#its been a while since ive interacted with the fandom so;;

[opera25]

your etho design makes me feel so 💥💥 in the best way possible i wanna squimsh him. does he sound like a squeaky toy this is Important :D

Oh would you look at that... he does!

[rxtgallows]

being the same age as most long term lolitas were when they started getting into it but its different now bc there is just so much less of a community it feels like... like for me i feel more like i am finding a lot of individuals but no local communities bc its just rlly died down i think... like i found a 2013 pph article about a lolita meetup downtown. i dont think that wld happen now even if i COULD find a local community

[qeyond]

okay so i did basically 4.5 years of design school to become an industrial designer which is just a fancy degree word for "I make consumer products and curate user experiences" or whatever

ANYWAY I'm staring at the sketch of L's bong and I know, I KNOW, so deeply it would be productive to sketch up more concepts and brain storm like I was schooled to, but my burn out brain is like >:(((((( NO BRAIN STORM. NO CONCEPTUALIZE. ONLY SKETCH!!

[humanoidluv]

being so serious i love how (in atleast the batfam & dbda & sandman communities, since those are my main communities atm) the dc fandom is so casually accepting of queer and disabled and poc characters. sure there's obviously some people who arent accepting of these things, and there are some odd people, but for the most part ever since i've been a kid there was always at least one or two or three casual poc characters and atleast one casual disabled character in the shows i used to watch. in the fandom, now that ive officially entered it, its extremely casual from where i'm interacting as well. i havent seen anyone berate tim and question how tim could be a hero without a spleen, being immunocompromised, and sure its not really brought up aside from jokes, its still.. wonderful.

it makes me happy because i'm disabled and have a blood disease that would make me need to be extremely careful if i were a hero.. so people just beinf casually accepting of shit like timothy drake who's at a far worse risk than i would be, its really fucking cool. it gives me the belief that (pushing my other issues aside) if i became a writer for dc or something and put in a hero with a blood disease then i would have 0 (or very little) qualms fandom wise. i had a lot more words in my brain while i was at yoga but i unfortunately forgot half of them so have.. whatever this is.

[iinariah]

If you don't mind me asking, who are your favorite romantic relationship's couples in books/ manga/ anime/movies/tv series (can be canon or non-canon)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before......Thanks....

HI OMG IM SO SORRY FOR THE VERY LATE REPLY, IVE BEEN VERY BUSY BUT SURE! And since I'm a multishipper, I'll just list my top 5 ships out of fandoms I've been in

FengCui: Feng Xiao x Cui Buqu (Wushuang/Peerless) - The reason I love this ship so much and is my top 1 out of all the shows and books ive read and watched is because I'm so in love with their dynamic, development, and interactions with each other. They first start of as rivals then gradually start to fall for each other with each case they work and time they spent togther. I also loved the fact that the author didn't use stereotypical tropes with the main cp. While its enemies to lovers, to me, it's enemies AND lovers because when they do get together, their dynamic didn't change and they still remained the same. And that's one of the reasons why I love this pair so much.

2. Cezhou: Shen Zechuan x Xiao Chiye (Qiang Jin Jiu/Ballad of Sword and Wine) - I honestly debated if this should be my top 1 but I ultimately decided this would be my top 2 mainly bc I prefer fengcui's dynamic more, But of course, that doesn't make this ship any less great and amazing! In my opinion, this is enemies to lovers with sexual tension done right. I used to hate the trope enemies to lovers because of experience and personal things... But this ship changed my perspective on it a lot. Even though they got together early in the novel, they're still the ship that has the most amazing development and growth I've seen in such as a long time.

3. Hualian: Xie Lian x Hua Cheng (Heaven Official's Blessing) - Ah yes... the classic. I had to put them at my top 3 because TGCF and hualian is what mainly got me into danmei and to this day, I still adore them with all my heart and I'll never ever forget how they made such a huge impact on me... They're like romeo and juliet but done right. They're also the couple that made my standards so unrealistic to the point that I think I'll never ever be able to find someone to love as much as how much they love each other... As much as they're unrealistic, they also made an impact on how I view love in general. I also relate to hua cheng when it comes to appearances because dawg... I am also so insecure of that as well... and when Hua Cheng is insecure about it and Xie Lian is just telling him that he's gorgeous and not ugly like he thinks he is just makes me want to cry because that validation and comforting words is what all of us insecure people need. Just having the reassurance that we're perfect just the way we are...

4. Lucathy: Lucas x Athanasia De Alger Obelia/Athy (Who Made Me a Princess) - I LOVE THEM SO MUCH! Athy is so precious to me and I will protect her at all cost! And I love how their relationship just naturally progresses on the time the spent together and isn't just immediate love at first sight. And I also love how lucas went from "I'm going to watch this bc this is entertaining" to "If you ever hurt her, I'll destroy all of obelia" and bro... LUCAS IS SO WHIPPED FOR ATHY ITS SO FUNNY AHAHAH (Also reminds me on how Xiao Chiye is so whipped for Shen Zechuan but that's another time). And not only that, but I love how Lucas got back from his quest, heard about how Athy got humiliated, bro was like: "Should I kill him?" like bro did not care if it was her father, if someone did shit to her, he would deal with them.

5. LoidYor: Loid Forger x Yor Forger (Spy x Family) - BRO I IMMEDIATELY FELL IN LOVE WITH THIS SHIP!! Assassin x Spy? OH HELL YEA! I've honestly been waiting for this kind of trope for such a long time lol. Not only that, but I low how yor is such a girlboss and protects her family even if it isn't real. I honestly really like their progression so far and I hope that they honestly become a family in the end... I have nothing really much to say about this ship because I haven't been keeping up with SXF but I really love them and they're trope because I haven't seen Assassin x Spy trope in fandoms I've been in.

So here are my ships! There are a lot more than these but I just decided to pick which ones that I really love the most and rank them by that. Anyways, thanks for reading this blog!

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

aita for dividing up my sideblogs by fandom and not being clear about the fact that theyre all the same person?

this has never landed me in any kind of drama or arguments yet, but its been on my mind for a long time so i want some second opinions. basically, i have a good handful of sideblogs and each one is for one specific fandom (or sometimes a few interconnected fandoms). the reason is not only for categorization (i really like keeping things categorized) but also because… i dont want to get called problematic and for every single sideblog to get that label too.

i dont think id get called out for the stuff i ship, because none of it is that uncommon or problematic. but its the fandoms im in specifically. there are some fandoms im in that some people really, really hate, most often because of rumors/assumptions about certain contents of the source being problematic, or a generalized annoyance at the people in the fandom. if i like someones art or writing in one fandom, i dont want them to have to know im in a fandom they hate for a stupid reason. im not guilty about that.

what ive been considering though is that some of the fandoms im in people hate or cant stand for pretty valid reasons. like, some of the fandoms im in do have actual racism, misogyny, and other shitty ideals in their sources, and while i understand how these things are harmful and dont agree with or tolerate these ideals in my fandom experience, i understand that there are some people who just dont ever want to be near that fandom or someone in it for those reasons. i understand that some people have had shitty experiences with certain fanbases and cant tolerate interacting with someone in those fanbases.

i think its reasonable to say that i shouldnt be interacting with people if they say they dont want to be interacted with by certain fandoms. theres no fandoms im personally uncomfortable with, but if there were, i dont know if id necessarily be okay with being circumvented without my knowledge just so people could look at my posts. and, despite saying earlier that im not guilty about interacting with people who hate fandoms im in for stupid reasons, i also dont know if im qualified to judge what a stupid reason is or not! someone saying they hate a certain fandom and not saying why isnt "not a good enough reason".

but also… what they dont know wont hurt them?? its not like im befriending any of these people. i barely talk to people directly online (its just not my thing, im not a very social person), i basically just reblog and leave compliments on art and writing. its not block evading, because ive never been in a situation where someone tells me on one sideblog to not interact with them and then i interact with them from a different sideblog. since the sideblogs all only interact with the same fandom, nobody from other fandoms even knows they exist.

sidenote that this is purely about fandoms themselves, not about shipping problematic things or specifically engaging with problematic fandom content, because thats really not my thing.

tl;dr i have a lot of sideblogs, and sometimes ill interact with someone who says they hate a certain fandom despite being in that fandom. they never know im in that fandom and im not befriending them. aita?

What are these acronyms?

[heartseekerashe]

Incoming ramble while stuck in bed drained lol

Words cant even describe how amazing the köln / cologne concert for the eurotour was for me.. ive been a fan of Käärijä since his inital submission, so while not super long, something about his music reasonated with me. I was born in america and recently just moved to EU, and my music tastes ever since i was a kid has always been in different languages and genres, so seeing everyone from all cultures come together to sing another language entirely was amazing! 🥰

My day started off super shitty and time wasted but it ultimately buttfly effected because the uber driver parked right behind jere as he was getting to his bus at the venue, so i was able to say a super quick hi and give him one of my scuffed paper doodles, which was all i really wanted 🥺

Everyone was so nice but i made friends with some joost fans and they made me feel so welcomed while waiting in line! I was worried i wasnt gonna get a good spot bc im short, but i was 2 rows behind barracade and got to see it perfectly for my height! ❤

Hes so ethereal live, its kinda unreal. Like no wonder you guys wanna go to his shows many times, it really is crazy, it really is party. The way he moves is truly like mesmorizing sgdjshdj

When he asked where everyone was from, i was the only one able to say america and he looked at me and said "what da fuk" (if anyone has a recording of that, id love to save it 🥺🙏) and that was like,,, so magical idk kicks my leggies!!

Like the night could not have gone better. Im sore, in pain, cheeks hurt from smiling so much. The fandoms amazing, yall are so nice, i loved his interaction with the person he called beautiful (who is the true new bolero wearer hehe)... the way he interacts with the crowd really is like... one of a kind. Hes so nice. Fandom is so nice. Thanks for letting me lurk and join in on the fun everyone has here. Thanks for letting me have a small moment like that at cologne. Thank you. Danke. Kiitos ❤🥺

[curiouskurona]

honestly im tired of ppl only lieking lizzie bc of her skill in the book of atlantic . im tired of " lizzie supportive " posts that basically boil down to " i know she may SEEM liek some stupid awful girly girl , but look , theres a part where shes bloody !! what a badass !! "

the book of atlantic arc definitely gave her character some more depth , i understand that some ppl may have lieked her moar once they got some insight into tha things she was dealing with . but it feels liek im expected to liek her in SPITE of her girliness . or rather , liek im only allowed to liek how cutesy and girly she is because , " dont worry , shes ALSO a fencer !! dont worry , she was really cool n fought zombies liek a badass !! "

ive been in tha fandom since liek 5th grade ( i dont remember what year that was , but im 24 now , to put things in perspective . ive been here for a while , i know what tha fandom has been liek ) . to be fair ive interacted w tha fandom on and off over tha years , but it rlly seems liek tha attitude has shifted from :

before boa : ew lizzie is so annoying i hate her shes just a stupid pink girly girl that gets in tha way of everything , ciel definitely hates her hahaha !! eew she sucks !!

after boa : aaaah omg lizzie is so wonderful shes such a badass , omg she looks cute AND can use a sword , slay queen !! give us girls who are feminine AND kick ass 😎

okay .. what abt girls that are just feminine tho ... why did she have to showcase her fencing skills and defend ciel from zombies to be allowed to be cutesy . why was she considered super annoying and awful before boa , but now its liek we can " let that part of her slide " bc we know what shes capable of on tha inside . its tha misogyny innit .

idk . i know how rancid this fandom was wen i was a kid , which is why i distanced myself from it in tha first place . so really i should be happy that lizzie is finally getting some love , that things are changing for tha better , and that tha fandom is looking liek a better and better place . but it still bothers me that ppl only support this idea of lizzie as a cute badass . that when she was only known as a girly girl , everyone hated her . for what .. ? she never did anything to deserve so much hate , unless you count being a cutesy 13-14 year old girl a crime . but now that shes displayed that shes capable of violence , tha tone has shifted into loving her . okay .

idk . ranty post is moar of a diary / journal entry lol . and again i understand ppl who werent fans of her bc she didnt have much depth turning around and lieking her moar bc of how tha manga went into her struggles as a person . but tha ppl who hated her for being " annoying " suddenly kissing her ass bc she got to use her fencing skills and now they wont shut up about it ,, buzz off . can you appreciate something else about her please . shes kind and cheerful and cute and hardworking but all i ever hear is " wow , girls can wear dresses and fight at tha saem tiem !! "

[dyke-stuck]

its been a while since i started this blog and at long last... its finally coming to a close. there were a lot of times over the course of this blog where i wanted to give up but i managed a whole year(!!) straight of daily posts with not a single day missed. which i'd say is quite the accomplishment!!

while this post is mostly a self congratulatory monologue id still like to say thanks to everyone who sent in requests! you guys were the driving life force of this blog and my motivation to continue it. from people who only interacted once or twice to people who've been following since the very beginning- its been a blast and im happy to have had you here :D!

what with any long term art project there have been a lot of highs and lows but overall dyke-stuck has been a major positive influence on my life. all of the people who have messaged me about my art meaning something special to them- i appreciate you SO much literally nothing compares to the delight of making an impact on someone like that.

i might post every now and then beyond now- ive already got some simple sketches id like to post- but from here on out dyke-stuck as it has been is dead. its been fun! ill probably see some of you in the fandoms im moving on to but my interest in homestuck has drifted to 'background' and running this blog like that is simply not fun for me.

feel free to send asks (NOT requests) or check out my main (@arqdyke) if your heart so desires. live love laugh & remember to dyke it up ✌️

[thebiscuitbread]

ok so obviously we've all seen the evo symbol on the secret keeper, and the fact that GRIAN PUT HIS FACE OVER IT IMPLYING YK

but i think we should discuss actual canonical watchers and what the fandom has turned them into (before i get into this beware i might be a bit rusty on my knowledge, its been a while so feel free to correct me)

in evo canon, watchers are meant to represent us, the audience. When grian left evo to join the watchers, it was supposed to be that since he was no longer going to be a creator in the series, he would become an audience member, or at least thats how i took it. im gonna be honest i stopped watching evo after grian left but ive heard that the watchers just, like, completely destroyed evo after grian left. im sure that can in some way be again linked back to the audience members?? probably?

now, what the fandom has gone and done is turn the watchers into these super extra evil bad dudes that only inflict pain and suffering. but im pretty sure while the watchers did punish bad behavior, they also rewarded good? but theres many popular headcanons that a lot of ppl accept as canon that the watchers only ever did bad.

"he was only ever meant to watch." martyn's last life lore bit. i took it as "since grian choose to leave and become part of the audience, he shouldn't have gone off and made this whole series." are there flaws in this? probably. am i too tired to care? yeah.

oh also the watchers punishing and rewarding could reflect how when a creator does something cool or entertaining, we "reward" them with things such as likes and interactions and whatever. but when they do something we dont like, we "punish" them by leaving dislikes or refusing to interact with them/their content.

uhh TLDR: canon watchers and fandom watchers are different, and i didn't do the best job at explaining the differences but you get the gist

[sun-stricken]

TW!! Suicide//Suicidal behavior

This is a post completely about Iced Shell and its suicidal implications

I think about the intricacies of iced shell constantly. Its a self sacrificial spell, its inherently a suicide spell.

vvv

The people whom know about iced shell clearly know this, but i wonder if they truly understand the implications of it. In the Galuna arc Gray said something along the lines of “ive been prepared die for the last ten years” in reference to casting iced shell on Lyon

We as a fandom have seemed to take this as a nod to Gray being suicidal since before joining Fairy Tail, and im sure other characters who’ve heard/seen this interaction vaguely came to the same conclusion. which makes total sense.

However, i cant help but wonder if Gray considers himself suicidal?

because if he does and iced shell is the way hes is knowingly killing himself then does that mean he thinks Ur also killed herself?

Or does he not consider himself suicidal because that would mean accepting that Ur technically killed herself, that she committed suicide and he is the reason?

Does he not and uses iced shell because he feels it doesn’t really kill the caster so its not really like hes killing himself and does he think iced shell isnt truly a suicide spell because he still believes he killed Ur? and not that she willingly sacrificed herself to save them?

also why do we as a fandom use words like sacrifice while referring to Ur usage of iced shell, but suicide-esque words and phrases with Gray?

ALSO!! I sometimes wonder if the reason Lyon manifested most—if not all— his grief and rage at Gray is because he feels he himself is also at fault.

Because he did try to cast iced shell first, which (dont quote me on this, i didnt fact check and my memory is fuzzy) probably drew the demon towards them and gave Ur the idea to use it herself. I wonder if he thinks about how things couldve been different had he not tried that spell and instead let Ur just grab Gray and him and run.

Realistically, i think Ur wouldve still figured it out and used it by coming up with it on her own, but still.

The complexity of them hurt me

[toraawa]

ive been a fan of yours for a while and i gotta say, i think you have the best grasp of yurisere/predatorshipping in the fandom. you actually take their characters into consideration and acknowledge their complexity as two stunted individuals who are very different but similar instead of diminishing them to memey single-trait characters. its amazing how many other other fans reduce serena to only "edgey mean girlboss" and yuri to only "nasty psycho" and then call any other version of the ship than constant hate fucking, backhanded affection and beating each other to a pulp "wrong". very tiring how only a handful of us dont like that to be the only thing they ever do

btw, your fics on ao3 are a godsend. judging by your stats im definitely not alone in loving how you write yurisere. thank you for doing the lords work. cant wait to see more updates

First of all, thank you for the high praise! It's the second time this week I've been told something similar, lol!

Though I will say anon, the rest sounds pretty charged towards something or someone particular in the fandom, so at the risk of aggravating some current stuff I don't know about...

Yeah. I agree. A lot. You pretty much summed up my thoughts perfectly.

"Edgy mean girlboss" and "nasty psycho" for Serena and Yuri respectively is... extremely accurate, lol, to the point where I kinda have to laugh bitterly for how pervasive it is. Like, I know they both got shafted hard by canon, but it's a bit annoying when so many people override Serena's multifacetedness to fit the girlboss mold and accuse Yuri of being one-dimensional. I'vs seen some even get strangely angry at the prospect of him not just being the sadistic plant guy. I just don't think him only being that is true. Then again, I'm a staunch defender of the assessment that most of Yuri's character is shown, not told.

Unfortunately, the fanon interpretation of characters overriding canon is something that happens in pretty much any fandom, so there's not much we can do but ignore it and find like-minded people. It's super annoying, but it can't be helped. There's also a broader phenomenon of prioritizing tropes and meme-y dynamics over actually appealing characters, so there's that too.

Since we're all waiting for more canon interaction, I'm definitely in the minority in that I don't think Yuri and Serena's interactions in Duel Links will be a pure hostility fest the entire time. I've also gotten accusations over the years that my Yurisere writing is objectively "wrong" for a plethora of reasons, many of which you stated above, so... there's THAT, too.

At the same time though, that isn't to say Yuri and Serena would never fight or bicker or even be mean to each other — I never expect them to be completely nice and friendly to each other right off the bat. And people are free to write and draw whatever they want — I want to express my disagreement and only that here — so if I don't like it, I ignore it. The people who don't fall into fanon have a much more appealing, deep, and romance-forgiving interpretation of yurisere to me, so I just focus on that!

Anyway, thank you once again for being a fan of my writing! I'm honestly surprised at the following for my current fics on ao3. The Arc-V tag doesn't get much engagement despite being updated every day. It's always great to know there are others who enjoy and share my idea of Yurisere, so to anyone lurking: don't be afraid to reach out!

[the-s1lly-corner]

I want to request like. A cuddling session with Slenderman, who is having a bad day and we comfort him

(つ≧▽≦)つ

I'm addicted to the idea of him pretending to be okay with people calling him monster, but deep down he has this longing for it to stop, since he wanted to get along with the proxies and others he deemed second family.

So he like, rant about his day while reader comfort him.

Maybe get him a little fluster aswell （〜^∇^ )〜

(Take your time and have a good day/night)

All Entwined in One Web

obligatory im stuck in the 2015 era of the creepypasta fandom and ive been mulling over this sort of approach in my head for the past month because i revisited an old slenderman x oc fanfic that had a death grip on me and shaped the way i will interact with + and consume creepypasta stuff for the sake of saving grace and not revealing HOW cringe i was im not going to drop the fanfic name (unless yall dm me because!! i still wanna support the author even if it seems theyre inactive now!) i blame this author for making me a demon sympathizer/j/lh written kinda different than my basic bullet list of hcs! got silly with this one, sorry if its jarring compared to my usual stuff </3 this post is mostly just my hc on like. slender (and by extension all demon characters) being neutral and a simple part of nature that stems from zalgo (yay im finally dropping zalgo lore for my au since he functions differently in my au/hc!!) so take this with a HUGE grain of salt since i feel this deters from the main take people use (that ive seen, at least) this one ended up being more.. sad than i first intended and imma be honest i kinda got into my feelings when i was writing this anywaus i hope this isnt too cringe since i dont talk much about my HUGEhcs/au stuff/rewritten stuff so!! plus i dont usually write BIG detailed stuff like this sobsob tldr; slenderman isnt good or evil hes just a neutral piece of nature in the world and hes trying to cope with it. the demon gods really fucked up by making him sentient and able to process human like emotions

death is a force of nature and people curse it for simply being a part of life; people curse wild animals for being, and people will curse the weather

in this universe, or timeline, demons exist in a similar manner. slenderman exists simply because hes a part of that huge web of nature. of course, that includes every single ugly instinct that humans hate so so much. and he can understand why, even if its his nature.

the one responsible for that web, is zalgo. the beginning and end of everything. neither alive nor dead, all demons stem from zalgo in one way or another.

a solitary creature that prefers to stay alone in the comfort of its home, it doesnt tend to reach out to harm others unless theres harm. only really attacking people that threaten to expose it or get too close...

except, you... you were the one exception. regardless of how you managed to worm yourself into his heart, and become his lifelong companion, hes grateful for your presence when things begin to build up.

he knows that in the eyes of others, he ugly and vile, but he knows that ultimately thats what protects him. he insists that its better this way, sticking to the forest away from the prying eyes.

SURE, he could follow in his brothers footsteps and make a false human body and try to blend in with the people. but is that really efficient? is that really something he wants? hes a powerful being but that would eventually take its toll on him..

ultimately he resigns himself into your arms; once oozing powerful and command, now crumpled and curled.

he never had a childhood, when zalgo created him, he simply.

was

no adolescence, no developing, no growing. he was always what he was meant to be, but he likes to think that when youre holding him, that this is what it feels like to be so small and vulnerable.

humans had it so easy, hed think. theyre born and they die and the process repeats itself for everyone. they dont have to be feared or hated, or kill to survive.

yes, to him, being mortal was far more preferable to being condemned to being a lonely hermit who corrupts and breaks everything it touches.

even with your comfort, theres only so much that you can do; youll eventually pass on as well and hell be stuck in his cycle once more

but for now, as you hum softly and whisper nothings to him as you let him crumble; hell let himself weep just this once.

because as much as he envies your life, and what humans have, he cant deny that he cant bring himself to truly hate them, because like him, theyre simply a piece of natures web.

[snailstrees]

HEY so like u may be wondering What the Fuck Happened. and basically tumblr decided to decimate my main so i had to create a new account. for some reason though it didnt annihilate my snailtrees sideblog so im creating a new one that i actually have access to. anyway copy and pasted intro time

> hi u can call me snailtree! ive shown up in a few crit blogs before and i wanted to create my own blog to interact w the community more. i sign off w 🐌🌴 on other blogs

> im genderqueer, demisexual, and butch (possibly mspec/gaybian)! i go by any/all pronouns and nature and snail themed neos all interchangeably!

> i have been professionally diagnosed with ADHD & i struggle with severe anxiety. my adhd diagnosis also mentioned i show signs of depression and autism. i also believe i may have OCD and/or RSD from personal research and experience, but i can't be sure

> i am a minor

> i will mostly use this account to reblog others' posts and make content related to the sparklecrit community or just sc in general. i may make criticism every once in a while

> i will also note that i do NOT hate sc. its been a hyperfixiation of mine for over a year and i love it dearly. however ever since i read it i had some gripes with it, even though i still loved it, which i never had the courage to address and this blog finally lets me do so. in fact, i was part of the fandom, but after i realised how fucking shitty it was i decided to leave it and finally join the sparklecrit scene as an anon and here we are now

> I DO NOT ENDORSE OR CONDONE HARASSMENT TOWARDS THE Z//CP OR KC

> i myself am not immune to criticism! i am prone to fucking up and when i do so do not hesitate to reach out to me and say "hey bro u fucked up. u said something wrong". or just giving constructive criticism to my other content, like art

> since im too lazy to make proper tagging i just sign off with snailtrees on my og posts

[steven-has-exploded]

massive apologies to all the tanizakiheads seeing me in this tag every other day but now that we have confirmation he and naomi arent even siblings, ive been looking back and just. realizing how weirdly their whole relationship is written BEYOND the alabama shit?

this is also gonna be a teensy bit long because i cannot shut the fuck up, anyways warning for mentions of s/a + some panels of That and incest. also naomi likers proceed with caution, i really dont even dislike her to be honest but the point of this post is to point out the really weird way her actions are written, so if u dont wanna see that then. there

so. ive realized that basically no part of their "activities" is written explicitly as being consensual on junichirou's end, and im unsure if asagiri even did this intentionally because its just. never talked about and also constantly treated like just a running gag

like maybe this is just the translation im reading but id say that it actually implies moreso that the stuff behind closed doors is nonconsensual rather than the opposite, the language used especially by junichirou really implies that theres at least something questionable in regards to that aspect, i.e. this page in chapter 15 right before naomi was taken into annes room by lucy

right before this is naomi saying that junichirou claimed hed "do anything she wanted", which. yeah im not gonna pretend like that isnt just supposed to be some haha funny kink joke, but junichirou claiming that she "forced" him to do something combined with that forms some really unsavory implications that i, again, dont think were intentional on asagiris part

and this continues through their interactions in the earlier chapters; every single time they talk about some kind of unspoken thing that happened between them, its always phrased like this. ive seen a considerable number of people in my time lurking over arguments online claim that junichirou is in on it because of this panel;

and while. firstly that isnt how consent works - second, since this entire fandom sees their relationship as weird in one way or another and not just funny like asagiri hoped we would and im coming at this from the same angle, this seems more like him trying to let her down softly instead of saying she can do whatever in private, since they were in the middle of an investigation at this point. "not here", at least to me, doesnt imply that hes chill with it in private, but that he just doesnt want whatever to happen in public based on the way its been written

and obviously this isnt even bringing up the fact that one of the first scenes we see of them just earlier in ch3 involves naomi groping junichirou in the middle of uzumaki cafe, because that obviously IS nonconsensual and its just. brushed off. like kunikida tells atsushi not to question it and then they just move on. its very obvious that asagiri wrote it this way because it was supposed to be a gag, but seemed completely unaware of the completely godawful implications of this situation just because its happening to a man. junichirou is visibly uncomfortable in all of these scenes, its heavily implied that theres a lack of consent beyond just the scenes on screen, and then its never brought up again because its supposed to be a "joke"

i dont know. i just wanted to point this out because from my personal perspective as a man whose also a victim of sexual harassment, particularly from a family member, this is the way it came off to me and ive been thinking about this for a bit. dont idolize asagiri thats the moral of the story here mans weird as shit

[fiskki]

hi omg this might be random but ive been remembering the edm fandom days and scrolling through random blogs and all of a sudden i remembered skrillbug and i found ur blog and its been so long since i heard about you and lowkey forgot for a bit your art and when i saw it all over again... omg i genuinely forgot how such a great artist u are and were back in the day, it brought back so many memories and how much u inspired me back when i was just a simple teen... i didnt interact much w the fandom i was more of a lurker back then but i just wanted to let u know that u really inspired me and how much u grew as an artist and person too, keep rocking kiki and never stop creating, much love 💖💖

hi!! i hope it's ok im answering this publicly (because it makes me very happy);

thank u so much T_T!!! it really made my day to see this because i have very mixed feelings about my artistic past as skrillbug - i was never really sure of how 'genuine' i was or perceived as, because it was my first tackle with becoming "known" and the attention terrified me so much that i straight up escaped and disappeared

ive been having a little bit of a mental health crisis because of it, because for a while it made me feel almost abandoned? because when i decided to stop publicly working with musicians suddenly things started to fall apart, but now i've found my identity outside the scene as well, and later reconnected with people from my past again

my english deteriorated a little bit so i hope i'm coherent, and sorry about the emotional dump! your message just made me very happy as it came in really nice timing to my realization and acceptance of the ripple effect my time in the EDM community had on me, and how grateful i am now in hindsight to everyone i met and keep meeting still 💖 even on the low key

thank you again!! i feel a little tight in my throat writing this hehe, i hope you have a great week 🥹