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Girlies hate me for my Auditory Hallucination Swag 😜✨
#i have been suffering from 24/7 auditory hallucinations for weeks#its finally calming down but#was a rough period for a second there#damn stress been gettin to me lately#my hallucination and delusions get so bad when Im stressed#schizospec#psychosis#schizophrenic spectrum#<- not putting too many tags here bc idk my diagnosis atp because it was schizo affective when I was like 14 but idk if that changes#coping with humor#the bugz speak
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Hi! this is kinda an art request if u dont mind. And it's angst related, can you draw like where wanda and cosmo obvs have seen for a while how (human) timmy has been treated by his real parents. I just want to see like the "last straw" which lead Cosmo and Wanda wanting them to make Timmy as their own. (IM HAPPY THAT TIMMY HAS A FAMILY THAT LOVES AND CARES FOR HIM)
The "Last Straw"?
Cosmo and Wanda have seen humans at their best. They've seen humans at their worst. They've seen anything and everything that they've gone numb and used to what humans get up to.
But nothing's shaken them quite like Timmy's case did. Nothing has ever made a Fairy feel such strong human emotions than what Timmy made them feel, on that one particular night.
The thing that broke Cosmo and Wanda was Timmy himself.
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#asks#itty bitties fop au#germangirl321#tw abuse#tw emotional abuse#tw emotional distress#tw implied death#tw implied sui#tw sui implied#<- ask to tag#(especially ask to tag bcs these are the offered tumblr tags)#godkids wish for stupid things all the time. sometimes they wish for good things and bad things. or things that helps themselves or others#they wish for things that teaches them life lessons or for things that damages them in the future.#but at their core every child has a pure wish that they want more than anything.#for hazel. her core wish is for change to stop. for dev. his core wish is for his father's love#timmy's wish. at the center of everything. is to run away from himself and all that he is. to be something- anything- but Him.#its this core wish that fairies desire most. its their ambrosia. and its almost always impossible to grasp in its purity.#they cant stop change or forge a father's love after all.#Most fairies would be ecstatic to claim a child's core wish. It's the peak of their career- highly coveted highly praised.#but Cosmo and Wanda took no pleasure when they finally consumed their one- and only one for they'd never do it again- core wish.#as said before. cosmo and wanda really. really love timmy turner. and timmy really really loves his fairies. love!!! is a powerful thing!!#anyways this is a heavy topic and a heavy ask so im keeping it out of the main tags#also if you're curious as to whose responding back to timmy#its cosmo#lots of people tend to portray wanda as the more emotional sensitive type. yknow the “motherly” role.#but i think thats wrong.#was considering cutting out their responses for this ask#but then i figured that CosWan would be responding back in earnest to calm him down as best they could
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let there be justice, love
#shuake#goro akechi#persona 5#ren amamiya#p5r#akeshu#persona 5 royal#my art#akira kurusu#theres 100 things going on IRL rn ngl#so its being hard to get a piece finished#after the 25 it should finally calm down i think... aha
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Mansfield Park paints a very vivid picture of a world convicted of sin but without any access to or even imagination of grace or forgiveness. Edmund, whose morals are held up as impeccable, is literally ordained to the priesthood in the course of the novel—but where, in all his principles, is Jesus? is redemption? is the Cross? Fanny is held up as Henry’s salvation, but she can only guarantee the right guidance of his future actions, there is no repentance or forgiveness for his old ways. and if there is no way for his former sins to find their place in the story of his salvation (if I’d chosen differently I never would have met you! o happy fault!), is it any wonder he falls back into them?? there is no Christ figure, there is only Victorian duty. it leaves everyone but the perfect out in the cold.
#it’s Austen’s most PITILESS novel and it’s chilling#on the one hand I know I’m applying an anachronistic lens to the novel#but on the other hand. Austen had the Bible. everyone of her time period did. she should have known better#like the finality of Loss of Virtue is so extremely unChristian!!!!!#read the Gospels and maybe you’ll calm down!!!!!!!!#the problem with Mansfield isn’t that it’s moralizing. it’s that its morals are wrong#obviously what Henry and Maria do is wrong! but just as Mary chalking the whole thing up to folly is wildly incomplete#so Edmund and Fanny and the whole society washing their hands of them and almost treating it as inevitable is incomplete#cate reads
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anyway probably the best way to play disco elysium is to not zone out when its talking politics at you. its the talking politics at you game
#sowwy i get mad when i see liveblogs like that. if you dont understand the politics you can like. google words#gemitus#i have a fun system of making posts where i see something stupid and go to make a post about it#and then i calm down and its not that deep so i just save it as a draft. and then i see it happen again so im finally allowed to press post#thats not relevant to this one of course. haha. .#disco elysium#sure it can go in the tag
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dum dum dum, another mcyt-er bites the dust
#chorusing#lmfao. was waiting for it to finally happen to that g-dforsaken server#mcyt#mcytblr#minecraft youtube#hermitcraft#im only tagging to be annoying <- guy whos hated this fandom for YEARS#hermitblr#iskall85#drama#fandom drama#guys its rage bait calm down ive blocked post notifics
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i know why im following. i got tricked by silly batman and star wars aus and now im stuck.
Tricked being the primary word there considering your not even getting silly little star wars or batman aus rn
#ask#anon#its all a con#honestly tho ive just been busy#i might try drawing something today to post but i wouldn't hold my breath#also i think the bots have finally calmed down#1000 of those little fuckers followed me in the last month#if your ever curious why i never tell you guys my actual follower number#its bc i dont know it myself#its just a bunch of bots and one of two of you guys
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IM GONNA PASS OUTTT
#FINALS ARE OVER UOU GUYS LOVE AND LIGHHT 🙏🙏���😍🥰🥰🥰#i literally crashed out over apush and asked everyone what they got and i visited his class three separate times to check if my grade was in#i almost crashed into a guy trying to run down the stairs to see what i got. and my teacher told me to calm down before he told me my grade#BUT I DID GOOD SO ITS ALL WORTH IT AND MY PHYSICS TEACHER TOLD ME I DID SOLID AND I FINISHED MY CROSSWOED AND LIFE IS PERFECTTTT YAY#well. except for calc. but wtv!!!!!!!!!#avery rambles
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i am not gonna be an arcane spoiler free blog jsyk.
ACT ONE THOUGHTS!!!!!!
caitvi #confirmed feels exactly like when catradora went canon in the she-ra finale i dont even care that they went from together to divorced in the same episode i have faith in this team and this writing. bring it one
plus lord knows i love me some morally grey women so commander caitlyn fucked up in grief hell bent on revenge is FEEDING ME
wet cat vi era next week lets gooooooooooooo
not only that but we also have jayvik divorce i truly am living
viktor is!!!!!! SO SPOOKY!!!!!!!!! love that for him i stan a weirdo king
someone else who loves vi!!!! maddie nolen you are my angel
sevika's new arm is hilarious god we fucking needed that humor. such a great scene i love my club handed wife
loving this ekko and jayce alliance i'm happy everyone is getting to know each other now :) doin science
and as usual all the songs slap. i will absolutely be listening to this soundtrack while i drive 2hrs away to a job interview in 3 hours lmao
#it speaks#arcane#arcane spoilers#i tried to sleep but i simply could not calm down enough literally ive been having heart rushes all day#muscling thru tomorrow running on energy drinks and residual adrenaline#its finally here!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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#firstkhao#firstkhaotung#first kanaphan#khaotung thanawat#gmmtv#grab commercial#djhgkdf this is so ridiculous i cant stop laughing#why are they so dramatic?????#no reason#its a food delivery service calm down fdjghfk#but idc as long as we're finally getting some content 🥺#love them so much#also happy belated st paddys day i guess lmao#my 2 favorite leprechauns#🥺
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gifs because i hate them
#the first one makes me kinda giggle like girl slow down#hes not going anywhere!!!! ..#ughhhh their body language. i know it’s very hard to convey the difference in mc but it’s so similar#imjust thinking about slimes voice when he says the tired line and the i didnt like how it had to end#like its such a calm but intense tone it kind of sounds like hes angry. is that not the craziest thing#never going to rewatch the second last finale stream the same way ever again knowing that he either never liked doing what he did or came to#regret it over time just like how q just became more upset and affected by it as well#god they. slime left because he thought quackityd be fine without him#quackity wanted to So Badly more than Anything but he didnt ask to come with him because he just wanted him to go on to better things and#learn and be happy#when will they quit dooming themselves and eachother through their love. Neverrrr
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I can imagine the first cycle after moving. Probably Leo because Donnie likely has internal scarring, so leo goes through the process of laying his eggs, panics, his brother can't help, and finally, *finally* they ask for help. It's not willingly. It's not for fun. It's purely necessity. It's purely because there's *literally noone else* and the idea of telling anyone at all is so scary that the way they do so is in a note. Splinter sits them down and basically walks them through "You're safe, you're fine. We can handle this however you feel most comfortable, including getting you both on blockers if you prefer" and they just.... sigh. For the first time, there's *someone else* in their circle, and it's willing and it's warm, and it's *safe*. There will be tears.
Yes, except I'm not convinced that either of them could stand to tell anyone. Even if it was literally life or death (which it has been before,) I'm not sure if either of them could bear to give up that information. Donnie is finally, finally away from the people who hurt him when he got found out last time, and even though logically, he knows that it's different here, he's absolutely petrified of the thought that the same thing will happen again and it won't be over anymore. He's still horrified by the idea of anyone else knowing about Leo when he's gone to such lengths for so long to protect him, and Leo is likewise terrified in the same way. They've spent years with this being their more closely guarded secret, and that's going to be really difficult to give up.
But it's really not a secret they'll be able to keep for long.
They're in a completely different environment, with far less space and privacy. They're both stressed as hell and Donnie WAS on birth control and taking all sorts of vitamins and supplements to make sure he didn't eggbind again and now he's suddenly not and it's not only messing with his body, it's fucking scary. It literally keeps them both up at night. Neither of them know how to wash blood out of clothes or sheets. There's no private en suite bathroom they can sequester themselves away in. They're both literally making themselves sick with anxiety trying to deal with this, and they're used to handling this on their own, this is routine for them, but they're not used to all of this.
They'd probably metaphorically limp through a few cycles before their family puts it together and gently confronts them.
Venus probably figures it out first. She's pretty smart, and incredibly observant, and after all-- she quite literally experiences the exact same thing. April may not lay eggs, but I think she'd be able to get the idea after a bit as well. And while I think Splinter would realize something was wrong pretty quickly, Draxum would probably realize what was wrong first. Splinter has April, so he has a little bit of experience in this realm, but Draxum has Venus and so he has far more experience.
And so when they do sit them down and talk with them, it's going to be really scary at first. And then they get to, "you're safe, you're fine, we can handle this however you feel the most comfortable. It will be okay. No one will hurt you."
And then there's finally other people in the know, in the circle, people who will actually help them. And yes-- there will definitely be tears.
#leo in particular will probably panic at least a little when theyre confronted#because its been what? almost four years?#almost FOUR YEARS of him keeping this a secret at any cost#almost four years with no one else in the universe aside from his twin knowing#and now the spell is broken#but its okay#and they might panic and cry for a little but then they calm down and its... actually ok. things will actually be okay#april will take to big-sistering them so hard#and lowkey just? having venus exist in the household will be incredibly helpful#(she was honestly so baffled that everyone else didnt realize what was going on right away. it wasnt obvious????)#mikey tries to spoil them the same way he tries to spoil venus whenever she feels nasty#(but has to adjust a bit to respect boundaries because. donnie will bite him...)#likewise raph tries to take care of them the same way he'd take care of casey#(ie by leaving offerings at their doors and staying the fuck out of their way. just overall letting them do or have whatever they want)#their family will take care of them and keep them safe and things will get better#its honestly a huge relief when they get caught in some ways because leo can finally be like#and donnie got really sick one time and almost died and im scared itll happen again PLZ can we make sure it doesnt happen again#donnie in the background like >:0000 that leo just fucking OUTTED HIM LIKE THAT#but to leo 1000% worth it if it means donnie wont get sick and die#(as if donnie is actually realistically at any more significant risk of that than leo is)#(quite frankly theyre BOTH at risk of it at the time because of how stressed they are. lowkey a miracle neither of them eggbound yet smh)#also donnie def has internal scarring lmao;;;; poor bab. makes it a bit rough...#menstruation#tw menstruation#cw menstruation#gemini au#asks#anon#csa implied#cw csa implied
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We stan Birb standing up for themself ✋
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Windy at my house + power flickering = no comm work = quick laptop doodle
#my characters#i genuinely hoped the wind would die down but like ??? nah?#and the last time we lost power without an actual storm it WAS bc of wind#and so i just get so panicked over please dont fry my tablet with a power surge#if it calms down by tonight i really wanna work on art since i spent almost all day yesterday struggling with a pose and i finally#think i thought of something that could work and then (gestures to the wind) fuck me#also in regards to these two you have seen me drawing deacon a lot recently and i only drew armya once so far#she is a devoted follower to fulj which is really rare since fulj no longer has a large following nor a temple#so when fulj finds her its comforting and reassuring and she adores armya a lot#however the fact that fulj relentlessly teases deacon and calls him names is like..... ok wait would you really be mean to me if it wasnt#for her ? like would you still pick on me? :c and shes like lol yeah dude absolutely#deacon is just constantly dunked on by the lightning group and hes so sad because he wanted to be friends :c#but also the guy wouldnt really recognize the followers if it wasnt for the traces of lady fulj#so if they would wander into the city without having been possessed recently he probably wouldnt even cast a glance their way#nothing personal he just straight up doesnt decipher looks fast at all#he could think they look familiar but then not know why ESPECIALLY if they wear something he's not used to them in#like if armya showed up in something other than her loose white jacket he would not be able to go AH YES ARMYA immediately#he identifies people by hair or clothing details so it kinda messes him up if people remove whatever identifying trait they have#long hair getting a hair cut? suddenly a whole new person#and armya knows this very well since he never looked her way unless fulj was possessing her or trailing her#so she does like to tease him as just. we are both in servitude to a deity and same rank but like. bro youre too easy to mock#(fulj agrees)
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Current count since I last slept: 41 hours.
I think I've capped out at 46 before, I'm not sure because my worst fit of insomnia had me in no position to check times. But I'll say 46. So if we hit 48 we're setting personal records!
#i do not want to actually be awake#my body just physically cant process stress#'oh zee why cant you be in a car?'#this. this is why#and you might think: 'oh this cant be because you were in a car!'#it is. it so totally is#and also stress#but mostly i blame being in a car#everytime i get in a car i get sick#motion sickness vertigo dizziness insomnia#my body is violently against automobiles#which is actually so annoying because i finally own one of my dream cars#and wanna know when i last drove my baby?#A YEAR AND FIVE FUCKING MONTHS AGO#Also please for the love of fuck do not suggest anything to help me sleep#i. have. tried. it.#when im dealing with insomnia like this the only way it stops is preceiotion strength meds or my body calms itself the fuck down#no teas no melatonin no meditating no lettuce water no hot milk NOTHING will work#and also even prescription strength meds dont always work when its like this i have woken up like two hours after taking some b4#when my body doesnt want to sleep it will not sleep#you can tell how little sleep im running on based on how unhinged these tags are
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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍
#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man#thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking#mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they#dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done#listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life#i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this#once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i#dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this#ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be#i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about#how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being#given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out#entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please#its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have#to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once#and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general#feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this#but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is#i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired#i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if#i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore#i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr#and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning#my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better#it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood#my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it#cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen#.vent#ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.
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