#its just heartbreaking

[stanielman]

Finally suffering through season four of The Umbrella Academy and while I have many complaints and frustrations, my biggest is one that I've had for the entire show and that's how everyone treats Klaus' addiction issues.

These season especially, we see him sober and proud and absolutely paranoid into slipping back to the old way. I'm well aware that getting his power back doesn't immediately throw himself into old habits, but to him it absolutely does because having powers means subjecting himself to non-stop psychosis which he can only subside with drugs and alcohol.

So the fact that he is petrified of relapsing, not a single one of them try to keep an eye on him, try to help him. No wonder he relapsed in probably the most heartbreaking scene of the show, and that's so far just been met with frustration from Allison and her promise to leave him to mess up on his own.

I understand having a rocky relationship with a family member with substance abuse issues, I absolutely understand now wanting to be around them or having them be around your child, I understand not wanting to pick them up off their ass over and over again, but it's just so crazy to me that they all have the ability to recognize that he has an addiction and see how hard he worked to be sober and not try to do anything to prevent losing him again. Not show any care that they're losing him

[like-wuatafauq]

Its always really heartbreaking when you get to a point and think "no because I would've never done that to you"

[windowsillbells]

guardian brainrot is reading another wisława szymborska poem and imagining little ghost king watching the world changing around him, but always seeing kunlun reincarnating and growing into the god's former image, and dreaming about being able to meet him again in some other life, sooner or later

[infinite-beginnings]

The line when Charles said, "Edwin's told me loads of stories about Hell," and him seeming to know he'd find a map in Edwin's book always hits me hard.

Now I acknowledge Charles might’ve been posturing to reassure the Night Nurse he could navigate Hell, but let's assume this fact was real.

Because that means that Edwin felt comfortable enough to talk about all of his trauma to Charles. He mentions Hell a lot in passing in front of the girls, but he never goes into specifics. However, it seems as if he actively told Charles quite a few details about Hell. I also noticed that Charles is very calm when he's going to find Edwin. Yes, he's studying the book a lot, but he is also navigating the space with a certain amount of confidence. I'm sure it's partially due to Charles' tendency to do things without thinking and project confidence. But also, it seems as if he might have at least a very basic level of knowledge or familiarity with the levels of Hell based on the stories Edwin told.

I think this is probably another reason why Edwin struggled to believe the fact that Charles had faced abuse in his past and never shared it with Edwin. Because Edwin was always up front and honest with Charles. He told him the very first time they'd met that he had just escaped Hell. I'm sure Edwin did not want to relive his memories of Hell, and maybe it took him decades to feel like he could share. But I bet when he started talking about it with Charles, he felt relief. Because sharing your trauma with someone who accepts you and loves you no matter what is always a relief after holding it in and pushing it down.

So I just imagine Edwin feeling that relief after sharing his stories from Hell and feeling closer and more bonded with Charles because of it...and then he finds out that Charles has this huge amount of trauma from his past that he has been keeping inside. It probably breaks Edwin's heart that he hadn't been able to offer Charles the same relief he'd felt.

And yes, Crystal mentioned that Charles was probably denying the trauma even to himself. We all know that Edwin knew something was off with Charles and that he was probably frustrated in himself because he hadn't been able to figure it out, but Crystal apparently had.

But I also think there might be another level to it. The boys have been solving cases for 30 years. I find it hard to believe that they never had another case involving abuse or at least someone with a controlling personality that would've reminded Charles of his father. Maybe Edwin thinks back to a couple of those cases and how Charles was acting strange and withdrawn during them and realized he'd missed a huge clue about how his friend was feeling.

All those years of sharing his stories from Hell and being comforted by Charles and Edwin hadn't been able to do the same. Edwin is definitely hurt that Charles didn't feel like he could confide in him and heartbroken to think about how much pain his friend was going through alone.

[ilynpilled]

it frankly pisses me off that what is essentially “rapists and abusers should be depicted as monstrous caricatures because humanizing them is inappropriate” is considered a very moral and enlightened position to have on art by so many people. a rapist can feel pain, have moments of vulnerability, be amiable and charming, express remorse and compassion at times, be a victim themselves, and so on in real life. they are even capable of doing good things. they can have different sides to them and have individuals in their lives that they are kind to or have a decent relationship with. they will be a human being, and that fact encompasses a lot. conflating that with the claim that they are entitled to and deserve forgiveness or absolution is an issue. nurturing a mindset that believes they need to be one note and uncomplicated to be a correct and tasteful depiction of a rapist inadvertently falls in line with the logic of “how could they have possibly raped you? they are so normal and kind to me. they did all these good things here and there.” ok that doesn’t change that they are a rapist.

[haloburns]

not me wanting to write a happy ending for marie and tony amos on call the midwife

[highlineeheartbeat]

ours used to be one of my favorite songs but after would’ve could’ve should’ve I can’t listen to it anymore 💀

[fairsweetlonging]

just thinking about how binghe had no idea that without-a-cure even had a cure and he spent all his years as a disciple thinking his shizun would at best be disabled for the rest of his life and at worst die a slow and painful death, and it was to save him.

[deoidesign]

I'm so mad that post was misinformation because there is actually an EXTREMELY important conversation to have about the production schedules artists are forced into. There's no need for exaggeration, the conditions are bad.

I work for webtoon. My publication schedule is weekly. While publishing I'm required 10-15 pages a week. Fully colored.

This means I'm finishing a 150 page fully colored graphic novel every 10-15 weeks.

When my comic is not updating, I am not getting paid. Any time writing, editing, or off is out of my own pocket. I don't get healthcare. They do not provide any assistants. They expect me to promote myself; they chose to deprioritize me before I even launched and gave me an end date half a year in. I never had a chance.

And this is the industry standard! Every company has artists forced into crunch hours, overtime, and burnout. Artists are literally dying early due to it. So many of my friends can't afford to go to the doctor.

It's unsustainable and untenable, and it's also the expectation our audiences have.

If we want to have this conversation, there's plenty of conversation to be had with the realities of the situation. It's bad as is.

[sweeneydino]

Price.

See? Two in one

[ellatholmes]

two scenes, chillin' in a hot tub five feet apart cuz they're not coming together in any conceivable way

[clevercorvidae]

"but this was the first time I'd been in a mind that was COLLAPSING like a NEUTRON STAR"

[harkingspot]

hey, have you noticed this?

pearls are a luxury, are incredibly rare, and have significant value. if i had a pearl necklace and my ambiguous ex broke it in a midst of an argument, i too would scramble on the dirty floor to pick them up. but that’s not the point.

“i can put it together” this is not about the necklace.

the point is, after she had sold everything, this was the last grasp mitzi had of atlas. and she was not ready to lose him again. but also, it’s important to note that this encompasses a recurring motif in mitzi’s characterisation. that this was a desperate act to regain normalcy. she feels heavy responsibility to keep lackadaisy running, and also atlas’ legacy alive.

but let’s rewind first. this happened because mitzi and zib’s understanding of the future didn’t align. she wants to revive the business, but he wants them to relive their nomadic past. to travel. to play music again. you think mitzi’s desperate? take a look at this guy.

he had one of her pearls pocketed. and it was never because he wanted to sell it for extra cash, despite him being clear of the member’s struggles. it could just be him keeping it safe, like he did plan to eventually give it back. but the way i see it, zib felt an uneasy sense of right to hold mitzi back from grief.

and THEN, he hands it back to her.

i felt that this was when EVERYTHING started to collapse. he hands her the last pearl, a symbolic surrender. he’s giving up on the fantasy that she would snap out of it and stop living so painfully in the past. but also, he caught onto his own hypocrisy that he himself had been fantasising of a different past.

and as mitzi heads home, he stays in sleazy town before spending the rest of the day in a cold cell.

THAT, my friend, is lackadaisy’s top tier characterisation and storytelling!!

[motianz]

Why is He Tian here?

Because he wanted to see you so much

[radiantmists]

so murderbot assumes that three offered its armor because it doesn't understand that the armor can belong to it and thinks mb taking the armor is just good resource allocation.

but if it assumes it doesnt have control over the armor, it would probably let whoever it sees as in charge (maybe ART?) handle it, or at least make the suggestion directly to that person. even newly freed in NE, it's willing to give its security advice (on hostage situations being undesirable) even if it doesn't expect to be taken seriously. it doesn't make sense to me that it would have so much trouble expressing the offer if it were just a security suggestion.

and then i think about how murderbot says later in the book that even if three felt fondly toward its fellow SecUnits, the govmod would prevent it from expressing that care or knowing it was returned.

so-- imagine you're three, and you havent yet internalized that you can just say "i care about you and dont want you to get hurt" to another SecUnit; but you can make sure that it has every resource it might need; you could probably do that even before the govmod was hacked.

you can't explain why, but you can hope that the gesture is explanation enough, and you can look for similar caretaking gestures in return; things like being given code and advice to do your job better, and being reassured when you express that you're finding said job difficult.

i think *murderbot* isn't aware of this language of care, because it hasnt had much opportunity to bond with other constructs. but three probably is, and probably knows how to read between the lines and guess that murderbot is starting to care about it, too.

[manichewitz]

sam and frodo’s relationship is so crazy theyre like what if we had a homoerotic adventurer’s bond that was so strong it overcame the power of supreme evil, saving not just the world but one another, and the only reason we were able to survive the violence around us was through sheer love for each other, and although we’re not canonically lovers our relationship is so much more intimate and tender than acceptable norms for male/male relationships that we transcend easily definable labels and thus become queer irregardless of whether our attraction is platonic, romantic, or sexual…and we were both hobbits