#its done being a draft now !!
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some of the less nice thoughts about being aroace
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#doodles#kingdom hearts#roxas#axel#olette#aromantic#asexual#aroace#do i tag pence. hes in the background of one panel#ehhhh sorry pence no tag for you#also not tagging soriku and namixi#i mean by the logic of 'theyre in one panel so i wont tag them' i also shouldnt tag axel but. he has dialogue so#anyways i have a very irrational love of olette whenever i need a random side character in a kh comic? olette#i think she uses webmd. anyways im done talking about olette#so let me clarify about this comic#im aroace. this is all just things ive thought before#im not saying in any way these thoughts are real. theyre just thoughts#thats why it ends with 'but there isnt. its just me.' there IS nothing wrong with being aroace. even if it feels like it sometimes#im not trying to send a message im just trying to express a feeling ive had for a while#anyways. the aroace community is super positive and i like that. but not everything i feel about it is that positive#sometimes it feels like im missing something yknow#this comic seems like its about roxas. but its about me. congrats youve been fooled#drafted something similar to this for aro week but didnt finish it in time so this is spiritually part of asaw 2024#btw sorry im not posting as many drawings lately#schools kinda stressful im pretty tired and busy most the time#i am throwing this drawing to you like a slab of meat to a pack of hungry dogs. take this meager ration in these trying times#alright i think thats it bye now
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I fully understand the pain you feel with TLOZ now. I mean, I understood it before, but after Arcane becoming League's canon, after watching the second season, I feel so broken and conflicted and like I spent time loving something just for it to amount to nothing.
reliving my totk nightmares just a few months after finally being able to cope with that
#ganondoodles answers#ganondoodles talks#.... it might actually get even worse with arcane#similar how totks stupid book fucked it over EVEN MORE than the game itself#i made a post about it but the tweets in which the info was written were deleted and i dont have reddit so i saved it as a draft#if it does end up being true and more confirmed than a reddit post#if you want to know#someone (was it necrit?) did an interview with linke (one of the main guys of making arcane) and summarized some info#though some wasnt quite correct so thats probably why the op of the tweets deleted them#anyway- in those screenshots they said alot of shit#my favorites- heimer is alive and characters that died can come back to life (????)#'the arcane' is just another version of magic and the whole weird hexcore bs was just bc it was corrupted- hextech is still real#viktor will come back but he is “something special” (my cursed thought .. varrus retcon- its jayce and viktor now lol)#they indeed planned the last episode to change runeterra and also lead into MULTIPLE SHOWS ALREADY BEING WORKED ON#yep that raven was swain/his raven/raum#they are aiming higher thaN GAME OF THRONES UH OH#they are not done with piltover and zaun characters either- urgot will show up#and my favorite .... VANDERWICK IS ALIVE and STILL split between vander and beast (???literally how????) and he will end up with one#again i dont know if anythign of that will hold up but uuuuh even if half of all they wrote there is halftrue .... pls no#i swear if they fuck up aatrox and mordekaiser im might just stop believing in anything ever again and lock myself in a box
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22/09/2024 - OTT @ TOR
carter yakemchuk debuts for the ottawa senators in preseason - a collection of comments.
"The only criticism I had on Yakemchuk that has persisted all season is that he is responsible for a lot of puck losses while attempting plays. Strangely, it’s not that Yakemchuk doesn’t have good hands. This was also mentioned previously when talking about his ability to change his shooting angles and to set-up plays for his teammates. The problem is that he thinks his hands are much better than they actually are." "This season, he tried to beat an opponent 1-on-1 five times more often than Artyom Levshunov, and twice as often as Zayne Parekh — the other hyper-offensive defenseman in this draft. The only players I could find that had a similar dangles-per-60 stat were all forwards." "Many think Yakemchuk’s pure skill and size will ensure he becomes a serviceable NHLer. But until he can establish better defensive reads and add more speed and mobility into his step, he’ll need to do a bit more to take his game up a notch." “He’s boom-bust,” another scout said. “If he plays to his strengths, he’s going to be a game-changer. But he’s not going to have the same time and space to dangle guys in the NHL, and if that goes away, all he has is size. The other elements need refining.”"
“It’s overtime at Scotiabank Arena and 2024 first-rounder Carter Yakemchuk is on the ice in his first ever pre-season game. First thing Yakemchuk does is slip past 69-goal man Auston Matthews behind Ottawa’s net. Gathering speed, he races up the ice, dangles through Jake McCabe, and then pushes past Mitch Marner and finishes off the game by undressing former Senators goaltender Matt Murray with a neat backhand move. Welcome to the NHL and the highlight reel, kid.”
#might have done a bit too much here but honestly i had a lot of fun <3 WE LIVE IN THIS WORLD RIGHT NOW... IDC IDC...#this was made for ME and the one other person on this webbedsite who knows about this fella <3 i LOVE being the One Guy#who yaps about a player. but. its been so lovely to be Two Guys who yap about some random player <3#shout out CC......! :]#carter yakemchuk#ottawa senators#puck!gif#p!gif:sens#puckscouting#hockeyedit#nhledit#hockey gifs#nhl gifs#2023 draft class
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Hi everyone, I wanted to write a quick update to you guys :)
I made this blog in March of 2021. At the time, I followed my first math course on fractals and dynamics, and had just discovered a tool to make my own awesome fractals. This blog started out as a place to share the art I was making as a coping mechanism during covid, but as I quit making them after a few months, this blog died pretty quickly. In 2022, I decided to start posting regularly again (mostly just shitposts though), just so that the effort I put into this blog wouldn't go to waste.
Then, in the beginning of this year, I started writing my thesis. I posted one (1) shitpost about him (my well-known and popular son), and got 10s of thousands of notes. Every morning I would wake up to another crowd of people who loved the graphs, or were baffled by them, and I got showered in asks to elaborate on him.
Truth be told, 2023 has been a very heavy year for me. A lot of things happened in my personal life, and I lost a dear friend to suicide. It became so difficult for me to keep writing on my thesis, and the project that should have been finished in June this year has now been taking 4 months too many. My mental health has suffered greatly, I haven't been able to take any breaks, and life has just been generally difficult. I have spent nights not being able to sleep because I wanted to finish my bachelor's thesis so bad, but my supervisors would keep demanding more work, more edits, and more drafts. At some point, I even considered quitting my studies and finding a job.
The community has helped me to keep going. Mathematicians and non-mathematicians alike who sent me genuinely interested questions, made me laugh in the notes, created fanart (??? I'm still baffled by this but the people who did this are the coolest in the world) and generally made me feel for the first time that mathematics isn't a universally hated subject. On some days, the only reason I was able to keep going and the only thing keeping me from experiencing burn-out was the support I got through this blog.
Today, 10/12/2023, I turned in my thesis. Thank you so much for your support!
#my sickly son#math#literally thank you guys so much#this isnt a goodbye or anything its just me being sentimental lmao#ill be able to start posting about other things in the future#probably less things about my sickly son and more idk fun stuff about dynamics/fractals/probability#maybe ill get into fractal art again now that i have the time#right now past me is drafting this after one of the lowest days ive experienced in a few months#just as a reminder that i will be able to post this at some point and i will be done and i will be able to call myself BSc#disclaimer the supervisors did ask for more work but it was also bc my thesis just Was Not That Good for a long while#had to fix a looooooooot of mistakes#no shade on them i love my supervisors a lot
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this is a test
#i’m bored i just wanna see how many words i can put in the tags like will it just keep going on forever or will they stop me like i know th#the tag limit is 30 ok so the iindividual tag limit is 140 characters that’s actually so rude i wanted to keep going forever and see how lo#g this could be but i guess we can do this 30 times ok what the flip should i talk about hm i was playing the guitar today but i rage quit#ause the song was hard and hurting my fingers! ermmmmm it was sunny ok this is boring let’s think of more exciting things to type hmmm acco#ding to all known laws of aviation- jk i’m not doing the bee movie script but can you imagine i think that would be funny hmmmmm words i lo#e podcasts so bad that’s a fact no one has ever know before my blog definitely isn’t all about audio dramas the people are definitely not a#ready aware of this jesus christ this is only the seventh one of these this is actually quite a lot of space i underestimated how much i ha#e to type btw there’s probably spelling mistakes in here somewhere or autocorrect has been annoying but i cba to retype anything so i don’t#care lolllllllllllll how do you feel about oscar malevolent i feel a normal amount actually (lie) yk what i really miss sam and colin alrea#y like i’m actually not okay i really hope we hear from sam again in s2 and also colin ngl i hope ur in the computers soz or not dead miss#im like a bastard my paranoid it king ok erm im running out of things to say um heartstopper s3 was crazy good i cried lmao i love gay peop#e so much it’s crazy i hope it gets renewed for s4 i need to reread the comics lowkey and the books they’re all so talented for being so yo#ng it scares me ngl !!!!!! the tmagp hiatus is getting to me slightly like february in reality is soon and not that far away for how podcas#ts go but seriously how am i supposed to live until then without knowing what happened. please colin be alive. ive only just realised i can#use fills stops. sorry that’s made everything a bit messy. i should’ve been doing this before. whoops. anyways. hi mutuals i love you all s#much i hope you enjoy my rambles and shitposts cause i enjoy yours very much! never think you’re being annoying i literally don’t care be a#annoying as you want posts as much as you want i am ur biggest fan <3 im getting a bit fatigued from typing like my mind is blank basically#now it’s just turned into a. stream of consciousness but i don’t really have any thoughts to put here idk if we’re halfway ermmmm omg it’s#lmost halloween how crazy is that time is flying by i kinda forgot it was october lmao. it’s wild how it’s basically almost christmas. like#what. that’s illegal. how is it wintertime again. what the flip. i miss summer already take me backkkkkkk. i hope my phone doesn’t crash or#smth cause i’ve not saved this as a draft and i cba to do any of this again. maybe i should save it. ok i will when i reach the next tag bc#ok it stopped me but i’ve saved it and holy jesus it’s a lot of text im just sat here giggling there’s really no point to any of this other#than me being bored sooooooooooooooooo (imagine if i just did the letter o for every character wouldn’t that be crazy) so wait there’s 140#haracters and 30 tags so what’s 30 x 140. someone hurry. i haven’t done maths lessons in two and a half years i’ve forgotten everything wai#let me get the calculator app ok im back it said 4100 characters so. i dont know how many words that roughly is but its. a decent amount. o#what the flip why am i wasting tag space with maths. i hate maths. my screen time has been actually soooooooooo bad recently like damn some#one put my phone in a block of ice please joshua gillespie style. my mind is running out of things to say. do i talk about myself. im james#im 18 which is weird cause wdym im an adult go away. ive run out of facts. i love podcasts and procedural dramas that stupid firefighter sh#w is my life unfortunately. i think chappell roan should be the queen of england instead of king charles. i dont like having a king cause#ho needs men in power not me. ok um this is the last tag equal rights for all. yolo. the time will pass anyways! thank u boredom ok bye gn:
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saw a ton of my moots doing it so y not...
tagging moots so u guys can see it, sooooo srry for the tags !!! (´-﹏-`;)
@ruggiethethuggie @azulashengrottospiano @lolthia (you don't rlly interact with the twst fandom as much, but I'd appreciate knowing!! :D) @hisui-dreamer @i-like-forgs @twistwonderlanddevotee @eynnwwyjth @crheativity @dove-da-birb @krenenbaker @leonistic @rokrsu @v-anrouge @ceruleancattail @iheart-nene @vtoriacore @silly-ez @jades-mushroom @shkrmpp @fukashiin @rayisalive @xxoomiii @the-banana-0verlord @spadecentral @chocodaffodil @citrusitonit @suiseisyojo @kurukuryu @inkybloom-luv @xphantasmagoriax @saayatsumu @totallymem3 (I hope you're doing well!! :")) @moonlitnyx @hheun @kunehori @red-viewe @angelhairpastawithherbs @officialdaydreamer00 @busycloudy @linabirb @shinysparklesapphires @names-are-dumb (thanks for being a great friend to me in the discord server!!) @minty-bubblegum
I'm sorry if I missed any of u!! :")
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I was going to write this in the tags of your last post but i think it's important actually so I'm gonna send an ask
On a more serious note I'm actually kind of obsessed with psychoanalyzing Zoro specifically. Because he actually has some pretty big issues I think, mentally
He takes his self appointed job as protector of the crew very very seriously, and he's really hard on himself if he thinks he's failed in any way. I mean just look at him right after Little Garden, or how mad he is after losing his shadow on Thriller Bark.
So yeah there's nothing in that brain but swords and I fucking love that about him, he sure is sharpening them to an unhealthy degree isn't he. He's never strong enough, after all, to protect everyone.
I just,, really like combining silly ideas with serious ones, it's fun
GOD listen is 12:25 am but I just couldnt go to bed without at least STARTING to jot down my thoughts on this but like YEAH. for SURE. Zoro for all that he’s shown to be a pretty simple guy with a single-minded focus, has a LOT to chew on in terms of character depth and layers. There’s lots of fun contradictions to him too. He’s prideful and self-assured but also so often self-punishing, and he’s also someone who is fiercely independent and a free spirit, while having a habit of building his own identity around others (both his dreams are shared with others, they belong other people as much as they do to him and that’s a LOT to think about).
You may have actually caught me red handed here cause that ‘Journey to the Center of the Mind’ story concept maaaay be kind of something i’ve played around with for months now. I think I once tried to write out like a basic premise, but the only thing I really remember is is wanting Luffy to be the primary person to undergo the journey cause. if every Strawhat was present it’d feel less intimate, less personal, and I feel like Luffy would want to explore Zoro’s mind alone to preserve his privacy. Unaware that he’s the person Zoro has the most to hide from. I think the levels of Zoro’s willingness to put the Strawhat’s well being first has the potential to truly frighten him, if the visuals Zoro’s mind provides him are right.
#The idea I had written down is a little embarrassing to talk about too in depth tho dkfjd its silly#It’s a very vague rough draft at best and I dont have a lot of practice in writing. It’d definitely be too ambitious in execution for me#I just remember being very excited to use the wisteria symbol throughout the story… since Oda said it was like ‘his’ plant#I thought that maybe the reason Zoro was put into a situation where he NEEDED to be saved from his own mind could be#smth very mysterical and magical some unexplainable grandline phenomenon#I pictured a big wisteria tree that preys on human’s will#Zoro would lay down to nap under its shade unknowingly and it would quickly plant its roots right into his brain.#and slowly make it so he feels more and more emotionally fatigued until he can’t even bring himself to wake up#He’d have to be reinvigorated somehow#and maybe at first Luffy would think that the way to do that is by reminding him that he has to fight for the crew and his dream#(which is a reasonable assumption as that usually works)#and later realize that maybe what Zoro needs to be reminded of is that he needs to fight for HIMSELF.#Something that he hasn’t 100% done since he promised to Kuina their dream would be shared#ANYWHO. ITS ABOUT TO BE 1 AM NOW#I am not a night owl!!! Sorry for any typos and for the longass tags skfjsk#my post#ask#💚
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Delighted to announce that my story has officially reached novella length! I truly didn't think it would get this far, and didn't think I would be able to stick with it to get it this long. According to Wikipedia, a novella is 17,500-40,000 words, and I'm currently at 17,714. And I'm going to keep writing for awhile tonight. I'm just super proud of this
#the goal was always for it to be a novella so i looked up how long a novella is#i didnt think id make it. i didnt think id get half as far as i have#but i might actually finish this#to be clear. its just a first draft. its rough and i need to polish it#and bring in more detail#work on the intricacies of the magic#change some names. i dont like my main character's name but i didnt want that to hold me up so i gave her a placeholder#and there are three other prominent characters. i just named them on the spot#for some reason it ended up being the name of my old roommate's gf. the name of my gf. and the name of a friend's crush#so i need to change that up. but mostly i didnt want to get hung up on names. i can change them later#really need to change the mc's name though. i dont like it and it doesnt fit her#and thats not even a main priority considering the magic system and the notes that are just (speaks some language. maybe latin)#or (ritual happens)#whoch is fine for a first draft. which im fairly close to being done with actually#i got the idea from the ttrpg Unknown Armies. specifically the campaign im in#as well as babylove and honeybloods by i.s. belle#and honeybloods is based off of Jennifer's Body so we're all just taking inspiration from others and making it our own#anyway im done yapping for now. gonna go see about performing another ritual that will just be written as (exorcism happens)
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I think there were some serious growing pains when katniss and peeta were starting to "grow close" again.
#NOT TAGGING THIS but yeah this would be maybe a few months post?#when katniss and peeta are just starting to be friends again#while peeta is still kind of adjusting to the new person he is and coming to terms with what he's done in that process#which ends up making him come across as a little bitter? but i dont think he means to be. weird situation obviously.#and i think it's particularly hard for katniss considering she's someone who gets so much comfort from physical contact#and for the person from whom she got so much comfort to have snuck up on her and tried to kill her. twice.#because theres no denying that THAT person is closer to who peeta is now than who he was before being tortured in the capitol#so it takes a long time for her to not fear his touch. i think. and i think although he knows better#peeta's still kind of burned by it. like he understands it but it still hurts kind of thing#... IDK sorry i have a lot of thoughts about how their dynamic would have to fundamentally change post-mj#and its kind of weird how that's glossed over i mean its not plot relevant i guess but if theyre....#WHATEVER anyway yeah.#id like to do smth more with this idea of them adjusting to their new relationship so this is rly just a draft :)#sorry can you tell i could talk about peeniss for hours??? can you tell????????#ive really gotta practice drawing burn scars also because at this point theyd both have pretty angry burn scars on their faces and hands#i also think im rambling a lot here bc i dont want ppl to get the wrong idea or anything bc i hold both of them so close to my heart#same kind of thing as mommy katniss i guess i udnerstand it doesnt portray them in the best light but at the same time i really do think.#realistically they just wouldnt.... be well adjusted? sorry. anwyay. diddle out.
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guys, guys, guys, don't you love shaking around your little guy in your head so hard all day you probably got brain damage, but at least now you have a thousand new plots for them to follow
#uh so#kai#kai ninjago#the little lego boy#yeah#i typed almost ten thousand word in a haze today#its the rough draft#of a oneshot#and its not even halfway done yet#this man#he has my whole brain right now#i will go feral over him#correction:#i have in fact already gone feral over him#like#gimme your pathetic man who ends up being an amazing father figure and mentor to multiple children#gimme him#and his stupid mental illnesses#and maybe probably alcoholism#(not to glamourize alcoholism at all. like. i know multiple people that i care about that are deeply alcoholic)#(its a copic mechanism okay)#(also. he was absolutely drinking after season 3. dont lie. we all know it.)#uh yeah. kai ninjago the lego boy has overtaken my brain.#fictional characters#hyperfixation#im hyperfixating again#lego ninjago#writing problems#fanfic writing#writing things
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The first three scenes of chapter 30 are basically done, two more to go
#i have been so unwell this month but thats not going stop me#ive even resorted to writing on my phone#which i have not done for years#but that is much more accessible to me than using my laptop right now#i cant exactly use my laptop when im curled up in bed feeling like death warmed over#but it seems to work out okay using my phone#we will see how this chapter actually turns out#i did do the first draft on my laptop lol#idk somehow it feels less fancy writing on my phone#less professional maybe?#i say about my hobby that i do for fun#either way#progress is being made#and im having the most fun i can while also having the worst time physically#so its all good
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any sawashiro in prison thoughts like. did he cry sob breakdown in his cell when he found out like .. what happened in the outside also im so scared for the "so you know what happened to waka" conversation that might happen in y8 uesduesughsueshgu,,,,,,
I feel like sawashiro’s too emotionally stunted or like. Emotionally traumatized to be able to cry anymore, but i dont doubt he probably felt the world crash after hearing bout masato’s passing. I mean how could he not be devastated by that: he made it his whole life’s purpose to protect and take care of masato as much as he could, and the moment he stepped away from doing all of his bidding next thing he knows it his son’s dead, and he can’t even attend his funeral
Evidently, sawashiro seems to be doing A LITTLE better than when we last saw him in Y7, but we ain’t ever gonna fully know what’s up with him til infinite wealth comes out
UNFORTUNATELY i actually had a whole comic drafted with ichi telling sawashiro about The Incident: in another timeline i had a MUCH more elaborate answer to this… (´∀`=)
#snap chats#if we dont get the Masato’s Dead conversation between ichi and sawashiro i’ll just have to kill someone <- myself#on the real tho i’ll prob unleash that draft LMAO BUT we’ll prob get it so. :]]]]#i often wonder how sawashiro would react to hearing about masato dying#i know for one thing is that he’d definitely blame ichi for it#but i also equally see ichi biting back because its just not fair to blame ichi for that#and of course masato was sawashiro’s son but masato was a brother to ichi so it wasn’t as though he valued him any less yk what i mean#again i had this whole thing written out in a comic but alas.. i think i was too depressed that week to wanna finish it LOL#maybe i’ll rework it into a fic idk. i have a lot of comics and sketches drafted#but i also dont wanna draw anythin til these comms are done… fic writing tho :)#cnat do it.. with my bitchass computer being chargeless for now… //scream//
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#ganondoodles talks#zelda#?#last one is more of a joke question bc i am also working on that#but i could get it done faster if i dont do the other ones now#so in the off chance of someone being more excited for chapter 2 starting sooner#thats your option :3#(currently on page 61- but i hope i can cut some thigns when i get to rendering .. bc its gonna be 70 in the rough draft again isnt it...)#also with lore i mean about what ghirahim is in my comic and how he was forged#and i though about giving him a different outfit each chapter#bc hes the fashion guy and only hylia changes her .. decorative clothing a little#at least at the start#when we get into different appearances like humanoid disguises its gonna be different for demise too#anyway- i though about giving ghirahim more physical similarities to demise in his true form#bc in my comic ghirahim is like a son to him .. somewhat literally#bc ghirahim is a part of demise's spirit#...also i thought giving ghira lil horns and a slightly lynel inspired nose like demise has now would be cute
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exchange fic is going. good !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#okay well. holy shit. i have never done this before and probably never will again#idea to 14k of down draft in 12 days.#thank fuck oh my god i still have nearly 3 weeks to get through the other two drafts#and it won't get any harder bc the ending is set and its just a matter of getting there now#hidey talks fic#IM GOING INSANE GUYS. im hurting my own feeling so so bad!!!#i am at my PEAK power i am being SOOOOOOOO chinese about this whole thing
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im going through my various smir WIPs to try and get myself to start working on them again and i found this pokemon au and now i can't stop thinking about it again. not the plot or anything but just the image of smant covered in baby woopers lives in my mind rent free
#my posts#my fics#smir#like literally none of the plot is written its basically just this#this has been in my drafts for a year now#every time i picture him being soft with little baby animals i black out and then when i open the doc up again nothing has gotten done
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Gonna review all the sources I've been provided with (they're damning for the zio so rip to them but thanks for the sources lmao), and been searching through more sources from the time periods in question and, well, basically I started a thing.
(sorry for the blurriness) An overall essay going through the evidence and providing a small splash of input as someone noticing a lot of discord in said evidence, which isn't surprising but still it is telling how zionists cherry pick.
Anyway, the more I learn, the more I realise that there's a lot of political and nationalistic push to emit details in some papers, while pushing for certain conclusions based on the framing of the research for others. I think this is legitimately just unproductive when acknowledging the subjectivity of history as a study and the way certain overlap may point to a conclusion that isn't preferable by a variety of people, from researchers to the intuitions that may use or pay for the research to begin with. I find this in studies that delve into contentious topics in general. It's why it's so important to note the overlap and notice the inevitability of bias in understanding these topics.
As far as the history the Middle East goes and who colonised who, I think many disregard the simple theory that, perhaps, colonisation itself can be something inflicted by the post-colonised and equally be something done to a group with connections to conquest, ultimately making both the same in terms of land rights and the concept of legal ownership. Or, more specifically, that Zionists' attempts to become conquests have since reduced their claim, just as it would reduce a Babylonian, despite their deep links to the land and, arguably, being one of the first social groups before or at the same time as the Israelites.
History and Carbon Dating specifically become difficult to assign moral value of land rights to when cultures blossom and change in such extreme ways (to the point of being unrelated or unrecognisable with those from ancient eras) with the passing of time. The racial blame placed by Israel is thus shown to be one of mistaken vengeance and generally racial profiling of modern Arabs, just as the Persian, Turkish, Roman and British empires showed signs of racist attitudes to employ totalitarian tactics of rule over the peasantry. Being the colonised when one is willing to colonise with the same means reduces the ethical claims and, meanwhile, the history itself reflects greater nuance than political nationalists may desire of it.
Ultimately, as I search further and further, I find that the claim of nationalism and identity is a mere shared ideal of all empires formed through conquest and the desire for ownership of abundant resources. Meanwhile, I find that the idea of an ancient homeland to reclaim is obsolete when the people in question do not resemble those they wish to avenge. Culture evolves with geography and time, a constant for every country's history. Religion, culture and the concept of a homeland forms where the resources are abundant, rather than any legitimate greater or lesser claim from neighbouring tribes and civilisations. The wish of a Promised Land is a logical conclusion for any group seeking refuge from the elements; a moral argument filled with human necessity and a shared common ground if faced with an open mind and a willingness to review the past, while simultaneously moving on from it. The complexity becomes simple when it is understood that only the present can take responsibility for the present; and choose a better path than those who horde resources in the modern age of globalised colonialism.
#My thoughts so far#If anyone has anything to add or want to recommend any sources; please let me know#writing#history#essay draft#blog post#history of the middle east#ethics#culture#religion#I will elaborate more later but I will add as well that Israel has genuinely and clearly adopted German nationalism into its belief system#while the most obvious would be the “strongest army in the world” quoted from Germany by Israel#a more direct and consequential one is the usage of land back and homeland to an older ancestry to justify nationalist intent#Regardless of the truth of that claim or not it is one that is weaponised in the same way#but it honestly doesn't matter because the purpose isn't so much about the truth or the genuine pain suffered by past colonializations#but rather to serve a political power that uses a totalitarian method of conquest in the name of that ethos#it is one that is founded in European political systems and has since been used by Israel which does use the tactic of victimisation#Which is also what Germany did use to claim they had to invade#And yes similar (though not as directly copied) tactics have been used in the past; even against the ancient Israelites#The Roman Empire even coined the term that perfectly describes this tactic;#"Two things only the people anxiously desire — bread and circuses.”#A spectacle to distract from the inner political issues and inequalities has always been a tactic employed by conquests and colonisations#And yes Israel has used it as well and it results in a genuine hatred of Israel for what it has done and the methods used#So when I look back at the history of colonisation I do see a lot of patterns and a lot of the same justifications#If it weren't happening today and were a historic event I would even call it fascinating how such methods are passed down specifically-#-within and around the Asian Eurasian and European regions#It's why Israel as an existence is antithetical to land back movements and contradictory to arguments of indigenous sovereignty#All the while it being technically true they're (particularly in terms of sacred practices and culture) indigenous to this place#yet it is reduced by the fact the same colonial techniques used against them are ones they now employ and consequentially pass down#The Palestinians are indigenous because they are being colonised and no matter what claim an Israeli may have it becomes redundant
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