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schrodingers-blursed-kitty · 2 years ago

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#there are only three things that have been keeping me alive for a long time now: fear of hell; not wanting to inconvenience my coworkers #and fear of pain and/or botching it and ending up a vegetable #I've missed my chance to have a good life #it's too late for grad school #and I'm probably never gonna get married for a number of reasons from math ratios to being too old and ugly #so I'm gonna die alone and unloved #I'm just slogging through the days #oh yeah i also want to level my rogue/warlock to level 20 so i guess that's another reason

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yuwuta · 5 months ago

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gojo would kill your work husband. but if he were the work husband, that's a different story

REAL!! he’s such a hypocrite because if someone mentioned you had a work husband, his entire world would stop and he wold devise the absolute worst plans to make sure that your co-worker, everyone at your job, and everyone in the next building over knew that he was happily committed to you

but if he is the work husband, he’s very........ dutiful in his role. there’s a loose office/lawyer au in my head where satoru is your secretary, and for all intents and purposes, your personal assistant, and he’s good at his job, but mostly because he considers his job to be pleasing you. he has coffee for you when you arrive, he moves your schedule around without you asking, he has answers to questions before you can even ask them, he has fresh flowers on your desk weekly, pokes into your meetings to pretend to hand you a file that’s really just maybe a single document in a manilla folder with candy on top of it—he’s made himself your business, your partner; he’s made himself irreplaceable, and he loves to remind everybody of that fact.

he’s also extremely loyal. sure, he could day a week’s worth of work done in about a day, but that doesn’t mean he’ll just use his talents for anybody. he’s your secretary, so he’s at your beck and call, and everyone knows it. they know he’s the best, but also that he’s off limits—not because you won’t share him, but because satoru won’t let himself be shared.

he also extends his duties beyond work, of course. when he hands you a print out of your schedule for the day and you’re confused by the three-hour block of time you have in the middle of the day, satoru just helps you shrug your coat of your shoulders and smiles, “that’s for the lunch date you have with me, of course!” hanging up your coat in your closet for you, “i’m paying, see you soon, sweets.” and because you’re great at your job, and satoru helps you be great, nobody really questions when the two of you have time for a 13-course tasting menu at 1pm on a tuesday afternoon. and if they did, all satoru would say that you two had a lovely date

#anonymous #he's like donna from suits but worse because he's like if harvey were donna LOL #i have soooooo much to say about him #he doesn't really Have to work he's a nepotism baby supreme #but he met you maybe in undergrad? and he's been obsessed w you since #he knows youre a workaholic so he's dutifully sat by your side all these years through college through grad/professional school #and when you told him you got to hire your own assistant he was the very first applicant #because getting paid to spend his days with you and take care of you? he was already doing that for free might as well make it official #everyone in the office knows satoru loves you except you honestly #he probably has his own masters/JD but elects to be your assistant anyway bc that's so much more fun #what he Really wants to be a househusband but first he's gotta ask you out and propose and all that good stuff (cue him rolling his eyes #and going on about formalities and boring systems and blah blah blah)#also in the office au in my head: nanami (also senior partner) higuruma ofc <3 beloved (managing partner) and TOJI!#WALK WITH ME!#its honestly probably satoru's influence that gets toji into law... as someone who so feverently broke it in the past #idk maybe there's a megumi situation that makes gojo be like yk if ur this good at skirting/breaking the law youd probably be half decent #at enforcing it... or at least helping other people get around it too #and so lawyer toji is born #does he screw around w the rich people who r stupid w their money? absolutely #but you nanami and higuruma just let it be bc he brings in those settlements better than anybody else....#hmmm... i kinda wanna make megumi somebody's associate but also..... yuuta.....#i think i just like sticking yuuta in a tie if im being real #but anyway... satoru is your Work Husband and everyone knows he wants to be your real husband #but they just let it slide bc rumour has it even tho hes just a secretary hes got equity in the firm?? and besides that his heart eyes give #away his hopeless devotion from a mile away #the day you actually start seeing somebody outside of work... oh theyre in for Trouble #satoru x reader #him dragging you out of ur office late at night and u protesting so he just. puts u over his shoulder #and ur telling him to let u down but he's insisting u go home and then nanami pops out of his office #and ur like wait nanami this isnt what it looks like but he's so dead in the eyes when he just sighs

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lemongogo · 30 days ago

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college … wasted on the youth (me)

#didnt help that 2/4 yrs was covid telezoom but man.. MANNN #forgetting how impossible it is to pursue rhe degree plan u actually want (advising hell) i feel like . theres just #so many diff things i want to learn now Knowing that im more solidified in my interests and who i am and what i would be interested in doing #and like.😭RGAAAAAQH TEARING MYHAIR OUTTT every other week i have a night where im sititng there like damn i couldve been sm1 completely dif #dgmw i still rly enjoy some of the upper div classes i Did take but what if i took x and liked it more or minored in y and it led me to z #bc i do feel rly set in where i am rn which . i DO ! like it but im never gna be in that environment where u have the flexibility to explore #ykwim . i wish i had taken physics and calc srsly . i always thought i hated that shit but i like it. i like it quite a lot actually😟#or more geology .. urrghh.. sprinkle in sme extra art history . no bc thats what actu pissed me off ab school #i rmbr wanting to dual major and they straight up told me no i cant . but then i was like maybe an arts major bio minor when i wanted to do #science illustration but sry we dont offer bio minor . ok bio major arh or studio art minor . no sry not enough open spots we rly only #reserve it for when we have extra openings post admission❤️#and then even late into sophomore year u would still be last in registration so all the cool classes would be closed #and then bc of covid half that shit was cancelled bc they couldnt transfer labs online (rip comparative vertebrate anatomy)#and then by senior yr an additional collection of classes were unavailable bc u dont have the prereqs bc the prereqs were cancelled during #covid and u dont have enough semesters left to actually take it . like it was gen such an awful experience so ik why i couldnt ever do what #i wanted but .😭 AND LIKE the classes i DID enjoy like genomics or molecular genetics were closed by registration and i had to email and beg #for access . thts crazy .literally crazy .#anyways . i think i want 2 start reading textbooks bc i think thats the closest ill get LMAOO #i remember seeing my coworker read a textbook for fun one time and idk why i just didnt understand why bc it seemed so dry but i Get it now #like yeah .. u knew what was up ..#sad too that like . i could theoretically audit a course but i Work..during the day .. so sad . so sad #guys wht if i just said yes to grad school (<the devil talking.dont agree)

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squeakadeeks · 10 months ago

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moodboard for this past week ❤️

#they should invent a grad school thats not fucking insane #i'm hanging in there but im the most unwell i've been in AWhile #this week was just horrible #there was already the freezer food incident but it also started off with a very severe pain episode thats putting me in constant woe #even mundane motion has been agonizing which is McAwesome bc we had a lab inspection which involved moving hundreds of pounds of equipment #during which we found a blackwidow and rats which we had to deal with and was a whole thing psychologically on top of the physical toll #the new class fiasco is still popping off and i had to respond to at this point over 400 emails in the fleeting moments outside of lab #AND A STUDENT TRIED TO FINANCIALLY BRIBE THEIR WAY INTO THE CLASS ? ?? ?? ?????#then the instructor wanted to use me as a guinea pig and i had to test new circuit boards but I wasnt given any time to do so properly #i had to test them plus get them operational and deal with my incoming students all in a frantic 10 minute window #im in charge of running our meetings too but the instructor was interrupting and having side conversations that made it really hard-#to train the other people on the new equipment in a smooth manner #which meant that a bunch of people had to keep me after to ask questions which made me late for my drs appointment #where i found out i cant get the new covid vaccine bc my heart and blood levels arnt stable enough #and joanns lost an expensive+critical fabric order of mine+i had to give a big presentation this week on my research that was stressful #and my inbox is still blowing up from being needed all over the place between teaching lab and classes and yall i am. so so tired.#im in so much pain and so stressed out #debating the ethics of turning into a pile of lint to escape my responsibilities and mortal frame

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smute · 2 months ago

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job search is driving me insane. maybe im in the wrong country. the typical lib arts gigs want undergrads with a very specific skill set and anything where an advanced degree might be of use they're either looking for graduates in GERMAN lit specifically or they want NATIVE english speakers. sorry i can't be her. also everyone and their dog keeps telling me to take my ENGLISH degree and look into GERMAN publishing when i haven't read a GERMAN book in 3 years. i'm about as qualified for that as His Majesty the Sultan Haji Hassanal Bolkiah Mu'izzaddin Waddaulah ibni Al-Marhum Sultan Haji Omar 'Ali Saifuddien Sa'adul Khairi Waddien, Sultan and Yang Di-Pertuan of Negara Brunei Darussalam, whose embassy in berlin is, btw, looking for a full time translator (english-german). maybe there's someone less gay who wants to apply. anyway. not to mention salaries in publishing are so bad i might as well go ahead with my phd. the only reason that's been put on ice is schmoney. if i gotta stay poor i might as well be really fucking poor and do something i actually care about

#someone told me it's bad to apply for entry level shit with a master's and that i should leave it off my resume #but first of all that's the dumbest thing i've ever heard #and second of all how would i even explain the past couple of years to a recruiter?#i certainly haven't been defusing land mines #it's all i've got going for me #having survived grad school i mean #besides #i haven't even graduated officially!#its not too late to drop out lmfao #ugh god #ignore this #dont even read it #unread it if you can #im just #whining #venting #tbd #&

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iknowwhereyousleepatnight · 7 days ago

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what if i cancel my graduation and add a second major rn and just completely fuck up my plans and decide to suffer through more school but w a different major for like another 3 years

#this would be for a number of reasons. 1 bc the thought of doing psychological work that is not specifically sexology makes me feel sick #and 2 bc i technically get paid to go here every semester and i will not get paid to go to grad school. and 3 i have no idea what i want to #do w my life and i hate school but also i crave learning and what if like for funsies i just went for a second bachelors. prolly in geology #like i mean if i don’t think i can handle another few years of this if i have it set as a double major i can just like. graduate any time #w my psych degree yeah? and give up on the other one? like it might be too late bc i already applied for graduation but im p sure i can #have that cancelled. but also if i go to school for longer i might die forever. but also idk if continuing w psychology is like what i want #but whatever whatever i cannot be making decisions rn but like. it is An Option #idk i am just feeling kinda tortured again as as fun as it would be to actually get to do experiments and stuff i like. idk. i just wanna d #research but i Know i’ll have to get like probably a doctorate and have to work at a school for funding n shit and like idk if i’m ready to #like Commit to sexology. and also i like getting paid by my school and i don’t wanna go into debt fr for a degree i’m not 100% sure of #or my other option is to become a professional clown #but it’s whatever. it’s swagever even. *slinks off into the darkness*

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ailinu · 9 months ago

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i am not indulging my worst impulses but i sure do want to.

#i have. a tendency to feel angry/upset when help is offered 'too late'. as it were.#and it's not a good tendency and i'm aware of that and keep a lid on it #it's just very. like. it's very *something* to spend two years in a situation that everyone acknowledges sucks #and it's only after you hit a breaking point and go 'well maybe i should just leave. like maybe i don't have to finish grad school'#and start like actually making preparations to do so #for people to start going 'well we finally have work we need you for. here's what you need to graduate.'#'we can probably get this done in a little over a year'#and i know the right thing to do is figure out what i want and accept the help #and---frankly---probably tough it out and finish grad school #but my goodness i just want to shout and burn bridges #like. 'it's not good to linger too long in grad school' no fucking shit my guy. why haven't you done something about this before.#why hasn't *anyone* done something about this?#newsflash! i needed support and direction *the whole time*! and you all knew it and did nothing!#anyway this is very unprofessional of me and not doing any good. help is help and it's better now than never i guess.#i'm just very upset and it has nowhere to go

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samcat18 · 2 months ago

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By entirely my own fault and doing, i am deliriously tired today, which really reduces my chances of going to nerd night tonight -- we'll see how the day goes and if i get a second wind at all!!

#about the samcat #whine whine complain complain #sleep #stayed up too late finishing the mismag ep and dicking around on my phone #woke up at 5:30 with a scene idea i had to jot down and then opened an old fic and read that until my work alarm went off #so less than 6 hrs of sleep??#it felt like grad school days this morning with the tiredness and the autumn chill in the air

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herbofgraceandpeace · 2 months ago

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#Worked too hard and now I never want to work again #lol not quite #I was doing grad school stuff in a long stretch cause I was having a good time #And at some point I stopped having a good time but kept going #And now I’m overwhelmed emotionally and feeling anxious and avoidant #And that’s on why you should go to bed and not stay up to late boys #time to quiet my soul like a weaned child with its mother as the psalm says

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crowleyanthonys · 4 months ago

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#i'm at a coffee shop working and i just want to cry #do you ever realize too late that you made a project 10000% more harder and stressful than it needed to be??#why did i choose this for my project??#why did i decide to do a comparative study??#no one has talked about magazine no. 1 in this level of detail before #no one has done a historical analysis on its content and contextualized it before...why didn't i just leave it to that??#why did i decide to compare it to other magazines???#it's been making my project 10x more harder trying to compare the two when i think there really isn't any reason to...#can i just start over???#grad school tag #i should delete this post lol

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okayto · 5 months ago

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I have six--SIX!!!--show reviews to write. But every time I sit down to work on them (six!!!!) I forget everything. Why is it so hard to put words in an interesting order when saying "its fun pls watch."

#no stinkers lately (well there was one but I quit and won't write about it) so you'd think it would be easy!!!#(The stinker can go into its own draft of micro-reviews and when I have a couple others in a year-ish they can get micro-reviewed together)#also like 3 game reviews; same problem #maybe if I just go reread a bunch of stuff in my reviews tag I'll remember how to make the words go #(maybe the problem is too much grad school writing. I just realized.)#Kayt.txt

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bonyassfish · 5 months ago

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This prof wants us to use generative ai (because for some fucking reason they all have a hard on for it???)) and I am refusing. Just straight up. I basically wrote that I’m perfectly fine with a lower score on this assignment if it means I’m not wasting water so you can pat yourself on the back for being up to the latest technology you prick

#this course makes me wanna die I should have never taken it #part of the issue is that it’s a full semesters worth of work being shoved into like two months #not enough time to do all of this #and it’s too late for me to drop it #grad school woes

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coffeebanana · 2 years ago

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i have such a weird difficulty balancing real life productivity and creative productivity. like when if i'm having a day where i'm getting lots of things done irl, even if i block out 30m to write and i have the time, i'll be too tired or uninspired to get myself to do it. i'm basically overwhelmed by the concept of doing Real Life Things and Writing Things in one day i almost need to carve out entire days for writing if i want to really get any done. and kjfdnkj that then keeps me from getting life things done because i get into a writing cycle and i can't get myself to stop neglecting real life until i finish the chapter/oneshot/draft/etc... i'm working on. which can take days. and then it's harder to motivate myself to get back to the Real Life Things

#kayla rambles #this was definitely...a big factor in my not being successful in grad school #though not the only one because i also could not bring myself to care about the research. and...other things regarding my supervisor #but lately i HAVE been caring about life things!#i'm taking care of my space and myself better again which has been a problem these past years #and i'm okay mostly if that means less writing time #but i know soon enough i'll be back working again and it'll get even harder to find writing time #ironically i'll be motivated to do more life things probably #but kjdbfsfkd i want to find a way to be creative too #and i DO think i'm getting better at balancing the two but aaaah it's an eternal struggle #today was suppose to be a writing focused day #but because i put too many other things on my to do list it overwhelmed me and i was like nah #but if it's a life productive day with NO writing i could have even more things on my to do list and be absolutely fine #it's so weird kajfbgkfdjf

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sourkitsch · 6 months ago

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UArts Philly and PAFA are both closing this year what is in the water…

#I can only hope this isn’t indicative of a larger trend #if so I’m glad I got my bfa before it’s too late #my mom and my friend both texted me about it while I was at work and I’m just now reading articles about it #pafa was on my grad school list :(

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army-of-bee-assassins · 1 year ago

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71 year old trans woman being referred to my school's clinic for gender-affirming voice my beloved 🥰

#it is never too late!!#j.txt #here is that grad school tag

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oh-such-rhetoric · 8 months ago

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Being an English Lit graduate student at a progressive university, steeped in philosophy and specializing in dystopian literature, and then taking a Book Publishing class be like:

The rise, fall and rise again of the popularity of ebooks is really just a small battle in the neverending war raging between practicality and aesthetics that underlies every purchase and every marketing decision in this dystopian, late-stage capitalist hellscape. In this essay I wil

#ebooks #grad school #having an existential crisis #late stage capitalism #in this essay i will #in this economy?#ive read too much Marx for this shit #books and reading #books #portland oregon

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