#its better that i just go for christmas
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lmao my mom hasnt texted once today or called me. but i've done really well not texting her once either. if i dont text her first she never texts me. good 2 know not even my mom likes me
#im scared abt taking the train by myself tmrw#but i dont wanna open up abt that w my mom anymore#i domt wanna show her how weak i am#cant stop thinking abt how nice it'd be to be my crush's property#i wouldnt have to think by myself. id just go where he wants us to go. hed take care of buying tickets and finding the right tracks nd stuff#anywa... ig ill just go whenever tmrw i wont even ask them abt time#bc if i dont go my mom will be so fucking mad at me#its better that i just go for christmas#and pretend everythings ok#and then when i get back home i dont have to text her often or visit them for nyes
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personal happiness or what the fuck ever
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#xmen#xmen comics#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#professor x#magneto#jeans here too but ssh#snap sketches#i havent posted anything in what feels like forever and i GUESS i have to remind people i do draw sometimes. whatever.#aka in my brain i have at LEAST a five-page doujin where this gets incredibly nsft but i dont have TIME for that these days do i#so for now we get just. these scribbles. ill be able to make something exemplary again someday i swear <- optimistic#i think im going to close my comms off for the rest of december once i get through the batch i have now#which ... doesnt sound hard since the amount i have will probably take me to the end of december anyway 💀#i just need everyone to believe me i have better visions for yaoifying issue 309 .... the opportunity is right there...#like wdym the dream sequence is gon end on a panel of erik's eyes as he reinforces the idea charles needs happiness like scott and jean's..#call up your ex. right now charles.#what got me peeved about this issue is i have no idea what color eriks outfit could be vjaeLVKEJARK its like.#is he wearing a lab coat over a suit .... i think thats the intention ... or maybe it is a trench coat....#idk shit for me to figure out if i ever get the time to explore this thing again#LIKE UGH IM SCREAMING i have Such Visions that i dont have time to execute and theyre killing me#maybe ill just write them down idfk <- trying to write fanfiction ends even worse for me than trying to draw#anyways. im gonna drive myself mad good night everyone#i have to go to a christmas party tomorrow night. later tonight. whatever.#BYE
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Bam bing bong, summary of my doodles in 2024
#what a year#ive never compiled it neatly before#i was gonna wait it out cuz i havent finish my Christmas pieces yet but im also like ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fuck it so yeah hehe#this year I’ve expanded my socials to bluesky and instagram#I’ve always did two collabs this year which is still wild to me (im planning to do more next year hopefully)#(if my social anxiety can just get over it)#in tappy’s voice: gomz no balls#i also need to do more color piece#launching ☕️ this year has helped to do that#to do at least one colored piece each month#i have a video of me going thru my doodles from January to December in the works but i think i might not able to finish it on time#we��ll see#still gotto tackle the last few ☕️ requests after con#this year I’ve drawn a lot more Price!! that’s why he’s the main character this year#i would put Raven but she’s always a main so#im really happy to have found a nice chibi style and stick with it#consistency is always a struggle for me esp with my non chibi style#some of what i drew this year was awful HDJSHSHS but its nice seeing progress#December suit Price is my proudest non-chibi work and I wish to continue that style next year#moving forward I want to continue to improve and do better but also take it easy#burnt myself out too many times this year due to drawing nearly every day + stress + uni#stress management plan is needed but i SUCK at it#me as a pharmacy student counselling patients [it is important to try to relax and manage stress properly]#what a joke JDJDHDHHD#at least my blood pressure readings stabilized finally on gawd it was on the borders for a few months#it’s been a fun year and I’ve made a lot of new friends too#drabbled in a few fandom and community here and there#thank you for having me everyone :)#gummmyart#art summary 2024
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Look, I don't believe in preferential treatment, it's not right.... BUT ☝️ if we're gonna have changbin saying sydney is skz's second hometown I just think maybe australia could not be charged things like 60+ dollars shipping.... or 75 dollars for a normal album at the most prominent music retailer when other places pay 15-20 for the same thing.... lol
#like sometimes i think ppl think im being dramatic but over the years ive had ppl randomly look up how much we get charged for randon stuff#and every time theyre like WHYS IT 50 BUCKS MORE FOR YOU EVEN WITH EXCHANGE RATES FACTORED#and im like... idk ?#ausflation#like there are these little anime figurines my little cousin really liked and in jp yen which is equivalent to aud roundabout#theyre from about 36 to 42 dollars and in aus theyre all like 86+ dollars ? why. maybe 10 dollars more okay but why twice over ?#why#someone play why by skz#Why#like you can go online and find better deals but its sorta a hassle#and a regular old mum who has a 15 yr old who asks for a skz album for Christmas will probably just go in store and then be like why tf#lmao#we're being finagled#but also this just reminded me of last xmas when i saw a mum in the kpop section and she was so pissed off bc '#and i quote 'none of these albums have NAMES ON THEM' and then i looked and she was right#like there were numerous groups but very few had boxes that actuslly said NCT WISH or what#it was just like random graphic art or a couple were actually just plain boxes with a symbol#like if youre a kpop head you know the symbols but if you are aunty jen and you dont know this shit? fucked time really funny
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Friendlocke Violet Gijinkas (Part 3/7)
PART 3 RAAAAGH!!! SO SORRY THIS ONE TOOK SO LONG AAAH!!!! But it's here now, yippee!!! And just in time for Christmas too, wowie!
I plan on posting them in order by groups of three, so there's gonna be seven parts in total, all of which I'll be linking here when done vvv
(Part One) (Part Two) (Part Four) (Part Five) (Part Six) (Part Seven)
!! These will contain personal headcanons I have for the cast, little fun facts, and also spoilers for Friendlocke Violet (for both the edited vids and the streams) !!
@saltydkart-reblogs
Designs under the cut!
GRACE:
The light scars/ cracks on her body were injuries formed while she was accidentally sent through Turo's time machine. Unlike the paradox pokemon/ miraidon, GrAce's body isn't made of iron or metal, so her body wasn't able to withstand the large amount of tera energy used to power the machine as easily as the paradox pokemon were.
Luckily, she was just barely able to hold out against the time machine's energy until she made it to Turo's lab in the present day. Unfortunately, she can't be sent back because she would literally die if she went through the time machine again. Sooooo she's stuck in the modern era.
Very familiar with Area Zero and the various pokemon that reside down there, but moved out in order to continue producing music as well as familiarize herself with current-day Paldea.
She only vaguely know Clavell back when he was a rebellious teenager, though she didn't know his name. Clavell, on the other hand, was one of her biggest fans back in the 50s-60s.
Funny enough, when she sees "Clive" for the first time, she recognizes him! But not as Director Clavell, she just barely recognizes him as the random teenage fan that would occasionally ask her to sign various GrAce posters he had bought. She is also under the belief that he too, was sent from the past into the present, unaware that he simply just grew up.
Likes doing random poses for absolutely no reason whatsoever.
BRAIDY:
Believes that everything can be solved without violence, but can and will throw hands if need be.
Everyone in Braidy's family greet each other by playfully ramming into one another. So when Peppy and his team were getting chased down by Braidy's family during their journey, they weren't trying to attack them, they just wanted to say hi!
Braidy is really good with kids due to his experience with being the eldest sibling, as he'd often have to take care of his younger siblings.
Mykyie and Braidy shop at the same clothing store.
Speaking of Mykyie, the lighter parts of Braidy's fur appeared only after Mykyie passed...
As of now, he's still an apprentice, but he has great potential to become an all powerful wizard... someday.
CHRISTENE'S:
Artist's note: I couldn't fit their children in the bio sorry girls and gays. I'll probably draw them out later on after I'm finished with everyone else.
Their stomachs are basically voids, so every time they eat the food just disappears, which is why they're ALWAYS hungry.
HIGHLY flammable.
It is speculated that they're poppets, but you don't have any proof of that, do you?
If you listen closely, you can hear soft bell noises every time they walk. It is unknown why this happens, but I believe it is best not to ask.
Aaaaand that's it! I plan on taking a short break from these bc I wanna draw some other stuff. Dw, I'll continue to work on these very soon!
#You guys will never guess who's lore I spent the most time on...#A knee ways... sorry for the word vomit in GrAce's funfacts I just really like the lore I came up with for her#time traveling bird just hit different ig#Also if anyone has noticed: Yes I changed the spoiler warning image on the previous post#Having the same image on both posts was starting to confuse me a bit so I made a different one for that post as well as one for this post#I hope you like the lil Peppys i drew for each one lol#lil guys... look at them go!#again. sorry these took so long yall I got caught up with life and other stuff and yaknow what? That happens sometimes and its ok.#but I got these done in time for christmas! So ig this is my Christmas gift to yall haha#Merry Christmas yall!#cherris canvas#saltydkdan#friendlocke#friendlocke violet#violet gijinka au#also just noticing this but the quality is better if u click on the image bc sometimes it looks like i drew this on 144p u get what i mean?
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#sorrrry pity party part 1323 incoming#i am finally feeling slightly better - still no appetite and not like myself but i want to get up and showered and dressed and stuff#and can actually walk around#and mr sportsthoughts has just come upstairs and looks like death and it sounds like he is now coming down with what i've had#we thought he already had it but it never progressed past a cold so i think it was something different & now he's caught the plague from me#i just want to cry. and go to sleep until 2025 so this year can be over#we have cancelled SO MUCH this week and are going to literally miss every single friends and family christmas occasion at this point#and hahahaahaa at least we'll be fine by jan when we have to go and fly and see his parents which is the one thing we both don't want to do#and its fine we are ok we're together we're fortunate to be in a dry warm house etc#i'm just really letting my feelings get the better of me because i have put so much emphasis on christmas this year - even more than usual#because it's been such a rotten year and christmas was just this wonderful few weeks where he'd be home and we had all these special plans#and it was the one thing keeping me going and now it's here and well. we aren't exactly on tip top festive form#womp womp. nothing can be done! at least i'm alive and on the mend
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actually i am going to say a small thing about my love for both holland and merlin because HECK do i love them both and they are BOTH so sad (another badly worded stream of consciousness incoming)
they are both extremely tragic characters that spend their time with a goal in mind that they ultimately can't see through. for holland his aim in life is to heal his world and yet progress is only made after his death, with merlin his destiny is to keep arthur alive so he can unite the land but fails to do so and watches him die. both are forced to watch all those they love die having no time to grieve as their work is unceasing. their fight for survival means they can't let their guard down to someone without risking the life of that person as their very existence (holland as antari and merlin as a magic user in general) are targeted and killed in their worlds. neither have the chance to rest from their duties as merlin is forced to live on until arthurs foretold return and holland does not rest even after death as he "lives on" as a ghost. loneliness is a core aspect of both of them but while merlin is surrounded by people that love him but never truly get to know him, holland spends a great deal of time with people that know him in great detail like the danes but never treat him with any kindness (though he is also around many who dont know him and dont understand him too)
#im love them both#this is very much an incoherent and unrehearsed ramble#my merlin hyperfixation is back and better than ever#any more thoughts from anyone is very welcome i cant claim all my takes to be spot on i just say things here and hope it makes sense#adsom#shades of magic#holland vosijk#adsom ramble#merlin#bbc merlin#idk what im saying most of the time#this came out of the soul but it didnt pass through my brain to do so#i still remember christmas eve of 2012 watching that ending of merlin and going into shock#the very last scene remains the very best ever its so unexpected#my soul ripped straight out
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Not posting a WIP this week or next week, possibly also the week after. I'll still be writing and drawing, just not sharing WIPs (except maybe on Discord, which friends and mutuals are free to add me on!! I'm umbracirrus on there too) <3
Please do still tag me in things though!! I love to see them ☺️
#meg is rambling#just a lot going on and then Christmas/new year/first anniversary of my mum's death so creeping up one after the other#I'm not getting much downtime right now and it's taking its toll#and holding myself to the self-imposed pressure of having and posting a wip on a Wednesday is not helping me mentally#things will get better. just i gotta take care of myself first and I'll be back to sharing WIPs soon <3
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Me, while manically cleaning my room at 3:27am: I should make several large, life-changing, irreversible decisions.
#so ive been in a bad mental state lately#because of many things. but the biggest being (yes i know ive complained about this in multiple other posts)#that my best friend and my ex gf were fucking. without even asking or telling me. i got no heads up. just figured it out on my own#which sucked and now im not speaking to either of them#and when i first found out i was in a bad place physically too#i had a terrible ear infection that was so fucking painful#and i realized i could concentrate on both things. so i focused on healing#and then i remembered ny family is coming to visit for Christmas#and thats a lot to deal with. so now im focusing on cleaning the apartment. specifically my bedroom#so im manically cleaning at 3:30am while angry and stressed and trying not to focus on this thing that makes me really upset#and in the middle of cleaning ill suddenly think 'should i quit my summer camp job?' or 'should i move states again?'#its not good. but i havent acted on anything#AND in the middle of cleaning i found all of my meds#i havent been taking them for months. but i decided im gonna start taking them again#i have a few refills left but then ill have to find a psychiatrist. i dont want to. but its definitely for the best#im trying to get my life back on track and build and better it#but then something hits me and completely derails everything and makes everything so hard#so anyway im gonna go do some more cleaning and try not to make life-altering decisions. and maybe build a desk#btw i have to get up at 9am to take out my puppy. and at 11:35 i have to get ready for work. again its 3:30am#and im full of manic energy#tomorrow is going to be very bad but at least I'll have a semi-clean room
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#man ive never seen an eating disorder kill someone else besides a parent infecting a child but my nana is really trying#shes like 1000% orthotexic. will not eat anything not filled with vegetables or fat. and my grandpa is 87yo with a heart condition currentl#in the hospital for covid bc thry went to Christmas church and dont believe in being vaccinated and my dad is so frustrated#bc he knows his mom is not gonna give his dad hearty foods. he needs to eat like protein shakes and meat and ice cream. anything thats not#her cooking which sucks on top of being extremely healthy. except its not healthy bc they dont eat a balanced diet#so its my nanas eating disorder killing her husband and shes so fucking frustrating. im like 99% sure she has obsessive compulsive#personally disorder bc she fits to a T and has zero insight. she may have full on 0cd bc talking to my dad he has more obvious 0cd#compulsions than i do. he used to say phrases before going to bed and would take 2 steps across the floor to prevent bad things from#happening. so like im pretty sure my nana is where i get my perfectionism and 0cd. god. i wish i could express how fucked up she is#like my dad said at least he had a stable home to grow up in but like she has zero sympathy for other people. cannot look past herself. wil#not wear a mask bc she doesnt care enough abt other ppl. my dad was like: u would not have survived in that house. which is fair bc i am#barely keeping it together coming from a stable home with two sympathetic parents who i know love me#and like its sad that they're suffering the effects of buying into the fox news bullshit and its killing them#but also. genuinely. i think theyre not very good ppl. theyre the type of people who think they're better bc they're religious. white. and#thin. and theyre not better thsn anyone. their grandchildren cant stand them. well cant stand her at least. papa is just quite so its hard#to say what hes thinking. apparently he was confused last night and saying something about eating dinner on the golf course. which sounds#nicer thsn being in the hospital lol. ugh. he seems not long for this world tbh. may he pass peacefully to b with his 1st wife who died of#brain cancer at age like 20 or something. so it goes. bleh. how many funerals are intended for me in the next 5 years? hopefully none but#that seems improbable with the unspoken drain circling that seems to b going on in this family. old age and like almost 10 years of cancer#defying the stats but for how much longer?#i dunno. its just so weird to watch these things happen and not talk about it directly to the other ppl who see it#i worry that ill come off as too callose or inappropriate bc i have that tendency when something bad is happening but thats everyone else#excuse? idk i just feel like its better to talk abt things#unrelated#ed mention#i tell u this so i can say these things to someone and also bc if i were u. i would like to hear the drama#bc im nosey and i assume other r too ;-]
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Lol I keep on doing this, saying I'd come back to tumblr to only disappear again 😂😭
#and i hate it bc i miss being on here#but also i don't have to force myself or feel guilty for it#bc if i'm fr being on social media is just so time consuming and also not what is good for my mental health often#and that includes tumblr#it's not even that it's a toxic place (at least not the content i'm consuming) but sometimes i just rather spend my time with people irl#meeting someone than on social media and like focus on my life#the last month or so was just really difficult for me and i haven't been feeling so bad mentally in forever#i mean it always is like that that time of the year but i feel like i was worse this year#whenever autumn comes around with the darkness and cold i seem to hit a low mentally#when i tell you how much better my mood is in summer spring how much better i feel everyday regardless of everything else#i get people like autumn but for me its literally the worst and winter too altough at some point it gets better#maybe i adapt and maybe because i spend more time outside around christmas when i go home that's usually a turning point#and ig also the lights of december make it a bit better#but mid october to november is awful#this year the weather was much worse beginning of october was much worse#i feel like i lowkey have this seasonal mood disorder idk#but i barely managed to go to classes and i had no motivation#usually i always make myself study and do the things i have to atleast altough i often terribly procrastinate#but now i was barely able to do this and i had things to do but i couldn't make myself i missed a deadline closely#luckily my professors are the best but i felt so horrible for it how i was unable to get it done#sunlight is just so good for my mood and ik how doctors say how you should avoid it because you can get skincancer#but like i'd rather than my mental health being this bad (not that i want either)#i already miss summer so much and being happier#but tbh i haven't felt this good as I do today in weeks and even this whole week was better#i exercised more than usual altough i tried to in the last weeks i couldn't as often as i normally do so maybe this actually helps a lot#and i studied yesterday today and i will tomorrow i finally feel motivation again#besides i also tried to break up with my bf so that was also tough but i couldn't lol#i tried talking to him and tell him in the nicest way but he didn't get what i was trying to do and i couldn't say more bc i felt horrible#but maybe that's for the better altough i had these thoughts for a while that he just isn't the one for me and that we're too different...#i do really like him as a person the way he treats me and i'm still into him but i just felt like it wouldn't work
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No one:
Every screenwriter putting a female character in a flashback or time skip:
#every single time#its genuinely distracting how often it happens#and the wig is always so shit#like either they go full wig and its a bad wig#or occasionally they'll do those clip in bangs that are always just slightly off from the natural hair or are disproportionately thick#like babe i promise you there are better less distracting ways to do this#the funniest thing about it is that when i had bangs a few years ago i couldn't look at my reflection without feeling like i was in a#flashback scene or something#the association is so strong#god bless the bear for just making Natalie's hair brown in the Christmas episode instead of giving her fake bangs#that would have killed the episode for me
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i don't know how to explain to a person with a medical degree that you can in fact transmit viruses without being symptomatic.
#“i have a 100 degree fever and feel like shit”#my mom: “oh well the flu is going around my workplace but *i'm* not sick so i dont know how you would have gotten it from me??”#me: has left the house like three times in the past week and masked up in every public place “yeah i guess its a mystery”#i love my mom but her immune system functions so much better than mine and i dont know how to communicate that to her#anyways i got my flu shot a few months ago so? hopefully i can fight it off and wont be miserable at christmas#literally just got over a cold too.....#personal#(i mean technically speaking my mom doesnt have a *medical* degree but she has worked as a medical practitioner for 25+ years)
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um today is so fucking weird
#getting love from all the wrong ppl today wtf is going onnnn haha#the second one was actually really nice but no#I feel like I’ve lived 2 days in one already#and the first one reminds me maybe I should delete fb I hate it anyway#even if I deactivate it though I think messenger stays#bb boy u lost#the courage is admirable though#like actually cus huh but it’s not me haha#also just debated math at my swamped busy ass lil job for 15 mins I'm already done#I always find it so funny when ppl don’t assume my jobs a SHIT show busy it’s like feral in here can’t be down asiles bad#all these waspy rich bored ppl want 500 christmas cards and mugs and to fight#with no staff or incompetent ones lol#it’s ok it’s my fault for being here still hahah#I’d probably be so bored at a slow place and not under constant trauma#but also something better will come along#and the slow work I’ve been doing for me will someday come together if its suppose to#my bed missing me so bad rn and it's MUTUAL#dislike this cold dark weather and dealing with so many humans#wanna be in me room
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Keep getting pissed off & frustrated and now my stomach hurts
#im at the library btw (important detail)#just like looking for internships for some reason makes me really anxious and makes my stomach hurt and i get scared to click on any webpage#and looking at postgrad requirements stuff also freaks me out and hurts and i need to put together some questions to ask my neighbor but im#afriad to ask smth stupid etc etc and just owie#i emailed my one prof to see if we have any homework or whatever and that was one thing i did#checked my assignments but havent started any yet though now i know what and when#then i turned to online shopping and adding to my wishlist like im supposed to but thats whats really make the stomachache happen bc i cant#figure out which product i want between 2 companies and also we live in an advertising hellworld that wants to manipulate me and i hate it#even the thought of me buying a comic on the way home doesnt help atm#bc then ill be going home after being out for 2 hours w my only achievement being writing down like 3 questions for my neighbor (NOT all i#want to say) emailing my prof and working myself into an anxiety spiral about christmas gifts#okay im getting emotional now and am on the verge of tears i should go home bc obviously this isnt working#and my mom is at home and she always makes me feel better#i fucking hate our hellscape and i hate how evil and manipulative amazon.com is. just be a normal service that sells normal fucking goods#jesus fucking christ. its like the whole world will end if i dont get advertised to every single second of every fucking day
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december in movies [7/31]: a boyfriend for christmas (2004) dir. kevin connor "A promised gift will come, my dear. A love that's true and steady. Between now and the end of the 20th year, when two hearts are ready."
#filmedit#filmgifs#movieedit#christmas#cinematv#filmtvdaily#filmtvcentral#A Boyfriend For Christmas#mine*#mygifs#dim*#listen I was SO ready for this movie to suck???? and it didn't????? it was super enjoyable and I think I rolled my eyes just once#and it was so christmasy???? I screencapped enough for 14 gifs! it was kind of painful to pick just six#also this wasn't going to be today's movie but today's movie was so adamant about a certain date that I decided to post it on that day#ALSO ALSO? that last gif??? there are more that are more christmasy than this one? BUT that tree is my christmas tree! exactly my tree!#and it's the first time I see it on media! so of course I have to gif it hahahahaha (and yes it is a painful tree...#but that's a story for another day)#(also you can be 100% sure that after that first gif and its gorgeous coloring it was impossible for me to make something better so yeah)
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