a ‘gentle reminder’ - it’s a full-frontal attack on the author who wrote that fic. It would have been far better for you to create your own, separate post addressing the fandom as a whole, or to send me a quiet, private comment/DM on the side.
As I’ve already said, I empathise with your point of view, and I hope you are able to empathise with mine. If the way I choose to tag my work bothers you, then please feel free to block my account so that I don’t show up whilst you are searching for content. At the end of the day we are all individual humans - you cannot expect everyone to interpret/measure/categorise everything in the same way you would, and it’s imperative to take some measure of responsibility for cultivating your own online space, instead of relying on others to do it for you.
What if Astrid find a pic of young Silco by accident hehhehehehhehehehehhe
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A Drink With Me ficlet
870 words || Established relationship || Silco x Astrid (but can be read as gen f!reader) || SFW but suggestive || MDNI
“Oh my Gods.”
“What?”
“Oh. My Gods.”
Time has stripped the photograph between your fingers of its glossy sheen and has left the edges blunt and frayed, but you would recognise those features anywhere; no less sharp nor striking through the faded sepia.
“This is you.”
It had slipped from between two ledgers as you’d perused Silco’s bookshelves – an activity more to entertain your idle hands than a genuine search for reading material. The image itself is simple and candid: A young man, seemingly oblivious to the fact his portrait is being taken, sat at a familiar bar, with eyes downcast toward a spread of papers.
That same man looks up at you now from a very similar spread of papers. “What is?”
“This.” You drift over to his desk and perch on its edge, all the while unable to tear your gaze from the photo in your hands. The pitch dark hair swept back into a low bun. The familiar strays – the same ones that even now will always be the first to escape any styling under the combing of agitated fingers – falling forward into his face, only far longer and thicker than you’re used to. His skin, unblemished and smooth, save for the chronic furrow between his brows – etched there long before time and tragedy ravaged the rest.
Silco hums absently; an indication that he acknowledges your discovery but finds little interest in it. You can imagine the man in the photograph making the exact same noise, were someone to distract him from his paperwork for a reason he deemed benign. You flip the photo over. No date.
“How old are you here?”
Silco exhales through his nose, places his pen down with a pointed clack, and extends his hand wordlessly toward you.
“Hah! Do you think I’m wet behind the ears?” you hold the photograph out of his reach, “You can tell just fine from over there thank you very much.”
He cuts you a scathing glance, before leaning forward in his chair with a foreboding creak to peer more closely at the image. His scarred lips purse slightly in thought.
“Mid–late twenties. I can’t say for certain.”
“You were hot.”
“Were?”
“Were and are,” you coo, reclining backwards over the desk into his space, one elbow pitched on his paperwork to hold your weight whilst you flap the photograph in front of his face, “Can I keep this?”
“For what reason?”
“Dirty ones.”
“Hardly necessary,” Silco says, the very corner of his mouth creasing upwards as he catches your wrist to halt your photo-flapping, “You have access to the real thing.”
“True, true, and you can be sure I’ll continue taking advantage of that.” You grin, shoving your captured, photo-wielding arm a little closer to him in emphasis, “But right now I’m talking about some alone time with this guy.”
Silco scoffs under his breath and releases your wrist. You twist onto your front, weight propped on both elbows as you admire the photograph in your grip. You trace a finger down the slender throat of the man in the photo, over the generous wedge of chest exposed by his open crimson collar.
“D’you think he’d notice me? If I came into that bar?”
“Oh I’m certain he would.”
“Yeah?” You lift your gaze from the man in the photo to the one before you – as equally breathtaking. More so. You catch your lower lip between your teeth. “What line would he use?”
Silco hums, low and thoughtful, leaning forward in his chair, closing in on your space. He picks up his abandoned pen, briefly twirling the implement until it’s poised between his elegant fingers like a cigarette. Nib safely facing his own palm.
“After downing the dregs of his drink for courage... he would have approached you.”
With sensual tenderness, he brushes the barrel of his pen along your cheek, warmed metal against warmer skin. Catching at the curve of your jawline, and tracing over your pulse in a way that makes it fumble a beat.
“Cast his gaze over each of your pretty, pretty features. One by one,” he murmurs, slowly drawing the end of the pen down your jugular, down the slope of your collar bone, to leisurely trail through the cut of your cleavage. The corner of your mouth hooks up. The warmth low in your belly coils a little tighter.
“He would have leaned in close,” Silco whispers, demonstrating just so, “Close enough that you’d almost taste the whiskey on his breath.”
Blunt metal drags a purposeful line up your throat, and your lips part softly as he tilts your face toward his with the barrel of his pen flat and firm beneath your chin.
“And asked you – very nicely – to stop leaning on his paperwork.”
You press your tongue against the inside of your cheek while Silco’s dual eyes sizzle with smug mirth. It’d be unthinkable, really – to forfeit either one for the sake of a matching pair.
You straighten and push off his desk, hips swaying as you saunter over to the bedroom with the photograph in hand.
“Well,” you say, pausing in the threshold and turning to him with a smirk, “If you need us, you know where we’ll be.”
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hi moots! im losing my mind
#technical difficulties w the vr headset so no hw2 yet#two days feels like such a long time when you spend hours and hours grappling w ur vr headset and doing Fuck All#and looking up the error codes im getting gives me Fuck All#its just very unfortunate and frustrating#i might try a link cable instead? but idk if thatll solve the issues#sigh#im tired#i already bought hw2 on steam#idfk#vent#i guess#losing my fucking mind over here can u telllll#x#x chatter
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dennis is an angry character btw im sorry but he is full of rage but that rage is not exclusive his anger does not negate sadness and fragility and insecurities in fact they work together and dtamhd was one of the first times where his anger was not used as a joke via a surface level rage explosion from him but instead explored the fragility of his anger. the way he keeps reassuring the workers he encounters (and himself) that he's not mad. when he tells daisy he's not mad but he is a little bit upset. dennis is angry and that anger is what makes him so fragile. he was upset and it manifested as rage bc he doesnt know what to do with his own sadness
#disclaimer tags yes i would like to see his emotions explored more but i disagree that we ONLY saw anger in dtamhd#and EVEN IF IT WAS ONLY ANGER... anger is just as VALID and fragile and vulnerable as sadness. they are family#we saw how his anger makes him fragile how it exhausts him#how it works with his stress and fears and insecurities and sadness#he was UPSET!!!!#angry dennis in dtamhd WAS big feelings dennis in tends bar. that was the same#he expressed anger in tends bar bc he was upset he expressed anger in dtamhd bc he was upset etc etc#and i think the sadness people were expecting was present. the sadness and fragility we would have seen if he cried on the beach like most#of us anticipated (btw he did cry at the beach <3 technically <3) was THERE. it was just in his anger#sewerkingcharlie talked about this already and worded it very well but im honestly kinda bothered by how some people have treated#the portrayal of anger and emotions in this ep#you dont have to like the ep or how they portrayed dennis but some posts have really given the vibe of#his anger and his emotional outburst not being as valid because it wasnt portrayed in the way you expected#or that it wasnt palatable enough#and honestly if you dont like it thats okay! but can we please be careful with how we talk about mental illness and anger outbursts!#yes it is frustrating when people ONLY see dennis' anger or see dennis' anger in a very shallow way#which a lot of the audience unfortunately does because its been treated like a joke#but it wasnt a just a joke here#and maybe this will all go past dudebros heads frankly i dont give a shit lol but thats for another post
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The psychological torture of loving media that is both relatively obscure and the small audience it does have doesn't get it whatsoever. I need normal people to get into shoushimin or ill be alone in the appreciation corner for eternity
#vi rambling#shoushimin#the. the masking.. the character dynamic. the character writing Through the mysteries. the mundanity of daily life#“its not interesting” “the solution was obvious” “its boring” NOT!!! THE POINT!!!!!!!#Its so frustrating because. yes it does have a very unique rhythm and its definitely not for anyone#but as a slice of life its so interesting and innovative to me. i love both of them. they're the real mystery and thats what makes them#so intriguing and fleshed out. they play off each other so well. its directed so beautifully.#these mysteries are a blast to watch not because youre on the edge of your seat the stakes arent the POINT. its rhe CHARACTER WRITING.#idk. just really unfortunate to see such a gem be so underappreciated especially as someone who read the light novels and IT GETS SO GOOD.#Well. i will remain in the osanai and kobato appreciation corner....
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Can't stop writing songs that I literally can't perform or show anyone because they'll be concerned about me and or think I'm a massive freak
#cuz if its not a confessional thing i am writing more like character songs which is great except umm then people are gonna think the#narrator is me and like the song i just finished. theyll be like 🤨#so now i have to rewrite it#some songs i think i can get away with it if im just like this is about a PAST experience or just be like look this is a madeup thing.#this does not reflect me. but then for some i dont think anyone will buy it#one i actually really like is really unfortunate because i had this impulse and followed it but the way it comes accross .like it just seem#like its about one very obvious thing that everyone who knows me will assume its about but its NOT#uagh WHY IS THIS SO HARD!!!! writing lyrics is so hard then i do it look at them and go oh no this isnt gonna work#and i just am so frustrated#its also probably like impossible for me to try to like get away from revealing things about myself in my lyrics so idk#im just gonna start saying every song is a character song or just refusing to talk about the meanings if people ask#what was it frank black said. my songs have hidden meaning the meaning is hidden because i refuse to talk about it#BUT LIKE i say all this as if anyone even gaf and they probably dont.
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i will forever think about my deconstructed damsel chapter 3 idea . god it could have been so good
#the idea of the chapter is obviously that you get there by deconstructing her#stubborn would be the added voice and thru the chapter your main goal would be to reconstruct her#to do so youd have to consistently push against the idea that she has to make you happy which ultimately results in you having to reject he#entirely. she would become more and more frustrated and upset that you wont just let her do this#and the chapter (in its most satisfying form of playing through it) would end with her fully reconstructed and fully angry at you#not necessarily a true anger moreso a one of the moment#but it still results in her storming out of the cabin and locking you in it#its a good arc for her i think. not only does she gain autonomy but also actively uses it *cough cough unlike a certain chapter*#but its also a good arc for smitten. hes still a lovesick fool but as she reconstructs he realizes that they cant be all the other cares ab#ut and that for the good of both of them he has to want something other than just making her happy just like she only wanted to make them#happy. stubborn is the one who pushes you to keep rejecting her even if it isnt what you truly want to do because its what Needs to be done#in order for her to be a real person. you have to be mean to her and you have to hurt her but it is for the greater goal of granting her he#own freedom. if you succeed in reconstructing her her perspective image in the shifty confrontation is the view of the woods outside#thats what was most important to her in the end. she didnt know it but that is ultimately what is true. she wanted to leave and she has#rattles the bars of my cage. if i could write id make fic of this or if i had the artistic stamina id make fake gameplay for this#unfortunately i do not#this chapter would be a very linear one but unlike most of the linear ones there Would still be an alternate ending! which is just if you#refuse to reconstruct her and she remains a ghost of your own creation
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its the Good Kush she got it at the dollar store :3
#i did this! :D!#extremely unfortunately ffor my hands i realized earlier that ibis paint x has an animation canvas#rip me#sketti#doodles#animated doodles#gifs#i hate animation i hAte animation i want to do so many things its so cool 😭😭#i so very rarely have the energy/motivaation to do just *one* drawing let alone 5000 of them but Slightly To The Left#eugh#used a tutorial thing have had in my saved folder on insta for ages for the smoke#to be clear that is a ✨joint✨ not a cigarreette#my wrist hurts so much#full time hasnt been fun ive had to avoid playing games because the controllers hurt too much#trying to limit typing even and just mostly watch things when im off work#which gets boring ;w;#theres so many things i want to animate i cant even beGIN#from full on like..legitimate movie length shit from my books#to little gifs of really dumb memes#music videos etc#everything in between#i just get so frustrated at how long it takes#and am always so tiired:((((#but i!! made this:3#in like an hour too i think#shes goin in my reactions folder#fursona
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#love that when ur stressed and having a bad time it makes ur menstrual pain worse so you feel even more awful#like. yes. id love to get things done but unfortunately i need to go home immediately at 2pm bc i feel physically ill. vibes wretched.#im considering sleep here at 6pm but 2 b fair i think i only slept 4hrs last night. woof. tomorrow is gonna b interesting#i think the allergic reacting is abt over now tho. like im not really itchy anymore. the rash is still visible but i think its just dry now#bc of the cold. so was i ever reacting to the tatto0? or was it all the medication? im so interesting in what happened#would i not have had a reaction if i hadn't got a bunch of holes poked in my skin? or was it just a coincidence#that the rash started on that arm? ugh. so frustrating. and i think the psychiatrist forgot to actually book my appointment from when we#last talked so idk. maybe if i watch t4skmaster over and over it will heal my soul#ay. its all very frustrating. and i still dont have fucking autoclave access. fuck off. just give me the fucking key code#i just wanna pour plates 🫗 lol that actually looks a lot like pouring solid media. i dont wanna have to steal someone else's card to open#the door. who even locks up an autoclave??? they didnt at my old school and u could wheel a body into that thing. im pretty sure it was#bigger than this one. also there's another unlocked on on campus. why?! i ask ppl and fucking no one knows. that's just how it is#ugh. i should go to sleep. my tummy hurt#unrelated
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watching hugh bonneville call a man teste-less and then be concussed in georgian period clothing was delightful but oh my god was it not worth subjecting myself to amanda price
#back on my pretension for a moment to be a hater about 'lost in austen' sorry gang#it was just. miserable? i should've known from the setup's tone that i wouldn't enjoy it but i had hope :/#like it's bearable i bore it bc my mom wanted to get it over with but truly it was such a frustrating experience#for all her talk of loving the world in the novel and being shaped by its manners she immediately starts? changing things on purpose? why#the people of reddit were right this was an unrewarding fanfiction that was adapted and shot on a gopro in 2008#hugh was a treat and gemma arterton is very cute with the tomboy haircut but that's about it to enjoy unfortunately#if you liked it i'm very curious as to why and i invite you to please explain the appeal to me#a post
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Not my mom trying to talk me into signing up for therapy at the dinner table💀
#zipmode talks#quite possibly one of the more miserable holiday dinners ive been a part of#luckily i had a very real stomach ache and so i managed to get myself out of there#my mom is having a really successful time with her therapist and thats soooo awesome. genuinely im very happy for her.#unfortunately this also means she thinks my shit will be simple to solve. as well.#DONT GET ME WRONG. i would love to have a therapist. i just think my mom is oversimplifying my whole deal and its frustrating#ive got a lot of therapy/psychiatry related trauma. which is like. the worst kind of irony ever. LOLL
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if i may complain for a bit about something that doesn't actually matter and can be easily avoided. god i hate fics that baby-fy chuuya
#yeah yeah i know just don't read them w/e. there's no tags to avoid these unfortunately 😐#it kinda feels like a fanon of fanon. it's so far removed from his canon self even if some core elements are there.#why write him like a 15 y/o even as an adult. and the thing is. even when he was 15 in canon he wasn't this childish. c'mon.#a lot of the most popular skk fics have him characterized like this and man I'm tired. look how they massacred my boy.#ok complaining session over. i feel like i sound kinda mean. sorry abt that.#it doesn't actually matter that much just a bit frustrating when it keeps happening when you're already a couple hundred words into a fic#edit: i lied I'm not done complaining i gotta turn this into a rant bc ppl misunderstanding my favorite character online is a crime.#childish was the wrong word for me to use ig it's more like. innocent.#girl. bestie. he has been part of criminal organizations quite literally since he remembers himself.#he is not some sweet uwu baby who's a bit of a tsundere or w/e. he's got genuine reasons to be angry yknow. he's been through shit#and he's not innocent? he's in the fucking mafia lol we literally see him kill like 20 people in 5 minutes at 15 y/o.#he's not naive either???? he may not be dazai levels of smart but he's still capable of figuring things out himself????#like he did figure out rimbaud's thing by himself. he's not stupid or slow. he wouldn't be a mafia executive otherwise.#and that's also the reason he can't be naive like... he is in constant danger after all#and idk watering down all this^ for aus is boring and turning him into practically an oc but it's even worse in canonverse#or literally any au where he suffers the same amount as he does in canon. bc then what's your excuse for watering him down.#it feels like forcing him into this very clear cut mold you see in every media when he is literally. not that.#no one in bsd is honestly that's part of its charm imo. they all subvert your expectations of their character archetypes#i think this is why it's making me so angry bc it doesn't feel like just misunderstanding the character but also the whole story. in a way.#am i going too far? perhaps. i dunno. i do feel less Dirty after letting out this frustration tho.#complaining session is now officially over okay. yes. sorry. i don't mean to offend anyone sorry if i sound mean at any point.
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Okay, another update, a lot of people are saying that novavax is actually the best vaccine to get. The downside is that novavax has been delayed by FDA approval of their new XBB variant vaccine and it is uncertain when they will be shipped out, so if you can afford to wait a week or two (maybe longer even) and really want novavax go ahead. If you can't afford to wait, then just keep calling your local pharmacies to see if they have the updated vaccine and make whatever choice in vaccine you feel is best for you and the people around you. Frustratingly, a lot of pharmacies haven't gotten their shipments of updated vaccines and don't know when they are getting them. The only way to really be certain you are getting the updated vaccine that protects against newer variants and not the older bivalent vaccines is to call, since vaccines.gov turned out to not be as reliable as I thought it was going to be. Bottom line is that covid is getting bad again, and everyone needs to mask up and get vaccinated with the updated vaccine as soon as possible.
Great news for uninsured adults in the USA who want a COVID-19 booster! It now appears that ALL CVS locations are now active participants in the Bridge Access Program. The Bridge Access Program gives out free Covid-19 vaccinations to 18+ adults who otherwise can't afford one, so if you have a CVS near you, please go get one! For others who don't have a CVS near them, please go to vaccines.gov, click on "Find Covid-19 vaccines", fill out which vaccines you prefer (you can mix different vaccines if you have to so i reccomend just marking all of them for the age groups you need), and when the next page loads mark the "Bridge Access Program Participant" option to see only locations that are Bridge Access Program participants. Hopefully, other places that aren't CVS will start participating soon, so just check back every so often to see if there are any updates. The CDC Bridge Access Program website also has more details on what locations will be participating, but only CVS is appearing as an active participant on the vaccines.gov location finder at the moment.
#covid#long post#hate to keep putting this on everyone's dash but i keep getting informed by people in the notes of stuff i didnt know before#i really want people to make informed decisions so i feel obligated to at least attempt to keep up with the info#anyway personally im unfortunately very behind on my boosters so i dont think id even get the enhanced immunity from getting nova#so im just going to keep calling up my local walgreens since its the closest and take whatever updated vaccine they eventually get#super frustrating that pharmacies cant get ahold of the new vaccines btw like. come on.
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did some spinning yesterday and today for the first time in mmm 6 months or so and ooh ouch muscle pain! havent been well enough to sit in an actual chair so i was sitting in bed which... not great ergonomically with a drop spindle. oof
#all that constant raising of my left arm. the muscle in the side under and behind my arm is not happy#and the flesh around the side of my thumbnail hurtsss i forgot abt that. just from the pressure of constantly pinching the dowel to wind#and im a bit frustrated bc idk if im just out of practice (likely) or if it is a fibre thing but im not remembering getting an even#consistent single being this annoying. unfortunately i have no clue what breed i was spinning last time it came to me unlabelled :/#p#also a bit frustrated bc this wool is a gorgeousss deep dark green but... it is deep and dark with no colour variation#and i struggle a lot with overspinning but its very tricky to try and fix that when i can barely see the twist. lol
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Ranking Pepper’s hammocks A-F now that he’s made five of them
First - B - Not a bad start! But why did he put it on top of the pre-built nest. It is literally right there. Overall, good protection and well reinforced just... You didn’t have to make a new one, Pepper
Second - C - No reinforcement, no safety net, out in the middle of the top of the enclosure, extremely visible and see-through, which is great for me because I can see him napping - very cute, but Pepper, your safety and security!
Third - A - The molt hammock! Thick webbing, obscured under moss, easy to overlook and well protected! But he stayed in there for a literal week and scared me >:0
Fourth - D - Made a tiny, very sparse hammock in the cattails for one night and has since abandoned it. Why even bother at that point? He still fit in the first two hammocks!
Fifth - A - The best napping hammock so far! In the opposite corner from the pre-built so not directly on top of an easier solution, closer to the light source in the evening, decently thick and secure, and in a corner so he’s not just hanging out in the direct middle of the enclosure - protected on two sides! Bonus points for having caught a little video of him doing the booty dance construction :)
#Spider#And another not-Weekly TV Guide lol#'Nother week of no doodles soz lol#I actually managed to used my tablet! Success!#Unfortunately it was not a sketch day and that was all I wanted to do so I got frustrated and stopped :')#I'm still crafting for the most part over drawing as well!#I'm not sure what's up :0 I guess I'm perfectly in the middle of Happy so no need to vent but not So over-excited that I'll explode#Not through drawing anyway - I Did sit down to write some more Delusions and doubled my wordcount so uhhh lol#Not overall just for the scene I was working on but still! A good clip!#Hoping to have its first draft done by the end of next month :3 Feeling good about it! :D#Plenty of things being worked on! Lots in the holster! Just not as much Finished#Offline days are usually good for doodles but I'm not gonna force anything haha#I know where to look for inspiration <3#Just taking things slow and comfy for the most part :)#I've been really distractable lately still lol#Oh but I did get one thing handled :D New glasses! No longer looking through a massive web of scratches!#And they're made with my favourite frame material which I haven't been able to find in-person in stores And they were less expensive as well#I'm very pleased with them they're so much lighter and clearer than my last pair ♪#Good things! Feeling good! :D
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Thinking abt my dupe ocs again, and I'm returning to my cringe fail silly ones who exist solely for me to have fun. Basically one of the colonies is sort of a lil experimental ground dupe wise where most of the dupes get to have some fun critter biology meshed in there, with most of them being fairly stable, but a few of them having a bit of a harder time for some reason or another. Such as having no bones and the most fragile skin known to dupe kind.
#rat rambles#oni posting#this colonies ada is the no bones guy shes mixed with a void bug#she actually is able to function mostly just fine its just that she has to be like super careful all the time#it doesn't help that her insides are mostly just foamy goo so the colony doctor doesn't rly know how to treat her wounds#on the bright side shes extremely light and can jump onto other dupes shoulders for fun#she cant fly tho very sad#even if she was the lightest thing in the world her wings are on the back of her head and arent as flexible as an actual shine bugs wings#she mostly uses them to gesture with like an extra pair of arms#and to paint with since shes also an artist#she's passionate abt her art but shes also super passionate abt being an engineer and a lot of her art ties back to that#mostly because she was printed only abt a month before the pod went offline so after that her fellow dupes became a lot more protective of#her since they felt that if smth went wrong now they wouldnt know how to help her#this frustrates her a Lot especially since prior to this she was mostly left to figure out how to manage this stuff by herself#she ends up tinkering in private when no one is around since she has a lot of ideas and wants to try making them#one of her biggest goals is to find a way to fly or glide without jetpacks since she's convinced she could find a way to#if she can be knocked off her feet by a light breeze then she can totally find a way to stay in the air longer shes sure of it#in the meantime the rest of the critter squad are trying to convince liam to not eat sand because itll just make his sensitive tummy worse#he knows this conceptually but his heart tells him that he ate a meal and started to feel sick so its clearly poisoned and the cook is#sick or trying to poison him and hes going to die if he keeps eating food from the fridge and so he must eat sand#unfortunately this is a fairly common anxiety of his since his stomach rly can only half handle anything ever#I imagine he and ada have a complicated relationship as while they do get along one of them has violent anxiety and the other is fragile as#hell but hates being babied so ada often avoids liam to his dismay
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Man mihashi really is just as relatable as the first time I watched this show... Autism (with comorbid anxiety), emotional regulation issues, speech issues ........ Yeah. Yeah he's just like me fr. You'll be okay little buddy you just gotta find your people.
#biggest difference is part of *my* emotional regulation issues is that i get angry really really easily#honestly its mostly that frustration very veeery easily turns into anger for me... and i get frustrated very easily...#the most accurate way to put it is that i have a very short fuse i guess... once i get frustrated its almost insant some days...#and unfortunately being a very anxious kid with speech impairment who was 99% nonverbalodt of the time... life was frustrating a lot.#the struggle to get people to get what i was trying to say (i never became fluent in ASL and most of my family didnt learn much at all) ...#and even when i did talk i did it so quietly and stuttered and had a lot of words i just *couldnt* say... not from physical issues tho#it was always mental. something about my anxiety or one of the other myriad of issues i have decided that the ''rule'' was i couldnt say -#those words anymore. for some reason. like it made arbitrary rules and many im still kinda stuck trying to get past to this day#its so annoying i just wanna be able to talk freely!!!!!!!!
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