#its been wearing on me
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Ugh sometimes, when I start to get like, super down, I'm so grateful I can still find genuine joy in the world. Like shit sucks so unreasonably bad rn, but me and my younger brother went to the mall and it was so nice.
I forget I can just go out into the world and just make friends with strangers, even if just for a moment. I can find people who will laugh with me, and encourage me, and we can relate with each other despite never knowing one another and living different lives. The world can be so fucking lonely but its nice to know it doesn't have to be, and there's always people out there
#im so happy i got to really truly laugh today for the first time in awhile#ive been getting so depressed again from just everything going on in the world and in my life#and i cant even turn to my art anymore because my tablets broke#and sure theres traditional but i want to share my work with people and digital is more consumable and genuinely more fun for me to do#and its been hurting like hell that i cant#its been wearing on me#its been wearing on me that i dont have many “real life” friends#but these people who despite their own lives and exhaustion from working took time to talk with me and listen and laugh#the world feels a lot less dark#i just cant stop thinking about the genuine joy i felt to LAUGH with people#lemon post#delete later maybe
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filipina miku!! my mom helped me with her outfit ^_^
#THIS TOOK ME FOREVER RAAHHHH#i had help from my mom with stuff like the parts of the traje de mestiza which is the outfit shes wearing#this trend looks so much fun and i wanted to join in.. im first gen canadian though so ive never been to the philippines and only#know thru stories of my parents growing up. im proud of my heritage but there are some things i didnt grow up with that#make me feel disconnected from my culture. so it was nice to talk to my mom abt it and ask for her help with this :3#the pleated tapis is meant to resemble her skirt.. i had no way of adding her stockings but i noticed the piano key design#so i used that for the saya. the bandana is meant to resemble her hairties and shes wearing bakya wooden slippers with embroidery#i kinda wanted to add the panuelo to resemble her tie as a finishing touch but i forgor ;w; just imagine it i guess#my mom really likes this. shes a little confused abt the blue hair and i had to explain her hair is like that but she thinks shes pretty#originally i wanted her holding the woven pamaypay and fanning herself because ITS HOT ITS 25 FUCKING DEGREES TODAY#but i couldnt get the pose right so i settled for this. i wanna draw her and brazilian miku high fiving ill do that tmrw#my art#myart#hatsune miku#miku worldwide#philippines#vocaloid#miku
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mourning black and the death of ideals
#i haven't moved on from this yet. btw. i'm still here#finally decided to draw the thought i've been ruminating over for days on end bc it's like a parasite eating away my brain#stated this on the initial post i made days ago but there's just smt so gut wrenching and sickening#about how dazai will have worn black exactly twice in his life: once as a member of the mafia and now at kunikida's funeral#a color that initially signified devotion to the mafia and his demon prodigy alias now signifies his grief#him having to wear black again at the funeral of another doomed fatalist who chose his heart over his survival. his own partner.#kunikida's death being so reminiscent of the tragedy that initially caused him to defect and flee#and everything tying together full circle and effectively breaking him#asagiri rly said fuck knkdz it's doppover we lost gang 😭😭😭#why did bro leave that fucking notebook behind#fool. do you know that angst potential you have left me to work with?#love never won in bsd. it lay dead and festering#i don't know how much longer i can keep saying i miss them. i'm going to kill myself if he doesn't come back#i've never wanted something to be death bait so desperately#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#bsd#dazai osamu#osamu dazai#kunikidazai#knkdz#kunizai#(??? technically. its implied anyway)#lotus draws
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Monster John is something that can be so very special.
#malevolent#arthur lester#john doe#my art#his cape always looks so cool that's like the best part#but the mask always gives me trouble like its suppose to be a normal mask but the break makes a face shape but depicting that is hard :/#like he is a very inhuman creature wearing a costume to appear more human basiclly#if youve seen my “creepy John” drawing that's whst he looks like basicly but he is wearing a cape and a mask#also ive been trying to keep in mind that Arthur is indeed blind when i draw him so i hope that does come across here#the suit was also fun i did look at 1930s suits a bit more than i usually do but he doesn't get a hat cause i hate drawing hats
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podcast people in my phone
#sherlock and co#s&co#sherlock holmes#john watson#mariana ametxazurra#been messin around with this piece for like over a week now. I think this is just mostly to have a general pointer of their design in my#''proper'' style. literally named this file cover.png in my folders lmao#I feel like it isnt as candycore as the chibi version. but its still at a level of colors Im happy with. thats good for me#love giving john watson the default medium-size v-neck when canonically he wears like exclusively merch tees#(maybe its under the v-neck lets all believe that)#anyways. things are moving! lotsa stuff I cant show anyone but my coconspirators... but Im sitting on. Some stuff#gettin there with work... settin up stuff... being insane in march.... da whole package#gonna be having. a real interesting week soon. we'll see what comes of it!#but for now. I sleep. have a good night lads! look both ways before crossing the street
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i like these guys
#sorrgy immy bucket n gub#for not doing proper attempts at yall.. in my defense i was only setting out to draw vee in the first place#the others just followed#i had two other posts i wanted to put out before this happened but alas#deep space discounts#how do i tag them#dsd vee#dsd clayre#dsd kip#i love that kip just. has a gub nametag. theres so many little details in this fkn show alr im so eee#like i love love when you have a buncha characters in a uniform but they all wear it slightly differently. that shit makes me so !!!!!!ykno#my art#magma#also wasnt intending for my first 2025 art post to be more magma 😭 lol#it was so fun figuring out some faces for them weee imr ambling sm rn its like 1am n my head hurts ive been drawing from 7-12 ok gn
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NO MORE ASSOCIATING THINGS WITH FEMMES ONLY BECAUSE THEY ARE PINK!HYPERFEM FEMMES ARE GREAT AND I LOVE YOU CAMPY FEMMES WHO EMBODY PINK BUT ALSO JESUS CHRIST CAN YOU GUYS NOT GO MORE THAN ONE DAY W/O TRYING TO SHOEHORN FEMMES INTO BEING ONLY PINK UWU BABIES. I AM FEMME AS IN GRASS AS IN DIRT AS IN TREE BARK AS IN WEEDS SPROUTING THROUGH THE SIDEWALK CEMENT. FEMME AS IN GENDER NONCONFORMITY AS IN FUCK YOU MY FEMININITY IS WHAT *I* SAY IT IS. FEMME AS IN DEPTH AND DARKNESS AND WARMTH AND TERROR. FEMME AS IN CAVES. FEMME AS IN LIGHTNING. FEMME AS IN AN AMALGAMATION OF TRAITS THAT I HAVE DECIDED ARE FEMININE REGARDLESS OF WHAT SOCIETY SAYS. FUCK IS IT THAT HARD TO UNDERSTAND?!???
#personal#i am emotional yes#over the years ive had this blog I've made a few posts abt being femme#nd whether they're serious or jokey..... inevitably someone in the tags goes “ohhh yeah bc pink”#or in the case of what inspired this post: someone going “what about the pink ones” on my praying mantis post#and im just.#sick of it. im sick of femme being equated to pink and frilly girlie behaviors.#im sick of femme being equated to skirts and heels. to makeup. to skincare. to pristine nails exactly almond shaped.#im sick of ppl acting like All femmes aspire to this shit. im sick of femms being reduced to this shit.#and i love pink! i love pink! my phone theme is quite literally just black and pink all over.#im just. so tired of any expression of Femme identity being shoehorned into being a Specific type of femininity#especially as someone who DOES get dysphoric wearing skirts. wearing dresses. embodying the femme aesthetic yall are so set on making#if u guys wanna rb this i truly dont care#i just needed to scream#and this is one small thing#but the 2nd largest category of anon hate i have gotten since making this blog is str8 up homophobia from other “queer” folks#saying i cant be femme bc of how i present. calling me slurs (and using them as such) bc they cant understand femme as anything but that#my wife and i have our users in our personal discord server set as 2 different things of anon hate ive gotten#i have had OTHER FEMMES tell me i am not femme. femmes who Know im femme who still call me butch. femmes who ive corrected and been blocked#-by bc of it. the number 1 largest demographic of queerfolk who have me blocked rn is TME femmes who embody pink also#and i dont think its a coincidence at all. (and i know this bc i go to try and follow these ppl bc they get rbed on my dash & i cant)#and ik their blogs arent deleted bc some of them don't block my wife (tall. white. butch) and it cant be politics cause her and i rb#a lot of the same political shit (fuck. i think she rbs More than i do even. this is genuinely mainly a nsft blog)#and usually i don't say anything but im having a bad day so i get to be angry about this and if anyone fucking tries me i will block u#idc if we've been mutuals 4ever. im judt so tired of feeling like i am not Enough as a femme bc i dont embody this shit#im sick of this lameass lip service to he/him gnc femmes etc when the thin white 50s housewife femme is still what is preferred and loved#im sick of this lamesss lip service when y'all feel entitled to theorizing on other femmes genders bc u cant conceptualize a femme who does#wanna be hypetfeminine. im sick of it. im sick of it. im sick of it.#celebrity bun
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obsessed with @mudpuddless king halt au, ive been thinking a lot
crowley is in denyal, he is just hibernian RIGHT?
i also have some skeches of halt in regal clothing, but im not a fan of them, and i cant find accurate irish royal clothing to use as reference, what i drew was just making it up as i go
#rangers apprentice#halt o'carrick#crowley meratyn#my art#sorry my dearest fallout followers#i like to think halt in araluen while wearing ranger-like clothes they are still a bit too fancy for a simple forester#hence the patterns#crowley is short but halt is shorter he cant be taller than 160 so his cloak is shortened#coming from an already short man bro im 170#halt is holding a scroll because the initial idea that crowley finds out when halt passes the good will to oswald#ive read those books in polish and some time ago already(though multiple times) and im currently rereading then so its difficult for me to#place how their dialogue in english would go#ive also skeched out some scenes but im really not happy with them#i have been thinking about that au a lot#ive went into a rabbit hole researching the clothes#and im trying to research stuff look at images and 75% of what i see is ai shit please if anyone knows more about irish regal clothing dm m#zwiadowcy w naszym roku pana dwa zero dwa pięć#an afterthought if anyone has king halt au ideas my asks are open
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Are we gonna talk about the fact that the first time we meet Barb there's this incredibly charged flirtation where Cooper runs his index finger over hers when they exchange the taffy and how it's a *dishonest* exchange because they're pretending they don't know each other?
And how the Lucy/Ghoul exchange is more honest because they're both showing their true natures and the exchange is violent and permanent???
I can't be the only person obsessed with this parallel.
#vaultghoul#ghoulcy#cooper howard#barb howard#lucy mclean#ITS ABOUT THE FINGERS#AND THE MASKS WE WEAR#please tell me im not alone#someone direct me to the discord where this has been analyzed to death already
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for @hamartia-grander ‘s fic Another Time 🧡
this scene in the epilogue got me 🙃 i love them.
#It’s funny cause I had been working on this sketch a couple of weeks ago and got distracted. then I read your epilogue and was like OH SHIT#that opening scene was so cute and i remembered i had this sketch so i ran to tweak it to fit#it was fate 💕#or we shared a brainwave ✨#it’s not exact to the scene of course 😅#but same feels and vibes I hope#serennedy#serennedy fanart#leon kennedy#luis serra navarro#resident evil 4#resident evil fanart#your fic was soooo good and I’m absolutely in love with it!#can’t wait for the next thing 🤩#and again.. might not be the same looks you had in mind ( i could not for the life of me remember if Leon was blonde)#but its the brain image I got in mind#a little grown out blonde lol#and they might’ve been wearing clothes lol#but Leon with stubble.. here for it
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Good morning gamers ʕ ꈍᴥꈍʔっ✨
#went a lil hard on this it was just supposed to be a doodle but I just couldn't stop#i just like him better with less clothing#I'm still trying to figure out anatomy this is just good practice (is what I'm telling myself)#you cannot convince me that he doesnt wear video game undies btw#I believe with all my heart that he is unabashedly cringe#bro would have the matching socks too if he actually wore any#symbol of fear? nah thats my cringefail runescape bf#if you zoom in you can see the true power of the very coil glitter pens ive been using in csp#i like having the glittery lineart now its my new fav thing#like his hair is so cute like that cmon#anyways enjoy the meal#my art#bnha#mha#my hero academia#shigaraki tomura#tenko shimura#shiggy#bnha shigaraki#mha shigaraki#league of villains
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day 81468427 no hideduo
#hideduo#fitpac#fitmc of 2b2t#trsmp fit#the realm smp#ive been so busy but still i yearn for yaoi#wistful sigh…#need them back yesterday im so sad#if fit isnt wearing his damn skin in the next stream…..rage will consume me#<— me when i lie#its whatever#anyway#my art#peeled art
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enter stage roleswap wrightworth
(without dialogue under the cut!)
yk, this is supposed to be a part of a group of sketches further going into the au but god do i not have the energy to colour allat rn
#oh yea he wore a contact in his blue eye to make it the same as the left. perfection in symmetry of wtv bullshit mvk reasoned just cause#‘wore’ btw the cons overweighed the pros and by the time he was an adult he stopped#his history of eyecontact strain on his right has caused it to simply stop being able to function when he overworks himself#is that a thing? i dont know but i have lazy eye in my left and its been straining so bad sometimes i just cover it so i can see better#hm. maybe thats my sign to wear my glasses more often#bye not me realising the context only exists in my head#anyway roleswap narumitsu ft my horrid attempt at a pun#ace attorney#fanart#aa#art#phoenix wright#miles edgeworth#digital art#my art#narumitsu#mitsunaru#roleswap au#role swap au#phoenix wright ace attorney#gyakuten saiban#gyakutensaiban#ace attorney role swap#defense attorney miles edgeworth#prosecutor phoenix wright#turnabout tragedy#artists on tumblr
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I know a normal amount abt waistcoats
#fantasy high junior year#riz gukgak#heard americans call those vests. deranged. thats not what that is#riz gukgak is a character made to target me specifically bc I am aroace and I love drawing formal menswear more than god#tho Ive been giving riz hard sole shoes which. wouldnt be good for stealth#I wear those I know. you can hear that shit through a meter of concrete#probably less important in a setting with real actual magic so its fine. but its something I do think abt#this kid is so fun to draw... its a Problem for me. I have to force myself to do my goddamn job knowing I could be drawing him instead#its a curse. I have to treat myself at the end of the day. sucks to be here so much
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i like to think everyone has a colour associated with them, whether its just your fave colour or what you generally wear most of or what colour your bedroom walls are. i always associate the name sophie with dark blue, my mum is always a nice turquoise, i like to think my colour is a bright sunflower yellow.
if you have a specific shade pls tell me i adore when ppl have associated colours and tell me them, bc i think of them when i see that colour
#shut up danni's talking#its one of my ultimate favourite aspects of character designs and i will forever use it w my characters#but i also think abt it w ppl!!!!#its almost certainly spawned from a combo of my mum passionately loving her colour + my primary school#my primary school's name/theme/whatever was related to the rainbow#its common for primary schools in the uk for the uniform to be polo shirts and schools would pick a colour and that was your uniform#but w my school's theme being rainbows they were like lol whatever colour as long as you're in a polo shirt#so kids would choose whichever shirt colour they wanted some kids switched it up every year#others stuck w the colour they chose all 6 years#so of course i would correlate ppl w colours which is how i always relate sophie w dark blue#bc i'd play w this girl called sophie in the afterschool club who always wore dark blue through all the years i knew her#tbh i still think of my brother also as dark blue bc he would wear the same colour#if you could not guess my colour was yellow and i always felt distinctly wrong when i had to wear a different colour#there were a couple times i had to borrow a new shirt bc mine got dirty or all mine hadn't been washed so i had to wear my brother's#i don't know if its just me but i feel like everyone has an affinity with a colour even if its n9t your fave#hence the poll lmao
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Inktober 2024 (one piece ver) Day 26: Camera
i like doing these twitch streams i should do more
#ive actually never been on twitch before so I hope this is accurate lol :p#remind me to never wear heels for long periods of time again even if theres a formal black dress code#bc i wore those damn things from 8 to 7 and now im permanent;y stuck in high heel mode#my art#one piece#one piece fanart#unreality#twitch#one piece memes#artists on tumblr#fanart#digital art#buggy the clown#mr 3#galdino one piece#dracule mihawk#sir crocodile#marineford#im not tagging everyone in the chat its your job to decipher the usernames
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