#its hating on 2.0 hours here

[bensonnstabler]

can we talk about how homophobic it was to have david haden literally say "I'm not going anywhere, okay"? as the hook line and sinker to get benson into bed. like the audacity and eagerness of early 2.0 to paint elliot as merely a bad ex-boyfriend sends me. and also whilst i'm here fuck WL for being hell bent on putting his main female character through literal psychosexual hell just to pervert and promote the idea that she doesn't need elliot a man

[ace-with--a-mace]

they should ban mothers who live through their daughters.

[mazzystar24]

I totally get I just finished my exam week (I had to do a math test at 8am Sat😭). Wish you luck tho!

Also do you have any good buddies fics? Destiel too?

Math test at 8am is BRUTAL

Thank you I will definitely need it😭😭

Unfortunately I only have buddie fics to offer😔:

(Warning I do like a fair amount of angst)

Right where you left me - by hyacinthusbloom ( @thebloomingheather on here) - when I say I might be as big a fan of this fic as I am of the show I MEAN IT, you do not even understand how much I love this fic or how obsessed I am with it, I have reread it so many times despite it still being in progress that I think I may genuinely qualify it as addictive, me and @estheticpotaeto legit wait for updates like a dog at the author’s door istg, like everything about this fic is flawless and written with so much love and emotion and the way the writer captures the effects of trauma is just amazing because it’s so rare to find this level of diving into ptsd and the more uncomfortable aspects of it that are more taboo or less understandable to people, like I can yap for an hour about this fic but I’ll just say READ IT

Any fic by daisies_and_briars ( @cal-daisies-and-briars on here) but one of my favourites of his is Both blade and branch and muscle memory and four can keep a secret and appetency and the two she’s writing right now (change the prophecy and steal my sunshine) -wow at that point I should’ve left it as any fic because that’s a lot of favourites😭😭

Any fic by @loserdiaz plus with them you get enough lighthearted fics to even out the angst

Ooo I’m not sure what their username on here is but lizzybizzyzz is also another writer who I just love their fics

Fractals by hobbitprincess - one of those fics that make you squeak at how much love these fictional characters have for each other

Beneath my mother tongue by archerincombat - the angst the writing the way they hit every single emotional beat? Amazing

Anything by this_is_moony_lovegood

Leave the light on (I’ll be coming home) by HMSLusitania - the presumed dead Eddie fic of your dreams, a constant reread for me it’s just 👌

Anchored by adorkable_buddie - sorry Chris you gotta be injured sometimes just for us to get our buddie dreams hope you understand and we appreciate your sacrifice 😔🫶

empty, broken, lonely, hoping by daniweb - when I tell you I love the presumed dead trope you best believe I’m telling the truth because the ANGST?? Yes please, LISTEN it’s the closest you can get to the emotional beats of killing off a character without ever killing them off because you love them and happy endings too much so TIM MINEAR TAKE NOTES I KNOW YOU SAID YOU LOVE THEM TOO MUCH TO KILL THEM, anyways back to to the point this fic again is just flawless execution by the writer like absolutely love it

every time we stop talking (the universe starts screaming) by withmeornotatall - emotional destruction and I absolutely love it, divorce era 2.0 and it HITS

Home is where it hurts- by rileyblue2001 - can you tell I hate the Buckley parents because I HATE the Buckley parents

The one with the return of the sex addiction by buddiefication (pumpkincreamcoldbrew) - I’ve reccomended so much angst so have a funny little light hearted buddie fic with the father bobby vibes we all love❤️❤️

Okay back to the angst tho 😭😭- out of ashes by Ashavahishta - AHHHHHHH THIS FIC JUST AHHHHH STOP THE WAY I WOULD DIE FOR A FOLLOW UP FIC TO THIS AHHHH I LOVE IT SM AND ITS LEGIT A ONE SHOT I CRIED SO HARD

Falling Slowly; Sing Your Melody (I’ll Sing It Loud) by Princessfbi ( @princessfbi on here who I also love sm of their fics so highly suggest just going on their page and looking through all the fics) - absolutely love it, legit gave me brain rot and got me obsessed for a GOOD while

I'm comin' back, don't let me go by wikiangela ( @wikiangela on here also love love their fics again so check them out but this one is probably my favourite of theirs)

Okay this is looking more and more like a uni reading list so I’m gonna shut up now but I hope you enjoy these fics and that a few of them emotionally damage you like they did me because I love to spread the joy (see: pain and suffering) 🫶🫶

[strawberryspence]

i am in a very emo mood right now so here’s a disclaimer: i cried writing this and its very long.

Steve and Eddie have been together for seventeen years now. Both are very happy with their relationship, they’ve been engaged since they were twenty three and they haven’t looked back since. Gay marriage is legal by then in some parts of the country but not in Illinois (They’ve been living in Chicago since ‘87 when Robin started college and Steve packed up all of their stuff to follow her.) It’s not something they actively seek out, because would marriage really change anything in their relationship? They already refer to each other as husbands and they already wear wedding bands.

But kids. God, Eddie never really thought he would want kids. He grew up in an abusive environment that made him hate the prospect of procreating. At the age of thirteen, he realized he was gay and yeah, that was it, he won’t have kids, ever. But when he met Steve, Steve already had seven kids under his arms. Everyone knew about the six nuggets dreams and it’s always been a source of insecurity from Eddie, but Steve has been adamant that he didn’t need those things, he only needed Eddie. He jokes around about it, “I already have seven kids, okay? Eight if you add Robin.”

‘99 brings the first member of the Party 2.0. It’s Max and Lucas, of course, and though it was a long road to it, they made it. Max and Lucas are the two that moved out to California for college, but then moved back to Chicago to stay close to them. Eddie thinks it’s an unspoken agreement between Steve and Max, siblings bonded by trauma and love. They got married around ‘95, just a few months after Max and Lucas graduated college. Four years later, Eddie won’t ever forget Steve’s shaking hands when Max hands him Eleanor May Sinclair for the first time, her little tiny hands holding onto his finger as Lucas tells him that he was going to be the godfather. Steve smiles down at the tiny little red head, with her father’s eyes and her mother’s freckles and promises, “I am going to spoil you rotten, you’re going to hate it.”

‘01 brings the second member of the Party 2.0. It’s Jonathan and Nancy, who didn’t get married until around ‘98 because they were both too focused in their blooming careers. By then everyone had bets on how much longer before the two finally give in and get married, Argyle wins the biggest money and they still think there has been some kind of cheating. It’s a cold winter night when Nancy goes into labor. Steve and Eddie (with Robin, Max, Lucas and Ellie) takes the next flight to New York from the moment Jonathan called them that Nancy’s going into labor. Robin’s hailed as the godmother, because the skittle six all stayed close friends but there has always been some kind of women solidarity between Nancy and Robin. Eddie has to hold Steve’s hand when he starts crying when Nancy tells them her name, Barbara Arya Wheeler-Hopper. Nancy smiles at him, eyes glassy from exhaustion and emotions, as Steve holds her for the first time, voice shaking as he finally meets her, “Hi Barb.”

In the same year, the third member of the Party 2.0 is born. It’s Dustin and Suzie. That one was a looong story. After the Vecna fiasco of Spring and Fall of ‘86 (where they finally killed Vecna and closed the Upside Down for good), Suzie and Dustin broke up due to some miscommunications and because her father has been much more stricter after the Cali gang's visit. By chance, they meet again in MIT in ‘89 and remained friends for another two years (In Steve and Eddie’s dismay this led to long hours of telephone calls from Dustin pining over his ex-girlfriend-now-turned-bestfriend) before they finally got their act together when Dustin drunkenly proposes to Suzie (they don’t get married until ‘96). Steve and Eddie has come down to California about a week before Suzie’s expected labor day for moral support and just to help. Suzie goes into labor in a grocery store with Steve, while they were out buying peppers to induce labor. Steve has to drive them frantically to the hospital while a chill Suzie drinks her strawberry milkshake in the passenger seat. After 36 hours of labor, Edward Stephen Henderson was born. Eddie’s the one who cries more when Dustin announces the name, he’s also the first one in the party to hold the newborn. Eddie smiles down at Edward, laughing as he looks up at Steve, “I will do everything in my power so that you won’t end up with your father’s ego.” Cue Dustin’s protests in the back and Suzie laughing so hard she pops a stitch. Steve’s hand on his waist doesn’t leave even for a moment the whole night.

By ‘02 Max is pregnant again, Robin and Vickie’s adoption papers were processing and El’s been looking into Artificial Insemination. Will and Mike are the only two who doesn’t seem interested in having kids and are happy to just be the gay uncles that shower the kids with expensive ass gifts.

Steve’s hiding it well, Eddie will give that to him. Steve’s always been good with kids, always had that glow whenever he's around them and there is no doubt in Eddie's mind that his husband will be a wonderful, amazing father. It also helps mask the baby fever he’s had for about four years now since Ellie was born. Eddie doesn’t miss the melancholic looks he gets when it's time for Max to take Ellie home or the look he gets when they visit Barb and they have to say goodbye to her big brown eyes. Eddie knows his husband has wanted kids for as long as the’ve been together, but doesn’t say anything for his sake. So he takes a long look at his life. Does he want kids? Does he want to come home with kids in the house? Could he ever be even a sliver of the father that Steve was born to be? Would he be anything like his biological father?

He calls Wayne, talks to him for hours about every fear and doubt he has. He loves Steve so much and it hurts him to not be able to give this to him just because he’s being a coward again. Wayne soothes every shaking nerve in his body, and Eddie thinks, he’ll be fine. He’ll be fine because he wasn’t raised by John Munson, he was raised by Wayne Munson.

He’s done so much research about gay adoption that he has to hide the thick folder under a loose floor in their shared office, just so Steve can’t find it. He wants to be ready for this before he talks to Steve about it and by Christmas ‘02, he’s ready.

Its the quiet lull just before Christmas. The tree is decked out with numerous gifts, the house full of fairy lights (fairy lights they made sure would never blink), outside it just started snowing. In 24 hours, the house would be full with their family coming from different states to celebrate the holiday with them. Steve's wrapping the last few gifts, hot choco on his side when Eddie sits across him on the floor, handing him the thick folder.

Steve opens the folder with a bewildered look, his face shifting to shock in seconds. Steve looks up at Eddie with teary eyes, "Before you say that you don't need kids because I don't want kids, hear me out, okay?" Eddie reaches out for his hand, "I do want kids. I want kids with you. I've had kids with you since '86 when Dustin and Max decided to look for me. I've always wanted kids with you. I was... I was just scared that I'd end up like my dad, you know?" Steve sighs, hand tightening in his grasp, "Eds."

Eddie shakes his head, "Wait, I am not done. I talked to Wayne, you know? And I thought about it and I want kids with you, Steve Harrington. In any shape or form. If you don't want it right now, we can put a pin on it and if you tell me you never want it, then we forget this conversation ever happened. We could adopt, we could get a surrogate, hell, if I can get pregnant I will do it, sweetheart. I want a kid that's half you and half me and that might not ever be possible but we can raise and love a kid together and that'll be just as good." Steve's smiling now, tears still flowing from his face as Eddie cups his face, using his thumbs to swipe away the tears.

"So what do you want, baby?" Eddie smiles as Steve starts laughs, nodding. "Yeah, yeah, I want a kid with you. Fucking hell, Eds." Steve hops up, tackling Eddie into a hug and showering him with kisses. They stay like that for an hour, just soaking in the pure adoration and love they feel for each other.

It's not until October '05 that their kid comes home. Elijah Syl Harrington-Munson was a 6 month old boy. Steve cries the first time he holds him as Eddie embraces him, Elijah holding his index finger in his tiny palm.

"Stevie, he has your hair." Eddie comments and there's no hint of joke or trick in his voice, just full of awe and Steve just cries even more.

When Elijah finally opens his eyes, Steve can't help the tenderness that bursts through him, "Eddie, Eds, he has your eyes."

Elijah's not a Harrington-Munson in blood, but he's Steve and Eddie's son through and through. And yeah, Elijah grows to have the same brunette wavy hair, styled just like his Dad's and the same brown doe eyes just like his Pa's. Sometimes, he sits in the living room as he reads a thick book with a basketball game playing on the background, Steve and Eddie thinks he's always meant to be theirs.

They adopt more kids. Not six because fuck no. But they do have their three nuggets, half Steve Harrington and half Eddie Munson and he won't ever have it any other way.

[x-liv25-jamieswife]

tgg thoughts

part 1 - overall thoughts

i want to start by saying that this is my opinion. you have the right to have your own. i really don't want to see any comments hating on me saying that i'm wrong and shit. some of the things i like and don't like don't really have any reasoning behind it. sometimes i just don't like or like smth and idk why.

i rated the book 4/5 stars. i'm usually quite generous with my ratings (i tend to give 5 stars to every book i read unless it really doesnt deserve it. if i had fun reading a book, i give it five stars even if i have complaints).

i'll start with what i didn't like about the book and finish with what i liked.

tgg spoilers obviously

-> what i didn't like

i thought the pacing of the book was weird. one of my favorite parts about the og trilogy is how fast paced it is. it doesn't drag on. this book, on the other hand, took place over the span of 12 hours (or maybe a little more). i felt like the book could've been a little shorter because of this. it was 360 pages, but i think it could've been better with 300. sometimes, when i was reading, i felt like putting the book down bc of how much it was dragging on. i felt like the multiple povs also contributed to this. the three pov characters were basically doing the same thing, escaping the escape room (their riddles and puzzles were different which i enjoyed but they're still basically doing the same thing). i get why we got three povs and i honestly wouldn't have enjoyed the book if we only had one, but i do think that it had its downsides.

one of the things i loved about tig (and other books) is that you had chapters/moments that weren't focused on the mystery. i felt like those were the scenes where we really got to know the characters properly and i really loved them. now, i know that with the way tgg is written, adding those types of scenes would literally be impossible. the players don't have unlimited time to solve the game. ig its not really those scenes i mentioned that i miss but the character/friendship/relationship development we'd get from them (if that makes sense). we did get to learn more about the players throughout the book and we got to see friendships and relationships form, but, idk, i just felt like tig (and other books) did a better job. i knew the book wouldn't be tig 2.0 and i wasn't hoping for that bc that would've sucked. i wanted it to be different and im glad it is, but i wish we got more scenes that weren't solely focused on the game (most of the scenes were either focused on the game or half-focused on the game if that makes sense except for at the end when they gave the players 12 hours to rest).

i'm gonna mention this again in my post for grayson and lyra and ik this is controversial, but i feel like their romance was rushed. i get that they've called before and all, but, to me, that isn't enough. my best friend @catapparently made a post about it (here). this is literally how i feel about them. i feel like they could've been such a good slow burn, but this kind of ruins that. i really really loved their chemistry though and they had so many incredible scenes together. ik that jlb mentioned that there will be complications in the 2nd book, but, idk, averyjameson and cassiedean got such great development that lyrayson pales in comparison (i'm aware only one book is out. i'm not comparing lyrayson to the complete series, i'm comparing them to the first book of each series).

rohan and lyra's pov at the beginning of the book felt off. i really don't know how to explain this one and i don't think there's a real reason, but i prefer their pov at the end of the book much more (at first i thought it's cause we got to know them more, but then i thought about avery and gigi and i didn't feel like this about their povs so i don't think so) (maybe it's cause their povs weren't as 'emotional???' as gigi's. idk). not because of the romance, but just in general. i felt like, at the beginning of the book, their characters were so bland. lyra, for example, was constantly going on about how she isn't normal and how she hasn't been in a while, how she deserves this, etc (don't get me wrong, i get why and i feel so bad for her. she's been through so much and this fandom should talk about her tauma more). so much that it started feeling repetitive. as i continued reading the book, though, i started liking her character more. i'll talk about rohan in my post about him (i think that, with him, i started liking him more after we learned about his childhood. it made him seem more human). i feel like this goes hand in hand with not really having any scenes that weren't focused on the games. avery is similar to lyra in the sense that they both try to ignore their trauma and push it aside in order to accomplish things. what made avery my favorite character, is that we got quite a few scenes where she's talking to max, libby, etc, and we sort of see her open up a little bit. did we get a few scenes like this with lyra? yes and i loved them, but we didn't get nearly as much in book 1 for lyra as we got in book 1 for avery and i feel like i wouldn't have felt this way about lyra (and rohan) if we had.

i should mention this in my grayson post, but i think that this deserves its on point in this one. grayson really got on my nerves at the beginning of the book. pls don't come at me this is my opinion, but sometimes i get the feeling that he thinks he's above everyone else (ik this isn't true. we get to see that in his pov in tbh and the bonus chapters from other books, but he gives off these vibes from other people's pov). i absolutely hated the scene where grayson said he had to get used to being wrong bc he almost never is. i get that he couldn't make mistakes growing up bc of his grandfather, but he just gave me the ick so bad in this scene (and others). grayson is just not always my type of guy (i do like him don't get me wrong, he's just not my fav). i prefer his brothers. again, this is my opinion.

-> what i liked

the romance was really nice. ik i had some complains about grayson and lyra, but overall, their romance was good. my favorite was savannah and rohan's romance. i don't love savannah, but i do like what she has going on with rohan. the tension between them is just so incredible. grayson and lyra's romance wasn't nearly as tension-filled as rohan and savannah's but i found it really cute, fluffy, and heartfelt. i'll go into more detail in their posts but yeah.

the characters were incredible as always. one of my favorite things about jlb is how she writes characters. i honestly prefer characters over plot. a book can still be incredible to me even if the plot sucks if the characters are good. i really liked gigi (and knox for some reason. i don't love him but i love the way his character is written). all of the characters were so interesting and i loved their backstories (brady and knox and the whole calla thing? odette and tobias??). i'll go into more detail for each character in their post so i wont say too much.

the plot twists/cliffhangers made the book so much better in my opinion. i don't think i would've liked the book as much if it didn't end the way it did. odette's revelation? gigi being kidnapped? savannah's revenge? the epilogue? i'm also really excited to see what happens with the calla forbes situation and eve. i have so much to say but i finished the book a few hours ago and want to really thing about all of this before i make a post about the ending.

the mystery and puzzles. although i think that they were a little overdone, i really enjoyed them. i personally couldn't figure out any of the riddles and shit. i feel like everything flowed really nicely, and i really appreciated that jlb didn't make all of the pov characters solve the same riddles. i think my favorite part about the games is that they always ended in a way i wouldn't have expected them to end? if that makes sense? i'd think the answer would be one thing but it ends up being the complete opposite or i thought i knew what was going to happen next but i didn't.

the friendships/bonds between characters were also really well written. i especially liked the friendship thing knox and gigi had going on. they started out kind of rocky, but i loved the way their friendship progressed. i also really liked what was going on with brady and knox (i also lowkey kind of ship). i'm excited to see how all these friendships will develop in the next books.

the multiple povs were also really fun. it came with its downsides (what i mentioned in the first point), but i really liked seeing all of this from different characters povs. i especially loved gigi's pov. it was so cute and i love the way she's written (also her trauma is so overlooked wtf). i liked that the pov characters had different feelings towards the game (if that makes sense). gigi was honestly just having fun while trying to win, rohan was a bit more playful, focused, and calculating, and lyra was more neutral (most of the time she was trying to ignore grayson which i thought was funny).

i feel like this deserves it's own point, but the og characters. i really liked their small appearances throughout the book. seeing them now three years after the og trilogy and how much they've changed is kind of bittersweet (if that makes sense)

this is all i have for now. i did finish the book earlier today so i might have more to add, but i felt like making this now when everything is still fresh in my mind. also this isn't proofread so if smth makes sense i apologize for that. my next post in this series will be about gigi (i think).

[darkprincess009]

#peak meta yaoi

thanks for giving me an excuse to rant haha!

my argument is this: act 6 started at the height of tumblrs interaction with homestuck (after the trolls and cascade popularity spikes). floating m/m fandom immediately jumped onto shipping dirk and jake together, but without substance, they created the fanon “Woobie Coolguy Dirk” and “Dirks Boyfriend, Jake”, literally within hours after introduction (dirk didnt even have a name yet!)

homestucks many things but its always been to a large degree a long running conversation with its fanbase. quadrants is hussies explicit dig on shipping but ive always thought act 6 centring around the relationship dramas of the alphas is the same thing, a jab at the fandom of the time. particularly this new audience, which at the risk of authorial intent debate, hussie was pretty clear in not having much respect for

but always contrary for a joke regardless. you wanted the beta kids interacting more? none of the alphas are ever really on the same page, and have constant difficulties communicating. heres them being trapped in a session for 6 months and hating each other by the end of it. no im not telling you what happened in such a long period of time. you want dirk and jake to be together? your johndave 2.0? a cute relationship? heres the alpha quadrangle, heres them fighting each other about it, heres how long it drags out. heres jake kissing dirks decapitated head. btw, they do date, but their relationship doesnt work, they break up, they talk about how bad it is. anything explicitly romantic between them is never really brought into focus, only danced around somewhere offscreen. dirk and jake dont even talk to the “real” versions of each other

you wanted dirk to be the vulnerable uke? nope, heres his personal arc into the psychology of potential for abuse. you want your fanon jake, dirks sexy and confident boytoy? jake is a portrayed as a pathetic joke character, and is consistently narratively humiliated in a reflection of the expectations for him

dirkjake as a canon entity is self aware. meta “gaybait” - you can have your gay boys, but know it wont work. its a commentary and a dissection of the m/m fandom spectre haunting these characters the fandom projects onto them. and their characters are so perfectly about projection (and reality/story warping...) regardless it all comes together in a neat little bow

[polyamorouspunk]

Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Was out with mountain boy last night and 1. I learned how to say ‘i love you’ in latin (te amo) and 2. Very much questioning the whole arospec thing because of this boy. Cause for the first time in my *life* the feelings have lasted more than 2 weeks. Its been 2 months. HOLY SHIT IVE BEEN DATING MOUNTAIN BOY FOR 2 MONTHS

But yeah. And also like. As of last night its like *new feeling unlocked* like I’ve had butterflies but I’ve never had butterflies to the degree that Im *still* having butterflies over something 24 HOURS later. And like. That could also just be from being in the middle of a flare that my emotions just are not regulating correctly but like. I feel like I just unlocked emotions 2.0. So maybe I am the actual rare case of ‘you just haven’t been with the right guy yet’ which is infuriating but also I *like* these feelings

But also on the whole chronic illness front - WE FUCKING HATE IT HERE and Im downing ibuprofen like its candy (that is a joke for those that need told). So if my brain could just stop having the 404 error causing both thinking and motor skill problems atm that would be great

Uuhhhhh OH! And therapy is now once a month instead of every other week so I guess thats a plus

Those are my life updates bro how are you?? I miss chatting with you I feel like I never have time to be on here anymore

*answers like a week later* whaaaat I always have time to chat haha 😅😅

Well I’m glad you feel that way! I know personally I can only feel that way with people I’ve met irl even if it’s just meeting them once. I love that feeling though, I’m always chasing that high.

It’s been two months 😭 where has the time gone

I love my best friend to pieces but hanging out with her and her husband was soooo. For someone who’s “autistic and touch-adverse” homegirl SURE did a 180 on that. Third wheel for a week straight 😐 I support her not conforming to social norms even when it’s embarrassed me in the past but like. Boundaries. When you are with someone else. I always made sure that I was never super PDA or hung up on my ex when we were dating because I never wanted to make someone feel like a third wheel and uh. Yeah that’s why.

I just started my meds back up, I’m back on Prozac after my hiatus from taking meds. It reached the point where I’m like “okay yeah maybe my meds were doing SOMETHING even if they weren’t WORKING exactly so MAYBE I should go back on them and be a LITTLE less crazy”. I intend on starting therapy back up. I have free therapy through work, probably Better Help, but it’s probably better than nothing. I already know my data’s on the dark web from all the times my bank account has been hacked so I don’t need to worry about them selling my personal info 😅

I was planning on graduating this semester but that’s not happening :) so next semester it is.

My mom wants to come back up next summer and my best friend and I have been trying to plan matching tattoos and we talked about getting them up there where I got them last time so maybe I’ll see you then! Sick New World already sold out so I guess that plan is a bust 😅

[justaredheadf1fan]

Trouble's definitely Bak-u for this one!

Seriously, why did I have to miss this weekend? I've been catching up on my home after work and holy hell! I'll say what I already have in mind if I confirm it after watching all the Sprint content from today.

Sprint Shootout - Saturday

Well, so for now what I can gather is that this crap is meant to be a Quali 2.0, for the Sprint race. That's what's so especial about it? Anyway, let's see how this goes.

Quite a few cars through that escape/way out (how do people actually refer to this in English???? I'm at a loss right now 🤣).

Aaaaand Sargeant hit the barrier and destroyed his right rear and he can barely move the car. Causes a Red Flag and Q1 is not gonna get restarted now. I now Williams retired him for the Sprint and honestly, I get it. That looks BAD.

10 minutes for Q2 and it's looking a little calmer than Q1 for now. And it definitely is, Stroll almost got lost in the mix but finally made it through. Pretty quiet, this one.

Time for Q3, i'm about to see Charles crushing it again today before the disasterclass 🥲 What a beaut. funny though I've just seen him crash 🤪 This guy's gonna end me, seriously. I have no clue how he even got the car to its rightful place. What a guy.

Onto the circus now.

Sprint Race - Saturday

Let's see now what everyone has been talking about for the last few hours.

HAHAHAHA George serving cunt right from the start. WHAT A KING! And Crystappen complaining about something he's done a thousand times to everyone, especially Lewis??? Oh boy, am I enjoying the karma!!!!

Omg Yuki noooooooo!!!! VSC deployed, that tyre right in the middle... Good thing they've already slowed down. Safety Car now deployed after Yuki's tyres haven't been properly fitted or is it that the car's is fucked? Damn.

Whoa what a restart!! What's going on with Fernando, what did he take!? 🤣

Sharl had nothing to do against Checo, that illegal car is just too much. He didn't even need to try, he just got there and ate him up. And Sid's engineer is just so funny, telling him he's done a good job not making contact with George, really on point tbh. Crybaby needs a reality check, even if it's that subtle.

Haas on Haas violence? I need popcorn for this! I'm just waiting for this to really devolve in a couple races 💀 And now that's a good overtake by Lance, good job my darling!!

Well, good thing Sharl could keep the fraud at bay at least, since there was no catching Checo.

I'm amused at how our dear friend the baby could have the nerve to tell George off about the crash. Are you serious, dude? And threatening him with crashing against him ON PURPOSE. Nobody sees the problem here? Honestly, I couldn't be prouder of George after his response. King. He chose violence and stuck to it today. Good for him.

And that's it, that's the most interesting thing that happened on the Sprint day and basically it went down right afterwards.

I seriously believe that FIA are not even thinking about the sport, they haven't been for quite some time now. Doing this at a track such a Baku, it's very risky. It might not be as dangerous as Jeddah, but it's still a pretty complicated or tricky race. Doing the Sprint there is just for the sake of the circus that can happen after the race itself since it's pretty damn boring otherwise.

Someday the worst will happen and someone will truly get hurt (if not killed) in one of these at a complicated track, and then we'll all cry. But clearly the FIA only think about the $ and the spectacle for the sake of the spectacle instead of thinking straight.

That's MY opinion. Feel free to disagree. But I really hate this crappy ideas.

Race - Sunday

I'm finally back from work so I'm gonna watch the clown show now. I know more or less what happened so not very excited about it, but I like to suffer.

Good start from Sharl and both RBR alost hitting each other. Why is it always "almost"? So unfair. Good start from Lewis and Lance. This is gonna last so little...

So, absolutely no one will mention the fact that IT'S NOT NORMAL to pass someone that fast even with DRS? Jesus, it's fucking insane.

Lance saying that he's not gonna attack Fernando. What a class act, this boy. Fernando, you know you don't deserve this kid. My poor baby, he might not know yet Fernando will definitely sacrifice hm given the chance if it means he'll get any advantage at all.

Pretty clean and boring race so far and it's only been 8 laps. Where is the exciting Formula 1 we were promised with the regulation change last year? Because I don't see it. I miss the actual Formula 1, the one we used to see years ago, so much rawer and chaotic in many ways. They wanted to take out Mercedes at all costs and they made this sport a huge crap. I remember how nervous and ecstatic I used to be watching this every race weekend. I really did have bad timing when I decided to come back to this.

Very clean pit stop for Lewis, thank goodness. Now we can see the RBR fighting, due to some trouble going on for Sid the Sloth. And De Vries broke his wheel, we get a Safety Car on the track now. What a surprise.

That restart will be so bad. I'm seeing it before I even have it on my screen. Aaaaand there we go. Lewis almost hitting the barriers, Fernando eating up Carlos like he's nothing (he really isn't), Lance right there too. And Lewis takes George!

But seriously, Carlos? How sad was that? Ouch, Lance touched the barrier! Hope he's good, he's doing a fantastic job today!! What happened in the pit lane with George? Didn't notice.

Okay, how hard is that Aston Martin? What kind of concrete did they use to build it? 🤣 Lance made a mistake now and went wide, and nos Lewis eats him up! Sorry, Lance, but this was bound to happen eventually!!

Pretty boring last few laps, like literally one of the most boring races in the last few months (counting 2022 too) because nothing is happening. And there's still almost half the race to be completed. Yikes.

Still 11 laps to go, and I can't yawn more than I already am. What a bore. Seriously, why am I like this? Why do I need to see this? And for what!? At this point I'm just thinking that as soon as this is done, I need to hang my clean clothes to dry, since I've left them in the washing machine until the races ends. This is saying A LOT.

George pitting in lap 50? Mmmm... WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED WHEN OCON WAS ENTERING THE PITS!? And no where comes George getting Fastest Lap!!!! Yes baby, he started off the weekend doing nothing of substance and now here he comes!

I just shut off the streaming since it's been enough. Too much, actually.

All in all, it was a crappy race. Really disappointed since this track is one of my faves.

Same plan next week, I'll watch after work, whenever that is since I have no clue what my schedules are 🤣 I'm too tired now to even check this before posting so...

Peace out!

[plasma-packin-mama]

Ok I've played fo4 for a few hours. And I'm not really hooked. Idk why :(

Here's my initial thoughts about it: (readmore bc long. Also if you hate seeing me livepost about fo4 you can block "#pia plays fo4")

This might make me sound really stupid but its been pretty confusing so far? I feel like I don't understand what a lot of the mechanics mean- like all the symbols in dialogue, I didn't know I was doing a persuasion check until it told me "persuasion attempt failed" and the guy I was talking to started attacking me LOL. The interfaces are all really hard to look at too it's hurting my eyes 😵‍💫

And I feel like I picked up a lot of weapons from enemies and it's hard to tell what to use, all the names are so similar and I don't really know what any of them mean, it's very overwhelming. I'm also having a hard time telling if weapons and armor break and how to repair them?

Also do all shops buy and sell stuff at like a 90% markup?? Why does Trudy want to buy my gun for 16 caps but sell me the same gun for 150 caps? That's mean, I killed a drug dealer for her why is she trying to scam me now?

Also the fact that I immediately got power armor and a minigun and killed a deathclaw was really startling like I feel like I missed something.... I'm surprised that happened at the beginning. I guess it's to show how eventually you'll be really strong once you have more batteries for your power armor? Also I spent like 30 minutes wandering around trying to find the power armor in the first quest. That's just because I'm stupid but im mentioning it anyway. I also had to look up how to get out of the power armor because I pressed every button on my keyboard and checked the controls tab and still couldn't figure it out. I swear I was less stupid when I played new Vegas the first time.

I also might need to try playing a different kind of character, because I was going for a kind of loner, out for themselves type of character but that's a little harder for me because I naturally just want everyone to hold hands and skip in a circle together.

I also feel like I don't really have anything to do yet besides help Preston and I'm not sure that would be the first thing my character wants to do, so maybe I should make the kind of character who wants to help Preston and it'll be easier. (I'm afraid I'll end up making Delilah 2.0 if I do that though)

LAST THING I DIDN'T KNOW CODSWORTH WAS SUCH A CATTY BITCH, CAN HE STOP BEING SO JUDGEMENTAL??

[ravenelyx]

For the fic writing ask game! 13, 22, 38, 53, 66, 75!

Hello Soph <3<3 thank you sm !!

13- Do you listen to music while you write? If yes, what have you been listening to recently?

Nope, too distracting truly 🥲 no matter if it has words or not -- by brain stalls and I just end up either staring at the wall or singing :")

22- Do you title your fics before, during, or after the writing process?  How do you come up with titles?

Sometimes i do it before the story itself even exists (like ilyet and arranged heartbreak or the wips listed in my masterlist), sometimes in the middle (an epiphany moment in which my brain goes YOU KNOW WHAT---?).

Titles are usually based on the core of the story if the fic is rather long:

I love you in every timeline: inspired by DSMOM originally -- it's actually a wordplay on the entire story : it holds its essence entirely, playing on the identity of the two girls, the contrast of Sebastian's emotions and the way time affects the whole ordeal (how he himself has as well, directly on indirectly, affected both past, present and future). I have a very late scene written out already which explains pretty much everything, but I can't spoil it and I feel like a quivering leaf when i think about it (brain write faster pls i want to reach it soon --- but not so soon bc it's literally towards the end)

Arranged Heartbreak : pretty self-explanatory (i had thought the title to be lame at first and then I just... didn't care)

As for the other short fics, they're pretty simple titles tbh --- except for the list in my masterlist: I went all out and those don't even exist yet

38- What is your most self-indulgent posted story?

ILYET itself 🥲

She's my precious, my baby, my dearest love --- also, MC 2.0 herself is based on my OC (Lys Lovelace my dear) since I haven't written anything about her (appearance and stuff is still ambiguous as a true x reader story)

53- What is the most-used tag on your ao3?

I expected it to be something angsty : it's actually "fluff" :||

Just fluff

I'm a sappy idiot fr

66- What’s a fun fact about ILYET?

Edit: one fun fact no one probably knows about is that the whole fanfiction was actually born from a teen wolf edit that ended on my tiktok fyp... yeahhh... and it's a stydia scene, when Lydia walks up to the group asking "where have you guys been?" and Stiles turns around, completely struck. And then idk why my brain just decided to take that scene and just... make the whole thing up into what it is now...

75- Is there a particular fic that readers gravitated towards that you didn’t expect?

Pretty much all of them -- I've never really had any online presence before tumblr so I wasn't really expecting anything when I first started writing, really :"")

I remember when i posted the prologue of ilyet: it was late at night, (friday night, about 11:45 pm -- i remember it like it was yesterday) so I just posted it, went to sleep and expected nothing in return -- then I woke up to like 300 notes in barely a few hours and I literally jumped out of my skin🥲🥲 those were the good times

But fr -- I expected Loved like to flop bc I literally word vomited it at 4 am, posted it without even rereading it, and then woke up to ppl liking it fr (I still hate it, don't doubt, but still...)

Aaaand... yeah.

Ask game here <3

[ottopilot-wrote-this]

The Elephant in the Room

There is no way to sugarcoat this, because a lot of people have a visceral reaction to it: I'm working on a mixed-media project, and it is going to involve AI.

There are many complaints people have about AI, and I'm going to address some of them. If you want to stop reading now, I won't hold it against you, but I'd a) appreciate if you hear me out, and more importantly, b) implore you to give the new stuff a try before deciding it's not for you:

I think complaints about models being trained, without consent, in violation of copyright law, on people's photos, art, and words by for-profit companies are valid. I don't know how much of that, over the course of billions of data points in a training set, means I am "stealing" when I make a photo of a curvy gender-swapped Ronald McDonald. Granted, I'm not a lawyer, but that to me is parody and fair use.

Regarding copyright and whether generative AI is theft, lots of things on the Internet play loose with intellectual property rights. Memes? Reaction GIFs? Fan fiction? Songs in the background of your video? All legal gray areas. (If the rightsholders for Supernatural filed enough DMCA charges, they could take Tumblr down overnight.) My point is not to derisively say you are a hypocrite; I like these things too. It's that I don't see generative AI as being markedly different.

Environmental impact is important to me in real life. There are some alarmist numbers about power consumption and carbon impacts. I read (ok, skimmed) one of the studies and they used an 80 GB VRAM A100 SXM4, which is a 400W card and a tremendous amount of overkill for Stable Diffusion. I can do 4 draft images in about 15 seconds and 1 "finished" image in 30 on an RTX 3060. But I'm also not cranking those out without stoppping like a robot. It's much more reasonable to compare it with other leisure activities like PC gaming (its the same hardware), a PS5, or watching an HDTV. 1000 images (which for me, is A LOT - 3 or 4 hours) might use 0.05 kWh which puts me in line with watching a TV sitcom on my 50" 4k LED TV (which uses 87W in normal conditions).

People are overwhelmed because there is so much AI "art", and a lot of it is shitty. And I get ya. Many people are only using what they know and what they can find, which are online generators, and a lot of them suck. I don't want to sound like an ass, but I did spend a lot of time learning Stable Diffusion prompting and training, so I think my stuff will look better than people expect. (Or at least consistent, which is what I was aiming for.) What I hate though is people who post generated AI images and don't label them. So you get from me a promise to at least try to label all my images in tags, in the description, and in the alt description as AI (soft promise here because ADHD). Then you can block those tags to your hearts content.

I was already thinking about trying to use an AI writing tool, then I saw today that people are losing their shit about NaNoWriMo. So I am putting my thoughts about that in another post.

There you have it. Thanks if you made it this far. The goal here is not to convince you am I not just some AI techbro (I'm not) and that AI is not NFTs 2.0, but to give this project that I have worked (and am working!) so hard on a puncher's chance.

[stressedlawsecretary]

Today's Focus

02.06.24 - I am super pretty in pink today and frankly my morning is going better than a usual Monday 2.0 does so I'm counting my blessings. It's my mother's birthday so I'm going to give her a call when I take lunch today, but it's hit or miss if I'll get her because she's sick now the way I was in the beginning of the year.

Work - I have an efile to take care of, and a new case for JMK to enter into NYM and create a physical file for. Other than that, I know SJC will want me to tackle something related to WvP - a letter to a defendant I think. But it's pretty quiet here overall.

Background Noise - I start today with 119 on the Watch Later, no thanks to my trolling somebody's channel for certain drama updates. Since I'm still working my way through the accumulative five (5) hours of initial Mamamax drama, I'm alternating with a shorter video from the watch later every....15-20 min or so.

See and I only managed to get through like nine (9) videos yesterday so I need to step on the gas here or tomorrow is going to suck ass.

Study - Tuesday is article day and I have a list!

The Murder of Emmett Louis Till: The Spark That Started the Civil Rights Movement

Deep dives: climate policy, police misconduct, & the Horizon IT scandal

The Glass Report

When is a Book Not a Book? Oliver Twist in Context

'Good news' articles

Article on the "Beacon of Hate" - Unusual Clandestine 30m Beacon that broadcasts right-wing conspiracy things.

The Negro Problem

An appendix letter that went with one of my case law decisions

Black Women and the Constitution: Finding Our Place, Asserting Our Rights

I didn't do as much as I wanted case law wise yesterday, But I did manage to read:

Mississippi Madness: The Story of Emmett Till

A couple (2) of NYT articles on the trial of the Emmett Till killers

Eight (8) articles on climate policy

A couple (2) articles on police misconduct

Four (4) articles on the Horizon IT scandal

I started a couple of case law Wikipedia pages but didn't finish them

13 various other articles

Extras - I have no scheduled chores, and I'm back doing the routine proper so while I do have to switch dinner around I don't really have any responsibilities. This is by design - we have D&D again tonight and it starts at like 6p. That means I have to push off the homemade meatloaf, mashed potatoes, and mushroom gravy until like Thurs or Fri when I have more time to make it; in its place I'm moving up the Polish sausage & pierogi because that meal won't take more than an hr to make.

[dogaseducationblog]

let's get out of here... at least for a while

hi, tumblr's lovely people,

the day has come. the day that I finally leave you...

haha. you're too naive, I've tricked you. I'll be just taking a break because the first term of my second year has finally come to an end but don't worry, your sunshine, your reason to wake up, your source of energy will be here, better than ever, on the next semester. so this might be my final post for a while but it won't take too long.

so, yeah... I'll get emotional. we've been together for almost four months now and even if I had times that I wanted to kill myself just because I didn't want to write a post, this class was -don't tell this to my lecturer, I hate to admit it- kinda enjoyable and interesting. also, I really liked to have a voice to share my experiences and a personal space where only my opinions matter. until this term, I've never had to use technology this much for anything actually so creating all of those things was exciting, new, and in the most positive way, very challenging for me. not just learning about the web 2.0 tools but also creating our own works with those tools was so intriguing and beneficial. we’ve experienced that if you explore your own creativity and push its limits, there are many ways to integrate language learning with technology in a better way.

my favorite task to do among the ones we did was probably creating a podcast just because we had the chance to use the song "kingdom dance" from tangled the animation as our background music which was AWESOME. you already know we're geniuses but THIS. this was beyond genius. using that sound as a part of some of our projects was a dream of mine and Şevval's so it'll stay in my mind as one of the most fulfilling moments of my university life.

the least favorite one though was probably the one we made a padlet chart. there was nothing wrong or hard about that task actually but it was overall boring to do and since the topic of our padlet wall was bullying I was kinda buried in my past traumas. even your sunshine girlie has a depressive side, you know. I'm a Taylor Swift girlie, duh?

this class was very nice if we don't count the times that I wanted to cut my head off because I live in Gebze which means one hour ride to my school. we had a lot of choices in each assignment which was so nice. the freedom to choose what to do and to have interesting options made the lesson so much more interesting. so, it turns out I don't have anything negative to say about this class and it means I have to say goodbye for now. I know you'll miss me.

thank you for reading my confused ideas and being here for me. I'll miss you too.

as Woody the Cowboy said in Toy Story 3... so long, my partner. (you know it's not forever, I'm just making it dramatic)

virtual hugs.

until next time,

with love... and obviously education, Doğa.

[furys-burn]

The exit of the “Star Squad” left the lot of District 13 on edge with its residents working twenty-four hours a day to prep Snow 2.0 for her ascension as new President of Panem. Johanna would have happily spent the last dregs of this war in a Morphling haze but her new therapist demanded she be cut off cold turkey with routine samplings of her blood to check for abnormalities. 

Without Katniss, their room returned to its bare form as they gifted what she left behind to her mother and sister likely as some momento for when she inevitable bit it. Each day Johanna waited for the incident that would end their precious “Mockingjay” and each day she kept on. 

[The truth was she missed her; she missed her and having someone in this place to lean against. Something that was not the sheen of 13 that was so much like the Capitol only the rules didn’t apply here like they did there. They hated Johanna the Victor and she was too far gone to remember Jo the human; where does a useless Victor go when their glory is gone? Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.]

The idea of seeking out Annie Cresta (Odair?) comes out of a haze of isolation and thrill seeking. They had always existed perpendicular to each other alike in groups and friends but she always kept her distance too aware of her moniker and the rare protection Mags was affording her. She knew Finnick loved her, she knew they had married in something too glitzy to be real, and now he was gone and Katniss was gone and they would probably die like the idiots they were for a cause that was worthless. 

[She doesn’t touch the memories of after the Games. She deserves some form of mercy without a pill in her hand.]

She doesn’t know what she wants when she goes, what she will say when she answers, but the last thing she expects is, “ Do you still need a roommate ? ”

Starter for @sirendrowns

[phynali]

when you point out a system error to a colleague (whose in charge of maintaining that system for your department) and they check the wrong place in the system and say "there's no error :)))"

so you send them screenshots and go "okay cool if that is the case, but this how it looks and here's the essential information that's missing and btw this error disadvantages you, system maintainer, quite personally."

and they don't look at your screenshots or engage with any of what you've said and instead just say "no problem glad to help!"

🤦🤦🤦🤦

[hotgirlscoups]

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