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lucianinsanity · 10 months ago

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I wish art was important

#an is venting #I just wish I didn't have to worry about if I have to take on another studies to make money instead of dedicating myself to art #I just wish I didn't have to worry about the government taking funds away #I just wish I didn't have to fight everyone about why I'm studying art #I just wish I didn't have to see every person that figures I'm studying art make a disappointed face #I just wish saying I'm studying art wasn't met with confusion and laughs #I just wish...#I actually don't know why I keep trying #my parents want me to be hopeful when I'm proven that art is not important all the time #I don't think I'll have a job after graduating #I don't think I'll ever make money from making art #and I think that's a pretty realistic approach to it #I can't hope anymore #it's useless when nobody respects art #it's useless when nobody cares

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estrogenism · 1 year ago

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idk i wish people would talk more about papua when it comes to occupied nations.

free papua.

#we exist too. our villages are getting bombed. we get thrown in prisons for no reason. we're not allowed to fly our flag.#and the whole world ignores it because the grasberg mine is there and they care more about gold than they do about human lives.#and like. we've been begging people to acknowledge our genocide but nobody fucking listens #the death toll is estimated to be around 100k to 300k and still we get ignored #nobody fucking cares about us. i wonder if they'd care if our skin was lighter.#it makes me so fucking sick to think that we're dying and we still never get mentioned in discussions of occupied nations #and the un is so fucking useless when it comes to the conflict. they make half-assed attempts for brownie points if at all.#then they go back to letting the indonesian military bomb our homes.#i wish i could go home but i don't think i ever will be able to when it's been 50+ years of genocide and people still ignore us.#genocide cw

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sibelin · 6 months ago

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Logging out for a bit.

#It's so useless to be here when i'm going through hard times #I won't find answers I won't find support and I won't find comfort #Nobody wants to see someone being sad and complaining on here. I feel so invisible when i'm going through it. It makes it even worse...#I pour my heart out to be ignored and to feel even more isolated you know #Which i understand in a way. Everyone has their own problems to deal with #I think deep down like so many of us. I do need attention and distraction to get out of my damn mind #Specially since I moved out and socialize less cause i'm far from friends and family #but ah well who cares about context. You just see a whiny person. I'd avoid myself too.

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nomairuins · 3 months ago

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i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is

#ive been overthinking 1 light and casual mildly funny response to something but im worried itll come off as disrespectful and dismissive And #make me seem stupid and uncaring all at the same time. and also be seen as insulting. but like idt itd be insulting right like. im not #saying what it is so ig for all you guys know im like I mean if i say All your shit suck ball and i hateit kys. <- thats not the thing i was #going to say #like it doesnt matter now the window for response is closed now but i feel stupid bc i shouldve just said it it was light and casual. im so #bad at keeping convos gojng im convinced im not going to survive. In like a light and casual way like in a He will not make it through the #winter joke way. dw. im not going to do anything bc i had One failed interaction. if i was going to do anythjng itd be bc of the 8000000 #other failed interactions. But im not. anyways. it just makes me feel so useless 😭 like i want to respond i want to talk to ppl so bad but #i feel like i mess things up Irreparably every time i speak OR i take too LONG overthinking my response and then i just cant respond bc its #been too long and then its been 3 years and the only messages ive ever sent r my intro message and 1 message 2 years ago that nobody #responded to at all. or the conversation stopped immediately after. and like i used to be better at this i was lkke. talkative in a couple #muts servers like. i talked 2 ppl daily in those servers and i had fun and like. I was an important part of the group and i felt like it #but i just feel like such an outsider for Everything and its literally my fault bc i cant just like. Talk. The explosion. bc im always like #im gonna try im gonna do it this time im gonna get it back im going to finally be Good connor and im going to fix it all and make a Good #solid friend group and ill find HEALTHY LOVE and i wont selfsabotage and ill move out and have a job and ill balance it well and ill start #all my hobbies and ill have a great routine and be so loveable and on top of it and not stressed and content and happy and roll with the #punches and then theres a single hiccup and im like Well fuckinf whatever im going to be an unemployed hermit forever and im going to die b4 #im 25 anyways so Who cares and also im digging a little hole for myself. and its like. AUGHH ik i just have to persevere and overcome but #even saying that feels so stupid its not fucking hard its Talking to ppl. like. i literally if ive ever said a word to you i had to think #avt it and strategize how to respond right even for like. like. it makes it sound like its not genuine it is #like for example i want to say hey i love your art! but then i freak out and im like thats not normal thats like a rly generic comment they #hear that all the time theyll thjnk im being polite and my brains like hrmmm rewrite Your art changed my life. It shaped me. Ill never be #the same. Nad im like ok too far overcorrected go back and the sentence generator is like Your art has colors 💯 like. GOD. WHY IS IT SO #difficult. and then usually i either just dont say anythinf and feel awful abt it 4ever OR i send it on anon and then i spend like 15 #minutes ibsessively slightly tweaking the apelling and capitalization and punctuation to make sure it doesnt seem like its me just in case #it Is the worst possible thing to say but then i see the response and itll be like AWWW TYSM :] THIS MEANS A LOT or whathaveyou and i feel #stupid bc i couldve just Told them this to their face and it wouldve been a good positive interaction we had. but instead i had 2 hide and #tyoe entirely differently so they couldnt sniff me from my typing style. and it soesnt even feel like the thanks is actually 4 me bc i #tweaked the message sm. and it still makes me happy that the oersons hapoy but its like. that couldve been a nice mutual interaction #like not that i need a personal ty i compliment ppl when i Want to compliment ppl and when its genuine yk. i dont do it so i get mutualpoint

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the-kipsabian · 7 months ago

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#the thing about being so bad at writing is that when you also do it very irregularly about shit nobody else cares about #you drive yourself into a hole where absolutely nothing motivates you cause nobody misses your fics #also ive been made to feel bad lately about choosing fic writing over drawing so its. been a really fucking bad brain time #idk. i dont feel like a contributing member of the fandom. like it doesnt matter at all what i do i dont provide anything of any value #i hate it here and once again im just. sad and done but im useless with anything so what does it matter and who cares #its so hard to explain. i just dont feel like im doing anything meaningful #and i know thats not an actual indicator of the quality of my work but. try telling my garbage brain these two things arent related lmao #sorry im just. im just useless. i dont just feel that i know i am. with anything i cant do just piling up and the list getting longer i jus #maybe i should finally give up writing too. would make thinking about everything so much easier. nobody would miss it #and nobody can convince me otherwise about that #im gonna go cry in my cocoa now goodbye #night is an absolute mess on main

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yelloworangesoda · 9 months ago

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gotta get off the internet and only interact irl with people who were 30 before they got their shit together i cant keep doing it like this

#like this being. feeling like i have no future and nobody likes me #‘youre only 19’ only goes so far when i dont know any other fail 19 year olds #im not gonna be a damn dentist for sure but like. and ive said this a thousand times. what am i gonna do. i cant live a worthless nothing #life where i work a shitty job i hate. i have to like something #i hate my art. i hate my lack of creativity. my art is so bland i just dont think its in me anymore #i finished. and i hate it #i have other hobbies. i like to cross stitch. i like to sew. i like to paint. i like to make dolls. do you see the common theme here #i have a few more than that i technically could do but i cant create anymore and it kills me. i want to. i constantly want to but i cant #it doesnt help that even if i havw ideas i dont even want to do them #i was gonna draw some characters from a game i played when i was little but i just #didnt want to. at no point did it not feel like a chore #ill try to go to new mediums! its fun to mess around and then itll feel boring again and going back doesnt feel any better #idk. googling it is useless. ive tried all the things. for years. ive been TRYING to draw consistently and like. doodles are fine theyre fu #but theyre not what i want to do i want to make something im proud of. i drew almost every single day for like 2 years #and its not burnout bc its been like. 2 more years! and ive barely wanted to at all!!!#i want to be creative and i also want people to recognize it. different complaint but it sucks so bad #i feel like nobody likes me. still. nobody cares about what i do. nobody would care if i stopped #like except me but i can only support myself so far!!!! im so tired of it!!!! someone PLEASE be here for me and just say ‘hey i love this #drawing :)’ like you have no idea what that would do for me #not always. but yknow especially if its been a while. if you like it. if you dont like it :( idk. you should tell me that too i guess #yknow so i can have some confirmation so i dont feel like im crazy. idk. dont actually id never go online again. i would probably. well.#i dont like to say the words #simons spouting #vent :(

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kyros-tha-soldier · 2 years ago

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the people who call Rebecca "a useless pair of boobs" are also the people who keep posting about how Robin is boring. Y'all just dumb and hate Rebecca for acting like an actual 16 years old in distress (AKA crying and being traumatized and scared) and forgetting that her outfit was given to her to humiliate her. And that Robin has a much more "mature" personality, like, Does she ALSO have to be a comic relief character? Terrible standards, smh.

anyways some OP fans just need to scream into a cup instead of seriously hating on characters drawn on white paper

#My take #Nico Robin #Rebecca #Honestly the so called people who want “strong female characters” are the ones who keep saying the most misogynistic things ever #Like yeah Rebecca's character arc might seem disappointing to you #But have you ever considered that it was for Oda to show that some people in OP world genuinely want to live in peace?#And not kill or shed blood or steal?#But yeah let's call the minor girl who was traumatized beyond comprehension “useless”#And Robin has the same case #She lived her WHOLE LIFE as a loner and thought that nobody actually cared for her #And when she finally gets to be herself with her friends mfs go on a lengthy rant over how she is boring and not as fun as the others?#Give me a break ... Good grief

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alagaisia · 9 months ago

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Thredup is a great site for if you care only about what brand your clothes are and not about any of their features

#all of the search and categorizing options are so terrible #I mean the options are fine. it would be nice if selecting them meant you were shown clothing that matched them #also. you say on the site that sizing is wildly inconsistent between brands (we know)#you also provide (some) measurements for most items #why are you using tag size to sort things. you could use the measurements #‘my size’ is a basically useless filter because you want to put in the full range of sizes that might fit you in some brands #(since there’s not one size that fits you in all or even most brands)#but then 98% of results when you actually click on something cute are not your measurements anyway #because that size in that particular brand doesn’t fit #also why do you use only chest measurements for dresses. where is the waist measurement.#those are different things and there’s not a consistent ratio between them you can’t skip one #same with skirts having waist but not hip #although usually I’m looking for (and not finding because again filters don’t work) for styles where the hip measurement is irrelevant #you sure can search and sort by brand though!#thank god nobody cares about the style and fit and characteristics of their clothing and only the name on the inside #mine #tangent in the tags #not really though it’s all very much on the same topic lol #I got bored with poshmark browsing last time so I decided to switch it up #you would think a site where everything runs through it would standardize their stuff better but no it’s somehow worse #than the site with a thousand random people doing different things #thredup #thrifting

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bo0zey · 2 years ago

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being the oldest daughter raised by a narcissistic emotionally abusive father is just…👩‍🍳👌💋

#i don’t know why i always end up crying when i know exactly what to expect from him #the constant belittling then turning around and crying victim on how i ‘hurt’ him bc he can’t accept the fact that he did something wrong #i know i shouldn’t expect anything from him but it’s like this stupid fucking useless part of me during these moments is just #so heartbroken and frustrated because it’s not fair the child in me just wants to have a dad that cares and sees her as a human #nobody fuckjng cares if they hurt me and i don’t care if they hurt me either that’s why i hurt me too #he’s supposed to be my dad he’s my only parent left and he never should’ve been a parent to begin #i can’t believe how easily he turns things on me saying it’s my fault i never come talk to him and it’s like how the fuck #you were barely basically nonexistent the first 5 years of my life then barely there from then on out #how could i ever come to you how could i trust you just because i’m your daughter by blood doesn’t mean you’re not a stranger to me #you’re supposed to be the adult you’re my father you’re supposed to come to me and guide me why are you such a helpless fucking child #i do everything on my own i have nothing to say to you just like you have nothing to say to me #small talk only does so much i don’t want to talk to him i don’t care about our relationship #i’m just literally flabbergasted at the audacity he has to gaslight and manipulate me and ply victim when i’m the one he keeps hurting #it just reinforces the idea that my feelings are invalid my feelings have been invalid to him for the past 23years #i wish i was emotionless and unfeeling i wish he didn’t have the power to affect my emotions so strongly #i’m such a little kid i wish my mom was here i wish someone wanted to protect me and talk to me and at least try to understand me #i can’t wait to be dead i just want this to be over i’m just wasting time taking up someone else’s space #i think the only time i’ll be genuinely happy is when i’m dead #i don’t remember the last time i was actually happy unless i’m distracting myself #i’m constantly maladaptive daydreaming and when i’m not i’m at work trying to be a functioning an adult #but as soon as i’m home i’m back in my dream world where i don’t have to think about me at all #when gerard said When i grow up i want to be nothing at All that man read my my mind #ramblings #vent

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c28hunter · 1 year ago

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#the real question is why do they care?#why does my coach want me back on tranings? like i was never that good anyways #what he wants more money?#there are so many new people now my payment wouldn't have changed anything #so why?#why is he asking when ill be back #why is he saying that he's waiting for me?#it just doesn't make sense since he has no profit out of me being there #and that one friend who is a fucking pro?#why did he say that he can't wait for my comeback?#i was never a worthy oponent #so why? what's the poit of having me back when ill be just useless?#what does he expect that ill be back as strong as that other guy after a knee surgery?#bruh i will not #why are they saying that they miss me?#why do they say these things?#if i just left and never came back nobody would've noticed #ive been there once and now im not #im not even a skilled fighter who would be good at tournaments #im just a kid that pretends to be someone more this is all #so why do they lie?#what is the price for this attention?#am i just too stupid to know what the price is?#when will i learn how big my debt is?#they can't profit out of me so WHY DO THEY CARE?!#im sorry for this

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kavehater · 4 months ago

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Do I have to start saying not that anyone would care in that super duper passive aggressive way to guilt people into caring or what

#dora daily #I’m so tired #the one thing I’ve consistently wanted since I was a kid was to be cared about and seen 😜#yet I can’t even seem to get that ☠️ I honest to god am so tired like every day is another futile attempt to try to engineer what I say #specifically for the purpose of me hoping someone ANYONE would care #how I used to be sick when I was younger because I saw that the kids who would get sick or would get sad would get sm care and love but #I was stupid because I didn’t account for the fact that when I was sick I had to just suck it up or when I was sad I need to stop being such #a crybaby and get over it #what if I say I’ve had enough of just being shamelessly used by others for me to comfort them through their problems #but I always have everything thrown back at my face because somehow when it’s my turn my problems are uncomfortable or awkward #I don’t have energy for a single thing yet I force myself to talk to at least one person and trying to fix my relationship with just #literally talking it shouldn’t be that hard but I feel so worthless that even speech is impossible and makes me feel like I will literally #die. it’s been working kinda but now I just can’t help but feel so sick to my stomach about all this my head hurts really bad and I’m trying #not to cry and trying my hardest to make peace with the fact that in truth nobody will ever like me enough to care at all ever #not my mum not my dad or my siblings and certainly not my friends either #I’m so tired of always begging and pleading for someone to just notice I’m here too #or maybe it’s specific people #it’s so cruel to say all those overly nice things to me and not act on them #why else was I so psychotic about that girl ? obviously because she would shower me with the nicest things I’ve ever heard #but she says that to everyone she’s not consistent with me and we aren’t really friends #ik it wasn’t her intention but it doesn’t change the fact I have wanted to and I’m not even over exaggerating but actually off myself #because this is just proof I’m around to serve people’s dirty work and clean messes when I can’t even stand on my two feet anyways #isn’t it so stupid I’m just talking to myself here and most likely nobody will ever see it meaning this was just useless yet again #and the fact i can’t be free ever nor can i do anything about this to permanently end things because i am a coward and because the worst #part is that even after death I shall be tormented anyways #and let’s say I somehow survive an attempt I will literally be scarred for life and then I’d rlly want to be dead #it’s the way not even death can be a solace for this because there would only be more torture #I can’t leave this religion because leaving won’t change the truth but I’m so tired and worn thin of every single responsibility in my life #even tho I don’t have much the few I do have feel excruciating #life is too much and death is worse so why couldn’t my mum who’s strong willed said no to my dads family and not gotten married period 🧍‍♀️

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yourcalamity · 5 months ago

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i feel worse tonight than i have in a while

#i cant really do anything about it though i dont want to blow up my night over the same long term issue no one will suddenly discover and #treat. im trying to ride out referrals i just feel like death 50% of the time my chest has hurt so bad all day and my vision keeps blurring #while im working. and its not anything new just worsening but i cant talk about it because im just going to be blamed for not taking care of #myself which yeah fair point i just dont see why nobody makes the connection all of these issues started after that ither surgery #where i had so little support i remember praying the night before the anesthesia would just kill me #and a therapist would probably help too but i dont want to have to talk to a therapist about any of this #when its another sitcom lie that people band together to support you before during and after things like that i want to feel loved despite #the fact that i am useless and in pain 24/7 #instead i just feel like a burden for being hurt and i dont have anywhere to put it down anymore #i am trying very hard to maintian a good attitude and help myself out of the hole ive been digging #its not easy dealing with disease shit simultaneously and people who wonder why you dont care about yourself when they taught you that…

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teethrotter · 1 year ago

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cis male college freshmen are singlehandedly responsible for my torment

#i work as a custodian in their dorm lol #every day there is some level of horror but after the weekends ( when nobody is in to clean ). oh my god #they also just do not fucking care if i am visibly / actively working somewhere ?????#like if i'm cleaning the showers they will just go in the one right next to me ( that i haven't done yet )#same with the counters + stalls #like good fucking god do y'all want me to clean up after your useless asses or not.#sorry for the brutality i'm really feeling it because they are all around my age and should fucking have a shred of decency lol #as per usual y'all owe janitors / cleaners / etc. every fucking thing #🦷

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blue-slxt · 1 year ago

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Question Game

Are we tired of these yet?

What is your nickname?

When is your birthday?

What was your longest relationship?

What is your favorite book?

What is something you're insecure about?

5 Male celebrity crushes

5 Female celebrity crushes

What is your dream job?

What do you consider your biggest accomplishment?

What is a fact about you that nobody would believe?

What were your highs and lows for this last month?

Where is somewhere you'd like to visit?

How do you de-stress?

What are your favorite apps besides tumblr?

Describe yourself in one sentence.

What do you think makes you attractive?

What is something you're really good at?

What is something you're really bad at?

A time that you told a lie.

What's a totally random and useless fact that you know?

Who knows you the best?

What is your most prized possession?

What is your longest friendship?

When did you first feel like an adult?

Do you/ Have you played any sports?

How are you feeling right now?

Are you an early bird or a night owl?

Do you believe in love at first sight?

Favorite song lyrics right now?

What does self care look like for you?

Describe yourself with 3 singers.

What makes you nervous?

What’s a pet peeve you have?

What will always make you cry?

What kind of first impression do you think you make on people?

Free Pass! (Ask any question you want that's not on the list)

#ask #ask game #question game #questions #get to know me

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shegetsburned · 1 year ago

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being in a relationship w. ryomen sukuna ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

so first of all, you’re stuck with him wether you like it or not.

you are his princess and his only. nobody will ever dare to approach you or even attempt to charm you when they know what the king of Curses can do to them.

sukuna is so goddamn protective. even when he’s far away, you can feel his presence, watching over you and knowing every single one of your moves.

he’d definitely kill for you if you asked, and he takes pleasure in it, so it wouldn’t even slightly bother him.

sukuna prefers it when you wear as less clothes as possible, wandering around in a simple drape or a very thin dress for him to be able to eat you out with his gaze.

would demolish anyone on sight that’d harm/hurt or insult you in the slightest way. you can try and beg him not to, but it’s pretty much useless considering it’s probably already been done.

sukuna will praise the shit out of you, and expect to be absolutely spoiled for hundreds of years;

because yeah, you are stuck with him for a very long time. he’ll find a way to keep you all for himself for eternity.

he marks you. there are scratches on your body and bite marks. he wants everyone to know you belong to him.

sukuna’s actions speak louder than his words. he would dominate the world for you, and can’t even properly tell you how he feels.

when he’s in his thoughts, he likes to have you around, sitting on his lap, running a hand through your hair, covering you with his four arms.

no matter what plans for the future he has, sukuna will always include you in those, you don’t even have to ask for a place in his life.

loves calling you by your first name. it’s the only name he lingers on, making sure he pronounces every letter right. probably the only name he cares about remembering.

sukuna isn’t concerned about anybody’s well-being but yours, making sure you are always safe and protected, trust me, nothing will ever happen to you.

let’s be honest, he has already offered you his heart. it’s there, pumping in blood, bleeding in his hand while he hands it to you. it’s either very romantic or very disgusting.

one thing sukuna has said that will always stick with you is when he promised to always be with you. he’ll track you in every lifetime, making you fall for him once more, and his love for you will never fade.

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378262 · 2 years ago

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officially so fucking done. tw for the tags dont read

#love it when literally every single object on earth has more value than me <3 #to my own parents. like im on the verge of kms because of all the shit thats happening #and ive tried to reach out for help in every fucking place but nobody answers me #ive been on waiting lists for 3+ years. i wait in line for 8 hours. i go to the er.#i just really want a reason for this. like *why* am i not worthy of help???#i cant make phone calls so suicide hotline is not an answer for me. calling emerg number will just result in #'nothing wrong w you go home'#like ive told professionals so many times tbat i go up to 3-4 days with no food and #they just do. not. care.#like at this point it feels like i just cannot be cared about. im fucking useless ig

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