#itd still be better than this fucking shithole.

[orcelito]

I always get so angry but then I play video games and I'm no longer so angry

This is a problem when it comes to wanting to leave my shit ass job

[lazaruspiss]

I neeeeed to know about the stephdick AUs or touch me till I vomit

Touch me ‘til I vomit: it's a spin-off/bad end version of the first chapter of I’m bad, he’s worse, we’re already dead! I actually wrote most of this version first, lol. it's pretty OOC for jason. it's just a "what if jason took advantage of/assaulted dick instead of helping him" scenario.

"Fuck me." Jason waits. He lets the words linger in the rancid air of this shithole bar within a shithole city. Dick is asking for it, desperate for someone bigger and stronger to whisk him away from it all. Too much of a coward to just admit defeat and shoulder the consequences, leaving all of the most important choices in someone else’s hands. “I could.” Each sentence. “But you’re drunk.” Enunciated, almost patronizing. “That would make it rape.” Dick seems embarrassed by Jason’s response, like a kid who fucked up a question that should’ve been easy for them to get right. It’s shockingly easy to play into Dick’s insecurities.

moving on, ohh stephdick my loves. i keep meaning to do more with them and my attempts always seem to fall by the wayside... (this got long lmao)

stephdick mob: one of those things thatre more au than fic, despite my attempts to try and just write A Story with the setting. the setup is that dick and bruce dont meet, and dick becomes a gangster ala that one alt timeline i can never stop thinking about. i think it was in trinity? anyways, dick fills this sorta "moralistic gangster" trope, where anyone in their right mind would turn and walk the other direction, but he wouldn't actually hurt anyone without a good reason.

steph is still a rough n tumble kid livin in a rough area. she gets threatened on the street one day and gets rescued by her hyperviolent knight in shining armor, and it turns into a bit of a sworn loyalty dynamic. she "helps" him without his permission until he caves and agrees to train her. time goes on, she makes her interest in him very clear, but dick doesn't want to be that guy, doesn't want to take advantage of her. very forbidden-romance-core where they both want each other but there's an unshakable wall in the way (dick's moral compass and/or personal trauma).

an idea that i had that i'm undecided on if i wanna use it: dick having been taken in/groomed/abused by zucco when he was first brought into the world of crime. itd be interesting, and itd give explanation for why dick worries about taking advantage of steph while being desensitized to all the criminal violence he does already. like, sleeping with your apprentice isn't really worse than the Many Murders and the Torture he'd be doing, but it could still /feel/ worse to him, esp if he has his own added history. that and it'd let me give him zucco based daddy issues. "im no better than him..." and all that <3

stephdick no capes: i'll be honest i forgot about this one. i had the mental image of stripper dick beating a man to death in a catwoman costume. you wouldnt think thatd come with a 10 step program but my notes beg to differ. like stephdick is a sideplot thing that doesn't even come up once in the main outline. it's like, past brudick and mostly sibling conflict/bonding.

bruce takes in dick same as usual

without robin dick is more restless w pent up frustrations/energy and bruce has to actually learn to take care of him

bruce starts to get... attached. affectionate. dick seems to return the sentiment. they kiss, and dick is in heaven- only to crash when bruce makes him promise to not tell a soul about this.

this is the biggest secret in their lives. dick becomes a teenager, goes to school, talks to peers, finds out one of their classmates was molested by a teacher. and talking to them makes it all click. he still doesnt say anything, but makes plans to run away.

jason. dick tells jason to be careful, lashes out at bruce and swears that if he touches jason he'll rain hell on bruce.

dick leaves at 16. bruce tells jason that dick is troubled, and always has been. don't worry too much about what he says, he had an incident at juvie (lie) and has been paranoid ever since.

jason buys it, and starts to resent dick over time. bruce is nothing but kind to him. even when he fumbles he is a loving and caring father to jason.

the neighbor kid misses dick and starts asking everyone about it, alfred, bruce, jason- he even hunts down barbara and dicks old friends. eventually jason tells him dick left, that he wants nothing to do with any of them anymore.

tim is stubborn. he wants to watch dick do his flips again. he searches and searches until he finds the club where dick works. dick avoids him for a while, but eventually gets the drop on him- given the camera and his job he assumes tim is either an extreme sex pest in the making or being paid off or threatened by one into stalking him. when dick realizes this is the neighbor kid he starts to think bruce put him up to it and is furious at the thought. tim insists bruce has nothing to do with it, but dick knows this wouldnt be the first time bruce made a kid lie for him.

eventually he gets frustrated enough with tims pestering and snaps, telling him about how bruce fell in love with him when he was around the same age tim is now. describes being held, tasting bruces mouth for the first time, tells tim he hasnt been a child since bruce wayne sunk his claws into him. tells tim to stay away from all of them if he knows whats good for him.

like wtf is wrong with me. i just wanted a scene of dick meeting steph while wearing leather and heels, why did it need this much backstory.